#I’m not gone just in school

[kierancaz]

I read one to many fanfics and, guys, I think i accidently became a Theodore Nott girl I’m so sorry

#I can’t I’m sorry but he makes up a majority of the slytherin x reader tag #and also the fics are just really really good #I’m still a Harry girl at heart tho !!!! he is my number one and he always will be !!!! #but lawd…. Theo…. damn. #I was actually in the slytherin x reader tag bc I was looking for Matteo fics but they’re so few and far between ??? #even Draco fics are mostly missing like I’ve been scrolling for a while and I only saw ONE ??? #which is literally wild to me #it’s lowkey funny how my hyperfixations have gone from one magic school to another back to back #Harry Potter #slytherin #slytherin x reader #theodore nott #matteo riddle #draco malfoy #theodore nott x reader #harry potter fic #harry potter fics #harry potter fanfiction #slytherin boys

[simgerale]

me after attempting to get back into sims and realizing i had a lot more to do than play the game

#hi everyone #I’m going around hugging you all #okay now that we are gathered here today #i will simply acknowledge that i have been gone for a very long time and then also acknowledge that maybe it was for the best #i relied on sims to be my only creative activity even if i tried to write a book at the same time #and also. i prioritized sims over real life responsibilities. that’s just a deadly combination lol #but I recently noticed I just replaced sims with Netflix. with YouTube. with anything that gave me quick dopamine #literally became addicted in a sense. still am but I’ve been cut cold turkey from most everything #I get off work and go. okay I’ve done the dishes and the laundry……..I could read or write or bake…. #I try to write and sometimes i get a good hour #then I read for a few hours and then get tired of it #and I made cookies Tuesday so I’m waiting for those to be gone before baking again #I’m just so pitiful that I feel BORED and don’t know what to do #so I said….. okay what if I do sims for an hour. #I downloaded some new cc Tuesday and tried to play yesterday #y’all ……………….. I can’t find the energy anymore to set up elaborate scenes and pose my sims and plan posts #I said wow… this is boring without my intervention and fake story #I said wow…….. all this for what? for tumblr? yes I created cool things and provided joy. but is that inherintly important compared to my #own joy? my own everyday activities I should be doing? #y’all I do not leave the house unless we got out to eat or shop or travel to our parents #.. I have little desire to. I’m trying to find that desire #but my husband is busy with grad school and work and I don’t want to do anything by myself #I’ve found myself in one heck of a slump #I didn’t want to be human for awhile. just had no desires no interests no ambitions #I was slacking off SO HARD at work. I just had no drive to do well #I’m still working on it. I’m still trying to get caught up. I’m still trying to force myself to move every day. #but I am struggling y’all. and I can tell you that sims… sims isn’t helping rn but I want it to so bad. I want to get back into it #I didn’t mean to disappear on everyone. I got married and then life got busy and then I fell into this hole of nothing #I didn’t even WANT to crawl my way out. but my husband has helped a lot. I feel like such a child!!!! #I reached max tags. 🙃 bye love you all. till next time

[chrollohearttags]

said I was going to sleep and instead, I’m thinking of whorish ace + eren fics

#cherry chats 🍒 #release me god #whatever chokehold these two have on me #release it right now #hear me out though #those slutty firefighter calendars but with ace and y/n #and he gets jealous bc everybody’s got eyes on his rookie and yeah—y’all see where I’m going with this #and mr jaeger….honey #in lieu of reverb making its return #y’all know ej is too and I can’t stop picturing he and y/N’s first time performing together #the tension between them and it leading to THEE most filthiest smut you’ve ever seen #the soft fluff reader crowd just gone have to cry abt these two bc my mind is made up idc #I know I’ve been MIA but school + work sucks #but I’m working my way back

[heroesriseandfall]

For all Bruce’s flaws, in the comics it took him about 2 seconds to realize something was up with Tim’s parents. You could say this is part of Bruce’s parenting that is slightly better in canon than fanon, but it’s also maybe just because 13 year old Tim in comics didn’t have as much brain-to-mouth filter as fanon Tim seems to, so he told on his parents as soon as Bruce & Alfred asked about them. There is no dodging questions to keep his parents out of trouble, he just says concerning stuff and expects no one to do anything about it I guess.

#Alfred + Bruce: so where are your parents? have you talked to them? — Tim: oh no they’re usually gone because they’re fighting a lot #they don’t even call me they just send postcards to me while I’m at boarding school. why do you ask #Alfred & Bruce (thinking): well this explains why this 13 year old was able to run around New York & Gotham without his parents worrying #tim drake #bruce wayne #also maybe it’s just me but it kinda felt like maybe bruce wasn’t just suspicious bc of their parenting #did he also think their business stuff was concerning? or was it just the emotional abuse/neglect he was suspicious about? #they don’t specifically say. Bruce just says Tim’s parents seem fishy. personally I think it may be a mix of both? with the neglect foremost #the problem is we’ll never know because marv wolfman never got to follow through on that investigation before Alan Grant killed off Janet #i am SO curious what Wolfman’s initial ideas were for the drakes but I’ve never been able to find something with him talking about it #batfam #bonds: someone alone like me #janet drake #jack drake #drake parenting #bat parenting #heroesriseandfall #dc

[clambuoyance]

I’ve never been so obsessed with a character so bad that I literally can’t do anything else I’m like the squidward meme watching SpongeBob frolic outside the window stretching a hand out to all the pretty paintings and animations and comics I see in my head but being unable to feel any motivation for it . If only i could use the energy spent to create 20 kon doodles to sit down and concentrate on a single finished full piece I used to be able to make like 5 page comics what happened to me

#sighs yes before anyone says anything IK it’s probably adhd related 😭 #BUT ITS GOTTEN SO BAD I CAN FEEL THE DIFFERENCE IN MY BRAIN HOW DID IT GET WORSE #it’s probably a mix of burnout too but I don’t get tired of drawing ? #it feels like when u get dizzy or change glasses or so #and it’s either everything is wayyy too in focus and you can see literally everything clearly that it hurts ur brain #which doesn’t help given how saturated w information the world is always #and simultaneously somehow everything is blurry or out of focus and I physically have to strain myself to hone in on one thing #I JUST WANNA READ COMICS AND FINISH A DRAWING AND HANDLE WORK AND SCHOOL AND TALK TO MY FRIENDS #ALL IN OME DAY #BUT MY BRAIN IS LIKE. TODAY IS ONLY FOR COMICS. YOU CANT DO ANYTHING ESLE #😫🫶 I’m deleting this later I’m just ranting LMAO #I’m highschool it’s crazy bc I did okay and then honestly i just think my ability to concentrate has deteriorated as the years have gone by #free me!!! #either way I want to lessen my social media and just pick One bc girl I have an Instagram a tumblr and a twitter this is horrible for me . #honestly I’ll probably pick instagram and just post on tumblr when I have art #I already do that #I mean when I have Good art. #IM RAMBLING IDK

[luvbinnies]

Does anyone know ever after high??

#I’m just curious cuz I feel like no one watched it but me #BUT THERE HAD TO HE SOMEONE #also like instead of studying writing or making the next smau chapter I ummmmmmmmmm #have an idea… but that won’t happen for MONTHS #cuz the amount of ideas I have #it’s ok one by one I’ll get through it #I legit have a note book with all my delusional ideas #and then my notes app 💀 #I legit got good notes to write my school notes cuz everytime I open the notes app on there’s some fic idea #the amount of notes I have 😭 #I started this blog like two ish months ago and I’ve gone wild with my ideas lol

[thxnks4themrms]

Guys maybe sometimes there’s things we shouldn’t post on our snap stories 😇

#sigh #please don’t post a pic of your soaked bed and then a video of you drying it with a blow dryer #I’m just gonna say it #kai #nobody needed to know you squirted on your bed #I’m sorry #I had to say it #there’s things to keep to yourself #scary thing is I actually know her irl and we’re neighbors and I’ve gone to school with her and her siblings and her little brother and my #<- little brother are best friends….

[coolfijiwater]

i think saltburn is kind of just midsummer night’s dream, but as a tragedy. or at the very least a tragic pastoral. like, oliver enters the saltburn (the forest), chaos and change ensues, but things don’t go back to normal. they never can, things are disjointed and fractured to later fall apart even more with the catton family’s deaths. but i don’t think the carton’s are the victims, i think every character is a bad person. so besides everyone dies at the end, i don’t know if there’s anything else that qualifies it as a tragedy. so i might come back to this

#i’ve been thinking of saltburn a lot lately and i’m high so #also i just saw someone say that oliver decided to do what he did after pamela’s death #but that’s just #wrong?? #like #oliver noticed felix day one when at school? #the plan might have gone back even farther!! #saltburn spoilers #saltburn #puck posting

[tarotfiend]

not phil uploading a video the day before one of the hardest days of my life

#my best friend is graduating #i’m happy for her #i’m just really sad i don’t get to see her everyday now #still got one more year of high school left #she isn’t even gone and i already miss her #amazing phil #phil lester #dan and phil

[reamed]

ya know what I’m deciding not to give a shit if my job doesn’t like me missing work bcuz I’m in agonizing pain

#txt #it is what it is #fuck it we ball #like idk what else to do #and it really erks me that my boss thinks she has the right to tell me I need to go to the doctor #because bitch I’ve been all my life I’ve been misdiagnosed with stomach viruses utis and it’s never that #I’m not risking being misdiagnosed again. I’m waiting for my gyno appointment bcuz it has fucking everything to do with my period/reproduct #REPRODUCTIVE ORGANS #like hire more people if it’s such a loss when I’m gone ?????? #don’t fucking text me telling me that “As a mom I’d tell my kid to go to the doctor😇 as if my parents aren’t fully aware of the pain I’m in #and have been fully aware since I was 10 years old #I know what’s going on bitch I don’t need to waste money at a walk in clinic for them to tell me I have a uti or my stomach is just hurting #u think jus fucking about with this shit. no I plan for this every month. usually it’s not terrible. this month has been hell #there’s nothing I can do to avoid it. I take meds and they barely do anything #i deserve to rest bcuz I’ve been busting my ass this year and last through this pain #i can afford to miss a few days off work. sorry yall can’t #I’m sorry for ranting this had jus been an issue my whole life. they used to grill me as a kid at school for missing #and it reminds me of that so much and it makes me feel like a child again #being told It’s JuSt period CrAmpS just TakE medicine #meanwhile I’m literally puking from pain #meanwhile my insides feel like they are blistering and on fire and my lower body is being yanked to the floor #ok sowwy I’m gonna go cry about it now

[adrift-in-thyme]

AAAAUUUUGGHHH

#it’s one of those days #…again #I think I’m still feeling the effects of this weekend #it was A LOT and I shoved it down more than anything #having a loved one basically minimize everything you’ve gone through #and chastise you for acting like your life is worse than anyone else’s when you’re JUST VENTING #is never a good time #and kinda stays with ya I’m realizing #wheeee #and school’s always a lot #nothing like diving into a mass of humanity #and overthinking every freaking conversation #I kinda have someone to talk to now?? #but this guy’s giving me very mixed signals #idk if he wants to be friends or not #wouldn’t a friend like…text you after they ask for your discord?? #eh #at least he’s not a creep #I’ve had too many experiences with those #vent #trin rambles #anyway #I’m gonna go take all this out on warriors

[jackienautism]

trying so hard to cope rn🙏

#mine #text #my thoughts #vents #do you ever just #do you #do you ever . just . #d. do you #do youuuu #yeah #do you ever feel like you could totally erase yourself from a (social) situation and literally nothing would change? #that your presence wouldn’t even be missed? that no one would know that you were gone? #i’m just ……… #idk man #not feeling it rn LOL #i just want to go home #i feel like so shit having to be on my phone rn but it’s just #idk #these get togethers alwyas remind me of how socially inept i am and how much of a failure i am #like yeah who the fuck cares abt the person who doesn’t go to school doesn’t drive doesn’t have anything going for them #man. whatever #i hate it #i love being here but these gatherings take a wicked toll on me #it just reminds me of terrible i am at interaction and handling group settings #of how* #i just want to me w/ my brother and mom is that too much to ask #i’m uncomfortable and not my ‘true’ self in every other situation #tired!!!!!

[recklessandyoung]

Fuck this I’m going back to school tomorrow (it’s my new school) I’m terrified the horrors oh my god what do I do

#i’m excited because it’s the first time i’ve gone to a school that’s actually accepting of who i am #neurodiverse autistic queer and a poc #but it’s scary #i just need to remember #i can do this #*sighs shakily* #may’s musings

[steviescrystals]

i seriously need to get a new job and start making money again asap bc i cannot keep living at home much longer it’s driving me insane

(wrote an entire essay in the tags without meaning to oops)

#i feel so isolated from everything bc i’m not in school rn but all my friends are and 90% of the ones who are in state go to the same school #so they’re all in the same town and here i am 45 minutes away #i never get invited to anything bc 1) my friends all tend to make plans really last minute #and 2) if we want to go out and drink - which we usually do bc that’s the stage of life we’re in rn - i’d have to stay the night with #someone bc i absolutely cannot afford a 45 minute uber home and most of my friends don’t like staying over / having people stay over #so i have basically no social life and it’s only gotten worse in the past couple months since i got laid off from my main job #not only did i love that job but i loved my coworkers and work was pretty much the only time i left the house and interacted with people #and without that job i can’t even do the little solo things i used to do to cheer myself up like go see a movie #or even just go for a long drive bc i’m broke (as in i have $17 in cash to my name and am like $1000 in debt rn) #so all i do is rot in bed all day and apply for jobs that i’m overqualified for yet still don’t get hired #i barely even leave my room bc i avoid my family which just makes me feel guilty bc i love my family #but they get on my nerves so easily and most of the conversations i have with my mom end in her lecturing me about something and me crying #and on top of everything it’s just straight up embarrassing to be unemployed and completely directionless about college and living at home #logically i know i’m still very young and it’s common to live at home when you’re 20 but literally none of my friends do #i had a couple friends who lived at home for the first 2 years after high school and went to community college but by now they’ve moved out #and they’re all at universities and either graduating this year or next year meanwhile the earliest i could possibly graduate is in 2 years #i should be finishing my junior year rn but i’ve only completed my freshman year #i hated the school i was at and planned on transferring sophomore year but long story short that didn’t work out #even longer story short i ended up doing a semester each at 2 different community colleges and failed all my classes both times #and took 2 semesters off so now i’m a full 2 years behind and even though my freshman year was miserable #i’m starting to wish i stayed at that school anyway bc at least i would be at a university and accomplishing something #plus theres a huge difference between staying at home for a couple years after high school then moving out later #vs living on your own right away then having to move back home after you’ve already experienced having your own space #and on top of everything i have an older sister who’s a literal genius and graduated last year #and a younger sister who just finished her freshman year at the school i hated but she loves it and got perfect grades and made friends #so they’re both thriving and here i am living with my mom and my 13 year old brother and just completely failing at everything #i’m just so miserable and obviously moving out again and going back to school wouldn’t magically fix everything #but at least i would feel like my life was going somewhere and i wasn’t getting left behind by everyone i know #i just have no idea how to move forward and i feel like ever since high school not a single thing has gone the way i wanted it to #vent

[goldkirk]

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#okay things have gone wrong at most turns today #and my sister shared a video on her story where the op is claiming to save children from #children and infants I mean #from organ harvesting AND ‘satanic witch doctor rituality’ AND pedophilia/etc. #over in west Africa and I’m like. there’s so much wrong with this I don’t know where to start #and it’s so conspiracy heavy and unsourced #and my sister shared this TODAY #and she had been quieter about conspiracies lately #but today she announced where the oldest two are going for school/brainwashing this year #and shared this #and I hoped that the conspiracy she told all of us when I was in town #about the potatoes and food #was the extent of it now maybe #but it isn’t #and I’m sad and miss my sister #I feel like I lost her in 2006 #she was like my second mom. she changed and she’s never been the same #anyway #our lease expires and I don’t have access to sign it bc it just isn’t showing up #and my car needs to be junked so I don’t pay the parking anymore #bc I can’t afford it and also the car won’t start #and I’m not getting a new battery or anything bc I don’t drive now I use transit #but they couldn’t come till two weeks from now #and so I went to a different service but I haven’t heard back from scheduling yet #and I just got a bug assigned to me at work #and my body has been panicking for a lot of yesterday and today #the lease and parking stuff won’t be addressed till Sunday #bc that’s when the office people told me to come back when xyz person is back in the office #it’s all going to be okay in the end but heavens. heavens #shh katie

[delisocks]

it’s crazy how seven days can be like two minutes or a million years

#everything’s gone so fast all year and now we literally have a week left of school and i feel like i’m being dragged thru mud #finals is probably a part of this but like uuuugh. can it just be over already #gonna do my studying for tonight and then we relax babey :) alaska sillies on the sims as promised #my friends and i are going to see a movie friday so i have that to look forward to at least #i can do this. we can do this. it will be okay #delitalks