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jackienautism · 2 hours

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jackienautism · 2 hours

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Okay fuck it yeah I'm making the post idc abt backlash. First of all the hidden agenda fandom doesn't exist anymore so whos even gonna have an issue. But if you do feel called out um. Maybe thats ur problem idk bc I'm not aiming at anyone in particular here.

Anyway long ass ramble abt the tiny dead Hidden Agenda fandom below the cut

This is mainly something I noticed looking through the very limited amount of Hidden Agenda fics on ao3, but it's VERY obvious on there. The vast majority of fics on there are centered on Adam and Finn, which I can understand more since they have an interesting backstory and are well written characters, sure. But then you look at the others and the other characters that are centered are... Riggs and Calvary?

In the actual game ofc Becky and Felicity are the main characters. Both of them not only are pretty objectively interesting characters on their own, and even more so together. On top of this they have the most shipping potential of any two characters in that game, it's literally basically canon, it's not even subtext atp it's literally just text. NO other two characters have that amount of chemistry in the game, and yet there is a noticeable lack of gravey fics in that tag. And I'll stress again bc I know how defensive people got last time I made this kind of observation, I'm not pointing fingers or calling anyone misogynistic/racist/homophobic BUT. but. When the two mcs are women, one of which is poc, and they're implied to be lesbians, and they get sidelined by the fandom despite being the focuses of the game... it's kinda hard not to assume there's some kind of bias there.

And on another point, it's similar when it comes to supporting characters too. In a way I'm disappointed but absolutely not surprised that Adam/Finn is prioritized in fan works over Becky/Felicity, but when characters like Riggs and Calvary are also given more attention than them it becomes way more suspicious to me. Riggs is a fine character, I like him enough and I can see why others might like him more, but wbk he doesn't really have all that much relevance. Calvary is even more confusing bc he basically JUST exists to be a creepy misogynistic asshole and as unlikeable as possible. Thankfully I haven't seen him getting a lot of attention but the fact that I've seen him getting any that isn't entirely negative is... hm...

Now there ARE in fact male characters that can be both relevant and likeable: Tom and Karl. (I talk shit abt Karl bc it's a joke I started with friends, I'm gonna drop that for this post obv bc we're being fr here) these two are pretty obviously more relevant than Riggs or Calvary, they're literally Becky's partners (Tom can even replace Riggs' entire role lmao, and if he's replaced himself it's by Karl) and I'd say they're also both likeable characters on their own too. And yet I'm pretty sure I found maybe one??? fic with them in it? Probably should have mentioned this earlier but yeah, they're both poc.

So like... I feel like it all comes down to what Becky/Felicity/Tom/Karl have in common and then what Adam/Finn/Riggs/Calvary have in common. It strikes me as questionable. But like maybe I'm just an annoying snowflake though idk🤷‍♀️ /s

This turned into more of a ramble than anything and I'm aware i'm also yelling into a void bc I'm posting entirely for a dead fandom that barely existed to begin with, but tbh this stuff applies to most if not all larger fandoms as well, i'm just looking at it from what I've seen in the remnants of the HA fandom. Again I am not attacking anyone here, I am making observations. If you're like mad or something I'm just gonna assume you didn't even read the whole post. Yes ur allowed to like characters, but I am also allowed to address what I've noticed about what characters seem to be more liked than others.

#rbs #text #HA #REAAAAAL #SO REAL #you’re so nice for not like. blatantly saying that this fandom / fandom in general is misogynistic/racist/homophobic #bc. i’m sorry. but based on the trends. you have every right to say so😭#in fact #i ENCOURAGE you to say it #but yeah this is great and i agree w/ everything #i haven’t played hidden agenda yet ofc but 👍#thank u for being it’s pioneer

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jackienautism · 3 hours

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the urge to disappear vs the desire to be wanted and accompanied

#rbs #text #about

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#rbs #screenshots #erin keenan #TDIM #THIS ESIT IS GENUINELY SO CUTE #EDIT #I LOVE IT

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jackienautism · 8 hours

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People are getting really really fascist about peaceful protesters and it’s getting scary lol

#rbs #text

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jackienautism · 8 hours

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Now I remember how everyone flipped out on me last time I made a post like that but I feel like at some point I'm gonna need to call out the rather obvious sidelining of female/poc characters throughout what little HA fandom content there is

#rbs #text #HA #please do #youve def mentioned it here and there before but #an 'official' post wouldnt hurt #unless youre afraid of getting backlash again #which i totally understand why you wouldnt want to do it in that case #regardless. do whatever you feel is best!#i have yet to play hidden agenda but based on what youve talked abt on here... yeah. yikes

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jackienautism · 9 hours

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average showtunes fan

#rbs #art #misty quigley #YJ #insp #oh this is SOOOO COOL #SOO GOOD #THE STYLE YOU WENT W/ IS PHENOMENAL #SO EPIC AND DRAMATIC #and how you drew her like… silhouette #?#sooooo cool

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jackienautism · 9 hours

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slightly late to the party buuuuut happy lesbian visibility week<333

#rbs #misc #kirby #me irl

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jackienautism · 10 hours

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you're a angel , i'm a dog

#rbs #art #laura lee #lottie matthews #YJ #insp #im your man comes in clutch once again!#SO GOOD #OUGH THE COLORING AND SHADING HERE. SOOOO GOOD #esp the darkness sort of like… engulfing lottie…. love it #and how her eye is the main thing visible. sooooo good #BITES THIS

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I think I might need a “what if the plane didn’t crash” episode

#rbs #screenshots #misc #YJ #):#the tweet in general sort of makes me rly sad actually

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jackienautism · 10 hours

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All done

#rbs #art #natalie scatorccio #YJ #insp #WHEEEEE #OHHH THIS IS SOOO GOOD #I ESP LOVE THE COLORING AND SHINE SOOOOO MUCH #BITES IT #and ofc… your linework… and how you draw bodies and Faces in general…. soo god

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jackienautism · 10 hours

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[to the beat of "he would not fucking say that"] she would not fucking wear makeup

#mine #text #my thoughts #hsa someone already done this? idk

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jackienautism · 10 hours

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saw someone call re3make jill valentine a brat and i havent been the same since

(rant under cut. was just gonna rant in the tags but i reached the limit LOL)

take everything i say w/ a grain of salt. since i havent played the og re3 nemesis or re5 andits been a while since i played the remake. i just finished playing re1 though

ANYWHO. this person basically said smth along the lines of. old game jill was noble and kind yet still human. while remake jill ws just a bitter bitch w/ a shit personality. [jill voice] ARE YOU KIDDING ME? ARE YOU /FUCKING/ KIDDING ME?

LIKE. i dont know what goddamn gamesw e played but jill in re1? her personalitu is nonexistent!!!!! maybe its the misogynistic tendencies of the game maybe its the subpar voice acting and writing thats throwing me off BUT. i reaaaaaally dont think there's anything special that stands out abt re1 jill

i get theyre probably just bitter over them remaking a beloved old game or w=fuucking whatever but GOD@!!!!!!! sorry tht jill was rightfully being a little bitter bitch towards a group thats been making her life hell for th past who knows how many months! ILIKE. jill didnt watch almost all her friends and colleagues DIE and get betrayed TWICE in re1 JUST to act friendly towards anything associated with umbrella. yeah ofc barry def made up for it after doing what he did w/ wesker but GOD tyou think jill is going to easily trust anyone aftee that whole debacle? ESPECIALLY it being between 2 STARS members? aka people she THOUGHT she could trust without any afterthoughts? NO!

hr acting like an asshole makes sense for the trauma she experienced in re1 AND what she went through prior to re3! umbrella has purpoisely been making her paranoid due to the information she has and investgations shes been conducting iirc…. and they even make a whole ass bioweapon to track her down and kill her LOL I DONT THINK SHES GONNA BE VERY FRIENDLY WITH UBCS….. LIKE BE FOR REAL DOG an d also carlos' unnecessary dcomments and advances towards jill that she made VERY CLEAR were unwanted and uncomfortable? she has every right to be mean and retaliate

like. i think jill had every right to be a 'bitter brat' towards these people LMAO and even despite ALL THAT.... sjhe STILL decides to stick with the group and work with them…. because why? THE SAKE OF THE TRUTH GETTING OTU IS AT STAKEq!!!!!!!! at this point. jill def couldnt give LESS of a shit abt her own life. hell. look at how shes been living for the past few months! what matters is the whistle FINALLY getting blown on umbrella.... adn thats what she displays by working with UBCS! aka a group she has ZERO trust in! she shows how much she CARES..... albeit in the mosr destructive way but. this talk about lack of nobility and sense of justice is such bullshit LOL

and the funny thing is? SBE WAS RIGHT TO NOT TRUST THEM..... THEIOR MISSION WAS TO KILL DR BARD AKA THE ONLY PERSON IIRC WHO HAD AN ANTIDOTE TO THE VIRUS..... jill jhas MORE than enough reason to act wikth abhorrence when it comes to UBCS, so yeah, MAYBE its a bit frustrating rto wtahc the way she acts but FUCK does it make SOO MUCH SENSE.... she didnt go through + hasnt been going throughALL THAT just to be brushed off as unreasonably bitter

like yeah thr whole kindness thing was thrown out the window but sometimes.... that's what happens when you're put through a bunch of garbage out of your control...... it HARDENS you it WEARS YOU DOWN....... and jill experiencing this pipeline fits w/ all the bullshit she lived through

and just saying but it would’ve been Looooooads better and funnier if jill remained a little bitch for the entirety of the game. like. it’s just ? more in character for her, esp for what little character / context we’re given at the VERY beginning. her remaining snarky and shit would’ve made more sense… especially considering her situation AND how we’re meant to perceive her… she doesn’t seem like someone who’d just throw away her initial (CORRECT, BTW) opinion / instinct all because of one (1) save from some dude… it just doesn’t make sense

any normal human being would’ve acted the way jill did towards them?????? like? especially after reading about and only IMAGINING the intense and awful shit she must’ve been subjected to both while in and out of stars. i’m SORRY but one gesture (even if it WERE saving her life) from some random guy i just met isn’t going to magically erase all the trauma i faced from umbrella themselves???? like UGH god fucking hell. i understand that you can only make something such as a video game so long or so short but come ON man!!!!!! if you SERIOUSLY want to include this sort of development in a game like resident evil, ever heard of this thing called good pacing? FNSHCJSKKFS like??????? even within game this all would have occurred under 24 maybe even under 12 hours???????? it’s just. in no way in under ANY circumstances is this sort of change of opinion realistic! esp not for jill and what she’s had to go through! like [jill voice] BITCH your corporate overlords have been making my life HELL for the past who knows how long! i may be fine with Carlos the Person, but i am NOT fine with Carlos in UBCS. and until that title is separated from your name, i will Not be associating with you outside of this mission!

like it makes sense that jill would so quickly comply bc 1. her life is in danger and sticking w these guys may increase her survival thus getting the truth That Much Closer to exposure and 2. her cooperation may help tons of lives… and of course she’s not going to turn away from saving others. soooo. and just to clarify, jill’s own life is obv the LEAST of her concerns here. like. the only reason why she’d prob want to stay alive is bc. she has all this dirt on umbrella! dirt that NEEDS to reach the light of day! that’s prob one of the ONLY reasons why she hasn’t given up completely, the information that ONLY she has and so it HAS to make it to the people!!!!! if it’s Huge and Important enough for umbrella to create a whole ass fucking buffed BIOWEAPON bitch to hunt down the remaining stars members? yeah. i have a feeling it’s incredibly important for the world to know

and just. in a writing sense? i think it would’ve been much more entertaining if jill kept that act up until like idk they realized that hm. i don’t think i wanna be associated w these bitches (umbrella) anymore. regardless, on the other hand, i still can def see jill’s demeanor softening as the game progresses (esp after she bonds w the people themselves and NOT the platoon members. and after they help each other out) but like overall? i just. i can’t see her letting her guard down that easily! it just isn’t fucking right! or realistic! it’s a bunch of bullshit actually!

AND ITS ONLY WITH THE GIRLS TOO..... GIRLS CAN NOT ACT IN RESPONSE TO THEIR LIFE AND BRAIN ALTERING TRAUMA WKITHOUT BEING DEEMED AS ABUSIVE OR BITTER OR A BITCH..... THE SAME FUCKING THIGN HAPPENED TO THE FANDOM'S PERCEPTION OF MIA IN RE8 LMAO......

i WANT more girls to be bitter! to be upset! to be assholes! to be nasty! to be little shits! whether justified or not! i WANT more girls to be different from the cookie cutter safe depictions everyone EXPECTS a women to be! and don't get me wrong resident evil is FAR from accomplishing this goal LMAO i just believe jill is and COULDVE been such a great example

this went all over the place (i copy and pasted another note of mine discussing the topic while also adding new thoughts) but in conclusion: let jill valentine be a little bitch. there's nothing wrong w/ her being a little bitch. i ENCOURAGE her to be a little bitch. it makes sense for her character and what she's gone through, and while criticizing her demeanor is valid, taking her behavior out of (very much needed) context isn't ok or right. and sayinf that she lost all her nobility and sense of justice is just straight up wrong. jill did everything she did in the re3make BECAUSE she cared more for the lives of others, her own personal feelings clearly meant nothing, seeing how she still helped UBCS out despite her inital harsh reaction to them.

#srb #i still stand by all of this #all the resident evil girls deserve better im so serious

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hopefully you don’t mind me adding a bit but i’m SO glad that you curated responses to these replies bc i was gonna rb and add in the tags how lowkey fucking stupid they are lmao

when i first played RE1, it was SO CLEAR to me how different they portrayed jill and chris. like? even in the first cinematic iirc? the moment something Bad happens to their group, she immediately freezes up, and then someone else (a guy) has to come save her. which like. fair. it’s a fair response to violence, but as you said in your rebuttals, she’s supposed to be EXPERIENCED by this point. this isn’t her first experience w/ this stuff. if i’m wrong, then i’m wrong, i can’t rly remember the lore too well for the first game atm

and another point in the game that rly stuck out to me? that time where the zombie pops out of the bathtub? the way the game portrays jill vs chris’ reactions is so just…. it’s so aggravating. i GET it’s meant to introduce the head crushing mechanic, but jill falling on her ass vs chris being able to stand his ground? happening not once but TWICE? i can’t remember the exact other point it happens but i remember those 2 cutscenes sticking out to me the most. forgive me if i’m remembering things wrong, it’s been a bit since i played re1. and you sort of already mentioned it in your rb but i just wanted to get it down specifically bc those scenes have ALWAYS bothered me lol

in a way, it’s NICE to see jill react realistically to this strange situation. but at the same time, and knowing what capcom probably DID want, boiled down it’s just sexism. how come the girl is the only one to act unprofessionally? to act naive and new to the position she’s been in for years at this point? as you said, she was the best at what she did…. for her to act so… New is just. it’s blatant what capcom was trying to imply lmao

the misogyny capcom perpetuates is just. it’s literally SO right in your face. esp if you have a brain

so yeah, sorry for expanding a bit more, but op you’re right to say that the way re1 jill was treated was influenced by sexism

and real quick, but to go off a bit more of the re3r thing? i’ve seen ppl be upset over jill being a “brat” towards carlos and the UBCS and overall, as you also mentioned, being more angry and standing her ground more. i made a whole rant abt it so i’m not gonna go on and on again but. jill was literally betrayed by TWO ppl she thought she could trust in re1. and ofc the whole umbrella situation makes jill Be Wary of ANYTHING related to it. so why are ppl upset that jill is reacting understandably to the UBCS? and being snippy and “bitchy,” when characters, such as leon, is literally adored and praised for being the same way?

anyway, sorry for going off, but you’re right abt everything you’ve said

I hate when people criticise the newer jill (remake jill) because it's just dudebros who are annoyed that she has agency now. they want re1 jill who was really stupid, naive, and behaved like a child instead of a full grown military woman because innocent childlike female character with boobs = hot. let jill have her agency. let her say fuck. let her be the one to take wesker down in re5 instead of sitting back letting chris do everything. don't be cowards.