#I’m done existing

[noknowshame]

why is religious Christmas imagery all so joyful and pleasant? where is the inherent horror of the birth of Christ? A mother is handed her newborn child, wailing and innocent. Her hands come away sticky. Red. Simply by giving her son life she has already killed him. He is doomed from the beginning. Her love will not save him from suffering. Because the thing cradled in her arms is not a baby, it is a sacrifice: born amongst the other bleating animals whose blood will one day be spilled in the name of what demands it. the night is silent with anticipation. Mary, did you know? That your womb was also a grave?

#instant conversation enders for my multiple youth pastor cousins #don’t say it (I’m gonna say it) #The Child is The Price #but i mean come on #as someone who isn't actually even christian the real-life historical version of this is still cursed as fuck #i mean we know that jesus was a person who existed. whatever circumstances he was born in #its terrifyingly ominous to imagine being so unaware of the affect your child will have on the future of humanity #time itself will one day be counted around your birth of him #and all because he will suffer an excruciatingly painful death that you will not be able to prevent #not only that. but regardless of his or your intentions #regardless of whether there is a god #for millenea unfathomable millions will have blood spilled and will spill blood in his name #atrocities will be committed that you cannot even conceive of #and all on his and your behalf #you love your child. its beautiful. but there's horror in what you've done. because everyone else will love him too #and what's more dangerous than that?

[huniebuun]

Lucifer: Soooo, what’s Alastor’s type?

Angel: Blond, short, oblivious, likes ducks.

Lucifer: Kinda sounds like me. Too bad we hate each other.

Angel: Did I mention oblivious?

Lucifer: Yeah, why?

Angel: *mentally celebrating the bet he’s going to win* Just making sure.

#hazbin hotel #lucifer hazbin hotel #lucifier morningstar #incorrect quotes #radioapple #these are fun to do when I don’t have time to write or draw #this could have already been done #I have no idea #I’m just existing in my corner

[sheepie-self-ships]

GOD I AM A SUCKER FOR THOSE TIKTOKS,

IMAGINE your F/O’s reaction when you’re still dating, and you call them your husband/wife/spouse 😭 imagine how giggly they might get, or how they only want to be called that the rest of the day, or if they’re more serious how they ask that you “address them as such moving forward”,

or mAYBE they stop you in your tracks. “Not yet, give me juuust a moment” and they get up just to go plan the wedding THAT VERY MOMENT-

#the I’m not ur husband guy does not exist in this scenario because your f/os love you very much 🫶 #I’m surprised if no one has done this yet #selfship #selfshipping #self ship #self shipping #selfship imagine #selfship imagines #self ship imagine #self ship community #selfship community #selfshipping community #self shipping community #f/o x oc #f/o x self insert #f/o x s/i #f/o x you #imagine your self ship #imagine your romantic f/o #imagine your f/o

[rottengurlz]

oc introductions

#THIS TOOK SO LONG but i love them all soo much SMOOCHES THEM #almost everyone is unrecognizable besides enzo and audrina #and Julian #i barely touched audrina she was perfect to begin with <33 #we will act like noelle existed before this.......... #named her after my gf <3 #BURSTING AT RHE SEEMS I WISH U GUYS COULD SEE THE LITTLE BLURBS IVE WRITTEN ABOUT THEM #i have 3 of them done and I’m doing Audra’s rn #I still need to decide on her origin #hmmmmmm #ANYWAYS I HOPE U ALL LOVE THEM #mysims #simblr #the sims 4 #ts4 #sims 4 edit #ts4 edit

[fucklife101]

I really can’t do this anymore. I have no one. I have nothing. There’s no one who cares about me, no one who wants to see or talk to me. I’m so fucking alone and I can’t take it. It hurts too much. I’ve given everything and I can’t give anymore. I’m done.

#mentally exhausted #i dont want to be here #im losing hope #tw depressing stuff #i’m so alone #self h@rm #mental health relapse #i hate my existence #anxi4ty #deppresing quotes #i’m falling apart #i’m done

[stuckinapril]

OK I’ve been having bicurious thoughts and tumblr has to know first

#DONT LOOK AT ME #dint go into my inbox and ask me I’m confused too #I’m still identifying as straight bc for my 21 years of existence it’s been guys for the most part #But there’s this nice girl ik and she’s so sweet and pretty and I’ve been so done w men #AGAIN do not needle me about this im confused too OK #And don’t be mad at me if it ends up that I’m just straight I have never guessed I might be bi OK. W this girl it’s different #Like I’m actually into you???? You’re so sweet & so beautiful?? I love spending time w u????? #and ik she’s also bi so I would not have my heart crushed if she was like Umm I’m not into girls #p

[thethoriumreactor]

gerudo link my beloved 😌🙏

Found this finished lineart from 9 months ago that I never colored in and figured. I’m on a roll in terms of artistic productivity, so why not?

(if the art style of the lineart seems a bit different, that’s why. It’s just rlly old)

#“So how gay r u” “yes” #I mean can u blame me when crossdressed link exists #Haven’t done the gerudo yet in totk but apparently this outfit is gone??? I’m heartbroken #Should I work on other stuff I abandoned? #Idk we’ll see #I got a whole bunch so the possibilities are endless as long as I’m motivated #legend of zelda #zelda fanart #zelda totk #the legend of zelda #tloz #tears of the kingdom #breath of the wild #botw #loz botw #botw link #zelda botw #botw fanart #link #loz link #loz fanart #loz totk #loz #gerudo #totk #totk link #Hate the way I did the abs don’t look at them #gerudo link #thorium.art

[happy-little-doorbell]

hm… no I don’t think Gertrude was feeling cold and uncaring when she sacrificed Michael. I don’t think she just dusted her hands off and walked away. I think she was used to risky plans and close calls, even used to an occasional casualty, but her blood ran cold when she realized she was choosing to send one to their death. not collateral damage — a sacrifice.

and I think she tried to be as numb as possible, calculating, deciding, even as she knew deep down that only one of her assistants would walk straight into hell on her word.

and I think she found him a bit annoying before that. the jaded resent the naive — it isn’t fair, but it’s true. but by the time he brought her tea the next day, in her mind, he was already dead. everyone looks better dead. optimism, trust, loyalty all become virtues where they were once liabilities.

I don’t think she didn’t feel the gravity of her choice. I think she did it anyway.

and she did not hesitate.

#the concept of necessary sacrifice makes me a little bite bite scratch bite #how do you choose one person to die for the safety of the world? #but that’s not the right question #how do you *not* make that choice? how do you let the world die? #be hated and reviled by everyone for your betrayal #but they wouldn’t be around to hate you if you hadn’t done it #augh #and yes I know it wasn’t technically necessary thank u mag 160 you sick bastard #but at the time she wouldn’t have known that #yes I’m a Michael stan and a Gertrude apologist. we exist. #fuck it maintagging #tma #michael distortion #michael shelley #gertrude robinson

[kingofanemptyworld]

hey you know what would be fun? a fic where the Royal Guard follows through with their plans to make Ichigo the new Soul King and Grimmjow promptly loses his shit because what the actual fuck Ichigo has already given these people literally everything, twice, and this is how they repay him? recruits Nel and Harribel and Urahara and Yoruichi (after Nel sits on him for a while because Jesus Christ Grimmjow you can’t storm Soul Society by yourself no matter how much you’ve powered up) and it’s the Ryoka Invasion all over again except with pissed off arrancar instead. I just think it would be neat

#king’s court #bleach #grimmichi #orihime and Chad are also there #Ishida is questionable considering the timeline and his feelings about soul society in general #I just have this perfect image in my head of Grimmjow finding out and just going to town on the shinigami over it #like ‘no one in all three fucking worlds deserves that self righteous asshole martyr #but he chooses all over you. over and over again. and for what? how many fucking times have you abandoned him? #my plans haven’t changed I’m gonna tear his throat out with my teeth #but I can’t fucking do that if he’s locked away like some fucked up fairytale princess now can I?’ #Nel in the background laughing to herself because wow grimmjow nice save there definitely no one suspects you’re soft for Ichigo #other shinigami come around to help but grimmjow trusts zero of them besides Urahara and Yoruichi so. toss up if he lets them do anything #anything important anyway #okay I’m done #I haven’t read CFYOW btw I just know this is a thing that’s talked about in it #also I know a fic like this exists for ichiruki but I’m deep into my grimmichi era so

[emry-stars-art]

Whumptober day 10: branding/scarring/collar (full under the cut - I might say this one’s slightly more intense)

Did I mention this prompt list fits our Evemore Kingdom needs like almost too well? :,)

Find the royal au masterpost here

(Hey does anyone have any comfort/fluff drawing ideas I can pick from TT)

#this one was rough #I think I’m gonna draw some comfort and fluff tomorrow #I guess when you see this it will be today #since I knocked two of these out in one night #soon I won’t be able to work on them so I’m trying to get them done #but I’d like some comfort now I think #also ignore that everything about the brand is incorrect #too small wrong writing system etc #I’ll deal with it later #anyway #fan art #my art #aftg #all for the game #neil josten #royal au #how do I tag this without jumpscaring innocent like marketing people #do those even exist on tumblr #whatever I’m tagging #branding #whumptober #emry whumptober 2023

[cowardlykrow]

I just needed to say: I LOVE YOUR ART SM

It's great and I am obsessed--!

THANK YOU SO MUCH OTL

My gut tells me you would appreciate this scribble 💚

#promise I’m not trying to buy compliments with art LOLOL #it’s actually my distraction technique so u don’t realize how bad I am at taking compliments #//krow scribbles #and also #I usually only add scribbles when I like a concept and wanna share it even tho it’s not even close to being done haha #so it’s like a distraction and an excuse #also I see a lot of people headcannon wiggly as the eldest brother but to me he is second to last #I have no reason for that #it just feels correct #(even tho they are eldritch beings and probably came into existence all simultaneously but I digress) #edit: no ive decided he is the baby brother

[hannahhasafact]

When I say I ship Laois and Kabru I need you to understand this is how I am imagining it

Obviously inspired by this panel from Hark! A Vagrant:

#ramblings #of course this isn’t going on my art blog it’s a ridiculous doodle #delicious in dungeon #dungeon Meshi #I’m sure this has been done before but I haven’t seen it so I needed it to exist #I need to mess around with my brushes more to figure out that ink brush watercolor type vibe lol

[nat-without-a-g]

Haha, thinking about why Lark hates Henry again

#dndads #dungeons and daddies #dndads spoilers #lark oak #Henry oak #em I know you’re not there yet don’t read the tags 🔫 #does lark even know why he hates his father so much? #when Henry met dood did he consider asking for a favor? #I’m in shambles #this is probably the only time every that a character hating someone has ever left me in shambles like this #nothing can be done to even repair it #and sparrow is over here essentially cosplaying their father and THATS fine #at least to lark #it’s just Henry’s EXISTENCE that’s the problem #and no talking or understanding or curse breaking or magical intervention can fix it #I’ve been circling in my head Henry possibly turning down a solution to keep lark’s autonomy #but really lark hasnt had any autonomy in his relationship with his father since he was a child #and he doesn’t even KNOW

[fucklife101]

I don’t even recognise me anymore.

#mentally exhausted #i dont want to be here #im losing hope #tw depressing stuff #i’m so alone #self h@rm #mental health relapse #i hate my existence #anxi4ty #deppresing quotes #depressing shit #i’m not mentally well #i’m falling apart #fuck this #i’m done

[stuckinapril]

reminding myself on this busy morning that i also have dreams of taking piano lessons & singing lessons & also honing my writing skills & absorbing as many books as i used to when i was a kid & at the very least taking up cute tennis dates & dabbling into art & just becoming an artistic generalist. also reminding myself that there are pre-meds out there who managed to pursue something they’re passionate in (some are even professional athletes) & still excelled in medicine & if they can do it so can I

#Delusional? Maybe a little bit but this is what i wanna do w my life and I don’t wanna choose one or the other #If I drop science/medicine I feel empty #If I don’t have my creative outlets I feel empty #My existence is a symbiotic meeting of these two facets #It’s possible bc other ppl have done it but I just need to achieve godly levels of time budgeting and drive basically #I was raised on the belief that if you want something badly enough you’ll make it happen!! So that is what I’m going 2 do #I mean when I make it to residency the 80 hr work weeks probably won’t allow for much lol BUT #I don’t like the popular opinion that med school doesn’t allow time for anything else. #So many med students have said that u have plenty of time & that it will be a period of self discovery exploration etc #Idk we’ll see. But!! I intend on making this work. #p

[quibbs126]

So I made a second licofait kid, Licorice Syrup

I’m gonna be honest, I kind of forgot that she’s not just me making a second licofait kid and is instead Red Licorice’s replacement, but whatever. She does still replace Red Licorice I guess

So basically, Licorice Syrup here is a magician who uses sing based magic. I’m not entirely sure what her actual magic is, whether it’s necromancy or something different. I just knew how she’d use her magic and thought I’d figure it out along the way

Personality wise she reminds me of Trixie from MLP. She’s kind of a showboat and she acts incredibly confident. However her insecure side shows with enough pressure on her, and she’s not that much different from her dad in that sense

In my head, if she had a human name it’d be like, Sirena. Which I did pull from Venture Bros and I know isn’t a real name, but her powers remind me of sirens so I thought it fit. I suppose Serena works just as well, with it being like “serenade”

Also with the thing about sirens, I imagine her to be dating a mermaid, since I feel like that fits. Not sure how it happened but she is. Her girlfriend’s probably not another fankid, but rather someone else entirely

…*sigh* I’m sorry, this isn’t that good. Admittedly, she’s kind of been a thing I do in spare time over different intervals, and most of that time was yesterday when I was waiting for the volunteer event to start and waiting in line to pick up our stuff, so I wasn’t 100% focused on her. And so she’s a bit lacking in areas. This will also be relevant in the design section

Anyways, so her name comes from black licorice syrup. Which admittedly I wasn’t entirely sure was a thing but apparently it is. I came up with the name because licorice, and because Parfait has syrup in her pop star look (even if it’s not in her natural look), and ice cream (and I think parfaits) can have syrup in them

Originally her name was Black Syrup, which on one hand I still kind of like, but on the other, I realized after finishing her that I had recently come up with a new character called Dark Syrup, and the names are really similar so I changed her to Licorice Syrup since that’s still what she is

But yeah anyways, this is a picture of licorice syrup I found online

So I originally drew her in a rough sketch, just doing her hair, but as I recall the hair color itself didn’t look right, so I scrapped her at the time to come back to another day, which I eventually did. All I could really remember about what I wanted is that she’d have a similar color scheme to Licorice

Admittedly her final design may be a bit too plain. I tried to mitigate that with the light blue at the bottoms and with the skull pin, but she still might look too plain. But ah well

Speaking of the pin, I put that there to spruce up her head a bit, but then I forgot that she wears a hood, so I don’t really know how it works

I’m also not sure how I ended up with blue as her accent/secondary color, but I did. I guess it works with sirens and mermaids? It’s also why I made her eyes blue. I color picked them from Parfait’s pop star look, even though I know those are colored contacts, because they were nice and bright

I do wonder if I should have made her eyes a different color though, so that they can be an extra pop of color

Her hair was originally going to be all black, but I wanted to spruce it up a bit by having the ends white. The idea is that her hair is yogurt covered in licorice syrup. One of the main things I tried to do with Licorice Syrup even just starting out was that I wanted her hair and hair color to make sense, instead of just going from black to white for no particular reason like with Red Licorice, and I like to think I accomplished that

Overall while I recognize she may not be the best, I do still think overall I like what I did, and I hope you guys like her too

#I haven’t done much art since like last week #I need to do more of that #anyways now I’m thinking of giving her a sea based costume #and her with her gf #whom I don’t even have a name for she just kind of exists #cookie run #cookie run kingdom #licorice cookie #parfait cookie #licofait #fankid #fanchild #licorice syrup cookie #my ocs #my art