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ava-kedavra · 2 years

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Breaking the News

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Reader

Summary: When an investor drops out, Steve and Tony don’t wanna break the news to Bucky. Who better to call than you? We love CEO!Bucky don’t we?

Words: 2266

Warning: Uhhh pure filth, it came to me in a dream. Don’t read unless you’re 18+ friends. Includes CEO!Bucky, kinky shit, and some sexy shit.

You were sitting at the kitchen island drinking your morning coffee when you got the text.

Bucky’s in a bad mood. Big investor pulled out today but he doesn't know it yet. Any chance you could stop in?

You snort into your coffee as you read Tony’s text. Of course he wants you to break the news to your boyfriend so he doesn’t get the heat of it.

I’ll be in within the hour. You owe me.

You quickly shoot back, when in reality it was almost like a treat to you. You didn’t know exactly why James was in a bad mood, but you had a feeling it was due to this morning.

James turned the shower off and grabbed a towel from the rack. He combed back his hair in the mirror, but caught the site of you in bed in his peripheral vision.

Your hair covered your face smushed into the pillow as you laid on your stomach. You were in nothing but a pair of panties and one of James’s old shirts. Your legs were spread enough that the shirt had ridden up and James could see your covered pussy.

He turned away from the mirror and leaned back on the sink, slowly feeling himself harden at the memories you had made between the sheets just hours prior.

You looked delectable and James wanted something sweet for breakfast.

He slowly stalked over, throwing the towel on the floor as he made his way back into bed. He hovered above you as he moved your hair to the side and began kissing your shoulders.

His lips ghosted down farther until he was kissing your hip. You barely stirred as he spread your legs further apart. He looked up to see your face furrowed, but eyes still closed as he moved your panties to the side.

He gently grabbed a handful of your ass as he kissed your pearl. You jerked away with a whine and tried to close your legs. He grabbed your hips as you pushed your face further into the pillow.

“James,” you breath, “no, I’m too sore baby.”

He massages your hip as he lays down next to you, so his lips ghost over yours. He quickly pecks them.

“But I wanna eat that pretty pussy of yours,” he says in your ear and pinches your hip.

“I’m so tired,” you thread your fingers through his hair, “I just want cuddles.”

He sighs contently as you grab his hair sleepily, and before he knows it you’re back to dreaming. He slowly moves your hand from his head and climbs back out of bed, but not before kissing your cheek.

You’re quick to throw on a cute mini dress complemented with swarovski crystals and your favorite pair of Louboutins.

There’s already a black Audi waiting for you outside that you assume Tony sent. You hop in and scroll through your phone as the driver speeds through the city.

You smile at Gina the receptionist when you walk in and head straight for the elevator. You hit the top floor and tap your foot as it slowly ascends.

When you get to the top floor you take a detour and go into Tony’s office to find him and Steve at his desk.

“Hi boys,” you say sweetly as they lift their tumblers to you.

“Here it is,” Tony hands you a manilla folder and you take it from him.

“How bad is it?” You ask, flipping through the folder.

“I’m not in the mood to lose my job,” Steve says over his glass before taking a drink.

You lightly laugh, “maybe clear the floor?”

“We could use an early lunch anyways,” Tony shrugs and winks. Steve's face is red as he tosses back the rest of his drink.

“I’ll see you two around,” you tell them before you’re heading down the hall.

You stop at the receptionist desk in front of your lovers’ office.

“Hey Peter,” you smile, “Is James available?”

“Yeah he uh wrapped up the last meeting early,” he says meekly. You know that's the code word for ‘he kicked them out with excessive swearing’.

“Clear his schedule for the next hour, will you?” You ask and he nods, “And take a coffee break.”

He nods quickly and moves towards the elevator. You wait for the ding telling you he’s gone before opening Bucky’s door.

You don’t even knock and Bucky doesn’t look up.

“Rogers if you try and yell at me for that meeting-” He stops his thought as he finally looks up to see you smiling at him.

“Hi baby,” you purr as you slowly walk around his desk, holding the folder behind your back.

“Doll, what are you doing here?” He pulls his chair away from the desk and grabs your hips so you’re sitting on the desk in front of him.

“I just wanted to pop in and say hi,” you say sweetly as you set the folder down amongst his papers and loop your arms around his neck.

“Come ‘ere,” his Brooklyn accent thick with lust as he sets you in his lap.

You spread your legs so his thighs are between yours. He keeps his hold on your hips as his mouth connects with yours. You sigh into his mouth as your fingers trail into his hair.

He feels up your dress casually and grabs at your chest. You’re panting as he continues feeling up your body, grinding down to create some kind of friction between your legs.

You begin kissing down his neck and grabbing at his shirt when he groans out, “what did I do to deserve this?”

You look up from unbuttoning his shirt, “I missed you,” you say innocently before he’s grabbing your hips and pushing you down hard on his bulge.

You try and wriggle your hips but he doesn’t let up, leaving your hands still as you pant hotly in his neck.

He lifts you with ease onto the desk at the end. He gently pushes aside the photo of you before humping into your core making you moan out loud at the feeling.

“Why are you here?” You run your hands down his back and grab at his ass, trying to push him into you again but he just tuts at you.

You like up at him through your eyelashes, “I just said I missed you.”

You keep eye contact as you lightly trail your hand over his bulge and he shuts his eyes for a moment before looking down at you again.

It was the ‘I know you’re lying and I’m gonna punish you for it’ look that had a new wave of arousal pool in your panties.

“You know,” he starts as he swats your hand away and lays you back on his desk, “I don’t believe you.”

You frown at him as you try to take his shirt off. He grabs both of your hands easily with one and pins them above your head, slamming them against the table.

“Bucky,” you lick your lips without realizing, “please just fuck me baby.”

“You’d want that, wouldn’t you?” He says, letting go of your hands but you don’t dare to move them.

Such a good girl, he thinks to himself.

You nod vigorously.

“Use your words darlin’” he grabs your hips and slides you to the edge of the desk roughly, moving the papers along with you.

“Yes I would,” you say.

He’s hovering over your body so his face is nearly in the crook of your neck. He slowly pushes your dress up before biting at your ear.

“Yes,” he bites right below your ear, “I would,” bites your neck, “what?” His nose pokes at your cheek as his left arm trails up your body.

“Yes I wo-“ you gasp as his hand grips around your neck, but he tilts his head waiting for you to continue.

“I would s-sir,” you stutter out as he lightly squeezes your neck.

“Good girl,” he cooes as he lifts his head up to tower over you.

You look gorgeous with his hand around your neck and lips puffy from the intense makeout session you just had. But James’ eye quickly noticed something new on his desk. You see his eyesight move to where the folder had peaked out from under your back and you try to grab his attention by pulling the straps of your dress down.

His eyes flick your boobs, and his mouth opens into a groan before he licks your nipple in a circular motion. You arch your back as he leaves a teasing bite to the hardening nub. His hand moves from your throat to your other breast, making sure each gets equal attention.

He’s groping your chest and your hands are grabbing at his hair to keep him in your chest as you shift your back to hide the folder. You hope it plays off as you trying to push your chest in his face to try and get more attention, but you know it doesn’t work.

He moves his hands back down to your hips and gives them a squeeze, “what’s in the folder baby girl?” His mouth is on your neck, giving light bites and kisses to soothe the slight pain.

You groan out and he chuckles deeply. He lifts his head to see you shutting your eyes with a grimace as he snakes his hand under your back to grab the folder.

He can already guess it’s nothing good given you’re trying to pull it away from him and sit up on the desk.

“How about you fuck me against your windows and then you can look?” You say sickly sweet despite the filthy words coming out of your mouth.

He tilts his head at you as you bite your lip. Your eyes travel down to his prominent boner in his dress pants and you begin undoing his belt. He doesn’t stop you as you slowly unzip his pants.

You’re about to reach your hand into his boxers to finally feel him when he surprises you by grabbing your hips and sitting you back on his lap in his desk chair.

You moan out at the feeling of his bulge more prominently out and hard against your core.

You grind against him and he throws his head back against the desk chair. You take the opportunity to attack his neck with bites and kisses, grabbing his arms for leverage.

He still has the folder just barely in his right hand, his left hand on your hip pushing you down on his dick.

“I have a better idea,” he says low in your ear. You’re still trying to get friction from his dick, but he easily stops your hips and you whine against his neck.

“How about you sit on my dick while I read this, and if you’re good you’ll get to cum,” His left hand is moving down to your dress, slowly pulling it up over your hips.

“Got it darling?” He asks as he pulls your panties to the side.

“Yes sir.” It’s more of a moan than anything as his finger lightly brushes your pearl. You trail your hands down to his boxers, the fabric stretched from his shaft straining against the material.

You raise your head from his neck to look him in the eyes. He gives you a nod and you take it as a cue to release him from his boxers. He lifts his hips as you pull the material down, finally freeing his package.

Spit gathers in your mouth as you eye his hardened dick out, the tip angrily red. He continues to rub at your clit, gathering the moisture from your hole on his finger.

His hand on your hip tightens as he pushes you up slightly, so you’re hovering over his lap, you move your hands to his shoulders. Not breaking eye contact with you, he slowly inserts his middle finger in your hole, making you gasp out at the feeling.

“You’re dripping on my palm doll,” he whispers cockily.

He’s right, you are.

He adds his ring finger and you sigh at the feeling of him slowly fingering you. It’s driving you crazy the way he’s moving his hand languidly up and down.

You trail one of your hands down to grip his member, hot against your fist and leaking heavily from the tip.

You don’t know how long you stay like that, staring into each other's eyes as you pleasure the other. It’s intimate and heavy as you start to try and grind down on his fingers.

The slow pace he set is excruciating, it feels good but you want more.

And that’s exactly what you tell him.

“Please sir,” you beg, “I want you to fuck me.”

He stops completely, fingers deep in your cunt, nearly making you sob out.

He sets the folder down on the desk behind you before gripping your jaw harshly in his palm.

“I need to make sure you’re ready for me baby,” he says seriously.

“I am,” you assure him eagerly, squeezing his dick hard in your hand.

He shuts his eyes at the feeling, “I don’t think,” he grunts when you cup his balls, opening his eyes to look into yours, “you deserve it.”

“James,” you say exasperated, “please let me sit on your dick.”

“I don’t know honey,” he’s dragging it out as he upcups your jaw, moving his hand down to your breasts.

“Please,” you gasp as he flicks your nipple.

“Hm” he hums against your chest, “you sure?”

part two coming soon!

hope you’re all well. I’ve been holding onto this for a while oops.

#marvel fic #bucky x y/n #bucky barnes x you #bucky barnes fluff #bucky barnes #bucky barnes smut #CEO!Bucky #Don!Bucky

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shkika · 11 months

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the protests of pebbles' construction and the shoreline echo saying that there were revolutions over the iterators obviously shows that their constructions were far from unanimous affairs

but it also leads me to have a personal hc/theory that the gravel eating monks were not the ones to build the iterators

i mean think about it, the ancients knew that being too attached to the mortal coil is what caused echoes, so why would the monks want to build the iterators? they already believed in that before the discovery of void fluid, nothing changed for them.

so i think the iterators came from those who didnt want to put in the effort and just wanted an easy way out

and in the end the monks were right, the iterators were pointless, the ancients ascended through the void anyway, but those who wanted to enjoy the world were left with no alternative as the surface was turned into a hellscape.

funny thing is that if they spent all the time they used to build the iterators and instead used it to detaching from reality they would probably have ascended much sooner.

ANON CAN WE KISS

OOOO I LOOOVE YOU!!!

ohhhh yeaaahhhh. I love how we are also made to believe from the start the world sucks and ascension is the only way. But?? Really?? That’s what the ancients believe. The iterators follow through, because their purpoise is to find a solution to the great problem, they aren’t really allowed to experience life. Or given much of a choice?

Moon herself confirms that the void fluid was risky apparently. So they wanted a safer easier way out. But they didn’t even wait for it. The ancients didn’t NEED the iterators to ascend they never did. The iterators were there, because they wanted a safer way without doing WORK!! Vile.

Not to mention. Not every ancient could probably afford to live on an iterator. Or wanted to abandon their home yes! And the rain made it impossible to live decently. No wonder the ones stuck on the surface have so much negative grafiti art of those funky robots. They make life hell! Imagine eventually the rain doubling with Pebbles! SHEESH

Also I bet they were mainly the work force who were given all the jobs those above the cloud layer didn’t.. want to do lmao.

This worldview. That being part of the cycles can be good and maybe the ancients should work on bettering what they ruined, instead of running away. THIS is something I’ve been DYING to explore with a character. And uh…

I will with Chasing Wind actually! Hopefully she gets her turn to shine on this blog. MWUAH anon thank you thank you for this ask I’ve re-read it a few time I love it <3

#oohhhhughhhhh my lore nerd is happy #mwuah wonderful #I didnt fact check the gravel eating monks period but i just woke up so i will later #ask #anonymous #chasing and grey have been the death of me #i cant wait to explore them #but i need to do things one at a time!#kiki rambles #also the shoreline echo spites them iirc #because #their entire life the spent building those stupid gods #to free them #and look at them #stuck #hehe

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saras-devotionals · 3 days

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Quiet Time 4/23

What am I feeling today?

Honestly, I feel guilty for not posting my quiet times lately. I’ve been learning some incredible things and it’s selfish to keep it to myself and also not useful to me if I don’t have it written down anywhere because then I forget! Also, I’m feeling overwhelmed, it’s my last week of the semester and I’m worried about school, the fashion show, and women’s day at my church because they’re all happening within this next week and it’s just a lot on my plate because I want to be able to achieve it all to the best of my ability.

The Prideful Soul’s Guide to Humility

Reality Will Not Change

Man will never succeed in his effort to pull himself up to the level of God, and he certainly will never be in a position where he will be able to look down on God. Cocky, arrogant man may make disparaging comments about God. He may ridicule God. He may prance and strut around as though he is more clever than God. He may boast that he does not need God. He may live as though he is "the master of his fate and the captain of his soul." But one day he will stand in the presence of the righteous and holy God, and he will tremble as he realizes that he was never greater than God. It was all an absurd, fool-hearted and deadly game of pretending. Isaiah describes such a man

Isaiah 14:12-17 NIV

“How you have fallen from heaven, morning star, son of the dawn! You have been cast down to the earth, you who once laid low the nations! You said in your heart, “I will ascend to the heavens; I will raise my throne above the stars of God; I will sit enthroned on the mount of assembly, on the utmost heights of Mount Zaphon. I will ascend above the tops of the clouds; I will make myself like the Most High.” But you are brought down to the realm of the dead, to the depths of the pit. Those who see you stare at you, they ponder your fate: “Is this the man who shook the earth and made kingdoms tremble, the man who made the world a wilderness, who overthrew its cities and would not let his captives go home?””

This ruler that Isaiah is describing once exercised authority over many. So expansive was his power that he fantasized that he could make himself like the Most High. But his glory was short-lived, and he ended up just like the other men in the shame of the grave.

So it will be with every pride. ful soul that does not bow in humility before the God who made him. Nothing man can do will change reality. He is not God. He will never be God. As long as he ignores that truth, his life will be headed for a disastrous conclusion. For God opposes the proud.

James 4:6 NIV

“But he gives us more grace. That is why Scripture says: “God opposes the proud but shows favor to the humble.””

1 Peter 5:5 NIV

“In the same way, you who are younger, submit yourselves to your elders. All of you, clothe yourselves with humility toward one another, because, “God opposes the proud but shows favor to the humble.””

The Truth Sets You Free

Jesus taught, "You shall know the truth and the truth will set you free." Even those who do not acknowledge Jesus as the Christ agree that this is the highest kind of wisdom. Universities place this saying over their doors. Scientists are fiercely committed to finding the truth. Whenever you ask for guidance or counsel, you want to get it from someone who is fully in touch with the truth.

When you make decisions on the most important issues in your life, you need to be in touch with the most central truths of life. The most important truth any of us can ever know is that there is a God, but we are not him. Any confusion about either one of those things gets us into big trouble. There is a great and powerful God who wants a relationship with us and who will use his amazing power to bless our lives, but we are the creatures and he is the Creator. Everything we have, we have from his hand. Have you done some great things? Have you received some recognition for accomplishments? If so, you did those things with the mind and strength God gave you. Without him you would be nothing.

As Paul said to the proud Athenians: “He himself gives all men life and breath and everything else” (Acts 17:25)

The basis for humility, then, is quite simple. Humility is the only thing that makes sense because of how eternal and unchanging and powerful God is and how fading and precarious and dependent we are. Nothing you do in your life will ever change that. People are sometimes humble until they enjoy some great success. What fools we can be! A little success, achieved by the grace of God, does not change the nature of reality. It does not change who you are and who God is.

To live in accordance with the truth, we all need to practice the presence of God. We need to live all the time just as if we were standing in the presence of someone very important because we are. Think of some recent prideful thing you did. Would you have done that if you had been aware that you were standing in the very presence of the holy, righteous and almighty God? Would you have treated your friend the way you did? Would you have treated your spouse the way you did? Would you have taken the credit that you took? Would you have been defensive when corrected?

This is such a good reminder for me because sometimes I don’t think about the fact that everything I do is in the presence of God. I can go about my day ignoring Him sometimes or thinking He’s not around to see certain things but that so blind and ignorant! He’s literally watching me right now and every moment of my life! I need to go about the days of my life acknowledging Him because He’s everywhere!

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ja3gerb0mbb · 6 months

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bloodsucker chapter 6: family ties

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word count: 2.2k

content warnings: descriptions of blood and feeding

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eren’s pov:

i ascended the basement stairs with urgency, rubbing the temple on the right side of my head. the blood awakened my hunger; i have to get out of here.

i barely registered the cold air wrapping about my body. barely registered jean calling after me. the world went numb around me; blurry vision, muffled hearing. my nose fed me my surroundings; desperately trying to find more blood. and it did.

whipping my body around, i spot jean, “dude what the fuck!” his shout drags my other senses back to the surface. my fill wasn’t met, but i could focus again. my attention didn’t stay on him for long; choosing to focus on the ring coming from my phone. the number calling had no contact, but i knew who it was. fuck me. i groaned at the call, shutting my eyes to try and escape reality. another ping forced my eyes to open.

562-xxx-xxxx:

shiganshina. now.

“-ou even listening?” looking back up at jean, he’s even more frustrated than before. he walked a few paces closer, but he was smart enough to keep his distance. “no,” i deadpan, “but i have to go. now,” i tried to explain the urgency with my tone but his expression showed he didn’t understand. jean never did.

“you can’t seriously be leaving again,” jean chastised me. i didn’t know what to say to him. even in the dark; his furious demeanor burned. his fists clenched. hard. i could hear the rub of his skin from my place on the gravel pathway. “what’s the point of coming back,” he had a harder time disguising the hurt. his tone wavered, and and his face twisted in anguish. his features contorted together, teeth baring.

“it’s zeke” his eyes blew wide at the mention of his name. i could see the past reflecting within them. memories flash across my own mind. it would forever be the first memory i think of when his name echos in my skull. i hated it. “i can’t ignore him. you know better than anyone,” i didn’t want to bring it up. i really didn’t, but jean just had to let me go.

he shook his head, “i can’t believe this is happening again.” his hands raised, beginning to cover his ears. his features held agony; everything scrunched up and furrowed. i walked the distance between us, “jean,” i said, lightly removing his hands. “it won’t be long. last time was different,” i tried to hide the shiver that came down my spine at the thought.

i held my hand out; palm open. jean didn’t hesitate to grip it, pulling me in for a half hug. “better not be,” he scoffed; bravado returning to his tone. i knew my absence hurt him the worst out of everyone. i could say it over and over, but he wouldn’t understand how little choice i have in everything. he was still missing most of the pieces. “just-” i sighed, lightly shaking my head, “tell mikasa and armin not to worry. i can’t leave them hanging. not again,” it was my turn to clench my fists at the reminder of the memory.

‘armin and mikasa really hurt when you weren’t here,’ her voice taunted me inside my head; reverberating through my skull. my hand lifted to my temples, trying to massage it out.

“everyone else?” jean asked; but her name hung in the air. “they’ll be fine,” my voice pulled with tension. “say i went to refill our alc supply,” and with that i turned, not bearing to look at jean anymore. why’d he always have to make leaving so hard? dumbass.

i knew it wasn’t jean’s fault. i wouldn’t have to leave again if i just stayed in shiganshina. i shouldn’t have come back, that was the truth. my absence would be easier for everyone to deal with if it was permanent. y/n above everyone. she had no clue how long i’ve stayed away; i should’ve kept trying. i believed i could live like i had before; but i was wrong. every day i seemed to slip further and further away from the reality of my life. in my time at jean’s lakehouse, i seemed to forget it intrely. what i am.

it made me weak. being around my friends again; around her, it drew out everything i had been trying to spuress for the past year. and i was about to pay the price for it. i shouldn’t have even gone back. i continued to repeat it, mentally kicking myself.

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“ah, baby brother! welcome back!” zeke’s voice boomed throughout the entryway. controlling my features; i fixed any lingering emotion. setting my eyes back to the steel they were before i left for sina. i didn’t respond; i didn’t need to. zeke was the doormat to what i actually answered to. he laughed at my reaction. “well don’t you look like shit. not enough fodder at your little campus?”

his smile was wicked, teeth stained red from the fresh feed. “zelda!” he summoned. turning the corner was a blonde with her breasts exposed. the thong on her lower half barely covered her there, either. i fought the urge to look away, just play your part, and then you can leave. “come on, ere, indulge!” his eyes became slits and they darkened at the mere thought of blood.

i picked up the blade on the entryway table. the woman stalked over to me, moving her hair to expose her mangled neck. three fresh cuts line her neck. she can’t lose any more blood, i shoved the panic deep down; remaining cold on the outside, “this ones drained.”

the woman stood still before me, awaiting zeke's response. none came, he simply motioned to her neck; telling me i had no other option. him and his stupid tests. i pushed the blade into her neck, making a fourth cut. it wasn’t as deep as the others, but with how little blood she had left, it didn’t matter anyway. i sunk my mouth onto her neck, careful not to scrape my now present fangs into her flesh.

energy shot through my body as soon as the blood hit my mouth. i gripped tighter, uncontrolled in my actions. the woman responded by arching her back, moaning into me. the sound repulsed me so much i was tempted to pull away. but zeke’s impending disapproval kept my mouth trained on her neck, sucking up the little blood she had.

a few moments later, i had my fill, vision becoming clear again after raising my head up. i tossed the girl aside in a fashion zeke could only be proud of and his smile proved me right. “don’t you feel so much better?” he taunted.

i rolled my eyes to distract zeke from any composure that might’ve slipped. “dad wants to see me?” i assumed; he always does. he kept quiet, leading me away toward the office. the wooden doors opened before us, hauled by two more exposed women. i kept my eyes on grisha; not daring to look at the smashed picture of mom i knew was to my left.

“how’s school, boy,” his voice was just like zeke’s. they spoke like they had any emotions left. it’s what pulled people in, alluring them. but not me. i knew better than to fall for it; i spent an entire year learning how vicious they really were. “good,” i kept it vague.

“he’s starving over there,” zeke cut in. fucker. i kept my face still, not letting the twitch of anger anywhere near my features. grisha looked at me expectantly. “i can’t have naked women strolling around everywhere.” i phrased it more of a question, challenging their authority. my eyes were dead set on grisha. any slight waver would be a sign of weakness, prolonging my stay here. that couldn’t happen, i was determined.

grisha laughed coldly, holding my gaze, “i guess you can’t.” he sighed, loudly and dramatically. “i remember my own college days, but i was still human,” a smile tugged on his lips; i knew he was tempting a rise out of me. “it’s where i met your mother,” another sigh. don’t feed into it. dont. dont dont. dont. holding my breath, my muscles tightened with the natural instinct to fight back. they almost buckled at the mention of mom, but i was stronger than i was a year ago.

he was visibly displeased at my non-reaction. “well, that’s all! scurry back to town little vampire,” grisha’s eyes became black in hunger. one of the veins walked to him, spreading their legs to straddle him. i turned to face the door again, clenching my fist in an attempt to bury back a cringe to the word. vampire. but he didn’t say it to anger me; it was to remind me.

zeke walked close behind, as if i was on a leash. i swiftly made my way back to the entryway. about to turn the knob to freedom, zeke spoke, “maybe i’ll pay you a visit next time. such a long drive for you.” ignoring him, i didn’t even turn to look at his face. the threat hung loudly between us.

walking out, i took a deep breath of the outside air. it relinquished the thick smell of blood this house was stained with. it was still dark out. time moved differently in that house. it felt like i spent days there, but it couldn’t have been more than half an hour.

on the way to the car, my mind became clearer; remembering the life i pushed to the corners of my mind before coming here. right. what was i going to do about that? i asked myself; remembering the thick scent around y/n.

blood wasn’t all that my sense of smell was sensitive to. it was emotion. happiness, sadness, anger, it all courses through their blood. it’s difficult to pick up on; unless the feeling is strong enough. then, it radiates off that person; prickling my nose and overwhelming the temptation of blood. the scent y/n carried was full of malice. it wasn’t from her; but it was strong enough to stay on her clothes.

it faded entirely at the lakehouse. if i wasn’t certain who i had to go after before, i was now.

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looking out my apartment window, i leaned on the sill. the pink and orange clouds in the sky were turning to blue; signaling the start of a new day. my body was exhausted, despite being freshly fed. my skin and face were fuller as a result of someone else's blood flowing through my body. nasty, i cringed, thinking about it too much.

i knew there was a call i had to make. sighing, i picked up my phone to dial jean. he picked up almost immediately, just after a few rings. jean stayed silent; waiting for me to break the silene, “i’m back at my apartment.”

“tch,” i knew he was shaking his head over the phone. “i’ll come by later,” he answered my unsaid question that hung between us.

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it was evening when he arrived; still smelling like cedar wood and fire. the scent triggered memories from the days before. i yearned to go back; to live a normal life with them. but it was far from possible. i had to stop pretending i was still one of them.

jean looked around the apartment; assessing how it might’ve been different from his last visit a few weeks ago. his eyes were relieved i was actually here, but his demeanor changed quickly. he drew his features in, disappointed almost. “y/n’s her, huh” he said. he didn’t need to ask it; he already knew. i’m surprised it took him so long to figure it out.

“yeah,” i looked away from his gaze. “dumbass! why would you get involved with her!” he shouted, exuberant. but he wasn’t angry, just surprised? he shook his head at his comment.

i scoffed, “it’s hard not to when she’s cozy with you. it couldn’t be avoided.” looking back at him, his eyes had gone dark. like my comment made him feel responsible for the situation. he sighed, making his way to the couch and sitting in the same spot she had just a few days before, “i wish you told me.” he shot me a glare that scrutinized me. he was talking about more than just y/n now.

rubbing his hands against his forehead he spoke, “i think she knows something’s up. she looked like you did more than just reject her this morning.” he got back up quickly. he was too stressed to stay in one spot for too long. he carried himself over to where i was by the windows; looking out.

“figures,” i sighed, but i wasn’t surprised to hear it. the way she looked at me- she was terrified at the inhuman sight before her in that closet. just fix this one thing. and then you can cut yourself out of her life. “fuck,” i muttered under my breath.

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jase-is-ace · 1 year

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Back into the Pit

Chapter 11: A Stranger

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Audrey opened her eyes to see some posters on the wall.

She felt different.

Wrong.

She looked at her hands.

Oh God…

“What’s wrong with my hands?” she asked no one in particular.

Staring at her left hand, which was completely covered in ink, she felt her heart start to race.

“What’s wrong with my hands!?” she wheezed out.

Hands quivering as she desperately tried to figure out what was going on.

“Oh Audrey, what’s happened to you?” she once again asked only herself.

A habit of an artist who spends most of her night shifts alone. She rose to her feet, vision clearing. Now that it had, she realized that this environment was very different.

It looked like she herself were in a sketch, a part of the work of art herself.

It was unnerving, it was wrong.

The artist took everything in: A huge pool of what looked like ink and at the end of the pool, huge writings that read “Welcome home”.

Swallowing the lump in her throat she looked elsewhere, spotting a note on a nearby desk she picked it up to examine the item.

Every great story begins in mystery.

Although things may be dark at the start,

the truth will illuminate your way.

Don’t be afraid of who you are.

Fear only what you may become, and banish it away.

-Your Best Pal

Who exactly her supposed best pal was, she had not a clue. All though, standing around wasn’t going to get her any answers.

Her only option was to keep moving and hopefully, get to the bottom of whatever was going on.

She made her way over to the poster she had initially registered from when she had woken up.

The poster had Wilson’s face on it. The man who pulled her into this crazy reality it seems.

The poster seemed to propagate that Wilson was this “all knowing” being who would supposedly grant you purpose.

As she recalled, he did say something about telling Audrey her purpose. What is going on?

The sound of swelling ink, the stench of rotting wood, and the faint sobs of an inhabitant invaded all her senses as she looked for a way out of the room.

A ladder to her right that was missing two pieces. Alright, first on the agenda: Find a way out by fixing that ladder.

She returned to the desk she had found the note on and looked through the drawers.

Audrey stumbled across an old baseball that gave her a nostalgic feeling, and the two missing pieces she needed.

After securely placing them into the ladder, she ascended it and made her way deeper and deeper into the studio.

The answers she seeked would be found within.

As she walked through a hall the speakers above her head suddenly came to life, and the voice coming from the other side chilled Audrey to the bone.

“Attention! children of the Machine!”

Wilson wheezed through the speaker.

“This is Wilson. Your friend, Your protector.” He continued.

Friend? Protector?

Audrey had a very hard time believing that, it was his fault that she was even here in the first place. Some friend.

“For two hundred and eleven days, you’ve lived without the Ink Demon and Demoness haunting your steps. I banished them away. I took away their miserable existences.”

Ink demon and Demoness? Audrey recalled the poster that claimed he had killed whatever those were.

She continued to walk down the bleak hall as the man continued his senseless rant.

“In return, I ask just a little favor: Among you there is a stranger, a young lady, bring her to me.”

“Oh great.” Was all Audrey could say.

Now she was wanted. Fantastic.

The speaker seemed to turn off after that statement, leaving the young and confused lady to her own thoughts and worries.

She needed to figure out what was going on and quick.

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Chapter 10 / Chapter 12

#batim #batdr #batdr spoilers #Audrey batdr #batdr fanfiction #batim fanfiction #Audrey drew #wilson batdr #wilson arch #Back into the Pit #Jase writes a thing

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riftofthestars · 9 months

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(Trigger warnings for death, body horror, (eye) gore and nonspecific occult rituals - a TL:DR post will follow for those that do not wish to read this, in order to not spoil anything for the readers while still giving people information)

"For the record, this is self destructive," the Hunter's voice called out from the base of the stairs.

"For the record, I am aware of that" the Jailer hissed, his head turning all the way around while the rest of his body stood still. "Have you come to stop me from this attempt as well?"

"I came to help, so please don't push me away" plead the Hunter, "neither of us know what will happen if you try to summon that dying thing inside of you."

The Jailer's head snapped back so he could continue to read where he'd left off before being interrupted - blast it, he had lost the line and had to restart. As much as he wished he could simply skip through the information, he wanted to make sure there was nothing that he missed. This was of the upmost importance to get right.

"No we do not know what will happen - not while you are still here," the Jailer eventually replied, continuing to read the pages filled with occult text. "It has been done before or there would not be pages upon pages of instructions."

"Anyone can write!" the Hunter argued, desperation settling in his tone. "They might as well be made up stories or the ramblings of a man that has lost his mind. Neither have seen a being from beyond the outer worlds die, let alone interact with the Rift. You could create so much destruction and-"

"You came to stop me, not help" the Jailer interjected. "You know how much I despise lies, so next time do not pretend as if you want to do anything else." He began to pace around the dimly lit basement. "I am taking a calculated risk. Being able to skip tearing reality in order to call upon this thing should not create any discharge of energy - which would eliminate the only excuse you had to argue about your presence here being with the intent to aid me. Even if it did, I have enough people knowing about this new manor to present this as an attack of myself and move yet again. Lazarus has been sent home and there is no one present in at least half a mile."

Stepping over one of the few body bags, he began to search the literal wall of shelves for the items he would need. The Hunter was silent.

"Besides all of that, your presence alone - where is that damn chalk" he interrupted himself with a mutter "- your presence alone could influence the ritual. I have yet to learn how to adjust what is written in these books to that, but this is not an opportunity to learn." Finding both the chalk and the emergency slow burn candles, he went back in the middle of the room, waiting for the book to begin explaining the necessary steps for the ritual. "So if you do wish to help, you may do so from about half a mile away and rush in if the situation does become dire."

Without another word, the Hunter turned away and began to ascend the stairs out of the basement. The Jailer called out from downstairs when he heard the door open

"And do not place one of your 'anchors' nearby either. They may do just as much damage as your proximity to the circle."

The sound of the door shutting after the Hunter indicated that he was alone so he could focus on this. Doing it all with one hand needed his focus.

Following the instructions immortalized in ink, the Jailer began preparing the occult ritual - candles lit and light bulbs went out to only allow the light that consumes to illuminate the drawn runes. One of the body bags was wrapped in metal and dragged in the middle. With the book underneath his arm, he opened the bag to reveal a balding man with a moustache - another rune carved into the middle of the forehead after his death, barely visible between the chains that wrapped around his head.

"It looks as if you were not as clean as you proclaimed, Dave" he chuckled to himself as he stood above the body. The chains that emerged from the rune told that the soul was still entrapped within the corpse.

Flipping through the book for the requirements of blood. Nothing was mentioned about a fully intact body, nor about the requirements of a soul.

"At the very least your ghost will not be consumed by this. You got what you deserve from those dealers of yours - I have no intention in putting you through further torture." He knew he could at the very least be heard and genuinely hoped that this previous colleague of his did not retain his sense of pain

He placed the book on the wheeled tray table - and his mask next to it. Having to take his glove off by biting down on it, he placed that on the table as well.

Jailer's slim figure leaned over the corpse, his back snapping from the acute angle it'd been bent into. More chains slithered from the darkness to hold the man's head still. Once secured, the slim fingers of his claw approached the still opened eyes of the dead man.

They dug in the orbit of the skull, squishing the eyeball just enough to not pop from the pressure or tear from the sharp ends. The extra joint in his claws slowly bent, until he could feel the optical nerve at his tips - which was promptly severed; the eyeball now free.

Sharp teeth dug into the gamey, squishy eyeball much like a fork would try to impale a cheery tomato - bothersome but eventually successful as he chewed on the gory delicacy that seemed to always fill him with some manner of satisfaction and satiation as he watched the invisible chain around Dave's forehead lessen some. At least the eyes would bring this thing out.

The other eye went through the same process: being cupped by rough claws with sharp ends, having its connection to the brain cut before being chewed and swallowed. The invisible chain disappeared and the man's true last breath was released along with the soul trapped within it, left to go to whatever afterlife it would.

Rather than lick or clean the dripping blood, however, the Jailer splashed it over the chalk - the flames of the candles rose for a moment and the air became heavier with this presence that bloated the politician's chest. The being within him was already itching to get out. It would make the process easier.

Finally cleaning his claw the best he could, he put his glove back on with a mixture of wiggling of his fingers and pulling on the silk with his mouth; the extra joint in each extremity having bent into itself to hide away the pointy end and act more like normal fingers.

He would have to leave the book on the table as he continued this, fingers tracing over each word as he consumed the knowledge.

And then he began to speak as the instruction told. But it was not his voice that came out. It was the sound of stars forming, of the void collapsing, of galaxies swirling, of meat tearing, of skin breaking, of flesh dying.

Deep Speech.

The feeling from the Jailer's chest extended into his whole body, like the pressure of an internal explosion threatening to shatter the marble he was made out of into a million pieces. He held on and continued. It happened once and he survived, he knew this time it would be the same.

Forth he called this being unfitting of the term 'creature', knowing that its writhing mass would still know to crawl to whomever it called, even while forever dammed to its prison. This horrible thing, this thing that should not be - a grotesque abomination that terrorized the Jailer's thoughts for moments at a time before disappearing back as if it were not there at all - still knew to answer the voices born a mortal birth that dared speak to it.

Memories rushed in his mind, through eyes and ears and skin and mouths that were not his; memories of things experienced in ways no mortal or immortal had experienced before. The memories of this black shapeless being that could have not been created by any god in this or any other reality. Through this chaos, the last of its emotions repeated over and over, hate devolving into rage and rage into fear as it came to realize that it was dying.

Emotions the summoner knew well, but never experienced them with such intensity before. Intensity that gave him a migraine that felt as if someone was splitting his head open with an axe - he had to stop himself from instinctively reaching for his mask and put it on, grabbing onto the unstable tray that he made his way around.

As his chant continued, he pointed his half regenerated arm at the corpse, all of his attention and will attempting to focus on giving this twisted entity a direction and an order.

He had to make it listen.

He would make it listen.

By sheer luck or some semblance of sentience, this thing within the Jailer found the opening in his missing arm and darted forward. Tentacles and mouths and eyes latching themselves on the floor, dragging the him to his knees from their sheer weight alone as they devoured the soulless corpse laid for it until it was nothing.

Now on the cement, he could feel the roughness underneath him as if it were spikes piercing his legs and the cold as if he was being encased in endless ice. The candles felt as if they were burning him and his very being, blinding him with their light. The darkness from the corners enveloped every piece of him as if it was a cloak made out of the heaviest materials.

The chant continued, commanding to this thing to follow the will of its summoner

While this thing ate the Jailer gathered his strength. From within himself, he grabbed and held the invisible chains set by the Rift. Taught as they could be in this war of attrition, this war for control over the chaos, this war for order. From the unseen corners of this basement, Jailer's own chains darted out, wrapping themselves around this shapeless mass of a still living corpse, only to break and dissolve in its blackness.

Over and over, they darted out and broke and disappeared. Over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over again.

The Jailer would not stop until he would have control.

"Le aer nehel nae kar e Le kerradun"

Finally spoken within the now hoarse, exhausted and desperate voice of the Jailer, these words would subdue this entity. Yet it would still not be let go, wrapped in chains until its constant movement would submit to his will.

Breathless, senses crashed from the overload of perspectives and mind blank with the fullness of the still processing memories, the politician laid there on the ground.

Through half opened eyes, barely being able to make out shapes between blurry colours, the Jailer stared at his temporary arm: tentacles held together in chains growing from where his elbow would be, spasming out unevenly as if multiple hearts were beating at different times.

It would do for now, even if he had to hide it. This would make him less vulnerable and be his gateway towards using the powers of this eldritch being he managed to command.

But for now, this was enough.

For now, he was too tired to do anything.

#the jailer is the key: ic #the rift hunter rides: ic #Library of Eternity: Writing Work #body horror tw #tw body horror #long post #gore tw #tw gore #death tw #tw death #tw eye gore #eye gore tw

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lilflowerpot · 2 years

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Do you believe in zodiac signs? If so, what do you believe Lotor and Allura to be? Personally, I think Lotor is some variation of a Gemini :)

Hogwarts/Ilvermorny | Good/Evil & Law/Chaos | Keith’s Zodiac

I wouldn't quite use the term believe⁠, but I do have a particular interest in astrology and certainly find it diverting!

The sign most broadly known (ie. the answer you'll likely be given upon asking someone) tends to be one's Sun Sign, decided by which zodiac the sun falls under at the time of birth, and indicative of the essence of one’s personality and core identity. In addition to this, you have one's Moon Sign (the "inner self" which governs one's emotional nature), the Rising/Ascendant Sign (the "outer self” one shows to the world that influences other’s first impressions), and signs for all the rest of the planets in our solar system too,,, but for simplicity's sake let's just focus on the Sun, Moon, & Ascendant.

The broad strokes of the zodiac, for those of you unfamiliar, are as follows:

Aries/Leo/Sagittarius (fire signs) are passionate and exuberant

Taurus/Virgo/Capricorn (earth signs) are practical and grounded

Gemini/Libra/Aquarius (air signs) are intellectual and curious

Cancer/Pisces/Scorpio (water signs) are intuitive and emotional

Within these elements there is also modality to consider, which—when combined with their element—serve to provide each sign with a unique characterisation:

Cardinal Signs (aries/cancer/libra/capricorn) are active and dynamic with great initiative

Fixed Signs (leo/scorpio/aquarious/taurus) are inflexible and resilient with an indomitable will

Mutable Signs (sagittarius/pisces/gemini/virgo) are adaptable and resourceful with great flexibility

As I’ve previously said when discussing Lotor’s character, he’s a very outwardly ambitious and charismatic person—in his initial introduction (s03ep01) he largely won over the citizens of the Empire in the span of that single battle against Throk—but at his core he remains an intellectual who is both inquisitive and goal-oriented. From that alone, I'd say his Rising Sign (outer self) is fire-aligned, while his Moon Sign (inner self) is air-aligned, and his Sun Sign (core identity) earth-aligned. For the particulars of his modality, I think it’s quite obvious that though Lotor does tend to be upset when his plans go awry, he is a very resourceful, adaptive person, and therefore mutable.

Ergo Lotor strikes me as:

Sun (core/spiritual self) mutable earth: Virgo

Logical, practical, and systematic in their approach to life, they’re a perfectionist at heart and aren’t afraid to improve skills through diligent and consistent practice. They're hyper-aware of every detail, and deal with information like a computer by transforming even the most jumbled set of inputs into organized, clear concepts. Though they long to be meticulous in all pursuits, they must remember that constantly chasing after the ideal can be destructive when applied to their self or others. Above all else they want to help, and are kind gentle and supportive companions who use their incredible intellect and resourcefulness to problem-solve. They want to assist on a practical level, and are always striving to provide workable solutions and improve broken systems.

Moon (inner/emotional self) mutable air: Gemini

Though their intrinsic duality means they're often falsely misrepresented as two-faced, in reality they rarely have a hidden agenda. Playful and intellectually curious, they are constantly juggling a variety of passions, and are excellent at guiding change and transformation by using their energy to spearhead innovative creative projects. A fearless thinker, they are always down to try something new, but after they’ve shared their progressive vision with the world it’s best to let them get back to ideating, as they are most satisfied when they can move fluidly from one project to the next. They expresses emotions externally, and as such communication is paramount for them due to requiring fluent streams of transmission.

Ascendant (outer/perceived self) mutable fire: Sagittarius

A dynamic blend of passion, curiosity, intensity, and adaptability, they aren’t afraid to explore expansive terrain, seeking answers in places and spaces others wouldn’t dare venture; their quest for knowledge knows no bounds, and they possess deep-rooted desire for change. Not only are they born to explore, they are also on a perpetual quest for knowledge, which makes them incredible storytellers, entertainers, and creatives. They are, however, notorious for their signature bluntness and brutal honesty which can often lead to misunderstandings, communication breakdowns, and lots of hurt feelings. They demand to have it all—the word “enough” doesn't exist within their vocabulary—and when intrigued by something they go all in.

#first post is long post because I say so #''surely you could have just picked one and be done with it'' technically: yes but spiritually: no ♡#I was going to do Keith's too but this is already a beast and I didn't want to bore you #//however// if anyone is interested in that then you need only prompt me to do so #and I shall ofc oblige #Ao3 Little Blade #sa screams back #prince lotor #UPDATE: keith's zodiac is newly completed!!

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beebowtf · 1 year

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I was really bored so I wrote a Age regression snippet

A/n This is a original work. So if you wanna see more of this, just let me know!

A Brother Rescue Mission

A/n GIF is very unrelated but it was cute :3

The boy swayed lightly, half-lidded eyes staring at the screen in front of him.

His Dada had put on cars for him, being that Disney Plus was a staple in their household.

Originally his other caregiver, papa as he had deemed him, was on the couch, slumping awkwardly with a laptop, working on boring “big” things of course. But he had left to go -well- he wasn’t sure what exactly he went to do. He had a tendency to wander off.

All he knew was that Dada was probably gonna yell at papa for leaving him alone.

After all, he was only a baby, right?

He sighed softly, grabbing his paci from the clip hanging off his pajamas. Clumsily hands slipped the paci into his mouth.

He sits and thinks, the bobbing of his paci keeping him stimulated.

“I should find Ram!”

Everything is better with his big brother

Well, then weren’t brothers

Ram wasn’t older than him in reality. But Ram liked regressing into a more kindergarten age while Dallas liked being the baby. So it works out.

Dallas rolled onto his tummy, tucking his limbs beneath him and pushing up to get into a crawl position.

His tiredness long forgotten now

He was in Adventure mode

The mission? Find Ram

Dallas was dressed in a lion onesie, the predator taking over him.

He strides, prying like a fierce animal, ready to jump anything that gets in his way.

His paci now dangles, barely above the floor.

Dallas heads towards the stairs, knowing the danger that lies ahead. Papa and Dada.

He squints his eyes and lets out (what is supposed to be) a low growl, looking up the stairs.

He knows he has to be Super Duper Duper quiet if he doesn’t want to get caught. Who knows what they could be doing to him up there? They could be making him do math or worse! Eat broccoli.

Dallas takes a deep breath and gently places his hands on the first step, slowly beginning to ascend the stairs.

The farther he gets up, the quicker he goes. Luckily the noise from the downstairs T.V. Drowns out any squeaks coming from the stairs.

Finally, he reaches the top. He meant by a pitch-black hallway, with light emerging from the very last door.

The bathroom.

Suddenly this mission has jumped a million degrees on the scariness scale.

Dallas gulped and nodded forcefully.

“For Ram!” He whispers and steps into the hall.

Dallas timidly crawls through the hall, checking behind himself every second or so.

Then here’s a footstep

Uh-oh!

He gots to go

Suddenly his timid crawl turns into full-blown gallops. Booking it down the hall.

“I’m coming for you, Ram!”

He rips the bathroom door open, and he stands there on his knees, out of breath, his onesie hood slipping off his head.

Ram sits on the edge of the bathtub, his hair being dry with a towel by Dada. Who now just stays there, mostly unbothered, the towel now hanging in his grip loosely.

He looked down at Dallas and sighed with a soft smile.

“I knew your father would forget that he was supposed to be watching you” he rolls his eyes and motions for Dallas to join them.

“We need to brush your teeth anyways”

Dada mumbled something else after but couldn’t make it out.

And so they got their teeth brushed, hair combed and such.

Off to bed then went

Leaving the real adventure for the next day.

#beebowtf #safe agere #age regression #agere fic #agere #babyre #child regression #writing #original work

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ascendanceseriesveteran · 2 years

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Time for some brutal honesty.

Please read the hashtags and respect my wishes before you do anything! 😂💛

I’d also like to say in advance that I am aware of how unpatriotic I sound, and so I accept people’s disagreement on the matter.

I don’t know how I feel about Jen’s latest post on Instagram.

I’m obviously thrilled that there is going to be a screen adaptation of the Ascendance Series. Like literally over the moon. I’m still traumatised from that time a bit less than a decade ago when they were working on a film and it was cancelled. I remember being extremely upset and thinking “fine, I’ll make a film myself when I’m older” 😂.

But I really hope that the photo is just concept art or something similar. Because (again, I mean no offence to the actors. I’m just looking at this from a very critical point of view) the actors in the photo are significantly older than the characters in the books.

And Jaron’s age, (and hence everyone else’s age) is crucial to the series. It adds a layer of story - how people find it more difficult accepting him as king and his own lack of self worth because he’s just a “boy King”. How he grew up, how he was abandoned, the unfair amount of suffering he experiences even before being an adult and just how powerful and intelligent he is.

Granted, I never wanted any one them to look 14 in all honesty, I’ve always envisioned them slightly older. This is for multiple reasons; 1, because in medieval times teenagers already looked like young adults due to sun exposure and labour; 2, some medieval teenagers were already considered of-age because people died young and so becoming an adult was a rushed process, 3 (this one is superficial and self-centred, I apologise in advance), because it would be weird to “simp” over someone who looks 14 (in my defence, I’ve been loving these characters since I was maybe 13/14, so in my mind they have grown up with me. Now that I’ve surpassed their supposed age and obviously don’t want to be creepy, I considered them a bit older - but vitally, still much younger than the picture [maybe 16-18 yrs old]); and 4, (again, this one is a bit selfish and childhood-dream-esque in a way), I started pursuing acting when I was younger and still do, to this day, because I wanted to audition for Imogen lmao 😩😂 (but that’s beside the point, moving on… I know it’s a very far-fetched and whimsical desire but it’s been ingrained in me for many years and here I am spilling the beans. Besides, I’m pretty sure many of you share that dream or a similar one so I feel no little to no shame).

But setting all those biases aside, I really feel like the actors should be no older than young adults (those who are playing Jaron, Roden, Tobias, Imogen and Amarinda). Like if it’s a legal problem or one of expenses, casting adult actors who are younger than about 25 but who still look about 16-18, would be ideal. Because (again, I respect the actors themselves hugely) in the photo, but they all look like complete adults to me and that just does’t agree with what I envisioned.

I want to discuss this with you guys in the comments because I want to hear thoughts. I’ve been reading these books for almost a decade now and know them quote-by-quote, and know the characters as well as I’d know my friends (pretty sad but that’s the reality lol). I know many of you are also super fans of the series and have your own ideas of what Jaron and the crew looks like. If you go to Jaron’s actor’s Instagram you will see photos of the rest of the cast (whether this is confirmed or not, I have no clue). But any superficial thoughts and acting aspirations aside, (I’ve already spilled my deepest, actor-centric desires above so don’t take a stab at them because I’m ✨delicate✨), I want to genuinely hear and discuss what you think about my panicked assessment of the photo, and see if you guys share my concerns or have none about the matter at all.

PS: please read the hashtags. In short, don’t repost this and just discuss in comments 💛

#please don’t repost this lol.#I want to delete it eventually #just discuss in comments #because I feel a bit unpatriotic saying this #please and thank you ❤️#the ascendance series

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readingsbylibramc · 2 years

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birth chart reading for @lovewitchx

hello! welcome to your reading. I’m gonna give you a quick overview of what I’m going to analyze about your natal chart. feel free to ask me anything if something isn’t clear, of course. you’ll find out your dominants’ influence on your persona, your physical appearance, impression on others and the way you approach the world; your ego, identity, the real you; your reactions, your desires, inner emotions; your way of expressing your feelings, your mind and ideas; your desires and approach to love; your energy tank, instincts and temperament; in-depth analysis of each house with their rulers and analysis of heavy aspects; love life + soulmates/karmic partners interpretation; your relationship with your friends; your family life; your approach to career and work in general + possible jobs suggestion; your style, fashion sense analysis; life purpose and past life description; basic transits’ analysis to describe your current mood and, last but not least, your secret skills, how to make the most out of your soul and manifest what you desire based on your birth chart.

🦋 chart shape, dominants

your chart is a bucket shape, with saturn as the handle of the bucket. your saturn is in the 12th house, hence matters regarding mental health and spirituality will be your priorities in this lifetime. you also have clear ideas about your future and who you want to be. even though you may have different passions and talents, you’re capable of only sticking to one and mastering it, giving your all.

your dominant planets are mercury, jupiter and venus. you are probably quite creative, or at least you have a passion for creative outlets; you may like music, reading, cooking, etc. you're also quite smart and deep, you're probably told you look more mature than your actual age. you may also be into reading, writing and studying anything, especially philosophy.

your dominant sign is pisces. you're a genuine, caring person who loves daydreaming. it's a sort of way to escape reality, but it gives you an enormous amount of creativity. you also possess a strong intuition, which can make you have a sort of sixth sense.

your dominant element is fire. you have a warm heart, even though it may be covered by your confidence and independence. in fact, you always strive for the first place. people may be intimidated by your presence, as you're a serious competitor. thanks to this competitive nature of yours you may be very positive and optimistic, making you a good and supportive friend/partner.

🌎 ascendant in virgo, 1° / 1st decan ruled by mercury

you have a practical approach to the world. you’re kind of logical, it’s hard for you to improvize. you always want to keep everything neat and organized, at least in your mind. you could have a natural coldness to your face. you may seem younger than you are, but still very mature and responsible. with your attentive eyes, you pay attention to every single detail you see. you’re a perfectionist, and you always want and try to be at your best state. I would say you’re quite competitive when it comes to your goals, but you don’t really do it to be above others. you do it because your obsession for details kind of stresses you out. improving and proving yourself is a way to boost your self-esteem, you feel fulfilled when you can achieve your goals. you are extremely intelligent and logical, you’re always up for a deep talk or simply for an occasion to gain more knowledge. you like being smart, you always want to know about everything. even the latest, trendy meme counts for you. your nature is very cautious; you’re rarely impulsive, you always think deeply about your decisions, as you don’t want to make any mistakes. because of that, you can be particularly picky. not only with material things such as movies, books, food etc. but even with people. it’s hard for you to open up to someone you don’t know at all. you take things slow, both in friendships and in relationships, just to preserve yourself. you may come off as kind of snobby, but you’re just misunderstood. you don’t like flaky bonds, you need security in your life. physically, as I’ve already mentioned before, you have this kind of strict look on your face. your eyes may be almond-shaped, and you could have a natural feline gaze. overall, you have something smaller about your features; you could have thin lips, a small nose, small eyes… you could have a smaller frame with thin bones, and you don’t gain weight easily. you may be of average height, and I’ve noticed that most virgos tend to have pretty long legs? no matter if they’re tall or not, their legs will still be longer than their bust.

virgo ascendant opposite aquarius venus: this aspect makes you more sociable and prone to interact with people. you’re also most probably very attractive, people are naturally drawn to you. the downside of this placement is that you may suffer from self-esteem issues, as you really care about others’ impression of you. maybe you’re a little bit clumsy too. it’s easy for you to gain popularity, but be careful as it’s not always good. popularity brings scandals too, so people you see in your everyday life could possibly start gossips around you. the good thing about this aspect is that you emanate loyalty, so you usually choose loyal and trust-worthy partners. this placement may also bring issues and problems in marriage with your future partner, even though I don’t think it’s your case. your venus is well-placed, so I don’t think there’ll be serious problems.

🌞 sun in pisces, 23° / 3rd decan ruled by neptune and pluto

this is the most intuitive pisces decan. you understand people’s thoughts just by looking at them, it’s like you’re staring at their souls. in fact, you’re extremely empathetic, you probably find yourself being a psychologist for your friends. or maybe, you’re actually a psychologist. you’re amazingly creative and imaginative, you have the ability to picture your ideas. this is an amazing talent, in fact most artists have pisces placements. the downside to pisces is that I’ve noticed that, since they know they’re vulnerable, they have the tendency to lie. they don’t do it out of cruelty of course, it’s a sort way to protect their ego. you could want to be seen as bolder than you are, hence you could struggle with identity crisis, especially during your teenage years. you have your own morals and beliefs, but you could feel influenced by others to change yours. luckily, this is something that gets better with time, as you start being more aware of your persona and you start loving yourself. you're most probably a very complex individual. after all, pisces is the most 'confusing' of all the signs. you're a sort of chameleon; you act differently based on where you are and who you're with. you could be a savage with someone, an introvert with someone else. you may even feel as if there's something wrong with your mind, as you just wish you could be like others. you should focus more on pisces' positive traits, though; you're extremely compassionate and considerate. you're emotionally intelligent, and this mutability of yours could make you succeed at many different jobs in your life, as it's very easy for you to adapt to and master new things, especially with your mutable dominance. if you work hard, you can surely succeed in anything you want.

pisces sun square sagittarius jupiter: this is a hard aspect, which could make you feel even more proud of yourself due to your fire dominance. you may feel like the universe is constantly against you, especially with your pessimistic pluto energy. you may feel unlucky, or even overindulge in things you like to cope with sadness or anger. you may have the tendency to overeat, buy useless things etc. you go from having a low self-esteem, to even looking very bossy without even realizing it. you struggle to keep your identity balanced, even though you might have not been aware of it at first. to achieve fortune and joy in life, you need to work hard for it. to do so, you have to learn your karmic lessons in this lifetime, which probably revolve around family issue and their impact on your interactions with others.

pisces sun square sagittarius pluto: probably during your childhood you couldn't make your own decisions. you might have been highly influenced by someone in your family, probably your father, and hence now you feel the need to have everything under control. maybe too much. you despise authority, you may even quite rebellious. maybe your parents have tried to convince you following their religion, ideals etc., without giving you freedom. or perhaps, they are overprotective and avoid to make you have experiences. I imagine that getting rid of your control issues, which are caused by this sense of not being in control of your life, may be the first step to finally heal your wound, which is somehow linked to the relationship with your friends and casual partners in your everyday life. start trusting others more, and don't be afraid of being 'fooled'. you're totally capable of understanding when someone is trying to hurt you, follow your intuition. even though it may be hard, even painful, it'll be the key to transform and overcome pluto's lessons to achieve your goals.

🌙 moon in capricorn, 19° / 2nd decan ruled by saturn and venus

n your group of friends, you’re probably the responsible friend, as you’re very reliable and mature, almost serious. you always want to be seen as a point of reference, yet you tend to shy away from the spotlight. even though you may desire it, you feel too shy and pressured being in the centre of attention. you don’t like talking about your feelings; even if you do talk a lot, you prefer talking about news, hobbies etc. you don’t want to be the subject of the conversation. because of this, you tend to repress your emotions, as you don’t want to be seen as vulnerable. you’re a nice listener, your friends can rely on you when they need to vent without wanting an advice, as you’re probably not the best at finding a solution to their problems. you may find yourself wanting to follow a schedule, otherwise you feel as if you’re too relaxed and you’re not being productive. this is also a placement that can indicate coldness in your family environment / childhood. maybe your parents were quite strict, but overall it was nothing too serious that hurt you deeply.

capricorn moon square aries venus: there are contrasting feelings in your relationships with others; after all, your capricorn moon wants to commit to someone and be loyal to them. on the other hand, your aries venus wants to be independent. you don't want to feel tied to someone, you still need your independence. those two desires of yours probably contrast each other, stressing you out. you want a calm, almost boring relationship, but with this placement you can't seem to have one. your feelings and self-esteem may depend a lot on your relationships, not only with your lovers, but also with your friends. if someone isn't loyal to you, you immediately start blaming yourself. in your life you may lack intimacy, and while it may make you feel better at first, based on the rest of your chart you actually need someone on your side. you can't do everything on your own. you need to find someone that projects your ideals of love. if you need a free-spirit, go look for one. it may take you a while, but if you learn all the lessons you need to learn from your breakups, you'll be able to live a peaceful life with your spouse.

🗣 mercury in aquarius, 27° / 3rd decan ruled by uranus and venus

mercury is exalted in the sign of aquarius, so this is definitely a beneficial placement! you have a very distinctive way of thinking and speaking. you don't like being like others, you don't follow trends. you're probably the trendsetter, and you may find confidence and pride in your ideas and opinions. some may even define you weird, but you have very strong beliefs that could actually be helpful for the world. you're quite 'ahead' of others from this point of view, you're able to find beauty in things without being influenced by others. for example, you may follow a fashion trend before it gets viral. you are able to come up with very innovative ways of solving problems, you're extremely creative. you may even be the type to invent your own words, or perhaps you love learning and reading new words, you have a wide vocabulary. you're also probably interested in science and any darker or logical topic, you want to use your words and theories to change something in the world. you want to leave an impact, maybe even help others through your mind. you have a very witty sense of humor, you most likely speak fluent sarcasm and you're also very astute. I would say that the only problem with this placement is that you may come off as a know-it-all. you're proud of your intellect, you can't help but show it off, but obviously others may be jealous of you or feel attacked. for your voice, I assume you have a very particular tone, maybe even a nasal voice.

aquarius mercury opposite leo saturn: this placement gives you limitations and lessons regarding the way you think and talk. it may be that you’re too shy to approach others and to say what you think, so you just don’t try. otherwise, if you actually take action and try to overcome this problem, you could get into trouble. that’s probably caused by the fact that you don’t really pay attention to your words. you’re quite straight-forward, and due to your fire energy you always seem as if you’re up for a fight. you may be particularly pessimistic, or maybe you lack confidence in social interactions due to these problems, which could be possibly caused by your parents, or perhaps interfer in your relationship with your family. in fact, you may argue quite often with others, and misunderstandings are also common. this is something that gets naturally better with time, but in order for it to happen you need to take action. you may for example start speaking with others more at work, anything that allows you to challenge your mind and voice, in order to make you gain experiences and become a master at it. many celebrities, once they mastered this hard aspect, got loads of success. you can do that too, you just need to work on it.

❤️ venus in aries, 25° / 3rd decan ruled by mars and jupiter

with venus in aries, loving you is an adventure. you enjoy fun, exciting relationships. you're the type who's looking for a risktaker, even dangerous partner. you hate boredom, and this may be your weakness regarding this placement; that is, once the relationship starts getting more serious, you feel as if it's going down, when it's actually the opposite. hence, you just run towards a new adventure. this placement may even give you the reputation of being a player. you have to understand that relationships can get boring, but that's not necessarily a red flag. it just means you two are starting to feel comfortable together. you also enjoy physical contact, therefore cold partners are a no no for you. you need someone who's affectionate yet bold, and that would spoil you with attention and gifts. you enjoy the little things about love, such as remembering your anniversary or even giving you small presents, especially if they're homemade (like breakfast, poems etc.). you also try to avoid flaky people, as you don't like making relationships seem too light.

☄️ mars in aquarius, 12° / 2nd decan ruled by uranus and mercury

you find strenght and energy in your innovative ideas. when you’re having a hard time, you often come up with solutions by yourself, without anybody’s help. you enjoy being at the center of attention for your smartness, just like your sister sign leo in a kind of way. you may be very competitive, and sometimes you don’t even realize it, making you ask yourself why people always try to fight you. you’re very driven by your sense of humanitarianism; you have no problems defending someone apparently weak, even though that someone may not be right, making you look like the devil’s advocate. you may also be interested in everything that stimulates your mind, from reading thrillers to playing mind games. you may also have a knack for stuff like technology, science, maths, media and education. I’ve also noticed that aquarius placements love animals, plants and art above all, but not famous paintings; you may love works from foreign artists (e.g. van gogh), or maybe symbolic paintings that aren’t very well-known.

aquarius mars opposite leo saturn: this placement indicates that something or someone is trying to restrict you, they're trying to prevent you from following your dreams and taking your own choices for your life. that someone is most likely an individual that has a lot on impact on you, it's someone very authoritative. or perhaps, it may even be a bully or abuser of any sort or just your insecurity to hold you back. as a result, you either rebel and get extremely angry, or you hide all of your disappointment inside of you. but soon or after, all of your intense feelings are going to eat you alive if you keep going like this, it's a very unhealthy behaviour. you could find it extra hard to achieve your goals, as when you try you always come across some hardships. what matters the most, is that you try to be more positive, you could even try manifesting more patience or serenity. you can't hold onto anger so much, or it will just fill you with negativity that could damage you. let it all go, focus on your goals and try to understand how to be more patient. in fact, you may often feel like you need to do everything as soon as possible, when it's not like that. you can allow yourself to be more calm and live life as it comes, it will make you feel much better with yourself and you'll also get more mature, which is crucial to learn your saturnian lessons and increase your self-confidence.

🏡 houses

your 1st house is in virgo. you appear as someone intelligent, possibly judgmental and critical. in fact, you’re a perfectionist, and most of the time you appreciate it when someone takes care of themselves just as much as you do. you’re also particularly pessimistic, and this could be annoying for those around you. you’re very logical and pragmatic, and you may even be a bit judgmental. you can read people’s mood very well, it’s easy for you to understand whether someone is sad, angry, happy… because of that, you always try to make people feel at ease, you’re always kind with people, and that makes you extremely likeable. you’re probably a very genuine person. it’s hard for you to hide your real emotions, and even if you wanted to hide them you wouldn’t be capable.

your 2nd house is in libra. you find beauty and aesthetic in material things; you most probably love clothes, art, music… anything that isn’t exactly a priority in life, but that allows you to express your personal taste, which is very refined. with this placement I’d suggest that you should pursue a career that allows you to express your creativity, as arts and beauty allow you not only to make money, but also to increase your security and confidence. you could also spend money in venusian things like clothes, make-up, decorations and anything that involves beauty and aesthetic.

your 3rd house is in scorpio. you probably love witty jokes and sarcasm. you’re extremely honest when you think and speak, and most of the time you have no problem expressing your opinions. you could possibly be very good with words and be good at convincing and manipulating others. usually this placement makes someone kind of mischievous when it comes to words, especially with your impulsive aries energy that may make you hurt people unintentionally. your mind is very deep, you’re probably not really into small talk. you may also love anything that is considered taboo, like astrology, horror, nudity, death… you’re also quite secretive, you’re seen as an enigma. you don’t want to share much about you. last but not least, you value honesty above all. you only speak the truth, and hence you also want it back. you may as well be into conspiracy theories, science and anything that can expose what’s behind the universe, the government etc. you have amazing communication skills and also an entertaining sense of humor that is able to light up the room.

your 4th house is in scorpio again. jupiter and pluto are also placed in this house. you could come from a foreign place, or perhaps you moved houses a lot during your childhood. perhaps, you have someone in your family that is from a different culture or religion from yours, or perhaps they’re able to speak more than one language. your parents could have been very successful at school, they could actually be professors. you might’ve always been a smart kid, you could’ve grown up learning more languages and you were most likely good at school too. you also got to make lots of experiences during your childhood, you might have travelled a lot. your relationship with your family is most likely very good. it could be that there might have been a few misunderstandings between you and your parents, but nothing too serious. maybe, they could have been a bit distant, it could be that they had to travel a lot for work and hence you felt lonely; or maybe, it’s the opposite, they were a bit too affectionate and overwhelming, possibly possessive too, and you may have been babied or spoiled a bit too much.

your 5th house is in the sign of capricorn, with also your moon placed there. capricorn usually brings a feeling of seriousness to the house it’s in. you could be a bit more introverted, probably you’re not the type to frequent clubs, parties, etc. you’re more serious from that point of view. your hobbies could actually drain your energy for you; let’s suppose you’re into videogames. you could literally spend the whole day playing videogames, as you take your hobbies very seriously. you’re not the type to start a project and then leave it, you’re very resolute. also, you most likely have ‘mature’ hobbies; you could be into politics, economy, history… you could be into slower types of music, for example, or perhaps you like reading about world issues. with your children you may be quite strict, as you see them as a responsibility. also, you may often be attracted or attract older or more mature partners. you’re most likely a very romantic and artistic person, you may be fond of music, dancing, singing, acting… anything creative that stimulates your senses. yet, you may be a bit picky when it comes to hobbies; you probably only like reading specific types of books, you only listen to a certain music style, and so on. you may also be into spirituality such as psychology, astrology, law of attraction, yoga, mediation, etc. you try to be nice and kind to everyone, as you don’t wanna be seen as someone unpleasant to be with.

your 6th house is in aquarius, with also your mars, neptune and mercury placed there. people with aquarius in their 6th house need to change their routine throughout their life. probably, when you were you younger they taught you things that aren’t healthy for your body and health. you may have to change your diet, your medicines… also, you may sometimes procrastinate in your day-to-day life. for example you wouldn’t mind skipping a day of school or work to play videogames. this placement also indicates that you may often come across unpredictable events in your daily life. you may often see strange, unordinary things, or perhaps it’s your routine that is like that. you may lack consistency when it comes to diets and health, for example; you may start a diet and keep it for a month, then you get tired and drop it all of a sudden. you could also develop unexpected diseases. you may pursue a career that looks unexpected for you at first, something that you never thought you’d do. it will most likely be a creative, artistic job. it will be a very pleasant job, it won’t even feel like a duty to you as you’ll choose a job that you like and that you’re passionate about. regarding your health, throughout your life you may often come across sudden health problems, illnesses may come out of nowhere, especially with mars in this house that makes you get hurt quite easily. you have a very logical, pragmatic mind. you try to be as well-spoken as possible, especially with strangers, but when people get on your nerves you can’t help but kill them with your words. before expressing your opinion on a certain matter, you like making sure that your thought actually has proof to be supported. you’re very analytical, and hence you also overthink a lot. especially when it comes to people you care, you start overthinking so much about little things like late replies to messages that you create a variety of hollywood-worthy scenarios in your head. you also pay lots of attention to details, and you can’t tolerate typos and grammar mistakes. you always try to speak and write in the most correct and polite way as possible.

your 7th house is in pisces. the sun and uranus are also sitting in this house. with this pisces descendant, you attract people that are pretty much very intuitive and soft; they could have pisces placements, or at least they’ll be extremely artistic and emotional. yet, you may as well surround yourself with 'broken’ people. that is, people that aren’t exactly in the best state of their health, whether physically or mentally. with the sun in this house, you could meet them in a fun situation, like a party, a vacation, a night out… any situation where you’re supposed to be chilling and having fun, you may meet your future spouse there. also, in a relationship you probably hate feeling suffocated. while your pisces descendant may make you enjoy skinship, you may sometimes also need your space, you still need your freedom. also, pisces makes you idealize your crushes/partners way too much, to the point that you create an image of someone in your head that turns out to be the opposite at the end. you ignore your partner’s flaws, as they seem perfect to you. you may also end up having lots of partners before settling down, as you may struggle to find the right person for you. yet, after that you’ll feel completely satisfied with your relationship, it will bring you lots of love and success. jupiter here shelters you from potentially abusive and toxic partners, I definitely see you having a stable and happy marriage/relationship in the future.

your 8th house is in aries. generally, people with aries in their 8th house are very confident when it comes to taboo topics; they have no problems showing their interest in them, especially with people they’re intimate with. you constantly try to improve yourself by coming up with new projects, you love challenges. they help you growing up into the person you want to become. you may come across some hardships regarding yourself, your identity. but, when you face those fears and start loving yourself, you’ll naturally become more mature and 'transform’. you’re an extremely goal-oriented person. you want to be the best at everything you do, not only to be better than others but also the best for yourself. you’re very astute, it’s impossible to trick you, and you always find a way to be in charge and get what you want. yet, you can get quite obsessed about your goals, that you could do extreme things to get what you want. in fact, people with this placement can even manipulate others, as they’re totally capable of doing that.

your 9th house is in taurus. venus is also placed in this house. with this placement, I feel like you may use your intellect to gain financial security and material possessions. while this is a good thing, as it helps increasing your confidence, don’t forget that your intellect is more important than money or any other thing. don’t underestimate it. you’re totally capable of learning and understanding things by yourself, hence don’t wait for others for help. you should start dealing with your own experiences alone, without anybody else’s help. this placement can also be someone a little close-minded; in fact, you’re probably very stubborn and firm about your beliefs. you hardly ever allow others to change your mind. you may also be into poetry, philosophy, and just anything that can stimulate both your mind and feelings. in fact, your mind is constantly wandering somewhere else, allowing you to travel with your fantasy. you’re also probably attracted to foreign things, like people, music, fashion, languages, movies etc. you love learning about anything, and you may also have a good memory. in fact, it’s common for you to be the one who explains things and possibly even leads a group, and this could unluckily make you seem as a know-it-all. you do take pride in your wisdom, indeed. your deep way of thinking is also where your desire for freedom comes from, as you wish to be able to expand yourself through travelling and new experiences. you may be the type that likes making new experiences regarding love, and you often date your crushes. yet, you feel too limited in a relationship. you don't enjoy committing to someone if that someone isn't perfect for you, you're only completely loyal to the one you consider your true love. you can't give up your freedom, your thirst for adventure and experiences for someone else. basically, your ideal partner would be a risk-taker, someone loyal but not too clingy, that is down to go on a road trip in every moment. someone impulsive, that could help you stepping out of your comfort-zone. you're probably into those youthful love stereotypes, e.g. high school dates. you want your relationships to be filled with excitement, you despise boring, traditional and cheesy things. you may also find yourself being attracted to unavailable people; that is, you could fall for people that are already taken, or maybe they're physically unavailable, e.g they live abroad or in another city in general. you're also attracted to foreigners, and people that have a wise, yet bubbly aura around them.

your 10th house is in taurus again. when it comes to work, you’re quite materialistic. you want to earn a great income from your job, you aspire to be wealthy, and luckily with virgo ascendant you probably don’t lack ambition. yet, as I’ve already mentioned in the previous sections, you shouldn’t procrastinate nor be lazy, you should break free from your limitations and work hard to visualize and achieve your goals, or it may be hard for you to have a stable career life. you may be drawn to artistic careers, such as designing for example, or even things like cooking or baking. you could be a singer, a rapper, a writer… even a therapist or a counsealor, as well as an actor or comedian. you will probably get to communicate something in your career, you may want to spread a certain message or you may have to interact with other people for your job. you could also be in charge, you may get a very high position in your agency or you could even have your own business, I don't see you having to depend on others ar all. you would do well at a variety of things to be honest!

your 11th house is in cancer. this placement indicates that your friends, they’re your comfort-zone. you feel understood when you’re with them, they’re pretty much like a family to you. you can tell them anything, you put all of your trust in them. or at least, if you haven’t met anyone like this yet, you’ll surely meet a friend that is like a soulmate to you. they’ll also be very important for your growth. in addition, it could also be that you’re still friends with someone from your childhood or even high school days, and hence you could literally grow up together. you could also have some step-siblings. you could also have very big goals you want to achieve in your life, probably since your childhood. as a result, you may end up pursuing your dream career for instance.

your 12th house is in leo. saturn is also sitting in this house. this is kind of a tricky placement, as leo rules the self, the ego, and the 12th house rules fears. you could be afriad of being too confident, of feeling worth it, or even just by being in the spotlight. perhaps, you have stage fright. this fear of embracing your persona makes you very insecure, even though you probably don’t show it. also, since your 12th house is the house of dreams, you could often make dreams that involve yourself. you hardly ever dream of someone else, and if you they’re probably your lovers, possibly your friends. you may also make daydreams or sleeping dreams of creative, utopic scenarios. you most likely have lots of dreams, that could even predict the future. you may be a bit too pragmatic to embrace your spirituality. I think you’re already working this out since you’ve booked an astrology reading to discover more about yourself, but remember that you should definitely try to get more in touch with your soul! even doing simple stretching, meditation or yoga can help give you some space to think about your identity, your wants and your needs. the 12th house is also the house of fears, and since its cusp falls in capricorn, you may be afriad of authority, like the police for example, or anything that appears to be much bigger and more supported than you. it may also manifest in fear of not being organized, and also fear of money / success loss.

❤️ love life, soulmates

in love, you attract pisces, capricorn, aquarius, leo, and cancer placements. your future spouse will most likely have some of their planets in leo, cancer, aquarius or pisces; they’ll be well-balanced, with a stable job and finances. yet, they won’t be too much of a workaholic, as they’re also most probably a chill individual who loves relax and vacation as well. you’re most likely going to meet your future spouse abroad. or perhaps, they are foreign and they travel to your country. you may also meet them in a place related to foreign culture, so maybe in a place filled with tourists, or perhaps in an exotic restaurant, perhaps at a sushi bar if you’re not japanese for example. it may also be time for you for new experiences, perhaps you’re doing something for the first time, such as trying a new sport or taking a plane. you may also meet your future spouse at work, or through a colleague of yours. your children will have capricorn and cancer placements: they’ll be extremely reliable and intelligent; they could be a bit rebellious during their early years, but they will become more mature as time goes by. they’ll be very creative and quite sensitive too.

👶🏻 family life

your mother was probably the more dominant figure in your family. she’s very smart and optimistic, and she could be into fashion and self-care. yet, she could be a bit moody, over-emotional and impulsive. overall, she’s a very joyful person who’s always ready to crack a joke and put a smile on others’ faces. she may be a sagittarius, a scorpio, a capricorn or a pisces. as for your father, he is more laid-back, but probably very stubborn and also quite protective too. he may have taurus or sagittarius placements in his chart, as well as virgo and scorpio. if you have siblings, your relationship with them may be quite pleasant. probably, you used to get along very well with them, it was pleasant for you to hang out and talk to them. they could have gemini, leo, virgo, libra or taurus placements in their chart.

📊 career

you’re a very ambitious person, and hence I don’t see you being the type to scrap projects. especially with your taurus midheaven, you’re motivated to complete your works in order to show that you’re able to succeed, you want to be the best in what you do. I can also see you being a good therapist, psychologist, possibly even a doctor of any kind, even though I’d avoid practical and boring jobs if I were in you. your strong pisces energy struggles to be cold-minded at times, and hence working in a stressful environment could be dangerous for you and for your mental health, as you may absorb others’ negativity and stress. actually, I feel like the most suited career for you would be something that allows you to be in charge, to be your own boss as you know what’s best for you. you may also do well with a creative career; you may become a writer, a dancer, a singer, a stylist, a model, an actress… anything that isn’t too practical could be good to you, and if it allows you to express your creativity it’s even better.

👚 fashion sense, style analysis

you probably love clothes that can show and enhance your body. you may love wearing crop tops, skirts, bralettes, shorts... anything that leaves a part of your body uncovered, yet that still looks elegant and classy. you could also enjoy baggy clothes, paired with fancy accessories and heels. for colors, you go from wearing bold colours like red, burgundy and neon, to darker shades like black, dark blue etc. you probably also love neutral shades, like kaki, beige and so on.

👁 past life, life purpose

in your past life, the focus was on yourself. maybe, you had trouble with self-esteem and identity in general. you had to work hard and finally understand who you were to fulfill your past life purpose. hence, this lifetime your focus will be on the bonds you create with others. even though at first you might feel almost scared of the idea of marriage, this lifetime you're here to develop this matter. after all, you may despise love for your troubled past. with your north node in the 7th house, you're naturally lucky in love. there's nothing to be afraid of, you only need to take small steps and open your heart to someone, putting your worries and insecurities aside.

🤔 major transits analysis / september 15

with pluto being conjunct your natal moon, this year may be very emotionally turbulent for you. you feel confused and drained, as you're going through an inner transformation that is going to turn you into a new person. you may be getting into conflicts very easily, but at the same time the people you lose during this period were probably not good for you.

🧿 manifest what you want, secret skills

the best way for you to manifest is idealizing and acting at the same time. you have both energies combined in your chart, which is great actually! I’d suggest you to first picture what you want in your life, and then do something concrete to manifest it. for example, let’s suppose you want this gucci bag; first, think about it deeply. then, you could try going into a gucci shop and just walk around, maybe even touch that bag. you’ll get results if you believe it! it’s also great to write and read/listen your own positive affirmations, such as 'I love my gucci bag’, 'the gucci bag my mom gave me is amazing’ and so on.

this is the end! thank you again for booking a reading, I hope it resonated with you :)

- libramc xx

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ardenssolis · 2 years

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@tenkoseiensei said (inbox):

' you want to live, don't you ? ' on the contemplative bank of the twilight-lit nile, the pharaoh's own reflection suddenly smiles and speaks back up at him from within the darkening waters. ' gray hair. wrinkles. the growing ache in your bones. you're turning weak, and now it must seem like death is already right around the corner. come, when was the last time you glimpsed at your reflection and smiled? even your shining pride is starting to wither away and crumble, just like your health. ' shamelessly familiar words, but not overly so, alongside a brief, calm quiet. ' i've been watching you for a long time. i can tell that you're unhappy. restless with aging change. that's why i've appeared, to make you an offer. ' his hands slowly raise, a reverse drowning; a ghostly birth, a phantasmal reach out towards the pharaoh's warm cheeks and nothing else, waiting for their answer. ' i can give it to you. everything that you desire. more time. bright youth and vigor. each and every weak, pitifully human worry will vanish. you can ascend from a mere man with blessed blood to a true god, and rule over your treasured egypt forever. ' surely they were suspicious; surely they were equally desperate, awaiting bargaining terms. thus, the spirit speaks in a soft, still voice. ' all you have to do ... is be willing to give me your body. i'll make you timeless, but in return, share with me your life. '

MOST WOULD BE STARTLED to see their reflection speak to them, even more so at his age when time was beginning to gnaw at more than merely his body. However, for the Pharaoh, he was uncertain as to whether what he saw was reality or a figment of his own imagination. ❝What is this?❞ he asked, frown deepening the wrinkles that began to pull at is skin. Leaning closer, his eyes narrowed, and his confusion and uncertainty grew with each second that passed. If this was real, if he was not merely hallucinating during the hours of the day when Ra’s vessel was beginning its long trek through the Duat, then surely…surely this must be a spirit of some kind come to tempt him. Even if some served the gods, not all cared for the Divine and their governance. Some mischievous or malevolent beings could leak from that vast expanse, and as one who had to listen to the many droning's of priests as they educated him as a boy, he knew to be wary. There was nothing to be taught in regards to one mimicking his appearance, though.

Hands like his own reached forth from the watery depths, fingers coming to rest upon him skin before palms cupped his cheeks, but he did not pull away in terror and stumble backwards. Perhaps he should have. Perhaps it would have been far wiser to scream in terror and run from those banks than to even attempt to humor something that was clearly inhuman, yet here he was, watching. Becoming a true god… It was said that he would become just this at the end when it was time for his soul to join countless many on their journey through the afterlife, but he held little interest in becoming an Osiris nor being reborn as that great celestial body that burned so brightly above. Still, he was suspicious and distrusting as he should be, mind going over the countless stories that he had been told to maintain Ma’at. Was there not a tale of one who had learned immortality? One who had shown wife and child the secrets of the world upon finding Thoth’s book and was cursed for it?

So rarely does Thoth enact punishment, and even smaller still does he ever enjoy it, but mortals should not trespass into the realm of the gods, and thus, punishment was granted…viciously, cruelly… What punishment would befall Ramses if he too opened that ‘book’ of forbidden knowledge…? ❝I do not know if I can trust in your words, Spirit. Will you devour my soul and take my body? Have you done this to many others who accepted your offer?❞ If so, he would not be added to that count. Ramses would repel them back to whatever abyss they crawled out from and they would rue their greed in the dark.

#tenkoseiensei #;v: ???#answered #;;inbox #HMMMMMMMMMMM #;;past

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bookoformon · 2 months

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3 Nephi Chapter 28, Part 2. "The Twinkling of An Eye."

Jesus speaking as the Spirit of God says we must pare away the sins of the world if we want to find righteousness. The thirst and hunger for salvation cannot be quieted without the removal of the causes of sin. Lest one does this, one shall not transfigure or see God.

From the Book of Matthew we know once this leaves behind the Three Unknown Disciples, "handsome behaviors, graciousness, and the spirit of intelligence".

6 And he said unto them: Behold, I know your thoughts, and ye have desired the thing which John, my beloved, who was with me in my ministry, before that I was lifted up by the Jews, desired of me.

7 Therefore, more blessed are ye, for ye shall never taste of death; but ye shall live to behold all the doings of the Father unto the children of men, even until all things shall be fulfilled according to the will of the Father, when I shall come in my glory with the powers of heaven.

8 And ye shall never endure the pains of death; but when I shall come in my glory ye shall be changed in the twinkling of an eye from mortality to immortality; and then shall ye be blessed in the kingdom of my Father.

9 And again, ye shall not have pain while ye shall dwell in the flesh, neither sorrow save it be for the sins of the world; and all this will I do because of the thing which ye have desired of me, for ye have desired that ye might bring the souls of men unto me, while the world shall stand.

10 And for this cause ye shall have fulness of joy; and ye shall sit down in the kingdom of my Father; yea, your joy shall be full, even as the Father hath given me fulness of joy; and ye shall be even as I am, and I am even as the Father; and the Father and I are one;

11 And the Holy Ghost beareth record of the Father and me; and the Father giveth the Holy Ghost unto the children of men, because of me.

12 And it came to pass that when Jesus had spoken these words, he touched every one of them with his finger save it were the three who were to tarry, and then he departed.

Jesus says He is just the Spirit of God, all is the Spirit of God. There is nothing that exists that does not originate nor return to the Spirit of God. The rest is idolatry, including the Christ. Christ was born of the Virgin, He ministered to the people, He was crucified, dead, and buried, and He rose again, and He ascended into Heaven. He dissolved into the Spirit of God, as the Book of Mormon said. He is gone. If one deigns to know of Him, one can read the Scriptures. To know Him Personally, one must abandon Him.

One must be able to apprehend reality such as it is and forsake all graven images and idols if one is to fully understand why all this talk in all the holy books that states idolatry is not good for us was published.

The Values in Gematria for the above verses are:

v. 6: And He said unto them. The Value in Gematria is 15963, י״הטו‎ג‎, Y'Hatog, "we are relabeled."

The verb חיה (haya) means to live or have life, to give or restore life; to quicken or revive, nourish or refresh.

v. 7: Therefore more blessed are ye. The Value in Gematria is 8583, חההג‎ ‎‎, hahag, "the Holiday" = Shabbat.

v. 8: And ye shall never endure the pains of death. The Value in Gematria is 10372, אאֶפֶס‎ג‎ז‎ב‎, aepszb, "the Island Passage."

There is an eddy in the Black Sea that connects the earthly plane and the Heavenly. To cross it one needs the help of God and the angels. If you are a shmuck, they won't bother and off into the void you go.

v. 9: And again, ye shall not have pain while ye shall dwell in the flesh, neither sorrow save it be for the sins of the world. The Value in Gematria is 13312, יגג‎א‎ב‎, Yagga Ab, "become young again."

The process of Transfiguration and Translumination requires Presentation in the Temple. There must signs and then effort the world is ready for the turning of the age away from sin towards salvation and a new era must begin if one wants to be guarantee absolution.

One cannot reside on a planet with rampant terrorism, gunfire, and the terror titties ranting and raving about people's human rights, causing trouble and discord all day long. If one really wants to go to heaven one needs to put an end to hell on earth first. All hypocrisy has to end.

v. 10: And for this cause ye shall have fulness of joy. The Value in Gematria is 13831, יג‎חג‎‎א‎, will rejoice. As to how to rejoice properly, the Rab recommends Psalm 147:

1 Praise the Lord.[a]

How good it is to sing praises to our God, how pleasant and fitting to praise him!

2 The Lord builds up Jerusalem; he gathers the exiles of Israel. 3 He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds. 4 He determines the number of the stars and calls them each by name. 5 Great is our Lord and mighty in power; his understanding has no limit. 6 The Lord sustains the humble but casts the wicked to the ground.

7 Sing to the Lord with grateful praise; make music to our God on the harp.

8 He covers the sky with clouds; he supplies the earth with rain and makes grass grow on the hills. 9 He provides food for the cattle and for the young ravens when they call.

10 His pleasure is not in the strength of the horse, nor his delight in the legs of the warrior; 11 the Lord delights in those who fear him, who put their hope in his unfailing love.

12 Extol the Lord, Jerusalem; praise your God, Zion.

13 He strengthens the bars of your gates and blesses your people within you. 14 He grants peace to your borders and satisfies you with the finest of wheat.

15 He sends his command to the earth; his word runs swiftly. 16 He spreads the snow like wool and scatters the frost like ashes. 17 He hurls down his hail like pebbles. Who can withstand his icy blast? 18 He sends his word and melts them; he stirs up his breezes, and the waters flow.

19 He has revealed his word to Jacob, his laws and decrees to Israel. 20 He has done this for no other nation; they do not know his laws.[b]

Praise the Lord.

v. 11: And the Holy Ghost beareth record of the Father and me; and the Father giveth the Holy Ghost unto the children of men, because of me. The Value in Gematria is 4996, ו‎דטט‎ ‎and dtt "be religious."

v. 12: And he touched every one of them. The Value in Gematria is 12904, יבטאֶפֶסד‎‎‎, yebatapesd, "and you will lose."

To be touched by the Spirit of God is to cut ties to the material world and all delusion and attachment we have to it. As the scripture says, the Spirit will explain the rest once it is allowed to drive.

The Jews gave birth to Christ and as the Book of Mormon raised Him, presented Him to the Temple and many attempted to follow Him. But without peace on earth, there is no evidence of a Messiah, and without a Messiah there shall not be peace.

The process failed because we simply do not accept how this works, and therefore must as the scripture says continue to persevere within the Spirit of God.

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entoman-created-by-the-tallgreys · 2 years

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I'm not saying you should be glum to live your life and suffer it's No Matter how meaningless it is it's quite dumb

Did you try to fill your life with happy positives even if they're all false

I want to find true happiness but then again I want to find meaning of purpose and then again I want to find something solid - I'm not speaking physically solid

I'm trying to find something you might existence I actually had some Fucking value for once

Everything is So Fucking Shallow

Everything lacks a purpose

I feel like you know when you were a kid and you grow up and you don't want to go back in the room where you are a baby and played your baby towards you more because you've grown up in that

You went beyond that I try to imagine your ABC block's so and your baby crib or your pacifier and tell yourself if you want to go back and do that

Sit on the floor like a child and try to pretend that that's interesting

. . .

If you can't, congratulations you're kind of like me when it comes to all Society even Fairyland

Aka HIVE World

I don't care and I'm not too overly zealous for v o r e

I mean I like looking at it it's kind of stuff, it's Nice, it's just, But . . . The same time I don't really want a woman

With that being said if I don't want a woman then I especially don't want to be a part of her

I don't want to get romantic I don't want to get spiritual I don't want to get I don't want to do anything

I don't care how dark and insane, and unhinged my thoughts become I just want to find something meaningful

Holy or Unholy, I Really don't care

Everything just feels so hollow so empty

Feel like I walk through a world of illusions a Land of shadows a world bottomless voids of reality everyone is a bottomless pit and nothingness

I guess you can say hollow

Nothing phases me no extreme evil phases me or good it doesn't affect me in a positive or negative way I could go on the Deep Web I could look up I could find a red room that's opening free I can find someone ape ( R ) a little girl, and End her life in a throw in a wood chipper for the live and dark spirited crowd

I wouldn't bat an eyelash and get Disturbed the slightest bit I wouldn't recoil and shock I wouldn't care it wouldn't be hard to me I've gone beyond everything everywhere especially creation

It wouldn't phase me, people see how I am they always think I'm just crazy . . . I don't care

Maybe it was my mind maybe I'm just completely insane but nothing faze's Me

I'm looking for an ascended master and looking for something wise something Illuminati

I need someone above me to help me

Kind of like neo in The matrix I need that Morpheus

But I can't find my master I can't find any master I can't find any lights in being everyone just seems like a enlightened Fool

Why are our souls in this schizophrenic creation God calls a masterpiece

I swear this day that God is has got to be the most evil Fucking thing in existence

Only I can tell you that the older or do you keep it come the more indefinitely evil they become it's just the fate of all deities it takes millions of years worth of happen but the older a deity becomes with my real experience of real deities they become infinitely more evil I mean there's no degree they can't become

And the Creator you called God is no exception I don't care how white he is

For the Pure White Fire of him I don't really give a Shit you knew what God was like you'd recoil n Horror So great I think it would kill you

Sorry to be so dark ( Red pill ) But People can't handle the truth

I can't find the Illuminati I Don't Want to join them they're stupid they don't want to talk about anything they do so it makes you think maybe I shouldn't join them

Anyone who secretive is up to no good or lease that's what they say or at least that's how it is interpreted

Honestly I don't believe in Good and Evil I just want to know why I'm really here with my purpose and why did my soul have to die

🤨

God helps no one

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blacksunscorpio · 3 years

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Aphrodite No. 1388

Have you ever found yourself inexplicably fascinated with Hollywood sex symbols, fashion, arts, or general glamor? You've probably chalked it up to your Venus placement or stellium in the 2nd or 7th [The houses Venus rules] but what if I told you that might not be the only reason?

Yes, Asteroid Aphrodite No. 1388 is the placement you may want to peep. Especially if she's making prominent placements or aspects to your inner planets. Note: Pay attention to conjunctions/squares/oppositions the most and orbs within 0-3 degrees. Trines and sextiles are of note but only if they are respecting inner planets, the ascendant, and at the aforementioned degrees.

So let's get into it:

Aphrodite in Mythology

was the goddess of sex, love, beauty, passion, fertility, prosperity, and procreation. She was also patron goddess of prostitutes and believed no one should leave this world a virgin. She was wife of the god Hephaestus, god of blacksmiths and fire but also the most notable lover of Ares [her 'Soul mate'. So what does she represent in the birth chart?

All of the above.

Asteroid Aphrodite in her elevated expression is all about love, beauty, talent, and sex appeal. She is compassionate and generous. Independent, strong in her femininity, and charming. This asteroid has the ability to see beauty in everything and has an innate knack for creativity and artistic talents. A developed and healthy expression of sexuality and passion [not the toxic kind but the kind true love stories are made of]. She's all positive pleasure and sensuality. Body positivity and healthy expressions of sex.

In her base or lower expression, she's a bit like a toxic Lilith. She'll manifest as using attractiveness for underhanded means. Infidelity, repression of the sexual drive, callousness in love or arrogance based on vanity, vanity in general, sexual manipulation, fickleness, fixation of impossible standards of beauty, or superficiality regarding aesthetics. [Basically everything wrong with fashion and beauty today.] She can also manifest in the 6th house and/or ill-aspected as those who suffer from body dysmorphia or those who suffer from eating disorders due to these impossible beauty standards. Physical perfection becomes an obsession.

Now, if you have this particular asteroid prominently based in your chart, you may find that you value beauty, pleasure, and romance. There might be a taste for refined aesthetics and/or one can just be naturally gifted with creativity and art. Career-wise, one could find themselves drawn to jobs that revolve around fashion, interior design, modeling, make-up, photography, cooking, etc. If she's touching Mars or in the 8th, one could find themselves making sex work a part of their career as well.

Aphrodite in the signs

Aries: Two words: Sexuality promiscuous. Like the sign of Aries, the fire burns hot then goes out. Freedom and independence are paramount and they value those who see things similarly. Getting too emotionally invested in others is not appearing to them in any way, here for a good time, not a long time. Sporty aesthetic. Athleisure. Sex will likely be hard and fast.

Taurus: Love of the material. Base-level treasure seekers. However, they are typically quite attractive and even look pleasant when they don't put much effort in. Follow trends and keep up with the day-to-day fashion world. Most likely an Instagram fashion influencer. Love of glitz and glam. Shinier the better. Diamonds are their best friend.

Gemini: Serial fuckers. Literally, this aphrodite placement will have a full black book of names. A thousand notches on the belt. A million notches on the bedpost... well, you get the idea. Very charismatic and uses their intelligence to seduce. Sapiosexuals. Stimulate their mind and you might keep their attention... for an hour as opposed to 15 minutes like the rest. Will know everyone and everything about everyone. Life of the party and will charm with their wit.

Cancer: The emotional lover. Don't let this food you though, hurt them and they'll pull out their pincers. This Aphrodite placement loves to be nurtured and taken care of and will often do the same. Mood affects appearance. Charms using one of two things: their hard to get energy [Crabshell] or their love of family and togetherness [4th house]. No in-between, really.

Leo: Worship me vibes. Lovers of attention. This placement is very prideful. They don't like to share [their lovers] at all. Typically though, because of their love of the spotlight, their fashion sense is impeccable. They are hard to miss and will usually light up a room. Ignore them and you'll wound them.

Virgo: Immediate/outwardly "perfect" appearance. Because of this sign's attention to detail, they are often very pristine in their approach. Clean sex- the type in the shower or when one is freshly groomed around the genital area. Will use their "perfection" to pull the cream of the crop in the dating pool their way. This placement can go far in the fashion world and may even become designers. Often do well as dancers or some sort of aesthetic career that involves "precision".

Libra: Serial Flirt. With Aphrodite here, it's like getting a double shot of Venusian energy. Pleasant, charming... naturally beauties not unlike Taurean Aphrodite's. Don't mind casual sex or casual flings but prefer relationships. Very focused on aesthetics and, like Virgo Aphrodites could go far in their fashion world or make-up pursuits. Can be very superficial.

Scorpio: Alluring vibe. They WILL fuck a lot. It's in their nature. Will be loyal if they are in a committed partnership though. Can give off scary vibes or RBF but they feel things deeply. Their aesthetic is dark colors, black as elegance, an intimidating style that appears edgy. Artistically may enjoy all things Tim Burton.

Sagittarius: Vagabond vibes. Eternal traveler. Eternal nomad. Epitome of promiscuity here. However, quite laid back. Their aesthetic probably has something to do with maps or cartography. Bohemian energy with pictures or fabrics from the far east or even Africa. Most likely has a buddha head somewhere in their home. Speak to them in an accent or different language to turn them on.

Capricorn: Independent vibes. These aphrodite placements are not keen on sharing their lives too much with others. Very business-like. Sexually though, they are insatiable. Machines. They like things to but black tie or button up. This does not mean they aren't laid back, they just like things to be all work with very little play until said work is done. Name brands and expensive suits/dresses? They're all about that. It's a status symbol thing. What Caps are famous for.

Aquarius: Avant-garde vibes. This placement will cut their hand off before they lose their freedom. More vagabond-esque than Sag tbh. Will love a style that shocks you or is out of the ordinary. Not traditional in any sense. Their sex will be kinky or they'll prefer it to have some sort of spice. Missionary? Nope. Expect a toy or ten. Pansexuals. Free love. Don't try to get them to commit unless they're ready.

Pisces: Subtle vibes. Subtle style. Dreamy style. Sexually they need to be emotionally connected. May find themselves falling in love often with the idea of someone than the reality of them. Lovers of the grunge and druggy era. 90's vibes are their aesthetic with a touch of the ethereal. Messy art studios, messy hair, even messier love lives. Might attract co-dependent types. Day-dreamy.

#had to write about this one because of all the the asks blowing up my inbox #hope this helps #asteroid astrology #aphrodite 1388 #astro tumblr #astrology

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morgana-ren · 3 years

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dis isn’t a kink really but, shigaraki kidnapping you, and you slowly but surely developing stockholm syndrome nd him just being really obsessed over you

Is there any other way it could go, really?

He takes you on a whim; Eyes you on the street and even among the crowd that he uses to cloak himself in plain sight, he finds his eyes plucked upward from the ground and drawn to you. He makes a point to never move without forethought, yet this time he does. You're disappearing into the throng of people and some strange voice in his head bids him to follow.

It's questionable what about you calls to him: It could be the lovely curve of your body, or the face he finds pleasing in the glimpses he manages to catch- the slight sway of your hips as you walk or even the wisps of hair that blow behind you as you trail forward. Perhaps it’s some aura you give off that magnetizes him, pulls him inward like the evening tide. All he knows is it he wants it- wants you.

He may as well be a child chasing a wild butterfly in the wind- Determined to catch it, but entirely unsure of what to do with it when he does.

He’s so terribly fast. So quick and clever you never even see him coming. He stalks his prey with all the cunning and grace of a cat balancing in the trees, waiting to pounce on a nest of unwitting baby birds- silent and salivating in anticipation, yet patient and careful. One look back over your shoulder would have yielded you to the predatory glint in his ruby-red eyes, but the thought, much like the darling little birds that rely on the safety of their home above ground and the aloofness to everything that snatches from below, never crosses your mind.

There’s no real struggle to speak of. Not one worth mentioning. You never stood a chance against him, so small and weak compared against a greater predator. Even without the element of surprise, he could have wrestled you low and rendered you helpless with little effort on his part. Still, the flash of fear across your face when you find him closing in is marvelous.

Kurogiri knows better than to say something when Tomura steps through the portal with an unconscious girl cradled in his arms, and even if he had the mind to, the look bridging madness in the young man’s eyes is enough to ward away any second guesses. The strange list of needed items he rattles off as he ascends the steps to his room sinks the caretaker’s gut- Bring me the ducktape, and the handcuffs, also that bottle of sedatives we keep in the basement. Make sure you lock that damn door, I don’t want her escaping- but as caretaker, it’s not his place to question. Tomura is king here, and what the king wants, the king gets.

You come to trying to wade through the residual ebb and flow of fear that curls up into your throat, adrenaline leaving you quaking and frightened. It’s dark and cold and it smells like a musty dungeon and judging by your surroundings, it might as well be. You don’t know it- and would likely be grateful for the lack of knowledge- but he hasn’t stopped staring at you since he placed you on his bed. Those terrible red eyes- calculating, cold, yet somehow hazy- keep trained on your face until your own eyes flutter open and you’re forced to face the reality of the situation.

He says nothing, but the vulpine smile across his face says plenty. There’s no intention that could be deemed ‘good’ in his prior actions or any of those to come. He wasn’t sure why he took you at the time, but the picture is starting to come together as he watches you squirm on his mattress- hair haloed across his pillow and mind fraught with terror and dreadful anticipation.

You are not a predator- There’s no hidden reserve of strength in your body to overpower him, nor is there enough knowledge of how to wield a weapon against him in the case you should get your hands on one somehow. But what you are is clever, and what you have is enough experience in the realm of spoiled, entitled men to know what’s brewing in his mind.

You cease your struggles, because that’s kindling to the fire for this type. Instead, you allow yourself to relax, meeting his gaze with as much calm collectedness as you can measure and introduce yourself, and ask him to do the same. It throws him off, but he does it, seeming surprised by your manners given the situation. Polite conversation seems awfully out of place in this scenario, but you force it regardless. A glance around the room tells you what you need to know- Gamer, schemer, loner.

It’s not much to work with, but it’s enough.

You file away everything he happens to mention, things he seems to enjoy or revere. Speaking on it when you have knowledge, listening when you don’t. It turns out he’s fairly eager to talk- or to ramble- which makes things easier, and gets his mind off of the darker recesses where it was drifting before. He hates heroes, he likes video games, he hates heroes, he likes to look at you, he hates heroes, society is broken, he hates heroes, he hates heroes.

He’s a villain, and he hates heroes.

It’s good to know the sphere you’re working within, but it brings you no comfort. He’s a villain, and he’s free, which means that heroes have already failed to catch him. That knocks them out of the running to save you. It’s up to you to survive, because he’s clearly unhinged and a few meters from the edge.

You manage to keep him from touching you for the first little while of your captivity, though he does occasionally insist that you kiss him or let him squeeze you from time to time. Mostly it’s a matter of keeping him distracted and interested in other things. Showing you his favorite games, playing along with him and purposefully taking a dive to boost his ego. Letting him talk at you and tell you why heroes are garbage, only to nod your head and pretend like you’re starting to see his point. He’s surprisingly concise for a lunatic, and makes his points well. It’s apparent there’s some deep and bleeding wound there that never healed, stark red and open for the world to see, because the words he says are ones he’s etched into his soul.

He starts to trust you, at least a little. You haven’t tried to run (if you thought you had a chance, you would absolutely bolt but you know his watchdog is ever present down the stairs and the leap is too high from his nailed-shut window) and you’ve yet to fight him. He loosens your bonds, stops finding reasons to threaten you, even relaxes a little. There’s this childlike grin that plays on his chapped mouth when he sees you in the morning, and it’s getting a bit difficult to remember that this man is a terrifying force of nature when all he seems to you (bondage aside) is a young man with too many scars both inside and out.

He makes a point to learn about you. Learn your hobbies, your favorite colors, small memories you have that you hold dear. He brings you gifts- little offerings to earn your affection- and eventually you have your own little corner in his dank room- not dissimilar to a shrine, as if he read a book dedicated to you and highlighted everything he thought pertinent. His mind is a rolodex with an entire category dedicated to you. You wonder, briefly, how long he’s been alone that he’s taken so with a stranger that showed him the barest kindness.

Some nights he stumbles home covered in blood. Some nights its his own. As a civilian, you are horrified, but as a captive, your mind must take another path. He snaps at you, venomous and wild, when you try to patch him up- I’m fine, stop touching it. This is nothing- why are you crying?- until he finally relents and lets you do your best to soothe the ache. He relaxes into your chest when you’ve finished and you stroke his pale hair on sheets covered in blood as he drifts to sleep atop you.

He’s always wanted you in his bed, made you sleep next to him and held you as you faced toward the wall. Come the morning, however, you wake to find yourself burrowed into his chest, your forehead flush against his neck and legs entwined with his. His hands, as always, are carefully pulled away, but yours aren’t.

Months in and he doesn’t come home one night. It’s not unusual for him to leave for small periods of time, but he always tells you when these times will be. He did not, which means that something is wrong. You fret and wring your hands, pacing around and around in circles across his frayed carpet until hours later he swings open the door.

He seems shocked when you throw your arms around his neck before he gets a foot in- I was worried, where were you? Are you okay?- but he hugs you back in earnest, seeming more than happy to return the affection even if he squeezes too tightly around your ribs. There’s a worming tendril in your gut that begins to grow that whispers that your words are not entirely a lie.

Tomura is a man. A man with a girl he keeps in his room like a prized possession behind a glass box. A girl he’s managed to keep his hands off of, which is a testament, he thinks, to his willpower. Still, he craves more, and it becomes more and more apparent the further time drags on, stringing you along with it. He tries to be sly- to hold you closer, inch his hands higher (or lower in some cases) to deepen the kisses he steals from you. The deadline is approaching as surely as the dawn. Tomura is a man and a villain and what you do not give freely, he will simply take.

So you maintain control by giving it.

He is capable of terrible cruelty, but when he takes you, this is not the side he chooses to show. He is rough and hard, because he is still encased in thorns that not even you could sand away, but he is also loving and generous. More than you thought him capable of. Any bruises and cuts you may suffer are ones he takes care of for you afterward, sheepishly apologizing for any harsh names or things he may have said in the heat of passion. Tired and blissful, he curls up inside of you and kisses you tenderly.

“I love you.” And you say it back without the tide of disgust that used to sit heavy on the back of your throat when you did.

What it is to be loved by a man who hates everything. His scornful gaze condemns anyone and everyone around him, softening only when you are near. He is a monster, a madman, and a murderer, but he yields to you and only to you. He will snap and howl and bare his teeth and sharpen his claws but keep you steady behind him when he does so. He would lie kingdoms at your feet, and you know he fully intends to do so.

You cannot say you will not mourn it, but somewhere in this twisted timeline, you would grieve for his loss more. A rock and a hard place that forces you to choose between that which you have held dear and that which holds you. A life without him now is no life at all- he would sooner see you dead than free- and you accept this.

He loves you. And perhaps, in a bittersweet way, you love him too.

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