#I live in constant agony

[that-unfortunate-crow]

Instead of saying this:

Vessel should have just shot me point blank. Would have hurt less.

#Yet in reverse you are all my symmetry #what if i cried #*wails* #*thousand yard stare* #Sleep Token #euclid #Mr Vessel the First please just kill me next time #I live in constant agony #fuck off #lovingly #worshitposting

[burning-sol]

i literally havent finished the new riptide or bitb episode because my exandroth brainrot has taken over. i cant focus on ANYTHING else. im so starved for exandroth content im gonna lose it!!!!

#📚 my posts #👁️‍🗨️ exandroth posting #i live in constant agony

[izhape]

no offense intended really but this genuinely must be coming from someone who has no experience around cattle. there's a huge difference between putting an animal out of its misery humanely because it will absolutely suffer and die a slow painful death and comparing this to disabled people is just so ucky to me....

#txt #no shade to this person i understand where they're coming from but. it isn't kind at all to make these animals suffer for some moral high #ground. source: lived on a ranch and my family are ranchers #it's not because 'its just an animal' that's a cruel way to see it #also my rancher family is INDIGENOUS we know how to properly take care of animals they are not colonizer settler ranchers. to clarify #this is about the two-headed calf that got popular on here for a while #anyways um. cows can't tell you how much pain they're in a majority of the time. it's great that we want to try our best to help them live #a happy life even if it's short it is genuinely a nice idea but in reality she was going to get sores and infections and she was in constant #agony

[b100dstains]

i am cursed. i will forever be the girl who loves more

#i will never get over this #i will never recover from being the one who always cares more #i wish somebody cared for me #but i am nothing #i’m in agony #constant agony #actually borderline #actually bpd #being borderline #borderline blog #borderline personality disorder #borderline problems #borderline things #borderline thoughts #bpd #bpd baddie #bpd be like #bpd brain #bpd blog #bpd vent #bpd feels #bpd thoughts #bpd problems #bpd splitting #living with borderline #$h vent #vent blog #vent

[aftermathing]

How to find will to live and purpose in life when chronic pain is destroying your body and mind.

#Slash gen #I can't do ANYTHING #No doctors believe me #I'm in my early twenties I should not should not have to lay down in bed for an hour after bending over to pick up a sock #My life is being brutally stolen from me #My parents call me lazy and unmotivated and don't believe I physically CAN'T do some things #I shouldn't have to beg not to be in constant unending pain #Nobody understands. My pain is literally. Not joking. Constant. Every second of every day I am hurting. #I'm not exaggerating or making a funny literally every single cell in my body is dedicated to pain #And it's getting worse it's getting so much worse and I have no one to help me #I'm going to die writhing in agony until my body gives up or I'm going to make it quick and shoot myself #I can't live like this #Nobody even pities me anymore they just make it seem like I'm disappointing them by ruining conversations with my pain #I can't do it #Please genuinely anyone with ANY tips please #Please even the dumbest and most obvious shit like drink water idk

[secretbazaar]

I might delete social media from my phone

#due to the constant agony #would still post art from desktop #oh but I love the women who like my posts on here #and a man or two! Just one actually. You know who you are #(there’s more than one I want to get my male followers to fight for my entertainment) #or maybe I’ll delete literally everything but my Pokémon content and art. and live a charmed life with no tag essays #haha as if

[archiephd]

post concussion life is like btw you can't do anything anymore BUT touch grass without head hurty every single day forever and ever sorry. or congratulations

#can't work OR play without constant pain anymore this is sooo stupid #the untapped rage i have for hollywood concussions now reaching its final form at this point #it's been like 3 months since my concussion and STILL. daily headaches forever bc i am chronically online #i did try to rest for like a week and then my cat needed me to wake up every 3.5hrs for 30mins to keep him alive for like #6 days. and my brain never recovered and probably never will 👍 #WHILE working full time the agonies are forever i get it now #anyway. this IS a sign i Could be touching grass more. however it is like 90 degrees every day rn :( #hell world we live in #j.txt

[soldier-poet-king]

I need to move out not just because my brain is going insane but also because I need complete control over my food again....I didnt start having all this stomach pain and constant acid reflux etc etc etc until I moved back in at the beginning of covid and my diet changed to whatever my mother decides. When I was on my own I ate way less meat/more veg and a more "traditional" Mediterranean food pyramid and I felt SO much better

Everyone wants to blame coffee or wine but my consumption of those hasn't changed so??? Like MAYBE it's partially age but also....I'm not that old and this is a p significant shift in a 2 yr period

#if i started cooking all my own meals and buying my own groceries i think my mother would be upset #mostly bc everytime i try she says oh just make me a list and she'll buy it #but shes OVERLY frugal and buys cheap and bulk and on sale #and im much more focus on small quantities of good shit #like it makes sense shes a SAHM of several kids and im a single person #but yall my GI tract is CONSTANTLY SUFFERING #and idk how to live with this near constant esophageal and sternum pain and bloating #that doesn't seem to be linked to any specific trigger food #i even had allergy testing done! nada of the main allergen foods #maybe i start meal planning again AND doing my own shoping #sure my bills will increase bc rn im a mooch #but im so desperate to not....be in pain.... #problem is my mother DOESN'T meal plan ahead of time so its hard for me to coordinate #i create WEEKLY schedules and i stick with them #i am a chreachure of habit and meticulous scheduling and lists #it makes my life easier and my stomach in less agony #franposting #health stuff tmi #sort of. im just. CHEST/STERNUM/DIAPHRAGM/ESOPHAGUS HURTY #my tums and gavascon consumption has increased exponentially #I NEVER USED TO NEED EITHER. EVER.

[madefate]

it's simple, i put on my angry girl playlist, think about clarisse, scream

#( clarisse hc. ) #every time i go into her head it's an an INFERNO of constant agony #just !!! living in a world that's supposed to finally fit you and you /still don't fucking fit/ #you're STILL too much you're STILL too loud you're STILL too intense & so is your whole cabin #and you're the children of war - the most fundamental cornerstone of a demigod's existence in the world at all - #and everyone /fucking hates you anyway/ #and you want to be so proud of being a TRUE warrior - you want to believe that YOU define what's good and honorable #but you still tremble under the weight of your father's expectations and anger and the pain he inflicts to make you stronger #when he cares to #and it's not enough it's never enough because demigods will always suffer because they're caught in the tides between gods & mortals #and you feel out of place in both of them #you could have been great #but you are your father's favorite daughter and isn't that the tragedy

[eagledrawsandvibes]

doot doot

Awww silly girls, I love them—WAIT YOU DOOT DOOTED ME

#asks #eagletalks #nygmobblepot #riddlebird #i live in a constant state of agony

[glitter-alienz]

Dudez I can't do this anymore why is my health so ass?? I can't keep anything down

#like everytime i eat i immediately vomit or get diarrhea idek man its definetly my celiac acting up bcuz i had pasta but damn #i just wanna live without constant pain #venting on main #<- kind of #i need to being annoying on here sometimes #the dib speakz!! #vent #agony

[kingabezka]

playing rhythm heaven everyday, burning all my braincells away until only spin it boys remains

#rhythm heaven #shitpost #i love rhythm heaven #if I had a chance to relive my life #i would FORCE my parents to buy me a DS and then wii only to play rhythm heaven and no other game #I live in constant agony of regret and missing out on stuff

[grimalkinmessor]

Back on my Meronia is parallel to Dabisho and Lawlight is parallel to AFOFA bullshit actually because I've been obsessing over them lately and my brain takes the strings from both boards and just screams "I'VE DONE IT, I'VE CONNECTED THEM" except for the fact that I'm right

#:P #meronia #dabisho #lawlight #afofa #no you dont understand okay bc meronia is dabisho coded in that theyre brothers but lawlight is afofa coded in that theyre eternal enemies #mello parallels dabi so hard it physically hurts me #L and light kinda swap off on AFO and yoichi for me but its still very much Them™ #the mirrored hunter/hunted + only-equals-forever-locked-in-battle dynamics have me in a constant chokehold #aND THE FACT THAT THEY BOTH SWAP ON THE HUNTER/HUNTED SIDE DEPENDING ON THE FUCKIN CHAPTER #meanwhile dabisho and meronia sharing that agony of familial trauma between the two members it affected most therefore pitting them against #one another while simultaneously making them both the only one who could understand the other #mutual brokeness and obsession with a goal given to you by someone you both hate and are indebted to—all to live up to a man NO ONE can #live up to #okay ill shut up now #but i am still here 👁️always and forever here 👁️

[melonisopod]

“You should NEVER forgive the people who wronged you!” okay, and what do I do if I can’t craft a Monte Cristo-style revenge scheme to make them all suffer like I did? What the fuck am I gonna do?

#sometimes people forgive cause they gotta move on with their lives #trust me i WANT to put every person who's even mildly inconvenienced me through utter misery #i want everyone who has hurt me to never know a moment of peace #i want those people to be in constant screaming agony #but i dont have the means. too poor and autistic. #so i gotta move on. i gotta make peace with it.

[halinski]

ive realized that its not that i dont like doing things like chores or taking care of myself, its not just executive dysfunction that makes regularly function feel so damn near IMPOSSIBLE

it's just that on a sensory level... everything is so mother. fucking. painful

for context: i put away a few clean dishes and i almost started crying bc my ears couldnt take it

#too painful for words #sensory sensitivity #i have never been able to put into words nor will ever be able to how much i suffer every second of my life #existence is suffering #i have been trying to voice and explain that to everyone since i can think #but no one understands #so i just swallow it #you have depression this you have anxiety that you have bpd other... #all i know is pain #thats all ive ever been able to understand is pain #which is why sh is so fundamental to me but anyone without sensory processing disorder will never be able to understand #that combined with all my mental pain is just #...i'm in constant agony #and i'm always told and looked at like i'm tooo sensitive and exaggerating and i hate it #i want everyone to fuck off #which is why i live with constant suicidal ideation #this is why i dissociate 24/7 #ignore me #sensory processing disorder #i dissociate to survive #dissociative disorder #borderline protects me #borderline personality disorder

[officialbillhader]

He looks so pathetic in oscar's little body like i dont even care that he held so much information from the girls. I wanna hug him

#awesomepie3221 #i mean listen. i know part of this feeling is due to a bit of rushed writing #but its also. i honestly dont know how you could be mad. thjs man has lived in constant guilt #and burden and at this point mental agony. for hundreds of years and lifetimes! #hes broken! #so very very broken #ap watches rwby