#I have 2 modes: not doing the thing and overdoing the thing

[windvexer]

how to develop psychism, startinggggg... NOW!

This is a standalone reply to an ask, the relevant context being: how can I practice methods of psychism in a way that's natural to me, instead of following someone's dumb guide?

(The irony being that this is also a guide, but I'm nothing if not an advocate of foolishness)

This method has only one step: just start practicing

The above is the only step to remember. The rest of this post will be hints and tips for how to practice and keep your practice sessions useful, while avoiding some common pitfalls.

For this method, you must be able to keep records of some sort. Record keeping is important because it helps ward against falling into confused or false thinking.

Example: You practice clairaudience and you think hear a spirit say, "this person will bring you great gifts; they are reliable." Three weeks later, this person has betrayed you. The supposed spirit now claims that it actually meant, "learning not to trust so easily is a great gift; that person was reliably going to teach you this lesson."

Unless you keep accurate records of what you experience, it can be easy to fall into confused or mislead patterns of thinking. Using the above evidence, we might realize that no, this isn't a spirit - this is a personal inner voice that is truly my own wistful thinking. (Or, yes it is a spirit - and one that needs to be kicked out immediately.)

So first - find a way of keeping records. They don't have to be detailed. I learned spirit communication at a keyboard and transcribed the conversation as I went. This is useful for detailed interactions, but hardly necessary for most practice sessions.

A post-it note marking yes or no for your true/false verifications will serve as well. Whatever's simple.

Look for 2-4 verifiable things in your everyday life which you can use to practice and test your skills.

This doesn't mean 2-4 practice sessions a day. Just keep your eye out for a few things that you can use to practice on. We want to try and find a couple of categories, if possible:

Yes/no verification: Something that you do in your life which has close to a 50/50 outcome probability (rolling a die or flipping a coin works fine).

Roll a die

Flip a coin

Which of her 2 pairs of shoes will Samantha wear today?

My car key only works if I put it in the ignition one way, so it's a 50/50 chance the car will start

Stuff like that

Verifiable information-gathering: A way for you to read on situations, people, objects, etc., before you verify the truth.

What sandwich is this next customer going to order?

Which version of the boss will spawn in this raid?

What mood will the professor be in today?

Our real goal here is to find actual situations we can test our psychism against and know for sure if we're being psychic - or not.

You don't want to overdo it with the verifiable stuff. It can be disheartening. Think of verifiable readings more as tests, rather than lessons. If you start with a success rate of "average" (wrong half the time), you might quickly talk yourself out of future practice.

But if you can outline for yourself what is verifiable and what isn't, you can start making choices about when you want to test yourself versus when you want to explore your skills on creative play mode.

Suppose you want to Be Psychic, but you aren't sure which kind of psychic to try and be (clairvoyant? Clauraudient? etc.) Well, never mind about that. The clairs- are like art styles. You don't set out choosing to copy one. You start out by psychism for a while and then the way you end up doing it the most is your style.

This may take a little while to work out, but that's alright. The time will pass regardless, we might as well doing something with it. Start out practicing with things like this:

Ask yourself if the house plant soil is dry, and pause for a moment to see what comes to mind.

Be open to anything - memories, music/audio clips, mind's eye visualization, visualized or internally "heard" words, a feeling in your tummy, an emotional sensation, a tickle in your hands, a sudden and apparently unrelated urge, etc.

Mark down what comes to you.

Then, see if it's right.

The correlation may not make much sense, and it doesn't need to. Don't question things too much at the beginning.

Suppose I ask myself if the house plant soil is dry, and I suddenly recall a video clip of an actor flipping someone off. I test the soil, and it's wet. Well, weird, but whatever.

The next time, I do the same operation, see the same actor - this time he's rolling his eyes - and the soil is dry.

The third time, I see the actor flip me off, and the soil is wet.

None of these flashes would apparently have anything at all to do with soil wetness. I might not have any idea why I'm seeing what I'm seeing - until three years later, when I put it together that this plant is just an asshole and is tired of having to explain to me how to take care of it; it came with a little instruction booklet, after all, and I'm boring it by having to ask every single time.

So there's no need to really obsess with symbolism. Sometimes plants want to expressly convey that they're being rude to you. Sometimes the feeling of excitement in your stomach is the plant's thrill of anticipation of getting water. It may not make sense at the time, and it doesn't need to.

The most important thing is keeping records and seeing if your instincts and interpretations are correct.

Then, after five weeks of this strange and rude nonsense, you walk into a plant nursery and gosh darn if you can explain it, but that plant in the corner is flipping you off. Go and test it, and see if you're not at all surprised at how dry the soil is.

Just start practicing. Practice now, with lots of things - lots of different things.

Some people can accurately read objects, but not living things (and vice-versa).

Some people are excellent at seeing auras, but couldn't tell you what a person is about to say next - and vice-versa.

Some people are scary good with yes/no interpretations, but can't answer open-ended questions (vice that versa, if you get my drift).

Some people can commune with nature-based spirits very well, but not non-earthen astral ones - and so on.

It's really unfair to yourself (and inaccurate to boot) to just start out reading, like, "what card will I draw next?" type questions and fail at it and then think you'll never be a real psychic. I've gotten like, people's real names in readings before and I've never once accurately called the next card drawn better than chance.

Not everyone can read every sort of thing.

A good place to start is to read on things that fascinate you and inspire you. At the very least, passion will provide a leg-up to getting practice time in.

Suppose you actually have chosen a specific sort of psychism to practice.

This is probably easier than just standing still and seeing which one comes to you (the downside is, if you don't know yourself well enough to know where to start, you could be swimming upstream while your natural talents languish in the corner).

It's easier because you can significantly fine-tune what sort of input you'll accept right from the start.

Want to have Second Sight? Well then once you ask your question and see what comes, you'll only be considering visual input (that is, mind's eye or projected visualization).

If you want to have Hearing, only accept linguistic input (whether "heard" within your mind, the same way you "hear" people talking in your memories, or whether you "see" words, or just gain an immediate Knowing that's cemented through language, etc).

But the process is the same - start asking questions, make a bit of space in your mind (a second or so will do), and see what comes to you.

Pay attention to it, keep records, and verify what you can.

You don't need to practice all the time or X amount of times per week, or whatever. Does psychism interest you? Add it to your life as an interest, a hobby - a passing fancy, even. Pull it out to entertain yourself while waiting in lines or bored at work. Or, make whole afternoons out of playing with it.

My only recommendation is that you give it several months of practice (say, at least six) before you throw in the towel. Again, I don't mean months of daily practice. Just have it on your plate, as a part of your life.

It's my experience that for witches, psychism interplays into a lot of other skills and experiences (divinatory skill, magical skill, the spirits around you, the gods around you, personal initiations, etc) so if you don't have results in this period of your life, you may certainly get results later on.

#psychism #answered

[mislamicpearl]

Finally starting Dragons Rising season 2!

Just my raw thoughts of the first three episodes, go:

*Spoilers* (in case there's anyone like me who still hasn't seen it)

Every time Ras is onscreen I just zone out, such a boring ass villain.

Rayu is bigger! How much time has passed??

Oh dear, influencers have made their way into Ninjago... oh well at least they don't seem to be a huge factor of the season.

OMG yes they acknowledged PIXAL as one of the missing ninja, bring her back too! 😭

Yo Cole get back here, Master Wu's ghost is RIGHT FLIPPING THERE!!?

Dang, new Master of Smoke packs a PUNCH, his fight scenes are pretty cool.

Would've been cool if it had been Ronan running that antiques shop... Seriously what happened to all the old side characters?? The new ones just don't hold a candle to them.

Speaking of, sorry to say, Erin and Sora are still pretty boring to me too. Like yeah they're cute but they just don't have the same amount of personality and charm as the OG gang.

Erin is kinda overdoing it with the whole "poor me, I don't have any Elemental powers" shtick. Makes me think he might put on one of those wolf masks on purpose at one point to potentially unlock some hidden powers or improve his Spinjitsu.

Annnnd Zane is left behind because the writers just don't know what to do with him besides robot jokes, as usual...

Every micro-second of Kai daddying Wyldfire gives me LIFE!

Likewise Nya big-sistering Lloyd whenever he's distressed. Someone working on the show is obviously a big fan of the RGB sibs. X3

YO-! IT'S WU!! Finally~! Okay yeah it was a vision but we finally see him fully and talking! Poor Lloyd, Wu would never say those things to him.

AND JAAAAAAYYYY!!! NYA AND JAY!! It's heart-breaking that their actual reunion might turn out just like that vision though. :'(

Glad his voice actor isn't making his voice so high-pitched anymore, though that could just be because he's still in Agent Walker mode.

Nya still the main holder of the group's brain cell with her realizing right away that the visions weren't real.

WHAT DID KAI SEE??? WHY DID HE LOOK SO UPSET, WHAT DID HE SEE!!

#mispearl cartoon thoughts #mispearl ninjago thoughts

[mingiswow]

Boyfriend!Seonghwa

⚠️ english is not my first language, so sorry if there's any mistake

Okay hear me out

Seonghwa strikes me as a very mature man

And he sees his work as just a job 

So I feel like he wants to date someone totally out of the industry 

Someone who can bring a normal life to him

even If it’s just a little bit 

So you guys probably met through mutual friends 

Maybe they set you two up because 

1) Seonghwa was becoming a grumpy grandpa because everyone he meets just want to take advantage of him 

And 2) because your friend thought you’d look cute together

So they got you two into a blind date

He was very skeptical at first 

But soon enough he felt more at ease with you and enjoyed your presence

Sure, you do like kpop and sure you do know who he is but that wasn’t what was important for you 

You loved his presence and talking to him

And you two found that you had more in common than you thought 

Date after date after Seonghwa finally asked you to be his significant other 

So yeah something like this 

Like I said, he seems like a very mature man so it’s only expected for him to look out for a mature s/o

But he would also enjoy it if you were spontaneous 

He loves when you drag him to somewhere random just because 

Or when you guys are enjoying each other’s company at home chilling by the ac when you just ask him to go to the beach 

These little things make him feel like a teenager in love

And he honestly loves it 

But he also loves deep thoughtful conversations with you 

When he has his head full of problems and worries because of work and you just let him vent before giving him advice or helping him with the issues

He can’t help but think that you’d be the perfect person to spend the rest of his days with

And because you are both very mature, you barely fight 

bc your communication as a couple is very on point 

You always discuss and talk about the things that are bothering you 

But that also means that when you fight is either because it is something big or because one of you is stressed or burned out

Which leads to intense discussion 

You usually are the one backing down first because usually he is the one over-stressed 

But also you don’t back down if you believe you are the right one in the situation 

But after a few hours of alone time and thoughts, one of you apologizes and you sort it out better

But back to the good things

He doesn’t really have a pet name for you

Just calls you jagiya 

He absolutely loves spending time with you 

Especially if it’s silent time

He just loves to be in your company even if it’s you two reading or watching some tv with your legs across his lap as he mindlessly draws random patterns on your skin with his fingers

He is not ashamed of pda but also doesn’t overdo it

If you guys are around the boys he is not ashamed or afraid to have you in his lap or cuddling 

tbh not even to steal some pecks from your lips 

He doesn’t like to go out in public for obvious reasons but when you do he is always holding your hand or you have your arms linked 

His kisses 

Honestly, I have no idea lol 

Because I feel like he is the type of guy to have a type of kiss for every moment

But overall I think he is a gentle kisser

Not a fan of tongue tho 

Because it usually gets him turned on

He is very easy to rile up 

NSFW from here on ⇉ minors dni ⇇

I hate to admit but yes

he is a dominant person

but I feel not like in full dom mode

more as in controlling the situation

very talkative during sex

giving you orders and praises and guiding you through it

“just like that jagi, move faster”

“you’re so good to me, so obedient”

you feel all giddy from the way he talks to you during sex

like you’re down on him, giving your best mouth performance, and then he smoothly and softly runs his hands through your hair while simultaneously praising you for your good job

He loves roleplaying

like get you on cute and overly sexy outfits and act for him

his favorite one is being the boss and the employee

an absolute ass man

I am talking about having to hold himself every time you wear a short skirt 

that being said

loves fucking you on top of furniture with your body bent over and your ass sticking out

even bought one of those special furniture/pillow things so he could have you comfortable while he fucks you

also loves when you reverse ride him so he can grab your ass or watch it bounce and wiggle

if you happen to have a vagina expect him to bring the idea of anal sooner or later in the relationship

he doesn’t last long and he knows that

so he’ll extend the fun and your pleasure by going down on you and teasing you

loves using toys so he can overstim you before he has his ways

also is a big fan of orgasm denial so you better hold that or else he won’t let you cum again

but his favorite part is the aftercare

loves taking you to the bathroom and washing your body

touching it with so much love and care

as he whispers sweet nothings to your ear

thanking you for being so good to him

and saying how much he loves you

before taking you back to bed as he hums soft tunes for you to sleep

overall Hwa is a man who knows what he wants and how he wants and that translates into his dating style

so expect him to be the man you’ll marry because once he finds you, he won’t let go 

boi i’m sad now

Masterlist

Requests are open

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[lordarsonizzzzt]

Hey, how are you doing? I just got home from work and I'm so tired,,,,,, what about a reader who works 24/8 (haha) and everyone just doesn't understand how you can not sleep for more than three weeks, everyone starts thinking that the reader is some kind of anomaly-

(you can do this with with your favorite characters) I won't go into details, I still have to go to training in an hour, I hope you feel well. Don't overdo it!! Have a nice day!!

ANON WHAT THOSE ARE SHITTY HOURS, have some rest and drink water,,, i wish you the best of luck

didn't really get the cant sleep for more than three weeks part¿¿ i guess you meant like they hardly get any sleep, but if not tell me and I'll change it!

SCP STAFF WITH A READER THAT WORKS A LOT

CHARACTERS: Simon Glass & Gerald, Talloran & Draven.

DR GLASS & DR GERALD

⌚︎ You barely see your partners, while you all live in the same house y'all get to work at 8 am, they usually come back at 1 or 2 pm and then leave again at 8 pm or so, but you don't stop until they leave, your work is hard and very demanding, and while you get some breaks and stuff, is still shitty.

☆ You barely get any sleep when you get to the house, it doesn't matter how tired you are, you like waiting for your lovers to chat a little until they go to sleep.

⌚︎ It feels like you can't close your eyes and can't relax everytime you get into your bed, the need to do something comes rushing and keeps you awake all night until morning time.

☆ First who will notice is Simon, he will call in sick to his second shift and will wait for you to have a talk about overworking.

⌚︎ He will tell you he can get you into their work, and it's probably going to be better for you, he seems really worried and can't stop rubbing his thumbs on your hand.

☆ You told him that is okay, you think you can keep going plus, they never told you what their job is about and you think maybe you are not qualified for it.

⌚︎ Then Gerald will try to talk to you about it, telling you that he doesn't want you being tired and shit, he will take you out for a drink and will do that thing Simon told him NOT to do.

☆ He will talk to you about the foundation, he will tell you how it is there, that you'll fit in nicely, he'll tell you about his anomaly (you always thought he was just really clumsy) and about some other stuff.

⌚︎ Then he'll tell you to join or just try to forget about what he said, if you decide to join he will tell Simon and he's going to be so happy to have both of his lovers in there!

☆ Simon will chew him out tho, he could have put you in risk by telling you that!

TALLORAN & DRAVEN

✱ You work with Gears and Iceberg, so you are already on the shitty side.

❀ People think that you are okay with them leaving their paperwork in your hands, so that usually makes you stay all day in the site, not even going to your in site dorm.

✱ Extrangely enough, you don't seem to get tired? Like, you surely look like it but not,, you know, in need to sleep.

❀ Draven will fight tooth and nail so you can have a normal schedule, and Talloran will go full Karen mode.

✱ And then they'll realize that talking to is better. So the first one is Talloran, who tells you that he hasn't see you touch a bed in weeks, and will pester you until you either snap at him or do as he says.

❀ And if Talloran's way doesn't work, then it will have to be Draven's way.

✱ It was already 11 pm, Draven comes in almost breaking the door, you jump a little because of the noise and next thing you know he's picking you up and throwing you over his shoulder, it doesn't matter that you yell at him to let go or you kick and punch, he is not going to let go.

❀ He carries you to your in site dorm where everything is clean and your bed has a lot of pillows in where you are thrown.

✱ You try to say something but Draven just throws himself at your side and hugs you like you are going to teleport away, you sigh and realize anything you do to resist is pointless.

❀ "You are getting cold, I don't want you getting too cold."

✱ You stay quiet after that, the door opens and in enters Talloran that has a 'I WON' smile, he changes into his pajamas and lays on your other side, giving you a little kiss in your forehead and covering the three of you with the heavy blanket, to then fall asleep also cuddling you.

❀ You eventually relax in that safe space only they know how to provide and start closing your eyes to rest finally.

#scp x reader

[affordable-therapy-boulder]

How to Not Feel Out of Control with Food

Does this sound familiar?

It’s 9 p.m. and the kids are finally in bed, you’ve had a long day and are so stinkin’ tired. The

orange, plastic pumpkin full of Halloween candy is sitting on the kitchen counter and it feels as

if the candy is literally calling to you, “Eat me! I know you’re going to!”

You tell yourself that you don’t ‘need’ any more candy and that you should just go to bed since

you’re so tired or eat an apple if you want a snack. But another part of you says, “It’s been a

long day. You deserve the candy.”

One thing leads to another and before you know it you are elbow deep in the candy bowl. Guilt

starts to creep up on you as you look at the empty wrappers left behind and once again you feel

like a failure because you ate more calories or sugar than you were ‘supposed to.’

We are entering the season where “trigger” foods, candy, and sweets are everywhere! If you’re

like the majority of the U.S. population, you feel a lot of stress about what and how much to eat

this time of year. And, you may also be feeling stress about overeating, emotional eating or

binge eating in general.

If so, read on for 3 ways to help yourself not feel out of control with food this holiday season.

Give yourself emotional permission.

That’s right, you need to give yourself permission. While this sounds counterintuitive, if

you are restricting with food today, you are almost 100% guaranteed to overdo it with

food tomorrow. And, just because you physically let yourself eat something doesn’t

mean you actually emotionally or mentally gave yourself permission. Notice the next

time you’re eating a holiday treat what you say to yourself while you eat it. Do you feel

shame or guilt? Shame and guilt exacerbate the very behaviors we are trying to stop. So,

to emotionally give yourself allowance, try taking a breath, being aware while you eat

and give yourself permission. As the shame and guilt lessen, you’ll find you’re less likely

to go into all or nothing mode.

2. Take care of yourself.

Usually when we find ourselves eating beyond the point of fullness or eating a lot more

sugar than our bodies actually want, it is because we are stressed out. This doesn’t

mean you can’t have the yummy treat, but ask yourself what you really need deep

down? Maybe you need to HALT and see if you are hungry, angry, lonely or tired? When

was the last time you just did something fun for the sake of it? See if you can give your

body and mind what they really need rather than asking food to fill in.

3) Eat 3 square meals a day.

If you are hungry you are much more likely to succumb to the candy bowl or overeat at

the office dinner party. Maybe you want to save your calories or points so you don’t go

over your limit at Thanksgiving, but this will actually only set you up to do the very thing

you’ve been trying to avoid – overeat. When we are hungry our bodies experience this

as stress and interpret hunger as signs of starvation. By eating three square meals a day

and listening to your body so it is both full and satiated you will reduce the chances of

going overboard with the pumpkin shaped Reese’s cups when no one is looking!

If you liked this article please share it! And, if you’re interested in working with someone on

issues like emotional or binge eating, reach out to set up a session with a therapist at Whole

Connection. We accept Medicaid and work on a sliding scale with private pay clients.

Read more..

#therapists in boulder co

[tendercoretroglodyke]

... I’m interested in legitimately gay Reese (I assume one piece of evidence is “look at what they’re doing and tell me you’re not gay”)

okay this is like 2 days late but this is why reese malcolminthemiddle is legitimately gay:

(side note: did anyone need a queer media thesis paper or something... I am willing to share lmao)

so none of this is like... rock solid evidence or anything but I need to believe at least one main character of a show is gay and/or trans to maintain interest and reese is the most plausible gay character. also it’s early 2000′s so he just gets a lot of vaguely homophobic jokes lmao

first of all, yes, the biggest piece of evidence he’s gay is those lines from that episode I quoted the other day--thinking malcolm is gay, he tries to show his support by giving him a gay porno: “’Naught Pool Boys 3!’ I watched 10 or 12 of these, and this one seems to have the most stuff you guys like.” and when malcolm says he isn’t gay, reese responds “Malcolm. Check out what those guys are doing in that movie, and THEN tell me you’re not gay.”-- so, 1) reese sat down and watched like a dozen gay porn movies to ““find a good one for his gay brother”” and 2) he thinks malcolm would reconsider his heterosexuality if he watched what was in that movie, implying that HE reconsidered his sexuality after watching that movie, or at the very least found it hot

in the same episode, the character tricking malcolm into thinking reese is gay lists the following as evidence: he obsesses over his hair and his looks, loves his gourmet cooking, has a bunch of magazines covered in comically muscular men, and that he’s angry and acts like a jerk because he’s “dealing with something weird and confusing.” now obviously, the obsession with hair/looks can be chalked up to the fact that he’s a teenage boy, and there’s nothing inherently gay about enjoying cooking. the dozen magazines of muscle-bound men could certainly be taken as gay evidence, though, and it IS established in the show that his entire bully persona is his way of masking his inner feelings and insecurities. there’s literally a whole episode where he & malcolm realize they have no friends because they act like little shits to push people away because they’re afraid of rejection and/or abandonment from their peers. they ostracize themselves before they can be ostracized by the other students at school. I could probably write a whole other essay on reese’s psyche tbqh lmao there’s a shocking amount there!!

of the brothers who are actually old enough to be attracted to girls (reese, malcolm, and francis), he shows the least interest. now bear with me here. you might be thinking, “well, yeah, it’s malcolm’s show, we’re not gonna see things from other people’s perspective!” but that is actually surprisingly untrue, the show is very much equally shown from each family members’ perspectives. starting about s2, when malcolm is in early middle school, he starts getting crushes on girls and pursuing them. francis goes after a few women in the first couple seasons and then marries a woman we see a lot throughout the show. 

in the roughly... 130?? episodes I have watched so far, nearly all of reese’s “interest” in girls involve either: competition with malcolm, genuinely just liking her as a friend, or some completely ulterior motive. the only exception to this I can think of is in the early seasons where he has a crush on a cheerleader and tries to get on her good side by joining the cheerleading squad, which the writers clearly set up as a way to make gay jokes about reese. let me give you a few examples of his relationships with girls

the first relationship we see him in is with a “stupid girl” that malcolm tried (and failed) to date, and the main reason they get together is that they think on the same wavelength and genuinely seem to enjoy hanging out. they take breaks from their bro chats to make out every once in a while. eventually he gets her to break up with him because he doesn’t want to go to the school dance with her (he doesn’t want to go at all). years later, he’s dating some girl we meet for like 5 minutes, before he goes to confess to her that she’s the first girl he’s ever loved. she then breaks up with him. he’s sad, but taking it fairly well. he’s about to leave when he sees malcolm hiding under the bed, and learns that he stole his girlfriend. he then runs away to join the army. he was clearly MUCH more upset that his brother stole his girlfriend than he was that his girlfriend broke up with him. there are many more instances of him and malcolm competing for a girl’s affections, and he seems mostly motivated by the competition itself.

in addition to “stupid girl,” he also manufactures an “attraction” to his female army buddy in the last season. the premise of this episode is that his old army buddy (a girl he play-wrestles with and insults like he would his own brothers) comes to visit him, and malcolm convinces reese that she’s attracted to him, and that reese’s nervousness at learning that fact is proof he’s in love with her. there’s a misunderstanding where reese asks her if she has certain “feelings” and she says she does, but what she ACTUALLY means is that she has a crush on reese’s MOM. she’s a lesbian. reese later propositions her (saying he’s saved his virginity for this--he’s probably about 18 here), and when she says omg no im gay, he is HUGELY relieved they can go back to being friends. CLASSIC mlm/wlw friendship moment. 

there’s an episode where these cute girls pick up reese (& nerds) to kiss in front of their boyfriends to make them jealous. reese is all for it, and when malcolm argues that it’s not worth his dignity and the beating he’ll get from the girl’s boyfriend, reese counters that that’s WHY he wants to do this--he’s completely invisible at school, and thinks getting beaten up for kissing some guy’s girlfriend will at least make him known around school. at no point does he indicate he’s actually attracted to this girl, and when it comes time to kiss her, he finds the weakest excuse to run away at the last minute. 

im not gonna list all of these but there’s more lmao

the following is a random assortment of one-off gay jokes and out-of-context lines with gay reese implications, often homophobically bc its early 2000′s writing:

says “I’m gay” to a girl to give malcolm a better shot at her

(again in competition with malcolm) tries to flirt with a girl by spraying milk in her face as the punchline to a joke, which is. well. hm. self-sabotaging, to say the least!!

Reese: “Do you think it’s right to totally change who you are and turn your back on EVERYTHING you believe in, just to impress a hot guy??” [his dad gives a long, blank stare, before asking:] “...Burt Reynolds hot, or Sting hot?”

“YEAH I like clouds! I call them sky kittens :)” (I just think that one’s sweet!)

“Look, Christie, here’s the thing. When I first met you, I was just messing around. But we’ve gotten so close that, now... I really like you! I can’t keep this up anymore. I’m not the person you think I am. I’ve been pretending since the day I met you. It’s so hard having to constantly cover my tracks to keep my story straight... and I don’t WANT to anymore! I’m tired of living this lie! I’m done with it. I’m sorry.”

he catfishes some guy to blackmail him, but is implied to continue the flirtation even after the catfishing/blackmail is revealed

reese is, technically, married to a man. this particular plot point is played as a joke and manages to be both racist and homophobic, so I won’t go into it. but I believe he is still married to that man. technically.

reese takes care of a huge box full of caterpillars until they pupate and become beautiful butterflies. I feel like there’s some kind of gay coming out metaphor here somewhere.

I think there are a couple other times where he comments on a guy’s attractiveness but I couldn’t find specific instances.

In conclusion: Reese is a deeply repressed gay kid who was socialized SO thoroughly as an early 2000′s straight boy that, despite his attraction for men and his obvious compulsory heterosexuality, he still cannot admit to himself that he is gay even as he enters adulthood. Furthermore, his subconscious frustration about this fact is turned outward to form the “schoolyard bully” costume he uses to mask his insecurities and keep others from getting too close to him. 

Thank you for coming to my Ted Talk. I could be convinced to come back for another talk about how Dewey is trans or about how each and every member of that family is neurodivergent in entirely different ways. Assuming anyone has read this far in the first place!!

#sorry this was so long lmao I legit spent 2 hours on this #I have 2 modes: not doing the thing and overdoing the thing #hey anon if you actually see this I'd appreciate a quick message saying so lmao I'd hate to write all this only for you to miss it #I'll probably rb sometime tomorrow at least #also liz if you're reading this i was GONNA add a bit about francis' gay potential like you mentioned but I ran out of steam so remind me t #i think reese has the most gay potential tho #mitm #malcolm in the middle #anonymous #Anonymous

[djarin]

elio’s colouring tutorial! <3

i've been getting a lot of asks about my colouring process and requests for colouring tutorials, so i finally decided to make one! using a few gifs as examples, i'll show you how i turn backgrounds into a vibrant colour. this tutorial assumes that you already know how to gif; we're jumping right into the colouring!

(disclaimer: just keep in mind that this is what works for me, experimenting is the best way to learn what works for you ahshdgjg anyways, here we go, under the cut!)

four things i keep in mind when i want to make a colourful gif:

scenes should have backgrounds that aren't complicated or full of other objects (especially if they're dark)

scenes should have backgrounds with colours that are easy to manipulate. i.e. a simple blue background will be much easier to change than a background that has a mixture of green, red, and brown.

scenes shouldn't have a lot of movement. scenes with limited movement will save you from a migraine.

avoid dark scenes!!! it's really hard to colour a dark scene, and most of the time, it doesn't turn out looking as vibrant as other scenes.

this alina scene from shadow and bone isn't the best because the lighting is on the darker side, but the relatively solid blue/green background made it doable. that being said, it would have been much less time-consuming if it was brighter.

step one: brightness.

the first thing i always do is click on "brightness/contrast." leave the toggles at 0, but change the blending mode to screen. this generally gives you a decent brightness without overdoing it.

now, if this was a regular gifset, i would move on to "curves." for a vibrant colouring set, i leave that for last. the results turn out much better if your curves layers are on top of your colouring layers; order layer matters!

step 2: hue/saturation.

generally, you won't want to touch this too much because it changes the overall appearance of your gif and can affect things like skin tone. however, you do want to move it subtly either to the left or right depending on what colour you want your final gif to be! think of it this way: the point of hue/saturation is to get your gif (especially your background) to a colour that's easy to manipulate so that your "selective colour" layers work better!

this alina starkov scene has a relatively blue background with mild splotches of green. the blue is easier to manipulate than green since there's more of it, so i'll move the hue/saturation to the right (+8) to make the gif a little bluer.

step 3: colour balance.

colour balance works the same way — use it to change the colour of your gif so that your selective colour layers are stronger.

play around with midtones, shadows, and highlights. don't overuse these, or it'll be a pain to fix other parts of your gif later (i.e. a person's face). again, i made the gif look more blue and less green with this colour balance layer. this is how my gif looks now, with a before and after included so you see what i meant about going from green -> blue:

*i also added two subtle selective colour layers (set on "relative") after the colour balance to make alina's face less grey.

step 4: selective colour

alright, this is where the real colouring comes in!!! selective colour layers are your best friend when you want vibrant colours in your gif. now that we've made the scene take on a bluer tone than green, click on "selective colour." you’ll see two options when you click on it: absolute and relative.

i recommend beginning with absolute, not relative. absolute is stronger than relative, and will therefore give you more vibrant results. you can use relative to "touch up" later.

the key to selective colour layers is to alternate between absolute and relative. think of the absolute layers as a way to set the foundation for a new colour, and the relative layers as a way to subtly fix little things afterwards. the number of selective colour layers will differ per scene and gif. sometimes, i'll have 5 absolute + 10 relative, and other times i'll have 10 absolute + 2 relative.

there's no right answer for how you play around with the toggles in selective colouring, because again, it will differ per scene.

for this gif, the first thing i did was go to the cyans (absolute) and dragged the toggle for "cyan" all the way to the left (-100), magenta (+8), and yellow (+38). this got rid of the cyan tones, but that's alright, because the point of establishing this blue tone is so that the colour of the entire gif is easier to manipulate.

for blues (absolute), i did the following: cyan (-48), magenta (-27), yellow (+100). this gets rid of the blues almost entirely, leaving us with a light grey and neutral tone.

since we now have this neutral tone, i went to neutrals (absolute), and moved the toggles: cyan (-25), magenta (+10), yellow (+100). i also did black (-5) to make the scene a little brighter. now, after all of this, our background is orangey-yellow. the only problem is that it's also affected alina's face, so our gif looks like this:

definitely not the look we want the final gif to have. but this is alright! don't be afraid to make your scene look intense, because your layer mask will help you!

click on your layer mask — the white box next to the selective colour layer. make sure you click on the layer mask of the selective colour layer that's affected the person's face. so, mine would be the "neutrals" selective colour layer. then, grab the brush tool, set the colour to black, and colour over the face/other necessary areas. anywhere you paint black on your gif, the selective colour layer's effect will be erased. if you make a mistake, change your brush tool colour to white and paint the layer back.

my gif looks much better now, and alina's face is no longer orange. but i want the background to look yellow — this is orange. now that we've established a vibrant colour background, it'll be much easier to work with — getting here was the hardest part!

i made another selective colour (absolute) layer. i usually like to have at least two absolute layers before moving on to relative layers.

now that our background is orangey-yellow, we can dive right into the yellows of our selective colour layer. i moved the toggles like so: cyan (-100), magenta (-9), and yellow (+100). this gives me a light yellow colour, but there are still darker splotches in my gifs. this isn't an issue; i just moved black to -40 and fixed most of it.

now that we have a vibrant colour that's similar to the shade we want, it's time for our relative selective colour layers. my gif looks good, but i want it to take on an even more vibrant shade.

make a new selective colour layer and click relative. the changes you make with relative will be subtler than absolute, but because we've established such a vibrant colour already, relative will be perfect! i moved the toggles like so: cyan (-100), magenta (-33), yellow (+16), black (-6). now my gif looks like this:

this gif turned out pretty good without a lot of trouble, but sometimes, i'll have to go ahead and add another absolute layer, then another relative layer, etc. again, like i said earlier: alternate between absolute and relative selective colour layers!!!!

step 5: new layer + brush tool

i could leave this gif as is, but i still think that the darker splotches ruin the overall look. to fix this issue, i made a new layer, used the eydropper tool to find the right colour, and used the brush tool to colour over these areas. again, i usually have multiple layers where i manually colour over certain areas. for this gif, i have 5 layers.

i tend to set the blending mode to soft light because it gives the best results. colour works too, but i find that it tends to make the colours look a bit flatter.

near the top of alina's head are whiter splotches. those bothered me as well, so again, i made a new layer and used the brush tool to cover them. i didn't change the blending mode though. i kept it on normal but lowered the opacity (for this gif, to 63%). this works because there isn't a lot of movement in the gif, so it doesn't look messy. darken will colour in your white spots too, but that doesn't work too well sometimes — in my opinion, keeping it on normal and messing around with the opacity looks most natural.

this is how my gif looks now:

step 6: curves

now that our colouring is done, it's time for curves!

if you click on the curves layer, you'll see that there are three little droppers on the left. i use the first and the third.

click on the first dropper, then click on the darkest point of your gif. then use the third dropper to click on the whitest part of your gif. this will help balance out the brightness and contrast. if your curves are too extreme, lower the opacity.

if your gif doesn't look good with the curves layers, just scrap them. you can fix most of the brightness with a new selective colour layer. for this gif, i used curves and a new selective colour layer to make alina's hair look darker and less blue. this also helped balance out the overall brightness of the gif, as well as her skin tone.

step 7: vibrance

slap on a vibrance layer, but leave the saturation alone. for this gif, i did vibrance +37.

andddd that's it!

this is what my final gif looks like:

*the area around her neck is a bit too pixelated, but it was fine because this gif was originally used in a 268 px gifset, so it wasn't noticeable.

but this is an issue that can happen with vibrant colouring! so, what if the gif turns out too pixelated after a lot of colour manipulation?

this is an easy fix if your gifset doesn't have a lot of movement (and in some cases, even works with some movement!) here's an example.

this gif was given a vibrant purple colour by doing the steps listed above. i've included a before and after so you can see the colouring.

but if you look near the top, it's very pixelated and messy because of how much brightness/colour manipulation has happened. we can fix this by making a new layer, using the eyedropper tool to find a similar shade of purple to the background, then colouring over those pixelated spots.

keep the blending mode on normal but lower the opacity so that it blends seamlessly. for this gif, 48% opacity worked.

my gif now looks like this:

it's not perfect. if you look closely, you can see that some of the purple is painted over spider-man's head at one point since there's a lot of movement happening here. you can sometimes fix this by using the eraser tool with a significantly lowered opacity (i.e. 15-30%). but the main point is, the pixelated areas look much better and less messy, and overall, the gif has a more cohesive look.

AGAIN, the key idea of vibrant colouring:

the key idea of vibrant colouring is, in my opinion, this: manipulate the overall colour of the gif with other layers so you can use selective colour to achieve your vibrant colours.

one method that i sometimes use (but didn't for the previous examples) is to take your gif, do all of the steps, but focus especially on new layers + brush tool to help you colour your gif. here's what i mean.

this admittedly awkwardly coloured gif of MJ was originally blue. this vibrant blue was achieved by making a new layer and manually colouring in the background after doing all the other steps. it was blue before, but it certainly wasn't this vibrant without the multiple manually-coloured layers. you can see what i mean in the before and after:

since we have this vibrant blue colouring, adding a selective layer on top of this will give us fantastic results. since your gif is blue, go to cyans and blues on a selective colour layer.

with the help of three selective colour layers that alternate between absolute and relative, my final gif looks like this:

if i hadn't used new layer + brush tool to manually colour this gif's background, it wouldn't have ended up so vibrant — or if it had, it would've taken me much longer.

so, again: focus on manipulating the entire background so you can take full advantage of selective colour layers!!! with practice, it gets easier.

that's it from me! i hope this overly long tutorial was helpful! give it a like or reblog if you found it helpful, and feel free to reach out to me if something's unclear!!! happy giffing <3

#allresources #useralison #userkosmos #usersem #userrainbow #useryoshi #tuserabbie #usershreyu #usernorah #larlies #tuserdi #userace #usermorgan #tuserems #userrobin #usercharisse #usercas #xuseremily #usercim #*mytutorials #listen besties. idk what i'm doing half the time #a lot of my colouring is just— #click click click oOOH THAT LOOKS GOOD LETS KEEP IT #i am PRAYINGGG that this tutorial makes sense

[hyogonokitsune]

What would happen if you faked an organism with some of the haikyuu boys 😫

gonna go ahead and assume you meant ORGASM hahaha

okay as someone who has been known to fake it in the past this was fun to think about 😳

faking an orgasm with him

kuroo, hinata, bokuto, oikawa, tsukishima, ushijima, atsumu

kuroo

he might not even notice tbh, if you were subtle about it

if you kinda overdo it and make more noise than usual he’d just

stop

and straight up ask if you just faked an orgasm with him

lowkey he’s hurt but he doesn’t let it show

tries to rationalize it, telling himself that maybe you’re just not really feeling it right now

asks if you wanna keep going, but even if you say yes he’s really self-conscious now 😔

hypervigilant the next time you have sex

you probably won’t be able to get away with faking one again lol

 hinata

he knows right away

he figured out when kageyama didn’t try their new freak quick in like .02 milliseconds so

he definitely knows when your ass is faking

he doesn’t even stop though, he just asks why you faked an orgasm while still fucking you ehfbsrfhb

“you don’t like what I’m doing babe? let’s switch it up”

tries different things until you actually cum for real

 bokuto

he only figures it out because YOU look so guilty for faking it

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might actually start crying ngl

he actually apologizes to you 😭

“are you not having fun baby? do you wanna stop??”

even if you tell him it’s okay and you wanna keep going, he can’t do it lmao

Emo Mode™ has been activated

wraps you up in the world’s tightest hug and asks how he can make it better for you next time

 oikawa

this bitch is observanttttt

there is NO WAY you’re gonna get away with faking one with him

he also gets a little teary eyed but it’s just so dramatic that you can’t help laughing at him

which only hurts his ego even more oof

he takes it as like a personal challenge to make you actually cum

and he’ll keep going even after he succeeds

and keep going

until you’re begging him to stop

prepare to be overstimmed to hell and back as punishment

 tsukishima

yeah he fucking knows right away lmfao

and he’s big mad about it

deadass just stops and walks away

“just do it on your own I guess 😤”

definitely brings it up again every chance he gets

definitely gets off from embarrassing you for it HAHA

 ushijima

he doesn’t even notice 😐

if you said you were cumming, then he believes you were cumming

he’s so cute I cry 😩

if you fessed up afterwards he’d just be like

what why

why would you need to do that

and also how

he never lies so he can’t wrap his head around how you were able to fake that so convincingly lmao

 atsumu

HUGE blow to his ego

lowkey gets a lil mad lmfao

Hard Dom Mode™ Activated

uh oh

definitely gets rougher & degrades the shit outta you

(but that’s secretly what you wanted so mission accomplished ig)

he’ll put all his energy into bringing you to the brink of orgasm

then edging you 😞

and doing that again and again for 2 hours

he’s so mean I hate him omg

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➣masterlist

#kuroo #kuroo tetsurou #kuroo headcanons #kuroo tetsurou headcanons #hinata #hinata shoyo #hinata headcanons #hinata shoyo headcanons #bokuto #bokuto koutarou #bokuto headcanons #bokuto koutarou headcanons #oikawa #oikawa tooru #oikawa headcanons #oikawa tooru headcanons #tsukishima #tsukishima kei #tsukishima headcanons #tsukishima kei headcanons #ushijima #ushijima wakatoshi #ushijima headcanons #ushijima wakatoshi headcanons #atsumu #miya atsumu #atsumu headcanons #miya atsumu headcanons #requests #niakasi writing

[creepy-spooghetti]

How are you doing? Damn girl I missed your stuff about Ben 🌞 I'd love it if you wrote some things about him. Literally anything, when you have time and interest for this.

I'm doing well! Thanks for the hug ^^ You never specified what you wanted so what you get below is what my delirious brain came up with at 11 o'clock at night - enjoy anyway though!! <3

Ben Drowned S\O Headcanons

Ben has a reputation in a lot of peoples' personal AUs as being a sex-driven, perverted little asshole. but lemme tell you now, this certainly is not the case with our favorite Link look-alike.

Whenever the subject of 'love' or 'sex' comes up, especially around you, his ears turn all red and his whole body just kind of stiffens up as he goes into silent mode.

If he does start talking, however, he'll end up stumbling over his words, his voice will go squeaky as if he's teleported back into the early stages of puberty, and his eyes will look at virtually anything but you out of pure embarrassment.

It really is adorable, you must say.

It's moments like these when you lay on the PDA really hard, and you'll kiss his head, or snuggle into his side, even verbally tease him a bit.

"Hey, Ben, ya know what we haven't done in a while? Napped together."

"Aww hun, what's the matter? You're lookin' a little red."

"Ya know, embarrassment looks pretty good on you~"

He like, loves it but despises it at the same time; it's his guilty pleasure, in some aspects.

He's one of those that like to put up a careless exterior, but when somebody says the right thing, he'll pretty much just turn into a ghostly sludge of utter humiliation.

All of this was ten times worse before the two of you became a couple.

Someone could just mention crushes or attraction and he'd be dead.

This "someone" was mostly Jeff on days he wanted to embarrass him. He still does, it just isn't as effective.

You know, the first time you and Ben actually did something as simple as holding hands for the first time, he morphed into a pile of jelly at the rapid beating of his heart and the butterflies in his stomach.

But he just loves you so damn much, the poor boy can't even help it.

Just being around you can be enough to make him blush.

As your relationship as a couple grew, so did his confidence, and now he's chill most times you actually opt to touch him in any way, shape, or form.

Well, on the outside, at least.

But on the inside? His mind is going into alert mode and his insides just feel like they're swirling from euphoria.

I mean, who would have thought that Ben would ever get someone as awesome as you?

Certainly not the other Pastas, since none of them ever thought of Ben as 'boyfriend material'.

Guess he really showed them up.

Okay but seriously though, this dude may not be the smoothest boyfriend out there, but he tries. And he's so freaking sweet.

He regularly rubs it in Jeff's face that he managed to get a girlfriend before him, even though Jeff is like four years older.

Jeff only grunts and mutters, "who needs girls anyway?"

Ben is definitely the kind of person that will 100% overdo it on Valentine's day.

He'll treat it more like Hannuka to be completely honest.

I mean, there's gonna be a present for every day of the month of February, even when Valentine's day has passed already.

Heart chocolates for day #1, your favorite cookie for day #2, a giant teddy bear for day #3, a very strangely worded poem that's supposed to sound romantic but ends up just sounding awkward (he wrote it himself!) for day #4, and so on.

It's so sweet yet totally pointless because what are you supposed to do with all this unedible stuff? You only have so much room for storage!

But it's the thought that counts.

He won't really expect anything but attention out the yin-yang for days on end in return, but if you do get him a gift, he will be all yours for roughly 14 to 24 hours.

This boy gets excited over the simplest things you do for him, he is a major simp, I think it's safe to say.

But it's in the best possible way!

If you're ever feeling insecure about your looks or otherwise, he will pull you in front of a mirror, make you stare at your reflection, and ask you what you see. If you respond with something negative he'll just shake his head.

"Ya know what I see? A beautiful girl with all these adorable little quirks that make her unique. Her smile's adorable, her eyes are like looking into nature's finest jewels, and her laugh is just the best sound in the world. What she sees as imperfections are just the things that add depth and make her so great. And I wouldn't have it any other way..."

It's so corny but surprisingly grown-up for Ben's immature self.

Still though, it makes you tear up and you just wanna cuddle him for an hour or two.

Of course, he's very open to that. Then again, he's almost always up for cuddles, so.

Overall just really loveable, selfless, and affectionate. For big snugglers that love fun-sized bois, Ben is perfect for you.

#ben drowned #creepypasta #slender manor #jeff the killer #benjamin jacobs #jeffery woods #headcanons #creepypasta headcanons #ben drowned headcanons #ben drowned x reader #creepypasta x reader headcanons #ben drowned x reader headcanons

[maziekeen]

maziekeen’s hthaigtct, a coloring tutorial series

changed one or two things about how i color my gifs, as always, so here it is another tutorial. but this is meant to be quicker and with fewer layers, so let’s do it!

references & download

i mentioned other tutorials that does pretty much what i’ll do it here on my previous complete coloring tutorial in two parts, check out here if you want!

gif sharpen and gif settings also in the previous tutorial link

download the psd

the tutorial:

1. curves

1.2 select the white point eye-dropper

1.3 click on the whitest, or close to that, part on the gif. you just have to click, and click and click to find the right spot and the result you want is basically the best light and a little of color correct right away, doesn’t have to be perfect tho

result:

2. exposure

2.1 just bright a little more, don’t overdo it, specially with gamma.

result:

3. photo filter

3.1 the "color correct” the curves gave us was a bit magenta, so this should fix, also don’t overdo it

result:

4. levels

4.1 let’s bring the dark back(?). nothing too much, you can also add a bit of light too

result:

5. selective color 

5.1 add one selective color, change the blending mode to color

5.2 the settings will depend on the gif, fix a bit of whitewashing, make colors pop up, you can do it all here. i didn’t need much

result:

5.3

add another selective color, but this time change the blend mode to luminosity

this is for the light and dark parts of the gif, so you’ll mess around with whites and blacks only

result:

aaaaaaaaand it’s done!

you can repeat the steps for mostly any gif and it will work. so much so that i’ll post more tutorials like this one to prove it, hope you liked!

#dearindies #coloring tutorial #gif coloring #tumblr psds #hthaigtct #warrior nun psd #psds #resources #my tutorial #and you ask me if i have time to be doing this??? #HELL NO #am i going to do it anyways?? #HELL YEAH #my coloring tutorial

[sunnyairs]

i am... going to really just have to start loving myself instead in order to get where i want to be huh........

#recovery mode ON ed mode OFF #ed ment #really tho just like... i forgot how much i feel like absolute SHIT when i do this and i dont know if i can keep doing it #i havent ever had like... a healthy relationship w food and ive been in a binge/restrict cycle since like... 8th grade #but i think im just going 2... Actually Get Healthy instead.... and have a good time doing it.... #instead of making myself suffer all the time #tho im going 2 really have to like... learn how to do things without overdoing or underdoing them like where is the balance.... #im DONE today onwards we are learning how to enjoy being ourself!!!! #hopefully ;-;

[sirensunrise]

Lay it on us 🙌

Sorry in advance my brain is absolute mush so i might repeat shit and be all over the place. Also this gets me heated. 

I have specific opinions on certain groups and also can 100% rate/rank stage presence for a specific group if anyone wants me to, bc I have things to say about specific groups/people as well but in general? Stage presence is typically a hit or miss.

This whole thing started with aespa tbh, and like no hate to the girls themselves but when i first saw them there was something about them that just turned me off of them. i had no idea what it was until the zoo video and holy shit. it's almost criminal to put winter next to taeyong. There is NOTHING on her face, it's completely blank. and again i really mean no hate (you'll see why just hold on) but every aespa stage i've seen since has been the same.

It happens all the time! There are so many idols who either consistently serve blank faces or, show up to work for however long they're in the center and then drop it the moment they aren't the one singing.

The reason this really bothers me is bc how the Fuck are you supposed to sell a song. you're PERFORMING?!?! singing and dancing both have a major acting component, rule number fucking one is DONT BREAK CHARACTER. now, i don't mind a few like shared smiles or smthn small and goofy during a stage, but you know wtf i mean right? It feels almost unprofessional, you step onstage, you're in character until the Moment you step offstage. that's how this fucking works, it's such a simple concept. and. AND! on top of that, it actively fucks with your dancing/singing. did you know that humans can hear smiles in voices? it sounds different when you add emotion into it. same goes with dancing, i mean look at the faces of professional dancers. They get INTO it, they embody a character, and it really affects a performance. It doesn’t matter what emotion you’re conveying, turn your fucking face on during a stage. 

Now. That was very harsh. yes. but, again. this is not hating on them, because i don’t think it’s entirely/always their fault. I didn’t really think abt this until i was discussing glitch mode w becca, and i noted that renjun had an entirely stone face. no expression no movement. and she pointed out that he had probably been trained not to smile bc he originally had fucked up teeth so staff/the company, told him to keep that shit in check. It’s not always laziness or lack of talent. I have a few theories as to why a company or idol might want to minimize their expressions. 

1) They’re there to look pretty. 

sometimes facial expressions are ugly. a lot of the time idols are almost treated like dolls, their neutral face being seen as when they’re the most attractive. marring their features with any sort of over the top emotion isn’t as pretty. they also probably think that it’s not as big of a deal if they’re acting less when they aren’t the center but.. fancams literally exist. always assume someone is watching you, even if you aren’t the focus. I hate it but I understand it. (sadly this also is probably the reason that it’s a bigger problem within girl groups, companies wanting them to look as pretty as possible all of the time at the expense of performance quality)

2) They’re afraid of overdoing it.

there’s this thing i fucking hate, just in general, outside of kpop too, where ppl act as though being earnest and trying is cringy. i hate this idea of being nonchalant and cool, it’s one of the reasons i like ateez, a lot of the time they really put their all into it. some of the shit they do is called cringy but i love that they put their fucking all into whatever they’re doing. they fucking commit. and i think people would rather pretend not to care or give nothing out of a fear of being made fun of. (the thing is, if you’re confident with it, a lot of the time it doesn’t come off as overdoing it.) granted. you Can overdo it sometimes, especially when it comes to small screen things, emotions are more subtle when you’re on camera but theyre PERFORMING they are ON A STAGE that’s when your emotions are supposed to be a bit bigger. fucking sell it!!!! it puts a bad taste in my mouth when someone makes fun of or cringes at idols especially when they’re fucking doing their goddamn job. 

as some of you may know, i have experience with performing, and was a part of a vocal studio for the better part of a decade. I have been on stage with a choir, with two other people, with three other people with goddamn ten other people, and a lot of experience performing on my own. sometimes my technique sucks, sometimes i fuck up a note but i know i have good stage presence. and when i look back at performances, the ones that i am the most proud of the ones that i got the most compliments for, are the ones with the best stage presence. there was this one thing that my vocal coach said that really stuck with me. She said that the whole reason we learn and practice music so much is so we can have it become muscle memory, so when you’re up onstage, you aren’t focusing on technique, you’re focusing on performing. when you get up on stage there’s a reason you aren’t fucking sight read or have your sheet music in front of you. 

ok. thats my beef. and ik this sounds harsh but it’s something that i feel very strongly about. especially because of my history and also bc, like i said before, i am confident in my stage presence, i’ve won awards within my studio for it. and its disappointing to watch someone who has all this training and all this support, phone it in on stage. i am a goddamn nobody and i’m better at it? its borderline disrespectful to the fans. and as an audience member/viewer, i would feel shafted tbh, it feels like they don’t care enough to try, and whether thats true or not, its certainly how it comes off. 

phew sorry and AGAIN i rlly am not trying to imply that all idols who lack stage presence, there could be a multitude of reasons as to why and i don’t know them. i mostly get disappointed at specific idols/companies rather than angry. i get angry in general but i really don’t mean any harm or hate towards specific people.  

if you want i can totally do some specific comparisons of stage presence, even within concepts, but for now i’ll leave you with these ones

This vs This 

and 

This vs This

#IM SO SORRY THIS IS SO LONG #i have things to say clearly #also like #it's ok to have middling stage performance sometimes #or to not be As good #its when theres nothing its just #yeah

[taeswurld]

Ace V [Nova]

pairing: bakugo x fem!reader genre: humor, romance TW: violence, cursing, angst, fluff

Summary: Shifting into My Hero was a total mistake, all those tiktoks you watched on a daily about shifting somehow convinced your brain to take part. Now the question is how to wake up, and most importantly, DON’T GET ATTACHED TO STUPID DRAWINGS!

A/N:

HI! I am so sorry for the late post, but I literally just got home from work, I cleaned my room (because I cannot work with a dirty room), and then I had like a bunch of homework. But here’s the new chapter I promised! 

By the way, I decided to name your quirk, you guessed it, ‘Nova’!  

{ACE MASTERLIST}

After breakfast, you decided to go kick some ass. 

Well, more like figure out how to kick ass. 

Since the little anger-issues moment, you had no idea of what your quick was, but you could tell that it was powerful as fuck. 

And you weren’t exaggerating, your new friends, specifically Midoriya filling you up on pretty much everything there is to know of your quick, along with a few videos of course.

You asked him if he was a stalker. He turned beet red and swore up and down that he asked permission before even writing you down in his notebook. Sweet boy. 

Which brings us here, Gym Gamma. 

You were with Midoriya and a dual haired boy to which you still haven’t gotten the chance to meet, and Bakugou. 

Apparently, when the boys had nothing to do, instead of hanging out with their classmates, the decide to train together to improve their quirks. Although, Bakugou insists that it was his idea to train alone, and these “bozos just tagged along”. 

While Bakugou went off to train on his own, Midoriya and the other boy stayed by your side. As they began their stretches, Hiro was sitting right by you, wondering when the action was gonna start. 

“Okay L/N-san, do you ha-”

“Okay, number one,” you said standing up. “Don’t call me L/N-san. It’s weird. Just call me Y/N. I don't really care about formalities all that much. So just don't worry about it.”  You walked up and put your hand on Midoriya, just to reassure him that it was okay. 

“A-are you sure?” He said, turning red and looking away. What was this kid’s deal? Has a girl never touched him on the shoulder before? “Because you can totally call me Izuku! Or Deku! Or Midoriya! Or sometimes Kacchan calls me dumbass! Whatever works for you! I could totally deal with new nicknames! In fact, I-” 

“Midoriya! I’ll just call you Midoriya if it gets you to chill out! That’s cool right?” You asked as you took your hand off his shoulder to make him a little less uncomfortable. You turned to the other boy. “And what can I call you?” 

“Todorki is fine.” He said, not really caring or interested in the conversation. 

“Okay, Todoroki it is. You can call me Y/N by the way.” You said sticking out your hand as a way to be friendly. 

He looked at your hand and then back at you. 

“Okay.” As said as he went back to his stretches. 

Great, so you have one overly-enthusiastic boy, and one under-enthusiastic boy. 

“Okay Y/N,” Midoriya said as he led you to the center of the gym. Todorki stayed a few steps behind, giving Hiro curious little glances every now and then, with Hiro giving them right back. 

“We’re going to start off to see if you can still summon your quirk on command, just to see if you have a little sense of control over it. There’s no need to overdo it immediately, so try to be as careful as possible. Todoroki and I will be here to make sure nothing gets too bad, okay?” He says walking backwards to give you some space. 

Jesus, just how insane can your quirk be out of control if you needed two out of three of the kids with the strongest powers to help you control? 

“Whenever your ready Y/N. We’re ready and on guard.” Todoroki said, getting into a defensive stance, Midoriya nodding before getting into position. 

While they stood a good 10 feet away, Hiro stayed right by your side, on guard as sensing something big and dangerous was going to happen. Even though Midoriya tried to call him over, Hiro wouldn't budge as growled at him. 

‘I stay here, with her. No matter what’ he seemed to say. 

You took a deep breath before closing your eyes. You weren’t even sure what you were supposed to do. 

According to Midoriya’s notes, you were supposed to feel a slight tug in your stomach before feeling your quirk flow through your blood stream. 

You focused and calmed your beating heart as much as you could, and then you felt an uncomfortable, barely-there tug before feeling your body ignite with power. 

When you opened your eyes, you saw the familiar white aura around your hands and clothes, feeling your eyes burn with great power. 

“Y/N, don't over do it! Try to keep your aura to a minimal! Take deep breaths!” You heard Midoriya yell, before seeing a green power flow through his body. 

As you tried to take his advice and calm yourself, you saw Todoroki ignite his left side with flames. 

You started to panic seeing the two boy’s super powers, and as your quirk overtook your brain and went into defensive mode, you felt your quirk overtake your body, and let out a bloodcurdling scream. 

You felt as if your morning headache came back, this time, multiplied by a million. It was the worst pain you ever experienced, and made you go into overload. 

As your headache continued to pound your head, you couldn’t think straight, and you screamed out an all powerful forcefield into the gym, as if trying to get the power out of you. 

Closing your eyes, you sank to your knees, and pushed your hands to your head, squeezing it as hard as you could to stop the pain. You felt tears run down your face, and blood run down your ears. Nothing, not a single thing, could compare to the type of experience you were feeling right now. 

“Open your eyes, dumbass!” 

Letting out a gasp, you open your eyes to see your body blanketed in a blinding light, seeing the rest of the gym filled with the sheer power you were pushing out. 

“BREATH!”

You took the deepest gasp you could through your mouth, choking on a few tears, but trying to calm your quirk. 

“You got this! Come on! We’ve done this a million times before! I’m right by your side, baby!” 

You quickly close your eyes as to get a small sense of your surroundings, letting air into your lungs before pushing all of it out, slowing repeating the process until your heartbeat got back to normal. 

When you opened your eyes again, you saw nothing but a great disaster. 

Gym Gamma was pretty much destroyed from the inside, with all the pillars turned into nothing but rubble. 

Midoriya was on his knees and his hands squeezing his head, with his ears dripping blood, trying to catch his breath.

Todoroki also had some blood sipping down his ears, but slightly less that Midoriya, sitting up and putting his right hand to his face as a couple of ice cubes shot out. He gathered them up and handed a couple to Midoriya to help with his headache before placing a few on his own head. 

You saw Hiro come up to you, not injured, which was a little odd, but he nuzzled his head to your stomach. 

‘Don’t worry, I’m right here’. 

You quickly wiped your tears trying not to move your head so much, as to not upset your headache. 

“Jesus christ, that was an utter shitshow.” 

You look up to see Bakugou holding you against his chest. His ears were also dripping with blood, although his ears seemed way more severe than Midoriya’s  or Todoroki. 

“Well princess, haven’t you gotten stronger?” He said as he gave you a shit eating smile. 

Wait...

Did he call you baby? 

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[toastedbuckwheat]

Hello! May I ask how you draw? I'm currently learning how to myself and would be highly interested into a step to step process by you! Like from sketch to the done thing (no color necessary)

Hello there!

I dunno how I feel about showing how I work/giving advice to someone who’s learning (and I say it as a pro artist who went through years of traditional art education) because when I do the illustrations you see here on my tumblr I BREAK THE RULES you’d learn though life drawing routine, and give in to bad habits, and my methods are rather unplanned and chaotic which makes it difficult to pinpoint significant stages. But I used my portable potato to take some photos during working on my last piece, so I’ll throw it here with a bit of an explanation of what’s going on.

Before I begin - and because you’re about to look at a mess of a WIP - I’d like to give you some general advice that generally makes life easier when you draw (again, things that I learned in traditional arts education - another artist might advise you the complete opposite, dunno!)

Work holistically. Forget them satisfying-to-look-at clips on instagram showing someone produce a hyperrealistic portrait starting from an eye, with each and every element emerging being finished before they proceed to another part. It takes a lot of talent, yes, but these are ppl redrawing a photo in a kind of a mechanical manner. Most artists don’t work this way. Especially if you’re working without a reference, or if you’re doing a life drawing - your process will be layering and changing and finding what works best to give an impression of what you’re drawing rather than reproduce the exact image, and your artwork is likely to look messy most of the time.That said: don’t start with the details. Don’t spend too much time on a particular part while neglecting others. Your goal is to keep the whole piece at the same level of ‘finished’ (even though it’s unfinished - do I make sense?) before you’re confident that everything is where it should be and proceed to the details. So sketch out the composition first. See how things fit, what’s the dynamics. You’ll save yourself from limbs sticking out from the frame, odd proportions etc etc.

Because it’s a game of relationships between different parts of the picture/scene. I ask you not to worry about finishing a single element before laying out the rest because you’ll find that said element will look different once the other part appears! For instance - you might think that the colour you picked for a character’s hair is already very dark. But once you’re done with the night sky background, you’ll find that it’s in fact too light, and doesn’t work well with the cold palette. You’ll have to revisit different parts of the image as you go to balance these relationships and make the picture work as a whole.

Give an impression of something being there without actually drawing it ‘properly’- because details are hard, mate. You’ll see that my lineart usually has hardly any, and my colouring is large unrefined stains, but the finished thing looks convincing. Like, fuck, I can never focus on how Crowley’s eyes are really shaped. So I just turn them into large glowing yellow ellipses crossed by a line, and heard no protests so far.

Don’t panic if you messed up (you probably didn’t anyway). It might turn out to be a completely unnoticeable mistake - because, remember, things work together to balance each other, so another finished off prominent element will probably drown that badly placed line that looked so visible and out of place a second ago. 

It might not look good before it’s finished. I’m mostly immune to it after years of drawing, and my recent illustrations all follow a specific method (ykno, my sunset glow effects and all that) so I can kinda predict the next stage. But I do my linearts on a specially picked crap paper, I don’t bother erasing the smudged graphite, and it looks messy af until I make the background white in Photoshop. Conclusion: you might have a moment of doubt as you work through a piece, but try to break through it - I often suddenly start to like what I cursed a minute before! - and try to finish it even if it’s meant to be bad. This way, looking through your past pieces, you’ll see the progress. And trust me, I can’t even look at my art from literally three months ago. It’s normal.

Now, pics! The sketches are paler in real life, but I increased the contrast a little so you can see something.

1. Laying out the composition! 

I wanted to just show them kissing, but I got carried away due to some Art Nouveau inspiration. As you might have noticed, most of my illustrations are quite self-contained (ykno - they look like a sticker on a plain background). So I wanted a tight swirl bordered by Aziraphale’s wings creating a sort of rounded, yin-yang like bubble around them. Consequently I made the whole composition revolve around their heads. 

2. Adding more details to the sketch. It’s messy af. It will be messy until I’m done. It’s fine.

3. These are the fineliners I use for the linearts! They are made by Uni-ball and come in light and dark grey. I also sometimes use the guy on the left - ‘Touch’ sign pen by Pentel, when I want more brush-like, wider strokes. I work in grey because when I scan it and do my usual boring trick with sunlight highlights - which is an Overlay mode layer in Photoshop - the highlights ‘burn out’ the lines too and make them vanish a little, and the lighting effect gets more striking. I also like to use the light grey ones to make something look pencil-y without actually using pencil, because pencil fucking smudges.

4. It smudges! So because I am right handed, I start inking from the right hand side, no matter how tempted I am to do their faces first.

5. You can see the composition directions here. I made it intuitively, but ofc some ppl actually use grids etc to lay out their drawings.

6. See how pale ans thin the lineart was at first? I kept adjusting it as new inked parts were appearing. It starts to look nice and consistent now! 

7. Finished lineart? There are some mistakes which I later corrected in PS. Notice that Aziraphale’s face has hardly any details on it - I tried to make the drawing suggest his expression rather than risk overdoing it. 

8. Photoshop time!! You can totally do what I did here even if you don’t have a graphic tablet. I used Curves tool to enhance the lineart, then Quick Selection Tool to select the background around around my sticker-like piece and filled it white (on a new layer ofc). I keep this white layer on top of the layer order so it works as a mask as I colour. I decided I did not like the hatching shading underneath Aziraphale’s halo, so I erased it with a Stamp tool (because I wanna keep the textured grey fill my crap paper naturally gives me!). It’s done roughly but won’t be visible once the thing is coloured. 

9. And the reason why I keep the grey shade instead of easily getting rid of it by using Curves/Levels is because when I set this layer to Multiply mode and colour underneath, it gives me this nice desaturated look like from an old cheap paper comic page. It works as a natural filter! But of course I can’t do bright colours this way, so all my glowing highlights happen ABOVE the lineart layer - on a separate layer in Overlay mode! 

Finished thing here!

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[affordable-therapy-boulder]

How to Not Feel Out of Control with Food

Does this sound familiar?

It’s 9 p.m. and the kids are finally in bed, you’ve had a long day and are so stinkin’ tired. The

orange, plastic pumpkin full of Halloween candy is sitting on the kitchen counter and it feels as

if the candy is literally calling to you, “Eat me! I know you’re going to!”

You tell yourself that you don’t ‘need’ any more candy and that you should just go to bed since

you’re so tired or eat an apple if you want a snack. But another part of you says, “It’s been a

long day. You deserve the candy.”

One thing leads to another and before you know it you are elbow deep in the candy bowl. Guilt

starts to creep up on you as you look at the empty wrappers left behind and once again you feel

like a failure because you ate more calories or sugar than you were ‘supposed to.’

We are entering the season where “trigger” foods, candy, and sweets are everywhere! If you’re

like the majority of the U.S. population, you feel a lot of stress about what and how much to eat

this time of year. And, you may also be feeling stress about overeating, emotional eating or

binge eating in general.

If so, read on for 3 ways to help yourself not feel out of control with food this holiday season.

Give yourself emotional permission.

That’s right, you need to give yourself permission. While this sounds counterintuitive, if

you are restricting with food today, you are almost 100% guaranteed to overdo it with

food tomorrow. And, just because you physically let yourself eat something doesn’t

mean you actually emotionally or mentally gave yourself permission. Notice the next

time you’re eating a holiday treat what you say to yourself while you eat it. Do you feel

shame or guilt? Shame and guilt exacerbate the very behaviors we are trying to stop. So,

to emotionally give yourself allowance, try taking a breath, being aware while you eat

and give yourself permission. As the shame and guilt lessen, you’ll find you’re less likely

to go into all or nothing mode.

2. Take care of yourself.

Usually when we find ourselves eating beyond the point of fullness or eating a lot more

sugar than our bodies actually want, it is because we are stressed out. This doesn’t

mean you can’t have the yummy treat, but ask yourself what you really need deep

down? Maybe you need to HALT and see if you are hungry, angry, lonely or tired? When

was the last time you just did something fun for the sake of it? See if you can give your

body and mind what they really need rather than asking food to fill in.

3) Eat 3 square meals a day.

If you are hungry you are much more likely to succumb to the candy bowl or overeat at

the office dinner party. Maybe you want to save your calories or points so you don’t go

over your limit at Thanksgiving, but this will actually only set you up to do the very thing

you’ve been trying to avoid – overeat. When we are hungry our bodies experience this

as stress and interpret hunger as signs of starvation. By eating three square meals a day

and listening to your body so it is both full and satiated you will reduce the chances of

going overboard with the pumpkin shaped Reese’s cups when no one is looking!

If you liked this article please share it! And, if you’re interested in working with someone on

issues like emotional or binge eating, reach out to set up a session with a therapist at Whole

Connection. We accept Medicaid and work on a sliding scale with private pay clients.

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[justinesurvivesresidency]

If you take these, do you have tips for shelf exams? Because my scores have been wildly inconsistent between clerkships

I technically took the COMAT not the Shelf (literally the same thing just DO vs MD). But my tips would be:

1) Online Med Ed, the videos are free for med students and this was the absolute backbone of my clinical years. If you can get access to the study notes, they’re a great reference for review.

2) Our school routinely sent us “key phrase lists” that were basically a list of every single topic on the COMAT two tests ago. Reach out to your school and see if they have access to something similar. Online Med Ed covers most things but I would spend two days or so before the exam reading about every single topic they listed via UpToDate and it usually got me at least 4-5 extra points.

3) Talk to the student who was on your rotation last and just took that shelf. Not encouraging actually discussing questions and answers here but they might just have some tips on what to focus on when you’re studying.

4) Unless you’re getting into board study mode, you don’t really have to overdo it with questions. I had TRUELEARN COMAT prep and there were only about 100-120 practice questions for each topic. They were definitely helpful and kept my test taking skills from slipping but if you’re using UWORLD you don’t have to try to do every single question in that topic.

I hope this helps! :)