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#I CANT TAKE IT IM DYING IM SOBBING
babygirlbdubs · 1 year
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Rentho this ep is sooooooo 💕💗💞🩷💓 Etho wanted to cuddle so bad
HE WANTED TO CUDDLE SOOOO BAD OH MY GOOODDD BABYGIRL…. HES CANADIAN SURELY HE’S NOT EVEN THAT COLD BUT DAMN IF HE DOESNT WANNA BE HELD ANYWAY
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nordfjording · 11 months
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gibbearish · 5 months
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the thing with autism right. is i know if i was having a full mental health crisis what i would end up doing is going to the emergency room and being like "hello, my name is (x) birthday (y), um i was hoping to talk to you about potential mental health inpatient care? i'm currently having a mental health crisis and don't think i can be trusted on my own" like if there's one thing i can be sure will live on in me no matter how hard the brainworms try. is my fucking customer service voice
#like itll be busted as fuck because ill be freaking out but you bet ill be sobbing my way through verbally drafting an email#ive done it before‚ like im a frustrated crier and once i start crying i cant turn it off so ive had a couple times where i had a breakdown#at work‚ cried about it a lot‚ and my lead pulled me into a meeting room after i calmed down to check in#and as soon as i started talking it just started again so i had to be like 'sorry th-this is just something m-m-my bod-dy does‚ i-i'm calm#m-mentally but i just c-cant turn this-is off‚ just try to i-ignore HIC it and f-f-focus-s on the w-wwwords‚#(tired of crytyping so just mentally fill it in yourself in everything else i say)#n they offered me more time to chill but im like no really i genuinely am calm‚ i calm down wayyy before my body does its gonna#keep doing this on and off all day‚ it takes hours for it to fully calm down and is on a hair trigger the entire time#so thinking about this will make it kick back up again no matter what unless we talk tomorrow‚ so if youre ok with bearing with me then cool#and theyre like. dang ok and just focused on what i said#or much more recently i was talking to my roommate‚ stopped‚ held up a finger + stood there silently for ten seconds‚#then was like 'sorry about that‚ i think i have to throw up. excuse me for a moment. what was that? oh gotcha yeah i'll message you if i#need anything‚ thank you'#and just typing it out like that it sounds like i was fine and just saw it coming a ways away. however that is not the case#i had had my covid booster and some other vaccine earlier that day‚ lost 5 vials of blood‚ eaten Nothing‚ drank only#acidic-ass apple juice‚ and had just hit my vape too hard#keeping it in once it made its presence known was a feat of will the likes of which have never been seen before#and still my sentences prevail
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imaybeabear · 2 years
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No you don't understand I love Boromir with my whole entire heart and nothing is ever going to change that
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serpentinekisses · 1 year
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how do you survive breaking up with the love of your life who you thought you were going to be with forever. i cant imagine going on without her there and it hurts so bad whenever i do anything. my chest hurts. ive felt like im about to throw up or start hyperventilating for the past two days. i feel like im losing everything (again). my whole life has been filled overwhelmingly with sadness and hurt and lonliness and im losing one of the only things that consistently makes me happy and think life is worth living. i dont want to hurt anymore. im so tired
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jumpingjellyfishtime · 2 months
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ohhhhh how i need saw and it 2017 moots </3 </3
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coffin-upalung · 10 months
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Tag vent, needed to get it out. TW suicide/SH/mental health/inaccessible care
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mejomonster · 1 year
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hate panic attacks think they’re possibly the worst experience inside
#rant#i just. they dont end until They end#i am thinking in retrospect that pre life for some awful reason i made a plan to have my body Fighting To Kill me from birth#and like. thats traumatizing and all but not The worst in the sense im used to it#but then panic attacks? god the Only way to make them end is to kill myself#how fucked up. i can breathe i can do everything right but they will STILL go on for 15 minutes to 2 hours no matter how well i cope#so some time sensitive shit happens like fix X NOW or worse happens or talk to doctor NOW to save ur life in hospital#or ur in public NOW and cant escape for 20 minutes it takes to exit public#and its like. okay so i just wont have any brain function for problem solving for 15 min to 2 hours#ill be sobbing hyperventilating shaking and have no problem solving ability for THAT LONG#i feel so helpless. i hate knowing i COULD solve it and fix it and take care of myself but NOPE#brain hit the panic attack mini stroke button jesus christ. so now for 2 hours or less i will be a useless mess#and cannot solve anything or help myself beyond trying to ignore the suicidal impulses.#like at Best i can keep my body breathing and unharmed during a panic attack if ALL goes WELL#but i can't do anything else like drive. like pay a bill. like chat through a problem. like calmly BREATHE#like even explain whats going on cause my entire rational brain is just completely offline while im in literal hell#a panic attack is so awful god i hate them i hate them i dont have words to describe#ive been dying in hospital plenty of times and like enough pure rage and stress is traumatizing for sure#but at least im so angry to survive i can problem solve#but a panic attack? even if i get angry i cant problem solve i just start trying to physically kill myself to make it end#cause illogical panic brain thinks the only way to fix the panic problem is be dead#since like. it is not a fixable problem. its a thing you ride out until its over.
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ssprayberrythings · 5 months
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snow angels & ski trips | CL16
charles leclerc x female!girlfriend reader 
pov: a glimpse on how you and charles spend your holidays
warnings: none, just tooth rotting fluff cause im a hopeless romantic that got carried away while writing this
this is my first f1 related piece of work on here and also my first time writing in the social media format so i hope its okay and you like it <3
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@yourusername posted on their story  
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╰  @yoursister reply: cant wait to see you 
╰ @yourmom reply: so excited to see you and charles 🙂
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charles and his girlfriend @yourusername met fans at the airport in y/n’s hometown, guess we know where they’re spending the holidays 
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user1: awe he looks so cute 
user2: on twitter fans are saying y/n was offering to take everyones photos #couplegoals 
user12: i was there and omg they are the sweetest, y/n really compliments charles well 
╰ user4: really? i love that 
╰ user15: STOP I CANT 
user7: THE OUTFIT IM DYING 
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waited for the last of my children to arrive home to finish decorating the tree 
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user1: IM SOBBING, Y/N’S MOM CONSIDERS CHARLES ONE OF HER CHILDREN 
user2: LET ME JUST TAKE A MOMENT TO APPRECIATE THIS CAPTION 
yourusername: love you mama <3 
charles_leclerc: thank you for letting me be part of this family tradition <3 
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user15: i’ll be crying for 5-10 business days, no one talk to me 
╰ user3: you and me both 
╰ user7: same here 
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home sweet home with my love 🥰
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user1: my parents 
user3: y/n is so wholesome, i love her with charles 
charles_leclerc: no where else id rather be ❤️ 
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landonorris: i need to know, who won the gingerbread house contest ? 
╰ yourusername: hehe me and my sister 😹
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user4: charles looks so happy 
user10: is no one gonna talk about the cute reindeers 
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@yoursister posted on their story  
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╰ yourusername replied: anything for my niece, even if she did kick me out of the passenger seat to sit next to charles 
You and Charles carefully walked back into your childhood home, your niece fast asleep in Charles’ arms, her little head on his shoulder. 
“How was it?” your sister asked as she took the sleeping child from Charles “Great, she was in complete awe the whole time” you told your sister smiling “She even got to sit in the passenger seat” you added looking at Charles with an amusing look 
“How was I supposed to say no when she gave me the cutest dimpled smile” He exclaimed chuckling causing you and your sister to join in 
“Well I just appreciate you taking her, we should get going, but we’ll see you at Christmas?” your sister asked as she repositioned the child in her arms so she could slip her boots on 
“For sure” You replied, leaning in to give your sister a side hug and leaving a kiss on the sleeping girls forehead 
“Thanks auntie Y/N for taking me to the lights” your niece mumbled half awake, half asleep 
“Anything for you sweet girl” you told the girl back before showing your sister out, making sure her and your niece were safely in the car before shutting the door and turning to your boyfriend who let out a yawn causing you to chuckle
“Is someone tired?” you asked playfully, walking into his arms looking up at him  “Maybe a little bit” he said in response to your question looking down at you
 “Why don’t I make us some hot cocoa and then we can go cuddle?” You offered “Sounds good to me” he smiled and leant down to give you a quick kiss, knowing you were both enjoying this peaceful moment
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its a winter wonderland ❄️
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user1: they’re so cute it hurts 
user2: this called me single in so many way 
user6: i just want this 
╰ user5: same 
╰ user10: same 
╰ user8: same 
user11: so we’re all just single this winter season? 
╰ user1: looks that way 
charles_leclerc: never met anyone who loves snow as much as you do 
charles_leclerc: my little snow angel 👼 
╰ yourusername: that is so cheesy but i love it 
╰ charles_leclerc: i love you 
╰ yourusername: i love you 😘 
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@charles_leclerc posted on their story  
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never been happier then when im with you. 
je t’aime, mon amour 🤍 
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user1: OKAY I CANT 
user2: anyone else just want to climb under a rock for the rest of their existence 
╰ user3: yes 
user4: if anyone needs me i’ll be taking a bath with my toaster 
yourusername: charles, im blushing 
yourusername: i love you..almost as much as i love snow 
╰ charles_leclerc: ALMOST AS MUCH? that hurts 
╰ user9: y/n and her snow..the real iconic pairing here 
╰ user15: agreed @user9
pierregasly: seriously though @yourusername how many times did he fall on the ice ? 
╰ landonorris: we need to know @yourusername
╰ user7: y/n please give us the information we all need 
╰ yourusername: only a few times .maybe a bit more..
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╰ charles_leclerc: babeeeee dont expose me and my terrible skating skills 
╰ yourusername: my deepest apologies..but seriously i’m afraid to take you skating again.. 
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@charles_leclerc posted on their story  
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captions: christmas dessert prep 🥧 & happy holidays everyone ❤️
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@yourusername posted on their story  
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caption: weekend getaway ⛷️❄️
╰ yourbestfriend: have so much fun ;) 
╰ landonorris: cant wait to hear all about it..;) 
╰ yourusername: why are you being weird? do you know something? 
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he hasn’t stopped looking at me like this…what is he planning 🤭
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user1: get yourself someone that looks at you the way charles looks at y/n 
user2: where can i find one of these ? asking for a friend 😩
user3: god has favourites 
charles_leclerc: why do i have to be planning something? can’t i just admire my beautiful girlfriend
user5: charles anytime y/n is around: 🥰🥰🥰
@charles_leclerc posted on his story  
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╰ yourusername: i love you more 
╰ pierregasly: have you done it yet? 
╰ charles_leclerc: no..soon though..! 
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not captured in these photos, the tears rolling down my face 
my forever 🥹💍 ✨
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yourbestfriend: YAYYYYY HE DID IT !!!! 
╰ yourusername: YOU KNEW?
╰ yourbestfriend: OF COURSE, WHY ELSE DID I MAKE SURE YOU HAD YOUR NAILS DONE 
user1: OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG 
user2: THEYRE GETTING MARRIED 
user3: I’M CRYING user4: THEY FOUND THEIR FOREVER, NO ONE TALK TO ME 
landonorris: congratulations ! it was hard keeping this a secret  
╰ yourusername: YOU KNEW TOO? 
╰ landonorris: yes, i was with him when he bought it 😎
charles_leclerc: cant wait for a forever of snow ball fights, ski trips, holidays with our families, laughs, cuddles, i could keep going but you get the point. 
╰ yourusername: 🥹🥹🥹
charles_leclerc: i love you, mon amour ❤️
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here’s to forever mon amour ❤️💍
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yourusername: no one else i’d rather spend the rest of my life with ❤️
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╰ user2: im never moving on from this 
user3: they are my roman empire 
user5: im😭 so 😭happy 😭for 😭them 😭
pierregasly: congrats man! 😁
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landonorris: congrats mate !! 
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You and Charles were back at the cabin you were staying at for the weekend. Charles was talking on the phone with his brothers and his mom getting their congratulations even though you made sure your immediate family members knew before you both decided to post on social media. 
You were sitting by the fireplace, curled up with a hot cocoa wearing one of Charles’ sweatshirts, admiring the ring on your finger, you still couldn’t believe you were marrying the love of your life. It felt like a dream, one you never wanted to wake up from. 
“What are you thinking about mon amour?” Charles asked coming into the living area off of the phone. He sat beside you, wrapping an arm around you, pulling you closer to him 
“Just this” you told him referring to the ring he gave you a few hours prior “Cant believe I’m going to be your wife” you smiled, looking at him 
“I’d marry you right now if it was an option” He told you returning the same, lovesick smile you were giving him.
“I think our mothers would have heart attacks if we eloped” You joked, knowing your mother was already in wedding mode even if it had only been a few hours “I know” he chuckled, agreeing with you 
“Seriously though I’m so lucky” You said giving him a kiss on the cheek 
“I’m the lucky one” Charles told you, kissing your head as you laid it on his shoulder “You’re my everything”.
You couldn’t see him but you could hear his smile and you wore a very similar one on your own face.
This was your forever and you couldn’t be happier. 
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ahhh i hope you enjoyed reading this as much as i enjoyed writing it! i already have so many other ideas in the works so if this does well i'll definitely start working on them. anyways feel free to comment your thoughts and happy holidays !
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popquizhot-shot · 4 months
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small drabble because i sobbed my heart out, i hate sore throats.
“baby, are you okay?” miguel seems a bit taken aback as you trudge into the office, blanket wrapped around your shoulders as you sniffed a bit.
you just shake your head and go and hug him, sitting on his lap with your face buried in his neck. his hands fly to your waist and his face contorts in worry as you start to cry softly against him.
“baby, shh.” he tries to comfort you, hand patting your head and roaming down the expanse of your back, “what’s wrong, love?”
between sniffs and coughs you reply, “my throat hurts so bad and i feel like i want to cut my head off. i hate it.”
“oh, pobrecita.” he cooes, kissing the top of your head, “it’s okay i’ve got you.” he quickly asks Lyla to order some medicines and lozenges as well as some hot soup.
“i just, feel so pathetic. it’s a sore throat it’s not like i’m dying.” he nods in understanding at your words, “but it hurts so bad. i cant even breathe without it hurting.”
“you’re not pathetic.” he reassures you, “you’re sick. and you’re hurting. and i wish i could take your pain baby, i hate seeing you in pain.” he kisses your temple as a few tears slip out again, “i’ll take care of you, i’ve got you baby. im here.”
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cressthebest · 13 days
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Crimson Rivers thoughts pt. 31
chapter 50: (15 chapters left)
1. oh SHIT the girls are fighting (sirius and regulus are at each other with nails and hair pulling)
2. “It's mean. It's nails and hair-pulling and brutal in the way only siblings can be. In mere seconds, they've both made each other bleed, and they don't seem inclined to stop there.”
i think the arena allowed them to do this, but they’ve been ready to go at each other like this for AGES. cause like, i want to go at my siblings like this sometimes. and then go watch tv together after
3. 😬😶 sirius just found out reg is a death eater
4. 😬😬 it was just revealed that reg did NOT in fact kill Coen. yikes dude
5. “"You're a fucking death eater?!" Sirius snarls as he dodges Yaxley's elbow.
"Yeah, it doesn't feel good, does it?!" Regulus snarls back ……
"How is this even comparable, you little shit?!"”
😭😭😭 plsss he’s so funny
6. damn, when sirius was fighting the others, he wasn’t going full force, cause he was having an emotional conversation. but he was still winning. and then he gets tired of fighting so he just in like two swift moves kills two people. jfc he’s scary.
7. “"I was going to lose James anyway, don't you get it?! I never even really got to have him! But you—I got you back. I had you back, and you took that from me. You weren't—you promised you wouldn't do that. How could you do that, after I—I begged you not to? And for what? Me? You think you did it for me? No, you did it for you. You tossed me aside, and it's not even the first time!"”
😧😧😧 holy shit, he just went right at it
8. “Grow up, Regulus."
"You won't let me!"”
😧 jaw on the freaking GROUND
9. jfc this fight is brutal. i think it would hurt less for them to just kill the other. cause like, these words hurt even ME
10. “"What I regret most isn't that you broke your promise, Sirius," Regulus continues. "It's that I wasted time caring enough to ask for a promise from you at all."”
yoooo wtf wtf wtf this HURTS
11. “”Let me guess, you told them only you could kill me? Something like that, yeah?"”
😭😭 sirius guessed it right and reg is like ‘😳 no…. i never said that. why would i say that?’
12. reg is like “😡😡😡 I HATE YOU” and sirius is like “liar ☺️”
13. i bet the entire hallow is on the edge of their seat watching this like the highest quality entertainment. no way has anything been this juicy in the arena for AGES
14. YOO WTF REG THATS OUT OF POCKET. HE JUST THREATENED TO HURT REMUS. MY DEAR, THATS YOUR FRIEND TOO! YOU CANT DO THAT!! LITTLE BITCH!
15. god, regulus is actually about to say it and just goes after regulus. like, hardly holding back. holy shit
16. “Sirius, for the first time, doesn't believe in his brother. Because Regulus wants to say Remus' name, and that would hurt Sirius more than dying by Regulus' hand.”
god, just stab me in the heart why don’t ya?
17. 😧 dagger raised above his head, ready to strike down in reg’s chest and just can’t. and then as he’s about to kill him, regulus says he loves sirius. good god, i’m actually crying so hard rn
18. “He can see it, suddenly. It does become clear, then, all at once. Regulus did trick him. He did fool him. Just not in the way Sirius was prepared for. He never imagined this at all.
Regulus never intended to go home.”
BAWLING LIKE A BIG BABY RN
19. “"Don't, please don't do this to me. Sirius, please just—please do it, or let me do it. Don't make me live without you, please don't, Sirius—””
YOU WOULD THINK THAT THE SADDEST THING HAS ALREADY BEEN SAID, BUT NO!!! IM SOBBING HARDER!! AND I HAVE A FINAL EXAM IN HALF AN HOUR
20. “It's horrible, because the arena has brought Regulus back to him twice, once when Regulus became a Victor and right this very second, but for Regulus, all the arena does is take Sirius away.”
BAWLING LIKE A BABY
21. oh SHIT james did not leave them a note this time
22. god, it hurts knowing that sirius doesn’t trust reg with a dagger. not because sirius is scared reg will turn on him, but that reg will kill himself
23. “"It has to be you, okay? It has to, because I don't want to go home if I'm not going home with you. I—I just don't see the point."”
that freaking HURTS
24. this entire chapter hurt like a fucking BITCH
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noeasyisnoisy · 25 days
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‼️TBB S3 FINALE SPOILERS‼️
why is the music ominous.
THE LOGO IS BLACK (did that happen before and i missed it?)
please tell me they won’t all die
this is terrifying
“guard the vault” THERE SO MANY OF THEM
OMG NALA SE
YES EMERIE‼️‼️‼️
yes omega they’re here but they’re not quite HERE yet 
oh god the times don’t line up
THE TIMES DONT LINE UP
SHES FKNNA ESCAPE AND NOBODY WILL BE THERE
OR SHES GONNA ESCAPE AS ECHOS GETTING THERE ISNT SHE
LMFAOOOOO THEY KNOCKED THAT BITCH OUR
isn’t that tunnel dangerous?? like omega almost got SMACKED a million times
they’re all force sensitive though so it makes sense
if wrecker passes out or smth they’re all screwed
OMG THE KIDS ARE OUT
TURN AROUND 
the fucking timing AHHDJFKFEHD
im so stressed
IF THAT BABY DOESNT SHUT UP
i’m sorry
i love kids but THIS ISNT THE TIME
OH FUCK THE ZILLO BEAST
HELP THAT CUT OFF (the zillo beast screaming and then emerie)
YALL SEE ECHO??
“the zillo’s loose!” echo: 🤨
ok at least emerie’s job is to find them
“omega.. she released the zillo” “how do you know that?” “because that’s exactly what i’d do.” STOP IT.
YOU KIDS BETTER FUCKING RUN
ECHO HUNTER CROSSHAIR HURRY
HIS HAND 💔
wrecker you’re not fine.
crosshair you can’t with your hand
clone force 99 is dead
i
i’m just
i’m gonna go cry now
CROSSHAIR YOU DO NOT KNOW WHAT YOURE UP AGAINST
“it’s what i deserve” SHUT UP
“we do this together” YAAAAA
“echo’s handiwork? or omega’s?” “omega.” HELP
THE OPERATORS PLAYING
IS THAT TECH
I COULDNT TELL
holy fuck
THERES 4 OF THEM???
also hemlock looked so cool with the red lights and the smoke
HOLY FUCK THE 4 GUYS
that guy has to be tech because HES ALWAYS THE MAIN FOCUS
crosshair is you sacrifice yourself istg
HUNTER
NO
UR JOKING
HE DIDNT
HE CUT OFF HIS HAND??
NO FUCKING WAY
THEY GOT THEM
emerie and echo u need to start SPRINTING
OH FUCK
ECHO
YAYAYAYAY
THE HUG STOP ☹️
STOP TORTURING THEM
me bc hunter has heightened sense which means the electricity hurts even more than it already would
SHUT THE FUCK UP HEMLOCK
IF THEY KILL CROSSHAIR ISTG
STOP ELECTROCUTING HIM YOU FUCKING BASTARD
cry count: 2
the fact that nobody has plot armor is terrifying
YES OMEGA BREAK EVERYONE OUT
nala se’s gonna die isn’t she
RAMPART WHAT ARE YOU DOING
ughdhdh tarkin
TARKINS SHOWING UP???
i’m so scared
my heart is POUNDING
nala se what’re you up to queen
is rampart gonna kill her
NO FUCKING WAY
wrecker’s waking up
omega sees them
ok
we got this!!
THE POP UP WALLS HELLO?
cmon omega free them
WHY IS THAT GUY JS STANDING THERE
HOLY FUCK THEY STABBED HIM
oh shit she’s gonna die
HEMLOCK GET OUT
NONONONONONO THE GAS
rampart stfu
HE KILLED NALA SE
LMFAO HE DIED TOO
ok but tbb minus echo aren’t in the gas
YES WRECKER.
KILL THOSE HOES
NO HES TAKING OMEGA
HUNTER
YES WRECKERRR
DID HE JS KILL MAYBE TECH
ok so i guess it’s not tech
i’m crying again why the fuck am i crying
HEMLOCK LET GO OF HER
WHY ARE THE OPERATIVES NOT DYING
IM SO SCARED RN
CROSSHAIR
LET OMEGA GO YOU BITCH
ALSO WET HAIR HUNTER MEOWOWOWOWOW HES SO FINEEEE
stab him omega
you got this crosshair.
im bawling rn
YES
THAT WAS SO SMOOTH
now hug.
AWWW
i’m sobbing
THEY MADE IT
THEY DID IT
holy shit they left right as the empire got there
that’s actually terrifying
YESSSSS RESEARCH IS GONE
PROJECT STARDUST OMG
THE DEATHSTAR
THATS SO COOL
AWWW EMERIE ☹️
i’m sobbing again
THAT WAS SUCH A PERFECT ENDING
oh it’s not over
ADULT OMEGA
SHUT UP
GONKY
GRANDPA HUNTER
why is he such a dilf hello
sorry
“you’re our kid omega”
SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP I CANT
TECHS GOGGLES
OK NOW THAT WAS THE PERFECT ENDING 
i’m gonna go type a paragraph 💔
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strawbs-screaming · 10 months
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☆ WVBA At A Party ☆
So uhh tw for alcohol mention,emetophobia other than that its ok
Glass Joe
- doing his best not to get thrown into a dance circle
- anxious as fuck
- piston hondo (drunk as shit) keep trying to explain star wars lore to him
- hes just nodding and pretending to understand, he cant because hes speaking in japanese
- had some drinks & passed out because he doesnt take alcohol well
- woke up on the roof because some drunk bastard decided to put him onto there, theres now a investigation about trying to find who put Joe on the roof
- will hold your drink for you
- keeps getting dragged into doing dumb shit by aran ryan
Von Kaiser
- buzzed, looks like hes on the verge of death
- at the karaoke bar, killing it, yess grandpa slayyyy one foot in the grave one foot in the rave
- keeps chugging like hell, look at him go
- teaching some random people how to do traditional german dances
- randomly starts sobbing
- bear hugger has to stop him from chugging another bottle of whiskey
Disco Kid
- thrown into the dance circle, killing it
- spamming everyones phones with really positive texts
- "YUO AR TAKENTED SNF CAN DK SNYTHING YKU PUT YOU4 NINF UBTO" (You are really talented and can do anything you put your mind into)
-"thank you : )"
- "YOU SRE LIVEF ANR 4SKEBT2D,,,,ÖOCE YOURDRKF" (You are loved, love yourself)
- wasted
- giving out free hugs
- had a really good dance off with aran ryan
- fell down a flight of stairs and got up like it was nothing
- dancing the pain away
Piston Hondo
- avoiding the dance circle like its a death sentence
- explaining the star wars lore to glass joe in japanese
- will hate himself in the morning
- speaking really broken japanglish with bear hugger
- keeps lifting up von kaiser & running away as he holds him
- partying hard
- randomly starts speaking about stuff, you could be talking about how you ran over a man and his son just yesterday and he'll be like "Do you like sailor moon"
- tried to eat a glass of water, sad because he got stopped
- randomly got stuck in a british accent
King Hippo
- passed out on the floor
- someone help him please
- people keep trying to use him as a trampoline
- randomly gets up and starts to talk about sea slugs
- he just leaves after that,he is done
Great Tiger
- only sober person here
- has to stop piston hondo from explaining the star wars lore to random people
- making sure everyone is hydrated
- victim of disco kids positive texts
- gathers drunk passed out people and puts them somewhere safe so nobody gets hurt
- oh my god he is on the verge of tears from all this stress he needs help
- ended up sobbing into disco kids arms after it all got too stressful
- he could really use a break
- will hold your drink,may switch it out with water if he decides youve had enough for tonight
Don Flamenco
- too distracted too go to the dance circle
- keeps singing & referencing dumb stuff while anyone talks to him, he just has 0 thoughts right now
- "i feel like im never gonna amount to anything in my life, it just feels like im destined to end up dying alone-"
- "FIESTA SALSA QUİNCEAÑERA-"
- "why do i even bother"
- drinking cocktails like someones gonna take it away from him if he doesnt inhale it within 10 seconds
- keeps trying to call carmen
- stumbling like hell
- someone needs to tape his mouth shut
- asking the dumbest shit ever to carmen as he texts her
- "would you still love me if i was a muppet,,"
- "would you still be able to control yourself or would you need to be used like a actual muppet??"
- "i dont knwo im durnk"
Bear Hugger
- will not go into the dance circle, ever
- singing sea shanties & suddenly has the personality of a ye olden sailor
- someone convinced him to wax his legs
- confused as shit when he wakes up in the morning
- listening to hondo infodump about sailor moon, intrigued
- will laugh at anything, laughed at Macho mans left eyebrow for a solid 40 minutes
- passed out for a hour after that
- brought a random frog from the nearest pond & named it Buddy, buddy was never seen again after someone threw him out of a window
- ate candle wax, he just did, he somehow stomached it
- sober yet wasted, tapdancing on that line between mentally not present & aware
Aran Ryan
- drunk but has a camera, recording whatever happens
- "guys... this little pocket sized eejit is stuck on the roof... what the fuck.. get him off of there"
- will do anything you dare him to do, got dared to throw someones TV out of the window, the rest is history
- eated a bees
- chased piston hondo with a chair, you havent known true fear until a irishman with a camera & chair is chasing you while yelling like a psychopath while youre talking about star wars lore
- called glass joe "Glasses Jonathan"
- mourned the loss of buddy with bear hugger
- on his hater routine, texting back discos positive messages with mean messages
Soda Popinski
- sober, enjoying the show
- in the dance circle, busting it down
- dehydrated because theres no soda :(
- trying to convince aran ryan to eat a pair of headphones
- gives out water to anyone who appears drunk & asks for a drink telling them its "strong stuff" Just to see them smile & hydrate themselves
- enjoying the karaoke
- also mourning the loss of buddy, thought he was really cool
Bald Bull
- scared of the dance circle
- drunk but his social anxiety is still acting up
- mom i threw up pose when he zones out & stares into the void
- standing in the corner or clinging onto don flamenco because he cant manage crowds well
- getting second hand embarrasment from don flamencos singing
- people keep using the top of his head as a mirror
- clinging onto the nearest extroverts he knows well
- "what if everyone thinks i look like a complete idiot standing in the corner"
- Just really anxious & stressed, he doesnt manage social events well
- needs some silence
Super Macho Man
- thinks hes a good dancer, looks like hes having a stroke, dancing is not for him, especially drunk dancing
- people keep calling him grandpa
- sobbing over any minor event that effects him even slightly negatively
- sobbed over the loss of buddy
- crying over everything
- sobbing on the bathroom floor because he threw up so hard he felt like his soul left him
- hes literally just crying
- tried to do karaoke through his tears, couldnt sing the tears away
Mr Sandman
- pushed into the dance circle, accidentally made a conga line, who knew a conga line full of drunk men could be so fun?
- watching aran ryan eat weird shit & cheering him on because he thinks its funny
- bald bull tried to make a "man me a sand" joke to him, ended up looking like he was having a seizure
- "Mr sandman.. Sand.. The man?.. Sand man.. Uhhh, man him a sand-"
- "bull please lay down"
- enjoying bear huggers sea shanties
- trying to get glass joe off the roof
- fell asleep using a freezer as a pillow
Extra
- narcis showed up to tell everyone that theyre losers & left
- doc louis left early with mac as soon as the alcohol drinking started
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ok I'm gonna ramble about outer wilds.
if you haven't played it, even if you don't typically care about spoilers, PLEASE avoid spoilers bc this is the most delicate game ever when it comes to spoilers due to the way it's designed. it's one of the few games where spoilers WILL rob you of the experience. with that said,
OUTER WILDS SPOILERS
this is a very very special game to me fgkjldfjk the ending was really beautiful when i first played and the more i thought about and processed it, the more it really stuck with me to the point where i *will* just cry if i think about the ending too much and god i cannot play through that ending again without sobbing. since im assuming people reading this have played the game, yall already know the nature of the game. the only thing you have to gain from anything is knowledge, and once you beat the game, you cant really ever play it again. sure you could maybe go for achievements or explore things you never saw but the experience is kinda just over.
I very much interpreted the ending as being about death. the game has the whole supernova time loop thing going on which sorta makes the idea of respawning a canonical aspect of the game. the fact that you can just hop back into your ship and you dont really have repercussions from death which is a pretty much synonymous with games as a whole tbh is a canonical aspect of the game that you the player AND you the hearthian traveler exploring the universe are a part of. this doesnt immediately seem to special and didn't even click with me very much until quite a bit after i beat the game, but to beat the game is to accept that you're going to die, and truly dying in this game is kinda the closest media has come to communicating what death really means for me at least. you start aimlessly wandering this star system and eventually start to piece things together, you make goals and eventually figure out how to beat the game, etc. all the knowledge you have to gain in this game leads up to the ending. maybe you stop the supernova and save everyone! maybe thats why you're trying to find the eye of the universe! but no, all the stars are dying. you were just unfortunate enough to be born at the end of a dying universe. There's nothing you can do because death is inevitable for you and those around you.
to beat the game is not only to accept that the sun will explode for the last time, that the end of the experience is inevitable, that all your hearthian friends will die for good, but beating the game also requires accepting that *you the player* have reached the end of this experience, *you the player* cannot hang onto anything forever, that the end was inevitable for you too. sometimes i get genuinely sad that i can basically never play this game again, and i almost wonder if my little hearthian protagonist felt similar during the end of the game. that feeling of the inevitable end finally reaching us.
AND DESPITE IT ALL, you finally accept that you are not immortal, that this will not last forever, that the sun cant keep exploding and looping and exploding and looping forever, when you finally accept death on your own terms, when you have no idea of what's in store for you and what will happen next but you take that dive anyway, you just,, get to share a moment with the people close to you. you sit around the campfire as everyone's music comes together for the first time, once *literally* worlds apart, now, in harmony, as the little audio cues to find your friends on each planet become a symphony. they each share messages about how they feel and every single fucking one resonated with me so much sdjklfsklj stuff like "you cut it a little short dont you think?" and "i got to be a part of something really cool, so I've got no complaints" and "the future depends on the past, even if we wont get to see it" and MY FAVORITE FUCKING LINE FROM THE ENTIRE GAME. solanum, the only non-hearthian character around the campfire, a nomai, one of the species that made this all possible, a friend, says something different. she says that this is the end of our journey, and she asks you a question. she just asks if you're ready. its not required to say yes to finish, its not even required to talk to her to beat the game, but if you say no, she will ask again if you are ready whenever you talk to her afterwards, while leaving a message for you in case you are not ready for it to end. she says "its tempting to linger in this moment where every possibility still remains, but unless they are collapsed by a conscious observer, they will never be more than possibilities." when you finally take your final plunge in this moment, you watch the universe collapse before you, remarkably similar to all the times you watched the sun explode before your eyes, and you die.
even though you the player are clearly still alive, (its just a video game after all :p) the experience is over. you died in a way too. this world is no longer yours to explore and discover. after the credits theres a very nice touch where you see the start of a new universe after you enter the eye and the entire universe dies before you. you see some new creatures huddled around a campfire together to remind you that death isn't the end, because "the future depends on the past, even if we wont get to see it" and that maybe it was enough to be a part of something cool, to share those moments with your friends, to explore the universe in whatever unique way you did.
SO WHAT THE FUCK IS ECHOES OF THE EYE
DLC spoilers beyond this point ofc.
if you're like me or countless other players, you probably wanted more, well I've got just the news for you!! theres a DLC !!!! "but wait, doesnt this defeat literally the entire purpose of the game?" yes :D but that's not a flaw, in fact they do this in the best way possible. the DLC challenges the message of the game because there is a fundamental aspect of death that the game barely even touches that the DLC explored *thoroughly*: fear.
chances are, you realize you can beat the game and go beat it and are immensely moved and equally confused by the ending because it takes so much time to process that you never really have a moment to fear death. theres never a moment where you are scared of what comes next because it doesnt really click that this is the end of everything until after the end. in my opinion at least, this is pretty much the only flaw with their portrayal of death and the DLC remedied this.
so it turns out you want more and weren't ready for this to end! its time to explore the owlks and their contributions to this story. im not going to explain their story in depth because im assuming people have played ofc, but key traits with the owlks is that they feared loss. they archived what they wanted to destroy, they lost their home beause of the efforts they made to reach the eye and were horrified, they tried to escape by hiding in a world of their own creation. they hid the eye to prolong the life of the universe as infinitely far as they could. they stumbled across a way to similarly archive one's consciousness, and conquer even death itself, but it was all out of fear. they couldnt accept the end so they hid from it.
and let me just say THE DLC IS FUCKING SCARY. they lean into horror and I think everyone should play it even if they arent into horror. the puzzles arent actually too challenging in execution, and making the discoveries you need is no sweat if you've gone through the base game tbh, although it is very different in a very refreshing way. The real challenge and the real roadblock is fear. some of the things you are required to do are immensely scary and put you into situations you frankly dont want to be in! but if you quit, if you dont do this out of fear, if you hide and if you try to escape this, you're just like the owlks. you dont get through this by not being afraid, you get through this by not letting your fear paralyze you. you need to face your fears (often quite literally as you need to lure owlks away from things and I think its a nice touch that they can also hide from you by turning off their lights and then they can still see you by shining their light towards you even if yours is off FUCK that but this is a bit of a tangent lsdkfgljsd) and if you succeed where they failed, you learn one of the biggest mysteries of the game. you learn why the eye's signal vanished as fast as it appeared, why the nomai failed to find it as effortlessly as the owlks did, but more imporantly, you make a friend :] you meet the owlk that enabled the eye of the universe to be found with a brief decision that they made in a single moment so long ago. the efforts to build upon what the prisoner did were not in vain, and the prisoner accepts death by literally walking into the water as their light goes out. they leave a final message for you, urging you to ride into the exploding sun with them by your side, and you know its time to go beat the game again.
hopefully at this point the ending has sat with you long enough for you to realize what this means. now, more than ever, this is finally the end of the game. you wanted more and you got more but that desire for more similarly cant last forever. the game still needs to end and this is why there should never ever be another DLC for this game please,, a desire for more and a fear of the end kinda come hand in hand, and the fears that you chose to face were not in vain. this is it! theres nothing else! maybe you're sad that the game is ending for the last time, and maybe you still dont want it to end. but in those final moments around the campfire, solanum isn't the only non-hearthian friend around the campfire :] the prisoner is there too wondering if they even deserve to be there after what their kind did, but its over now, everything worked out. they say something really simple that was, without a doubt, the perfect addition to the game for me:
"...How beautiful. It’s different than I’d envisioned.
Whatever happens next, I do not think it is to be feared."
I think one of the reasons this game resonated so much with me is something that I really struggled to grasp until I watched shammy's outer wilds review. there's something so much more significant about *being* rather than just, observing. tons of movies try to tackle these ideas of death and even plenty of games, but with outer wilds, *you* are having this experience that will end that you can never have again. *you* are exploring a world in your own unique way that cannot last forever. and I think that's ok. I think that's what makes it special.
I'm a game dev and an artist and I think outer wilds is genuinely profound. it makes me want to make something that touches people in the way I felt touched by outer wilds. I'm so happy things aligned for me to get to use this same medium for art. I'm gonna go cry now thanks for reading <3
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Just saw Thor Love and Thunder and I need to talk about it so read ahead at your own risk.
First of all, i love the fucking goats they are the star of the show.
Okay now onto the movie. I loved it. One of the funniest and most heart wretching films I had ever seen. The casting is always incredible with Taika films and they did another amazing job. I am so happy to see Natalie Portman return.
I will say that her Jane Foster with cancer was not a surprise seeing as though that is what happened in the comics. However I was surprised to see her death at the end of the film. I truly thought that it was going to follow the comics and have Jane become the new Thor and the og Thor would either die or step down. Her death did make me cry but it was nice to get a proper closure for Thor and Janes relationship and even finding out how they broke up in the first place.
Thor in the film was hilarious and I loved to see his growth as a character. To see his struggle with depression and PTSD and even take advice from Peter Quill who is someone we have learned he does not have the best relationship with. Him learning about the corrupt power system in what im guessing was Mount Olympus because i do not remember what it is actually called was incredible. Him learning that he was on his own and would ultimately have to face this fight alone was somewhat sad but seeing him literally rip one through Zeus was amazing.
Valkyrie my true king, I love you. She is the best character in this series and seeing her go one on one with Gor??? Incredible. I literally was about to cry because i thought she was dead but im glad she lived. Also when she kissed Zeus' maid on the hand i was dying because I wanted that to be me.
Korg had mw sobbing. This dude literally almost died and then ended up making a baby with a man named DWAYNE? Adorable. 10/10.
Also fucking Axel??? HEIMDALS SON??? YES PLEASE HE WAS ADORABLE!! Iloved his interactions with Thor and I see him playing a huge part in the future movies.
Christian fucking bale this man scared the fuck out of me. He is the creepiest MCU villain thus far. He does an amazing job portraying the same character with split personalities after being corrupted. His character was complex and really dug into religion as well for it being a marvel film. With it being a controversial topic right now I think that many will not take to it lightly. However his performance was incredible. Another masterpiece for him and another DC actor converted to marvel.
But seriously the ending threw me through a loop. With the way things were going in Eternity, I truly thought that Jane and Thor were going to raise his daughter together. But seeing Jane die in Thors arms like that? I was sobbing in the theatre.
The first post credit scene somewhat confirmed for me that thor was going to die soon. With Zeus still living and calling upon Hercules its kinda a given. Will Herc kill Thor? Most likely. Will Herc live? I doubt it. I think that they will end up either killing each other or Thors new niece will end his life.
The second post credit scene. This had the whole theatre gasping. Imagine it. Everyone is talking, sotting around, waiting to see if the lights turn on or if there's a second post credit scene. Then, the gold sparks appear on screen. Within a matter of two seconds, everyone was back in their seats and the theater was silent. We see Jane appear at the Gates of Val Halla. And who is there to greet her? Heimdal. Literally everyone gasped when seeing him. And sadly, after Jane had lost her battle with cancer, she was allowed into the great hall of gods, who have all lost their lives in their own battles.
Overall this was my favorite thor movie. I love Natalie Portman and Chris Hemsworth on screen together. They have great chemistry and work so well together. Im happy she was able to get a proper farewell for the franchise and got the proper treatment she deserved for her work. I cant wait to see what comes next when Thor returns.
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bish-plz-haha · 5 months
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Noragami will be the death of me
December 20:
I'm catching up on the Noragami manga and I am dying. My god: I'm on chapter 95 and I'm literally crying. Like, I can't believe Yukine would do that?!? Like, Yukine is absolutely my favourite character in the show - maybe ever honestly - and like, I just can't believe it. I'm utterly speechless. I cant think of words to describe how I'm feeling.
Betrayal
Dejected
Sadness
Anger
Contempt
Confused
Mortified
These are just a few. I just cant believe he would go and do such a thing.
Also, that whole scene where Nora takes Hiyori to Yukine's grave just had me SOBBING. I saw it when it first came out but shit, seeing it again after so long; damn feelings. Shit.
(I will edit this post when I finish the manga - well, to where it is at now. Final chapter is coming next month and I'm stoked for it! Even with how much feelings I feel.)
December 21 (12:00 am):
OH MY GOD YUKINE'S MORTAL NAME (HARUKI) MEANS "Spring Tree" AND HIS SHINKI NAME MEANS "Snow"...
HIS NAMES ARE ON BOTH SIDES! "Snow" being in the season of "death" and "Spring" being the season of "life." His names fit which shore he's living in.
Adachitoka are genius. My goodness.
December 21 (4:24 pm):
OH MY GOD WHAT?!?!?
Okay, I absolutely love seeing Yukine in that beast form. He is badass and I love that.
Hiyori died?!?! But because of the world being false, she didn't ACTUALLY die. I love how Yukine bursting through the cherry blossom petals and Hiyori's shinki vessel came from them as well. That is a very cool parallel.
But my god! That panel showing Yukine laying in that refrigerator surrounded by the petals just absolutely broke my heart. Like, I know he died there, but I didn't actually need to see him laying in it. Why, Adachitoka?!?! Why??? Why do you gotta break my heart as so?
I also wanna say that I loved Yukine curling around young Yato in his beast form: that made my heart very happy. It was so cute!!!! I just wanna take it and print it out and colour it and hang it up. That was one of the most precious things I've ever seen!
Okay; now all I gotta do is wait until next month to get the... last chapter 😭😭😭😭
IM NOT CRYING, YOU ARE!
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