#15 fears

[kahpao]

A TRIBUTE TO THE FEARS 👁️

I made some fanart for The Magnus Archives!! I love this podcast, and am hella enjoying Protocol too! The characters and world building in these stories are really interesting to me - I used to think I wasn’t a fan of horror, but Rusty Quill changed that!

Slight TW for horror/depictions of blood and guts/elements of fear and phobias 👍 see the full un-blurred piece under the cut!

#original art #artists on tumblr #digital art #the magnus archives is a podcast #the magnus archives #the magnus pod #Tma #tma fanart #fear entities #tmp #the magnus protocol #horror podcast #horror anthology #tma podcast #tma/tmp #15 fears

[dspd]

Since TMA has been such a huge part of my life this year I used Grace Holsten's wonderful tarotesque art on redbubble to make myself a little desk calendar for 2024. It's kind of a stand-in until I can afford to buy the entire set.

#tma #the magnus archives #2024 desk calendar #btw im not advertising but this was only $6 on vistaprint #15 fears #tarotesque #grace holsten

[alicedyerappreciator]

concept

domain of the lonely but its just the worst polycule you've ever been in

#the magnus archives #smirke's fourteen #15 fears #tma #polyamory #yes i am poly i am allowed to say this #obsessed with lonely but through connection #people who are supposed to connect with you #but you are not connecting #oh no these tags are becoming therapy #anyway love my current polycule yall are great

[inkskinned]

kids remind me, often, of the things i've taught myself out of.

i have a big dog. he looks like a deer. he is taller than most young children. while we were on a trail the other day, a boy coming our direction saw us and froze. he took a step back and said: "i'm feeling nervous. your - your dog is kind of big."

goblin and i both stopped walking immediately. "he is kind of a big dog," i admitted. "he's called a greyhound. they are gentle but they are pretty tall, which is kind of scary, you're right. their legs are so long because they are made for running fast. i am sorry we scared you. would you like us to stand still while you move past us, or would you feel more safe in your body if we move and you stay still?'

"oh. i didn't know that about - greyhounds. i think i ... i want to stay still," he said. at this point, his adult had caught up to us. "i'm nervous about the dog," he told her, "so i'm - i'm gonna stay still." she didn't argue. she didn't make fun of him. she just smiled at him and at me and held his hand while goblin and i, with as wide of a berth as we could make, crept our way through.

behind us, i heard him exhale a deep breath and kind of laugh - "he was really big, huh? she said it's because greyhounds have to go fast."

"he was big," she said. "i understand why that could have made you a little scared."

"yeah. next time i - next time do you think i could maybe ask to touch him? when - i mean, next time, maybe, if i'm not nervous."

later, going to a work event, in the big city, i stood outside, trembling. my social anxiety as a caught bird in my chest. i took a deep breath and turned to my coworker. she's not even really my friend yet. i told her: "i feel nervous about this. i am not used to meeting new people, ever since covid."

she laughed, but not in a mean way. she said she was nervous too. she reached her hand out and held mine, and we both took another deep breath and walked in like that, interlinked. a few people asked us - together? - and i told the truth: i feel nervous, and she's helping. over and over i watched people relax too, admitting i feel really kind of shy lately actually, thank you for saying that.

the next time i go to an event, and i feel a little scared, i ask right away: wanna hold hands? this feels a little dangerous. i hesitate less. i don't hide it as much. i watch for other people who are also nervous and say - it's kinda hard, huh?

i know, logically, i'm not good at asking for help. but i am also not good at noticing when i need help. i've trained myself out of asking completely, but i've also trained myself to never accept my own fears or excuses. i have trained myself to tamp down every anxiety and just-push-through. i don't know what i'm protecting myself from - just that i never think to admit it to anyone.

but every person on earth occasionally needs comfort. every person on earth occasionally needs connection. many of us were taught independence is the same thing as never needing anything.

each of us should have had an adult who heard - i feel nervous and held our hand and asked us how we could be helped to feel safe. no judgement, and no chiding. many of us did not. many of us were punished for the ways that we seemed "weak".

but here is something: i am an adult now. and i get nervous a lot, actually. and if you are an adult and you are feeling a little nervous - come talk to me. we can hold hands and figure out what will help us feel safe in our bodies. and maybe, next time, if we're brave, we can pet the dog that's passing.

#spilled ink #warm up #so i have worked in childcare as a teacher for like 15 years #hence the language behind ''what helps you be safe in your body?'' #like you can tell by what i say here i have EXPERIENCE with kids. #but tbh the REAL teacher moment is watching a 6/7 year old say #''this makes me nervous #can you please not come closer?'' #as a teacher i was IMMEDIATELY like ... ahh whomever is raising you is doing an EXCELLENT job holy shit #verbalizing your fears? trusting an adult to listen? #ability to recognize a way you might feel safer? #like .... this kid's caregivers.... that one moment... i was like .... who are u i wanna french kiss you big on the mouth

[fishfission-dc]

Something about how Jason Todd’s core character trait is how he lost faith. He lost faith in Shiela, in Bruce, in the entire concept that someone else can care about him and actually have his best interests at heart.

Something about how Catholic priest Flashpoint Jason Todd is someone who has such intense faith, who trust so heavily in someone basically unprovable. Something about how without Bruce, without being Robin, it was his faith that was his core character trait.

Something about how being Robin and the life he was led into changed him in such a tragic and deep seeded way. I don’t know

#fan comic i’ll make one day #can you tell i went to catholic school for 15 years? #i fear that i reek of catholic guilt #and thus i must project it onto jason #dc comics #jason todd #dc #dc robin #batfamily #red hood #flashpoint #batman #bruce wayne

[schreibfederlaerm]

it's just really funny to me to imagine Fabian actually being a great big brother honorable nemesis.

like, putting a nemesis ward on the nursery with aelwyn's help since "it won't do if they die before their eighteenth birthday, will it?" (aelwyn, deeply sarcastic: "well of course, that is exactly why I put the ward on adaine's room." fabian, too deep in denial for sarcasm: "see? you get it")

gifting them a battle sheet baby blanket since they should start preparing for their battle early on (and yes it's extra fluffy, it's for a baby stop laughing everybody)

generally trying to teach them everything he knows "so their battle to the death will be a fair one"

giving their adventuring party the same lecture on tactics that the bad kids got from his papa

hunting down chungledown bim and any other nemesis so his sibling is the only one who could get a piece of his fund (he just wants it to stay in the family, shut up)

just. fabian being an amazing big brother but also if you call him that to his face he will cut you

#no one can tell me that fabian of all people will look at a toddler trying to copy his dance moves and still try to kill them 15 years later #the vibe is very much 'good night westley good work sleep well i'll most likely kill you in the morning' #except fabian will have been like that for as long as his sibling remembers so there's not even a bit of fear #fantasy high #dropout #dimension 20 #fabian seacaster #d20 #fantasy high junior year #fhjy spoilers #d20 fhjy

[hehearse]

#omniscient reader's viewpoint #orv #orv spoilers #kim dokja #secretive plotter #uriel orv #demon like judge of fire #han sooyoung #yoo sangah #jung heewon #lee seolhwa #yoo joonghyuk #yoo mia #everyone else is also there i guess #id in alt #my art #achro is doing that ominous laugh hearing i have 15% of orv left. fear

[thejasontoddarchives]

Batman (1940-) #426

Batman (1940-) #427

Task Force Z #6 (2022)

You tell him, Jason.

#the mistakes in question: trusting and trying to help someone who was supposed to love and protect *him* #and wanting a parent/family who wants and accepts him #all things considered (re: gotham war) I think I can safely confirm his biggest mistake by far was trusting Bruce #jason todd #robin jason #red hood #dc #batman: a death in the family #aditf #task force z #tfz #aditf was just Jason having all of his worst fears confirmed before dying an equally *physically* painful death #he is not a priority to Bruce. Bruce doesn’t understand his pain. his biological mother heartlessly sold him out. he is without a family. #but also #how the fuck do you accidentally run into your 15 year old kid who fled to a foreign country after you two had a fight #accidentally.

[pendraegon]

im older and wiser now... <- collects all article citations and saves them as i go instead of doing it all at the end in a frenzy

#literally the adrenaline rush and fear when you realize you forgot a works cited page and ur paper is due in like 15 minutes. #NEVER again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[pillowspace]

Microdosing on the Eye by watching Youtube in the dark. Microdosing on the Web by falling for misinformation disguised by humour. Microdosing on the Spiral by getting soso incoherently sleepy. Microdosing on the Dark by shutting off my phone. Microdosing on the Vast by looking out the window before closing the blinds. Microdosing on the Buried by curling up beneath my blanket. Microdosing on the Desolation because it's soso warm. Microdosing on the End by slipping unconscious. Microdosing on the Stranger by having an uncanny dream. Microdosing on the Lonely because the silly people from my dream are gone when I wake up. Microdosing on the Flesh by stretching out of bed. Microdosing on the Hunt by searching for the fridge. Microdosing on the Slaughter by seeing the Grim Reaper in the freezer. Microwaving a burrito

#i hope this explains all 15 fear entities in perfect detail /j #the magnus archives

[buckttommy]

One thing that was very interesting to me in this episode is the way Eddie was just... not joking about Buck's love interests.

That stuck out.

Usually when Eddie talks to Buck about his love interests, it's with an edge of fond exasperation, teasing laced around his gently delivered truths, but there was none of that this episode. Buck told Eddie he went to see Natalia and it was like something switched. Eddie's entire affect changed when Buck started talking about Natalia. He went from being loose and easy (as loose and easy as one can get when standing at a grave) to being... not combative, necessarily, but visibly actively not wanting to engage in conversation about her either, and it's not...

It's not even jealousy!! We joke a lot about Eddie and jealousy, but it wasn't that at all. It was a fatigue that comes with silence, that comes with holding your tongue, that comes with keeping secrets. Especially when Buck said that he feels like Natalia sees him. That look Eddie gave him immediately after? That was pure hurt. That was him saying I see you too, I've always seen you. But he can't say that. He can't say that, because to say that would be to say so many other things about the way he sees Buck, and to say so many other things would mean to have to unstick his tongue from the roof of his mouth about the ONE thing he's been holding onto ever since he was shot.

I don't know. I don't know, but I think Eddie taking Buck on a date and I think about how Eddie left his son—his heart—in Buck's care so they could bake cookies together (which becomes profoundly more significant in an episode where Christopher was talking about baking smores with his mom), and I think about Kenny saying Ryan has been doing some very nuanced work in the back half of this season, I'm like

Oh. Oh. I see it, thank you. Loud and clear.

#Before 5B I was like 'Eddie's pining era Eddie's pining era WHEN?' #but babes we are right in the thick of it. It's in his eyes. It's in his smile. It's in the way he looks Buck #in the way he treats him. In the way he creates space for his confusion for his fatigue for his grief. #In the way he shows quiet support and a stern shoulder to lean upon #In the way he doesn't burden Buck with his own feelings (even though that's mostly selfish on his part because #no part of Eddie will ever be a burden on Buck but Eddie doesn't know that yet) #It's just. Eddie's feelings for Buck are literally in *everything* he says and everything he does #It bleeds from him just like his blood did on that street. #If everything about Buck/Eddie's lives have been shrouded by the shooting since it happened #everything about their lives has *also* been shrouded by Eddie's enormous and unflinching love for him #and he keeps holding his breath and swallowing it down and putting off the moment where he pulls back the lid #and it all spills out and before he knows it... before he knows it #it's going to be too late. And instead of his blood staining the street it's going to be Buck's and he's going to tell him #but he won't hear him because Eddie was too slow too fucking slow #(did we all peep the watch on his wrist? Yeah. Time is running out Eddie. Time is running out and it is not going to #wait for fear to release its hold on you. Buck's not going to cheat death again. Don't waste time babe) #Anyways. Yeah. YEAH. Yeah....... whew. This episode was a Lot #jack.txt #tv: 911 #911: 06 x 15 #911 spoilers

[marstyler42]

What if the organizing of the cases in the O.I.A.R being different from how they were organized in TMA with the original 14 entities is causing a remanifestation where the separations between the new entities are completely different. What if by organizing the cases and they are single-handedly driving this universes interpretations of the fears. They aren't categorizing existing things, they are creating the boundaries.

#tmagp #reading through some other theories and this occured to me #because theres no way they are still robert smirks 14/15 #it wouldnt make sense from what weve seen #so the question is: are they one big fear entity again #or have the lines between them been redefined #and what if the oiar is manipulating those shifting differences and causing them to manifest more concretely #just as fundementally different categories of fear than before? #the magnus protocol #the magnus archives #the magnus pod #we established already that there was power from collecting statements and gertrude specifically devoted her time to making the archives #messy and hard to find things in #to delay progress #why couldnt that still be true

[txeatot]

ragnvaldr wet and soggy found in a cardboard box

#fear & hunger #f&h #my art #ragnvaldr #doodle #i tried f&h demo #i died like 15 MINUTES IN #scar[r]ed me (i never opened it again)

[moment-live]

Auroras, mists and echoes dance

#ffxv #final fantasy xv #ff15 #final fantasy 15 #lunafreya nox fleuret #lunafreya #ffxv lunafreya #ffxv luna #Why do I keep using fear not this night lyrics for luna??

[chasingthe2000s]

I turn 21 today :)

#bro i feel like i was 15 just yeaterday #i have this fear of wasting my twenties #bc i definitely wasted my teen years #i will do my best to live my life to the fullest #i will draw creepypasta stories #and sew fursuits #and surround myself with loved ones #i got 9 more years lets make em count #shitpost #cottagedragon #art #digitalart #jeffthekiller #I WANT THAT CAKE AURRRRGH

[techmomma]

I am increasingly certain after 34 years of life that if you are afraid of something, if you want to get better, then you have to face it. Maybe you face it in little pieces. Maybe you face it with help or holding someone's hand, preferably in a safe environment but not everyone has that luxury. But exposure and being around what scares you is the only way to make it better.

Afraid of the ocean? Go touch the ocean.

Afraid of crowds? Go be around crowds for a time.

Afraid of being alone? Gonna have to be alone for a time.

Afraid of death? Talk about death, maybe go to a cemetary.

Afraid of becoming your parents? Gonna have to face the idea that you ARE probably like them to an extent, in order to NOT be like them.

Afraid of people not liking you? Gonna have to be not liked, sometimes.

Afraid of those thoughts saying you're a bad person. Gonna have to go talk to those thoughts.

Because humans are funny, paradoxical creatures, and almost always, the answer to being afraid of something is embracing it.

The more we embrace the thing we're scared of, the less control it has over us.

But, sometimes, people are also afraid of getting better. The decision to embrace our fears is not one that everyone takes.

Because sometimes, the fear of what is involved in getting better is greater than the original fear itself. It turns into a self-eating ouroboros.

Brought to you by me remembering me avoiding doing scary things and that made them worse and the only thing that makes them better is doing the scary things, even when scared.

#also brought to you by every time I've done something that seemed kinda insane or terrifying and people were like WHY STEPH #'I did it because I was scared of it.' #'what' #'to teach my brain that my imagination is always scarier than the reality' #I don't do scary shit because I'm not scared #I do it because I AM scared #I don't go talking to strangers because I love talking to strangers #I do it because I'm afraid of strangers. but I don't want to be. #I am so scared all of the time man #no matter how goofy or silly I look to other people or how quickly I volunteer for shit #that is more than 15 years of trying to face face my fears #15 years of fucking practice #and if never ends