#(ANYWAY something to ponder)

[idliketobeatree]

Crowley was God's most dramatic creation.

She was also feeling particularly bitchy and gay that day, and thus, Aziraphale was made.

#anyways. God is a woman going through a hyperfixation and then burning out by the seventh day #good omens #ineffable husbands #good omens god #ineffable spouses #aziracrow #crowley x aziraphale #crowley #aziraphale #good omens s2 #good omens season 2 #gomens #good omens text post #good omens shitpost #feeling blasphemous today #and i'm tired of pretending these posts don't heal something in me #like. i'm reaching the point where God could be whoever I wanted her to be as a big /fuck you to religious trauma #it's nothing novel or special. just a fun thing to ponder #I'm a firm believer that in the gomens universe She created them as one btw #just as Neil and Terry created Crowley first #and then split their personalities into two #:) #marcela talks

[surreal-duck]

happy birthday to the most idiots of all time

#i DIDNT forget how to draw them 🎉🎉🎉 #doodles #duck scribbles #minicomic tag #honeyworks #lipxlip #someya yuujirou #shibasaki aizou #aiyuu #confession executive committee #id do something more but im getting my ass beat lately #wanted to participate in aiyuu week too but </333 hope this suffices anyways #i like to think w judge and tsuki no hime being noted to somewhat related to them specifically they had a hand in writing in themselves #this idea has been haunting me for a good year or so now and im releasing it into the wild. be free #and happy bday to minami as well youre awesome king... i wish i wasnt so low energy these days #this is supposed to lead up to something but ive been falling asleep so. ponder the implications

[theteapotofdoom]

Thinking about the early days of MHA and Tomura’s first appearance at USJ, and I’m kind of flabbergasted when I remember all the "man child" comments from the UA teachers because my boy was literally 19 at the time so like … yeah.

#it’s been years and I’m still so sick in the head about this #about how ALL TEACHERS said that he was a vulnerable man child manipulated by a more powerful villain and NO ONE GAVE A FUCK #nezu be like: hehehe in a sense this guy is very much like our own students :) anyway moving on #BRO HE IS 19 MAYBE DO SOMETHING? OR AT LEAST THINK ABOUT IT A LITTLE MORE? #because I’m not saying that he shouldn’t been held responsible or anything like that because he was very much trying to kill children #but like maybe ponder about it just a bit? #maybe connect the dots just a little? #anyway #this is still a Tomura blog everyone #my hero academia #shigaraki tomura #mha #bnha #boku no hero academia

[madamescarlette]

My New Year's wish is for something beautiful to happen to each of us every day-- and for us to be able to notice it, which is almost equally as important.

#this sounds like a silly wish but i do mean it #you can survive most things if you have a friend to share it and something beautiful that you can ponder #there's a constant multiplacation of things that are trying to save us always #but the knack of seeing things and folks as beautiful can save your soul in its trappings #anyway!

[delilahhyuuga]

"His stomach twisted into tense, nauseous knots within his center as he watched the corner of her upturned lips… One quick twitch downward of the muscles, a momentary slip of the smile from its previous immaculately fastened position… Just enough of a break in her façade to reveal everything to Mello before she could even mutter even a single word.

The world moved in slow motion as she reached for a paper held in a bundle in her folded arms, placing it face up on his desk. Penned on the top right corner of his page using the same deep, steel gray ink and circled so dramatically that no eye would be able to miss it was the damning number: 97

Three points short of a victory…

An entire universe short of perfection…"

(From Chasing Hues - Chapter 1 - @forbiddensoul562)

#death note #meronia #meroniaevent #mello #near #mihael keehl #nate river #chasing hues #fanfic #fanart #this is a collaboration between me and Soul for the last Meronia Event #but since it's been months later #I won't tag the event #XD #I already have a piece for chapter 3 #but I'm still pondering on whether I will prepare something for chapter 2 #no promises though #anyway give the fic a read guys #it takes place in a world where most people can only see in black and white #hence the gray scale #digital art #delilahhyuuga238 #artists on tumblr #on an unrelated note #the song I had in the background while drawing this was #Revenge And A Little Bit More by Unlike Pluto #lol #look at these tags

[vinelark]

i love the animated/comic bats’ domino mask vibes where the eyes are flat white but they can change shape to be expressive or blink (or give the impression of blinking), and if we’re tossing hyper realism out the window anyway then i like to imagine that the blinking/shifting is part of the design—something in the tech that helps the bats seem a bit more human while still hiding their eyes/identities. and while i’m imagining that i ALSO like to imagine that this function can be turned off when the bats want to go full unsettling cryptid mode

#the difference between seeing robin in the rafters and he’s blinking and waving a little #vs. seeing robin in the rafters and he’s staring you down unblinking #nightwing laughing and the eyes crinkle up a bit #vs. nightwing laughing and the eyes. don’t. change. #anyway #just something i’m pondering #batfam #robin

[walker-lister]

I just have to remind myself sometimes that no matter what anyone else says, the way a piece of media makes me feel and the positive impact it has had on my queer identity is valid, and that tearing myself apart thinking I have to defend it or questioning my own place within queer communities is not at all important when compared to the almost tangible sense of 'rightness' that piece of media helped me to feel about myself.

#just something i've been pondering the last few days #kind of like no matter how much people debate or i suppose theoretically deconstruct media featuring queer stories #the most important thing is how it makes a queer person feel #and I do think it is of course a good thing to ensure queer stories are executed with respect and authenticity #but there's this grey area in fandom spaces in which people may have found rep from a 'unreliable' source i suppose #or something which is queerbaiting- sherlock springs to mind for example yet if people have been able to explore and nurture their own #queerness through that media does that therefore mean their experience is invalid? i don't think so #and my worry is the more we focus on theory the less we focus on emotion and therefore the actual queer experience itself #and sure theory can inform the queer experience and ensure the media is a 'healthy' site of queer identity formation and identity aid #but at the same time scorning or being rude to those who have found certain media an aid is not the right approach to be taking #especially as queer experiences are so wide ranging that one person's idea of 'good' representation is someone's else's of 'bad' #and that unless a piece of media is clearly offensive in its portrayal of queer experience there has to be some benefit of doubt #I think we're still in a period of progression in media espc tv where queer creators are coming to the fore of their own stories #and we've got to 'live and let live' a little about where people are finding sights of queer validation and joy #and perhaps this a naive and simplistic way of thinking but i think queer people can either recognise when something isn't the best rep #but was helpful for them anyway and therefore in a way confer 'ownership' of the media to themselves in how they engage #or there is variety in queer experiences represented in media so that perhaps not everyone finds a 'site' of rep but that does not #therefore invalidate it or make it 'bad' representation #this is just my opinion and it'd be hypocritical for me to not now mention this is only formed from my own queer experience lol #so i'm not trying to tell anyone how to feel or anything just something i'm pondering

[st4rstudent]

Giant cornplate post here but I'll get my thoughts out anyways. I really like how even visually Mac and Winn are contrasting yet similar. Winn's main color is yellow and Mac's is purple, which are contrasting colors. Yet, they both wear green. And then both of them having glasses but they're different shapes (circle vs square). and ouuughhoguhgh. theyre good friends. i like them.

#clemramble #sorry this is a massive cornplate post . idc. ive posted my thoughts privately and now you all get to hear them #i always wonder if the color choices were done on purpose. i mean winns is obviously. being based off the windows logo #but macs based off a dutch bunny and not the macOS logo . soi always ponder if the purple was an active choice or if it was just coincidenc #not that itd change anything if it was or wasnt . their designs are clemheaven to me anyways #but yeah . you could also write about the same thing with their personalities #mainly in the way they talk in broadcasts. from what i interpret winns a lot more nervous and more casual whereas mac is well. its mac #i also think its funny that despite being nervous and stuttery winn gets to the point faster than mac. like if you read an alarming rate of #aptitude. mac takes 15 years to get to the point which is one reason it gets cut off so easily #and then in the hires and heroes blogpost it goes to do that again and then gets interrupted by winn #but even then winn does sometimes go off tangent just a tiny bit but is much more eager to get back to the point. i presume because of bein #nervous #i just think its all so good. i think they play off of each other in a funny way but not one that would be annoying to either of them #something something. contrasting enough to be different but similar enough to be best friends #sorry this is a kind of long tag post about mac and winn. i just like them alot and i need to get that out there. i hope you all can enjoy #my thoughts #...even if they turn out to be wrong.

[etoilesombre]

Ok since more folks are looking at the main tag for a second, here's a question. Its been over a year since there has been anything like this, and there are new people around, so:

#just checking interest #is this potentially a selfish way to motivate myself out of a writing funk? #or to stay engaged and feel useful? #PERHAPS #but also i feel like it could be a lot of fun #I'm envisioning something very chill #open to all forms/takes/pairings #black sails #there really do you need to be options in between one day and one week in polls #anyway i am Pondering

[dirtbra1n]

trying to find the most efficient way to say that discussion and analysis of hirakagi is like social drinking to me but in the way where All of it is enjoyable and worth my time

#like this is fundamentally about seeing my friends and hearing their thoughts #but it’s not outweighed by the fact that i Fucking Love Hirano to Kagiura and would talk about it forever all by myself if i had to #anyway x-eins said to me something about hirano dying and coming back different so #i (<- freak) need to go ponder on that for a while

[blinkbones]

Nana, Émile Zola

Finally getting some French lit in. To be completely honest, I've had this book for almost a decade, and I never read it. Well, actually, apparently I tried at some point, because I found some underlined bits very early on -- but it's clear that I gave up. I remember struggling with it back then. I didn't, this time. It's nice to see proof of my improvement, although I'm not sure what specific skill is concerned.

For a quick & anachronistic summary, it's the story of a 19th century escort girl who makes it big in paris.

I was actually surprised by how easy to read this was. I kind of expected very difficult language. It is poetic, but not actually difficult. The text is easy to follow, almost journalistic. Poetic journalism.

I really, really enjoyed Nana. It's a long ride, and what a ride. It reads, at times, like a soap opera, with how she has a roster of desperate men orbiting around her. She really is the sun of her novel -- and it is her novel. I entered this book ignorantly (despite being French and a ~lit student, I'm not actually well-versed in my country's literature) and it kept surprising me. Where I expected a moralizing tale, or at least a pessimistic outlook on the arrogant seductress, I got the unstoppable, inescapable success of Nana. It's almost a power fantasy, although I doubt Zola saw it through this angle. I mean, it does end badly. Spoilers, but she fully dies in a disfiguring manner. And there is this underlying theme of Nana, the beautiful Venus from the lower classes, bringing the rot of the sewers to the silk sheets of the aristocracy. She all but ruins the entire upper class with the raw power of her sex-appeal, and I thought that there was something cosmic about it. By the time she's at her apex, she herself does not have control of her situation. She becomes like an empire, constantly conquering further reaches to maintain peace and prosperity throughout her imperial reign. She devours. And yet she's so incredibly human. She felt to me like a deity unaware of its power, and, in that sense, her death (especially because it's in the full bloom of her youth and legendary status) felt more like a shedding of the mortal form. Admittedly, I also just find it more fun to interpret it that way. I'm reading for fun, after all. Ah, the specter of academic seriousness hangs over me.

I think Nana is an easy entry point into that sort of literature. Yes, it's part of some long-ass series, but no, you don't need to read the previous books (I didn't). It's very self-contained. It's a long, very eventful ride, through Nana's chaotic and glamorous world. It's long but it feels like going downhill on a bike, and like everything's going too fast still. And it's fucking funny.

And for you, tumblr, my beloved, yes, you will find some messy queers in there. I only talked about Nana herself here, but Nana holds a whole ensemble cast of secondary characters, many interesting women (a wealth of them, really), that are really a whole other serving of delights that I just didn't have time to talk about here. But seriously, just about every character, especially the women, is interesting.

#i added white borders to make the bad quality more bearable but i think it somehow looks ever blurrier. blaming the tumblr post editor #nana #emile zola #émile zola #french literature #french lit #littérature #litblr #readblr #bookblr #les rougon-macquart #rougon-macquart #bones reads #chatterbones #my faves were satin (toxic) zoé (girlboss) labordette (ma fouine préférée) and actually the count (pathetic little sinner) #the last scene with all the women and their strange conversation is something i'm still pondering #in a good way #for context i think i finished it just a bit under two weeks ago #but still thinking about nana and about so many of the characters #it took me so long to mull it over enough to write this review that i had the time to finish two short reads in the meantime loollll #anyway. if it sounds intriguing to you you should read it #19th century literature

[gravedigg]

WORKING UP THE COURAGE TO ASK VIRGIL QUESTIONS:

What were the most intense emotions he'd ever felt outside of the Urge, before the tadpoling and after?

Hi Myc this is a fantastic question ily.

I think pre-tadpole, it would be the major beats of Virgil's life.

When Enver was sold to Raphael, his confusion and anger and sadness that was far too overwhelming for a kid.

The moments after Bhaal compelled him to kill his family, once the urge had faded and he was left to face what he had done alone, absolutely unfathomable horror, shame, and grief. And then there were the dark times after that where he didnt feel much of anything at all for a long time.

There was the shock, disbelief, relief, and utter childish delight that Virgil felt when he saw Enver again after the House of Hope, having believed him dead for so long. He kept these feelings inside as best he could in the moment, the Temple having taught him to temper his emotions as they didnt serve his father's will.

The slow build of trust, love, and sick bloody devotion over the years working together, coming to an apex at their trading of vows on Bhaal's altar, hearts connected by affection and the cold steel blade shared between them.

And then post tadpole, I would say,

Waking up on the nautiloid, head empty except for absolute, unending, blood-curdling rage with no discernable source.

When he found out he was he a child of Bhaal, the deep shame, hatred, and fear knowing his companions would scourn him.

And when he saw Gortash again, not knowing who he was or how he knew him, but that he felt right and good and why did he feel right and good hes supposed to be their enemy, but all Virgil wanted to do was cup Enver's face in his hand, to pull him into an embrace and never let go. I think for him it felt like he had been holding his breath for weeks and he was finally able to exhale, but there were people staring at him, judging him, and he knew how he felt would be seen as wrong, which made him so so angry which he channeled directly into smashing his shitty sister like a bug.

#i wont go past that cause like #the games ending doesnt exist to me #sorry #something else happens actually #anyways #love this freak #was pondering while typing how much of Virgil's character is i think accidentally inspired by Jude in A Little Life #whumpy sad so sad #sad and angry and broken #virgil acheron #enver gortash #durgetash #bg3 #bg3 spoilers #the dark urge spoilers #ask

[sylvies-kablooie]

have we thought about the potential of sylvie and agatha harkness

something to consider! we all can take some characters that have never interacted and imagine what would happen if they were placed in a room together, as a treat!

#i love sylvie you know that #and you know who i ship her with! #but i see folks just having fun and imagining stuff #why not! just something to ponder! #unironically this came to me as i am folding laundry and now i am going to have Thoughts #anyway. please share your thoughts. #loki #loki series #sylvie #sylvie laufeydottir #agatha harkness #mcu

[oscill4te]

"ethical killing" sounds like an oxymoron to me idk why

#will ponder on this #my brain just saw this term and went “??????” #txt #i dont think humans always have to be ethical we should just admit we do fucked up things sometimes idk.. like killing in this instance #although humans are the only creatures who even care about ethics. ethics are a “social construct” right? #anywho im gonna overthink and ponder for a while this fine morning #theres only a few instances where i see killing as ethical as in the good outweighs the bad but idk if i should list them #like would killing an abuser who brings only terror to the people around them be ethical? or #im talking like very very violently and sxually abusive. like an absolutely dangerous person. is it ethical? #anyway this whole thing was just in reference to killing animals for food and here i am overthinking #i guess ethical killing would mean no pain. at all. but is it ethical if the creature didn't consent to die and we inflict it anyway?e #like no matter how kindly we kill or how mucy the good outweighs the bad; is it “ethical”.. #anyway i still think sxual abusers should die yet i scoff at killing animals if we dont need to for survival #maybe something is wrong w me for these opinions idk lol yet. i still hold them #im willing to admit im maybe a bit of loon idc tho. even if “ethical killing” of animals is a thing we are so far removed from it nowadays #templin grandin tried her best to make the slaughter process less stressful but i don't know if its enough

[michi-chelle-draws]

ace solo sesh whennn 😩

(full censored versions & a bonus under the cut 💦)

#ace anderson #jock studio #fanart #sorry idk if i’m allowed to show peen on here #any suggestions on places i could show off these off uncensored? that’s not twitter ‘cause i’m not about that toxicity lmaooo #fun fact this is the first time i’ve drawn a dick so it was an interesting experience….my search history for references is real spicy now #anyway sorry i’m still in my bl visual novel era #from time to time i think about jock studio and i’m like ughhh i need more content so i’m making it my damn self 😤 #i miss ace my pathetic cringe fail loser boi #also why do i like the 10-minute sketch i quickly colored on my phone more than the whole illustration that took me like 3 days to finish #i guess stuff comes out better when i’m not thinking or trying too hard #something to ponder

[the-yearning-astronaut]

you can do fun little meta exercises about your blorbos and their vibes by pulling inspiration from other random bits of media just for the hell of it with absolutely no intent to do anything with what you come up with it's just a game but Watch Out....

#blorbo from my shows #character meta #the murderbot diaries #(tagging it because this is specifically a post about pondering art and mb and having it morph into something much bigger over the course o #like 2 hrs lmao) #send help #i was just messing around like hey new fandom friend here's something silly my brain did! #hehe murderbot and art but as a high school drop out 'punk' and the a+ valedictorian with a big future (think breakfast club ok) #and then it went to oh oh how/why do they meet? wait i hate high school aus what about college? ok and how does MB meet mensah #what's their story? and uhhhhh now i've got an increasingly elaborate au being plotted out and #i absolutely didn't intend for ANY of it to happen and i don't even like college aus much either ok? #but i WAS able to make it NOT a human au thank fuck lmao. my brain just doesn't jive with human art and mb ok?? #anyway at the very least there will probably be art for this au but...we'll see if i actually sit down to write it out #fox thoughts