#<---- trauma screaming into the void

[nabaath-areng]

The Warrior of Light was subsequently banned from the Leveilleur household.

#i only just unlocked ameliances outfits AND id gotten a jumpscare from how i dressed zhloe and adkiragh both #so i thought #yknow what i guess this is a theme now #ffxiv #ffxiv meme #final fantasy xiv #ffxiv shitposting #ff14 #final fantasy 14 #ameliance leveilleur #fourchenault leveilleur #this is not ic. please dont interpret my shitposts as being ic. i cannot stress enough how much i want you to not Do That #never again. spare me from repeated tragedy #<---- trauma screaming into the void

[rrat-king]

kristen’s god is dead and if a member of the party fails riz can’t go to college. cassandra is gone and that’s two failed gods for applebees so no scholarships for the bad kidS DO YOU HEAR ME IF KRISTEN FAILS RIZ DOESNT GET TO GO TO COLLEGE BRENNAN WHAT THE EVER LIVING FU—

#they put fucking educational trauma in my blorbo show what the fuck #i know they focused on like oh haha let’s kill a rat grinder but they arnt in trouble pookies yall are #like she can’t drop out or her friends are screwed and it’s not fair #d20 #fhjy #fantasy high #dimension 20 #kristen applebees #riz gukgak #screaming into the void

[trauma-culture-is]

Trauma culture is feeling like everybody thinks your boundaries are a joke and your anger and distress are the punchline

❤‎

#actually traumatized #trauma culture #trauma #void-to-scream-into #mod puns

[rainymoodlet]

ivory was actually introduced to sachiko during a dinner party (her second in terms of generational goals!) held to celebrate dallas and shingo's upcoming wedding (and for her parents to meet her two partners!) i seriously can't even tell you the storm of emotions that went through me while i watched this whole interaction, i just...

these two have come so far 💛

#ts4 #ts4 screenshots #ts4 legacy #ts4 gameplay #;tjol+ #sim: ivory #sim: dallas #sim: sachiko #|| #i can't i just... i mean... ivory's a whole ass adult. #my baby is standing next to their grown-ass baby. #handing her their new child and her new sibling bc she's grown and she can hold a fcking BABY LIKE -- #and i know dallas still said vry softly 'mind her head' even though ivory is like top notch responsibility baby i just... #i am so overwhelmed #i have all the respect for legacy players because i am literally in tears from a SECOND CHILD #JUST BECAUSE I WATCHED THIS SIM CRAWL FROM STRIPPING IN A TRAILER WITH A BASTARD CHILD TO BEING HAPPILY MARRIED IN KOMOREBI SURROUNDED BY #DOGS AND THEIR BABYGIRL IS DOING FINE I JUST (screams into the void) #i named these images in series 'images that collectively healed my mother trauma (genderless)' #and i think that's why i've been playing the kruegers so much #they just... they're v healing idk how to describe it for me #and so i'm sorry for neglecting kmik dfkhdkdsj and you all in general #i've been very inactive this week but last week was Hell and this week didn't start much better #with everything that's happened i've just wanted to dream away with the kruegers and i'm so sorry i've been so neglectful in that way #i love you all so much :')

[shummthechumm]

yellowfang genuinely believing that because brokenstar was "cursed" and that her (being manipulated into) giving him up...her loosing her daughters at birth...and that this meant she was incapable of birthing and raising a cat like firestar....ooooo...

then later projecting herself onto leafpool having the three...which, as old as their prophecy is, i would imagine causing some unrest in starclan....her children having a "pre-determined" destiny, being born against the same rules that brokenstar was...

both leaf and yellow and their similar powers...its all too much really

#rewrite tag #shummy screaming into the void #wc #just the fact that she was forced to give up her kids and being gaslighted into believing that she bought a cursed life into the world for #reason that she was foolish enough to go against the code and fall in love #with a shitty partner #in her eyes if she had just followed the code many lives couldve been saved #she is constantly reminded even in death of her sins #and now leafpool is in an extremely similar situation??? with a prophecy/omen that predates even yellowfangs life??? #trauma resurfacing babey!!! #hollyleaf going haywire would only reinforce this in her eyes #we can also go with the angle that her manipulation of squilf leaf and jay was a direct result of her feeling the need to overcompensate fo #her own 'mistakes' and yadda yadda #i didnt even mention her potential relationship with goosefeather #aka the first chronological super powered cat in the series #not just clairvoyant i mean full on power overload

[queer-reader-07]

i'm thinking about my catholicism post again because a few days ago when i was out for lunch with a couple friends one of them asked me if i identify with catholicism anymore.

and like. you'd think it'd be an easy answer, right? you'd think i could just say "no." and yet...

it feels so fundamentally wrong to say that i'm not catholic anymore. it feels so fundamentally wrong to denounce the faith that was my life for 15 years. it feels wrong when i've been confirmed. when i chose to say "i'm catholic" not even five years ago.

that post was about how good omens is like a comfort for my religious trauma, it's the thing in my heart telling me that i'm just A Human and how that's beautiful.

but what i also realized in writing that post was how much i still don't understand where i sit in regards to religion. i don't know what i believe in. saying i don't believe in God feels almost like a lie? but saying i do believe in God doesn't feel any more truthful.

i tell people that i believe in humanity, i believe in the human story, i believe in the power of hope and community. but none of that is mutually exclusive from religion. and i envy the people who are so steadfast in their religious beliefs (or lack thereof), because oh how i would love to just know.

it must be so nice to know and to not be stuck in the liminal space. the space where you sort of believe in God, the space where you still say shit like "good lord" and "for the love of all that is holy" because you've given up on making your vocabulary secular, the space where you embrace your queerness with every fiber of your being and yet still can't bring yourself to come out to the religious side of the family.

i don't know where this is going. and i think that might be the point. i just, don't know.

#screaming into the void on this fine tuesday night #religious trauma is a bitch and i still don't know how to handle it #not good omens #but somehow still good omens #cw religion #cw catholicism #cw religious trauma #religious trauma #ex catholic #me not knowing where i stand in regards to religion because what even is faith

[inkyantace7]

I'm writing a short story for school. Made a design for the main character so I could imagine him better, among other things.

He looks like Glass Scientists Hyde- COMPLETE WITH FUCKING GREEN EYES HOW DID I DO THIS- but he was made a week before I had even heard of TGS

Apollo really did just queue up the dodgeball, huh?

#ant's screaming into the void #anyway his name is Reed and he's about to go through Trauma (I was allowed to write a horror story) #the glass scientists #I guess

[muckyschmuck]

stop staring now ur making him nervous

#my art #digital art #furry art #furry #anthro art #anthro #small comic #comic #comics #comic panels #short comic #fursona #fursona art #i actually don’t think i’ve posted too many IF ANY heavily pessimistic comics about my issues here #but i do have a vent comic i’ve affectionately dubbed Trauma Cat Comic #i made it when i was super into warrior cat stuff for a split second and it’s just me as a cat talking to my imaginary cat friends #and i use it to process my trauma and scream into the void

[midnights-dragon]

“you can’t believe in god and jesus and not be religious” i can actually! it’s called doing what i want

#and what i want is for cunts to leave me alone #my relationship w god is none of your goddamn business #and my relationship with the church is fucked all the way to hell but is also none of your fucking business #believing in god is not an exclusively religious state of mind #religion #religious trauma #god #rambles #screaming into the void #good omens reference #lmao

[thecouncilofidiots]

Mm, love (/sarcasm) the fear of not knowing if you took the meds or not because you're dissociated as FUCK, but fortunately you and your headmates write down all your meals/things you've taken so you can check instead of accidentally ODing -Ace

#shitpost #screaming into the void #did #did system #plurality #plural system #alters #mental health shit #dissociative identity disorder #tw dissociation #dissociative amnesia #dissociative system #medication trauma #medication anxiety #medication #tw overdose mention

[feministjane]

You ever watch the most gut wrenching episode of television and feel so devastated and also so fulfilled because like the acting and cinematography was so good that now you're devastated but you're also like now I get to analyze the hurt for 49+ hours

#why yes i did just watch #red rover red rover #the mentalist 4x23 #the mentalist #and i am mentally UNWELL #simons acting in this episode is just so beyond #ugh this man UNDERSTOOD the assignment and beyond #the assignment was to emotionally destroy me #that ending scene i have so many thoughts and i hust have so much to process #but like to yall just remember every now and then like how fucking powerful patrick jane is #like we are all just lil marionettes #well not everyone but oof its just soooo good #slaps shows hood “this boy can hold so much trauma” #anyway im off to scream into the void #or just stare i havent decided #Patrick jane

[mx-mind]

Additional info: It would be a one day long loop that resets at midnight. No matter what they're doing, it wakes up the next day at his computer as if she passed out there.

#sky screams into the void #on one hand its a good trauma recovery metaphor. on the other i could still illustrate without the loop

[touyasdoll]

I think Bakugou has a very hard time looking in the mirror for a while. Avoids it like the plague, because all he can see is a reminder of the price that was paid to keep him alive and, even into adulthood, he still doesn’t feel like he’s worth it.

#and idk about you #but I’m gonna go cry about it #I know this is all technically speculation #but that eye is fucking grey #and this man needs NO more trauma ffs #ash screams into the void #bnha spoilers #mha spoilers #tw angst #tw self loathing #tw self worth #tw sad shit

[anxiously-going]

Maybe I'm just in a mood, but I was listening to this video while I did my nails, that was Norse mythology creation to Ragnarok, and the amount of times I had to pause to process was shocking.

"[Name] was the child of Loki and evil like his father." Really? The child is? Is the child actually evil or are you creating a self fulling prophecy out of fear of your own foretold fates?

Now, was Loki perfect? Obviously not, but like...I'm a lot more sympathetic to him than a lot of the others involved in these stories. A lot of what he did was reactive. A lot of it was done out of anger and feelings of betrayal. And maybe that's not a justification, but like...I get it.

His children were taken away from him and imprisoned for something they had not done. I would have been angry and vengeful too. Loki was definitely an instigator, sure, but he was also victim in many ways, his children moreso.

Like, maybe it's just the trauma, but the way his children were treated was honestly horrifying and completely unjust. They were children. Prophecy or not, they deserved to have the chance to grow up safe and loved.

Like, I get it. It's a tale about not being able to avoid things and being instrumental in your own demise when you do so. But also maybe we can learn to just be kind to children and not immediately turn on someone who has been loyal to you on the words of another. Myths and such aren't necessarily meant to be taken literally.

But also, holy crap, those kids did not deseve any of that.

#screaming into the void #dont get me started on how sleipnr came into the picture #again maybe it's the trauma but that one does not at all sit right with me #just time 'nope that is not the story most people make it out to be' vibes #'loki is a villian' sounds like someone with little to no nuance and hasnt face betrayal and interpersonal trauma

[shummthechumm]

ASiR was so close to being good but now everytime i remember how they treated sasha + its adamant refusal to have feathertail's justifiable trauma be taken seriously by her clanmates/the narrative, it just sours the whole thing for me :/

#wc #still have a soft spot for it but damn #its a toughie #would you rather have a “ASiR feathertail who mistreats an abuse victim and who's own trauma is never taken seriously” son #or a “TNP feathertail where her main trait is being generically friendly and a source of crowfeathers eternal manpain” daughter #shummy screaming into the void

[a-dinosaur-a-day]

I'm done with the best flying animal poll, ftr, I divided the non-mammal biased vote too much and I just can't deal with these ignorant people in my notes anymore. so no more reblogs or discourse on that.

I'm so tired, you guys. I'm so tired.

#mammal bias #anthropocentrism #everything is broken and no one listens to scientists like ever #or historians #while we scream into the void like cassandra or jeremiah #yes I know its a stupid tumblr poll and trust me I wish I didn't care this much #blame autism or trauma or adhd-rsd or whatever the fuck #but this is connected to larger problems and it is a major bummer so I'm done with it