#<- worked hard to not have panic attacks about it.

[emerald-antssss]

Happy Sunday!

“Hey kiddo, what’s up?”

Sonic looked down at his communicator. It had been buzzing just seconds before, informing the hedgehog that his little brother was trying to reach him.

“Hello,” came the soft reply.

“You okay?”

The kit hesitated before answering his brother. “Yeah, I-I’m fine.”

“O-okay,” Sonic said. Even over the phone, he could read Tails’ emotions and knew for a fact that the kid was not fine. “Was there a reason for your call?”

“Did you know…” Away from the phone, the kit coughed and whimpered. Sonic winced. What was up with him?

“Did I know what?”

“French Angelfish stay together until one d-dies…”

The hedgehog smiled to himself. He thought he could see where Tails was going with this. He leaned back in the chair he was sitting in.

“And… it’s unlikely to find one alone. Pairs of-of t-these fish work t-together to defend their territory against other A-Angelfish pairs…”

“That’s a lot like us.” Sonic chuckled. “We partner together to save the world from Eggman…”

“…And it’s hard to find one of us without finding the other,” the two finished together.

On the other side of the line, Tails smiled at the ceiling of his workshop. “Did y-you know t-that Eggm’n has badniks t-th’t shoot arrows n-now?”

“What’s he gonna name them, ArrowBots?” Sonic snickered. 

That got a small chuckle out of Tails, which ended with a whimper. For a bit, the line went quiet.

“Tails,” Sonic said quietly, “Are you sure you’re alright?”

Dodging the question, Tails whispered “I l-l’ve you.”

“I love you too, Tails.” Sonic sighed, leaning forward in the chair. “But I need to know you’re okay. You were stuttering a lot, did you have another panic attack?”

Silence.

“You‘re a g-g-good b’other.”

“Thanks, buddy. Uh… is something going on?”

The blue blur heard shifting from the other side of the line. It stopped abruptly. 

“N-no.”

“Okay then,” Sonic replied. He was confused, to say the least.

The line went silent again.

“If you don’t have anything else to say, I’m gonna hang up, lil’ bro.”

More quiet. Sonic could hear the AC in the background on the other line.

“I’ll see you tonight, keed,” the hedgehog whispered. Tapping his communicator, he hung up and leaned back into his chair, arms crossed against his chest.

Something was up.

And he was going to get to the bottom of it.

________

Tails was not picking up the phone.

It added some difficulty to Sonic’s dinner search. He wanted to know what the kid wanted to eat.

But at the same time, Tails was never a picky eater. Sonic knew he would eat anything he brought, even if it was absolutely disgusting. 

And the hedgehog was pretty sure he had bought more than enough food to the point where he could share with Tails and still have leftovers.

But the brotherly part of him told his to get something the kid wanted.

Sonic pushed the Chinese takeout bags further down his arm. Tapping on his communicator, he tried to get ahold of his little brother yet again.

It rang once.

Twice.

Three times.

Four-

“Hello?”

Sonic sighed with relief. “Jeez, kid. What took you so long to pick-“

“You’ve officially reached my voicemail. I got you there, didn’t I Sonic?”

The hedgehog glared at his communicator in response to the kit’s smug voice coming from the speakers. 

“Leave me a voicemail, would you?”

Beep.

“If you’re not gonna answer the phone, you’re just gonna get this takeout, buddy.”

Pausing for a moment, Sonic sighed. “You’ve been off today, Tails. I wanna talk about it when I get home, okay?”

Hanging up, the hedgehog glanced at the sky. “Come on buddy, talk to me,” he whispered.

________

“Hey buddy, I’m back!”

No response. 

The workshop was eerily quiet. No tinkering, no food cooking in the kitchen…

Nothing.

And that’s when Sonic noticed the bloody pawprint on the wall. It looked dry now.

Something had happened.

The hedgehog sprinted through the different rooms in Tails’ workshop. Nothing in the kitchen, nothing in the kit’s bedroom, nothing in the-

Bathroom. 

A thick stream of half-dried blood trailed out of the bathroom. A jagged knife laid on the ground. The bathtub was murky with bloody water.

Sonic felt his ears press to his head. He was afraid to touch anything.

Whatever happened, it wasn’t good.

He followed the red line out of the bathroom and into the main room, where he was greeted with a sight that he would never forget.

He didn’t hear the cry that exited his throat as his eyes fell on the corpse of his beloved friend.

The fox was laying on his side on the wooden floor, an oversized puddle of blood surrounding his small frame. The kit’s dusty grey eyeswere half closed, and his lips formed a small smile. The Miles Electric was on the floor, just above the kid’s head.

Sonic dropped to his knees, gently touching Tails’ face. 

He didn’t mind the blood that smeared against his hands as he gently held the kid’s head in his arms.

Sonic stared into his vacant eyes.

They weren’t the bright blue he remembered.

Sonic gently put the fox down and slid the Miles Electric to himself. When he unlocked the device with his gloveprint, the first thing that he saw was the phone call screen.

There was a call to Vector from last week, and Tails had missed a call from Amy yesterday.

There was a more recent phone call.

The last thing that Tails had done was call Sonic.

The last thing he had done was talk to his brother.

He had compared them to fish who depended on each other and watched each other’s backs and loved each other.

Sonic’s Angelfish was gone.

And as he gently picked his kid’s cold body up and covered him with a sheet, the tears spilled over.

#Im so happy with the way this turned out #if it wasn’t clear mimic killed tails #I’ll make a detailed post about it later #emerald-antssss #sonic the hedgehog #miles tails prower #unbreakable bond #my writing #ao3 #fanfic

[brights-place]

I loved so much the headcanon of synth comforting his s/o couple ( as someone who has panic attacks ) , and I was wondering if you can make a version but with Trollex plz , thanks for reading and take care 💖

Synth Comforting his S/O

Pairings: Synth X Reader

Warnings: Fluff, Comfort, Synth being an cutie

A/N: I just imagined Synth comforting his partner and its so RAHHHHHH small headcannons not alot due to being abit sleeped deprived (● ˃̶͈̀ロ˂̶͈́)੭ꠥ⁾⁾

- Synth comforting youu - Cuddling synth is normal and would hold you close… he’s so energetic - Makes sure to bring you things when your having a panic attack - When you talk about your problems he just nods and smiles lovingly at you <33 - Synth hates seeing you so down in the dumps like this. - Synth wasn’t the most emotionally aware troll so he finds it hard to understand your emotions sometimes

- It takes him awhile but he gets there just for you and just to see you smile again cause if your not smiling he wouldn’t know what to do. - Synth makes sure to always ask for consent and communication. He listens to your boundaries and never crosses them.

- He doesn't try to rush through anything and is patient with you and smiling softly at you as he helps you open up slowly

- Tell me what you really like and he will take his time he never starts an fight at all and would take it step by step but when your close to fighting he'll walk over slowly and whispering affirming words to make you calm down which works. - He kisses your cheeks and peppers your face with affection - He spends the rest of the night checking up on you and making sure you’re alright. - He just can’t stand watching you struggle or just be sad. you both cuddle on the couch with your head on his chest

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[rayleearts]

First of all: I adore your work. Realta has been keeping me going. I wake up WAITING for Wednesdays. The illustrations are beautiful, the plot is amazing, and the list could go on and on. So I thank you for that.

Secondly: I have a few questions about the gang. 1-How would they react to someone waking up scared from a nightmare? I know a lot (*cough* all *cough*) of them have trauma and it's not hard to imagine that it translates into dreams. 2- What's everyone's favorite food and/or animal?

Anyway, take care of yourself and have a tremendous day!

Thank you!!

I think a those answers would be the same as a previous ask, asking how they’d comfort someone from a panic attack.

And whoo boy here we go:

Elowen: currently Amelia’s pancakes / loves birds, especially crows now

Walden: also Amelia’s pancakes / crows obv

Amelia: strawberry tarts / loves frogs

Fletcher: cheesecake (and tequila) / loves dogs

Milo: Fletcher’s Mac and cheese / loves cats

Kasi: steamed pork buns / loves white tigers

Ava: her moms hummus / loves jellyfish

Eden: gumbo / loves highland cows

Oryn: Eden’s jambalaya / loves dogs

Rune: Chebureki (minced meat turnovers) / loves cats

#realta #asks

[tobitenkit]

having a bug phobia is sooo embarrassing sometimes like wow we saw something moving the size of a grain of sand and what. is my brain going to do about it? hallucinate? are we gonna have crawlies under our scalp for an hour and a half? gonna make me think the floor is moving? evacuate the building? grow uppp. squash it and move on dude!!! we have shit to do!!

#let me have a panic attack about it GOD. this itching paranoia is getting so old #<- worked hard to not have panic attacks about it. #whys it only the one kind of bug!! i will on purpose picks up spiders in my hands but god forbid i see an ant on a counter at work #squishing them is. scary unfortunately🤪 #this is about my own personal experience with phobias etc etc etc #bugs cw #hallucinations cw #idk how to tag this i'm having my little freak out corner at work #🌿 #why is it always ants. give me a cockroach infestation or something exciting

[tangledinink]

in an older ask (before the bracelet comic) you broke down, basically, the odds of donnie recognizing his family to different degrees on any given day... i'm curious, what would the odds be now, now that he has the bracelet?

Hell yeah let's do more Swanatello Math~

Let's say his family visits him eight times-- this time with the bracelet.

-> Maybe one time out of eight, usually less, Donnie will not be able to recognize them and will treat them as intruders, driving them off. There are occasions when he disregards the message of the bracelet or forgets it too quickly to be helpful.

-> Two times out of eight, Donnie will be able to recognize them enough to not view them as threats, but will not be able to organically recall any further details about them. He is confused and frustrated. He recognizes something is wrong, and can comprehend the research materials he's reading, but no actual memories are being pinged in his brain, leaving him in a very frightening, bizarre, uncanny-valley sort of space. He has to repeatedly reference notes and journals to try to puzzle the identities of his family together, which is upsetting and embarrassing. Days like these focus on providing comfort and support to Donnie, but the context that his research board and bracelet provide does make this easier to manage now.

-> One time out of the eight, Donnie will be able to recognize his family but struggles to comprehend his current situation or recall details surrounding it, though he recognizes something is wrong. He knows that Raph is here, and he remembers Raph fully, but has a difficult time processing why they're here at the lake instead of being at home; it's just not sinking in for him. Things in his brain are not matching up, and he is confused and frustrated. His family will have to re-explain to him what's going on, typically multiple times. Days like these focus on providing comfort and support to Donnie, but the jumpstart that the research and bracelet provide often makes this process much easier.

-> One time out of eight, Donnie will be able to recognize his family enough to not view them as threats, but will not always be able to recall further details about them. He's not able to fully process that anything is wrong unless it's explained to him, (usually more than once,) but even then it seems to overall elude him and not fully sink in. He will happily spend the day showing his lake off to his family, dancing with them, etc. His bracelet and research board help, but on days like these he often seems unable to fully retain this information throughout the day. These days are usually pretty frustrating for his family, but are overall lower-stress for Donnie, at least. False memories are common on these days.

-> Three times out of eight, Donnie is able to both recognize his family and recall details about their current situation. He remembers the family members who are currently with them, and sometimes even those who are absent, and understands that he is currently being affected by magick that manipulates his memory and patterns of thinking.

Overall, the bracelet has improved the situation. The family has to take care to try to be present as much as possible, however, as receiving this information from the bracelet and research board can sometimes be very scary or disorientating, and they've found that having someone around either during this process or immediately after is very important. Typically, if Donnie wakes up, receives the message from his bracelet, inspects the research board, and waits for the promised family to arrive... and then they don't, he'll panic and quickly lose trust in the information. He may react negatively to any family members once they do show up. Swanatello overall tends to do poorly when left alone, they've discovered.

#swanatello #asks #its gotten better but its still rough #the difficult thing is is that while the situation has improved overall #and in terms of making progress towards their goal and spending time together its a big step forward #its arguably more difficult and higher stress for swanatello #in the past about five out of eight days would be days that he didnt recognize anything was wrong or that he was forgetting anything #and so that wasnt something he had to grapple with or stress over #now thats only one or two out of eight days #and every other day hes under huge amounts of emotional and mental strain trying to work through all of this #which is tough and takes a lot out of him #hes having breakdowns or panic attacks on a regular basis #which is hard on him and on his family (who ofc hates to see him suffer) #luckily he has his family's support at least <3

[hum--hallelujah]

the duality of my Dr. Benzedrine is that he's incredibly effective and ruthless at what he does (saving lives, need not concern himself with the consequences as long as the subject/victim/patient is still alive by the medical definition of the term) and he's terribly smart and has a great sense of humor, but he's also a rather confused, genuinely brain-damaged individual. like. he's scary when he's in his element, but when he's not, he sometimes can barely string a full sentence together, has panic attacks over loud noises, etc

#he is not a savant btw I kinda hate that trope. he's INCREDIBLY intelligent but the brain-to-mouth connection just doesn't... work. #the head injury itself would have probably resolved itself for the most part but there were chemicals and experiments involved #and it just means he's... really shitty at language and communication. if he's not thinking too hard about it it's easier!! #the more he thinks about it/tries too hard the worse his speech is #which is why he sounds more coherent when he's working- his mind is on what he's doing instead of ''Have To Talk Right'' #which allows him to. talk better. #the panic attacks thing tends to be either because 1) unfamiliar things like fireworks etc. or 2) sound sensitivity flare-up #...in a way I think he might be a very autistic little guy. but I'm not sure. I don't really know how to portray that #it's interesting trying to write a character who's whip-smart and clever and sarcastic but Can't Speak Properly #does any of this make sense?? #she speaks! #ddas

[beskad]

me every day: yes, I understand that I have ptsd. yes, it will frequently disrupt my life in sometimes (seemingly) random ways. sometimes this will necessitate leaving work or disclosing things about myself to a supervisor or friend or bystander because it's freaking them out and THEY are now panicking and often wanting to call me an ambulance. this is just a fact. it's fine. i'm dealing with it. most years are easier than the ones before them. it's fine.

me when my ptsd is actually triggered: what is happening right now. why can't I breathe. why can't I stand up. why do I feel like I'm about to throw up and die. oh, I know!!! I must be having an allergic reaction to something!!!! I'm suddenly coming down with the flu in the span of 3 minutes!!! this is so weird!!!!!!!

#EDIT: talk of PTSD proceed with caution #it's morphed a little over the years lololol #used to present as very obvious and unmistakable panic attacks with crying and hyperventilating #10 years later and it's quieter. 70% of the time the whole world just shrinks to a 1 foot bubble around me and everything goes dark #at least i didn't actually throw up this time around #and i was able to pinpoint the trigger about 2 hours in #once i was able to think again #and it was a song. 30 seconds of a song. #noticed right away that something felt wrong so i hit stop #but it was too late lmao within 5 minutes it was hard to breathe and the room was spinning and within 10 i crawled upstairs and passed out #but yeah like in the moment i often don't understand what's happening #i don't realize until I've passed out and woken up again #i had to lay down on the floor in the backroom of my retail job once and it scared the shit out of everyone #i usually stay somewhat lucid but i rarely realize I'm reacting to a trigger until after I've recovered #which means then I'm laying on a floor woozily insisting I'm fine #and then have the SUPER FUN TIME of having to explain everything after the fact once my brain and body are working again #I have a few long time coworkers who realize I've been triggered before I do lmao #They're like. Bro. You need to sit down. Right fucking now or you're gonna fall #rray.txt

[scalpelsister]

my (first!!) pc is built 😭 this was a task and a half and also very very scary lmao. I was SO worried I was gonna break shit and even now that its built and very much so up and running and ok im like... worried its about to break lmao (like its unfounded! but im still like. oh god its going to brick itself at any second). I'm yet to properly test it out with bg3, but it is running my silly cozy little mmos wonderfully. I also now feel like I need to sleep forever after getting this done lmao.

bonus:

as you can see I am exclusively using top of the line Pro Gamer peripherals, such as this keeb from 1998. this keyboard is older than me.

#im fucking. sleepy tired man what a day #my monitor is old also. but tbh theyre both pretty good quality its just like. their aesthetic is lacking which #id rather use old free shit that works well yanno? than pay for aesthetic junk idk #thats the same reason theres no lights in my case like. idk i dont care enough to spend money on that #but im. happy. and nervous. about this. if it breaks or if it turns out that i fucked something up... i will have a cat 5 menty b #i can tell u that much #hell today building it i was like. trying so hard to not have a panic attack sjshshdh #but yeah im happy af to have this like... done. ready to rock n roll #my post

[patchodraws]

uh oh guys, it’s bad (has come up with a new paper girls fic idea)

#paper girls #i wish i could churn out fics like i used to but damn am i so busy #and is it so hard to write sometimes #i could make this fic like. just a really long one shot instead of multichap #but also that would still take time #and i also already have so many wips to work on 😣 #anyways the girls go to kj’s family’s beach house one summer as teens #shenanigans ensue #mac avoids drinking for once and they’re all freaking out as to why #erin crushes hard on a neighbour boy who keeps seeing them at the beach #tiff has a panic attack about how next year is senior year or junior year or whatever #and she’s scared she won’t get into college #kj is determined to come out to the rest of the girls this go around #it could be like the beach in avatar #excellent episode #everyone deserves a beach episode that changes their life

[celestial-sapphicss]

home school is frustrating to watch not because the show is bad (i love the show i have so many thoughts) but because despite the wildly different reasons (and stakes and intensity), seeing the education institution systems making students do things without any explanation or logic or reason just because they can and being absolutely unreasonable is very real of them.

#home school #vi.txt #i did not plan to watch this show to think about the horrors of school 💀 #idk man was it just me who has never enjoyed school/college #despite it apparently being the 'best time of life' #i have always hated school/college have always hated exams (in a they give me panic attacks kinda way) #have always hated the rules and have always hated the administration #and have always hated most of the teachers who have so much influence but they are so careless about it 🤷‍♀️ #have always been ​annoying and frustrating and deeply triggering and depressing for me #have never once wanted to live the dorm/hostel life and being made feel left out about it #i was recently talking about how im glad ill never have to go to college or give an exam again because i've finally started working #and he shared the common sentiment of no working is extremely hard and college was better etc etc #and i agree working isn't easy at all in this capatalist world BUT i did not have one moment of peace when i was in school/college #and here atleast i do what i enjoy im not overburdened to memorise i have flexibility i get money and i get weekends!!!! #better among the worst types #anyways watch homeschool

[queen-beefcake-sqx]

The best thing I ever did for myself was develop a protective alter ego. I get it’s a coping mechanism and the equivalent of all the imaginary friends I had as a kid (and still have), but god Adrian has been fucking saving me left and right from severe panic attacks that probably would’ve devolved RAPIDLY without them.

Seriously if you don’t feel capable of loving yourself as yourself, give that positive voice a persona. Let them talk you through it aloud. Maybe sometimes let them run your body through the basic self care you don’t feel like you can do. Maybe it feels weird first but it’s really genuinely been helping me in a way NOTHING else has.

Anyway, everyone say hi to Adrian. They’re very practical and very good at crisis management and I’m very grateful they live in my head to yell at all the other voices. They’re great.

#say more sadie #sadie has mental illness #I told my roommate about them once when I had a severe panic attack and Adrian just took over and talked with them #and we worked it out and it was good even though I was still shaking so bad Adrian was having a hard time talking #idk. i don’t know what this is. I just know it works. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[abeluser]

I should be paying my piano teacher more for providing me the extra service of free therapy.

#abel.txt #'your back is very curved. sit more confidently' 'you have to ease the tension in your hands to play more beautifully' #'i can't believe you downplayed your practice this week. you've worked hard.' #'i can tell you're nervous. i'm not angry' #'you learn very fast. i like that about you.' 'the way your brain works is very logical. i can tell you were good at mathematics.' #'your music theory is always good' #and she pulled me out of a panic attack which no one has ever been able to do apart from one online friend.. #she's nice to me. she doesn't mind when i go mute.

[danielnelsen]

always fun to remind myself of the side effects of my thyroid meds

#the first time i treated my thyroid my endo was like ‘i havent had a patient who had this happen for a while so im due for one’ THANKS MAN #personal #im just waiting for it to hurry up and work. my health has PLUMMETED in the last week or so #im so sick and i can’t DO ANYTHING. including SLEEP. even if i was getting enough good sleep i was be exhausted but i’m not so. #the energy’s doing Great #and i’m so hungry all the time but also nauseous so all food is unappealing #genuinely have no idea how i made it through years 7-10 undiagnosed. no wonder i ended up with such a severe phobia of going to bed???????? #i don’t have to worry about routine right now so it’s not as stressful (just horrible because i’m so tired) but i COULDNT SLEEP back then #im just relieved that this time it was found through a routine check rather than me getting a test because of symptoms #usually i test when my anxiety gets really bad in a specific way #but my anxiety isn’t bad this time. no panic attacks and also no migraines. those are all usually the worst to deal with #so comparatively this isn’t even a particularly bad episode?/relapse?/flare? #still more sick than i’ve been in……..years? #im not sure if covid was better or worse. but it was only really bad for a week #this’ll be worse overall because it’ll last a lot longer #hopefully only a month or two but that’s still a few months of my life that just vanish. cool!!!!!!!!!!! #and there wasn’t even a notable event to trigger it this time. first time was whooping cough and subsequent times have been things like— #starting uni and then the last 2 years of uni where i took 10 units in one year then overworked myself doing my thesis #im SLIGHTLY worried that maybe i’ve developed rheumatoid arthritis and that set it off because it’s also autoimmune #i should see my gp soon to get a general antibody test. my joint have been so bad it’s been hard to walk for quite a few months #idk man it all sucks. but for now at least i have my white blood cells (even if they’re literally the problem lmao)

[niishi]

I'm at the advanced stage of burn out where it's just full on trauma and I truly don't think many ppl can understand what it's like. and what it does to your brain and your ability to live normally. it's unexplainable.

#i dont feel human #i have no energy #i have no desire to do anything or try very hard #im filled with anxiety constantly bc im terrified its going to be this way forever #my brain has a hard time thinking coherent thoughts #or knowing how to respond #i work off mainly scripts #i also have inhibited grief #from going through so many traumatic moments and not gaving time to properly grieve or mourn #so i suppressed all of that and now my emotions about most things are numb #i can only cry if im forced into an anxiety/panic attack #truly just been hating being alive for yrs now #I always felt every emotion 100x louder and harder than everyone else #it exhausted me... #it wore me down to nothing #i had to numb myself from them in order to survive them

[lupismaris]

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#rsd is a bitch but i do not need the validation of my colleagues i do not need them to be my friends i do not need them to give me attention #even if we were previously more friendly than we are now it is not a sign of me doing anything wrong it is simply how things are #they are going to be better friends because they are on teams that spend higher quantities of time together #i am an admin who is frankly by myself constantly i do not have a team i have no one thats why it feels lonely #not because i am awful and unlikeable #the colleagues i am upset about are also younger than me and cishet men they're not emotionally aware enough to care #and frankly even if i have done something to upset them i have apologized for any poor behavior so its on them. remember that #i am working hard at building a community and finding new friends just because it isnt them doesn't mean im failing #building a family and making change will be uncomfortable moreso because of the tism its ok to be uncomfortable #we will survive it but please remember that its normal and you didn't do anything wrong #and these ppl really aren't worth a panic attack/meltdown on an otherwise great monday because they dont acknowledge you #theyre immature boys and those that do value you are the ones inviting you to a team lunch you dont really need to be invited to

[thethingything]

I just noticed what feels like a small cavity forming in another one of our teeth and god I hope that's not actually what's going on here because I cannot fucking handle that on top of the one we've already got. like if it is a cavity then I have no idea what to do about it

#personal #thoughts #🍬 post #vent post #I think we deserve some kind of compensation for the problems that fucking dentist caused back in January #y'know... since we now can't even think too hard about having another dentist appointment without getting flashbacks #like wow look at all the shit we could have gotten fixed if a certain someone had just understood how to not be shitty to a patient #also it's weird because I can post about it like this #but only as long as I'm really vague and don't think about or mention any of the details of what actually happened #I can say ''that incident with the dentist'' but I can't remember what happened without having to try and push through a bunch of amnesia #which we avoid doing for obvious reasons #it's absolutely wild how that works because we do this with a bunch of stuff where we can mention the incident very vaguely #but not actually remember any details about it without having to dig for them #I'm rambling here but anyway yeah if you're ever thinking ''but how are you talking about it if thinking about it give you panic attacks?'' #then this is probably what's happening