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amysubmits · 2 years

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Im not sure if this has been answered on your page so I apologize if this is a repeat!

How do you balance d/s in a way where the submissive doesn't become completely dependent on the dominant figure? I am in a relationship with someone in the military who can deploy at any time and I'm struggling with the balance, I either try to be too independent and closed off or completely dependent where if he's gone even for a short training trip I'm a bit of a mess.

I have a few mental health issues and am disabled, I'm in treatment for everything but he really is my rock when im, say, in a depressive episode or a flare up and am struggling with motivation. I take care of myself in a literal sense but its the drive to function outside of basic care needs (like college, work, hobbies etc) that is a struggle for me to get myself to do without him around because he enforces thpse kinds of things when he's around, but ive never been able to get myself on a routine without the reinforcement.

I'm not sure if any of that makes sense, but I really enjoy your perspective on things. thank you for reading this!!

Hi :)

I have never been in a situation similar to yours, so take this all with a grain of salt.

I have to think that most people who are partners with someone in the military struggle when their partner leaves without much notice. Not just with being sad but also with the change to their own routine.

My stepdad was a long-haul trucker and even though his weekly schedule was usually the same, I know my mom struggled with switching from her routine during the week without him, to our routine when he was home. I've also heard people who share custody of their kids talk about how it's hard for them and their kids to transition from time alone with their new partner vs time with the child home, or from time with just their bio kids home to time with their stepkids coming to visit, etc. I think anytime we have people coming in or out of the household it's normal to struggle with how that changes routines a bit.

Would it help if you made a specific routine that is different for when he is away? Maybe make that routine with his help, and maybe one that is a bit more lax, so it doesn't overwhelm you when you're struggling with him being gone?

That way you wouldn't be trying to hold yourself to your 'normal when he's home' routine when he isn't there? That may just be too much to expect of yourself.

I am not sure that I really have much advice as far as how to avoid D/s causing dependency. My perspective is that (usually) D/s doesn't cause dependency, but D/s can cause subs to do more than they could/would have done without a dom, so then when the dom isn't around i can seem like the sub has regressed or become dependent...but if the sub was just doing more tha their usual because of the doms support...then that isn't necessarily a bad thing in the way that true dependency would be, in my opinion.

I think all people can do more or achieve more with support from others. I think we see that as very normal in certain settings, like getting a workout buddy to help motivate you tos how up at the gym when you may just sleep in if your workout buddy wasn't going to be waiting on you. I think D/s is usually closer to that example...and if someone was successful at work out regularly with a workout buddy, but then backslid after their workout buddy gave up...I don't think we'd see that as a dependency. It's more like...just being back to being left without a tool or without as much support, so it's understandable that you'd be a bit less successful.

I still think it's reasonable to want to be able to maintain those skills without that tool or support..but I think the key to that is usually related to mental health or things like that, and you said you're already in treatment for your mental health so it seems like you're already trying to work on the areas you want to work on...which is great, and I think that is kind of all you can really do?

I will invite others to chime in if they have related experiences or advice. :)

#asks #d/s

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the-queen-of-hell-666 · 3 years

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Going To The Chapel And He’s Going To Get Married Leaving Her Heart Broken

Pairing: Stepdad!Bucky Barnes x Fem!Reader

Words: 1.8k

Summary: Bucky got married to her mother and the Reader realizes something that changes how she looks at him.

Warnings: explicit language, explicit sexual content (unprotected vaginal sex, vaginal sex, oral sex (f! receiving), blindfolding, face riding, handjob, light dom/sub vibes), possessive reader, a bit of angst

a/n: 18+!!!! SMUT!!!! NO MINORS!!!! I wrote this in like two hours because I really wanted to add a new update for this fic. I couldn’t stop thinking about how this would play out. I had so many ideas but I finally narrowed it down to one. So I really hope you like this fic!!!

You hoped that Bucky wouldn’t go through with it. You hoped after the shared nights you two spent was enough to have him call the whole thing off. Boy, were you wrong. He went through with it. The son of a bitch married your mother and you had to sit there with a fake smile on your face.

It was the day of Bucky and your mother’s wedding. Your mother woke you up at an absurd time and dragged you into the car. You were crammed into the backseat with your aunt, Jessica, and Bucky’s sister, Rebecca. Your mother drove you guys to the hotel the wedding was being held at.

It was a beachside resort, and they were having the ceremony on the beach. Yeah, your mother was using Bucky’s money to hold your dream wedding.

Your dream wedding was a beachside wedding, with a man exactly like Bucky. You dreamed about it since you were nine. You always dreamed of marrying a tall and handsome man and running into the sunset. Happily ever after. Well, life kinda fucked that up.

So there you sat at the front in a white wooden chair. You watched your mother walked down the aisle in a big white dress. It took everything in you to not let the tears fall as you locked eyes with Bucky. It was only for a second but it was enough to make you sad.

Your mother stood in front of Bucky as they said their vows. Then they kissed and god, your heart shattered. Everyone cheered and clapped, you gave a small sad smile to Bucky. He looked at you with guilt filling his face as he watched the one tear fall down your face. You quickly wiped it away and clapped.

During the reception, you downed flute after flute of champagne even took a few shots of tequila. Anything alcoholic went down your throat, but after five years of college, you could handle your liquor. You weren’t even buzzed. Damn, your mother for not having the strong stuff at her wedding.

You had a glass of merlot in your hand as your mother and her new husband came up to you. Your mother hugged you and kissed you on the cheek, and Bucky gave you a hug and you placed a fast kiss on his cheek.

“How are you enjoying the wedding?” Your mother asked, and you placed a fake smile on your face.

“It’s beautiful, mom. I loved the beachside ceremony.” You said and took a small sip of your wine.

“I’m glad.” She smiled, and Bucky nodded. Then their song came on. Your mother grabbed Bucky’s hand and pulled him towards the dance floor.

You gripped your wine glass tight as you watched them dance. You walked over to the small bar and grabbed the bottle of merlot and chugged it down. The people at the bar looked at me weird but I didn’t care. I finished off the bottle and set the empty glass bottle on the bar surface. Still, you weren’t fazed.

“Fuck.” You muttered and walked away from the bar. You were sitting at your table when Bucky approached you. He held his hand out to you.

“Do you wanna dance?” He asked, knowing that if your mother saw you dancing with him, she wouldn’t think anything about it.

“Sure.” You faked smiled, and he pulled you to your feet. You two walked out to the dance floor. You placed your hands on his shoulders and he placed his hands on your waist, as you two swayed to the music.

“I’m sorry.” He muttered, and you looked up into his blue eyes.

“Why’d you go through with it?” You asked, and his eyes darted away from yours and to the side.

“I don’t know.” He sighed, and you couldn’t help but dig your manicured nails into his shoulders. He stifled a groan and looked at you confused. “Why do you care so much. We were just a fling.” He stated, and you scoffed and pulled away from his arms.

You stormed off and found your mother. You told her that you were heading to your room because you were tired. She smiled and nodded and told you to get some sleep.

You took the lift up to your room and walked in. You slammed the door shut. You fell on the bed with a huff.

He had a good point. Why were you mad? It was a fling. Of course, you didn’t mean anything to him. It shouldn’t have meant anything to you. Why did it though? Then it hit you like a fucking freight train. You were in love with your mother’s new husband.

You sat up on the bed as a tear fell down your face. You quickly wiped it away and started pacing the length of the room. You were in love with Bucky. Are you fucking kidding? You took a large sigh and ran a hand through your hair.

You were knocked out of your thoughts when someone knocked on your door. You knew who it was so you ignored it. You sat on the edge of the bed waiting for him to leave.

“Y/n, I know you’re in there. Please let me in.” Bucky said through the door. You huffed and walked up to the door. You opened the door to reveal Bucky still in his tux and breathing heavily.

“Did you run up five flights of stairs?” You asked, and he had a crooked smile on his face.

“The elevator was taking too long.” He shrugged, and damn, he looked so cute. With that stupid smile and his hair never looked fluffier.

“Oh, fuck it.” You mumbled, and grabbed him by his tie and smashed his lips on yours. You pulled him into your room. You pulled back from the kiss to close and lock the door. You then pinned him to the door and jumped on him. You captured his lips in another kiss, he caught you by the backs of your thighs as you wrapped your legs around his waist.

“You that needy, sweets?” He asked mockingly, and you yanked his head back by his hair and nipped and sucked on his neck.

“Watch it, baby.” You growled against his skin, and he quietly moaned as you tightened your grip on his hair. “You think it’s easy watching you walk around in that damn suit. Playing house with my mother. You aren’t hers.” You sucked a hickey on his collarbone. “You’re mine.” You growled in his ear, and he moaned. “Bed. Now.”

He carried you to the plush bed in the middle of the room. He sat on the edge with you still in his lap. You ground your panty-covered pussy into the bulge growing in his slacks. You untied his tie and used it to tie it around his eyes to blindfold him. You pushed him back and his back hit the mattress. He laid in the middle of the bed and you hiked your dress up.

“What are you doing, sweets?” He asked as he felt you slide up his chest.

“You are going to eat me out, baby boy.” You purred as you pulled your panties off. You straddled his face backward and immediately he dived into your folds. He sucked your clit in his mouth and nipped on it. You moaned and ground your cunt on his tongue. He thrusted his tongue in your sopping hole, his tongue licking along your walls.

He moaned against your pussy as you rubbed his bulge. You unzipped his slacks and pulled his cock out. You stroked his shaft up and down swiping the pre-cum off the slit. He groaned in your folds as he continued his assault on your clit.

“Oh, god!” He moaned in your pussy, and you smirked then moaned, as he sucked your clit in his mouth. You licked the palm of your hand and stroked him up and down.

“God, you eat me out so good!” You moaned as he stroked the inside of your pussy with his tongue. You thumbed under the crown of his cock and he cried out in your folds, and that sent you over the edge. You writhed above him as your orgasm washed over you. He continued to eat you out to prolong your orgasm. Once you came down from your high you removed your pussy from his face and turned around to face him. You laid over him then removed the blindfold.

“That was new.” He said, with a smirk and you leaned down and kissed him. You reached back and lined his cock up to your entrance and sunk down. You two moaned in unison as your walls fluttered around his length.

“Fuck, baby. You stretch me so good.” You moaned, and he bucked his hips up. You started riding him hard and fast trying to reach your second climax. His hands gripped your ass as you rode him. He captured your lips in a searing kiss. He groaned in the kiss when you clenched around him. The head of his cock slammed into your g-spot every time his hips met yours.

“God, I forgot how tight you are.” He groaned, and he smacked one of your asscheeks. You squealed in delight loving the sting that came with the smack. He smacked your ass again as his cock hit your g-spot and you went hurtling over the edge. You cried out his name in his kiss.

He hit his high when he felt your walls flutter around his cock. He filled you up with his hot cum as he fucked up into your harder. He fucked you into another orgasm and you started squirting on his chest. Soaking his dress shirt. You slumped against his chest. You took a minute to collect yourself before climbing off of him. You walked over to where your panties were and picked them up. You looked at Bucky who was still breathing heavily on the bed.

“You okay?” You asked as you leaned on the desk across from the bed. He sat up and tucked himself back into his slacks.

“Yeah, yeah. Better than okay.” He nodded, and you smiled walked up, and kissed him as you tucked your panties into his suit jacket pocket.

“Something borrowed.” You winked, and then pulled back. “You better get back down there before my mother comes looking for you.” You shrugged, and he looked a bit disappointed but shook it off.

“Yeah, right. I’ll see you around.” He smiled and then walked out. You let out a breath you didn’t know you were holding. You flopped on the bed extremely aware of the throb in your heart. Good job, you just broke your own heart.

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girlbookwrm · 5 years

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Bah! Bah! Bah da-dah. Badabadabadadah bah dah dah! (<-- this is the iron man song)

THE MIGHTY ENDGAME REWATCH CONTINUES: PART THREE

(parts one and two are HERE)

The Gal Pal has joined us, so tonight we are three (@goteamwin is the Roommate and @pegasuschick is the Gal Pal.) This time we ALL pregamed with booze and cookies.

Further note: It Has Been Years and I Still Miss The Old Marvel Logo

The Gal Pal: For a second I thought this was Lord of the Rings

THIS WAS A GAMBLE. I have to remind myself of this every time I watch this movie because this was a hhUUUUUGE gamble starring a recovering addict and directed by a nobody using technology that had been tested in Transformers, a franchise known for it’s kwality filmmaking (not u bumblebee i’m sure you’re g r e a t)

(the roommate would like it noted that they probably stipulated in RDJ’s contract that he wouldn’t be fully paid until he finished the movie because he’d flaked out on previous filming commitments for. you know. getting arrested and going to jail.)

This is a solid opening. A Super Solid Opening, in fact. Quality flashback. Actually TFA, take note. This is how you do a flashback, TFA

WELL THAT ESCALATED QUICKLY

comedy moment with the stark missile here.

Howard Stark Mark I. (of three. Never forget. that there are three howard starks)

Oh No it’s Wrong Rhodes. Rhong Wrodes? just Wrodes?

Obadiah Stane? Really?? who thought he was a good guy??? although I love how easily he does this “getting on the stand to accept an award for Tony” thing. like he’s done it a thousand times before. because of course he has.

GOD THEY'RE ALL SO YOUNG

no da Vinci his a fair comparison, actually, given that Da Vinci apparently designed loads and loads of Very Deadly Things.

At this juncture, the Gal Points out:

Not to be super gay here, but I would observe that the later Iron Man movies get hotter lady extras. Just a note.

she is not wrong.

You're better than this journalist lady.

actually wait is she only sleeping with tony for the purpose of snooping?

SHIT SHE TOTALLY IS.

on the one hand DAMN PEPPER I HOPE CHRISTINE GETS MEDICAL ATTENTION FOR THAT BURN but on the other hand BOO GIRL ON GIRL CRIME.

Tony your music is bad

why isn’t it the iron man song

what band is it that does the iron man song

black sabbath, said the Gal Pal and The Roommate in unison.

tony i thought you weren’t a painter how do you even know who pollack is

The perpetual question with this movie: Was the script That Good or is RDJ Just That Good?

Will We Ever Truly Know

WRONG RHODES HAS A POTATO FACE RIGHT RHODES HAS A GREMLIN FACE. YOU NEED CORRECT GREMLIN POTATO FACE PAIRING.

Things that Date This Movie:

Tony’s suits (the fabric ones)

The phones (ohhhhhhhhhh my god flip phones oh my gooooooooddddd)

the fact that the hero is a new york billionaire with his name on the side of a building and people actually like him

Wait is Obie fucking someone? NO DON'T MAKE ME THINK THAT

I hate this part NOSE NO THANK U. GROSS. GROSS. NO I DON’T LIKE IT. NO. i came here for an ACTION MOVIE not a BODY HORROR MOVIE HELP PLS

Yinsen is v well dressed. like. Yinsen is SO dapper wtf Tony looks like a bum by comparison. And his chemistry with Tony is Un. Paralleled (except by pepper.) He fucking NAILS THIS ROLE. Ho Yinsen, International treasure

sub note YINSEN’S FIRST NAME IS HO. YOU ARE ALL VERY WELCOME.

sub sub note: The Roommate spent like fifteen minutes calling him Jensen. This Seems Racist. She points out that I am being racist for thinking that. She may be right.

the ten rings IT IS LOTR

“I don't watch Iron Man that often, it's always a surprise when I enjoy it” - The Roommate

I THOUGHT YOU SAID YOU WEREN'T A PAINTER TONY. THOSE ARE VERY GOOD DOODLES FOR SOMEONE WITH NO ARTISTIC INCLINATIONS.

I love/hate that it’s like: Oh no this bad guy speaks English NOW WE'RE IN TROUBLE.

THAT. SEEMS. RACIST.

“Yes I would like a delivery date” says the roommate, someone very accustomed to working with clients that do not provide a coherent delivery date/schedule.

every time i see this scene i am reminded of that interview where Cevans is like: tthHHAT’S RDJ?? and then he licks his lips like the thirsty little bitch he may or may not be.

army recruitment - avengers - dick swinging contest - dumpster fire <-- this is literally the note i made for myself, i don’t know exactly how we got onto this particular sidetrack but look here’s the story:

the pentagon subsidized the early marvel movies, but then they stopped. that was a fun fact that I knew

the gal pal looked it up and it is Very Real. She was explaining to us that they STOPPED subsidizing marvel movies after the avengers because SHIELD. ‘Does the army answer to SHIELD or does SHIELD answer to the army?’

Me: SO ARE YOU TELLING ME. THAT THE ARMY. A REAL LIFE ORGANIZATION. STOPPED FUNDING MARVEL MOVIES. BECAUSE THEY GOT INTO A DICK MEASURING CONTEST WITH SHIELD AND MIGHT HAVE LOST????

yes

the answer to that question is yes

the military industrial complex is a dumpster fire.

32 minute mark and Tony has more time with yinsen than anyone else

I cannot believe it took them them THIS LONG TO FIGURE OUT SOMETHING WAS WRONG. No one thought to question that glowing thing in tony’s chest, just like: Nah that seems right. That’s part of the missile building process, right? They're working. this seems fine

It's still a horror movie but now Tony is the monster

he was always the monster

YINSEN WE HARDLY KNEW YE

Tony Tedward Stark you're literally the only person in the world who didn't know Yinsen’s family was dead. “I’ll see them when I leave here?” THEY’RE DEAD TONY. THEY’VE ALWAYS BEEN DEAD.

also: YINSEN IS AN INTERNATIONAL TREASURE

Tony, at the end of this fight scene, is A) deaf from all the bullets pinging off his suit. B) very badly burned, and C) has broken every bone in his body.

All Jameses in the MCU come with an innate Bullshit Detection Sensor. “Steve’s in trouble” “What’s that explosion? probably Tony.” JAMES POWERS ACTIVATE.

40 minutes in and this is the first time I buy Wrodes as a pal. Maybe

Tony Stark: BRING ME BURGERS. YINSEN TOLD ME NOT TO WASTE MY LIFE

oh hey phil is here!

Tony you have PTSD ---- aaaand you also have a burger stashed in your sling? that’s the best thing. THAT’S THE BEST THING.

UGH GOD OBIE’S ON A SEGWAY GROSSSSS (as if we didn’t already know that he was evil just from his NAME)

The Gal Pal, re Tony vs his PTSD: of course he builds himself a suit of armor. we're lucky he didn't end up in a gimp suit.

me, internally: bold of you to assume he doesn’t.

I refuse to even imagine this movie with Tom Cruise it would be so Wrong. (For those who don’t know, the studio really wanted Tom Cruise to play Tony, Jon Favreau really went to bat for RDJ against the studio, you know. on account of the whole. addiction getting arrested thing.)

TONY THIS IS A LABORATORY, WE WEAR OUR SHOES AND BUTTON OUR SHIRTS.

Mad money really dates this too. Add that to the list of things that date this.

Tony: Pepper you’ve got small hands, right? get down here.

Now is the perfect time to remind you all that comics tony has canonically been pegged by Gamora.

You Are Welcome

A) pepper is great. B) Tony is definitely not really going into cardiac arrest. C) I’m remembering that they were my first Marvel OTP and I love them.

Re: Rhodey and the whole “Manned vs unmanned flight” and Tony coming in like “What about just the pilot with no plane” or whatever QUICK QUESTION ASKING FOR A FRIEND WHEN DOES THE FALCON PROGRAM HAPPEN

RDJ and his big sad brown cow eyes.

The Roommate: I know I wasn’t into it at the time, because I was a youth and he’s like forty and I was like “No, he is Not For Me.”

Me: PAST YOU WAS A MORON.

The Roommate: Yeah i know that NOW.

Tony built his own keyboard that's so extra

Yikes generic ten rings bad guy you should put a bandage on that

ROBOT ABUSE, but also, can we talk about how much I love DUM-E, U, and also this entire sequence?

U is getting real fancy with the camera zooms

At this point we got into a discussion of whether the arc reactor gives Tony powers:

Me: Please. He’s a glorified normie. He’s the Batman of the Marvel Universe.

The Roommate: Yeah! He’s the Batman of marvel with out the...

Me: The what exactly?

The Roommate: The dead... no his parents are... the car-- no he’s got lots of fancy-- The pearls. He’s the Batman of Marvel without the pearls.

now we have to wait until Civil War to see if Maria Stark is wearing pearls when she dies.

PIZZA. Obie is like the stepdad with that pizza. “I’m taking the pizza back. Nah go on take a slice.” G R O S S

Paul Bettany! You're better as a disembodied voice.

The Roommate: I do not care for your purple robot form. I know Wanda does but--

Me: Listen. We’ve all made mistakes and bought an unreasonably large purple dildo

The Gal Pal: And we’ve all gotten attached to non-human characters.

The Roommate: Like the fox from Robin Hood!

The Gal Pal: Exactly. And hey, maybe he just keeps going, you know? like the energizer Bunny.

Me, Upset: NONONONONONONO

The Roommate: now hang on a minute that’s interesting.

Tony, i feel like you didn't think though. But seriously, what is this scene? Why is there a Ferris wheel? Are those the director's kids?

YOU’RE DOING GREAT, DUM-E.

Tony, quick question, did you cut holes in all your tee-shirts? Why? There’s no need for it? It’s Literally? Just for the dramatic effect? Tony?? WHy??? ARe YoU LIke THiS????

they are literally titty windows

these shirts are probably very expensive

sToP

oooo the bad guy (side note, put on a bandaid my guy. get some neosporin or something) has the iron man 1.0 suit and waaaIT A SECOND ARE THERE BULLET HOLES IN THE CROTCH ARMOR??? DID THEY SHOOT TONY IN THE CROTCH?

First of all, Jarvis is a treasure, I’m sad they ever got rid of him, second of all I love that Tony can just show up unannounced at a Very Important Party and no one questions it, third of all:

Poooterrrrrr

Oh hey Phil is here!!

Oh Pep. You are so on top of things, you basically run SI, you know your fear about the deoderant is just paranoia. You applied twice and you have an extra one in your purse and you’re wearing perfume. You smell like roses and victory.

O! T! P!

Christine, why do you have these photos where have you been keeping them why don’t you just pull them up on your phoneOHHHH RIGHT THIS IS THE PAST THERE ARE NO SMART PHONES YET FFGHSSJJSJSDKDKD I FEEL OLD.

Tony is standing on a higher step than Obie for this. The Smolest Avenger.

This is the first full iron Man moment but all I can think is:

Toe socks Tony? really?

~Cool guys don't look at explosions~

SOMEONE REALLY NEEDS TO TELL MARVEL THAT MORE VILLAINS =/= BETTER VILLAINS.

Rhodes sees the boom on the screen and is like but… Tony is here. in the US. I know he's here. I'm 99% sure. 98%. (explosion #2) I’m 95% sure. (by explosion #5) I’m 42% sure that Tony is in the US.

Definitely the worse thing that Pepper saw was him cutting titty windows in his tee shirts

MARVEL! MORE VILLAINS ARE NOT BETTER VILLAINS!!

beeteedubs We All Hate the way Obie says “data” and “manufacturing.” Dah-tuh. Man-uh-fact-ering. U G H.

YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND PEPPER I HAVE A NEW JOB NOW AND IT'S SAAAAVING THE PLANET

every movie ever: Is this hacking? Is this how hacking works?

Obie’s frankenstein vein and the way he slllluuuuurrrrps his whiskey. GROSS.

Oh Hey Phil Is Here!!!

What other applications?

WAIT WHAT OTHER APPLICATIONS ARE THERE FOR SHORT TERM PARALYSIS?

NO DON’T TELL ME I DON’T WANT TO KNOW

Hhhhhhow does Obie already have a specially designed arc reactor extractor?

TONY WHY DON’T YOU GET ON THE SCOOTER INSTEAD OF SHOVING IT AWAY? WOULDN’T YOU GO FASTER?

DUM-E IS A TREASURE

Re Pepper:

The Roommate: Pepper’s superpower is calling the right authorities and making sure the right people get arrested.

Me: so what I’m hearing is that Pepper’s superpower is being a responsible adult???

This Seems Accurate.

“Anything else I can do?” says Terrence Howard. “yeah, you can turn into don cheedle” say we all.

Where's the water in this creepy underground lair. Whyyyyyy are there water light effects? WHERE? IS? THE WATER???

OMG look at that cgi wowwwww he’s just coming up through the concrete and it is Definitely CGI.

dear obadiah stane: YOU DO NOT FIRE PEPPER POTS SHE IS ESSENTIAL. IF YOU FIRE PEPPER POTTS YOUR COMPANY COLLAPSES LITERALLY THE NEXT DAY.

Hey Obie. Did you put the Batman voice modulator in yourself orrrr...

Holy Cow Digital Hand is Very Digital.

HANG ON ISN'T THIS EXACTLY WHAT ANT MAN DOES TO TONY IN CIVIL WAR???

Blow the reactor, he says. JUST DO IT, he says.

The Gal Pal: Shhhh you can hear Howard Stark rolling over in his grave

oh hey Zuul is coming

OH HEY PHIL IS HERE!!!!

The roommate: THAT'S NOT TRUE SMALL AIRCRAFT ARE VERY SAFE

WAIT WAS CAPTAIN MARVEL PHIL’S FIRST RODEO? *need to see Captain Marvel Intensifies*

“Girlfriend who worries about me” Tony says. It's Rhodes. Right? I mean. He already has a girlfriend who worries about him. It’s Colonel Rhodes.

tony is so bad at lying

which is cute and all but FORREALS do you remember seeing this movie for the first time? whether you like Iron Man or not, whether you like MARVEL or not, this is fucking cinematic history happening here. this is the first franchise of its kind, it opened the door for so many others and it is so weird to remember that.

BAH! BAH! BAH DA-DUH. BADABADABADADAH! BAH DAH DAH!!

we have spent literally the entire movie waiting for this song to play

wow Jarvis u ok

THERE HE IS. Lookit him. with his eyepatch. he’s Seen Things. he’s Done Stuff. him and phil. geeze.

Me: I really wish I had just seen Captain Marvel

The Gal Pal: I feel like that every morning

i mean i don’t want to harp on this given that we’ve already moved on from the incorrect hulk but WHY WOULD TONY STARK BE RECRUITING ROSS?????

#the mighty pre endgame rewatch

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allthecoolboysaredead · 6 years

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Larry Ezekiel Goodman Bio + Tags + Headcanons

Name: Larry Ezekiel Goodman Nicknames: Darkheart, Larebear Age: 21; Can Change Birthday: February 27th Sign: Pisces Gender: Cis Male Pronouns: He/Him Sexuality: Homosexual Homoromantic Polygamous; Nonsexual unless introduced to sex by outside source (then highly sexual) Hair: Naturally Brown, dyes tips blue Eyes: Dodger Blue Skin: Pale White Height: 5′0″ Weight: 110 lbs Faceclaim: Gerhard Freidl Piercings: Horizontal Brow Piercings (Left Side), Angel Bites, Labret, Both Ears Gauged (Size 0g) Tattoos: None Scars: Nothing real noticeable

Alignment: Lawful Good Religion: Raised Roman Catholic, Aetheist Allegiance: South Park Vampire Society, Mike Makowski, Ryan Ellis

Family: Zachary Fetter (Father, Alive, Out Of The Picture); Mariah Goodman (Mother, Alive); Martin “Big M” Goodman (Uncle, Alive); Mary Goodman (Grandmother, Deceased); Ezekiel Goodman (Grandfather, Alive)

Pets: Lestat (White German Shepherd)

Personality: Adaptable, anxious, artistic, attention-seeking, caring, compassionate, compliant, desires an escape of reality, emotionally intelligent, empathetic, extroverted, forgiving, friendly, generous, gentle, gullible, impulsive, intuitive, loyal, overly trusting, passive, patient, protective, prudish, responsible, self deprecating, selfless, sensitive, shy, submissive, sullen, tolerant, worrisome

Likes: Sleeping, music, romance, visual media, swimming, the spiritual side of vampirism, comaraderie, his friends, clamato juice, deviled egg potato salad, sweets, animals, helping others, rainy/snowy weather

Dislikes: Confrontation, cruelty of any kind, thinking too much, being criticized, know-it-alls, being taken advantage of, being left out, touching fish, Swedish meatballs, bitter things, plain water, hot weather

Can Do: Drive, make telephone calls, organize events, drop everything when a friend needs him, offer advice, play instruments (Cello, piano, clarinet, a little bit of violin, kazoo), write fiction

Can’t Do: Actually kill things, relax easily, cook, math, abandon his friends, most magic, handle confrontation, get too warm, resist singing to songs he likes/knows

Mental Health Diagnosis:

PTSD: Larry was treated rather poorly up until he started school, often locked out of his mother’s room at night and left with nobody to help him through things but his uncle. His uncle was and still is a drunk piggybacking off of his mother’s paychecks, and Larry suffered a lot of physical and sexual abuse from him. To this day he dislikes being alone with the man.

Dependant Personality Disorder: Larry will pour himself into other things in order to escape his actual reality. Because of this, he takes on the brunt of handling most Vampire Society affairs, including but not limited to booking events and venues, securing timetables and even setting up the occasional bake sale. The busier he can stay, the happier he is.

Physical Health Diagnosis:

Flat Feet: Larry has to wear special inserts in his shoes because his feet have no arches in them. It occasionally makes running hard.

Fears: Being forgotten, aliens, being eaten alive, earthquakes

Positive Traits: Loyal, trustworthy, tolerant

Negative Traits: Self-deprecating, anxious, worrisome

Quirks: Listens to such a wide variety of music it’s hard to pinpoint his tastes; Likes peanut butter and cheese sandwiches; Has an interest in all occult/supernatural things but vampires are his number 1

Tends To: Busy himself to the point of forgetting himself; Become nonverbal during conflict; Cling to his dog when scared

History: The timing couldn’t have been worse for Larry to have been a shine in his parents’ eyes. Zach Fetter was content to be the guy Mariah Goodman’s parents couldn’t stand, and she was content to know she was breaking rules, until Larry came into the picture. The minute it turned from rebellion into the possibility of a family, all parties tried to run. Mariah, sadly, was a little stuck. She couldn’t get an abortion, and had to temporarily move back in with her parents until Larry was born. He spent the beginning of his life mostly with his grandparents, while his mother got back on her feet with a job.

When he was three, his uncle was released from prison and his mother moved out of her parents’ house to move in with her brother. The initial idea was for him to get a job and help out, but something always got in the way. He spent a lot of time babysitting Larry, who began to behave differently. Quiet, more sullen, he flinched a lot in the presence of his uncle and refused to talk about it. By kindergarten, he was reluctant to do much on his own, and immediately clung to an older kid by the name of Mike Makowski.

They became fast friends, and Larry was ever loyal to any of Mike’s causes, even if he was a year younger than him. When they became the South Park Vampire Society in fourth grade (fifth for Mike), Larry was a dutiful second in command that spent as much time as he could with his friends. They were all a very close-knit group, and even as they grew and everyone else changed, Larry didn’t see a whole lot of it.

He let himself be so enveloped in his work for his friends, in spending time with them and helping them with problems, that he never thought of much else. Most things that regular teenage boys did escaped him, barring his schoolwork, and he was always probably the least sexual of the vampire kids. Not to say that he didn’t like people that way, or that he didn’t have the thoughts on occasion, but he was always so tired when he got home, and it took a lot to get him to open up about things like that.

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Tags List - Personal

Not A Ghost Nor A Demon (Larry) This Is What I Do I Spit On You (Larry’s IC Posts) Stripes Are Always In (Larry’s Closet) A Vampire’s Lair (Larry’s Stuff) I’ve Got A Notion (Larry’s Desires) Fake Fangs And Clamato Juice (Larry’s Aesthetic) The Vampire Lestat (Lestat Tag) Like Fog Lights In The Rain (Larry’s Music) Things Are Different When You’re Dead (Larry Musings) Here It’s December Every Day (Larry Headcanons)

Tags List - With X - Canon

We Are But Shepherding Wolves (Larry And Allison Mertz)

The Different Need Us As Well (Larry And Amanda Harrison)

Please No Grieving (Larry And Annie Barlett)

Blondes Have More Fun (Larry And Bebe Stevens)

I Don’t Know Him (Larry And Billy Harris)

Sister In Darkness (Larry And Bloodrayne)

Where Oh Where Has He Gone? (Larry And Bradley Biggle)

It’s The First Day Of The Rest Of Your Life (Larry And Butters Stotch)

I Don’t Like Dirt (Larry And Christophe “The Mole” DeLorne)

He’s Cool Enough To Hang Out With Us (Larry And Clyde Donovan)

If He Had Wheels He’d Be A Wagon (Larry And Craig Tucker)

Party Till It’s 666 In The Morning (Larry And Damien Thorn)

Nothing Is Ever Perfect (Larry And David Harrison)

He Rode Cthulhu Like A Pony! (Larry And Eric Cartman)

A Sweet Kid (Larry And Filmore Anderson)

Sharp And Scathing With Shipping Included (Larry And Firkle Smith)

The More The Merrier (Larry And Flora)

Brothers In Vampirism (Larry And Gangsta Vamp)

It’s Not Right To Tell Someone They’re Wrong (Larry And Gary Harrison)

What’s Up Drunkie? (Larry And Gregory)

She Wears A Dress Like A Body Bag Every Day (Larry And Heidi Turner)

Fire Bad! (Larry And Henriette Biggle)

Under Our Wings You Could Flourish (Larry And Ike Broflovski)

Don’t Let The Losers Win (Larry And Jennifer Harrison)Could She Be One Of Us? (Larry And Jenny)

Humor Is The Lifeblood Of Society (Larry And Jimmy Valmer)

One Of Us (Larry And Karen McCormick)

Why Does He Hate Us So Much? (Larry And Kenny McCormick)

Help Yourself To Guns And Ammo (Larry And Kevin McCormick)

Millennials Against Canada (Larry And Kyle Broflovski)

Everyone Is Welcome (Larry And Leslie Meyers)

I Believe (Larry And Mark Harrison)

Anywhere But Scottsdale (Larry And Michael)

They Worry You With All The Talk Of How You’re Not Their Kind (Larry And Mike Makowski

A Little Extra Help (Larry And Mimsy)

Always Scheming (Larry And Nathan)

The Sun It Withers In Comparison (Larry And Nichole Daniels)

Ugh You Spit On Me Larry (Larry And Pete)

He’s Not Like The Others (Larry And Quaid)

Leader Of The Pack (Larry And Red Tucker)

We’re Cool Huh? (Larry And Ryan Ellis)

Not Everyone Is On Our Level (Larry And Sally Bands)

You Poor Guy (Larry And Scott Tenorman)

Dogs Are Life (Larry And Stan Marsh)

Fanastic Wounds (Larry And Timmy Burch)

Is He On The List? (Larry And Token Black)

Tally Marks (Larry And Trent Boyett)

Too Young To Drink Caffeine (Larry And Tweek Tweak)

Class President (Larry And Wendy Testaburger)

Tags List - With X - OC

For What It’s Worth (With Hershy) - @brokenxdelinquentsx

It Was An Honest Mistake (With Nikolai Robins) - @sub-nikolai

Tags List - With X - Crossover

Daddy Daddy Get Me Out Of Here I’m Underground (With Jareth)

A Little Crazy Is OK As Long As Nobody Says Any Dirty Words (With Jerome Valeska)

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Verses - In-World

Second Best Friend Ever (Larry’s Elementary Verse)

It didn’t take long for Larry to be swept up in Mike Makowski. Someone that was so confident and cool actually paying him attention was the biggest, nicest thing anyone had ever done for him. He would have followed Mike to the ends of the Earth and back, and usually helped retrieve him from Scottsdale, at least by tattling to his parents.

Growing Into Oneself (Larry’s Middle School Verse)

In middle school, being the vice president and treasurer of the Vampire Society became his life. He would make sure that everyone had their tickets for dances and things, that everyone was going to parties or zoo excursions. Mike’s birthdays became a big-ticket item and he did a lot of work with Mike’s stepdad to get the parties to be just right for his best friend.

Workaholic (Larry’s High School Verse)

In high school, Larry got a job as a clerk at the Photo Dojo. If he wasn’t doing that or school work, he was almost always with his friends doing something. If they weren’t together, he was planning things, or taking dictation from Mike. He spent as little time at home as he could leading up to his 18th birthday, and after it he tried to spend even less time there.

We Are The Fortunate All The Time (Larry’s College Verse)

The second Larry graduated high school, he was already out the door. The soonest he could get to his college life and away from his family, the better. Sure, he missed his friends, but they all talked on group chats and Discord, so things were still close. Living outside of Colorado was odd for him, however, hard to really put into place. Outside of his friend group, which apparently sheltered him a lot, he didn’t know how to function.

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AU Verses

I Can’t Wait To Show You My Love (Larry’s ABO AU)

Born a male Omega, Larry was always looked down upon by his mother, and his uncle saw him as a target. His grandparents took him in when he started to smell too much like his uncle, and have full custody of him. He lives with them in Middle Park, but still goes to school and hangs out with his friends in South Park.

His Only Fault Was His Trust (Demon!Larry AU)

Larry had never been much of a bad person. In fact, his only real flaw was that he trusted others so thoroughly that whatever they said or told him to do made him dangerous. A loyal friend, he became a majordomo to the royal family of hell when he died.

Creatures Of The Deep (Mer!Larry AU)

Larry is a Demasoni Cichlid, one of the least aggressive of his species. He tries to be a kind of vegetarian, but his species cannot survive without meat for long. He eats fish more than anything, though he goes into a frenzy on occasion. When he’s on land, he loses his ability to speak.

Apprenticed (Larry’s Repo! The Genetic Opera AU)

It started off innocently enough; Larry had been hoping to get some good, interesting work for his stories. Vampires were still a hit, even if it was more organ-themed now-a-days. But working as an apprentice to a Graverobber wasn’t always the easier thing to deal with, especially when squeamish.

Warn Your Warmth To Turn Away (Vampire!Larry AU)

It made sense, at some point, for Larry to obsess over vampires to the point of following ‘real’ ones. When he’d left South Park for college, he never once thought he’d find anyone that fit his aesthetic. Here he was, though, in a club called The Den, a bartender that didn’t realize just what he was getting himself into. Three days into his employment, he found out the dirty underbelly of the city operated there, and that most of them were not human. To keep him from running, he was slowly being poisoned, turned into a vampire that could still provide blood to others until the night of his full shift. Which just so happened to be his twenty-second birthday.

I Don’t Want To Be Team Jacob (Werewolf!Larry AU)

Larry had always loved dogs. He had enjoyed seeing wolves in the forest, thinking of them as vampiric familiars. The one time he stepped over his boundaries and pet an unfamiliar dog, though, turned out to be the worst night of his life. Trying to hide his new side from his friends and relatives was proving to be too hard, to boot.

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Shipping

None At This Time

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Open Starters

None At This Time

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Headcanon Posts

* ( positive personality traits!

Physical Traits Of Your Muse

Detailed Profile Tag

Bold Your Muse’s Aesthetic (Spooky Edition)

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Faceclaim - Gerhard Freidl

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Art By Me

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Pets

Lestat is Larry’s loyal White German Shepherd. The pair are mostly inseparable, and he will take Lestat with him to occasional Vampire Society meetings. Lestat protects Larry from his uncle, who is the only person that Lestat doesn’t like.

#Not A Ghost Nor A Demon (Larry)

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magpie-69 · 6 years

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I am Magpie!

Hi. I've had a Tumblr blog for a while now. I can't even remember how I stumbled onto Tumblr, or how I found this particular kinky section of it and the wonderful folk here. But that doesn't matter though cos I did, and I'm very happy to have met some very nice folk!

So, I thought I'd give some insight into me and how I got here.

As a teenage kid when most we're finding out about themselves and their sexuality I couldn't have been less interested. Perhaps it was because I was terrified of sex. I had experienced some abuse earlier in life but not rape. I was a very shy, nervous, confused kid with zero confidence. I thought myself ugly and stupid. To some extent I still do. Anyway, I was 19 before I had sex. It was awkward and I cried afterwards. I felt dirty and worthless. Then, when I was 24 I met a man who became my vanilla partner for the next 16 years. We initially had a good relationship. We had two kids together and that's when it started to fall apart. You see, he couldn't cope with not being no.1 in my life anymore. He had an ego the size of a house. I tried to spice up our sex life by asking him to tie me up but if he did, he did it so poorly he may as well not have bothered. But this urge of mine was growing stronger every day. I needed something more. Looking back I was actually quite submissive in our relationship but not in a good way. I allowed him to control me psychologically. Don't get me wrong, I did argue with him but in the end he had his way. After having kids I was financially dependant on him and he used that to his advantage. One day he was diagnosed with terminal cancer. I loved him and tried to mend our connection but to no avail. The crux came when he escalated the emotional abuse to violence. I saw death that day but escaped it, luckily. I had no choice but to kick out the man I loved. The father of my kids and a man dying of cancer. It nearly destroyed me but I had my kids to think of. After he died I discovered that he hadn't paid off the mortgage with the insurance money, but had instead spent it. He didn't leave me one penny to raise his kids with. I was 1 month away from declaring personal bankruptcy when I got the brewery job. Over the next five years I slowly brought myself back online so to speak. I'm still struggling financially but at least we're not homeless. During those five years all I could concentrate on was surviving. I didn't want to live but my kids needed me so I plodded on. My Mum and Stepdad were my rocks!

What I did next was embarrassing but I honestly didn't know D's existed. I only knew of kink. So I answered an ad for a sub but like I said it was only kink. I met with the guy three times before he just disappeared. Fuck him!

I then put my own ad up and I met Mj my Poet. Initially this too was only kink. It was huge fun but I knew something was still missing. I found Tumblr and after learning that D's existed, and having read so much on the subject, we are now developing our relationship into something we are both comfortable with. I will never be the type of girl who runs to the door and kneels in anticipation of her Sir arriving. My experiences in life have made sure of that. I'm more likely to run to the kitchen to make Him a brew lol. But we are trying and it's early days. I look forward to our future together and further development of our D's relationship. It won't be easy cos I have been independent for so long now and I generally make good decisions. I will never ever be able to give up full control to Him.

I'm actually nervous about posting this cos it seems so, "me centred", and selfish. But I just want people to understand me better. I'll stop rambling now. If you're still reading, well done for not getting bored and buggering off 😂

Hello, I am Magpie! 🤗

#idontwanttolosethis

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aaghht · 5 years

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k, i havent seen endgame, gonna make a prediction game for thwne i Do See it. i’ve seen trailers and various gifsets with people nodding & some of my friends and family (really only a small handful of people who actually care to watch the MCU...) might be pissed off that i’ve seen spoilers but. idgaf. i wont have a chance to see it probs but it’s ok, cuz predicting stuff for fun is much less stressful than. idk. watching a bunch of stressful stuff with no catharsis whatsoever. if i get more than 5 points or ideas right..... i’ll convince my mom to watch it with me? i’ll watch it alone? anyway, this’ll just be fun to compare once i do see the movie.

trailers: * before the / spoilers: * after the / theorizing: / or //, /// if they’re sub-topics

so without further ado.

*//*so based on having the shot from the trailer where tony is almost dying, but like, thor and rocket raccoon are later hangin out, i’m gonna posit that maybe. i dunno, tony almost dies but.... someone saves him beforehand? i dont even remember if nebula was alive but i’m guessing she might do that, if she was like, not poofed. or could be thor and rocket. that ship sorta looked vaguely guardians’y? but could also be that the scene takes place in the middle of the movie and it’s a different kind of rescue scene. anyway; *//*it’s been 5 years. tony gets back a little before that and discovers: oh, pepper had a kid and i wasn’t there for either of them while lost in space. queue about a year where tony and pepper raise their kid together finally and the rest of the remaining avengers just sorta. loiter around and deal with their own issues.

//* so what is up with brainy-hulk. cool, must be something happened w banner’s psyche and that’s why he’s in the carseat now. OR... that last hit on the head really ...snapped him out of something else and he’s been dealing with the loss his own way. OR. he’s just been seeing a good shrink. //* nat goes looking for clint and finds him in japan slaughtering... who knows who.... being an assassin we’ve seen clips of him hanging with his kids, doing archery tho so could be that either something happens to them sans-snap or just.... that archery scene seems too calm to take place in the start of the movie so i’m guessing ///** it could also be at the end, before a funeral, OR, right after tony has returned to be with HIS family... creating a sort of silent dad-parallel between them //*it’s a 5 year anniversary of the snap and it’s treated like any large disaster, except on a larger world scale and. more seriously than climate change obviously cuz it just happened so suddenly. ///** avengers hanging out at the HQ for remembering the fallen, being generally sullen, but especially cap and thor. thor’s lost his whole realm, his family and even valkryie is off who knows where. steve has been closing himself off and probably blames himself as much as thor for what’s happened? maybe he spins around in a chair all forlorn and nat mentions how he’s been ///** ant man appears before the avengers HQ door and presents positive news. //* captain marvel shows up! “I like this one” ///**they have sandwiches. thor makes breakfast subs together (this one is 100% trailer+spoiler, i’ll give you that. just amazingly hard to avoid spoilers when thumbnails start popping up) ///** the others tell him abt the snap and the 5 year gap and he speeds off to check on his own family, sees that Cassie has been fine during that 5 year snap, her mom and stepdad possibly not so much. she thinks his dad was a snap-victim too, now she’s relieved to see him alive and well. this whole appearance of ant man brings them sudden hope, even if he did come from a totally different place

//i thought that maybe thanos’ snap was accidentally more of a rabbits foot than his literal meaning, that it could have been a “transported into another dimension by accident” sort of thing, since we saw ant man return with news from his subdimensional trip... ... but weve seen from infiniwar that he can pretty much do whatever he wants with it so the dusting of peeps was most likely as literal as we saw

*oh, and with ant man giving them hope, the rest of the peeps at HQ who saw him and cap marvel, feel slightly more hopeful? maybe?? anyways, this might actually be where the scenes with nat searching/seeking and re-recruiting clint go.

*somehow steve Convices Tony. like no kidding, this i wanna see. leave his family and his miraculous return behind? to go save.... what now????

*anyway, tony’s always had a conscience and decides to join the others despite personal reservations. maybe he sees something that the others dont, a solution, a nwe piece, a new angle... he’s going with them and that’s the Space Suits Scene

*so with the new info presented from ant man and/or cap marv, the avengers build a fancier space craft, suit up, go to space.... and find thanos.

*there’s some hardships on the way and there’s only a few of them at thanos’ lil farm + hut.

*thor beheads thanos. some vindication, but also, callback. cool, i’m glad they could put this in for thor cuz otherwise it’d just feel a bit weird. dude kinda killed his whole posse and the rest of his family after all. Timeline 1 sorta ends.

//* they can’t use the glove cuz just. no one else is massive enough for it and they could instantly die???

so idk, i guess they use just some of the stones to execute a plan with the stones separated to decrease risk of death.maybe carol can help them with that somehow.

*there could be more than 3 snaps. possibly

*professor hulk uses the glove! they go back in time Timeline 2 starts.

//*i still don’t get the point of that nazi-steve scene but. maybe it’s like a “oh, i’ll slip right through this crowd of mercenaries without even a sweat and i’ll get to solving a much bigger problem much faster” kinda misdirection deal? steven has grown and learned to be a lot less confrontational or at least a lot more sneaky, so maybe being in another timeline he just sees a change //*steve goes downstairs in the shield/hydra base and. hides maybe one of the infinity stones. Decides later to

//*Tony’s funeral. Final timeline continues.

anyway, i could be wrong for most of this, i marked stuff that’s spoiilers and stuff that’s just me theourizing is without markings.

#aghhtjournal #aghhtdraws #texty #endgame spoilers #i mean they could be idk #i'm only giving this efforr cuz i wanna see spiderman but im not emotionally vested in seeing endgame in the same way so. have at me

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booksbroadwaybbc · 6 years

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I want to change drastically via /r/selfimprovement

I want to change drastically

Hello, this is my 2nd time posting here, and this is probably the story that you are all quite familiar with on this sub, but none the less, I want to tell it and ask this question. Okay, so, I am kinda bad at writing and speaking in general so please don't mind much how this post is written.

I am currently 20 year old student of organizational sciences, IT department, living with my mother, stepdad and two younger step siblings.I think that I am really stupid, naive, ignorant, and of top of that really lazy. I have trouble when talking with people, studying, and overall interacting with the world around me. My brain is really slow and I cannot perform as good as, as I see, other people can.It seems that i cannot form my own opinions about things, and only follow others who are stronger in their mind and thinking. I feel stupid and incompetent all the time.It seams as the others have grown and learned from their basic life experiences and I just didn't. I am not only underdeveloped but also not able to get developed, I feel that I lack something in my mind.When I was younger, I thought I was smart and intelligent, and always wanted to make myself good in my eyes, kinda ignoring all around me or just plain judging them, while also being sad that I don't fit in. I did not have many friends, nor did I got along with people well.

I was insecure a lot about my body image back then (from age 12 to 18) because I was a bit overweight and I thought that the other kids where socializing better and hanging out and stuff because they where thin and good looking. I was, to say the least, obsessed with my body, and hated every aspect of it. So, one summer I was so desperate that I just stopped eating, and, would you look at that, I got thinner. The socializing part was no better, surprise surprise, but I was really happy back then when somebody threw me a compliment that I lost weight and I was really feeling good about my self.

Now i kinda feel the same about my brain, thoughts, desires, and overall personality.I can't stop wondering and googling things like "can you change your brain", "can you think more abstractly", "how can you improve your brain and your thinking", "can you get smarter", "can one expand it's mind and intelligence".. And I didn't find anything useful.Everybody seam like they interpret reality way better then I do, that they can think of many stuff and connect stuff better then I can, or just talk normally and think, listen to music and understand it, watch movies and judge them and enjoy them, and just overall be fucking normal and interactive. I suck at everything that I have tried, and committed to for a while, because I see others start, be bad, then improve and I just stay on the same, beginner level.I don't know, I kinda got lost in this and I don't even know if I said what I wanted to, because it's hard for me to hit the aim with thoughts and feelings, even about myself, and myself is almost all I think about, because I want to improve.

My questions are kinda silly and probably stupid, but I was wondering what could I do to get the thing that allows people to learn things, how can I change myself so I can learn as others can and so on..

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iheartsurveys · 7 years

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1] Colour sharpie used: Black [2] Time having a coke float: Tbh I don't think I ever have [3] IM sent and to who: The only messenger I use that isn't texting is FB messenger. I told my mom to pick up her phone...it was back in may my stepdad was trying to get in touch with her and she was at lunch with a friend so I called texted fb messaged her until she responded [4] Text message received and from who: From Britt "I dont have an opinion on her I haven't watched girls" [5] Picture taken: A picture of my computer screen to help me remember something for work [6] Time biting your tongue: Like a week ago [7] Time in a tattoo place, and why: Never [8] Shower: Yesterday [9] Sexual experience: June...of 2016 lol life is rough [10] Purchase: Food probably Assuming  [11] Assuming you’re wearing a studded belt, how many studs are missing? I'm not, I don't even own one anymore. I did back in my emo kid days and I believe it was missing 2 studs [12] Assuming you have boobs, is there one shirt you have that makes them look awesome? It's more of a shirt/bra combo, but yes I suppose I do [13] Assuming you have an iPod, how many different bands do you have that start with the same letter as your last name, and which bands are they? I use my iPhone but anyway, 20 artists. That's way too many to list; some faves are Stevie Nicks, Sub-Radio, The Sounds and Silversun Pickups. Honorable mention to the 3 Sufjan Stevens songs I like [14] Assuming you have a Facebook, who’s the last person you added? I think my cousin [15] Assuming you live in a house, which floor is your bedroom on? I guess the second. My house is interesting because you walk into the door and then to get to stuff you either walk up or down. [16] Assuming you’re listening to music, what song is on? I'm not [17] Assuming you have a cell phone, what was the last thing you used it for? I'm using it for this [18] Assuming you have a boyfriend, when was the last time you kissed? Still single [19] Assuming you go to school, what grade are you in, or going into? I don't [20] Assuming you have teeth, when was the last time you brushed them? Few hours ago Random  [21] Describe your purse or bag in ten words: I have several. My favorite is black and fringy. Yeah [22] How many people do you follow on tumblr: Honestly I don't have a clue... I only use tumblr on my phone since my laptop died and I think they changed how you view who you follow on mobile soooo yeah not sure [23] How many people follow you: Like 50 something. I super weirdly had like 50 reblogs on my last survey from sketch looking probably fake profiles...like they all didn't have display pics and idk it just seems sketch [24] If that confused you, where are you posting this, if not on tumblr: [25] What is the last energy drink you had: Red Bull like over a year ago [26] What is the most extreme age difference between you and someone you’ve dated: 2 yrs and a few months older [27] Are you friends with your brother’s girlfriend: My stepbrother doesn't have a gf to my knowledge [28] Do you know anyone who actually wears lip liner: Yeah [29] Do you ever take surveys you took years ago, to see how much your answers changed: No, I haven't had this blog very long [30] Are you as cool in real life as you seem on the internet: Hahaha I doubt I seem cool on here. I'm pretty cool in real life I guess [31] Are there any rainbow patterned hearts, stars, lightning bolts, flowers etc. on anything in the room you are in? I don't think so [32] What race are most of the people that go to your school? Not in school [33] Do you know anyone with the same first name as your last name, or vice versa? No [34] When was the last time you were horny? Omg Tumblr tmi~~ jk idk it's been a bit [35] What is your favourite hot sauce? I'm not really a hot sauce kinda gal [36] Have you taken the 5000 question survey? No, tbh I've seen it and I'm not a huge fan of the questions [37] Describe your shoe laces? They're invisible [38] Do you think you’re fat? Not fat per se, but not skinny [39] Do other people think you’re fat? Other people still tell me I'm skinny even though I know I've gained weight...maybe I'm body dysmorphic and I think I'm worse than I really am [40] Do you really know yourself? Yes [41] Last purchase from Hot Topic: Oh wow I'm not sure, a band tee? [42] Everyone needs love, but does everyone deserve love? Ugh idk I'm torn [43] Have you ever had your heart broken? Yes, somewhat [44] Have you ever done hard drugs? Nope [45] Do you laugh a lot? Yes [46] What is it that attracts you to boyfriend? Still single [47] What do you like best about your job? I've only been working a week and a half but I gotta say working predominantly out of my house is sweet, I can chill in pjs and hang with my dogs and get paid! lol I actually have been doing work too but it's only training still so not as intense [48] Last time doing laundry? Yesterday [49] Does it make you happy to get letters in the mail? Getting cards for holidays is nice...no one really writes me letters [50] Look over your answers through this survey. Which swear word did you say the most, and how many times did you say it? Omg I didn't curse! Some days I do a lot and others I guess I don't, I don't really pay attention tbh I just type what I'm thinking

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