#yeah i should probably try to do that

[mingoosgf]

Trying to be active on tumblr really backfires all the time ☹️

#🦄 :: talk that talk. ୭ #everytime i try to come back with restored hope and faith i always get crushed under the heavy wait of silence kxhjsjsjs my god #am i so bad at adapting #why is it so hard to accept that tumblr isn’t what it used be anymore 😭 #almost eerie around here. forces me to think about how much of a loser i am #had my fall from grace (a somewhat social butterfly) and now i rot in trenches #i wouldn’t blame anyone except me. but yea. it’s growing increasingly hard to be around. #never thought i’d say this but it got worse. so much worse. i wanted to move blogs for my own good but it really didn’t work out #i feel like so. 3 years into kpopblr now and i feel like a brand new user with no acquaintances around. like #i’m trying to get myself out here and there by posting content but it’s just not working. #maybe i should just. idk. post only content when i have them ready. #🤔 actually that seems like a pretty good option #because y’know i don’t want to deactivate a blog i worked so hard behind building #sigh #yeah i should probably try to do that #before taking drastic decisions. i really don’t want to.

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

If I was in a lucid dream with a ghost, I would simply impress them with my blunt rolling skills

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #mdzs au #MDZS disco elysium au #This is brought to you by my Scrambled Egg brain - slowly burning up as I try to finish a long comic for this AU. #I hoped it would be done several days ago but I've changed things so many times....It is now Very Close to being done! #I probably should have just posted each page daily but at this point I'm just being stubborn. I want it complete and together. #Ruining the surprise a bit to say 'yeah its a digital art comic' #But its been tricky figuring out the style I want to use for it! #hence the swaths of MSpain(t) doodles that boil down to 'how would this look if I did X?' #I wanted to do a fully Black & White Ink style. But I scrapped it. Then I did small bits of colour. And scrapped it. Sigh. #This comic started out as just the first panel and then my brain went 'hold on. Its time to make a dumb joke' #Any disco elysium fans who finished the game probably know the scene I'm doing for the *actual* comic after seeing this <3 #Anyways I know in my heart LWJ would roll the worst blunts ever his first time. And then dedicate himself to the rolling craft- #-until he has finally mastered it. He would roll blunts so good that people would hire him and pay him a monthly salary for it. #But he declines. His master blunts are for his beloved and his beloved alone. #wwx would roll above average but after having lwj do it for him he can ever go back.

[headcanonthings]

#try number two at this style #please be honest and let me know if this is something you'd like to see more of #or maybe I should make a poll to ask that question? #yeah i'll probably do that later after this one posts #incorrect quotes #incorrect mcu quotes #incorrect avengers quotes #mcu #marvel #avengers #bucky barnes #the winter soldier #clint barton #hawkeye #winterhawk #incorrect tweets

[ghastlyaffairs]

for something as trivial and simple those feelings sure are hard to get rid of

also made a gif a version for fun + alt version with no tears under the cut

the gif is in very low resolution...this is a feature (i could make it bigger but that would require saving each frame individually and than glueing it all together. also i feel like low resolution suits it better. aesthetically and fits the mood)

#hs #homestuck #dirk strider #eye strain #probably? if you think i should tag something else let me know!! #anyway hooray its time for rambling in the tags #so uhhh heres the teæ i've been sick for like a week and you know how it is when suddenly your throat becomes the main gunk warehouse #and you can't breathe lol. wish i could just pull it out. anywaaayy this is basically a vent piece for me being sick lol #also i could draw remotively the same thing with kris deltarune. oh how easy it is to project having a cold #though i have been also experiencing troubles with feelings recently as well....how fitting for dirk #speaking of the man himself (enough of me) his relationship with his own Heart...is peculiar to say the least #the thing i love about alphakids is that despite being so feral they were. so relatable. i cannot stress this enough how unwell they are an #and how they represented being a teen so well. yeah being 15 years old makes that to you #imagine being an emotional mess and trying to fit the 'norm' and act normal about your friends so youre not offputting #and then you fall in love with you friend and your ai clone falls in love with him too looool noone makes out of this one alive #uhh literally. godtiering stuff and dying remember #and speaking of it. tw for suicidal talk for the rest of tags #do you ever think dirk was suicidal. of course the part of when he teleports his head to jake was totally planned and he knew he would -> #wake up as dreamself but. don't you think the moment he cut his head off was sort of. cathartic. how much did he hate his own guts #beheading himself not only for the plan...but also because he thought he 'deserved' it #also wow he is a Prince and was literally beheaded don't you think its funny hahaa #sigh poor thing #this has ended on a not the very pleasant note hm #also fckkkkkk i didn't draw anything with rose/mary for the lesbian visabilty week #(putting the slash because tumblr search system has a dumb gag with showing you posts that contain the tag inside the other tag. #and i don't want this post to show up for the ros/mary fans because it's not!!!! its rose's father emotional crisis post!!!!) #update YOOOO WHAT THE HELL THE GIF HAS EVEN LESS PIXELS THEN I PLANNED fantastic #this your breakfast now tumblr. enjoy your crunchy flakes of dirks meltdown. mwah

[b4kuch1n]

making of a feathered thing

#sk8 the infinity #kyan reki #hasegawa langa #renga #tagging ship like a power word kill here #hi. linked there is a fic I wrote in uhhh. three hours? something like that #literally have no idea how to explain it to you at all. feel free to read if u wanna. mostly its like damn I keep puttings pictures into thi #s literary piece. #gonna cool down soon. oh boy is it hot here. probably why I wrote that #that took place in like november but the vibe is. summer. or something like that I really need to sleep #new ink arrived! its kinda watery! line still feathering! not into this! #I'll try to see if thats more my paper. dont enjoy that #but yeah Ive just been testing the ink and stuff out with these #doing these like. less than an hour each. no brain just go #man I wanna fly a kite... theres an open plot of land right next to me. I should try doing that #go out and hang out with so many bugs and fly a kite #gods. I need to sleep. idk not much to say here I simply think reki is a growing boy and he'll become great and awesome #thats all folks! have a good night. well good day. its 5am #sleep well! run so fast

[jils-things]

by the lighthouse.

dividers

#alright i suppose i should tell what's up lately! im mostly posting this like a mini update or whatever haha #so - since i made that last post on my disappearance i worked endlessly to finish my animation project and thank goodness it's finally over #i had to take a break from trying to be social here and just stay in my own space and i did that by having a smaller side blog to ramble #the project was very... tiring - definitely took out so much energy from me post physically and mentally and i was just frustrated everyday #so i just took my time to be alone with a few close people and i like to think im okay now? #i like to think so - since i was able to deliver a few commission drafts today so i'm relieved that im back to my usual pace #I'll post a few of my doodles here i did during my project just to fill the void haha #i've acquired a minor familial from another video game and i care for him a lot :] idk ill bother to talk abt it here but yeah thats funnn #also indulging a lil bit of t.n.m.n content as of late also thanks to my friend who knows abt it hehe #soo yeah! I don't know if ill be active like the usual but know that i'm doing alright now! hope everyone's doing okay too xoxo #ill probably still stay in my smaller blog for a little longer but will occasionally pop in here! #sooo yaaa #~ art #♥️ memoryshipping #also yea i think no.rton only had like. 10 days worth of being the blog brand here until i switched back to the usual guy lmaooo sorry 😔

[hecksupremechips]

Shinjiham is cute when it’s romantic but tbh I think i vastly prefer the idea of them being best friends instead. Like, neither of them really saw it coming and weren’t really looking to get another best friend (Shinji has Akihiko, Kotone has Junpei and Yukari respectively) but it happens anyway. Kotone takes a liking to Shinji much faster than she does anyone else and I’d say a big reason is just the fact that he’s so reserved that it allows Kotone to do most of the talking while he just listens and they love this arrangement cuz Kotone doesn’t get to talk about her own interests very much. Though I think some of her needs to talk to Shinji stems from this insecurity that he isn’t happy in the group and she has this people pleasing problem and wants everyone to be happy so she makes a much bigger effort to talk to Shinji. And it’s very unfortunate because Shinji intentionally acts cold and distant because he doesn’t want to form any attachments because he wants to die soon, but aaaaaaaagh dammit this girl just keeps talking to him and being sweet and encouraging him to engage in his interests and share them with the others and he just can’t seem to say no when she’s got those damn puppy eyes. And Kotone is just able to get him out of his shell by being persistent but not in an overwhelming way, she’s very cheerful and supportive of him. And Shinji is able to offer her support by encouraging her to talk about herself and by making sure she’s taking care of herself. They just click really well and make such a positive dent in each other’s lives and it’s all about basic acts of kindness going a long way you know?

#persona #persona 3 #kotone shiomi #shinjiro aragaki #i uh. probably didnt do much here to prove that their relationship is best when its platonic akjsks i mean idk how to convey it #that these two are just so good for each other but that im just not feeling it romantically #and why should i honestly like cant a guy and a girl just be platonic soulmates like me and jackie aljsks #plus i just have other ships with these characters i like better ahem akishinji and mitsuham yall already know #and i just feel really comforted by their relationship being best friends cuz it makes the pocket watch a lot more power of friendship #and it just. irks me the idea that its romantic love that saves shinji and its romantic love that gave him a will to live #cuz first off you can save him without romancing him and also like if you think kotone is the only person he wants to live for #youre just wrong like in fact its very clear in his social link that he feels this strong love for everyone #its literally like why other characters are so ingrained into his link he loves everyone and they love him back #its just kotone who organizes the time for them all to get together plus like idk when ppl say shinji only wants to live after romancing #kotone its like. well hes not gonna have a good time post coma then huh #and i suppose the point being made is he has to learn to live even if his gf isnt there but again like. shes not the only thing he has #idk i just hate this like pedestal romantic relationships are put on and i hate the implications that like #akihiko has been trying for years to protect shinji and his love doesnt matter cuz it isnt some heterosexual romance #grrrrr it just irks me is all and yeah i just think theyre besties who do everything together #kotone is like shinjis emotional support animal that guides him through the scary crowds and shinji is off putting enough to scare away the #meanies that come their way and they have a dress up montage and make cookies

[magic-can]

#shut up magiccan #resident evil #leon kennedy #yes I’m gonna be lame and post my own Discord message #but yeah. in RE2R he’s a golden retriever of a man how the fuck did he get through police training #and in RE4R he’s still like. a good dude but he’s VERY hardened after everything that has happened #and yes the same could be said about the originals but RE2R does a much better job #at establishing how sweet and at times naive he is #and so far RE4R seems to be doing a much better job at exploring his trauma and how #the shit he has been through has affected him #before anyone comes after me. that’s not a dig at RE4 #remakes SHOULD try to be different from the original and not replace them imo #and I can (and probably will) write a whole essay about that #not just games btw like. movie remakes too #resident evil 4 remake #re4r #resident evil 2 remake #re2r #leon s kennedy #leon scott kennedy

[mattodore]

he's literally bald

#river dipping #matthias evanoff #echthroi #if you're wondering why i have him bald naked and standing on an empty lot rn #it's because i'm going to start over on his body scars using this projection painting method evan told me about #so i have to rip his sim with literally nothing on it #i have another version not pictured here where he also has zero skin details... he looks like mr. clean 😭😭😭 #but i'm not sure which one i'm supposed to use? #i'm just trying to make his scars not like a skinblend of all his skin detail cc or anything #though i probably should do that for mattodore eventually #but i also know that when i use simripper to rip their sims some cc just doesn't show up anyway... #so. don't really know how to fix that lmao #but yeah........................................ he's literally bald #i imagine even with this new projection method i'm still gonna take days to make his scars

[lesbianralzarek]

why does every article reporting on idf war crimes go "hamas, who started the war on october 7th with their brutal terrorist attack slaughtering innocent israeli civilians, has condemned the idf's use of-"? like, nearly verbatim every single time. we know about october 7th. we know by now. half the time, hamas isnt even relevant but they gotta find some way to sow doubt and numb any potential compassion responses. will you get fired if you show sympathy for murdered palestinian civilians without first adding a disclaimer saying its all their fault for being born in gaza? if you call "palestinians under 18" children? if you use the words "murdered" or "brutal" or "massacre" for acts that didnt occur on october 7th? if you call a spade a spade? why are israeli reports front page news without proper fact-checking but palestinian reporting is always "allegedly" even when theres video evidence? why does the idf not get the hamas treatment of reminding everyone that theyre biased before treating their words as law, like they havent been caught bold-faced lying again and again?

#soooooo fucking infuriating #'palestinians are allegedly starving but thats what hamas (who are savage terrorists in case you forgot) said as well so who knows?' #'idf soldiers are allegedly bragging about and showing pictures and videos of their war crimes on social media but #its not in english so we may never know what theyre saying. palestinian ''civilians'' are translating so whatever they say must be wrong' #'in other news. heres what ''doctors'' are referring to as a ''calendar'' but is written in arabic (terrorist language) so the idf must be #telling the truth when they say its proof they are all evil and must in some nebulous way suddenly stop living' #to be fair. the 'secret hamas names list disguised as calendar but REALLY about oct 7' shit was the target of skepticism quite early on #but it really does show how often the idf lies to justify obvious war crimes #maybe they should provide verified evidence or even just be given a bias disclaimer before printing their claims as fact??? #every single fucking death toll is phrased as 'hamas-run ministry of health reports death toll of x' like? #yeah? thats their fucking government? what else do you expect? #you do understand that the healthcare portion of their government is probably more reputable #than what the phrasing of those headlines are obviously trying to imply? #i understand that bias is still possible there but its not armed combatants making shit up #its doctors who receive govt paychecks doing their best to identify the disfigured bodies not buried under rubble #youre not slick with that wording

[yashley]

laudna: that way we can message each other. fearne: oh right lol

#critical role #imogen x fearne #imogearne #but I mean I'm gonna chew on imogen saying that to be nice and immediately JUMPING on the first thing fcg said #yeah it's not above imogen's other interest but COMPELS me though a faun in your face and you're blushing harder than you probably should be #but we are absolutely a thousand percent not unpacking THAT. one unrequited love at a time. imogen's just too real I literally #there is a SAFETY and familiarity with laudna despite imogen's deeper feelings but fearne is so unpredictable with feelings it's a gamble #ESPECIALLY with their current heightened state pairing up with chaotic fearne when imogen's tryna keep her shit together in every way #I need fearne to zone of truth imogen because it is a show to me when fearne zeros in on imogen to shake her up it's SO GOOD #it's SUCH a bluff #like if fearne Wanted imogen to admit she wanted to be on a team with laudna then why was she so pleased when it didn't happen #granted unfortunately the team up was a complete disaster so I don't know I'm playing the game wrong I know that #fearne gives attention and imogen stammers i just don't know man #fearne desperately wanting to prove to imogen she can be capable and fix the coin toss for imogen hmmmmm #fearne pleading with imogen what should she Do and now she’s trying to suddenly be a respectable teacher and capable partner hmmm #they shake me by the shoulders begging me to see it means nothing

[dandybambiandy]

i love them i am ill for them hh

#AndyArts #Bambi Draws #2024 #Homestuck #Sollux Captor #Hal Strider #Lil Hal #Solhal #Halsol #Hallux #Should i do more with robot hal? yeah probably #but you better fuckin believe that i'm only think of Twin AU Hal cuz i'm trying my damnest to write a thing #so that's where i'm at #new year new me but the also still the same yknow

[otaku553]

Oc 2 electric boogaloo

Moved to procreate so I wouldn’t break goodnotes but I tried my best to recreate the brushes and am not using color picker :p surprised to say I kind of enjoy goodnotes more now that I’m used to the constraints of the program- the per-stroke selection and erasing is kind of really nice for color correction

#more about the ocs since I’m thinking about them #yeah they’re twins #the pink haired is the older and the blue haired is the younger but you probably wouldn’t be able to tell I think #trying to come up with names for them hmmm #I don’t think their relationship is quite as bad as sanemi and genya but similar principle #they both worked really hard to get stronger to a point where they could protect each other #and hate the fact that the other is also doing the same dangerous stuff as them #I think pink is stronger by a tiny bit but thinks that this is only because they work harder than blue #blue has more natural talent as a fighter and both of them know that I think #pink dislikes that blue is effortlessly strong #and thinks that because of this blue doesn’t take things as seriously #but blue does a lot of work #they just do it when people aren’t looking #blue has some pride in that sense— they don’t want to be seen as weak so they never train in front of others #in any case mostly they just have communication issues #they love each other and banter a lot #y’all should send me some character sheets to fill out for them #I think it’d be fun

[goldkirk]

question: have any of you personally seen a dietician (not looking for experiences with nutritionists, only dieticians), and did you find it helpful or useful, and if you did see a dietician and you ALSO have seen a GI doctor, how did the experience compare for you in terms of helpfulness + how much you felt listened to and helped?

#i'm trying to figure out which doctor appointments I want to bother making and spending money about for potentially no return on investment #and right now i'm trying to figure out if I'd get way more practical help from a dietician or if I need to suck it up and find a #not-elderly not-male not-dismissive GI doctor first and THEN see a dietician #although I cannot afford a bunch of tests #so like??? #trying to figure out if a dietician would be more helpful overall with me not HAVING any GI diagnoses or eating disorders #and just really struggling with food in both sensory ways and unpredictable digestion ways that don't correlate with food allergies #god i sometimes wish i had food allergies so i could have some predictability #but yeah. i'm leaning towards dietician but figured i should crowdsource experiences #since I know a lot of you have health issues you've also been trying to manage for years and probably have good advice #if it helps i'm also in a major city now and have a decent-but-not-great health insurance plan so I'm good on those two fronts #to do #health #I know a dietician can't diagnose anything but I'd love help figuring out how to get maximum nutrition even when i can barely eat anything #or when my body decides to start getting sick from or (tw emetophobia) puking up fiber or fatty foods #which thankfully isn't often #now that I do cannabis daily in microdosing I have so much less pain and bloating and nausea #but when it hits it HITS #and the last time I tried going without cannabis for a couple days and then eating a fiber muffin I was sick six times in one morning #and didn't get my normal eating ability back until dinnertime #luckily that's not normal for me #but my issues bounce up and down so much #and I lose weight so fast whenever my appetite goes from 'barely ever there' to 'negatively nonexistent' #and I had like. two months last year where I think i reached my body's natural healthy set weight #and i needed so much food but it felt so good energy wise and temperature wise #and i'd like to STAY THERE FFS #and I feel like a dietician would be helpful for making meal options for good #*good and hard and nuclear alert level eating difficulty times #anyway. crowdsourcing. yay!

[dont-offend-the-bees]

Shit bro first hormone appointment in two days hold my hand

#am excited and scared #idk how honest i should be really #and idk what the guy's like #and I'm excited from a personal standpoint (holy shit yes hormones finally) #but scared/worried from a yknow. societal standpoint. #doing this in 2023 on terf island probably isn't the best move #and idk it's kinda daunting when i could write a laundry list of cons #and the pros list basically just amounts to 'makes me happy c:' #but like. i guess that's transition in a nutshell right? #we don't do this shit bc it's easy #if i could be content with the easy option (i.e. present as cis) #i would do that #bc i fucking hate expending any effort for anything abjsjdjfjdjjsd #aaaaaaa. two days to go. #might all be moot ig. they might reject me out of hand #and if they don't there's a good chance they'll reject me at the second appointment bc of my health #but yeah excited and scared is how I'd put it #but i simply don't think I'll ever know for certain that this is what i need until i try it #because i can second guess/talk myself out of ANYTHING. no joke. #and I'm soooo fucking. tired of being that bitch who's always waiting for shit to happen. #or waiting for the perfect time or whatever #waiting and thinking and waiting and thinking it's all i dooooooo #i need to get out of my fucking head #and i need to do fucking Something that deters perfect strangers from clocking me as female within seconds of knowing me #despite how fucking bewildering that feels to me as like. a soft masc presenting individual. who really doesn't get where they got that from #anyway its not with the gic but it is on the nhs #it's an appt with a local endocrinologist #so if anyone else has been prescribed hormones that way and has any advice/insight on how this appointment might play out dm me lmao #mr. bees speaks

[4na113]

bunch of wip doodles that i did the past week because school’s has been getting me STRESSED

#when stressed draw your babygirls <3 #but yeah it's hard doing school work that you try so hard to study but keep falling back every time #or maybe that's just the high standards that i set for myself for school work... probably 🤷‍♀️ (and i should stop doing that) #oh yeah i'm planning to draw more resident evil stuff too #can't wait for the remake coming out in march ^^ #also haven't drawn 90s vash in a while