#without people on twitter hating me

[jula483]

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#soooo... #what do we think about r&l not saying much about latest abortion ''news'' in america on their personal twitter accounts? #they both only retweeted and liked some tweets #and some mbs on twitter are fuming #and saying how disappointed in link they are #and i just wanted to know what others think #without people on twitter hating me #because i know it would end up like that #mythical put out what thry think on twitter and instagram and those accounts still have r&l names in it #so i thought it was pretty safe to assume that we know where they stand #and sure it might be bare minimum i get that #and link stated few times in the last year that he's not much of a social media guy and he's just gonna use it professionally #aka to promote himself or stuff he creates #thats why he only tweets about podcasts/mythicon/gmm guests etc #i'm gonna agree tho those instagram stories with charles yesterday could have wait a bit #and one more thing - link is literally talking and walking anxiety #i'm not even slightly suprised he doesn't want to put himself out there and then get bunch of angry people arguing in his mentions #but yeah this whole ''say something!!!'' at celebrities every time something big happens in america is kinda strange to me? #i did not see that movement with polish celebrities when we lost abortion rights 2 years ago in poland

[blakbonnet]

always surprised to see people who are fans of a show - that specifically preaches kindness and fighting for your love for things despite the haters and skinning racists with snail forks - be the kind of "fans" who are the exact antithesis of that like truly what are you slipping in your morning cappuccino babes

#this is why I hate twitter #it shows me drama from fucking months ago 💀 #I just want to see the posts of people I follow man what's so hard to understand #what's so hard #I saw a post from someone going insane over David saying there was no s3 without con many many moons ago #that post from ages ago yepp #idek if they were an Izzy lover or hater lmao #it's just so truly dumb #ofmd #truly a mindfuck 🙃

[kdinjenzen]

Do you know what bothers me a lot?

Seeing posts of “let queer people just (insert thing here)”, seeing those posts get TONS of likes, reblogs/retweets, positive comments, etc…

And then seeing a trans woman actually do (insert thing here) just like the entire queer community was encouraged to…

Only to have the trans woman be told “NO! NOT YOU! GROSS! GO AWAY!”

And yes, it is almost 100% of the time JUST trans women who get treated this way.

It’s INFURIATING!

Now you’re probably thinking I’m just mad because this has happened to me every day of every minute of every second of my life ever since I came out as trans.

AND YOU’RE RIGHT!

But I’m ALSO mad because there is a double standard that ALSO hurts non-binary people and trans men here too.

Anyone AFAB Non-binary or Trans Masc is given an “it’s okay if YOU do it” because the people saying that DO NOT ACTUALLY RESPECT THEM AS NON-BINARY OR AS MEN!

So trans women CAN’T do it because people don’t view them as women, and non-binary people and trans masc folks CAN because they aren’t viewed as non-binary or as men!

IT SUCKS! IT SUCKS SO MUCH FOR ALL OF US!

We are told that “we are respected” but then we are all treated as not ourselves, not given respect, and being beaten down by everyone around us.

You can’t say “let queer people be queer” and then kick half of the queer community in the face by saying “EXCEPT YOU”

#and don’t even get me started on how most people treat Ace/Aro people #it’s so frustrating and I’m just #AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #and this is stuff I could never say on Twitter without hundreds of thousands of HATE messages and death threats #buhhhhh #I’m so tired of this nonsense

[chirpsythismorning]

There’s something sort of patronizing and damn near infantilizing about the way stans (specifically stan twitter), will take something that isn’t that serious, or even is very serious, and will twist it as much as they possibly can, for pity and engagements.

I remember when that lie detector interview with Millie came out last year, and toxic stans of hers made it their mission to accuse the guy in the video of disrespecting Millie, when really it was all a bit? They were rushing to make posts saying, “this is so messed up! she doesn’t deserve this!!” And it’s like?? Are u guys serious rn??

And then there’s all that fucked up shit that happened with that grown ass man who groomed Millie and how a lot of hardcore stans of hers were making plot-twist edits with that horrid ig live he did??? All of that shit blew up and went beyond what it ever should have, and part of it was because a lot of those same toxic fans were out there low-key promoting a very private matter, for clicks???

Right after this happened, she deleted all of her old instagram posts (I think she’s returned recently), and still doesn't allow herself to be tagged in anything (again mostly hardcore fans there), and it’s pretty obvious to me that it's because at this point, not only does she have to watch out for people that hate her for no fucking reason and who actually mean to harm her, but she ALSO has to avoid so-called fans constantly acknowledging all the negativity surrounding her, for attention, with the guise that they support her.

Because like, do we seriously think she deleted all those sentimental posts from her past, to spite people that hate her?? No she did it to punish the so-called fans. That's the place where they could connect with her and she made a boundary that she couldn't let them into her life like that anymore.

Fans took something very serious, like as serious as it can fucking get, and were making it about stan wars. Anyone and everyone who makes one joke or one comment needs to be called out and brought down. Like it's just so obsessive and unhealthy and I get that a lot of these kinds of fans are children, and so there isn't much anyone can do. But still, it's ridiculous.

I support the notion that we should be calling out harmful behavior/language. But it eventually gets to point where it's like, what even is the point? Is there a point anymore? Or are we just speaking to speak, when no ones even saying anything? Are we seeing one negative comment and blowing it out of proportion as if everyone is saying that, to gain pity? Because it starts to get ridiculous.

In reality, people are gonna say what they want. Everyone with access to internet has the affordance of posting shit anonymously without any repercussions. That’s unavoidable. And these same people aren’t going to just be enlightened by someone calling them out. More often than not people like this want to upset others in the first place. They want a reaction. And so by constantly acknowledging their existence, and fixating on it, we're giving it to them.

And now ever since Noah has come out, we're sort of seeing something similar happening with him.

While he is getting unwavering support from a lot of people in his comments, there's undeniably a disgusting amount of homophobia being thrown at him as well.

And then somewhere in the middle of that spectrum, we have people making jokes, INCLUDING Noah.

And yet, the tag has suddenly went from unwavering support (as it should), to obsessing over any and every post/comment/joke that can be interpreted as somewhere between sarcastic, uninformed, mildly offensive and downright offensive, and we're acting like it's the end of the world.

There's no denying that all of this is overwhelming. It's a lot. And I don't blame people for speaking up when they truly feel that it's necessary. It's only natural to get defensive when you think someone is being wronged/harmed and you want to do what's right.

But again, to what point is it truly necessary to keep bringing attention to every single thing we come across that falls somewhere on that spectrum near negative?

Right now this space is filled with the negatives, even if it's coming from a good place. Do we think that Noah or Millie or any of the cast want to have to be confronted with negativity from all directions, even from the people that claim to just be fans trying to do the right thing?

It gets exhausting.

And now we're just seeing this stan twitter behavior create one big mess of delusion, with toxic Millie stans calling Noah a white sexist misogynist because he liked a TikTok referencing his coming out and the homophobic Millie meme?...

Is Noah only allowed to be open to unwavering support right now? Can he not make light of the situation, or are we just imagining that he's sitting there victimizing himself because of any and all of the negatives being thrown at him, that are never going to go away, no matter what he says or does? Because I honestly think that's the opposite of what he's doing or would even want to be doing.

And same with Millie, I don't think she sees anything and everything happening to her, and everything anyone is saying, and allows it to bother her anymore. Because how could she?? That kind of shit drains a person of their sanity.

Noah is out here not only liking TikToks joking about his coming out, he's still liking byler edits, still commenting on fans posts with a lighthearted positive attitude. He even mentioned Will in his post, so obviously he doesn't mind people making some comparisons between him and his character.

And yet here we are dwelling on everything negative we can get our hands on.

It's important to realize that the cast has seen the worst of the worst. And you can see that it's affected them. You can see they went from fairly public public figures to almost entirely private public figures, only interacting with fans when they have to, because they know a good portion of the trauma they experience comes from the fans themselves who just don't understand boundaries and common sense.

The most delusional aspect of all of this is that toxic stans are 100% convinced Millie and Noah hate each other... like they fully believe this lie they've told themself based on videos they've seen of them? Like they genuinely think they know her better than she knows herself I guess???

Now, I do want to say that I understand partly where these fans are coming from. Millie has went through absolute shit with this fandom. And it's mostly because she herself is known for saying stuff that causes people outrage. Whether it's a joke or a comment, that clearly just came off the top of her head, they'll flip it to something negative and use it as ammo to hate her. She doesn't deserve that. And I know a lot of her fans are coming from a protective place because they're so used to people hating Millie for no reason.

But even still, I don't think they realize they are a part of the problem themselves. And we are too whenever we allow ourselves to focus on the negatives, letting it practically consume us.

That sort of shit can make a person feel hopeless. 1 negative comment can outweigh 100 positive ones. And so imagine that by a scale of about a billion?

Again, I know a lot of fans mean well, but if you just take a moment to think about it, like really think about it, you'll realize that your energy would be much better directed elsewhere.

Instead of making dramatic intense posts that focus on all the negativity, BE THE POSITIVITY! Be someone that actually makes our community redeemable. Because again, we're no better than the worst of the worst if we're giving them all the attention, making the very people we're claiming to be supporting and defending, even more miserable.

And don't be surprised when s5 promo rolls around or any other event involves Millie and Noah interacting in a public forum, where they'll inevitably make jokes about all of this, arguably just as offensive as the ones we're getting worked up over right now

#stranger things #noah schnapp #millie bobby brown #tiktok #byler #i feel like this is controversial but it really shouldn't be #dude i remember when people were joking about mike looking at angelas boyfriend during the rink o mania scene #and milkvan stans on twitter were full serious #you’re shipping Mike with El’s abuser #who is shipping who? what?? like can we not just exist and talk about things without it being the most serious take on the planet?? #or during noah's live recently he kept getting questions asking if he was friends with millie/the other cast or if they hated each other #and it got to a point where he was like #what is this? millie is my friend i'm friends with all my castmates #you guys are jut always trying to find the tea or stir the pot when there's nothing there #it's all just drama for the sake of drama and it's no wonder they don't interact with fans anymore #don't even get me started on bylers who get really condescending at random comments millie makes in interviews #it's not that serious i promise you #not to mention a lot of this stuff happened when they were kids so kids saying whats on their mind and being ripped apart for it is so? #gross #remember your online experience is whatever you want it to be #set boundaries with yourself if you have to #lord knows the cast is

[coquelicoq]

i just saw someone say that "the vast majority of the userbase is complaining" about tumblr's recent layout change. i see this a lot after a change: people complaining about it (sometimes without saying what about it is bad, making it sound like either it's self-evident (it usually is not) or just that it's bad because it's change and change is always bad) and saying that everyone else is complaining about it too. i don't know how to tell you this but a) you don't follow every user on tumblr so how can you possibly know what "everyone" or "the majority of users" thinks about anything and b) ONLY THE PEOPLE WHO FEEL VERY STRONGLY ARE TALKING ABOUT IT!! people who are not bothered are not spending time posting about how unbothered they are! please look up "selection bias" and stop making me read this nonsense with my own eyeballs.

#i don't get what's so bad abt this change bc it doesn't bother me & no one is explaining it! the most i've seen is it's 'like twitter' #which people don't like i guess bc this might imply that tumblr could be taking more cues from twitter than just the layout? #which is also fallacious reasoning #some changes i do hate. like for instance the change that made it so i can no longer click to the version that someone rbed from #which breaks the prev tag culture :( #but some changes are whatever! and some changes are good even!! #it's fine if it takes time to get used to something being different of course but it seems like the reaction on here can be so extreme #so fast. 'bombard the app with 1-star reviews!!!!' how about you give it a couple weeks and maybe you'll calm down. #i think there's a sense of 'if it ain't broke don't fix it' but it is broke though! tumblr is unsustainable and they gotta do stuff to make #the site more attractive and easier to use for new users. they can do that without losing what makes tumblr tumblr #the layout is not what makes tumblr tumblr! the functionality is. and sometimes that does change for the worse #and i get having complaints about that. but not really about moving the location of some buttons #anyway i haven't said anything before because i don't have strong feelings about this UX change but i DO have strong feelings about #the vague yet very forceful complaints about the UX change that i keep seeing lol #tumblr #fallacies #anyway don't get distracted by my tags. this post is not really about me not understanding what's so bad about this specific change #it's about people who hate a change assuming that everyone agrees with them because they're only seeing the reactions from #a biased subset of the userbase #(by biased i don't mean the users are biased. i mean the sample is biased...it's highly likely to include people who feel strongly #and unlikely to include people who are neutral or feel less strongly)

[gxlden-angels]

Hey, hey dude I hate to be the bearer of bad news but uh, your boy is being killed in your own graphic. Like he's actively being murdered....yea idk what to tell you dude he's like Dead dead there

#I forgot what platform I was on when I first saw this tweet #cause I was instantly going to retweet it with 'kys' #I hate twitter and specifically go on it to make myself mad #so I can practice sitting with anger and slowly build my tolerance for feeling angry without feeling guilty #it's therapeutic trust me dw about it my therapist knows I do this #I mean I would say he *approves* but he says it's an option for now. it's safer than alternatives #wouldnt* say #anyways yea I'm making this post because I almost got myself suspended off of twitter #because sometimes I'll be mean to republicans and if I get more strikes I'll get suspended #also I know like. how people identify/classify Jesus is complicated but just go with it for now #ex christian #religious trauma

[kyleisadumb]

Idk why but I'm paranoid about the wdy fandom here for some reason like I just feel like someone's gonna cause drama here and shits gonna hit the fan and it's gonna be like wdy twitter

Idk man I'm just scared I don't want there to be drama again...

#kylepat.txt #ok gonna vent in the tags but #the wii deleted you fandom on twitter legit chased me off the site #bc they hated the fact that i liked SO and supported the devs #like i was genuinely scared to post anything about SO bc of some people on there #which sucks bc i love SO alot #like its my main hyperfixation at the moment #and in fact i got dragged into drama surrounding SO just bc i talked about it alot #idk now i see anything related to SO here and now i panic slightly bc im afraid that its going to cause drama #which sucks bc i just want to enjoy the thing that makes me happy #i still like wii deleted you but geez #the fact that im afraid to post stuff about the thing that i like just sucks #i just want to enjoy the thing that i love in peace #without being afraid that dramas going to start

[xhanisai]

I do kind of feel a bit spoilt with how the fandom pre-pandemic would share my work easily (fics getting hundreds and even thousands of notes on tumblr and on AO3 immediately and arts getting thousands of notes too). Back then, my work was so eUGH compared to the work I create now which is so much more polished and well thought out.

And now? It’s such a struggle for my art to reach even a hundred notes on this app alone and my fics take a long time to accumulate some attention on ao3. At first I thought it was because my creations have gotten WORSE lol but then I realised it’s been happening to all my friends too online.

Kinda sad tbh.

#delete later #i know that X amount of likes or notes on work doesn't necessarily mean that it's great quality #but i like seeing and knowing that people out there on the internet are enjoying what i put out #and i want more people to see what i can do if that makes sense? #my mentality is a little fucked right now because in the past i created mainly for me and i enjoyed what i did to an extent #but now i'm at that stupid stage where i hate everything i draw and get bored of my own writing and i don't like that #so validation online sort of helps with that mentality to go away #i can't keep up with internet art trends to get the attention on my work that i want that is not a realistic and healthy way of life #and i refuse to touch any salt or negativity in the ml fandom just to get the hivemind to find my work #my most popular work on ao3 is only popular because of lila karma and that makes me so mad because i write 100000x better than that LMAO #but people just wanna see a 14 yr old italian nightmare girl get expelled from school over and over again and i'm just tired af of it #as for art with twitter it's a bit of a russian roulette #you don't know what will be a banger and what won't unless you pay special attention or have a decent following or are always grinding #i don't think my art is for tumblr #i do appreciate the few people who always love and reblog it but i've always known from the start that my art isn't what would be popular #on this hellsite #oh well it is what it is #also don't worry i'm never gonna stop drawing nor am i ever gonna stop writing those two are literally my only outlets of my life #and the only way i can get emotions and feelings out of my body without exploding #and i am still madly in love with ML and will always be obsessed with it #i just miss how the prepandemic fandom would interact with my work and let me know what they thought and all the asks they sent about the #aus i created #it was a good period on this hellsite for me

[ihamtmus]

this fandom should be studied because the levels of brainwashing and hypocrisy are something else

#i hate this fandom and this company and YES this is about armys and hybe #not a day goes by without Something happening and i'm tired as soon as jhope leaves i'm leaving too bye #once again this is about twitter and twitter armys #not you guys #they're truly insane over there #and it is also about how that company treated both his first solo album that he poured his heart and soul into #and the collab with his muse and favorite artist that was so important to him #when we see that hybe can be competent when they want to be #i don't want to say more because this is jimin's big day and i love him and i'm glad he's doing well. this has nothing to do with him #this fandom is pathetic though in how they treat both the artist they claim to love AND other people who love him #the ''everyone who doesn't agree with me is a solo'' mentality is so sick #just like thinking that being a solo is something bad like come on do you expect people who saw jhope at lolla to also love dynamite bfr #and that company needs to be burned to the ground i fear #before anyone asks nothing particularly huge happened i'm just done #also don't send me asks about this if you want to argue with me because this is tumblr not twitter and we don't want it here #bts #my post #bts negativity #big hit negativity #negativity

[shikai-the-storyteller]

Every time the topic of Vegetta and marriage comes up I am forced to see misinformation or even flat out lies about Vegetta's past wedding experience and his relationship with Rubius and I just

#i talk #qsmp talk #IM TIREDDDDDDDDDDDD #For the love of god can you talk about this subject without doing the worst character analysis I've ever seen #Was his past wedding experience bad? yes #Does that somehow mean Rubius was abusive and they hate each other? NO #People don't need to villainize Rubius just to justify their ship dear GOD #I really don't care about fandom opinions usually but this one drives me up the frickin wall #Listen man I love Rubius and Vegetta to death and seeing people purposefully misinterpret them #and their past relationship for the sake of a ship #is just so exhausting #I don't care about people talking about the potential for marriage or how disastrous the last ones were #it's SOLELY when the interpretations are based on second or third hand information #or the intentionally is intentionally made in bad-faith #that I get :/// #A few Spanish mutuals on Twitter wrote some very long threads with helpful information detailing events from past weddings #because they were also tired of people not knowing the details #and they got SO much hate for it from people who were specifically spreading the bad information to new fans #Like. why is a block game ship a hill you're willing to die on #It's so silly when you take a step back and think about it but also I'm so tired

[mahoutoons]

its so funny how whenever people talk about characters who didn't deserve to be redeemed, they always bring up catra and never hordak, the genocidal colonizer and child abuser who kidnapped babies and raised them to be child soldiers

#i haven’t talked about spop in ages #but i saw twitter discourse on catra #and it made me think of this #it baffles me when people say that catra got off without consequences #when she was brainwashed #tortured #and even killed #and even when she was saved she had to earn the trust of adora's friends #frosta was ready to clock her #how is that getting off without consequences? #and i just KNOW if catra was a man she wouldn't get half the hate she gets now #she ra and the princesses of power #catra #hordak #rebecca talks

[francy-sketches]

Why do people who enjoy spam liking always act so high and mighty about it ‘well I like it when someone likes all 200 of my posts bc it means they love and cherish my creations, I’m sorry you’re a cold hearted grinch and don’t have any appreciation for the common people who love your work, maybe if you stopped being such a snob 🙄’ ok bitch good for you?? I just like reading people’s comments/tags on my art and having a lot of individual like notifications clogs it up so it gets a little annoying that’s all. If spam liking makes you feel good that’s great I’m happy for you but it’s just a matter of personal preference it doesn’t make either of us morally superior lol get off your high horse

#.txt #I’m sorry I’m really not trying to be mean but 100 likes on individual posts don’t really do anything for me #like. thanks I guess? idk it’s just one more number #also usually it’s like. 100 likes in 1 minute. like you’re doing it just because not even taking a second to look at the actual post #this is one thing twitter does better bc it’ll just say [person] liked x amount of your posts #I’m not mad at anyone who spam likes my posts btw it’s just mild annoyance at most #like keep doing it if you want idc #I just hate people who try to make you feel bad for not crying and throwing up with joy when someone likes 50 of your posts #or people get mad when someone asks to not spam like?? ‘well then it’s a loss for both of us 😤’ #hate to break it to you but you’re not that special lol that person isn’t gonna care that they lost a potential like from you #I’m not saying this to be mean you’re just a stranger on the internet they don’t know you don’t be weird #is it so hard to respect people’s boundaries without pissing your pants goddamn

[bubtans]

i literally feel so much more at peace here holy shit twitter is awful

#and i hate saying that bc it's how i communicate with so many people that i adore so much #but it's so much easier to avoid absolute cesspools here #like obviously it was hell many years ago but nowadays #i can't imagine someone unironically telling me what people tell me on twitter #and i think it's because social spaces there have become so mired in this perpetual weaponized victimhood #it's normal to operate like you are constantly under attack by people who disagree with you and that you must respond with indignance #the fulcrum of queerness lies in the eternal self-pitying misery over how mean other queer people are to you #because online queer spaces aren't about reflection or healing they're about unconditional acceptance without any accountability #if i as a lesbian hold my community accountable for how much radfem ideology has gripped it for decades it's an act of betrayal #if i hold bi women accountable for wanting their cishet boyfriends to be allowed into queer spaces without putting in the work for us #i'm getting into bi women's business and 'bi women get abused by their boyfriends so ur being selfish' #it's so fucking juvenile everything is so juvenile

[badwolf109]

i have THOUGHTS and OPINIONS about BG3's nomination for Outstanding Video Game at the GLAAD media awards. a probably slightly confused and certain-to-be negative ramble below the cut.

Idk I just....the queer rep in BG3 is Aylin/Isobel, that one pair of gnome husbands with ambient blink-and-you-miss-it dialog, Nocturne, and the debatably-playersexual companions. The character creator is also lovely and trans inclusive. And....I'm pretty sure that's it. (edit: there’s also Lucretia! How could I forget everyone’s favorite drag queen necromancer.) If there's more rep than that, it's stuff that I, a flaming homosexual who looks for this kind of thing, have missed on all of my multiple playthroughs.

The nomination makes complete sense. It is groundbreaking for a AAA game with this level of mainstream success to have this kind of queer rep. But like. I hope it doesn't win.

#a lot of this definitely has to do with my own feelings about playersexual romances #versus writing actually truly bisexual characters #yes yes yes i know i know people love to argue that the bg3 companions are bi not playersexual #because of some of the ambient walking-around dialogue they have with each other #i disagree #astarion is unambiguously queer because of his bit with sebastian #aaaaaaaaaand that's it! #my benchmark as always is whether my oblivious straight friend would catch that these characters are queer without me needing to point it o #and honestly even the sebastian thing only barely clears that mark #when you start needing to pull non-cutscene dialogue that not every player will see to build a case that a character is canonically queer #rather than playersexual twitter canon #i'm sorry but that's not a convincing argument #i fully agree with you that shadowheart and lae'zel are having passionate hate sex #but that doesn't make it good representation

[chirpsythismorning]

ugh, and wiseking is such a good friendship name, too. i'm gonna be so mad if proshippers ruin it 4 me 😭

I'm sure there are already a few fics for them on a03, like I wouldn't doubt it's already a thing. I know I've stumbled across Mike and Eddie a few times, which is not surprising at all.

When it comes to romantic wiseking, I can't police people from doing what they want regardless, even after s5 comes.

Proshippers are gonna do what they're gonna do.

Like do I really want to waste my time getting furious over fics focused on El/Henry or Jon/Will... yes that shit exists!!!! All fandoms have ppl that are gonna be into taboo pairings and I don't think me posting about it as like a NO THIS IS BAD DONT DO THIS is gonna make that stop. And those are also rare cases where I don't think a lot of people are reading them and they go under the radar bc there isn't many of them to begin with.

Obviously they wouldn't be as bad as incest or huge age gap, but my post was just more so in the context of them somehow overtaking byler. Honestly, I don't think that would happen, but it is my one fear... For that to happen all while byler is happening right there, like yes that would undoubtedly piss me off. If it's like a couple dozen or even a couple hundred fics, I could easily ignore it and move on just like I do every other time I see something I don't vibe with. It is not that serious to me!

And personally I would enjoy a Steve and Will interaction in s5, in whatever form that takes it's hard to tell. I remember when I saw a post about characters that have never interacted on the show, with Will and Steve being one of them and since then I have wanted to see something just bc it feels so weird to have no conversation at all between them. I feel like they will undoubtedy be in group settings together multiple times, but them actually talking back and forth for a few lines or even one on one would be something that I think would make people get over the top about it.

So yes I would like something bc it could be a funny/interesting dynamic maybe, though with that comes people loving to ship Steve with anyone and everyone. Which again, do your thing, I can't stop you! But I'm allowed to feel how I feel if it overtakes the slow-burn gay romance ! Let me have one win pls!

#byler #stranger things #wiseking PLATONIC #idk I feel like I like steve when im actually watching #but then when I enter fandom spaces he just leaves my radar #i can't really explain it #so if they do interact on the show i'll probably enjoy it #but then log into twitter and see people going insane #and then log back out lmaooo #i try not to let fandom interfere with how I feel abotut certain characters #like i despise seeing ppl hate on will or byler bc 'the fans' or something #you can like something without other people impacting your ablity to like it #i do like steve and i enjoy his character #but he's just not my favorite at the end of the day #we all have our favorites #so no hate or anything just me rambling my thoughts

[coolcarabiner]

when i was 16 i spent a lot of my free time flipping back and forth between watching supernatural and investigation discovery shows about brutal horrible gruesome murders and i seriously think it did insurmountable damage to my brain i wish i could go back in time and grab that stupid bitch by the shoulders n give her a good shake

#i’m rewatching spn now but i have the Hardest time with empathy now i get way too scared/stressed/upset for pretty much everything #so it’s going really well!! lmfao #i hate how much i sound like twitter omg i’m an empath bitches but seriously i like imagine if i was in x terrible situation n get worked up #like if i was dean winchester i’d have been off the bridge in episode one personally #anyways i wish i could warn teenagers against this shit without sounding like a boomer #i just think avoiding viewing violence young is inarguably for the best idk #i know that’s kinda a moot point from someone who just said they’re watching the violence against marginalized people show. but. still. #i just think that fucked me up a lil!!! and now i’m like trying to work thru the anxiety by proving to my brain that it’s just tv #and nothing bad is happening or will happen. so that maybe i can participate in normal media culture again sometime #no one asked for this post but here it is <3 ok bye <3 #posts