welcome to being a system trauma-holder!
it's great, we got:
constant triggers from out of nowhere, be it that one random note in a song that you can't figure out the reasoning of, OR a photo you looked at for a split second!
eye contact bad. no
don't touch me, but also the definition of touch-starved
can recall a negative memory from childhood in 0.2 seconds but stares off into the void in confusion when told about literally any other memory
every song now gives you a flashback! yaaaay
don't even get me started on a sudden octave change in someone's voice that somehow also manages to be a trigger
you KNOW that there's a memory somewhere that's being set off by this ONE thing but you can't FIND IT
*weird thing happens, furthering the trigger and therefore uncovering the rest of the memory* o h .
your brain (or alters) randomly decided to mention a very specific event from your childhood as a casual thing 'cause why not, and now you're seemingly stuck in what feels like 2011 and you can't. get back out
"where are we again??? 2004??" when you weren't even BORN in 2004
*looks at a certain photograph for exactly one second* oh no
breaking down over missing your mom when there's likely no reason to even miss her at all, only to realize you actually miss just having a parent figure in general
"hey do you remember playing [blank] as a kid?" proceeds to stare off into the void, confused out of their mind. wh a t are they talking about
"when did that happen?" proceeds to lists off the exact time/date it happened, how old you were, and any general context in seconds
I want to hold this plush but I also don't because the texture of the fur alone will likely set off a memory
certain names = bad
don't look at me
hey could you maybe not raise your voic- okay then
aAAAAAAAAAAA
it's 3 AM and I've been reliving the same memories on loop for the past week thanks to our own playlists on spotify. what am I doing
where are we™
getting very used to always feeling in danger around the people you currently live with, so you're now hesitant to move out since you think it'll always end up the same
endless fight-or-flight. thank you ptsd
constantly comparing things you encounter both irl and online to a certain event in your life and seeming like you just can't let something go
when in reality you just haven't forgotten it
every night is crying hours™
so here are the pros:
you remember everything
and here are some of the cons!:
you remember everything
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Definitely! It was most often people having misconceptions and wrong expectations about this storyline that made them annoyed/mad in the first place. Like, a lot of people, myself included sadly , had moments where the thought “well, if they really want us to believe that he likes her/is into her/they are endgame, then why…xyz” when the easy answer to that is: he doesn’t, he isn’t, he never really was and they most definitely aren’t. And the people who genuinely shipped them took it to a whole other level by just taking their expectations as fact and then throwing a tantrum when the outcome doesn’t fit them.
Tl;dr: People couldn’t appreciate the EA storyline bc they wrongfully (begrudgingly) expected it to be a love story and watched it through that lense.
I'm sure a lot of us have felt that way about a storyline at some point tbh, it's hard to know exactly where something is leading when you're still in the middle of it and it can be really frustrating to watch your fave characters make choices that you don't necessarily like or agree with (like personally there were moments in 5a where i wasnt liking how things were being handled, but it was all lead up to 5b, which absolutely delivered), but I think it's really just a testament to how important the show is to people and how protective they are of it. some people obviously take it to far and try to protect it from. the people who write it lmao. but what can ya do
911 is really good at foreshadowing and trusting its viewers to pick up on hints they're laying down without having to spell everything out for us, and it makes for some really amazing storylines and character arcs that we're able to pick through and analyze to the moon and back. so the thing is, if what you're seeing is something that doesn't feel right to you (like bt or eddieana, for example), chances are it's not supposed to feel right. and the writers are trusting us to pick up on that.
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I have figured out the issue. I want to play a game or sew or do anything Active other than just lay here which is unfortunate because that's literally how sleeping works
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