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If you're aromantic asexual and agender, you're a triple A battery

exactly yes, i like the way you think

#mailbox #this was sitting in our head while we made that post but i'm not aromantic so double-a battery it is - holly

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This is a permanent bags under eyes kinda post

Like & share if you have permanent bags under your eyes!!!

#reblog bog #yes hello

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asexual and agender… call that a double-A threat

#holly.txt #we disappear for months and this is the first thing i come back with #amazing

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crybaby learns how to swim - subtitled

#reblog bog #i will always remember the first day i found this video. eggseal my beloved - holly

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rb to jump with me

#reblog bog #go go go go - holly

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it's me again!! decided to draw myself an extra time or two as a bit of an anatomy and style test :]

kind of screwed up the arm in the back without noticing until y'know. i got up like six hours later. buuut whatever i love how it turned out anyhow

both forms!! default and technical original form, since i apparently started out as a shadow figure back when i first formed alongside lawrence, and i'm only just learning this now. one eye n' all. being a shapeshifter's fun

#holly's art #system art #alter art #finished this while on a call with my friends at like. 4 am cause i was still up just to finish this #i was the only one up #mild regrets due to anxiety from being alone in an otherwise dark house but not at all otherwise #so damn proud of this help

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Glad you liked it }:) because Gamzee almost sent a clown but instead you got the cow that produces the highest quality milk!

-Tavros

:0 perfect

and i love how i got. low-key offended by the clown comment

#holly.txt #mailbox

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Gently handing you a jersey cow

-Tavros

thank you very much, i shall take good care of the jersey cow

#holly.txt #mailbox #birfday cow..... #i'm not even surprised over how excited she was upon seeing a cow in her inbox - billy

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Crab rave!!

aggressively shakes box of crabs

i have been preserving these crabs because i did not want to set them free from their gift prison yet. now it is birthday week.

timE TO RELEASE THE CRABS

#holly.txt #mailbox #and maybe eat them too ya never know - billy #no - holly #caps tw

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WHY ARE THERE TWO HUNDRED OF US

#holly.txt #osdd system #hELP #/lh

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just had to block 19 bots and counting. nice

#holly.txt

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Out of Touch

#reblog bog #only three hours left of the first out of touch thursday this year thanks to me sleeping in late - holly

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#reblog bog #FUCK #change the 'thousands of words' to 'zero words' and there we have it - holly

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oh my goodness, it's him

Bonus: Without Text

First art of the new year!

#holly.txt #reblog bog #finn being our moondrop introject with almost this design in particular for context #fandom corner

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Things that are completely normal with DID and don't indicate that you're faking/don't have it/etc. that I haven't seen many others point out

Please don't interact with this, or me, if you are endogenic or support them. This post is not for you, you do not have DID/OSDD, please respect my boundaries, thank you!

Obligatory disclaimer that I am in no way a professional, should not be treated as such, and please don't take this post as a means to diagnose.

Having really good communication; being able to communicate very easily and quickly. Being able to communicate in very obvious ways, having distinct voices internally.

Maybe you thought that you had imaginary friends all your life and you just happen to have always communicated with them really well under the guise of "imaginary friend" (or "characters" or something else). Maybe you naturally have high levels of communication because that's what you needed to survive. Maybe it was normal in your family and that's why it was normal for you. Or any other reason.

Having really poor communication, or not have ANY communication at all; not hearing any voices whatsoever, communicating through imagery, feelings, etc. rather than words, communication that is practically nonexistent.

Most people have little to no communication with their parts at first, especially if you went many, many, many years past adulthood without knowing about them. Maybe having little to no communication was needed for your survival. Or any other reason.

Or experiencing a completely different way of communicating with one another.

Maybe you can only talk to each other through journalling to each other when you switch. Maybe you can only talk to each other through talking out loud. Maybe through recording, or through another person communicating for you. Or any other ways.

Being incredibly high functioning where you don't appear to have any PTSD symptoms (or DID symptoms) to a point where you can hold down a job well, cook, clean, drive, etc.

Being incredibly low functioning to a point where you're unable to do things like work, cook, clean, etc.

Being around the middle, or fluctuating around.

Feeling like your alters are completely separate people with completely separate feelings, lives, opinions, thoughts, etc. Being open about yourselves as separate individuals online and to close friends/family/others.

Feeling like your alters are only extensions of you with not many differences.

Feeling like some alters are separate people and some alters aren't.

Feeling like your alters are sometimes separate people and sometimes not.

Feeling in between any of these.

Some people just happen to have very different alters with very different names/pronouns/thoughts/opinions/etc. Others don't. Some might have a combination of some alters who feel very different and individual from others, while other alters not so much. All of these are okay, normal, common, and valid.

Having many alters; hundreds, dozens, thousands, whatever.

Having few alters; just 2 or 3 or 7 or so on.

Constantly splitting new alters and fragments very easily, even if you don't seem to be going through any kind of stress or trauma or difficulties.

Constantly splitting new alters and fragments that don't end up "coming back" (maybe they integrated or something else).

You don't need to call yourself polyfragmented or figure out if you could be polyfragmented in order to "justify" to yourself why you could be splitting so much, so often. You COULD be polyfragmented, or you might not be, but regardless, if that's the way your system works, then that's the way it works.

Having MANY introjects, either of real people, from media, or elsewhere.

Having LITTLE introjects or NO introjects.

Having MOSTLY FICTIONAL introjects, especially if you tend to be someone who greatly takes comfort in media and often engages in different media.

Having MOSTLY introjects of real people you know or knew, especially if you tend to be someone who gets attached to real people very quickly, very easily, and very deeply.

...As well as: having many child alters/teen alters/adult alters, or having none or few of those - especially if most of your trauma happened as a child/teen; having many nonhuman alters, or no nonhuman alters or few of those - especially if you grew up FEELING nonhuman due to trauma or something else. Having object alters - many of them, none of them, or few of them, or even alters who identify as or with objects - especially if you went through trauma that you feel like an object, or if you found/find comfort through objects.

HAVING A SYSTEM THAT UNINTENTIONALLY FOLLOWS A "THEME"! Such as having a lot of alters that happen to follow a "space" theme via having a lot of alters with space-related names, or having a lot of alters that happen to be introjects of a single piece of media, or having a lot of alters that seem to have a different "aesthetic theme" for literally any reason whatsoever. I haven't seen this talked about, and while it's not super common, it's not impossible, it doesn't mean you're faking, or that someone else is faking either.

Knowing a lot about yourselves, knowing a lot about your precise origins, why and how and when you split, knowing a lot about what names and pronouns you like, knowing a lot about your identities and what you like and dislike and what hobbies you have.

Knowing nothing about yourselves, to a point you genuinely don't know what or who any of your alters are. Not knowing how to tell if something is an alter, or still you; not knowing what any of your names are, if you have any; literally not knowing anything about any of yourselves, like literally NOTHING, not even who you could be as a specific alter or if you're the "host" or anything.

Actively choosing to learn about yourselves and become self-aware; actively making the choice to figure out your hobbies as yourself, actively making the choice to figure out your likes and dislikes, your opinions, feelings, and how they may or may not differ from other alters.

Being extremely similar and not very different from one another; sharing the same hobbies, speaking without any differences in voice, sharing the same opinions and feelings, using the same name, using the same set of pronouns, etc.

Feeling like you're the only person with DID who has your experience(s), and feeling very isolated and lonely from the community as a result.

Having a lot of amnesia that is very obvious to you and/or others.

Having very little amnesia that isn't obvious and would likely not be noticed unless you were looking for it.

Amnesia that mostly looks like forgetfulness and micro-amnesia.

Memories that are constantly shared between alters.

Not being sure if you have amnesia and struggling to figure out if you do.

Having a lot of flashbacks and nightmares; having flashbacks and/or nightmares that can leave you bedridden for days or weeks. Having flashbacks/nightmares that are very frequent and often make life difficult.

Having very minimal nightmares/flashbacks. Having flashbacks/nightmares that seem to have no effect on you (having a nightmare, but not necessarily waking up in distress, or having a flashback that does not necessarily cause you to have an "extreme" reaction).

Sometimes having flashbacks or nightmares, sometimes not having them. Fluctuating between some weeks where you struggle greatly with flashbacks/nightmares, while other weeks it's the opposite.

#reblog #did system #osdd system #endos dni #anti endo #this post was so genuinely relieving to read through #every so often i'll sit there and question if i'm faking or not purely because it's just #i can hear everyone great #we can go and get others almost whenever it's needed #just. yes. op thank you - holly

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this just in: local system host torments her boyfriend with the flexibility of her joints yet again

#holly.txt #mom suggested i may have EDS since i was showing her how our thumbs can nearly bend back to touch our arms #so now i'm just laughing over how stupid flexible our hands are #at least for the most part #and billy is staring at me in concern and mild horror

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IT'S DECKING DAY

it’s DECEMBER 24TH and you know what that means

someone’s halls are getting DECKED

#self rb #holly.txt #WOOOOOO