#we're getting there tho! this will have a happy ending eventually! i promise!

[steddiehyperfixation]

don't you forget about me (part two)

(part one)

Steve doesn’t know how long they sit there in silence, waiting. It’s making him insane. The seconds pass too slow; the seconds pass too fast. His mind is a storm; his mind is empty. He’s feeling too much; he’s not feeling at all. He paces the room; he sits catatonically against a wall. He needs to get out of here; he needs to stay. 

He’s been here before, just barely over a week ago, tense and anxious and despairing and waiting for news. But waiting to hear if Eddie will ever remember him again really should not feel this much worse than waiting to hear if Eddie will ever fucking breathe again. Steve thinks there must be something wrong with him. He’s being selfish and stupid. His pathological fucking need to be loved is not what’s important right now. Eddie is alive and awake and okay and that’s the only thing that really matters. That’s the only thing he should really care about.

Steve’s pacing again now, yanking his hands through his hair as he does laps around the room until Eddie finally appears in the doorway. 

Eddie must’ve just cracked a joke or something because the nurse is laughing as she pushes his bed into the room and he’s got this adorable grin on his face. Steve’s heart twists in his chest and he nearly bursts into tears all over again because god does he want nothing more than to press a kiss to those dimpled cheeks. 

“Good news, boys,” Eddie announces. “My brain is fully intact.”

“There’s no physical permanent damage to his brain,” the nurse elaborates. “His amnesia is likely a result of psychological trauma and the temporary disruption of brain function from blood loss and lack of oxygen that occurred at the time of his injury. But there is no obvious reason why he shouldn’t regain his full memory, given time.” 

So there’s hope. Steve breathes a sigh of relief. 

“That is good news,” Wayne agrees. 

Steve asks, “How much time?” 

The nurse gives an unhelpful shrug. “Impossible to say. It could be anywhere from days to months, or even years. I’m sorry, there’s no way for us to know.” 

Years. “Okay.” Steve pinches the bridge of his nose. He can keep it together. He can. “Thanks,” he tells the nurse. “I, uh-” He makes the mistake of looking at Eddie who looks right through him, and Steve can’t keep it together anymore actually. “I gotta update the kids,” he mutters, backing his way towards the door. Wayne nods in acknowledgment; no protests this time at Steve’s excuse to leave.

“See ya, Harrington,” Eddie calls after him, casual, impersonal, like they're nothing more than acquaintances passing by each other in a high school hallway.  

Steve can’t get out of that hospital fast enough. 

He makes it to his car in record time, slamming the door shut and sinking heavily into the driver’s seat. A ragged sob tries to claw its way up his throat now that he’s finally alone, but he forces it back, staving off his breakdown for just a little bit longer. As much as it was an excuse, he really does have to update the kids. 

Steve fishes his walkie out of the glove box. “Code - whatever, I don’t know. Code Eddie,” he says. He doesn’t remember the kids’ system of codes, nor would he be sure which one this news falls under even if he did. 

“Is he okay? Is he awake?” comes an immediate, eager response from Dustin. “Over.” 

“Yeah, he’s awake, and he’s fine, except he’s got pretty bad amnesia. The doctors say it should be temporary, but right now he doesn’t remember anything since May of ‘85,” Steve explains, trying his best to keep his voice even.

“Steve, come pick me up and take me to see him,” Dustin demands, “right now. Over.” 

“Me too. Over,” Mike chimes in before Steve can respond. 

“And us,” Erica adds as well. 

Steve pauses for a second, both to steady his own breath and to make sure no one else wants to jump in on this too, before he reminds them, “He won’t know you, any of you.” 

“I don’t care,” Dustin says, bossy as ever. “Just come get me. Over.” 

“Jesus Christ, kid,” Steve mutters to himself. He sucks in another breath; it wobbles dangerously. He’s just about reached his limit on how long he can keep himself from falling apart. “I- I need a minute, alright?” he manages through the walkie. “Can you just give me, like, an hour? And then I’ll take you guys to visit Eddie.” 

Steve doesn’t wait for a response before he slams the antenna closed, tosses the walkie aside, and finally, finally lets himself shatter. That sob rips free from his throat, followed by another and another and another. Tears flood from his eyes; his nose runs. It’s an ugly, gross, visceral cry that leaves him exhausted and raw and aching to be held by the time the last sob shudders out of him. Drained and hollow, he craves the embrace of someone who knows him, someone who loves him. 

He sweeps up his broken pieces, wipes the mess of tears and snot off his face, and drives to Robin’s house.

“Steve, oh my god.” Robin pulls him into a hug the second she opens the door and sees the look on his face. Steve clings to her. “What happened?” 

“Eddie’s awake,” he mutters dismally. 

“Oh! Not the tone I’d expect you to deliver that news in, but okay.” Robin pulls back, looking at him with narrow-eyed concern and confusion as she analyzes his puffy eyes and red nose and swollen lips. “And you look like you’ve just been crying because…?”

“Because he doesn’t remember me, Rob,” Steve sighs. “He doesn’t remember anything from the past 11 months.” 

Robin’s eyes go wide now. “Shit,” she says, so plainly it startles a short laugh out of Steve. 

“Yeah,” he agrees. “Shit.” 

She asks him more questions as she walks down the hallway so they can talk in her room. Steve once again reiterates what was said at the hospital. 

“So you didn’t tell him you two were a thing?” Robin asks, closing her door behind them. 

“Of course I didn’t.” Steve flops back onto her bed. “I didn’t want to spook him.” 

She sits beside him. “You didn’t want to spook him,” she repeats, looking down at him with raised eyebrows, “but you told him about Vecna.” 

“Well, yeah. I just-” He lifts his arms to gesture vaguely into the air as he tries to explain himself. “I mean, imagine how you would feel if you woke up in a hospital and some random guy you’ve spoken to maybe twice was by your bedside telling you you’ve been in a relationship with him for the past 9 months.” 

“Uh, I don’t know, dingus, probably about the same as I’d feel if said guy told me I’d nearly died fighting some evil twisted creature from a hell dimension,” Robin retorts.

Steve drops his hands onto his chest with a huff, shaking his head. “No, trust me. He seemed far less surprised by that than he did to hear that we were even just friends,” he says, a bit bitterly. Tears are pricking at his eyes again as he looks up at his best friend. “You didn’t see the way he looked at me, Robin. All he saw was King Steve.”

Robin softens, snark replaced with sympathy. “That sucks, Steve. I’m so sorry.” 

Steve sighs in agreement that yes this really fucking sucks. He sits up and scoots back so that he’s slumped against the wall, hitting the back of his head against it. “I think I’m a horrible person,” he admits, just venting now, “because of course I’m glad Eddie’s alive and all I really want is for him to be okay, and I know the nurse said he should remember eventually, but there’s still some sick part of me that thinks maybe it would’ve hurt less if he had just died.”

“I don’t think that makes you a horrible person,” Robin assures him as she settles next to him, shoulder to shoulder. “I think you’re just grieving, and grief is weird sometimes.”

“It was one of the worst things I’ve ever felt,” he mutters, “when he looked at me without recognition. To see it on his face, just the- the absence of everything that we’d built. I’ve never felt so- so- I don’t know, it was like I couldn’t breathe. He just- he doesn’t know that I love him. He…he doesn’t know that he loved me...” 

Because that’s what it is, isn’t it? It’s not that he’s lost someone that he loves, it’s that he’s lost someone who loves him. Because Eddie’s not gone, just his love for Steve is, and that’s what’s tearing him apart. It’s the fact that there’s one less person in the world who loves him. It’s the fact that Steve’s got this big gaping hole inside of him that’s always made him so desperate to be loved, liked, wanted, needed; and his biggest fucking fear is becoming obsolete. He could probably trace it back to his parents, the first to forget him, the first to stop loving him, but the fact remains that now Eddie has fulfilled that fear too. Now Eddie has carved that pit a little deeper, a little darker, validating the voice that whispers within it and tells Steve that he is forgettable, unlovable, so easy to abandon and erase. 

“Well, I love you,” Robin tells him, like she can read his mind (which, at this point, she probably can). She slides an arm around his shoulders, hugs him close. “And I’m not going anywhere.” 

Fragile as he is right now, Steve falls apart again in her arms, and she holds him together. Because she knows him, because she loves him.

It’s a quieter cry this time, soft and sniffly. Whereas the last one wracked through his body and left him fatigued, this one flows from him almost gently, and when his tears finally subside and he lifts his head from where it had been buried in his friend’s shoulder, Steve actually feels a little bit better, a little bit stronger. Which is good, because he’s gonna have to face Eddie again soon. 

“Thank you,” he says quietly as he pulls away from Robin, wiping at his eyes and glancing at the clock on her nightstand. It’s definitely been an hour by now, probably more. He stands. “I have to go, I promised the kids I’d take them to see Eddie.” 

“Then I’m coming too.” Robin stands with him. “For moral support.” 

Steve gives her a grateful smile. “I love you so fucking much, you know that?” 

“Yeah.” She grins at him. “I know.” 

~ 

The nurses have changed his bandages and upped his morphine, so Eddie’s considerably hazy now but at least he can raise his headrest and prop himself up a bit without nearly blacking out from pain. He’s boredly flicking through channels on the shitty TV in front of him, alone since Wayne had to leave for work, when Harrington returns followed by a very unexpected group consisting of Robin Buckley and four strange children. 

“Sorry,” Harrington announces their presence with an apologetic shrug, “I know you don’t know them anymore, but they insisted.” 

“Eddie!” a pudgy, curly-haired kid shouts before Eddie can even react, coming barrelling towards him and trying to hug him. 

“Ow!” Eddie yelps, pain flaring even through the extra morphine. “Fucking Christ, kid! Be careful!” 

The kid jumps back immediately, eyes wide. “Shit. Sorry.” 

“S’fine,” Eddie grumbles.

The kid looks at him expectantly for a moment before seeming to realize, “Oh, right, you don’t remember me. I’m Dustin.” 

“Ah, so you’re the guy I sacrificed myself for,” Eddie mutters, and Dustin looks a little sheepish. That means these must be ‘the kids’ Harrington had been talking about earlier. He surveys the group for a second. “Actually, I think we have met before,” he tells Dustin. “And you too.” He glances at a pale, dark-haired kid. The other two - a Black boy with a flat-top and a younger Black girl - look less familiar, though. “There was this, uh, open day thing at the high school for next year’s incoming freshmen; I talked to you about Hellfire.”

“Yeah!” Dustin’s whole face lights up, so bright and infectious it makes Eddie grin too. “Yeah, you did!” 

“So you guys joined the club, then?” 

This sparks a very animated conversation about D&D, the rest of the kids (Mike, Lucas, and Erica, as they soon reintroduce themselves) gathering around his bed now too to join in. It makes him feel a bit more like himself again, familiar, normal. Except, of course, for the fact that they’re not only talking about how they defeated Vecna in Eddie’s “totally epic” and “sadistic” campaign (adjectives courtesy of Dustin and Mike respectively), but also filling in more pieces of the story of how they defeated him in real life too. Still, it’s nice, fun. He totally understands how he could’ve gotten attached to these kids.

At some point, Eddie glances over to find Harrington hanging back and just watching them talk, fondly, wistfully. Robin whispers something to him and he sort of smiles, just a trace, and whispers something back. They seem close, intimate. Eddie wonders if they’re dating, and then he wonders why that thought makes him feel a bit sick. He waves them over. Harrington looks like he’s about to protest, but Robin gives him a Look and he allows her to grab his hand and drag him to join the crowd around Eddie’s bed. 

“So, what’s your deal, Buckley?” Eddie asks her. He doesn’t know her very well, they’ve only crossed paths a few times in the bandroom, but right now that makes her the most familiar person in the room to him. “Are you and Harrington a thing now? Is that how you’re involved in all this?” 

Robin wrinkles her nose and drops Harrington’s hand. “Ew, no. Definitely not.” 

“She’s my best friend,” Harrington says. 

Eddie snorts, doesn’t know why he finds that so comical. (He’s starting to get tired and it’s making him loopy. Or maybe it’s just the morphine.) “You've got a funny choice of friends nowadays, don’t you? Me and band geek Buckley and a bunch of nerdy freshmen.” He looks at Harrington with incredulous amusement. “Who would've thought, huh? Steve Harrington, collector of geeks and freaks.” 

Harrington doesn’t seem to find it as funny. He shrugs. “Yeah, well, it’s better than King Steve, collector of asshole bullies and shallow one-night stands.” 

“Yeah, ‘course it is,” Eddie agrees through another huff of laughter that breaks off into a yawn. “Didn’t mean it as a bad thing, Stevie. Was a compliment.” 

“Alright.” The barest hint of a smile flickers across Harrington’s face now, but then he’s looking away and corralling the kids and saying, “We should head out, let you get some rest.” 

And Eddie kind of wishes he’d stay.

(part three!)

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#still angsty sorry #we're getting there tho! this will have a happy ending eventually! i promise! #i finally get what ppl mean when they talk abt setting out to write a oneshot and ending up with a longfic bc it's happening to me rn #steddie #steddie angst #steddie fic #steddie fanfiction #steve harrington #eddie munson #stranger things #fanfic #mine #1k #dyfamsteddiefic #<- specific tag for this fic

[valittlecorner]

¡¡KENREO lore headcanons!! (VERY LONG POST DEAL W ME)

I was asked to provide and ended up discovering my niche. The kenreo likers. Also using this post to manifest akyr winning this round so these two can meet again. These are all my headcanons that basically cover how I think the whole relationship of these two would go (sorry I'm insane).

♡ ¿How do they get closer?

- One day, Kenta sneaks out of Public Service to go to a nearby arcade. He's barely getting to play something when he ends up Reo, who apparently hangs out there from time to time. Reo starts messing with Kenta's gaming skills which results in them having a mini battle in some arcade games like smash and mortal kombat. They have so much fun but! The battle ends up as a tie, barely, cause Kenta kept fucking up under pressure lmao. Still disappointing I know. They're both so competitive (and curious abt knowing each other properly) they promise to meet at the arcade every time Kenta has Public Service until they get a better result. This goes on and on for way too much time. The tie seemed never-ending cause they kept purposefully getting ties so the meetings can keep going without killing anyone's pride. Eventually they got tired of the same arcade so they went hanging out elsewhere, like Reo's place (they play in the family console!) or random places related to games (like those buildings full of claw machines!). Its good to clarify Kenta deadass escaped his duties every single time they hung out, mf thought he was sleek but absolutely everyone knew he was seeing someone. Same happened with reo. And we're talking about it real quick.

♡ Okay but what abt gklk/akyr

- So ofc Gklk would notice Kenta randomly missing from PUBLIC SERVICE. At first they didn't find him and he just came back before Service was over, but eventually they found out where he was. Yuto tried to pick him up but had to go through the experience of watching Kenta painfully trying to flirt. It wasn't an amazing experience but Yuto still found it cute and saw it as a way for Kenta to get back to society, so he let the guy be. Yuto did tell everyone else from Gklk and kept making proud dad comments like "ohh I'm so glad Reo is helping you become a better person!!! You'll be back in society soon!!!! :33" making Kenta very mad and embarrassed. Meanwhile my man Ryoga didn't care enough abt the news, but Shion kept annoying Kenta and poking fun at him for not knowing how to flirt or at least be less awkward around his crush lmao. Now Akyr didn't really know about it for a while, but Satsu + Hoku did find them eventually. They innocently tried to join the arcade gaming but were dragged out by Reo. They instantly knew what was going on and snitched to Iori and Zen. Reo was asked abt it but he just avoided every question😭 it was still painfully obvious something else was happening for those who knew him. Most Akyr don't really mind it tho, as long as he's happy yknow. Except Satsuki, who used this chance to mess around w Reo every single time Kenta was around, which led to insane arguments that usually ended with someone crying and snitching to Iori or Zen (mostly Reo). Zen didn't quite like the news for his bad experience w Hancho, but after a while he accepted it, Kenta seemed decent. Overall everyone from both sides finds it cute, ofc everyone would be supportive of the little brothers of two different families who started dating.

♡ The process of actually starting to date

- Oh god the process was A PAIN. Reo is very teasy and flirty at the same time while Kenta is a flustered mess that cannot stand anything without dying. Kenta is touch starved and Reo is a hugger who can read Kenta like an open book, but at the same time Reo can underestimate Kenta's clingyness. It's basically a war within the openly clingy and the shyly clingy. Over all their meetings there's always been that vibe of awkwardness over them trying their hardest to flirt SERIOUSLY but failing miserably, just teen stuff. They can't even hold hands cause Kenta refuses (too shy) so Reo has to forcefully hug him at times. But even with all of that, the one to confess first would actually be Kenta himself!!! Now listen, he has enough pride to not allow Reo to make 90% of the moves AND ALSO CONFESS??? Hell nah he had to do at least something for the relationship. So at one of their usual meetings Kenta kept trying to get enough courage to actually confess to an oblivious Reo with every gklk member watching from afar (Emotional support!). When Reo was already leaving Kenta had THE GUTS to confess to him after like 5 hours of hanging out which ended in Reo being like "bro fucking finally I was anxious all day cause I thought you'd give up after failing to confess like 6 times today!!!!" Reo was not that oblivious it seems. After publicly embarrassing Kenta, Reo just hugs him, says sorry and they officially start dating now. Beautiful. From this moment on, they'll try to manage seeing each other considering their messy ass backgrounds. And we'll talk about that too I have everything calculated.

♡ Okay but what abt the government

- In the current pararai timeline, if they started dating right now (Trust round) they'd still have plenty of time to be around each other considering Gokuluck is already at the finals therefore wouldn't have to return to prison just yet. But from then on, there's a shit ton of possibilities. If anyone who isn't gklk wins pararai, then they'd return straight back to prison, and the minis would be SEPARATED broken heart. If thats the case they'd probably text each other religiously (reminder Kenta has a laptop/pc thingy in prison) and Reo would visit him a lot. It feels really weird for two teenagers to meet each other IN PRISON but oh well this is the only reasonable outcome. It'd be very sad if that happened to the minis so vote gokuluck for the win so they don't go back to prison aha🏆 (subtle spam).

COMPILATION OF SMALLER HEADCANONS that I refuse to leave out

- Reo dressed Kenta as a discord kitten as a joke. Kenta kept the kitty earphones. They're somewhere but he wouldn't go out with them.

- Kenta's love language is sending incomprehensible memes to Reo or weird images he'd caption "us." Reo's love language is replying with those goofy pics with a pink bg and sanrio characters on top with overlayed text reading "this could be us but you play league of legends".

- Kenta is the #1 hater of publicly showing affection but when they're alone he's the biggest hugger and most clingy being on earth.

- Reo sends a "good morning!!! ⊂⁠(⁠(⁠・⁠▽⁠・⁠)⁠)⁠⊃" "good night~ (⁠人⁠*⁠´⁠∀⁠｀⁠)⁠｡⁠*ﾟ⁠+" every single day. Kenta just replies with "gm" "gn". Dry ass texter.

- Reo's hobby is giving Kenta ugly hairstyles while claiming he's making him "prettier".

- They're trying very hard to hide their relationship from the public, it's working rn but who knows for how long....

OKAY I'M DONE. FUCK THIS IS A LOT NAHSJS. Only pararai ship I've dedicated this much energy towards omg!! I just feel they're lacking content so I did God's work, you're welcome.

#pararai #paradox live #kenta mikoshiba #reo maruyama #valittleheadcanons #valittlekenreos #kenreo #reokenta

[daughterofthereaper02]

Hi! I have been loving your poly fics so far!! They are amazing! Could I also request a poly fic of rooster, hangman and bob/ platonic squad where you are in a toxic (almost abusive if your okay with writing that) relationship and they find out when you are playing dogfight football/just going to the beach? Also could the readers call sign be sunshine? Sorry Ik that’s a lot!! Love your writing tho! Your doing a great job!!

A/N: Hi hun! I would love to write this! I'm assuming you mean in a toxic relationship that isn't the boys. And it isn't a lot, its a really cute idea. I hope this is what you wanted! I'm glad you're enjoying my poly fics! Sorry this is short!

Title: There Is No Rush

Pairing(s): Jake 'Hangman' Seresin x Bradley 'Rooster' Bradshaw x Robert 'Bob' Floyd x female! Reader, Platonic! Top Gun gang x reader

Warnings: Manipulation, hitting, just a toxic relationship

You laughed as you played dogfight football with the gang, you were in shorts and a tank top, running around playing. You were on Bob, Hangman, and Roosters team and laughed as they picked you up, cheering as you won. You had grown extremely close to them over the time you've known them and you're boyfriend wasn't happy. He had grown more controlling and grew to be more physical, you were terrified but you couldn't leave him because you were trapped at the moment. You were looking for any way you could get out without out an issue but were struggling, you knew you no longer loved him as you had fallen in love with Robert, Jake, and Bradley. "C'mon Sunshine! One more round and then we've beat them four for four!" Bob said excitedly. You nodded and began to play again, the game was rough and you all ended up with new bruises by the end of it.

Just as you won for the last time, a voice ripped through the laughter "Y/N M/N L/N! What the hell are you doing!?" your boyfriend screamed, all of your friends turned to look at him in shock because who the hell thought they could talk to Sunshine? You checked your watch and your stomach dropped, you were supposed to be home two hours ago, "I'm sorry babe! I lost track of-" "Don't you dare say you lost track of time, you made me put my stuff away and drag my ass down here?" he hissed, making you look down in guilt, "LOOK AT ME!" He yelled before hitting you across the face so hard you fell to the ground.

Everyone jumped into action, starting yell while Penny was calling the cops. You got up in time to see Bob deck your boyfriend so hard across the face that he fell over.. A part of you felt satisified watching someone bigger then him take him down a notch finally, and by the sweetest man around. Your boyfriend cried out and then got up "F*ck you L/N! We're done, you're surrounded by crazies!" he yelled in fear as Rooster went to attack him, Maverick was calming them down so none of them went to jail. All of your friends stayed aound you protectiviely until the police arrived to collect the statments needed.

Once everything was over, you accepted the cold beer Phoenix handed you and put it on your cheek. As soon as it touched your cheek, everyone was fussing over you but none more then Bob, Rooster, and Hangman. They told you they would be going with them to get your stuff and then you would be moving in with them because "Our best friend does not get treated that way!" and you felt the love from them just from that statement. Everyone eventually asked you how bad it was and you explained that you were trying to get out but you didn't know how.

Hours later when it was just the four of you, Hangman slipped up and said they were in love with you and would never treat you that way. You knew you loved them but needed time to heal first, they promised you that space and happily gave it to you for as long as you needed. There was no rush.

#top gun #rooster top gun #top gun: maverick #bradley bradshaw #pete 'maverick' mitchell #bradley bradshaw imagines #bradley bradshaw x reader #bradley bradshaw fanfiction #maverick #rooster x reader #hangman #jake hangman seresin x reader #jake hangman seresin #robert 'bob' floyd x reader #robert 'bob' floyd #robert floyd #jake 'hangman' seresin x reader #jake 'hangman' seresin

[allylikethecat]

wow ally you really weren't kidding when you said you would make oaf matty even more miserable 😭

shark plushie present tho, we love that for her

also can't believe we're half way through???

i love this story sm

First, I am so sorry that it has taken me days to respond to this ask! I am so so grateful that you have not only took the time to read On a Friday but to send me an ask about it!! I'm having so much fun working on this fic and it just makes me so happy that others are enjoying it as well, especially with how nervous I was to bring the oemgaverse into the fandom in the first place! But yes, I did promise more misery for Fictional!Matty and I do apologize it is going to get even worse before it gets better 😬 BUT he has shark plushie, the best OC I've ever come up with so it's going to be fine!! (Eventually...)

I know!! It's so crazy to me, I'm going to be honest I feel like I've been working on this fic forever and I don't know what I'm going to do with myself when it's finished lol Though, if I'm being perfectly honest it will probably end up being 22 or 23 chapters rather than an even 20 - a few chapters I had outlined have already been split in half.

Thank you so much for reading and being so wonderful and patient and sending me this ask! I hope you had a lovely week and that you have a wonderful Friday / weekend!

❤️Ally

#allylikethecat #ask ally #anon ask #keep it kind #fanfiction #matty fic #gatty #fanfic #on a friday #omegaverse #omega verse #i feel so bad it took me so long to answer this #im so sorry #thank you so much for reading #and im so happy you're enjoying on a friday! #im extra excited for the next two chapters #gotta hype myself up to try and write a spicy scene!

[kiankiwi]

baby e loving the pool but also won't stop clinging to us so we sit him in a floatie and baby is laughing while splashing at water. tho if he gets too far from us he kinda panics until we or one of the guys from the memphis mafia are close to him

- 🍙

At first, we thought Elvis would love the pool. It is shaped like a guitar after all. But he seems to think it'll swallow him whole. "Baby, I promise you it'll be okay. Mama's coming right behind ya. And Jerry's coming to play with you too." Jerry comes up behind you to give E a hug as he sits on your hip, "Will you come in with me to play? I promise I'll keep you safe okay?" Elvis just eyes the water as if it's as big as the ocean. Jerry has an idea.

He bought him a giant swan floatie the other day and didn't pull it out until now. He pulls it out of the shed and tosses it into the pool and points to it as El eyes it suspiciously. "How about you sit in that while we play, hm? Your swan buddy will keep you safe." You switch E into Jerry's arms while you slowly wade into the pool and grab the giant swan floatie, pulling it to the edge of the pool so that Jerry can safely place Elvis into it.

"Here." Jerry slowly but surely places Elvis into the floatie and he screams and screeches all the while until he realizes he's still floating on top of the water. He looks at you as your standing in the pool and you seem alright... He gives you a small smile as if to say, "woah, I'm okay." You give Elvis back a big cheesy grin. "Yeah, you're just fine. You dunk your hands in the water and touch his face and hair, getting him used to the water. He flinches a bit feeling the water on his skin but then realizes he's still okay.

"You're just fine baby, we won't let anything happen to you." You say as you see Jerry wade into the pool beside you. "We're going to go a bit deeper okay?" You prep him as Jerry takes the edge of the plastic and tugs Elvis along with him into the center of the pool. Elvis keeps eye contact with you as he's moving, just happy that he can still see you.

"See? You're okay. Ready to have some fun?" You stand with Jerry in the middle of the pool and Jerry grips the edge of the floatie and twists, spinning int in circles. "Weeeee!" He exaggerates, hoping Elvis likes it. Eventually Elvis pats the plastic, signaling to Jerry that he wants to go faster.

Eventually we all get into a splash fight, competing to see who can make the biggest splash and of course you and Jerry let Elvis win and every time he splashes you act surprised like, "oh my gosh I can't believe you'd do that to me! To your mama!"

After a big splash fight, Jerry gets the idea to grab Elvis's floaty and push him away from you to see if he likes being sped backwards. But when he realizes, he doesn't know how to get back to you or Jerry because he doesn't really know how to swim all that well he screams, scared he'll be stuck there far away from you forever. "Oh, oh baby it's okay, mama will come get you. Jerry shouldn't have done that huh?" You give Jerry a look but he just rolls his eyes at you and kicks onto his back, floating away.

You wade toward Elvis and he significantly calms once you're nearer to him. "Hi baby. See, all better?" You open your arms and Elvis snuggles in, sunkissed skin against sunkissed skin. "Mmm, I love you bubba. It's all okay."

*

<3 Abrupt ending but I hope you liked it!

[fifteenth-entity]

hi person I definitely do not know, choose the number 22 now let's see what you got

*cracks knuckles and neck*

everyone, meet my arch fucking nemesis.

one day, while we were in a literature workshop i think, we promised each other we'd write a character analysis of each other. we're both too scared to do it, but i will make a stand and this will be like... a hint of that. a teaser of what could be. an idea.

I don't exactly know where to start so I'll just pick a random point: I said previously that I visit Rei's house the most. That's because I practically live at Dee's house. It became so bad we eventually started going to uni together. It became a meme. and for good reason.

Dee is the most terrifying person you will ever see, but then you'll talk with them for 15 minutes and if you do end up clicking, you'll discover that there's nothing to be afraid of. They're very sweet, but so extremely introverted. Im an archeologist and they're ancient ruins which I KNOW exist and i WILL be digging them up.

but this person. this specimen. this creature. this eldritch entity. honestly man, i dunno what to say, other than this guy (gnc) is one of my best fucking friends and i am so happy about that. this BRAIN. they are genuinely the most fun to discuss shit about. like theyre one of the few people where i will rave about my special interests and they will rave about theirs and we will be having Fun.

speaking of raving about special interests, theyre one of the few neurotypical people with whom i genuinely feel heard and properly taken care of with. like so many of my acquiantances will just not understand the mental illness cocktail inside my brain, and dee doesn't either because they just don't experience it, but theyre one of the few people who will make accomodations for me without me even having asked and that is so noble of them.

also sorry for constantly talking about how hArD my life is. except when i say im dying or wanna kill myself. then im not sorry. i am a dramatic son of a bitch and you befriended me on PURPOSE.

also the ones that get it, get it, but creating an au with you has been one of the most fun experiences ever in my life. not only was it such a fun writing exercise (WRITERS CLUB WHO?) but i loved thinking with you and it was an excuse to spend time with you and no joke i would do it all over again and i WILL do it all over again you are extremely unsafe. and while our love languages clash, once we synced up and did parallel play perfectly, it was such... a safe environment. talking and planning an theorizing with them is fun as fuck. but chilling on their couch (aka my bed) while they play some strategy war game and i play breath of the wild and i listen to them rage at egyptians, mongolians, british, scottish, or whoever attacks their faction and theyre panicking about not having enough resources while i rapidly back away from an approaching lynel is so comforting.

drawing in the same room as them and explaining fashion trends while they explained the latest criminal minds episode to me was so fun. it was so safe. i will genuinely cherish every moment with them, and i massively appreciate them. I wont get into what the situation was, but i once had to run to their house at 12.30 am while carrying groceries in my pajamas, and i wouldd do that again, for any reason.

but also they BULLY me and i am being ABUSED. >:(

no bullying from me in this post tho, i already do a lot of that irl and i will not be stopping.

also i know you will never make your own post like this about me, dee, unless you're not a coward :)

#asks #friends #greetings-humans #'AM I BEING ROMANCED RIGHT NOW?' and 'I would give you my first born' are genuinely the most funny compliments ive ever received from #an aroace person thank you dee for that honor #but uh yeah uuhh who is this person oh noo stranger danger

[herr-aka-somecutenerd]

Witch's Love

Chapter II: We got all ingredients except you loving me.

Yandere! Sophia (Herr) x Idia Shroud

Warnings: light yandere themes, possesive/obsessive love, mentioned women's problems going outside in the dark time, self ship

A/N: No but I enjoy writing these... it's kind of canonical story of how our relationship developed, but shown a little uh... darker? Not too dark tho ofc!

The night went further. It probably was 3 AM already. I started to feel drowsy eventually, my eyes getting heavier and my brain going blank.

No-no-no, not now, not when we're having so much fun together, please, just little longer!

"Sophia-shii...?" - I heard Idia's soft voice. So soft, so gentle every time he speaks with me...

"Yeah?..." - I replied quietly and in a dizzy manner. I really felt like I can't keep it any longer, no matter how hard I struggle.

"You seem to loose the concentration and become slower... Are you sure you're not tired?" - he said, genuinely concerned. He even paused the game, much to my demise.

"Uh..." - I really hated to admit what came next. - "Okay, maybe... I'm just a little bit... sleepy..."

I refused to take energy drinks as I was aware of them being unhealthy. Maybe it's just my mother's forced opinion, but it's not like my mom was rarely right... And even coffee I drank earlier didn't seem to work.

I looked at him, feeling kind of guilty. For some reason I felt like I was ruining the fun... even if Shroud didn't seem too upset about it and more likely worried... about me. How adorable!

Suddenly, Idia's hair started step by step turning pink, starting from edges.

"I-it's already so l-late... A-and girls' block i-is so far... Y-you can g-get in trouble o-on your w-way... S-so..." - speaking seemed to be hard for him. I was already figuring out what he's going to say, or at least was hoping he'll say what I think, and that made my heart beat faster ad faster. Please, say that you want me to...

"...M-maybe you'll stay h-here? I'll be playing the w-whole night, so my bed will be all free.... A-and I promise I w-won't do anything c-creepy!!"

My face turned even brighter shade of pink than his hair did at the end of Idia's sentence. Butterflies started live up one by one in my stomach. I couldn't be more happy than I am right now. It was like a child getting a pet they wanted so much from their parents when they didn't expect that. Like winning in a lottery. Like getting an ultra rare character or item you wanted. Like hearing your crush confessing their feelings to you.

Ah, Idia... You really are so caring and sweet. You even think about how dangerous it can be for a woman to walk outside during the dark time, especially when there are so many men around. A perfect man a girl can only dream of.

"Idia... Y-you're too kind", - I said, blushing and stuttering not less that him. - "I-I don't want to cause discomfort for you..."

What am I doing? It's such a great opportunity to be close to your beloved boy, Sophia. Are you stupid?

Well, I do care about his own well-being after all... Geez.

"N-no, you're not causing discomfort for m-me! W-we're not going to s-sleep t-together after all, s-so I can b-bear it...", - the last line kind of touched me, but I decided not to pay attention to that too much. - "D-don't g-get me wrong! I-I'm just... I-it's not you specifically, i-it's j-just embarassing... Oh God, help me..." - Shroud hid his face in his hands, making my heart melt once again at how adorable he was.

"It's okay, I understand", - I almost patted his shoulder to calm him down, but stopped myself. It can cause reverse effect on him, after all. - "S-so... may I go to sleep then?"

Idia put his hands down, looking at me with running glance. He was still tomato red and anxious... like a scared cat...

"Y-yes! L-lay comfortably, h-hehe..." - I swore my heart jumped a little at his laugh. In a good way.

With a shy smile I got up from my place and headed towards his bed. A little messy, but clean. Just like Idia. He might be messy in some way but he's still pretty and amazing. I landed on the mattress. My body was so heavy, my limbs became numb. The scent hit my nostrills... Idia's scent. So calming and comforting... That was making me even more dizzy.

"Huh... It feels comfortable..." - I said in a kind of mumbling manner caused by sleepiness.

"Y-you think so?" - Idia replied shyly. - "W-well... G-glad to hear that I g-guess", - he smiled at me slightly, making my heart beat faster once again.

"So... Good night", - I said, wrapping myself in a blanket and yawning.

"G-good night... s-sleep well", - Shroud said, probably feeling awkward, judging from his tone.

Inhaling more of his scent when he turned back to the screen, I closed my eyes and drifted to sleep, hoping to get the sweetest dream tonight.

You're so kind to me... You do care about me, right? You wouldn't allow anyone else to sleep on your bed, would you? I do really love you, Idia. One day I'll gain enough courage to tell you about that... I promise.

#herr writes #self ship #f/o #idia shroud #twst #twisted wonderland

[skiespaintedblue]

some random gay dbh things ive been thinking about lately:

promise rings. i dont mind the idea of marriage but since we're in a three person relationship the idea seems like it might be. a little difficult to carry out. but i do really like jewelry with meaning so,,, promise rings :3 i couldnt find any that quite fit so i ended up designing them myself, with a sun/moon/stars theme for markus/connor/myself respectively. the ones i initially made were based on real rings that i liked but didnt quite seem right so i changed em up a bit and added a third of my own design, but i ended up not really liking them so i went for a more simple approach, and it worked! so for the past couple of days ive just been thinking about how id go about giving them the rings and whatnot and its great <3

pets. after a Big Think i eventually came to the conclusion we would get a beagle. its small and its silly and theyre just great little creatures and i think we'd all be happy to have one. and we'd get to take them on playdates with sumo !!!!! i still havent figured out a name tho lol

children. okay normally i really dont vibe with the idea of having kids but i saw a cute video of a mom teaching her baby how to jump and it was so adorable that i think it sent me into a minor bout of baby fever?? i am also on my period so that might have something to do with it dhjfhkd but god. i keep thinking about having a kid with them now. we'd have to adopt obviously, and i have no idea if they'd be android or human. i dont think id ever really go through with it for multiple reasons but god the concept is just really. it gives me good feelings

furry au. i made a dbh furry au a while ago and i got to thinking about it again bc something reminded me of it and its adorable to just. imagine us together but also we're furries. also i enjoy the dynamic of a kangaroo revolutionist and his two devoted dogboy boyfriends. this is peak to me

uhhh lastly this is more general but ive just been. like thinking about them So Much recently, more than ever. to the point where i literally had two consecutive dreams in a row about them ?!!? and i got to kiss and cuddle with them in both dreams and that made me so ungodly happy to experience, but its getting to the point where im like. suspicious. like my life has been completely Okay for the past week or so and i feel like something horrible is gonna happen and ruin everything 😭 but at the very least ive been able to daydream about us being domestic together. so maybe its worth it

anyways. idk what the point of this post was i just felt like putting something on this blog about my ship for once, i will now return to endless reblogs of posts that make my heart get 1% closer to bursting each time

#selfship #dbh selfship #i should probably come up with a tag system soon but i havent really had a need for it so far...? so. shrug

[cerasus--flores]

Tartaglia is streaming: Hades

"Streaming Hades with Sulien in a bit guys!", aka the streamer au ajax/mors caeli headcanons I promised the server

cw: it's just mors caeli fluff/crack tbh, bulleted headcanons, lots of brainrot so true

Ajax starts playing the game on stream out of a mix of curiosity and desire for a challenge

You see, the guy is very, very skilled at action and fighting games. Of course he is, have you seen him?

So when he saw this new action rougelite that everyone was losing their minds over, it piqued his interest quite a bit. Then he saw that it took his oh-so-skilled boyfriend around 25 runs to finish the story, and well, he was sold

his particular liking for greek mythos might've helped tho

Anyhow, he brings the idea of playing the game on stream to chat, they immediately start taunting him, saying how he'll "get his ass handed to himself" and whatnot; usually he wouldn't listen, but this time he snatched his chance, and asked Sulien to step in and play navigator for a bit

Famous last words, cause Sulien is a bastard navi

"You should pick the bow first chance you get, Fruit Tart, you'll do great with it"

Ajax dies five chambers in

The weapons he handles best are the spear, the gauntlets, and the gun, because of course

A completionist at heart! Will not stop until he's at least completed a max heat run with all the weapons, to his own dismay and Sulien's amusement

"You know you can dodge, right, my love?" "I don't recall fucking asking, babe."

Alright now what you fuckers came here for

Of all the characters, Ajax gains a particular appreciation for Achilles (ironic), and, of course, Thanatos

Achilles was already a figure he enjoyed quite a bit, and the seeing this take on how he ended up after his rage filled demise was really pleasing to him. "He's just a really cool warrior, what can I say"

And Than, oh dear

When he first appeared in-game, everyone in chat was already chanting Sulien's name.

He instantly falls in love with him, gives him nectar and ambrosia, tries and follows his storyline super closely.

Ajax: I think Thanatos is pretty cool

Sulien: Really? I liked Zagreus much better, myself

Kisa has cheered: "please get a room"

Everyone starts saying that they're literally just Thanatos and Zagreus, Tart thinks it's adorable, Sulien is mentally screaming

"what do you mean we're like them omg stop >/////<" and the like

So like s/o to Lane and Mendra for this one but

The bell tolls and Ajax, albeit unintentionally, goes "Than :D!" just like Zag does in-game, Sunny immediately deadpans with "Right here, Zag"

Ajax just looks at him with stars in his eyes and one-shots Sulien right then and there on stream

And chat? Chat is losing it, calling them "cuter than the actual in-game ship". Sulien would pull his bf in for a hug to hide his blush, who would then go "Death's sweet embrace, right, solntse?", laughing to himself.

What came afterwards was the closest anyone other than Ajax ever came to hearing Sulien whine.

They get asked to cosplay them a lot too. Ginger over here thinks it's a great idea, and mister tsundere thinks that no it isn't actually. They eventually settle on a sub goal.

But embarrassment and purposefully shitty navigation aside, Sulien loves cheering Childe on.

He'll give him a pet or a kiss on the cheek every time he finishes a boss fight and/or floor successfully, and when he finishes a particularly good run, he'll just go straight for the lips.

And every time, Ajax's face lights up as if he hadn't gotten a kiss earlier. The sense of accomplishment, and the sheer happiness he always gets, every time his boyfriend gives him attention? What a high

And, while he was a bit embarrassed about it at first, there's a point where Sulien can't be bothered to think about the fact that they're on stream anymore

His boyfriend is enjoying a game he also likes, he's having fun and winning, he gets to give him affection, and he gets to see the face he loves so dearly light up like that?

For that, he'll deal with the shyness later. Him and his love are having fun, and that's all he cares about now

bro that ended up SO SAPPY anyways @heyitslane-sl @almond-adeptus aha

#ciaran writing away #mors caeli #tandrone #ajax tartaglia #sulien ambros

[macgregorhoughton]

First off, thanks for sharing your headcanons, I love them! I'm really hoping theres gonna be ride references too, from the clips we're getting the puns at least. I'm gonna be watching the backgrounds for any sneaky references to the Society but I bet you're right, its going to be in there somewhere. I’m the same with the Native issue, I’m a bit worried how they’ll deal with it but hope they might have a bit of awareness and address how messed up some of the stereotypes the ride had were- cont

Response under the cut! (following asks copied there too for reference)

First of all before I respond to anything, you do not have to apologise. This is quite literally my dream way to spend my time- talking to someone about a thing I like at length. The fact that you checked all the posts I made and took time to respond to them with your thoughts means the world to me.

2- I’m also really hoping we get a lot for McGregor (wtf is with that alternate spelling Disney?? But I do want the other two to call him Mac, I’d love that), learning to relax and find his place. I LOVE that Lily gets to do physical comedy, you’re right female characters often only get to be funny so long as that means they can still be sexy while doing it. Lily looks like she just goes “nope” to that and dives headfirst into a bit of slapstick and I love her already- cont

3- I really like Dwayne, hes got a warmth to him that comes across in Frank, even if hes trying not to show it to the siblings at first. I really want proper sibling moments too and I love that little one we got in the clip. Like, “you don’t get to laugh at my sister, now excuse me while I go give her a hand while laughing at her”. Like thats a great example of having siblings, I’ll help you out, but I’m totally going to mock you while doing it, but no one else can. BTS have me hopeful too- cont

4- I love your idea for the coming out scene. I think they’d be walking a very fine line in order to get it right, but if they did it could be wonderful. I really really hope we get that scene, no skirting around it or making vague illusions, I want McGregor to say “I’m gay” outright. Like, we’ll all know he is even if they don’t let him say it but for once I want Disney to live up to what they promised and let an actual main character be actually gay.- cont

5- I love the connection with the lights for our trio in the posters, I didn't put that together. I really want them to be a proper Trio, I’m really hoping this is a success so we can get sequels. Even if they’re terrible I still want them to see these three together. FRANK IS HUGGING MCGREGOR, I’VE GOT A GOOD FEELING ABOUT THIS ALREADY. I don’t really have many thoughts on our three villains, other than I'm getting evil musketeer, smug plantation owner & WWII in that order- cont

6- I LOVE THAT GIF SET OF THE PUNS SO MUCH!! McGregor’s little smile and his laugh, hes loving it, Frank is loving getting a reaction, Lily is going to eventually find it funny how unfunny they are. I can’t get over how much I love McGregor’s little face in this, I can’t want for this scene, I’m gonna join you in imploding. Also, in your protective brother gifset, is he wearing a little tartan/ plaid suit? Love it. And on that note, I adore Lily’s costumes- practical and realistic but flattering

7- ok so thats me taken up far too much of your ask box, I haven't even property looked at the press tour things yet, but I do have one more thing, I have a theory about how Jack ends up in the middle of Emily and Dwayne's kiss if you'd like to hear it. Thanks for kickstarting this fandom and the wonderful gif sets, we're so close now! - Skip

So on to my very long response!

I've watched SO much about the ride just so I'm prepared to catch any reference. They just released Behind the Attraction on Disney+ and ep 1 is about the Jungle Cruise ride (Dwayne Johnson is in it too!). He talks about how much he loved the ride as a kid and used to imagine himself as a skipper which is SO cute and I'm so happy his dreams came true (and I find it very relatable as someone who dreams about being a raptor handler at Universal).

I'm genuinely a lil mad that the spelling changed. Because if you google it really everyone thought it was McGregor, they must've at some point released something on the movie for the press with that spelling and then changed their mind. Now everyone has it wrong because I suspect these featurettes are also gonna be the DVD/Bluray extras so I'm confident this is the final spelling. However I will continue to live in denial until I see the other spelling ON SCREEN.

"I really like Dwayne, hes got a warmth to him that comes across in Frank, even if hes trying not to show it to the siblings at first." Yes! I love that every character is a trope that I ADORE. Frank is the cynic who thinks everyone just wants to cheat you anyway and miracles don't exist who eventually cracks and warms up to people and shows that there is a soft, warm person in there after all. Lily is wildly optimistic and aggressively individualistic, not trying to fit in or caring about what anyone thinks and will probably have a moment of losing that optimism and doubting herself after all. And McGregor is the person who appears to think he's better than everyone, who's pampered and refuses to sacrifice any of the luxuries he's used to until he reveals he's gay and you realise most of it was just a show to cover up how hurt he really is. Three PEAK character tropes we're working with here and COMBINED with a reluctant-allies to lovers and a siblings trope.

"Like, “you don’t get to laugh at my sister, now excuse me while I go give her a hand while laughing at her”. Like thats a great example of having siblings, I’ll help you out, but I’m totally going to mock you while doing it, but no one else can" I have a gifset for that queued already, I love that you also focused on that rightaway bc I really went "Siblings! peak sibling energy!!" and gifed it immediately.

Based on the reports (that I cannot stress enough I have no idea how accurate they are) he doesn't say "gay" but it's unambiguous what he's talking about. Let's hope that's true! I'm imaginging some sort of "relationships with men" or "no interest in women but rather men" or sth like that. I hadn't really considered that it might be ambiguous to someone who doesn't know he's supposed to be gay so that's a new fear unlocked lmao

I'm going to be so sad if we don't get sequels cause so many franchises with several movies don't have a core group of actors that are just friends and get along as well naturally as these three. Or if we get more movies and Jack isn't in them or sth like that. Like any future where these three aren't the leading trio in more movies is a nightmare.

"I'm getting evil musketeer, smug plantation owner & WWII in that order" this sent me I swear. I'm most interested in Edgar Ramirez bc I'm curious abt the whole "conquistador alive "today"" thing. also what's up with the snakes lmao.

McGregor laughing at Frank's puns alone could sustain me another year if I had to wait that long for the movie. Luckily I don't have to. It is so wholesome tho, like the fact that they're gonna get along and also get closer and McGregor won't end up sidelined for being a bitch until the last minute or sth is so wonderful.

And yes! It's tartan! We've seen p little of the beginning of the movie in London and since that's gonna be focused on just Lily and McGregor I'm so excited bc we got so little content so there's gonna be SO much in the movie to look forward to that I can barely even piece together!!! (All we know is lily will steal the arrowhead before falling out of the window which mcgregor sees and he immediately follows her so I assume he knew to come there and that there's a scene where she asks him in one of their bedrooms about wanting to go on an adventure. So I'm assuming the bedroom scene comes first and she'll tell him about the arrowhead, he'll refuse to help her but decide to come last minute because he's worried about her (and the worry is immediately proven right as she falls out of a window lol). But we know so little that it's a really loose theory.

And yes!! Lily's costumes are so good. Frank calls her Pants so they will absolutely address that she's dressed very unusual for a woman of her status in 1916/17 and I hope they explore that a little and address where she even gets her clothes and everything. I mean Emily Blunt looks good in everything but the costume department really made something gorgeous with this. She is, for the time the movie is set in, very gender nonconforming which I love in a female lead. And Emily described Lily's fighting style as very Indiana Jones and brutal without much tactic or thinking and just brute force and I really would die for this characterisation. Like when I compare this to similar female leads like in The Mummy for example they're usually highly feminine, aggressive only in their attittude and witty banter but always emphasised to be beautiful and wearing dresses and lots of (usually historically inaccurate) makeup and they get like one scene where they smack the bad guy with sth heavy or sth so noone can say they're a damsel in distress even though they are. But Lily feels very much like a coherent person to me. She's very unusual for a woman at her time, her desire for adventure is in line with how she fights and dresses but she doesn't seem to have the "uwu I'm not like other girls" thing going on, she's just exactly who she is and wants to be.

and of COURSE I wanna hear your theory are you kidding! Cause I still haven't figured it out at all lmao. I just settled on "she probably meant he was off screen but right next to them while they filmed it" or sth bc I couldn't make sense of it otherwise.

also I haven't posted everything new directly here I think, but you probably know where to look for the new stuff. like there's some clips on their instagrams and most stuff is on youtube.

#you are keeping me sane here skip #I am not kidding when I say there's noone who's reasonably interested enough to listen to me talk this much and in depth about it #you are god sent i swear #ask #skip

[pokefanbri]

https://www.facebook.com/104057744428568/posts/156998459134496/?sfnsn=mo&d=n&vh=e

Fucking told him its a huge red flag if someone doesn't get rid of their apps. Multiple apps. Smh 😠 "oh yea i don't use them anymore" proceeds to use fb dating app" for real come on bro!

Some comments of the post:

"If you have to be checking up on your Partner then you shouldn't be with that person.. Idk how people have time for all this .. love yourself and know your worth.."

"If you're in a serious committed exclusive relationship you should not be on tinder. That's how I met my fiance and as soon as we said we are gf and bf and exclusive we both deleted it. Honestly if I was her I would have broken up with him too"

"a person also has a right to trust their gut feeling and check things out if something's not feeling right. Knowledge is power"

I've already discussed this but this news clip further validates my point of the topic, nothing more. I could call him out on hs bs further with detail, but I won't....yet, out of respect even though he probably doesn't deserve it. Til he reaches me & apologizes for everything he's done, i can say whatever tf I want & i could make a whole damn list.

Its the events of this what happened that started our downfall to begin with cuz i didn't trust him & he didn't even try to gain it back just left it as is when I could've turned my back right then & there, no apology either. Didnt apologize much actually, not even when i last saw him. But from then we spiraled & he got bored of me. I wasn't giving him what he wanted in whatever way & he wanted to find more. Closed himself off from the beginning & that created his boredom 😒

Would've had a blast together like a normal fucking couple if he was less closed off, & wouldn't have felt the need to do shit behind my back.

I'll stop talking about it for now, I have the anger & urge to keep going but I wont...actually no Screw it im pissed 😡 but ill keep it light. Its just not fair, I did so much for him but I was disrespected in different aspects of the whole relationship. Fuck! I've talked about the positives alot cuz i do love him..but the negatives are such bs too.

I want a good ass sincere apology for all of it so I can forgive him & move on, ive already apologized myself even though I dont think I should have to 😒. Didnt even give me a straight answer for the breakup, it was always a different excuse when I know he just wanted to pursue other women without me around im not fucking stupid. His own toxicity was too much even for himself & I was in the line of fire, to where i was the toxic one? No fuck that its unacceptable, he always lied when it came to covering his own ass.

For all i know he's watching me squirm & taking pleasure in all the pain I'm going through over him cuz he likes the attention. But no I actually don't think so on that one he's still good & ill give him credit where its due. But I gave him all the attention he wanted/needed & still wanted more from someone else. Really dude fucking really!?

Man up & own up to your mistakes, speak to me where I can actually hear ur voice speaking back to me with sincerity. We'll apologize together. Yea ull be pissed about this, but after u get over it & calm down. Give in & call me, granted when ur ready, & open up for once in your damn reserved life. Itll help us both with more closure & may even take a weight off our shoulders if we just talk it out, no arguing...since we're done there's no point anyway..a friendly non judgment zone cuz idc, i won't think of u any less.

U confused me during & especially after the relationship cuz i didnt know who u really were, i know the good cuz that's what u allowed me to see, ive accepted the bad that I knew already & from what ive learned...i accepted u regardless.

I always forgave u & not cuz im passive, cuz forgiveness is what the Bible teaches.. ive forgiven u & myself the best i could especially with the last things ive showed u, (accept this part cuz im pissed rn & standing up for myself, ill delete eventually maybe if u ask cuz nobody wants to be seen any less of a person. but I can make it alot worse, calling me the mistake was the worst thing u ever said to me & pointing out your faults so u can be better throughout the relationship was my only toxicity to u) we actually never really fought except the 1 time, just argued a tiny bit rarely about little things.

Ive tried using every ounce of my courage to show u how much im sorry for any wrong ive done. but its up to u now to make things right. U know me, ive always said that u can talk to me about anything. I want to be able to trust again & move on whilst staying friends. What else do u have to lose, might even have a great heart to heart convo dude to dudet

Everything ive ever said up to this point lies all my Questions. But here's most of the list, we both were equally in control of the relationship. Maybe u didn't want me to? But doing everything I had to for myself & the household, what u & ur parents wanted of me & just me being me cuz i had to, u had your own part to play & did provide...but did u actually not want me to cater to u if it were a sign u were lazy or something? Like did u not feel worthy of me? What is it u think is my "addicting personality" that isn't fixable on the surface? What is it really that u didnt like about me? This is why i don't have closure, u left me like this, confused as well as wanting more since u held back so much. Was that on purpose to give me even more false hope & want me to pine over u? Did u ever or do u still, love me at all? What did u want from me & out of the relationship, what was the purpose of it from ur perspective & why do u think i couldn't give that to u? What did i lack that u felt compelled to not tell me so I could improve & vise versa so we both could improve? Why wouldn't u allow me to help u become a better man when (I shouldnt have to btw), its exactly what u wanted but maybe didnt see it? Do u realize your own faults even as u do them? Lol. Like i genuinely want to know as much as the good ive seen, cuz to be better the more open of a person u are the more u understand yourself too.

Unless claiming u want to be a better man is part of ur alluring charm in love bombing process to land a caring girl on purpose lol...god I hope not, that would just mean u rinse & repeat like a for real narcissist 🤔 seriously tho look into that im not even kidding, im asking cuz i care. Im pissed now but 1 thing is that im trying to not put ur behavior against u cuz maybe u can't help it, its just the way u are, all ive seen & experienced points to maybe 50% of u lol. Ive always suspected narcissism, a real psych problem that might be worth looking into. But yea 1 of the reasons especially why im so forgiving & trying not to put it against u, why i still care despite u being a dick lol. I chose to look past it, all the time & up to now cuz I understand what its like to have psychological ailments. The worst part about it is most dont realize it, so i encourage u to do some research & self reflection & admitting it to urself are the 1st steps. Okay? There's different kinds & levels to being 1 too, i found that fascinating. bryan is definitely a different type, ur more lighter than that...definitely not the worst which is the physical harm type. Trust me its worth finding out more about yourself, just dont use it to ur advantage in a bad way but i trust u to do right & grow. Not sure a discarded supply (ie me) has ever tried telling a narcy what they might be for the benefit of their own self awareness 🤔,idk if its ever been done, but theres a 1st for everything? U can find alot on it in quora digest alone but Google is also ur friend.

You always were worth every effort of mine to help u in any way to be happy, & i was most happy when u were. U mean alot to me still, its the effect u had on me, I was under ur spell lol its hard to rid myself of it still, not sure when it'll pass. I chose to see it as a gift rather than a curse, that ur effect on me is still so strong when I shouldn't give a damn. If u really are a narcy, then I understand & don't put alot against u cuz its just the way u are & i need to accept it, but if it somehow helps u to help yourself cuz of it, then whats the harm? But, even in doing this or having my socials public for u...maybe just feeds into what u want...i still dont care, I want u to see how bad or good im doing without u in my life, so u know im okay at least. U promised friendship, least I can do is allow u to keep tabs on me too we spoke of, on my end of things.

The 18th of June was the last time i saw u. It'll soon be a month ago in about a week & a 1/2 & your birthday would mark 2 months. Cant believe we couldn't even last through to that 😔

Mark my words playa I will be contacting u on that day lol. Can't ghost your homie forever sweetie

[randoms-world]

Prom (Stanley Uris x oc x bill Denbrough)

Jaymi didn't even understand why she had to he here right now but her parents kind of forced her to come to her high school prom even tho she had basically no one to go with not even friends. She sighs as she toke another sip of the punch from her cup as she looked over to the group she used to be friends with, she smiled seeing them have a good time together. They had all seemingly ditched her when they got to high school "oh who do we have here" she heard the voice of greta "greta leave me alone please, just for one night" Jaymi begged but of course greta didn't listen. She instead decided to pour the hole pnuch ball over Jaymi's head making the hole room laugh and Jaymi just ran out crying unaware that there were some people who didn't laugh at her. She just fell to the floor in the empty hall way and cried feeling overly humiliated "hey you alright?" She hear someone asks and she looked to see Stanley Uris and bill Denbrough "yea I'm totally fine" she says sounding ver sarcastic. She watched as either of them sat either side her "look we're sorry about ignoring you it's just both our parents pust so much pressure on us and we tried to please them" stan says and Jaymi softly smiled. She understood that Bill's parents wanted him to succeed and Stanley's farther always put him under a lot of pressure "I understand guys, it's just been lonely without any of you guys around" she said as she held stan and Bill's hands. It was a very sweet sight "so we were wondering if you'd like to be our girlfriend?" Bill asked and of course Jaymi said yes, she always had been in love with these two boys "awww this is so cute" they heard someone say and they saw the rest of the losers. They got up and Beverley helped Jaymi fix her makeup and they all walked back inside "awww you actually came back" greta says and bill got right in her face "leave her the hell alone greta" he snarled and the other losers stood with Jaymi. Greta accepted walked away and left then alone "thanks guys, promise we'll always be friends with each other" jaymi says and they all promised "guys let's get a picture" mike suggested and the rest agreed and they went to the photographer and smiled. Stan and bill kiss Jaymi's cheek as the camera flashes and they all felt very happy that their back together again. At the end of the night stan and bill walked Jaymi home "you guys are too sweet" she says happily, she actually glad her mother made her go now "anything for the most beautiful girl in the world" bill says making Jaymi blush. They eventually get to her house "we'll here we are" Jaymi says and she kisses both their cheeks "see you both tomorrow" she says and she went inside leaving two blushing and smiling boys who had stolen her heart.

#it chapter two #it movie #it 2017 #it chapter one #it 2019 #bill denbrough #stanley uris #eddie kaspbrak #richie tozier #ben hanscom #mike hanlon #beverley marsh #losers club #the losers club

[capn-charlie]

(1/?) hey. i want your opinion if that's ok. me and my best friend (both f) have just been absolutely off/on. when she doesn't have a bf she's CONSTANTLY talking to me and we're great, which i love. we facetime 3 times a day and text alllll day but then as soon as she gets a boyfriend she gets weird and tells me i'm acting different, we fight, we stop talking, then eventually her and her bf break up and we become best friends again. it's a stupid cycle. only problem here is that i have recently

(2/?) realized i’m gay. i thought, for a bit, she was too. she constantly reblogs naked girls, her phone screen is literally a collage of girls and provocative pictures of them. it’s the weirdest thing. when we became friends again after our first fight (we met last august, were friends, she got a bf in november, we didn’t talk from mid nov-end of may) but for awhile ALL she talked about was boys with me. she doesn’t know i’m gay but holy charlie she wouldn’t stop talking about them. it was

(3/?) ridiculous. but now that she is back with her boyfriend.. the same one we stopped talking over before (side note/ we didn’t stop talking because of him. he’s a nice guy i think. she just dropped off the earth and didn’t need me any more and transferred her need to him) ANYWAY charlie i’m gay. she doesn’t know this. i don’t know how or if i should tell her simply because we aren’t in a good place right now as it is. we barely talk right now. idk if my sexuality has anything to do with it

(4/4) or what the heck is going on but i suppose i’m just looking for an opinion on if i should come out to someone that i initially kinda thought was gay as well but idk if she is cause all she does is talk about boys. we are so lovey when she isn’t with them tho, like constant calls and texts and fts and snaps and u name it. i’m so confused charlie. like nobody knows about me yet. should i risk it and tell her? we’re doomed anyways right now. what do i do?

(last one i promise)i should mention she is an ass to me. all my friends and family see it. she treats me quite poorly but gets mad when i don’t stick up for myself but gets even more mad when i do. it’s tricky. what do i do? help haha please

Before I give my advice/response, I just wanted to say I’m sorry it took me so long to answer! I saw these at like… 4 A.M. and I wanted to answer but I had two, massive dogs sleeping on me and I couldn’t make it to my laptop. Anywho, here we go:

In the (choppy) words of Spencer Hastings (because I suck atremembering dialogue): Don’t ask me what to do. Flip a coin. You’ll have abetter chance at happiness.

No, I’m kidding. I’ll try my best to help out.

When I read your first message, I initially wondered, whenshe says you act differently once she gets a boyfriend, if you really do actdifferently… but then I understood as I kept reading. I say I understoodbecause I’ve been in that type of spot and it’s tricky. I think both partiesoften act differently, even if they don’t realize – or perhaps both partiesrealize there’s an issue without confronting it directly.

I’m not going to flat-out say she likes girls or notbecause, first of all, I don’t know her whatsoever, and, even if I did, I don’thave the right to assume her sexuality. No one does, unfortunately (not sayingyou were/are, don’t worry). She could be questioning herself without reallyquestioning it, almost like there’s a nagging feeling even though one can’tpinpoint what that feeling is – or maybe she knows what/who she is but hasn’tmentioned it. Even if she acts “boy-crazy,” it doesn’t diminish her potentialquestioning and I think that’s important to remember.

You said she has a boyfriend as of now, so I want totheorize that your lack of communication has to do with that. Again, I could bewrong and I can’t just assume because it’s not my place, but that’s what itsounds like. If she doesn’t know your sexuality, then I don’t think that’s thereason for your disconnect. My starter piece of advice is to confront her aboutyour communication rift. Don’t accuse her of anything (like if it’s because she’stoo wrapped up in her boyfriend, or that she left you high-and-dry for __reason), but ask if there’s something up because you feel like you’ve both beenkinda… not yourselves (as a friendship; not as individuals). Say you were justwondering because it’s been on your mind and you don’t know if something’sgoing on. I won’t lie, this might be kinda terrifying to do and I’m notsure what the answer will be, but it’s a great place to start even if it endsin hearing something you don’t particularly want to. I’ve had this happen timeand time again and, I promise, even if it’s a shitty response, it’s a bigweight lifted off your shoulders.

If you want to come out to her, then do so, but please don’tdo it just because you think you two are doomed. When coming out, you’re notdoing it as an attempt to save your relationship with someone and you’re notdoing it to please anyone but yourself. This is an internal thing where youshow your true colors (cue the rainbow flag). Coming out (no matter the reason)is great, but do it on your own terms; not because you think it could maybehelp a situation. Either way, I’m proud of you for realizing who you are andbeing willing to come out. That’s a huge step from a personal standpoint.

What I want to address is in the final ask you sent me.Again, it’s not my place to have a hard opinion, but I want you to think toyourself for a while and wonder if this friendship is worth trying torepair/get closure on. You say that she’s an ass to you and everyone sees it, butdo you see it? If you do, then is that toxicity worth something that used to begolden (because, from what you tell me, it sounded like a nice, solidrelationship before)? No matter what you decide to do and if you choose toconfront her about the lack of communication, I’m with you 100%. This isultimately your decision and I’m honored that you asked for my input, really.This shit is tricky but you’ll get through it.

#also I know this is an anon advice-request but tell me if you want it taken off my blog #and I know this may be shitty advice but I promise it'll be okay #answered ask

[3vercl3ar]

I can feel there is about to be a big shift in my life. I've begun to make some realizations, and with those I've realized that I cannot continue to live this way. Some of the choices I've made have lead me here, and I can acknowledge that, but the part that I can't get past is how fucking hard I've tried, and how much it hurts to know that no matter what I do, things will never change. I can't wait around forever. It's a vicious cycle, constantly waiting, hoping, thinking things are great, then it all spiralling out of control again. Then promises, apologizes, and stability. Eventually, it all repeats. It's tearing me apart, my chest is cracking open allowing myself to think and feel all of this. Sometimes it get to be too much and I break down. But I know that in the end, this is what's best. Things haven't even been set into motion and it already sucks. Knowing the last half decade of my life has just been a delay, a stall in time; but I may have needed this to grow. I feel more like myself than I ever had. I'm getting to the point where I feel as tho I no longer have you, probably because no matter how much I cared, I never got it in return. How words that would break me, just slide right over you. Like oil and water, we just don't mix. We're both such different people now, or maybe it is just me who changed. But I feel no remorse for changing, I like who I am. I like having a voice and demand to be heard. I know what I want out of my life, and you just can't give me that. Either because you simply can't express it or you just don't care to. Yet you demand the same from me, and when I can't right then, I'm 'shutting you out' or someone else HAS to be involved. Yet, did you ever really let me in ? I haven't felt at home with you in a long time, and every time things started to get better, you sabotaged it. If you want me gone just say so, just please stop hurting me with lies and empty words all the time. I've been trying for so long that I just don't have it in me to try anymore. And maybe I am pulling the panic cord, maybe I am just giving up and running away. But I've given this, us, YOU five years of my time, love and devotion, all to be met with still silence when I said I was done. Nothing. After 5 years, nothing. Did you ever really love me ? Or did you just love the idea of being with me ? We're my demons to much ? Was my voice too loud? Did I expect too much ? Where did we go wrong ? I ask questions I'll never get answers to, we both know it. The pain of past betrayals just won't go away. It seems it's best if I don't stay. Things will be, hard. I'll never stop loving you. But I can't continue down this path of destruction and turmoil with you. And it hurts me to say, but I do hope you find happiness with someone else one day. I wish you no ill will. Only to be gentle with me, since we are bonded for life. I'll never get that sigh of relief because it's been so long that I've seen you, I've begun to forget your hands, your smell, your touch. You will forever be apart of my life. That's why it's been so hard to walk away. There is no escaping this.. us. You say we can work it out and things will get betyer, but I just don't believe you anymore. It's been said too many times to feel like it's worth the fight. Maybe we will work it out, maybe we will be a happy family, maybe we'll find that connection we lost so long ago. But right now, I don't have it in me to fight for this anymore. I'm tired. I'm so fucking tired. I just hope you know, it was you I wanted all along, only you, only us. I'm sorry that wasn't enough.