#tw school trauma

[vintagestrawberrydoll]

I think the biggest thing I had to come to terms with my bullying was that it wasn’t my fault. No matter how “weird”, I was no matter how “different” I was I didn’t deserve it. I was a human being, I was a child I never deserved it

#archyr speaks #tw bullying #actually traumatized #actuallybullied #tw school trauma #school trauma #educational trauma #ok to comment/rb

[justabirdboy]

yknow like i know school is fucked up but i never hear people talk about the demonization of mediocrity in school. it's everywhere. make a 100 on your test. be in the top 10 percent, you want to succeed in life dont you? make all As. do all your homework: join a club. join three clubs. volunteer. and we do all this just to make it to college or get a job. as if we must break ourselves trying to be the best, just to deserve a life. it is so ingrained in us and remembering all the times i cried as a child because i didn't know how to do a math problem, and therefore wasn't "trying hard enough" or "paying attention" is heartbreaking. you can tell students that it's okay to make mistakes as much as you want, let them retake as much as you want, but it wont fix the horrible, heart wrenching, panic attack inducing fear of mediocrity that society instills into children. this is a traumatic event, especially for kids who are deemed "gifted", "intelligent", or "academically talented" by teachers and/or parents. this also is especially traumatic for those with learning disabilities or people who just lagged behind in school. why is it so bad to just be mediocre at some things? maybe a 50 percent is okay. maybe failing is okay.

#lgbtq #trans #actually autistic #autism #disability #learning disability #adhd #actually audhd #actually adhd #depression #anxitey #school #tw school #tw school trauma #school system #actually mentally ill #mental illness #mediocrity

[the-moth-from-elsewhere]

Hey Elsie, posting this off anon so you can respond privately if you want. Or if you don't want to respond at all, then that's okay too!

I know that school work can be difficult, but you aren't going to be able to do any of it if you're panicking.

The best advice I can give is do something that'll calm you down, maybe watch a show you like, or even work on the fluff you want to work on. But set a timer, no more than say an hour, and when that timer is up go back to your schoolwork. Hopefully you'll be in a better headspace to work on it then.

If it's something that's not due in for a few days, talk to your teacher and see if you can get some help for it. Or if it is due tomorrow, maybe try and talk to your teacher before the lesson and explain that you were struggling with it, and hopefully they can give you some advice.

I hope this helps at least a little bit! Good luck with your homework, I believe in you!

Tw for: still a mess lol

Thanks, (Vian? I think that’s your name because of your url?)

More big sad (TM) under the cut so people don’t have to see it:

tbh I need sleep and am two steps from a meltdown, so i’ma just…write my fluff and go to bed. Idk, maybe cry in the guidance counselor’s office in the morning. Finally get around to just plain saying “hey yeah I’m a wreck and barely holding myself together no this isn’t sustainable” and yeah it all might land me in hot water but what else can I really do but just say the truth and get over it.

sorry that was depressing lol

idk

Maybe if I have this stupid meltdown in front of people, they’ll finally get the point.

#Tw vent #tw depression #tw school trauma #tw anxiety #cw vent #vent #thanks tho friendo :D

[ryebreadtheoriginal]

In school, they always teach us how to avoid shooters in the classroom, but never in the hallway or cafeteria... what are we supposed to do in that situation if it actually happened one day?

#tw school shooting #tw school violence #tw school mention #tw school trauma #tw school #tw guns #tw gun #tw gun mention #shooter drill #school shooters #school drill

[pandorasboxoftreasures]

A lot of you guys have no idea... Really. You don’t. The accuracy is chilling. (TW Child Abuse/Homicidal Thoughts/Violence/Mental Illness/Depression)

People that think they know me: “You’re so nice and kind and have a strong sense of justice and fairness and wouldn’t hurt a fly. How could you possibly identify with that awful, angry, violent alien monster?”

Me: *Explains the time a year after leaving school I found myself sat opposite on a bus from the kid that two years prior stabbed me in the ear with a pencil and worse, then had the whole class that watched and laughed defending him saying he did nothing when I fought back, even though he permanently scarred my right eardrum and damaged my hearing, then used my reason for having to leave class early that day (my dad had a hospital appointment) and forced me to be kept behind by the teacher and punished for fighting, even though I was literally trembling with shock and pain and barely able to speak through my PTSD episode to ask to have my ear checked but being ignored.*

*Makes this exact face remembering imagining following him off and the permanent damage I was going to do to him if he gave me any additional reason or opening to and looked down at him like that the whole time leaving him squirming in his seat, terrified, unable to make eye contact while also saying to him with the exact same tone and pitch as in that shot and said the following word for word because that moment was burned into my brain with how much I look back on it years later scared with what I'm^ capable of doing to someone and how close I was to doing it*  

“Hello, Michael... That’s you, aye? Yeah... That’s you. Like my new look...”

“... or am I too legal?”

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^ Yes, present tense. Because those wounds can only be managed since they don’t fully heal. I find myself getting very close once in a while to that violent 17 year old looking for relief from my grief and pain of what he and others like him did to the bright, friendly, happy, excited child with a promising future that walked into that school building and never came home. 

The fact that they could figuratively kill that kid like that, drive the husk left behind to almost literally finish off the job and then walk away and live happy little lives with relationships and children and careers and good reputations and family support and nothing coming back to bite them ever while my world and future had completely crumbled and imploded boils in my veins to this day.

Over three dozen therapy sessions have helped with management. Hobbies provide an outlet. My career path is in the one that ultimately saved me where all others failed. Video games. The places where I could safely trigger catharsis.

But I still need to keep checking myself so I don’t become that scared and wracked with despair thrashing for someone vaguely related to the people that pushed me into the water to pull down and stop myself from drowning empty shell of a former being again.

Seeing it on screen that night I impulsively bought the tickets for seat M10 in Screen 12, hit me like two couch-sized arrows to the chest. 

I didn’t think I would ever see it happen and be so accurate with something I didn’t make. I was making it. But it looks like I got beat to the punch.

And how haunting, but also how great it is to see. Someone in the pipeline between the firing of neurons and the firing of pixels empathised enough to make it realistic in the face of the convenience of a simple villain.

It may make him more scary because of how raw he is and people like me knowing what he’s capable of with that knowledge and experience of being there (especially after the end of Way Of Water where he’s in an even lower state), but it’s real.

I’m scared for Ritch as much as I’m scared for what he will do to others.

I wasn’t just being like “Oh, no, Lo’ak/Kiri! Don’t hurt Lo’ak/Kiri!”. I was at the other end of the gun/knife going “Don’t do it, man. It’s not gonna make it better. Crossing that line is a lot harder to come back from. Don’t do that to yourself just to get back at him. You’re a snake coiling yourself around a saw. YOU’RE BETTER THAN THIS!”

It’s the same with Neytiri grabbing Spider, too.

I think I need to drop this video down here before I consider this post done for now. I’ve still got a lot more to say, but that’s probably better saved for later.

But last word on it? Yeah. He better get a redemption arc... AND LIVE!

Because Christ knows there’s not enough characters like that in media for how many people are battling those demons IRL.

The more there are, the more conversations the real people can start.

Trust me, you don’t wanna keep sending the message that the only way to heal, repent and move forward after these kinds of thoughts and actions is to die.

#real talk about fiction #real talk #tw #tw school trauma #tw child molestation #tw child abuse #this character is too real #tw violent thoughts #atwow quaritch #most relatable character ever #tw depressing thoughts #recom quaritch #my life #recom miles quaritch #emotional resonance #redemption arc #healing from trauma #mental illness #na'vi quaritch #miles quaritch #atwow #avatar twow #james camerons avatar #avatar the way of water #the way of water #way of water #character analysis #character development #if only I could have been at that damn Q&A #mental health awareness

[criminalmindsgonewrong]

the vilification of the trans community continues

#tw school trauma

[mon--carat]

Suppalo's Punishments

Okay so in this episode we got to see the more brutal side of Suppalo's punishments. And I just had some thoughts.

I was abused by my primary(elementary, junior) school headteacher. She was a big fan of public humiliation, it seemed to be encouraged as a manner of punishment. Along with hitting things, stalking the corridors, shouting and berating.

Now I see these same behaviours in Teacher Chadok, who seems to be second in command in the school. He slams a book off the desk when addressing the prefects, shouts to instil fear in the students, and publically shames the protesters.

I saw my younger self in those protesters.

They had done nothing wrong, they are well within their rights to protest but regardless, are shamed and made to feel small in front of their peers. This happened to me quite a few times, whether I had done something 'wrong' or not. I was made to stand in front of my class and would be yelled at, insulted or left to stand there.

The whole punishment idea is personified through the curse. The students are led to believe that they are responsible for any happenings. They must protect themselves(and others as Kan says) from being injured or killed.

Every student is affected by the strict, oppressive environment. Thua lets it slide as it's not for long, Wat, Akk and Kan are looking forward to leaving due to the curse. It's tearing them all down.

Sometimes I feel a little triggered as the show depicts things similar to my old school but damaging school environments need to be seen and addressed.

In regards to Ayan, he and I are very similar. The way he speaks, dresses and reacts to those in authority is how I am now.

Ayan was traumatized by his uncle's death just as I was by my headteacher. Both these traumas are linked with rules and a school setting.

To anyone who reads all this, thank you!<3 I really wanted to get my thoughts out :)

#the eclipse series #the eclipse #thai drama #thai bl #akk x ayan #first kanaphan #khaotung thanawat #tw abuse mention #tw school trauma #uhh yeah #hope this made sense

[pinkieloveheartpastel]

And you know, the thing that pisses me off even more is this truancy bullshit.

The ideal that someone should be labeled a fucking criminal for not working themselves to death like a fucking slave trying to keep up with a shit ton of homework that you’ve assigned to them, expecting them to do a shit ton of fucking lessons in two fucking days.

Forcing them to put their whole entire life away and worry about numbers, or else you’ll fucking ruin them for it. As if we’re fucking robots. Fuck you. People should not be fucking punished for not doing shit on your pathetic timeline. People should not be punished because they want to push that slavery shit aside and actually prioritize their health and do shit on their own time, and actually enjoy their life.

They should not be punished just because they don’t want to learn. Learning is not something that should be forced onto people, or else. You can’t make people do shit.

Studying should be enjoyable, not mandatory or a chore. People should want to learn and on their own time, not be forced to learn, and especially shit that they don’t give a fuck about at all, because you’ll do something bad to them if they don’t. It’s fucking disgusting.

It’s fucking prison.

I was almost labeled a truant because I couldn’t keep up with all these fucking lessons and it fucking killed me emotionally and damn near literally. School is a product of capitalism.

#fuck school #tw school trauma #school

[cats-and-confusion]

"Why do kids hate school so much" because you’re giving ten year olds a thirty hour work week. Because you’re giving twelve year olds a thirty hour work week with people they hate. Because you’re giving fourteen year olds a thirty hour work week with people they hate and still have work to do at home. Because you’re giving sixteen year olds a thirty hour work week with people they hate and still have work to do at home and are now expected to get another job. Because you’re giving eighteen year olds seventy hour work weeks with people they hate and still have shit to do at home

#vent #school #tw school mention #tw school trauma

[the-creepy-guy-around-the-corner]

You ever wanna know what the teachers are doing during all of those school threats? Being scared together and trying to calm each other down. The fact that I had to hold my door closed try not to cry and keep 30 teenagers quiet calm and under their desks while I was mentally preparing to tackle any one that got through my boobytrapped door was just another Monday for me? Not ok. Me and my kids were all ok. The threat thankfully was just that: a threat. Some one called it in to scare us because they know we’re in such a culture of fear around gun violence at school that it’s now that easy to traumatize an entire high school of kids with just a threat.

And people wonder why we’re all fleeing education.

#gun violence #tw gun violence #tw school trauma #tw school shooting #I came home grabbed my cats and started sobbing

[fanfiction-artist-prototype]

You ever see a silly little humans are space orcs post and suddenly remember something deeply fucked  up from your childhood?

Anyway, one time this girl in my school in her last year of primary (age 11) broke her wrist and had to have to in a cast and it was her dominant hand and her teacher didn’t believe her and made her write with it, worsening the injury but the girl did it anyway so as to not get in trouble and she ended up fucking up her wrist and two weeks later when we had a school wide assembly for ‘head teacher awards’ which were little stickers with those words on them she got one and in front of all the school staff (including the girls mother who worked as a dinner lady and had no idea this was going on) the teacher explained why she got one and turned around and embarrassed her by saying she ‘didn’t believe she was injured’ because the girl ‘liked to find ways to get out of work’ but she’d proven her wrong and she was ‘really proud’ that she’d ‘pushed through and done her work’.

Yeah she was pulled out of that school the next week and her Mother quit. The teacher never got in trouble for it.

#tw injury #tw school trauma #personal #proto rambling

[autistic-fandom-trash]

school trauma has basically given me the entire s3-s4 melanie king experience. anger issues and near constant interpersonal conflict, being trapped somewhere terrible with seemingly no hope of escape but choosing to fight back anyway before finally getting out, nobody fucking believing me about my problems until it’s too late if at all, losing a part of my sense of self, wanting to fucking stab someone.

but i dont get to try to assassinate el*as. what a ripoff.

#tma #melanie king #tw school trauma

[neverperfect-neverskinny]

Pierdole mam coraz większy problem z nauka. Szczególnie z matematyka a na początku roku było idealnie a teraz to jakaś tragedia

#tw school trauma #i wish i was thinner #i need to be thin #będę idealna #będę lekka #motylki #nie będę jeść #lekka jak motyl #motylki any #bede motylkiem #skiny legs #bad grades #będę perfekcyjna #tw ana diary #body dysphoria #chce być perfekcyjna #chce byc piekna

[cakemunchies]

Call this a controversial idea, but I think those who make threats of shooting up a school are bad people. Shocking, I know

#tw school mention #tw school shooting #tw school trauma #yes this is something I actually just had an argument about #text post

[forgottentincan]

being seen as mean and rude when i care is just really draining also i think i stopped caring as much also expecting so much from others. being treated and put down really affected me. why am i worth a risk? i wasn't worth being challenged. my feelings didn't matter. im still nice but my niceness well it only goes so far. you never cared about my feelings or my wants. the world has given up on me. feel free to hate me i don't hate me anymore and you have the right too hate me all you want. for the longest time i blamed myself for everything until one day i said enough is enough. im still kind i still care but i just don't have time to be drained and mistreated anymore. being treated like i don't matter well k bye. i matter i always did. i matter. i didn't choses this life but it was ruined. i blamed myself for to long even if mh professionals were convinced i didn't. the pain my body has been through. now im going to jump up and down on the trampoline and slam my feet down all i want because i deserve more.

i will no longer let the world drain me

i don't deserve to suffer anymore

my needs deserve to be meet

#personality disorder #tw trauma #tw vent blog #tw mental disorders #complex ptsd #childhood trauma #tw ptsd #tw medical trauma #tw school trauma #i want you to know how much pain your words have ruined who i was #actually traumatized #trauma vent

[adolins-smile]

It's really messed up that there was a bomb threat at the College in my town today and that didn't make it beyond local news. Like, how can large-scale violent attacks/threats be so commonplace that it's no longer a big deal that it happens? I've been freaking out all afternoon because I know a lot of people on that campus, I have family on that campus, and it's just any ordinary day in the US.

(Note: they have called all clear and arrested someone, everyone is safe, but I'm sure there will be trauma following this for so many people)

#not cosmere #tw violence #tw bomb #tw school trauma