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List of things that point towards Gojo Satoru & Geto Suguru being kissers of boys with connections to eachother

(If they did kiss though is another story)

Note: the list will be divided into different sections with space in between. So don't go speed scrolling through if you don't want spoilers. :"3

Some of these are less serious, but are still included because all the more content for these two sillies.

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572. This number is used frequently as a ship number for the two as "GoGe" the ship name can also be produced as "GoNatsu". Go means 5 and the rest sound similar to 72. These numbers ironically show up accross the series a few times and also in official merch. (Some examples being a clock in season 2 episode 1 stopped at 5 hours 7 minutes 20 seconds or a Gojo teddy bear priced at ¥57,200)

JJK official fanbook

"Q: Please tell us his first impression when he first met Geto. A: Bangs."

"Q: He seems to be aware that he is handsome, but doesn't he want a lover? A: I can't imagine Gojo being faithful to a particular woman."

"Q: Is there anything you are particular about Geto's character design? A: Bangs"

One of Gojo's songs & one of Geto's songs given to them. "Shame on you" by "Avicii" (a break up song) for Gojo and "Come back Home" by "Two door cinema club" for Geto. Stated in volume 3 chapter 24.

The sheer amount of times Geto shows up in MMVs for Gojo and how they display the impact Geto had on Gojo (For example, the latest MMV for volume 26's release)

Their birthday's solar terms tying in with parts. (Geto being "Risshun" beginning of spring & Gojo being "Taisetsu" heavy snow.)

Rings for them that were released on August 8th, which is "Pairing day" in Japan

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Jujutsu Kaisen 0

Geto's kesa is specifically a Gojo kesa

Gojo stating in 0 that

"I've always believed... ...Love manifests the most distorted curses." / "This is my personal theory, but there's no curse more twisted than love."

Even after 10 years, Gojo recognized Geto's smell. (The mall scene after Yuta & Toge fought the curse)

Geto renaming someone to "Sato" because

"That's what I've decided, so Sato is better."

This sunset scene

Gojo's veil is black & Geto's veil is white. Gojo's veil causes darkness, Geto's does not. [Peep who reminded me]

The song "This is pure love" not only plays over Yuta & Rika vs Geto, but also plays over Geto & Gojo's conversation

The way that Geto looks at Gojo & says his name, and how Gojo looks at Geto & says his name

Geto's blushing face at Gojo that we were robbed of in the anime

Some of the lines from the JJK 0 light novel lines

"Yet Gojo's bandage-covered eyes kept watching, kept following the shape of Geto's soul."

"But to Gojo Satoru, he was —— '————, ————' '...ha.' When he heard the words Gojo blurted out, Geto couldn't help but laugh. Such embarrassing [...] words. Even why they were students, those words had never been said before. 'You should've at least cursed me a little before the end.' December 24, 2017. The curse called Geto had been well and truly exorcised."

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Season 1

JJK Juju stroll

"Q: What kind of person is your type?" Gojo: "[...]The one who seemed nice. With the notable bangs."

yes, i know who he stated but the way he answered was so half arsed as he struggled to come up with an answer as an example of his type. 💀

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Season 2

Again, the way they look at each other and say each other's names (There's another picture with Gojo looking at Geto, but I'm missing it right now)

THE HECKIN GOJO & GETO VALENTINES CAKE??

They literally even have a themed honeymoon place???

Geto makes sure Gojo has his favorite soda. :3

Part 1 / volume 8 - 9

The intro for season 2 part 1

"Even after I got to know the smell of you, different from mine"

"In such a color as if it were a silent love"

"I've got a curse word for you stuck in the back of my throat"

The outro for season 2 part 1:

"Even trivial conversations are fine Show me your blushing face once more"

"It only exists here I want to touch you"

The fish in the outro

The flowers in the intro & outro. [Peep who reminded me]

The purple ones (Located on table in the part where older Gojo is sitting in a chair by a window) are possibly Primula/Primrose flowers. They can represent young love, beauty, desire, desperate, and can be a symbol of spring and renewal/new beginnings. etc.

The yellow ones (Located in the part where Gojo & Geto are sitting together with their hands & cans of soda surrounded by the flowers) are possibly osmanthus flowers. They can represent love, passion, happiness, beauty, etc.

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Geto not answering Tsukumo Yuki's question of what kind of woman is his type more than once

When Geto is asked by Haibara if he would like a sweet or savory souvenir, Geto says

"Satoru will probably have some too, so maybe something sweet."

Part 2 / volume 11

This whole image (Geto in the glasses on the left, and Kenjaku's silhouette on Gojo's face on the right)

Season 2 part 2's "Specialz" intro hidden meaning

Despite the following about Geto's state, Geto's body still instinctively reacted to stop Kenjaku from hurting Gojo.

"Q: Fake Geto's arm was moving during the Shibuya Incident, but how much of Geto's consciousness remains in the body? A: Not much. He was moving like how a dragonfly whose neck was torn off can move."

Fun fact: Some owls pair/bond for life (Whether the owl is supposed to be Geto's because Kenjaku is using Geto at the time or it's not Geto's animal because that is Kenjaku is up to you)

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Volume 26

The Camilla flowers with snow. Not only do they represent Gojo well with their meaning, including one meaning being unchanging/strong love alongside modest love / beauty for pink, but flowers are given to different dates. The birth flower of February is this flower, said to bloom on the 3rd of this month. Aka Geto's birthday.

Chapter 236

Gojo actively chose to fight on December 24th (a day considered romantic for Japan) which is now the day both Geto and him have died on. Even Kenjaku acknowledges the days significance with

"Ha ha! How romantic. Isn't it gross to make plans with each other on Christmas eve?"

These lines

Both Gojo & Geto's volumes' numbers can have bad meanings in Japan. 4 can mean death & 9 can mean to suffer/agony. (I put this under volume 26's section because of the spoiler)

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There's likely more, but this is what we could think of right now. XD If you have anything you want to add on, feel free to send it my way because the more help the better & easier this is. (^w^ ) Same for any corrections to the list (as it's just me writing up this post and I may make slip ups)

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[iamnmbr3]

I find your analysis' really fun and I love how JKR, unintentionally created a narrative where drarry somehow has more chemistry than ginny who's literally forgotten in the 3rd, 4th books???? Like mam, if you want to build a romance then make them have actual conversations? I, myself like ginny and like the concept of hinny but the way JKR sucked at writing them infuriated me.

But anyhow, I also love drarry, though as much as I like and agree with your assessment; there is something I'll have to disagree with, and that is I don't harry found draco attractive. Because the thing with Harry is; no matter who that person is, my guy is really honest with how he views that person. Each time as he saw Riddle grow, my guy was like; hot damn. Also Cedric. Sirius. Bro literally calls regulus "not as hot as Sirius" so we are know Harry has never once found draco attractive. As for the gleaming eyes, pointy chin; well I also like giving my characters good description so people would understand what to imagine; I'm not making everyone simp on about everyone. promise!!!!!!

( I just like them falling in love after the war, and Idrc if they found each other good looking or not, I just don't like how people just take basic description of a character and says oh he describes how he looks, he must like him!!!!! No guys, he is just saying bro has a pointy chin and his eyes glows because he probably is gonna do something!!!!!)

I just wanted to get this out and I am not really active on Tumblr, and don't like posting. This is just me wanting to discuss this one hc😞 but I hope u have a good day and I adore ur hcs and analysis.❤️

Thank you! And yeah I feel like JKR really did Ginny dirty with the way hinny happened. I like book 5 Ginny so much more than book 6 and 7 Ginny. She deserved so much better than to be reduced to a love interest who is "Harry's perfect girl" to use JKR's phrase rather than someone who got to be her own fully realized character with a distinct personality and interests (as she was in book 5 before JKR overdid it trying to make her the ideal Love Interest TM). I think it would've been cool if she ended up with Neville since they bonded during their year at Hogwarts in book 7 and fought side by side and mutually respected each other as equals.

It just says it all that after the Battle of Hogwarts Harry doesn't have a single interaction with her. He immediately wants to spend time with Ron and Hermione because he feels a deep bond with them but just vaguely thinks that there will be time to talk with Ginny later. He isn't even sitting by her at the table because it's Luna who is next to him and offers to create a distraction so he can leave.

As for Harry's descriptions of Draco, I'm going to push back on that although of course everyone is perfectly entitled to their own interpretations. The thing is, Harry is extremely judgmental about people's looks and insults the appearances of all the other Slytherins. A lot. But he NEVER does that with Draco. Ron does. Ron insults Draco's looks all the time. But Harry never goes along with it or agrees and his internal monologue and descriptions of Draco are notably lacking the insults he directs at almost every other member of Draco's House as well as other people he dislikes.

But that's not because he isn't looking. Because he is. A LOT. He doesn't just describe Draco's looks. He dwells on them. Repeatedly. We know SO much about how Draco looks because Harry CONSTANTLY notices and mentions it in his internal monologue. Draco's grey eyes are mentioned repeatedly in every book. As is his sleek blond hair. Harry doesn't even mention Ron's eye color once till book 7, but we get multiple descriptions of Draco's eyes down to the exact shade - specifically pale grey. And same for his hair - along with observations about how it gleams in the sunlight. Even when Harry's in danger he takes a second to check out how Draco's looking. And that is at odds with how he describes other characters.

He never calls Ginny pretty or beautiful either but he does seem to have at least some level of physical attraction to her and often describes her hair...and that's pretty much it. Yeah I'm pretty sure that relationship fizzles once the peace happens. (I've read very compelling metas on Harry being gay and I think there's a lot there though personally I do still read him as bi but with a strong preference for men).

Draco is someone that Harry would not get together with till after the war. And I don't think he wants to acknowledge, even to himself, that he is attracted to him. But he sure spends a lot of time repeatedly noticing and describing and thinking about Draco's appearance in a way he doesn't with other characters. Something is making him look. And I think that something is attraction.

Now obviously this was completely not JKR's intent. The problem is that she wrote the story from Harry's POV not from the POV of an omniscient third person narrator. So while she didn't mean to make Harry constantly notice all the cute guys and obsess over Draco's looks for 7 books that is accidentally what she did.

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(JOHN 16:24)

by jinjjasyuga Neil Josten, Andrew Minyard Explicit // 0 words Summary: Andrew asked so he received. (Literally.)

You Know I'm Good On My Own

by sambutwithbooks Neil Josten, Andrew Minyard Gen // 4568 words Summary: Andrew breaks his arm two games into the season and it feels a little bit like Neil’s world snaps with it. (A snapshot of Neil and Andrew between Andrew coming home from the hospital and going back home to Palmetto State.) ------- Written for the AFTG Then & Now Fest prompt from alecgo: Andrew breaks his arm. They deal with everything that follows.

10 Times We Fell a Little More in Love with Kevin Day

by gleefulfoxes Kevin Day Gen // 2897 words Summary: Ten times Kevin Day stole our hearts and earned his rightful place as the internet's jock bf

Hold Me Like a Knife

by Moondal Neil Josten, Andrew Minyard Teen // 1068 words Summary: What touch Andrew can tolerate he has wrestled from the minefield of his past, fought a one-man guerilla war against long-gone ghosts. The ground he has gained for himself is massive as is. He can stay within known spaces and be safe. And yet. - Thoughts on touch and an exploration of new intimacy.

nocturnal animals

by animediac Abby Winfield, Betsy Dobson, Gen Gen // 11621 words Summary: “He was an addict,” Taylor says roughly, turning away to unplug the blender. “He wouldn’t accept help and he didn’t care who he hurt with it by the end.” “He was our brother,” Abby says, sadly. “I know,” Taylor tells her. “That was the worst part."" — Memory takes the graveyard shift. Abby Winfield works nights.

Peaches and Cream

by Random2002 Aaron Minyard, Katelyn Explicit // 7119 words Summary: It's certainly well known that Aaron Minyard was head over heels for his girlfriend, Katelyn. In fact, when they are inspired one evening to try something new in the bedroom he's all for giving it a shot even though he's nervous. Who knows, maybe he'll discover something new about himself? Or: Aaron gets Pegged

Reaching Out

by TogeMythia Neil Josten, Andrew Minyard Explicit // 6154 words Summary: ‘What are you thinking about getting?’ Neil smiled as he propped his chin in his hands. Andrew sat himself back against the leather of the booth and gestured to his chest. For a moment Neil didn't understand, but then the realization hit him all at once. ‘Oh.’ - or Andrew gets his nipples pierced

Invisible Smoke

by ScornedEthnographer Neil Josten, Andrew Minyard Mature // 1233 words Summary: Smoking was one of the very few things in Andrew’s life that he could count as his. One of the very few constants that he allowed himself to rely on, to expect, to trust. It came from years of repetition, the same billowing taste of acrid smoke on his tongue, the stale stinging in his lungs. It was the same, over and over and over again. It was a rare constant. One of the ""few and far between”s. Unusual. Uncommon. Peculiar. But not the only one.

Quit Horsin’ Around

by JosenlovesMinyard Neil Josten, Andrew Minyard Teen // 2486 words Summary: Kevin persuades the Foxes to take part in a trail ride whilst staying at the cabin. Neil finds it a lot more enjoyable than he thought he would.

Victory Lap

by justadreamfox Kevin Day, Jeremy Knox Explicit // 7665 words Summary: Kevin gets two things he's always wanted: Olympic gold and Jeremy Knox.

Truck driver POV

by Habakos Neil Josten Gen // Art Summary: First truck driver that lets Neil tag along at the gas station

on the cusp of getting it right

by orionauriga Aaron Minyard, Andrew Minyard Teen // 11145 words Summary: “So,” Neil begins, with a smirk that informs Aaron in the space of one syllable that his mood is about to take a running leap out the car window and splatter gorily across the interstate. “Is it true that you don’t have a license?” -- Andrew teaches Aaron to drive. It goes...about how you would expect.

The Golden Pipe Dream

by Gforce Neil Josten, Andrew Minyard, Kevin Day Gen // 8564 words Summary: Neil, Andrew, and Kevin compete in the 2012 Summer Olympics.

Last Straw

by mrskrementz Neil Josten, Mary Hatford Teen // 3478 words Summary: What happened in the Wesninksi household in the week leading up to Mary taking Nathaniel on the run? A look at the pre-canon events from Mary's POV

Goner

by gus_47 Kevin Day, Aaron Minyard Mature // 4871 words Summary: Aaron is the first to notice that Kevin’s alcoholism is an actual problem. He’s an addict, too — he never misses the signs.

I hate you

by itsdill01 Neil Josten, Andrew Minyard Mature // 1233 words Summary: Andrew finds out about Nicky’s sexual assault on Neil.

Trials and Tribulations of Wrangling Foxes

by HalfpintPeach Neil Josten, Andrew Minyard, Gen Gen // 8419 words Summary: When the girls graduate, Neil is standing on his own as Captain of the Palmetto State Foxes.

I find you a little distracting

by lazarusthefirst Neil Josten, Kevin Day Explicit // 6562 words Summary: Kev and Neil fuck on the foxhole court

Weight Bearing

by Justthislazy Neil Josten, Andrew Minyard Explicit // 4385 words Summary: Prompt: Andrew is Strong He carries Neil around and Neil is not ok. Can lead to NSFW but mainly I just want Neil being flustered about how strong Andrew is.

probably be fine

by foodforthot1 Allison Reynolds, Renee Walker Explicit // 8978 words Summary: Once they go pro, Renee and Allison end up on the same team. Now that they’ve made it out of the college/mafia drama, they can finally stop denying the spark between them

Andrew Minyard has no problem carrying around Neil Josten

by emry_stars Neil Josten, Andrew Minyard Gen // words Summary: Three images (two full/one chibi style) of Andrew carrying Neil in various situations. One image (chibi) of Neil attempting to pick up Andrew

in the middle

by stabbyfoxandrew Andrew Minyard, Neil Josten, Kevin Day Explicit // 9900 words Summary: After a night of drinking has them talking about sex, Andrew reveals that his biggest fantasy is taking Neil and Kevin at the same time. They're both surprised, but very willing to make it happen. Andrew just has to decide if he likes the idea now that it's out of his head. [Set ten years post canon. Kandreil are married and living together and sooo in love.]

Buzz cut season

by H_bee69 Neil Josten, Aaron Minyard, Nicky Hemmick Teen // 2192 words Summary: Neil's bored but Nicky and Aaron keep him company

Complexity of the aftermath

by tathatisbrightassun Neil Josten, Andrew Minyard, Allison Reynolds, Kevin Day, Dan Wilds, Matt Boyd, Aaron Minyard, Nicky Hemmick, Renee Walker, Betsy Dobson, David Wymack Gen // 6545 words Summary: Betsy didn’t know what to say. When David called her after the holidays and said that some of the foxes would require an extra session with her she got a bit concerned. However, when every single fox, including Neil, booked a session, she had only one question in mind. What the actual fuck happened in Baltimore? Betsy learns about Baltimore events and she has thoughts.

Dream clouds, ghost ground (I’ve been looking at the sky to show me where I went wrong)

by Ateiluj Gen Mature // 11457 words Summary: Cass Spear deals with her son’s death, the truths that it reveals, and how it all reshapes her past with Andrew.

The Foxes go to Disneyland

by KittKatAttack Neil Josten, Andrew Minyard, Dan Wilds, Matt Boyd, Nicky Hemmick, Kevin Day, Aaron Minyard, Allison Reynolds, Renee Walker, Katelyn, Erik Klose Gen // 1547 words Summary: The foxes go to Disneyland and chaos ensues

Give, Bequeath & Devise

by the_greater_grief Neil Josten, Andrew Minyard Teen // 2502 words Summary: Neil inherits the Baltimore house.

worth it

by mostly_maudlin Neil Josten, Andrew Minyard Teen // 1960 words Summary: ""What makes you think I want you fighting on my behalf?” Andrew asks. Neil pulls the ice pack from his face, features tightening with a new spark of anger. “What makes you think I care if you want me to?” he asks. “It’s my choice. And I will always choose to fight for you.”

Andreil Marriage

by TeoMoy Neil Josten, Andrew Minyard Gen // words Summary: Andrew and Neil getting married in the woods, with Wymack officiating and the foxes there.

right here every day

by rwnjun Neil Josten, Andrew Minyard Mature // 8855 words Summary: Neil's new cat does not like Andrew.

i needed someone i could run to

by seasy33 Kevin Day, David Wymack Teen // 8608 words Summary: The idea of a father didn't occur to Kevin until after his mother died. The story about a letter, and the terrifying ordeal of finding your family.

The Later Parade

by hourafterhour Kevin Day, Jean Moreau Mature // 41152 words Summary: No such thing as a bad pass to Kevin Day.

andrew gets his nips pierced

by maddervanilla Andrew Minyard, Neil Josten Mature // words Summary:

What Makes a Family

by Aquared46 Neil Josten, Andrew Minyard Explicit // 9671 words Summary: Post-Baltimore, the Foxes take a vacation in the mountains. During that time, the Foxes get to know Neil better, and Neil gets to know himself better too. OR 8 times Neil is taken care of by his teammates and +1 time Neil learns what it means to take care of himself.

Andrew Doe, Juvenile Delinquent (Art)

by WymackAndCheese Andrew Minyard Teen // 0 words Summary: Digital illustration of Andrew Minyard in a Juvenile Detention Center, pre-The Foxhole Court

Mind over Matt-er

by Twolipsliterature Dan Wilds, Matt Boyd Teen // 2633 words Summary: ""The first time the girls saw Matt shirtless, it was distraction enough to forget their conversation."" -AFTG EC Dan likes to pretend she's unaffected by Matt's charms and unbelievably hot body. Even she knows what bullshit that is.

A wall at your back

by djhedy Andrew Minyard, Neil Josten Teen // 4628 words Summary: Foxes get married

our gentle violence

by foxbyeol Neil Josten, Andrew Minyard Explicit // 1996 words Summary: The opposite of cruel is always gentle and that is what everyone expects from you when you care for someone else. They treat it as a delicate, breakable thing. But the connection between them wasn't hanging on my thread of porcelain. Hands that were never taught to be gentle only know how to ground by a firm touch. A touch that is not punishing like so many of those who preceded them but a pushing want which is not only welcomed but desired. And there is a freedom in that, getting the space to be rough without ""cruelty"", a gentle violence they have made their own. OR, Andrew and Neil roughhouse and play around together without much consequences - the only being the rewarding kind.

Against The Wall

by Mystrana Neil Josten, Andrew Minyard Explicit // 2882 words Summary: After years together, Andrew's finally gotten to a point where he can request exactly what he wants from Neil. And in this case? He wants to be railed up against the wall.

transferable skills

by decaflondonfog Jeremy Knox, Jean Moreau Explicit // 11111 words Summary: It’s the way Jean watches his own hands as he guides the thread through the paper, pulling the gathering tight to the spine. It’s the way Jean bends, strong and handsome, over a tiny embroidery hoop to get the details exactly right. Jeremy Knox is supposed to be spending his senior year worrying about what comes next. Instead, he’s mesmerized as he watches each stitch come to life and finds, there in between the threads, something completely unexpected.

a mother's love

by Greenfallleaves Neil Josten, Mary Hatford Teen // 9259 words Summary: In the hell that was Neil's childhood, there were good moments too. Almost all of them included his mother. Mary cared about her boy. Or 5 relatively peaceful moments from Neil's childhood.

we're one (there's nothing to be done)

by wesawbears Neil Josten, Andrew Minyard Teen // 2345 words Summary: After Neil is injured, he and Andrew come face to face with how quickly everything they've worked for can be taken away when the Moriyama's check up on their investment. The two will be forced to face the emotions created by the deal that was made so long ago.

When Did You Learn That?

by Geneat Neil Josten, Gen Teen // 2635 words Summary: ""I thought Andrew was the lockpick to watch out for,"" Matt said dryly. ""It's a Masterlock,"" Neil said dismissively. Then, with no finesse at all, he jiggled the rod violently and the lock popped open. ""A toddler can open it.""

glittering eyes, sweet smile

by starscrossingfates Neil Josten, Andrew Minyard Gen // 0 words Summary: Whenever Neil laughed, Andrew looked at Neil as if he was the sun itself. And Andrew was a planet unequivocally caught in his orbit. [Art]

Not fast enough

by OhThePain_333 Neil Josten, Andrew Minyard Teen // 2797 words Summary: Andrew has a violent nightmare in which Neil dies. It unsettles him a lot. He needs comfort and Neil's hugs. They talk about their respective nightmares and cuddle.

Layover

by justadreamfox Andrew Minyard, Neil Josten Explicit // 3064 words Summary: The geography is fucked, but he has Neil tonight, even if it's barely more than a layover. Or, prompt #17: Andreil bang ON the mas.

hot girl bummer (we've shipped kevin to california it's fine don't worry about it JUST KEEP GOING)

by alcego Kevin Day, Jeremy Knox, Jean Moreau Explicit // 9258 words Summary: For the first time in his life, Jean has the opportunity for a quiet, uneventful summer. Instead, he has with two (fake) boyfriends who keep flirting with each other by proxy, a bone-deep weariness that's doing more to his skin than the sun, and a looming sense of inevitability about it all. He can handle one of those problems.

dashboard saints

by nanatsuyu Kevin Day, Andrew Minyard Explicit // 7750 words Summary: Andrew stands in his own way when it comes to most things in his life. Kevin Day is not an exception.

Local Man Gets Injured Getting Friend (?) Off, Says “Worth It”

by kunimi Kevin Day, Aaron Minyard Mature // 7645 words Summary: “I didn’t know you were seeing anyone,” Neil says. There’s something thoughtful in his tone, and it takes all of Kevin’s willpower not to immediately glance at Aaron. Instead, Kevin lifts his head slowly, scanning over all his friends’ faces with a deliberate casualness. As soon as his gaze crosses over Aaron, though, he realises he has no idea what to say. They haven’t – talked about it. Not really. (Two hours ago, Aaron was teasing him about being in a rush, and Kevin’s focus had been on how flustered he was in the moment. Now, all he can think about is Aaron’s first comment. Romantic, Aaron says dryly, shaking his head. Romantic, romantic, romantic. Kevin wants. Kevin aches.) There are probably worse ways to reveal new developments in your love life than getting benched, baffling your team’s medical personnel, and accidentally announcing your sex-related mishaps to your entire professional team’s management and several members of your college one. Kevin can’t think of any right now, though. —is it a 22-night stand or a relationship? kevin day's guide to soft-launching your new man [it’s long 💀💀💀 so the bottom part is more useful for a summary, the top bit is excerpt]

hypocorisms

by mostly_maudlin Neil Josten, Andrew Minyard Teen // 2183 words Summary: Three times Andrew calls Neil “rabbit,” and one time he calls him “bunny.”

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[allsadnshit]

Those 35mm photos are beautiful! If you don’t mind, and sorry if you’ve answered this before, but would you mind sharing how you and your husband met? You two have a beautiful relationship

oh jeez everyone knows this is my favorite question lol

my husband and I met through being tumblr mutuals when we were probably around 17! we lived in the same state but still 6 hours apart so we never thought of each other as a tangible person to know and meet, it was truly just a silly little internet friendship liking each other's posts and occasionally messaging about little things like books we were reading or music we listened to but never anything lengthy or personal.

that went on for like 7-8 years, sometimes not talking for a long period of time because we really were just internet friends! then when I was 24, before my endometriosis diagnostic surgery, I was at my absolute sickest I'd ever been. pretty much totally house-ridden and also in a really transitional moment because I had just finally had a long term very not fulfilling relationship end + was processing a lot alone quarantined in my house because covid lockdowns just started. I had a conversation with a really close friend where I said I felt like I had always just been dating passively in relation to who was close by and never really on "dream person" levels and she asked who I'd hit up if I could date anyone and Myles was who came to mind to me! So the next time he dm'd me on ig about something silly like complimenting my new shoes I posted I flirted for the first time and he responded enthusiastically and we realized we had always quietly had little crushes on each other!

we talked every day for like a month while I moved to a new short term lease and went through lots of urgent care visits figuring out my next moves medically, and he decided we couldn't wait any longer to meet so he bought a car and drove 5 hours to pittsburgh in the night after work one weekend and we met outside my new apartment that had no furniture yet at 1 am and spent the whole night talking. we knew we were very very in love right away, and even though that first weekend ended with him having to take me to the ER from extreme pain that turned out to be from constipation because of how truly nervous I was LOL he came back a week or two later and stayed full week! at the end of that week we decided he'd move in with me for the rest of my 6 month lease while I got surgery then moved to philly to finish his lease together.

myles and I both hadn't ever really been in a relationship so serious or passionate so it was really really scary at times when we fought or felt like we would mess things up with each other but we both dug really deep to learn how to talk to each other in a way we had never communicated with anyone else and touched some really important parts of ourselves to really get to know one another's fears and desires and eloped a little over a year after meeting!

he's totally changed my understanding how much you can trust, depend on, or love someone. it's opened me up to healing in every other part of my life (going to therapy, having big talks my family, starting new careers, etc) <3

[fanfic-lover-girl]

Pureblood Purists Actually Have Valid Concerns

Disclaimers

Before I start my post let me make 2 disclaimers since some people have a tendency to twist words on Tumblr:

Not all blood purists were death eaters. I am not condoning DE terrorism here. I am referring to people who held pureblood beliefs but never fought in a war to oppress people.

Harry Potter is a fictional world. My arguments are not meant to be extended to the real world.

Assumption about Magic

JKR does not specify the origin of magic. Is it like ATLA where it's a spiritual kind of thing and people are blessed by Lady Magic? Or is it a gene thing and wizards are a subspecies of human? For me, I am going to go with magic being a gene thing. If magic was like bending in ATLA then wizards should not be such a tiny minority.

Missed Potential of Umbridge Interrogation Scene

This post was inspired by Book 7, Chapter 13 – The Muggle-born Registration Commission. Specifically, the part where Umbridge is interrogating this poor muggle-borne woman named Mrs Cattermole.

‘Could you please tell us from which witch or wizard you took that wand?’

Umbridge's line of questioning is so ridiculous and JKR missed a golden opportunity to introduce some nuance here. She paints all purebloods who are not blood traitors as evil/bigoted. Just because this is a kid's book it does not mean she has to treat kids like idiots. Instead of painting purebloods as bigoted fools who believe magic can be stolen or sadists making up crack in this sham kangaroo court, she could have used this dialogue to present valid and ignored concerns of purebloods. Instead of crap like this, the Voldemort regime could be jailing purebloods who married muggles or mugglebornes on the count of them diluting their race. Or maybe firing half-bloods and mugglebornes and giving those jobs to purebloods. These actions are still wrong but at least they would be rational and add some depth. And purebloods have serious cause for concern. Let me point out 5.

Concern 1 - Existence of Squibs

In the books, we don't know the blood status of the parents of prominent squibs like Filch. But I bet the likelihood of your kid being a squib increases dramatically if one of the parents is muggleborne.

It makes sense to me that mugglebornes could be descendants of squibs. Making mugglebornes basically muggles who won the genetic lottery. In book 2 I think, Arthur claimed Granger was a historical wizard figure and asked Hermione if she bore a relation to him. She denies this but what if someone in the Granger family was a squib in the past and years later she got lucky?? So basically if you mate with a muggleborne, you are basically reproducing with a muggle. Which in turn increases the chances of a squib kid. Squibs can't function in the magic world properly.

Concern 2 - Wizards are a minority

Wizards are a minority in a muggle majority. It's a fact that minorities are wiped out when they reproduce with the majority.

Hagrid says this in book 2:

“Dirty blood, see. Common blood. It’s mad. Most wizards these days are half-blood anyway. If we hadn’t married Muggles we’d’ve died out.”

If Hagrid is right and most wizards are half-blood, how is this a good thing? Given enough time, if wizards keep diluting their race like this by reproducing with muggles, the wizard minority will slowly be erased which leads to...

Concern 3 - Cultural Erasure

It's more than just blood dilution but loss of tradition. Even if a muggleborne like Hermione integrates into the wizarding world, she will never truly grasp certain customs and traditions that pureblood families like the Weasleys and Malfoys will. For example, I came to the US for college. Even though I have been here for half a decade now, I will never understand what it is like to grow up as a kid in the US. I don't appreciate US holidays like Thanksgiving and Memorial Day. My kid likely will but they will have to learn those customs from an external source or maybe my future husband's family. Someone like Hermione may even see some pureblood/wizarding traditions as archaic and unnecessary. Over time, wizards will lose their culture and practically become muggles with magic. Which is why Hermione being minister of magic sometimes leaves a sour taste in my mouth. There's a reason why only born citizens can become president/prime minister for countries like the US (I would like to believe there is a reason anyway).

Concern 4 - Reproductive Issues?

Also, why did wizards need muggles to survive in the first place? Were the women/men having fertility issues? Was the wizarding population so minuscule that they were inbreeding? Or were they simply just horny for muggles? If small native/African tribes are/were able to survive without reproducing with white invaders or other outsiders why is it different for wizards??

Concern 5 - Lack of New Blood

Still focusing on Hagrid's quote. Let's say every pureblood family started with a muggleborne wizard/witch. Therefore given enough generations, Granger could theoretically become a pureblood name like Malfoy or Weasley. But there's a problem: there aren't enough mugglebornes!

Read Hagrid's quote carefully. He said wizards would have died out if they did not intermarry with muggles. Not that wizards would have died out without mugglebornes adding to the population!

This further adds to my blood dilution argument. Basically, we have a fixed magical gene pool which is being stretched every generation with more and more half-bloods being popped out.

Conclusion

Pureblood purists have rational reasons to favour blood purity and to be frustrated with "blood traitors". As more pureblood families like the Weasleys intermarry with muggles/mugglebornes, there is an ever-smaller marriage pool for purebloods. Throw in cultural dilution too.

If JKR wanted to add depth to the muggleborne discrimination, she should have shown how mugglebornes are critical to the survival of wizarding kind and how much purebloods actually need them. Maybe show them using their muggle knowledge to improve wizarding society while she's at it too? But it's like muggebornes like Lily and Hermione have amnesia and forget all about their muggle background! At least make wizards reap the benefit of magic and technology to balance out the issues of reproducing with mugglebornes and muggles.

I just wish JKR could have given purebloods more of a voice. Not all purebloods are crazy, bloodthirsty DEs or Dumbledore bootlickers. And oftentimes, there are reasons behind discrimination that should be examined and explored, instead of just demonized. Harry Potter is seven books worth of wasted potential. I don't know how anyone can say JKR was excellent at world building when the wizarding world feels so tiny and incomplete.

#jkr critical #world building #deathly hallows #harry potter books #pureblood culture #pureblood society #wizarding world #harry potter series #hermione granger #this post is not really about hermione but I just mention her as an example #squibs #cultural genocide #muggles #muggleborn #wasted potential #hp meta #pureblood families #magic as a gene trait #discrimination #dolores umbridge #hp black and white morality is boring #pureblood #blood purity #pureblood politics #half blood #cultural erasure #loss of tradition #death eaters #voldemort regime

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Quiet Corners of the Galaxy, Chapter 8

While on a routine mission for Cid, the Bad Batch encounter a woman fleeing from the Empire. Crosshair suspects her seemingly free-spirited, nomadic existence is actually a cover for something else, but struggles to keep his attraction toward her in check as their personalities and ideals clash.

Relevant tags: Slow Burn, Enemies to Lovers, Eventual Smut (it finally starts getting spicy in a couple more chapters!), Canon-Typical Violence, Alcohol Use

Chapters posted 1-2x weekly!

Read the full fic so far on AO3

Read previous chapters on Tumblr: Ch. 1 l Ch. 2 l Ch. 3 l Ch. 4 l Ch. 5 l Ch. 6 l Ch. 7

Chapter 8 summary: The Batch learns a little bit more about Dara, but Crosshair is still suspicious, and he really doesn't like the way things are going between her and Hunter.

Chapter Notes: WE GET A LITTLE BIT OF LOW KEY SMUT, FINALLY. But it's a slow-burn so we have a ways to go before we really GET THERE. Content: 18+, masturbation, sexual fantasy

“So, you were formerly a linguist?” Several hours later, standing at the bar in Cid’s parlor, Tech picked up the earlier thread of their conversation. When they had arrived at Cid’s, a particularly bloated-looking Twi’lek had emerged from her office, giving them all a cursory glance before depositing a case of credits with their employer and gesturing magisterially to the Rodian, who followed him out the door. Hunter had met with Cid to hammer out the details of their next job, and they were now winding down the night in the empty dive, the Trandoshan having long since retreated to her back rooms.

“A long time ago now,” Dara replied, taking a generous sip of her drink. “That’s how I first got traveling. Doing fieldwork, studying lesser-known languages.”

“Fascinating,” Tech said brightly. No doubt he was looking forward to interrogating Dara on the finer details of some of her research. However, before he could continue, Echo interrupted him.

“What made you stop?” the ARC trooper asked.

Wrecker, occasionally the most emotionally intelligent among them, elbowed him, probably leaving a bruise. “I don’t think she wants to talk about that,” he scolded, in what would have been a whisper, if he had ever actually learned how to speak quietly.

Dara smiled, a little sadly. “It’s okay, Wrecker. It was the war. I just couldn’t convince myself that it was worth doing anymore. You know—around all that destruction and death, it was hard to keep believing that studying words really mattered.” She shook her head, as if trying to clear it of painful thoughts. “Then the war ended, and it didn’t seem like the Empire would be much interested in preserving the languages or cultures they felt were beneath them. They’d rather just wipe them all out.”

Echo gave her shoulder a kind squeeze, although his expression was serious. “You might be right about that. But there are a lot of us out there that think those people are worth protecting, too.”

Dara nodded, looking at the clone with some warmth, then shrugged. “Anyway, I don’t mean to bring the mood down. What about you boys? You fought in the war, obviously, but you’re not like the other clones. You’re all enhanced, you said? Let me guess…” She glanced at each of them in turn. “Extra brawn,” she gestured at Wrecker. He posed, flexing his muscles, with a grin. “And Tech… extra brain.” He beamed smugly at her. “Echo…extra mechanics?” The ARC trooper flushed a little, and she winked at him.

Dara’s eyes then lit on Crosshair. She nodded assuredly, certain of her assessment. “Extra asshole.” The others chuckled knowingly as the sniper glared at her.

Finally, Dara’s gaze made its way to Hunter, and she lifted her eyebrows flirtatiously, a small smile playing across her lips. “What about you then? Where are you hiding all those enhancements?”

Hunter’s own expression settled into an easy, charming smirk. “Wouldn’t you like to know.”  

Tech adjusted his goggles and, either unaware of or choosing to ignore any subtext to their exchange, launched into an explanation. “He has significantly more perceptive senses than the average human, being able to see, hear, smell, and feel to a much keener degree, as well as being able to sense electromagnetic frequencies and combine all of this sensory input for the purposes of tracking.”

Dara gently bumped her shoulder against Hunter’s. “Sounds useful. In a lot of contexts,” she added suggestively. “How much can you sense, then?”

Hunter chuckled a little. “Let’s just say I know everything that happens on my ship.”

“Get a room,” Crosshair growled. Dara laughed and leaned over Hunter to reach behind the bar, helping herself to an unattended bottle of liquor. The sniper noticed that Sergeant gently hovered his hand across her lower back, guiding and steadying her as she popped back into her seat and began to refill all of their glasses.

One drink later—during which Crosshair eyed the pair darkly as Dara every so often let her hand rest on Hunter’s knee while she spoke to him, and the Sergeant repeatedly returned his own to linger on her back or at her elbow—the squad finally departed Cid’s, enroute to the Marauder to tuck in for the night before departing for their next mission.

But once they had exited the bar, before Dara could continue following the rest of the clones, Crosshair stopped in front of her, impeding her progress. “Wait. I need to talk to you,” he muttered.  

The others paused as well, looking at them questioningly. Dara sighed exasperatedly and gave them a shrug. “We’ll catch up.”

His brothers were barely out of sight before Crosshair pulled Dara into the nearest alley. He pinned her against the wall with one forearm across her chest. Dara hardly reacted, looking rather bored. “This isn’t talking,” she pointed out mildly.

Crosshair scowled. “I don’t know what kind of game you’re playing, but stay away from Hunter.” 

Dara rolled her eyes. He thought he must have been hurting her a little, but she continued to ignore the explicit threat behind his demand. “I don’t know what you’re talking about. Some people—normal people—just like to have a little harmless fun occasionally.” She quirked an eyebrow up. “Not you, I’m sure. But Hunter’s a big boy. I think he can decide for himself whether he wants to…” She paused briefly, running her tongue, ever-so-slightly, between her lips, as if savoring the words. “…play with me.”

The sniper snorted derisively and leaned closer, hardened eyes glued on hers. “Hunter couldn’t handle you.”

“Oh, and I suppose you could?” Dara murmured. Crosshair didn’t respond; he had realized that their faces were only inches away from each other, and for a moment all he could think about was the feel of her body pressed between himself and the cold, grimy wall. Unable to resist the impulse, he allowed his free hand to roam beneath the hem of her shirt, stroking with calloused fingers along the small of her back where Hunter had grazed her earlier. He gently traced upwards along her soft skin, noticing, with some surprise, as its smoothness was interrupted by the raised knot of a scar—not the subtle puckering formed by blaster fire that he had seen on her abdomen, but the welt left behind from a deep gash.

Crosshair could feel Dara’s fingers probing him similarly, tracing along the gaps between the armor plates at his waist. Neither of them looked away. Her lips ghosted along his jaw to his ear, and he felt the warm tickle of her breath as she opened her mouth to whisper to him.

“I’d rather fuck every other clone in the galaxy, starting with each one of your brothers, than be with you.”

With a determined shove and well-placed kick, Dara freed herself, stalking off toward the Marauder and leaving a momentarily stunned Crosshair alone in the alley before he finally shook himself and followed, trailing far behind.

By the time he reached the ship Dara was nowhere to be found. The others sat in the cabin, still chatting. Hunter looked at him disapprovingly as he joined them. “What did you do to upset her? She came in and went straight to the hold without even saying anything.”

Crosshair flared his nostrils angrily. “Me? She’s the one manipulating you.”

He expected the Sergeant to be irritated, or at the very least, broody. Instead, he grinned and elbowed Tech. “Looks like Echo’s not the only one a little sweet on her.” The ARC trooper turned pink, while Tech looked mildly amused.

Crosshair was infuriated, but before he could open his mouth, Wrecker weighed in, also smiling widely. It was so rare they got to torment Crosshair instead of being the ones subject to his taunting. “Well, obviously she likes me the most. I’m the most fun.”

“Oh, no,” Tech disagreed. “While our shared academic pursuits make her rather compatible with myself, the suggestiveness of her interactions with Hunter was quite substantial evidence in his favor.”

“It sure was. I’m counting on that,” Hunter contributed mischievously.

Even Echo couldn’t help teasing. “Hey now! I thought she and I had a bit of a moment back at the bar there.”

The sniper finally got a word in. “None of you are taking this seriously. We know she’s lying about something, and we don’t even know who she is! We can’t trust her!”

Hunter clapped him on the back good-naturedly, putting an end to the game. “Everything is fine, Crosshair. It’s just flirting. Nobody is letting her manipulate them. Things have been hard enough for us for a long time—it won’t hurt to relax and talk to a woman every once in a while. At least this one’s never shot at us.”

“Not yet,” he muttered darkly. His brothers ignored him, carrying on with some sort of debate on which of the women who had shot at them they would still sleep with and dealing out a deck of cards.

However, only a few minutes later, Hunter began to tense up. Crosshair eyed him suspiciously. The Sergeant had stopped participating in the conversation and was avoiding eye contact with the others, occasionally angling his head then holding still intently. The sniper had seen that gesture from him before: Hunter was listening to something. Suddenly, he became flushed and began shifting awkwardly in his seat.

“Are you alright, Hunter?” Tech queried.

The Sergeant nodded, throwing down his cards. “Just tired. Going to bed.” He disappeared into the bunkroom before any of them could reply.

Crosshair scowled and rose from the galley table where they were gathered, prowling toward the back of the ship. He stealthily crept up to the door of the cargo hold and paused, listening. While the sounds were well-muffled by the thick walls, he could make out a few stifled moans, then a gentle, drawn-out sigh: “Oh, Hunter…”

Heatedly, he punched the key to open the door and entered the dimly lit room. Dara was in her hammock, one hand moving beneath her blanket and the other wrapped in her own hair. As soon as he entered, she gripped the blanket tightly with both hands, drawing it up to her chin protectively. “Do you mind?!” she yelped, a little panicked. He liked that sound.

The sniper folded his arms. “Gotta do an inventory in here before we leave for the mission tomorrow.”

Dara looked ready to tear his throat out with her teeth. “Right now?!”

Crosshair didn’t answer, just smirked. She made a rude gesture at him and pulled the blanket the rest of the way over her head with an irritated groan. He puttered around the room quietly for a few minutes, waiting until the gentle rhythm of Dara’s breathing indicated she may have fallen asleep.

The sniper exited the hold and stripped off his armor, storing it carefully before heading to the fresher. Sighing, he turned on the shower and leaned one forearm against the wall, resting his head against it and letting the hot water temporarily melt his frustrations away as he focused on the problem at hand.

He didn’t trust Dara for one second, but he still couldn’t figure out what exactly she was holding back. It wasn’t just the Imperial shuttle, the gaps in her story. No, her confidence as she diverted the maintenance tech at the prison had been too practiced. She had said she was a linguist—a linguist with scars from blaster fire and what he suspected was either shrapnel or a stab wound, and that’s before the injuries he found her with.

Thinking of that last scar reminded him of the feel of it beneath his fingers, the knots and raised edges brushing up against soft skin and softer flesh. He felt himself grow hard as he realized he was standing in the exact position as when he’d had her pinned in the alley. Kriff, he had to admit that he wanted her. He’d wanted to take her right there against the filthy wall, make her forget the small touches and easy flirtation she and Hunter had exchanged at the bar.

Hunter. Dara had known he could hear her from anywhere on the ship. She’d been touching herself, moaning his name on purpose. She wanted Hunter to hear her, was toying with him, turning him on from an entirely different room. Whether because she truly wanted him, she wanted something from him, or simply because it was exactly what Crosshair had told her not to do. I’d rather fuck every other clone in the galaxy, starting with each one of your brothers…

Crosshair hated her.

He hated her, he distrusted her, and he wanted to watch her come undone underneath him while she screamed his name and begged for more.

That should be his name she was moaning.

Crosshair’s free hand tugged erratically at his cock, working himself while he imagined Dara whimpering, the whole of her exposed to him and at his mercy, her curves beneath his hands and his tongue in her mouth while he made her cum over and over again. His hands gripping her silvery hair by the roots, his teeth on her neck, her taste on his lips. Finally, he felt himself stiffen everywhere, letting out a strangled grunt before the sweet relief of his release flooded his senses and left him panting, still leaning on his forearm against the cool durasteel wall.

***

The moment Crosshair had finally left the cargo hold, lured away by her purposeful steady breathing, Dara had slipped her fingers back beneath the waistband of her pants, positioning her index and middle finger on either side of her clit and resuming the rhythmic, reliable back-and-forth that always got her there.

It was hard to believe the balls on that karking asshole. Inventory, she thought with a skeptical snort. More like listening at her doorway. Sure, she’d been saying Hunter’s name on purpose, half enjoying the fantasy, half interested in testing whether he could really hear everything happening on his ship. Of course, if that asshole hadn’t put her in such a foul mood outside the bar, then she probably would’ve just slept with Hunter to begin with, but once she’d gotten alone and the rage had subsided, she had thought, hey, why not toy with him a little, a bit of a tease never hurt with the build-up, she was stuck tagging along with the squad for a while longer, there would be plenty more opportunities to get the Sergeant alone. And kriff, she’d meant what she’d said to that asshole, there was nothing wrong with a bit of harmless fun, she had needs just like anyone else, and kriff knows she could use the stress relief and it had been a long while for her, not like she’d had much time or inclination or the options to try sleeping with anyone lately.

Dara felt any hint of pleasure slipping away as her mind raced back toward her anger, her worries, the reasons for her recent celibacy. Focus, focus. She tried thinking about Hunter again. Kriff he was good-looking. The tattoo, the golden-brown skin, the broad shoulders narrowing down to that fine waist, the strength of him. Even the broodiness, she liked a little darkness, that gravelly voice. There was something about his hands, too. The way she’d seen him playing with his knives earlier, spinning them expertly between his fingers. She started feeling the pleasure build up inside her again, her stomach fluttering a little. Yes, that was good, his hands, hovering at her back, pulling the knife out of his vambrace, adjusting the scope on his rifle, his fingers were so slender, precise, expert, inserting that stupid toothpick into his mouth—

NO. Wrong clone. Start over. Go back to the touches. She’d liked leaning over him at the bar, feeling his hand just barely grazing against her. How would his fingers feel against her skin? Rough callouses roaming up her hips to her waist, gently stroking her back, rubbing her scar, the way he held her down with his arm across her chest hurt so good and kriff the way he looked into her eyes stirred something in her, he was always looking at her so intently, glaring or with sneering amusement, just looking dangerous other times, he’d looked dangerous tonight, she’d wanted to reach up and trace that stupid tattoo circling his eye—

Kriff. He’d ruined this for her, that asshole. With a final, low grunt of frustration, Dara gave up any hope at finding satisfaction that night, choosing instead to stare at the ceiling of the cargo hold and think about her choices and where they had led her until she finally fell into an uneasy sleep.

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Dara used to be a linguistic anthropologist, but for aliens. A linguistic alienologist? I like to think she would be super into the Poletecs from the Bad Batch Clone Wars arc.

We also finally get some Dara POV! Her internal monologue is a lot.

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explain your silvervance playlist

let's get to it! this got very. very long. tumblr only allows 30 images per post so expect a part two :3

⭐1.) twin skeleton's (hotel in nyc) - fall out boy

the silvervance playlist kicks off with vance's post act 1 theme--the song that follows him out of the grave and into the next life with johnny in his head.

johnny's engram saved vance; kept his head together even if chunks of the merc's brain matter were slipping through his chrome fingers, in a manner of speaking.

when the relic saved vance's life, it marked him for death, too. jackie might've taken the bullet for him, but death is gonna find vance one way or another.

⭐2.) hysteria - muse

johnny resides within a new, uncooperative body, hates every second of it, and decides to make it vance's problem.

johnny himself has come back to life after 54 years of not-so-eternal death; didn't even know he was dead until he was walking upright again, until he was shocked back to consciousness. but it's not a real life--it's not even his to begin with.

⭐3.) come a little closer - cage the elephant

vance runs through johnny's memories; he gets to see night city's infamous rockerboy for who he really is, who he always has been: a liar, a faker, someone who claims to hate control but wants it, anyway. seeing his memories is as invasive as johnny seeing vance's--but johnny, surprisingly, says come take a look. see who've you've got in your head.

they're in this together, now. there's no going back.

⭐4.) infidel zombie - the dickies

with the theft of the relic and the revival of arasaka's public enemy #1, the megacorp is sending its best out to hunt them down.

after having escaped arasaka thus far, vance is on high alert. it doesn't help, either, that takemura--one of their best guard dogs--will only vow his service to vance as as long as they rescue hanako--the very face of arasaka itself.

⭐5-7.)

meanwhile, johnny and vance are still fighting over ownership of the latter's body. johnny wants one thing, vance wants another, and both of them hate this sense of dual autonomy. but little by little, they're becoming more alike.

my body is a cage - arcade fire / this body means nothing to me - shrimp / mark on you - the mountain goats

⭐8.) psychotic opera - small leaks sink ships

hellman gives them the low-down: vance isn't gonna make it with johnny still in his head. the best he can do is die comfortably.

but alt offers them a possible solution--find her where she resides in mikoshi, deep in the heart of the very tower vance had sworn he would never go back to, and she just might still be able to separate them.

this is the point of the playlist where vance realizes separation may be more painful than what would inevitably happen otherwise. he doesn't understand yet why he feels this way. only that johnny has been with him for some time now, enough time that being without him would feel...odd.

⭐9-10.)

they both have their own regrets about their respective lives, conjoined as they are now. they mourn for what could've, should've been. they mourn for what'll never happen--for the world, maybe, or maybe what'll never happen between them.

what was it johnny said? this is why you don't bring back fallen warriors: sooner or later, they're gonna see everything they fought for's turned to shit.

wish i knew you - the revivalists / all these things that i've done - the killers

⭐11.) granite - sleep token

but things aren't all that bad. vance falling in love with johnny was as inevitable as it was wholly consuming; he had never realized how lonely he had been until the ghost had come along. johnny is one of the only people in the city who understands what it's like to pass through it daily, to never feel your feet on the pavement, to just keep going.

even if the alt cunningham (or an engram of her), has offered them a solution herself, a very small part of vance is afraid it won't work. this is arasaka they're talking about; they'd need a miracle to undo the damage the megacorp has done.

he is afraid of dying.

but if that is how he can be with johnny--

--then he'll take it, even if it's in death.

✨12.) ordinary love (extraordinary remix) - U2

THIS. THIS IS IT. this is THE silvervance theme song. you'll recognize these lyrics as being the title of their fic series. ordinary love is just. it's the song that illustrates how much love johnny and vance have for each other.

vance doesn't want johnny out. he wants both of them to get their lives back--to live the life that was taken from them, together.

⭐13-15.)

in my head, these songs are intercut with various missions. they take place, chronologically, after my fic poltergeist (ie, vance and johnny have established the rocky foundations for their relationship). i think the lyrics speak for themselves.

rain - sleep token / slowly spilling out - saint motel / chokehold - sleep token

part 2 here

#asks #silvervance #WHOOOOOOOOOWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE #this got so fucking long help me #can you tell im normal though. be honest

[nextstopwonderland]

Jon Moxley/Bryan Danielson Indie matches/promos timeline

Match: MPW (Max-Pro Wrestling) Rise Up, Chillicothe, OH. (December 5, 2007) Link (Highlights only). Danielson wins by tap out

Bryan does a in-ring promo right before Mox’s dark match during ROH on HDNet #22, Philadelphia, PA. (June 20, 2009) photos.

They both appear on EVOLVE 4; Moxley fighting Brodie Lee and Danielson against Bobby Fish. Union City, NJ. (July 23, 2010). Photos

Match: HWA (Heartland Wrestling Association) Road to Destiny, Norwood, OH (August 2010 - date unclear, most likely August 8, 2010 but web links have it as August 20th). Link Danielson wins by submission

Jon Moxley cuts promo challenging Danielson to Dragon Gate USA match (August 10, 2010) Link

Jon Moxley cuts second promo leading up to DGUSA (early/mid September, 2010) Link

Bryan Danielson is crowned the WWE United States Champion after defeating The Miz (September 19, 2010)

Jon Moxley cuts 3rd promo leading up to DGUSA (September 19, 2010) Link

Jon Moxley faces Jimmy Jacobs, whom he’d also been calling out in some of these promos, at DGUSA Untouchable 2010 in Chicago, IL (September 25, 2010) and wins

Bryan Danielson faces YUMATO (part of Kamikaze USA with Moxley) at DGUSA Untouchable 2010 in Chicago, IL (September 25, 2010) and wins

Jon Moxley cuts promo outside the arena during Way of the Ronin Dragon Gate USA show, assuring John Cena he’ll break Bryan’s arm (September 26, 2010). Link

Match: Dragon Gate USA – Way of the Ronin, Milwaukee, WI (September 26, 2010) Link Danielson wins by tap out

Danielson tweets what a great interview Moxley is (October 1, 2010)

Moxley shoots on how great Danielson is (Audio, November 12, 2010)

Fun facts/notes:

-In two promos leading up to DGUSA, Mox focuses on Bryan’s use of the Lebell Lock, how he’s been “throwing it out left and right”, and saying he “called it” when Danielson uses it as his finisher to win the US Championship. It ends up being the finisher Bryan defeats Mox with at their DGUSA match.

-They would not face each other again until 2011, this time as Dean Ambrose and Daniel Bryan in WWE.

-Under these names they’d go on to have 87 matches with one another between the years of 2011-2015. 80 matches were fought against one another —the majority as part of a tag team, trios or more. 7 of the matches were singles. Link

-They also had one WWE match as a tag team in 2018, as part of a Tribute to the Troops special. Link

-“Daniel Bryan” was the very first person “Dean Ambrose” fought in WWE after being signed to his developmental deal in 2011. They had two back to back house shows in December 2011, in Florida and Long Island, NY. Bryan won both. Clip of the first match. Entrances from the second match. Clip from second match.

-As of March 2012, Dean Ambrose had yet to make his first TV appearance in WWE but Daniel Bryan was singing his praises. (quote and audio post on tumblr)

-They would not face each other in a match as “Jon Moxley” and “Bryan Danielson” again until March 6, 2022.

-Jon Moxley was not incorrect in his February 16, 2022 Dynamite promo when he said he’d never beaten “Bryan Danielson,” despite having wins over “Daniel Bryan” while part of The Shield and beating him once as “Dean Ambrose” in a solo match in 2013 by DQ.

-Mox uses many callbacks from these early promos in his aforementioned Dynamite promo (which I’ve done an edit of here)

-In 2018, Bryan detailed the events of their first meeting, which is near verbatim to Mox’s promo. He says they had “instant chemistry”. Link He also mentioned this in a different interview during 2018. Quote (along with video)

-In his first DGUSA promo Mox says he wants “something more” with Bryan. During the match, after making Danielson bleed, the commentator calls back to that promo and suggests the something more Moxley wanted is blood. In the Dynamite promo Mox says “It just made me want it more” and he ends the promo with “I don’t stand beside no one until I bleed with them first.”

-In their August 2010 match Mox kisses Bryan’s arm. In their September 2010 match, he kisses his mouth. Link

-At DGUSA, the ring apparently disappeared and they had to scrabble to get another one. Mox and Bryan both started getting excited about doing the match without one and even pitched the idea together of how they could do the show instead. Link

-It appears people thought Moxley was referring to their August 2010 match in his February 2022 Dynamite promo (thinking it was their first meeting) and not their 2007 one. I’ve updated the Blackpool Combat Club Wikipedia page to reflect this.

#Bryan Danielson #Jon Moxley #aew #blackpool combat club #bcc #HWA #MPW #DGUSA #bryanmox #my primers #blackpool soulmate club #being an archivist even on my off days

[incognitajones]

Fic author interview

Thanks to @sesamestreep and @glorious-spoon for tagging me in this one over the holidays! But between starting the new job and the holidays and the RCSS, it totally slipped my mind until now 😬

No-pressure tagging: @anghraine, @ladytharen, @luciechat, and anyone else who feels like it.

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

An even 200 if I include both accounts.

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

Just under 650K words altogether.

3. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Last Train 

I fought the war (but the war won) 

left-handed kisses 

Fixer Upper 

Chain Reaction 

4. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Yes! I want to let commenters know they're appreciated, and I enjoy talking about little details or plot turns. Lately I haven't had the time or energy for much more than a quick thank you, but I'm still trying to respond.

5. What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

At one point it would've been the bad ending of I fought the war, but now I think this Whumptober piece takes the crown.

6. What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending?

Considering canon, most of them have an unrealistically happy ending! Especially inside the vastness of the galaxy, the "Naomi & Filip get a happy reunion" story.

7. Do you write crossovers?

No. I enjoy writing & reading some fusions (i.e. characters from one canon in the setting of another) but traditional crossovers in which characters from two different canons meet don't generally appeal to me.

8. Have you ever received hate on a fic?

Not on AO3, but I've been sent anon hate on Tumblr about my writing a couple of times (find a Reylo writer who hasn't challenge).

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Yeah, a fair bit - in fact it's hard to remember sometimes that I never wrote anything explicit before 2016! It's all pretty vanilla, though, minus a few attempts at kinkier stuff which are deservedly anonymous.

10. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Kind of; someone commented on one of my stories on AO3 to tell me that another story had copied significant parts of it. (They'd already commented on and reported the other fic, so I didn't take any additional action. The plagiarizing story was eventually deleted.)

11. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Yes! Bless the fandom translators, for they are amazing.

12. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Nothing posted publically.

13. What’s your all-time favorite ship?

I couldn't possibly choose a single favourite! In terms of longevity, it's either Han/Leia or Eowyn/Faramir. And Star Wars ships in general seem to have a strong hold on me 😁

14. What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

The OT3 whumpfic. It's nearly done, but it's far outside my usual wheelhouse so without a beta reader, I can't tell whether it's worth finishing or beyond help.

15. What are your writing strengths?

I think I write decent dialogue, and I'm genuinely proud of the ideas behind I fought the war and pulse to pulse. I can also write a pretty good pastiche of 19C style, although you wouldn't know it from this account.

16. What are your writing weaknesses?

Plotting. Falling back on boring/clichéd beats to flesh out dialogue-heavy scenes.

17. What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

A sentence or so? Sure. Can't think of a reason to do much more than that.

18. What was the first fandom you wrote for?

It would be either Buffy or Lord of the Rings - I honestly don't remember - not counting the terrible Shannara-fic I wrote as a pre-teen.

19. What’s a fandom/ship you haven’t written for yet but want to?

Someday I'd really like to write a Children of Men story telling what happened to Kee and [spoiler] after the movie, plus fixing [spoiler].

20. What’s your favorite fic you’ve written?

Subject to change by the moment, of course, but looking back at some older stories recently reminded me that I've always been pretty fond of don't go home without me.

#i did the thing #tag you're it #writing memes

[dats-hq]

Ryo- 1, 2, 7, 21,22, 

Miu and Saki- 13, 18, 26, 30

Hey did you know that if you accidentally press Ctrl-Z one single time on Tumblr desktop sometimes it will undo 90% of your post and not give you the option to Ctrl-Y? Because I didn't until now ahahhahahahahahahahaha (I am now Piedmon)

Guess I'll just rewrite the entire thing lol

Ryo

First impression? I knew he was going to be cool. That hair? That jacket? That KUNEMON? When I found out he was rude, it was all over.

When I started to truly like him? Honestly don't have a good answer for this lol. I thought he was great from Part 1. His emotional spiral was visible from orbit and I was already stressed about saving him by the time I fought the first spider Kemonogami boss.

7. A quote I remember? [in response to Takuma asking if he knew which Kunemon was real in Part 5]

"Sorta? I couldn't understand what the others were saying, just the real one, so."

I just love the image of Ryo surrounded by the sounds of kew kew and being totally lost until he hears his kew kew.

21. When was he happiest?

I think it's got to be some time when he was able to just vibe with Kunemon. Like when he's shit-talking Takuma and Kunemon is like "Kew" and Ryo is like "haha so true", or when he surprised Kunemon with a gift he made himself and it was training equipment specifically designed for Kunemon's body. [no idea how that works but I love it]

22. When was he at his lowest?

Aside from the obvious answer of Part 3, I think there's a lot to be said about how Ryo tries to drag everyone down to his level in Part 1 and 2. Like he just can't stand that the others have hope. I like imagine this betrays some deep-seated trauma with getting his hopes up about his mom because of adults sugarcoating the updates on her health too much early on. Regardless of if you like that headcanon, I still love how fucked up Ryo gets in the early chapters.

Miu

13. Favorite friendship

Honestly? Perfect tie between Syakomon and Takuma. I love how Syakomon is her only-slightly-less-unhinged collaborator and hypemon, and I love how Takuma is the only human who really consistently treats Miu like a fellow human.

18. How do I think they were as a kid?

Talked with some friends a while ago about how fucked up it is that Miu's parents believed some random stalker over their own daughter, and it makes me think she was always a "problem child". High energy, low impulse control, very little intuitive understanding of social norms.

Feel free to read that any kind of neurodivergent way you'd like.

26. When were they the most "themselves"?

No moment sticks out in my mind for this question as intensely as when Miu gave a prayer to the old school near the end of Truthful route, thanking it for keeping everyone safe and eventually convincing everyone to do the same. It was just so earnest and heartfelt and uncorrupted by any worry about how Kaito or anybody else would judge the behavior. Love that for her.

30. Funniest scene they had?

[Takuma desperately courting Miu's help to get everyone else to calm down in Chapter 6, even addressing her by her preferred royal title]

Miu: Hmm, nah, can't help. Thanks for calling me Lady Miu though >:3c

Saki

13. Favorite friendship

Well since I guess I'm just straight-up a Saoki shipper at this point, I'll say Miu. I spent a lot of time thinking about their relationship back when I wrote Not My Problem, and there's a lot of potential there that the structure of the game itself doesn't really allow to get explored. They kind of both have the same deal going on emotionally, not feeling like they have a place in their communities and lacking independence, and yet outwardly they have entirely opposite vibes (always a fun dynamic). They never really talk about their feelings with each other, so you'd think they wouldn't get along because of those opposite vibes, yet they seem to really enjoy each other's company from what little we see in the prologue and a few Free Action conversations where they both talk about how the other seems like they'd be cool to be friends with.

Every time I replay Survive, that first conversation they have about going to see the Kemonogami realm means so much to me.

18. How do I think they were as a kid?

Saki strikes me as a very quiet, antisocial kid. Like she made friends relatively easily, but never because she was the outgoing one. Obviously that's changed by the time we meet her, but Saki always feels like someone who has changed a lot even before the game begins.

26. When were they the most "themselves"?

Bro this is such a hard mode question for Saki lmao

The first answer that pops to mind is when Takuma gets back from the human world and he talks to Saki and she's super casual about telling him about her surgery and they also just tease Aoi a bit together. The usual secrecy isn't something Saki actually wants, it's something she thinks she needs.

30. Funniest scene they had?

Well, if it was just about a single line, I'd say when Minoru shows up on the bridge in Part 2 trying to act all brave and she's just like "When did you grow some balls, Minoru!?" but it's not exactly a funny scene overall so

Going to go with when you find her snacking on some nuts and then when Aoi asks about the missing nuts she's just like "woah look what I just found this exact second!" and throws them at Takuma.

#digimon survive #kimishima saki #saki kimishima #shinonome miu #miu shinonome #ryo tominaga #tominaga ryo #digimon survive spoilers

[sparxaf]

7, 10, and 13!

7. What OC (yours or someone else's) can't you get enough of?

These are really hard. For my own work, I'm gonna say Maitland in TSIME. She's a side character and one of Bobby's best friends. She's unpretty, she's grumpy, she has no time for feelings, but underneath her crusty exterior is a person who loves HARD. I just adore her. I also have a great love of Siobhan in TSIME. For other people's OC's, that's tough. There are so many I could list. But I think I'm gonna go with Sadie from The Greatest of Them All. She's sweet, strong, smart, and batshit crazy and I love her. The Scorpio rising in me honors the Scorpio that must live in her. Because she is SPITEFUL. I could read many more stories about her life with Bobby.

10. What's a theory/headcanon that you would die on the hill of?

Hmmm. Sam just reminded me that I basically wrote an essay on why my favorite fuckboy Levi cheats. It's a whole long build up I won't post here, but basically Levi feels his only worth is in WINNING. In being perfect. And he's desperate to feel like he can be loved even if he fucks up. Which is why he cheated and then immediately flew home and told Luci. And Luci of course, dumped him without hearing him out (as is her right) but to him proved that yet again, he isn't allowed to fuck up. Which is why, after Cherry-gate, if you give him another chance, he becomes THE UBER BOYFRIEND. He's the fucking best. Because you gave him space to fuck everything up, but you still cared about him. You stuck around and now, he'll fucking die for you.

13. What's your favourite moment during your time in the fandom?

It happened a long time ago, but back when my first exposure to the fandom was Twitter, there was a lot of weird shit happening. Long before the Tumblr accounts, there were S2 characters tweeting. And there were two Bobby accounts. I was in a Bobby stan Twitter GC and one of the Bobby accounts joined the chat. Everyone went bonkers and we all just sort of roleplayed that Bobby was our group boyfriend. It was extremely weird 😂 But then one day, THE OTHER BOBBY JOINED. LE GASP. And the two Bobbys fought for our hearts. Sides were chosen, accusations were hurled, and in the end, one Bobby was CAST OUT of our love nest. To this day I can't see the Spiderman gif where the two point at each other without thinking of the Battle of the Bobbys.

Also, side note, afterward, I found out that it was the same person running both Bobby accounts, so she was fighting with herself and somehow, that made it even weirder and funnier to me. She told me she got bored so she spiced it up 🤣🤣🤣.

Thank you for the ask, @longbobmckenzie!

#ask game #litg positivity #sparx answers asks #love island the game #litg fanfic writer #fandom elder

[fearowkenya]

Ocean Wave, Part 2: A Winding Current

“I was curious.” Dracmon fidgets idly with the little golden loop near the spike on his right wing. “Somethin’ about you drew me in… and I couldn’t walk away. When we fought together, it felt right. More right than anything I’ve ever, ever felt. And now… I just want to be with you.” Dracmon wasn't always by Kaito's side. Which begs the question: part 1 - footprints in the sand Who was he, before the arrival of his other half? part 2 - a winding current And what was he doing, on that fateful day?

Part 2 covers the moment that Dracmon and Kaito met for the first time. once again, tumblr dot shit hides posts with external links in tags, so the ao3 link is in the source.

EDIT: fixed formatting on ao3 - indentation on mobile should look better now. extended authors notes under cut!

SO there was a TON of ideas that went into part 2, mostly stemming from, as i've mentioned, me being mad that kaito and dracmon were the only ones not to get a fancy champion evo sequence on-screen. i said in my authors note on ao3 that as i was playing, i just assumed it happened off-screen, but then i asked myself "what if it didnt?" and the answer i came up with was "maybe dracmon could already innately reach champion" and then i worked backwards from there.

next - aesthetic changes to dracmon. i am a HUGE sucker for digimon being matchies with their partner. before dracmon met kaito, i think all of his eyes were red, both the ones on his face and the ones on his hands, and the ones that are green only became that way after meeting kaito and devolving from sangloupmon. it's kind of like in tamers when beelzemon's eyes change colour after he makes amends with his partners. i also made changes to the accessory situation - after meeting kaito, instead of the little chain with the green gem in the middle, dracmon would have piercings on his wingtips that are the same shape and on the same side as kaito's. i have like... a written list of all aesthetic changes across all stages for all the partner digimon at this point (except for renamon and gabumon - still thinking about those ones) so i will accept any invitation to blabber about them! i LOVE that shit, i cannot emphasize that enough!!

formatting this time was a little less intense - i only had one table i needed to work with, and tbh, most of my formatting issues were about indentation. im actually not really a fan of the standard ao3 formatting patterns, where there's double spacing after each paragraph and no indentation. i much much prefer how it is in most novels, where there's no double spacing and every paragraph is indented. i know people tend to be fussy about formatting in fics, and most of the ones ive seen use the double-spacing no-indenting situation. it's understandable, formatting is something i'm fussy about as well, so im trying to strike a balance between the way i like it and the way i've noticed that most others like it.

i like indenting. i use it to like... give a sense of flow to conversations and/or differentiate/shift between spoken word and narration. the vibe im trying to give when i increase indentation from line to line is that the conversation speed is picking up. im not sure how well that was conveyed, but i think it works all right.

once again, like in alligators, i left some deliberate loose ends. the most obvious one is "if that first tether pulling dracmon toward the ocean wasn't kaito, then what was it?" and listen. dont even worry about it (:

as im replaying the game, im noticing some really interesting stuff about the state of the digital world. in like...part 7, i think, there's an optional free time event where you can recruit a tentomon, and it mentions that a lot of other digimon have been behaving aggressively lately. paired with the fog, i think that what's happening is that the shrinking digital world is causing a lot of digimon to have to live in close quarters, and that a lot of them are "young" in the sense that they're still feral and incapable of speech or reason. that, plus the continuous spread of the fog, would make for a really hostile environment for the remaining areas of the world. im quite happy with the theory i've got that digimon might sometimes lose a bit of memory every time they regenerate. if you subscribe to that idea, the unusual aggression among the wild digimon makes a lot of sense - they're all young, they all keep getting exploded and forgetting what's going on, theres this terrifying fucking fog EVERYWHERE, which just feeds back into wild digimon being more on-edge, and therefore more aggressive. thats why tsumemon is a little unsure of hanging out with koromon at first in part 1 - it's a dangerous world for little guys!

this is kinda connected to why i have the digimon half of the cast crossing paths with one another. tsumemon and koromon have met, yeah, (even though they don't remember anymore) but also i think a few of the other characters have met too. i didn't linger on it, but kunemon was in part one of ocean wave , albeit very briefly, trying to warn dracmon about seadramon lol. Now Why Would He Do That? again. don't worry about it (:

and at last - what's next? i mentioned in another text post a few days ago that ideally id like to go back to some shuuji and lopmon stuff. ocean wave set up some context about a couple of things i want to explore about shuuji and lopmon's relationship, as well as some . hmm. alternate events. and what effect those alternate events have on the two of them. "what do you mean" dont worry (: mostly it is just me self-indulgently fixing a few gripes i had with truthful route's part 6. i'd also at some point like to post some doodles of aesthetic changes. i have a few sketched out but they're very messy lol

anyway wow this was a big ol comment post. thanks for reading this far !!

#digimon survive #shinonome kaito #dracmon #kaito shinonome

[june-again]

alright, fuck it, might as well make a fun little post where i cry about how rough this year was. seriously though, my tumblr followers have seen the most of any, and the tiny interacts i get to make with people through this website have given me strength that i would have gotten from nowhere else. it's so cool that you and i are alive at the same time! let's make 2023 a little bit better than this year, maybe :)

what happened to me this year? (very out of order)

started senior year of highschool, played mrs. lovett in sweeney todd in drama class, quit my job, had a lovely boyfriend for 9 months, worked a summer internship, played probably at least 400 hours of genshin impact, got a steam account and bought like 7 games, fought off a caffeine addiction, made some incredible friends, got my driver's liscence, braces were taken off, pulled tartaglia no. 11 of the fatui harbingers (and zhongli in jan), went to er for the first time !!! wrote like 4 fics, read 7? books, painted !!!!, started college, got accepted into my #1 uni, dropped a class that was supposed to get me a summer job next year, lost my grandma, wrote 60+ songs.... and i didn't kill myself!!

so you know what. even though i feel like i fucked this year up in a few ways, i'm just grateful that i'm still goin and i get another year to try again. thanks moots, thanks followers, thanks irls. i'm proud of u for making it this far too :)

#wooo that was sentimental #i actually feel a little less dread now #so much change is gonna happen in 2023 #i am looking forward to what it will bring #the next 6 months might be hell though #lolz #i got dis #june shines

[travllingbunny]

Could you please tell me what kind of personality Richard III had?

I haven't written anything about Richard III - or the English history - in years, but I assume you've seen some of my older posts from the time when I was reading books and other sources on the English history and participating in discussions among the history fandom on Tumblr. So this is a nice blast from the past ;)

Of course, I can't tell you with certainty what Richard's personality was like, so this is speculation, but I think we can get a reasonably good general idea of it based on historical sources available.

First off, if you haven't read any of the articles that came out a few years ago, after his remains were found, about psychologists analysing Richard's personality, you can read it here, for instance.

I generally agree with this. Psychologist Mark Lansdale, PhD, describes him as "a relatively normal guy dealing with a very difficult set of circumstances" (mind you, relatively normal here specifrically means a relatively normal medieval English nobleman) and states that Richard didn't show signs of what is now popularly known as "sociopathy" (in other words, the image of him people get from Shakespeare's play - even though Shakespeare was never even remotely trying to be historically accurate, or Thomas More's book about him, which was an unpublished work that was never intended as a serious historical work and reads more like satire) but shows signs of "intolerance of uncertainty" as a symptom of anxiety disorder.

In other words, having experiences severe trauma as a child and in his youth as a result of a civil war and his family being torn apart by it, Richard liked stability, and could show authoritarian tendencies at times when a civil war was threatening to break out again (aka in the turmoil after his brother Edward IV's death). A reminder that Richard was only 2 years old when the tensions in the English court broke into armed conflict, and his father Richard, Duke of York, fought his first battle against his enemies at court such as Edward Beaufort, Duke of Somerset. When Richard was 6 and a half years old, he got to experience what must have been an incredibly traumatic event as the Lancastrian army brutally sacked the town of Ludlow, reportedly including the York family household, and Richard he was taken prisoner with his mother Cecily and his older siblings Margaret and George. He also may have witnessed the brutality against other people who were not protected by station as his family was. Meanwhile his father and two eldest brothers had to flee to Ireland. Then, after a brief time when it seemed the tide had turned in his family's favor, his father was killed, along with his second son Edmund, at the battle of Wakefield, probably after being betrayed by one of his allies - and 7-year old Richard, together with his 10-year old brother George, were sent abroad by their mother for their own safety. A few months later, the tide would decisively turn again thanks to his oldest brother Edward, who crowned himself Edward IV and won a decisive battle at Towton, beating the Lancastrian forces, taking King Henry VI prisoner (former king, at that point) and forcing Queen Margaret to flee to France with the crown prince Edward.

I think this is what also shaped Richard's relationship with Edward. While George and Richard did not always get along (the struggle around their respective wives' Neville inheritance), I imagine they were probably still close, as they were close in age and grew up together, and had a classic sibling rivalry. On the other hand, Edward who was 12 years old than Richard - must have been a looming, idealized big brother figure, great warrior and protector and savior of their family, even more prominent since Richard lost his father so early. George, however, did not have a good relationship with Edward and would later rebel against him, together with his father-in-law/first cousin Warwick "the Kingmaker", but Richard always remained loyal to Edward and, as a teenager, became his right hand.

By all accounts, Richard himself was a powerful and brave knight/warrior, and a capable and respected ruler/administrator during his time in the North, where he remained very popular even after his death (there are accounts of bar fights breaking in at the time of Henry VII's rule in the North where some people did not take well to Richard's reputation being smeared). The former is more interesting when we take into account his physical characteristics.

There has been a lot of misinformation about Richard's disability over the ages and it oddly still continues. Today, we know that he had scoliosis - a spinal deformity where one of shoulders would be higher than the other (which is a very different thing from a hunchback), which started when he was a teenager. The extent to which he would've been affected by that has been debated. According to what the experts said after examining his remains, it probably did not cause him much pain, and it would not have stopped him from being a great knight that he was reputed to be (it has been demonstrated that people with similar degree and type of scoliosis, and even with much less training and fitness than Richard had, could perform all the tasks such as horse riding, wielding weapons etc.). However, it did make him shorter than he would've otherwise been, and together with his slender frame and below average height (for a medieval nobleman, that is - as noblemen were taller on average than the rest of the population) it means he had no work and train harder than someone with such physical predispositions as Edward IV (who was very tall - around 194 cm aka 6'3-6;4" and big and strong and athletic in his youth, before getting overweight).

Richard's scoliosis would not have been visible as long as he had his clothes on - which is why there are no reports of it by anyone, including foreigners who had met him, during his lifetime. It only became public knowledge after his death, when his dead body was stripped naked and paraded through the streets of Leicester (flung over a horse, in a positition that made the spine curvature as visible as possible) and displayed in the town. People who met him during his life mostly described him as not tall* but slender, fit, with long fingers and handsome. (*Some remarked that he was on the shorter side, but a German knight who met him described him as quite taller than himself; most likely, Richard was shorter than average for a medieval nobleman, but still not as short as some others.) However, knowing the medieval supersitions about physical deformity as a punishment from God and possible sign of evil (which was exploited by the Tudor propaganda as much as possible after his death), his scoliosis would've been a carefully guarded secret. "Landsdale says : Reports about Richard being cautious and withheld would be consistent with someone sensitive about what he would see as his personal deformity." I don't think that Richard or his family believed in those superstitions - considering the trust Edward put in him and I don't think Richard has doubts about his own character or capability to rule - but they would've been aware how others may see his scoliosis, so probably wouldn't want to spread that around.

One of the most interesting things about Richard is that he always seems to have had a strong presence and effect on others, in spite of his relatively small stature and physical deficiencies, due to his determination, courage and force of will.

As a teenager, Richard was a loyal supporter of his eldest brother Edward and gave a significant contribution to him regaining his throne. This time would've probably also been traumatic in terms of betrayal by close people - their brother George and their much older cousin and former close ally (and the man in whose household Richard grew up) Richard Neville, Earl of Warwick, the "Kingmaker". Later, he gained lands in the North from his mutually beneficial and, as far as we know, harmonious and happy marriage to Anne Neville (whom he would've known growing up - although speculations that they were childhood sweethearts seem dubious since she was 3 years younger, which is a lot more significant as an age difference when you are a teenager) and was a successful and respected lord/administrator. If the tumultuous events of 1483 hadn't happened, he would remain an uncontroversial footnote in history.

Overall, he seemed to be similar in personality (as he was reportedly similar in appearance) to his father (who also seems to have been a pretty normal medieval nobleman thrust in tumulteous circumstances). He was a pious Catholic, but not a fanatic. Although he apparently very enthusiastically talked about potentially going to war to defend Christian Europe from the Ottoman invasions. Of course he would've believed, like all medieval noblemen, in the hereditary rights to rule, but he also took his duties seriously and tried to make things better and more just for people in general through some of his positive legal reforms as the King. He has a reputation of being somewhat of a prude. But, to put it into perspective, there's no indication he was against, say, sex outside marriage per se - he had two illegitimate children he fathered as a teenanger before his marriage, and he recognized them and made sure to secure their future; he was, however, strongly against adultery, and by all accounts never had any affairs afte he got married, and 2) we have to take into account that this was mostly because of his criticism of Edward's court and the excessive lifestyle there, and that the people he directed this moralistic criticism at were those he also had other reasons to resent and target,, namely political conflict and/or betrayal (like William Hastings or Jane Shore). I'm just saying this because some people think of a Stannis-like figure, stern and charmless and against all joy, and this is not who he was - his own court had lavish Christmas celebrations, he had a big band of court musicians, the Slesian knight (Niclas von Popplau) described him as a very charming and generous host. He didn't like Edward's lifestyle, including his countless mistresses - but I don't think that was the reason why he started hating Edward's court and made sure to be away from - since he only started staying away since 1478, when Edward had their brother George executed. There are accounts that this was when he 'broke up' with Edward's court and also when his animosity against the Woodvilles started. I think he was disappointed in Edward, for many reasons, but was looking for ways to blame everyone around Edward instead.

He also seems to have had a typical medieval nobleman's view of women, mostly shaped by the amount of benevolent sexism you'd expect from them (not executing women for treason was an unwritten rule before Henry VIII) mixed with some malevolent sexism that is also within the bounds of what you'd expect from someone of his time and station. In short, he respected and liked women who were intelligent, strong, pious as he was, and that he saw as having a strong moral character, and liked to have such a woman as his partner who could rule in his stead when he was away - women like his wife Anne, like his mother, and like his prospective bride, Princess Joanna of Portugal. (That potential marriage was, of course, very useful because of the fact that the Portuguese royals were the senior descendants of the legitimate Lancastrian line, and that the double marriage pact would've also solved the problem of Elizabeth of York, with her getting married to a Portuguese royal duke, neutralizing Henry Tudor and simulteanously fulfilling Richard's promise to Elizabeth Woodville to find good matches for her daughters. But I think Richard also preferred to marry a grown woman his own age who was known to be intelligent and capable and pious and with great reputation - someone who could be a great Queen consort and political partner - rather than a teenager, like the Spanish princess who was his other potential bride, in spite of the fact that Joanna wanted to be a nun, so she was probably not your ideal pick if you were looking for sexual/romantic partner.) On the other hand, his attitude towards Jane Shore shows a mix of benevolent sexism (not chopping her head off like he did with Hastings, which would've happened to her if she had been a man passing messages from Hastings to Anthony Rivers) and malevolent sexism, with his contemptuous attitude towards her and the "penance walk" he subjected her to. He saw her as a "bad woman", immoral and opportunistic and using her wiles to manipulate men. However, contrary to some myths that have been constructed later, he doesn't seem to have hated her, since he let her be released from prison not long after and get married - it was more like a mix of mild contempt and general indifference.

This is getting long, so just one more thing: there are very different views of Richard's personality in terms of how rational or ruled by emotion he was. it's a whole spectrum from the idea of him as perfectly cold and calculated, to the image of him as incredibly impulsive and acting on emotion, especially in the last couple of years of his life. I think the truth is somewhere in between. I think he was usually pretty normal and balanced, and we see that, even towards the end of his life, he was able to make smart political moves (like this above mentioned double marriage pact with Portugal, which would've been a masterstroke if he hadn't been killed at Bosworth and if it had happened). But in times of instability and turmoil, he was also prone to acting rashly. He certainly wasn't someone to hesitate, especially when he felt betrayed - the execution of William Hastings is an obvious example. And we have direct account of his emotional outbursts - one is his reaction to Buckingham's betrayal (writing that Buckingham was "the most untrue creature living" - which Richard added in his own hand, instead of dictating it, at the end of his letter to his Lord Chancellor John Russell), another is the account of how extremely emotional he was when he came out publicly after his wife's death to deny any rumors of wanting to marry his niece Elizabeth of York. But I think these were obviously extreme circumstances, and that he was probably reasonably calm and restrained most of the time.

#richard iii #historical richard iii #anonymous ask

[concernedlily]

cousins wip 11

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(note: now posted in slightly revised form up to the end of the tumblr pt 6 on AO3)

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Fortunately for Porsche, he has someone in mind to take out his frustration on.

“What do <i>you</i> want?” Kim says when he opens the door, with an amount of disdain that would be impressive if it didn’t do nothing but emphasise what a kid he is, barely out of his teenage years and surly.

A lethal fucking honed knife of a kid, yeah; one Porsche isn’t even sure he’d be able to take, having watched footage Arm found him of Kim sparring showing him dangerous as fuck even years younger when he still lived at the tower, but still. Porsche has seen a lot of photos and videos of Kim - Chay’s crush had been longstanding, and not subtle - and vaguely remembers the way he’d fought in the warehouse, he’d known Kim is slender and ethereally pretty, but somehow with everything Chay told him he’d worked up a bruiser of a guy, looming over a fragile Chay like a horror film monster.

He’s not. He’s a kid; a kid brother. <i>Kinn’s</i> baby brother and if things had been different he’d have been like Porsche’s brother too. Even as it is, he’s Porsche’s younger cousin. He may be good at killing but he shouldn’t have to, and Porsche feels the weight of having left him as the only one defending Chay. 

“I can’t pay a family visit?” Porsche says breezily. Kim glares at Arm, who tries to shuffle a little further behind Porsche, and Porsche signals to him and the rest of his detail to stay in the hall.

“No,” Kim says flatly. “Nobody from the family visits me here. It’s my home.”

“Maybe I’m here to offer you a job,” Porsche says, and that gets him enough narrow-eyed surprise to shove his way into the flat on pure height and weight advantage, keenly aware the whole time that Kim is letting him. Turning his back on Kim takes strength of will, like trying to float in a shark tank. 

“I don’t work for the family,” Kim snaps. “Either branch.”

“What if I told you I was moving my brother to the minor family house?” Porsche says, swinging around to face him. The flat isn’t exactly comfortable looking, all black wrought iron and furniture as bland as Kinn’s. The only signs of personality are a collection of guitars, which is nice, and a massive painting of Kim’s own face, like Tankhun has, which as far as Porsche can tell is pretty much a sign of personality disorder. 

“You’re not. It isn’t safe,” Kim snarls, and Porsche has no idea how this kid manages to play at being an internet celebrity. Yeah, he’s good-looking, and that face probably does a lot of the work for him while he’s still young and cute and people aren’t looking too closely, but the subtle wrongness of innate mafia-kid bloodlust is far closer to the surface than Kinn’s, even more so than Vegas’. Porsche is going to have to have a word with Chay about not thinking the fucking best about people he meets. 

“Don’t work for the family my ass,” Porsche says contemptuously, because he may not have grown up with it, but there’s a touch of mafia kid to him anyway; always has been in how he likes to fight. “And don’t tell me it’s you as well. You’re <I>cousins</I>.”

“Who cares?” Kim says, and he says it like it’s a genuine question. At least Kinn and Tankhun had got intellectually why people might think it was weird for cousins to fuck, even if they didn’t feel it personally. Kim sounds like he’s just landed from the moon and is studying human ways under a microscope. 

Porsche says, “I care. And so does he.”

Kim looks furious, in a way that’s like his face spilling into a cake mould, comfortable and familiar, but there’s something else in his eyes, something Porsche used to see in the lone drinkers at the bar; something a bit like heartbreak. “Why are you here?” 

“Okay. Okay,” Porsche says. He holds his hands up like surrender and Kim grinds his teeth so hard it’s audible and ungraciously jerks his head at the table.

Once they’re seated, Porsche trying to squash the instinct telling him to check under the table for concealed weapons, he says. “My mother, our mother, wants to meet him. I’m going to ask him, but - it’s a lot. The way she is -” the way your father made her, is what he means, and Kim gets a shadowy look in his eyes like maybe he actually heard that bit the way neither Kinn nor Tankhun would’ve - “is a lot. He told me about the club his <i>friend</i> took him too. You’re at his school, you know those people. If he needs help again…”

Chay won’t thank him for this. Porsche shouldn’t be doing it. Never would have done it, a few months ago, not put someone who’d already hurt him back into Chay’s life, but if there’s one place where principles have never mattered it’s been on making sure Chay is okay, making sure he can thrive. Kim’s not a good man but he’s family, he can’t be bought, and he’s shit-hot; he can be beaten, but not without making it expensive for anyone who wants to try. 

“He fucked up the interview,” Kim says.

“Not so badly money couldn’t unfuck it,” Porsche says, knowing his smile is the same sharpness as Kim’s tone.

Kim stares at the table and Porsche stays quiet. Eventually he grinds out, “I’ll look out for him.”

“With less murder this time, if you don’t mind,” Porsche says, because it feels like the little fucking psycho might need it pointing out. Kim looks up at him probably about the same way he looked at those guys before he killed them and Porsche looks back at him flatly. “I don’t know if he’d go back to the same place -”

“He won’t. I had Kinn buy it out and shut it down,” Kim says. 

“Fuck,” Porsche mutters. “Okay. Of course you did.”

“That’s the kind of thing he can do when he’s focused on his job,” Kim says. He sits back slowly, into a deceptively tense sprawl in his chair. His eyes are glittering, like it’s not just causing physical pain that gets him going. 

“What?” Porsche says slowly.

“I’m glad you’re not with him any more,” Kim says. “You’re just a distraction. He doesn’t need you around.”

“Okay,” Porsche says. He stands up, shoots his cuffs the way he’s seen Kinn do when the person he’s speaking to is completely below his notice, sees Kim recognise the move with fury. “Fuck you.”

“Fuck <i>you</i>,” Kim spits. “Get the fuck out of my house.”

“Your house,” Porsche says, mocking. Like hell is Kim affording this place on warbling on youtube videos occasionally. He might not like the family coming here, but it’s a family house, paid for with family blood money, like all the rest of them. He wanders out, taking in the flat and its contents, pricklingly aware of the way Kim is watching him “Nice place, out on your own. Nice for <i>you</i> to have been able to go out and be a singer.”

He picks up one of the guitars. It’s a smaller one, cheaper, a kids’ instrument, and there are pen initials on the belly in a childish scrawl: not too unlike the Theerapanyakul crest, KTK. He turns around, looks Kim in the eye. “Who taught you guitar?”

Kim goes for him.

Porsche knows two things immediately.

The first is that Kim is even better than he’d looked watching back on bad CCTV footage.

The second is that he’s fighting to incapacitate and Porsche can’t do the same, so Porsche needs to finish this quickly or he’s fucked.

He feints away from a punch that would have taken out several teeth, spins and drops to take the kick that would’ve dislocated his knee on the meat of his thigh, carries the spin round into a kick to Kim’s stomach and an elbow to his shoulder, trying to push him back and get enough space for Kim to rethink this. The suit he’s wearing hinders him irritatingly: he’s going to have to rethink it if he can’t <i>move</i>, maybe there was sense after all to Vegas’ tight trousers and flowing shirts.

Kim is unbelievably fast, and fearless, like he doesn’t care what damage he risks or takes if it gets him the advantage he wants. He steps into Porsche’s superior reach like it isn’t there and throws three quick rabbit punches to the tender area beneath the ribcage, his knee already starting to come up when Porsche caves around his fist.

Porsche grabs it and upends him, sending him crashing onto his back. He’s not an opponent to start kicking shit out of once they’re on the floor and, panting, Porsche starts to say, “That’s enough,” and Kim sweeps his legs around and aims a brutal kick at Porsche’s ankle.

Porsche crashes down to one knee and Kim aims a snap kick at his dominant wrist and steps in with his hands reaching claw-like for Porsche’s throat.

What the <i>fuck</i>, Porsche has time to think, is Kim actually going to try to fucking kill him, and then his vision is going hazy. He gets his fists together, squeezing, and batters them hard up into Kim’s groin. Kim lets go and Porsche drags in a breath, gasping, as Kim staggers back, clutching himself.

He pauses, gathers his strength under himself, and explodes up into a flying kick that catches Kim square on the chest and the base of his throat and sends him across the room.

It’s the last of his energy. He stumbles back and coughs experimentally. His throat is fucking killing him: there’s going to be serious marks. He’s obscurely proud of the vicious little bastard. 

He lowers himself gingerly down to a sitting position. On the other side of the room Kim is pulling himself up to one. They watch each other warily.

“Mind if I smoke?” Porsche says.

Kim rolls his eyes and rests his head back against the wall, then levers himself up painfully. He stands for a moment, wavering, and then he comes over to where Porsche is sitting and puts his hand out to pull Porsche up. “On the balcony. Yeah.”

He bums one off Porsche. “Do <i>not</i> get my brother into smoking,” Porsche says.

“Yeah, yeah,” Kim says. “I hardly ever do. It’s bad for the voice.”

They sit in almost-companionable silence for the length of a cigarette. Kim has a nice view. He’s not so far, the Theerapanyakul tower visible from the house, and Porsche thinks again of what he’d taunted the kid with, that this being his is a fiction the family are letting him have even while he gets pulled back in again and again.

“You’re taking Chay to meet your mother?” Kim says, after he’s flicked his end over the balcony.

“Yeah.”

“What’s going on with her, anyway?” Kim says, in a tone just a little too tense to be a throwaway comment; and anyway Porsche already knows he doesn’t exactly do polite small talk.

“I don’t know,” Porsche says, and then, deliberately light, “Uncle Korn doesn’t tell me much.” Out of the corner of his eye he sees Kim look at him, fights not to turn into the suddenly-measuring gaze. “Can I ask you. What went on with yours? The other bodyguards told me she’s dead but they wouldn’t say much more. Kinn never talks about her.”

“It was the same clan that took Khun,” Kim says, and he suddenly sounds very young. “Pa made us view the body, but she was - she was unrecognisable. He crushed them. Too late.”

Porsche offers him another cigarette, hands over the lighter when he takes it. “I figured it would be something like that.”

“This family doesn’t let go easily,” Kim says. He leans forward onto his knees, propping himself up like Porsche’s uncles at the minor family compound.

Porsche sighs and lights another cigarettej for himself. He says, “Learn to.”

***

The Theerapanyakuls aren’t the only ones with legit businesses. Kuhn Wanchai had rung up personally to invite Porsche to the opening of her new casino and it seemed like a good opportunity to test his new bodyguards, handpicked by Arm and Porsche together from the best of the new guys Gear has lured to the minor family through the simple trick of wildly overpaying compared to other clans, on the main family’s credit. 

Porsche has dressed them in nice trousers and brightly-coloured but regular shirts, replacing the Hawaiian prints with embroidered phoenixes in contrasting threads on the back right shoulder. It’s a nice effect: individually they’re as inconspicuous in a crowd as the main family bodyguards’ suits, but sauntering behind Porsche all together as he makes his entrance they look like a force, marking his power and status as deliberately as the way Kuhn Wanchai comes to greet him personally, with a glass of champagne and European-style air kisses to each cheek. 

“I hope you came ready to lose some money,” she says. Her smile has the beauty of a poisonous flower. She glances across the room pointedly.

Porsche doesn’t follow her gaze. He doesn’t need to: he’d clocked Kinn the second he walked in, moving across the room with two of his own perfectly-suited bodyguards in arm’s length - really his own, Arm has updated Porsche, so Tae’s dad must have tried shaking Kinn down too - and, more upsettingly although Porsche would toss a grenade into this charming gathering before he admitted it, two or three immaculately pretty boys drifting around quite a lot further than two arm’s-lengths but still unmistakably in Kinn’s orbit. He wonders if they’re paid, or have fucked Kinn before, or are simply hopeful: Kinn looks handsome and dangerous and sexy as hell in a red suit just a couple of shades lighter than his usual burgundy, a black shirt beneath it highlighting the bloodiness of the colour against Kinn’s pale skin. 

“I’ll do my best,” he says, and flashes a smile, the practised one he used to use at the bar. “As an opening present.”

“Have fun,” she says and moves on to greet her next guests.

Kinn is looking at Porsche: he can feel it with all the weight of Kinn’s body over his in bed, and he has to push down the instinct to show off, to tilt his head just right and put his tongue out to catch the sweat of the cold champagne on his glass in the hot room and run his fingers down the open vee of his deeply unbuttoned shirt.

Porsche is here for more than Kinn, and he’s supposed to be proving he didn’t get this job because Kinn wants him. None of the people he needs to notice him here will appreciate the display.

He hands his half-finished glass off to Main and straightens himself up. He’s careful to keep the wince off his face as he does it: he’s still suffering after the fight with Kim, and the bruises on his throat from being choked were carefully covered with makeup by Yaem before he left the house. Gear told him there’s due to be a politician here who’s been on the minor family payroll for years but rabbited off after the main family attack, whom Porsche needs to bring back into the fold; the rest of the Theerapanyakul council are probably here somewhere and Porsche needs to greet them early to show courtesy; and the drug deals in the casino are Wanchai’s business but as soon as customers step outside they’re on minor family streets and Porsche needs to ensure the right staff here understand that.

He goes to work.

#kinnporsche #kinnporsche fic #my fic #like that through all eternity #spot the moment I grew weary of writing fight scenes!!!

[tmnt-obsessed-ace]

Okay, an Ask about ur fic(s), because u want that, and I want to, so why?

So, for ur "Lost But Never Found" fic (only answer if you can and/or if it isn't spoilers ofc), I see that when u made that post tallying up Indigo's kill count (man, I both love Indigo's high kill count, but also feel bad, because like you said, Past Leo would be horrified by how many he has killed. And when he does get his memory back, while I still he will more likely to kill even then, he is probably going to feel quite guilty and stuff about what he has done), you mentioned that only people he hasn't killed are 4 I think when he first started off in the Battle Nexus and Leo and Splinter (damn Leo, just killing every one of his opponents. I could imagine people would be really afraid to fight him due to that and just his look and just him in general), and I am wondering is there any particular reason why he didn't kill those 4 people in the beginning of his time at the Battle Nexus?

I am guessing he was still trying not to kill at that point? But if that is the case, I do wonder what caused the switch/flip to him being utterly merciless in his fights (man, Rise Leo probably got quite lucky to have met 2012 Leo before his fight w/ him. 2012 Leo got lucky to meet Rise Leo b4 his fight too though)??

P.S.: I also just wanted to ask if you got my two Asks talking about ur fics basically (you don't have to answer them or anything if you don't want to. Plus, it was just mainly me talking about ur fics is all after all)? Just asking, because I am curious if u got them or if tumblr made it/them disappear.

Double P.S.: Good luck with the driving/driving lessons!

First of all yes I got those two asks they sit in my inbox so I can constantly absorb serotonin from them :)

And second theres actually 5 people (well yokai) that Indigo didn't kill. 7 if you were including Rise Leo and Rise Splinter.

Three of those five were his first three opponents in the nexus, before the memory wipe. He was just trying to knock them out with minimal damage which wasn't very exciting for the crowd. In fact his hesitance to kill is what drove Big Mama to have his memories wiped.

One of the five he didn't kill because he straight up LOST the match. He was almost strangled to death in that match. This was early in his post memory wipe Battle Nexus career.

Now the last of the five he originally spared is actually the very last opponent he fought before the memory wipe. The last person to see Indigo before he lost everything.

Who is that person? Well thats a massive spoiler so I can't say. What I will say is that when those two meet again, several months post battle nexus when Indigo is starting to regain his memories (not whole memories, just tiny bits and pieces...mostly the trauma though) It will make Indigo do something VERY stupid.

After all he is still Leonardo, and when he gets so extremely pissed off he doesnt think about the consequences, the massive risks he is taking.

And just like when he tried taking on the Triceraton Armada alone in a tiny scout ship in season four, it will have near FATAL consequences.

#tmnt 2012 #rottmnt #tmnt crossover #crossover