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varietyshiw · 1 year

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a silly little comic i made about plurality & unmasking

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irafuwas · 5 months

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i don't know why, but in the sparse five hours of sleep i got last night, my brain decided to plague me with dreams of lilia taking care of an elderly silver, up until the final moments of his life. i could hear silver's thoughts the whole time, and he was so absolutely inundated with shame and guilt it almost seemed like he was suffocating. he kept thinking over and over and over again that this all should've been the other way around. he should've been the one looking after his father in the twilight of his life. he should've been his aging father's rock, his safe place to land, his stalwart defender against a world so unbelievably cruel to its most vulnerable denizens. again and again his heart cried out in vain, it should've been the other way around.

as a child he had once wished - prayed, even, to the same force now threatening to reclaim his spirit back into its unconscious designs - for his father to live a long and prosperous life, and it was as though that very wish had backfired on him in a way he never could have possibly imagined

#twst silver #lilia vanrouge #twst spoilers #twst #mumbles #txt #i hate it here #i litearlly woke up crying you gusy dont unerstand #he was so ashamed of himself but not once in my dream was lilia anything less than happy to take care of him #i feel like part of the reason lilia is trying to run away is because like so many of our elderly and our disabled #he didn't want his loved ones to worry about him and “waste” their time taking care of him #so he thought the best decision for everyone would be if he just went off to go die alone #i have no idea if twst would actually touch on something like that but i do think you could interepret his departure that way #anyways if any of you have caretakers or aides or just are disabled in anyway #i want you to know you are not and have never been and never will be a burden on anyone or anything #and that i love you so so much #im getting so emotional over a dream fkjgh but i want silver to understand that good parents dont have kids expecting that #their children will someday “pay them back” for everythinng they did for them growing up!! u don't owe ur parents jack shit!!#silver you just existing as you are is enough for your father!!!

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ghoulchurch · 5 months

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booboo keys

#originalz #mai art #truly got very close to almost not posting this but im trying to be less ashamed of my interests 🥹#the groom of gallagher mansion #tgog #elias gallagher #hes just so sad and pathetic i need him like a spoiled little girl needs a pony #snaccpop studios

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dol-dee · 19 days

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Fallen Sydney is definitely the type that enthusiastically buys all sorts of kinky outfits. For themself as much as their s/o haha

Sydney buying a bunch of outfits she really wants to see on Dee. Forgetting she will have to convince/beg her for weeks to actually wear them

#sydney trying to rizz Dee up to get her into the incredibly tiny bunnysuit: PLEASEPLEASE PLEASE PLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEEEEEEPLEASEPLE #im kinda torn I think Dee has a thing for costumes as well but she already has to wear them a lot for the stripclub which is like….#sure.. it’s work.. whatever. but the association sticks #and then on the other hand I think she’s partly embarrassed that she’s into it. maybe even ashamed #smth smth this shitty town makes you feel like a piece of meat so it’s difficult to feel like you have ownership over your own body and kink #I love this hc because it’s so fun and cute but Sydney would need to spend soo much money on custom tailoring for Dee (realistically)#which would be suuuuuper expensive and makes the hc way less fun lmao (like Sydney would NOT have the budget for that)#< I keep doing this but i can’t help and be acutely aware how difficult it is to get cute clothes for anyone who’s not thin #sydney the fallen #dee the defiant #dol pc #on one hand I feel a bit guilty that I keep making these posts about Dee on the other hand… this is my blog I can do what I want and..#the blog name kinda indicates it don’t it (fork spotted in kitchen etc etc)#doldykes

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lonelyangelonlyangel · 10 months

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bpd body 👼

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matchamiko · 2 months

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I really dislike the new trend of videos with “I’m a 21 year old, these are the things I’m ashamed of about myself” and it’s just a recycle of living with parents, having no savings, having no job related to your degree or never being in a relationship. Poppet, you’re so young !!! Don’t be ashamed of that stuff !!!! I know you mean well and are trying to be relatable and individual but you’re not because you’re a baby and babies don’t need to have their whole life sorted out !!! Especially in this world and this age !!!! We all are small girls (gn) living in a mean mean world, let’s just have a cup of tea and some cake and not worry m’kay?

#I could’ve been meaner but I realise it’s mainly young 20 something girls #why r u ashamed if the point of the video is to make people less ashamed of a situation you share?#also I would be more inclined to watch and listen and relate to these videos if it was a 30 or 40 something year old #yall are babies please cut yourself some slack #also it’s one of those I saw one video and don’t need to see the others cause they’re all the same #boohoo I’m trying to be individual with my struggles:((( but also I have the exact same struggles as everyone else #precious child we r all suffering let’s just hold hands quietly #I could be so mean rn I’m so torn between being mean and kissing their heads #miko.online

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baalzebufo · 8 months

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one of my favourite songs of his and i cant believe i didnt see the live recording until like yesterday ... thanks weird al tumblr blogs i follow. for putting germs in my brain

#yes i am weird al fanart posting on main. sorry this is something you just have to deal with now #i KNOW this . is not my usual content. but my case of the mondays has extended into tuesday. let me have this #if i keep joking about it i'll feel less embarrassed about posting-#alloyart #weird al yankovic #literally this all started because of that goddamn dnd oc and me using al as a reference for him and it spiralled out of control #and then i relistened to a bunch of his stuff and got that good warm fuzzy nostalgia from when i was younger and less ashamed of being goof #so im trying to bring that back lol #anyway. i enjoy this outfit.

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butchvamp · 7 months

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ohhh my god i need to get off this website

#first mistake going into the lesbian tag just to immediately see lesbophobia #crazy to me that the popular stance from so many other gay ppl rn is just ‘lesbophobia is good’#i cannot take it anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#why is everyone suddenly so obsessed with 'proving' that lesbians can be with men #and why are so many people being so horrible and misrepresenting our history #there absolutely were lesbians that were with men historically. because they were either bisexual women #that were forced to mislabel themselves bc of the violent biphobia in the lesbian feminist movement #or they were women unknowingly dealing with compulsive heterosexuality #like how disgusting do you have to be to look at some of these women and be like 'this was when queers were REALLY QUEER'#instead of like. having empathy and understanding about their situation #and also acknowledge that language has changed. there is no lesbian feminism anymore lesbianism is a sexuality that EXCLUDES MEN #end of sentence #there is a difference between someone questioning or who found out they were lesbian later in life #or historically where these words had different meaning the community & society was Completely Different #versus you assholes deliberately trying to force lesbianism to include men to be 'progressive'#like just so fucking vile. you should be ashamed of yourselves #literally just cannot go into any gay spaces as a lesbian anymore because it's just constant lesbophobia and no one cares #theyre more concerned with being So Inclusive and the Better Queer that they'd rather exclude an entire part of the community #and deem them 'less than'#while parroting the same shit conservatives say to all lesbians #did you win? do you feel good about ignoring and talking over and excluding us?

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joeyisourranger · 11 months

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eating my weight in lentils this week so i don’t get rejected from the blood drive (again)

#i think i’m probs anemic but i’m gonna pretend i can outsmart this crumbling skin suit anyway #if u are a nurse or a dietitian don’t read this #have not donated since high school because the second time i went they were like girl no gtfo of here with your iron-less blood #and i’ve been too ashamed to try again since #HERE’S HOPIN #i’ve had so much caffeine holy shit send help

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dmclemblems · 2 years

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spit takes in absolute fucking realization

are you mfers referring to...?

#Three Houses #Three Hopes #Yuri #Sylvain #i am ashamed i did not make this connection before hopes came out aaaa #sylvain also brings it up again after the ailell chapter when you meet up with rodrigue............#i think it's less direct but it does mention like i never thought i'd actually be trying to kill the guy (gwendal)#was this... the whole time wAS THIS...

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nazumichi · 1 month

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not exaggerating not blowing the situation out of proportion prommy but I think I’d rather do literally anything else before that chemistry group project. put me in the furnace or something. mountain. exam?? ?

#raii talks a lot #Please anything else. I made. Like a list of things that the group needs to do. and it’s stuff I need to do/stuff I need to make them do #And ik they’re not gonna care or listen to me. Even though I’m the group leader because no one else gave a shit and this is a big grade #like sorry for being a loser guys sorry for being a nerd but boy howdy we should do this thang huh. Pass this class. You sophomore shits #very close to asking my prof if i can get out of doing this. because I leave this year and they obviously dont #And I have ap tests and a sat which they also don’t have and god id take a full exam over this at this point #There’s just so much to do and so many things I want to prioritize and I’m so ashamed to ask my prof that because I like him and what if he #says no that would be mortifying. coping by making lists and trying to work ahead and reading mk which doesn’t help chem-wise #but it does make me feel less like passing out in agony. like woah i love this book I love this guy!!! I’m going to attack classmates #I loooove complaining I love this book I love kicking people and raging

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spkyscry-aa · 7 months

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anyways i've been to bdsm clubs, been to orgies, been part of the furry community for 10+ years, been a monsterfucker for the same amount of time

yeah you do the math here.

#down your spine ;; ooc #what's all the fuss ;; dash comm #my flavor of vanilla has been So So Warped that i have to contemplate my every utterance #aka i'm trying to be less ashamed of it so whatever have this confession #my vanilla is most people's obscene so i have to fuckin' police myself so bad i psych myself out so much on here #suggestive //#you can dissect this however you want but y'know. y'know?

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asinglesock · 8 months

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had a Costco $1.50 hot dog and soda for the first time today and it was lifechanging

#a sock speaks #food tag #last time I went with H my food anxiety was acting up really badly and I barely got anything #much less go to the food court where they don't serve any food she'd eat #but today I just mentioned that I wanted to go to the food court while she checked out and simply did that. nobody stopped me #and nothing embarrassing happened expected that H was really surprised at how fast I ate (it was bc I was worried that I'd keep her waiting #I also got a dozen croissants that I'd wanted last time but H had said something about a different place having better croissants #but today I got them anyway!#and we went to Kroger and I got storebrand ice cream even though H always gets fancier ice cream! I like this and I'll eat it #and I'm going to try so hard to enjoy it and not be weirdly ashamed of myself #I did spend like $110 on food today which is the most I've ever spent on food in one day #but I'm buying necessities and treats and I'm going to be fed. not going hungry this month.#I love feeling like it's okay for me to take up space. I think some things are getting better <3

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chartreuxcatz · 8 months

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hm. I just realized how weird it was that every year in school we had to have a moment of silence on 9/11 to remember the victims, and everyone took it really seriously. But when we had a designated time set for going outside and having a few minutes for the Parkland shooting victims our teacher told us “I don’t want to see any of you leaving my class for that. You don’t even understand what you’re protesting.”

Not that I would have known where to go for it anyway. They didnt really tell us where outside we would be gathering.

I wish i had stepped out that day anyways.

We have a god damn school shooting every fucking day in this country and I couldnt even take 17 minutes one fucking time to mourn with my classmates because the gun owners would’ve felt attacked.

#Meow.#Fuck the anthem. Fuck the pledge of allegiance #Fuck every stupid shithead conservative who made me feel ashamed or selfish for wanting better in this god forsaken place #Fuck America. Fuck your dumbass patriotism #Sick of this shit #I cant look at any comments on reports of school shootings because people dont even say ‘that really sucks’ anymore #Its immediately people jumping to the defense of guns and shitting on people who want some stricter regulations or something #‘I need my gun incase we have to overthrow the government’#like hey you dingdong. you know that military and police force you keep supporting and saying we need to strengthen?#your AR 15 isnt going to do shit against their tanks and jets and bombs. You’d be dead within seconds. gun or no gun #But then again their idea of anarchy and an attack on the country would involve queers getting bodily autonomy so #I feel like im going fucking crazy #I need to kick in every conservatives head. Every single one.#Sick of trying to be the tolerant left I need to kill now #Im so tired of being nice.#So tired of tiptoe-ing around shit just to keep people who couldnt care less about me comfortable.#When is it my turn to be an asshole?#When do I get say 'I have no atrong feeling as to whether you live or die. but if i had to choose I would wish you dead in an instant.'#Im tired of mercy. tired of grace.#tired of being one of the good ones.#i want to be exactly what they think of us but worse #sick of shoveling dirt into a bottomless void just to find some middle ground for them to spit on

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slippery-minghus · 1 year

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tonight's "late" night thought is brought to you by: i probably would be a lot less selfish if i had any siblings, but i'm glad i don't because becoming an adult and learning to care about myself and respect my own boundaries when i didn't have siblings to raise/defend was hard enough thanks.

#reason number 807 i'm glad i'm an only child #a sibling? oh you mean yet another person who would have hated me growing up?#a sibling? did you mean: someone else for my parents to compare me and my failures against?#a sibling? did you mean: another reason for my parents to neglect me?#i can't imagine a world where my hypothetical sibling would have been my ally #not with the hell i grew up in at least #and i know it's a lot more of a complex issue than whether or not i had a sibling but i am very stingy with sharing my resources #be them time emotional energy money or whatever #i can't not operate in a scarcity mindset #especially when managing my own needs is so hard #and i'm exceuciatingly triggered by anyone asking for my resources in a way that can even be remotely perceived as non-reciprocal #*excruciatingly #especially for emotional bandwidth #i've had way too many people try (and succeed) to use me as their emotional snot rags #and now i recoil at even the slightest hint of someone wanting to rely on me #like i'm one of those baby trees with all the supports still tied to it so it grows right don't fucking lean on me #and don't lean on my supports either they're all i've got and i need them as they are #maybe someday when i'm big and strong i won't need the supports and could maybe withstand some light leaning on me but #not fucking now #and that metaphor makes me feel a little less ashamed at least #personal

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vampiromano · 11 months

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“do you want me in your life or not?”

GEE I DON'T FUCKING KNOW and neither does he he's pathetic

#i guess i see where the cowardice lies #sorry I've been trying to figure out exactly how Beth's situation sucks for the longest time #like i get it sucks i just can't verbalize why and it literally won't leave me alone #like sure something something a non choice about whether you care about your literal daughter is a shitty thing #neither brave enough to admit you need her nor brave enough to let her go. and it sucks because all beth wants is for rick to like. not be #the worst father ever pretty much #anyway sucks to suck #i imagine beth was at mild peace with never finding out #after y'know rick refused yo tell her shjt #and then boom she mkre or less finds out she got sent away and that rick didn't want her from her pov kr whatevs #and to then find out that actually he couldn't even make thr choice??????#gkd yeah nevermind that's oughtta be the shittjest thing #NK WONDER RICK COULDN'T FUCKING FACE HJS DAUGHTERS AND OVERALL FAMILY AFTERWARDS #I'd be fucking ashamed too #fuck yeah I've verbalized thjs shit #anyway #rick and morty #i guess #should i even maintag #who cares #rewatch nr1 of rnm #i s'pose #btw re: thr 1st or 2nd tag 'the longest time' is like three days tops i started watching rick and morty on saturday it hasnt been v long #thinking js easy i just don't know words expressing shjt coherently js a prison

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