#truth over lies

[fanfic-lover-girl]

#Russian proverb #proverb #truth over lies #we need to speak the truth #too many lies masquerading as truth #anti 'my truth'

[zukkaoru]

[ID in alt]

when characters with very carefully crafted personas begin to crack and expose the truth behind the mask. nikolai, who has spent the entire time he's known fyodor plotting ways to kill him, is horrified when he actually sustains a life-threatening injury. and not only is this the first time we see him express an emotion like this, but he's also stumbling over his words - both verbally and internally - which is not something Nikolai does. he's confident. he's smug. he's a clown and the world is his circus. he's a performer and the mask stays on for everyone.

until fyodor's death is real. he never expected fyodor to be the one to die. he brought a radio with him to celebrate. he wouldn't do that for dazai. he claims he wants to kill fyodor, and he probably thinks he does, but he also didn't truly believe it was possible. he set a goal he didn't believe was achievable. except it was, it is, and it's happening right now before his eyes and--

it doesn't feel like he thought it would. it doesn't feel like freedom. it feels like a new cage you built for yourself.

#i lied i need to overanalyze every panel actually this manga has me in a CHOKEHOLD #bsd 111 #bsd chapter 111 #bsd spoilers #grace reads bsd #nikolai gogol #fyolai #hello grace here #i don't think i'm ever gonna be over the fact that the only time we see any hesitation in nikolai is after fyodor is injured/dies #nikolai doesn't hesitate. he doesn't doubt. that isn't part of the character he plays. #but you can't hide your truth forever and nikolai's mask is SHATTERING

[pokemon-ranger-booker]

confession I thought toedscool were made up until like an hour ago bc they literally were too fucking ridiculous for me to believe in. like a fuckin tentacool but it's pink and it runs around on land with its two stupid tentacle feet things slapping the ground? its name has the word TOE in it???? impossible, far too oundlandish, it's probably a myth like missingno or shelderman or Darkrai. like none of these things really exist.

Anyways guess who's 24 and fucking stupid

#its not my fault that people lied to me a lot #the boy who cried Zoroark ya know #if you lie over and over I won't believe you when you tell the truth #pokemon #pokemon ranger #pokemon ranger booker #pkmn irl #pokemon irl #unreality

[heartslobbf]

heterophobic nanami real

[ID: two screenshots from 'revolutionary girl utena' of nanami and touga standing in the rose garden. nanami imploringly clings to touga, who stands stiffly with his face obscured from the audience. in the first screenshot, nanami says: 'i know i have to accept that you go out with girls.'

in the second screenshot, nanami continues: 'but don't go out with a girl like her!' /end ID]

#this is one of my favourite scenes for 100000 reasons but i make this joke about this line every time and its tenuous/kinda unfunny at best #but im posting it anyway bc it makes me giggle. its how i cope ok #NORMAL :)))) SO NORMAL ABOUT THEM :))))))))) #i actually think this is probably the closest they ever get to having a meaningful conversation outside of the car scene #which. Hm. to say the least #idk there r so many lies and misperceptions going on in this one but there are REAL core truths to be picked out from it #and i dont think either of them note any of them but you know. what did i expect. car scene happens later after all #swagever im soooooooo normal about them forever and always #i just enjoy thinking about nanami as an avid romance hater esp straight romance (romance repulsed aro over here) #revolutionary girl utena #rgu #shut up daisy

[dragonseeds]

there’s a horrible sickness in me that makes me want to stop and replay da:i whenever i start a different game. how am i supposed to resist the story of my own unwilling apotheosis? especially as lavellan, who doesn’t believe in the maker and who has every right to hate and mistrust the chantry but chooses to use what power they have to try save people, to fix what’s broken, no matter how afraid they are or how careful they have to be. walking side by side with the great trickster god/adversary of your people without knowing, befriending him, changing his mind about this world but ultimately not his choice. he understands what’s happening to you because it happened to him once and he gives you his castle, built over the place where he sundered the world, and paints your story there in frescos that will last long after you’re gone and after the story has been retold and reshaped so many times that the truth of who you are and what you did is lost—just as he did his own story, which was lost and perverted by war and propaganda, and he shows all of this to you knowing you’ll understand because you’ve lived through something similar, grown into something larger than yourself and your true name, and it doesn’t change anything but. he wanted you to see him just for a moment, even if he can’t tell you everything (or almost anything) and you can’t save him—because he owes it to you as a someone who is a friend, almost an equal, and because there’s no one else left who knows: a direct result of what he did to your people and which he now seeks to undo at the cost of this world.

#dragon age #solas #literally i am ILL #i love religious trauma and stifling hypocrisy and walking carefully so carefully through a place i don’t belong but i’ve chosen to be #and questioning everything and losing and discovering myself over and over #and accidentally becoming friends with my work colleagues #and most importantly dating an actual god who is just a nerdy little guy who keeps fucking everything up #he’s such a liar but he wants to badly to tell the truth but he can’t he won’t #yet he only really lies through omission and speaks carefully so as not to give himself away #ok and also he very much wanted the anchor and manipulated that whole situation #but he also shows you who he is and tells you a sliver of the truth #and he didn’t have to do that! but he chose to—he wants you to see him and on some level to save him from his path i think #also i debated sooo long about the phrasing ‘almost an equal’ because i think he does consider everyone as worthy of life & choice as him! #but ultimately he is making the decisions of a god whether or not he acknowledges himself as one #he is deciding for a whole world—so i think there’s some cognitive dissonance there #and i went with almost #i’m fr stalled out in the middle of bg3 like i miss solas i miss my work friends

[sarahjacobs]

you know what really gets to me. is how jack loosens up david’s morals. like how david starts off as a staunch pacifist because of the Optics and strategy of it all, but then later he kicks a cop in the face and threatens him with a swing + tries to punch jack when he scabs. and both instances occur specifically because he cares so deeply about jack. But also there's this tidbit from the 91 script

it's like. up until now, david's interactions with jack have largely consisted of david being openly skeptical/confrontational whenever he detects any kind of bullshit. and while he immediately clocks that all this stuff about santa fe is a lie, for the first time, he decides to let it go. Because there's a kernel of authenticity to the statement, though the authenticity doesn’t lie in factual truth, it’s in how jack desperately "wants it to be true". because. this is david's first time seeing the soft underbelly to jack. because david IS charmed by jack despite not really trusting him

#newsies #92sies #javid #id in alt #* #i say all this knowing that in the finished movie this scene doesnt really read as david knowing it’s a lie #However i also think it’s interesting how david’s perception of jack and lying shifts over time #like the shift from ‘the names kelly. jack kelly; you think im lying?’ ‘well you have a way of improving the truth’ -> ‘you didnt even tell #me your real name!’ #and if we’re taking the script direction to be true. whats stated in the screengrab -> ‘you lied about your family being out west’ #so clearly at some point david decided that he DOES trust jack and what he has to say #sorry this is kind of like a ‘yeah the sky is blue so what’ moment. but i think #crutchy confirming that jack escaped the refuge via roosevelt’s carriage really went a long way in building trust #and of course starting a strike together. lol

[thegirlsarethriving]

just finished undertale. ok i see the vision. i now understand yall's Sans-to-Benrey obsession pipeline. and the Papyrus-to-Tommy Coolatta pipeline

#undertale #hlvrai #hlvrai2 #benrey #tommy coolatta #papyrus #benry #hlvrai benry #sans undertale #sans #undertale sans #undertale spoilers #i loved Papyrus so much and the whole time i was playing i was like hmm he reminds me of someone...? TOMMY. HE REMINDS ME. OF TOMMY. #i played pacifist but i saw how if u kill every1 n spare Papyrus Sans tells him every1 else is on a vacation bc truth would be too hard #file under: lies Gordon would tell Tommy if anything happened to Sunkist or his dad Gman #we wanna protect Tommy but on the other hand. the horrors r everywhere & Tommy go ham with a gun (he's terrified & acting on pure instinct) #(even tho Tommy has definitely faced his share of horrors in contrast to how Papyrus's loved ones try to shelter him from bloodshed) #i wanna write a paper psychoanalyzing Sans and Benrey in comparison to each other SOOOOO badly #it's been a hot minute since i last watched hlvrai (have seen it at least 4 times but not recently. did watch bbvrai live tho!) #im so extremely tired rn so i can't form proper thoughts :( but like: #they both have unfathomable otherworldly power and knowledge of their respective universes #but u wouldn't know it bc they're presented as just some chill guy who likes to make jokes and Vibe man #sike! they're a being of elderitch levels of power #they both act in accordance to game code but Sans can control parts of it (can see the timeline) while Benrey is much more subject to it #in some ways they are the antithesis of each other's motives but also contain the same vibes (all-powerful guy laidback n funny final boss) #Sans is judgment but doesn't interfere with the timeline. Benrey takes action that's “i knew this was gonna happen” #Benrey is fought as the final villain whereas Sans is arguably the final hero fight #anyways THEIR VIBES ARE BOTH SO !!!!!!!!!!!!! #idk if they'd be besties or mortal enemies #they can bond over being “unserious” (but they both take their true jobs very seriously. security guard and judgment bringer respectively)

[news4dzhozhar]

So far Israel has bombed in Syria, Lebanon, Jordan and now Yemen (and of course all areas of Palestine) but still claim to be the victim. It's even more sickening when Western countries and media repeat these asinine lies with a straight face.

#apartheid #save palestine #ethnic cleansing #israel is an apartheid state #seek truth #free palestine 🇵🇸 #genocide #illegal occupation #israel is committing genocide #israeli war crimes #yemen #jordan #syria #lebanon #israel is not the victim #actions have consequences #propaganda kills #israel committed war crimes by bombing iran's embassy in syria #israel lies while Palestine dies #the US is complicit in genocide war crimes and the starvation of countless innocent Palestinians #open your eyes #spread awareness #israel is a terrorist state #accountability isn't antisemitism #false accusations #iof terrorism #violation of international law #WWIII is gonna have Netanyahus name all over it #israel is and always has been the aggressor

[miss0atae]

Random thoughts about Dead Friend Forever episode 9:

Damn! I was waiting for today to get this new episode and I wasn't disappointed. It was such a ride again.

▪️ First of all, we need to talk about Tan... or should I say New?! Of course, it wasn't exactly a surprise because many people already guessed he was Non's brother, but we just didn't know who he was until now. I guess he looked pretty bland in the first episodes and then when we got to the flashback we didn't see him yet because he wasn't among the group when they bullied Non. Who would have thought, he would lied about his age to get in school, lied to his parents about being in England and basically being the mastermind behind the revenge against the group? I thought Phee would be the mastermind because he wanted to avenge the man he loved, but he was merely a follower. Tan/New is the one who wants revenge and he won't stop until he gets to know the truth. He doesn't mind pretending to be someone else and drugging all of them just to have answers. He is kind of unhinged and it's pretty understandably because he lost everything. I felt so bad for him because he feels guilty about not being a good brother enough to Non, but also not being a good enough son when he decided to lie to his parents to continue his quest in learning the truth. He doesn't know how to cope with the loss and the grieve he feels too (he lost his all family, how can you deal with that?!). It was heartbroken to see him slowly falling into madness because of all those emotions.

▪️ This episode not only centered around Tan/New and his family but also around Phee and his complicated relationship with Jin and Non. We saw that Phee avoided Non after he caught him with cop Keng. It took him a while to cool down before deciding to find Non and discovering his disappearance. That's how he met Tan/New who knew Non and Phee had a thing. They decided to team up to find the truth after reading the script he wrote for the short movie and how different it was from the final production. In this episode, Phee looked more like a follower into Tan/New's quest. He wants to know the truth but he is also torn between this revenge and his growing feelings for Jin. Indeed, he became close to him because he noticed how Jin reacted every time they mentioned Non but it is shown he started to feel something too. Even Tan noticed it and Phee had to brush it off by saying he still loves and misses Non. It must have been hard for him. I don't think caring for Jin meant he didn't care for Non. However, it is sure Tan/New would have not like it. So Phee rejected Jin by saying they were just friends, hurting his feeling. Too bad for Jin, he also learnt at that time about the fake news (because it is fake) about Non and Keng.

▪️ I know Jin did some really bad things to Non. He never really helped him when he was bully by the others and he filmed him (even if he didn't posted online, it was still a bad move). I almost forgot but he also lied about Non, not being with them (stupid move again). The story is not trying to paint him as a saint but at the same time, you can see it is also trying to make us like him. At least, it is working with me. I still feel really bad for Non. Poor Non never deserve anything that happened to him. However, I still want Jin to be able to redeem himself in any way. He had an instant attraction to Phee the first time he saw him (which I understand because Ta Nannakun is very handsome). He felt hard for him. Phee took him to the same lake he went with Non and that's where he told Jin he only bring people he likes over there . Even if at that time they were still "friends" I think it made Jin feel like he had a chance to become boyfriends. It led to their NC scene which was fierce. They were also a little kinky (Jin, I didn't know you weren't only vanilla). Good for them! After that, Phee became distant to Jin and to avoid being hurt they stopped being close until the present time where they went to Por's house.

▪️ In the present time, Phee almost told the truth to Jin. They still have lingering feelings for each other. It seems like it is eating away Phee's mind and Jin still don't understand why they can't be more. I almost choked when he thought Phee had something with Tan. Yeah they are working together to know what your group of a****** friends did to Non, but their relationship is strictly professional, don't worry Jin. That's where Jin started to hallucinate again, still feeling deeply guilty about Non. Phee didn't get to tell him the truth. I can't wait to know how he will react and what impact it is going to have for their relationship. I believe they are supposed to be end-game, but the series surprised me a lot so the dice are not cast, yet.

▪️ Back into the present time where Top drug-induced was beating Tee up until White (long time no see precious baby!) knocked him out. At the same time, Tan is fighting against Fluke who was also drugged. Basically everyone is drugged because it was Tan's plan all along so they would reveal the truth. I laughed when Phee asked Tan/New "This is not deadly, isn't it?" and it answered "This won't kill them". Guess what Por, you're just collateral damage. Opps! Well, he won't be missed. Tan/New probably didn't anticipating his little experience with hallucinating herbs would end up this way. It shows you must really think of everything before taking things into your own hands. The plan is not going into the right direction. It worked too well. They were really scared and thought they were cursed. So, is the killer real or is it just hallucination? If it's the case... does it mean the driver is not really dead? If he is dead, does it mean Tan/New created this trap and killed him? I'm not sure Tan/New thought about really killing anyone... Otherwise how could he get his answer?

The noose is tightening as we approach the end of the series. The next episode won't come out fast enough. I already can't wait to know the rest of the story.

#my thoughts #thai series #thai bl #bl drama #bl series #random thoughts #dff #dff the series #dff spoilers #dead friend forever #dead friend forever the series #be on cloud #episode 9 #So happy to see White again! #Poor Tan/New! You also lost so much #Still feeling sad for Non #Phee I wouldn't like to be in your shoes right now because it must be hard to choose revenge over love. #It also must be hard to feel like you're not betraying your ex lover #So many lies and so little truth #This series is a gem #The parents' death wasn't expected!

[beef-unknwn]

clawdeen got dat dawg in her y'know what I'm sayi-💥

#monster high #clawdeen wolf #this is like a redesign that's part of a rewrite I'm doing btw #and in my rewrite clawd does not exist (sort of) #see. clawd and clawdeen are the same person #clawd transitioned into clawdeen using werewolf hrt #clawd also kinda ghosted (haha) draculaura during the gender questioning pit of despair trans ppl go thru (source: im trans) #this happened over break so the next school year clawd is gone and clawdeen is now here and draculaura has Questions #clawdeen lies through all of it until she finally tells the truth and they can be monster lesbians at last #if you made it this far. thank you for indulging in my delusions and also #more is coming soon i promise. im just tired and busy okay?

[hecksupremechips]

God every day I think about Akane’s breakdown in door 3 because there really is no correct way to interpret that and every possibility makes me crazy. Like she sees this fucked up corpse whom Junpei (and the player, depending on how they play) believes is their friend Snake, but she knows that it’s Guy X. It’s a man she very intentionally put in the game for this very purpose, so that he could die horrifically and be displayed for everyone to see. And she has a full mental breakdown over being trapped in this room with the corpse, being trapped by Junpei, to the point where she rips out her hair and starts bleeding from how much she bangs on the door screaming to get out. And fuck, there’s so many possibilities like

Akane could be feeling genuine terror over the sight of the body, and with that remorse. She made this happen, she wanted this to happen, and now she’s forced to quite literally watch the damage she’s caused unfold. She can detach herself from his murder easily in other timelines where she doesn’t have to look at it, and she can sleep easy knowing that her hands are technically clean because she didn’t do the literal killing. But she can’t do that here, and she has to face the fact that not only did she happily cause this death, she failed her mission. She isn’t going to survive, and now this man is dead for nothing and everything is her fault

On the other hand, her entire breakdown could be completely fabricated in order to keep playing the role of the damsel in distress who is so innocent that the very sight of blood drives her to insanity. The interesting part about this is that if she could fake such a horrific breakdown, just how much of her personality a facade? We know she wants revenge, for everyone from Cradle to feel even an ounce of the pain she and so many others went through, but we don’t get to see the extent of how much she feels this way. We never hear directly from Akane about her feelings on any of the original organizers, just her note about her desire to punish them. She hates them, but does she see their deaths as a necessary evil, or does she feel joy and satisfaction at watching them go? It’s absolutely horrifying not knowing, not being able to see her true feelings, not knowing just how real or fake she is, the extent of her madness. Perhaps she doesn’t even know that herself

IN OTHER WORDS, it’s fucked

#zero escape #akane kurashiki #the truth lies somewhere in the middle im sure #but god both possibilities are so tasty #personally i think her reaction is fake to an extent like i think she does feel at least some joy over the murders #shes doing a good deed and ridding the world of evil #but i think that this is a rare moment where she actually thinks for a minute about what shes done and how its fucked #like shes never truly present in the moment she can never fully grasp the severity of the trauma #and i kinda want to believe that this route is a bit unexpected for her #like she had to have known it was a possibility but its entire existence relies on junpei betraying the others #and i think that she was ready to write it off as a rare possibility so she didnt worry about it too much #because the only thing holding junpei back from choosing door 3 is aoi saying that picking it would require leaving people to die #and akane has nothing but her trust that junpei is good and wouldnt do something so horrible to rely on #but then it happens and she cant handle the uncertainty she wasnt ready for ANY of this to happen #not only did junpei betray the others he betrayed HER in so many ways he doesnt realize #he did what he thought was good for june but its exactly the opposite hes not only damned her #but he trapped her in a room with the disgusting corpse that she put there and everything throws her off #and she has to confront that even junpei is unpredictable and is capable of evil and that she herself has fucked up so much #she cant escape this without literally STEPPING INTO the entrails of someone she killed #and its all just too much and she completely loses it #so yeah for me its less a mental breakdown cuz she feels bad for murder #but more a breakdown because shes been betrayed and caught off guard and has a brief realization of how terrifying her actions are #those may sound the same but they arent please guys please :( #as you can see im very normal about this and good god 999 is so fucking good

[queenlucythevaliant]

The best thing about the annual observance of Christmas is that reminds me of the simple fact that I love God. 

Over the course of a year, it’s easy to get stuck on this or that issue of theology, this or that unanswered prayer. If you’re anything like me, you pursue that issue in prayer, in Bible study, in reading, in conversation, trying to make sense of it, to make the wrinkles lay flat against your soul. You stalk the questions down and in a way, that struggle becomes a focal point of your faith. 

You might even think, when you’re feeling particularly unsettled, “At least I’m taking my faith seriously by struggling with the hard questions. It would be much worse to be complacent.” 

And then, every year, Advent comes, and there are Christmas carols and readings from the Prophets. There are angels and lights and stars. Jonathan Toomy finishes carving the widow’s nativity set, Linus recites from Luke, a choir performs the Hallelujah chorus, and the beauty of it pierces through the questions and the struggle. Every year, the overpowering glory of the Incarnation and all that follows is brought to the forefront of my mind and it enraptures me. Fall on your knees, O hear the angel voices. I bring you good news of great joy. 

Every year, Christmas reminds me that I’m not only a Christian in order to struggle with hard questions. I’m not even a Christian because I am convinced that the Bible is true. Even the demons believe in God -- I am a Christian because I love Him. His beauty can move me to tears. 

Every year at Christmas, God woos me all over again. 

#for me this year it's been epistemological doubts #the pastor at the church where i grew up did some not great stuff #and lied about it #and it's left me questioning what i've heard him say from the pulpit over the years #i've caught him in at least one major error and it was a pretty big one #that left me pretty shaken once i understood it #so i've been struggling with ideas of God as the final arbiter of truth this past year or so #there's a lot more to it this is very surface level #and then Christmas forces me to take a breath and just be like #'oh that's right. Jesus is really beautiful.' #unto us a child is born #pontifications and creations

[paradoxolotl]

We know Neil’s favourite colour is grey

But I firmly believe that Andrew’s is ✨orange✨

#only Renee knows this #Neil asks one day #long after the question game has moved past cutting truths #and Andrew looks out over the campus #towards the setting sun and the riot of colours it turns the sky #he takes a slow drag of his cigarette #letting the smoke mix in with the clouds above #‘blue’ he lies #(colour joke) #aftg #all for the game #the foxhole court #the raven king #the kings men #andrew minyard #neil josten #andreil

[good-beanswrites]

hiihiii i love the way u write shidou smmmm so if ur requests r still open id like something with shidou + lies <3

Hellooo thank you!! Shidou zoomed his way into my favorites and I really enjoy writing him, haha! Here's a bit of him hanging with the smoking group T1

The problem with lying, Shidou had found, is that you end up fooling everyone involved. If you spend time trying to deceive someone, the people close to you will also believe it. If you continue, it will affect all those in proximity. And, if you do it for long enough, you’ll start to deceive yourself. 

Shidou had certainly lost track of his lies for a while. Right before it had all come crashing down around him, he’d almost believed all the beautiful tales of hope and health he’d been spreading. He’d almost seen the world as the place he’d been describing. 

And then the truth hit him; it crushed him. Seeing all the blood on his hands, he’d tried to swear the whole thing off in what little time he had left in this life. But, like his other habits, it was a difficult one to break. 

He exhaled smoke into the room, listening to Mikoto go on about the busy days of his office job. Shidou was concerned how he still spoke about everything as if he’d be heading right back after all this. 

He wanted nothing more than to sit him down for an examination. There were several reasons he may not remember his crime -- it was most likely the emotional shock, but Shidou couldn’t rule out the possibility of a head injury, an illness, a seizure, a stroke, or even it being a side effect of whatever drugs Milgram must have given the prisoners when bringing them here. It took everything in him to let Mikoto be. After all, no one was going to request help from a “killer doctor,” and he didn’t have any of his usual equipment. 

So he just stood and smoked in silence. 

“What about you?” Kazui asked. “My line of work definitely stressed me out, too. But I don’t think I’ve seen you bat an eye at anything since coming here.” He nudged Shidou. “Are you just as cool under pressure as those movie doctors?”

Shidou’s lips angled to a smile. “I suppose so. Though, I believe they look calm because they’re meant to appear perfectly competent. I’m calm so that patients don’t realize I am imperfect.” 

Was that all he was, when he killed those people? Just ‘imperfect’?

Seeing the way Mikoto’s eyebrows shot up, he clarified, “I’m very competent, mind you. But no doctor is perfect. Many patients will panic if you show even the slightest sign of doubt.”

He teased, “so you just lie to everyone all day? Damn, remind me to watch out the next time I go in for a checkup.”

“No, it isn’t like that.” Wasn’t it? 

The other two continued the conversation, but Shidou grew quiet. Was that something else he’d started to believe? Another thing he’d convinced himself was normal when, in fact, it was very, very wrong?

“I get that. Confidence is really important when dealing with dangerous situations.”

“Heh, I’ve definitely put up a bit of an act around here for some of the younger prisoners. I think it’s been helping, they seem calmer from when this all started.”

That’s right -- his goal was always to help, to calm. He watched Mikoto rub his temple absently, and knew another headache was approaching and knew what to do for it. He’d helped Haruka get over a cold the past week. He and Kotoko had discussed nutrition tips the other day. He was still doing good. The smile that he put up for the others was still doing good. 

“Well, I’m glad we’ve got a professional around here.” Kazui gestured his cigarette to Shidou, snapping him away from his thoughts. “Nothing against the guard, but it’s nice to have someone like you who can help me look out for everyone.”

“Yeah, feel better about being here already!” Mikoto slung an arm around him. The boy's expression showed he was trying to appear in on some joke. “So, doc, you think that all of us are getting out of this crazy place in one piece?”

Shidou wanted to warn him the situation was more serious than he knew. Milgram was not a big joke. He was not a man to be trusted. He was not a man to be forgiven.

But old habits die hard. 

“Oh, I'm sure of it.”

#milgram #shidou kirisaki #mikoto kayano #thank you for the request ahh!! i tried to peek into his mind a bit more -- hes got a lot going on in there ough... #its neat that he and kazui are such different flavors of liars #kazui is hiding himself out of fear - always painfully aware of the truth #but shidou lies to make others happy and help more people and to save more lives - all the while believing it a bit himself #many of the other prisoners reached the end of their patience with their lies/what they were hiding. they finally broke. #but shidous final murder happened because he was completely consumed by his own lie #and now - despite having suicide-level guilt over it - hes still helping people and needing to put up those old masks #hes just so !!!! *shakes him violently* #on another note he strikes me as the type to be constantly noticing things and itching to help #everyones kinda sure that mikotos trauma is repressing his memory but shidou is the only one who it Really bothers #anyway i hope you enjoy! #drabbles

[thelastunicornflipouts]

Why is the scene where Schmendrick lies about what he sees so important?

One thing I love about rewatching - and rereading - The Last Unicorn is the amount of subtle details you can infere without further exposition.

Schmendrick lying about seeing just a white mare is just apparently a simple introduction of his character. The viewer/reader can immediately tell he is on the unicorn’s side and he is trying to protect her, still the real meaning of the scene it’s not clear right away.

Schmendrick lies about what he sees immediately after he has been teased about his capacity as a wizard, both by Mommy Fortuna and Rukh. A first time viewer/reader still knows nothing about Schmendrick, so this does not seem very important. Those who instead know Schmendrick understand how much he yearns for recognition and praise as a true wizard, as he is shown to do on later occasions in the movie/novel (especially). Schmendrick lying is essentially him biting down his ego once again and accepting to not be recognized for what he truly is just for the sake of having a chance to help the unicorn at a later time.  If he had been anyone else, he could have simply told the witch, “Hey, f*ck you! I know perfectly what I am looking at, who do you take me for?!” Instead, Schmendrick chooses to lie, even if that means more scorn and giving in to more insults and mockery from people who already see him as a hack. Nothing would have stopped him from telling what he truly saw, still he willingly lied for the unicorn’s sake (and this is especially true in the novel, where he is much more mean-spirited). It is such a short exchange between him and Mommy Fortuna, still it flawlessly introduces Schmendrick as a character. 

This makes the scene where Molly accuses him of not caring about anything but his magic even more tragic - and it is one of the very few times Schmendrick loses his composure in the movie. He cares to the point he accepts to be still treated like a worthless fool, in spite of his desire of being a true magician, contrary to what Molly is accusing him of. Hearing Molly - whom at this point should know the lenghts Schmendrick has gone to protect the unicorn - rubbing it in his face must have been devastating.

#The Last Unicorn #TLU #schmendrick #mommy fortuna #the unicorn #another schmendrick analysis #short character analysis #I always loved that moment where he lies #at first it flew over my head #then I realized how much must have cost him #what better opportunity to prove himself as a real magician than claiming to see a unicorn #still he lies because he has a good heart under all his bitterness #he simply couldn't bring himself to tell the truth knowing it would have meant he might not have been able to help the unicorn later on #good boi doing the right thing even though it hurts him

[feralchaton]

This may be difficult for many to realize, but if someone is 'your person' but you can't be honest and can't be yourself...

THEY'RE NOT YOUR FUCKING PERSON

#lies we tell ourselves #years of making a mistake doesn't change that #it is most difficult to be honest with ourselves #if you're not honest with yourself; you're dishonest with everyone and everything #healing is a process #choose the challenge #choose yourself #stop choosing excuses and cowardice #over it #spilled ink #spilled truths #don't create storms then get upset when it rains all the time #feralchaton