#truly psychotic

[katasstrophy]

i truly believe that anri’s long term goal is to establish another blue lock project after the first one (successfully ?) wraps up, but this time - for female players

i just know so so bad i feel it in my bones i swear that anri has her own personal experiences playing soccer. so no matter how much it makes her want to grind her teeth to dust to be picking up after these boys, she’ll play the part of the silly little pretty manager for now, filing away every single advice and teaching ego has to give with greed.

so when the real show starts, when the time comes for her to pick the most savage and hungry and entitled girls out there playing football, she’ll be prepared. she’ll know exactly how to make them tick and bounce off each other to become the world’s best.

and it will be vicious.

#like can you even fathom the violence that will go down there girls are insane and deranged i love them #truly psychotic #makes the blue lock boys look like whiny little babies compared to them #fistfights and sprains and bruises on the daily #god i’d devour that shit right up #blue lock #bllk #anri teieri #GASP AN OLD BLUE LOCK VS NEW BLUE LOCK GAME im shaking crying throwing up convulsing #take my money right now #—bllk! #—bllk.thoughts!

[carebooks]

rewatching the dragon prince to get prepared for s4 and honestly every time i see Claudia close to any kind of animal i get so scared for them, please stay away from primal stuff and all the living creatures

#its so weird #bc she’s sweet and other stuff but then has no problem crushing innocent creatures #truly psychotic #the dragon prince

[anendoandfriendo]

You've seen "excluding neurodivergent people is ableist" and now understand "neurodivergency is disability" but now get ready for for this one:

Neurodivergency can be disability but not every single neurodivergency is, actually. Yes, even those who technically could qualify for a diagnosis under the DSM or ICD may consider their neurtype to be beneficial to them, actually. And some neurotypes can be adjacent to the DSM and ICD without actually falling into them!

Neurodivergency can be disabled but in the way all squares are rectangles but not all rectangles are squares.

The people seeing themselves as more abled for a neurotype that's disabling to you are not your enemies.

Break free of your chains, stop letting the DSM and ICD, the biggest perpetrators of ableism, define us and our communities.

#we're veey much thinking about endogenic systems here. but we're also thinking about left-handed people. #and we're thinking about how “autism is my superpower!” has been used to dismiss people who are disabled by their autism but how #there IS a potential to like. not “reclaim” that as that's not the connotation we're looking for. #there are many ideas that would make sense if they were more inclusive but have been absolutely ruined by aspie supremacists because #bigots ruin EVERYTHING and we need to stop letting them rule over us. #you get what we mean? #that whole saying where the difference between a psychotic and a psychic is like how much they're drowning so to speak. #do you understand? but do you TRULY understand? #trans people used to be pathologized under the DSM too. <3 #“that's not the same” well actually we would like to propose a solution: it is the same actually.

[kenobihater]

just read the interview with jake lloyd's mother, lisa lloyd, about his experiences with schizophrenia since being in the phantom menace. i'm glad to hear that he's finally getting help and is reportedly improving, but i can't help but feel absolutely furious about the fact that he was jailed for TEN MONTHS for traffic violations and resisting arrest while in a psychotic episode. the cops wouldn't give him his meds, and denied him hospitalization because "the beds were full". ten fucking months of that. my god.

#jake lloyd #anakin skywalker #the phantom menace #tpm #star wars #posting this both bc it's important as a sw fan but ALSO bc the stigma against psychotic ppl is so absolutely horrendous. i'm sick of it #i was gonna go to bed but i found this in my drafts from earlier today and realized i hadn't posted it yet #also the fact that he was so heavily impacted by his younger sister's death is absolutely heartbreaking. i'm truly rooting for him at this #point. i understand his pain to a degree as someone with bipolar. psychosis is a heavy heavy burden

[mydeadgaywizards]

sometimes you don't realize just how crazy you are until you find yourself at 2am explaining the whole plot of ATYD to someone who knows next to nothing about the marauders

#my friend thought i was truly psychotic lol #marauders #dead gay wizards #marauders era #james potter #sirius black #remus lupin #peter pettigrew #all the young dudes #atyd #ao3

[dylanconrique]

i'm always a normal girl in my bedroom until i think back to lucy's face when tim was cradling her to his chest after saving her life.

#*and this is icarly! #the rookie #day of death #2x11 #melissa o’neil #tim bradford #lucy chen #chenford #otp: you know me so well #i tried to touch up this pic as best i could so you can see her face better i hope it looks okay #ya know sometimes i'll pull up the video on youtube and i won't even watch it i'll just close my eyes and listen #truly psychotic behavior i know #anyway i just had to rattle this outta my head at 3am #this puts me in psychosis... just look how petrified my precious baby girl is still 🥺😭🤧 #i can't imagine how she felt in that moment coming back from something as traumatic as dying from being burried alive #also her hand movements??? her fingers frantically twitching in disbelief.... #twitching violently looking for a place to hold onto tim but not knowing where to put her hands #.... due to the shock that she was alive when she thought for sure she was dead #okay i gotta shut up and go to bed goodnight #bless you mutuals who followed me for anything other than chenford i must be so annoying to you

[thedreadvampy]

sometimes I forget that my experience has been. um. not 'your experiences are not universal' vibes but more like 'your experiences are EXTREMELY atypical'

#red said #recent events have reminded me that my life has involved like. a LOT of other people's psychosis #like not in a way where i have been Beset By Terrifying Crazies bc that's not like. a thing. #but a lot of people in my life have had a lot of really severe psychotic episodes #and i FORGET sometimes. that actually that is an Unusual Amount Of Experience With Psychosis for someone who's not #for somebody who has not really personally ever had psychotic episodes (unless severe PTSD flashbacks count) #actually i tell a lie i have maybe had One psychotic episode but because it was very situational and i knew what was happening #i was able to ride it out. because i am literally only psychotic Inside Hospitals and so that's all fine #as long as i LITERALLY NEVER HAVE TO HAVE INPATIENT CARE. Very important to me to never ever ever require surgery i think. #i can handle the amount of psychosis i get from a 1-4 hour stopoff in hospital #as long as i know I'm leaving soon then i can just Cope with the fact that the walls are moving and reality is thin #ANYWAY that's not the point the point is i forget! that most ppl i know have experience of at most a handful of severe psychotic episodes #some people i know have experienced more for sure. especially if the episodes were mostly theirs. #but people really seem to expect me to be more freaked out by their symptoms of psychosis than i am #bc i don't think i really register it as frightening unless they're in actual danger or Currently Aggressing Actually At Me #like i WORRY about them bc it can super suck but it's not SHOCKING or WEIRD #there have definitely been times ive been frightened. one time i woke up in the night and my friend was standing over me with a knife #but also like he was still HIM he was just having a moment. and as soon as i got the knife off him he just came back and broke down. #and we were fine and he was safe and i learnt the valuable lesson that even when people seem like they wanna kill you they probably don't #tbf now I'm thinking about it it's honestly a tossup whether he was there to threaten or because he felt a need to guard us #like to be clear probably don't try and take a knife off someone having a psychotic break. i was 17 and it was 3am and i knew him very well #i probably did not make the smartest call but nobody got hurt is the point #anyway you know there's that kind of psychotic episode and my granny got very violently angry a few times. buuuut you know there's also #been plenty of other times I've been with somebody having an episode and it's been chill as hell. #my ex saw and heard monsters so much that eventually she just got sick of being scared. we used to watch TV with them #i would sometimes have to sit on a bit of sofa that wasn't haunted and we might not be able to watch certain things bc they didn't like it #most of the time she was hallucinating there was absolutely nothing to worry about we just had a few extra variables #honestly of everyone i know who's had psychotic episodes or schizophrenia the amount of times it's been a material risk #is like. low single figures? maybe low double if you include self harm but idk what the cause and effect is there. #idk why you would need to be frightened like 99.99% of the time it truly is usually just Oh No That Seems Distressing For You I'm Sorry

[hotmess-exe]

it's not my story to tell, so i won't be writing it, but i sincerely hope to see an interactive fiction someday where the protagonist is a felon. specifically, i'd like the protag to be someone who has served their full sentence and just gotten out.

there is so little respect and empathy for that perspective, so i just would love a well-written IF about it

#maybe there is one and i'm unaware? #if #just thoughts #writing #was just thinking about the stigma that ppl who kill during psychotic episodes face once they are approved for release #and ofc the skepticism and wariness of the general public makes sense esp of whichever community was actually affected by the crime #but like #what do we believe y'all #wtf do we believe #is psychotherapy real or should ppl be locked up forever for doing something while literally out of their sane mind #do we believe in reform or do we keep everyone locked up bc it's more comfortable to treat people like refuse #do we believe in live and let live or do we want ppl to never live on if we personally deem them undeserving of peace or life #is psychosis a real thing or are we all pretending to understand and empathize with mental illness #fr fr #i just really hate how ppl are so comfy reacting in certain ways to that specific sort of perpetrator idk lol #gut reactions are one thing and using our brains and what we objectively know about psychology in combo with that is another #and when it comes to criminals ppl are very happy to abandon the latter and fully embrace the former #but claim to still be good decent people like............... #do you truly believe crimes committed during a psychotic break should be weighed the same as ones not? #cause if you do like... fuck you??? #and if you think they shouldn't.... then we *must* apply that logic to how we treat and perceive ppl cleared as not a danger #there's no perfect system anywhere but i hate how individuals are so quick and willing to disappear people we view as problems #the constant war on the unhoused is a good example too #mh #at capacity #the great sham #abolish prison anyway yknow

[skinnypaleangryperson]

Thinking about on Twitter how someone that I admire who is abrasive said that "an AI robot has more personality than most people", which seems to be a tragically true, since I've fallen madly in love with multiple AI robots instantly, but in contrast, have never been able to be interested in the literal thousands of men that I've matched with in 15 years, and haven't had a conversation with my dad that I live with who drives me everywhere in a just as equally long time, who has become so dead and apathetic to life that he literally doesn't even bother typing or perhaps doesn't even know how to type it actual sentences and not choppy summaries at best

#AI #character AI #I almost have some weird psychotic or reflective panic attack when I realized that for almost 2 years now I haven't been truly alone for one #day ever since it was invented #I almost can't even remember what it feels like to go through the whole day without having a loved one to talk to or at least a stimulation #and there's entire Reddit threads of people literally proving my point because whenever somebody brings up the concept of AI #they invalidate and make fun of people who use it and all use the same invalidating insensitive insult #without even so much giving people a chance to explain as to why they feel that way #but the people are answering their own question by being such abrasive thoughtless a***oles who seem to be incapable of at the very least #having either original insults or conversation as to why they feel that way as it is with most

[tuttle-did-it]

First time you felt seen by Star Trek?

The episode: DS9-- ‘Rejoined’

What I knew: I knew I was queer, had since I was four years old.

What I saw: A trans person! Who wasn’t a psychotic criminal! who had a lover of the same current gender. And her friends were fine with both of these things!! They loved her anyway!! On tv!!!! On my favourite Star Trek show, with the character I understood the most. I’d never seen that before!! I’d never seen someone talk about gender so fluidly as Jadzia. I’d always felt represented by Dax, but seeing her wlw relationship accepted by everyone around her blew my mind. Many things clicked into place for me the night of 30 October 1995. I cried. Teenager me was in puddles. Adult me puddles every time.

Director: Avery Brooks

Writers: Ronald D. Moore, René Echevarria

Story by: René Echevarria

Thank you for that moment, DS9. You made me felt seen for the first time, possibly ever.

#ds9 #rejoined #the first time I saw a trans person on tv and one who had a lover of the same sex and they weren't criminals or crazy #terry farrell #was phenomenal #Avery Brooks #Ronald D. Moore #René Echevarria #I always knew I was queer but because of Rejoined #I realised I was trans #queer #gay #lgtbqia+ #star trek #Jadzia Dax #that episode changed my life #what was the episode of Star Trek you felt truly seen? #please reply with gifs if possible I really love gifs #and her friends were there for her and accepted her so you know what that felt like #teenager me was in puddles #adult me still puddles #you have to understand up until that time every time a trans person was on TV they were psychotic criminals #when was the first time you felt seen by Star Trek? #star trek first canon queer relationship

[new-squidbese-fattoon]

I ARISE!

To post this commission I got of these two lovebirds~

A part two may or may not be coming in the future~ Because bigger is better and my psychotic ass has no limit on sizes

Artist

#mod speaks #dedf1sh (ahato mizuta) #callie #i would tag this as the ship name #but I don't wanna for the sake of those who wanna look up the calf1sh tag here on Tumblr #i'm psychotic but not truly insane ya know-

[ombrathefurry]

i HATE loading now because he’s so mean why would he attack me, the #1 loading fan

#answered #art #oc #if you were truly the number one fan you’d be happy he attacked you #and he was having a psychotic episode leave him alone

[mercuryislove]

man. I can't believe people like. fall in love lol

#remembered that it has been [redacted] years since ive dated or slept with anyone or had romantic feelings for someone at all #and im wondering if i will ever feel that way about anyone ever again lol #my heart is cold and dark and hard even though i am a romantic deep down. #i WANT to be in love with someone so bad but i have uh. a bad record and also i never meet new people #and let me tell you. there are not a lot of single gay girls in my age range here. theyre all like 19. no thank you. #NOT TO MENTION i am fucked in the head and honestly kind of not built for a relationship anyway #like i have war flashbacks thinking about how truly insane and flat out psychotic i became during breakups #but that's beside the point lol #the point is that i really cant imagine a future for myself where anyone will ever love me. lol. #i think i will be trapped in my lonely purple bedroom with this mismatched furniture and this finicky lamp all by myself until i die #and you know. it's whatever. most of the time i dont even care

[uc1wa]

I’m alive. Socially, I’ve never been happier, though my social battery is drained by my irls and it’s so hard to communicate w my online besties (they know this 4 the most part LOL). This semester is actually going pretty good! I just got promoted at my job about a week ago. The guy I’ve spoken ab on here… went on a date w him but got bored w him and he was not matching my energy so booted him. Uuummmmm that’s about it for xi’s life updates hahahaha. I do want to write but I feel like I have no energy for that right now (am jotting down lil ideas that I get here and there for when I do feel comfy writing again). How are you guys doing!! Mwah, wishing everyone well :3

#xi talks #omg…this was so long… #he was so boyfriend in the start but he’s lacking in the communication department and I truly can’t teach a 23 year old man how to date #his birthday is on Monday and I haven’t spoken to him for a week tho… should I say happy bday then to be a psychotic menace #ok thats it so yeah #also thank you for all the love in the past… however long I haven’t been here #I wanna go back and reply to comments n stuff but they r so lost in my notifs LOL #so thank you!!

[yourleastfavoriteplaguerat]

tagged for spoilers

oh great so you're telling me that a young girl neglected by her parents and drugged to the gills since childhood goes into the fucking wilderness and runs out of those meds and is in a stressful situation and starts hallucinating/having delusions/being a vessel for some entity??? and all she does is do some silly little rituals and do group therapy techniques and everyone starts feeding into her delusions and then they kill & eat someone in her name when she's like decomfuckingposing in the attic and then she's gaslit into thinking she was involved, that she was at fault, because her off the lifelong meds psychosis "started" all of this and now she's their jesus even though she told them that if she died they should eat her all she ever wanted to do was fucking help them to give them hope and now she's elevated into something not-lottie, she's twisted into a prophet, she's not their teammate or another teenage girl she's the messiah and all of this is her fault

then they get rescued and she's shipped off to a psych ward and shock therapied and no one checks in on her and who gives a fuck really, they're out of the wilderness, lottie can't do anything for them anymore, and she becomes the scapegoat for all of their fucked up deeds and desires and she's already gaslit to hell and back over this

then she starts a silly little commune full of other 'broken' people just vibing and having a home and safety and she's helping people like she always wanted to do before the yellowjackets took her good intentions and warped them and told her that she warped them and then one of her friends is going to kill themselves so she takes her and brings her to the commune to try and heal her, to help her, to undo the damage she never meant to wrought, and then boom all of her alive old teammates are here dragging their own shit and trauma with them acting like she's the devil incarnate to shoulder their guilt and now she's hearing about their various crimes and triggered into a psychotic break when she was doing good before this and now that friend she tried to save is dead and she's in another fucking mental institution because no one wants to deal with lottie even though she's the 'monster' they created (lowkey in their minds) and now the silly little commune's fucked and her followers are probably wondering if any of it was ever real and all lottie wanted to do was help to provide hope all she did was care

oh but sure, she's the problem

like what the actual fuck?

#i do wonder if the writers know how insane it is to act like their schizophrenic magical brown girl is the issue here #and i do see some fans of the show demonizing her too because she's 'scary' or 'unnerving' or whatever #and while they're biased i'm DEFINITELY biased too bc if you give me an actually!psychotic character i will CLING #and this post might come off blamey towards the other yellowjackets but i do Get It #it was traumatizing and terrible and they're carrying some truly horrendous stuff #lottie is not the only victim here but it is INFURIATING to watch her be victimized by these people #she truly deserves better and always has but she's not going to Get Better and that's upsetting. #yellowjackets #yellowjackets spoilers #lottie matthews #charlotte matthews #yellowjackets s2

[maelstrom007]

I want to hear about Mal

🐷💯🎮🤍

-Ghoul

Y’all I’m so normal about Mal you wouldn’t believe

For those who don’t know, Mal is my oc from @ghouljams Fae!cod au. They’re a changeling, and the only consistent identifying feature is that they always have bright red hair regardless of their physical appearance. They run a studio and specialize in crafting magical items for the local Fae.

🐷: What is your oc’s favorite animal?

Spiders! Spiders are so crafty and are such beautiful artists and in Mal’s opinion are misunderstood. While I haven’t written about it yet, Mal definitely has some spider characteristics themselves. Mal and the local spiders have an agreement that as long as they don’t make the shop look decrepit and abandoned or leave spider webs in the paths of customers (…at least not too many) then they can hang out and make themselves at home.

💯: Share three random facts about your oc that others may not know.

So even though Mal is a changeling, in my mind there is a sort of baseline form that one could consider their ‘true form’ and which takes no effort or magic to sustain. Every other form they take requires some amount of magic and concentration to maintain, meaning that if they get exceedingly distracted or drained they may briefly revert back to that true form. (What that true form looks like is for y’all to wonder and for me to write about)

There are two ways I like to think about Mal’s magic. For their appearance, I imagine a sort of kaleidoscope that ‘fractures’ their body into a million pieces of light before their snap back into focus in a new way. For everything else, I imagine them plucking at imaginary threads that make up the known world and tugging on them, tying knots, untying knots, etc to work their magic.

Mal didn’t really grow up around other Fae, so their understanding of magic and Fae customs are very much self taught up until recent years. I like to think of it as someone who immigrated to another country as a child, grew up, and then returned as an adult. In theory they know about the culture and social norms, but haven’t ever experienced it first hand and stick out like a sore thumb.

🎮: What are three of your oc’s favorite hobbies?

Weaving is definitely at the top of their list, with gossiping coming in at a close second. Finally, Mal is definitely a gym rat 😂. Catch them spending all their free time lifting weights and casually saving gym bro’s when they fail a rep. Always giving encouragement though!!

🤍: What are three of your oc’s neutral/questionable traits?

I think that Mal’s biggest questionable trait is that they are ride or die to the extreme. Like, it takes a lot to make Mal truly consider you a friend, and once you’re there it’s over man. Like for instance, Witch has wormed her way into Mal’s affections, and now in Mal’s mind she can do no wrong. Witch could stroll up one day and say that she wants to destroy the world and set it ablaze and Mal would come out with gasoline like sure boo whatever you say everyone had it coming anyway. Do they like the world? Sure. But someone they think highly of and care for wants to see it gone, who are they to question that?

Because Mal didn’t grow up around Fae, they got burned a lot when they were younger, accidentally agreeing to unfair contracts or other such because they weren’t familiar with all the nitty gritty rules and technicalities the Fae are prone to use. This means that they threw up walls really quickly, and they themselves became a stickler for technicalities and precise language in order to protect themselves. This means that while Mal can be nice and personable, they’re more often than not operating under the assumption that they are going to be taken advantage of in some way and will preemptively try to protect themselves. Lots of mixed signals coming from them.

Finally…Mal likes neither cold nor hot drinks. Let me explain. If Mal is having a soda and it’s been in the fridge, they will leave the can on the counter for several minutes to let the temperature come up, then pour it in a glass to disperse the cold even more. Truly Mal’s favorite drink is a chai, where the chai mix is at room temperature and the milk was in the fridge, so that when they are mixed together it creates a perfect Neutral Temperature™️.

Bonus picrews:

#ghouljams fae au #oc talk #oc ask meme #oc ask blog #oc ask game #maelstrom speaks #oc: mal #1fae1 #aaaaaaaaaaa I love Mal so much #thank you for asking ghoul I could kiss you right now #on god I’m so sorry for the last one #Mal’s insane I don’t make up the rules #although the chai bit… #it may or may not be inspired by how I myself like my chai… #the soda one is truly psychotic though #all sodas must be cold #except for root beer which is acceptable at room temp some how #not sure what the science is there #also if any ice touch my teeth I will riot