#trigger warning; harassment

[zerosuitsammie]

If I can take a moment to share my experience as a trans woman on the internet

My experience is by no means unique, it's just one experience in the plethora of trans feminine experiences and not unique to only tumblr. Though, I'll mostly talk about what I've experienced here. In the light of recent events, the reaction of "the ceo," and the comments he contributed regarding dog pile harassment; I simply wish to share my experiences that I have had to juxtapose the dynamic of his statements against a lived experience.

This account started as a way to document my social transition and eventually my journey with HRT. Tumblr had always had a large lgbtqia+ community. The queer people here inspired me and gave me hope. What I didn't know, but soon learned, is that there were people here who hated me for being trans. Being early in my transition I was a prime target. TERF groups would plan raids on my account. What this entailed was: rebloging my selfies into circles that would say the most vile things about me, threaten to kill, tell me I was ugly, tell me that everyone I knew thought I was a joke, I was a monster, my family hated me, that I should kill myself, they'd download and edit my photos into caricatures or depictions of violence. They would fill my ask box with hundreds of asks detailing how they'd kill me, call me slurs, describe the ways that I should kill myself, and pretty much everything else I mentioned above with the reblogs. Their words were carefully curated to try and break me, break my spirit, break my will to live. I tried reporting it. But it was impossible to keep up with, and like many others I saw no real response. Eventually I learned that I had to block all of them. 100's of blogs, eventually 1000's of blogs. My block list these days is incredibly extensive. I had to wade through their blogs, traverse sickening hate speech and imagery to eliminate entire circles of people harassing me. I became jaded to the hate speech, hardened to it. But mind you, I shouldn't have had to expose myself to all of this just to be at peace here amongst my community. I received no help, I was left to my own devices to protect myself. The people who hurt me never saw consequences. It was painful, it was unfair, and no one else should have to put the hours upon hours of effort and exposure to hate in to protect themselves like I did. But again my experience is not unique.

I have had to repeat this process of preemptive blocking periodically once a new circle discovers me. Blocking them all before they can start the process of hate all over again. A process of hate that seems to be hitting my community with rapidly increasing fervor as of late.

I've seen others experience far worse than me. The TERF circles will hunt down their personal information and doxx them. Expose their home address, telephone numbers, names of their family members. I can't begin to imagine the terror my queer siblings must feel when someone tells then that they want to murder them all while showing them that they know where you live. This is not a new thing, not a rare tactic, it happens. And we've all seen the news stories of trans people being murdered by people who planned it and were vocal about it.

I know this is depressing. And it doesn't reflect all of my experiences. I've had wonderful experiences here, met amazing people, made close friends, found inspiration, found hope. I found a community.

And it's my community, and I never want to let it go.

I do have fear that making this statement will get me banned. But, I wanted to say it. I wanted it to exist in the world so that everyone who doesn't know our experiences has a chance to understand and with luck empathize.

I'll part on these words and hope for the best both for myself and for every member of the community.

#transgender #transisbeautiful #trans #trans is beautiful #this is what trans looks like #okay to rebagel #trigger warning: transphobia #potentially triggering #trigger warning #trigger warning: description of harassment #trigger warning: description of violent harassment #trigger warning: description of suicide bating harassment #stay hopeful #stay strong #trans community #queer community #lgbtq community #spread love in the community and build each other up

[pjo-hoo-toa-freakazoid]

A lil rant about my experience with this god forsaken fandom

I made this blog around 2020 when I was 13 years old. This was my first shot at a dedicated fandom blog and I was pretty excited for it, to make friends, draw fanart, post fun stuff and what not.

All fun right? Right, so tell me why was it that literal 20 years olds felt the need to harass me, a then 13 year old girl with a relatively small blog, for the dumbest reasons possible?

What did I do that subjected me to 2 and a half years worth constant daily threats and harassment? Hmm???

You wanna know my crime? Apparently I showed interest in an antagonist character, which is so awful that grown adults felt the need to bully me. And following those adults came young impressionable people my age, that joined the bandwagon of hate against me.

As if other fandoms don’t have people literally dedicating themselves to a villain, no one bats an eye to that. Why did this fandom have such an issue? I also apparently dared to criticise the main character for a few of his flaws. Such a horrible thing to do right? I need to be burnt at the stake for it right?

I didn’t follow the “fixed” standards of the fandom so I was to be sent de*th/r*pe threats daily?? For not following the “rules” I was to be ostracised?

No please someone explain…I’m but a dumb bitch, I don’t understand what I did so terribly wrong to deserve this? Did I start a war? Did I rip open someone’s plush? Did I bully someone for not having the same ideology as me?

No it was but the fandom itself that for some reason found it so fun to bully a 13 year old, send her de*th and r*pe threats all because of not being of pjo fandom standards…let’s go and bombard her with hate!!

Do you realise how fucking stupid…this all sounds? Do you realise how low this is? Was bullying a child so fun? So trendy at the time?

Then came the victim blaming- I laugh everytime I remember people saying I must have done something really bad to get such harassment, that it’s all for attention. What kid wants to get hate everyday of their life for 2 whole fucking years? Tell me?

You know wanna know what I did wrong? Fight back, call the hate anons out for their bigotry. I was vocal about it, that’s what I did wrong right? Stand my ground? People said to ignore it and I did. But I still got bullied daily even if I didn’t respond. What was all this for?

I can imagine people asking why I didn’t simply leave the fandom? Why the fuck should I? I enjoy the stories, I enjoy the characters, they were my escape from real life struggles. It was the bullying I didn’t enjoy. Everyday I’d log on to enjoy posts and a few minutes later when the bigots found out I was active I was sent an anonymous threat.

Many of my oldest friends had to reduce the amount they interacted with me in fear of receiving harassment themselves. The extent of this is bigotry is beyond my understanding.

I did not deserve this much suffering AND ALL FOR WHAT? A STUPID LITTLE REASON THAT HAS BARELY ANY WEIGHT TO IT. Do people even realise the extent of what happened is beyond me. And Idc if I sound selfish, I want a fucking apology from all those bigots. I want compensation for the 2 and a half years of abuse I endured alone. I just want this bigotry to end, which surprise surprise! Still continues to happen.

Why do I bring this up now that it’s all over you ask? I’ve actually brought it up once before, but it was swept under the rug, (My deepest appreciation to the very few people who supported me when I first talked about it) I’m just finally being more vocal, because this has stuck with me. For all those 4 years this has stuck with me. It doesn’t mean if it’s over for now that all the trauma doesn’t linger. It still affects me to this day.

In fact I’m still being stalked by one of the people who sent me hate anons. One of the hate anons was revealed to be one of my bestest friends, they had admitted this to me and had the nerve to beg me to still remain friends. They were also the person who groomed me. They have left the fandom scene and I’ve rid of them from my life but they still continue to stalk me.

What do I get from ranting about all this? A bit of solace, a bit of weight off my shoulders. But nearly not enough for me to actually fucking heal. I also want people to realise how bigoted some are and how horrible the mentality of “fixed fandom standards/ideologies” is and that we as a fandom need to fucking change. Heck I know this issues in every fandom. But can we at least start with ours for a change for once?

Along side all of this there’s also a lot of racism and trans/homophobia that still actively prevails. Just look at what Leah went through when her casting was announced. Did she deserve all of that?? “Not my annabeth” do you realise how horrible that is to say to a CHILD? She is Annabeth whether you like it or not. And you are very welcome to leave if you wish to stick to your stupid racist nonsense.

I bet there are many others who have probably suffered the same may it not be for the same reasons, but everyone of them deserve their apologies and compensation as well.

Idc if I’ll get hate for this. I said what I said. I’m just so done.

#trigger warning #tw hate #I was also informed I was being mocked in group chats and there were sick rumours about me. #i won’t give a fuck if I get harassed again cux this literally shows how low this fandom will get #there’s so many layers to this I haven’t even gone into detail on #but I just want atleast this off of my chest. I was shaking and short of breath as I wrote this #I wish to thank all my oldest moots and friends that stuck by me despite everything. I cannot express how thankful I am to you guys #love you all tons. #what do u mean by compensation? just an apology from the same people who hurt me. which is nearly impossible. but idc I want to find them #and confront them. I need to bring my 13 year old self justice for what she went through. I pushed her feelings aside when this was over #but she never healed. I’m hoping she gets a bit of peace for now. #pjo fandom #percy jackson fandom #fandom toxicity

[dollya-robinprotector]

I mentioned this on my pin post, but it won't hurt to emphasize again:

I'm very, very, VERY into INCEST, particularly adopted siblings, siblings, cousins with similar appearances, and especially twin.

Yes, you heard me right.

No, it doesn't mean I'm in love with my irl siblings or cousins, in fact my sister and I share incest fanfics together and squeal together.

No, it doesn't mean I see a pair of twin when I walk outside and immediately think they should fuck. My liking stays on fictional world only.

Yes, this is your sign to unfollow or re-check your blocked-tags list. I will use the tag cw incest, so look out for your own good.

Love ya~✨

#cw incest #you've been warned #I have a history of being witch hunted on X for my “incest” and “problematic” labled ships #I here I would ask you to kindly remove me or any potential triggered content from me out of your sight #instead of coming forward and harass me #thank you

[midnightsunnyday]

So, I've been thinking over this, and I'm really not trying to come across as rude or offend anyone with my take, but...

What exactly does this fandom want from this game and its characters?

Do y'all want a game featuring good, uncomplicated human men who live by good, uncomplicated human standards and never do anything wrong but with tails, horns, and wings?

Or do y'all want a game about the literal lords of hell and whatever that may entail?

Because I can't be the only one who finds it ironic that the characters who act the most like demons are widely disliked, while the characters who act less like demons are widely liked, right? In a game about dating demons, being demonic or showing any kind of character flaw isn't attractive, and those of us who actually do enjoy the darker themes, when we do get them, are treated as having somehow failed morally for liking it. It makes no sense to me.

And this is in spite of so many posts from this fandom stating how they want their "demons to be demons." That they want complex and interesting characters. That they want to feel like they're in a realm surrounded by devils and engage with all the hostilities and angst and drama and blood that comes along with that, yet in the same breath, can't even handle characters like Lucifer, Belphegor, Asmodeus, Solomon, Simeon, and Diavolo. Characters who aren't exactly nice or fully transparent about their goals or actions. Characters who are a little or a lot fucked up. Characters who are gray at worse, but ultimately, show they are capable of being more. Even if poorly executed by the writers, they tried to show us, to some extent, exactly what we've been asking for. Now we rarely get events or chapters where the brothers so much as even swat a fly, and I can't help but blame that on the knee jerk reaction of the fandom to scream about anything less than flattering.

Which is why I can't help but wonder if Obey Me! Nightbringer does happen to touch on darker themes and characterization, than I can only imagine how well the fandom will handle any of it (my guess is poorly).

Feel free to leave a comment. As I'd really like to have some more opinions on this.

#obey me #obey me shall we date #obey me! #obey me! swd #obey me! shall we date? #also as a warning some of the comments on this post may be triggering for some #but i ask that you please do not comment on this post projecting your emotions onto others #i also ask that if you're unable to engage with this post or others' comments critically than by all means make your own #otherwise i can and will block you #not trying to be rude here but im not having it #you will not harass or insult anyone on this post because they dont agree with you #i also feel i should note that this doesnt mean you have to like any of these characters #just that its strange that people throw fits over them despite claiming to want darker content #and then also becoming upset when we do get darker content which leads to having none or little at all

[sirfrogsworth]

A woman who used to work for Linus Tech Tips revealed she was harassed, groped, and bullied while working there. She is being called a liar and an attention whore who is just looking for a payday. LTT's massive following has had quite a few people trying to make this as hard as possible for her.

But I am also annoyed by these middle-of-the-road "let's see how this all shakes out" folks.

It is your brain, you are allowed to form an opinion on the veracity of her allegations without hearing both sides or having an investigation. And you can change your mind in the future if more information is revealed.

He thinks he is being objective but he already expressed his desired outcome in his very first sentence. Saying you want LTT to be innocent is the same as saying, "I hope she is exposed as a liar." And then he invokes a courtroom-only standard to seem all official and then dismisses her statements as "no evidence."

There has got to be a better way to support victims when they are brave enough to speak out. I just don't think "I hope you are lying" is the best approach.

I mean, I also support an investigation. And I hope that helps her gain vindication. But the general response to all of this is just disappointing.

#trigger warning #workplace harassment

[shouta-edits]

tw: bruises, abuse mention, and some light sadism.

"may I get a Samekichi x Idate (Wadanohara) ship moodboard with themes of orcas, sharks, sadism, and physical abuse? Thank you!" -anon requested

#read the trigger warnings #samekichi #idate #wadanohara and the great blue sea #samekichi x idate #orca aesthetic #shark aesthetic #bruises tw #tw abuse #sadism aesthetic #anti harassment #proship #proship safe #request fill #proship edit blog #[assignment passed back... /requested finished] #proshippers please interact #moodboard #antis dni #hate will be blocked

[meret118]

#Trump #Trigger warning #Rape #Harassment

[veronicamarsconfessions]

The Unsympathetic Rob Thomas (Trigger Warning: Suicide)

(plus how Ryan Hansen learned from Rob Thomas' unsympathetic ways)

And no, I'm not talking about how he made Veronica Mars. It was about Party Down, its history, and his apathy-ness when creating the show with his friends.

Based on his own interview about Party Down, Rob Thomas was asked the reason why he made Party Down: The show was a collaboration between him, John Enbom, Dan Etheridge, and Paul Rudd; friends who wanted to make a comedy series based on the experience they had in Hollywood.

He went to this party in Hollywood and struck up a conversation with one of the waiters or a bartender. While his friends were sometimes listening to the bartender telling the story of how he ended up in Hollywood, Rob was listening intently. The guy told him that he was a small-time actor, who was basically a glorified extra. The more he told the story, the more unhinged he became. He admitted that he got depressed after a string of failures. And he had to take a catering job to support his life. In the middle of the story, he cried as he poured his heart out about his failed life and even one-time considers suicide.

As the bartender practically sobbed while telling the story, Rob awkwardly left him.

And this part made me cold in my heart when he returned to his friends - he LAUGHED telling this story about a failed actor who was so depressed that he almost committed suicide. He then told John that this might be a really good basis for a tv show. "How about we make a comedy series about a bunch of losers who work in a catering business, and no matter how hard they try, they will never succeed?"

John thought it was a good idea and was ready to recruit his friend, actor Paul Rudd to be a part of the creators of the show. When the interviewer asked Rob what happened to the waiter/bartender, Rob just shrugged and answered, "I hope he didn't kill himself." As I read that interview (I'm sorry I can't provide the interview link because I don't remember where I read it and it was a very long time ago, almost 12 years or so) I was so sick to find out that Rob nonchalantly telling this story. The amount of apathy from this man, telling a story about a suicidal man, laughing about it, and thinking it would make a good COMEDY series...

Look, you can get inspiration from anywhere. Sometimes you'd get it from the darkest place of humanity, and it's legit. But... the way Rob was telling the story like it was no big deal, and the lack of empathy radiating from Rob, made my skin crawl. And the fact this is a true story, not a rumor created by some blogger, but a legit interview from an official magazine, made me shake my head.

And the ironic thing is that when Brad Bufanda died of suicide, Rob actually tweeted his condolences. But it felt... how do I say it... empty? It was like he had to do it because his death was Trending on Twitter, and many casts tweeted their condolences, especially Francis Capra and Julie Gonzalo. Francis was a friend of Brad's family, so he reached out to his mother. Julie was his co-star in Cinderella Story. But Rob (and KBell) didn't say anything until everyone sorta tagged them about his death. Btw, KBell never tweeted anything.

Brad Bufanda's mother reached out to me on this blog, and I felt gutted that the show meant something to him and his family. I still remember when Brad and I DM'd a few times a few years before his suicide. He was DEPRESSED. Apparently, after Veronica Mars, he didn't have a steady job. He got rejected so many times whenever he went to casting calls. He even said "The fans don't care. They don't care about me." I was so confused about how to answer that, but I tried my best to encourage him that the fans did care about him. Anyway, he deleted his Twitter account and I didn't know how to reach him until I heard about his suicide.

So... to have Rob making fun of a depressed person who was suicidal and at the same time tweeting about someone he knew who committed suicide is making me nauseous.

Another story about Party Down was coming from Ryan Hansen who was also one of the cast of the show. It wasn't an interview per se, but more like a tidbit behind the scene regarding one of the episodes.

There was an episode (I forgot the title), but if you watched the show, you know which one I'm talking about. It was about the orgy episode where the Party Down caterers served them, and the interviewer asked the cast about how the episode was made; the technicality of it, the guest stars, how they filmed it, etc etc.

Ryan, jokingly, talked about how there were so many nude extras, and some of them were beautiful girls. And as they were hanging around, Ryan struck up a conversation with a bunch of naked girls. He was making small talk and trying to make everything fun because apparently, directing a bunch of naked people doing sex wasn't easy.

Ryan, then, ASKED WHETHER HE COULD TOUCH THE BOOBS. The girls at first were reluctant, but one of the girls let him touch and fondled the boobs. Some of them were laughing like it was nothing because most of them were okay doing that. It was a bizarre situation but nothing new in Hollywood. It wasn't until Ryan fondled another boob from a different girl, the girl burst into tears.

The nude girl said she had no choice doing this type of role. She was a small-time actress and had to accept this kind of role to support her life and school. Ryan, while telling the story, mocked her cry. He mimicked her sobbing and cry "Booohoooo hoooo!" and he had no choice but to stop fondling her boob. He laughed and made a comment that if she didn't want to be there, then she should just leave and find another career.

Now, I don't care whether you agree or disagree with someone's career choice, whether it's a sex worker, nude artist, an extra, or whatever. I do care whether you are dick or not (pun intended), and actually be a human being that shows empathy or something.

The interviews were after Party Down had already been canceled at the time, and I already watched the show and didn't think about the complication behind the scenes. But I lost all respect for both Rob Thomas and Ryan Hansen back then. And I have to admit, I had a myopic POV regarding them when they announced the Veronica Mars movie and their interviews were forgotten by me. It wasn't until recently that those memories came back to me, and I regret having ever supported them and even have a blind spot regarding them. That is why I changed the Rob Thomas Book Club to BLIND RATS.

My point is... jebus, it's not hard to be kind to strangers who poured their hearts out. Don't be an asshole and laugh when someone said that they have a problem.

“when someone shows you who they are, believe them”

Note: No, this is NOT the interview I was talking about. This is a new interview, in which Rob is adamant that Party Down is not based on a true story, very different from the old interview that now I can't find the link. Feel free to believe which version, but I do still remember his original story.

#Party Down #Rob Thomas #Ryan Hansen #Veronica Mars #VMars #misc #I won't talk about the Ryan Hansen's affair tho #That is a whole different topic #Also it seems the s4 and s5 supporters are copying their behaviors #because when fans tweeted that they were hospitalized (including me) #the supporters immediately harassed them #and mocked them #and WE THE FORMER FANS are the ones being called the toxic ones! #Trigger Warning #Trigger Warning: Suicide #TW: Suicide

[sherlollyliveson18]

I actually hope you kill yourself. And the other anon is right. This won’t be a positive influence. Which is okay. Because I don’t want to positively influence you. I want you to kill yourself for putting your own enjoyment over trans and Jewish people. If you don’t value our lives, maybe you should just end yours 🔫

To all the people who have sent me hateful messages, spammed my posts and asks with spoilers and negative comments, called me a transphobe, anti-Semitic, and more - none of which, if you'd ever bothered to look at my content, you'd know I'm NOT, I just want you to know that this is the type of person you're affiliating yourself with.

Someone who's so full of hate and toxicity that they'd tell a person they don't even know to kill themselves just for playing a game. How does that feel?

#hogwarts legacy #anti bullying #hogwarts legacy harassment #trigger warning #hateful messages

[justiceforbsapricotfroot]

By jtoegi. jtoegi has gathered sufficient enough evidence AntHimeCh is intentionally harassing VShojo Apricot Froot, if it benefits AntHimeCh to receive money from her discord and patreon followers. Placed on top as the primary evidence.

Here's some timestamps!!! Training 1:41 Bat Intro 7:32 Unreliable Evidence 8:47 Ant Hime is a Hypocrite 11:06 Ant Hime Harassed Froot 13:51 Ant Hime's Fake Justice 16:27 Vtubers & Privacy 20:15 Ant Hime's Potential Response 20:50 Outro 22:33 Secrets Revealed 25:38

#Apricot #Froot #vshojo #vtuber #youtube video #Trigger Warning #content contains recorded harassment in this video #Youtube #Frootisinnocent

[meret118]

State Sen. Steve Halloran (R-Hastings) read an excerpt from the novel "Lucky," by Alice Seabold, during a debate over an obscenity bill but apparently tried to make a point by substituting in the name of state Sen. Machaela Cavanaugh (D-Omaha) to graphic scenes of sexual violence, reported the Nebraska Examiner.

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He should be arrested for harassment. It's appalling he was allowed to do this.

#Trigger warning #Rape #Harassment

[cookierunconfessionblog]

Storytime, I remember deal with degenerative people on a other fandom and whoever they shown 100% huge red flags and cultists behaviors. They stalked me including finding my 2rd second alternative account and antagonize me. So I left that fandom community, another horrifying thing I discovered is that..........

They fu**ing discovered this fandom too. Which Im scared about, i don't want them to discover me or this confession too.

ㅤ

#dang that crazy #idk who person your talking or refer to but this is hella chaotic #i hope your okay or safe tho. #cookie run #crk #cookie run kingdom #crk fandom #cookie run fandom #cookierun #cookie run community #cookie run confessions #cookie run kingdom fandom #cookierunkingdom #confession #anon confession #tw rant #rant #trigger warning rant #warning rant #tw harassment #storytime #experience #crob #cookierunconfession #cookierunfandom #cookierunovenbreak #cookierunconfessions #crk confessions #crk confession

[annbourbon]

New point on my DNI list: No men allowed.

⚠️⚠️⚠️TW: Gross, language, and some mentions of incest⚠️⚠️⚠️

I'm angry... cause seriously... I know. I'm supposedly smart. And somehow I still have to fail at such simple tasks like blocking assholes. Because I'd like to think that they are more than this shit show. I tried to talk like they're human beings. I was so wrong...

I'm done though. Seriously.

Next time, you already know why I'm being a bitch:

And this;;;;

And then they ask why someone would prefer to be ace or aroace...

Well if my options are between this kind of stuff and being alone with my cats, reading manhwas, books, or watching movies, and listening to Taylor Swift music? Guess who's going to win? ✨

See? This is why fictional characters or boyfriends inside a videogame are way better than you. Grow up 🪴 touch grass. Try to interact irl.

😑 I'm saying this because it's not just one, but happens almost every day on almost every social media I have. Including on the ones that are supposed to be for studying languages. So I'm putting Men on my DNI list. And yes. I'll be behaving like a Bitch from now on with people who are like this, and I'm not even going to apologize. I cannot trust you or respect this behavior. And yes I'm aware that there's going to be people who are like nOt AlL mEn.

1. IDK all men, just the ones that talk to me like this.

2. IDC.

3. IDGAF.

Behave or I'm blocking you. I don't exist for you. I don't exist to please you.

I have been stalked, blackmailed, gaslight, harassed among many other things for years. I refuse to have another year like this. I'm not a manic pixie dream girl. (Yes. Several guys have been projecting on me and calling me that.)

Me, having things I like or love doesn't mean you're invited to interact with it. I can like smuts, and I'm not behaving like a dog. Even my dog behaves better than y'all and it's not neutered. So you don't have an excuse 🥱

I'm a real person, with flaws and I'm sick of you and I'm done interacting with you or treating you like you're a human being if you don't treat me like one.

You can block me if that's what you're into because we're not going to be progressing further. Also, I'm not allowing asks or DM's anymore due to the harassment I've been receiving from all these toxic men, even slut and whore shaming me. WTF? Get a grip!

**Obviously this is going to be pretty interesting to use in a story... 🤭

End of the rant.

#annabourbon #female rage #feminine rage #angry rant #i'm done #no men allowed #ace #asexual #aroace #aromantic asexual #leave me alone #leave me the fuck alone #triggering content #potentially triggering #may be triggering #triggered #emotional triggers #trigger warning #trigger words #anti harassment #tw harassment #just ranting #incst tw #tw inc*st

[qeyond]

Youtube | Spotify

CW abuse/trauma/ptsd. It's a pretty raw song (both in lyrics and the way Black Dresses preforms their songs) so listen at your own discretion.

This song really speaks so honestly to the deeply self-destructive spiralling for B, in my opinion. Speaking politeness through your gritted teeth with a lying softness, boiling over, letting it out, feeling it on your bared, snarling teeth, breathing out smoke, "is it me? am I the problem? am I the evil monster?", "its always been me", spitting up blood, biting the hand that feeds and ripping them the fuck to shreds to be left alone.

Lyrics under the cut.

Why thank you for your opinion What you think is so important So let's talk this out i love it You're so funny i hope you're doing well Thank god for the tongue in your mouth I'm so happy i'm so lucky I get to do whatever i can be myself But you know what? I have zero tolerance for Bad little shitheads Who only seem to fuck around

Same shit different day You need to fuck off you need to go away I don't wanna talk about it That's all that I came to say Get out of my space You worthless fucking fuckface

Who the fuck do you think you are? Who the fuck do you think you are? Who the fuck do you think you are? Who the fuck do you think you are?

Hey bitch, what the fuck's going on? Is this how you wanna spend the Last few years of your life? Of your life? The last few years your legacy Your legacy your legacy your

You can hide out in your tiny little lair You can be the fucking evil monster terror Scared you can be the evil monster It was always you it was always you It was always you it was always you It was always you

It was always something I couldn't be That was just outside reality It was always something I couldn't know That I didn't know that I shouldn't show Because everything around me Felt just like a bad dream It was all or nothing Be the kind of person you hate or be

Hated for the things that you Thought were common sense Just a little further One day it will make sense Hold yourself a little tighter Your innocence

Preyed upon and vilified by Your blood and friends

Who am I if I can't assign a Name and place to what this is? Everything that's mine feels rotten from The touch of it everything all the time is a Message that I shouldn't be Who the fuck are you? Stay the fuck away from me

I want to love myself but Memories are killing me I want to live but all the years That came before won't let me be I want to love myself but Memories are killing me I want to live but all the years That came before won't let me be I want to love myself but Memories are killing me I want to live but all the years That came before won't let me be I want to love myself but Memories are killing me Memories are killing me Memories are killing me it hurts

#q music #trigger warning #abuse #ptsd #trauma #assault #im not really sure what to tag this cuz it can be a genuinely very triggering piece. so please genuinely just tread lightly #anyway ive actually had this in my drafts for 2 months and been sitting on it but listened to this song again and just fucking christ- #i just love it so much im so upset black dresses probably wont be making music anymore because of harassment cuz their work is SO HONEST!!! #anyway uhm this song is so deeply B-core #your 'legacy' your 'legacy' YOUR 'LEGACY' YOUR- #i genuinely ALWAYS feel so nervous to share such obviously deeply emotional and trauma-based songs or art and being like 'hehe my blorbo' #because I KNOW how that looks and I know how deeply that feels like im making light of it or making it an Aesthetic. cuz yall dont know me #and thats okay. thats just how it is i dont expect ppl to know me or my intentions through and through #but I really really hope people understand that my doing posts like this is very much coming from a place where its For Me too #like i deeply connected to this song so wrapping it up and giving that to B makes me feel not so bad <3 #B is my lil guy that I dump my problems on and we hug each other as the storm passes over us both and then we're okay again #B kinnies and fictives and lovers we're all holding hands from knowing and I love you deeply #i have a MILLION thoughts on this for B. like i could write you a whole novel about this song but also iykyk. and thats just for Us. #so anyway im over explaining myself as always ah. I HOPE YOU ENJOY THIS SONG AS DEEPLY AS I DO <3 #if i was going to make a new amv for B I would use this song. but im retired and the idea of trying to find a cracked sony vegas hurts me #LOL #also this is ok to reblog and/or interact with if youd like <3