#this post was a fucking roller coaster

[angeleirene]

I’ve been watching Barbie again, it’s been a day, and I’m gonna let myself get melancholy for a second.

Y’all remember Kate McKinnon’s ‘Weird Barbie’? Cause I fucking love and relate to her.

According to their Barbie lore, she was the most beautiful Barbie till a kid played too hard with her. Her hair was cut, burnt. Her face scratched and painted on. Her legs stretched to the extremes, till she’s almost always in the splits. As a result she was then ostracised from her community, from Barbieland. She lives alone in the mountain, she has no roles in the community, she barely comes down to town because as the Barbies said: you have to GO see weird Barbie, she doesn’t come over.

They call her ‘Weird Barbie’ both behind her back and also to her face. Stereotypical Barbie is derisive of her, she screams at the mere prospect of turning out like Weird Barbie. And then later on, she legit says “I’m just like you now, Ugly and Unwanted”, AT her. By literally all accounts she’s an outcast.

And you you what I fucking love about that? She doesn’t resent them. I’m fact, she doesn’t love them any less.

Much like how her being ‘Weird Barbie’ is common knowledge to the Barbies, It’s also common knowledge that when you’re malfunctioning or having trouble you go to Weird Barbie for help. They almost expect to receive it, which suggests she’s never actually turned anyone down from asking.

Then we see her interact with our Barbie, with Stereotypical Barbie and she’s no less loving. Margot arrives and she immediately welcomes her in, she listens to her problem. She’s kind and loving, uses affectionate terms (sidenote, she’s rekindled my love for the term BabyGirl), as well as actively using her knowledge and experience to help Margot full force. Also offers her the illusion of choice just to make the decision easier on Margot, more than once, to make the experience easier.

Even when Barbie screams in her face at the idea that they’d ever be the same or similar, she doesn’t get angry or defensive. She just frowns at the reality of others thoughts about her, but even takes the brunt of the blame from Margot “nah, I set myself up for that one”. Furthermore when they part, she tenderly holds Margot’s chin, wishing her luck, telling her “I Love You”.

She was worried, loved and believed in Barbie.

Then the Patriarchy happens and she doubles down. She goes full pink jumpsuit lesbian guerrilla warrior, she picks up Margot during her existential crisis and houses her, tries to help her, even if she couldn’t find an answer herself. Then America Ferrera, Sasha and Allen arrive and HOLY SHIT WE LEARN SO MUCH!

- She welcomes them in too, just as happy and without a hint of resentment or worry!

- She’s HOUSING THE DISCONTINUED TOYS! Sugar Daddy Ken! Magic Earring Ken! Skipper! Barbie Video Girl! Everyone else who’s been truly outcasted and practically exiled from Barbieland she jumped at the chance to house and protect!

- Even Nobel Prize winning Barbie she grabbed and tried everything she could to help her! To help all of them! The second the Patriarchy arrived she wasted no time to try and deprogram the Barbies and protect them from literal hell!

AND SHE DID! WITHOUT ANY EXPECTATION OF THANKS, OR APPRECIATION! She did so with the sole explicit hope of protecting a community of women she loved, irregardless of wether or not they loved her.

Ultimately she did get some of the desperately deserved attention she more than had earned, but she would’ve done it regardless. It leaves us with the character of a woman, who’s been hurt by extenuating circumstances way beyond her control (she was being played with), and who much like in real life, was excommunicated for the scars that said situation left. The movie doesn’t treat “being played with too hard” as trauma, but the parallel is there.

A woman who was hurt and scarred by her life experiences, which made her something different than what her society expected or accepted of her. She’s someone who’s learnt hard truths; Cellulite, nudity, pain, the patriarchy, etc. she is the wisest of them all in that sense, and who knows how much of that came from the trauma, or how much of that she learnt just to be able to help her community. Who knows how much she made her house, collected her knowledge, and built her maps and resources just to help other Barbies that might go through something similar, help them handle it better than she could.

I’m trying to verbalise it and it frustrates me that I can’t do it in a way that doesn’t feel circular but holy fudge nuggets is that both cool and heavy.

And while I can’t pretend I’ve suffered much, or been as blatantly and brutally treated as her, I do relate on some level. I’m in my early 20s (not gonna give specific age cause online) and I’ve always felt and been an outcast. Gay progressive atheist from a Christocatholic conservative Latin American country to start. Starting to build a life in my birth city and then moved at age 4. Everyone else’s families knew each other better, or longer.

Bullied ages 5 to 11. At the time it really didn’t register, and to some extent I still don’t let harassment get to me, but in reflection it was. Fuck I had to be sent on errands for the teacher once just so my entire class could get a talk on bullying and harassment and to not to. Guess who was the elephant in the room but not in the room. 7/8 year olds spill secrets easy. Then we moved again, 14k kilometres away.

Now it was a new continent, a new language. I spent 6 months in one school before moving to the next one, then another year and a half before changing programs from an English intensive program to just basic High School. Then Uni. And to add to all of that, while undiagnosed because it’s expensive, the odds I’m neurodivergent are a coin’s toss or better. And at every stage it’s felt like I’m just watching other people have friendships, through an invisible wall, trying hard to connect to them but somehow never managing.

I was the type of kid and am the type of person that’s very much touch starved, yet fucking terrified of initiating contact because if I do and it’s rejected, then It becomes clear I’m unwanted. So not doing so and keeping the mystery keeps up the hope. The type of person who sees and saw a birthday invitation as a gift in it of itself, specially if not everyone in the class was invited because then maybe I wasn’t a pity invite. Maybe then I was invited because I’m wanted, not because everyone’s invited and it would be rude to exclude me.

Yet who also is terrified of throwing a birthday party and hasn’t had one since I was 11 for a myriad of reasons: Maybe someone I thought was a friend isnt and they make it known then. Or maybe other people see the weirdo I am and leave. Or maybe because my family’s never exactly been well off, but most others were. And so I’d see other kid’s birthdays with balloons, custom cakes, party favours up the walls, games, etc. and yet who’s last birthday party consisted of a soccer ball, a grocery store cake, and bootleg video games (Latin America). And who now sees people my age throw parties in private hotel event rooms, with party buses, bar tabs in the 4 digits, tailor made cakes and special outfits for the day, while that alone would destroy my family financially. Doesn’t help that I managed to get into a Uni course packed with the loaded rich kids.

So there’s so much shame to everything, to being different, to being less, where there really shouldn’t be. So much fear of being seen, yet a desperate want to be held. And so much guilt to even make these feelings known to the people I care about because my emotional problems shouldn’t become theirs. My parents did and do that with me, but that’s a whole different rant. To the point I’m writing and posting this almost with the goal of screaming into the void where nobody can hear it, but with the hope maybe someone does.

And on the same note that I kind of relate to weird Barbie I also admire her. I admire her strength upon adversity, I admire her unconditional love to the other Barbies, and I admire how hard she tries to help everyone else. Another aspect I’m right now paralleling with my degree, hoping that maybe since I understand some of this pain, I can meet others with similar experiences and tell them all the things I wish someone told me. To give them all the things that I’m trying to give myself. That maybe if I am broken, I can make sure they’re not.

This post doesn’t really have a conclusion, just that Weird Barbie is fucking amazing and we all both need a Weird Barbie in our lives, but also remember that Weird Barbie has feelings too, and she deserves to be heard, deserves to be loved too.

#barbie #mini rant #mental health #trauma #healing #kate mckinnon #therapy #venting #I might be crying tonight #Barbie’s the best movie of the year #i love you all #in case you needed to hear it #this post was a fucking roller coaster

[mamawasatesttube]

thinking abt the kon, bart, and cass (cain) trio again. guys who just never had any semblance of a childhood... i want them to go on a little adventure together. they're just like "we've never done kid stuff let's go be silly for a day!!!" and then kon realizes that out of the three of them, he's gonna be stuck being the closest thing they've got to impulse (haha) control. cass and bart would enable each other about all sorts of things and i need them to get up to shenanigans.

like, i need cass to steal one of bruce's cards so they can go to a theme park together. they're getting photos and kon calls cass "bat-babe" and she calls him "super-stud" and bart's like "i need one of these nicknames too hello??" and cass thinks really hard and goes "imp-ass?" and kon loses his shit. bart's like "that just sounds like impasse. no thanks." and kon looks at cass and says "imp passes," and then breaks into a gigglefit again. bart complains all of the roller coasters go too slow. bart and kon centrifuge poor cass on the teacup ride. she nearly throws up as soon as they get off and then demands to go again. bart challenges her to a candy eating contest and kon's like NO!!!!!!! DO NOT ACCEPT!!!!!!!! HES A SPEEDSTER!!!! so of course cass accepts. and then makes herself sick. bart's still impressed by how fast she can shove candy in her mouth for someone with no superspeed at all though.

also it would be fun if they stumbled upon a murder mystery or something in this theme park. i mean they would be like oh this is fucked up, but i would see it as enrichment in their enclosure or whatever. let cass be a noir detective with her two extremely op sillies as backup. idk. the vibes. you get me??

#rimi talks #dont ask me for an actual plot i do NOT have that in me i just have the ''i want to set these 3 loose in a place together'' energy #bart and cass together will activate kon's mom friend tendencies SO hard. #but like not in the annoying nag way he's just like GUYS... DRINK WATER... APPLY SUNSCREEN... #theyre all having a good time theyre doing silly poses on the roller coaster ride photos #sometimes i think about bringing back the tooth fairy post bc i do think that was SO fun #but then i remember how fucking annoying people who kept missing the point were in the notes #and i let it remain dead ksjdf #kon #bart #cass

[agoldengalaxy]

biting at the walls of my enclosure !!!!

#god of war #god of war ragnarok #gow ragnarok #kratos #atreus #this game has been putting me through an absolute emotional roller coaster #holy fuck dude #my post

[catthattalks]

So I finished In Stars and Time... I'm going to need a moment,,,,

#fucking hell that was emotional roller-coaster!!!! #i uh wow i need to gather my thoughs #iit's been a while since game moved me so much I uh wow #I'm going to do more posts about my playthrough after january 16 #but yeah BEST GAME EVER!!! #I AM EMOTIONALLY DESTROYED #isat #.rambling

[rushthehollow]

heartline roll

if you have, or haven’t heard, the whereabouts for some segments of maverick’s heartline roll were located a few days ago by a reddit user. the actual inversion itself seems to be inaccessible (everywhere around this place except this part had do not trespass/no thru traffic/etc signs), however, these particular ones kind of are. so i took a very fun journey with some friends to see it for myself as the heartline roll was kind of a month long fixation for me and this actually was the coolest thing ever. enjoy :)

#roller coaster #roller coasters #cedar point #maverick #roller coaster photography #mine* #intamin #my favorite is the one i have of me in front of it but obvs not gonna post for reasons LOL #this shit is crazy to me this heartline roll is like. Everything #to my entire being oer this stupid fucking ride #hope u guys enjoy the photos #i have more but ehh yk #some of the paint looks way newer than the actual ride itself its very funny

[flashhwing]

the journey of catching up with campaign 2 and hearing about Essek and Shadowgast and going “oh he sounds evil, this is one of those hero/villain hateships isn’t it” to meeting Essek and going “oh he’s chill actually, this is a friends to lovers ship” to “oh wait no he IS evil, one sided enemies to lovers” to “he was evil but he’s getting better :) narrative foils :) soulmates :)”

#essek thelyss #shadowgast #it was a roller coaster #I looked up essek before I knew who Trent Ikithon was #and the impression that I got. was unfortunately akin to Trent #all I knew was 1. neutral evil 2. caleb’s teacher 3. people shipped them #I thought it was one of those. This Ship Is Extremely Unwholesome And That’s The Point #they’re enemies and Essek is Manipulative and Using Him but people want them to fuck anyway #turns out essek WAS manipulative and using him but not only was it reciprocal it … somehow … still … ended up … wholesome? #or at least as wholesome as those two physically CAN be #this has been a post #critical role

[owlsong74]

my local theme park, lagoon, opened a 3d-shooter/roller coaster hybrid last weekend. It's in a big fake mountain, disney-style.

They've used the logo and its aesthetic to market this thing, and the logo is what's on all the merchandise, which all looks very epic. It did a very good job of hiding from me, a furry, that the good guys on this ride are cartoon furries (they fight cartoon skeleton soldiers).

Possibly the best thing about this ride isn't even on the ride but in the queue: an animatronic cat lady!

she is expositing a backstory, but the line for the passholder preview I was at went right past her, so I caught none of it

#lagoon #theme parks #animatronics #im being a bit of a goof on this post because i love furries and animatronics and animatronic furries (and skeletons) #but seriously this ride is quite impressive for a non-chain minor local park #3d shooters are my least favorite genre of dark ride #but the non 3d-screen-shooter elements in this ride are delightful #(like the roller coaster bits the special effects the sets the skeletons etc) #and its now my favorite of the genre supplanting knotts berrytales/iron reef #(also having gone on toy story mania; dca spider-man; and ninjango) #(and it really shows something that im namedropping disney knotts and legoland in a negative comparison to fucking lagoon) #(i love lagoon but comparable to the giants it generally is not)

[dr-amnesia]

love confessions on a roller coaster specifically right after the drop when nobody can hear you

#please god #im so silly #sobs #nobody can hear you #because you're whispering #even though nobody would hear you even if you were SCREAMING #ITS A FUCKING ROLLER COASTER OMFG #anyways. #sorry about that #“i love you” #everyone else: #“AAAAAAAAAAAA” #back to regularly scheduled programming #sorry #mandatory vent post 👍 #vent #(?)

[ratbastarddotfuck]

Across the spiderverse was really really good and I was going to talk more about it but as soon as I got out of the movie I got a phone call telling me my great grandma died so. Train of thought blown clean away. Uh. I'm pretty sad, she was cool as hell for a centenarian, but I haven't seen her since I started transitioning because of complex family stuff.

So um. Across the spiderverse stuff is gonna be probably less immediate than planned.

#death tw #this post might seem weird if you weren't following me when into the spiderverse came out #that movie was a Favourite Thing of mine #i was obsessed #and this will be no different #it was fucking incredible #my partners took me out to see it and kept looking at me during key points to get my reaction #it was a good time #but yeah a weird fucking. emotional roller-coaster im on rn. #the system speaks

[gazelessmenagerie]

Do NOT even bring up the tight suits.

#|| Gazing over the Abyss of Stars { Broly } #|| Tag: Crack #( IMFUCKGN. no. im EAN THAT IS PART OF IT BUT no. his big beef is mainly not wanting to ) #( disappoint an adopted parental figure bc you know. being abandoned by his own dad to die was ) #( something he never quite got over even though he killed him in a fit of maddened rage. ) #( idk he's got major fucking problems there in my head and idk if he even knows how to deal with it ) #( than find a replacement and lowkey want them to be proud of him..... even when he's a menace. ) #( its complicated as fuck for him with dear old dad in my head ) #( like n o joke. some days he will happily stomp on his grave and other times he just feels.. maybe a smidge of remorse but denies it. ) #( being cared about is just such a roller coaster for a stupid emotionally stunted bastard who only knew the love of a father ) #( and then had it become a fearful apprehension the more out of control broly got as he was in his adolescence. ) #( ITS A MESS IN SHORT BEFORE I TYPE OUT AN ESSAY ) #( FOR WHAT IS SUPPOSED TO BE A FUCKING CRACK POST )

[geddyqueer]

my dishwasher is broken again so once i finish fixing it i am going to reward myself by making bibimbap

#actually no i am not because i need Ingredience. damn #sorry this post is a fucking roller coaster. uhhh guess i am going to walk to the store and get some chili paste and sesame oil

[mamawasatesttube]

saw someone being wrong about kon on the internet again (i know. shocking) and you are all so lucky i'm sick and feverish and lazy because i DID just seriously entertain the thought of writing up a small essay complete with issue and panel citations about why it's simply incorrect to say that kon never really seemed to reciprocate any sort of crush on tim before geoff/tt03. this is just not true. you dont have to actually ship them but to downplay their importance to each other even in the earliest days is simply incorrect. i'm too tired and achy to bother digging through comics to pull up all the issues that have the bits i want to point at but like... they were both very mutually important to each other from early on. it was in no way shape or form one-sided, whether you want to read that as platonic or romantic. man.

#rimi talks #id rather put my limited energy towards the tender t4t timkonisms fic but in my heart this is a longass post #kon's sb94 alice in wonderland nightmare sequence. kon's entire Everything @ tim in issue 85. #the entire concept of robin kon?????? hello????? #the way they function as a unit so easily in yj98 even While actively bickering??? #graduation day and judd winick explicitly saying he wanted them to come out of the closet [together]?? #kon going out of his way to not only do bits just to annoy tim but also being protective of him at the same time?? (in yj98 again) #him wanting robin's number in wf3 (and then getting it sometime before rex leech roller coaster issue)?????? #what are you fucking onnnnnnnnn #you dont have to read it as romantic if you dont want to but they were undeniably close and it was undeniably mutual. bro #i just um. i just think that if youre so internet poisoned to hate a ship that you have to deny the characters have mutual importance #to each other in the canon material (but you can't deny it from one side so you have to claim it's mostly one-sided and blame a writer) #then maybe you should um log off and reread canon ? #<- that's petty sorry but im just saying. #anyways. #returning to the timkon mines now. crawls back into my word doc

[toytulini]

hit tag limit on the last post cos i started talking about roller coasters again 😔

#toy txt post #wish there was a way for me to like. Do. something. with my roller coaster hyperfixation. but im not an engineer i dont want to design them #thats so scary and i couldnt be a ride op cos im scared of riding most of them (disclaimer I KNOW HOW SAFE THEY ARE THATS NOT THE PROBLEM #I DONT HANDLE THE PHYSICAL EXPERIENCE OF THRILL RIDES FILLING ME WITH ADRENALINE VERY WELL IT CAUSES ME PAIN #i do not enjoy it. but i love to see coasters and watch them and read about them 🥺 and also sometimea i read about. the incidents which #felt like very foolish at first like okay this isnt gonna help me get comfortable riding them but honestly actually it did help? #to see how many of the incidents are like. truly like either freak accidents or someone fucked up #but like the rides safety mechanisms usually are very good and not the reason for an accident. most errors seem to be like. act of god or #like. operator or rider error. and some of the operator errors are kind of terrifying BUT ALSO seem like things that can be prevented #maybe the new wave of unionizing in the us will sweep into theme park employees and make sure theyre paid well and recieve good benefits #and that they are not pressured to prioritize profits or faster throughput at the expense of safety. and (really optimistic i know) maybe #we as a society and culture can unlearn our systemic fatphobia to the point that its doable to turn someone away for being #too big to ride safely without making them feel like shit or like its their fault and MAYBE we'll even possibly just maybe figure out how #to make rides that can actually accommodate larger guests safely so they can participate in the fun without fear or bodyshaming #logically i know theres no way to remove 100% of risk and that there is still heightened risk especially for ppl w various #medical conditions but idk i think we as a society can keep theme parks and do them well. i believe in us. #i should go to more of them....ive been to like. not that many but i do still have favorites #hershey my beloved. i LOVE how visible all the coasters are all the time i LOVE the skyview going right through great bears track #i hope i can go again this yr and see the new wildcat 🥺 absolutely not going to ride that fucking thing but i am definitely going to stare #at it. jenn if youre reading this i cannot fucking believe you got me to ride og wildcat honestly #p sure that rattle gave me a headache and i would not do it again that was a rough fucking ride lol but im glad u somehow got me into that #i have. such a complicated relationship with being peer pressured onto rides lol #like on the one hand i do need that a little bit or i definitely wont do it but on the other. being forced onto comet as a child was #slightly traumatizing and definitely marked my turn from wanting to ride all the coasters to jot wanting to ride anything #to my parents credit on that one they do recognize it as a mistake and were sorry about it like immediately so i dont hold it against them #but also dont. force ur children to ride coasters lol. but i do need to go spend a day at hershey just forcing myself to ride great bear #over and over. fav coaster best coaster. its so fucking loud. its shaped so good. pretty color scheme. its constellation themed #i do love and am obsessed with how hershey packs all those tracks together like that it looks so cool i love to see it #candymonium right at the entrance like that is Extremely distracting very immediately

[frownatic]

He really went "Not All Zombies" lmfao

#talking with him is a fucking roller coaster #michael afton #chat ai #character ai #fnaf #five nights at freddy's #fnaf michael afton #my post #frown pouts

[itsdappleagain]

a tale as old as time: a neurodivergent suicidal artist bro and the centuries old greek goddess who comes down to earth to inspire him. they might kiss. if they do that the muse might get executed by her own father. and the artist might as a result kill himself. but they might kiss

#xanadu posting #their relationship is subtly fucked up i love them #sonny? love at first sight. wow a foxy lady who listens to my ideas and doesnt laugh at them #hello to the only reason im not throwing myself off a cliff into the ocean! #kira? shes just like mm i want The Great Gift of Xanadu guess ill go down and stop that poor bastard from offing himself to help me get tha #then she really casually mind controls him and the entire santa monica pier for a hot second #their love story is such a fucking roller coaster #yeah kira would break all three fundamental rules for him. she would risk being executed for breaking these because she loves sonny too muc #to resist #yeah they find out that their love is fake and actually a curse placed on them in order to sabatoge kira #and then. unlearn that because leg warmers are amazing and eros/cupid sucks absolute balls at their job #yeah there are three songs in quick succession begging kira not to leave #and immediately after kira berates sonny for being an idiot #and then..sonny sings another one about how sad he is that she's leaving. and then i think almost tries to kill himself again #and then he immediately changes his mind and climbs to mount olympus and tries to fistfight zeus #like why. why #have i mentioned this is an absurd comedy #there are next to no moments played seriously

[victorluvsalice]

Happy 15th “Very First Mention Of Valice” Anniversary!

Though, admittedly, it does feel weird to celebrate this anniversary, given that “very first mention of Valice” was me berating myself for even HAVING shipping thoughts about Victor and Alice. XD Yeah, what happened basically was this --

-->I was playing in a LIveJournal RP game at the time, Beyond The Rift, with a version of Doc Brown mixed with Changeling: The Lost (poor guy had ended up as a steampunk cyborg while stuck in Faerie, then escaped into an alternate universe Chicago with angels and demons and various other ridiculous shenanigans -- he at least got the ability to control his personal weather out of it?). I was having fun, and thinking about other characters that I would like to play with if given the chance -- most notably, Victor and Alice.

-->That same day, I ended up on TV Tropes, and in my travels, ended up in the Shipping Tropes section. I don’t remember if I ended up on the Crossover Shipping page precisely, but I was definitely in that general vicinity.

-->And -- well, I was already thinking about how Victor and Alice shared a love of drawing, and how they were from the same time period, so if they DID both end up in that Chicago, they’d be able to commiserate with each other and suchlike. . .

-->And thus, cue me thinking about shipping them. And then cue me going “WTF??” at my own brain, because I was absolutely convinced at the time that they’d make a horrible couple, and that my (supposedly-joking) desire to ship Victor with both Victoria AND Emily was weird enough.

. . .we see how all THAT turned out! I wonder what 2008 Vicky would think if she could look forward and see me now -- having written freaking novels’ worth of Valice fan fiction, having embraced not only shipping Victor with Victoria and Emily at the same time, but throwing Alice into the mix too, and currently being obsessed with the OT3 of Victor, Alice, and a roller coaster. XD Hopefully she’d see how happy I am with all this nonsense and be glad that she didn’t talk herself out of it. (Even if it took me until December of that year, after I’d made Victor and Alice RP journals, to let Alice call Victor her boyfriend. But we’ll get to that later.)

#valice #valice anniversary #first impressions #again not linking the post itself from my LJ/DW because #again it's a bit hard to parse if you didn't know my habit of talking to myself through many many alternate Doc Browns at the time #look trust me the 'constantly makes AUs of everything' thing is NOT NEW #but that's a decent summary of what happened #so you can thank TV Tropes for my primary ship I guess :p #I am glad that I didn't talk myself into believing Valice could never work #I've gotten a lot of joy out of the pairing over the years :) #and yes this is why when Victor indicated that he wanted to fuck the roller coaster #my initial thought was like 'seriously??? you know that would never work' #and then my SECOND thought was #'you thought that about Valice too' #and I sighed and started trying to come up with a human form for the coaster #...we see how THAT turned out too XD #queued