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roadhogsbigbelly · 5 months

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she did NOT say that fictional csa is fine though, that’s the thing that everyone is very expressly telling you. and IM not defending ““people who jack off to fictional children”” either, where the fuck are you getting that, do you just say this shit to every trans woman you see? you can’t argue by putting shit in people’s mouths. the “standards” you are describing are the same standards that the people you’re smearing agree with. im not saying its all or nothing at all, you just can’t take anything we’re saying seriously

when you read "stopping being mean to sex freaks who like ageplay and incest shipping" why do you think that suddenly stops at loliporn or fictional csa when that's part of the package? do you think "ageplay and incest shipping" only applied to game and thrones fanfiction and mild "daddy" play? like of course those posts saying "don't be say you love sex freaks if you don't include ALL sex freaks" is also including fictional csa, like fucking cailou porn or whatever. because the posts those are response to are like "stop being mean about people with weird fetishes that make you uncomfortable! (except fictional csa fuck you you can die)" if she's not supporting fictional csa great, but why did she reblog the fucking post than?

and again the fact that i criticized her has nothing to do with her being a trans woman, that didn't even cross my mind, and i've criticized cis men, cis women, trans men, non binary people and people of all genders and sexuality that have been dismissive of concerns over this shit. i've criticized cis women on twitter for publicly posting their weird underaged boy rape fantaties and i got accused of "hating women's fantasies", i've also critcized other cis gay men for drawing actual "toddlercon" and got accused of being a "pick me" gay, and other variations of "stop criticizing grown adults for what they do in private even if they post in publicly actually oops"

i don't actually care what people do in the privacy of their own homes, but the only reason people on tumblr make posts about how "you should stop being mean to people about their age play, incest porn" is because most people don't actually keep it private actually, or else other people wouldn't be seeing it and complain about it. like if you go into someone's dms or a locked private space to "out them" for being into scooby doo or even some actually more harmful fantasy than that's still kind of gross and intruding and they shouldn't do that, but if said person is doing it in a PUBLIC FORUM than yeah they're not above criticism because it's their own "private fantasies" when it's clearly not.

(and before you take words out of my mouth i am not inherently against public displays of sexuality or even kink, i don't think a child seeing a man in a pup mask and harness is going to tramatize them, i think they'll be fine, and in general i think try to hide the fact "sex" like. exists from children does not nothing to deter grooming and kind of causes it in some cases. i've seen people insisting that people who don't lock their nsfw twitter accounts of adults have regular but explicit sex that they're are personally grooming children who might have to figure out porn exists, and i think that's an unhealthy attitude to have. my point is more that the entire argument that noone can criticize or have a negative opinion on "ageplay" or "incest kink" because "it only exists between two private consenting adults" is just. not true.)

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frannyzooey · 11 months

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If you had any advice for someone new to posting fics, what would it be?

I am absolutely jaw dropped, crying on the floor in love with your writing, and it’s inspired me to start writing again. I’m sure you hear that all the time, lol.

But I’m so anxious about putting work out there, and the idea that it may not be liked, or even seen. Which, like, is hard because I know no one owes me anything! and there are so many incredible writers out there! I guess what I’m trying to say is - what is the best way to become a part of the community, and not the creeper breathing breath on the glass window looking into the party?

You’re genuinely so kind to all of your followers and readers, I would just love to pick your brain a little!

Thank you for everything you give to us. 🫶🏻

FIRST - get over here and tuck yourself under my arm ❤ feel the squeeze I am giving you, in both welcome and reassurance! ❤

This ask couldn't be better timed because I was literally just having a conversation with @astroboots today about how I feel like tumblr is a safe space for sharing my writing, but I am absolutely petrified about sharing it any other place. The thought of even talking about my writing out loud makes me want to curl up and hide my face, and even on this platform, I still get anxious sometimes. The Dinner, recently, was a good example of that - I was beyond nervous to post that one.

All this to say: you are not alone ❤

This fandom can be utterly terrifying because of the 1) sheer amount of talent but more so, 2) the sheer amount of content. It's being constantly created, even more with Pedro becoming bigger these days and it's so fucking intimidating even thinking about tossing your fic into the literal OCEAN that exists.

On one hand, an argument could be made that it's actually easier to post because of those reasons, but it's also legit anxiety producing in many, many ways.

The thing that I always say about writing is: find your people. Reach out to people you admire through reblogs, send them asks, pop into their DMs. Share and spread their work, their art, their gifs. Find one or two or ten that seem like they would vibe with you and connect! Because once you have your people in your corner, cheering you on, it becomes fun to post thinking about them reading it.

Instead of thinking of this place like the ocean, think of your curated corner like a little tide pool and your mutuals like little cheerleading starfishes. It's so much easier to share things when you know they will be accepted and supported by people, so start there! You're right in that no one owes you anything, but I am a HUGE supporter of not only writing for yourself, but writing for the seven (7) targeted people you love the most. The ones you know are going to scream in your DMs about it, the ones who helped you brainstorm, the ones who beta read and held you on their shoulders for a lap of victory after you hit post. THOSE people are who you post for (in addition to yourself.)

I (frequently) get pretty freaked out about the size of this fandom and get anxiety when it comes to the rapid upload of content - if you've ever seen me put on my "Out of Office", that's usually why...but thinking of this place as a condensed little bubble can really help ❤

That's exactly how I did it, and how I continue to do it! When I posted my first piece of writing EVER three years ago, I had 8 followers and one serious friend on here. ONE. But that ONE person gave me all the hype I needed to share, and even though my hands were shaking when I hit post, I was.....okay, because I knew they were there with open arms, ready to receive it. ❤

Second, we are ALL the creeper breathing on the glass, looking into the party - every single one of us. I can go on and on (and on and on, seriously, I have so many thoughts on this) about how this is a social media site and how that affects you psychologically for hours, but I don't want to bore you, lol. The best part about there being so many of us though is that...there are so many of us! You are bound to find your people. ❤

If you are scared, DM me. I would love nothing more than to cheer you on. This place has been such a safe haven for me, the only way I can even begin to pay that back is to pass it on.

OH - and EXCUSE YOU, I do not have people telling me that all the time! Holy shit?? I wish you could have been the soft ass look on my face when I got this ask, because that's just about the nicest thing someone has ever said to me, literally. I could kiss you on the mouth. Me? Inspiring you? I am BLUSHING.

Squeezing you EVEN TIGHTER AS I TALKED - do you feel the love, nonnie? 😍❤🥰 Congrats on beginning writing again - I am so FUCKING proud of you and WELCOME!!

#DM me WHENEVER #I love talking to anyone and everyone ❤

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mitsies · 11 months

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Hi!! Hello—I hope you don’t think I’m stalkerish, but I’m the author of Intrinsic Warmth and I came across your tumblr and oh my gosh I just wanted to say thank you ??? This is insane

I am so incredibly honoured (???) that you think so highly of my silly little Gojo fanfiction. Like, genuinely. Its description in your rec list nearly made me cry—it is so flattering and so ridiculous to me that people actually enjoy my little side hobby (which is IW)?? I write it with nowhere near the dedication that some ao3 authors do—I’m a hobby busybody as well as a school neek, which is why updates take so long!!!—and so I literally do not expect people to stick around to follow it, like, at all. And the fact that people do?? And that they look forward to updates??! I feel like I’m repeating myself but I’m genuinely in shock.

I’m trying to think of coherent things to say but I am struggling so hard, oh my gosh. I genuinely cannot convey how baffling it is to see people talking about IW in a way not directed specifically at me, like comments, or something (which is another thing!! The fact that someone—like, *you*!!—has put my fic on a REC LIST?!?! INSANE!!! *I* use rec lists! All the time!! Wtf?!?! Being put on a rec list, that’s for real ao3 authors, and I’m just someone who writes on ao3, man! Insane. Truly insane). So you know, this has been sent to the girls’ groupchat because I needed someone to freak out about it to.

I don’t even know what to say. I saw a post you made about saving IW in case ao3 went down again?? Firstly, I can assure you that ao3 is in no danger and that it’s not going anywhere—but dude, if for whatever reason some random bloody nuclear disaster doomsday apocalypse happens and it does go down, I will literally send you the latest chapters direct >:) Do not fear. Truly the least I can do, my lord.

Jesus, I feel like I need to do something! Like, is there something you want from me?? LMAO. I feel like a poser. It’s like at the end of 2013 wattpad stories where the author would host a q&a with their characters / themself. Can I answer some cool elusive question over here on tumblr?? IDK. I have no idea but I just want to show my thanks for genuinely making my week, good lord.

I think I’ve conveyed how bloody insane this is for me. I’m truly so grateful. This is wild. You’re the best. Thank you so much.

oh my GOSH. i just want to start this off by saying .. this is so embarrassing for me. holy SHIT this is embarrassing — and insane, of course, and shocking, and so so many things but i am so sorry you had to watch me fangirl 25/8 over your work.

right now how i'm feeling could best be described as a cult leader (because i think i've started a small cult in your name.. sorry) whose like deity has come down in human form to speak to them for the first time. like this is so insane, i can't fully verbalise how crazy getting this ask is 😭 in case you havent picked up im a big fan!! i know i sound absolutely insane rn and i sincerely hope i don't sound as big of an idiot as i feel but i have quite literally sent voice notes upwards of 20 minutes to my friend about your work like i am SUCH a fan

i have received so many asks, messages, dms of people who have read IW at my recommendation and it is so fully deserved :,) you are such an insanely talented wordsmith and i don't think i've ever read a fic that conveys characters in such depth and with that level of emotional complexity. i admire you and your writing so insanely much, honestly in the least weird, least crazy, least stalker way possible you are such an inspiration to me in my own writing — you are so eloquent and verbose, in a way i aspire to be !! so you're not only a fantastic writer but you're a baseline, inspiration, & motivator, and i can't thank you enough for that

i genuinely believe that intrinsic warmth is one of the most amazing things i've read on ao3, and my fav fic work overall like ever forever and ever like honestly i could be dead in the ground 6ft under and halfway to hell and i'd still find time for my monthly reread 😭😭 it's absolutely insane that you say this makes your week because oh my gosh, i will be thinking about this for the rest of the month. might even add "thatdesklamp noticed xx" to my bio for good measure ! honest to god in my silly little head u are a celebrity and im like a crazy fangirl jumping at ur feet like a chihuahua or something .. would literally jump off a bridge if you asked me to !

with all that being said, i don't think i am graceful enough to convey the absolute adoration i hold for you and your writing. like wow. like holy shit like woooow wow. that's all i've got left in me — you are amazing, i hope you know that . welcome to tumblr, trust that this will likely not be the last u hear of my fangirling :,) SO MUCH LOVE!

#don't even worry because this ask went straight to my gc so i could rave abt you even more #you ARE a real ao3 author are u kidding and in my humble unbiased opinion u are one of the best #im still in shock and will take 3-7 days to come out of a catatonic state rn so excuse this half-hearted response u deserve the world #mitz asks #TLDR: im ur biggest fan.

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queercripintersex · 9 months

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On intersex questioning

I recently put up a poll asking people what motivated them to question if they were intersex. Partly to know how "typical" I am. But also because I'm curious if people who are currently questioning their intersex status are noticeably different from those of us who already identify as intersex.

And I gotta say, the spread of responses look pretty similar!

Most of the asks I see on tumblr tend to be framed in medical terms. Personally, I was motivated more by social/psychological reasons (figuring out who I am and wanting to not feel like a lone freak). Turns out people like me are in the minority but we're hardly alone.

I honestly wonder how much of the medical asks are really about other things like belonging or gender but those reasons don't seem "valid" enough.

I wanna share the replies and reblogs because I would have found them useful to read back when I was questioning if I was intersex. I have lightly edited them for readability (if you wrote one and want to be quoted by username DM me!) To see the original comments go to the original post. Replies from intersex people "I went through several years of being confused about how I felt trans fem but also was afab. The day I was diagnosed with PCOS I searched it in Tumblr and found out it fell under the intersex umbrella and I accepted that identity for myself immediately. Intersex was never a question for me, it was the answer I had been looking for." "Multiple of the above! Mislabeled trauma and ignored medical issues made more sense after finding out, and a more general discomfort with how I look lessened after finding out, oh i look like this because of that and i look like that down there because of what they did to me"

"wanted to figure out both medical and gender stuff but medical was more pressing so i picked that one"

"never thought of myself as intersex until PCOS fucked my whole hormone cycle up. Now it feels weird not to say im intersex"

"medical issues and gender stuff i guess. I had stuff like slightly too early and too intense puberty and i was like. There is no way that this is normal theres gotta be something to explain this. And then after some time i found out there are hormonal intersex variations that do that stuff. Now to just get myself to accept that im still intersex on hrt 🙃"

"It was very complicated for me because for years I had a feeling that Something wasn't right. And I didn't technically have a period of questioning but I always did feel weird calling myself perisex bc I just felt Something was wrong. And then. Almost 2 years ago now. I was told by my parents that I had my chromosomes tested as a toddler. And I had triple X. They didn't seem to think it was a big deal or anything and so just never thought to tell me?. And then I had a brief questioning period on whether that counted as intersex but within a couple of days came to terms w it"

"Picking only one was tricky for me because the medical trauma and the gender stuff have been so deeply linked for me. [...] I didn't really seriously consider [questioning] until my mid-20s once I had access to therapy for the first time in my life ... At first in therapy the issues of medical trauma and of figuring out my gender were treated as though they were parallel issues but the more we explored them the more evident it was they were linked. When I went through hyperandrogen puberty it felt normal and appropriate, and everything my mom and doctors did to force my body into a female presentation was both traumatic and a source of gender dysphoria. [...] Figuring out I was intersex connected all the dots."

"Other. Wanted to know why people kept being confused by or shocked by my genitals. which honestly answered itself but then i wanted a more in depth medical answer Just In Case (like since i have ovotestis i am at risk of ovarian AND testicular cancer)"

💛💜💛

#intersex #questioning #intersex questioning #for any stats nerds the R^2 on the chart is 0.93 #I didn't want to quote people by username without permission but happy to edit usernames in with permission #I do not actually know the appropriate tumblr etiquette and am just guessing #hope that's okay #intersex polls

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17magpiesinatrenchcoat · 8 months

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hey!! I’m lori. I use she /her pronouns, and I am autistic and anxious, so I’m not the best at being social hrhhshsh

current main fixation: the magnus archives

previous/dormant fixations: hollow knight, celeste, cult of the lamb, slay the princess

tumblr freaks me out a bit, so I mostly just dump my art here and lurk on my favourite artists’ blogs, I am much more active on my instagram of the same username

DNI: any sort of bigot, proshippers(personal comfort reasons, I refuse to be involved in any discourse please do not ever involve me in it), weirdos in general, vivziepop fans, AI “artists”, anyone under 13 (what are you doing on here!!!!)

I am socially anxious, so I will take a while to respond to dms and stuff, and tumblr is pretty much the worst place to talk to me anyways LOL

I use mobile exclusively so if anything is formatted weirdly, that’s why

my art contains bright colours and may be eyestrainy if you’re sensitive to that stuff, or very occasional body horror/mild gore, please be aware

my art is tagged with #my art , my hollow knight au stuff is tagged with #hk bleak sunrise au, reblogs are tagged with #strawberreblog , random ass text posts are tagged with #shut up lori

PLEASE SEND ME ASKS!! I love asks!!

I am aroace sapphic (aka I think girls are pretty but I don’t want to do anything about it lmao) and bc I am repulsed aroace anything suggestive/nsfw makes me uncomfortable, so please be mindful of that. I do have the tags blocked, so it’s probably fine but don’t try to talk to me about anything like that please

I DO NOT ALLOW REPOSTS, EVER. If you see any of my art NOT on here or Instagram with the 17magpiesinatrenchcoat username, please tell me. If you want to use one of my artworks as an icon or whatever, ASK. And I will only allow it for fanart, not any of my OCs/original designs.

I think that’s it!! I will update this as I go if I want to add any more.

#pinned #use these for navigation:#my art #hk bleak sunrise au #strawberreblog #shut up lori

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toccata-i-voir · 3 months

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About the power imbalance: it’s not just about the number of followers/larger audience. It’s clear that John is/was the "leader" of the group. I mean, he could just kick Sherlock out without any problems. He seems to control the whole group. If you’re able to remove someone from a group and everyone goes along with it, then there’s obviously a toxic power imbalance.

Mycroft went along with it when John announced he was breaking up with Sherlock, Harry too. Only Greg dared to say anything. That says a lot about the group dynamic.

After Greg spoke up, Mycroft kicked him out and threatened him in the screenshots. The remaining mods, Mycroft and John, kick out anyone who doesn’t follow their orders or dares to speak up. This behavior looks incredibly toxic, as if they’re keeping everyone under control with an iron fist and threats. Why are those mods so scared of the other mods speaking up?

I think the remaining mods are afraid to speak because if they do, they’ll be kicked out and fall out of favor with John’s mod. It all sounds like John kicked Sherlock out because he couldn’t control him. John’s latest post tells the same story: John’s reasoning for removing Sherlock is that they had different views. This could mean that Sherlock didn’t do what John’s mod told him to do. So he sacked him and put someone in his place who’ll follow his orders. John’s mod seems to be a control freak, his tantrum in bewitched-bullet’s comments suggests that. All that just screams power imbalance and bullying to me. Excluding someone from a group to demonstrate your power is the tactic of the school bully. It reminds me of high school drama. When someone’s ostracized by the main bully in a group and everyone else joins in because they’re scared. Or because they enjoy bullying the ostracized. Just like in high school. It wouldn’t surprise me if those mods are teenagers who now participate in typical high school bullying on Tumblr.

Thank you for your input. It is a breath of fresh air to hear someone speak intelligently.

And yes, I agree this brings back highschool memories - including the stuff my bullies were trying to pull off on me.

One thing that I will mention, is that one of the aggressors involved might not be a teenager, as they blamed "pregnancy brain" for a highly emotion-driven response in DMs we exchanged.

I will not comment on who exactly it was, as I do believe their identity is not important at the moment. Just pointing out the possibility that not everyone involved is a Mean Girls-esque teenager.

#a scandal in tumblr #not rp #ooc

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deviantartdramahub · 2 months

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So, Ilia tries to call me out on tumblr but i can get my revenge on tumblr as well until i am return on this site in december 2023. If she will be nicely to me, Maybe but she SHOULD be NOT EVIL.

And i am also regarding her awful post back for what ilia did shit to me: https://www.tumblr.com/deviantartdramahub/735373729478098944/regarding-this?source=share

"A post that implies that if he had another account that he would evade the block and contact the person who blocked him - which is block evading and against dA rules (I was rude here, could've been nicer. I wasn't. I apologize for that bit)" Too bad ilia, because he already quit dA but yet you beg him to reporting me, But now you did because you cause my dA channel to be a damaged so you did, And no! I did not blaim you, You blaim and harassing me first. You also send your friends to attack me on my social media account when i got roasted but i escape, And i don't know you since july 2023.

"A status update that uses transgender as an insult. Which can be seen as hate or some kind of aggression. (even if I was transgender, how does that have any bearing on anything?)" Then whats your gender? Oh, You are female! I know what you reveal, I was asking you who are you but no, You are monster. Do i ever aggression you ilia? Hell no, I don't. If you are transgender in real life, That means you could be a male.

"Status by RRCBT577 on DeviantArt (archive.is) - A beware status about me / call out post with little to ZERO evidence of claims. And the ONLY evidence that was used was this status Status by ZazGal432 on DeviantArt (archive.is) < which Zazgal didn't even PROVIDE evidence of. - The original link Status by ZazGal432 on DeviantArt If you actually look at the entire freaking comment section NO WHERE in any of that is there evidence of claims of me supposedly bullying her. You know what I did ? I linked her to the RULES of deviantart regarding screenshots of other user activity like comment threads or dms. THAT'S what I did. (Telling someone the rules of dA isn't considered bullying or harassment). If you're curious - here's the rule she broke: What are your policies on resolving social conflict? - DeviantArt Help Center (deviantartsupport.com) - In the section that stats "Leave your deviations out of it" it talks about how screenshots aren't allowed with serve as a PERSONAL ATTACK."

So you archive my dA channel? Like why are you archive my social media account? Stop using archive.is and quit archiving me instead, You are so annoying lady in the world, You also trying to call me out but you failed. With a little to zero exposed of claims. And the only reasons why i share on your community tab because you beg someone to leave you alone but you cannot handle the FUCKING hate, I already read the dA rules but still. < Your friends are SUPPOSED to quit reporting me on dA, Instead of your bullshit. Btw, I send your friends request on discord because i have to bad reply at you back, I can also send my real friends to come over to your youtube channel. Such as a other, So you have to appeal my ban account instead of CONTACTING a dA help center, You would have to. And screenshots are still allowed you idiot, So stop trying to dragging me.

"The 2 statues he created were used solely for the purpose of attacking, not warning anything.. < Those 2 statuses were removed by staff." Now go RECOVER my dA channel by contacting a dA help center, You are still helper so you cannot hiding your actions. < Or i gonna get the hacker man to recover my dA account, So don't ever trying to reporting me on dA and tumblr you sick woman.

"And then after I created my own beware journal I got comments from an Account named Anti-esai who created this journal: Do not trust a karen username named Illia-Mae by Anti-Esai on DeviantArt (archive.is) - Supposedly, stating that I was "forcing" max to report richard when I was suggesting/recommending. Recommending something isn't "Forcing", btw." I do not created those accounts, It was made by yours or someone else, And yes you are karen. Also like i said before, Stop begging someone to reporting me on dA because that's not how it works, Recommending on your bullshit post is also not gonna help. Ilia, Just stop looking at me on my social media channel and leave, But you won't leave because you still let your friends to ATTACK my community tab. I already get my hero friends to get you because i suggest you to NOT come over me on tumblr. You are the most villains woman in social media i ever seen, And i am becoming a super hero soon until january or march 2024.

"After that journal was posted I created my report with that account and 3 others including the main account asking staff to REVIEW IT.. they deemed the anti - esai was breaking dA rules being a ban evader, Didn't state that it was his account but it was banned nonetheless ; However when Richard here created an account called Anti-Spinninganansi after his prime got SUSPENDED and sent me a note stating "go ahead and suspend me". Tell me you're richard without telling me your richard . and spinning a note asking for his "manager" - It was deemed by the staff that he was indeed suspension evading and therefore banned." So you think you are better than me? Well, You are WORSE than evie when evie attacking me. And now i lost my 1K watchers because of YOU! You keeps blaiming me alot of things that i did, But you DID because you are bad woman. And bad womans don't deserved to be return on other social media, You will unbanned me on dA soon. And my dA channel isn't supposed to be a name my prime, Including nick! He does NOT appeal me when i can show you on the center. I am stuck in banned from dA in 4 months and you won't let me go, Idiotic woman. And you wanna trying to reporting me on tumblr but you are not leader on this site. And he is not my manager, Your friends has a manager on dA because they are acting like a admit ; However when you came to my unfinished dA channel, Then your friends should quit reporting me because i am NOT a ban evade, I am a innocent you monster. Just leave my dA account alone already and stop trying to find me with a help welcome, Go ignore your dA notifications instead and leave my other social media accounts, If you don't leave my social media accounts, Then i am about to get my friends to get you. Now do it or you get bullies by my friends.

"DeviantArt - Discover The Largest Online Art Gallery and Community (archive.is) < this comment thread, pretty much threat. Or can be considered a threat." If you did, < Then explain this

Nick does not let me a appeal because you EVER cause my dA channel to be a damaged and you will RECOVER my dA accounts, I don't care if you not admit but you will.

"That's the reason why NICK a STAFF member of dA declined your appeal. because your behavior on the site got YOU into trouble not the other way around." Oh yeah? Ilia, Your friends evie is trying to get my twitter account trouble because she tries to reporting me on twitter but she failed, But you will never able to REPORT me on twitter and tumblr because you are not A PRO.

Also, I will do a regarding her another awful post about me: https://www.tumblr.com/deviantartdramahub/735374599547748352/also-i-get-that-you-are-upset-richard-and?source=share

"Also -" For what, Another bullshit post you created? Ilia. -

"I get that you are upset Richard and absolutely you have the RIGHT to be upset. And I validate your feelings on being upset. But, how you are handling this ENTIRE thing; Instead of acknowledging your errors - you blame others. Instead of growing and reading the rules that are presented to you that YOU YOURSELF AGREED TO - you continue the behavior. Instead of actually being a mature teenager - you act like a petulant 2-year-old." I am 16 years old, You are upset too because you keeps telling someone to leave you alone but you deleted your post on youtube because you are still letting your friends to attack me. How about you grow up instead and not being a idiot like evie, My fellings will be not upset as your fellings will, I only acknowledging my life - you only blame me first, Instead of your lying and too many times that i already read the dA rules, The only villains that YOU ONLY AGREED TO - you also continue to the drama war too and the behaviour, Instead of actually being a adult - you act like a idiotic crazy woman, Now do it about recover my dA account or else. I am already have 5K subscribers so you will NEVER go inside my YT account.

"The behavior you are displaying on here, YT, twitter, wherever other socials you have - you display a tantrum. (and yes I do see it because you always seem to mention me or others you have issues with)"

You display on my dA account back in july 2023 when i told you ilia, I don't FUCKING know you. - You also display a crazy woman that you are insulting me, Also what do you mean i mention you? You mean a deviantart mails right? You have a issues with your stupid mails that you don't deserved to be a KING, Instead of your evil behaviour.

"I WILL ADMIT that I was rude to you and I AM sorry for being rude to you. But here's a question for you: IF (keyword) IF I nicer to you and let you know PRIVATELY via DMs/notes about the rules of dA - Would you still act the same way?" If you want to apologies to me and being a nice to me, Then do NOT contacting nick to ban me on dA because i can do a legally screenshot whatever i have to, And IDK if i still act the same away but still pissed me off. -_-

"Here's the difference between You and I, right now richard. I have NEVER once threatened to hack your account, I have NEVER ONCE threatened to get "vengeance". I don't create "evilrichard" accounts. I don't post "who is more evil" polls. I don't do things like that." I don't think you shall not do it but my evil clone does NOT exist and my evil clone will be not return, You cannot treating me like this. If you want to be good woman like plankton, Just try but NOT a being evil like your friends evie, I hope the dA drama will be finally END and they will be NO MORE WAR AND BANNED, So please be a good woman or you will be a evil like him.

"You're right. We don't know if the evileviejulia accounts or evilsky or evil-iliamae accounts are yours. But if you look at the coincidence of the situations and everything in between, between your threats, the behavior you're displaying. How can we NOT assume that they are yours?" Like i told you ilia, These acocunts are NOT mine. Your threats must be a quit, Between your community tab of the situations and everything on deviantart and youtube. You'are supposed to be a good or bad, But if you acting like scar from the lion king. This means you can be a villains like him, But if you good woman! You will be good like spongebob or simba.

"I have made mistakes and I will own up to those. My primary mistake was interacting with you. Trying to save your account. - Again. I WAS RUDE. I will admit that shit. But at least I didn't threaten you, call you names by using offensive words, or swore vengeance on you for something so stupid as this."

If you have a mistakes, Then DO NOT CONTACTING ON DA HELP CENTER TO GET MY DA ACCOUNT BANNED.... Because thats not how it works, But it did. If you did not threaten me, Calling me names by using offensive words, then stop trying to attacking me. Because i am a good person and i delete those status update, If i trying to save my account, I will save my account sooner until someone recover my dA accounts. Look ilia, You must be good woman or evil womans! Otherwise you might end up like her.

So that's all i have to say her post about me.

DA belongs to its admins, I would say they can boot who they wish. However, it is more agreeable everyone's approach to this is hideous.

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the-hilda-librarians-wife · 5 months

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I am really needing Advice and I don't have many people in my life that can help.

Here in the fandom I am wanting to reach out and try and make friends with of the members but I ......just don't know how.

I don't want to freak anyone out I just want some friends from here people to chat with and get to know.

I really enjoy my interactions with some of the members I just very socially awkward.

Hey there, anon! First off, I want to assure you you’re definitely not alone in this fandom and thank you for judging me an appropriate person to help. I’m definitely very socially awkward as well (even if it doesn’t show much since I’ve gotten very comfortable around here), so I’ve been there. I’ll share what I’d do in your situation (basically, what I’ve been doing since the fandom began sgksbsjsbs), I hope some of it can be of help to you <3

How to make friends in the fandom:

1- Discord

I, personally, do not really use discord chats. But I did back at the beginning, and they’re an amazing way to find people in the fandom to chat with! Essentially the etiquete of discord (as far as I know) is that you’re welcome to join in on conversations that are already happening, so you don’t need to stress about intruding. I’m pretty sure the biggest Hilda discord is Hilda Guild-a, but the tumblr community also has the Hilda Fandom Network. I (and any other member) can send you a link to the latter if you’re interested and don’t mind shooting one of us a DM! There’s also a sketchbook discord (and I’m assuming you’d be interested in talking about sketchbook since you’re. You know. *gestures vaguely around my blog* here), but I’ve been trying to find the link for jetcat for weeks and still haven’t managed to 🫠 wish you a better luck than mine, anon

2- Tags!

If you’re a person who makes content for the fandom — and I don’t just mean fics or art; shitposts and meta count too — pay attention to the people who not only reblog your stuff, but leave tags adding their thoughts/agreeing with you/screaming as well. They will probably be more open for dialogue since they not only already know you, but also like what you do and how you think!

Likewise, interact with the people you want to get closer to! You have probably already gotten a feel of some bloggers in the fandom, so make sure to reblog the posts you like from the people who sound kind and interesting to you, and let them know what you think!! This way they, too, will know you’re open for dialogue

(Also in this fandom it’s very common that we check the tags on our posts and answer them if there’s anything to be answered; so it’s already an unobtrusive way to get a blogger’s attention!)

3- Asks :O

See, you’re off to a good start! xD

Probably the main reason why I refuse to move on from tumblr, tbh. Asks are just so useful when you’ve already had some interactions with a blogger via their posts and want to talk more. You can always ask about safe topics; if it’s an artist or fic writer, I assure you they’ll be delighted to talk about their work. Also sending jokes or thoughts about characters/ships the person likes, or just about the series, is also imo a very nice thing to do :)

4- DMs (*sinister music playing*)

Okay, this is the scary part that you probably want to be careful with (I know I always want to, at least)

Once you’ve been interacting with people for some time in the ways I already mentioned, you might try sending them direct messages (this is especially acceptable if you’re mutuals btw, though that’s just unspoken etiquete and not a Rule of any kind). Depending on how long you’ve been in each other’s orbit, you might send them a fandom thought (that could admittedly have been an ask, but sending it in a DM will make it even clearer you’re interested in chatting), a post that reminded you of them and you think they might like, or even something a little more personal. I truly think this step will rely a lot on you sensing what is the most appropriate course of action

From then on I’d say it’s relatively easy (even for socially awkward people such as you and I) to sense whether the person you’ve approached is also interested in having a back and forth or if they’re just being polite. But either way, if you ever want to ask them (or even begin the chat by asking) if it’s they’re okay with getting DMs and/or apologizing if you’re being in any way intrusive, I think that’s a pretty chill thing to do. I can’t really see anyone in this fandom telling you “no”, but it’s still polite and would put your heart at ease evekvdjdbsjdb

Honestly, this is a cookie cutter-ification of a process that is generally organic, but as a general rule it’s what works for me. You might want to keep in mind that up until last year I was only in DM terms with *counting on fingers* uh. One (1) (☝️) person in the fandom, so I might not be The best person for you to copy xD though that might also be just because I wasn’t necessarily looking to make friends over here. It sort of just happened haha

Honestly, the bottom line is just that this fandom is filled with lovely people and I think wanting to make friends is all but a guaranty that you will. Something that I’ve learned from experience that helped me a lot to keep in mind is that if you’re afraid of being intrusive or impolite, you most likely won’t be. Just from the way you worded the ask, you sound pretty sweet!

I do hope you find what you’re looking for, and that you have a lovely time at the Hilda tumblr! Have a lovely day, dear 💜

#in my experience once you’ve been in stage 4 with someone for long enough #you get access to secret new levels that vary from person to person #so far I’ve gotten one Brainlink and one Blood Pact and I’ve no idea how either happened but you won’t catch me complaining #hope you get to unlock the special secret mutual interaction levels too anon gdkhdkdhdj <3 #also road trip over I’m sorry for all the asks I still couldn’t get 😭😭#wife answers asks #not hilda

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wovenforest · 1 year

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W3LCOME T0 MY TUMBLR 🫶

🕯️my name is dallas (u can call me dal if u want), on my tumblr im mainly going to write fanfic. i go by he/him and am bi

🕯️i can also talk ab shifting or witchcraft (i plan on posting tarot readings, i also plan on giving some out)

🕯️since im a shifter ill mainly write fanfics revolving around my desired realities (such as criminal minds, the outsiders, supernatural, pjo, etc), they arent ALL going to be CONCERNING my dr, but they are the FANDOMS i will be writing about

🕯️(by the previous part i just mean the fandoms i will be writing for + memories from my dr to help them be “accurate”)

🕯️a little ab me ig: i loveeee drawing and music (hozier, måneskin, arctic monkeys, the neighborhood, ptv>>>> i take no criticism), i also play some guitar and i have a silly goofy goober stupid ass little bitch of a cat (i love him). im mexican and italian and im also trying to reconnect w my native roots (im still learning spanish for my dad even tho its a european language smfh) and before u ask yes i cookeh dah pizza while dancing to mariachi (but its usually mi reina selena q🙏)

TH1NGS AB MY F4NFICS ;;

🕯️gn or male reader. not she/her, she/they whatever, no. my fanfics are for they/thems and male/masc readers

🕯️ill mainly write fluffy drabbles but i might experiment with smut (i cant promise itll be good). but you guys definitely will not be starved, some heavy makeout sessions will probably be present. i also understand that most people would want fics w their comfort characters so im willing to do sh/addiction or any mental health related fics

🕯️requests !!!!! im always ALWAYS open to more requests and ideas, do NOT be shy when it comes to this, i promise i wont judge🫶

TH1NGS I W0NT D0 ;;

🕯️if its smut no way in hell will i fucking do age play, race play, cnc, any weird kinks or fetishes. also nothing ab feet since they freak me tf out even tho it goes under the weird fetish category

🕯️im super super big on respect, if we are having a debate on something im not being rude, im just very blunt and firm when it comes to arguments so if you are being disrespectful u will be blocked.🫶

🕯️if theres questions about witchcraft or shifting i will 💥give only what i know💥 so for example, if its anything about spells i cant answer that since i dont do them, but if it involves tarot, manifesting i will. im also working on my craft so if theres any questions related to what im doing i will give my answers + the source from which im learning from

MY TAR0T READINGS ;;

(which are free, also i do 1-5 questions at a time)

🕯️if i cannot do your reading i will tell you and get to it as fast as i can aslong as i dont have others to get to first. i always do them as the order the people asked

🕯️im still working out my full thoughts on this but i do plan on doing them. i will probably have a little box where you can send your questions in (1-5) and i can dm you your reading or i can post them anonymously (idk why u would want it but the options there ig)

🕯️questions i WILL do;; love/relationship readings, (mental) health readings, questions about you/someone/your dr if youre a shifter, really anything aslong as its not under my “things i wont do list” but i WILL tell you if i cannot with reasoning

🕯️questions i WONT do ;; yes/no questions, ancestor/deity questions, theres still questions i havent gotten yet, but if i cannot do them like i said i WILL TELL YOU, and if i cant do your desired question(s) feel free to give me another/more

DNI ;;

🕯️homophobic, racist, abelist, an incel, literally just a shit person. also antishifters (js so u know, in a diff reality ur bitch is choking on my cock)

(also anyone fem aligned. like ily, yall are chill and all but you GOT THE REST OF TUMBLR, let the men and nb’s have some fics pls)

anyways peace✌️

~dal🕯️

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daydreaming-scheming-demon · 6 months

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how can people make friends so easily? how the fuck is it even possible to make a friend? or even do anything with anyone? i've heard stories of ppl who can just have casual sex with strangers and im just thinking, how the fuck is that possible? i can't even get someone to want to talk to me, the online world has been the only place where i even have a chance to hold a conversation.

i've listened to people's fucking advice on how to make friends and none of it works. they say "oh, well if u keep showing up to the same group of people or whatever eventually u're sure to make some friends" and NO, THAT DOES NOT FUCKING WORK. they just turn you into a background character. they're not interested in anything you have to say or do, they tune you out, i've seen it.

when we went bowling i was put in a lane all by myself because the lane everyone was playing on was full. i've been kept out of playing mario party because there weren't enough controllers. ive sat through an entire dnd session without doing anything besides looking at a letter because the dm forgot about me.

i shouldn't even be mad about any of that. because if im gonna be honest with myself, even if i were put in the same lane as everyone, even if i were able to join in on mario party, even if i were included more in the dnd session, i highly doubt i would've been able to make any friends anyway. because that's just the kind of person i am. it's not like i don't try to force myself to be included, ppl just seem to naturally push me away.

and just to clarify, they don't push me away in the "i don't like you" kind of way, they push me in away in the "i don't care for you" kind of way. and honestly, i think id rather they hated me. because at least then they would care about me.

i thrive much better in the online world, but even then i still feel like i'm missing a manual on how friends are supposed to be made. i see people on steam with thirty something friends, and although im aware most are likely not very close to the person, im still very much all "how the fuck did u meet all those people".

i can't even remember the last time i had physical contact. i would hug my therapist but due to reasons beyond my control ive only been able to have online sessions with her.

quite a while ago i had an online friend who i'd talk with quite a lot. she was so nice to me, always brightened me up. we'd talk for hours about each other's troubles and such. we knew each other ever since i was 15 and she was 14. she was the only thing keeping me sane through all those years. but almost a year ago now, she ghosted me. i still don't know why she did it, she never said anything. i can still see her online, she just avoids me. this ruined me. i was only left to assume the worst, that there was something wrong with me, and i didnt know what.

now i freak out over being ignored, i convince myself everyone secretly hates me. i know im probably wrong, it's not all about me. but i can't stop myself from thinking the worst. i fixate over if anyone will ghost me like she did. im trying to get over this, slowly but hopefully surely.

i have massive amounts of self hatred that feel impossible to get over. i cant think of a day where i havent told myself i hate myself, and recently ive been telling myself to kill myself more frequently. i want anyone who says "how can you expect others to love you when you can't even love yourself" to go die in a volcano. by the time i'm able to solve this self hatred problem i'd probably have already died from loneliness.

for fuck's sake, im venting on tumblr to whoever happens to see this. because i have nobody to fucking go to to express these feelings. i have nobody, so im venting to fucking tumblr. fuck.

i just wish i had someone.

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zooone · 2 years

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mutual love!!!! inspired by @gaytoadwithapopcicle (anon love will come tomorrow,,, ,.,,.,.,.,, im tirired)

@lyssys - oh my goodness where do i even begin. um. the whole reason why im even here???? the whole reason why i love logging onto tumblr?????? the whole reason that im inspired????? uh. hello??? literally greatest person ever. ive said this before but they remind me of mumza and niki... as caring and sweet and open as mumza and as beautiful and empowering as niki!!! the best of the best... huge inspiration for me,,, and im lowkey still shocked that she was my first mutual and she (wonderful amazing beautiful lyss) asked me (rambling bozo) to be moots! but nonetheless it was absolutely amazing ofc!! i worship them soso much. deserves the world <33

@sardonic-the-writer - insanely similar to lyss'- where do i even begin. i used to literally freak out to your amazing writing. again, v v surprised that they (absolutely cool, insanely talented sardonic) asked me (someone who used to reel over their work and inhale it like air) to be mutuals!!! aaa i remember when they first asked,,, i recently hit 100 nd was playing guitar when i saw them ask to be moots! i had to put my instrument down so i caan get up and jump w joy :)) but anywho very very talented! and accepting as well, i dunno how they were able to withstand me and lyss spamming them w scrunkbut /affectionate. also the whole reason i have like half of my mutuals :DD couldnt have done it w/o u man :)

@gaytoadwithapopcicle - MY MANNN!!1!!!!! my pal my guy my brotherein my homeslicicle my bro...... another instance in which i got rlly happy when they asked to be moots!!! like okqoabajwjsjwmwnwbsmdm this insanely cool person wants to befriend me???!!!?!???? i was shocked, to say the least. but toad is so so so cool!!!!!!!!! im exteemely flattered to be their first mutual and i hope i made a well first impression of how it feels to have a moot!! but v v v kind and sweet and respectful!! i feel v safe and welcome in their dms and theyre the coolest absolutely

@harbingerofheartbreak - yet another moment that i was shocked when she asked to be moots (man, i really am a fuckin loser, huh? /pos) honestly one of the most, if not the most, talented writer i know. the grammar they use is immaculate whilst also being still comprehensive,,, the way they show emotion is picture perfect,,,,,, and to say that way she writes stories to flow so well it blows me away is an understatement!!!! if they released a book id be the first to buy /hj,,, but aside from their amazing talent, they're also so so so sweet too! v supportive of others work, and wont hesitate to be the sweetest ever!!! aaaa i love em sm :)) <33 /p

@gh0st-b0ys - a huge issue i have w myself is that i often think im too annoying, by ghostly never made me feel like that. id post something absolutely idiotic, and still get happy when they would like it!! didnt matter what it was, as long as i get a like from them, everything is alright :)),,,, also they said that they idolized me?!?2!1?1?1??1?!3?1!!?2! wtf!?2!?!????????!1!1?! /pos waaa i cant express into words how happy that made me feel.... i idolize people all the time and to know that someone is like that towards me makes it sm easier to get out of bed. and even tho we havent had a lotta interaction between each other,,, i just wanna let em know that theyre insanely cool :Dd

@pebblebrainlovejoy - proud to say i watched them grow 💪💪💪💪 i feel like a proud older sibling whenever i see their blog. i remember seeing one of their newer works (cant remember what it was but at the time it only had like 2 notes) and i thought "this is actually amazing,, this persons gonna blow up, i swear." and they did!!!! and im so so so proud of them!!!!!1!!1 honestly, i love seeing their blog on my dash and it makes me the happiest whenever i do. absolutrly amazing writer as well!!! i respect them not only as a mutual vut as a writer definitely. cant even describe how happy their work makes me,.,,, like its amazing,, i would recommend it a thousand percent to people absolutely <33

#mutual love #<333333 #my whole world #talking #rambling #o ya hope u guys dont mind the tags #ALSO IF SOME1 IS READING THIS AND WANTS TO JOIN MY MUTUALS LIST ABSOLUTELY FEEL FREE TO HMU!!!!!

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atomic-thomas · 1 year

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(Fake ASMR Commission) Chatting With An Ex Hell Hunter [Monster Hunter Roleplay] {Hunter Listener}

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*guild hall ambience plays for the entire audio* (I'll provide the source I have in mind in a Tumblr DM. I think it fits the setting perfectly.)

"Hey, you there. Come here & have a seat with me. I wanna talk to you."

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"So... You're the new hunter who's been climbing the guild's ranks, right?"

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"I knew you looked like them. Gotta say, I'm impressed. Most hunters don't usually make it this far. Guess it wouldn't be right to call you a rookie at this point."

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"Me? I'm an Ex Hell Hunter. Emphasis on the Ex part. I wasn't into the vibe of the group."

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"Well, thing is... The Hell Hunters are some of the guild's best hunters. No doubt about that. They can tango with a Tigrex [Pronounced Tie-grex] or two & make it look easy. As can I. But unlike them, I'm not lazy."

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"Yeah, this I why I left them. They only perform when they feel like it. They'll constantly make excuses not to take on tough quests out of sheer laziness or ignorance. They can do it. I know they can. I was there for most of the action. They can wreck just about any monster you put them against. But more often than not, they'll just leave quests in the hands of other hunters. A lot of which are far less capable than them. It's stupid."

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"Good question. Why doesn't the guild fire them? I think I know the reason. The guild doesn't want to get rid of them because they're so good at hunting. There aren't many hunters out there capable of taking on the world's powerful apex predators. The Hell Hunters may be lazy, but when they're motivated, their reputation as elite hunters show. No one can deny that."

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"Well, they do have their limits. Skilled as they are, even they don't stack up to the guild's super elites. The special hunters that are permitted to hunt the most dangerous & powerful monsters that exist. Elder Dragons, Black Dragons, calamities given flesh... You know... THOSE monsters."

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"You want to become a super elite. Heh, good luck with that. You do understand what kind of torture a hunter needs to endure to achieve that kind of status, right? It's not worth the wealth & fame. I assure you."

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"Don't believe me? That's fine. Don't take my word for it. I just so happened to talk to one of these hunters myself & got some great info from them. Wanna hear?"

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"Of course you do. Apparently, a Fatalis [Pronounced Fay-tal-iss] was spotted in the ruins of Castle Schrade [Pronounced Shrade] a few years ago. Fatalis are the most powerful monsters ever recorded by the guild. No living thing is known to be above them on the food chain. One even destroyed an entire kingdom in a single night. They supposedly have the power to threaten a global apocalypse."

"Having no choice but to eliminate the beast, the guild sent their super elites on a quest to get the job done. And while they all returned victorious, it came at a life-altering cost."

"Their mental health. From what this hunter told me, they've suffered horrible night terrors... PTSD... Trauma... They just haven't been the same since."

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"Yeah, that's the life of a super elite. You're rich, famous & everyone reveres you... But at what cost?"

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"I figured you'd change your mind. I'm comfortable just being a normal elite. I can still hunt some tough monsters & come back in good spirits. Sometimes, me & my party end up laughing amongst ourselves after a good hunt. We can even crack jokes about it if we're in a good enough mood."

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"The toughest monster I've ever hunted. Hmmm... Hard to say. But if I had to chose, it'd be Espinas. [This word is pronounced in multiple different ways. Just try your best.] It's carapace is so dense & hard. It's covered in spikes. It can burn, poison & paralyze you all at once. *shudders* I'd be okay with never hunting one of those again. Espinas freak me out."

"Anyway... Enough about me. What about you? What have you been up to?"

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"Oooh, you hunted your first Rathalos [Pronounced Rath-uh-los] recently. Not bad. Ratahlos are known as the Kings of the Skies. They're commonly found all over the world. Wouldn't surprise me if they were hunted by the dozens every day. How difficult was it?"

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"Easier than you expected. Really now. Did you use flash bombs?"

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"That explains it. Rathalos are highly susceptible to flash bombs. As soon as they take flight, you can basically knock them down on command. It makes it very easy to exploit their weak points."

"So what's that weapon you got there? Looks like a Switch Axe."

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"I figured. It's ironic because I happen to have a Charge Blade with me right now. The other morphing axe weapon. Nothing beats the satisfaction of landing my Super Amped Elemental Discharge & watching the monster reel from the attack. It feels so great. Never gets old."

"Say... You got me thinking. Wanna browse the quest board with me? I wanna go on a hunt with you. You seem really enthusiastic. It should be fun."

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"Awesome! I knew you'd oblige. Let's see what's available."

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"Hmmm... So many options. There's a lot of monsters that need hunting. Oooh, what about this one? It's a Diablos [That should be easy to pronounce.] in the Sandy Plains. What do you say? Feel like hunting the Desert Tyrant?"

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"It'll be your first one. That's fine. I know my way around a Diablos. They hate Sonic Bombs. When they dig underground, you can throw one to force them out. They'll be stuck in the ground for a few seconds while struggling to get out. That'll be our perfect opportunity to attack."

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"Alright! It's settled. Pack your things & we'll head on out. I'll show the clerk that we've registered this quest so we can get the clearance to go. I'm looking forward to seeing your hunting skills in action."

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THE END

#Fake ASMR #Monster Hunter

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foreverindreamlandd · 3 years

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Bucky wanted to read her fanfictions and she always declined. So he begged and begged and begged... until she finally gives up and let him read one. 'Cause who could really say no to Bucky making puppy eyes?!

Let me know what you think about it

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Plus Size!Reader

WC: 1.5k (I am apparently incapable of writing a drabble)

A/N: Thank you again for another awesome request! I was basically cackling the whole time I wrote it. Want to read about how Bucky and this reader got together? Check out their origin story in my To Be Wanted series! Only warning in this one is the usual swearin’ like a sailor.

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“See, this is why I always order Thai food. I can never do it justice.” You frown over your wok, mixing the noodles around with a wooden spoon hoping it will somehow make your creation taste better.

“I’m sure it tastes great, doll.” Bucky walks up next to you and grabs a noodle, tilting his head back as he drops it into his mouth.

His eye twitches almost imperceptibly and you groan.

“It’s good,” he coughs out, trying with all of his strength to regain his composure. “I think you just went a little too hard on the chili paste. I can feel my sinuses clearing up though, which is good, right?”

You roll your eyes. “Can you check the recipe on Pinterest again? I swear I put in the right amount.”

Bucky walks over and picks up your iPad. Right as he’s scrolling to find out if you should have used 2 tablespoons or 2 teaspoons of chili paste, a notification banner pops up and he accidently taps it, opening up your Tumblr app.

Omg! This fic is amazing! The way Bucky is there to support the reader. My heart completely melted! Your Bucky stories are amazing, Y/n! <3

Above the comment is a photo of him. It’s a shot from the news where he’s helping a civilian stand up after one of the attacks made by The Red Hand.

“Uh….love? What’s this?” He holds the iPad up to you and you shift your gaze over to him.

You drop the wooden spoon into the wok as all of the blood drains from your face. You’re frozen in place for a millisecond before you pounce on Bucky to grab the device from him. He’s never seen you move so quickly and it catches him off guard.

“Bucky give me the iPad right now,” you fling your arms toward it and he pulls it away, both amused and a bit concerned by your reaction.

“Wait, what is this? Is it something I should be worried about?”

You see a flicker of panic flash in his eyes and you stop flailing. You close your eyes and let out a deep sigh.

“No, I mean, I should be concerned because if you read that I’m probably going to combust and you’re going to dump me and run for the hills.” He furrows his brows in confusion and you slowly lift up your hand. “Can I please have that back before I have a mild panic attack?”

He stares at you, trying to gauge your emotions. All he can see is panic and sadness and it breaks his heart so he instantly gives in and hands you the iPad.

“Don’t worry about it, love. I trust you.” He leans forward to give you a chaste kiss.

You let out a pained groan against his lips and Bucky is once again confused.

“Ughhhh I hate hiding things from you.” You lock your iPad so the screen goes dark. “Okay, fine, I guess this conversation is happening. Remember when we first started dating and I, uh, mentioned I used to read and write stories about….us being a couple?”

Bucky nods, trying not to reveal any emotion to you that might make you spiral into a panic, and you continue.

“Well, that was one of those stories I wrote. I stopped looking on Tumblr basically as soon as I met you because it got all weird and meta and I got super uncomfy by the idea of reading fanfics - that’s what they’re called - about my new friend/now boyfriend Bucky Barnes. And then we started dating and I was all happy and shit and I totally forgot that those fics were still out there. Obviously I haven’t written any since then because that would be weird for...many, many reasons. Someone must have found an old one and commented on it. I’ll delete it. I’ll delete all of them. I swear. I’m so sorry, Bucky. I should have been more on top of this.”

Bucky stares at you, lips pursed and you grimace, afraid of the next words that are about to come out of his mouth.

This is so weird, Y/n. How could you do this?

No wonder you didn’t date anyone before me.

Obsessed much? (Okay, he probably wouldn’t say it like that but STILL).

No, what Bucky said next was much, much worse than what you could have imagined.

“Can I read one?”

Your mouth drops. Closes. Drops again. You blink rapidly.

“I’m sorry, I just hallucinated. What?”

Bucky points to your iPad, a sly grin forming on his face. “I want to read one of your stories.”

You take a step back from him, horror stricken as you pull the iPad closer to you as if you were protecting your collector’s edition of ‘Throne of Glass.’

“Absolutely not.”

Bucky steps forward and you step back. He chuckles. “Come onnn, doll. I want to know what your fantasies were about me before we got together.” He laughs harder as the look of horror on your face grows more manic.

“Bucky, I know you’re a super soldier and could probably punch me into the sun with your metal arm, but I promise I will fight to the death before I let you read one of these fics.”

You and Bucky continue this dance of him stepping forward and you stepping back until you feel your legs make contact with your couch and you fall back into a sitting position on its arm. Bucky uses this opportunity to tower over you, his arms resting on the couch so that you’re pinned between them.

Then, he pulls out the big guns.

His gaze softens, blue eyes shining into yours. His bottom lip puffs out and he gives you the most adorable, sexiest pout you’ve seen in your whole life.

“Please, love?” He says it with a slightly higher pitch, almost like a whine and it still sounds like honey to your ears. He even nudges your nose with his like a freaking sociopath.

Damn.

You close your eyes, let out a breath, then open them back up to him. “I hate you.”

His pout turns into a boyish grin and he gives you a quick kiss. “You love me.”

You groan. “Hopefully you still love me after this, Buck. Don’t say I didn’t warn you.”

You stand and open up your iPad, scrolling through your masterlist and finding what used to be one of your favorite fluff pieces. You begrudgingly hand it to Bucky and he sits on the couch.

Unable to sit still during this agonizing experience, you proceed to pace around your apartment like a crazy person and resort to cleaning the inside of your microwave which you haven’t done in a few months so it’s a good thing that Bucky is reading your fic so that you could get that out of the way. You probably won’t have a boyfriend in a few minutes but at least your microwave will be spotless.

You only steal a few glances at Bucky as he reads, mortified each time as you see his eyebrows move in every possible direction. Up, down, knit together, were they criss-crossed at one point?

Finally, after what feels like the longest ten minutes of your life, Bucky lets out a soft grunt, placing the iPad down on his lap. He looks up to you and you give him a weak smile.

“Alright, let me have it, Buck. Give me your worst. Be honest. Also, I love you.”

Bucky glances down at the iPad and then back at you.

“Well, I have a few questions.”

Your right eye twitches. “Hm?”

“Now that you’ve met me, do you still think my eyes are an all-consuming storm of blue?” You groan. He grins. “Or do you think my jawline was cut from marble created by the gods?”

This time, you breathe out a laugh and you walk over to sit on his lap. You take hold of his chin.

“Bucky, I don’t think I could ever come up with the right words to describe you. The real thing is quite literally a million times better than anything I’ve ever written.”

His eyebrows raise. “That is...probably the best compliment I’ve ever gotten in my whole damn life.” He leans forward and kisses you, and you sigh into the feeling of his mouth on yours, relief flooding through you.

You pull away, eyes skeptical. “So, you’re not thinking about how you can escape and never see my crazy ass again?”

“On the contrary, love, I’m thinking about how I can convince you to buy this gorgeous green dress you apparently wore as my wedding date. The one that showed off your cleavage in a way that made Bucky’s brain melt.”

The two of you burst out laughing and you lightly shove his chest. “Sure thing, Bucko. How about I work on the dress situation and you work on ordering us Thai food so that we don’t lose our taste buds from whatever the hell I just made.”

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Yugioh S5 Ep 19: Yugi and the Only Neck Accessory He Didn’t Really Want to Wear

Been busy! Hopefully stuff will open up soon as I’m taking a hiatus on a different quarantine project and will be finishing painting the entire roof of my car this week? One can hope. Sanding the rust off the whole top of a car takes a long time it turns out?

Also, fun Yugioh fact, I recently painted a book cover for an author who is older so she’s never seen the show, and she looked at my tumblr, saw my Duke Devlin fanart and was like “That’s him. That’s my main character. OMG. You captured him perfectly!” and I was like “Ma’am that is Duke Devlin, hence the single dice earring on his lobes there, but we can work with this.” and now a spiritual Duke Devlin is on the cover of a Wuxia-style fantasy trilogy on the Vella. Had to give him a top knot and delete the eyeliner for Wuxia reasons but uh, that’s just Duke.

So long story short, fanart can get you work, don’t even worry about posting that stuff online because most people don’t even know it’s fanart anyway and older ladies freakin love it.

Back in Yugioh, the team was doing their best to navigate a map through the woods and they do about as well as they normally do.

And inside Tristan lifted up the floorboards and was like “I found the only way out, this is it, this is the only way.”

And they ended up in something that has a color scheme I would actually associate with a jungle. Finally. We have finally left California (in order to go to another Hell.)

Youknow, when we went to California, we visited Hell, and when we went to India, we also took a stop at the nearest death destination. There’s just so much death on this show and sometimes I forget because there’s been a ghost in our party for so freakin long it’s been normalized.

(read more death imagery under the cut)

Joey freaks out at a flock of crows and reveals in this episode something I never realized about him before.

Like I’m not always the perfect observer as I’m sure you’ve noticed, but I love that this is canon for probably only this episode, but I will never forget it for the entirety of this series.

You go on hating birds, Joey.

Bro was like “Maybe it’s a deep cut about Mai Valentine because she’s a harpy lady” but eh...pretty sure we spent like an entire season of Joey telling us that Mai was a good experience? Would be incredibly funny if immediately after all of S4, Joey was like “You know what? Screw Mai, guys.”

So my thoughts...it’s probably just a literal bird experience. Like I had a friend who hated deer because once she went to a petting zoo, got some pellets to feed the deer, but her finger was sticking up, so when the deer came over to nibble on some pellets her finger went up it’s nose by accident. She was so disgusted by this event that was entirely her fault, that she brought up how much she hated deer basically whenever we saw one.

So like...maybe Joey fed a bird wrong at a petting zoo. I can see him getting bit by a parrot because he was too Joey Wheeler.

But now that we’re in a graveyard neighborhood, Pharaoh decides to hop out because there’s a lot of ghosts here and he needs to practice socializing with his peers.

So that’s just a Yugioh monster doing the ostrich dance, right? Like this is a meme from like 2010 but on Yugioh in 2003(4?)

Good to see the Ostrich dance here in the land before Vine.

So they pull out their Pokemon to do some antics, Tea looked like she was about to do something useful, and Yami does a yump across time and space to get her as far away from playing (not)cards as quickly as possible and y’all...sure was a position these animators animated.

Holy crap.

And I was going off about that scene last season where they woke up in the same bed like...

...have these two been together this entire time? Like together together?

They’re like...way more comfortable than you’d figure they’d be considering Yugi nearly passes out every time he gets a hug. But Yami just like....How long has this been going on? As long as Joey’s fear of birds?

Like obviously this show would never cover what the hell Yugi may be thinking about this overreaching move here, because we’re gonna gloss right over that, and just run away up a flight of stairs. No one mentions this ever again. Which is mind blowing for an anime to do. I think in most anime I watch, the kids would be like “ahh ahhhh I bumped into a booooob!” like it does for I want to say every other episode of My Hero Academia. But in Yugioh, they saw that low hanging fruit and they were like “we expect a higher level of maturity out of our audience. Now here’s a fleet of ostrich dancing tree monsters with faces for crotches.”

They decided to sprint up this flight of stairs, and it enough of a slope to deter the monsters who are only unbalanced weird legs.

I want us to take a moment and admire this background painting. I can’t unsee the rocks that are all the same size, just piled on top of eachother. Did Alexander the Great just plop rocks here--or was the mountain made up of tons of similarly shaped boulders?

Like there’s a lot of nice bg’s in this arc, don’t get me wrong, but this one...I’m just trying to wrap my head around the logic of it.

At the top, they meet a pantheon, that is immediately blocked by this wall, because if this arc had a tagline, it’s “Yugi gets inconvenienced every 4 seconds.”

Bro was like “Clearly they would have pushed it over if Tea wasn’t slacking off” and like...she is actually. Look at her. Only used one hand? Slacker.

Joey was disappointed he couldn’t push over a massive wall, and the team decided not to analyze how much Joey Wheeler thinks of his own strength and instead fixate on these statues.

Usually in anthro characters they kinda look birdlike but act human. But what about an anthro that’s just a bird? Like human torso, but can turn his head 180 degrees? Yugioh made me ask this question.

And then Joey was like “wait, there may be a solution that isn’t just to use brute strength!”

Youknow it is a bummer that Kaiba couldn’t witness Joey own a dragon while he himself only has a robot jet dragon. Although, the jet is probably faster, stronger and overall...better than this baby dragon. It would have been great for Kaiba to witness Joey under-utilize this dragon and forget he has it for like huge swatches of the episode.

And then Grandpa pulled some body horror out of nowhere.

Wow.

I mean that is really gross.

I guess Grandpa can’t use Blue eyes, because Kaiba ripped it up, Grandpa can’t use Exodia because Weevil tossed it off a boat, and grandpa can’t use the card that’s just a building because...it’s a building.

So instead Grandpa has a bunch of meat and bones that look like something out of Doom. It’s probably from a more obscure Konami property, but I forget which.

I’ve seen Tristan hold back Joey in this hold, first time it’s been Tea.

So much shipping in this episode, it’s wild.

It’s also wild how low my standards are for what could possibly be shipping when it comes to Yugioh because of how freakin tepid all of these characters are, which as I’ve brought up before, I really don’t mind.

So Yugi decides that because Grandpa was folding his arms like one monster and it made a gem light up or something, to just do the video game thing and use the giant ass statues as clues.

Why was this arc not a video game? Like parts of it really feel like it was meant to be.

So Yugi falls down a hole, where the walls cave in like it’s that dumpster in Star Wars but like...it barely phases him.

Also...Yugi might be able to see in the dark. It’s never been brought up but like...the more I think about it...has Yugi ever struggled to see without the lights on?

After Joey disappoints everyone, he confronts death.

And Pharaoh and Yugi decide to solve the puzzle of “how do I get out of this trap dungeon room” which, honestly, is probably what they’re doing every time they hang out in the brain pyramid.

So they summon their mascot monster, and surprisingly the show decided its ability to fly cannot help them out here.

Kuriboh manages to become enough of a doormat to push Yami up to the stone and they end up in a set of weird cuts that ended in this?

Like seriously it was like flashes of light and then they were just...up here like this.

Hey like...

Alexander the Great, my man...

Were you planning to put that stone in the middle of a exhaust vent hoping someone would touch it? Because there’s no way anyone would rationally have done that. You would need to fly to do it. This is the world’s worst DM.

Like Yugioh pulls a lot of fantasy nonsense but this arc is a lot more like a “it’s a kid’s show, just go with it.” arc than most of them. It’s not a bad vibe, necessarily, it’s just not the vibe I’m used to.

So once I witnessed maybe the most boring conversation I’ve ever witnessed about corn (this was on a twitch stream, by the way, a guy was playing an interesting game, and then a guest came on and started talking about corn and plants for 2 hours) and they would not shut up about how all taxonomy is wrong because there are no such thing as trees and how all animals are labelled incorrectly, and then they started comparing it to like all sorts of mushrooms and phytoplankton as you would if you clearly got a little bit high before dumping your corn knowledge on a twitch stream.

Anyway, after that bizarre experience I suffered so I could learn how to play an obscure video game, I think I can safely say, that while I know everyone here thinks a bird can’t be a dog. If you’re a high biologist: a bird is absolutely a dog. Apparently you can just do that if you’re the most boring biologist alive and no one will argue with you because to do that would involve talking to you. We’ll just say a bird is a dog and no one can fight me or I will talk about the corn book that this guest on this twitch chat was thinking about renting from the library about the different types of corn mutations inherent in freakin Indiana. Therefore, Joey’s fear of birds and dogs is same.

So they use Dark Magician to save them from the statues, and Yugi busts into the pantheon again because they got to open this casket before a time limit that I kind of forgot about, tbh.

And inside the casket, is...this thing!

(enjoy this line on the bottom of the image I don’t feel like fixing it)

And you may say to yourself...it looks like it’s just floating in mid-air, that’s silly, and so I want to introduce you to the next panel where you can see that it is...quite literally...just floating in the air like a video game.

and it just slurps itself onto Yugi before he can be like “nonono.”

Wasn’t there some horror movie where you were stuck in some sort of body brace that slowly tortures you (was that Saw?) This has that vibes. Like man that looks uncomfortable to wear over a jacket and two belts and a collar that is another belt.

That and I...I gotta appreciate that Yugi popped his collar while wearing body armor and chunky necklace. What 00′s fashion appreciation right there.

Bit like...this isn’t breathable, right? Like Yugi’s gonna finally take this thing off and his jacket will just be completely soaked in sweat?

Anyway, that’s it for this post, next week we’ll see if Yugi can walk through a doorway in that thing.

Also, I can’t bring up the ostrich dance without sharing the vines of my generation

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