#this is the good place if im honest

[ltyear]

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#the next couple of days are gonna be a emotional rollercoaster for me juggling work DT and my personal life i feel overwhelmed just thinking #i have my favorite band coming to tour in brazil after *ten* years not touching grounds here #and im seeing all of my friends - the people that truly grew up with me and that i met on twitter back in 2007 bc of this band #but im also gonna be seeing people i dont wanna see #and alex is coming #and louis is touring #and then louis will be HERE #and last time he was here i moved abroad to the us and had a break down during the show bc i hadnt told my friends #so when DFWYB started i just fell and started crying #and now like eight years later #im gonna have my niece with me - MY DAUGHTER!!!!!!! that i raised!!!!!!!! my tiny little human that means the world to me #my friends from around the country like we FINALLY are gonna get to hug one another after being friends for YEARS and gone through ups and d #downs #and my irl friends are alllll attending the show as well #so its gonna be me my niece louis and 25 of my friends under ONE roof #like thats the birthday gift i deserve if im honest #but its so many good things that i feel like smth is gonna burst my bubble #miss god hold that thought and let me have this #this is the good place if im honest #how am i supposed to WORK through all of this? #i cant think of anything besides that

[dailydegurechaff]

ive been thinking about one of my fics/aus lately, so naturally i started drawing and writing about them again.

presented with bare minimum context: two members of the von Lergen family + something extra

#bonus doodle #youjo senki #the saga of tanya the evil #tanya von degurechaff #papa erich au #erich von rerugen #erich von lergen #lergen #zettour gets himself fired successfully after losing the war and sets up erich to be promoted to his place #“because he wants the empire's army to still have a good leader even in its broken state?” you ask #ah no. because he wants erich to have the salary raise so he'll have more resources to take care of tanya #lets be honest i really have no idea how the rankings on the collar and shoulder work #i just based it on a screenshot of zettour's uniform from the anime #what else was i going to comment on #OH THE CREST #i did some bare minimum googling of symbolism but im not sure about its accuracy #i just wanted it to look cool ok #and i realize yeah they probably dont use those crests anymore in the 1920-30s but HUSH its for the sake of STORY #ok bye <3

[darcyolsson]

so excited and terrified for my date why did he make me choose the restaurant what if we get there and it for some reason sucks and he points and laughs at me and he makes me marry him just so he can make us get a divorce immediately and actually I still have 2 uncancelled dinner reservations so I'm going to let you decide this one

#my friend said to go with giraffe place as a test #and if im honest i can barely argue with that. #its a lot more casual than the other place which i think is a good thing for a first date.... but be honest #is the giraffe too much. #its a fun place and hes a weird guy i can tell that much.... but its still a massive giraffe #personal

[daily-hanamura]

#p4 #p4g #persona 4 #persona 4 golden #hanamura yosuke #yosuke hanamura #actually this makes me sick because wow yosuke wow just #“i notice you never pry” i love how in this line alone yosuke reveals just how much he pays attention to yu #i think theres a case to be made about how this attentiveness is not exclusive to yu but here. im obsessed. #yosuke isn't just paying attention to yu in a superficial way - he's also watching how yu interacts with other people #and what his reactions are like - hes paying attention to how yu pays attention to others #and then he goes on to describe it as mature #and idk i think it's one of the early indicators of how yosuke watches yu - which i think also stems from a place of admiration? respect? #thinking a lot about how yosuke compares himself to his peers but yu especially and this just kind of really fucking gets me #but also!! again!! as usual!! he starts being too honest and revealing of his thoughts and he immediately pulls back #cracking a joke to walk over his previous vulnerability!! #/sighs wistfully #he's good with his queue

[goodfellowe]

happy (late) valentines from the cast of the queen's labyrinth! stay warm! :)

#im not haveing a good time adjusting to clip studio. to be honest guys #but unfortunately i have been placed in a situation where i have no choice . #doodles #ahit #tql #valentines

[soldier-poet-king]

I need to be weirder. I need to hang out/talk with more intensely weird and deeply genuine people, and more frequently

#franposting #apropos of me being weirder and more terrible and more honest lately #and it feels. good? mentally clearer. more at peace #this isnt some oh small talk is bullshit nonsense #it has a place! we need socisl scripts to be polite and function sometimes! #i am simply saying that i personally have spent far too long being the idea of a person. the mask of one #that i want to start being a real person. my pinocchio ass out here like #people pleasing out of fear needs to stop. you can be unsettling. babe. babe its okay. you can laugh ugly and loud and be strange #and too intense and think too much and say strange things #and the world wont end. you can be a person warts and all #it is so weird. and also lowkey pathetic that i am only realizing this now aged 27 #like. my fear didnt make me more palatable or more loved. #it just made me lonely AND more depressed #i might still be isolated and lonely and offputting. but at least i can laugh at myself in joy in the meanwhile #idk if that makes any sense but it does to me so maybe thats all that matters for this post #ANYWAY everyone who ive been talking w lately #(yall know who u are) #im like. thank u. thank u

[lorephobic]

idk how to even like. put this pain into words and i would normally vent about this shit on twitter, but the person its about follows me on there so like. anybody have skills for coping with the crushing realization that the person u love most in this world and have built ur life around sees ur current situation together as a temporary hurdle that's preventing them from their truest and happiest self which. is separate from u entirely? anyone know how to deal with this?

#live with my best friend in the whole entire world who. honest to god makes me the happiest person alive. #like im always waxing poetic about her in the tags on posts about platonic love #and i talk about her like she put the stars in the skies because for real it feels like she did for me #she is. the most important person in my life #and every day i feel grateful just to come home and sit with her #like honest to god i cannot imagine a future that is better than this #if i have a bad day i get to come home and my best friend in the world will make me laugh #what more could i ever ask for #but tonight we talked and she made it abundantly clear that. even if i do everything right #even if i'm the perfect roommate and the best friend i can be #in just over a year #when she's making enough money for it #she plans on moving into a place of her own #which like. makes sense for her. of course we were going to get to this point. #but i just. don't know what i'm going to do. #and it kills me that we're on different pages because for some reason i thought this was a long term thing #i thought we were going to move into a house together #i was just telling my coworker this week that we need to move into our forever home soon which was partially a joke #but also. even if i was making a million dollars a year. #i would still want to be here. with her. #or somewhere else. with her. #like it's so hard to imagine a future without her. it breaks my heart and scares the shit out of me. #and i know i can't afford it here. and i can't move in with strangers. and i'm working my dream job but i'm scared that i'm going to have t #give it all up and move back east because. i can't do this alone. and she's all i have. and all i ever wanted. #and she's leaving. #she doesn't want to be with me. #sry this is so fucking. ugh. idk. i just don't know what to do. #for real might just drop everything and move to chicago if it comes down to it ksdkfljdfs #its what sufjan would have wanted #fucked up terrible no good week

[hella1975]

what do you plan to do with your degree after uni?

FUCK NASTY!!!

#if i ever touch economics again it's a cry for help like i cannot stress enough how fucking pointless this degree is gonna be #okay deep breath im only being so negative bc im balls deep in exam season. it's a GOOD degree i DONT REGRET MY DEGREE #this will be EXCEPTIONALLY helpful when i go into the working world i am EMPLOYABLE bc of my DEGREE #like economics is a VERY versatile subject there arent many areas of work that econ doesnt apply to in some way #so i KNOW it's a really good degree to have and i can kinda do what i want afterwards #but oh my fucking god. jesus christ. bloody fucking hell #i do however know that in the immediate year after my degree im gonna move back home and waitress full time #bc i just need to like. take some time off education and recover LMAO and i want a space to just tick some boxes i never got round to #like learning how to drive and stuff. and living without having rent to pay in a place im very familiar with will be good #even if i do think it's gonna have it's own struggles. oh hometown blues we're really in it now #but yeah after that year im thinking about maybe doing a masters? but ill have to proper blag it bc you typically have to do #masters in subjects relevant to your degree and i dont want to go within a radiation exclusion zone of economics #so. there's that. do u think if i say please somewhere will let me do a classics masters be honest. if i say pretty please #ask #hella goes to uni

[mooodyblue]

life is making me want to bash my head into the goddamn wall.

need a job! can't get a job because i have no transportation! need a car!! can't get a car cause i don't have money!! in order to get money i need a job!!! like girl what the hell am i supposed to do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 24 and i have barely worked i barely leave my house i need a JOB

#and how the fuck do u find a work from home job that doesn't require experience!!!!! #and the idea of doing a customer service wfm job makes me wanna d i e but i'm running out of options here #every single day im looking for a wfm job and i feel like im not looking in the right place #and like i'm down for something with data entry but they don't make it easy to find #and No i don't want to try and do freelance work with my writing because let's be completely honest it's not THAT good #like i need someone to hand me a fucking job i need to get by until i can save up for a car #sorry for this vent im just i don't know what to do anymore this feeling of guilt has been getting worse everyday

[waywardsalt]

mmmgh

#salty talks #this one is personal but not in a scary just in a i need to say this shit somewhere way #botw/totk… i do not fucking like th. like gameplay is fun puzzles are cool world is cool but like. #the lackluster story and characters honest to god drag it the fuck down for me #none of the characters are actuslly interesting and ganondorf is the only one i want to see in totk #like i got the master sword. i got it and its like whatever. i know whats up with the light dragon and i dont care #totk is making me start to dislike this version of zelda and idk how to feel abt that #no one feels like. interesting. everyone is either good or evil or a fucking side character with a paper thin life #and totk with its fucking no-nuance go kill ganondorf plot is just. stop making half of the plot take place in the fucking past #i havent really done much story stuff but like. GOD. no one in totk is meant to be morally gray its all so fucking black and white #what happened to having major characters who were morally dubious and were actually fascinating to watch #i dont like that most of the major characters in totk/botw are Good Guys and Nice To Link nobody actually interests me #i was SO excited that the lurelin pirates would be a new group of characters to contend with but no. monsters. fuck #they had a chance to maybe get into the kingdoms more dubious past concerning the sheikah and then made the sheikah barely important #and then made the yiga more of a joke instead of like. doing anything with their interesting past #no fuck you heres some all new shit that has nothing to do with what came before and the same shallow conflict and characters #theyve dipped their toes into morally dubious characters and genuinely fascinating characters and the idea that the kingdom of hyrule isnt #all that and gave more room for drawing your own conclusions and totk just hands over the most black and white experience #im playing to finish the story and finish the game i actively do not care or expect much from these characters #and it just seems like the narrative is going to bend over backwards to put hyrule as the ultimate moral good and any opposition as bad #and all but force you to accept that because it just proves that sentiment correct over and over again and its fucking bland #idk. aomething about the writing of this game fucking frustrates me esp when i think abt how past games were written #imperialist shit aside this game’s story and characters are so fucking. par for the course bland. i dont care beyond ‘oh thata charming’ #i dont think about this game’s story. it doesnt make me think it just shoves events and character actions at me and moves on #fuck. #it feels like its just. telling me shit. not giving me much room to really decide for myself. zelda is good ganondorf is bad fuck nuance ig #it seems so fucking scared of being a little bit complex. this is why i say 'i miss linebeck' i miss complicated ideas and characters #just. totk seems like it REALLY wants you to have specific thoughts about these events and characters. doing everything it can to prove #the good guys right and the bad guys wrong and having pretty much no one be in between or like. anything. its all standard

[the-acid-pear]

Also while Jack and religion posting these lyrics from Belle's Palsy by Reverend Glasseye just felt so him.

#luly talks #dsaf #dsaf jack #jack kennedy #him in the good ending to be fucking honest. ykwifm. #sorry im dropping so many fucks maybe that afterlife post i made was foreshadowing for how mad im gonna be when im send to hazbin hotel #sorry it was a long day today. im very tired. it was rough. #anyway I've become less of a man is so . him. bc if the title of the song doesn't tell you enough GO LISTEN TO IT 🫵👁️👁️ but also like #it's about a man falling apart bc illness like he's dying and talking to his god #and expressing how eager he is to meet his end #and by 3 jack really is so fucking done with being alive he's so tired AND. sorry. sorry this is no place for.me.to rip my hair off #he makes me just so sad it's unreal. I'd fix him. anyway um. like yeah #yeah he's all fucking rotten and tired and just wants to finally fucking die #also i like that the song talks of storm bc he does go up in flames so it's like. a silly contrast y'know :)

[sarasa-cat]

Fwiw-- common cold #2 is far more of the sore throat, mild bouts of hacking cough, feeling run down and tired whereas NASTY ASS COLD #1 was a full on Stuffy Head So MUCH FUCKING MUCUS MAKE IT STOP that took 5evah to clear out because so much fucking mucus.

Common cold #2 is at that point where it will either be a brief annoyance and gone in a day or three, or it will decide to blossom into mucus-fucking-hell. Hopefully it won't. It doesn't have that feeling and is mostly a nasty sore throat and full body laziness.

I would like it to clear out soon.

(Have foodie food to omnomnomnom. Very good museums to visit. Clothes shopping to do. Favorite haunts to re-haunt. etc etc. Film to shoot. And so forth)

#at least if I am going to be run down #I am in a familiar place #in a familiar neighborhood #in a familiar and top rated biz hotel (that I have come to for years) #with killer excellent in-room dining 24 hrs of service #and a pillow menu ahahaha--- I ordered all the best pillows for lounging in bed #and million dollar views (literally... weeeps... if only I could have an apartment in this hood) #and if I am feeling up to it: #this complex of buildings at ground floor and 1st floor level #has multiple high end restaurants #plus a very chillax lounge that serves high tea #plus a gym and spa if I ever feel up to it #and two good shopping malls -- one attatched (very posh-- too posh to be honest) #plus a more normal urban mall across the street #so I am not lacking in any sense #also: this biz hotel is so quiet and calming and very relaxing #plus we are stylin it in a multiroom suite with 1.5 baths #lol #so if im gonna be run down #i'm doing it with a level of style above and beyond my actual home #ahahahaha #¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[bird-likes-to-fandom]

You know, as annoying as Mom Friend' Constance HCs sound, we could very well be living in the worse timeline where the fandom hates her because she 'has a good life but still complains about it'

oh, god. you have a point there

#to be honest. i think those two could very much go hand in hand #when people write mom friend constance (especially in regard to doting on ocean like a nurse specifically) i feel like they're somewhat #erasing her 'complaints'/depression #im not accusing anyone of anything ofc but yk #and again im not saying every single post-canon fic needs to be doom and gloom esp since constance is no longer doom and gloom. but. #she is not canonically a mom friend in the first place. she is a doormat. just because she is nice doesnt mean shes a mom friend #but yeah you're so right #thanks for sending me an ask!!!!!! i was so pleasantly surprized #i never get asks when i haven't asked for them myself so this was super cool!!!! ppl should send me more asks i love them dearly #bird likes to perch on the mailbox #constance blackwood #rtc #ride the cyclone #my friend reuben (@rodethecyclone) made a very good point once about the way so many people pair 'mom friend constance' with #'lillian castillo constance' (a fat woman of color) #and i think about that a lot

[kellystar321]

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#periodical life updates #(<- NUMBER 3!!!) I FINISHED THE ANIMATION AND EVERYTHING FOR THAT PROJECT AND SENT IT OFF! super excited!! #it looks really cute! i tried my best and im mostly satisfied of where i landed <33 #it's my little sibling's birthday today!! it's also the first official meeting of lgbt club!! (the other event was a fun lgbt mixer) #my backpack smells bad. like mildew or mold maybe? urgh its awful and gives me a headache. i might need a new one. i dont know. urghhh. #my programming homework is due today!! yike!! but other than that my personal projects with deadlines are all done! #INIQUITY NOW THAT YOU HAVE TIME ARE YOU FINALLY GONNA WORK ON YOUR SELF SHIP BLOG?? YES!! HOPEFULLY!! #truthfully i /have/ been working on it on the side. it looks decent but the colors;;; i have always been pretty sht at color picking? #i can adjust with filters but without that im like. a little not good yet lmao. gotta do some studies sometime perhaps #BUT YAY EXCITED!! ive got some rambles and doodles and a tag system and f/o info which is extremely cumbersome (affectionate)!! #also i have new fandom ocs for the latest dimension 20 campaign and im so delighted heho <33 this campaign is literally so fun. #im watching it with my sibling when its done!! OOH ALSO I FIGURED OUT HOW TO PNGTUBE AND i will likely never use it BUT COOL!! #i dont like. talk. lmao. my art streams are 1) silent 2) rare 3) only shared with my siblings. pngtuber is a little useless. but CUTE!! #i got boba tea yesterday!! sandy bought it :3 <3 and we're having pho and cheesecake later and i might plan out a little excursion today? #like i might get a treatsie. OR i'll just sit on campus as usual and get a mango smoothie and draw for a while (or work on homework.) #(lets be honest its likely the former. i might get a little back into traditional? ooh or maybe i'll practice my asl?) HEY THOUGH. #ive been thinking about making a henrey stickmn (ask)blog to practice asl? like. no plot. just henry teaching ellie and charles asl #really funny considering my Real concept of an askblog for THSC. not ace or eca; but a secret third thing (⛎) ;) #then again since when have i EVER followed through on an askblog lmao?? damb im all over the place today. we're already hitting tag limit #okay!! 3 AM!! if im going early tomorrow i gotta eep! goodnight everyone i love you!! see you tomorrow if i have the energy and time!!

[catboybashirs]

i will say that part of the reason it took me so long to leave the anti side is because i clarified that i wasnt a proshipper on a fic i wrote (since at the time one of the characters in the ship was the subject of an age debate) and i got proshippers in my comments telling me that i was the worst ever and neither side would ever accept me if i 'acted like that' (respectfully mentioned i wasnt pro and that i didnt condone it).

yes that was dumb of me to do!! but if you open a conversation with hostility you will not convince ANYONE to be on your side. if you arent going to be understanding of why someone might be convinced antis are right you shouldnt try and convince them that you're right 👍

#.txt #.idol rants #.vent #this also goes for the extreme hatred of neutrals #like good job you've effectively isolated them. no wonder they dont want to id as proship despite agreeing with you #reblogs are on but if anyone clowns im shutting them off immediately this isnt the place for that #before anyone coolsville sucks me as well: I AM PROSHIP NOW I AM AN EX ANTI #but what it took was someone calmly explaining to me what being proship really meant #and respectfully debating me. no name calling no snarkiness. just an honest to god conversation

[palettehao]

I actually hope Will's coming out scene and the confession take place at two different times because I really don't want a coming out scene for Will to end up being overshadowed

#a good coming out scene for Will is very important to me #and i think it'd be better to have him talk to someone about it who will show him its okay and that nothing changes because he's still Will #like the scene with Jonathan but bigger #even if it is with Mike i dont want a confession right after #i want Mike to comfort Will and then have him like sit on the idea of confessing #lets be honest Mike's brain would be on overdrive and his first priority is making sure Will is okay #also i would let Will to come out to either of his siblings or Robin #i would say Lucas but i really really need a scene of Mike and Lucas talking about it #like im pretty sure Lucas will take S1 Mike's place and then he'll just get it #he'll understand why Mike was always so protective and adamant on getting Will back #so he'll bring up or something and yes just yeah i need it #byler #byler tumblr #will byers #mike wheeler #byler season 4 #mike wheeler i know what you are