#they clearly fucking don't.

[arcaneyouth]

whats the nicest way i can explain the concept of rationing to my family without calling them stupid cunts and whores and reminding them about that one time i was literally starving because of them

#they ate all the fucking cookies from my aunts which you would think is not a big deal but ohoho! #i have literally said out loud to them many times this week that they never leave food for me and its exhausting #i thought they got the message #and what do i find going downstairs excited to eat the special treat my aunts give us once a year? #nothing. #they didnt even leave the shitty ass baby candy canes for me. #i had 1 cookie. out of 15. in a house with 6 people in it. #because they cant give enough of a shit about me to remember i exist #***after i explained this to them MULTIPLE. MULTIPLE TIMES THIS WEEK*** #BECAUSE IT WAS THANKSGIVING AND THEY NEVER LEAVE LEFTOVERS AND I WAS AFRAID #AFRAID BECAUSE THAT COULD BE SOME MEALS FOR A WEEK OR TWO AND MY RATIONS WOULD LAST LONGER #AFRAID THAT THEY WOULD EAT EVERYTHING AND I WOULD STARVE AGAIN #the only reason the Thanksgiving food isnt gone is because im the only one with the patience to crack open crab legs with a butter knife #like . do they not fucking understand the reason i own a minifridge is because i am so terrified of running out of food #so i need a place to hide it away before they can take it from me #they clearly fucking don't. #i know its just some cookies i know i know i know but oh my God they're going to kill me some day #just like they nearly did a year ago #and the worst part is its not actively malicious. #they just dont care to remember i exist. #vent post #negative #anyways advice on how to confront them without stabbing them to death would be awesome

[bixels]

Just gonna have to wait and see, right? Just wait and see! Just gotta wait and see! Who knows, we'll just have to wait and see! It's anybody's guess, we'll just have to wait and see! The future is exciting, we just gotta wait and see!

#personal #my art #Fuck your fake ass 'i am very smart!' intellectualizing “observations” and open your god damn ears. #do something for fucks sake. it's sickening seeing videos of ai crap and seeing rows and rows of repliers using their one brain synapse #to type “wow! very exciting!” “haha this is kind of scary! but in a really interesting way!” #and then they go about their day without a second thought while creative industries burn around them #i go to one of america's top tech schools too and it's enough to make you wanna tear our your hair #every day it's seminars and talks about “the potential consequences of ai!” when the consequences are happening NOW #NO MORE DISCUSSING NO MORE INTELLECTUALIZING NO MORE SOCRATIC SEMINARS NO MORE DEBATING. ACT YOU COWARDS #people are getting hurt RIGHT NOW. stop pretending to care when you clearly don't! just be honest and say you wanna make money #my time here has really made me hate academic spaces. you people are so god damn useless and cowardly.

[vaguely-concerned]

sometimes I think of all the on-the-surface warm, well-meaning but deeply ineffectual advice and attention john gives harrow through harrow the ninth (make some soup and get some sleep! get a hobby! don't be so hard on yourself! self care harrow! as long as I need take no actual responsibility in this relationship whatsoever I would have loved to be your dad!) set up against the stark truth that with his other hand he has been staging her attempted horrific murder again and again and again like a living nightmare on the logic that it will 'put her down or fix her'. and then I find that I wish there is a hell. a special hell where twitch streamers turned necromantic death emperors go

#the locked tomb #harrowhark nonagesimus #john gaius #harrow the ninth #this is why I don't buy john as misunderstood and initially well-meaning AT ALL #this is a pattern you see with him again and again and again -- right down to his interpersonal relationships #(and indeed it's in the more grounded interpersonal relationships you can most clearly see him as he is I think #the fantasy death empire of a thousand years doesn't register quite as viscerally because it's like. heightened; not quite real #but the emotional violence and manipulation that surrounds him? oh boy that is EXTREMELY real and scarily well-observed) #there's a premeditation to so much of what he does (contracts with planets that only end 'in the event of the emperor's death' anyone? #yeah john we get it you're hilarious and I wish you weren't) #the greatest trick john ever pulled was making anyone think he's just a lil guy. what does he know he's only god #when you first read the book the complete callousness of the other adults is so horrible that john seems like an oasis of care #(though you start to get this uneasy feeling when that care never seems to translate to like... relief or soothing or resolution) #and it makes it feel almost obscene when you find out what's actually going on #it's the mercy & augustine enabler hour but at least they're completely honest in their cruelty there #while john is -- well he sure is being john huh #this is just me being angry with him btw philosophically I don't think this is how the story will or should end #(with john slam dunked right into hell that is) #it's just... harrow is so vulnerable. and what he does to her is so insidious and fucked up #john is very deeply human. unfortunately the capacity to quite simply suck so much is deeply human too

[kedreeva]

When I first got Stan, I wasn't sure he'd make it more than a few days, but he did. When I first took him to the vet as a baby, they told me not to expect him to make it to maturity, but he did. The last time I took him to the vet, a different vet from his usual vet saw him and had to sort through the list of known health issues to get to what was wrong this time, and was impressed he was even alive, and that was over a year ago. He's beaten a lot of odds, he's gone farther than even the most hopeful of speculation.

Unfortunately, a line in the sand comes for any animal Time doesn't take. For us, that line was him losing his ability to walk, or his ability to see, and both have been slowly worsening over the last year. Today, it has finally come down to the latter, as his vision has gone completely in his remaining good eye. For peafowl, that's a hard-line quality of life factor- it affects their ability to get food and water (which would mean stressful and uncomfortable tube feeding sessions 3x a day), as well as their ability to move into or out of shelter, and their ability to socialize. As they are HIGHLY social creatures, feeling like he's constantly alone would be absolutely miserable for him. I can't put him through that and still call myself a responsible owner, so he'll be going in for his final vet appointment tomorrow afternoon.

I know a lot of you have loved Stan over the past 7 years, and I know you're going to miss him nearly as much as I will. He's been a Very Good Boy, and this place is just not going to be the same without him.

#stan the peachick #animal death for ts #pet death for ts #pet death #animal death #my pets #i moved him into the sun for now to warm up #but he's clearly not doing well #2024 can fuck off right now #it has not been kind to me #peafowl #peacocks #i HATE people that don't give a shit about the genetic health of animals they breed #i hate people that perpetuate health problems because a mutation is pretty #this is a direct result of poor breeding #and I'm furious about it

[lineffability]

my personal taxonomy of "he would not fucking say that" is

1 "he would not fucking say that normally but under these specific circumstances he might and isn't that interesting"

2 "he would not fucking say that but it's fun to imagine actually"

3 "he would not fucking say that and I do not understand where you even got the faintest notion from that he might, but I remain puzzledly neutral"

4 "he would not fucking say that and I am gritting my teeth and seething inwardly but I can ignore this without receiving too much psychic damage"

5 "he would not fucking say that and the only thing stopping me from inviting you to a duel in the town square tomorrow at noon is my working brain, which I have, opposed to you apparently, but I would still like to sacrifice you to the nearest volcano and delete my short term memory just so I don't have to be aware that I live in a world where people have so little grasp on a character and no apparent media literacy whatsoever, excuse me while I go count some flowers and scream from the nearest hilltop"

#somewhere in there there's an interim category that goes #“he would not fucking say that but it is CLEARLY a joke and op i aware of it so maybe don't get so worked up take a deep breath and relax” #but that category IS different from 6 where op is very much unaware of their dreadful misinterpretation

[eggy-the-boy]

*poking my blorbos with a stick* 

#I was gonna write something after the poking my blorbos with a stick thing but my mind blanked and honestly I'll just leave it #it's still very accurate #I love them so much please stop almost getting yourself killed for each other holy shit #if they don't kiss next season I'm sending a formal complaint to Mr. Netflix himself #anyway I'm still clearly very deep into this fandom #also!!!!! I'm over half way into the 3rd book and FUCK it is so good!!!! ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #I'm loving it!!!!!!! If I didn't have a full time job I would have finished it in one day I bet you #anyway #lockwood and co #lockwood & co #lockwood and co netflix #netflix #anthony lockwood #lucy carlyle #as usual I hope no one has done this one already

[lansplaining]

i just think there is something so maddeningly unresolved about wei wuxian's emotional state at the end of canon and the extras

like the vibe is "oh yay, he has lan wangji now, they've left the cultivation world (kinda) because that is the only way they can be happy" only if you stop and think about anything at all that happened in canon and in his backstory for more than ten seconds you realize that he has addressed none of his traumas, he has several deeply important relationships just sort of floating there and yet to be fully dealt with, and his and lan wangji's fantasy of a clean slate and a fresh start in a cottagecore paradise is not one that either of their personalities are going to let them actually exist in for very long

#i can't work out if it's intentional #i think it is #in which case it is such a radical and bold narrative choice that i don't know what to do with it #committing to the unreliability of your narrator to a truly unprecedented degree #letting him say the story is over when it clearly is fucking not

[revvethasmythh]

Okay, the thing about Liliana's relationship with Ludinus is that she genuinely seems to not like this man. she's not about him. she thinks he's dangerous and doesn't contradict Imogen when she calls him evil. that said, she has bought into his rhetoric and DOES think he's right, which means their professional relationship is basically just:

#they're relationship is clearly super fucked up. but also #critical role #bells hells #liliana temult #ludinus da'leth #also apparently i just have a lot to say this week #i don't think i've made this many posts between episodes in. quite a while

[dootznbootz]

I'm happy that the "Helen is of Sparta, not Troy" post is getting seen and people are giving love to her as they should but I'm getting a wee bit frustrated by the Menelaus inclusion with the whole "She was a possession to others and never had a choice".

Yes, Helen is a victim of fate and multiple horrible circumstances. She gets kidnapped by Theseus and Paris. So much blame is being put on her when she really isn't at fault and doesn't have much choice.

A choice she made though? WAS MENELAUS!

The Oath of Tyndareus was all about how "If you want to have a chance of marrying her, you have to swear to respect her and her choice and defend their marriage if it's needed".

If anything, Menelaus was her "prize"! Not the other way around!!! And they are clearly shown caring for one another!!! uyfuygluhyutfugy

#we technically don't know EXACTLY why she chose him but that doesn't matter with this. She still chose him. #She picked the goofy guy!!! :D She picked the silly sealy guy!!!🦭 #Menelaus: Hello! I'm Helen's Husband🥰 #Not people erasing women's agency even when it's explicitly stated. #Mad rambles #shot by odysseus #menelaus #helen of sparta #helen x menelaus #tagamemnon #greek mythology #fuck it. I'll use normal tags. I'm getting sad about this. More for Helen. #She didn't have a choice all the time but the time we KNOW she did and people will act like she didn't. #That's not even going into her yelling at Aphrodite and Paris and her knocking on the side of the horse! #this is very semi-unserious btw. I'm talking about the Sealy boy. That's clearly for the silly.

[clansnaphance]

I'm really not vibing with whatever staff is doing now. Not only does there seem to be a total internal communication breakdown, there also seems to be an absolute disregard for how the players are affected by this.

Like, ignoring the fact that the consistency argument doesn't even hold water, their takeaway from the Fern/Paisley thread seems to have been "oh we gotta change Breakup and Hypnotic too!!"

And then completely reversing Sandsurge Blend on top of that? A gene that's been out for over half a year and was only listed as having the gradient softened, not reversed? Just a total failure to communicate and an absolute bullheadedness in pushing the changes through despite the very reasonable player concerns?

To top it all off, none of these are bug changes, they are style changes. Someone saw these genes before they went live, greenlighted them, and put them in the game. And now, months upon months later, someone else (presumably) says "fuck that, I want the gene to look like this instead" and that complete change is just... pushed through??

Like. Did they learn nothing from the Butterfly debacle, from Obelisk Flair, hell, from the Eyepocalypse?

What the fuck is going on behind the scenes?

#flight rising #snaphance rambles #i don't fucking know man #yeah rushing out ancients is an absolute mistake #but also why has “consistency” suddenly become so important to them? #they've done so many drastic changes in the name of “consistency” like changing the rarities of genes that have been out for 8+ years #and now they completely ignore the breed/gene variety they themselves have created #“this totally changes the dragon for no reason let's push it through” #actually the auraboa changes make them worse and far more cluttered #they already struggle with being extremely busy #so let's just revert those very nice gene designs that actually make them more readable #who cares if our players have invested in these dragons and have had like 3-6 months to get attached to them #let's flatten the fucking auraboa secs and completely change the look of sandsurge blend #because they clearly don't play their game or understand how players get attached to how their dragons look

[emblazons]

(Dion. My name is Dion).

Dion Lesage in Final Fantasy XVI Game of Thrones Parallels → Jamie Lannister

#dion lesage #sylvestre lesage #jamie lannister #ffxvi gifs #my gifs #ffxvi #useramiz #userlockescoles #tuserashes #usergif #final fantasy xvi #game of thrones #final fantasy #gamingedit #dailygaming #lgbtedit #lgbtvideogames #phoenixflare #teredio #ff x got #crossovers of two of my fave pieces of media? more likely than u think (especially since one inspired the other) #I have A L W A Y S wanteed to make a series of sets exploring the clear inspirations AND visual parallels between these two #as a HUGE fan of both...I could talk about them all fucking day. Especially for Dion / Joshua / Clive #....this was just the first one because I had them on hand (after all of PF week lmao) #but !!! ugh god I hope people who have seen/played both see this. I don't know enough people who are clearly into both LMAO

[doctorhoe]

genuinely, if you're one of the people who believes it's the palestinian people who are committing these crimes and who is excusing them because of it, unfollow me. its hamas. you're making excuses for hamas. i can not believe we have reached a level of stupidity and glorification of violence where people will look you in the eyes and tell you that this is just how oppressed people act. that they just go on killing sprees ever so often. that is gross and untrue.

#and if you think any person deserves to be r*ped killed etc? fuck off. #i genuinely dont really care anymore. looking at this websites reaction to violence aimed at a the population of a country they don't like #has shown me how trult deranged some of the people here are. like i had an argument with someone who said civilian deserve hamas' violence #'no one will miss you' #and i had a full on s*icide bate #complete with a description and the good ol' no one will miss you #and like. i dont really care. that person is clearly doing worse than i am #but if that is the reaction you get for saying 'k*lling people bad' i truly dont know if i can stand this website any longer

[anghraine]

Okay, breaking my principles hiatus again for another fanfic rant despite my profound frustration w/ Tumblr currently:

I have another post and conversation on DW about this, but while pretty much my entire dash has zero patience with the overtly contemptuous Hot Fanfic Takes, I do pretty often see takes on Fanfiction's Limitations As A Form that are phrased more gently and/or academically but which rely on the same assumptions and make the same mistakes.

IMO even the gentlest, and/or most earnest, and/or most eruditely theorized takes on fanfiction as a form still suffer from one basic problem: the formal argument does not work.

I have never once seen a take on fanfiction as a form that could provide a coherent formal definition of what fanfiction is and what it is not (formal as in "related to its form" not as in "proper" or "stuffy"). Every argument I have ever seen on the strengths/weaknesses of fanfiction as a form vs original fiction relies to some extent on this lack of clarity.

Hence the inevitable "what about Shakespeare/Ovid/Wide Sargasso Sea/modern takes on ancient religious narratives/retold fairy tales/adaptation/expanded universes/etc" responses. The assumptions and assertions about fanfiction as a form in these arguments pretty much always should apply to other things based on the defining formal qualities of fanfic in these arguments ("fanfiction is fundamentally X because it re-purposes pre-existing characters and stories rather than inventing new ones" "fanfiction is fundamentally Y because it's often serialized" etc).

Yet the framing of the argument virtually always makes it clear that the generalizations about fanfic are not being applied to Real Literature. Nor can this argument account for original fics produced within a fandom context such as AO3 that are basically indistinguishable from fanfic in every way apart from lacking a canon source.

At the end of the day, I do not think fanfic is "the way it is" because of any fundamental formal qualities—after all, it shares these qualities with vast swaths of other human literature and art over thousands of years that most people would never consider fanfic. My view is that an argument about fanfic based purely on form must also apply to "non-fanfic" works that share the formal qualities brought up in the argument (these arguments never actually apply their theories to anything other than fanfic, though).

Alternately, the formal argument could provide a definition of fanfic (a formal one, not one based on judgment of merit or morality) that excludes these other kinds of works and genres. In that case, the argument would actually apply only to fanfic (as defined). But I have never seen this happen, either.

So ultimately, I think the whole formal argument about fanfic is unsalvageably flawed in practice.

Realistically, fanfiction is not the way it is because of something fundamentally derived from writing characters/settings etc you didn't originate (or serialization as some new-fangled form, lmao). Fanfiction as a category is an intrinsically modern concept resulting largely from similarly modern concepts of intellectual property and auteurship (legally and culturally) that have been so extremely normalized in many English-language media spaces (at the least) that many people do not realize these concepts are context-dependent and not universal truths.

Fanfic does not look like it does (or exist as a discrete category at all) without specifically modern legal practices (and assumptions about law that may or may not be true, like with many authorial & corporate attempts to use the possibility of legal threats to dictate terms of engagement w/ media to fandom, the Marion Zimmer Bradley myth, etc).

Fanfic does not look like it does without the broader fandom cultures and trends around it. It does not look like it does without the massive popularity of various romance genres and some very popular SF/F. It does not look like it does without any number of other social and cultural forces that are also extremely modern in the grand scheme of things.

The formal argument is just so completely ahistorical and obliviously presentist in its assumptions about art and generally incoherent that, sure, it's nicer when people present it politely, but it's still wrong.

#this is probably my most pretentious fanfiction defense squad post but it's difficult to express in other terms #like. people talking about ao3 house style (not always by name but clearly referring to it) as a result of fanfic as a form #and not the social/cultural effect of ao3 as a fandom space #you don't get ao3 house style without ao3 itself and you don't get ao3 without strikethrough and livejournal etc #and you don't get those without authors and corporations trying to exercise control over fic based on law (often us law) & myths about law #and you don't get those without distinctly modern concepts of intellectual property and copyright #none of those things have fuck all to do with form! #anghraine rants #fanfiction #general fanwank #long post #thinking about this partly because the softer & gentler versions of fanfic discourse keep crossing my dash #and partly because i've written like 30 pages about a playwright i adore who was just not very good at 'original fiction' as we'd define it #both his major works are ... glorified rpf in our context but splendid tragedies in his #and the idea of categorizing /anything/ in that era by originality of conception rather than comedy/tragedy/etc would be buckwild #ivory tower blogging #anghraine's meta

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

every time i rewatch the miracle aligner music video i am just flabbergasted. FLABBERGASTED. like. they really chose to make it like THAT. and by 'like THAT' i am specifically referring to:

1) “an attempt to extract the truth... approximately" *cue rosepetals and intense eye contact*

2) THIS being the opening shot of the two of them

3) miles legitimately spending the first minute of the entire video blatantly checking alex out

4) literal rainbow lighting around them

5) endless hand holding and twirling

6) that moment where miles's hand reaches ever so reflexively for alex's neck

7) the fucking closing scene?????????

#i mean seriously #jesus fucking christ #you'd think i'd be immune to this mv by now but if anything it just gets worse every time i watch it #absolute INSANITY #also don't even get me started on their dorky little coordinated mating dance #and the fact that they probably practised it themselves messing about in dressing rooms or one of their living rooms or something #also #incredulousness aside for a moment #i love this video so much for how much fun they're clearly having the whole way through #like how much it's just *them* messing about and being their idiotic selves with each other #but yeah #i'll never be remotely normal about the fact they planned and performed and approved literally every moment of insanity here #i mean for real #there's just no way they didn't know exactly what they were doing with this #milex #miracle aligner #milex gifs #tlsp #the last shadow puppets #lulu posts #my gifs

[mamawasatesttube]

not to be a bitch but like. i can never take "ohhhh kon is soOOoOoo sad about tim/ber uwaahhhh he's in love with tim but it's unrequited waaahhhh" angst seriously because like... i get it, the only thing you know about kon is that he's the other half of a popular m/m tim ship, but uh. rebirth kon is living an existential fucking nightmare. i think he's got way bigger fish to fry than whether the tim who only kind of remembers him at all is dating some other guy lmao

#rebirth tim even after getting his memories of kon back feels more like at least some of them are very vague and dreamlike #and of course ymmv interpretation wise but to me. if my friend no longer remembers formative experiences they shared with me clearly #i would not feel like they are the exact same friend i lost. i think that's a horrifying kind of grief. this is not the same person #like in yj19 tim refers to the memory yj98 issue 7 camping trip as being like a dream he once had #and kon has to be like uh that was real #like SORRY I JUST DON'T THINK HE'S THAT PRESSED ABOUT PRIME EARTH TIM'S DATING LIFE LMAO #SUPERMAN doesn't remember him and you're telling me he's moping about BERNARD?????? #anyway. this has been another episode of ''i like timkon but everyone else in the timkon tag is my fucking enemy'' with rimi merils #holds up a knife. appreciate kon as a character outside of tim or else. i am no longer asking #rimi talks #kon

[scintillyyy]

also i think there's a tendency to cherrypick tim's moments of morally grey thought musings as a gotcha for the idea that tim is totally cool with murder and just one bad day away from shanking someone only kept in line by the "rules", when in reality. tim's thoughts of moral greyness, the ruminations on what they're doing and why they're doing it the way they do and why they can't cross the line they set. he's not. alone in that. like. at ALL. dick has reckoned with wanting to kill someone (sigh. the joker). dick lowkey didn't want to give someone a chance at redemption simply because he hurt bruce (bane). bruce has thought about killing (and almost killed) both the joker & black mask. bruce is very frequently ruminating on his role and why he can't kill even if he wants to. barbara has very seriously considered killing and has wanted to kill. cassandra has killed and used that as the basis of her staunch belief that nobody dies tonight, but she's also still in frequent conversation with what that means ethically and morally. tim having doubts or trying to remind himself why they do what they do or debating their rules to himself is not some grand outlying abnormality here, it's par for the fucking course.

#barbara almost headshotted black mask but tim made a joke about using guns he's clearly barely refraining from killing someone /s #sorry. just. it's like tim always gets called out for this in particular and he's not even the worst offender #this is fucking gun batman's fault isn't it. he's my worst enemy for a reason and the worst mistake ever #was bringing him back after the one stupid story like he's some kind of inevitability when the point #is that tim would genuinely rather die than become him. #don't talk to me about that guy (gun batman) i hate him #anyways the point is that they're all in conversation with themselves about why they do what they do #it's actually super important that they are! because it's very human to want to go against your morals if it seems easier #and the point is that it takes strength of character to make a conscious choice to do what you think is right #even when it's hard and it's the last thing you want to do