#they both just deserve someone as supportive and kind and enthusiastic as they are

[alexlwrites]

𝐑𝐞𝐝 𝐃𝐚𝐢𝐬𝐢𝐞𝐬

✿𝑷𝒂𝒊𝒓𝒊𝒏𝒈: OT7 x Plus Size! Reader

✿ 𝑺𝒖𝒎𝒎𝒂𝒓𝒚: "What was so outrageous about someone like you, you asked yourself and the universe. You had tried your best to compensate for any shortcomings with everything else that was expected of you: femininity, understanding, a sense of humor. Never enough, those were never even the first thing that came to mind when people thought of you.

Why bother then? If nothing you did made any difference at all, why try? If people hated your body just for existing, why not give them a reason to hate your personality as well?"

OR  

The one where seven campus princes who are used to getting everything they wanted get enchanted by your distrust and brattiness, climbing over each other to get a smile from you who could not be bothered to give them a single second of your day.

✿ 𝑻𝒂𝒈𝒔:  Romance, Humor, Fluff, Angst, College AU

✿ 𝑨/𝑵: I wanna leave this here as sort of a trigger warning: this work features a plus size main character and throughout the story there will be mean comments from characters about her body and her journey dealing with said comments. A lot of it comes from my own experience as a plus size girl myself and my path to living peacefully within my body. And although this work is about Y/N's relationship with the boys, I like to think that she still would've continued to grow and blossom happily on her own. Let this be something you learn from this fic, as I say right on the first chapter: You don't have to love the way you look right away, you just can't let it stop you from doing the things you want and, in a greater scale, from being happy and treated with respect.

Thank you for reading <3

P.S: Red daisies, like many red flowers, represent love and romance. Florists often use them to communicate affection to someone who doesn’t know how beautiful they are—a.k.a. beauty unknown to the possessor. 

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𝐏𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐨𝐧𝐞: 𝐒𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭

The pattern in your relationships - if you could call them that - was tiring, to say the least. Once, they might have been soul crushing, but time and repetition took away the novelty of your pain and now the endgame was a mild, resented disappointment.

It started with kindness and a gentle smile, mainly from your part. You treated anyone who gave you any smidgen of attention with the utmost sweetness, hoping your energy would be matched. And sometimes it was, for a while. Sometimes you got to be on the receiving end of a blinding smile or a casual touch and you allowed yourself to hope - no, pray -that that could be it. That someone, some modern day knight in shiny armor , saw through your looks and decided that you were deserving of love, despite societal norms,

But men had a way of setting you up for disappointment. A talent, truly.

You were tired, you decided that night. No, beyond that, you were exhausted, scarred, bitter, hopeless, resentful… You could keep going. You could list every bad feeling you had been carrying in your chest by alphabetical order or by how badly they hurt and honestly you just wanted it to stop.

Would you have to change everything about your body to be happy, you wondered watching the boy you had been seeing for a few weeks make fun of you in front of his circle of friends at the party you were both at. Would you never be allowed to be happy just the way you were?

Would you have to change everything about your body to be happy?

“Yeah, she’s nice” Junsuu said, winking suggestively at his giggling friends “if you know what I mean.” you felt your face heat up in humiliation at the renewed round of laughter “But we just don’t match, like, physically. You know, looks-wise.”

“Right” someone agreed way too enthusiastically, sending a spear through your heart “I really just can’t see you with someone like her.”

What was so outrageous about someone like you, you asked yourself and the universe. You had tried your best to compensate for any shortcomings with everything else that was expected of you: femininity, understanding, a sense of humor. Never enough, those were never even the first thing that came to mind when people thought of you.

Why bother then? If nothing you did made any difference at all, why try? If people hated your body just for existing, why not give them a reason to hate your personality as well?

“You’re right” you said out loud, drawing attention to yourself. Filled with hatred (for him, the world, the circumstances), your heart had no room to be mortified when all eyes turned to you “we don’t match.”

You watched as Junsuu’s eyes widened, clearly not expecting you to hear, much less reply “I am a big girl” you continued, words dripping with rage “And I know for a fact that there’s nothing big about you.”

You turned around to leave the room, cringing at the petty comeback, ignoring the murmurs and Junsuu’s panicked calls of your name. Walking fast, you fled the scene of the last heartbreak you would allow yourself to go through, deciding that a change was needed, but not the change everyone wanted from  you.

Despite the rumors, you didn’t turn into a huge bitch overnight, didn’t start kicking puppies or spitting on the poor. Truly, the only thing you did was establish boundaries and reevaluate the amount of respect some people deserved, but very quickly people started seeing you as some sort of villain, especially when they realized how little you cared for how they saw you. How disrespectful of you to not allow yourself to be disrespected, right?

At first, there was still an air of uncertainty about you - years and years of non-reciprocal niceties drilled into your brain, habits hard to quit. But the more you let go of those things, these tiny acts of self-aggression disguised as pleasantries and altruism, the lighter you felt; Your days became easier to get through, existing within your body felt less and less like a punishment. You had yet to reach an Instagram-worthy level of body positivity, but you had become accustomed to body neutrality. You didn’t have to love the way you looked right away, you just couldn’t let it stop you from doing the things you wanted and, in a greater scale, from being happy and treated with respect.

And respect you started to demand and much happier you became, living in relative peace and solitude - safe by a few close friends - up until your days started being pestered by seven headaches you could not seem to shake away.

—-

Jungkook was the one that saw you first.

It was 3 weeks into the semester and he finally decided it was the perfect time to start going to classes, sitting in the back and only listening to about 25% of what was being said, mind floating towards more important subjects such as the package of ramen waiting for him at home. Only mildly interested in what the professor had to teach, he couldn’t help but to be startled when everyone started getting up from their seats to shuffle around the room. “What’s going on?” he asked the guy sitting next to him.

“Professor gave us a duo assignment.” the other man said, standing up “You're with Y/N.”

“Who?”

The guy just pointed towards you with his chin, redirecting Jungkook’s attention before leaving. You were sitting a couple rows further down, hunched over your little green IPad as you wrote something with impressive velocity. Jungkook walked over to you, already mentally going over what he would have to do to charm you into doing everything on your own “Y/N?” he called and you raised your head.

You were pretty, he noticed with satisfaction, all bright eyes and lovely features, curves everywhere he looked “Yes?”

“I’m Jungkook.” he extended his hand with a casual smirk “The professor put us together for this project.”

There had been a small, but pleasant and polite smile on your face up until he said those words, replaced by pursed lips and an arched brow. “Yes, I know. We’ve had classes together for over a year now and been partnered together before.”

Uh oh. “Right” he coughed awkwardly, fumbling under your hardened stare “so, about this project…”

“We will meet once a week,” you said, straightforward as you turned your eyes back to your sticker-filled IPad “I will go over the theme and split the work evenly, so give me your number and I can text you with what you’re supposed to do.”

“Woah, woah, asking for my number already?” he said in a flirting manner, sitting on top of your table so he could be directly in front of you.

“Would you prefer it if I emailed it to you?” you asked without looking up.

“Actually, I was thinking you could help me out a bit,” he placed his finger under your chin, raising your face towards him “you know I have soccer practice and…”

You pushed his hand away “Unless you’re playing at the World Cup, I can’t see how that would be more important than your studies, so you either do your part of the assignment or get an F in it, I don’t care. I won’t do all the work for you, Jeon. Not again.”

Again? Jungkook winced, trying to remember when you had met before. Surely he would remember getting his head bitten off by a snappy, pretty thing like you, wouldn’t he? Surely your attitude would stand out to him amongst all the sweetness and compliance he received just for existing and smiling.

“Here’s my number.” you gave him a piece of paper with your digits written in gel sparkly ink “Text me when you decide if you want to pass this class. Good day.” 

You looked down again, going back to your notes, signing that the conversation was over before he even had the chance to add anything more. He jumped off the desk and stepped away, looking back to see if you were looking at him, but there wasn’t a single glance from your part.

Shit. Shit. He actually did have to pass this class, otherwise his overbearing soccer coach would kick him off the team. He stared down at your number, wondering what he would have to do to get you to cut him a little slack and forgive him for absolutely forgetting about your existence. 

—

“Hey, this is Jungkook” the text from an unknown number said “looking forward to us working together. We should get dinner sometime, get to know each other better.”

You read over the text once more, willing your heart to slow down its beating. Sure, Jungkook was charming and handsome, but you had seen this dance before. He would talk his way into your good graces, making you laugh and giggle until you had a four thousand word essay done with both your names in it and your texts to him would go unanswered and unseen. 

This was not your first hurtful rodeo. You put your phone away, facing down, ignoring as the poor device vibrated itself off the table with the upcoming texts.

Meanwhile, across campus, Jungkook was fuming.

“Or breakfast. We should get breakfast. I know a great place.” he tried once again, but his message was left unread. Still, he persisted.

“I have a lot of great ideas for this assignment. Don’t you want to know them?” he texted, even though he didn’t have the faintest idea on what the assignment was even about.

“You know, it’s rude to leave a guy hanging.”

“How can we do this if you won’t even text me back?”

“I thought we were in this together.”

“You know, like High School Musical.”

He kept typing out absurdity after absurdity, hoping you would dignify one with an answer. He just needed one opportunity, one opening…

His text stopped going through.

“She blocked me!” he gasped out loud.

“Who?” his roommate, Taehyung asked from where he laid on their couch, feet up on the coffee table.

“This girl in my class. We have this project together and she blocked me!”

Taehyung sent a disbelieving look his way “Were you actually planning to do the work?”

“Don’t be ridiculous. Obviously not.”

His friend rolled his eyes “Obviously not. So what’s your plan here?”

Jungkook didn’t answer, too busy looking for alternative ways to contact you. After a few minutes of research, he found your Instagram. You were cute, he noticed again, scrolling through your few posts, all relatively recent. You had a very specific style, a tasteful mix or dark and edgy with splashes of pink and bows, tight corsets under leather jackets that he couldn’t help but stare appreciatively, the flattering material clinging to your waist line and pushing your breasts up, exposing the soft freckled top of cleavage to his always hungry eyes. In your pictures, your eyes shone brightly, crinkling at the sides from your ever present smile and he could not understand why you hadn’t directed one of those to him. 

It was unsettling, to say the least, but he could not allow his annoyance to take over. He needed your help if he wanted to pass that class and if he had to use unconventional ways to get your attention, he would. 

And so, much like a little boy pulling at a girl’s braids, he started liking and spamming the comments of every single post you had.

—

There were whispers all around you, your worst nightmare.

You were at the school library, getting work done while drinking from your fourth cup of coffee, hands shaking due to caffeine and anxiety, your ever present friends. You tried to focus on your books and carefully written notes, but every word you could barely hear and every look you felt over your shoulder seemed to dig claws into your skin. You knew what they were saying. You heard it all the way from your dorm to your classes and couldn’t seem to escape them. 

“Did you see Jungkook’s comments on her pictures? What’s that about?”

“It’s not like there’s a lot to comment, is there?” 

“Maybe he thought it was someone else?”

“It’s probably a prank.”

“I bet he was hacked.”

Of course, why else would someone like Jungkook - a campus prince, popular soccer player, heartthrob - show interest in you? 

It hurt, but a small part of you still agreed with those mean spirited whispers. You closed your eyes, trying to even your breathing and will those thoughts away. You knew better, had learned better than to measure your value by how interested some boy was in you.

When you opened your eyes again, Jungkook was in front of you.

You barely had time to process his presence when the voices picked up volume, your skin prickling and eyes aching to remain dry. 

“What’s Jungkook doing with Fat Y/N?”

That word shouldn’t be as hurtful as it was - after all, it was just an adjective, just the current state of your body that served only to carry your thinking mind, your feeling heart. But people always said it like a curse, wielding it like a sword.

You closed your eyes again and when you opened once more, Jungkook was still there. Looking furious.

“What are they saying?”

“What they always said” you shrugged, avoiding his eyes by looking down at your papers.

Jungkook didn’t move for a while, hearing people pretend to whisper around you but it was clear that the motherfuckers wanted you to hear. Was it always like this for you, he wondered, watching as you focused on whatever book you had in front of you, hunched over with tense shoulders, your face a far cry from the luminescent one he saw on your Instagram, not a hint of that smile he wanted directed at him so unreasonably.

He couldn’t just stand there and watch you struggle to keep your posture. 

You felt him standing up and leaving more than you saw him. Good, you thought. He should leave, like everyone did, scared away by that one word that followed you around like a brand. He was probably embarrassed to be seen with you, you assumed bitterly, and there was no place in your life for people who didn’t want you proudly by your side…

Jungkook sat back in the chair in front of you and you couldn’t help but gape at the impressive bouquet of red daisies he extended towards you.

“Take it” he said, but you couldn’t move, could barely hear the furious voices around you over the roaring beat of your heart.

You… You had never gotten flowers. 

“Take it” he repeated “I almost got run over because of this, the least you can do is accept it.”

“Jungkook” you whispered, dumbfoundedly accepting the bouquet “what’s this?”

“People keep doubting I could be interested in you” he said and there was an edge to his tone you did not expect “maybe this could help clear up some rumors.”

“This is not your battle to fight” you held the flowers close to your chest carefully, looking up at him with distrust, unable to understand his motives “I’m used to this sort of thing and I don’t care about those stupid rumors.”

You were used to it? That just made Jungkook angrier. How could you be used to that sort of treatment? 

Jungkook was a lot of things - spoiled, a little lazy, sometimes a dick. But he wasn’t a bigot and he wasn’t about to stand around and let you become used to being disrespected if there was something - anything! - he could do about it “I like picking up fights”.

“Is this just pity?” you asked and he could see walls around you that stood thousands of feet tall “Is this because of that stupid assignment? Because I’m not going to do all the work just because you got me some flowers…” 

He raised his hands and smiled at you “Don’t worry, sweetheart, I’ll do my work” he said, a new goal in mind as he saw you recoil from him with eyes filled with wariness like a suspicious kitten “You said once a week, right? How’s friday for you?” 

You still clung to your bouquet like a lifeline “That works, I guess.”

“Great!” he clapped loudly, standing up and catching the eye of those around him “I’ll see you around, sweetheart.”

“Don’t call me sweetheart” you mumbled, but he pretended not to hear as he crossed the table around to your side, quickly leaving a kiss to your heated cheek before you had the chance to react.

“Alright, sweetheart, I’ll see you around” he said, making sure everyone in the library could hear him “do me a favor and unblock me, ok?”

You flipped him off, both for stealing a kiss and that stupid nickname, but he just laughed it off.

“That’s my girl” he said and the library erupted in renewed whispers.

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𝐌𝐲 𝐭𝐚𝐠𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐬 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐨𝐩𝐞𝐧! 𝐂𝐥𝐢𝐜𝐤 𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐞 𝐚𝐝𝐝𝐞𝐝

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[the-travelling-witch]

𝐇𝐨𝐥𝐥𝐲𝐬𝐦: 𝐃𝐚𝐲 𝐓𝐡𝐫𝐞𝐞

pairing: suna x reader

prompt: corn maze

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“Let’s face it: We’re lost.”

Flicking the leaf blade of a corn plant that looked exactly like every other plant around, you huffed in frustration. The falling night made it even harder to discern whether it was the same stone you had come by for the nth time already or a new one. By now you were sure, you and your boyfriend were the last idiots wandering through this corn maze.

“I’d like to remind you that this was your idea, by the way,” you grumbled, not actually all that mad. 

“And you were the one who said ‘Oh, let’s do something cute and coupley this Halloween!’, if I may remind you,” Suna retorted, throwing pieces of corn at you. He seemed far less concerned than you, as calm and collected as ever. “Plus, you agreed rather enthusiastically when I brought it up.”

“Well that was before we’ve been walking in circles for hours. It’s gonna get cold soon, too,” you defended yourself. To emphasise your point, you rubbed your hands up and down your arms.

“Here.” Suna was already shrugging off his own jacket and draping it around you, fastening it in the front. Immediately, his warmth still radiating from the material made you feel better and you sighed contently. Your boyfriend had the audacity to laugh at you, pulling a leaf out of your hair. “How lucky you are to have a boyfriend who dresses warm enough for both of you.”

“Yes yes, you’re the best or whatever,” you rolled your eyes, then sidled up to him and slipped your hand into his calloused one, blatantly ignoring his amused snort. “About getting out of here though, if you’re now also packing something like a map–”

“Yeah no, I’m not,” your boyfriend shattered your hopes. Holding up his phone to show the endlessly loading map, he added. “I also don’t have reception.”

“I can’t believe it, we’re going to die in a corn maze. That’s not how I wanted to go out,” you joked. Turning both ways again, you tried to recall if you had seen this place before. “But seriously, what are we going to do? Even you are losing in height to a stupid plant… Try jumping though?”

“Absolutely not,” Suna deadpanned. He started moving again, tugging you along. “You know, our high school volleyball team used to do this, too. Do you know how easy it is to get lost in a maze when you have the twins with you?”

“I can imagine,” you snorted, the thought of Atsumu and Osamu bickering endlessly the entire way cheering you up. “I’m sure Kita handled it though.”

“Yeah, his sense of direction is freakish,” the middle blocker said. Taking another right, you followed him. “I’m still pretty sure he’s a robot or something.”

“Can’t blame you, someone should study him,” you agreed. All the times you had met the former captain you had failed to point out a single flaw, so you supported that theory whole-heartedly. “But I don’t think anyone else could’ve handled that team. You guys always had a knack for causing trouble.”

“Hey now, don’t lump me in with the rest of them,” Suna purposefully tugged at your intertwined hands, so you’d stumble right into him, disproving the point he was trying to make. “I never was a troublemaker.”

“‘Course not. You only filmed all of it,” you shook your head at him in amusement. By now you had figured out his strategy. You had been sticking to the right side of the maze this entire time and in the distance you saw the lights of the maze’s end. 

“See, that wasn’t so hard. No need to write out your testimony,” Suna one-sidedly grinned at you. 

“If it was so easy, why didn’t you just do it sooner?” You stared back, unimpressed.

“Where would be the fun in that, babe?” By now his smirk had widened and he wrapped a strong arm around your middle to pull you flush with his chest and you let him. “Anyway, don’t you think I deserve some kind of reward for saving you from dying in a corn maze?”

“You are the worst, Suna Rintarou,” you laughed but still took his face between your hands and pressed a sweet kiss to his cheek, lingering a little longer than necessary. “There, happy now?”

“Hmmm, is that really all I get? I mean we’re talking about your life here…” Sharp olive eyes were looking at you expectantly and your heart, the traitor, melted at the sight.

“How corny,” you mused before leaning in and connecting your lips.

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[drdemonprince]

anautisticguide on TikTok responded to your PDA analysis, they make a lot of PDA autism content. Was wondering if you could elaborate more on their response and your points because I think this is a rly interesting topic.

To me, it's essentially the same not-actually-a-debate that rises up when somebody points out that how ADHD is both defined and experienced has a social and economic component and is not just a chemical imbalance (and in fact, there is no evidence of the dopamine theory for it).

People sometimes get very attached to an understanding of disability that is rooted in biology, because they believe that is the only explanation that grants them permission to not function up to society's punishing, impossible standards. When in reality, the fact of the matter is that neurotypicality's punishing standards are not attainable to anyone, and so nobody should feel defective or broken for failing to meet up to them.

People feel relief upon first learning that they're not "just" lazy, they have a disability -- but if their analysis of the problem stops there, they aren't going far enough. Nobody else is "just" lazy either.

People also like to say that they know that their disability is biological and not socially constructed, because they know that even in a world beyond capitalism that they would struggle to enjoy tasks that they value, for instance, or that they'd still always struggle socially. It's not logical for someone to claim that they know what a completely alternate version of themselves living in a different reality with different life experiences would be like. That would not be the same person.

There is no control group for any of our lives. We all only exist once, under the exact circumstances that have led up to this moment. So none of us can claim to know what a version of ourselves would be like in a world without capitalism or the trauma it causes. This kind of argument also comes up with truscum trans people -- who claim they are certain their dysphoria is entirely biological and that they would still have it in a world without assigned gender.

That is impossible to know. And it's a pointless thought exercise anyway. Trans people deserve accommodation whether their dysphoria is socially caused or biologically caused.

People who struggle to work or attain stability in life deserve accommodation whether they're in that position because of capitalism or because of a neurological difference. And in fact it's impossible to separate those two causes. Ableism is a tool of capitalism, because capitalism is a system of defining a person's humanity by their productive capacity, in other words by their abilities. So it's nonsense to try and separate the two and to say that something like PDA is not socially constructed -- by definition it is on every level.

And none of that invalidates the suffering and struggle of people who have been labeled as PDA or identify as having PDA. If the label has brought you or anyone reading this peace and relief, I'm glad you have found an outlet for questioning the unfair expectations put upon you.

But please, for the sake of yourself and for this movement, do not stop at just thinking that the problem is located within you. It is not. How you are is not wrong or bad or pathological. Needing support, structure, hope that your life is worth putting energy into, love, engagement, stimulation, and enthusiastic consent in order to take action is not a defect. You deserve better than thinking your need for autonomy is a pathology. You can be freer than that.

[maypearlss]

HI HI YOUR WIP IS SO FUCKING COOL IM IN LOVE WITH ALL YOUR CHARACTERS ISTGGG. CAN I KNOW MORE ABOUT NONA?? like like what did she first notice abt may & why did she fall for her>:))

OMG THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!!!!! and yes you absolutely can know more about nona because i'm certified in love with her <33

nona and may first met in first grade, and the first thing that nona noticed about may was that she was sitting by herself. she sat down next to her and introduced herself and said that they should be friends, and may was a shy, quiet 6/7-year-old who wasn't about to argue, and that was that!

as for why she falls for may, a huge factor is that nobody, and i mean nobody, knows her like may does. nona is constantly in a position of having to hide things from others for her safety, especially in terms of things like her identity as a lesbian woman. she's also often stuck having to perform for others or just being shoved into boxes by those around her; duke has done such a good job of isolating her and associating her image with his that she's often seen as the "rockstar's girlfriend" and nothing deeper, because people are usually too interested in duke's affairs to dig in more on who nona actually is. may is one of the few people (at least for a while) that knows nona, and more than that, treats nona's passions and goals and autonomy as things that are important. duke knows what sorts of things nona is interested in, and he knows that she wants to be a filmmaker, but he doesn't really do anything to support or encourage her, because he thinks she's better off letting him do all the work to support them both (in duke's ideal world, nona relies on him for everything and never leaves his side). nona and may's personalities also just compliment each other's really well: nona loves may's wit and the fervor with which she pursues her passions, may loves nona's enthusiastic yet gentle kindness and sense of imagination, and they both share an adventurous nature that tends to make any time they spend together memorable.

also, while i'm on a nona roll, here's some context to her relationship with duke that i haven't shared on here before. this is from a question i got asked on my instagram story a couple of months ago basically asking why someone as beautiful and amazing and wonderful as nona would be dating a douchebag like duke because to be honest, valid question

BOY OH BOY THAT WAS A LOT OF TALKING BUT IDC NONA DESERVES ALL THE LOVE IN THE WORLD TY FOR THE ASK :D

#wip : the nona incident! #oc : nona darnell #oc : may costa #oc : duke strickland #ask

[askadrianalucardtepes]

[OOC] A big note of appreciation

Hey guys! I've been thinking lately and talking with some of the people running the other ask blogs that are currently active, and I realized just how much I appreciate all of you. This community has been one of the most friendly and welcoming I've ever interacted with; everyone has been kind and respectful, absolute sweethearts through and through. I've gotten massive support when I dealt with something unpleasant on the blog and I've received kindness, encouragement and affirmation whenever I post something. I've been and am involved in some incredible roleplays and I've made lots of great friends here thanks to my blogs. I just want to give a thorough shoutout to my friends and the people that have been supporting me here, you all make me feel so appreciated and I cannot even begin to express how much that means to me. in the ask blog category: @lastofthebelmontsrp : You are the one who I blame for starting this all. You were here first, and when I'd just moved my account to tumblr from instagram you reached out with a fun rp starter. That rp evolved into what I now consider to be one of my closest friendships. appreciate you so much, you are an absolutely amazing person with great art skills and writing skills to boot. If you haven't checked out Trevor (or their other blog @asklisafromlupu) yet, I highly recommend doing so!! Addon: And before I forget! Happy birthday, homie. <3 @askcarmillaofstyria : You're an incredibly fun person to chat with, and ever since we got to talking you've been a great friend and someone I greatly appreciate. You're sweet and incredibly skilled in botht he art and writing department, with creative ideas and infectious enthusiasm that not a soul can resist. To everyone who hasn't checked out Carmilla (or their other blog @askthewinterprincess), go for it, you won't regret it!!

@asksyphabelnades-belmont : You've been really sweet since we got to talking, and you seem like a really fun person to be around. Hearing your dnd stories and seeing your mini painting work has been super cool and I really enjoy reading them and seeing your work!! You're a very kind soul and I look forward to seeing your blog grow and get even more attention because it deserves it through and through. If you guys haven't checked out Sypha yet, go for it!!

@forgemastery : You are such a sweet bean omg, you're creative and enthusiastic and it shows in everything you do. You're fun to talk with and bring really great ideas to the table, plus you are a formidable roleplayer. I've been enjoying our budding friendship a lot and enjoy our plotting and shenanigans, it's great fun and I hope we'll get to continue it for a long time! For those hwo want to show Hector some love, do it!!

@askisaacforgemaster : I haven't spoken with you that much yet, but the times we have spoken have been incredibly pleasant and I admire you greatly. You seem like a very kind individual with a great writing style, and your roleplay skills are equally as fun and good! I hope we get to talk more, because you seem like a really awesome person. For everyone that wants to check out a great Isaac, here's your chance!!

And now for some askers that I've interacted with and really really appreciate: @flame-bloom : God I love you so much. You have been the backbone of my askblogs, ever since I started out with the comics I drew. You have been my number 1 supporter who has cheered me on every step of the way, who has indulged me in my interest and taken an active interest in it as well and who has been nothing short of just plain incredible in every single way. Every day I wake up feeling grateful to have you in my life and, as I've told you many times, you are the highlight of my day both in and outside of my blogs. You are the best girlfriend I could've ever asked for and I love you so, so much. Thank you for being so supportive and thank you for showing so much interest in what I do. I appreciate your existence every day and I can't even begin to describe how happy I am whenever I talk to you, see you or get to be with you. I'm rambling, I know, but I just really fucking love my girlfriend guys. She's amazing and you guys should all show her the love she deserves, she's just that incredible. Even now just writing this has me all giddy, can you see yet where Drac gets it from?

@blurree-face : You are someone who I've seen around my blogs frequently, and I am so happy that I do. I love your asks and your interactions with my blog, you help me bring the characters I portray to life and you're just generally fun to interact with. You also seem like a nice person in general with great writing skills and a lot of creativity, and I hope you'll keep that up! Thank you for being such a cool bean around here!!

@ariawen : You are also someone I've seen around my blog frequently, and you're just so damn sweet. Your asks are incredibly fun and I love the comments you send on my posts. The interactions we have are very fun and I'm just really appreciative of what you do with this account. Thanks for being so awesome!!

@iheartfireemblem : You've been around for a long while, and your asks have always been enjoyable. Building the little familial bonds with Drac and Alucard with you has been fun and you've been very sweet with your asks! Thanks for being so kind and sending in such fun asks for me to work with!!

Also a small special shoutout for @striga-official, who just joined us! She's a friend of mine and really sweet, go give her a look and send in some asks!! You guys won't regret it, promise. :D

If I didn't name you here, know that I do also appreciate you so so much. Every single one of you here has been nothing short of delightful, with only a few exceptions that honestly aren't worth mentioning here anyway. You all are amazing and I am super, super appreciative of all of you, seriously. You guys don't know how motivating and encouraging it is for me to log on to tumblr and see my inbox filled with asks that I can unleash my creativity upon. You all rock and I am thankful for all of you every single day.

Tl;dr: I love you all so much. Thank you all for being so cool and making this a fun experience. I appreciate every single one of you to bits! Much love, Valentine/Adrian

#shoutout #I love my friends #and I'm a simp for my girlfriend and unashamed of it

[the1975attheirverybest]

I knew what to expect when I opened her comment section, it’s so predictable at this point and the best thing we can do is ignore them. They’re both happy and unbothered. If it gets bad she can limit her comments but I also just don’t think she gaf and that’s beautiful. I’m glad he has someone who supports him publicly and unapologetically, he deserves that so much.

There’s also so much love under that post, from us and people that know them personally 🥰 Most people aren’t freaks

Absolutely. She’s been super enthusiastic and supportive and nothing but sweet to fans and dancing with everyone at the shows and has been to as many shows as she possibly can. That’s the kind of partner he deserves. We love Gabbriette.

[bondsmagii]

New anon. The most terrifyingly thing about the Chris Chan debacle was how much it it close to home for me. The doc did have a kindness to it that was pretty professional and even I couldn’t finish because what she went through. Like I see something of myself in her if i’d fallen in with the wrong people. I was very easily manipulated when I was younger and not mentally sound at all. I was even and can still be quite disturbed. I have people though. I got better with care and support.

I look at her and am like. I could have been someone like you.

And when I see that damn lack of empathy in people and the support for the people who tortured her and helped make her like that for their own pleasure…they delighted in every horrible thing she did so they could justify making themselves worse. I can understand people like that too because it’s easy to dehumanize people into acceptable targets for cruelty. All of it just makes me sad.

I really appreciate you sharing this. I don't think a lot of people realise how... easy, I suppose, it is to be targeted in this way. Chris has undeniably acted both inappropriately and cruelly in the past, and she may have even committed a horrific crime. this makes it very easy to see her as a one-dimensional villain who deserved it -- because this is what many people think. they think that because she's an undesirable person who may have committed a terrible crime, and who has been confirmed to act badly before, she deserves the cruel treatment she receives. it's easy for these people to write her off, deny her her humanity, and even revel in the torment she's suffered. they do not realise that it could have been literally anyone, and that before all of this started, Chris was just... doing her thing. yeah, she made mistakes, she acted badly, she had trouble expressing her emotions in acceptable ways -- but none of these things happened because she simply wanted to be awful. she was a severely autistic young woman with absolutely zero support systems in place, and the one support system she almost had -- a good school that was working with her in terms of social and educational plans -- was denied to her by her parents. isolated, alone, and completely unable to function normally in society due to her disabilities, Chris was doomed.

the fact is, she was targeted for being "cringe", and she was "cringe" because she was overly enthusiastic about her OC and because she acted in accordance with her severe autism. there are countless thousands of people just like her, and this could have happened (and could still happen) to any one of them. we don't know how we would act. nobody can say for certain what they would do if they were tortured and harrassed and put on some fucked up Truman Show for over a decade. even if we try, we can only come at it from a place of rational thought -- something that Chris did not have, and hadn't had for a long time, and that we can't guarantee that we would have at that late stage. the whole case is profoundly tragic, and it illustrates just how many people have surface-level humanity. they can preach acceptance, mental health support, LGBT support, whatever -- but if they do not extend this support and acknowledgment to absolutely everyone, no matter how badly they act or what they've done, then it means shit. you cannot preach human rights if you refuse to assign them to somebody because they're not a good example. Chris didn't deserve this, and if not for this torture, she would not have done half of what she did. considering that at some points of her life, when she actually managed to seperate herself from the internet for a few months, she made vast social improvements and sincerely worked on herself? she could have made it. instead she had hundreds of people watching her every move, hoping for her to fail, and orchestrating failures if she didn't mess up naturally. absolutely nobody deserves that. the treatment is inhumane and it is torture. the people who did this to her should be in prison, and I will stand by that.

I cannot express how glad I am that your life took a different route. had Chris had access to the same care and support that you did, I doubt she would be in the position she is now. people do not understand how easily things can change and how our lives can divert, even when we're just minding our business. I think in all the voyeuristic gawking and the misplaced sense of justice, people forget that there but for the grace of god go we. all it would take is for one single person to see you do something cringe and slap you on some deranged website, and then what? I doubt any of these people would say that they would deserve it themselves. is it so hard to believe that Chris didn't, either?

#anon #asks

[sugareey-makes-stuff]

I had already planned to give @crazybutgood a shout-out this month because she’s an amazing person, but it also happens to be her birthday today! CBG is way better at origami than I’ll ever be, but I thought I’d give it a shot in folding some things I still know and enjoy making. Stars bring hope, and (baby) turtles link back to the nature of creation and good luck. Fortune cookies are full of fun and surprises, and a paper crane is as the “bird of happiness” that symbolises good fortune and longevity (and it’s a nod to a certain blond ;D). These are all of the qualities I see in CBG, which has made her a key person within fandom who has brought so many others together. She’s a shining star because she knows exactly how to support creators and cheer them on. Her warmth and enthusiasm make things so much brighter, and I’m sure fandom folks can agree with me that because of CBG’s support, that’s why so many awesome works exist today. She’s that fandom enthusiast and reader who makes creators go, “OMG, okay! Maybe I should be doing more of what I’m doing?!” I first saw CBG’s origami from mutuals’ reblogs, and I was blown away. How cool is it that such a beautiful craft has been integrated within fandom? Her work is unique and thoughtful. And she’s obviously damn good at folding, and that’s what makes CBG stand out. She creates origami recs, gifts and shout-outs for people because she wants to not because she has to. Seriously, her origami advent from the hols was so cool, and her author appreciation project is just as awesome and heartfelt (and there’s more to come soon for that!). I have no idea how she does all of this, since these projects are labour intensive to set up. Nevertheless, all of her origami and recs always make me smile whenever they pop up on my feed. And, this is 1000000% why CBG is truly one of a kind. As an origami artist, she has collabed with so many creators to bring some stellar works to life. Make sure to check out more of her creations and recs! She’s also an alpha AND a beta, which is not an easy job. For those who have written fics, it’s easy to let imposter syndrome take over and for the writing plan to fall to pieces. But CBG is there offering her help, cheerleading and kindness so authors can produce the best fics they can be proud of. And the fact that she’s worked with many creators in that sense and has lifted each one up says everything you need to know. She’s obviously someone who is a dream to work with. Did I mention how nice CBG is? I got to co-mod @microficmay with her, and her energy is such a breath of fresh air. She truly wants to help in any way she can and she delivers. She was a godsend during a busy May, and she deserves 8324324324 kudos for keeping things going (thank you so much for being a gem for dealing with all the reblogs at weird hours). I don’t think we expected so many microfics to come in, but hey, that’s never a bad thing. More microfics to enjoy and read! If CBG wasn’t talented enough, she makes podfics AND she writes! I’m so glad she dipped her toes in writing! We both had no idea we would be paired up for the @gameofdrarry Owlery Exchange, but here we are! XD When reveals came out right after Microfic May ended, we laughed when we found out we had been writing to each other for two months without even knowing it. I haven’t written anything for Drarry in many years, so receiving letters from CBG’s Draco and responding back as Harry was really fun. She has been a great person to collab with, and I’m so glad we hit things off (as Harry and Draco and as co-writers)! Our fic, I Just Want You to Know is currently posting up letters from now until the end of the month. Feel free to check it out and follow along for the latest updates! Here are my fav CBG fics too: 🌟 >>> Language of Love (Drarry, T, 864) Summary: “Sometimes, I wish you could understand the things I want to say to you, about you, in Hindi or Urdu.” AHHH! My heart ! <333 This is so tender and gorgeous, and I totally get this. Native languages in fics are something I absolutely adore because the words are personal. And I love how Harry is willing to teach Draco some words he knows to show that he cares. This fic shows so much in so few words! 🌟 >>> Heart on Your Sleeve (Drarry, T, 5.1k + origami) Summary: Draco’s finally returned to England after fleeing to France when he was turned into a vampire. Pansy and Blaise try to drag Draco's moping ass out of Malfoy Manor, but he’s still reluctant while doing so. Until he stumbles upon Potter’s cafe. This is soooo cute! Coffee shop AU + Vampire!Draco was something I didn’t know I needed until I read this fic. The coffee puns, the flirting, the meddling friends and the origami that goes with each part makes this fluffy fic worth the read! If you’re also looking for classic dramatic!Draco, and general banter, give this a shot! 🌟 >>> Green Heart (Drarry, G, 899 + origami) Summary: Seeing Draco’s dexterity with his hands, Draco’s father lets him pursue various Arts for him to develop his skills, including origami. Ensuring Draco strives to practice and excel, his father provides him with an endless supply of ordinary and magical papers. One special type changes colour depending on one’s mood when touched, making for an interesting folding process. A curious Draco tries it out. OKAY, this fic is precious AND clever, because Draco making origami and using it as his outlet for his worries is pretty amazing here. There’s such a beautiful narration of his years at Hogwarts, how they tie back to canon events and how he’s feeling about everything. I don’t even know what else to say, other than the execution of this was so well thought out and how cool it is that we can actually see “his” creations. Find more of CBG’s work on AO3, and give her some love for her fandom contributions! CBG, thank you so much for what you do for fandom creators. You have such a way of making each day so much better for all of us. We love you, and keeping being awesome!

#crazybutgood #happy birthday #drarry #hp fanfic #fic recs #rec lists #origami #hp fanart #lettering #friends with bdays #sugareey does lettering #sugareey makes origami #sugareey recs things #fandom friends

[msmargaretmurry]

4, 6, 11 tnno (my favorite fic of all time ❤️)

awww thank you!! that's so lovely to hear! ❤️❤️❤️

4: What’s your favorite line of dialogue?

i am cheating and picking two, a funny one and a feelings one:

“Dylan, please, no one respects your privacy,” says John. “This is Toronto.” -- sorry i think i am very funny and that this is still very funny

AND

“I love you and I want you in my life.” -- perhaps a bit of a predictable choice BUT it's really the theme of the whole thing, right? that the love is there is important, but the choosing to do the work to be with someone, to be part of their life, even when (especially when) it's hard or scary -- it really doesn't matter without that.

6: What makes this fic special or different from all your other fics?

first of all, it's the first novel-length fic i ever finished, so it holds a special place in my heart for that reason. (71k would be a short novel but it still counts!!) also the process of writing it was SUCH a treat. i had two lovely friends alpha/beta-reading as i went and they were so supportive and enthusiastic that it just made the writing process really fun and joyful. i'm sure there were points at which i got a little stuck while writing it, but i honestly can't remember any of them now. the day i finished the first draft, i sent the last chunk of the story to them right before leaving for a weekend trip to meet both of them in hershey, pa, and they were very mad at me because they wanted to read it but we had so many activities to do 😂 the hershey bears got shut out which was a bummer but we went skating in the haunted old hockey rink and got ice cream sundaes at friendly's after the game and those parts were fantastic. this wound up being my last trip before everything went into lockdown for the pandemic and so all of it -- writing tnno and the weekend in hershey, which are inexorably linked in my head -- quickly took on a "that was a lifetime ago" kind of feeling and are now tinged with a kind of strange but sweet nostalgia for the beforetimes. it's very special to me for that reason, too.

11: What do you like best about this fic?

this is a tough one, but i think what i like best is how even as the conflict shifts and kind of morphs and takes on new points of contention as the story goes on, neither dylan nor connor is ever 100% in the wrong or 100% in the right. i often find conflicts that are "person A does bad thing to person B, has to fix it" kind of boring, and i think i did a pretty solid job of making both sides sympathetic at most moments -- for example, connor did the ghosting, which was shitty, but once we find out more about his feelings, he becomes (i hope/think) pretty sympathetic and even understandable; dylan is the one who was directly hurt by connor, and he deserves time and space to work out his feelings, but at a certain point it becomes clear that his waffling on forgiveness has gone too far and he's creating new hurts where there don't need to be. for two people with so much history, i don't think a conflict could or should ever be clean-cut, and i'm really pleased with how much nuance and complication i was able to pack into the places where they're at odds on this fic.

#ask #writing #my fic #tnno #thank you anon!!

[ppoppokari]

@ourclaryme

Yo yo yo yo yo my love, I am back at it again with another one of your requests! I think you've requested a few more and I am working through them currently but I hope this ship finds it's way to you when you really needed it. As always you deserve a big fat medal for your patience and kindness. Thank you so much for the support and hanging in there <3<3 <3

~Blackpink~ Jisoo

This just makes too much sense. Jisoo has practically everything in her to be the universally acclaimed best friend, even if she has her sassy moments she is so in tune with people that she knows how to alter her personality and behaviour in order to make people feel more comfortable around her. So in short she is widely accommodating, especially when people start to grow on her. The fact that you are equally introverted and extraverted is something that would actually make Jisoo more comfortable. It gives her time to think of what to say, because at the core of it she is actually very similar in terms of behaviour and interests. You are one of the few people that she feels 100% comfortable around because she knows that you both think the same. So if she wants to go shopping or have a lazy day watching tv you'll always be down. Both of you are just so smart within your own right but neither of you ever stoop down to announcing your intelligence whenever you enter a room. It is your moral stand point that really connects the two of you, you are both respectful and interested in the beauties of the world. While you are both different in temperament you seem to be the same person, it sounds a little vain but that's the reason why you have such a strong friendship, you see yourselves in one another. In other words you see the best in each other.

~Mamamoo~ Solar

There is something about your bubbliness. It isn't over the top nor is it forced or faked. You are just incredibly enthusiastic about the many hobbies and interests you have, but most importantly you seem very fascinated by life and motivate yourself to have the best life possible. Normally Solar wouldn't judge a person based on something that can easily be faked, but your contagious happiness won her over. Solar may seem somewhat oblivious to the things happening around her but she is actually very in touch with reality, but she just prefers to enjoy herself and be happy about the life that she is living. You're not the only one who finds happiness through your friendship with her, other people wish that they had someone who they could show the most support and love. Solar is one of those friends who recounts all the happy or hilarious moments that she has had with you, she will randomly mention you to other people and make it known that she really values your presence in her life. Something that is honestly the sweetest thing is her interest in your life. If she doesn't understand anything about your specialisation in electrical and computer engineering she will ask. She mightn't even understand your answer at the end of the day, but it makes her smile to see just how passionate you are. But she actually does understand a lot of what you say because she takes time out of her day to bond with you and really get to know you.

~Seventeen~ Seungkwan

This dude rivals Jisoo for being the best person to be friends with. Even if he doesn't fully comprehend why you decided to be his friend in the first place he will still take on the role of being a good friend. His uncertainties are barely noticeable in the friendship, he is all about having a pleasant time so he decides that he would rather spend time with you rather than worrying about things. Before I really get into it I just need to say: Seungkwan is a positively brilliant friend to have, but you're also incredibly lucky to have him as a friend. You see Seungkwan, while he is a nice person, will only really befriend a person if he thinks a lot of them. While you mightn't think much of your achievements some days, your designated hype man will always remind you that you are really that amazing. Being a fellow Capricorn is a plus, while it doesn't really change the connection you have there is a sense of reassurance that is given to you. No matter how you feel, even on the days where you feel more out of sorts Seungkwan is there to talk. Something that is so awesome too is that he never goes overboard when comforting you, he is just a cool guy that is gifted with critical listening skills and a fairly big heart. Ugh I can't stop with the idea that this would just be an adorable friendship that would last so long, you really do have a close ally in him.

#kpop ships #kpop matchups #best friend ships #mamamoo #blackpink #svt #seventeen #good girl/boy gone bad aesthetic

[altheasthoughts]

Where is the inclusivity?

By: Althea

In 2022, according to Gaytimes’ website, nine queer rep shows were canceled in 2022. Another source says over 40 queer shows were canceled this year alone. Now, 40 shows seem like a tiny amount of shows, but those shows were very celebrated and loved in the queer community.

Let’s take V.E. Schwab’s First Kill as an example. It was watched for over 30.3 million hours in it’s first week, while heartstopper was watched for less than half of that. Guess which one got a double renewal?. Listen, I love the show and I’m not mad that heartstopper got renewed, and I’m not saying that the show didn’t deserve it, I’m just questioning Netflix’s choice.

I am one of the thousands of people that watched and adored First Kill. And I think I speak on behalf of the fans, when I say that the show has touched my heart in so many ways. The show also became a safe haven for many people, including me. Just like many people, I was devastated, when I got the news, that the beloved show got cancelled.

Although, Schwab’s First Kill wasn’t the only inclusive show that got cancelled by Netflix. Shows like Derry Girls, Killing Eve, Grace and Frankie, Babysitters Club and more got cancelled by Netflix this year. I guess Someone was in a homophobic mood.

I’m that kind of person that gets attached to a show when I see myself in the characters. That includes LGBTQ+ representation too. Hell, netflix doesn’t even have a category for inclusive shows. Also, it has come to my attention that Warrior Nun, another wlw show, got cancelled just after the fans found out that it was getting a double renewal. What. The. Fuck. Netflix?

I have to admit that there are other shows on Netflix than the ones I just mentioned. But I’m just angry that netflix is advertising the wrong shows. Now, netflix has advertised shows like Heartstopper, and Young Royals, and the fans are eating it up. They love that the streaming service’s social media account(s) are releasing behind the scenes footage, set tour and cast interviews. But what about shows with wlw leads? When you search “First Kill” in youtube’s search bar, you’d obvously see a few interviews and stuff like that with the First kill cast. But funny enough none of them are by the official Netflix youtube channel.

Let’s not give netflix all the blame though. There are of course other streaming services/broadcasting companies that have canceled their inclusive shows.

I’m talking about the CW.

They canceled their only two LGBTQ+ women led shows, Legends of Tomorrow and Batgirl in the same week. Not only that, they cancelled both shows During Lesbian visibility week. How funny. ‘cause on June 16th 2020, the CW released a statement on their social media, saying:

Words matter. So does action. We can do more. We will do more

The CW appreciates and welcomes enthusiastic and thoughtful commentary about our shows. We are committed to making our social pages a safe place for our fans and talent to engage with each other.

We will not tolerate and will block racist or misogynistic comments as well as any hate towards the LGBTQ+ community.

Ironic, isn’t it?

Most of these Queer rep shows, usualy run for around 1-3 seasons. Five, if you’re lucky.

But the CW decided to let Legends of tomorrow run for seven seasons. The show was, and still is loved by fans around the globe and the cast even going to comic-con on multiple occations, and still continue to, to this day.

Legends of tomorrow is also one of the wlw lead shows that never got a proper ending, along with batgirl, leaving thousands of fans devastated, and the CW can’t even give us a proper expanation, as to why they did what they did. So where the fuck is the support for the LGBTQ+ Community, CW, huh?

Another factor I should bring in to this, is that Legends of Tomorrow had significantly more viewers than shows like Riverdale and Kung fu. Three guesses as to which two got renewed for a new season. Much like Netfix, the CW chose to cancel the shows which have a higher viewership, knowing damn well that viewership typically is a large factor, when deciding to renew a show.

There has also been tooooons of hashtags in protest too. hashtags like: #SaveLegendsOfTomorrow, #RenewFirstKill, #RenewWarriorNun and my personal favorite, #CancelNetflix are all (currently) trending on twitter.

Honestly, I think it’s about time, that I ask my dad to cancel our netflix subscription.

Streaming services like Netflix are trying so hard to be inclusive nowadays. Meanwhile they’re canceling inclusive shows that are actually good. Where the fuck is the inclusivity then?

#lgbtq #save warrior nun #renew first kill #cancel netflix

[boldlyvoid]

Even though someone already sent an ask about what you wrote before I hope this isn't intrusive of me to send you one too. I'm not just sending it because I felt the need to be some sort of enthusiastic idiot, I was debating on whether or not this would even be a good idea, I apologize if my sending this made you uncomfortable or anxious in any way.

You never deserved to go through any of that, no one does, I'm so sorry your parents were so blind to what was happening to you, I genuinely cannot fathom how they couldn't see it, you have nothing to feel guilty about because you didn't do anything wrong, you were a baby, a child, you deserve so much better than having people so unsupportive of you and not helping you after what you went through. I know you said you weren't believed by a lot of people, but you're believed by everyone who knows you on this blog, even if it means not as much as your own family/people you love.

I hate to include my own story but I went through something very similar, I know the feelings of disgust you have with yourself even though you know it's not your fault but you can't shake that feeling of loss, you didn't lose anything or that's what people tell you, but it definitely feels like you did. I hope in some way you're getting some help for your thoughts and for what happened, whether therapy-driven or support from people around you who are deserving of your grace. I wish you nothing but the best, I really do, I've been on your blog around the time you started (just haven't talked much on anon) and I know how hard this is to talk about with anyone and your vulnerability to share is both courageous and brave yet understandably heartwrenching as I understand it.

You have no reason to feel ashamed or guilty, everything that happened was solely the fault of the ones who were horrible enough to do all of that and the ones who were horrible enough to disbelieve you. You didn't lose yourself btw, you're still you, an amazingly talented, kind, and intelligent person. Don't ever let anyone tell you anything horrible like this made you "stronger" what bullshit, you were always strong and you still are and always will be.

This is your blog, if you feel the need to vent, you should just like you just did, stay safe, so many virtual hugs and soft smiles hun <3

thank you. this made me cry, seriously thank you. you don't know how much this means to me right now. i was actually kicked out of the therapy at my local hospital covered under my insurance because i was "too smart" for my therapist so i really don't have anyone to talk to anymore, i do sometimes feel too smart for my own good when it comes to this stuff cause serial sex crimes was a hyper fixation of mine for a while and I learned way too much about it before any of the memories started making sense in my brain

if you ever want to talk and vent about your own trauma i am here for you too, i love you for this, thank you so much

#ask #tw csa

[maxellminidisc]

Oh, also another thing about consent! Even if you have consented you have every right to rescind your consent if you're uncomfortable, unhappy, or just feel your sex drive give out in the middle of it and say "Hey I'm not enjoying this anymore and I'm uncomfortable with continuing". Sex is and absolutely should be about partnership and if your partner can't respect that your feelings or the changes you are experiencing without pressuring you, they don't deserve you and you don't deserve to put up with that either.

Also lil tip: I know its awkard and hard sometimes, but doesn't kill either partner to sit down and have a calm, honest, but kind conversation/ask every now and then if your partner is feeling good or is enjoying sex/feel like theres something they'd like to try differently or in general! This way you can talk about what you can do to improve or make things better for each other not just sexually but as a supportive partnership and make the most of it when you are BOTH enthusiastically up for sex. This of course doesnt mean you use this time to use sex like a bargaining chip either, that's wrong, and if someone tries to do that to you dump them. This is an opportunity to, again, find a nice playing field for both you to enjoy when the mood strikes for both partners!

[anthonybialy]

Opposing Opponents

It turns out there’s one thing worse than enthusiastically supporting a political candidate.  This cruelly indifferent world wins again.  Vote against something for results as uplifting as imagined.  Enough people alarmingly keep believing in government even as it begs them to stop.

Their side sucks more.  I’m grateful to see the electorate not care for either option.  A nation founded by flipping off a king is supposed to loathe both sides.  But a lack of redeemable qualities in both options means one idiot issues orders for a couple years.  Making sure the fiend doesn’t hold office leads to Joe Biden.  Work all week to afford bread by the slice.

Government must be helping if it feels like we’re enduring terms.  There have been a couple presidential elections in a row where the choice who made participants despise existence slightly less held a default advantage.  Thinking everyone who runs for office is a ghastly Satan stand-in is even more crucial than usual.  Hate the guts of the runner-up to be thorough.

Tolerating one option is too much to ask.  Backing a certain party doesn’t mean cheering for icky intervention: those exhausted from being harangued just need a couple politicians who are lazy by design so they don’t vigorously impose a brand-new ripoff.  We stand against those who are against us, which is the healthy kind of intolerance.

Stop pretending that one option is going to create affordable bliss.  Suspecting everyone who is technically serving in office of fraudulent grifting corruption is correct mentality for accountability.

Extra vigilance against your preference is an aggravation at a time you thought enabled relaxation.  But pretending one side is cool ends up way more exhausting.

Potential political victims should especially suspect those in your own party of ripping you off, as trust is how they seduce victims out of their pearls and into their wills.  That penmanship doesn’t match.  Look for one ballot choice who’s slightly less interested in harassing you, then preemptively back the less atrocious choice.  Civics should inspire.

I don’t want to alarm anyone, but there are literally millions of Americans who like politicians.  Even worse, many of these sad human cases admire the technical leaders who take their stuff and rights if you wonder how things turned out like this.  Thinking their crew is amazing shows why Two and a Half Men lasted for as long as it did.  Imagine electing Chuck Lorre and being unable to change the channel, and you understand how our federal government acts.

Results are in, and way too many people don’t trust themselves.  Connecting their personalities to a politician is the worst way to demonstrate faith.  Sure, it’s not much of an investment.  But they’d have more to contribute if they focused on developing skills instead of expecting Washington to provide.

Negative campaigns result from subtracting all candidates but the biggest minuses.  It’s our fault for living in a republic.  We usually enjoy such horrendous options that demonizing the alternative as even more ghastly is the easy option.

Of course all entrants suck.  A country like ours shouldn’t feature an endless challenge to find a president who can perform actual job tasks while laying off on everything else.  There are only a few listed, so the light shift should be appealing.  We need a president who takes lunches long enough to last until dinnertime.  Biden should preferably clock out and spend the afternoon looking for someone who’ll ride the seesaw with him.

A free vibe means feeling inspired by doing nothing.  We should still not feel impressed with the figurative okay president as a principle.  The hero may deserve a subtle not.  Basic competence that leads to less work is not worth sending an Edible Arrangement or one of those pop-up cards that costs like nine bucks.

People shouldn’t be defined by what they hate.  It’s naturally healthy to flinch at dreadful films and syncopated soulless irksome cynical pop music.  And Chipotle is going to horrify anyone with functioning tastebuds.  But having standards is a positive negative.

Let this serve as a reminder to despise all politicians like they stole your grandma’s insulin.  Biden has done his best to actually do that.  Giving everyone stuff makes it hard to find, if you can believe.  Worst of all, messianic elected twits claim to have been the ones who tried to prevent shortages.  There couldn’t be some other method like drug companies selling their product.

Alert citizens should especially distrust those for whom they vote.  Federal prophets convince zealous dupes that it’s considered blasphemous to be suspicious.  Believers elected them to save our souls and finances.  Voters end up selling their most precious possession just to end up bankrupt.  Even the Devil thinks this deal is unfair.  Biden plagiarized off him in law school.

[itsbooktimepeople]

Mistborn: The Well of Ascension

★★★★☆

THIS REVIEW CONTAINS SPOILERS FOR BOTH THE FINAL EMPIRE AND THE WELL OF ASCENSION. READ AT YOUR OWN RISK.

When I first read the summary on the back of The Well of Ascension, my first thought was "oh no." The whole three separate armies thing seemed like it could go wrong, in that a) a city under siege is pretty boring, and b) the stakes were so inflated that they felt artificial. And what do you know, I was right.

Part of what made The Final Empire so good was the forwardness of the characters. When they wanted something done, they went out and did it. And, sure, I expected a little less of that now that Kelsier is dead, but still. At least 60% of The Well of Ascension was everyone waiting around and discussing what to do over and over again, and then reviewing their options, and then concluding that they couldn't really do anything, and it was so repetitive that I became bored and frustrated.

Additionally, a lot of their characters seemed to lose their distinctiveness. And, maybe I'm just being overanalytical here, but one of the main themes in the series is trust, and the whole reason Kelsier's crew was so successful was that they trusted each other, yet so much of The Well of Ascension featured the supporting characters whispering about how unstable they thought Vin was, and holding secret discussions, and I get that there was an enemy kandra among them, but why spend so much time emphasizing the importance of trust when the characters aren't going to, you know, trust each other?

Criticisms aside, though, this wasn't a bad book by any means. I liked the subplot of Vin and OreSeur growing closer and uncovering information about kandra and I liked that, even though OreSeur ended up betraying Vin, it was clearly showed that trusting him was the right decision and ended up benefiting her in the end. And Sazed's loss of faith following Tindwyl's death pulled on all my heart strings. (That being said, while I liked Sazed and Tindwyl as individual characters, but I thought it was kind of dumb that they had to have a romantic relationship in order for Sazed to be impacted the way he was. Like, close friends can have that effect too.) However, on the subject of character relationships, this book did bring me around to Vin and Elend once they got over their "oh, they deserve someone better than me" thing.)

And the last 200 pages???? Riveting. Amazing. Glorious. I don't want to spoil anything because like half of this is already spoilers but wow, The Well of Ascension is aptly titled and I absolutely cannot wait to read the next book.

Anyway, the ending of this book and a couple of the subplots win this sucker a 4 star rating, and I shall enthusiastically continue onto The Hero of Ages.

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[ruralbi]

dear diary, i feel better but oooooh my god it's not lookin good for ya boy!!!! summary? my best friend told me he doesn't love me AGAIN

i'm like bro quit reminding me if ur gonna constantly be in my house havin me suck ur dick. life is hard out here :(

however he built a garden shed for my parents, shelves for my garage and he promised me he'll make a pantry and shoe rack for underneath my stairs when he comes back on saturday. he's gone to work until then... he'll be back saturday with hopefully money, cause we're starting to b seriously depleted. i need to up my game with someone else if i ever want to b a house husband, cause this bitch aint ever gonna support me.

he can't even jack me off, i don't think he's abt to shell put 400e a month for me to keep house.

my therapist is there like there are different ways to tell someone you love them. he does love you. look at all the work he does for you. yeah well he also does the same for half his friends and he doesn't regularly tell THEM he's not in love with them. like literally i know someone can be very deep in the closet and denial, i've been there. but at some point u just gotta accept that he's just not that into you. what gave me the hint? the multiple times where he's said that he doesn't love me romantically, just as a friend that is fun to fuck.

btw this post sponsorised by the builder who made his first appearance at the house ever since he decided he was getting sober.

apparently it didn't last a week, but he hasn't been here in months due to the awkward happenstance where he declared his (drunken) undying love for my flatmate (his colleague) while he has been fuckin me. unfortunately that's a deal breaker for both of us i think, he's barely made eye contact for the whole visit. i'm very like :/ we could've had a good life together :/ about it.

nobody can stand him, he's all alone in his house, in serious need of nurture? i'm a very patient, very home oriented sex enthusiast. your loss honey. you'd rather b in love with my flatmate who's only ever thought of you as a weird colleague, ur fuckin loss. i don't get what's wrong with me ://// why don't men want me (it's the faggotry)

frankly i haven't seen my gay dad in months either and at this point he wouldn't even b able to berate me for bein a slut i've been so faithful to my idiot best friend. i need to update my bullshittery.

options r perfectly fine guy that 1) is my coworker 2) that i'm not in love with 3) i think is mildly annoying

or a 56yo dude who is trying to drown me in compliments and just yesterday drunk texted me at 2am that he'll "take care of me" (he did text again in the morning to apologise).

fun fact abt this guy : people warned me to b careful cause he was homophobic but in the end he jumped in my bed one night he was staying over to not drink and drive. he did very much try to fuck me. he didn't have a condom and i'm not abt that life so i just sucked his dick and did some intense nipple play??? he's very sensitive it was cute. oh and we did intercrural, and he talked abt knocking me up!! during the dirty talk!!!! that was a new one :') maybe he really was homophobic before and he's only ever been with women and he didn't bother to update the dirty talk. but also that's weird dirty talk for a one night stand regardless of gender??? anyway i gotta admit that i did laugh a lot abt that afterwards. like have at it bro, u can try all u want.

he's been drowning me in compliments ever since abt how i'm the most gentle soul and so beautiful and kind and if only he was 30 years younger he would treat me like i deserved etc. i think he's just hoping that i'll suck his dick again but i heard he has a girlfriend (AFTER the dick sucking) and once again, i'm not abt that life. and also he's old enough to b my father and totally closeted to the point that other friends of ours warned me of his homophobia so ://// not great not great. sorry honey but thank u for the compliments i seriously need those rn

#my best friend #behemoth of a builder #56yo #no cutesy tag for him bc HOPEFULLY there won't b too many more shenanigans