#they are a very awful person and tbh i feel awful for all of their friends. theyre all being kept in the dark about how terrible they are

[henrysfox]

ooo i'd love to hear more about the casting day announcement from your pov if that's ok! like how did people react? did you think they looked the part but wasn't keen on their past acting work? did everyone freak out lmao

HELLO!!! i love talking about it!! let's gooo

so the day of the casting announcement for me was also the day i found out they were making rwrb into a movie, idk how it was for other people, but before that day i hadn't realized we would get a movie

so i was just SO HYPED about getting a film at all, you know?

then we got this announcement:

and i looked at them and IMMEDIATELY went to taylor's instagram and i was like "is that the dude from the kissing booth?" (i have never seen the kissing booth before that, but i have seen people on youtube doing some of those commentaries where they make fun of every single movie under the sun for views - the person i was friends with at the time loved watching those, so i have seen a few)

and i IMMEDIATELY became obsessed with him because i thought he was the most beautiful man i've ever seen. height aside, he was pretty much what i imagined alex to look like. back then, i'm pretty sure he hasn't been in many things so i watched tkb2 & 3 for him (or mostly his and joey's scenes because i didn't like jac*b el*rdi) and i watched minx, where he was AMAZING.

meanwhile nick creeped up on me much slower - but he did have many more movies out so i also watched all of those. at the begining he hadn't been dyed blonde yet so it was a bit harder to imagine him as henry, but the second they made him blonde i thought he was spot on as well. the filming was in progress around the same time purple hearts came out so i waited for the premiere with him and the rest of the cast, because they were all SO excited for nick - they even had a watch party and they all watched it together when it came out, and on the day of the premiere they decorated nick's trailer with tiny handmade purple hearts which was super sweet and he was adorably blushy about it.

okay back to the casting announcement day.

we got the announcement and immediately EVERYONE was negative. and i'm not exaggerating. everyone said they looked nothing like the characters, they said taylor is too pretty to play alex, that neither of the boys deserves to play these characters bc they're both straight and "sTrAiGhT acToRs sHoULdn'T pLAy quEEr cHaRaCteRs." it was just CONSTANT negativity. if someone was excited they were made fun of. people would go into nick and taylor's comments on insta and say pretty bad things.

the fandom for the movie on tumblr was nonexistant tbh. there were a few people who were fans of the book and were very vocal about how awful the movie will be with those awful actors. see, people had fancasts for alex and henry and they weren't willing to let those go. even if the guy they had in mind for alex wasn't even mexican and the guy they had in mind for henry wasn't even an actor.

i was still patiently waiting for any news to come out and for tumblr to get on with the program. at the same time first updates accounts on the movie, firstprince and nick & tay started appearing on instagram so i was mostly there, having thought that tumblr will just hate this film forever. i reread the book then and having many feelings about it i went into the tumblr tag again - there wasn't much change, but there were a few people who seemed to be just as excited as i was and i would have blocked all the negative people back then.

one of the people i saw being excited about the movie and the boys was @sincenewyorks so after some time and after gathering some courage i messaged them and we talked. there were also a few other people who were being positive by then, but all in all the fandom was pretty small and people still negative especially when they found out that june and rafael luna won't be in the movie - that brought a whole new wave of hate. some hardcore book fans have already decided the film would be awful.

i was just happy to follow the boys and the rest of the cast through the filming process, a little bit here, but mostly on instagram and in private messages with like-minded people here.

fun fact: the nick and taylor tags on tumblr were practically empty by then - taylor's had a few gifs of his naked scenes from minx and a few gifs from the kissing booth. nick's tag was almost completely empty.

flash forward to the day we got the trailer. this is the day EVERYTHING changed, because the trailer came out and suddenly? all the haters went silent. (take into account the fact that i had blocked some of them already so that might also be why lol) and the movie started reaching more and more people. overnight there were a lot of gifs from the trailer and people started posting about the movie more.

in the following weeks, more and more people were talking about the movie and nick and taylor and the bad comments were mostly kept to minimum. we could all see how excited taylor and nick, but especially taylor were about the film.

the the strikes started and we were all heartbroken that the movie wouldn't get the premiere it deserved and secretly hoping the strikes would be done by the time the movie was supposed to come out, but that didn't happen, unfortunately.

then the movie came out and some people really loved it, some others said it was disappointing, there were a few really weird takes, but mostly people REALLY loved it. the fandom has already grown bigger at that point and there were many more people willing to freak out and talk about it. then people started watching nick's and taylor's previous movies as well and their tags filled out and the rest is history, i guess.

sorry that it got SO LONG omg. some people were annoying about the casting announcement, and there was a lot of negativity at first but to be honest? i still had so much fun and the whole experience will always remain in my heart as a positive one <3

if you have any other questions, please do ask me, i can always talk about it more, i love trips down the memory lane lol

#i'm so glad i still have all my screenshots from when they were filming #complete with nick and tay's follower counts before and after the trailer/before and after the casting announcement etc #it was a wild ride #red white and royal blue #rwrb #my ramblings #nicholas galitzine #taylor zakhar perez

[el-moscorrofio-y-el-mercachifle]

anyways I'm revealing myself lmao but there is the thread Luis Mesa did because people noticed his ausence in the new series

Omggg thank you!!!

I see what he means! The story at the beginning definitely seemed tk be saying that Daniel would eventually have a crush on her, but he's right in what he's saying that it later on his character wasn't in that direction. I always felt that his attempt to seduce/humiliate Betty during their "date" was a bit lackluster but also that it hid some desire that was long there, it jusr wasn't developed enough before her transformation to seem anything real. At this point and from what we know of Daniel from the full novela, it's practically impossible to see how his personality and objectivez were originally intended to be, ans Mesa possible feels that same frustration lmao. I mean, was he going to be a genuine man with real feelings pursuing Betty with good intentions? I find that hard to believe because Gaitan didn't write characters tk be that simple. I'm guessing Daniel was alwYs meant to be kind of awful, just like Armando, but maybe a little worse than Armando just to make them more of equal rivals.

Idk, tbh, it really catches my interest to see how Daniel could have been! It would require to re write the story since very early on, tho... this just reinforces my idea thay ysblf initially was going into a very different direction lol

Thank you very much for all your asks nd screenshots!! I appreciate it a lot!!🥰🥰🥰

#ysblf #yo soy betty la fea #betty la fea #daniel ysblf #daniel valencia

[androidboy]

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#ive got this awful feeling i just want to scoop out #i feel stupid and sensitive #like ive hardened myself to all this shit so the fact that i’m being affected by it is also making me mad at myself #my family didn’t want me around for thanksgiving and didn’t want me there for the family christmas party and didn’t want to #spend christmas with me because my mom doesn’t want me around the extended family because of how far in my transition i am #and my gf put off asking her fam about bringing me over for christmas for a month #and barely just asked and it sounds like they don’t want me there either #and tbh i kinda knew they wouldn’t #but also i feel like my gf also didn’t actually want me there which is why she put off asking for so long #and idk #i felt like with how far along i am in emotionally and physically recovering from stuff #and then also having a partner for the holidays for the first time #i would’ve left my sad sandra bullock era. but i have not #the only person who wants me around for the holidays is my dad and ive got such a weird relationship with him #and it literally would just be me and him alone #my dads side of the family doesn’t want me there either bc of the trans thing i just feel really fuckin #disgusting #feeling very goop monster

[pissfizz]

I know I’ve become an extremely unbearable person to be around and people don’t like me and that I am fundamentally awful. I know acknowledging what you’ve done or who you are us bad doesn’t make it okay and that you actually have to work to make things better. But I don’t know how. How do you make yourself a better person when it’s everything that you are that you’d have to get rid of. How am I supposed to fix myself without replacing every piece. How do I become something people like when I am at my core unpleasant and awful.

#why do I have such a desperation for total control over everything #why do I need to be the one kin charge of everything why do I need to be listened to and treated as 100% correct all the time #why is one of my biggest fears not death itself but rather the idea that I won’t be the one controlling when I die #why am I such a control freak #I’ve never truly thought of myself as smart and tbh I don’t think I am. i do think I’m analytical tho and I think it’s to my detriment #I’ve been told my thinking of every possible fault in a system could be beneficial #but instead pointing out why things are wrong or are a problem has just made people frustrated with me #I don’t know what’s wrong with me I don’t know why I am the way I am #and I certainly don’t know how to fix it or escape it #because at this point I’ve lost all connection to who I was before. i will never be that person again #i don’t know when the change was or what caused it but I’ve become a disgusting awful person #every human being is flawed but I feel it’s in reverse for me #instead of being a person with a flaw I am a flaw with a very minimal amount of personhood #vent

[running-in-the-dark]

well. we just saw Poor Things in the cinema. and I'm. so. ?????

#I've never been this confused and conflicted about anything in my life #I kept checking my watch but not to look at the time (didn't know how long the movie was anyway) no I had to keep looking at #pictures of John Larroquette every time I got too upset #so much surgery stuff #I almost left #most of this movie was pretty much.... what my nightmares feel like. #never seen anything that has that exact same feeling #literally this was the most terrifying horrifying awful thing I have ever seen #no horror movie has ever scared me this much #also so many genitals #wow #and just. everything #not the point at all but tbh I only didn't leave because ramy youssef is extremely beautiful and I needed to look at his face again #and I kinda don't like Mark Ruffalo anymore.... not his fault he did a great job but. no don't like it #I'm. having feelings and they feel weird #I will never watch this again ever as long as I live but I really liked the ending. very nice. the goat guy got what he deserved 💖 #personal

[bandzboy]

i will say this tho… the reason why most kpop groups don’t come to europe is because in comparison to maybe the usa, the market for kpop music there is better than in europe and also since companies nowadays are obsessed with making groups international (promoting them in the us basically) they know it’s easy money over there honestly that’s what i think

#not saying that in europe there aren’t kpop fans #which there are #i would say there are a lot in france and spain and perhaps italy?? #but like when they quote on quote tour europe they only go to those countries #and in hindsight the tour ends up being small and there’s not that much profit #compared to what the us brings tbh #i hate to admit it but it’s true lol #the music industry like the western one mainly happens in america #and when groups tour there’s no doubt they will go there #there’s also that guarantee #but also what i don’t get is how they don’t go to south america #when especially brazil has a lot of kpop fans??? #i feel like south america has a lot of kpop stans especially in recent years #but all of this to say that yes it’s a good decision #i don’t think it is lmao #i never went to a concert bc of travel costs #when tours happen in europe is never in portugal so #the closest thing i have is spain or france #but that’s too much money for an average person like me #so i am not abt to make that awful financial decision #as much i want to see my fave groups #but it’s true that kpop is international #and is getting more and more international #and companies don’t do tours outside of the us #and i’m not talk about asia bc of they tour in asia that is a given #i mean outside of asia they only go to america #and MAYBE … very rarely… five european countries #anyways this is getting long but you get what i mean #it’s sad that a lot of people don’t get opportunities for many reasons #tris.txt

[nikothebookdragon]

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#aaaaaa I think I've finally found a name I really like #I've been looking for a name for YEARS #and I've been trying out cosmo online and i love it so much agdhdjsksl #I just???? so much gender euphoria????? #idk if I'm cool enough for it though #I feel like a person called Cosmo would have really interesting vibes idk if I'm quite there lol #BUT I CAN TRY #just very happy :)) wish I could try it out more tbh but doing it irl with people I know is terrifying #one day #although it is comforting that a solid half of my friends have chosen names (including some cis friends) so like... they'd understand #the people that make those online name/pronoun dressing rooms are incredible <3 #now I want to change my tags but I also can't be bothered going through them all #welp my tagging system is awful anyway #cosmo rambles

[semercury]

I had a dream last night that I was held so tenderly and I woke up with a deep ache in my chest. I'm choosing not to look further into any implications of this occurrence.

#stuff sarah says #@ my subconscious: dont care + didnt ask + we're very ugly + all intimacy is terrifying + it couldnt work with anyone for a thousant reason #L + ratio etc etc... #even if it was fake it was nice to feel safe and comfortable in someones arms #bc even thats a wild fantasy. physical contact is awful and scary and if anyone touches me ever i hate it #i would like to not hate it. but im so revolting i feel bad for the person giving me contact and its uncomfortable for me #idk. i hate myself and should never have existed in the first place tbh

[decompose1]

i. i avoided watching the springy episode for a WHILE because like. the amount everyone was shitting on it was horrible. it like genuinely ruined any passion i had in ii for a while because it was nonstop. you'd think they SHOT Cabby with the reactions. and then i watch it and it's like. eye-rolly at worst. what am i missing

#speaking as someone with brain damage and major memory loss #idk? maybe i'm biased because i came in with the knowledge that they fix it up the next ep?? but i feel lost???? #there IS a difference between ''well-intentioned but missed the mark and looks bad'' vs ''genuine egregious acts of ableism'' #you made it sound like the second. it was the first #anyways it was a cool ep otherwise #it felt very ''mascot horror'' which was kind of funny and i had to take a deep breath and go ''yea ok. i guess'' about it #made some jokes to callie abt springy #but like it was fine #i liked the fake past players #fun play on mephone's insecurities #i literally only didn't like bot lying + cabby rolling over the file #but it just sorta reads as cabby overcorrecting so people won't hate her #re: her overcorrecting BEFORE bc she was told she scares people #which sucks a lot yea and im sure it wouldve been more delicately handled in the hands of a disabled person but like #it really couldve been a lot worse #you all made it SOUND a lot worse #i avoided the episode because i was SCARED of it being worse #i went in expecting it to be awful #i dont rly think bot was wrong for not wanting a personal vent convo written down tbh but thats the only bit they were right for imho #other than that yea it felt weird and im glad they fixed it up next ep. ezpz. #wish they did not lead my dash to be convinced they hate the disabled for several months. that was a fun time for me (disabled) #anyways #im not saying it was handled amazingly but it really couldve been way way way worse. can we simmer down now #meow.txt

[citrus-woman]

fdjfd i am sad dfjklddldjasklfj all i wanna do is just type anjlfdjgklsajdksfj all day can't even draw >:(((( grrr

#personal #vent? #maybe #i just feel not great is all #i should be okay lol #of course it doesn't help that i didn't eat until 4 o clock today and have felt awful all day because of it #because i couldn't find it in myself to get up and go get something to eat #or i just forgot #idk its odd #i wanna go to bed early tbh #i'm just so blah today #nothing's been right today and it's been very stressful

[steviescrystals]

guys things are happening

#so i met this girl at work last summer and we clicked right away and we were super close for a while #and it was really only a few months but i considered her one of my best friends #and then both of us got promoted to basically shift leads and right after that things just got really weird between us #i never figured out what exactly happened but it was just like tense and off which sucked bc the time before that was so much fun #but i just pushed it aside bc i still wanted to be friends with her and i was hoping it would just pass i gués #and THEN a couple months later she got promoted to store manager which was… shocking #i want to make it super clear i did not want to be manager and i truly was not jealous of her job #but i just did not think she was the right choice for manager bc after working super closely with her for months #i had seen her do sooo much shit that was either not allowed or just like not correct and straight up kinda dumb?? #but none of the higher ups knew about it bc i would always help her fix her mistakes bc she was my friend and i wanted things done right yk #so anyway she became manager and our friendship just got even weirder bc suddenly she was my boss and i did not think she was a good manager #as much as i still loved her as a person she just got on my nerves a lot at work bc of the way she was running things #THEN a month after that annual company wide layoffs happened and i got laid off 😍 which i have vented a ton about on here bc it was awful #and the one bright side to it was that i thought maybe our friendship could start to go back to normal now that we didn’t work together #but instead she pretty much stopped talking to me completely aside from sending me a tiktok occasionally #so i was like okay this sucks but oh well i’ve got my own shit to deal with now that i’ve gotten laid off so i’ll just give her space #and tbh i was just hoping a band we both like would go on tour soon or something so i’d have a good opportunity to ask her to hang out again #BUT THEN she texted me a few minutes ago and turns out she just got fired??? #which does not happen often at that job btw there’s very low turnover i think only like 2 people got fired the whole time i worked there #usually layoffs are the only time people end up leaving #and it’s weird bc i spent all that time thinking it was a bad choice for them to make her manager and she wasn’t doing a good job #but i’m still somehow surprised??? #and i feel so guilty bc i talked so much shit about the whole thing with one of my other friends bc her management pissed me off so bad #and it’s not like me talking about it with someone who didn’t even work there caused her to get fired but i still feel so bad #like yeah i do think she shouldn’t have been manager in the first place but i would never wish that on someone yk #so idk i’m just like in a very weird headspace rn!! #vent #lj.txt

[hyp3rfixation-h3ll]

I went through That Person's blog and I want to beat the fuck out of them. I can't because i live in the US as well. What a piece of shit.

it is wildly out of character 4 me 2 say this, but yk, I appreciate the sentiment, Nonny, but please don't beat people up <3 you supporting me is very sweet tho, thank you (〃￣︶￣)人(￣︶￣〃)

however, if you see something, say something-- if there's anything of note there, you guys see you can submit it to me and i'll add it 2 the doc and keep your name anonymous, as i don't want others to get openly involved in a situation that should've never involved them to begin with, especially if they're my age or younger.

#you've got mail 📬 #violence tw #nitrochains #dovahkiinnightshift #steer clear #beware #i havent been able to see what theyve been doin or sayin cuz they have me blocked and i have THEM blocked tbh #ive considered snooping myself but ultimately it might not be worth it tbh #nitro is a very wicked individual and will attempt to spin the story in their favor as much as possible in any way #especially manipulating their audience into pitying them #that's who i assume youre vaguing about anyhow #they are a very awful person and tbh i feel awful for all of their friends. theyre all being kept in the dark about how terrible they are #but know that you have every right to be angry at them. theyve done so much it's kinda impossible to put it all in one place </3 #im doin my best but its just me yk ? #<- notneg to clarify . just bein factual

[angeltrapz]

I want. To Write & my brain said no

#uhhh vent fic turned into smth im not sure i wanna post #its just. personal. and very graphic in a blunt way #& is rlly four-five pages of me trying to come to terms w all of this shit #while being absolutely bewildered by the fact that i. survived that #BUT. no promises rn BUT. I wld like to write fics for ace at//torney pet//scop & S//AW soon. idk when though #(bdjshdhd didnt want this to show up in those tags sorry) #rn the vent fic isnt even rlly. a fic. its just my memories. it feels good to get it out & put it on paper but like. idk. #im just trying not to lose my mind tbh

[natalchartnurtures]

So tell me Taylor, Who am I gonna take to be my ~Lover~?

Want a sneak peak into who YOU'RE gonna take to be your significant-long-term partner?

(pile 1 to 3- left to right)

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Pile 1:

Can I go where you go? Can we always be this close forever and ever? And ah, take me out, and take me home You're my, my, my, my Lover..

Let me say this. You're opening card is the ten of cups, right of the bat.. there's this beautiful love I feel between the two of you. Their presence in your life would either happen as a consequence of you resolving some of your deep subconscious beliefs that kept you limited in terms of love or.. some of you beautiful folks I feel your person will help prove your limiting beliefs around love wrong. This part of your relationship may feel a lil scary and intense but your love for them will end up helping you all the way through.

Oh wow.. I'm getting that you and your person will take on life together, almost with this feeling of being comrades. Especially during your more difficult and uncertain times, your relationship with them will only get stronger. Its giving Bestie energy ✨️ Don't we love that around here? Hehe

They really help you calm down if you're prone to anxiety and/or overthinking. Their energy has a really calming effect on you. Which is probably one of your favorite things about them 😊

I'm getting a strong message of this person being radically different from your previous partners. Maybe you are used to partners who are possessive, lack emotional intelligence and always gave you a reason to worry but I feel your person is a FAR cry from this kinda energy which will surprise you at first I'm ngl 😅 but once you get on board with the newness they bring, you'll have a beautiful relationship with them :')

"Equal give and take" I hear. Aw.

I feel like before you did the inner work with your subconscious mind, you attracted partners that weren't all that healthy but I see that as soon as you put away your wounds and old unhelpful beliefs that you might have picked up from childhood, that may have kept your energy stagnant, to rest they will show up into your life. You won't be able to miss it!

Side note: Ya'll reeeeeally remind me of Zendaya and Tom Holland. I kept having visions of them in my mind while I was channeling for your pile.. Isn't that something 👀

That was your reading, pile 1. Hope you enjoyed it!

Love and light, sweet souls ✨️

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pile 2:

And there's a dazzling haze, a mysterious way about you dear Have I known you 20 seconds or 20 years?

Ooh.. I feel your person being highly intelligent and just really smart overall. They seem quite deep to me.. their energy is direct and doesn't really play around. They definitely come off strong to you when you first meet them. They don't seem to enjoy small talk or socializing "just for fun" they seem to take their social life really seriously which is why they might keep to themselves mostly having a very TIGHT group they let themselves mingle with.

I have to say this.. your person has developed an incredible relationship with their mind. A quite healthy one after years of suffering mental agony they have figured out how to master their own mind and as a result they seem quite mature and come off quite stable. They're giving off a strong regal vibe, like, they have a lot of self respect and/or a lot of people seem to respect your person. Your person strikes me like the kind that not everybody necessarily likes but somebody who is respected and revered (in some cases) nonetheless. Wow. Strong vibes. They could be quite an intense person too ngl. They might like to dip their toes into psychology or simply put, the Scorpionic arts or.. just be interested in the occult from time to time 👀

They may not believe in love before they meet you tbh.

They like to believe in what they have evidence for and seems like before meeting you they simply hadn't find evidence of real love.. aw, that's low-key so cute!

Your person comes off quite practical and earthy. They may move in a very strategic way, keeping their plans (and their life in general) mostly to themselves.. which is giving PRIVATE energy. They seem hella private 👀 haha

So you know they're gonna keep your relationship to themselves like it's a scared, precious thing that they gotta safeguard :')

Meeting you will POSITIVELY flip their world upside down. If there's one thing they don't understand, its love and romance. When you walk into their life, being your cute ass self, they won't know what to do with themselves and despite them being successful in their lives prior to meeting you, they'd feel lost with you. You make them feel.. dumb haha. Or they perceive it that way. You might think it to be ridiculously cute lmao.

They're definitely gonna feel A BURNING passion for you right from the get go and that's how they'll know that you're their person!

That was your reading, pile 2. Hope you enjoyed it!

Love and light, sweet souls ✨️

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pile 3:

My heart's been borrowed and yours has been blue All's well that ends well to end up with you Swear to be over-dramatic and true to my lover

So.. you guy's person and you come together in an interesting way. This is immediately telling me that your person is someone you don't expect to fall in love with. Ya'll might know each other for a while (depending on each person for how long exactly) and the feelings develop overtime. For some this person might reveal their feelings on accident while being drunk one night or something along those lines lmao (very specific, so take that with a grain of salt) lol but yea it's gonna be one of those really cute friends-to-lovers type situation with you and your person or enemies-to-lovers too maybe? 👀 Some KANTHONY vibes coming through #Bridgerton <3

Haha anyway.

You won't foresee a relationship between you and your person before it happens :p

Your person.. seems to have endured a partner before you (or many partners) who didn't really care for them. This may even be a feminine friend/family member as well. They broke your person's heart in a significant way and may even have manipulated you person into staying in the relationship (be it romantic or otherwise) which they eventually stood up to. Seems like a Karmic situation too btw. This Karmic situation, really helped your person grow and evolve into the person who was truly meant for you tho 😊 yay. They've healed from this previous heartbreak and somehow this road of healing brings them to you. Ah.. The reason why this previous relationship is coming into picture is because- they probably meet you while healing from this old situation.. they'd be hard at work trying to resolve the pain the went through and their reward for doing that is.. your love. AW. STOP IT! THAT'S CUTE <3

Ya'll remind me of that song "You Belong With Me" by our queen Taylor Swift. The lyrics are playing through my head now as I channel your person's energy. You could have additional messages in that song 😊

That was your reading, pile 3. Hope you enjoyed it!

Love and light, sweet souls ✨️

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[running-in-the-dark]

had a conversation about gym class with my friend who I went to school with today - it was depressing but also nice to hear that her experience with it (at that particular school) was just as bad as mine.

I don't think the way my school treated gym class was entirely normal tbh. it was completely different to the school I went to after, anyway. and everyone I talked to there only knew gym class to be a pretty fun, lighthearted thing. at my old school it was only about achievement, you had to be perfect, if not you were usually yelled at. and if you couldn't participate because you were feeling a bit ill (but not enough to stay home from school) you were ridiculed and/or insulted in front of the whole class. this happened with every gym teacher we had over the whole 9 years there.

it felt like two hours of punishment, there was nothing good about it. and it made at least the both of us feel like any kind of exercise/sport, especially in a group setting, was terrifying - for years after. even my much more positive experience at the other school I went to didn't make that go away.

#maybe my school really just sucked #I mean I already know it did. but maybe it did in even more ways than I thought #maybe it's a Gymnasium thing. idk. any Germans please feel free to comment if gym class at your school was like this #and it wasn't just because we were bad at sports or anything. I got very good grades in gym class at the other school. and my friend does a #ton of different sports now and everything #I remember there was a girl in my class who got a 1 (the best grade) in every other class and a 4 (out of 6) in gym class. and the teacher #was so fucking awful and gleeful about it. he made fun of her so much. #I'm pretty sure I was about to get a 6 in gym class right before I dropped out - and that definitely played a part tbh. I just couldn't #spend one more second with that gym teacher. he was horrible and gross and mean (and sexually harassed girls at another school! but of #course he was still allowed to teach at our school!! ľ #anyway. gym class was the worst part of my (already not great) life from 11 to 19 so I hope all my old gym teachers break both their legs :) #except one. he was really nice to us and didn't do any of the stuff the others did. but we only had him for a year in between all the other #ones so it wasn't enough :( #like one of our (female!!) teachers would loudly make fun of girls who said they couldn't participate because they were on their period and #in too much pain. #in front of everyone. when we were like 13. #I hate that woman more than any of the others. #lol it's funny how like half of my issues are because of my parents and the other half is because of that fucking school #I will never forgive my mother for forcing me to go there and never letting me change schools even though I asked to for 8 fucking years #personal

[frogchiro]

Kin please where is my man Nikto

I'm dying

(I'm shamelessly stealing that pic)

ALSO HEY DEAR HOW ARE YOU♡

As for my man Nikto, he's alive and well and probably balls deep in his pretty nurse!reader😭

He's just awful like that :( Always seeking you out, always bothering you and never feels bad about it. Nikto would probably get shot on purpose just so that 'you and your angelic hands could heal him'.

Also I can totally see him as being kinda pushy and come off as very creepy with his advances?? He's much older than you, has deep running scars both physically and mentally but he just can't stay away from you even if he tried (which he did not). He has this deep running attachment to you because tbh you were probably the first person who actually showed him genuine human kindness, even if it was small and seemingly insignificant.

But he's also a nasty dick :(( Jerks off to porn with girls who look like you, his deep scratchy voice almost hoarse with the noises he lets out bc yes, Nikto is actually pretty vocal in bed :(

Definitely isn't above stealing your things, especially your shirts or panties for him to 'add to his collection'. Tbh at some point he put one of your worn shirts on his pillow and just laid on it and inhaled your sweet scent as he was jerking off with your panties, his thick, musky cock leaking all over them and covering them in his sperm :(

#kin speaks #asks #interactions #my man nikto is an excuse for me to be nasty #but he's slavic and brain damaged so we can let it go♡/j #cod x reader #cod mw x reader #nikto x reader #cod nikto #nikto #nikto cod