On Film
Genre: Paparazzi!Jihoon, Famous!Reader
Word Count: 14k Words
Tags: Slowburn, Cameos from most of Seventeen, Quiet Jihoon, Workaholic reader and Jihoon
Summary:
You don’t think you’re ever going to get used to being in the spotlight. You secretly loathe the feeling that you get when somebody is watching you. You aren’t very keen on people taking your picture when you aren’t looking and don’t want it. But for some reason, whenever you see him, your whole word view flips.
After all, what’s the harm in a few measly pictures?
-
You looked up from where you were sitting in the coffee shop waiting patiently for Seokmin to show up. You glanced down at your watch, wondering when he was going to get there. You had been there for only a few minutes and already you felt someone’s eyes on you.
You pulled out your phone turning on the camera feature so that you could get another gauge for how your makeup looked. You hated doing light makeup looks, netizens always said that you were trying too hard to look naturally beautiful.
You hated that. You weren’t trying hard to look any type of beautiful. You just had a shoot later where they were going to do your makeup beforehand, so you didn’t really have the option to do much more than some concealer and foundation.
Maybe in the future you should just avoid going out before shoots like this. It only stressed you out anyways.
You held your phone out a little bit further, your free hand laying daintily in your hair, and a small smile pressed across your lips. You took a few photos and then dropped the pose, looking down at your phone.
You scrolled through the pictures until you found the one you liked the most. You favorited it and then started to make a post on Instagram.
You had a few things that you could say with it. But you didn’t really like the way any of them made you sound. So, after ten minutes of wondering what caption you should use you just decided to go with the easiest option.
You posted it without a caption.
Your fans could put the pieces together of what you were doing on their own.
You sighed and glanced at the time again.
Still later then you were supposed to meet. Still no Seokmin.
You decided to look over the menu again, mulling quietly over what food you should order. You were considering the cheesecake, but you didn’t want to eat too much before your shoot… Maybe you could convince Seokmin to share it with you.
You knew for sure that you wanted to get a coffee. You weren’t sure yet if that meant a latte or a iced americano. Either way, you knew that you would be thankful for the little caffeine boost in a few hours.
After looking through all of your options a few more times you felt yourself grow bored again, and the frustration at having someone’s eyes burning into you was starting to get to you. If they were a fan, you wished they would just come and ask you for a picture. You were tired of feeling watched.
You looked up, fully intent on finding out who was staring at you. Your eyes scanned the room until finally they caught sight of someone. A boy, sitting a few tables away from you. He had a camera set on the table and his head was rested on his hand. His head quirked up a little when you two made eye contact with one another, but he didn’t turn away, giving you the time to really look at him.
He had dark hair that fell just over his eyes, it was messy, like he hadn’t put much thought into it before he left but despite that it still looked really good. His eyes were a dark brown, but they were soft and speculative. A heavy contrast from the looks you were generally pinned under.
He looked a little embarrassed at having been caught. Color dusted over his soft cheeks. His hands lowered to his camera and he rose it just slightly off of the table.
The question was clear. He wanted to take your picture.
You gave him a small, barely there nod, and as you did Seokmin finally arrived. He had an apology on his lips, but you didn’t really hear it. You tore your eyes away from the boy and reached forward, the tips of your fingers touching Seokmin’s.
“Paparazzi,” you said softly. A sigh left Seokmin’s lips. You turned your head towards the boy and Seokmin looked that way as well. You two smiled softly, for a few moments- long enough for a few pictures- and then you turned back to one another.
“I thought that we could at least get our food before any of them found us,” Seokmin said. You shrugged.
“Maybe if you had been on time, we would have been able to.”
Seokmin rolled his eyes.
“You know how it is.”
He didn’t have to say more. You did know how it was.
“Annoying that we never get any time to ourselves,” Seokmin continued. Your eyes trained on him as he skimmed the menu. You took note of how his brow was furrowed. He looked frustrated.
“Not a good day on set?” You observed.
“Just tired of being on film.”
You hummed, your eyes turning back towards the person who was taking your pictures. He had momentarily stopped taking pictures. You could tell by the way the camera hung lax in his hands. You gave him a small smile.
“Yeah,” you agreed. “Annoying.”
You didn’t get a lot of time to yourself.
You felt like that was something you hadn’t really been prepared for when you started your career.
Yes, you had been expecting the late nights reading scripts, and the early morning talk shows. You had known that there were going to be days where you got maybe two hours of sleep, and you had known that you would spend most of your time on set. But you hadn’t realized how much of your life you would spend living for others.
Whether or not you were going to get coffee before a shoot or going to see your manager you always had to be ready to be adorned by the outside eye. Even when you were getting your mail you had to be prepared for the off chance of a fan driving by while you were getting it- Honestly you had stopped getting your mail at all.
Even if you were in disguises or with other celebrities or even with non-celebrities your photo was always being taken, there were always fans who wanted to take pictures with you, there was always someone else that you had to smile for.
“Cut.”
A relieved exhale left your lips and you stood up, stretching your arms out. As you did so, your makeup artist Amy rushed over, a few brushes in her hand. You gave her a pressed smile as she began to reapply your makeup lightly. You felt like it was unnecessary, but you didn’t say so.
“Tired?” Amy observed. You hummed.
“And we are only six whopping hours in to this nine-hour shoot.”
You didn’t really mean to complain. You couldn’t imagine doing anything else for work after all. Coming in and acting… Well, it was always fun but today, for some reason, you just weren’t feeling it. As Amy pulled out blush your eyes wandered to your costars, Mina and Sara. You watched as they wandered over to the barrier where a number of your fans were all standing watching your show film.
You watched them interact with their fans for a few moments, watching a smile light one of the fans faces when Mina reached out and put her hand to theirs. You sighed and lightly waved Amy away, she pulled back, looking flustered.
“I need to-”
“I’ll just be gone for a second,” you interrupted. You felt a little bad for being so rude. You gave her a pressed smile. “I just want to say hi to some people, okay? Get some water.”
Amy’s cheeks were dusted pink, but she nodded and set her brush down. You stood up stretching out your arms and then wandered over to the barrier. A few of the people that had been staring at you the whole time started to squeal and bounce a little as you approached, waving pictures and pens in the air. Mina glanced at you.
“Oh, decided to join the party?” She asked you lightly. You shrugged.
“They stayed out here all night, might as well say hi,” you said softly. You turned to the fan in front of you and smiled at him softly.
“Hi,” you greeted. You took the picture from his hand and his pen. “What’s your name?”
The boy started to eagerly tell you his name and you nodded along, asking him how his night had been and what he was in town for. As you two spoke other fans started to join into the conversation. They came from all over the country, some just at the hopes of running into you and your costars. You recognized one of them, a smile crossed your face when you saw her.
“Hey, Sooyoon right?”
Sooyoon’s eyes lit up.
“You remember me?” She asked. You reached out your hand towards Sooyoon, pressing the palm of your hand to hers.
Of course, you remembered her. She had only been to one of your meet and greets but she was always in the crowd. She was tall, with long dark hair and the kindest eyes you had ever seen.
“What are you doing here? You haven’t been here all day, have you?”
Sooyoon shrugged.
“It’s so inspiring to watch you act,” Sooyoon replied. “I think I speak for all of us when I say it is worth the long hours.”
“Besides,” one of your fans… Minyoung added. “If you can do it, so can we.”
You laughed and reached for another photograph. At first it had been weird, when someone handed you a piece of paper and on it was a picture of you. The smiles on the pictures always felt so… Unreal to you. Most of the pictures you didn’t even remember taking anymore. You couldn’t place the outfit, or the scenery behind you. You had no clue what magazine it was that you were on the cover of-
“Can we get a picture together?” Sooyoon asked. “Just the group of us.”
You smiled and nodded.
“Of course, whose phone should I take it on?” You asked softly. Sooyoon handed you her phone and you raised it in the air. “Okay everyone, get in.”
You waited until you thought everyone was in frame and smiled, taking a few until you thought you had enough. As you turned to hand the phone back to Sooyoon something in the crowd caught your eye. There was a camera, not really that surprising, but this camera- this person was pretty far from the group of paparazzi that was taking pictures of the set and your costars. Your eyebrows furrowed briefly, and the camera lowered enough that you could see the soft wide eyes of the person who had been previously taking your picture.
It was that same photographer from the other day with Seokmin. You wondered idly why you had never noticed him before. Maybe he was new to all of this.
You tore your eyes away from him.
“I have to get back to my makeup artist Amy,” you said. There were soft protests, but you just brushed your hair back behind your ear. “It was really nice to talk to all of you.”
That was true. The best thing about being a celebrity was when you got to have these soft emotional moments with fans. You didn’t always remember all of their names, and sometimes their faces blurred together, but more often than not your interactions stayed with you.
In the middle of the night when you couldn’t get to sleep, you thought about things fans had said to you. Things they had confided in you and the way that smiles lit up their faces when they talked to you.
You made them happy. For whatever crazy reason the thought of you made people smile, and they made you happy too.
“Hey!” Amy rushed over to you, tugging your arm. “I have five minutes to finish touching you up. You nodded.
“Yeah, yeah. Sorry Amy.”
-
“Come- Bopul just- Please-”
You rushed around Mingyu’s apartment, chasing after the little white fluff ball that was darting from room to room.
“Bopul, I just want-”
Bopul barked and skidded to a stop in front of Mingyu’s front door. You stopped too, your eyes wide.
“Okay, okay, good. Walk, huh? You want to go on a walk?”
Bopul cocked his little head to the side, his nose twitching. You sighed in relief.
“Okay, great, I’m just going to…” You slowly walked over to Bopul and as fast and precisely as you could you clipped the leash to Bopul’s collar. Bopul got excited again at the little click and started to run circles in front of you. Luckily you had a good grip on Bopul’s leash.
“Okay buddy, let’s go.”
You sent a quick text to Mingyu, telling him that you finally had Bopul secured and finally left his apartment. You let Bopul- despite his very small stature- pull you out onto the sidewalk. For the most part, people didn’t act like you were someone that they knew but as you stumbled forward you had this distinct feeling that you were being watched.
You ignored it at first. Generally, the feeling went away after a few minutes, but as Bopul bounded back and forth on the sidewalk, yanking at his leash the feeling stayed.
God, could you not even go on a walk without some stupid paparazzi-
You turned around and found the camera that was pointed at you. Your brows were furrowed, your lips were pressed thin, but then the camera lowered, and your facial expression softened.
You recognized that dark messy hair and those eyes.
You blew air out of your mouth and turned your attention to the other paparazzi that were standing there with him.
“Can’t I get some peace?” You asked them. The speaking was apparently an invitation for them all to come closer. All of them except for that one.
“Isn’t that Kim Mingyu’s dog?” One of them replied instead. “Does this mean you and Mingyu are dating?”
You rolled your eyes.
“No comment.”
That just made the paparazzi go crazier. They all crowded closer to you- not that Bopul even noticed. He was so excited to be out on a walk he didn’t care about the large group of people crowding closer. But despite the approaching group of paparazzi that one… He stayed put.
You sighed and let Bopul pull you away, the whole group following you close behind. You figured you would have to reach out to Mingyu soon and apologize for the strengthening of rumors that already existed but for now, you just needed to focus on Bopul.
-
You don’t particularly enjoy having to sneak around. Sure, you hated the paparazzi following you everywhere you went but you figured that having your picture taken was better then going out in long sleeve baggy clothing with a face mask on and all of your hair tucked beneath a hat. But sometimes you had to do just that.
You didn’t keep up with many of your friends from college, but you did try to keep up with a few of them. Renjun was one of those friends that you tried to meet at least once a month. He had become your friend when there had been absolutely no other tables to sit at in the library during finals week and despite you two having drastically different majors, he had stuck with you.
And you were probably infuriating to be around in college when you had done nothing else to do but force him to run scripts with you and complain about having to do a play as a final project when you were a film major.
So, if there was anyone that you would put up with a dumb disguise with it was undoubtedly going to be Renjun.
“Honestly I almost didn’t recognize you.”
Renjun playfully pushed down on your hat, and you batted his hand away rolling your eyes.
“Yeah, because this is the first time that I’ve met you dressed like this,” you replied. You got up to your feet and wrapped your arms around your friend. Renjun was a tall man- a few inches at least taller than you. He had a long dyed-brown mullet, and his shoulders were so wide that you felt tiny wrapped in his arms.
You pulled away and gestured towards the table.
“It’s refreshing to be meeting up with someone who isn’t late for once,” you said. “All of my famous friends are always late.”
Renjun laughed and took a seat from across the table from you.
“That’s what you get for leaving the real world,” he teased lightly. He picked up a menu and flipped through it.
“Let me guess, you want a slice of the cheesecake?”
“I-” You wanted to protest the statement but- “I feel like you’re teasing me, but cheesecake is a staple dessert.”
Renjun laughed.
“Well how has it been? You’re shooting a new show, right? Loves dagger?”
You rolled your eyes.
“Love is a Dagger,” you corrected. “Are you even really my friend if you don’t know what show I’m filming right now?”
Renjun wasn’t bothered by the statement he just rolled his eyes.
“You’re leads with Lee Seokmin, yeah? And you got lunch with him instead of meeting me two weeks ago,” Renjun observed. You shrugged.
“I’m sorry if you were me would you have really hung out with yourself instead of the Lee Seokmin?” You asked. Renjun stuck his tongue out at you. “But yeah, it’s been fun. I haven’t worked with Seokmin since we were b-sides in that other show I did-”
“One of my favorites you have been in by the way,” Renjun interrupted. “You and Seokmin just have the best chemistry, are you sure you don’t like him?”
“Do I have the time to like anyone?” You replied. “But what about you, how are you and Mei?”
Renjun smiled, his finger tapping lightly on the table.
“Oh, you know, she’s Mei.”
Despite his words it was clear to you that he wanted to say more. You leaned forward resting your chin in your hand.
“She’s Mei, huh?” You said teasingly.
Renjun rolled his eyes away from you.
“Is it wrong to ask my famous friend to perform at my wedding?” Renjun asked. You felt the corners of your lips spread uncharacteristically wide.
“No way, are you-”
“I haven’t asked yet!” Renjun interrupted. “But…”
He pulled a small box out from his pocket and set it on the table. You gasped sharply and pulled the box towards you, popping it open so that you could see his engagement ring. It was the most beautiful ring that you had ever seen. It was gold and small, with a diamond in the middle that looked like a flower.
“I can’t believe you are going to propose!” You gushed, a little too loudly. Your face flushed and you handed him back the ring, covering your mouth. “Mei is going to be so happy.”
“You think so?”
“Of course!” You gushed. “You and Mei have been together since I met you, if you two aren’t in love- I don’t know what love is.”
Renjun smiled and pocketed the ring.
“Yeah, well you don’t know what love is,” he said teasingly. “When was your last relationship?”
“I used to have a ton of relationships,” you argued back. “They just…”
“Yeah, they weren’t Mei,” Renjun agreed.
A comfortable silence fell between the two of you as the waitress walked over to your table. You ducked your head to the side while Renjun told the lady what you two were ordering. Two slices of cheesecake and two cups of coffee.
When she walked away you made sure to look back up at him and smile coyly.
“Cheesecake,” you sang softly.
You and Renjun had a tendency of being able to talk for ages and time really did get away from you. With some of your other friends it was still really hard to feel normal but with Renjun… You felt like a broke college student all over again.
“Hey, I don’t know how you do it but there is a guy, and he is staring at you,” Renjun said suddenly. Your eyebrows furrowed.
“Really? Someone recognizes me?” You asked. Renjun shrugged.
“I guess, I don’t know, he’s been here as long as you have, and he looks over whenever he thinks I haven’t noticed.”
Renjun looked really bothered by it.
“He’s probably just a fan,” you said. You looked over your shoulder scanning the crowd. “Who-”
You stopped before you could finish asking as you made eye contact with the person that was staring at you. His ears twitched a little when you two made eye contact and he dropped your eyes rather quickly.
“Oh, don’t worry about him,” you said. You turned away from him to face Renjun. You shrugged off his concern. “He’s just the paparazzi.”
Renjun squinted his eyes suspiciously.
“How do you know that? He doesn’t even have a camera on him.”
“He follows me around he must just be using his phone today.”
Renjun shook his head in disbelief.
“Only you would be so casual about someone stalking you.”
“Only every idol is casual about someone stalking them,” you corrected. “Just ignore him. He’s harmless.”
Renjun didn’t look convinced.
“Seriously it’s just one dude. It’s probably just a coincidence he ran into me here anyway. It’s just him, let’s not let him ruin our day.”
Renjun nodded slowly, peeling his eyes away from the person behind you in resignment.
“Okay, tell me, what it’s like being with Seokmin on set?”
-
The first time you were at a movie premiere you didn’t think that you would ever get used to it. The lights were blinding, you weren’t sure where to stop and who you were supposed to talk to. Everyone was constantly trying to talk to you.
Now, movie premieres were like a walk in the park. You felt like it was more natural to go to them then it was to go get coffee in the morning. At least when you were at a movie premiere you knew who to talk to and now that you were used to them, you pretty much knew everyone on the carpet.
When you had first started, all you could think was that everyone around you was famous and you didn’t deserve to be breathing the same air as them.
Nowadays it was like a high school prom. You knew practically everyone there even if you didn’t share classes together.
“Mingyu.”
A soft smile spread over your cheeks as you gave him a one-armed hug. Mingyu smiled at you, letting his hand ruffle the hair that your stylist had spent hours on.
“My publicist warned me not to say hello to you,” Mingyu said pleasantly. You two turned so that you were facing the group of people behind the roped of carpet and smiled as camera flashes lit your vision. “People are really starting to think that we are having a secret relationship.”
You snorted.
“I don’t know why everyone assumes that I would cheat on Seokmin… Haven’t we been together since we first started working together?”
Mingyu laughed.
“You jest but I have seen a few people saying that they think you are cheating on Seokmin.”
You rolled your eyes and turned to face Mingyu.
“If we were bothered by rumors we wouldn’t make it in this business,” you replied. He laughed again and nudged you so that you would turn around.
“What’s this premiere for?” He asked as you two slowly made your way down the carpet, nodding to other idols as you walked. You shrugged.
“Uh, IU’s newest movie,” you replied. You scrunched your eyebrows together uncertainly. “But I haven’t actually seen her.”
Mingyu laughed and gestured towards the crowd.
“I think that those people want to talk to you.”
You groaned as you looked at the group of reporters.
“Mingyu don’t make me talk to them,” you whined. “All they want to ask me about is my romantic life. I’m a serious professional! What does my romantic life matter in this career?”
Mingyu didn’t seem to be at all bothered by your resistance.
“It’s your job to talk to people who want to talk to you. I’ll see you in the movie.”
“You promise to save me a seat?” You asked. He nodded.
“Have fun telling them about our extremely intimate relationship.”
He lightly nudged you towards the reporters and you resisted the urge to look upset. Instead, you smiled, waving a little for the cameras as you approached. The closer you got the more frantic the reporters and paparazzi got. You looked in the crowd to see if there were even any fans that you could try to interact with, but everyone had either big cameras in their hands or microphones.
There were so many questions coming at you so loudly that you could barely keep track of them all in your head. You tried to be polite, you tried to answer what you could, but the noise was really getting to you. You glanced longingly to the side to where Mingyu was standing. Why had you left his side again? It had been so nice to be next to him. It was like you hadn’t had to think about anything.
“Are you and Mingyu dating?”
“What’s it like starring with Seokmin again?”
“What are you doing this week? Any dates lined up?”
You turned towards the group of paparazzi, trying to stay civil even though you were completely furious.
“I will not-” The words died in your mouth when you made eye contact with the last person that you expected to see at this event. Confusion made your eyebrows furrow, and your hands dropped to your side. “I will only be taking questions from one person.”
You pointed at the man that you had been seeing all week.
“You.”
He seemed surprised but he only let his camera dip just a little bit.
“What idol would you like to work with one day?” He asked. His voice was softer than the others around him, but everyone was so shocked that you had only let him talk that they were relatively quiet. You sighed in relief that the question had to do with something other than dating others.
“She’s kind of a classic but Jun Jihyun?” You sucked in a breath and shook your head with a smile on your face. “She’s so talented. If not work with her I want tips, I want to be half as talented as her.”
A smile flickered across the boy’s face.
“Thank you.”
He raised his camera, a silent question. You brushed your hair back and smiled. Camera flashes wildly went off and the reporters and paparazzi around you begun to bombard you with questions again. You waited until you thought that the man in question had gotten your picture and then you politely started to pull away from the group to move on to another person on the carpet giving a more formal interview.
You hoped that you weren’t on this carpet too long, you just wanted to sit between Kim Mingyu and Kim Sohyun and watch… Whatever movie that was premiering tonight.
-
You didn’t particularly like being the center of attention.
Sort of odd considering your choice in jobs. Even as a kid when the conversation had turned to you it had made you uncomfortable. You always tried to turn the topic away from you and instead have it focus on something else. You had become a master in getting out of the spotlight before you got your first lead in a show, and you took the world by storm.
Despite how unluckily it had been for you to become so popular in Korea you had. Despite how unorthodox it was for you to star in Kdramas you were. You were even being scouted for movies and shows with Hollywood over seas and now your business was the worlds business.
It felt strange having so many people looking at you all the time. You hated it when you would look out into a crowd, and everyone was staring at you.
“You should just stop hanging out with Kim Mingyu so much,” Sungmin suggested. “If you stopped being around him so much people would stop saying that you are cheating on Seokmin.”
“And I suppose I should stop hanging out with Seokmin while we’re at it,” you agreed. Sungmin nodded seriously, her fingers raising to play with her long wavy dark hair. You sighed a little as you watched her play with it. You wished your hair had as much volume as hers did. That being said you wished that you had half the sense of style that she had. Considering her blue jeans and her slightly see-through white button up, your sweater and slacks looked like garbage.
“I mean if you want the dating rumors to stop.”
“Then who am I supposed to hang out with?” You continued softly. Sungmin dipped her head in front of you, flashing you a toothy smile.
“Me of course!”
You rolled your eyes.
“They’ll just say that we’re dating,” you denied. Sungmin’s smile dropped, and she gave you a small pout.
“Just say you don’t want to hang out with me more.”
You laughed and went to say something else but stopped yourself when your eyes caught that of a camera just across the street. The camera lowered slightly, and you met the eyes of someone you were becoming quite familiar with. You hummed, nudging Sungmin so that she was facing the same way as you.
“Smile,” you encouraged softly. Sungmin raised a little peace sign, and you wrapped your arms around hers, your head almost bumping Sungmin’s as you turned your head to smile. After a few seconds you sent the paparazzi a wave and then turned to face the sidewalk again. Sungmin tugged your arm lightly so that you would look at her.
“What was that about?” She asked.
You shrugged.
“Just wanted it to be a good picture.”
And it was like everywhere you went there was somebody who wanted to take your picture. When you were out eating with Seokmin:
“Hey Seokmin look-” You pointed over at the familiar man with a camera, making Seokmin follow your gaze.
“Oh-”
“Smile like two friends who are just friends,” you said, crossing your legs and smiling at the camera. Seokmin followed suit, not letting the moment change the swing of the conversation.
It even happened when you were on your own, walking down the street, talking on the phone to your publicist and you glanced behind you to see that familiar set of hair and you rolled your eyes lightly, shooting him a smile. You didn’t wait to see his response, just turned as your publicist reminded you of a shoot you had to be that.
“I can’t believe this! I can’t believe I finally get to meet you!” Your fan gushed; a sunny smile spread over her lips. You smiled at her, taking the photo card from her hand.
“Honestly you lucked out, these days I’m hard to find,” you said pleasantly. “The only people who can find me-”
You happened to glance up over your fans shoulder.
“Oh- Do you want to be in a news article with me?” You asked softly. Your fans eyes widened, and she whipped around to see what you were looking at. The man you never could seem to shake’s eyes widened.
“Oh! Is he a part of the paparazzi?” Your fan asked excitedly. Her lips upturned into a wide smile. “Can I hug you?”
You smiled.
“Of course.”
Your fan smiled brightly and wrapped her arms around you, pressing the side of her face against your arm. You two smiled briefly, until a smile spread over the man’s lips, and he lowered his camera. You sighed and turned to look at your fan, patting her head gently.
“Okay, I’ve got to go,” you said. Your fan didn’t even try to argue. She just smiled.
“See you soon!”
-
“And what future projects are you thinking about partaking in?”
You hummed as you mulled over the question.
“I’m not sure. I love romances, but I’d like something that more has to do with my age. Just a young adult slice of life story that’s focused on friends,” you said. You shrugged. “I don’t know, at the end of the day I take the role that I get.”
You smiled and the reporter laughed.
“I suppose that’s true. Now tell me-”
She started to talk, and you truly didn’t mean to, but you stopped listening so closely. Your eyes wandered away from the interviewer, your attention falling to the crowd standing behind her. There were some fans, all looking excited to see you, taking pictures on their phones and then there was…
A large smile broke out over your face, and you instinctively rose your thumb and index finger to frame your chin, pouting your lips.
You saw your favorite photographer break out in a laugh as he took your picture, and for a moment you completely forgot where you were.
“Uh, what are you doing?”
Color creeped up your neck
“I-” You cleared your throat and pointed behind the reporter. “Paparazzi.”
The reporter gave you a weird look but slowly went back into the interview. You were determined to stay focused, but you took one last glance at him… He was laughing so hard his body was hunched over his camera.
-
You tapped your finger against the table impatiently, checking the time again. Why was Seokmin always late to these things?
You pulled out your phone and sent him a snarky text before looking across the room again. The only good thing about going out with Seokmin was that almost no one ever recognized you in this café. At least, if they did, they didn’t say anything or they were…
Your eyes fell on the member of the paparazzi that you couldn’t exactly seem to shake. The man that you didn’t even really want to shake. It was kind of nice to have someone who was practically always following you. The fact that it was the same person made impromptu photo shoots seem more personal.
You watched as he rested his head on his hand, scrolling through the pictures on his camera. His eyes drooped a little. He seemed tired.
You sighed as he rubbed his hand over his forehead and then readjusted the navy ball cap on his head.
You didn’t give yourself time to think about it.
You waved over a waitress.
“Hey,” you said. “Can I get a coffee- an iced americano.”
She nodded and began to write it down on her pad.
“And can you actually give it-” You gestured for her to lean closer and then slyly pointed over at the man fiddling with his camera. “Can you give it to that man over there? You don’t need to tell him it’s from me.”
The waitress nodded, murmuring something about how nice that was as she walked away. It was only a few minutes before she was delivering the drink to his table. You tried not to really look. You made a point to pull out your phone and scroll on it, but despite that when you glanced back over at him, he was looking at you.
His eyebrows rose in confusion, and he pointed at the drink. You shrugged and brushed your hair to the side. You decided not to look back over at him, instead you sat staring at your phone, waiting for a message from Seokmin.
“Excuse me-”
You looked up to see the waitress again, standing there with a cheesecake. Your eyes widened in surprise.
“I… This is for you.”
She hurriedly set the dessert down and rushed away before you could say more. You quickly looked back over but… He was making a point of looking at his camera.
“Hey-”
You looked up; your eyes still wide.
“You ordered without me.”
The pout on his lips was enough to momentarily distract you from your stress.
“Look it’s your own fault for coming so late.”
Seokmin sat down and you decided that Seokmin didn’t need to know the real reason for the cheesecake in front of you.
-
“I wish my fans would stop saying that they aren’t going to get married just to hold out for me,” Minghao said with a frustrated sigh. A smile teased your lips and you looked at him.
“What? That’s the dream right there,” you said. “Thousands of boys and girls at your beck and call, you can marry anyone that you please.”
Minghao grumbled.
“My fans aren’t objects, I wish they wouldn’t act so much like they are,” Minghao continued. “They should fall in love and get married and have kids. Not wait around for me.”
“You could be dissing your future significant other,” you said. “Maybe one of your fans is going to be the person you marry.”
Minghao nodded along with your words.
“Maybe,” he agreed. “But I’m not going to marry all of them. They can’t wait around when I can’t-”
He raised his hands to his hair, running them distractedly through his dark mullet.
“I can’t marry all of them.”
You knew he was being serious. You knew that he was seriously stressed about the way his fans were treating their love lives but still…
“Then are you really a good idol? I’m marrying all of my fans.”
You couldn’t help teasing him.
Minghao started to mumble something about you never being serious and as he did your eyes wandered past him to a guy who was walking just perpendicular to the two of you. You didn’t even have to look at his face. One glance at the camera in his hand and you knew who it was.
“Wait, wait hold that thought-”
You twisted Minghao around to face the man who didn’t even have his camera pointed at the two of you.
“Hey!”
He looked up at the two of you, looking slightly startled. You rose your fingers in front of your face and mimicked taking a photo.
“What are you-”
Before Minghao could finish speaking you smacked his shoulder.
“Smile for the paparazzi!”
You could feel the annoyance radiating off of Minghao but regardless a glance showed you that he was smiling. You two did a few poses for the paparazzi and then you started to walk again, Minghao following you.
“Okay, but seriously, I get it, that’s stressful,” you agreed. “But if they want to wait for you. If they really love you as much as they claim to then there isn’t really anything that you can do. If you think people are stubborn, then people in love are something else entirely.”
Minghao began to play with his hair idly.
“I guess.”
You two took a few steps in silence.
“You’re being weird with the paparazzi these days,” Minghao mumbled. “I see pictures of you posing for the camera all over the internet.”
You shrugged.
“Guess you just get used to them.”
-
You had been to a number of events before as an idol, but possibly your favorite ones to go to were the ones that were arranged by your friend Lia. You and Lia had gone to school together and when she first started planning events even before you were famous you got invited to everyone.
And you had spent 90% of them talking to Lia and watching as she went above and beyond to make the event run as smoothly as possible.
So, while you didn’t usually like to go to fashion show after parties, when Lia was throwing it you were sure to be there.
You were slightly annoyed that no one you were particularly close to was going to be at the event, but regardless you liked any chance you got to see Lia. She had been really busy to start. You didn’t get to talk to her much.
You noted idly that your favorite paparazzi was there.
You tried talking to a group of other actors, glancing over your shoulder every now and then to give him a lazily smile, but as you did, you noticed something that stood out to you.
You watched as Lia walked over to the man you had become so accustomed to, watching as he nodded a few times and asked her a question. You felt a weird feeling rising in your throat as you watched them interact so familiarly.
You noticed them start to turn towards you, so you turned your attention back to the conversation that you were barely paying attention to. You nodded to something that someone was saying and when you glanced back at Lia the man was gone.
You pressed your lips together and said something to the group as you made your way over to Lia.
“Hey Lia-”
“Hey, is everything okay?” Lia asked. You nodded distractedly.
“Yeah, yeah, just-” You gestured to the space that the photographer had been taking up. “Who was this?”
Lia looked at you briefly like you were crazy.
“Who was… There’s no one there.”
“No one here right now but just a minute ago!” You replied, brushing your hair back in an attempt to make you seem less crazy. “The paparazzi.”
A glimmer of recognition flickered across Lia’s face.
“Oh, you mean Lee Jihoon.”
You couldn’t help the way that you reacted to the knowledge of his name. The way your eyes widened, and your fingers briefly clenched. You smiled it off, hoping she didn’t think the reaction was weird in any way.
“Oh, Jihoon,” you said as if it didn’t really mean anything to you. “Cool, cool.”
Lia’s eyebrows furrowed further in confusion.
“Why do you want to know Jihoon’s name?”
You resisted the urge to curse aloud. Why did you want to know his name? All he did was follow idols to places and take pictures. You didn’t need to know his name.
You shrugged.
“I just see him a lot,” you wrote off. “You don’t need help with anything do you?”
Lia started to tell you how the event was going and as she spoke you took one more glance around the room.
Jihoon wasn’t there anymore.
-
As embarrassing as it was, seeing Jihoon had become something that you looked forward to everyday. You began looking for him in the crowd, making sure to get him lots of extra pictures with you and whoever was with you.
When he was late you made sure to make brief faces of annoyance when you finally did see him. You weren’t really sure if he actually knew why you did it, but he did always look a little embarrassed and somewhat apologetic.
But apparently your annoyance at him being late wasn’t enough for him to realize that now he was your personal paparazzi and the only person that you allowed to take your picture. Because when your show was filming at the park one day. Something that practically everyone in Seoul knew was happening, he wasn’t there.
And he wasn’t at the movie premiere you went to that night.
And the next day he didn’t show up outside of your photo shoot as you were leaving.
And you… You were not happy about it.
So, the next day when it was five in the morning and you were standing in a barely crowded café getting a coffee before your long shift, and you saw him. Practically nothing could keep you from saying something to him.
“You’re going to lose your job.”
Jihoon looked up at you, his eyes wide. His fingers tightened around his camera as his eyebrows furrowed uncertainly.
“What?”
If you hadn’t been so angry, maybe you would have taken a moment to note that you had not expected him to sound the way that he did. Only if you hadn’t been so angry.
“You didn’t shoot me at one of the biggest events of the year,” you replied back bluntly. That wasn’t true in any way shape or form but regardless of that you held your ground, crossing your arms across your chest. “Who was supposed to take pictures of me?”
“I was busy, I had-” He stopped himself as if he was suddenly wondering why he was explaining himself to you. “There are plenty of other people in the paparazzi who can take your picture.”
You rolled your eyes.
“They don’t do it well.”
Jihoon still seemed confused, so you just sighed.
“Do you want a coffee?” You asked.
He seemed even more taken aback.
“What?”
“I’m getting coffee, do you want some?” He just stared at you. “We have a really long day ahead of us.”
He shook his head.
“I’m good.”
You heard your name getting called from the counter… And you turned away from Jihoon.
“You better not miss anything today.”
He didn’t miss anything that day but the next day…
He missed another event.
The next time you saw him it was similar to the time before. Same café even. You stormed up to him.
“Let me hear it,” you demanded. Jihoon just stared at you with wide eyes.
“I-” His eyebrows furrowed in confusion. “My friend was there to take pictures-”
“He didn’t do a good job,” you insisted, but in reality, you had no clue who could have been the person he sent. “I don’t know why you thought sending someone else would make any difference.”
Jihoon still looked confused. He tried to show you his camera.
“The pictures are just the same as mine would be. Look-”
You refused to look at them. Instead, you shoved your hand forward, palm open as you waited for him to do what you wanted. He just stared at your open hand.
“Do you want…” He trailed off and raised his camera cluelessly. You sighed heavily.
“Your phone.”
Jihoon only looked at you confused for a second. Then his phone was in your hand. You looked down at it.
“Unlocked,” you demanded. Jihoon quickly unlocked his phone for you. You wasted no time and instead quickly put your contact into his phone. You hummed as you handed him your phone back. “Fake fans don’t have me as their lock screen.”
“I never said I was a fan.”
You ignored that statement.
“Now you have my phone number,” you explained. “Go on. Call my phone.”
Jihoon stared at you blankly.
“Call me,” you repeated. He looked down at his phone, clicking a few buttons before finally your phone started to ring. You smiled as you answered it.
“I’m going to use this,” you said happily. You hung up the phone call and went about adding his number into your phone. After you had his contact saved you gave him a bright smile.
“Today’s going to be fun.”
Jihoon didn’t look any less confused.
It became a habit of yours to text Jihoon your plans for the day in the morning. You told him who you were meeting and where you were meeting and when you were meeting them. You texted him five minutes before the event if he wasn’t there yet. One time he was five minutes late and you called him because the absolute audacity of him to be late when he had known about this event for hours.
He answered immediately.
“I’m just- You need to calm down, I’m right in front of you-”
You had looked up and he was there, but he clearly had gotten dressed in a hurry. His hair was messy, and his shirt was backwards. You had covered your mouth as you held back laughter. The look had made a good picture with a headline describing how much you had enjoyed the event.
You had noticed that anytime a picture you knew Jihoon had taken showed up in the media it always painted you in a bright light.
Part of the reason you hated the paparazzi so much was because your pictures always ended up construed with the most ridiculous headlines. Ones about you dating Seokmin, or cheating with Mingyu, or being married to Minghao.
Basically, way too many about your supposed love life.
But when it was a picture that only Jihoon could have taken the uses were much more innocent. Just about how they caught you at an event or discussing a script with Seokmin or spoiling each others dramas with Mingyu or even just about the kind way you were treating your fans.
And Jihoon used a combination of the pictures that you posed for and a few candids where you weren’t looking at the camera. He always got your good side.
That being said, after a few weeks your activity began to wind down a bit, and thus you got bored.
Ridiculously bored.
Tomorrow you were going on a show, and you were going to have to cook some good bibimbap. While you weren’t terrible at cooking, you also weren’t the best. So, when you realized you needed someone to help you try the food that you were going to pretend to cook for the first time, the first person that came to mind was Jihoon.
You’ve got to come to this address quick, there’s an event going on that you need to photograph.
Jihoon: That seems like it’s a house.
Come quick!
When your doorbell rang you couldn’t help but smile. You threw open your front door shooting him a pose that fell almost as quickly as you made it.
“You didn’t bring your camera.”
“This was obviously not a real event,” Jihoon replied pointedly. “Aren’t you afraid I’m going to leak your address?”
You shook your head.
“I know you won’t. Come in.”
You stepped aside so that Jihoon could walk past you into your house. He sighed, seeming like he didn’t really want to but after only a few seconds he walked inside. You closed the door behind you two and then without a word you skipped to your kitchen.
“You came just in time I just finished-”
The sound of the fire alarm going off rang through your house as smoke poured out of the kitchen. Your eyes widened.
“Shit.”
You picked up speed as you ran into the kitchen looking at the pan that had a small fire in it. You bounced in spot as you tried to figure out what to do.
“That pan is on fire,” Jihoon said. “Do you need he-”
“I’ve got this under control,” you insisted. You rushed forward and grabbed the pan handle. You hissed as you pulled your hand back. It was hot.
“Hey don’t be stu-”
“I’ve got this,” you repeated grabbing an oven mitt. You grabbed the pot and rushed it into your sink, turning on the water and yelping as you jumped back. The fire just blazed brighter. “Uh-”
“Are you stupid?” Jihoon asked. You went to protest but you were distracted by Jihoon rummaging through your cabinets.
“What are you-”
You stopped when he pulled out your baking soda. You were even more confused but more stunned when he dumped the baking soda over the fire. You went to ask him again what he was doing but stopped yourself when the fire started to simmer down.
“Oh.”
“You never put out grease fire with water,” Jihoon berated. “You should know that. Who doesn’t know that?”
You stared at him, your face red from embarrassment and also heat. Jihoon sighed.
“Do you have ice? Your hand must hurt a lot,” Jihoon continued. You waved it off.
“No, it doesn’t hurt that-”
Before you could finish speaking Jihoon was in your freezer and grabbed a bag of frozen vegetables. You took it, pressing it against the burn on your hand.
“Go sit down,” Jihoon ordered. You pressed your lips together.
“But-”
“What were you making? Bibimbap?”
You nodded.
“Let me show you how it’s done.”
Jihoon was really good at cooking. As soon as he got the pot fire down and the fire alarm off, he told you to come back up and he began to show you slowly how to make each step.
He emphasized the importance of not leaving the food you were cooking unattended, and the amount at which he berated you made you feel like a scolded child.
To be fair you did know better than to leave food unattended. It was your own fault the fire had started, and you had tried to put it out the stupidest way possible. But you hadn’t really expected Jihoon to be so good at cooking.
He set the finished bowl of bibimbap in front of you, setting down the sauce that he had just taught you to make.
“Go on. Try it.”
You set your slightly melted bag of frozen vegetables and took a bite of the food. Your eyes widened comically.
“This is so good.” You looked up at him. “Why do you waste your time taking pictures of idols? You should have become a chef!”
Jihoon rolled his eyes as he sat across from you.
“Who is going to take your picture if it’s not me?” Jihoon asked, sarcasm dripping from his mouth. You huffed.
“It’s not my fault you do it best.”
You stopped talking to him for a minute to take another large bite of the bibimbap… And then another. Jihoon sighed.
“Aren’t celebrities supposed to take small bites?” He asked. “You’re getting food everywhere.”
“It’s just so good!”
-
“What are we going to do?”
Your eyebrows furrowed as you looked at your friend Mina.
“What’s wrong?”
“The food,” Mina replied with a sigh. “The caterer cancelled last second, and now we don’t have anyone to cook for the party. Everyone’s expecting food what am I supposed to do?”
At first, you were stumped. You were going to tell her that surely everyone would understand if she couldn’t have food at the party, and even considered offering to cook yourself when suddenly you got an idea.
“I can find someone to replace the caterer.”
Mina looked at you with shining eyes.
“Really?” She blurted. “That would be amazing!”
You nodded.
“I have just the person!”
“You seem to be confused about what to use my phone number for.”
You watched as Jihoon rolled his sleeves up, starting to put some meat in the pan that was on the stove.
“You can take pictures if you want to,” you replied pointedly. Jihoon looked at you with an annoyed expression on his face.
“I can’t cook and take your picture.”
A teasing smile made its way onto your lips.
“You’re at a party with how many famous people and you only want to take pictures of me?” You asked him. Jihoon stopped moving for a second. You could smell the aroma of the food as it began to cook on the stove. He looked over at you, still looking frustrated.
“Can you leave me alone I’m trying to concentrate.”
You rolled your eyes but did as he asked. You got bored after a while of just sitting and watching him cook so finally you walked over to him and peering over his shoulder.
“What are you making?”
Jihoon hummed.
“Fried chicken,” he replied. “You’re lucky I wasn’t doing anything.”
You shrugged.
“I knew you would come if I asked you to.”
“I’m not your own personal photographer,” Jihoon replied. “I have a life you know.”
You decided to ignore that.
“You came did you not?” You asked him. He didn’t respond so you just sighed.
“I’m bored,” you whined. “You’re being boring.”
Jihoon snorted.
“No one asked you to stay over here with me,” he stated. “Go back to the party with your friends.”
You didn’t move, and Jihoon just sighed.
“Tell me about your day then. I’m bored too, you might as well just entertain us both.”
It became pretty custom of you to spend time with Jihoon after a while. When you were waiting for Seokmin to come meet you for your weekly brunch you tended to just go to Jihoon and sit at the table with him and ask him how he had slept.
You learned quickly that Jihoon didn’t sleep much at night. In between working he had a lot of habits that he tried to keep up, along with keeping up with your busy schedule some nights he didn’t sleep at all.
You felt a little bad for him, but also it was his fault he chose to photograph you in the first place. He should have known what he was getting himself into.
“Hey Jihoon,” Seokmin greeted as he slid a chair up to the table. Jihoon gave Seokmin a welcoming smile.
“Hey, I can-”
“Why don’t you just join us? It’s awkward how you always sit tables away from us and pretend like you are going to take pictures of us,” Seokmin said pointedly. You hid a laugh behind your hand.
“I do take pictures of you two,” Jihoon argued.
“Right, maybe of….” He trailed off and gestured towards you. “But I never see my picture in the tabloid.”
“Aren’t you two worried I will leak rumors about how badly you treat others?” Jihoon asked with a grunt. “You’re so mean to me.”
All you did was laugh.
“Jihoon just take the invitation. Seokmin pays anyways.”
“No,” Seokmin argued. “You just haven’t paid me back.”
You and Seokmin began to bicker lightly and while Jihoon looked like he wanted to leave, you noted that he stayed with the two of you anyways.
The more time that you spent getting to know Jihoon the more you wondered what his life was like when he wasn’t following you around. Eventually that curiosity became overwhelming.
I don’t have any events at all tomorrow.
Jihoon: Oh okay.
What are you doing tomorrow?
Jihoon: Probably see my friends for once.
Let me come.
Jihoon: No
Please!
Jihoon: I said no.
“Thanks for inviting me out!” You said as you pulled your hat a little further down your head. Jihoon rolled his eyes.
“What am I supposed to tell my friends? Are they even allowed to know that you’re a celebrity?”
You shrugged.
“They’re your friends so I doubt they’ll tell anyone.”
“You are so annoying. Has anyone ever told you that?” Jihoon asked. “You can’t always get what you want.”
You looked at him innocently.
“You always give me what I want.”
Jihoon looked annoyed but he didn’t respond.
“Here your face mask…” He trailed off and reached to readjust your face mask. He looked at you for a second when his fingers brushed your cheek. He cleared his throat and looked away from you. “You’re meeting my friends Seungcheol, Jeonghan, Joshua, and Chan.”
You repeated their names to yourself a few times.
“I’ve never heard of them before.”
“Of course, you haven’t heard of them before,” Jihoon said with a scoff. “They aren’t famous. They’re just my friends.”
You shrugged off his annoyance.
“I would have thought you would have mentioned them at some point, that’s all.”
Jihoon pulled out his phone beginning to type on his screen. You leaned towards him to look at his phone screen but as you moved so did Jihoon. He shot you another annoyed look.
“Why are you trying to look at my messages?”
You pouted.
“I would show you my messages,” you whined softly. He rolled his eyes but moved his phone back towards you anyways. You watched as he sent a text to Seungcheol asking where they wanted to meet and that he had…
A smile began to grow on your face.
“A friend huh?” You asked, your tone going back to a teasing one. Jihoon avoided looking at you, but you noticed a pink hue making its way to his face. “You’re just bringing a friend.”
“What are we if not friends?” Jihoon asked defensively.
“No, you’re right,” you cooed. “We’re friends. Just didn’t think that you had the guts to say it.”
Jihoon’s face was still pink.
“Follow me this way, okay?”
You jogged to keep up with him and his suddenly fast pace. To avoid falling out of step with him you wrapped your arm around his. He didn’t protest the action, and instead pulled so that instead of interlocked arms you two had interjoined fingers.
You were so focused on keeping up with his strong pace that when he finally came to a stop you stumbled into him.
“Jihoon! Hey, over here!”
You looked up past Jihoon’s shoulder at the people standing just a little bit away from him. There were four boys standing in front of the two of you. You looked at Jihoon with wide eyes. So, he pointed to each of the boys in turn.
“That’s Seungcheol, Jeonghan, Joshua, and that-” He pointed to the last boy. The only one of the four with colored hair. “That’s Chan.”
Before Jihoon could say another word, you waved eagerly at them.
“Hi! Nice to meet you!”
You rushed over to them, held back only by Jihoon who just stopped you a few feet away from the group of boys. They all seemed a little confused when they saw you, and Jihoon was clearly embarrassed.
“Hey guys this is my friend…”
You smiled proudly waiting for Jihoon to introduce you.
“Uh… What’s their name?”
Jihoon laughed nervously.
“Oh, it’s-”
You dramatically shoved your arm in front of him.
“I hardly need an introduction,” you announced loudly. Before any of them could ask what you meant by that you lowered your mask and raised your hat a little bit. The four boys gasped.
“Holy shit-”
You fixed your disguise by on your face.
“Just wanted to meet my stalkers friends!”
It was maybe a little impulsive to announce yourself to Jihoon’s friends, especially when he himself had been hesitant to reveal who you were to them. That should have been a sign after all, a clue that maybe they weren’t that trustworthy.
They… Were actually very trustworthy as it turned out and after the initial shock of meeting you and what are you doing hanging out with our friend Jihoon? They began to treat you as if you were just another person.
You couldn’t express enough how rare it was to be treated like you were normal around people who weren’t idols themselves. People just couldn’t get passed the fact that they watched you every week on television at seven on Thursdays. But Jihoon’s friends. They treated you like you had been friends with them since you were all kids.
“You don’t know your own favorite television show?” Joshua asked with a laugh. You nodded.
“Look I just- Why do I have to remember all of that stuff? One google search and-”
“Hello, My Twenties!” Seungcheol offered up, looking up from his phone.
“See! I don’t have to remember names. My fanbase has it!”
Chan bent over himself, his body bouncing as he laughed.
“Come on,” you insisted. “You can’t tell me you don’t have things like that.”
“Most of us can’t google things about ourselves we are too lazy to remember!” Chan blurted. “It’s like you missed the point in life where you learned basic social interaction skills.”
“Probably missed it because you were too busy sucking face with Lee Seokmin.”
“Jeonghan-” Jihoon blurted. Before he could berate his friend further however you began to laugh too. Jihoon looked at you with wide eyes. “Are you not offended?”
You tried to calm yourself down, but your body was bouncing from laughter.
“Well, can someone google if I should be offended in this situation?”
Jihoon seemed stressed most of the time that you hung out with his friends, but not stressed because you weren’t acting comfortable with each other. Stressed because you were all too comfortable with each other.
He had to pull you aside multiple times when you forgot that you all were in fact in public, and there were people around you who you would prefer didn’t recognize who you were but after a while, even Jihoon got comfortable.
You stood on top of the table, wobbling a little as you took a steady step forward. You were bored, there was no other explanation to your behavior. Seungcheol and Chan had gone to scope out a restaurant where all of you could have some privacy, and Jeonghan and Joshua were stuck in a long conversation.
You turned and as you did you noticed that Jihoon was just a few feet from you, taking a picture.
“Did you get my good side?” You asked softly, dropping a dramatic pose.
“I’m not going to sell these,” Jihoon said, his face deadly serious.
“I didn’t ask that.”
“Just wanted you to know, these are for me.”
You stared at Jihoon for a few moments completely silent then you climbed down from the table and took his phone from his hands. You turned the camera to him and took a few pictures. He smiled, but he was clearly somewhat embarrassed.
“Then these are for me,” you said. You handed him his phone back and as you did his fingers brushed against his. You two stared at each other silently. “Uh… You’ll send those to me, right?”
A smile flickered across Jihoon’s lips.
“Yeah, I’ll send it to you.”
-
“Here we go.”
You sat up from where you were lounging on your couch holding your hands out as Jihoon placed a bowl into them. You smiled like a kid and pulled the bowl of soup towards you.
“Thank you,” you sang. A chuckle left Jihoon’s mouth as he took a seat next to you.
“Did you even eat before you met me?” Jihoon asked you. You shrugged as you took a large bite.
“I used to pay someone,” you replied.
“What happened to them?” He prodded.
“I have you now.”
Before Jihoon could protest the fact that you were not paying him to cook you clicked on the television.
“What do you want to watch?” You asked him. He grunted softly.
“Uh, what about…” He watched as you scrolled through the show options and jumped.
“Let’s watch Love Blossoms!”
A groan left your mouth.
“Not one I’ve been in,” you whined. “Beside Love Blossoms was so cringey.”
“What’s cringey about a student who falls over themselves whenever their crush is around?” He asked, a teasing smile spread across his lips.
“You know it’s bad!” You announced.
“Come on, let’s watch it! I love to watch your legs literally shake when you are looking at the main love interest,” he insisted. You groaned loudly, hiding your face behind your hands.
“If I could go back in time and not accept a role-”
Before you could finish talking Jihoon had stolen the remote out of your hand and the opening music to the show had started. However embarrassed you were you couldn’t help but replicate the awkward poses that you were making on the screen in the intro.
Jihoon laughed.
“Here I thought you were better but you’re just as cringey as you were back then.”
You pushed Jihoon in annoyance.
“Shut up, you think I’m cute.”
And when you both woke up a few hours later, both of your alarms blaring and you were so entangled in each other that you both snoozed for way longer then you two should have, it wasn’t a surprise. In fact, it had become a pattern of the two of you on nights when he ended up staying the night for you two to rushedly get dressed together, throwing insults at each other for being dumb enough not to get up sooner.
And if Seokmin thought it was odd when you were late for once, he didn’t say so.
“Hey! Wait up!”
You turned around to see your one of your co-star’s Cha Eunwoo rushing up to you. You dipped your head in greeting.
“Oh hey!” You greeted back. “What’s up? I thought you had a few more scenes to shoot today?”
“Oh, I do, I just wanted to ask you something first.”
You nodded, waiting for him to respond. He swallowed hard, his eyes darting away from you.
“Well, I was just wondering... If you aren’t doing anything tomorrow, we do have the day off so maybe…” He risked a look back up at you. “You would want to go get food with me.”
You were surprised by the question.
“Oh, as frie-”
“On a date,” Eunwoo clarified.
You laughed as if it was a joke.
“Aren’t you worried that Seokmin will get mad?” You jested. Eunwoo just stared at you with a blank expression on his face.
“You and Seokmin dating is just rumors,” he said bluntly. “I don’t want us to be rumor. I really like you and I want to get to know you better.”
You weren’t really sure what to say. It wasn’t liked you had never been asked out before. It wouldn’t be the first time that you went on a date with a costar. You didn’t mind dating people; Even if it didn’t end up taking you very far.
It would be uncharacteristic of you to say no.
But even so… Your thoughts turned to Jihoon.
You wanted to say no.
“Tomorrow?” You asked him, pretending to ponder it. “I… I suppose I have the time.”
Eunwoo’s face lit up in delight.
“Great! I’ll see you then!”
You weren’t really sure what it was but something about this date wasn’t sitting right with you. As you got ready, and you did your makeup all that you could think about was how badly you didn’t want to go.
You tried to convince yourself that it was because you didn’t want to get caught. You hid your hair beneath your hat and chose a pair of sunglasses and a face mask to help hide your identity. You wore clothes in the back of your closet that you couldn’t find any pictures of yourself ever wearing, you even borrowed a bag from your friend so it wouldn’t be similar.
But even still, something just wasn’t sitting right with you.
You glanced at your phone.
Normally this was the point where you would text Jihoon and tell him where you were going.
You picked up your phone sucking in a sharp breath.
Nothing going on today :) See you tomorrow bright and early! Tell the boys I say hi.
You stared at the words.
Why were you lying?
Before you could think it over anymore you sent it, you thought maybe the more time that passed between when you sent the text and when you met up with Eunwoo the better you would feel.
“Hi, sorry I’m late.”
Eunwoo looked up at you, a smile on his lips.
“No that’s okay.”
He tapped his hat.
“Nice disguise. You’re unrecognizable.”
The statement didn’t calm you down. You sat down with him and offered him a smile.
“This place is really nice. I’ve never been here before.”
“It’s not very popular with non-idols,” Eunwoo explained. “And the staff is very private. It’s popular for other idols to bring dates here.”
You nodded, and picked up the menu in front of you.
“What’s good?”
The conversation between you and Eunwoo came easy, that wasn’t really surprising to you. Part of the reason why it would have been so unreasonable for you to say no to Eunwoo’s request was because you two did get along well. And if someone had asked you a few weeks ago you would have said that you were completely down to go on a date with him.
But now… Why did your thoughts keep turning to Jihoon?
You were so nervous. Every time Eunwoo spoke you thought about Jihoon. You kept glancing around expecting to see him there. You were wondering what he was doing, if he was suspicious of the fact that you weren’t doing anything that day.
“Hey, you seem like your head is somewhere else.”
An apologetic smile spread over your lips.
“Sorry, I just…” You trailed off, trying to figure out what to say to him, but he didn’t wait for an excuse.
“You’re secretly dating someone else… Aren’t you?”
Your eyes widened.
“What? No-”
“It’s okay,” Eunwoo said with a soft laugh. “I can tell. You keep thinking about them.”
You weren’t sure what to say or how to argue his statement.
“It really isn’t like that,” you assured. “I’m not dating anyone. I mean I have been thinking about someone but it’s-”
“Oh, you haven’t realized you like them yet.”
Eunwoo’s words should have meant nothing to you but instead they reverberated through your soul.
Suddenly, everything made sense. The reason why you invited him everywhere with you, and why you were so mad when he missed an event.
How long would it have taken you to realize that you liked him if Eunwoo hadn’t said anything in the first place?
“I…” You trailed off. “I thought…”
You didn’t even know what you had been thinking before. Why would it matter if Jihoon knew you were going on this date? It would have been better if he had come, his pictures always spun you in a positive light.
“It’s really fine. I appreciate you coming out with me. Just… You should tell that person how you feel tonight.”
Confusion crossed your face.
“Why?”
He gestured behind you.
“We were followed.”
-
“Look, I can explain,” you said. You hadn’t seen Jihoon in twelve hours, and they had been the scariest twelve hours of your life. You hadn’t even been sure he would show up today. You had sort of thought he wouldn’t ever want to see you again.
“What’s there to explain?” Jihoon asked. “You just went on a date”
He wasn’t even looking at you. You felt your frustration rising.
“I didn’t really want to go on the date,” you replied pointedly. You tried to catch his eyes but again he moved away.
“Why are you telling me?” He asked you. Finally, his eyes rose to yours and for just a minute you two stared at one another.
“Are we really going to do this?”
“What?”
“Pretend like we don’t like each other.”
Jihoon didn’t look away and the way that he stood, completely frozen, for just a moment made you think that he hadn’t even heard you but then a soft shade of pink spread over his cheeks, and you realized that he had heard you just fine.
You scoffed and looked away from him.
“Call me when you get your head on straight.”
You weren’t sure where your confidence had come from. Twenty-four hours ago, you hadn’t even realized that you liked Jihoon. Now you were confident that he liked you too and you were mad that he was pretending like he didn’t.
“You and Jihoon fighting?”
You groaned loudly, dropping your head on the table in front of you.
“Shut up, we aren’t fighting.”
“He’s not here,” Seokmin replied pointedly.
“He has a life!” You protested. “He can’t be everywhere that I am.”
You didn’t look back up at Seokmin so he held the silence for a little bit.
“I’ve never seen you so worked up over someone before.”
You lifted your head to glare at Seokmin.
“I’m not worked up!”
Seokmin raised an eyebrow skeptically.
“You know couples fight all the time. Jihoon will come back over to you.”
“We aren’t a couple, just shut up, won’t you?”
Seokmin smiled knowingly and shrugged off your aggression.
“Okay, okay, let’s talk script.”
Life without Jihoon was hell and not because of the fact that he wasn’t around. His actual absence wasn’t that different from him actually being there. You only didn’t really hang out with him a little bit more than you usually would but even so you were just angry.
All the time, for no reason you were just angry.
You felt bad, you really did but your temper was so short. You didn’t want to get your makeup touched up; it just irritated your skin. You kept forgetting your lines, literally nothing would stick.
You were annoyed when you had to talk to fans (even though it didn’t show) and you complained to your manager over the phone at all the shows you had booked and everytime you saw someone with a camera pointed at you, you wanted to scream.
“You really let him get to you huh?” Minghao asked. You shot him a glare.
“I don’t know what you are talking about.”
“Don’t come over, I’m sick,” Minghao mimicked. You sharpened your look. “Seriously, you look fine. You never miss out on a hang out with me.”
“So?” You demanded. “I can not want to hang out with you every once in a while, you aren’t the most amazing person on the planet Minghao, the world doesn’t revolve around-”
Before you could even finish took you had your eyes pinched clothes and your hand in the air.
“Sorry, sorry,” you apologized. “I don’t mean that I’m just- Ugh, I’m just so angry and I don’t even know why.”
That was a bold faced lie, you knew exactly why you were angry. You were angry because you hadn’t heard from Jihoon since you told him to figure things out. How long did it take someone to admit they liked someone else? It wasn’t like your feelings came out of nowhere. It wasn’t like you hadn’t practically already been dating. Sure, maybe he was riding off of the waves of you going on a date with someone else.
By all technical means you were the one who messed up first. You broke an unspoken rule that you knew that you were breaking by agreeing to go on that date with Eunwoo (even if at the time you hadn’t really understood what the rule was).
He just- he should have figured it out by now! He wasn’t working, you hadn’t seem him since the incident. He had so much time to just sit and think about what had happened. Work out his feelings. Come to one of your events and catch your gaze when you least expected it. Give you a small smile and offer to take your picture and then you two could just go back to the way things used to be knowing that now you were…
But what if that never happened?
“You know you don’t have to keep it all to yourself,” Minghao prodded lightly.
You did have to keep it all to yourself though. He didn’t get it.
You had gone your whole life indifferent on this whole relationship thing. You never were desperate for a relationship. You never had crushes our felt any extreme feelings for anyone past friendship.
And yet when you thought about Jihoon never showing up at your door again, your heart felt like it was made of cement.
“It’s really nothing,” you responded. “It’ll pass.”
When you said that you hadn’t really meant it at all. You didn’t really feel optimistic that you would see Jihoon again. A few days felt like years, and you figured that he had decided you weren’t someone he needed in life.
But to your surprise when you walked up to your house late that night you found yourself staring at no one other than Lee Jihoon, sitting at your doorstep.
“Hey,” he said.
You stared at Jihoon and it was like nothing had changed, like no time had passed, like you two had never fought at all. That weight on your shoulders was gone. You felt like a feather.
“Hi,” you murmured. You stared at him, unsure of what to feel. You thought you would have yelled at him for taking so long, but the words just died on your tongue.
“Can I…” He cleared his throat awkwardly. “Can I come in?”
You nodded and began to fumble with your keys.
“Yeah, please.”
He walked into your place and you followed him, locking the door behind the two of you.
“What’d you eat today?”
You sighed.
“Jihoon what do you want?” You asked him.
“I’m sorry, okay?” He said. “I know I’m stupid. I didn’t want you on that stupid date because I thought…”
He sighed and looked to the floor.
“It’s hard with you being who you are to know if you really like me that’s all.”
“I basically admitted it,” you replied. He looked up at you and you could hear his thoughts as if they were a reflection of your own.
Basically, hadn’t been enough.
You reached out your hand to Jihoon.
“Hey, this might sound really dumb, but I really like you,” you said softly, a ghost of a smile crossing your lips. Jihoon took your hand, but a confused look crossed his own face.
“I thought we were pretending not to like each other.”
A laugh left your lips and you smacked Jihoon’s arm. He laughed too.
“I’m sorry,” he said. “I like you too you know.”
“I don’t want you to date other people,” you added, the smile on your face dimming a bit.
“I don’t want you to date other people either,” he agreed. You pulled his hand so that he grew a little closer to you.
“Good, so we agree. No dating other people,” you said. You pretended to contemplate that. “Well, if we don’t date other people, we aren’t dating at all.”
“Yeah, that would suck,” Jihoon agreed, pretending to be really troubled by what you two were discussing. “I guess- I mean if we wanted to date but not other people, we could just date each other.”
You blew air out of your mouth.
“Yeah, I mean that seems like the only logical way to go,” you agreed. As you two spoke you two closed the difference between one another, moving until there wasn’t anywhere else to go.
“And if we’re dating, I guess… I mean we would have to kiss.”
“Since we’re dating,” Jihoon agreed. “We have to.”
Before either of you could say more you two closed the distance between one another. You two pressed impossibly close to one another, your hand rose to Jihoon’s hair and he held you as tightly as he good as you two explored each other’s mouths for the first time. You two kissed each other like you were air that you two needed to breath, and when finally you two pulled away you were both gasping, unable to pull away any further from each other then physically necessary.
“Are we going to tell anyone?” Jihoon asked. You shook your head.
“We shouldn’t.”
He nodded.
“You’re right, we shouldn’t.”
You looked down at your watch, feeling yourself growing more and more impatient as you looked into the crowd. This stupid red carpet event had started twenty minutes ago and he still wasn’t here.
“Looking for your boyfriend?”
You looked over at Seokmin a glare ghosting your face.
“He’s not my boyfriend,” you replied pointedly. “How many times do I have to tell you he isn’t my boyfriend.”
“It doesn’t really matter how much you say it,” Minghao pointed out. “We all know you two are dating.”
You rolled your eyes.
“As if I would actually cheat on Seokmin.”
“You cheat on Seokmin with me like every week,” Mingyu tacked on. You groaned and raised your hand to your hair, brushing it out of your face.
“You are all idiots.”
“And that’s why you’re dating Jihoon and not us. Simple.”
You turned to Minghao, fully intending to yell at him, but before you could do so, he smiled sweetly and pointed behind you.
“Smile.”
You turned around, your whole body relaxing when you saw Jihoon standing in the crowd. His hair was brushed back, and he was in a button-up and nice pants. A good outfit considering you two were going on a date after the event.
You smiled and reached blindly to pull the guys around you closer to you.
“Oh! Yeah, smile!” You said eagerly. All three of the men did as you asked, and you all posed for Jihoon for a few seconds.
“Funny how the sight of your not-a-boyfriend friend turns that frown into a smile.”
You shrugged.
“What can I say? He’s the paparazzi.”
They all groaned.
“You hate the paparazzi.”
“I don’t hate Jihoon.”
And no matter how much you and Jihoon denied dating your close friends all knew that you were. So, years later, when it finally did came out. No one was really surprised.
And you and Jihoon were as happy as you could manage to be.
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