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sinnomel · 7 months

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Absolutely Peachy

Pairing: Gale x f!Tav

Summary: Tav and Gale's conversation after Elminster's visit goes great. Slight angst but it ends cute imo.

A/N: First post breaking my very long writing hiatus to write about Gale because there aren't enough fics. Let me know if you'd like more one shots cause I think the world needs more Gale ( ´ ▿ ` ) - Sin

There was nothing in this world that could’ve prepared Tav for the surprise encounter with Elminster. She was hoping that she could meet the esteemed wizard under happier circumstances, perhaps when this damned tadpole was out from between her eyes, attempting to command the helm that is her brain.

The wise old man was jolly at first, introducing himself to the rest of the group, reprimanding Gale for his lack of decorum and grace. Tav thought nothing of it, inviting the elder to their camp, despite Gale’s scowl, awaiting for Elminster’s true reason for appearing before them in the shadow lands.

However, after the food and wine, Elminster’s visage seemed less friendly, less warm. His words were cold, concise, and fatal. Gale was to gain Mystra’s forgiveness on one condition - he was to essentially explode, destroying the curse within him and everything in a large surrounding area. It could rid them of the Absolute, of course. It could bring death to a lot of people if he decided to do this in or near Baldur’s Gate. Usually, this would be a decision that the group would push past, finding the cure for the tadpoles being their priority as the clock was ticking on them becoming mindflayers. However, this revelation had Tav’s heart sinking to the ground below her.

Tav had become particularly close to Gale, finding her feeling solidified after spending time with him in between camping and the battlefield. A complete accident on her part. There was something charming about the man’s rants, how his eyes lit up explaining the Weave, talking about his cat and how he would spend his days rummaging through the literature that covered the walls of his tower in Waterdeep. Tav never intended to fall for Gale, yet here she was.

It was clear as day what her thoughts on the matter were, as Gale had asked if everything was alright once Elminster and everyone else had retired to their respective tents and bedrolls. Tav was beside herself, “Am I alright? Absolutely peachy Gale.” Gale’s eyes held a hint of sadness as she continued. “I’m definitely alright. I’m wonderful knowing that Mystra herself has offered you forgiveness but only under the guise of the afterlife,” she spat. “Tav. I understand your frustration. Trust me, I too am frustrated with Mystra. But I can no longer satiate the hunger of the Orb that rests inside of me. There is nothing that I can do. This is my fate,” he explained, his hand twitching, as if involuntarily reaching out for her hand but stopping himself because she’s upset. He can only assume that his touch would only lead to more anger and hurt. If only he knew how much Tav yearned for his touch, how much she would fantasize it under the stars, sometimes without her knowing how she got to that topic of thinking.

“Since when have we ever listened to fate?” Tav asked, her gaze off towards the right where the water seemed to stand still and the only sound accompanying them was the soft crackle of the makeshift fire off towards the center of camp. “We have tadpoles that threaten our very existence. Every hour that passes, we teeter on the brink of becoming mind flayers. How long have we traveled together and not a single tentacle has sprouted?” she asked. Tav was breathing heavy, the conversation weighing on her physically. She couldn’t comprehend why he was giving in to this demand - his life was on the line and would he so easily throw it away? However, in that instance, Tav realized that this is coming from a selfish place. In this moment, Tav realized that the reason she was so uncharacteristically upset about Gale throwing his life away for the sake of Mystra’s forgiveness and to satiate the Orb maintaining its nest in his chest is because she has grown to love the wizard of Waterdeep.

Perhaps her eyes had given Gale indication that she had realized something, as he asked “Tav, what’s-“ “Do not ask me what is wrong Gale. I fear I realized something a bit too late. I do not wish to talk about it right now…it isn’t appropriate.” “Is it about me?” He intercepted.

Tav stumbled and said nothing. Her gaze was now on the dirt ground, her heart pounding out of her rib cage. She was silent for a beat, but Gale was patient. If she was willing to speak, he was more than willing to listen - it would be ironic if she listened to his rambling and he couldn’t do the same. Tav, despite just saying that she didn’t wish to speak on the matter, could not stop herself.

“I’m acting out of emotion rather than logic, Gale,” Tav started. Her eyes slowly made her way up to his own brown ones, making this conversation harder. She could feel her heart changing rhythm upon meeting his gaze, how her body yearned to be held in his embrace in this moment, how she craved a chaste kiss.

Gale seemed to put two and two together, or rather, what he thought was two and two.

“I know this seems very obscene and I may never be granted forgiveness. Trust me, I don’t wish to die. But Mystra wants to rid the world of the Absolute. My demise might very well be the only thing that could stop-“

“I love you.”

Gale was taken aback and fell silent, completely off guard by the three sweet words he would often dream of hearing from Tav’s lips. Perhaps he had imagined it? He dared ask, hoping his imagination, or the amalgamation of his heart beating so thunderously in his chest wouldn’t disrupt the orb.

“Pardon?” Gale asked, his eyebrows furrowed as he took a step toward her. “I love you Gale. I don’t want you to succumb to that entitled goddess for my own selfish reasons,” Tav started, unable to stop her words from coming out. If not now, she felt, when? Who knew when Gale would just decide to commit to Mystra’s possible false promises.

“There is always another way. We’ve constantly found alternatives to problems. Please…don’t go through with this. Do you not wish to live?” the appointed leader of the group asked the man before her. She could feel the warm accumulation of tears threatening to pour over the edge of her tear ducts, the shakiness of her breath not helping her.

Gale was speechless. He didn’t know what to do. He always painted this picture of how he wanted to profess his love to Tav - a beautiful sunset in Waterdeep whilst both of them spent the hours in his tower, two glasses of wine served out for them and Tara, his cat in his company, along with the countless books he seems to have. The piano would play songs from their travels to incite conversation of nostalgia, how they felt in those moments, laughing about their perilous travels. And when the sun hit the golden hour, the sky would be adorned with pink, orange and purple clouds, he would place his forehead on hers, his gaze focused on her soft lips and utter…

“I love you.”

But they were here, in this camp, the conditions of his profession of love not met. Perhaps this was how it was supposed to be because he wouldn’t make it back to Waterdeep. Perhaps he won't live past a couple nights from now.

“Gale…Say something,” Tav said, her voice cracking, two tears escaping their captivity, trailing down her cheeks. Gale couldn’t think of any words. Instead he chose to react, slowly closing the space between them. His hands made their way up to her cheeks, softly wiping away the stray tears. He closed his eyes and took a deep breath. He was torn. He very badly wanted to rid himself of the Orb and obtain Mystra’s forgiveness, but on the other, he had Tav, who had seemingly loved him unconditionally. None of his magic was necessary to woo her. Not his history of being a prodigy of magic, not his mastery of spells, not his conduction of the weave. Just him.

Gale couldn’t help but close the space between himself and Tav, placing a soft kiss upon her lips. In this moment, he forgot all about Mystra and her empty promises, the orb, all of it. All that occupied his mind was Tav and how soft her lips felt against his own. He pulled away, staying close.

“I love you too.”

#gale dekarios #gale of waterdeep #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #gale x tav #gale bg3 #gale x reader #bg3 fanfiction #gale dekarios x reader #baldurs gate 3 x reader #Tav

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bi-bard · 2 years

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Selfishness - Dream of the Endless Imagine (The Sandman)

Title: Selfishness

Pairing: Dream of the Endless X Reader

Word Count: 1,172 words

Warning(s): feelings of jealousy, mention of child death, involves part two of episode 11

Summary: The time has come for Morpheus and Calliope to finally meet again. To confront the loss that they faced. (Y/n) tries to only be supportive of their partner during a clearly challenging time, but not everything is so easily achieved.

Author's Note: This is only so late because I had to wait to watch the bonus episode until the dogs went for a walk because they kept barking at all the animated cats.

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Maybe it was the way they were standing when I first saw Morpheus and Calliope that day.

She had been a mere few steps from him as they spoke.

It's not a position that anyone wants to see their partner in.

Yeah. That was a logical reason to feel jealous. Someone just gets a few steps too close to the person that was only meant to be that close to you. It was reasonable for that to tickle me the wrong way.

Morpheus walked away from her as soon as he saw me. It should've comforted me more than it did.

"(Y/n)," he said. "How are you?"

"I'm okay," I replied before looking over his shoulder. "Who is that?"

"Come with me," he held out his hand. I grabbed it and let him lead me back over to where she stood. "This is Calliope. Calliope, this is (Y/n). My partner."

"Hello," she nodded her head at me.

"Hi," I replied. "How do you know each other?"

"I was Morpheus's wife."

I almost felt dumb for asking. Like it was something that I should've known.

"We lost our son."

I felt like a punch was landed to my gut. He hadn't gone into detail about his past partners. I hadn't asked.

"This is the first time we have spoken in a very long time," Morpheus explained.

Her eyes seemed to linger on him. I tried to ignore that idea. I was just learning about their history. I wanted to believe that this was just my brain trying to

"I... I should give you both some privacy," I said quietly.

"(Y/n)-"

"It's fine," I promised. "I'll spend some time in the dreams that are meant for me."

He nodded before leaning over to kiss my forehead. "Sleep well, my love."

I just grinned before walking away.

I didn't stay in the dream realm. I decided to wake up instead.

I stayed awake for the rest of the night. I stared out my window at the stars. It seemed to only let my stupid feelings fester.

I spent my day worried.

I busied myself with small tasks. Vacuuming, dusting, laundry, dishes. I did everything I could to take my mind off of what happened in the dream realm.

I felt like an idiot more than I felt angry. Jealousy had never been a normal trait in me. I knew that Morpheus had been with people before me. His stories were always secret.

And here I was, upset over him meeting his ex-wife and grieving his son. How selfish did I have to be to truly think like that?

I was still focused on the event as I got ready for bed.

I would've given anything to not be stuck in that headspace. But I couldn't shake it. And I absolutely despised that.

There was a knock on my door just as I was ready to curl under my covers and pretend that I was trying to fall asleep.

I paused for a moment before quickly walking over and pulling the door open.

"(Y/n)," Morpheus said. "Can I come in?"

I nodded, stepping to the side.

I slowly shut the door behind him. I crossed my arms over my chest awkwardly.

"You left very suddenly," he pointed out. "Are you okay?"

I nodded again. "Yeah. I just wanted to give you both some privacy."

There was a pause before he spoke again. "You are not a very good liar."

I sighed and shook my head.

"(Y/n)," Morpheus stepped forward. "All I want is the truth."

I looked away from him, ashamed of myself.

"Please."

"I was... jealous."

I whispered the last word. Like it was some kind of forbidden thing. The feeling that must not be named. Morpheus furrowed his eyebrows. I bit my tongue for a second. What could he have been confused about?

"I knew that you had been with other people," I said, looking down at the floor. "Logically, it would be childish of me to believe that you remained completely alone until you found me. And I know that nothing was happening. I just can't... I can't stop it."

It couldn't stop that pit in my stomach that felt like it was baring its teeth. It was ready to tear me apart as soon as I turned my back to it. It was infecting me. My heart and my mind. It offered more nightmares than the dreaming realm ever could imagine.

"(Y/n)."

I continued looking down at the floor.

"My love, look at me, please," he mumbled.

My love. What a sweet name. One that I didn't deserve.

His hand cupped the side of my face, carefully forcing me to meet his gaze.

"How can I bring you comfort," he asked. "Tell me and I'll do it."

"It's not your fault," I shook my head, causing his hand to fall from my face. "I trust you. I know that I can."

"And that means that I cannot help you?"

"What are you going to do? My mind is playing tricks on me. I can do nothing but wait it out. It is not your responsibility to deal with my selfishness."

"You are not selfish."

"Morpheus-"

"No," he stopped me. "I will not listen to this. If anyone here is to blame, it's me. I should have told you about Calliope coming. I betrayed your trust by not."

I let out a sigh.

"I'm so sorry, my love," his hands cupped the sides of my face. A grin crawled onto my face, which seemed to trigger Morpheus to form a small grin of his own. "I love you. More than I could describe with words."

"I love you too, Morpheus."

He leaned forward and pressed his lips to mine. My hands reached up to cover his as I kissed him back. I had always known him to be passionate, but this felt more like desperation. A search for reassurance. He needed to know that I was not upset with him. In the hopes of providing that comfort, my hands moved to the front of the fabric on his clothes, pulling him closer to me.

He pulled away slowly, pressing a few more slow kisses to my lips before he spoke up, "You are my everything. And I will spend eternity showing you that."

"Then go see her," I begged.

"We've discussed all we can," he explained. "The grieving may never truly end, but the two of us are at peace with each other. It's why it took me so long to find you."

I let out a relieved sigh. All those hours that I spent thinking that he was upset with me. All those hours that I had been dreading this interaction. I was fine with them now. I could accept that they were essential.

"Will you stay here tonight," I asked quietly.

"As long as you'll have me."

I smiled and kissed him again.

I wonder if he knew that I would have him there for all eternity if he let me.

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blinkpen · 10 months

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I hope I'm using the ask feature correctly because I've never used it before but!!! I've been racking my brain for the names of some characters of yours who were like... Little entertainer gremlins that fed off the negative energy of all the parents forced to slog through their shows?

You're thinking of The Snuggywuffles!

Here's them and a little bit about each of them under the cut, though there's not too much to them; they really only exist when I need something to drop in and Annoy people in a no-stakes B plot

Weadership the leader, obviously; their onstage and offstage behaviors are surprisingly consistent, being just as affable, serene and willing to offer guidance to their subordinates as they are to offer lessons and stories to the children they entertain. the one who is least likely to go out of their way to be annoying on purpose, and as such, is able to have sincere conversations with the parents of attendees, but is also the one most prone to lock their uncomfortably vacuous eyes with yours and say some cryptic ominous-ass shit to you for no damn reason.

Wadybug was planned to be "The Girl One(TM)!" before marketing suggested at least one more, to which Wollipop voluntered; to note, however, is that Wadybug is the only snuggywuffle who actively requests others maintain she/her pronouns after being introduced to them even in settings where they're all in their horrible True Forms again (the other snuggywuffles are entirely indifferent on theirs but respect her wishes); she basically went "what's that, mortal? oooh, a gender you say? sounds delightful, don't mind if i do! hmmm i like this 'girl' concept of which you speak" when the CLoA are in her line of sight, she leans into this and acts the most obnoxiously cutesy wutesy lovey dovey syrupy sweet to make them cringe

Wimburger very quiet when performing, almost never chimes in verbally; the 'silent bob' of the group during shows, acting as both drummer during music and the **provider of rimshots for Wimshot's comedy. offstage, Wimburger talks much more, and provides rimshots for his own jokes, but if there are no kids around, his dialogue is frequently so profane all that comes out is long streams of uninterrupted censor bleeps that the audience cannot parse for the life of them. is otherwise mellow, even offstage, never taking initiative to provoke the CLoA, but will swiftly Yes And the others' antics once they begin

**this dynamic is intentionally confusing and causes parents to have to buy more toys after misunderstanding their children about who they wanted

Wimshot the clown, the jokester, the prankster, the goofball, of course! does goofy voices and is not above potty humor; parents find him profoundly obnoxious, but what can you do, the kids love it! the G-rated 'jay' to Wimburger's 'silent bob' and a zany scheme of his is often the inciting incident to kick off a show or establish its theme. unsurprisingly, is often the first to start trying to grate the CLoA's patience. his quips become less kid comedy focused when off the clock, but unlike Wimburger, it's dry snark of topics kids simply wouldn't know to find funny, like boasting about one's tax evasion

Wollipop to parents, she is the biggest shill for merch, to kids, she's the spunky one who, with her power to be just ever so slightly rude and selfish, sometimes instigates the closest thing there ever is to interpersonal conflict in Snuggywuffle shows (when it's not one of Wimshot's pranks). she shines more when not performing, as this dial cranks up to being the most openly rude and antagonistic of the bunch. she will latch onto any pet peeve she finds, hoping situations will escalate to violence, motivated by a lack of satisfaction with the "diet suffering" of simply being annoying, and wants an excuse. sometimes, Weadership lets her have one. a little violence. as a treat.

#mog art #ask x #the snuggywuffles #these damn sugar coated gremlins #wollipop is DEFINITELY going like 'uhuh. uhuh. yeah. yeah. definitely. murk him. uhuh. byeee!'

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shakingparadigm · 1 month

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Hello it's the anon who said about the Ivan collar thing 😭. I come with some little brainrots.

Mizi sang "Black Sorrow" as a solo cover for unrequited love, with Sua being dead.

But the cover made me think. What if somehow Sua, in a way, is the Till to Mizi's Ivan. What if Sua, even if she loves Mizi back, never really fully indulged in it.

Specially in "My Clematis" where Mizi regarded Sua as a god, all I can imagine is Sua who always kept a perfect image in front of everyone including Mizi. Sua who never really showed her vulnerability to Mizi even though the other girl bared her entire heart. Just the idea that she somewhat kept a mask of pretend, letting Mizi be as blissful as it can be before the inevitable.

Aka tragic Yuri breaking my heart that Sua had to keep her own planned death a secret from her beloved because of one (and only) little selfish wish, which is to let Mizi live.

(Also sorry for spamming asks this frequently! I've been going through ALNST hyperfixations and your blog have a great humor.)

DONT EVER BE SORRY FOR SPAMMING ASKS! they make me really happy! Thank you so much! Sorry it takes me a while to answer them sometimes, my brains been pretty messy as of late, and I keep losing track of time.

That's a really interesting perspective to see it from. Regarding their relationship as a whole, I actually think it was the opposite. Sua only ever opened up to Mizi, and to everyone else she was timid and closed off. That was one of the reasons why their bond was so strong, they clung to each other. Sua retreats into herself, avoiding others in an attempt to protect her soft-hearted feelings, only sticking to Mizi because she loved and trusted her most. Mizi loved Sua like a dog because she was a cure for her loneliness back when Mizi felt isolated and afraid of being away from her home. They gave each other everything, which is why the thought of Mizi dying filled Sua with so much anguish that she'd rather die herself.

But if we're talking about the few weeks leading up to the first round of ALNST (you probably meant this, my bad) then definitely. She spent the last of her life counting down the hours, putting on a brave face and trying to make the remainder of her time with Mizi the best it could possibly be. I assume it was Mizi that proposed a tie. Sua played along, or maybe even believed in it at first, because ALIEN STAGE was something that they both looked forward to their whole lives, something that was held over their heads like a reward instead of the death sentence it actually was. Sua most likely started planning her death after she realized the possible consequences. The thing is, according to the MiziSua interview, a tie had never happened before in ALIEN STAGE. Which means that we don't know what happens if a tie actually does occur. It seems unlikely that ALIEN STAGE, which derives its stakes from the deaths of the contestants, would let both go forward thanks to a tie. I mean, if that happened, then everyone else would just decide to tie in order to keep each other alive, and where's the fun in a deathless season? Where's the stakes in that? It goes against everything ALIEN STAGE is built on. If a tie did happen, they most likely would have forced a situation where one of them would have to die anyway. It just lengthens the process and makes it more complicated. I like to think that, at some point, Sua realized this. If they tie, there's no guarantee that they both stay alive. In a tie situation, they might even randomly pick the contestant to be eliminated. The circumstances are uncertain and unpredictable, and within those hypotheticals Mizi dying is always an option. But if Sua adjusts her own performance level without Mizi knowing, she can ensure that the only person who has to die is herself. As stated before, Sua is soft-hearted. Her blank demeanor is indeed a mask for overwhelming feelings that lie beneath the surface. Mizi worships Sua, but Sua loves Mizi an incredible amount too. She must have loved her so much that Ivan, an exceedingly observant asshole (affectionate), picked up on it and was able to discern her intentions. Ivan criticizes Sua for choosing to sacrifice herself, calling her out for "playing hero", but most importantly, accusing her of dying only because she herself cannot handle the pain of losing someone she loves. She cannot fathom living a life where Mizi is dead, so she "runs away" from it by any means possible. He accuses her of being a hypocrite because the future that pains her to think about is one that she is about to inflict on her beloved. Is it an act of love or an act of selfishness? Is Ivan twisting her genuinely pure intentions and chastising her into believing that it makes her a bad person? Despite being hit with this crisis and crying over it, Sua decides to sacrifice herself anyway. And her happy mask was so impressive that Mizi failed to notice she was digging her own grave.

Sua not "indulging" in her love for Mizi is actually really interesting, and I can see how it can come off that way because Mizi is much more affectionate. But I actually think otherwise!

I think it's not really that she refused to indulge in her love, rather she indulged in it so much that she died to ensure she'd never have to live without it.

#i had to delete an entire paragraph just to not yap too much but i completely agree that till and sua are alike.#they are the 'gods' and the life of their other half basically revolve around them #but while till might not indulge in his affections for ivan #sua fully indulges in her love for mizi because its all she has #it's really interesting how sua and till are both sensitive according to the Patreon yet the way they cope with that is different.#till explodes outward and sua retreats within #SORRY I CANT EVER ANSWER AN ASK NORMALLY I ALWAYS HAVE TO TYPE THE LONGEST MOST UNRELATED SHIT #Thank you for the ask!! i really appreciate and i find your take very valid and intriguing actually #alnst #alien stage #mizisua #asks

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ryanthel0ser · 7 months

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Care to share some stuff about Howls Moving Castle? I haven’t been able to fully comprehend Howls dynamic/style/personality yet.

FINALLY I CAN ANSWER THIS ASK (midterm season is awful)

While book and movie Howl are very different I do think they share a lot of core traits that define both as Howl instead of it being two different characters.

Both Howls have a level of mischievousness to them and like to have fun at times when everyone else is distressed. We don't get to see it as much in the movie but the two most prominent moments are when they escaped Suliman and when Howl takes down the ship in the flower garden. You can see him making fun out of the situation and causing trouble in a way that feels akin to someone who would pull pranks or tease. This is inline with his book counterpart who we see get to be a menace and constantly pester and annoy Sophie, doing various antics both plot relevant and "I just want to be a menace today."

Both Howl's also have a lot of heart and care for others, although book Howl does not show it as much like his movie counterpart. The whole reason the pact is made between Calcifer and Howl was because Howl pitied the shooting stars because they died upon impact with the ground, and we see him take in people from the street like Sophie and Markl (or Michael in the book). The movie though has Howl's affection being more open and clear to the audience because we don't get to spend time just with the characters like we do in the book, book Howl puts on the "I don't care I'm gonna go be a womanizer now" front but by the end of the book when it's revealed he is in love with Sophie and has been his actions become much more obvious.

In terms of vanity, Howl is a vain person when it comes to his own appearance. We only get to see it through his hair freak out and his fashion in the movie, but in the book we get a lot more of it especially when he's trying to be a womanizer. Book Sophie in the second book Castle in the Sky states "And he's sly and selfish and vain as a peacock and cowardly, and you can't pin him down to anything" (which she doesn't say out of malice for him in the moment, they're literally looking for Howl in this scene and her and Howl already have a kid) so in the book it's undeniable. However, in the movie, the Howl we see is much more noble (something the author even stated) and we only get that one moment when it came to Suliman that shows any level of cowardice from Howl.

Overall, the major difference between the movie and book Howl is that book Howl is very clearly a bad boy womanizer with a heart of gold while movie Howl is more of a mysterious guy who's a little bad but still has that heart of gold. I do think that we could've seen more of the Howl from the book if the movie was longer and we got those months Sophie was just living with them, but that probably would've killed the animators and Miyazaki movies don't tend to have moments like that in the film.

Both Howls are down bad for Sophie from the very early on though and I think it's safe to say he knew Sophie was the old woman in the movie from the start like he does in the book. In the movie, he's been looking for Sophie because of what she tells him when she goes back in time and I believe that not long after he starts to get to know her as old lady Sophie he falls for her (the scene where he watches her sleep literally has a track called "Unspoken Love" so he had to be falling by then). In the book, he sees her and thinks she's pretty when they first meet but it takes a bit for him to fall for her once she's old Sophie and then he falls hard and going back through the book it becomes very clear that he did when you look at his actions instead of his behavior with Sophie. Him and Sophie in the book have the "arguing is their love language" dynamic.

I hope this was sufficient, feel free to ask more, this was what I could pull from the top of my very exhausted brain but I know I could delve a little bit more into Howl himself, I just need some leading questions to get the gears going :]

#responsibilities are taking me away from what's important and that's infodumping #the people need me this exam can wait /j #hmc #howls moving castle #sorry this took so long to respond adsjlf #i am currently writing this while trying to to fall over and go to sleep #college is no joke yall it seems easy but secretly drains you askljfd #howl's moving castle #howl pendragon #howl jenkins #howl jenkins pendragon #<- nearly forgot to add these aksjdf

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fkevin073 · 4 months

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so i finally watched TBOSAS, and as someone who didn't read the TBOSAS book, i'm going all movie based here to ask you about that cabin scene-- do you think snow would have killed lucy gray there? i mean, he did started shooting later, but that was because she put the doubt of "nooo, oF cOuRsE i WoN't TeLL" and i feel like that's when his trust ON HER was broken?

idk where i'm going with this, i guess i just wanted to hear your opinion on it. i honestly think if movie!lucy had just kept quiet in the cabin, movie!snow wouldn't have done anything? (anything to harm her, that is. i definitely think he would go back to go to district 2)

ahh welcome to the TBOSAS brain rot! it's a fun place to be lol

but u see, what you just described is exactly my biggest issue with the movie. like don't get me wrong, everyone in the cast killed it, and I love the movie overall, but the book 100% helped you realize just how selfish, deranged and paranoid Coriolanus really is. like he's not totally evil, but you see his flaws very, very prominently, and know that even if he does love Lucy gray, he doesn't love her well or right. the movie doesn't give you that insight, which makes sense considering we don't have that endless access to his thoughts like we do in the book, but in the movie they do this weird thing of almost making him better? or making him seem more like a tragic villain? like the book makes it 100% clear he did not truly care about Sejanus. When he cries post the hanging in the book, he cries because he thinks he's next, not because he feels genuine remorse for what did to sejanus. The movie makes it seem like he was genuinely convinced sejanus would be fine and his dad would buy him out of trouble; the book makes it clear that isn't truly a priority for him.

this speaks mainly to your question: do you think snow would have killed Lucy gray? in the book, the answer is 100% yes. I've already spoken about this with the amazing @indistinctmumblings, but in the book we already know how suspicious and paranoid snow is. he was already ready to ditch her the instant he saw the guns. book Coriolanus is ready to turn on people the moment he realizes he can't control them, even if he loves them. the movie changes coriolanus in that way, and while I think it's effective in its own way - makes his fall seem a bit more tragic because we like Coriolanus more, it infuriates me because in the woods scene it almost makes Lucy gray seem more like the aggressor?

Like by the time Coriolanus finds the snake in the book, he's already turned on her. the movie makes it seem like her 'betrayal', which seems a bit more unjustified considering how remorseful he was about sejanus (saying I'm sorry, crying over pictures, etc), and which could (somewhat??) reasonably be interpreted as a murder attempt on her part (in the book it's specified post his return to district 12 by a doctor that the snake wasn't venomous at all) is what makes Coriolanus snap. and it grates at me, esp after the first time I watched it.

because in the movie I was also genuinely convinced that until she said "besides me?" Coriolanus hadn't really thought of her as a threat? like it's only when she says it that it occurs to him, but even then he doesn't seem to mistrust her. it's only post snakebite that he's like okay, that's it, we're done, you're done. And I think it kind of undermines the danger Lucy Gray was in, in a way. Like I firmly believe in both the book and the movie she was waiting in the bushes to see how he would react as a final kind of test, and he very obviously fails it on both accounts, but in the movie it's a bit more reasonable why he was upset?? to some degree, anyway. he's still an asshole, and Lucy gray is stilll the one in the right here.

I think the main difference between book Coriolanus and movie Coriolanus to me is this: if he DID shoot Lucy gray, and he found her lying on the forest floor and bleeding, I believe book Coriolanus would have gone for the kill shot, even if it was in a fit of rage. I don't believe movie Coriolanus had it in him. I think he would have helped her, or let her go. but that's just me!

I definitely agree with you though! I think the more I rewatch it the more okay I become with it, but when I first watched the movie I was hit by the changes in the cabin like a truck. thanks sm for the ask, and have a happy new year!

#tbosas #tbosas spoilers #snowbaird #tom blyth #Coriolanus snow #Lucy gray baird #ask

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For the Director's Cut asks.... talk to me about "The Push, the Grind, and the Metal Mind"? I'm so interested to hear more of your thoughts around the story and about how both these characters are navigating their feelings around parenthood (and being a child, considering some of Gortash's ideas for experiments).

So a lot of the content for this story was actually meant to be kept for much, much later. Originally was just going to be a short and sweet breastfeeding kink fic, and then it blew up and I kind of had to reconcile with the fact that we are getting Enver's point of view regarding a life choice (having children) that will greatly affect the trajectory of later parts of the narrative much earlier than I initially planned, wanted, or anticipated. So it serves as a very strange non linear introduction of what I have planned for Faline and Gortash, and you get to see a lot of my favorite parts about Gortash in this fic alone: he's cunning, he's smart, he can't turn his brain off, he's also very good at selling a certain image to himself, even to himself.

He glosses over a lot in this. He files down the edges and only really lets the truly ugly shit crop up because he does not see it as unacceptable. He does more than one would assume he would with a kid, he is patient with Faline, but ... let's just say that Faline's version of events leading up to what we actually see happening on the page is very different than what he wants to think is going on.

Which I guess leads me to Faline. By the time she becomes pregnant with her first child, she is beginning to suspect that her mother doesn't love her all that much, and in general, she hasn't been all that well loved by anyone. She can't even decide if it is wise (or possible) to love Enver as much as she does, and routinely makes plans to leave him even as she given more genuine companionship through this marriage than at any other point in her life. She essentislly lives in this back and fourth of being aware of her own feelings, thinking she's an idiot for loving someone who is so remorselessly a monster who could and would assuredly remove her from his life without a second thought, and knowing it's a mistake to get even closer to him, to obligate herself to him further, and then doing it anyways. Her dread at her own inability to just cut herself off from her own emotions compounds her anxiety over having a child with this man. Is she simply repeating a cycle? Is this cruel of her? Is it selfish? Is he going to hurt it? Is he going to hurt her the minute she can't physically or mentally keep up with him? That last bit is a real concern as she progresses through her pregnancy. She enjoys parts of it, but largely lives with the anxiety of her choice to bring a life into a world she doesn't have any real power over. It doesn't matter what happens to her, if she dies it's her fault - if her children suffer, it's a choice she made for them, she's doomed them to unhappinesss.

Faline always wanted to be a mother but was essentially told that that was not a life path she was going to have until much later in life, and for her own political gain, not for choice or even in agreement with a spouse or lover, but simply another commodity to provide: an heir of mysterious origins who might take a title or estate to a lord or patriar with no other options. Now she is going to be a mother, and she loves this child very much - but she knows his father.

In a sense, her becoming aware of just how easily Gortash could destroy her world via this child also opens up her future awareness of how his constant mind games aren't just character flaws, but distinctly not capable of in the long term. This is a kind of leverage that no one had ever had on before - something she genuinely cares for and is tasked with the duty and honor of raising right and well, of protecting. She's a mother now, and by becoming a parent her world changes for all the reasons listed above and so much more.

Faline desperately does not want to be like her own relations, but also doesn't know how to be a parent - she is young and overwhelmed on a lot of fronts, but simultaneously cannot regret her choice. Karmine is effectively the first person she's truly willing to sacrifice everything (and live afterwards) for, and makes Faline question her world and the people she surrounds herself with. She doesn't expect Gortash to be as patient as he is, but there's still much uncertainty over when that will run out. If he'll get bored with the novelty of a child, if he'll not want her anymore and therefore part of her control and power over him will wane with it, and how can she compensate for that loss? What's the next move?

This is getting too long and we're not even to Gort yet, but the last thing I will say is that Faline fully thought she was going to die during her labor. It was a long three days filled with a lot of stalled phases of labor, in the dead of winter during a snow storm, and ended with her losing way too much blood - which seems less like a concern to modern sensibilities when reading about a world with healing magic, but a lot can go wrong very quickly in labor and a lot did go wrong for Faline. So there's the (and I'm using the term wrong here because it's literal meaning is a good summary of action) trauma bond between Karmine and Faline that is also making all of these feelings even more intense.

Next up is Enver, who is more straight forward in the sense that his feelings about parenthood stem from the past, not the present. His having issues regarding his mother are nothing new to parse over, but as I mentioned previously in this post, the way in which these issues manifest are varied. He goes from not caring for the child (routinely refers to Karmine as an 'imp' whenever Faline's pregnancy impedes on his plans and fully intending on killing him to spare her if it came down to it) at all to becoming rapidly attached to him. More than that, having a child makes Enver wonder what was wrong with him, subconsciously. Every snide aside from his mother, every sniveling little quips from Raphael comes back to haunt him in strange, veiled ways. His lack of hostility towards his own offspring alienates him, his inability to separate himself from this child makes him question things in the general sense so he doesn't have to confront that there may have been something wrong with him. Enver finds himself planning extensive experiments to understand, to distance, and to redirect this strange impotent rage he feels at his own childhood, his own child, and the woman who did this to him. And then it all simmers down to a fine soup of day to day contentment. Freak.

Anyhow they're being real normie about it. Real niceys. Heart.

#faltash #bg3 #enver gortash #Faline #pregnancy #parenthood #ask game

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band--psycho · 1 year

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Anthony Bridgerton x Reader- Grief

I'm just gonna say sorry in advance!

Anyway, I hope this helps anyone that needs it! 💛

Warnings: Complicated grief

Grief.

Everyone deals with it differently.

Everyone heals from it differently.

But how do you act when the father that should’ve loved you and instead chose to abandon you, dies?

How do you act then?

How do you deal with that loss?

How do you grieve for someone, that for the first five years of your life was the best man you ever knew, but then for the other twenty years was nothing more than a stranger to you?

Do you cry?

My mother has been crying ever since she found out.

I thought she hated him for what he did.

For leaving her.

For leaving us.

I thought she hated him like I did, if not more so.

But seeing her now; I think she’d always loved him, even after he left.

She always thought he’d come back….

But I was different.

I did hate him.

I hated him because when he left I didn’t just lose a father, I lost my mother too.

When he left us; the mother I had left with him.

She was never the same once he left.

She was a ghost of herself; occasionally I’d see a small smile on her lips or a little glint in her eyes but that was it.

For a year, my mother barely acknowledged me…not unless it was when other people were around.

It got better over time; especially when she became friends with Viscountess Violet Bridgerton.

They had a mutual hole in their heart.

Violet's husband, Viscount Edmund Bridgerton, died seven years after my father left.

Had it not been for their shared loss; they probably never would have become friends, or they certainly would not have been as close as they are now.

The loss that began their friendship was different, but that did not seem to matter. Not to them.

Violet's family helped her through it as well, her children, they were her rock just as I was my mums.

That’s how I got to know the rest of the Bridgerton family.

I knew my mother would have gone to Violets and I knew I probably should have gone with her, to support her, to comfort her, to just be there for her.

And yes, it was selfish that I stayed at home, I knew that.

But I just couldn’t go with her.

I couldn’t bear to be around the Bridgertons; who would all be extremely nice and give me their condolences.

I couldn’t bear to be around all the “I’m sorry for your loss”

What loss?

The loss of a man who left my mother and their five year old daughter, with practically nothing.

The man who abandoned us without even giving a reason why.

The man who stayed away for all of these years.

The man who, more than likely, had another family that he actually stuck around for.

How could I listen to those words and deal with the sympathetic looks when the man that died was a stranger to me.

I suppose that right there was the difference between my mother and I; she had more memories with my father.

She had more of a reason to grieve than I did.

I did not want to cry over him.

He didn’t deserve my tears.

And yet; as soon as my mother left for the Bridgertons, I felt this overwhelming wave of sadness unexpectedly wash over me.

I felt like I was drowning.

Drowning in feelings I did not understand, nor did I want to accept.

So I did the only thing I could do; I distracted myself; I grabbed the closest book to me and started reading it. Desperately trying to focus on the words on the page rather than the thoughts that were whirling around in my brain.

I was trying so hard.

Then there was a knock at the door and I felt my soul momentarily jump out of my body.

I ignored it; hoping that they would go away.

They didn’t.

They just kept knocking.

I took a deep breath as I snapped the book closed; before making my way to the door.

Though when I opened it, I did not expect to see Anthony Bridgerton standing there.

“Did you not hear me knocking?” He asked, the frustration evident in his voice.

I didn’t know how to answer him at first; so I just moved out of his way slightly so that he could come in.

I did not dislike Anthony, but I did not really know him. There were six years in age that separated us, and out of the Bridgertons, I was always closer with Colin, given that I was only a year older than him.

So I knew Anthony as well as anybody could know their friends' older sibling.

But it was raining heavily so I could not just let him stay outside in the cold and wet.

“What are you doing here?” I countered quizzically, my confusion just as evident as his frustration.

I couldn’t quite understand what he was doing here, of course I’m sure he knew about the news of my father, but that still didn’t ease my confusion.

We weren’t friends.

In all honesty, we barely even knew each other.

Perhaps his mother sent him thinking I’d be in a similar state as my mother? Or perhaps he was here because he knew Colin would be, if he was not in Greece.

“I wanted to see if you were okay.”

Was that concern in his voice? I could have sworn it was…Or had I just imagined that?

“I’m fine,” I answered simply, walking over to the table I’d left the book I’d been reading on, “I’ve just been reading.”

His eyes narrowed as he looked at the book, before reaching out and lightly pulling it out of my grasp, “You were reading a recipe book?”

‘I was reading the first thing I got my hands on to distract myself from the sadness I was feeling,’

But there was no way I was going to tell Anthony Bridgerton that.

I knew he probably did not want to be here, so as long as I said I was fine, he would believe it, he could go back to his day and I could try and find something better than a recipe book to read.

“It doesn’t hurt to have a skill or two; not everyone can have servants like you.”

Was it a blunt answer, yes.

Did it come out a lot harsher than I had intended it too, also yes…

And I could tell it took Anthony off guard; given by how his eyebrows raised slightly.

He was a Viscount; I doubted he’d ever really been spoken to in anything other than polite and respectful ways.

“You were distracting yourself,” Anthony pointed out after a short silence had passed between us.

It was annoying that he was right.

“I was reading,” I repeated, trying to keep my composure. Trying to keep myself together, Trying to be strong like I had been all day.

“Y/n/n…” he began, his voice softer than I’d ever heard him talk before.

The softness in his voice made me want to break; to stop with the facade I had and just crumble..but I couldn’t.

I had no reason to; not really.

Though hearing him say my name so softly was bizarre, I had heard my name spoken from his lips a fair amount over the years that I had known him; but this felt different.

He seemed different.

He placed the book down on the desk behind him before turning his attention back to me.

“I know how it feels to grieve a father,” he continued, meeting my eyes, like he was staring into my soul.

“Your father loved you,” the words left my mouth before I could even fully process what it was that I had actually said.

I saw the pain flash in Anthonys eyes; memories of his father obviously racing through his mind.

“My father left me,” I stated, feeling a lump in my throat begin to grow as I held back the tears I wanted to shed.

“That does not mean you did not love him,”

“I hated him,”

A sympathetic smile momentarily grew on Anthony’s face as he placed his hand on my upper arm, “I know,”

“Then why am I sad…?” I questioned, my voice was so quiet I wasn’t even entirely sure Anthony heard it until I felt his hand squeeze my arm lightly.

“Because you loved him once.”

And in that moment; everything made sense.

I did love him.

When I was little, I thought my father was an amazing man…because back then he was.

And then he was just gone.

For the first few years I could not help but wonder what my life would have been like if he had not left…how it would have been different, or at least how it could have been different.

I hadn’t even realised I was crying until I felt Anthony hands cupping my face, his thumbs gently wiping away the tears that had fallen from my eyes.

“It’s alright,” he breathed, pulling me into him, soothingly stroking the top of my head as I sniffled against his chest.

I certainly did not think this was how today was going to go.

I certainly hadn’t expected to be crying into Viscount Bridgertons chest.

“I’m sorry,” I mumbled, pulling away slightly from his embrace.

“You’ve nothing to be sorry for,” he assured me, his voice continuing to be soft and understanding.

“Do not feel like you have to stay, I will be perfectly fi-”

“I shall stay as long as you need me to, Y/n,” Anthony interrupted me, as his eyes met mine again.

And in my heart I knew I did not want him to leave.

Not yet.

I do not know what it was or why, but right now with Anthony, I did not feel like I had to pretend to be fine; I did not have to be strong, I could just be myself. Which right now was a mess.

“Thank you,” I said softly, allowing him to pull me back into his embrace.

I never really took Anthony as the hugging type of person; but given the events of today, I think there was more to Anthony Bridgerton than I had originally thought.

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the-cookie-of-doom · 4 months

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Episode 2: “She”

Pear really deserved better. Like, I feel for Mike and his situation, I feel for Peem, but damn. She really got the shittiest breakup. Not literally died over it levels of bad breakup, but still. So much of what happens in this series is so unnecessary. If Mike had been a little less selfish, the tragedy could have been avoided. Not even brave! He didn’t need to come out to break up with her! But he wanted the picture perfect life with a secret lover on the side, and unfortunately, that’s just now how things work. That’s what makes it such a good tragedy; you see where these characters could have gone right, but they have believable reasons for where they went wrong, instead.

So, when discussing why ghosts exist/haunt the earth, Peem says: “I think there are two things, either caring, or holding a grudge.” Which in his case, it’s both! In the first episode, during their kissing scene in the drama class, Peem looks downright malicious. He’s making Mike feel what it’s like to drown, what he himself felt, and enjoying Mike's terror. He’s laughing at it. So when this scene happens, it’s easy to think Peem is only there over a grudge. Except… when we get to the third episode, we also see some tender moments between them. He still cares, too.

Peem is also a possessive little thing. He knows he’s the other woman, but he’s happy to physically get between Mike and Pear when the three of them are on the couch, and she wants to trade places. He refuses, she leans around him to complain to Mike, and Peem leans forward and blocks her. Meanwhile Mike is hiding behind Peem, who picks up a book and holds it in front of both of their faces, Peem leaning in to Mike and physically cutting Pear out. The whole thing is played like he’s joking, they’re all laughing, but… for Peem, it’s more. He doesn't give up his spot beside Mike (and Mike doesn’t move to join Pear.) Peem is staking a subtle claim, and Mike is letting him. Because while Peem is possessive, Mike wants to be wanted. Not possessed, because he refuses to let Peem actually have him. But he gets a thrill from watching Peem keep him away from Pear. Whether or not you think the feelings for Peem were any deeper than surface level lust + convenience, he likes the attention Peem gives him.

Side note, the English lesson scene made my brain hurt. Sympathies for anyone learning it as a second language, bc oof.

Another side note, Peem is so painfully, obviously in love with Mike.

Look! How tender they are!!

I love this entire scene, because this is one of the times where we see Mike being fully, genuinely himself, and he’s a terrible flirt. He can’t even help himself. He’s making all kinds of innuendos (“maybe we should do something to help us wake up, then come back to read''), lowkey kabedon’s Peem by climbing over him after already asking him to hand over his guitar. He teases Peem for being a romantic when Peem flirts back, then offers to write him a song (Moment, my beloved ;_;). There is so much longing in this song, a desire to be close, to not let go, forever. And there’s a promise in it, too, the song ending with a repeated “There will always be you and me together”. That’s all Peem wants, reassurance that Mike will still be there for him, even if he stays with Pear. And it’s reciprocated! Mike wants to be with Peem. He just can’t admit it in any serious, concrete way.

Then here we have another example of Peem taking the initiative physically. Mike makes what could be taken as a confession, so Peem comes closer, like Mike is asking him to do; lays on his shoulder while he sings, kisses him when he trails off. Even when Mike is being flirty, he’s all talk, no action.

However, the scene does end with Mike laying Peem down to keep making out with him, technically taking initiative for the first (and only) time. As we’ve set up with their give-and-take, Peem rewarding Mike when giving him affection, Peem then chooses this moment to tell Mike he loves him. Mike, predictably, doesn’t respond. He hesitates, then kisses Peem again. He doesn’t give an answer one way or the other. If he doesn’t return Peem’s feelings, then he’ll lose him. But if he does, he’ll have to face all of the things he’s repressing. All he can give Peem is the physicality of their relationship. And Peem once again meets Mike halfway; instead of demanding a response, he accepts what Mike is willing to give him, because it’s better than nothing.

Interestingly, this very sweet scene is where everything goes to hell. Peem tries telling Mike off because Meen, their friend sleeping in the other room, will hear. Mike laughs it off and says it doesn’t matter because he’s asleep. Cut to Meen very much not asleep. This continues the pattern that when Peem puts himself out there, when he puts his trust in the things Mike tells him, he’s punished for it. Mike tells him everything’s going to be okay, and he wants to believe it, so he follows him down the path of his own destruction.

Gonna pivot over to Mike, once again, being a terrible, incorrigible flirt.

Peem: Mike, do you still want more sausage? Mike: Up to you. Do you still want to give it to me?

I hate this joke so much T_T But also, it is hilarious, and Mike is such an incorrigible flirt, this is exactly the kind of dumb shit he would say.

Bottom.

If you check out THIS gifset, we can see that Peem is the one leading things in their relationship. It happens on Mike’s terms, sure, but Peem is presumably the first guy he’s ever been with. So naturally Peem would be the one to more or less take charge. He’s the one pushing Mike into the table and taking his clothes off, while for the most part, Mike isn’t moving. Aside from that scene on the couch, Mike just. Lets this happen to him. I think a large part of that is a desire for plausible deniability on his part. He flirts relentlessly, but vaguely. Any comment that could approach a confession is dismissed by a joke. He wants Peem, but so long as he’s not an active participant in their relationship, he can pretend like he doesn’t.

Back to the pool scene, Mike isn’t expecting the kiss. He’s walking away when Peem pulls him back. He’s (very) into it, but he didn’t ask for it. In the BTS interview Jeff said it was like he was being passive/attacked (lol), which he explains as being because he chickened out/didn’t know what to do when the director told them to just go for it. Adorable, but also it does play nicely into Mike’s reluctance towards letting himself be with Peem.

Now. Let’s talk about Mike’s relationship with Pear. D/t the non-linear storytelling, and my not paying attention to throw-away lines, and a weird translation at the start of the ep, I didn’t realize Mike and Pear were dating until this scene!! RIP to me. Anyway.

This just breaks my heart. Look at her expression, compared to Mike's. She already knows that this over and he has no idea. She isn't even angry, she's resigned, she's already accepted it.

Pear deserved so much better. It’s her 3 year anniversary, and she gets to celebrate by finding out her boyfriend has been cheating on her for god knows how long. And Mike is so determined not to face any of his problems, he refuses to see that she is Not Having A Good Time. Playboy can’t charm his way out of this one, though. It’s so sad, too, because the way she looks at him in some shots, she clearly wants to believe he really loves her. He’s certainly acting like he does. She’s a very similar position to Peem in this scene; both of them want to know Mike loves them, but Mike is incapable of being fully with either of them.

Just like I do think Mike has genuine feelings for Peem, I also think he really loves Pear. I think he cares very deeply for her, and I don’t think he wanted to hurt her. But again, he’s shown time and again to be a very selfish character, and she recognizes that. Rather than choosing to believe he loves her and pretending she doesn’t know about Peem, she breaks up with him. (Good for her!)

Even when Mike finally does recognize that she’s upset (only once she says she wants to break up, forcing him to see her), he dismisses it. Laughs and deflects, the same as he does with Peem, because he doesn’t know what to do when confronted with EmotionsTM. And honestly—Pear handles this with the grace of a queen. She gives Mike a simple explanation: things aren’t working out, we should break up. She doesn’t blame him for cheating on her, doesn’t yell, doesn’t even tell him she knows about Peem. She probably recognizes why he’s cheating on her instead of breaking up with her first (wanting the safety his relationship with her provides, while experimenting, which feels incredibly dangerous), and tries to let him maintain at least some dignity and plausible deniability. If anyone asks, they could just say things didn’t work out and move on. She could have easily, and justifiably, raked him over the coals. But she doesn’t. She’s giving Mike the chance to bow out.

Of course he doesn’t take it. He either takes her home, or follows her there (assuming they’re all living in the same dorms?), demanding answers the whole time and getting the silent treatment. He asks her, “But if we don’t talk to each other, how can we solve it?” Very rich coming from the guy who’s refused to have a genuine conversation at every opportunity. He follows this with “I don’t know what I’ve done,” and she responds, “It’s better not to know.” Again, giving him the chance to leave with his dignity intact. She’s a better person than I would have been. It’s likely some measure of self-protection, too. No one wants to be the girl that got cheated on. But it would have been so easy for her to spread it around, out Mike for cheating on her with Peem, and ruin his life. But she doesn’t. She doesn’t want revenge. She isn’t vindictive.

Side note: Pear finally shows him the texts from Meen, exposing his cheating, and Mike runs off with her phone. My dude. Have you not caused enough problems without stealing her phone too??

Mike automatically assuming Peem is the one that outed him to Pear is interesting on two fronts.

Of course he does, how would anyone else know? Mike thinks he’s been successful at keeping things a secret, and Peem just confessed to him. He’s seen (and enjoyed) Peem getting possessive over him in front of Pear, and this is the natural escalation of that.

From what we’ve seen of their relationship so far, Peem never actually asks Mike to leave Pear. Probably because he knows he can’t trust Mike’s feelings for him (as he shouldn’t), and knows there’s no point. It would only serve to make Mike angry, which might make Mike leave him; Mike is only with him because Peem makes him feel good, after all. Peem might avoid Mike when he’s feeling rejected/neglected, and make sad eyes at him when Pear is involved, but for lack of a better term—he knows his place. And he knows his place in Mike’s life is beneath Pear.

Finally, the fight that ends it all. Mike’s internalized homophobia is becoming externalized!!! It’s really sad the way he attacks Peem. He knows Peem loves him—Peem is the only one who loves him, now. But Mike is so caught up on the end of his relationship with Pear, and what it represents—him failing to uphold the values he’s placed so much importance on—that he doesn’t care how much he’s hurting Peem. If anything, Peem’s heartbreak only makes this worse. Mike doesn’t want to love him. Peem tells him he has nothing left without Mike, and Mike doesn’t care. This could have been a moment of freedom for him, finally able to be with the person he loves, still safe in the knowledge that Pear will keep his indiscretions a secret. But he’s too self-centered, focusing on what he’s lost instead of what he still has/could have.

And Peem finally snaps back.

Peem: Have you ever had feelings for me, or do you just see me as your temporary fling? Mike: I don’t know! Peem: Or am I just someone who makes you feel good whenever you want? Mike: Remember this, I love Pear, not you! Not you at all!

True to the pattern, he is rejected for reaching out. Mike returns his honesty with deflection.

Here we see Peem finally confronting his own feelings. He’s known all along what he is to Mike: a source of validation and experimentation. He didn’t want to see it, because he probably hoped Mike would eventually learn to love him. Or, if he sees Mike's feelings, hoping that Mike would eventually admit them to himself. Even now he’s still reaching out, trying to calm Mike down. He never gets far enough to even suggest this could be a good thing, because they could finally be together.

Instead, their fight leads to Mike shoving Peem back, and Peem tripping into the pool. This is one of my favorite scenes of the whole thing because you see Mike struggling. He doesn’t know if he should jump in and save him. Then he remembers the last time this happened: Peem agreeing when Mike suggested he was only pretending to drown, only trying to get his attention. Here, Mike sees it as an attempt to make him stay. Peem pretends to be in danger to force Mike into saving him again—proving how much Mike cares for him.

But Mike leaves. And Peem drowns.

Part 1, Part 2, Part 3

#cookie speaks #he she it #jeff satur #gameplay garnpaphon #this is so embarassing I've posted 4k of meta so far #and i still have one more post to make

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eris-snow · 10 months

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𝐒𝐮𝐧, 𝐒𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐋𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭

Tags: Deku's birthday series 2023, izuku x fem!reader

You've come to appreciate the little things: His nickname for you that never changes, no matter how many times you're edited out of his mind. It's something small, but you take what you can get.

I love the nickname Starlight more than I let on. It may sound a little exaggerated, but I hope you never stop calling me that.

Izuku looks at his phone screen where a Post-it note is stuck and rereads your message over and over again. By the 3rd time, his face was as red as Eijiro’s hair.

Relief sets into his bones when he sees that your messages are no longer filled with cryptic words that he has to read between the lines. That means you’re feeling better, right?

That knowledge puts him in a good mood for the whole morning, a contented smile fixed on his face as his sunny aura makes the people in his perimeter smile too.

Ochaco is the one who greets him first.

“Good morning, Deku! What’s got you in a good mood?” She beams, shouldering her school bag as he joins her outside the dorms.

Izuku greets her with a smile. “Morning Uraraka.”

For some reason, he doesn’t want to explain his feelings whenever it comes to your game of Secrets with him. It feels too personal, something that only you did with him. A selfish part of him wants to keep it that way.

“I had the best sleep in a long while.” He admits, scratching his head. It was a white lie.

His slumber had been dreamless that night, a rare occurrence that—

A thought flies over his head, making him stop short.

Why did he start calling you Starlight?

“Your note yesterday was sweet,” You say as you join his table for lunch. “I like your eyes too.”

Tenya drops his sandwich.

Ochaco blinks rapidly.

Shoto looks between the both of you, visibly confused. “Did I miss something?” He asks.

Izuku’s face flares red. “R-Really? U-Um…Thank you…” You cock your head, raising an eyebrow. What’s with everyone today?

Tenya gives him a disapproving stare, which makes him stuff a spoonful of katsudon in his face as the spectacles wearer gestures in the least discreet way possible at Ochaco.

Your brain, which was currently operating at the pace of a decade-old printer, finally catches up to speed.

There was no other way to put it, as you take in the hunger in her eyes and the formation of her blinding grin: Shit.

“What note?!” squeals Ochaco, sounding a little crazed as she grabs both of your hands tightly.

“Where is it? What did it say?” Her hands find your shoulders. “SHOW ME.”

You might as well stamp the word isomic on your head because you had the eyebags of a racoon. The nap in Katsuki’s room might have helped, but that isn’t going to make up for countless sleepless nights dating back to weeks ago. With that little sleep to rely on, it isn’t exactly easy to shake Ochaco off you.

“Uraraka, I think you’re killing her,” Shoto comments idly while he slurps up another spoonful of soba.

“Ochaco, the notes are private,” you insist, gently prying her hands off your shoulder blades. “I’m not gonna show you.”

Accepting Izuku’s grateful smile, you sit down with them and ignore Ochaco’s pout. Izuku’s sparkling green eyes drop down to your tray, and almost immediately, his smile turns upside down. “That’s all you’re having? I thought you’d be starving after class.”

“Not hungry,” You grouch, taking a bite from an apple. “I’m going to the gym to exercise anyway. I’ll vomit if I have a whole meal.”

“Still, that’s not enough!” Izuku protests, scooting closer to you. He pushes his bowl in your direction. “Share with me. You need the energy.”

“Consider this payback from me sharing my meal with you on Sunday,” You sigh, taking a scoop of his rice and putting it in your mouth. “We’re even now.”

“Stop counting,” scolds Izuku, completely unaware of the three onlookers staring at the both of them. “We’re still on for the study session tomorrow, right? I need to get my History notes done before our test, but I have 3 hours of training with All Might and Kacchan—”

“Yes, we’re still on,” You interrupt, nudging him to get him to stop prattling. “Now you eat some too, it’s your food, Zuku!”

“You need to sleep more too,” Izuku rambles on, descending into another round of worried mutterings, “I can’t stand to see you not taking care of yourself—mph!”

You shove the spoon in his mouth while staring at him triumphantly. Looking beyond pleased at yourself for shutting him up, you gaze accusingly at him. “Pot, meet kettle! If sleep at 11, you’ll sleep at 1!”

Izuku rips the spoon out of his mouth, arms flailing in wild gestures. “And if I sleep at 1, you won’t sleep at all!”

“I feel like I’m in the way of something.” Shoto stares down at his soba, and takes another spoonful of it. “Should we leave?”

“You can leave, I want to stay,” Ochaco says dismissively, eyes fixated on the two. Their argument had been traded off for a conversation topic about meet-up plans, so they had obviously missed something. “They were definitely closer than last year. It’s a shame that…well…you know,” The 3 of them share a look.

Biting the bullet, Tenya voices it softly. “That he’s going to forget?”

The trio’s gaze shifts back to the pair.

“She’ll get through it, though. She did last year.” Shoto pipes up.

Ochaco doesn’t know if you notice, but even though she knows that you’re hurting inside, that you’re counting down the days until the 15th like someone counting down the days left to live, your face doesn’t show a trace of that pain.

Your smile is genuine, your laughs are heartfelt and contagious. Whenever you’re with Izuku, your face lights up like a Christmas Tree, contentment and happiness surging into all of your expressions.

Ochaco’s heart swells with sympathy as she nods her head in agreement.

“She will.”

1 Year ago

“Tell the class?” Your eyebrows furrowed. “But—”

“Starlight, hear me out.” Katsuki powered through. “Deku’s birthday is coming up again and there’s going to be no other way to explain why he would wake up one morning and not remember you. You’ve already decided that you don’t want him to know, right? One of the idiots is going to slip up or ask him about you and you know it.”

Swallowing back your words of denial, you forced yourself not to wince. He had a point, after all.

“I-” Katsuki placed a hand on your shoulder, features softening. “I can get Kirishima to round up everyone so that we can tell them. I’ll be there to help and everything. Ask Uraraka to get the nerd squad away from the living room so we can talk freely. If you want to pretend like everything’s fine, we need to make sure that everyone is in on it.”

Silence enveloped the two of you for a few seconds as crimson eyes stared at you intensely.

“I’ll tell the teachers for safe measure,” You agreed, fingers wrung and twisted around each other. “We don’t have to tell them about Zuku’s birthday, right? Just the quirk?”

Katsuki nodded, rubbing your back. “I’ll get Kirishima to gather everyone up tomorrow evening. The sooner we meet up, the sooner we get it over with.”

Present

“You know, I’ve been thinking,” Izuku says suddenly on your way back to the dorms. The sun was setting, the orange sky lighting your way back. “I started calling you Starlight because you reminded me of One For All.”

Oh? This was new.

Eyebrows knitted together, you prompt him to continue. “You’ve always been so warm and bright. And then the nickname Starlight came to mind instantly, and I don’t know. It just felt right.” He smiles at you. “It really suits you!”

You smile back at him, nudging him. “Thanks, Zuku.”

“What about me?” He asks curiously. “How’d you start calling me Zuku?”

“Mnn…” You look up thoughtfully, trying to find middle ground. You don’t want to lie to the One For All wielder, but you also can’t tell him the truth.

A memory consumes you, one you look back on it fondly. Your nicknames for each other are one of the things that never changed.

11 years ago

It was that park again. The one with All Might-themed colours that symbolised the hero’s growing popularity.

It was getting late, evening drawing near. Your mothers were on the way back from their meet-up spot in the cafe, and a five-year-old Katsuki had been tasked to take care of the three of you.

Izuku had fallen inside the sandbox where Katsuki was building a gigantic sandcastle to prove he could make better sandcastles than both of you combined when you had posted the question.

“Izuku, why do you call him Kacchan?”

Before Izuku could respond, Katsuki interrupted with his signature loud voice. “Because Deku’s a stupid loser that can’t speak properly,” He said almost braggingly, sneering like a viper who’d caught its prey. You frowned at him, helping Izuku up, “That’s mean, Kacchan,”

“Why are you calling me that now?!”

“Because it’s cute! I like it,” You smiled gleefully. Katsuki snarled again, but he doesn’t protest.

“Sorry, I knocked down our sandcastle.” Izuku stared at the lump of sand, half of the castle intact, and the other half destroyed.

“It’s fine,” You assured him, a frown etching on your face. “But I don’t wanna call you Deku.”

A light bulb lit up in your brain, and it made you clap your hands together. “I’ll call you Zuku!” You announced, pleased with yourself. “It’s shorter, and it’s nice! Unlike someone.” You glared pointedly at Katsuki, who simply threw you a writhing scowl as he stood up and dusted his hands. “I won!” He smiled proudly, admiring his work. “Take that, nerds!”

“Kacchan’s amazing.” Izuku agreed, before he makes eye contact with you. “I like the nickname. Thanks, uh…” He glanced around, eyes flickering from item to item. None of them felt right-there aren’t a lot of awe-inspiring nicknames in a playground-until he finally stared back at you.

The sun was setting and the stars had come out earlier than usual. “Starlight!” He blurted, pointing out to the shining dots in the sky. It was the biggest one he could see, and it made him grin broadly. “How’s Starlight as a nickname? Do you like it?”

Giggling happily, you nodded your head vigorously and take Izuku’s hand. “I like it a lot! Thanks, Zuku!”

Katsuki stepped out of the sandbox and brushed the sand off his shorts, scowl taking up most of his face, “You guys are lame!” He shouted, eyes narrowing on Izuku. He pointed an accusatory finger at Izuku, who tilted his head in response. “How’d you even come up with that, anyway?”

“I mean, I think Kacchan and Y/n are amazing! Kacchan’s good at everything and Starlight is both street and book-smart, so everyone finds both of you super cool! Kacchan reminds me of the Sun and Starlight reminds me of the stars! I mean, look at you two!” He explained enthusiastically, waving his hands at the both of you. “You both shine!”

Katsuki blinked rapidly, while you process his words in silence.

“Hah?!” Katsuki exploded. “You think I’m like the Sun? Are you saying I’m hot-headed or scalding or—”

“IT WAS A COMPLIMENT, KACCHAN!” You hollered, defending Izuku. “Take it!”

Kacchan was like the Sun, someone that made his presence known and a blazing force to be reckoned with. Izuku looked up to him in more ways than one.

You were like the stars. You didn’t think you were as amazing as people, so you always turned a blind eye to everyone who’d said so. After all, when you were living near to Katsuki, it would always be him who was the talk of the town.

Still, Izuku doesn’t think you know how capable or awesome you are. He doesn’t think you realise that, while Kacchan might be too blinding for some people to look at, you are just as beautiful, and easy to look at, as the countless stars in the sky.

Present

“Starlight?”

Izuku shakes you a little, making you snap out of it just in time to see a lamp post mere inches away from your face. Quickly, he pulls you away just in time, worry prominent on his face. “Are you okay? What happened?”

You shake your head and laugh sheepishly. “Sorry, spaced out for a second. Your question brought back memories.”

“Uh…O-kay…?” He raises an eyebrow as a prompt before he repeats, “Why do you call me Zuku?”

Are those-are those tears in your eyes? He blinks again, and finds them gone.

Weird.

Instead of answering, though, you press a finger to your lips and smile mysteriously.

“It’s a secret.”

I don’t like Kacchan calling you Shortie. Kacchan’s amazing and all, but he shouldn’t make fun of your height. P.s. I like the nickname Zuku, too! You don’t have to tell me why you started calling me that, I’m just glad you do. I can’t imagine you calling me anything else.

You find the Post-it note staring back at you on the washing machine. Somehow, Izuku timed it such that when he stepped out of the laundry room, you would be the first one who walked in. Huffing, you stuff the note into your pocket and pull out your unwashed clothes, stuffing them swiftly into the machine.

You don’t want to tell Izuku that the whole reason why Katsuki had started calling you Shortie was to make sure he never figured out that you were his childhood friend. You didn’t want to tell him why you called him Zuku because you didn’t want to lie to him.

You don’t have to imagine yourself calling him otherwise because, in less than 2 weeks, you’ll be back to calling him Midoriya, for the 7th time to match his 7th cycle. It’s not going to hurt physically, but mentally it threatens to break you because, once upon a time, you never thought you had to act like a stranger to the person you love the most.

#mha #mha fanfiction #deku x reader #izuku x y/n #izuku x reader #izuku midoriya #midoriya izuku #bnha midoriya #midoriya x y/n #Deku's birthday series 2023

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13eyond13 · 4 months

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Hi...Can I ask your top 3 favorite characters from Nana? And why you loved them? And your top 5 favorite moments from the series? Thanks if you want to answer....

Hi hi!! I would LOVE to try to talk about this series for a bit, but PLEASE keep in mind I'm still only just finished volume 7 / chapter 24 (I am currently waiting in line to read volume 8 at my library! But I might get impatient and just try to find the chapters online too)... MY TOP 3 FAVE NANA CHARACTERS (SO FAR) 1. NANA KOMATSU / NANA 1 / "HACHI": OMG I love Nana 1 to death hahahaha. She literally makes me lol every single volume with her thoughts and decisions and interactions with everyone else, and it's just the most fun in the series to be inside her brain and following along with her relationships and emotional roller-coasters and little life lessons and anxieties and pains and hopes and dreams. She's an awesome character to me for being flawed and complex and selfish and immature yet still very likable and oddly tough and brave and sweet as pie at the same time. I think seeing the growth she's having as a person over the series is definitely the main draw for me, and watching her try to figure out her feelings for everybody and her place in the world and how to become the type of person that contains all the personality traits she's always admiring around her - and how to fill that void she feels of never completely erasing the loneliness inside or being perfectly synced up with the people she's trying to form a deeper connection with.

2. NANA OSAKI / NANA 2:

She's mysterious, she's proud, she's tough, she's badass, she's funny and sensible and kind! I love the more grown-up and emotionally reserved vibe she has in comparison to Nana 1, which totally makes sense considering her harder childhood and how self-reliant she always had to be. Her casual warmth with Hachi is endearing and her less obviously expressive and highly independent yet still emotionally intense personality is very relatable to me. It's the most fun to see Hachi reacting to Nana 2 to me I think, because Nana 2 is more closed off and a bit more afraid of exploring her feelings unabashedly than Nana 1. But she's by far my other fave in the series, and of course the heart of the whole thing is the very ambiguously devoted relationship between the 2 Nanas for me!

3. ???? I don't think I have a third main fave character in the story yet??

At the beginning of the manga I quite liked Shoji and Junko, but as the series is progressing it seems like they both got written out of the plot almost entirely. I liked Junko for always keeping it real with Nana and caring about her in a tough love sort of way, though she did for sure just seem a bit like the "voice of reason" character for the more ridiculous Nana to bounce off of whenever she was in a bind... I liked Shoji because he seems like a regular kid instead of some idealistic fictional love interest hunk - his reactions to Nana K. were pretty relatable to me, and their romantic interactions were cute and made me laugh and also cringe with sympathy at times (like when it was so awkward when Nana first moved to Tokyo too and they were still trying to readjust to being around each other more - I remember similar things happening to me whenever I had been long-distance in a relationship for a summer and and then suddenly near my partner again at some time). Even in the part where he starts developing feelings for Sachiko and sneakily cheating on Nana, I always felt he behaved pretty understandably and wasn't a horrible person so much as just a conflicted and young and immature one who wasn't in the right relationship when he was with Nana, maybe (though admittedly I wasn't that upset that he wasn't being featured in the story more after that, because that would probably get on my nerves). Currently I have just finished volume 7, and right now I am finding I don't feel a super strong connection to any of the other characters too much other than Nana 1 and Nana 2? The other guys in Blast are just okay to me, I don't have SUPER strong feelings about Nana getting together with Nobu (in fact I find him a little bit annoying at times - I agree with Shin that he "has some unrealistic ideas about women" and idealizes Nana too much - Yasu is chill and nice and wise, but a bit TOO chill and reserved to be super interesting to me). The members of Trapnest are also just okay to me? Ren bores me a little bit (maybe because I just would rather be reading about Nana 2 hanging out with Nana 1 than with him)... Reira is hard for me to form ANY opinions about other than eww, it's weird that she's sleeping with Shin, Takumi is a selfish yet possessive jerk and only thinking about himself, and I always forget the other one (Naoki?) even exists...

I WILL say that the little Nana 2 fangirl Misato is extremely cute and I'm always happy when she's on the page, hahaha. Her shameless devotion to Nana 2 and her politeness and extreme savviness about the music industry are just fun for me to read (as was Hachi's initial jealousy toward her, but I'm glad she managed to also eventually get over that)! --

MY TOP 5 FAVE NANA MOMENTS (SO FAR): Forgive me if these moments are completely arbitrary and sort of dumb picks, because I feel like I'm forgetting so much of the story from the previous volumes already, and I'm still only 1/3 of the way through the whole thing?? But here are ones that stood out to me whenever I was racking my brain: 5. Whenever Nana forces Shoji to let her sleep in his hotel room, then awkwardly sings him to sleep, and he's like: "YOU DON'T HAVE TO SING" hahaha...

my reaction to that was basically Junko's reaction:

4. Whenever Nana 2 starts getting jealous and confused about Hachi hooking up with Takumi I was like OHOHOH, HOW THE TURNS TABLE.... I think it's REALLY hard for Nana 2 to admit stuff like feeling vulnerable or jealous or possessive over Nana 1 at this point, and seeing her realize "heeyyyy maybe I want her attention and devotion a little more than I thought and was taking it for granted a bit"... that was a very feelsy little part! 3. Whenever Hachi is getting jealous about Nana 2's cute little fangirl and having super mean petty thoughts about her hahahah omg the most relatable thing of life! 2. When Nana 2 goes to Nobu after he first starts dating Hachi and is like: "I'M USING YOU TO KEEP NANA 1 IN MY LIFE FOREVER, SO DON'T MESS THIS UP!" OMG?? Fellas is it gay to keep your girl roomie nearby by throwing guys at her that are entrenched in your social circle and also more socially acceptable for her to date? When I say my heart skipped a beat at that moment!! And it just happened in the manga super recently, so who knows where things are going to go from here?

1. When Hachi is having so many gay thoughts about Nana 2 that she's like "AHHH THIS IS TOO GAY I NEED TO GET ANOTHER BOYFRIEND!!!!" Boy did I laugh out loud at the cognitive dissonance (and find it super relatable to younger me and my own panicking about maybe not being entirely straight thoughts? of course)...

#nana #nana spoilers #ask #anon #p #13readsmanga #thank you for asking!

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hanako-san · 1 month

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About aoi. ❤ my friend sent me this ❤

first of all we starts saying that aoi is a really complicated character but before going to the point (her personality) I want to say all the things she likes and she doesn't

all right, so, aoi loves giraffes because her dad gifted her a giraffe plush when she was little but one thing aoi has is daddy issues, because apparently he left her and her mom before she was 4, when aoi turned 4 a new neighbor came to knock on her door, the neighbor is akane, aoi is obviously il love with akane, that hade reciprocated feelings since they were 5, akane kept asking her out and confessing to her, aoi never refused to go out on a "date" w akane (as shown in many official arts, like the one where they go to the zoo, or the one where they ice skate together) because she liked him and his company, but aoi is very smart so she doesn't completely trust akane, as shown in some panels as a kid aoi was mostly emotionless, that made the others hate her, so when she started middle school she completely changed personality (that's how she became friends w nene), she became the picture perfect girl everyone wanted her to be (akane noticed that), but after that things got even worse because aoi was starting to get hate from all the girls (calling her a slut ) and slowly people were starting to notice her loner attitude (as shown in one of the official arts). she watched akane from afar, all the friends he had, how extroverted he was, how people were attracted by his presence, while aoi was just called a slut by girls and had to reject boys all the time. Nene in volume 5 started to notice it too, that's why she got worried and tried to find aois secret (because she never saw aoi being such loner and thinking all the time).in volume 6 aoi tried to stop nene so they could talk, because aoi was feeling lonely, akane was acting strange because of the mirai problem and nene was mostly away bc of hanako so aoi was completely lonely with no one to talk to, she tried to talk to nene and spend some time w her but nene had to hurry and aoi just stood there watching her go away. in volume 13 aoi got kidnapped and brainwashed by no. 6 I can't say anything about the brain wash bc come on she was brain washed and tried to clap everyone, but I can say about the scene where she cures akanes wound with her dress, she's still possessed there but it's starting to show some normal emotions since she lies about being scared of the wound (you can notice bc she's looking away and blushing). she tells akane everything about how she feels, the fact that her dearest people keep secrets from her and then akane says that "we're not the only one keeping secrets" and tells everything about aois personality, about how she's selfish bc she want everyone to like her even though that will never be possible, the fact that she hides her true self under a mask etcetera, in the fireworks chapter we can see nene and aoi reunion, aoi is sorry for doing all those horrible things to nene but she just can't say sorry because of her selfishness. but nene forgives anyway and that makes aois heart go softer. in fact from that chapter we can see that aoi doesn't braid her hair anymore (she had the same hair since she was 3) that means she's finally starting a new chapter of her life,, ❤❤

THINGS ABOUT AOI!!!

- she likes anything that tastes like raspberries (reason why akane brings her raspberry candies to the far shore)

- she still keeps the protection teru gave her because she's scared something will happen to her again

- she likes to eat healthy

- she likes walking alone, but probably not at night because she's scared of man sexually harassing her (reason why she wears a hat and long skirt)

but also when aoi walks at night it means she's herself because she keeps her hair down (her hair down imply aois true personality)

This is a really good analysis. I deliberately took out my volumes and looked through them and it wasn't like that at all. Daikon was literally crying and looking pale as Aoi, the popular girl, was literally seething with jealousy. Akane noticed that she was sad and that there was something wrong with her. Not daikon. In volume 6, Aoi herself showed the emotion of sadness and asked if she hated her and Aoi was relieved when the daikon replied in the negative. It was thanks to Akane that she finally began to undergo character development, not the daikon. With all due respect, the daikon only forgave Aoi for what she did and nothing more, but the daikon herself neither apologized nor asked if she was okay. All this credit goes to Akane, not her. these are the parts from Aoi's side, I agree.

Its good analysis.

And to the rest. This is true

#toilet bound hanako kun #jibaku shounen hanako kun #aoi akane #aoixvii #my answers

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aspiringwarriorlibrarian · 1 year

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this ask i’m about to send gets into fairly personal territory regarding ruby’s suicide attempt, so just delete this right now if it’s something you’d rather not have to deal with from a stranger (it okay, it’s been a long while and i’m doing pretty good in the present 👍)

something that’s frustrating me a little more than i’d like is the amount of people bringing up yang’s abandonment issues and how that might come into play. on one hand, yes, that is something that i thought about and would be interesting to see in the future, but as of the more immediate situation…

it brings up this old memory about me asking my own sister what she thinks about suicide, and her replying that she thinks it’s selfish. i love my sister, and i know she was well-intentioned, but it hadn’t helped at the time and there’s a reason why i go to my brother first instead.

the thing about suicide is that it can be selfish, but when a person is in that kind of pain they just want it to stop hurting, and even think it’s better for everyone else that way. on top of that, this response has the side effect of making the pain of the person affected, their own struggles, about other people instead - ‘you should think about how others would feel, if you did it’. it doesn’t stop a person from feeling depressed or suicidal, it just makes them feel invalidated. it makes them feel like their feelings don’t matter in the long run. and when they feel they don’t matter, well… yeah.

this is something that ruby has been struggling with all this while. she’s hurting, and she feels (particularly after that episode) that she’ll only make things worse if she sticks around.

ultimately, fans should be allowed to focus on the characters they connect to more, so they shouldn’t stop contemplating just because people (me, in this specific instance) is getting butthurt about it. i just, personally. keep seeing multiple people hoping for the story to focus on yang’s feelings about being abandoned in the next few episodes and. something about that just frustrates me, a little, because to me ruby’s pain has been building up for a while now, and the narrative should get to focus on how she hurts, without the idea of how that affects others from interrupting the narrative. because she’s always been keeping her pain quiet for the benefit of others, and now she can’t do it anymore.

given how rwby9 has thus far been making good development on ruby as a character, i doubt they’ll cut away from the focus on it now. i’m trusting crwby on this, at least. i’m just a bit miffed at seeing people want to shift the focus onto how it affects yang right away. it’s not a bad idea, but right now isn’t the time; ruby is hurt in a way that’s beyond what wby had all expected and she deserves to have the time to let herself feel. let the spotlight sit on her woes, for the moment. that’s what i hope for, at least.

Yeah I'm thinking that Yang's abandonment issues and how she was hurt by this are going way in the back seat and probably won't be addressed this volume. We've got to get Ruby back on her feet and the rest of them will be focused on rescuing her, and any fallout from watching her die will not be addressed until she's out of the Ever After.

And yeah, when you're in that much pain your brain will do anything to make it worse. My mom once had a friend's son commit suicide and she tearfully asked me "Please don't do that to me", and my brain interpreted that as "Don't kill yourself because it would make me unhappy.". But outright saying that someone's selfish for having suicidal thoughts is just unbearably careless and I'm sorry you had to go through that.

#rwby spoilers #rwby analysis #rwby ruby rose #suicide tw

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meteor752 · 1 year

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The DL kids on Empires

I think this is the third or fourth “last post” about these fuckers, but like I grow attached alright

So I was actually planning on leaving them be for a while, mostly cause Double life ended months ago and there’s only so much you can do with them, but then an ask brought up that Jassy, the SmallEtho kid, would technically be the older sister of Hermes and boy did that open a world of possibilities

So if you don’t know these children by now, here’s a link to the first post which has a lot of other links at the bottom of it, or just check my blog

So at the end of Logbook, the short fic I wrote from this universe, it was implied that the kids found a rift similar to the one in Grian’s base. I did this because I couldn’t think of any other way to end the fricking fic

But let’s keep going with that, the kids are on Empires. I also imagine they go through before the Hermits, purely to make it easier and less messy for me

But when they enter the server, they get transported to different areas just like the Hermits, and they’re all separated and have no way to contact each other so some things goes wrong

This will also include the Empires designs of the kids, just for funsies, and it will all be made with Hero Forge because as my motto goes, I can’t draw

Liana no last name given

(Parrot pal what happened to you 😭. Probably the only one of the kids to get less slutty on empires than she was before. Traded in her colorful clothes made from rich fabrics, for more dull and comfy clothes. Also she has a wedding ring now)

Spawned above Gobland, in the middle of a fucking snowstorm. Took her five days to get off the mountain and an additional day to find Goblands entrance, so she had a severe case of frost bite and hypothermia. It’s a miracle she came out of the experience with only one foot lost

Stayed in Sanctuary at first because no way in hell she’s gonna live underground, but she moved to the Ancient Capital when she started studying the rift

Pixl has the most books and ancient texts out of anyone on the server, so she gets to read as much as she wants in exchange for assisting him from time to time

She wears a monocle because one too many head traumas leading to bad eyesight in that eye

Liana desperately wants to leave the Empires Server, not just because the one thing she’s good at (selling and swindling) is a useless skill when everything is bought through carefully calculated trades, but also because of the divide it brought upon them, with everyone being spread out across the server and barely seeing each other

(Also she wants to find Hermitcraft because if Joel, Jimmy, and Scott are alive then her dads must be there. It’s a selfish reason but she’s never admit it to being the truth)

She does like the Elytras though, her bird brain gets happy to fly and she does that more than what is probably necessary. Also it’s difficult for her to walk, so yeah

In her pursuit to find the answer to the rift’s mystery, she grows kind of distant from the others, but excuses it with the ends justifying the means

So yeah. Scammer girl needs a nap because she strugglin

Wes Double-SV

(I love making Wes because he’s just a fricking beast, tall broad and strong, but I also know that if he failed at a task he would just start crying. Gentle Giant more like fragile giant. But also my boy kinda thicc tho ngl)

Wes would spawn close to Animalia, and would probably be scared shitless out of the wandering foxes and frogs. And by Lizzie and her freaky mask face with the empty eyes

He would also stay in Sanctuary at first, but would quickly be put off by Sausage. The overly friendly nature by a total stranger just doesn’t sit right with him, also he’s terrified of his dog (It’s what happens when you watch your dads’ corpses get ripped to shreds by a bunch of feral dogs)

Wes would instead find a place in Gobland, an underground city based around mining and machinery. He’s always been more of an underground person, dating Jekiv and all who can’t really go in sunlight, plus mining was an easy way to pass the time on Double Life

Built a railway tunnel to The Evermoore the minute he joined Gobland too, for easy access to Jekiv. He’s a sap

Still nervous around most of the emperors, but he’s grown fond of fWhip, and he’s used to the Double Life emperors, otherwise he’d rather they stay back

Gertrude

(Girl’s so special she getting two designs. This is the first time Gert is not wearing her sunglasses over her eyes actually, so Gertrude eye reveal whoop whoop. Honestly I love making Gert designs, because while she’s got a lot of butch energy, she’s a femme at heart)

Gertrude spawned in Glimmer Grove, and froze solid at the sight of the castle from her childhood dreams. This made her an easy target to Katherine, who jus saw a big hulking figure with wolf ears and went on the attack. They cleared that up pretty quickly

Katherine, feeling bad about literally trying to murder her, offered Gertrude a place to stay in her Empire, which is essentially a dream come true for her, especially since it’s princess fairytale + Monster hunting

A problem did quickly rise however, with the whole werewolf thing Gert has got going on

Gertrude couldn’t exactly tell her boss that she was a werewolf since they are considered monsters, but she couldn’t hide it every month either

Hilarity ensues

No but fr the full moons got really exhausting for all of the dl kids since they had to keep Weretrude away from Katherine, but while a werewolf she has no real awareness or idea what’s going on so they have to keep an eight feet, four hundred pound feral wolf from all of the empire area and from killing them. Basically Johnny and Wes, the two most durable of the kids, wrestled her away from the main area, while the other four played distractions to get her to chase them

No one enjoys it

Johnny

(There’s only so many western cowboy ranch outfits alright, so I said fuck it let there be sluttiness. Also the bracelet he’s wearing is a friendship bracelet from Lily, the warden he befriended. She had a similar one made from straw and strands from his hair)

Appeared in the Eversea, and stuck around for a few hours to check the place out before he heard about Tumblr Town, then he immediately took off

Jimmy was not at all prepared to have this fire child who looks like he’s been through actual hell (Because reminder they come from the dl server, where Johnny actually had moss and vines growing on him and looks half dead) hug him so tightly his back almost pops

Johnny was disappointed to say the least that his dad had no memory of him, in fact disappointed doesn’t cover it he was fucking distressed, but he spent an entire week just following Jimmy around when he was doing his chores, explaining everything from his childhood, to Tango, to their Warden Child, to the ranch. He also built a ranch in that period

Jimmy was kinda iffy about it at first, I mean who wouldn’t be, but Johnny is as stubborn as his fathers and refused to leave him be. Turns out Johnny is a great addition to Tumblr Town with his immunity to heat, tendency for hard manual labor, and absolute love for farm work. Plus, the flame bite came in handy, and the creeper explosion resistance

He doesn’t mind the toy jokes that much either, he’s more annoyed by the build pranks he had to take down, especially the ones that disturb the animals

It took him about two weeks to befriend all the wardens in Gobland. fWhip was not thrilled by the process to get there, but he enjoys to not have to worry about Warden attacks since they’re now pretty civil

Also has a horse named Butternut he loves more than his friends

Jassy

(Queen got two designs as well lol. I made her mask a bandana in her first design and a headband in the second, just cuz fun. Also her hair is a pain in the ass because it’s so inconsistent, why did I add that to her character. Also, just like Liana, she has a wedding ring <3)

Jassy appeared right under Stratos, kinda confused by the empty village but realized that there might be someone up in the floating city above her, so she grabbed yeeted up her grappling hook like a true ninja and climbed up

At first the floating city seemed just as abandoned as the town below, until she stumbled upon a young child dressed in a purple toga who was playing with a small sheriff doll that looked a tiny bit familiar

The child seemed fairly calm with her being there, answering any questions she had such as where am I (‘Stratos’) who are you (‘I’m Hermes!’) where are your parents (Daddy Sausage is in Sanctuary and Thunder Daddy is building a few islands away’), and what is that in your hand (‘It’s my sheriff toy! Thunder Daddy made it!)

Jassy guessed that she could probably get more info from this “Thunder Daddy”, so she grabbed Hermes tiny hand to help guide her and jumped from island to island, til she reached the one Hermes was pointing at and oh fuck that’s my dad

Yet somehow the fact that her dad was putting on the persona on an eleven feet tall god didn’t surprise her at all

While Jassy stays in Stratos sometimes, mainly because of her new little brother Hermes but also because it’s nice to see her dad again, she mainly stays in Eversea of all places. She was raised on a boat, what can I say. So when Hermes stays with Sausage, Jassy leaves to be a pirate

Jassy actually gets along surprisingly well with Joey. She’s a bit of a straight man to him, especially during his pursuit of Katherine

Jekiv

(One of my favorite tropes in media is ‘Goth emo character who looks evil but is actually really nice’. Jek is the opposite of that. He dresses in bright pastels and Flowy clothes, but he’s a fucking zombie necromancer dude who can fuck you up so bad. What an icon. Also the reason behind the many skulls, is because he likes to accessorize with skulls, teeth, and brain matter. Skulls just happen to be the only option here lol)

Jekky boy would appear in the Ancient City, and have quite a hard time to explain to Pixl that no, he is not some old king brought back to life and no, he’s not cursed by some ancient artifact he was just born like this. Needless to say Jekiv didn’t stay there for long

No, he’d seek out a more dark and damp place since he’s not too great with sunlight, and this cursed swamp seems like the perfect place! Sure, he was warned that the place might eat his soul, but he’s not even sure if he had a soul, so it should be fine!

Shelby didn’t really mind having the zombie hybrid staying with her, he was able to collect any potions ingredients she needed from the mangrove swamps without much of a risk, plus it was nice to have someone besides tortoise around

That was until Jekiv got interested in the art of necromancy. Necromancy is very common on every server, I mean theres fricking zombies and skeletons everywhere, but to be able to control the dead into doing your bidding is not so common. In fact it’s classified as dark magic and is illegal for witches

Jekiv does not care about that. He likes death, plus he’s the weakest fighter out of all the kids so he gotta have something to protect him, even if that is a zombie army. A bit morbid since he himself is a zombie, but morality and ethicality has never been his thing

Novo

(Between all of my babies, Novo is the one with the most drastic design changes between his first appearance and now. Man started out as looking like an annoying kid, and now looks like an annoying Slut. Girlboss <3. For real though, I am very proud of this Novo design he looks unhinged af and I love him. Out of all the kids, he’s the one I enjoy the look of the most)

Novo appeared in Chromia, and if you know these characters at all then you should know how that went. Novo got one look at Scott, punched him square in the face, spouted some Australia-Scottish curse he invented himself and then stormed off, leaving poor Scottie quite confused

I imagine that the word of the kids would spread over the server quickly, but also that Oli would not hear about it at all, so when he found a tiny elf boy looking through the frankly pathetic storage system he had in his tent he would be quite stun shocked

Still, Novo has flair, drama, and a very threatening aura, so he’s allowed to stay

Novo is absolutely not a singer however. As I’ve said before you can barely understand the lad because of his Frankenstein accent, and even if you did know what he was singing he’s very off key. Can’t play any instruments either, and is too impatient to learn any

So, he takes to the second part of being a Bard

Okay not that part, he’s in a happy monogamous relationship thank you very much. No the other second part

Singing and playing loudly while following someone around til they actually pay you to stop

Never speaks with Scott after the first day, and all the other dl kids feel that it isn’t there place to tell him what’s going on, so all Scott knows about Novo is that he’s apparently his son and that he flat out despises him. He’s tried to form some sort of relationship with him, but Novo is both stubborn and spiteful and does in fact bite, to no one’s surprise

Tries to serenade Gertrude to the best of his ability, and even though it sounds dreadful (especially to her and her fucking insane dog hearing) she appreciates the attempts

Other small notes:

Gertrude does not like Chromia, because she’s got dog color blindness and the place centers around colors. The place makes her feel inferior :(

Jassy and Liana had a second more “official” wedding on Empires, with clothes designed by Katherine and a ceremony officiated by Pixl. Joel walked Jassy down the aisle

The kids have a lot of leftover mental scars from the dl server, including the fact that they tend to forget that food is once again accessible to them, so they can eat stuff again and not just repeatedly starve themselves

Joey believes Jekiv to be some sort of skeleton creature. He’s not, but he’s clad in a lot on bones and his skin is mauled to the point where bones are sticking out. Jekiv doesn’t visit The Eversea

I would tell y’all how it would go with the kids when the hermits came to Empires, but I kinda wanna see how that arc ends before I plan any storyline out

I do have Hermitcraft designs already created though

Actually they were made before these designs

Anyways baiiiiiii

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So much happened in last night's session. My brain is VIBRATING. As soon as I get off work, I gotta do my long rest journal entry for Silas. But my brain is going crazy and I just needed to word vomit.

Gonna describe some things that happened the best I can as they come to my memory, so they may be out of order of when they happened during the session:

Spoilers below the break:

- We know how to reconsecrate the three Fanes now.

- We met Exathanther, He's actually so sweet. His mind is wiped by his own doing because he made a deal with the same entity Kasimir did and wanted to forget, but we found out who he is through things around the library in the Amber Temple.

- So yeah, Kasimir found the vestige he was looking for, accepted it's offer and told us finally it was for his sister. We're all kinda pissed at him right now. Rudolph definitely yelled at him and told him he was being a selfish idiot. (Silas was afraid that Rudolph felt the same about him since he took the deal with Sykane. He asked him about it and Rudolph told Silas he doesn’t see him the same as he sees Kasimir because Silas did it in a tough moment in order to be alive again, and Kasimir is doing it for incredibly useless and selfish reasons for someone that doesn't even deserve to be brought back.)

- Also, at one point in the library Brandy found some books with names. She looked up her former lover Samuel, who she's been trying to track down. She thought she chose to come to Barovia to find him. Turns out he's been in Krezk, he was taken in and infected with lycanthropy. He ended up liking the people in his pack, they are helping Strahd and eventually, he told Strahd about where to find Brandy. Brandy was apparently with us, and they decided we were the group he wanted brought to Barovia to toy with. So basically FUCK SAMUEL, WE'RE KICKING HIS ASS ON SITE.

- We're also mad at Kasimir because when he say the sarcophagi he was looking for he ran straight for it instead of checking on Brandy when she was super hurt even though she's been super kind to him. Lil asshole. "Men are shit" - Brandy Looking Glass

- Silas and Rudolph took watch together for the first time in a while. They talked about notes Silas had taken from some of the books in the library, how they're sus of Kasimir, the wedding at Ravenloft they received an invite for and how Rudolph wants to go, but isn't sure that's going to go well. Silas made them tea, and he complimented it. Silas asked him that if things go wrong and he can't get out of his deal with Sykane if he'd please kill him because he knows he'd be the only one he could trust to actually do it. Rudolph agrees. Silas tells him he's welcome to no longer travel with the group if he feels it's best, but adds in that he would miss him and enjoys his company. Of course, Rudolph just kinda hmphs at Silas saying he'd miss him, but he tells Silas he thinks he's capable and that the rest of the group is as well. Silas also said, "We make a good team." But promptly, nervously is like "ummm, I mean like all of us." 😭🙈🙈🙈

- Ezmerelda is the queen of being the sweetest angel and bad ass bitch simultaneously. During her watch with Brandy she told her she's gonna help her find a new quarterstaff since the one she has was crafted by Samuel. Of course, first Brandy is gonna beat his ass with it, and Ez will gladly help.

- Then....drumrollllllll....we found the SUNSWORD!!! It's bad ass asf and we gave it to Brandy! So we're ready to gtfo our the temple and hopefully we can get out without having to have a run in with three remaining flame skulls.

And woooo we're level 9 now!!

I'm sure I forgot something and will edit this as I remember things, but damn last night was SO GOOOD and so many different emotions going on!!

#curse of strahd #dnd #dnd 5e #ravenloft #silas xavier #rudolph van richten #silas and rudolph #ezmerelda d'avenir #kasimir velikov #strahd von zarovich

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