#the end also is so ridiculous i dont understand tbh lol

[ywpd-translations]

Ride 718: Chiba's Sohoku High School

Pag 1

1: Southern Chiba Prefecture, Kanigawa city

3: I think the starting point is there

I can't wait!

They have takoyaki!

Sohoku is participating too

4: In this race

7: What is it, Onoda

Pag 2

1: ….. just now, somehow I though I heard Manami-kun's voice

2: I'm sure it was just my imagination, though

3: …. yeah

After all, we're in Chiba

4: Besides, this year Kanagawa has schedules, too

There should be a race there as well, today

Pag 3

1: The prefectural qualifiers to decide who will participate in the Inter High

Pag 4

1: The endless Pacific Ocean!

2: The Enshoji Temple!

3: Tainoura!*

(*NdT.: a natural reserve in Kamogawa)

4: Kamogawa sea park aquarium!

Ki-Kinaka-kun

5: Kamogawa!! Here- I've been here on a family vacation, teh!!

A family...? Vacation? Hn....? Rokudai?

Pag 5

1: Yeah! That one, teh

We stayed in that white hotel

Oi!! Rokudai!!

2: Listen!! We cam here for the prefectural qualifiers

As support!!

Y- yeah.... that's right, teh

3: We traveled since this morning with all the equipment... and came to Kamogawa!!

It took two hours by car

4: Be self-aware and focus!

Don't go all “hyaa” and “hyaa”...!! Our job is until our senpai are all lined up on the start line!!

Ah- yeah

5: Are you read?

Yessir!!

It's the beginning!!

I'm so glad the weather is good

Yessir!!

6: Really.....

Pag 6

1: It's been a while!!

4: Since a race we couldn't lose!!

Pag 7

1: Yeah!!

You're right!!

Pag 8

2: Uh....

Sohoku!!

It's Sohoku!!

What's that pressure

3: It's Sohoku's three third years!!

The sprintman with the red hair, Naruko!!

Kakaka, they're talking about me

4: The all-rounder Imaizumi

Be quiet

Pag 9

1: And then the climber, “Mountain King”, Onoda!!

2: Earlier....

Since I saw them getting off the bus, I wondered where Onoda was

Look, it's Sohoku

It's Naruko

That's Imaizumi

Where's Onoda?

3: But the moment he put on the yellow jersey

4: His presence got bigger!!

5: Those are the two times national champions of the Inter High, Sohoku High School racing team!!

Pag 10

1: Sohoku is here!!

Sohokuu

Sohokuu

That's Onoda!!

It's the three guys who participated in the last Inter High too!

2: Da.... dammit, Sohoku

I don't think we'll win

3: Senpai, Sohoku will go the the Inter High this year, too

Idiot, you have to cheer for us!!

Ah, sorry

5: A- amazing.....

7: Back-gate Slope-san....

Pag 11

1: It's overwhelming, teh....!! I feel like I'm so far away from them, teh

2: As expected, he really is a “god”, teh!!

I can't stop shaking, teh!!

3: The Back-gate Slope-senpai who usually talks so friendly to me

4: looks so glorious in a race venue!!

5: Ki- Kinaka-kun.... I

6: I really want to run together with Back-gate Slope-senpai!!

7: Look closely, Rokudai!!

Yeah!

That's our goal

One day we, too, on the brilliant stage of that “race”....

Pag 12

1: We'll aim for victory wearing the aame jersey as them!!

Yeah!!

2: For now, we're the support! We've been asked to work hard to deliver supplies, teh!!

That's right!! We were asked to help them in time of need!!

3: Oi oi, first years

4: Let's start to get ready quick now!!

Pag 13

1: Yessir, teh!!

Kaburagi-san!!

We can do it!!

2: Alright, so....

4: Damn!! Hahaha should I take your place from now on!? We second years can't run, to “preserve” us

These are Onoda-san's indications. Well, it can't be helped, geniuses are always preserved!!

!?“Preserved”....

5: No no, there's no need to take our place, teh!

R-right, it's us first years' role!!

7: What are you talking about?

Yes?

Pag 14

1: You will run, too

3: Huh?

Run?

Huh?

4: Kinaka Tsugunao and Rokudai Renta, you two were signed up for he race too!!

Together with Onoda-san and the others, you five will run in this qualifiers!!

Pag 15

1: Ehhh!?

Hahaha

Oi oi, why are you so surprised?

2: I told you, ten days ago! I heard from Onoda-san, and he told me to deliever the message to you

3: Definitely...

5: I remember I thought “ohh”, and I remember telling..... huh?

That's it, Kaburagi-kun!! That's it!!

6: Ahh, so when Imaizumi-san said “are you ready.....!!

Ah- wa- so it's really not the time to get excited because we went on a trip, teh

Earlier, Kaburagi-san, too....

You guys.....?

Did you at least bring your bikes?

7: It's our....

Our first.... race, teh

8: And we'll run together with them!? Huh!?

Pag 16

1: Do we really have to run!?

Pag 17

2: Yeah....

It's rising.... so this is what it means to run!?

Ah... yeah.... maybe, I can't believe it

3: I.... Imaizumi-san.... he's huge.....!!

4: Do your best, Rokudai

Ye-ye-ye-yessir, teh

Pag 18

1: Uh- uh- wa, I still can't wrap my head around it, teh!! 

Run.... run.... I was talking abou it with Kinaka-kun earlier, but it suddenly became reality....!!

2: It's a course full of mountains

Hold out 'til the end

Ye-yessir!!

3: Sohoku will run with both third years and first years?

I've never seen those guys before

I wonder if they're strong

4: Ahhh, I wanto to scold the myself from thirty minutes ago for being so excited, teh!!

5: Ah- uhm, I.... Imaizumi-san, uhm.... teh

Ki.... Kinaka-kun won the first years' race so I get it, but...... uhm

Rokudai!

Why me too!?

Pag 19

1: Even though I was a manager before!!

3: Did you see the map?

On this course there are a lot of mountains, and even though we use up a lot of calories, there a few supply stations

5: You can't win a road race just by being strong

Without supplies and calories control, you can't sho a good perfeormance

6: You need someone who “delievers it for you”

7: I heard from Hinoki and Amigoe, about your quick wits, attentiveness, and agility as a support

8: The reason you were chosen

Pag 20

1: It's because you “were a manager before”!!

3: Do your best, Rokudai-kun

4: Yessir

Back.... senpai!!

5: I'm sure today there will be a lot to do!!

#yowamushi pedal #yowapeda #yowamushi pedal manga #yowapeda manga #yowamushi pedal spoilers #yowamushi pedal translations #ride 718 #this chap was so freaking funny i laughed so much asdsdfgdghgfhj #Kabuuuuu why is it always you lmao #the way he went from being all confident to suddenly remembering that no he in fact did not tell them anything #peak comedy if you ask me #and roku-chan and kinaka MY BABIES #poor babies being thrown in the qualifiers like that lmao i #that's what you get for trusting kaburagi with this onoda #the way kabu was like 'did you at least bring your bikes' dasdasdfsfdg and if they hadnt?? that would have been so funny #the end also is so ridiculous i dont understand tbh lol #like what does it mean imaizumi #you chose roku-chan bc he can give you supplies on the course during the race??? so he'll have to bring more supplies with ??? #how??? #how does he keep up with you guys if he's heavier bc of the supplies he has to carry D: #make it make sense lmao #i guess we'll find out in the next chapters but still its making me laugh #i love my sohoku boys so much did you know #roku-chan and kinaka being besties is honestly healing my soul #it took them 0.3 seconds to become friends and i love that for them #also it feels so weird whenever they anyone calls kaburagi witht the senpai or san #excuse me hes too dumb for that lmao #ALSO OMG HOW COULD I FORGET #onoda at the beginning randomly hearing manami's voice??? excuse me that's not very het behaviour okay you know

[madara-fate]

I haven't been in this fandom for years now, and i wanted to check out this again and wow, is still the same. I feel like, is okay if people don't like sasusaku, i can even see why (everything was wrapped very quickly at the end). But to say that real sasuke fans shouldn't support sasusaku, or that if you really love sasuke you should hate sakura is a reach. I understand if people think he was wronged by the narrative and he deserved better, but this fandom treats sakura worse than the villains. If sakura was really a bad person, sasuke would have just .... choose someone else. She was just in love with a boy who was really traumatized and in pain. She wanted the best for him, is not a big deal. Is sakura a flawed character? Yes, she is. But so is sasuke and i still love him because i can empathize with him and see how much he was suffering. They both have a lot of good and bad things. I also can understand if people don't like sakura, but why is her hate always about sasuke? "she should have moved on", "she abused him", "she doesn't deserve him". Like, why is bad loving someone.. everyone in naruto is allowed to not move on from someone, but she has to. For her character to be better, she needs to stop loving sasuke. The hate that sasuke get is from people who pretend they care/like sakura too. Like, is okay if people don't like the canon couples, that's totally fine. I'm not a fan with a lot of things after 699 either. But, the fact that a lot of people think that you can't be a real fan of a character because he ended up with someone you don't like is ridiculous. SS couldn't have happened and i wouldn't care, sasuke would still be happy with other person and i would be happy for him. That's all I ever wanted for him. Same with sakura. Can they just let it go? More than 10 years and fans have made it all about shipping. that's.... the only thing they care about. There's so much more about sasuke and sakura than them being a couple. I like them both, a lot, they are my favorite characters and I enjoy their dynamic, but seeing how people treats them makes me feel like staying away from this fandom was a good decision... sasuke and sakura relationship is actually wholesome... I don't understand why everyone is so obsessed with making them seem like they are miserable with each other? Is because they think they would have chosen someone better for them? As if sasuke and sakura didn't have other options , they just didn't want to.... idk i feel like people take this shipping stuff too serious. sasuke having a family again is nice :/ even sasuke fans trash him, "bad father", "bad husband", like damn, i thought yall liked him?, is really sad. Also, is like, they hate sakura so much they don't care if they also end up trashing sasuke in the way of it. Just because he is with someone they didn't want to doesn't mean he is unhappy , how miserable are they? The fact that sakura extremists have this same mindset and is because she just... didn't love naruto back? She didn't do what they wanted for her? That Kishimoto didn't make her say: "i'm going to beat sasuke up! i'm not the same anymore!" or some cringe girl boss shit?, as if sakura would ever do something like that to him. Some sakura fans dont even understand her character, they just use her for ships and sadly they don't understand sasuke either. And he is only a prize (this happens with every sasuke ship tbh). But is funny because... sakura also is a prize for a lot of shippers that hate sasuke. SS gets in the way of so many people.... maybe that's why they are so hated. man, sorry for the ranting but since 2014 they are on the same discourse.... like damn, this naruto shit was really serious after all lol ..After seeing all this i still don't think i could ever hate SS anyways... is the antis and their fans that actually suck.

A long rant, but yeah I can certainly see your points.

#Sasuke Uchiha #Sakura Haruno #sasusaku

[cacaitos]

i shouldnt force this but what do you think abt kakugos whole rising sun reclaiming situation

hmm to be honest.. if it's from the heisei manga. to begin with, it's a ridiculously senseless manga all down to quality. on one hand you got the guy that goes on and on about violence and revenge is always the answer and a count- i mean someone without weapons is weak and prone to be abused by the Every Other and like a woman while a conspicuous rising sun waves behind him fighting the both iron-cross-wearing punk ultra masculine violent misogynistic Other thats also the degenate kink leather-wearing queer (in the slur way) Other. and for some reason im supposed to get any productive synthesis out of that conflict. and like, at some point it gets all so bold, and having read KnS first, i could only imagine as i read that it must be some kind of conclusion or twist or literally anything at the end. and it then it just ends on a random mid-fight scene.

again, having read KnS first, thats not only yk Finished but that also basically negates basically most of the plot and elements of it, in comparisson heisei not only seems but ultimately revealed as even more amateur, unripe, weak structured, unfinished, thoughtless and useless of a read. furthermore, as i understand from yamaguchi works even beyond KnS, that's still one of his earlier less polished works, his works seem to deconstruct (though i didnt say how successfully) at least from his own experience those value systems, dunno if to his own work specifically tho, if at least from a their media legacy/influence level. but that's an idea i got from that essay i rbd a while ago, idk maybe his manga abt the toku fan one is shit and takes down everything i just said, idk since i havent read it. i look forward to know how he executes shigurui and such, a the toku fan one too, to confirm first hand in time. even if yamaguchi didnt change his stance it's just Weird. Red Flag. but also i don't get the fucking point of it.

deviation aside, if you meant from kakugo no susume, tbh i dont remember if the rising sun thing got assigned to kakugo at x or y, if any, moment; memory fails me. but the military uniform, for ex, to start with is a fair thing to point out to begin with. yes, kakugo is The Good Guy thats categorically opossed to resembling his g.grandfather or his ideologies, yet wears a hs uniform alike to the military japanese imperial one. but focusing on only kakugo is kinda missing the wider landscape. i mean the manga is riddled with that kind of contradiction, and to pick on one is to pick on many others. now, i wouldnt consider KnS any like Mature internal dialogue of fascism or anything, despite at least the textual reprehension for the imperial mindset and material effects/atrocities. the authors themselves admit is kind of a dumb series not precisely unintentionally, and again not the most polished work of yamaguchi, if you wanted to get a thorough and concise conclusion on anything. even if you tried the story wont help you on it lol, thats the thing with questionable quality writng.

#asks #like yes kkg is the one in the military uniform but also i really struggle to assign any covert malicious reading to him stirctly #'defending the weak' bc while ik that can be use rethorical-conviently i mean his thing is that he fights side by side w ky. #jpn POW victims yk that isnt that vague to guess 😭. #but it's important to questing further bc theres still things like the Hagakures living in war criminal hereditary terrain despite opossing #them ideologically. harara that depending on the day of the week either agrees w some things of said ggfather war criminal or ironically #personifies everything fascistggrandpal would despise or hard siding w categorcally antagonistic to fascistggrandpa imperial victims #like kakugo does. #what kind of other the Fiends are. for example. #and what of the Zero Suits that not only are 'made/fueled by imperial victims' but that literally wont work were not for their active #resistence to be used. precisely. as a weapon towards their own people. yet as it happens that theyres still brandished in the #imperial aesthetics.

[rqgnarok]

The thing about nates redemption is that I expected it to be a big focal point of this season and i was looking forward to it given how well they tackled rebecca’s and jamie’s but….ive been disappointed in the way its played out. There are things ive liked, like the way they show nate gradually becoming more self-confident and hating himself less, and how this causes him to treat other people more kindly, too. And maybe if this wasnt the last season then that would be enough. But i think the fact that nate hasn’t actually taken any strides to make amends (with ted, at least) is what’s making the whole arc feel a little incomplete. And i know it’s coming, i know he’ll obviously apologize to ted and maybe even beard. and I think the apology he gave to will was great. But it just doesn’t feel like enough. Idk for me maybe its less of a Nate specific problem and more of a ‘this season a whole has felt directionless.’ They wasted so much time on zava and shandy and didn’t spend nearly enough time actually like. Really focusing on Nate and Ted and the specific pain of that betrayal and their relationship as a whole. And I guess I also dont like how jade plays into it all either. Idk sorry for rambling on in your inbox but i guess my point is its ridiculous for people to be upset that nate is getting a redemption arc, something that was always going to happen given the kind of story this is. But I understand people’s frustrations with how the show has actually gone about it.

i do agree they wasted a lot of time in the zava/shandy storylines- zava i understand his purpose, making the team come to terms about their bond and getting to play the way they are now- shandy i do think was completely useless lol.

every time one of the main characters breaks from the group, in this case, nate, i'm always afraid that the show won't do them justice when trying to divide the time between the main characters now that they aren't in one same place or environment. most of what we've seen of nate has been pretty meh, him being an asshole and having small and rare moments of "huh, maybe i'm being an asshole" but him saying no to rupert and then suddenly quitting with no explanation did feel like going from a 0 to a 100. i would've liked seeing abetter build up to that and not waste time with shandy like we did (literally, what was the point of her at all?).

also, the roykeeley break up not being brought up until this week's episode and seeing roy getting "unstuck" from whatever was bothering him when we hardly talked about it (other than the speech he did about enjoying himself instead of leaving chelsea) didn't sit right with me. the lack of sharon also makes me a little sad tbh, i feel like she could've been of great help around ted and michelle's storyline (like, she was there but not really? and suddenly hanging up on ted like she does feels a little out of character tbh), along with colin and isaac's, sam's, roy's...... we have what, two episodes left? i hope they tie all these loose ends and have many many important conversations we haven't had yet.

i completely understand not liking how they're doing nate's redemption arc, but people who are mad he's getting one is like ???? you do know what show we're watching, right?

and don't worry about rambling! it's always nice to talk ted lasso with someone who understands!

#ted lasso #anon ask #i liked the focus they've done to colin's storyline and trent's addition to the group #but there are several things about this season that i don't understand lol #i really can't get over shandy lol she was literally so useless #about jade im kind of neutral tbh i dont mind her but it was weird how she suddenly became this really important factor in nate's arc #i guess they needed a familiar character to make a gf out of instead of a random stranger #jack i dont mind because i think that relationship helped keeley realize some things #about herself and roy and their relationship and stuff

[not-me-simping-for-blasty]

Hey bb! <3

You’ve quickly became my favorite bakugo writer, how you write him just feels so real to me. every time I see you post something new I get so happy!

I’m seeing ya write a lot about blasty with crushes and or S/O’s but not really about how he gets into a relationship so I propose to you how do you think he would realize his feelings and act upon them? If he even would lol he’s so stubborn and awkward with feelings I swear.

Anywho I love you and I’m glad your blog is getting the attention it deserves!!

hmmm hmm hmm tysm @kits-mania for the ask, this is a good one!! also ahaha i wrote this with tiny baby UA bakugou in mind bc his comedic potential is seriously limitless 

--/--

-ok, to start, so basically, he’s a mess. an absolute mess. 

-yes, yes, ik, we’d all love for him to be like, cool and smooth and suave and spit crazy game but he’s just not that guy. he’s a snarling animal at the best of times and an outright asshole every other second of the day.

-(honestly, if u asked me, the only confession you could ever get that would somehow be more disastrous than bakugou’s would be if u got one from tamaki. and even then, tamaki is a sweetheart so u would 100% be much more forgiving)

-but that’s not the point, what is the point is that bakugou would just be so weird around u and that’s how he recognizes his feelings

-lmao like he’ll be so ridiculous with his mood swings,,, very yelling at you for breathing one second, bc even that somehow flusters him, n then the next second he’s recommending an extensive list of personalized training exercises (that he devised) for you and telling you to shut up if you try to thank him for it

-and he’ll do those things almost without thinking about it. like, he’s already impulsive, we been knew, but for this?? pls he absolutely cannot control himself. he’ll just keep accidentally doing nice things, that he’d never do for somebody else, and he knows this. but then he also feels like he’s gotta act like a dick to cover the strangeness up

-and after being rude, to save face, bakugou’ll be in his head totally “man, i’m the best at this. i bet they don’t even know i fuckin’ like them!” n like, yeah, he’s right, you 100% don’t, but everyone else around him does.

-very obvious to his friends how quiet he is when you come up. like, he’ll say shit about everyone at any given time, but when you come up in conversation?? absolute crickets from him. (this is bc bakugou wants to keep his mouth shut, to avoid suspicion obvi, but in doing so he almost doesn’t seem like an asshole. n when bakugou isn’t acting like a dick that’s when you know somethings up)

-so, those two things combined,,, the mood fluctuation and uncharacteristic behavior make it pretty clear to himself that he’s got a crush. now, don’t get me wrong, he’s gonna be clueless on how to do anything about it, but bakugou’s not dumb. he’ll realize his feelings pretty quickly after they form

-now, for the acting upon his feelings part- whew boy.  talk about an embarrassing turnout

-basically, he’s not gonna do shit at first. he’ll recognize his feelings and he doesn’t want to be a wimp about them, but he also kinda just wants them to go away. so he’ll wait it out. bc it’s embarrassing.

-but if that doesn’t work, and he really does just have one hell of a crush,,, then all he’ll be able to do, at first, is work up the courage to finally not be an asshole,,, using little gestures that include but are not limited to:

1.) offering you a pencil when you lose yours. alright, alright, ik, very small, but this is bakugou alright?? mans doesn’t give up anything unless somebody tries to kill him for it and somehow manages to succeed

2.) let’s u copy off his school work/homework etc. obvi not all the time, but if ur in class, at the very end of a test, n he sees you looking over, bakugou will just sit there. he won’t put his arm over his work. not like he would if it was anyone else but you

3.) when you ask him things, he’ll answer. and there’s a pretty good chance he won’t tell u to fuck off at the end (what a miracle)

4.) will probably try his best to avoid exploding/hitting your face during training exercises. now ofc, if u get paired up with him for sparring, rip say ur prayers, bc he will by no means go easy. bakugou doesn’t even know the meaning of going easy. but he will keep his punches and burns away from ur face. probably also tries his best to only explode you thru the fabric of ur costume. so you don’t end up with burns (what a gentleman. not.)

5.) if you drop something on the ground in front of him, and he’s closer to it then you are, he’ll pick it up for u. u know, like a normal person for once.

-okay so as u can see, those things, which are very big for bakugou, are tiny. so tiny. and no other person is going to see those regular-human gestures as romantic interest bc why would they??? 

-see what i mean by embarrassing?? pls i love him but come on man

-but anyway, he’ll do that for a while. like probably up to a full month tbh

-and the entire time he’ll just be pissed bc ur not getting it. so he’ll keep doing those little things more often in the hopes that you’ll finally understand, but ofc u dont

(sidenote: bakugou having a crush is rlly funny to me bc if any of the bakusquad asked you what you thought about him all u’d have to say is “idk? normal? he’s whatever?? what is this question about?” bc his gestures are so small. so small that they just read like normal person behavior, and thus you have no significant opinion about him. and that’s just v comedic to me bc the absolute shock on their faces when u say that? pls they’re like “Y/N we cannot deal with either of you anymore. bakugou is not normal to people??? obviously he likes you!! why do you not get it?!!!”)

-but n e wayz, yeah he’ll continue with the little shit for a while and then just impulse confess

-pls bakugou is 0-100 or not at all,, so he’ll be completely content in his weird behavior until one day he’s just fed tf up with you.

-like ur walking around with a nice outfit and your hair done up,, just 100% living normally, but for whatever reason the sight of you that day accosts him. just pisses him off bc he likes you, a lot, and it’s embarrassing

-so he just impulse confesses right there in the heat of his anger. very “jesus fuck, you really went ahead and did it now, idiot. you really fuckin’ piss me off. i’ve been busting my ass for weeks now, bein’ fuckin’ nice as shit to you, and you’ve got nothing to say? just gonna walk around like that, on purpose, and keep fuckin’ quiet?”

- n you just “....?” 

-and he’ll roll his eyes and huff and probably clench his hands into fists and “i like you. dumbass. fuckin’ obviously.” 

- and suddenly you just “oh.” bc now it’s very clear to you how much of a relatively ?pleasant? person he is around you and how much that contrasts with the absolute asshole he is to everyone else

-pls ik everybody says he’s a pomeranian but like, no, seriously he is. he’ll pick one person to like and act normal around,, but to everyone else?? pls guard ur ankles he will bite tf out of them 

so, in conclusion, bakugou with a crush is an embarrassing but oddly endearing affair. very much a guy who fumbles all the way to the finish line, but he doesn’t give up. not ever, and especially not when u piss him off sm (read: fluster him sm) just by being yourself 

#katsuki bakugou #bakugou katsuki #katuski bakugou #bnha bakugou #bnha bakugo katsuki #bakugou x reader #bakugou hcs #bakugou headcanons #bakugou scenarios

[ajdrawshq]

So.... What the fuck! ( Any thoughts? VLR is wild )

if i put the Junpei what the hell compilation here does that count as an answer

ok i do actually have thoughts yes. so many thoughts. might take me a sec to form words out of em bc of the sheer.. something. whatever just happened and im also lowkey sleep deprived rn i have shrimp emotions and i also cant feel anything

hmm ok one of the things i wanted to mention was that earlier i almost thought Quark couldve been some kinda abondoned Left clone but they have different eye colors so thats crossed off the list. that Does make it kinda weird that Quark mentions freeing his soul during that one scene, but i guess we're supposed to assume he just picked it up from somewhere? like he heard abt it on earth at some point? i doubt Dio wouldve said anything to him abt it in the pod, and even then i dont think hed quote him during That if he did. but how well known were the Myrmidons for him to hear that?? or was it from Junpei/what Junpei was talking abt when he said he was involved during the mars expiriment thing??? idk i just thought that was a weird connection that they didnt directly address.. i think. i couldve missed smth there

im not even gonna try to understand the entirety of the time jumping stuff when it comes to switching bodies and all that. youd think id be prepared for this kinda thing considering all the stuff ive played so far! i am not. looking at the picture they used to show how Sigma's been jumping all over the place legit gave me motivation to do my homework bc that would be easier to comprehend

on that note im like. how do i put this. i was actually super interested in where all this stuff was going for a long while bc the ideas being used were cool even if the execution was a lil wonky. like im so down for time shenanigins (with memory fuckery!! come on!!) and clones and humanlike robots and a lot of other stuff they had going on. i actually like what they were doing when they expanded the morphogenetic field stuff, although i Do wanna think of that as completely seperate from how it is in 999 bc of the retconned stuff :/ other than that what they had going on was pretty cool but. the ending just. i ,,, i dont even know the way it all came together feels so weird???? like it technically makes sense and i get what they were going for. its. ???? i wanna say what im looking for is "anticlimactic" but idk if thats right. its just..... Weird.

however i also wanna say that i am at least glad they touched on the different views of people being stuck in the "worse" timeline? Junpei being glad to have Quark despite everything while Clover and Alice have to deal with leaving behind half a century along with their friends and family. even tho they just kinda went jk lol at that part immediately afterwards???????? but whatever i guess

the characters in general were pretty fun tbh? not quite as real-feeling as 999 but still enough to be enjoyable. it was nice seeing Junpei reference a bunch of stuff from 999 and retain some pieces of himself all these years later, especially when he quoted Light ("fake, a replica, not the real thing...") its horrifying to think abt all hes been thru at this point tho ,,, Clover seemed a lot more outgoing than before but a year can change u so i cant say much abt that, it was cool to see her again regardless. Alice is an interesting one and i liked her even if she was kind of frustrating to go against in the AB games lmao. Luna has lowkey been one of my favorites thru the whole thing but i had a hard time fully trusting her for so long bc of how suspiciously innocent she was lol which wasnt entirely baseless either but yknow. Dio is admittedly funny and ridiculously good at acting like hes a normal person its actually scary. also whered he hide the bombs before planting them bc they didnt seem That small. anyway uhh Quark is a funny little guy and its nice that he straight up doesnt die (usually?? i cant remember if theres a route where he does. other than the bombs) and!!! i actually really enjoyed Kyle. no idea why. wish he didnt abandon me so many times but it fuckin be like that i guess. accidental revenge for absent fatherism. and.. Sigma. when u said u do not like him i think im with u now. not necessarily strong feelings but. yeah. but PHI.. god i wish they actually said where she came from shes just HERE and they never fuckin elaborated man who is she. she is so cool tho i love when she goes on her tangents abt stuff <3

AL OF THAT SAID u were very right when u said the puzzles in this game are fun. even tho i had to check a guide a few times bc i was genuinely clueless for some of em (u have no idea how stumped i got in the darts part of the white room puzzle. i should never do mental math this late i cant live that one down) theyre mostly really good and i did enjoy those sections especially

#OH AND I FOUND OUT PART OF WHY VLR FELT SO WEIRD AFTER PLAYING 999. its the lack of prose #anddd this is all i can come up with atm i gotta sleep like Right Now #im starting to see things xkbskcbs #man. im gonna have some weird dreams after this #might watch ztd later. just to see how much worse things can get supposedly #zero escape #ask #mortellanarts

[notmanagingmymischief]

ok ok first of all, thank you for being so sweet with me :") i love you sm sxjnsjxhs 💕💕

now. im just going to say that this happened irl btw lol so. yeah, theres this friend of mine who i like quite a bit, they have always managed to be nice and understanding of my anxiety, adhd and what else is probably going on inside my brain lol so i grew very fond of them and also came to trust them a lot.

but, today, while we were doing a group project w the just the two of us, when deciding upon a few matters i became overwhelmed and couldnt think properly - which happens quite often tbh - and they then suddenly snapped at me for being 'way too slow' regarding figuring things out for said project, and that i should just do things on the spot, and do them quickly - even though thats something i kept on telling them about ever since we met, that this is definitely not how it works for me, unfortunately.

i became rather defensive because if that was something that i could change for their sake then i would do so at any given moment, trust me on that. but i couldnt. i mean, its my brain after all-

i tried to tell them that we were different, that despite whatever they tried to say i couldnt just work at the very same pace as them. but after some ridiculous arguments being thrown, i was just tired and decided to shut up and continue on doing what we were doing anyway.

so.. what made me extremely confused is that they never acted that way with me, they were always so sweet and just. so understanding of me. i was genuinely sad to see them angry like that and cant stop wondering if i did something wrong, or if me being so slow was actually my fault.

i just. dont know what to think of this and wanted a clearer picture before just deciding to talk to them about this, you know ?

im sorry if this is confusing, and if so i can totally make a few things clearer for you - add details and such.

i just want to know if im in the wrong here, and if im the one who should be properly apologizing to them about this-

also. theyre very focused on the school system and tend to be very strict regarding lessons and stuff like that, so them lashing out like this because we were late to deliver this project would be def reasonable, but they always seemed to understand where i stood in such a fucked up system and that i couldnt function or thrive in a place as such like they could, so i always hoped and assumed that they truly came to know about matters like this, and that they wouldnt get mad at me for not being able to fit in properly.

(i too dont know why they kept on being by my side all this time if im way too slow for them, or why they kept on pairing up with me if they have more than friends than i will ever have on that school. they could have just picked someone else, but despite knowing how slow i am they still accepted being my partner and still came to lash out on me for being. me apparently ?)

i genuinely dont know what happened and dont want to continue on making them angry at me because of this, and i surely dont want to lose the only friend i have there.. so, if you have any advice or if you might know what the hell just happened id greatly appreciate it ;;

(sorry for the huge text btw. im just bad at like. summarizing things)

sorry this took me forever to answer i was proofreading some work mbgfhtjv

ANYWAY i did my best to space this out well enough to understand--at least how it would help me to understand hyugtjhrytnh-

now this is...this is a really tough topic hun. as someone who also has executive dysfunction--not that i'm saying that's what you necessarily have, i'm just using the term from my end--i know what it's like to not be able to work at the same pace as everyone else.

so i'll let you know the most important thing first: this was not your fault. it will never ever be your fault that you don't work the same way that they do. alright? that's very very important to remember, no matter how much you may feel like it.

it is not your job to apologize for being different, that's like me apologizing for not liking guys when my best friend is only attracted to men, you understand? you didn't choose to be born different, just like i didn't choose to be born gay.

now that that's through. i realize how difficult this is to comprehend, especially as it's coming from someone you trust and has been here through this, working with you. it's exceptionally strange that they would just....do that randomly? however they could have issues at home, or online, etc. there's a multitude of reasons why they could have snapped today; things could have been building for a while and your comment might have just made them break.

i think the best approach for you--and you in no way have to do this, i'm just going off personal experience yet again--would be to address them privately, ask them if they're doing well and be nice about questioning what happened. don't accuse them of doing something wrong, just tell them that, hey, that really hurt me and i'm really confused on why you'd do this when you've been nothing but sweet with me.

you know? i hope that all makes sense, again i'm sorry for taking ages to answer hutrgjhn

i love you!! 💚💚

#ask #my beloved jupiter

[gokubrain]

Just to be clear, there isn't much canon stuff that hints the short gay prince hates his dad right? I know his dad was more upset to still be under freeza's heel rather than give up his literal son and that was pretty shit of him but he still kinda cared such as when he was boasting how geta would be the super saiyan when he was a kid. Plus there's that beerus scene with king vegeta. I'm just trying to wrap my head around if he genuinely has daddy issues or if it was just the association with him being gay lol

i guess ur right tbh i cant recall vegeta like. even talking abt his dad at all really?? aside from the battle of gods flashback but its pretty universally accepted across the fandom that he has daddy issues and i think that just stems from implication lol like it makes a lot of sense given what we do know abt vegeta’s past and also his current behavior

king vegeta was pretty adamant about his son being the very best and being the super saiyan savior of legend that would save their race from the cruel clutches of a violent oppressor and whatnot, and thats a lot of weight to put on a child’s shoulders!! if you spent your childhood being told that the fate of your people rests on you being the absolute strongest, you’d end up with some issues as well LOL

seems a bit complex tho. having this idea that he’s some hero of prophesy drilled into his skull from birth would cause both inflated ego AND confidence issues. like vegeta in canon is very outwardly proud and boastful but inside he has this fear of failure and the idea of being left behind is simply not an option for him (hence why he’s so ridiculously deadset on besting goku lmfao) so i think that’s some strong evidence that his relationship with dad isn’t very good

but i digress, per usual LOL

i understand where ur coming from when u say that like. king vegeta seemingly rly cared abt his son bc he was constantly hyping him up but i have to imagine that this caused a ton of tension between prince vegeta and his dad. maybe i’m dipping into headcanon realm here but it makes sense that if king vegeta is this desperate for prince vegeta’s success, he’s gonna push his son to the limits at all times. maybe it’s well-intentioned and just accidentally inflicts trauma, or maybe its selfish and shows king vegeta only cares about ending freeza’s rule and is clinging to his son as a solution. i guess that’s up for interpretation!!

maybe it’s unfair to draw these conclusions seeing as how we know very little about king vegeta but to be fair i dont recall him ever being like. affectionate towards vegeta or anything like there is no indication that their relationship was loving at all in terms of canon interactions

but yeah personally i def think vegeta has daddy issues, maybe he doesnt hate the king but i’m sure there’s some resentment towards him, whether vegeta acknowledges it or not lol

#god i feel like every time i type out my thoughts like this its just. purely incoherent #hope this all makes sense #thank u guys sm for sending anons btw i loooove talkin abt dbz #keep em comin i wont complain <3 #dbz #answered

[uwumessenger]

I saw you watched Haikyuu and played Obey Me. I was wondering what the demon brothers think of an MC that plays volleyball? You can pick what position they play. Keep up the great work💕💖

ooo interesting ! ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) 

i may have been just a tad bit extra with these but i also ended up keeping these more general so MC’s position on the team is whatever u as the reader want it to be~

Lucifer

confused as to why you like it but is willing to learn more about it bc ~must satisfy human to also satisfy diavolo~

he helps you start a volleyball team at RAD bc they dont have one yet

it’s co-ed for now, but later down the road there’s enough members, organization, and structure for it to be separated into boys and girls teams

he’s sure to hold a straight face when you talk to him about volleyball or when he watches you play but is fanboying big time on the inside hehe

doesn’t understand the game but makes an effort to understand it, though he acts like he knows a lot about it when hes around you

secretly goes into the human world to watch the olympic volleyball team 

ends up becoming the manager for the team

kinda aggressive, the coach has to make him step outside sometimes

when you return to the human world he is sure to keep the RAD team intact

also is sure to attend all of your games no matter what

at first he is super chill but eventually turns into a very loud and passionate fan of your team LOL

Mammon

he doesnt make an effort to understand the game on his own time. learns how it works by watching you and your games (ngl that’s how i learned too)

also picks up insight on volleyball whenever he listens to you talk about it

acts bored during those conversations but his brain is taking lots of mental notes bc it’s something you really like

ends up never fully understanding how it works but knows enough about volleyball to gAMBLE

definitely forces levi to make bets with him, but he always supports your team when doing so

will try to give you tips and find ways to cheat for you to win or do better

and he knows that you wont actually do what he says but finds it funny when you do something ridiculous during practice out of the blue

when you go back to the human world he still bothers you with out-of-this-world pointers

if he cant make it to one of your games (usually bc he has no way to get to the human world) he will record his reactions and commentary then send it to you

totally didnt steal that idea from levi

Levi

he has probably watched the demon-anime-equivalent of haikyuu!!

understands the game very well bc of that

but since the game is super over-exaggerated in the anime hes lowkey disappointed when he watches a real game (is even more disappointed when he watches humans play bc they’re not as powerful as demons)

so he likes to try out the moves he sees in the anime with you and mammon when you’re practicing on your own time

when it’s a game day he’s dressed head to toe in your team’s merch, ready to cheer you on!

of course, at first he doesn’t wanna go bc ew crowds ew major social setting ew oTHER BEINGS

cheers very passionately and puts other cheer squads to shame with his energy

livestreams EVERYTHING and by everything i mean only your plays and lowkey irritates the others bc he constantly interviews them

when you go back to the human world he always records his reactions and commentary, sometimes with mammon or asmo, and SPAMS you with them

but he gets to go to your games most of the time and never forgets his fans and glow sticks!!

Satan

immediately studies the game and its culture

he asks you questions and is openly curious about it around you

you demonstrate how the different positions work but go in depth on your position specifically

when he watches you his eyes are literally sparkling lol

he thinks it’s super cool that he’s learning about a real human sport from you

eventually becomes a manager for the team like lucifer, and takes lots of notes about what he observes, and his input becomes valuable and crucial to the team

rare moment when they get along but definitely fight for the bench when it comes to really big games

also likes practicing with you when you need independent practice before a big game or tournament bc of how serious and intense he can be

when watching your games in the human world he still takes notes and shares them with you as well as the RAD team

will bring numerous stress balls to squeeze to those games just in case so he doesnt um kill the ref or opposing team if they piss him off

Asmo

simply wants to know if people who play volleyball are as good looking as you ;)

he doesnt understand why you’re into something that makes you sweaty and gross while you could be doing something else

but also thinks you’re really hot when you’re playing heheh

doesn’t really make an effort to teach himself about how the game works but he knows to cheer by reading the expressions on your face

unlike most of the others he doesnt stick around when you’re practicing

throws a lot of pre-game parties but doesnt allow anyone who supports your opposing team to join

dresses up for games like levi, but is much more stylish with it

designed the RAD team uniforms and jackets/sweatshirts

after returning to the human world he secretly designs new swag for your team and is overjoyed when you guys use it !!

sometimes he watches your games with levi and sends you a cute selfie when you score a point

Beel

excited bc it’s a SPORT

can talk about it with you for h o u r s. he’s really curious about how you play!

lots of working out and practicing together, mainly focuses on helping with your stamina

really good at blocking tbh so if you’re into spiking like hinata he’s a great person to practice with

doesn’t show up to all of your practices bc he has his own team sport to focus on but will sneak a peek every now and then to see how you’re doing

since it’s not a sport that has weight/height classes he doesnt understand when you diet every now and then in addition to your training

but he always goes to the games to cheer you on with the others since you always pull up to his

when it comes time to go back to the human world he promises to attend as many of your games as he can

and he does!! if he cant go it’s for a legitimate reason

even while you’re apart he’s still very encouraging and admires your skill and perseverance

Belphie

wonders how you have the energy to play such an intense game, especially since there’s really no strict time limit like taekwondo

but he does make an effort to understand how the game works so he can keep up with you when you talk about your practices or games

watches the demon-anime-equivalent of haikyuu with levi to understand it more

goes to your practices every now and then and will fall asleep sometimes, unless it’s a super intense practice game, then he’ll watch

he thinks you’re really fun to watch in action, and attends all your games

makes sure you’re always well rested and that you don’t overwork yourself no matter what

even when you go back to the human world he checks in on you when he knows you have games or long practice days

also he has 10/10 fallen asleep while snuggling a volleyball and thinking of you. so YAYAYAY congrats, MC, he associates you w/ volleyballs and thinks they’re comforting until he watches a game and sees you get hit hARD in the face

#LOLOLOL I LOVE HAIKYUU!! #so i lowkey got carried away sorry if it's kinda long #and sorry for any typos omg #obey me! #obey me! lucifer #obey me! mammon #obey me! leviathan #obey me! satan #obey me! asmodeus #obey me! beelzebub #obey me! belphegor #swd om #obey me headcanons #obey me! headcanons #obey me imagines

[monstrouslyobsessed]

ftw you were almost done with the mothman smut, but words didn't wanna come for the actual smut scene

rip me. HOPEFULLY...it’ll get posted later tonight or tomorrow!!

anyway, answering anon asks under the readmore because i dont feel like spamming my followers dashboard and i’ll post a hc or two later tonight.

omg I'm sorry, I'm very disconnected and forgot that Sandman was on another List. I can access correctly, sorry for the confusion😅—anon1

no worries! its probably more on me for not being organized tbh

Cerelos and Mr. Insanity have a safe word during sex? If so, what would it be? Would they listen? Would they stop? How would they react if it used at the moment?

Sorry for my English! I send you a virtual hug—anon2

i’ve muted i’san for requests, pls check the status, but i’ll answer this one since the answer isn’t a long one. honestly, they don’t give a shit about safe words. they already don’t understand personal boundaries, i highly doubt they’d understand the point behind the safe words either. cerelos on the other hand, is only willing to respect your boundaries if he feel that you truly are obedient—but i’m not very sure if he would respect the safe words 100% the time. you don’t deny your king from what he wanted, do you?

safe words would likely change each time with cerelos, but he’d likely allow his darling to choose. you just might pick a very ridiculous one enough to make him to stop too lol. a hug back to you!

Oh sorry about that. I didn't notice requests were closed. I hope you forgive me. (I was the one who asked about plague doctor.) Also sorry for making it so specific. It's just most writer I know always want requests that provide details, so I got carried away here and sent you that request. I should have checked first.😅 again I apologize for all that.—anon3

its all good! I still do require prompt, but i don’t like overly detailed kinds. give me some room to work with, let my creativity breathe, ya?

but seriously, please check peoples faq first, before sending an ask. i’ve updated my faq/status to clarify things better

Will we be getting more of our ghost hubby? Ooh Ooh what about him posessive a human body and breed us. Ps what happen to the stories of the naga? The one where a stranger found us in the maze and tried taking us back.—anon4

...ive been send at least 5 different asks on the ghost husband alone (with a couple prompts very eerily similar), where is this interest on him coming from?? it’s almost enough to make me to want to mute him too and he’s not even one of my main ocs...regardless, i’ll go back and update my faq again, but please, if you have a question or two for me and not a rq, send a separate ask.

i’ll answer your questions now 1) iunno, i’m not that interested in the ghost husband as you do, similar to the plague doctor, he didn’t really have much stories for me to tell tbh. 2) already have a rq on this one though... 3) huh? thought it was obvious but adoxi ate the guy at the end? the clothes fluttering down was an indictor that adoxi ate him. i’ll go back and reread it.

that’s all to the anon asks!! if you have any more questions, lmk and i’ll answer.

#monster whispers #not writing #[gonna close hcs tomorrow tho] #[and no more ghost husband please...] #ghosts are curious.👻

[tofiveohfive]

✨ otps & notps tag ✨

@bring-back1d tagged me in this (THANKS! 💛 and, sorry, but apparently i cant tag you? 😔) and, yk, why not start 2021 by being controversial am i right? fdhsjkf

top OTPs (idk how many i can include so imma go wild)

steve & tony (in the mcu too, but, honestly, in every damn marvel universe. it's ridiculous. if you've never read "the confession" and "the oath" you're not ready to have this conversation)

tim & lyla (friday night lights) ("what do you want?" "you" "what else do you want?" "you" 😩 will always fuck me up)

harry & draco (harry potter) (the first ever “tongues fighting for dominance” was written for them and that should tell you all you need to know about this pairing)

neil & andrew (the foxhole court) (if you’ve never read these books idk what you’re doing with your life tbh)

jamie & dani (the haunting of bly manor) (the SOFTEST lesbians i stg they make my heart turn to goo)

clark & bellamy (the 100) (here's ur monthly FUCK YOU, jroth)

comics!clint & bucky (marvel) (one comics run & a thousand fics were enough to make me lose my mind at how perfect this pairing is)

isak & even (skam) (nothing will ever be as soft as their morning after scene. nothing.)

eric & happiness & acceptance (sex education) (tbh im still on the fence abt adam. we'll see how next season goes)

fleabag & the hot priest (fleabag) (fleabag's series finale was simultaneously the best & the worst thing that's ever happened to me. i cried. a lot. the soundtrack still haunts me)

bonus: neil & the protagonist (tenet) (i dont really understand whats going on there Just Yet, but i like it)

next part under the cut because lol

top NOTPs

steve & bucky (marvel) (just 404 error does not compute, never has. to me, they're brothers & i love their relationship as brothers. also keep ur “[louis voice] brothers?” joke to urself, i’m not amused lmao)

clark & lexa (the 100) (sorry, fam. another one that never did it for me. i’m all for bi clark. if jroth is gonna be a little bitch about bellarke, then give clarke a WIFE, but not lexa 🥴)

jon & daenerys (got) (it’s just weird as fuck in the series. maybe it could still work in the books, but in the series it played out like a wattpad fic)

harry & ginny (harry potter) (they got me yawning by the second book of the series. imagine how tired i am)

natasha & clint (alternatively natasha & bruce) (marvel) (just leave natasha the fuck alone. it annoys me to no end that they >have< to make her one of her male co-workers' love interest. give her a girlfriend, preferably okoye)

brooke & lucas (one tree hill) (this is an old bone to pick lmao)

michael & maria (roswell new mexico) (enough to make me yeet from the show i guess)

i think that’s it. i usually ignore pairings i don’t like, unless they/their fandom annoy me haha

i'm tagging @whatevertearsyou, @phoenixvinyl, @stardustony, @vilounelle, @ilouistomlinson, @prsephones, @behisbest, @onedirectoin, @stanwalls & honestly if u wanna do it, please do & say i tagged u lol

#i tried to think of more people who post multifandom stuff but my brain is failing me #this was fun! #it's not always that i rant abt stuff like this fdhjkfj #tag game

[jimlingss]

Thank you, everyone, for your words of encouragement. In this short amount of time, I’ve been absolutely overwhelmed with messages of support. I want to reassure you all that I’m by no means as hurt as some of you think, or at least not after so much kindness. I’ve always encouraged all kinds of feedback!! From compliments to constructive criticism. And I’m (supposedly) an Adult™, so I can definitely take someone’s opinion.

Regardless, thank you to everyone who reached out to me. I want to respond to each and everyone of you under this post so I don’t flood other people’s dashes.

Anonymous said: about the anon who said your fics lack emotion, hmm i wouldn't quite agree tbh, i remember reading tears of a villian and deadass crying, it hurt me so much!! also, in "fall in hatred" their feeling are so well portrayed and i could understand why they acted a certain way! to conlclude, there is always some space for constructive criticism but your stories, are to me, something very attentively built and created, it's apparent that you completely enjoy writing, I can feel your enthusiasm!!

--to that anon; pls don't get this wrong way but it's just the way I see it and I've read quite a lot till now

nah deadass crying isn’t good enough anymore, anon. You have to be keening and violently sobbing until you’re brought into the ER for my fics to be considered to have emotion. lol I’m only kidding, thank you for the message.

peachiest-hun said: To that anon who said your work lacked emotions, I beg to differ! I have read Jungle Park so many times I know at exactly which chapter when the heavy angst starts happening and I read those parts when I just want to have a good cry (I still cry every. single. time)! Also Head Over Heels to Hell, The Colour of Our Voices, Love So Shallow (because I so relate with OC), and many more have given me the FEELS (happy and sad ones). 1/2

So what I'm trying to say is that Jimlingss is doing a great job in her craft. She does deliver emotions in her work and the reason I love it so much is that it's SUBTLE and not completely in your face. Sometimes emotions that are subtle and they hit you slowly, but powerfully it hurts even more for me. On another note, I'm loving Sugar and Coffee. In times of darkness which are often these days, I have something to look forward to every week to keep me motivated. So thank you Jimlinggs! 2./2

Istg Jungle Park is one of the most unexpectedly beloved fics on my blog but I love it hahaha I can’t believe you’ve read it to the point of knowing what chapter is what though. that’s an honour. There’s definitely stories of mine that are less subtle than others, but I’m glad that you enjoy the latter of them too :’) Thank you.

Anonymous said: This is my first time ever leaving a message on someone’s tumblr, but I just felt that I HAD to after reading that anon’s comment about your stories lacking emotion. I wholly disagree (in the nicest way possible, not throwing any shade at anyone). I’ve read all of your fics (for the past two years) and I look forward to when you release new material (the highlight of my Mondays right now after I come home from working at a clinic). Your stories have really lifted my mood during this pandemics an

Anonymous said: Sorry for that long tangent. Don’t even know if I made sense. You don’t have to respond to any of this, but you deserve to hear some positive words as well.

Oh my god. Did I just take your tumblr-message virginity? asdfghjkl I’m kidding. but thank you for reaching out to me. I can’t believe you’ve been around for such a long time and that I’m a part of your Monday routine :’) 

Anonymous said: OK that ask about "constructive criticism" was def imo RUDE. You don't just anonymously go into someone's asks and bluntly tell an author that their fics "lack emotion". That is not the way to encourage someone to improve and continue to work hard. That's just flat out mean. That person clearly doesn't care about your feelings or the fact that you write and share your stories for FREE for us to enjoy. I love your stories and appreciate what you've shared with us. Thank you for your hard work ❤️

I like to give the benefit of the doubt to anons and anyone sending me a message online in general. God knows there were times I meant well but it was received wrongly. But anyway, my mind was more boggled than I was hurt, that’s one thing for sure.

joonie-mono said: + it was called love so shallow which genuinely made me see myself in a character, but my point was that your writing has a specific feel to it, it's made me laugh and cry (His Name personally killed me :] ) and that's my opinion. You and your writing are amazing and I'm sorry but that anon was just so wrong.

oof bringing out the evidence. be my attorney please.

Anonymous said: As someone who has read your entire masterlist (and going through it again) i will have to wholeheartedly disagree with that anon. The way you portray SO many emotions in your fics is *chefs kiss* and I honestly thought that the ones that “lack emotion” were meant to be that way, with an open ending, the idea that their love just started, soo.... yeah, I’ll have to disagree.

There are definitely stories of mine that are a bit looser on romance. Such as Kitchen Romance, The President’s Son, The Heiress’ Son, Arcadia, etc. But I have a loooot of fics that are quite emphasized in either despair/sadness or cute fluff.

ladyartemesia said: ARE YOU KIDDING ME?! I am here to disrespectfully disagree with anon who probably doesn’t write effing ANYTHING and has no idea what it takes to produce the content you do. I have followed for months and I’m still not through your masterlist BECAUSE reading your stories is a bloomin EMOTIONAL EVENT. When I read Brass and Strings, I LOST A WHOLE DAY. Like I was so into it, my DAY was gone. Anon is prolly salty there isn’t more smut I guess. That’s whatever for them. (Part 1)

It’s subtle, deep, meaningful, and incredible and you’re one of my favorite authors. I can’t FOR A SECOND let that comment go cause it’s RIDICULOUS. You’re literally so gifted. You don’t need to change a thing. Every artist, no matter their medium, should continue to improve. So in that sense I wish you all the growth in the world as you work towards the perfection of your craft. BUT SERIOUSLY you’re an incredible writer. That anon is loony. I’m so sorry you had to even read those crazy words.

As I answer these messages, it’s starting to feel like I’m the third party mediator of a dispute and all y’all are just HAMMERING it to this anon, LOL. I’m not sure if the anon is necessarily requesting for more smut but if they are, they might be happy this Friday (*COUGH spoiler for those actually reading my responses)

Anyway, you’re too kind. thank you. I am definitely not as hurt as I was earlier.

((and tbh you’re hilarious, you’re actually making me laugh irl))

krystle1990 said: Woah!! Ok first that Anon is absolutely crazy. I literally stalk your page for new work being put out! I probably blow up your notifications daily. I've never been disappointed in any of your work. You always give a heads up if it will take time for the characters to realize their feelings which I absolutely love. It always leaves me ready for the next part and I am glued to my phone with every update. You're amazing and I can't wait to see how you grow with your work. 💜😘

ASDFGHJKL PLEASEEE if it’s someone who’s worried about blowing up notifications, it’s me. To those who have notifications on I sincerely can’t fathom how often I blow up people’s phones. I digress, I always give out warnings to keep people patient since I know slow burn can be excruciating haha thank you for the message.

kigurumu said: Also just want to add that saying you have good intentions or "don't mean to be mean" does not cancel out whatever offensive thing you just said. IT WILL STILL RUDE. Not saying all negative feedback is bad. Criticism can be hard to take no matter how it's phrased, but telling a writer to be more like another writer is like telling them their style isn't good enough which is NOT helpful. Your writing is your own. If the anon wants to read fics that are like gukyi's, they can read gukyi's fics 🙄

Also I've been waiting until Sugar and Coffee is done so I can binge it all at once but avoiding spoilers from all the asks is so hard haha! I keep seeing all these good things about it and I'm SO tempted to just read it now but I've already waited this long so I don't wanna give up kfnrjrofvjskdh guess I'll reread your other fics in the meantime

The message was fine on its own but I think dragging in another writer at the end was definitely not ok. When will comparing writers end. But regardless, gukyi and I are cool with one another - i mean we wrote 100k together so it’s gonna have to take a reverse Zuko arc for us to be on bad terms lol

Anyway, oooh you’re one of those bingers. Can’t say I blame you cause I love binging myself, so it’s understandable for readers to wait till the series is over. and since you were so kind in following up your original message with two more and expressing so much appreciation for me :’), I’ll let you know that the finale of Sugar and Coffee will be posted by July 20th! by then, the entire series will be completed. 

Anonymous said: Tbh i think that neither you nor that anon is wrong. Some people like it more romanticised and cheesy, some people dont. I believe that your stories are more on the realistic side of life. People (whom your characters represent) cant always be cheesy and passionate for love, there are other things in life! Maybe you're just the type who's too realistic for any hopeless romantic things like i am and it's fine. Not all writers can write dramatic romance

Tbh, I agree. It’s a matter of opinion and there’s no one wrong in the fight of opinions. As I’ve said many times on my blog, the cringe factor varies between person to person. What someone might think is fluffy is absolutely cringey to another. What someone might think is a good amount of fluff is not enough for someone else. I’ve written a lot. And I’ve made sure to add lots of variations between the amount of romance in my stories. Indeed, some are definitely more subtle and “realistic” while others are completely cheesy and makes me gag from the amount of sugar in it lol I just think the anon should take a look at more of my stories before coming up with such a conclusive opinion.

Anonymous said: I’ve been reading your fics for over a year now and religiously follow updates every week. Why? Because they make me feel something whether it be joy from fluff or grief from angst. I’ll remember a story of yours months after I first read it and return to it just to feel those emotions again. I understand that emotional responses are usually subjective but I think that anon needs to read your works again, because they sure are missing out.

I replied to that anon that they should check out more of my fics and then come back to tell me if they haven’t changed their minds, so I don’t know if they’re missing out or not lol

I don’t expect my stories to elicit emotional responses or fanatic feedback for everyone. God knows there’s been other people’s writing styles that just didn’t resonate with me no matter how hard I tried to read their stories. But all I ask is that people try. It’s fine if you give up halfway but at least try reading. That’s fair to ask, right?

#Anonymous #peachiest-hun #joonie-mono #ladyartemesia #krystle1990 #kigurumu

[boy-above]

If you could rewrite v3 what would you change?

ohhhhh boy okay so, something a lot of you may not know about me is that i honestly didn’t like very much if v3 at all, i love kokichi more than anything but the rest of v3 was just something i did not care for most of the time. so honestly for me rewriting v3 would be like, almost completely changing it, the final product would probably be drastically different than what we have now. obvs i can’t describe it in detail but i can do some bullet points of the first things that come to mind.

the ending, some of you guys can probably remember that I’m one of those people who can’t stand the ending. i do not like the fictional aspect, i think it’s too mean and most of the time it’s used to excuse bad writing or invalidating criticisms of the game.

for example, I think the murder motives and the methods of killing/covering up the murder in this game are really ridiculous and dumb. whenever you try to criticize that however, people come out of the woodwork to tell you that it’s the 53rd season so ~obviously~ they’d be running out of ideas by this point. i think that’s a bad argument, the motives and murder methods are really dumb and over complicated and using an ending that i already hated to try to excuse something that lowered my enjoyment of the game just makes me more butthurt lmao. ANYWAY though yeah, i would give them more realistic motives and methods. kirumi being the prime minister is ridiculous. korekiyo killing someone with a seesaw is ridiculous. korekiyo’s entire backstory and motive are also unnecessary and gross and i would change those completely as well.

give tsumugi more to do. im aware that the joke is supposed to be that she’s plain and boring, but it’s not a funny joke. it’s disappointing that we have an ultimate cosplayer but she never dresses up or anything, and we Immediately rule her dressing up as other people out as a possibility in chapter one, taking any fun there could have been to have with her character away. if we have an ultimate cosplayer i want to see fucking goku walking down the halls, dont @ me.

I would make various changes to other characters. for example, giving kirumi more personality, like an arc where she comes to terms with the fact that she’s a person with her own agency and doesn’t exist to just be ordered around. even her ftes dont allow her to just be her own person. like i said before she wouldn’t be the fucken prime minister because i thought that was too much. im aware that dr has always been wacky and off the walls but that was too outlandish even for dr in my opinion lol

i would change maki a lot, i don’t like her very much. she’s mostly an orbiter character for kaito and doesn’t really have any meaningful relationships with anyone else. even shuichi who she should in theory be close with, she treats shitty towards the end of the game. i would make her more of a big sister figure, she could still have her tough exterior but she could soften when she sees people acting childlike. i want her to form friendships with people other than kaito. i always wished that maki and kokichi had actually gotten along because i think they have some things in common. they both act rude and unpleasant to maintain their distance from others. i hc kokichi as an orphan so that’s also something they could have in common.

more survivors than just three, that shit hurted. obviously im biased and wish kokichi would have lived, and i thought ryoma was gonna live tbh.

in my perfect world kokichi and shuichi would have teamed up to end the killing game, im aware that im biased but i think with both their brains combined it would have been Awesome. i wish shuichi would have tried harder to understand kokichi and in general i wish people would have given more of a shit about his wellbeing.

obviously i would remove more problematic aspects, this goes for all the games but i would remove any “fanservice” that shit is cringe. i would do tenko justice and write her as a canon lesbian who isn’t weird about her feelings for himiko. i would remove that dumb hat off kokichi’s head in promotional art. i would remove the things kokichi says to miu during the trials, it’s going too far and feels out of character for kokichi to say in the first place.

removing the monokubs who even likes the monokubs

that’s all i can think of for now but i might make a post sometime detailing some alternate scenarios I’ve thought of if i can remember them, or theories i had during the game that i think are cooler than what actually happened ajdjd. like for example during trial five i theorized that after maki shot kaito and kokichi with the poisoned arrows, he gave kokichi the antidote to drink and then killed himself before the poison could kill him to keep maki from becoming the blackened and being executed. this seems possible since kaito knew he was going to die from his illness anyway, so it would make sense to make kokichi take the antidote instead. it would also fall in line with having a case towards the end of the game being a suicide, like with sakura and komaeda

#ask the marshmallow #anonymous

[cinnaminsvga]

You're Filipino right? Fil-am? What' your opinion about the term "Filipinx"? A term some of the Fil Am want to used as gender neutral of Filipino when in fact Filipino is gender neutral word. Filipino language is a gender neutral itself. I find it funny and ridiculous to make Filipinx happen. I just want a healthy discourse. Because many Filipino who live in PH feel it's a way of westernizing Filipino culture or adhering to western standard.

i’m actually chinoy HSAJDHASJ i just happen to be studying in canada bc im on scholarship but uhhh tbh i’ve never even heard of filipinx?? i dont really hang out with fil-am/fil-can people because they’re kinda... harder to relate to?? well in fairness i also dont have many friends so who knows LOL but i agree that filipino is a gender neutral word... like i understand that we call women “filipinas” but it doesnt erase the fact that women are also filipinos?? if that makes sense?? 

i wouldn’t say its really “westernizing” filipino culture bc it’s just a matter of linguistics... the word filipina is just a colloquialism in my eyes? like i can go to a philippine embassy and say im filipina and they’ll understand, but it’s equally as valid to just straight up say im filipino... idk!! i just dont think its much of a big deal though i suppose its not my position to say since im cis but i just think being called filipino is genderless in itself,, 

i dont have qualms with filipinx being a thing either if it does become the norm bc at the end of the day... it is just a word and i’d rather people be comfortable than anything else

#Anonymous #answered

[horansqueen]

AM Conversations : chapter 34

A Niall Horan fanfiction ; rated MA

CHAPTER 1 || CHAPTER 2 || CHAPTER 3 || CHAPTER 4 || CHAPTER 5 || CHAPTER 6 || CHAPTER 7 || CHAPTER 8 || CHAPTER 9 || CHAPTER 10 || CHAPTER 11 || CHAPTER 12 || CHAPTER 13 || CHAPTER 14 || CHAPTER 15 || CHAPTER 16 || CHAPTER 17 || CHAPTER 18 || CHAPTER 19 || CHAPTER 20 || CHAPTER 21 || CHAPTER 22 || CHAPTER 23 || CHAPTER 24 || CHAPTER 25 || CHAPTER 26 || CHAPTER 27 || CHAPTER 28 || CHAPTER 29 || CHAPTER 30 || CHAPTER 31 || CHAPTER 32 || CHAPTER 33

NOTES:

-one chapter is her pov, the next is his. -4.7k -im sorry, i never proofread, i hate it. -there WILL be smut. but not only smut. -this is a romance, comedy, smut story. -for the summary, check my MASTERLIST.

- if you want to be notified when this is updated, please message me or leave a comment!

- you can send me questions and theories and comments. tbh they all make me SO SO SO SOOOO HAPPY! and make me want to write more! you can also tell me if there are things you WANT to happen. you never know, i may add it :P

- note for this chapter: as usual, i realllly hate the ending. so im sorry about it. here are the ‘requests’ i added in this chapter

i will add more in future chapters so dont worry! i have like, 18 more in my inbox lol! so keep them coming! and i hope you like this chapter? i dont expect much notes or comments but please know i appreciate every single one of them! :)

Chapter 34 : His chapter

NIALL

I woke up before my alarm and even if it was still dark outside, I could still see the room clearly. She was deeply asleep next to me, her lips parted and lightly snoring, and it made an amused smile curl my lips before it turned into a fond one. I couldn't remember the last time I actually wanted a girlfriend. I know I had dated Maya but it was more a relationship that I felt trapped in. With Olivia, it was different. I wanted this, I loved it, and I was ready to let people know I was taken. That obviously didn't mean I was going to talk about it to everyone and publicly display my love and affection all the time, but I was okay with more things that I normally didn't agree with. I wanted this relationship to be discreet though and I was going to do anything I could to keep it that way. I thought it was the best way to save it and I didn't want to risk it, but I wouldn't deny or hide it.

I stared at my girlfriend for a few minutes and the thought of us being official made my heart thump all over my body. It was crazy yet it felt just right. I glanced at the large green-ish numbers on my clock and licked my lips, moving slightly closer to her and pressing my lips on hers.

"Liv? Wake up..." I whispered without success. "Olivia, our flight is in a few hours, we need to leave soon."

I put my hand gently on her arm and shook her softly but she didn't even budge and I decided to try a bit harder. It was always a pain to wake her up but I thought the alarm was just a bad way to get awaken.

"Petal, please wake up."

Her lips curled slightly this time and she groaned, I felt her legs move a bit and brush against mine and I licked my lips.

"Five more minutes." she mumbled low. "I was dreaming about you."

I let out a short and low laugh, leaning my head again my hand as I was still looking at her.

"No need to dream about me darling, i'm right here with you."

Her eyes fluttered open and I smiled more before she did the same. She brought her hand to my cheek and let her fingertips run on my skin and it reminded me that she had done the same at the lodge, one night. It was ridiculous that I had not noticed the way she looked at me before. How did I miss all of that?

I put my hand over hers, grabbing her fingers gently and bringing her hand to my lips before kissing her palm as I still stared at her. Her eyes were small and tired but the way she smiled at me was adorable and I moved closer to kiss her lips.

"Shower and dress up." I whispered, letting my lips brush on her jaw. "We don't wanna be late."

I pushed the covers off me and got up, searching through my drawers to find something to wear. I knew she would lay in bed for a while before actually getting up and I turned to look at her. She had barely moved. She was just staring at me and I rolled my eyes with a smile.

"What now?" I asked, making her smile more.

"Nothing." she simply answered in a whisper.

I waited a few seconds just staring at her and finally chuckled and walked to the bathroom. I left the door ajar and turned the shower on, checking the temperature of the water before getting in. I stayed under the hot stream for a while but when I heard a noise, I opened my eyes again and held my breath when I noticed Liv walked in. I tried to hold her gaze but I couldn't help and let my eyes roam on her body. She was tensed, that much was obvious, but I sent her a small smile, happy that she had joined me. I didn't say a word, I just got closer to her and wrapped my arms around her waist, pulling her closer gently. I felt her shiver in my arms and bent down to kiss her, my wet lips pressing firmly but still softly against hers. It took her a few seconds but she finally brought her hands to my hair, slipping her fingers in it and I let my fingertips brush on her lower back.

"I'm so happy you joined me." I just replied in a whisper before kissing her again. "Thank you."

I took a step back, pulling her with me until we were both in the water stream. I deepened the kiss as she gripped my hair tighter and when she moaned in my mouth, I felt her thigh brush against my dick.

"If we don't stop this now, i'm gonna expect more from you." I half-joked, making her laugh.

"Fine then."  she let go of my hair and her hands slid on my cheeks, neck, shoulders and chest before she dropped them by her sides, staring in my eyes the whole time. It made me want to fuck her more than I could explain.

To avoid getting harder than I was, I grabbed the shampoo and poured some in my hands before rubbing it in her hair. She smiled more but remained motionless as I washed her hair but I felt her hold her breath when my hands slipped on her shoulders and down to her breasts. I couldn't stop myself from touching her and it made me realize that she was the first girl i was dating with whom I hadn't had sex in the first week of being official.

My thumbs brushed on her nipples and my eyes followed my fingers until she sighed, making me look up at her. Her lips were parted and her chin was slightly up, making her head tilt back very lightly. I could understand why such a small touch made her feel like that because she barely had to touch me to bring inside me a feeling of intense lust. My hands slid on her sides and stopped on her waist, and I watched her as she licked her lips.

"We're gonna have to talk about that." she whispered, making the left corner of my lips raise up a bit.

"Why talk about it when we can just do it?"

She laughed again and shook her head. "Because there's so many things I want to know about you first." she explained, grabbing the shampoo too and pouring some in her hands. "And we never really finished that discussion now did we?"

I didn't move but she got on her tiptoe and started rubbing the shampoo in my hair, wiping some foam that threatened to fall in my eyes.

"I'll tell you everything you want to know." I replied, making her smile more. "You can ask me anything."

Before I knew it, we were dressed and ready. I was surprised at how quick she had been but when I came back to my room to grab the rest of the bags, I saw her brush her hair, looking at herself in front of the mirror. It made me grin and I just wrapped my arms around her waist from behind, leaning my chin on her shoulder.

"I thought you were ready." I pointed out, amused by her behavior.

"There will be fans, and paps, and I look like...this." she just replied with a grimace, pointing at her reflection.

My smile fell quickly. "No one knows we're leaving." I let out, trying to reassure her. "It'll most likely be only you and I."

"But you can't promise that, can you?"

I stared in her eyes in the mirror for a few seconds and finally shook my head slowly. She just sent me a sad smile and shrugged and it made me realize how much more complicated her life was because of me. I tried to keep things private exactly for that, whether it was my friendships or my relationships but Olivia was part of both now and even if I could say she was used to it, I couldn't pretend it was something you easily get used to, and I knew it would get even worse now that we were dating.

I moved my body up and put my hands on her shoulders, raising my eyebrows as I was still staring at her.

"You need to let go of that. You need to..." I shrugged a shoulder. "Build a wall and not let them destroy it."

I didn't want anyone to destroy and ruin what we had. I didn't want anyone to destroy or ruin her. I would fight for that, I promised myself. We stayed silent for a few seconds, just staring at each other in the mirror and she finally swallowed.

"That's what I did with you." she started, making me frown. "I built a wall that would hide the feelings I have for you... the love I felt for you. That way, I could pretend it wasn't there, that it wasn't hurting. But in the end, it was a lie, you know?"

Her voice was soft, almost weak, and it made something stir in my stomach. Slowly, I turned her around so she would face me and bent down slightly to look in her eyes. She looked vulnerable and it was not something I was really used to see.

"This is different." I tried to explain with the right words. "These people, they don't matter. You know what matters? This. What we have. You. You matter. Your feelings, your well- being. Them? Fuck them."

Slowly, her lips curled and she breathed out, making me smile too.

"Okay."

"Okay." I repeated. "I love you, and you're beautiful. They're not worth your stress and worries."

She cupped my face and got on her tiptoes again to kiss me. I closed my eyes and enjoyed the way her lips seemed to fit perfectly with mine. If I could take all her pain, fears and stress away, I would without a second thought, no matter what it would cost. She deserved to be happy and thinking that some people who didn't even know her could judge her so wrongly made me angry.

"I love you too."

Her soft voice eased my anger and I smiled against her lips. I just wanted us to enjoy our time together, especially knowing that I was leaving soon.

"Come on, we'll be late."

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The flight was short and I couldn't pretend I was surprised when she ended up sleeping pretty much the whole time. I enjoyed her head laying on my shoulder and literally spent the whole time on my phone, listening to music and holding her hand. I stared at our intertwined fingers for a long time, a very very long time, and let my thumb brush on her skin softly. I tried not to think about it but I was scared of this relationship and I knew it. I was scared of what it would do to our friendship and what would change between us. I knew it could go well but I also knew it could ruin everything and it was too late to go back. The thought of not being with her made my heart jump in my chest and I realized I was fucked. I loved her and no, there was no turning back. I would have to adjust with time and do everything for this to work to make sure I would never lose her.

When we landed, I took it back and chuckled before wiping the sweat on my pants and we got out in silence. I was happy we hadn't been papped at all but I didn't mention it not to jinx it and we took a cab. I could see her eyes shine as they roamed on the landscape moving quickly by the window and when I took a glance through it too, it made my heart skip a beat. There was something amazing and unique about going home, something that nothing else could make you feel.

"Home." Liv said in a whisper as if she could read my mind.

I searched for her hand on the seat and grabbed it, squeezing her fingers and realizing it was the very first time we were here together as a couple.

"Home." I repeated.

She turned my way and looked at me with tired eyes, making my heart twist slightly. She looked pretty and I brought my free hand to her cheek, running my thumb on her bottom lip.

"Hey you, I love you."

Her lips curled more and she chuckled low.

"I never thought i'd ever hear you say that." she pointed out. "I mean, not that way. It's hard to believe."

"Well you better believe it, because it's the truth." I argued with a small laugh. "You know I don't say those words lightly."

She nodded slowly and licked her lips.

"I know, I love you too."

I don't know how long we stared at each other but when the cab parked, i looked up only to see my mom's house. i couldn't remember the last time I came here but it was definitely way too long ago. I got out of the car and Liv did too before I could open the door for her. We grabbed our bags after I paid the driver and got up the stairs but when I reached for the bell, she gripped my wrist. I raised my eyebrows, looking at her fingers squeezing my wrist before turning my head to look at her.

"How are you gonna tell them? Are you gonna wait until everyone's there? Why didn't we discuss this before?"

Her voice was low but I could hear stress in her tone and I couldn't help but let out a small chuckle, shaking my head.

"It'll be okay petal, I promise."

It took a few seconds but she finally let go of me and I quickly rang the doorbell. We heard movements inside and the door swung open. I barely had time to see my mom before she pulled me into a hug, making me laugh again as I wrapped my arms around her.

"Hey mom, im happy to see you."

I rocked her a bit and she finally pulled away, bringing one of her hands to my cheek, tapping it softly and finally turned to smile at Liv. She pulled her into a hug too and I watched them until they both moved back at the same time. We finally walked in and I could feel Olivia nervous besides me. I was tempted to grab her hand but decided against it, knowing it would raise many questions.

"I'm so glad you could both visit for a few days!" my mom let out happily. "Olivia, how are your parents?"

"Oh." Liv let out, sending her a small but uncomfortable smile. "Last time I talked to them, they were good."

"We're going to see them too if we can." I explained, bringing our bags to my old room as they both followed me. "Hopefully before I leave."

"I prepared the guest room for you, Olivia. Unless you want us to move the mattress in Niall's room, like you two did when you were younger."

I didn't know if it was the memories or the thought of sleeping in the same room in my mom's house but I smiled and finally just chuckled.

"We'll decide that later." I just let out, glancing at my girlfriend who seemed extremely uncomfortable suddenly. "Liv and I are going for a walk if that's okay? We won't be too long."

"Okay, but don't be out too long. You both need to get ready, your father's supposed to be there in a few hours."

Liv smiled happily at me and we dropped everything before rushing out. The weather was not that great but it was not raining and I pushed my hands in my pockets, making sure I wouldn't be tempted to take one of hers.

"I can't wait for her to know and at the same time, It makes me extremely nervous."

I glanced at her and chuckled. "Yea, I noticed."

She turned to me and shook her head slightly. It was cold and her cheeks were a soft shade of red. Her hair was a bit messy under her beanie but she looked cute and I felt happy. It was special to see her in a place I was so used to see her, but in a different way. Now I didn't only see her as my best friend, I also saw her as my girlfriend.

"How can you be so calm about this?" she asked with a chuckle this time. "You're so annoying."

I laughed and shrugged as we arrived at a park. This time, I took one of my hands out of my pocket to grab hers, pulling her closer before making her twirl around again. She laughed and ended up in my arms, looking up in my eyes. She sighed, her lips curled into a fond smile, and I decided not to answer her question.

"You think your mom will let us sleep in the same room after we tell her we're dating?"

I grimaced and shrugged, pulling her closer to me.

"I don't know, it's not like we were 16 anymore, I think she knows how it works." I just said, my eyes suddenly getting smaller. "Why? You don't want our first time to be at my mom's place, do you?"

She grimaced but laughed and I raised my eyebrows, amused by the conversation.

"Such a little minx, I swear."

"Oh shut up Horan!" she  laughed even more. "You know that's not what I meant!"

"That's very, very naughty Liv." I added, ignoring her comments. "But I want you so bad I think I wouldn't be able to resist."

This time, she rolled her eyes and got out of my embrace, shaking her head as she took a few steps back slowly.

"You know it will never happen, Niall." she explained with a smirk. "Not here."

I remained motionless as I watched her move away from me and the sight of her in the park where we used to hang out made me happier than I thought it would.

"But when we get back home, you're all mine."

"Maybe."

"Maybe?" I repeated, raising my eyebrows.

"Maybe."

Her lips curled into a smirk and she raised her eyebrows, making me laugh. Suddenly, I started running after her as quick as I could and she let out a short scream as she started running too. It only took me a few seconds to catch her and I wrapped my arms around her waist, pulling her close to me as she was trying to escape.

"Fighting is futile, I won." I let out with a laugh, leaving a kiss on the skin of her neck when she stopped struggling in my arms.

She turned around and finally moved her arms around my neck, reaching for my lips. I let her kiss me softly and grabbed her bottom lip between mine, sucking gently on it and making her groan low.

"I loved you when we were kids and you pushed me on the swing." she whispered., brushing her lips against mine. "I loved you when we were a bit older and we'd play football until it was too dark to see the ball. I loved you when we were teens and we'd get drunk and lay down to watch the stars. I've always loved you, Niall."

All the memories rushed to my brain and I swallowed hard. I didn't see it, I never noticed, and I felt very stupid about it. How could I not realize that my own best friend, the girl I always hung out with, the one I spent all my time with... how did I not see that she was in love with me? How blind could someone be for not seeing something like that?"

"When did you start loving me?" I asked, feeling my heartbeats accelerate.

"That's the thing, Niall. I can't remember ever not loving you." she confessed.

I stared in her eyes and brushed my nose against hers. I had no idea what to say, I didn't know how to react or if I should apologize. All I could think about was how hard it must have been for her. I wouldn't have been able to keep my feelings a secret for that long and i had no idea how she managed it.

"Did you ever tell anyone?"

"Not until recently, and only because people had guessed it and asked about it."

I felt like sharing it would have made it easier for her, like it wouldn't have felt so heavy on her shoulders, but hearing that she kept it in for so long made me nibble on my bottom lip. How did she do that? And why?

My phone suddenly rang and let go of her to take it out of my pocket. I quickly read the text message and sighed. I felt like we had so many things to talk about and it seemed like we can't ever finish a conversation.

"My mom says it,s time we come home."

I looked up and she sent me a small smile before nodding.

"Let's go then."

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"Nervous?" I just asked, turning around when I heard her walk back in my room.

My eyebrows raised and a small smirk appeared on my lips. She shook her head and chuckled, walking past me and searching through her purse that she had left on my bed.

"Don't look at me like that, right now's not the time." she pointed out, taking a brush out and trying to do something with her hair. "And yes, i'm very nervous."

I finished buttoning my shirt and took a step closer to her without touching her.

"You look beautiful." I expressed in a low tone. "Don't be scared, it'll go well."

She turned around and our eyes met. She sighed and licked her lips, shaking her head slightly as I sent her a fond smile. She looked adorable and I grabbed her fingers, squeezing them lightly before raising my eyebrows and moving my chin slightly down.

"They've always considered you like their adopted daughter or something." I added just as low. "Relax, everything is okay."

She exhaled and closed her eyes for a few seconds before opening them again. I saw her shoulders fall as her body relaxed and it made me smile more. I bent down to press my lips on her, smelling her perfume, the scent of vanilla not only coming from her hair anymore. Someone knocked at the door and we both took a step back like some kids getting caught doing something they weren't supposed to. We smiled as the expression of surprise vanished from our traits and I pushed my hands in my pockets.

"Come in!" I let out, still staring at her until the door opened completely.

"Greg is here!"

I chuckled and we finally followed my mom downstairs and when Theo ran to me, I bent down to take him in my arms before greeting my brother and his wife. I vaguely heard him compliment Liv and we all ended up in the living room to discuss. Olivia tried to have a conversation with my nephew and I finally put him down only to watch him run to the tree to check all the gifts nicely wrapped in christmas colored papers. I wanted to tell everyone about us but it never felt like the right time and it's only when my dad arrived that we finally moved to the kitchen. We started eating and I kept glancing next to me, a bit worried about how much wine my girlfriend was swallowing.

"Easy." I whispered after getting a bit closer to her and grabbing her thigh gently. "I'll tell them now okay?"

I knew the wait was making her even more nervous and she quickly nodded, still staring at the food in her plate whom she hadn't even touched yet. I cleared my throat and put my fork down, one of my hands still on her thigh and the other on my glass of wine.

"Uhm, so I have something to tell you."

I felt Liv's hand over mine and it made me smile a bit. Everyone had stopped talking and they were now all staring at me except Theo who was playing with his food. I focused on him for a few seconds until Olivia squeezed my fingers, taking me out of my thoughts.

"So, I don't know how else to say it but," I glanced at my girlfriend and finally turned back, my eyes moving from my mom, to my dad and then my brother before finally going back to my mom. "Well, Olivia and I are dating."

My mom's lips curled into a large smile and it made me realize I had been holding my breath. I thought she'd tell me something but she just turned to my dad who sighed. He was not smiling at all and I frowned, wondering what the hell was happening in front of me. I watched as my dad groaned and picked something in his pocket. My lips parted a bit when he took a fifty pounds bill and held it between two of his fingers. My mom got up and snatched it from him, letting out a short laughter.

"I told you they'd spend all their time together on tour and it would happen!" she told my dad, completely ignoring me.

"He always spent all his time with her when they were kids and he never made a move!" he argued, moving closer to her, leaning a bit on the table.

"He grew up!"

"He's 22!"

I glanced at Olivia and noticed she was looking at my parents exactly the same way that I was : surprised and a bit shocked.

"Could you guys stop talking about us like that?" I asked, raising my eyebrows. "We're right here."

My mom turned to me with a small smile and was about to say something but I just kept talking.

"I can't believe you guys made a bet."

"I can't believe you guys made a bet without proposing me to join!"

I turned to my brother and frowned at him, making him shrug with an amused smile.

"Son, I'm sorry, it was just a bet." my dad tried to explain in an apologetic tone.

"A bet that I won." my mom added with a chuckle before I turned to her. "Darling, it was so obvious to me that it's how it would end."

I let my eyes move on everyone in the room and I was astonished to realize that I was the only one who had not seen this coming. How have I been so oblivious? Olivia pressed my hand in hers again to catch my attention and I turned to her. The smile she sent me made me smile too and I shrugged a shoulder. I was not mad, just a bit surprised, and I finally chuckled.

"Then I guess it's time to congratulate us?" I proposed, raising my eyebrows, before smiling more.

Everyone got up and hugged us and as they were all discussing together and laughing, I decided that I was happy and that I wanted to remember this time as one of the happiest in my life. I sang for crowds, traveled the world and lived things that many people would never have the chance to live but at this exact moment, spending time with my family and the girl I loved seemed like the most important thing I ever did.

Olivia ended up in my arms and I held her close to me as everyone was sitting back at the table to finish eating. I closed my eyes and brushed my nose on her neck gently, trying to focus on this specific moment.

"I love you." I whispered. "I will always love you."

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I was tagged by @writing-with-melon I hope my answers aren’t complete waste or if time and if so I’m sorry and I love you

Rules: Answer ten 10 questions, ask 10, and tag 10 people

1. What song automatically plays in your head when you look out the window on a long drive? 

i dont really have an answer for this. i think i just automatically think about any song ive been listening to recently or any song that has been stuck in my head. 

2.  Do you have some snacks nearby when you write?

well i live in a two story house so the kitchen is downstairs and im usually lazy busy so since i have a mini fridge upstairs i just usually get water to drink while im writing. its kinda hard to eat and write cuz i loose focus really easily so when i am writing i am writing! i am in the zone! but if i am a little hungry ill usually snack on candy like chocolate kinder joys i love them but they r so expensive or snack on chips but i get like salt on my fingers or i like cheetos so cheetos dust and that just gets everywhere and later my hands and keyboard kinda smell like fart. 3. What do you do to combat creative burnout?

so burnout happens to me a lot so to get inspiration i either read other stories or fanfics which gets my head gears turning or i admire a piece of art or photography or a song. whats so unique and satisfying with writing you can explore and go anywhere with it, hehehe erotic if you know what i mean lol jk there are no barriers with writing just your imagination. there is inspiration any where you go and id advise to never stop writing. even if its a few short sentences or paragraphs about anything even bird poop its still progression and your mind is working and your searching for words like its all good for you bby.  4. Do you use (or like to use) prompts? 

i do ill put the link here. im thinking of changing it though to do something different. 

5. What is your favorite place to write?

lol boring, i know but my room. my room is really bright in the mornings and comfortable and chill and i have a candle of the pandora ride in disney that smells like the ride so its all good and relaxing and super peaceful plus i have a picture of myself the age of like 9 on my desk idk why but it encourages me and makes me focus to make sure i never get that cringy again. 

6. What is a hobby or yous that you usually don’t talk about?

well i like working out HAHAHAHAHA jk that was a joke...get it...cuz i much rather be eatingokillstop. but i really like to draw which i have a art page you can see it if you click here pls look at my failed attempts to be hip and cool with the cool kids and being artsy fartsy. another hobby is i really like to do makeup and nail art, nail art is really tough guys no joke if you do it like you got wizard powers are something. maybe its bc my nails are shorter than pete davidson and ariana grande’s relationship, alright im trying to stop i swear!

7. Do you play an instrument? Which one?

no i wish though. i always wanted to learn to either play the piano or electric guitar cuz H.E.R looks so cool doing it. 

8. How do you feel about your handwriting?

it sucks dont even try me. my sister can barely read it like no wonder nobody wants to steal my signature heck they can’t even read it!

9. Can you tell us of a story that marked your development as a person? As a writer?

ok sit back guys, sniff a nice amount of crack and get ready for the most cringy moment of my life but also a time when i knew i was meant to be *inhale* a fanfic writer. 

so it was elementary school, i think 3rd grade and for my writing assignment we were given a prompt of idk what the heck tbh i think it was like be outside the box and im like ok imma nail this cuz im a weird child and yeah so i got my papers and pencil and i went TO TOWN on this paper. so i wrote two stories. one short story with a picture to go with it and one long story that yeah i buried years ago. so my first story was about a farmer was about that farming life. he had chickens and dairy. so i cant remember if the cheese was spoiled but doesnt matter. anywho these cheese and a chicken were alive like they could talk in the story and i gave them faces, yikes. but the whole story was the farmer was a b*tch and he was trying to eat the chicken and cheese so they hatched a plan to get away from the farmer. they did it successfully and they ran away. yay happy ending my teacher actually liked that one me too and my school mates were thinking what they heck is this girl on i made a story about how me and justin bieber made cookies for Christmas you know. so then my other story i was more proud of this one cuz it was a tone of paper, sorry trees, and this story was about how a female hippo (girl i was all about plus size and thicker girls and no body shaming) and an male ostrich were kidnapped from their own habitats and taken to become circus animals. failed version of Madagascar hey mine was before the circus movie OK THEY STOLE IT FROM MEEEEE. so they get taken and are treated to harsh punishment and the animals can talk and i think its in the point of view of the male ostrich guy thing. they are in the circus and they start to have this relationship happening. love starts blossoming its all good. im happy with this cuz i believed in love at age of 8. they find a way thru a kick butt scene of the animals escaping and the hippo and ostrich are so in love that they run away together and they have half hippo half ostrich babies and i think i named the species  hipstrich or like ostppo idk but i was so proud of this story and when my teacher read it she was worried about me lol i think she thought i might like mate these two animals like secretly idk but she was like it was ok and i was like what this is frickin William Shakespeare writing or like F. Scott Fitzgerald writing. nevertheless it taught me a lesson that nobody else needs to like what im writing the main point and only thing that matters is if your proud of it and you like it and i really did. i will remember that story forever and thats what made me want to be a writer. lol sorry that was a lot. 

10. @emdop I’m going to use this great question: Explain one of your WIPs in the most ridiculous way possible. 

wellllll im working on my peaky blinders oc story its a lot of drugs money killing weapons jewelry rich profanities like its the show but written from my stubby hands so my oc and whatever its great and so excited to show it to you guys. 

MY QUESTIONS:

1. WHAT MADE YOU WANT TO START TUMBLR?

2. IF YOU COULD CHANGE ANYTHING OF THIS WORLD, WHAT WOULD IT BE?

3. WHAT QUALITY IS IMPORTANT TO YOU?

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE OUTFIT?

5. WHAT MAKES YOU SMILE?

6. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SONG IN THE WHOLE WORLD?

7. IF YOU COULD VISIT A PLACE, WHERE WOULD IT BE?

8. WHAT SHOW OR MOVIE UNIVERSE WOULD YOU WANT TO BE IN?

9. WHAT IS THE SCARIEST MOMENT OF YOUR LIFE?

10. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE IN THIS WORLD THAN ANYTHING ELSE?

im tagging: @thatlittlered, @ardentmuse, @acciosnapes, @lotsoffandomimagines, @collecting-stories, @blog-of-a-multitude-of-fandoms, @naughtyneganjdm, @lenahellgizibe and two random followers @spiritsent, @sucker-for-my-fandoms

i was tagged by @writing-with-melon again ty btw, ps i felt so much pressure lol jk 😊

Rules: Answer 5 questions, Ask 5 questions, Tag 5 people.

1. What is your favorite book?

fifty shades of grey hahaha naw my favorite book is obv you all know this is series of unfortunate events but i never usually cry period and i never cry for books ever so when i read mrs. tom thumb by melanie benjamin, its the part when her sister minnie dies i cried so hard idk it was just emotional the wording the way she described her pain it was so beautiful written yet so sad and that was just amazing to me cuz im like this book made me feel things and im like wow i would love to write a book one day and make someone feel something whether it be sadness anger happiness annoyance anything they are having an emotion and that is super powerful to do that with just words. pls go check out that book its a good read. also im a fan of the greatest showman so i really enjoyed it. there are many other books tho that i thoroughly enjoy so much. 

2. What piece that you’ve written are you most proud of?

oh my god ive always wanted to be asked this question hands down i am always proud of my platonic gender neutral tony stark fic called in·con·sol·a·ble window to me i wrote it so sad and i was feeling like depressed lol when i saw peter die in infinity war like i didnt know what to do with my life tbh but im so glad that @impetrichorny requested it tysm i just like how its not based on romance or fluff or happiness it is based on when you lose someone the nightmares and sadness you go through and that there is nothing nobody can do about it except just be there for that person so i really like writing angst and something that was out of the box. ive been thinking tho of doing a part two since the fate of all the characters has changed after endgame. who knows tho. 

3. What is the last song that inspired you? 

well for art it would have to good news by mac miller when i did that kobe bryant memorial on my art page. i dont want to give it away though but ill just say some very powerful womens music inspired my oc writing and making. 

4. How do you feel about letting people read what you write?

at first i was scared cuz i thought i wrote like trash which that feeling kinda doesnt go away like some days i feel that way others i feel confident or it depends on the request it just depends but anyways i was always insecure about my writing so when i started writing it was more like lets see how this goes if not ill delete the whole page. im glad to say it went great but in the begging it was hard cuz i kept putting myself down but i learned to accept or just understand that you keep learning with writing you always learn knew things with writing how you can explain something better or you words get more intricate and people see the improvement and you do too thats why i applaud those who dont speak english that english isnt their first language. you are doing a tremendous job and keep practicing cuz you’re gonna make it to the top. ive also learned that some days are not my days and you can take time off when youre not feeling it when you have writers block. just recollect your juices sip some tea go to the beach relax your mind a little and take as long as you need to come back and give it your all. also comments and reblogs and likes a follows those meant so much to me and encouraged me. thats why i cant express it enough how much all those mean to writers, artist, photographers, anybody who is truly trying their hard in this area of social media. its makes a person happy smile and confident in their writing but first train your mind into loving what you make not what others thing. you have to be happy with the outcome that is what truly matters and what makes your writing the best. look at me getting philosophical. 

5. Do you get distracted easily? If yes with what?

yes and with porn haha i get distracted easily like very easily homeschooling was really tough for me. music distracts me, netflix, the urge to watch david dobrik or unus annus or buzzfeed unsolved on youtube, heck my farts distract me. i gotta be like troy bolton i gotta get my HEAD IN THE GAME!

MY QUESTIONS:

1. IF YOU COULD BE NAMED SOMETHING ELSE, WHAT WOULD YOU BE NAMED?

2. WHAT PERSON INSPIRES YOU THE MOST?

3. IF YOU KNEW THE WORLD WAS ENDING TOMORROW WHAT WOULD YOU DO TODAY?

4. WHAT DO YOU OFTEN THINK ABOUT IN THE SHOWER?

5. WHATS YOUR WEIRD COMBINATION FOOD?

im tagging: @thatlittlered​, @ardentmuse​, @acciosnapes​, @lotsoffandomimagines​, @collecting-stories​ AND WHOEVER WANTS TO DO THIS IF YOU FOLLOW ME OR LIKE MY STORIES TAG ME ILL READ YOUR ANSWERS. HOPE I DID THIS RIGHT SORRY FOR TAKING SO LONG YOU GUYS ARE AMAZING MWUAH 

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