#that's kinda the fucking problem!

[1101200905]

reparenting Can't be the solution to parentalization. like. i had to parent myself so the only solution is??? i have to parent myself again????????

no offense but I'm actually fucking tired of doing that?

(i also get pissed at the idea that the correct response to loneliness is learning to be alone. that's in direct opposition to how Human Beings Work).

#just shit that frustrates me #part of it is me based #like I'm aware that i have to do work here #but i get so pissed when ppl try to wedge their bootstrap up my ass like. please #the PROBLEM is that i cant rely on anyone! or open up! you think the solution is to MAKE IT WORSE????? #i DID the self sufficiency thing!!! #that's kinda the fucking problem! #and yes yes absolutely inner child shit HELPS #i simply and absolutely resent the notion that health and sanity looks like doing it all on your own #that's puritan ass colonizer mentality please get away from me with it #interdependence is not codependence #interdependence is the fucking point #anti colonialism #rad #bpd #borderline #inner child #reparenting #parentalization #abandonment trauma #yeehaw #my life improved once i realized i could just reject that tho #inclusivetherapists.com is the foreal #unfortunately ppl ain't taking my insurance much but we getting there #therapy #rest is radical #self preservation is a revolutionary act

[muggle-born-princess]

Reblog if you're LGBT and are against MAPS/Child Groomers

#i kinda want to prove a point to certain people #i don't usually post my personal problems on here unless I need to because I find it unecessary and childish #but this bullshit has been eating me the fuck up and I need to vent #LGBT does not equal groomer #Child groomers are not LGBT #MAPs are not LGBT #TW: Child Grooming #Tagging it that just in case anyone feels uncomfortable with said topic #fucking hate Texas and religion extremists and conservatives #LGBT #LGBTQ #LGBTQIA #reblog bait

[vixensofdeath]

I am so tired and burnt out, I don’t even know what I’m doing anymore

#bpd stuff #actually bpd #actually mentally ill #bpd symptoms #mental problems #mentally fucked #actually borderline #borderline blog #bpd problems #bpd struggles #major depressive disorder #bpd #tw depressing stuff #bpd things #bpd thoughts #depressing shit #tw depressing thoughts #depressing quotes #kinda depressing #bpd feels #depressiv #derealization #sorry for being depressing #bpd traits #depressing life #bpd mood #bpd shit

[runeaxx]

I think they'd be best friends

#digital art #my art #hazbin hotel #hazbin art #hazbin hotel fanart #steven universe #steven universe fanart #no but really isn't it kinda fucked up that they both have trauma of parents going against divine order #and it ends up being their problem to protect the people they care about from that consequence waaaay in the future #there are honestly a lot of juicy parallels between the shows #crossover fanart #hazbin hotel charlie #su fanart

[bruciemilf]

Somebody tell me if this is a bad take, or if my love for Bruce is causing my objective brain to glitch, but-- something about advertising Batman, a hero who's very popular for being good with children, for being NURTURING with children, a bad father kinda defeats the whole purpose of what he's supposed to represent.

Batman is a protector; He protects people the world (and especially law enforcement) does not care about. That's literally the point of him.

Something about marketing " you can be incredibly violent to people you care about! And Its fine, because you care about them even if you abuse them, and that's what matters!" towards people, but especially men and young boys, is REALLY fucked up to me.

#it's not really 'wahhh think of the children' because the media you consume isn't a vessel of your character #but. gotham war is so incredibly shallow to me for pulling the 'no no its another personality bruce would never!' like. thats worse. #you get thats worse right? #because 1) dc loves demoninsing DID for some reason but it doesn’t add any substantial weight because bruce will be associated with #the actions of his 'alter' anyway. and dc knew that. 2) if you truly cannot write an interesting comic book where bruce is not abusive #and the batkids aren't being abused. you failed. #this isn't a reprouch or an attack to people who prefer that format. but the creator isn't doing it as genuine exploration of dark tropes #if that's the case -- dont cop out with the personality thing. let him be a bad dad. but its kinda fucked how dc STILL try to paint him #as a good person while doing so. its the collen hoover effect. 'we know the guy is an abuser. thats not the problem. the problem #is that the author wants us to pretend thats a good thing.' #bruce wayne #dc comics #dc #batman #text post #dc critical

[canon-gabriel-quotes]

Transcript:

A vile trickster sent me a nefarious package that unleashed a torrent of glitter upon myself and my home!

I have spent the last 3 hours meticulously using masking tape to extract the microplastics from my helmet.

Audio Source

gif for anyone who wants it

secret bonus audio of him opening the glitter bomb

#ultrakill #gabriel ultrakill #the gif is supposed to be glitter but it kinda looks fucked up outside of blender lol #this was a Difficult Request. bro had the giggles. got too silly. too whimsical #if you click the audio source you'll see what i mean #on todays episode of talking too loudly makes the filter die #big problem for me when my job is editing for the guy who talks loudly #flashing #flashing gif #tw flashing #<- hopefully thats enough for blacklisting #your 'package' 'came' in the 'mail' you say?? #huh what who said that #silly gabe you dont have to do that #theres thousands of people who would. who- who would succ that clean off- i mean #uh. #kindly help you clean up! #mmh microplastics! my favorite!

[puppyeared]

i like him

#somebody needs to keep me 8 metres away at all times or else ill start chewing on him #i just want everyone to know if i end up making a character who happens to resemble harvey in any shape or form #it probably wasnt a coincidence 😐and it will happen again #if i remember maybe ill try getting stardew when it goes on sale.. my friend showed me her farm and she named her chicken after doja cat #or maybe it was nikki minaj i cant remember. and she also said smth about monsters and passing out if you stay out after a certain hour #idk how accurate tht is all i know is the funny fucked up grandpas bed #i read somewhere that harveys supposed to be in his early to mid thirties and i dont have a problem with it but i think itd be very funny #if hes actually younger than he looks hes just a med school postgrad lmao. idk how well that headcanon would hold up since ive #never played the game and idk how often ppl talk about his age or if itsjust an implied thing. i just think its really really funny #im trying to get into the habit of drawing poses so im using reference images to try and build up muscle memory #i found some cute pictures of two ppl playing by the sea shore and it reminded me of xin and sailor so im gonna draw em like that #i havent drawn em in so long..... maybe i should update xins reference since i changed their lore quite a bit #myart #my art #doodles #stardew valley #stardew #sdv #sdv harvey #kinda wanna see him whimper a little bit. as a treat

[just-null-cult]

he wants kiss, but he doesnt out right ask for one. (he got one.)

#kamo noritoshi #noritoshi kamo #jjk #jujutsu kaisen #jjk fanart #jujutsu kaisen fanart #first post and jjk is trending #and i really like Kamo Noritoshi Jr #i also really like the thought of Kamo bring unbelievably awkward despite being highly skilled #therefore he causes accidental problems with easy solutions #its one of his many charms #also he seems like the type to be kinda shy but bc of his stoic face it looks like hes tryna threaten you #i love him sm #he should appear more #this is a repost bc i fucked up w tumblr shit arghghghh

[haunted-xander]

Do you think Saix' emotional co-dependence started as a Nobody or did it start as human Isa and just grew to an unhealthy degree?

#i like to think it started as a human partially bc that would make the most sense to me #(as xemnas/org xiii likes to use its members established weaknesses against them and saix/isas attatchment to axel/lea would be very easy to #manipulate him) #but also it furthers the parallels between saix' jealousy and rikus arc in kh1 #which i think is fun #obviously it wouldnt have been nearly as big a problem back then as it ended up being later on #partially bc isa wouldnt have been manipulated and gaslit so much but also #bc he wouldnt really have any fuel for it like saix got #no super-important super-secret mission they have to do #no forced emotional distance #and the idea of being 'replaced' would have been much more fueled purely by anxiety than any actual possibility of happening #oh and he also would have at least one other friend (subject x) #even if its one he wouldnt be able to talk to all the time #anyway im rambling. saix/isa got fucked up bad and i hope he gets loads of therapy bc god does he need it #isa #saix #lea #axel #leaisa #akusai #it feels kinda wrong to tag their noboy names when its them as a kids #kingdom hearts #kingdom hearts birth by sleep #kh #kh bbs #art #my art #xanders art #digital art #fan art

[ganondoodle]

apparently one of main guys directing the god damn zelda movie "aims for it to be a live-action miyazaki"

and i just-

you idiot, you fool, you absolut buffoon

first of all, there is a REASON why all his films are ANIMATED, animation can do things live action will never be able to no matter how much shitty CGI effects you pump into it

secondly, given how any possible ghibli influence in totk is so clearly purely a superficial attempt of copying aesthetics and NOTHING more is making me more convinced that movie will be shit

miyazakis works have been reduced to whimsical childrens fantasy with a specific kind of aesthetic in the mindset of many and i HATE it, its so much more than that and seeing how much totk has been compared to it, again, purely bc of some aesthetics reminiscent of his movies is still driving me nuts

the zelda series, especially the most recent entry, is very clearly lacking in everything that miyazaki excels at and i am not confident that anyone in higher positions whos working on that darn movie understands any of it and will just go for the usual copying of surface level aesthetics tm

#ganondoodles talks #zelda #kinda #yes i am hating on it #i have no hope of it being good #and i have no interest in ever seeing it #especially not fucking live action #and i have accepted that i will have to ignore anything of it #but if you pull one of my favorite works in the entire world into the dirt with it it is personal now #listen princess mononoke is my favorite movie of all time #second is castle in the sky #and i hate how much of both of them have been compared to totk over and over #no shut up they are nothing alike #and now this?? #yes this is a me problem #which is why i am talking about it on MY account #you dare make a live action movie of my game special interest and now you invoke my biggest inspiration AND comfort movies for it too??? #jail for nintendo! jail for nintendo for one thousands years!!!

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

things from The Halloween Update that are concerning me more than i already am about Eddie:

his Frankenstein's Monster costume turning his face (and hands. ha, hands, like the hands on a-) half yellow half blue/purple like the clocks & Sally's door. that's fucking me up a little ngl

Eddie tacks "A bit of a moral conundrum-" onto his description of Frankenstein's Monster, who he's costumed as. which seems out of place with the rest of his description. he could've said "bolts" or "white streak in his hair" or another physical trait. nope. Moral Conundrum (one could also describe his costume as "two-faced"...). and the fact that he's dressed specifically as someone who was "brought back from the dead" makes me 👁️👁️. kinda reminds me of a certain set of artworks from Clown's tumblr a while back...

Eddie, despite his whole schtick being "bad memory", was the only one to accurately recognize Sally's costume as pedrolino from the Commedia dell'arte. could be a little 'inside joke', might be something else. i suspect it's something else due to his... ah... Everything.

#yk im starting to wonder if eddie's meant to have a naturally bad memory #or if something is purposefully fucking with em more than with anyone else #bc he seems to have these little moments where hes On Top Of It #kinda like moments of lucidity almost? hm.... #eddie dear what have you seen? why are you Singled Out? #the wrist watch / his eyelashes matching home's (whatever the rounded things under the sills are) #his halloween costume / his memory problems / the fucking tiny secrets sprinkled all over his post office / his color being purple #hi eddie how does it feel to have main character syndrome #jesting! kinda #eddison edward eduardo edmund edgar edwin edmundo. what the hell is your deal im dying to know #wh speculation #welcome home speculation #homebogging #i wonder. i. wonder... #if eddie got Caught by whatever is out there at night #maybe he didnt know to stay in doors. maybe he realized he forgot to deliver something and thought 'better late than never' #maybe the town mailman is too important to simply Remove so he had to be dealt with a different way #or wait maybe someone saved him? wally perhaps? home? id(k?) #a worse memory so that he doesnt remember what happened? #a personal clock on him at all times so that he never loses track of the time of day? #an overactive fear-response to make sure he stays in his lane Despite him apparently enjoying scary things? #kinda sticks with the 'frankensteins monster' thing dontcha think? brought back from the dead? Stitched back together? #and the monster was an emotional sensitive character. like eddie. IDK idk im just rambling now

[vadersaber]

idc how this is gonna come out but here it is.

pedro shared a link to support doctors who work relentlessly in gaza and he himself has donated to that fund. some people decided to go "oh why does he have his comments off" or "a bit late to the party ugh". do y'all just wake up and decide to just be overall shitty and weird?

maybe he has comments off because he doesn't want weirdos in his comments telling him he's "supporting the wrong side" or whatever shit, or maybe because he's been literally picked on and bullied in the past for things less serious than this and he just wants to share something for humanity without people being annoying. maybe he's afraid to speak out (like halsey has admitted recently) bc of who knows what reason. he's doing something, at least.

#i kinda get it but i'm also so annoyed at how ruthless people are #like the problem isn't why he has comments off... THE PROBLEM IS A FUCKING GENOCIDE HAPPENING JUST CLICK THE LINK SHARON #pedro pascal

[vixensofdeath]

I wish I could just disappear and become nothing else ever again

#bpd stuff #actually bpd #actually mentally ill #bpd symptoms #mental problems #mentally fucked #actually borderline #borderline blog #bpd problems #bpd struggles #major depressive disorder #kinda depressing #depressiv #tw depressing thoughts #deppressed #tw depressing stuff #sorry for being depressing #depressing quotes #depressing shit #winter depression #depressing life #deppresing thoughts #i want to cry #i want to disappear #i need therapy #mental illness #im not mentally stable #tw sui ideation #borderline personality disorder #girl interupted syndrome

[verdantglow]

I believe it’s true,

‘Cause nothing matters when I’m all wrapped up in you.

(Made a Boat Boys playlist the other day. It’s not quite done & ready to post yet, but I’ve decided I want to go through it & do paintings for a few lyrics from each song on it. Here’s the first one. ^^ )

#boat boys #SmallEtho #hermitshipping #trafficshipping #verdant art #Part-time soulmate Full-time problem #<— gonna be using that tag for this series so people can find it on my blog. #also that’s the playlist’s name on Spotify if you want to listen to the WIP #just remember it’s subject to change & some songs might get swapped out #Spotify #fuck it I’m gonna slap this in their individual tags as well #I hope that’s okay #afaik Etho doesn’t go on tumblr & Joel seems to know exactly what kinda shit’s going on here. #anyway. #Joel SmallishBeans #Etho #Ethoslab

[heylouiseee]

take me back to the start when everything is okay and you weren't scared of loving me.

#bpd stuff #actually bpd #actually mentally ill #bpd symptoms #mental problems #mentally fucked #actually borderline #borderline blog #bpd problems #bpd struggles #deppressed #kinda depressing #depressing shit #major depressive disorder #bpd #bpd things #bpd thoughts #tw depressing stuff #bpd feels #bpd traits #depressing quotes #tw depressing thoughts #bpd mood #bpd shit #mentally tired #mentally drained #mentally exhausted #alone with my thoughts #mentally unstable #depersonalization

[kabutoden]

NEED more Aphids content it's amazing

bitches be fucking DRAWING

#... #i #may have a #like life problems in general #dddont worry about it #im going to start a patreon like tomorrow. and i need a parttime job #to like. live? #but uh. im kinda Fucking Super Excited about aphids #in general im working really hard on it because i want it to be done like in a couple months #so girl fucking WORK time #aphids teasers #thank you for the ask also um i appreciate it a whole lot