#that being said idk if he even can drive tbh lol

[storfulsten]

drive thru

#bombeep #whittyxbf #he wants to order #saw this meme and thought it was amusing so wanted to doodle it #then realize angles and everything are way too whack so kinda gave up #but in lack of other stuff #just to post something here it is anyway messiness and all ha #idk if it's realistic that whitty could even fit in a regular drivers seat comfortably #maybe they modified a car for whitty to be able to actually fit and properly drive #that being said idk if he even can drive tbh lol #bf probably can but for the purpose of this meme this ranting is irrelevant #also bf would do this kind of thing under the right circumstances so still au compliant sort of lol #whatever I'll be quiet now sorry #enjoy or don't #take it or leave it #whatever floats you boat #fnf au #fnf shipping #friday night funkin #boyfriend #whitty #bf #he wants to order meme #draw the otp #sort of I guess ha #I draw what I want

[jupipedia]

— mine yours. - s. gojo. playboy!gojo x reader. warnings : nsfw [ minor do not interact!! ], cunnilingus, orgasm denial, possessive!gojo, praising, lowkey angst, tbh this is pretty tame, not beta read lol, idk if i missed anything !

gojo was infuriating to say the least.

he was beyond spoiled, born with a silver spoon in his mouth. he was used to the best. he had the best clothes, the best schools, the best friends, and even the best women. he's known for having a new girl every now and then, always just as beautiful as the last, driving them around his luxury car until he got bored of them and dropped them.

he's used to getting his way every time, not settling until things were in his favor. he hates being told no when he wants something. he's persistent in all of the wrong ways and for all of the wrong reasons.

however, you couldn't bring yourself to complain as he was knuckles deep into your core, curling his fingers perfectly as he sucked on you clit. your hands were tangled in his white hair, back arched off of your comforter as you withered in pleasure.

the arrangement between the two of you was a bit different that gojo was used to. the girls he was with usually like being shown off. they liked being spoiled with the little gifts he would give them. they would brag about him to anyone who would listen, even going as far to post pictures of the two of them kissing, not that he minded.

you, on the other hand, acted like he barely existed despite spending almost every night in his bed and almost every morning eating at his house, wearing one of his shirts. you didn't go out of your way to see him, you didn't accept any of the things he bough you aside from a necklace on your birthday, hell you didn't even speak to him when you were in the same room if other people were there. he would be lying if he said his pride wasn't hurt.

"got the sweetest pussy, pretty girl," he muttered around your clit, the vibrations adding to the stimulation as you tightened your grip on his hair. he'd spent the last half hour between your legs, having pulled three powerful orgasms from you. he would deny you your release and have the ache build up a few times which led to an earth-shattering orgasm that made your ears ring and vision blur.

"everything about you is just so cute," he released your clit and took one last swipe through your folds before he began to kiss up your torso, stopping to deliver a harsh suck at each nipple before continuing his path to your lips. "so. fucking. cute."

"toru," you whined out as he removed his fingers from your cunt, bringing them to his lips to suck clean before kissing you deeply, your heady taste present on his tongue.

"patience, beautiful. you and i need to have a little chat," he said, opening the foil of the condom with his teeth and rolling it on. as he lined himself up with your entrance, he spread your legs, offering himself a full view of your cunt.

"we have to talk right now? it can't wait—ah!" gojo ignored your words, pushing slowly into your heat and pausing when he was mostly inside.

"please move," you tried to thrust your hips, but gojo was quick to pin them back to mattress.

"here's how this is gonna go. i'll move as much as you want me to, but you don't get to cum until you say that you're mine," he groaned in your ear, unable to resist the shiver crawling up his spine as he settled deeper into your core. you tossed your head back as the tip of his cock scraped your walls deliciously.

"didn't know—fuck!" your snarky remark died on your tongue as he suddenly began to thrust his hips, setting a pace that numbed your mind.

"you can keep the sarcastic remarks. not interested in those right now," he grunted, biting down on your shoulder, hoping to ground himself. your mind grew foggy as you grew closer to your release. you couldn't form coherent words, let alone fulfill gojo's request.

you weren't totally clueless as to where this behavior came from. if anyone asked you if you even knew gojo, you would deny it without hesitation. it didn't matter how many times he fucked you or how many late night dates the two of you went on, you would not admit to dating the man.

and it wasn't even to save face, you just didn't think what you and gojo had going on was that serious. you knew his track record and thought it'd be best to skip any unnecessary future drama that would come with being "satoru's girl".

"'t-toru~ i'm gonna—n-no, please~," you whined as gojo's thrusts paused as your release approached.

"aht aht aht, you haven't said it so you don't get to cum," he said, continuing his pace when he was sure your pending orgasm subsided.

"satoru please! i just wan' cum on your cock," you whined in his ear, arching your back as he grazed your g-spot.

"and i wanna hear you say that you're mine. mine to kiss. mine to hold. mine to fuck," he emphasized his sentences with harsh thrusts. "my girl."

"why—ah! why w-would i say that when y-you aren't mine? i k-know how you work, 'toru," you pushed out, forcing yourself to focus on speaking as he fucked you dumb.

gojo paused in his thrusts to look at you, disbelief painting his face. "you think i spend my friday nights watching scooby doo movies with you just so i can fuck you? you think i wake up before you to cook you breakfast just so i can get some pussy? you think that i help you go over your proposals a thousand time as test runs because i just want to have sex with you? i must've fucked you stupid or something because that's the stupidest shit i've ever heard you say."

"'toru, you know that's not what i meant. i was just saying—fuck!" your arms shot out to hold gojo's hips, hoping to stop his resumed thrusting.

"i know you meant, pretty," he hummed as he picked up his pace. "change of plans. you can come as many times as you want, but i'm not stopping until you understand that not only are you mine, but i'm yours. got it?"

fuck, you were in for a long night.

© JUPIPEDIA. all rights reserved.

#— (jupipedia.) #— (jupiter: after hours.) #gojo satoru x reader #satoru gojo x reader #gojo x reader #gojo smut #gojo satoru smut #satoru gojo smut #jjk x black reader #jjk x reader #jjk smut #jjk gojo #anime x black!reader #anime x black reader #*ੈ✩‧₊˚❕*∘∘˙˚༄💨 ( a jupiter production. )

[valsarchives]

my girl - t.c (part 2)

warning: google translate used french and spanish, sorry if it’s wrong!

part one

yourusername

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yourusername felt like a dream! thanks again for being there for me y’all!

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zayn 🖤

yourusername 🖤

kissmeyn ok but when are you guys gonna release the song??? we’re still waiting 👀

hero_ft you were amazing

yourusername thank you!!

ynmybaby GUYS I WAS THERE AND SHE DID AMAZING!! IT WAS LITERALLY A DREAM COME TRUE SHE WAS SO SWEET!! SHE STAYED A LITTLE LONGER AFTER IT WAS OVER SO SHE CAN MEET HER FANS!!! 🥹🥹💖

ynsbabygirl she’s such an angel 🥺♥️

timmytimmy did Timothèe showed up???? 👀

ynmybaby tbh I was so focused on Y/n I didn’t even look around me from the moment she was on stage lol

timmytimmy i got you girl 😮‍💨

chalamtfan guys I don’t think he was there. I mean someone would see him but there’s no pictures of him so idk 🤷🏼‍♀️

ynfan2 breathtaking ❤️‍🔥

username49 Timmy liked again!

randomuser i wish timmy was there tho

yourusername ok so usually I don’t like talk about this stuff, but as you can see, it’s my account that you’re commenting on and i was having a good time with you guys but everytime i see comment like this i feel like that’s all I’m worthy of and it makes me uncomfortable. So please be more respectful about this stuff. Take care <3

randomuser you’re right i’m sorry. I won’t bring it up again

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enews

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enews Timothèe Chalamet showed up at Coachella watching his ex girlfriend Y/n L/n’s performance. We are wondering what will “sources” say about this.

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timmytimmy I KNEW IT!!

chalamalabingbong OFC HE WAS THERE FOR HIS GIRL

ynfan2 he was so sweet to fan but he was hiding and he never took his eyes off of Y/n 🥺

username49384 well it explains everything right???

callmebyyourpeach i wonder if she knows he was there

ynmybaby E! News is on team Y/n&Timothèe everyone!!!!!

tchalafann i mean they’re not wrong 👀

timmychalamt Guys! I was there and I saw him. He watched her perform and sometimes he sang along with her. He took pictures of her everytime she got close to his side. And I’m not too sure about that but when she started singing “holding on” there was tears in his eyes.

ynmybaby it was their song 🥺

timotea0 this made me cry 🤧

sweettimmy wait really????? 😭

timtim24 I’m actually crying I feel so sad for him. He loses the girl he loves, everyone is making fun of him for something that isn’t even true and now deuxmoi claims that he was dating Taylor and he cheated on her with Kylie.

sweetteaa what?💀

timotheefan15 istg that girl is crazy . Leave him alone!!

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tchalametdaily

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tchalametdaily after all this, they’re still claiming that him and Kylie are officially dating?? Now that’s what I call crazy.

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yourfan8 I’m done 💀

timmyfan04 HE LITERALLY SAID HE WASNT DATING THAT GIRL OH GOD

randomuser93 i love & support them!

timmytim wtf

ynynyn9 they’re not even dating 🤡

timmytimmy leave him alone for god’s sake!

randomuser look, idk the details of this whole situation but didn’t he literally showed up at his ex’s performance? There is a video of him looking at her with tears in his eyes and they’re still talking about that plastic bitch? I wonder how much kris payed them.

ynmybaby Y/n claims that they ended their relationship on good terms but i think there is something else going on. She was asked about timmy this morning and she looked so uncomfortable. I really wonder what’s going on but I don’t want my girl to feel uncomfortable.

username953 what if he really cheated on her?

randomuser no way he would do that to her but i think the rumors are part of the reason they broke up.

randomuser97 “devil works hard, kris works harder.”

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ynlndaily

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ynlndaily Timothée at Y/n’s performance last year vs now :/

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ynsbabygirl does it ever drive you crazy…

ynmybaby just how fast the night changes…

timmytimmy I still remember when he hyped his girl every chance he got and after she finished her song he said “that’s my girl” and the fans went crazy :((

sweettimmy BRING THEM BACK 😭

kissmeyn God pls let Timmy and Y/n get back together

username491 I don’t think they’ll get back together

chalametfann he was so excited for his girl (he was literally jumping the moment she got to the stage😭) and after the performance him and Y/n met with fans and had so much fun together I MISS THAT SO MUCH

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enews

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enews Timothée Chalamet and Y/n L/n spotted together, seemingly arguing about something.

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kissmeyn wait wait

ynmylove I saw the other pics, they were not arguing!

timotheefan8 pls get back together pls plsss

ynmybaby no arguing my babies just hug each other and forget everything

ynsbabygirl I saw the other pictures. She was laughing in one pic. And his hands was on her waist on another 👀

timmytimmy omg is it really happening???

timotheefan15 yesyesyes

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timmyandynupdates GUYS ITS HAPPENING!!

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ynmybaby damn, they were arguing last week now here we are. I’m so happy tho!!

ynsbabygirl they can’t resist each other anymore

timmytimmy OMGOMGOMG

tchalafann I was waiting for this one!!!

timotheefan15 they look happy 🥺

randomuser isn’t that kylie’s new boy toy?

timotea0 no, that’s Y/n L/n’s boyfriend Timothèe Chalamet.

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yourusername Tu me manques depuis le moment où tu m'as quitté, he said.

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tchalamet Empecé a extrañarte tan pronto como nos despedimos, she said.

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ynsbabygirl SOMEONE TRANSLATE THIS PLS

ynmybaby OK OK!! The caption is “I’ve been missing you since the moment you left me” in French and Timmy’s comment says “I started to miss you as soon as we said goodbye.” in Spanish.

timmytimmy I love when they talk to each other with their first language 🥺

chalametfann SO THEY’RE BACK TOGETHER?? 😭

kissmeyn YESS!! They’ve been spotted kissing yesterday!!! 🥹🥹🥹

timmytim THANK GOD!

tchalamet’s story

@iloveneilperry @miawastakens

#timothée chamalet #timothee chalamet #x reader #instagram au #timothee chalamet x reader #celebrity reader #timothee x reader #timothée chalamet x reader #timothee chamalet #timothee x y/n #smau #timothee chalamet social media au #timothee imagine #timothee x you #timothee chalamet imagine #timothée chalamet x y/n #timothée x reader

[leejeongz]

how enhypen act when they have a crush on you

pairing: crush!enha x gn!reader

genre: fluff

warnings: teasing, slang

heeseung ･:，｡★ﾟ

♡ it took him a while to realise he had a crush on you tbh he just thought you intimidated him for other reasons

♡ like he knew you were attractive and that you’d most probably get on well, but he didn’t realise the actual gravity of his feelings

♡ shy heeseung !!!!

♡ the only person who can make him blush (he’d never EVER admit it though)

♡ launches his phone and kicks his feet whenever you reply to him

♡ if someone catches him he’s straight back to “:| nothing”

♡ heeseung has definitely accidentally liked one of your posts from 2014 lmfao

♡ in real life, you would never imagine that he has a crush on you. he tries his hardest to avoid you and panics when your schedules overlap because he just AH doesn’t know how to act around you

♡ he talks to all your friends but you :(( he does want to but he thinks he’ll embarrass himself in front of you

other members below the cut

jay ･:，｡★ﾟ

♡ FULL ❗️ of compliments

♡ sometimes they don’t land as he wishes, they’re a bit awkward and sound kinda weird when he says them out loud (but you’re still getting giddy over them because you have a crush on him too lol)

♡ no matter how long you’ve been friends, he still can’t look you in the eye

♡ but he does know how beautiful they are and isn’t afraid to tell you !!!

♡ we all know jay has no bad days, especially when it comes to his looks, but he tries extra hard on days when he knows that he’ll see you, spending hours on his hair and outfit, that’s how his friends know that he really likes you.

♡ okay so out of everyone, against all odds, i think he would be the most successful when it comes to flirting

♡ as i said he’s full of compliments but he’s also very good at making it known what his intentions are

♡ so you’d never be left feeling like you don’t know where you stand, it’s pretty clear that he has a crush on you

jake ･:，｡★ﾟ

♡ jake is the type of guy to look out for those he’s interested in, even if you don’t even know each other

♡ he keeps his eye on you, probably from afar, and uses it to work his way into your life

♡ idk if jake can acc drive but he would still find a way to make your journey to school/work easier

♡ jake is 100% that one guy who waits to message you on your birthday just to start a conversation and it works lol of course it does

♡ i don’t doubt that you’re hilarious ofc, but jake thinks you’re the funniest person on the planet,,, no one has ever made him laugh as much as you do.

♡ he tries to show off in front of you tbh

♡ and sometimes it’s like kinda cringe for other people to watch but he’s charmed you so you don’t seem to find it cringe at all :)

sunghoon ･:，｡★ﾟ

♡ despite his cold exterior, you always find him being nice to you

♡ the wanna be tsundere that just doesn’t have it in him to ever ignore you

♡ he texts you back really quickly and tries to help you with stuff even if he has no idea

♡ whenever you catch him looking at you, he turns away real quickly and smiles to himself… very cute

♡ there’s definitely going to be a rumour about you two dating before he's even confessed to you since he acts so differently around you than anyone else

♡ his feelings are like burning a hole in his heart that’s how strong they are, but he still doesn’t do anything about it because he doesn’t want to make you uncomfortable 😭 bless him

sunoo ･:，｡★ﾟ

♡ you very quickly find yourself within his friendship circle, and, although you’re not very close with sunoo, he’s always super affectionate with you and smiling at you

♡ a gift giver. even if it’s just a small thing like a pen because you forgot to bring one that day. he picks out the prettiest pen in his pencil case and gives it to you with the most genuine sweet smile

♡ whether you’re at school or working, he tries his hardest to clear his schedule on important days for you (sports events, interviews, presentations, etc).

♡ so basically, he’s your number one supporter and he WILL be your best friend whether you like it or not before he even considers confessing his feelings

jungwon ･:，｡★ﾟ

♡ without realising it’s kind of… weird he copies stuff you do and buys similar items

♡ like say you have a blue cloud charm on your backpack, he’ll get a pink cloud charm to match lol

♡ denies that he has a crush on you but 🤨

♡ he’s adamant he will spend time around you even if it means sacrificing his own plans. he grabs lunch at your favourite cafe in hopes of seeing you instead of sticking with his friends

♡ saying that tho, i think jungwon would be least likely to change himself around you

♡ he always acts like himself around you, if you don’t like him for that then that’s on you 🤷🏻‍♀️

♡ but who doesn’t have a crush on jungwon lol ANW

♡ one time he asked you if you wanted a hug when he noticed you looking stressed and now physical affection is normal between you two, like the next step would be kissing lmfao

niki ･:，｡★ﾟ

♡ the first to tell his friends, the second he’s sees you he hits the group chat and tells them he’s gonna talk to you and make you his

♡ he thinks he’s so confident and smooth but he’s stuttering on EVERY WORD

♡ he’s most definitely a teaser, you’ll come away from every conversation thinking he dislikes you but that’s so far from the truth

♡ behind your back, he’s your number 1 defender, to the point where no one even dares say anything bad about you because they are too scared of niki lmfao

♡ he loves sitting next to you and poking you or nudging you (especially when you’re concentrating)

♡ AND THEN asking if you wanna get up and dance ??? even though you're in public or smth lmfao

#enhypen #enhypen fluff #enhypen reactions #heeseung #jay #jake #sunghoon #sunoo #jungwon #niki

[soobinspet]

alright, i’mma keep the p1h nsfw alphabet going with the One and Only, keeho lmao

🙏 thanks in advance 🫶

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I should probably do them all at this point lol, the Intak one was so fun to write idk I had so much imagination, anyway there u go

NSFW Keeho alphabet

A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex): I think he’s probably the one who likes aftercare the most. Once you had sex he is the type to run a hot bath for the both of you, cook you something delicious if you feel hungry and then cuddle and kiss you until you fall asleep.

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s): Keeho likes every part of you but if he had to choose one it would probably be your hands, he just loves them. He also loves the way they can caress his cheek one minute and be wrapped around his dick the other… On him ? Well in one interview he said he liked his eyes so his eyes. He loves the power they have on you and the way they can reflect so many things at the same time.

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically): He loves to cum on your ass after he fucked you in doggy style. He isn’t a big fan of the all breeding kink stuff he actually hates it so he avoids cumming inside of you as much as possible. He also loves to cum on your lower stomach or your pussy. When it comes to you, Keeho loves it when you squirt all over his fingers, he thinks it’s so sexy that with his fingers only he can get you like this.

D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs): He has a loooot !!! But his biggest secret is probably that before you guys got together he had the biggest crush on you, maybe even an obsession lol. And every night he would just jerk off while watching your instagram videos/photos. He even spent hoooours every week searching for a porn video with a girl looking like you, even if she was only vaguely similar to you it was enough to make him cum in his hand.

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?): Not that much experience but Keeho is one of those person who just has it yk he just knows how to please you. He himself doesn’t even know how he knows all those things but he does.

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying): Doggy style or reverse cowgirl !! He just looooves the sight of your ass bouncing and your pussy swallowing him whole. Drives him crazy just to think about it.

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.): Definitely goofy and not that serious, before being here for sex he’s here to spend a real moment with you yk

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.): Perfectly groomed. Keeho hates the sight of pubic hair or even the way it feels under his fingers. He juste hates it, on him.

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect): He’s pretty romantic, whispering a few I love yous here and there, telling you how pretty he thinks you are…. He just wants you to feel loved. Would even more romantic if it was your first time!

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon): He jerks off pretty often tbh, if you send him a hot pic that gets him hard then he’s jerking off, if he closes his eyes for a bit too long and start remembering the way he fucked you a few days ago then he’s jerking off, if he’s on a phone call with you and he gets hard at the sound of your voice, he’d wait until you end the call to jerk off. He just gets hard pretty easily and can’t stand it so he jerks off.

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks): Lingerie kink ? Keeho loves it when you wear kinky lingerie. Voice kink, he loves your voice and loves how vocal you get when he fucks your pussy or eats you out. Dominant woman (idk how to call this kink lol), Keeho loves it when you dom him and take initiatives, he finds it really hot especially when you’re wearing really kinky lingerie.

L = Location (favorite places to do the do): The bedroom, he likes the comfort of it and the way he can cuddle with you after for as long as he wants without being afraid of someone walking in. Maybe the living room but when he’s sure nobody’s home.

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going): Everything literally. He’s so easy to turn on, you sometimes asks yourself if it’s healthy for him

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs): Crazy stuff like age/r^pe/blood/scat/piss play. If he’s turned on after party but realised you’re totally wasted, it’s an immediate no for him m, even if you beg and promise that you want it.

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.): He loves eating you out, making you feel good, taste you, it just drives him crazy. He doesn’t care if you give him head or no, he’d rather eat you out for hours.

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.): Depends on his mood. Most of the time it stars slow and sensual but once he knows you’re ready for more he fucks you like his life depends on it

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.): He’s not a fan of them. He needs to take his time and hates feeling pressured. He needs to know he has the time to make you feel good, even if it has to be hours.

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.): Keeho is scared of being caught so he’d never initiate anything in a public place or the dorm, knowing anyone could see you. He’s ready to experiment though, if it doesnt cross any of his boundaries ofc.

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?): Probably 2 but nothing more bc he hates the burning sensation he gets on his tip after cumming too much. If it wasn’t for that reason he’d probable go for 4 rounds lol. Keeho cums pretty fast, in under 15 minutes it’s over

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?): The only thing he has is a dirty, disgusting old pocket pussy from when he was like 17 so let’s pretend he doesn’t own any toy 😀

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease): Keeho hates teasing. It gets him way too frustrated but sometimes he tries to tease you a bit but ends up crazy and painfully hard 2 minutes later…

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.): Very verbal but not vocal, he just breathes heavily. He likes to talk dirty and hear you talking dirty but appart from that he’s not loud.

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character) STILL DK

X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes): He’s on the smaller side :/ but has a pretty dick with a cute pinkish tip

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?): Very very very high, if it wasn’t for his schedule he’d be fucking you every day

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards): Doesn’t fall asleep that quickly. Once u fall asleep he finds himself scrolling on tiktok for maybe a good hour.

#yoon keeho #keeho #anon🐺 #🐺 #smut #alphabet #p1harmony #piwon

[adrianasunderworld]

Speaking of the TWST boys and the Disney Princesses, which one of the boys and the Disney Princesses would be compatible as romantic partners to you? Personally, I can see Jamil/Moana or Jasmine, Belle/Vil, Aurora/Malleus and I can see Ruggie/Tiana with the latest post.

So some of my ideas for this go hand in hand with the crush post.

I do like the idea of BellexVil. They have that cute Popular boy and outcast girl thing going for them. Belle is also someone who doesn't place a lot of value on appearance, So I think it would be comfort of sorts to know Belle isn't there for looks or fame. Also imagine Belle getting into a book and Vil tell her he was in the film adaptation of it. irl book boyfriend, its the dream.

Also like I said, I am very bias toward Leona. BellexLeona I think is cute. Belle can break down those walls and reassure him.

Also hear me out, BellexIdia. Belle is an outcast in her hometown, and even though she wants a friend who understands her, she's overall okay with being on her own and doing her own thing because she's so used to it. Idia is the resident nerdy guy that only ever wants to be on his own. I think Belle would be able to gently coax him out of his room, maybe throw him in the deep end "Lets go to this giant festival!" but more, "Hey that manga you wanted is coming out today, lets go to the bookstore." But also if Idia is being stubborn or an asshole, she's going to tell him. Also Belles dad is an inventor too, she knows her way around machines and toys, so shes capable of helping Idia out.

RuggiexTiana I think would be the kind of couple that is never not on the same page. They are always on the same wavelength. They respect each others need to work while still valuing their time together. They'd probably both take jobs and Mostro at the same time and that's when they hit it off. Also, like I said, I think Granny Bucchi would really like Tiana and they would work wonders in the kitchen together. Honestly, out of all the pairings, I think the two of them is the most solid.

On the flipside, I do also think TianaxAzul is also good. Same with RuggiexTiana, they respect each others drive and hustle. When Azul hears Tianas dream is to open a restaurant and how talented a chef she is, maybe they bond doing the Culinary Crucible together and Azul sees it first hand. Tiana is also someone who isn't so easily swayed, so she isn't going to fall for any Azuls nonsense unless she is absolutely and the end of her rope. Same with Granny Bucchi, I think Azuls mom will really like Tiana and mentor her on the in and outs of a restaurant.

Also now that I'm think of it I can also see TianaxTrey. Idk I think they'd get along and trade recipes and be cute.

KalimxAriel. They would just be the sunshine couple tbh. Ariel likes stuff, Kalim can get her stuff. But Ariel like stuff like cutlery. So you know she's not in it for the money, lol. Kalim kinda gives me the same golden retriever energy as Eric, if that makes sense. I feel like they'd get along really well. Plus Kalim can make a pool for her whenever, it's great.

I can think of more later, for for right now that's the ideas for ships I have. If you have your own ideas for who would work, please feel free to add.

#twisted wonderland #disney princesses #kalim al asim #leona kingscholar #azul ashengrotto #trey clover #ruggie bucchi #idia shroud #vil schoenheit

[stregoniconiconii]

So I don’t know if this is an unpopular opinion or whatever, but something I have realized is that’s is super common in fics to have Robin basically living at Steve’s because of the whole his parents being basically non existent headcanon which is fine! It’s fun to play house with your best friend and be domestic so like I get it. I think Robin absolutely has her side of the bed and tons of clothes at his house and acts like she’s lived there her whole life, but I think it’d be so fun if Steve also practically lived at Robin’s to the point where her parents automatically set a fourth plate for dinner or include him in family outings and definitely give him permission to add a thing or two to the monthly grocery list. lol maybe they can go back and forth like children of divorced parents. Also I personally kinda like the idea of Robin and Steve’s mom getting along too even.

tbh both Steve and robin's parents are barely ever around in fic...obviously in canon we never meet either of them but we also never really see their home life (besides very brief insights in s1 for Steve, for robin's we really just have rebel robin which is canon adjacent so a lot of ppl disregard it) so a lot of the time ppl fill in some background for them. usually very angsty backgrounds lol which I can appreciate but I think robin does have a good relationship with her parents, her comments about her mother criticising her aside, and steve’s parents...lol idk it also sometimes feels like you either have to be the most perfect parent or you’re completely abusive in fandom’s eyes....okay anyway that was a tangent lol. I just dont get the fics that make out robin’s parents to be like super christian or conservative like I really enjoy rebel robin and the hippie parents..super fun...

I really like the idea of Steve getting close with all the Buckleys and if we go with steve’s parents always being gone then I think it makes more sense for him to want to be away from his empty house and hanging out with the best friend and her parents at their little bungalow <3 that would be loads of fun I also loveeee that robin’s parents are hippies like I bet they eat mostly vegetarian. I definitely feel like they would want to know the boy that’s been driving their daughter everywhere lol im seriously imagining the first time Steve shows up to take robin to school and her parents are like “wtf is happening” bc I think theyre somewhat aware that robin isn’t straight (there was a thing in rebel robin where robin’s mom said something about how she didn’t want robin to repeat her mistakes of getting into trouble, presumably also including getting into trouble with boys...but I think since then she would be a bit more aware of like. how unlikely that is lol) I think Steve can charm the pants off parents he’s very polite when he wants to be....

I also find the idea of robin and steve’s mom getting along amusing..maybe more in the future tho bc I think Steve and his mom have a complicated relationship. honestly I think ppl need to remember that these characters have parents lol like I get theyre all mostly latchkey kids but sometimes you'd think they all just appeared into existence 

#platonic stobin #stranger things

[void-inked-pen]

Sainon strikes again!!

I grew up with tmnt 2003 so I’m biased too but I did like 2012 when it came out, but I didn’t follow it as much as I did 03

I completely agree with you on Donnie and Mikey’s characterization! I really loathed what they did to Donnie with the whole love triangle thing they wanted to do. I absolutely loved Donnie in 03 but 12 Donnie omfg. I blame a lot of my dislikes of the show on the writing itself bc I don’t think they wrote April very well either it’s odd idk.

I thought Donnie’s crush on April was cute, silly, and funny at first but they kept beating the dead horse with this and then Casey showed up, added to it, and I wanted to scream.

They ALL deserved better but how the writers treated mikey and his canonical adhd was TRASH.

This is just me very personally as well but when I was just a wee child I empathized with 03 raph a lot bc, even tho I never acted on it, I was just constantly filled with rage that’s a lie I swung a computer at my bully’s face when I’d finally had enough. I didn’t like how they treated Raph’s anger in 2012 especially during the episode where they specifically addressed it. Splinter basically just said “bottle it” and like kind of belittled him for letting things get to him. When they were insulting him for the sake for the exercise I think I realized that 12 raph has trouble seeing when people are being serious with their insults (like me lol). Those were his brothers, contextually he should’ve known they didn’t actually mean any of those things but that’s not how he takes it. And if slash SPIKE is anything to go by he actually thinks his brothers think a lot of bad things about him. He doesn’t open up to his brothers because he does not trust them with his emotions that he himself has trouble dealing with/interpreting

On a more positive note: I do love Raph and Mona’s relationship ship, it’s absolutely fantastic

12 Raph likes a woman that can kick his ass and I have to respect that

Writing characters with anger is a difficult slope and is often written badly. As someone who has anger issues but learned how to deal with them over time, when I see a character like 2012 raph, who has trouble handling and understanding his emotions, it both points out the issues and also makes it hard for me as someone who deals with the same thing, relate because it’s often demonized.

Literally half the stuff they wrote in 2012 acted like they wanted to talk about heavy issues but it was written in a way that was almost mocking and demonizing with most of not all the characters. Literally it brought out the worse in everyone of these characters and it drives me nuts

April is the “strong girl who don’t need no man/turtle” but written insufferably, Donnie is the swooning brother who basically is an incel but also a genius who seriously deserves recognition for all he’s done (rest PLS), raph and his anger issues and lack of understanding his own emotions and the perpetuated “I’m tough, don’t feel emotion” manly bullshit, the terrible depiction of Mikey and his ADHD, and I’m not sure they did a very good job or not on PTSD with Leo and his whole focus on being the leader isnt… that great from what I know. And Casey… idk tbh??? He also had some “let me fight for the girl” dumb dumb stuff so he was meh. The love triangle with him and Donnie and April was also dumb because if those three just stopped that shenanigans, can you imagine how great they’d be as a dynamic???

Anyway, ye. There is definitely a lot they could have done better with all of them but I know that is more of a time thing~

Thanks for coming back Sai-Non!!

-pen

#pen talks #tmnt 2012 #writing discussion #discussion

[aksannyi]

tw: death of a family member

ok so my mom texted me today, i'm in my 7th period block, students are working, i check my phone and the message is basically that my grandfather is dying. (my last living grandparent, not that it's super relevant but maybe it is? idk?) he's going into hospice, they're gonna make him comfortable. no idea how long.

my immediate thought is, shit, i gotta fly up there, can i afford it, etc. these are the thoughts i had at 1pm when my students were all doing their thing, i was also trying to keep them working and not show them anything was amiss bc it isn't their business unless i share it and also if any one of them gave me even a shred of sympathy i would have lost it and i don't want to do that, i will cry on my own tyvm lol

anyway. i look at flights, reasonable for flight + car. reasonable-ish. and i texted the ...w/e the hell he is bc someone would have to stay with the dog since he works 24h shifts

had an appointment today, did some errands. whatever. then i'm sitting here at home, listening to some music, just sitting there and thinking and thinking and thinking:

i don't want to go.

and it sounds selfish, and it feels selfish, and it feels shitty.

and anyway there's history here. so my first grandparent to go was my mom's mom in 1993. shittiest saturday morning ever. my 2nd grandmother died in 2017, right after hurricane irma, and my dad flew me up to say goodbye. i was at her deathbed with family members, it was hard, also my family was being racist (which is totally irrelevant but it still pisses me off how they got mad at me cussing but it's cool for them to just fucking say the n-word) (assholes)

then last summer, 2022, my dad texted me that my grandfather (his dad, obvs) was dying and he had like 24hrs. not enough time for me to have gotten up there to see him, so dad told me to call and then put me on speaker phone and i said my goodbyes to him that way. i'm crying thinking of it now, hardest fucking phone call i ever made.

and then i got fucking covid so i couldn't even go to the funeral, and my mom. this person. she makes a guilt-trip post on fb because both of my brothers could make it and i couldn't, and she's convinced she will never see all 3 of us together again (and she never ever lets us forget it) because two of us live at literal opposite ends of the country - PNW and florida, and the one who lives up there is in the northeastern part of the country so it's like almost as far away as you can possibly triangulate 3 people in the continental US. and it was like wow mom fuck you, like i wouldn't have come up if i didn't have LITERAL FUCKING COVID, no i was not going to drive 1200 miles or infect an entire fucking airport, i'm not an asshole. and also i just felt like pure crap, tbh. like physically.

anyway.

i'm struggling. i know that he wants to see me. he called me, when i sent the blanket (which some of you might remember, (this post: https://www.tumblr.com/aksannyi/722322909005299712/aksannyi-my-grandma-passed-in-1993-october-to?source=share) and he said how much he misses me and wants to see me because he knew then that his time was running short. it's very hard for me to get up there, and i generally just don't like it up there due to a number of factors (completely unrelated to him, but definitely related to other family members, like my mom and a psychotic aunt and several shitty uncles) and just the damn drama of everything that goes on up there that i moved away from for a damn reason.

and i'm like. i should go. i know objectively i should go. i should go because it's the least i could do for him, the one thing i can actually do that would make him happy. like fuck my mom, fuck my brothers, fuck my aunts/uncles and the entire goddamn stupid small town i'm from, just to see him. but the problem is that i wouldn't just be seeing him, and i don't want to Deal With Them. all of them. collectively.

(and also i don't wanna see him like that... when i went to see grandma, she had been on the decline for years. she wasn't fully coherent, didn't always recognize me. every time i went up there while she was still alive i assumed it'd be the last time i'd see her)

(my dad's dad, on the other hand, knew me right up to the end. he'd be absolutely thrilled to see me. every time. but he was also in his upper 90s and so i also had made peace with the fact that he wasn't gonna be around that much longer)

and like it isn't like i didn't know this was coming, like i'm not stupid, obviously. he's had a lot of health issues, mom would text us about his doctors diagnoses and shit so we knew it was coming. he's 86 now. it was inevitable. and that's like. ok. i have made peace with that. but i'm struggling now with this incredible guilt because i don't want to go.

i can afford it. it'll be tight but i can manage it. i can do a whirlwind weekend trip. i'll be tired as shit for work next week but whatever, wouldn't be the first time. but i just. i don't want to. and that's what's fucking me up, it's that i don't want to and i feel like shit about it. because i know i should. and do i suck all that shit up and just Deal With It dot com...??? i do, don't i. i need to. fuck me, this sucks ass.

well if you read all of this and you have any advice or anything i guess feel free, i just needed to kinda get this out and deal with it. i know either way i'll be fine, but like do i really wanna deal with my mother fucking guilt tripping me for the rest of her life (and probably mine bc she'll fucking haunt me when she goes istg) ugh. ugh ugh ugh ugh uGH. ugh.

ok fine whatever time to look at flights (it is too far to drive unless i take time off work and ngl i will need my sick days, for like actual sick days.)

#death tw #tw death #death #i hope this tagged enough for people to avoid triggers but if it didn't please send me a msg and i'll add whatever tags

[fonulyn]

3 fic questions:

1: Which fic took you the longest to write?

2: Which fic did you have the most fun writing?

3: Which fic was the "fine! I'll do it myself!" fic?

ohhhh these are so hard :'D but let's try!

...and I'm gonna apologize in advance because two and three are gonna have so many answers, but I've literally written over 200 RE fics so it's impossible for me to choose 😅 i'm sorry and bear with me.

only the courage to continue counts (Piers/Leon, re4 au, past!Krauser/Leon)

this one was easy lol. it took me a long long time mostly because it's 93k, which is like three times as long as my next longest fic. simply getting out that many words took a while! also, I almost gave up after chapter 4 because literally no one was reading it and I wondered if it's worth it to keep going. had a good cry about it, lol, and angsted about it for a bit. but re4 is my favorite (surprise!) so I decided it'd be worth it. and honestly? I think it was. it's a good fic. I'm happy with how it turned out. ...but i don't think i have another this long fic in me tbh, i just can't do it alone.

2. this is trickier because there's so many :'D first, the entire pinnacle of self-indulgence series because it's what I return to when I want something low-stress, no expectations, where I can just have them be as domestic as I want. it hasn't always been tons of fun, because sometimes i use it to vent other feels, but it means a lot to me.

smooth talking, Nivans, very smooth was also tons of fun, making Piers put his foot in his mouth repeatedly just because of how into Leon he is? :'D it still makes me grin lol.

also the other maybe-a-little-cracky-ones; maybe he's born with it (the is Leon a true blond??? fic), the prettiest agent with the prettiest hair (the Piers stress-braids Leon's hair fic), and how to accidentally get adopted - a guide by Piers Nivans (Piers accidentally keeps calling Chris "dad" and gets sorta adopted by him and Leon) - idk i guess I really enjoy writing stuff that's not exactly very serious :'D

i also had a shitton of fun writing three words to last forever, even if two of its three endings have major character death in them lol. but i've always wanted to do a choose-your-own-ending fic! so it was super fun! if i had the energy i would love to do another where you get to choose different paths, but they all lead to the same ending eventually.

others I had tons of fun writing include winter lovin' (there's snow one like you) where Piers and Leon vacation in Finland (yay!), you're feeding the fire within me where they get a dose of Rebecca's new Super-Viagra (a sex-pollen fic lol), driving deep into your heart which is a completely random au where Piers is a motorcycle racer :'D, carpe diem (seize the day) which is a smutty genderswap fic, and fall in love so easy where Leon learns he enjoys being called pet-names.

i'm just gonna stop now because otherwise I'm gonna end up listing twenty more. but honestly, like I said before, I've written 200+ RE fics so :'D this is hard lmao. I genuinely like most fics I've written. and I genuinely enjoyed writing most of them. I'm sorry this is such a non-answer :'D

3. this also has the potential to become a mess like question number two lmao. the vast majority of what I write is "fine! I'll do it myself!" fics. like, almost every single Piers/Leon fic I've written belongs in this category since, well, if I don't no one will :'D also a lot of my Krauser/Leon are things I wanted but didn't find (although I gotta give a shoutout to the pair in general, there are a lot of quality metaltango fics out there that I could never do).

aside from that, after scrolling through my fics, I realized most of the fics I wrote after not finding what I wanted to read are ...porn :'D lmao I often go look for something specific, don't find it, and have no choice but to do it myself!

as examples, I am the light that shall lead you to darkness (Wesker/Chris dubcon, I just wanted Chris to get nailed lmao), without hope, without fear (Jason/Leon monsterfucking, and I gotta say, I'm still bummed the pairing didn't take off at all it's got all kinds of potential goddamnit [also I keep wanting to write another of these two but ehhh] but i won't rant more here), on an all time high (Leon/Queen Plaga, I just... had a major need :'D), lost control (Leon/Lickers, what can I say, I had a major need lmaooo), kiss before the fall (Jake/Piers, this pairing deserves so much more love ok), ravishing (Chris/Jill, I just wanted Jill worshipped ok, and there's another similar one rattling in my brain but I haven't gotten to writing it, idk if i ever will).

so like. smut :'D apparently I have specific likes and have to cater to myself lmao.

OKAY BUT now I'll shut up for real. thank you for the ask! gave me a perfect excuse to reread my own fics lol. and I'm sorry for such non-answers :'D I just can't choose lol.

#anonymous #ask and i shall answer #me and my fics #looots of fics lmao

[tellywoodtrash]

channa mereya 15.10.22 lb

adi boy angyyyyyy and taking it out on the poor dude who came to call him for dinner

udhar ginni ko khaane ka mann nahi

can't relate tbh

dimpy shampy being the teenage brats that they are have accurately diagnosed what's wrong, trollolololol

gulaabo ji v progressive saying usne nahi kiya call msg toh tu karle and clears the room so her daughter can get freaky on the phone

here chotu Singh chidaofying adi lol

poor baby got his ears kheenchofied for it

how is this child the most emotionally mature male in this entire household?

both calling each other same time and getting engaged and huffy all over again

........ does whatsapp not exist for yall??? ridic how you're having these 1994 waale problems in 2022.

ugh this stupid shitty dad

is doing some "surprise" saazish

i hate him so much

adi (happy) crying and talking to mom pic

ki ginni is sabse alag and i'm so happy and i'm gonna marry her again

can't find mom's kangan that he wanna give ginni

poora kamra uthal puthal, like bruh why would the kangan be under your bedcovers?????

stomping around the house like a demented t-rex

taayiji ne ain mauke pe aake aag mein ghee daal di ke oh all that must be with supreet only

BRO THERES NO REASON TO BE SOOOO FUCKIN ANGRY?!?!!

he just walks into the room and gets into her face and starts throwing shit around

like????????

God I hate men

itna OTT Hulk lvl anger

not even letting supreet complete a damn sentence

fuckin rudeass. if ginni was here she'd never allow this

anyway yelled at her some more and said stay away from my wedding

Sam Goldie getting proper warning from gulaabo ji ki dont even try to ruin this day for my daughter

Goldie trying redemption and saying lemme be part of this day and help

and ginni giving v well pointed taana ki I have always needed you as a brother

but you just belong to your wife

he begging for forgiveness

she getting senti venti and doing emotional damaaaaaage

he worming his way back into her heart with childhood memories

I feel bad for him and want him to redeem himself but ugghhhhhhh the satisfaction shaitani Sam is getting from her plan working isn't worth it

haath jod ke paaon pad gaya ginni ke, which pffft

ginni saying if you want me to forgive you then understand who is manipulating you and driving you away from your fam

he's saying I'll do whatever you sayyyyyy (shyeahhhhh right)

Sam bhi maidaan mein utar gayi with her A+ acting

ginni like ugh pls just get out my face

gave them both last chance anyway

gorlllll why

and said Goldie your wife is your resp, whatever bs she does, you are equal in it

Sam doing some more bechaari acting

chal bhak yahaan se

poor supreet doing all the coordinating and prep for the function

ambar asking why she not ready to leave as adi glares from behind

she's like uh oh I'm not coming

ambar like ?!?!!!??!

udhar all the chotus have arrived at ginnis

the girl cousins and chotu Singh

so the bitchy girl cousin isn't bitchy anymore?

aaah whatever idk

anyway ginni asks where everyone is and there's some teasing ki she just cares for one particular person

not bitchy anymore cousin says everyone except chachi coming

coz supreet had given the kangan for polishing

and adi got mad that she's lost them or hiding them or some shit

ginnis like uhhhhhhhh I'm wearing them???

she gave them to me???????

fb to supreet saying adi never thought of me as mom but you gave me that haq

and giving her the kangan bade pyaar se

and ginni tells her to pehnaofy

aw i'm happy for themmmm

God adi I wanna beat your ass

ginni troubled to hear of this bs, and rightly so

precap: oh supreet did make it to the function, noice

scummy dad announcing he changing name of company to gurkirat group of hotels

and even tells adi to read the papers before signing

but the dumbass is too happy in moment and just signs

fuckin idiot

men really don't deserve the power they have in this society

#channa mereya #cm lbs #episode liveblogs

[bestjoycestan]

(“Honorary Byers” anon again)

(El and Joyce) I think what you said is fair, since finding Will was such a significant driving force of the season and Joyce’s primary goal

My thoughts on El and Joyce in general: for sure, Joyce is not a total replacement for Terry. It’s very clear El still loves her, and respect is still paid through going by her birth name Jane. But Joyce is similar to her, in the way that they’re both fighters and the lengths that both would go to save their loved ones. I agree with a lot of what you said about her wanting to help El, and it’s sweet how she becomes someone who El can trust to find safety and comfort in and an eventual maternal figure

The degree to which Joyce might want to help her being different? I think if they’re not trying to find Will, but if they’re still in close proximity enough + they have enough substantial interaction, then maybe they’ll get to the same point even if it takes a little longer. Joyce may not be a perfect communicator, but she does try to be understanding when she can sit down and do it, like with her own kids

I haven’t thought much about what it would be like if Will’s disappearance wasn’t the starting point, tbh. Alternate stuff like maybe the idea of her being taken in by the Wheelers and having an older sister in Nancy can be cute. But (maybe it’s the bias I have lol) I think if El still ends up meeting everyone eventually, she was always going to find some level of kinship in the Byers.

(I was also a little disappointed that S4 didn’t have as much El/Byers family interactions in general, fingers crossed for s5)

the byers seem to be a bit on edge to me. not letting people in all the way, unable to really word how they feel, not confident that how they feel is important/valid/etc etc.

Oh my god yes, I actually had this bit written down for my previous ask, but I wasn’t sure if I was like getting too off-track from Joyce

Because the Byers’ defensiveness could make it kinda hard to gauge what kind of emotional vulnerability they allow to recognize in themselves, especially with people they don’t know as well as their family; so the headcanoned extended motherly relationship, and even just giving advice in general, would require some degree of vulnerability from Joyce and it’s probably more complicated than it seems

i think a lot about how angry joyce was with jonathan for picking up a shift (and how they had that talk over the photos of will for the poster that sort of resolved it?).

We went from “You are not alone” to Joyce being unaware of Jonathan and his distress of college/the future because he is such a Byers (internalizes his feelings while trying to do what’s best for his family even at the expense of himself)

and by putting other teenagers in joyce's life where she takes care of them and gives them out of character motherly love is unfair to jonathan

Hard agree. I also held back from saying something about this in my previous ask because idk if it was valid, or just me being weirdly overprotective of Joyce and Jonathan

For one thing, idk if Jonathan has something that isn’t like already appropriated for another older teen character (ex. The big brother/mentor relationship with Will. Him as part of the “six nuggets” sounds fun but Jonathan will always win that custody battle to me, Steve and/or Eddie can get visitation like once a week)

Another thing, you got the parentification of Jonathan (a whole different conversation) that also makes it a little tricky, because it’s so circumstance-driven via Lonnie and Joyce was by no means intentionally forcing him into that role, but she still felt guilty not being there as much for him as a mom :(

anon u are so smart this is all so good

Joyce may not be a perfect communicator, but she does try to be understanding when she can sit down and do it, like with her own kids

this - i absolutely agree with, as well as the having some level of kinship with the byers. i think joyce does feel drawn to el and wants to be there for her in the way she's there for her own kids. i, too, am soft for joyce and el and their interactions. i wish we had more in season 2 (i read a really good fic once about the byers moving and el learning to deal with grief and joyce was really there for her ugh). even though i hate jopper, i think joyce and el are still such a good mom/daughter dynamic. even if they both struggle to really Fit into that role for each other (el with terry, joyce with everything we've mentioned), i think it's sweet. i just don't see that kinship from other characters and can see people being like "well if joyce can take in el, why can't she be motherly to [whoever]" but i think el is special to the byers family.

so the headcanoned extended motherly relationship, and even just giving advice in general, would require some degree of vulnerability from Joyce and it’s probably more complicated than it seems

yess yes i agree. i don't think joyce would really want to be as vulnerable as people write her. i think she's very closed off around strangers (the way she acts with bob) and only really opens up to jonathan but that's out of her control (the way he tells her she can't shut down again in season 1). in season 3, we see her try to come to hopper and be open with him but that didn't work well at all and if this was s1 or 2 joyce, i think that would have such a huge affect on her especially after he was the first person to tell her out loud that he believes her in season 1 (even if jonathan was the first to actually believe her, i think? if i remember right. very byersey of them <3). i doubt she's very understanding of her anxiety, ptsd, etc etc and it makes all of this even more difficult for her especially now that it's more than just lonnie/the town causing it. so seeing her apparently being so open and inviting people into her home in fics where she extends the motherly invite to every teenager in town is so.... out of character. it's a lot of projection, which i am not one to talk about projection bc i do it as well but at least. i try to be in character. but even then the projection is inaccurate because she is only that motherly and affectionate with her own kids. we don't see her do it even with mike in season 2 (except for when she sort of reaches out for him when he is fighting with hopper at the end but that is a different situation).

overall, if anyone in this world is getting any motherly communication and vulnerability, it needs to be jonathan. which the layers to getting him to trust joyce and believe that she would consistently give him that is another conversation. they had that little moment in season 1 but they completely disregarded that and now it makes joyce look even worse because she didn't stick to what she promised her son and had left the kids with him again without any regard to how jonathan feels. joyce and jonathan are their own little mess and i want to dive into them as well because there is so much there that needs to be taken apart and looked at i think.

also ab ur six nuggets comment, i agree! i really think of the byers as their own unit and like... completely out of the hawkins group tbh. joyce is able to be there for them when she can (which isn't enough but still, it's there) and she tries. and jonathan has always always been there for will more than any of the other teenagers. that's his brother >:|!!!!!! they're just so bonded in this protective, silent acknowledgment, kinda weird way and i can't imagine them truly becoming a part of any other group in the way that the other characters have.

#hii anon i hope you're having a good day <3 #asks #joyce byers #jonathan byers #will byers #st #i hope this makes sense i feel like nothing i said is a complete point just a lot of rambling

[skinni-girls-eat-books]

Saturday, April 13th, 2024!

8:19pm: Had a quick exchange with him again. Nothing has changed and I don't want to be obsessed with his socials again tbh. I still don't really get the whole "I'm so busy" thing when that was his #1 complaint with me. Like I actually don't understand, being busy is not a flex tbh. Being on your grind is 100% a flex but that goes with work hard play hard. Just saying you're busy makes you sound like an ass 😂 whatever I don't understand anything about him anymore.

I don't want to see his socials anymore because 1) it's all fake af. 2) it makes me wonder why he couldn't change for me, but in REALITY (the real world where I reside) he hasn't changed, his life got 100x easier. No rent, a more basic bitch that doesn't expect anything from him and is weird, and free weed, everyone giving him a ride everywhere (he doesn't even have to drive ever wtf), and everyone just treats him like a spoiled child. Yes..... I'm sure it IS easy to have an emergency fund when you live with your parents for free..... Wtf do you even need an emergency fund for? Wtf kind of emergency are you having, you run out of gas (omg wait he doesn't even drive so what am I talking about) scratch that.... The only emergencies I had living with my parents had to do with my car like..... Jesus I wish that was the fucking case nowadays 💀 Omg why am I even comparing the two of us. I feel like I just snapped back to reality, this guy is still acting like a high schooler. We are literally not able to be compared anymore. I really don't give myself enough credit for doing this shit on my own (really) for 6 months. Let's see your emergency savings after that, dumbass. Stfu. I'm not trying to be mean but we are not the same. I'm about to be done grinding, I've grinded for 7 yrs I'm tired AF. I'll say it again being busy is not a flex.

11:25pm: Ugh he just pisses me off because he's a fucking liar. You can reach me anytime my ass why does he keep saying that when it's not true. What a fuck up. I hate him

2:47am: Well I was on the phone with him for three hours oops probably just fucked up my karma big time. Ugh I need this semester to enddddd. Too much sitting around time, not enough leaving the house to meet new ppl time :/ likeeee I've said a million times and need to remind myself, I don't want to be the reason they break up. Also he said he's planning on moving out with her in 4 months so September? Damn they would've been together a whole year. He said it only feels like it's been a month for him and literally his stuff is still packed up in boxes like wtf. I guess that'll just make it easier to move. Well good for him he sounds like he's really on track for a good life. Idk literally whenever I ask him about her, it's never like super positive. Maybe he just likes that he constantly has something to complain about? I have no idea. He said she's clingy, but sometimes it's too much. And he always says it's ups and downs with them. He sounds like he's really changed, but he says he can't go through breaking another person's heart. Maybe he knows I'm bullshitting him. He also says he is just too embarrassed to get back together with me and have to see my family again, etc. Sounds like he's making the best out of a fucked up situation tbh. During the call, I kept calling him out whenever he would say things that were literally stringing me along, because he didn't know what I was talking about when I mentioned it. He didn't realize how much he was leading me on with the things he's saying until I very clearly pointed it out. All that stuff I texted him must've actually done something too, because it's stuck with him about disrespecting his gf.

Long story short...... I think he's actually gonna change for her if I leave him alone lol. He just gets to live with the fact that he fucked up being with me forever. Making the best of his shit situation. Tbh those antidepressants probably made a huge impact. Glad he got the help he needed. Idk man I guess he's done with me now, he seems pretty done, except for the part where he pulled his dick out again and told me he wanted to stick his dick in my mouth. But whatever.

Actually the part that hurt me the most was when he said she's been his best friend for two years like... The worst part for him was me telling him I let a guy play with my boobs over spring break and one tiny tear rolled down his cheek. Plus I ended up lying since he asked me if someone had been in our bed and I told him no because I could tell that would've really upset him. I think he would've hung up. Also couldn't tell him that yeah someone else had met the cats and pet them. I said what are you gonna do and he .... Clearly isn't going to do anything. Lame.

Longer story short: I need to stop butting in to this mess ig. Makes my stomach hurt tbh. Too much studying today made my brain go crazy. I'm really frazzled tbh. Honestly kinda pissed off all I wanted him to do was help me with the bills and now he's magically able to save $500 a week somehow. Jesus Christ wtf was he spending it on before. I'll never know. Makes me sick to my stomach actually. And it's not magic, it's what he should've been able to do all along, he just wanted to be a little bitch before.

This has stirred up a lot of emotions that I kind of hate. He can't control himself around me fucking bullshit I don't get it. So much of him sounds good but then he does something icky like that. Idk anymore. I'm tired and talking to him has actually just made things worse, not better. End of story.

[daz4i]

putting thoughts in text in hopes it'll clear my mind enough to sleep 🫡 (aka. a vent. maybe a call for advice...? tho idk if there is any)

i feel like. maybe. i'm having such a hard time lately (beyond like, making a lot of big changes in my life and lowkey overhauling it) bc i'm filled with opposing and contradicting emotions and thought processes

i am on the path to recovery. but i don't want it, bc i want to die. i need to put in a lot of effort into doing anything, but i don't have any energy, in part bc i don't want to do any of this. i know in order to be more stable i need to be kinder to myself, but i don't think i should be, bc i don't think i deserve it and idk how to do it and it's not a good driving force for me bc i'm already lenient with myself enough as is and and and look it's all excuses at the end of the day, truth is i just don't want to

i don't know what i want. ig death is the only thing really. unfortunately that's too much effort too (really i'm just scared of the repercussions of a failed attempt). but i can't move anywhere like that. i don't have a direction. bc i don't want anything

but at the same time i do, like. i want too much. and that's the issue ig. bc it's unachievable. and i'm not willing to settle for anything less. bc nothing is ever enough no matter what

my singing teacher kinda called me out on this today lol like how i'm never giving myself any kind words or how i'm never proud of doing good even tho in her opinion i'm already great. i can't ever be proud of my achievements (in general, not just singing) bc they don't feel like achievements to me ig. bc ik there's always better, so what's the point in less, yknow? to compare it to video games. yeah bronze medals or half collections are fun at first but at some point it's frustrating to not get gold or 100%. but it takes way too much work to get there or relies on things you can't even do

not even getting into things ppl in my life consider achievements when i do them, even tho i know they're below the bare minimum for a normal person lol (like any of the mental health shit i do today). not to mention how much i struggle with it anyway, i can't even get through things that are meant to be fun without feeling like i'm dying before during and/or after them

or how awful it feels to be unable to do things i used to. not even when i'm looking far back (<- peaked at 13-14 y/o) but even like, oh last month i was able to complete this task easily, this month i had a severe panic attack trying to do it or ended up being unable to do it at all

i wanna say i'm trying but idk if i am. bc i have no goal. i am definitely putting in effort, too much by my own standards tbh (hence why i'm in a constant state of debilitating stress and why my body feels like it's falling apart all the time) but it feels all over the place, like instead of pushing a boulder up a hill it's pushing multiple of those but on different hills. just running back and forth between them before i can even get a single boulder to any top

idk how to go at it in a different way or a different pace tho. idk how to make it better. i already committed to this program and if i leave it now i won't be able to get it again later in life. and like, i got into it in the first place for a reason, life of Nothing is so fucking boring and i got tired

but before i started it. i told my friend that being this depressed and doing nothing is better than being this depressed and trying to do things bc at least i'm not putting in meanless effort. and he got mad - we had this conversation more than once and he got mad every time - and said i can't know that, and that if i did things i may not be as depressed. well now i AM doing things and as expected i was right!!!!!!! it IS fucking shitty!!!!!! i AM getting worse!!!!! in ways i wasn't before, even!!!!!! and maybe it's bc i'm so fucking stubborn and it only happened bc i expected it too, but it's not like i can turn it off 🤷‍♂️ that shit happened subconsciously

so that just makes me think. again. how am i supposed to get better like this. my own body and brain battle me on every move and make it thrice as hard, things that are already hard as is, and i am very very weak and don't have any tools to deal with hardships (before you suggest therapy, I've been in dbt for years, my therapist just gave up on me bc he already taught me all of it and nothing ever worked bc my brain is fundamentally broken) so in this 2 on 1 battle i am not even armed in any way, obviously i'm getting wrecked no matter what

(one might argue that part of the issue is me seeing my body and brain as opponents rather than just me. and to that i say. bro if you had these they'd be your enemies too, this shit is hopeless, they're built for suffering is2g if you wanna feel anything positive that's a bummer ig. bc you won't. ever. and no amount of therapy and no medication and no life changes seems to help. and it's been 14 years of only getting worse. not that you were doing great before, you just didn't actively want to kys, bc you didn't know it was an option. so. 25 years of getting worse really. god i'm too old to be this fucking useless still lol)

#vent #this stopped being a call for advice p early on but you're free to offer anyway #i think i need to eat and then sleep. i just realized i haven't eaten actual food in nearly 12 hours oops

[ragnarssons]

just saw the promo clip of zuko freeing iroh from the earth kingdom soldiers.

This will sound a bit morbid out of context but..WOW i am so happy they're actually letting zuko kill people!! lmfao

the redemption will hit harder this way

tbh i don't know if zuko killed killed them, but at least he seriously injured them lol. so i do like how zuko's firebending is really vicious, like it really does come from a place of rage, and it shows. not only because dallas liu screams/grunts every time he bends, but also because of the movements themselves. you can see zuko relying on his muscles rather than on his breath, like iroh is trying to teach him. while iroh himself, on the other hand, seems more "relaxed" when he bends, more in control. idk maybe i'm projecting idk, but you can really feel the difference in how iroh and zuko bend in this scene. i do feel like they're gonna do something interesting in the live action when it comes to the firebending, because despite iroh throwing a huge wave of fire, he doesn't harm or kill the soldiers in front of him. so like, yes, the guy protected himself with earth and his helmet (cartoon accurate) but also i feel like it shows iroh's mastership and control over the fire he's bending, which will also be super interesting when zuko has his shift and does learn the true way of firebending in book 3. and i think it also shows with azula, like SPOILERS she does not have her blue fire this season, it does seem like she'll learn to master it, so kinda like on the opposite side of the spectrum of benders like iroh (which will make their strong opposition in book 2 that much cooler and more interesting, iroh being the only one able to really counter azula's attacks, ie lightning bending and all). so i feel like we will actually get to see all the "shades" of firebenders and the dangers they each represent, kinda like an extension of what jeong jeong says to aang in the cartoon. there will be the ones who do tame their fire, like iroh, the ones relying on anger and strength (my bet is that zuko's book 1 bending type will resemble ozai's quite a lot) and the ones who learn to push their firebending even further into its... lethality as in, azula. it would make sense considering it's been said in the cartoon that firebending is created by one's energy and chi, so it's basically determined by what you are and who you want to be and want to do with it. (as is showcased literally in book 3 when zuko can't bend anymore because he's lost his "drive"/purpose) because as much as i love the firebending masters in book 3 of atla, it's not very obvious how zuko's firebending really evolves or improves after he visited the dragons, so like, the live action, knowing what they'll have to do with zuko later down the line, maybe anticipated all of this and decided to use the different "kinds" of firebenders to showcase what evolutions are possible, depending on the kind of "spirit" you have within yourself.

#answered #anonymous #netflix atla spoilers #(la) atla spoilers

[videostak]

its 4 and i still havent eaten T-T what i ended up doin was i realized when i was at the thrift the car was super low on gas so i waas like guess ill tell my dad to fill it up when he comes home so that i can go tomorrow to the mall maybe cause he had said the first day i drove to the record store in it that he was gonna go fill it up but i think he mustve been p busy or forgot so 2day i was like o ya i should remind him cause i didnt realize like HOW LOW it was til i was at the thrift lolllll like it was like almost empty since its like just a real lil meter and not anything thats lit up i straight up didnt notice til i was there lol. and i kno cars u kno can last for a while even right at the end so like i rly didnt have anything to worry abt but i was also like loll. anyways i came home and was chilling but then realized like ya thatd be annoying for me to tell my dad i drove today then tell him to fill it up so i just drove to get gas myself rn :D was p fun like just stuff like that i have to do more and more u kno to like actually start to feel like its my car and like just my own thing ^_^ tho also realized that the mirrors arent aligned to my eyes lol so i kinda had to duck a bit to see thru them but ill have to remember to fix them next time i go in. also realllly need to work on getting from like moving back to first cause its p hard tbh . or i dont think im doing it rough enough maybe idk. but driving on streets seems easy peasy! like kinda feels natural really the lil shuffle i do with my feet and stuff. i hawnestly dont even kno what im doing with my feet sometimes LOL like kinda just balancing the clutch and gas v weirdly but like its not making the engine jerk or do anything weird so i guess im driving it right! atleast right enough for the time being. jusst have to work on turning and driving slow/going back to 1st when its needed and slopes n stuffff. but like i can manage p well it seems. ^~^ also gonna get burgers with my sister when she gets out of work which is like in an hour and thirty minutes so ill just eat smthn light for the time being :-)