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cyberr-v0id · 7 months

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I should probably make a proper introduction post so here goes

Hi hey hello wassup sup howdy hola hooray

My name is Hecate but I also go by *lists a ton of names because I am genderfluid as hell, can’t choose just one, have a complicated relationship with my irl name, and eventually toss aside every name I go by* here’s the link to my full name post: https://www.tumblr.com/cyberr-v0id/731097944976228352/ok-so-as-i-apparently-use-a-lot-of-names-here-are

My main blog is @cyberr-v0id but I have a ton of side blogs, because I’m addicted to cool usernames??? Apparently??? But I’m only really active on four or five of them

I use he/she/they/fae and occasionally it sets of pronouns, and I am a genderfluid, afab, asexual, lesbian oriented demiromantic. Deal with it or leave :)

I currently have a crush on one of my awesome friends because I only develop crushes on people I have a strong bond with and/or have know for a while . Aka: my friends. It can be low-key awkward but we roll

I am Romani but don’t travel because reasons and I am kinda detached from my culture, but heck of I don’t defend it till my last breath

Now onto what I am interested in ehhehehehe

I AM SO GOSHDARN TOTALLY BRAIN IN THE SAND EYES GOUGED OUT INSANELY OBSESSED WITH ODYSSEUS RN. ITS A PROBLEM. IT KEEPS COMING BACK. IS THIS A HYPER FIXATION??? IS THIS A SPECIAL INTEREST? I HAVENT BEEN DIAGNOSED WITH (oh wait I should probably put that down as information then come back to my interests)

Ok so, I have never been diagnosed with anything ✨brain wise✨ however pretty much every autistic person I have ever met has said that they think I might be as well, without me even bringing it up, including my AuDHD brother. My mother has said repeatedly throughout my lifetime comments such as ‘are you sure you’re not autistic’ and ‘that is very autistic or you maybe we should get you diagnosed’ but then she denies it if i bring it up

My dad thinks I am adhd, my mum thinks I would be add rather than adhd because I am, to quote, ‘not hyperactive like [brothers name] is’. He is a twelve year old boy. I am a fifteen year old girl. I also take apart all my pens in lessons if I don’t have something less destructible to fidget with. Take that how you will

I personally have done a lot of of research into the both, and feel that I could be either, but slightly more likely adhd

I have a weird issue with my feet where the bones are too close together in places, which means I have really clicky ankle joints, am much more likely to have my ankles roll, twist, or give way, and often my legs hurt pretty bad, and my feet as well, while walking or standing for a long time. But hey! They’re getting better finally :D

OK SO NOW MY INTERESTS

I AM LITERALLY SO OBSESSED WITH ODYSSEUS HE IS ALL I HACE BEEN ABLE TO THINK ABOUT FOR LIKE THREE WEEKS NOW, I HAVE BEEN HIGHLIGHTING HIS NAME EVERY TIME I SEE IT IN THE ILIAD, I HAVE LISTENED TO THE EPIC MUSICAL EVERY NIGHT FOR OVER A WEEK, AND THIS IS ONLY THE SECOND TIME THIS YEAR THAT MY OBSESSION HAS APPEARED. AND IT GETS WORSE BY THE DAY.

I HAVE LITERALLY SAT AND RESEARCHED HIM AT BREAKFAST, I HAVE RANTED ABOUT HIM YO EVERY MEMBER OF MY FRIEND GROUP AND MY CRUSH SO MANY TIMES, MY ENGLISH TEACHER HAS BEEN SUBJECTED TO TWO ODYSSEUS RANTS THIS WEEK AND I HAD TO RESTRAIN MYSELF FROM INFODUMPING ON ONE OF MY MUSICAL THEATRE TEACHERS.

THE ONLY THING STOPPING ME FROM CREATING ODYSSEUS FAN ART IS MY ART SKILLS

Ahem

Onto other interests:

• mythology in general but the one I know the most about and am obsessed with the most is Greek mythology

• the owl house

• Percy Jackson, obviously

• amphibia

• the inheritance cycle

• the dragon prince

• miss peregrines home for peculiar children

•avatar the last air bender

•dragon age absolution

• how to train your dragon (books, films, series)

•the wizards of once

•dragons themself as a thing

•folklore and faeries

• nimona

•Dracula

•redwall

•and a heck ton more that I cannot think of. I’ll rant about it eventually if I love it that much

The main sports I do rn are archery, paddle boarding, and skateboarding, as well as dance through my musical theatre group. Also lightsaber fighting in my street

I do art and writing and reading and acting and lots more I do a lot and then I abandon my hobbies for a while, and jewelry making and sewing and

I’ll link some more posts here that may be useful to y’all:

And remember, this blog is ran by an Odysseus obsessed teen above all else

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musingsfromthelagoon · 3 months

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This is what I personally think about the characters in Buffy and their queerness/relationship to queerness because I don’t want to have to get out of bed yet:

Buffy: is bisexual but has a bunch of internalized homophobia for kind of a long time, mostly aimed at herself. Had a fuck ton of homoerotic relationships in middle and high school but considers them to be very close friendships and bristles at the idea of anything romantic that might have played a role in them. She doesn’t really have to confront her queerness until she meets Faith. Eventually comes to terms with herself, but it takes a while.

Oz: Oz is definitely queer but I don’t think he really thinks about it much. They’re just sort of ready to be attracted to whoever, and when it happens he’ll just be like, well okay. Guess I like that person. Also they use they/he and are nonbinary. I think of them as the kind of character who could be transmasc or transfemme or neither and it doesn’t really matter—they’ve definitely got some kind of weird fucked ho gender thing going on.

Giles: also bisexual, realized in college and just accepted it about himself without really thinking or talking about it too much. Probably knew that all of his adopted children are queer and laughs at them privately for not figuring it out yet.

Angel: bi but I don’t want to talk about him because he is annoying.

Spike: bisexual!!!! Adamantly so!!! Full of transgender angst. Could be genderfluid, a trans man, non-binary, any combination thereof, I’m not sure. Not cis though. Definitely not cis.

Xander: UHHHHHHHHG. Bisexual but homophobic and biphobic, and more vocal about it than Buffy ever would be. Says no homo to an excessive degree. Anya tries to help him accept himself and he does not listen. Goes to great lengths to prove that he is straight.

Forrest: Gay. So gay. Madly in love with Riley. I wish he hadn’t died.

Drusilla: bisexual and transfemme. I love her so much. So so so much.

Faith: obviously bi I don’t even really have to talk about this one.

Dawn: straight. Uhk.

Willow: lesbian but I refuse to say that this invalidates her relationship with Oz who again is nonbinary and chill with Willow being a lesbian but also being attracted to him.

Tara: GAYGAYGAYGAYGAY.

Anya: Anya is omnisexual. She probably has a preference for guys but sort of like Oz, is happy to accept whatever attraction comes her way.

Cordelia: I think that Cordelia is asexual but still happy to have sex when she wants to. Also she is autistic. Oh! So is Anya. And Oz and Spike have ADHD. If anyone was wondering.

Basically everyone is gay.

#buffy the vampire slayer #btvs #gay #transgender #lesbian #queer #genderfluid #autism #buffy summers #bisexual #bi #nonbinary #gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay #omnisexual #asexual #everyone in Buffy is gay if you disagree I hate you

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babiebom · 5 months

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Hey!! I love ur writing for stardew so much. I was looking at ur rules & things u write for. And saw u do criminal minds ??? Like fuck yeaaaa!! I was wondering what ur headcannons would be with dating Spencer Reid? (Especially with him dating a genderfluid / nonbinary person with adhd) Thank you sm!!! Ur work is so amazing!! 😭😭😭

A/N: yeah!!! I do write for criminal minds, mainly the fic im working on is on ao3 and I’m debating on posting it here~ also thank you thank you for enjoying my writing!!!

A/N 2: B R O T H E R I WROTE THIS ENTIRE THING AND TUMBLR DIDNT SAVE IT SO NOW I HAVE TO REWRITE AND ITS GONNA BE WORSE THAN THE ORIGINAL BECAUSE I CANNOT FOR THE LIFE OF ME REMEMBER WHAT I WROTE!!!! And I know whoever reads this (not you anon) will be like “why don’t you remember it’s your headcanons” ITS BECAUSE I FORGET JUST AS QUICKLY AS I WRITE LEAVE ME ALONE.

Tw: some cursing, adhd being portrayed by a person that doesn’t have it

Criminal Minds Masterlist

So before I get into these headcanons I do like to point out that I do not have adhd and I also identify as cis so I’m not writing this from a personal pov. Obviously I am going to try my best but I just want to warn people and say that if anything is inaccurate let me know!!

So what I know about ADHD is there is three main types

The inattentive type the hyperactive type and the combined type

And personally I feel like Spencer would know the differences in how it affects you and would behave accordingly.

But we’ll get to that in a second because either way gender-fluid or nonbinary has absolutely nothing to do with how he treats you!!

Like dude is in love with you he doesn’t care about how you identify as long as you’re happy he’s happy and he will always introduce you as his partner or significant other.

Like unless you’re feeling a certain type of way and want to be introduced in that way he is more than comfortable with everything just being neutral.

Like sometimes I think that he does go about these things in a logical way, so I feel like it could be very helpful as well as sometimes unhelpful y’know?

Like there are pros and cons to everything EVEN someone being the most understanding anyone could ever be.

The adhd can however come with self esteem issues and I know sometimes even if you’re proud of who you are and what you identify as, there will be some hard days where everything just seems hopeless.

And while I think he would do his absolute best to comfort you, he just doesn’t understand what you’re going through from a personal point of view.

He does stay with you through it and does whatever you need him to because he high key would feel awful that someone he loves feels awful.

OKAY now onto the adhd aspects

I think the differences between the three types means that there will be different ways that he handles everything.

So for the inattentive type I think he would become more conscious of everything around him that way he can help you whenever you need it.

While yes he wants to help you work on finding ways to manage the symptoms and stress he also knows that it takes TIME and that helping in this way makes everything slightly better for you.

So when you’re together and he can see you’re losing focus he either remembers everything that was said and retell them to you or try to get you to pay attention again without making it too obvious.

Like he doesn’t want you to be embarrassed and he doesn’t want the other person to feel bad or angry so he tries his best.

Or he reminds you of simple things like did you remember to place your keys in this certain place? No? Okay let’s look for them or y’know just put them there to make sure we can keep track of everything

Reminds you to eat

It honestly just seems like he’s a doting boyfriend but I feel like it would feel like much more than that

Like you’re cared for and loved

But also it depends on the type of person you are because someone doing this could also piss someone off and make them feel dumb.

I would hope that you’d be okay with it because it’s not a bad intention but I also understand that sometimes intent and impact are very different things so….

Sometimes gets his feelings hurt because he does like to go off on tangents ably things that he finds interesting and sometimes it’s hard for you to pay attention for an extended amount of time.

Knows you don’t mean it and that he’s used to it due to usually being cut off but it still sometimes hurts.

ONTO THE HYPERACTIVE TYPE

I think that this type would be more difficult for him to help with in my opinion

Like he himself has lots of things to do and has to no time to relax. So him being on the go and you being on the go is just too much.

He still wants to help but helping in this situation is difficult especially because trying to get someone to sit and relax when their mind is racing is almost impossible

Like sitting there thinking about how many things you need to do gets you more agitated and upset.

BUT I think that this type is more comical in a way with him because your conversations are just both of you going off on tangents and interrupting each other.

But it’s not offensive because both of you understand that’s just how your conversations work.

Also I think while it’s tiring for both of you there’s no one upset about both of you being gone all the time because I honestly think in this timeline you would have a job that allows you to maximize and take advantage of your adhd powers.

You understand that he’s just unavailable sometimes and he understands for you as well

I think it makes those days where you can spend all day together that much more special.

Does want to help you control it though, and if you want his help he will find ways that you can relax more because everyone needs a break once in the while.

Now with the combined type of adhd I feel like it’s more….unmanageable than the other two due to it being a combination of things working against each other and together.

Again if I’m wrong tell me (be nice though I’m trying)

And this type causes the both of you distress because he really does want to help but with everything clashing it makes it hard to be okay.

Like according to what I looked up it seems like EVERYTHING is impacted by it.

Like sleep problems, memory problems, self esteem issues, sensory issues, like damn stepping away from these headcanons are y’all ALRIGHT?

This is something that he would be like lmao I don’t know how to help you so all I can do is be here for you if you need something

Which is enough y’know

He is there when you’re breaking down, there when you’re happy. He helps you with your confidence and with loving yourself

Tries to help manage everything but in a less hands on way than the other two types.

Like with one or the other the things that are impacted are very specific things so it’s easier to help(not saying that it’s easy don’t get me wrong) but this impacts a lot more and is more general so it’s difficult

Does his best to be someone you can depend on.

I think he is very helpful with these things because of his experience with his mother

Like they’re not the same thing; adhd and schizophrenia, but like he’s used to dealing with people he loves not being in the best of mental states.

When he is not helping with everything I think in general he is a very touchy person ngl

Like he wants to be on you at all times

Not sexually and sexually like he just likes being with you.

Best guy best bf love him 💖💖💖

#criminal minds #cm #criminal minds headcanons #cm headcanons #spencer reid #criminal minds spencer reid #cm spencer reid #spencer reid headcanon #criminal minds x reader #cm x reader #spencer reid x reader

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luckyfurby6 · 3 months

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intro post hehe٩( 'ω' )و

ʕ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•hi my name is lucky i’m an australian, genderfluid, autistic, lesbian and i really love furbys and other vintage toys from the 80s/90s/2000s however i only post about furbys here. as of march 30th 2024 i own 42 furbys!! (including fakes and plush) ^_^ ʕ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•

i stand with 🇵🇸. if you disagree please block me and educate yourself. i do not have the mental energy to argue with people❤️🍉

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ʕ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡• i have autism, adhd and quite severe anxiety. my special interests are lost media, toy collecting and obviously furbys!!!! ٩( ᐛ )و social interactions freak me out a ton im so sorry if i ignore you or sound rude (´；Д；`) ʕ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʔ

other than furbys, i collect: dvds, vhs tapes, care bears, monchichis, littlest pet shops, vintage garfield, snoopy/peanuts merch, domo kun merch , sanrio, vintage toy clowns, vintage poodle memorabilia and various cute quirky items i find while thrifting ^_^

(i do not support sanrio as a company, i only buy second hand items)

*･゜ﾟ･*:.｡..｡.:*･'(*ﾟ▽ﾟ*)'*:.｡. .｡.:*･゜ﾟ･

my non furby interests include: lost media, riot grrrl culture, lesbian history, animation, comics, toy collecting, poodles, spreading awareness for autism in afab people, vintage toy restoration, thrifting and lots of other things i forgot

*･゜ﾟ･*:.｡..｡.:*･'(*ﾟ▽ﾟ*)'*:.｡. .｡.:*･゜ﾟ･

music i like: bikini kill, bratmobile, lemon demon, they might be giants, oingo boingo, devo, car seat headrest, the moldy peaches, kimya dawson, le tigre, SELF, of montreal, jack off jill, the cure, milkcan, weezer, mitski, the garden, radiohead, neutral milk hotel, baby metal, AJJ, 1 trait danger, nero’s day at disneyland and more that i’ve probably forgotten

*･゜ﾟ･*:.｡..｡.:*･'(*ﾟ▽ﾟ*)'*:.｡. .｡.:*･゜ﾟ

#furby #safe furby #furbycore #lesbianism #wlw #sapphic #furbies #furby family #furby boom #2005 furby #lost media #2012 furby #gifcities #furby 2023

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applechip118 · 6 months

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anyways what i’ve tried (but failed ^^’) to talk about on here is how ptsd relates to me being otherkin/questioning. i’m really just hoping to hear maybe advice or solidarity from anyone else who has similar experiences? idk and also talk about this stuff to people who actually get it yk.

*this is more just a ramble and i’m not exactly going anywhere with it lmao*

tw for cptsd stuff like dissociation, as well as fnaf-typical violence/gore/rot etc. i won’t talk about my trauma itself though

basically the main way my dissociation/depersonalization has manifested, for at least a year (and coinciding when i got into fnaf) has been feeling like a springtrap-esque robot. it was really shocking to me how similar he was to how i felt, because like. it was EXACTLY the same yk. i felt myself physically rotting and feeling as though my limbs were machinery, being springlocked etc even to this day, and i know it’s dissociation but it’s not incomparable to how i experience phantom limbs.

since i quite literally am a machine, i suppose i’m technically robotkin? i’m not really sure if i should start identifying that way though, which is what i’ve been trying to get at. to me it’s like how i identify as genderfluid because it’s what i like best, even though i could also technically call myself transmasc, bigender, a cis girl etc because i fit those definitions (but if it doesn’t work that way for otherkin please let me know!). it is a personal goal of mine to “become human” again someday and not have to fall back into this kind of dissociation to cope. maybe then i could come back and consider this again? that’s probably gonna be the main takeaway from this but i just kinda need to ramble about it LMAO

i don’t get kin dysphoria for it though because uh. it’s kind of the default operating assumption for me yk? i only really get euphoria for it thinking about my place in the fnaf canon etc. outside of that i don’t really get euphoria from feeling physically like a corpse or robot 😂 (therianism doesn’t count)

i will say my cptsd is very likely the reason i’m a therian now, because it really rewired my brain and now i have much stronger tendencies to act like my theriotype than i would have a few years ago. i’ve also noticed i tend to exhibit a lot more “childish” behaviors and noticeable stims, and if you gave me an autism or adhd test now vs a year ago i would score much higher now even though i’m not autistic. it’s possible i might have had mild adhd or something before ptsd, but i can’t be sure. emotional dysregulation due to ptsd has caused some shift-like behaviors, i’ve noticed, probably more like hyperactivity, which can lead to shifts for me. obviously that’s something i’m trying to work on and i’m not saying it’s exactly good!

obviously it’s really not good for my health, and i didn’t choose to cope this way so it’s not copinglink. my place in fnaf could be called a coping thing as well but it’s also not voluntary. idk i feel like identifying as robotkin could be validating but i’m also really scared it’s going to encourage more dissociation and mess with my health yk? so then i should probably just Not lmao

i’m really trying to be objective and not be spiritual(tm) about things that are genuinely unhealthy. obviously i know dissociation is dissociation and it’s different (like how there’s so much misinformation about hallucinations and “messages” from what i’ve heard), i just think it’s interesting how there’s an overlap at least for me, especially considering how little is known about otherkinity/therianism

anyways rant over! there wasn’t really anywhere i was trying to go with it lmao. thank you guys and uh. genuinely i’m sorry for how much i’ve messed up with terminology etc so far, i really appreciate your patience and kindness

#applechip.txt #complex ptsd #actually ptsd #dissociation #depersonalization #kinsidering #otherkin #otherkith #fictionkin #synpath #otherhearted #robotkin

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silly-little-mann · 1 year

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about me stuff

🤷🏻-words

🏳️‍🌈-identity stuff

🦋-brain stuff

❤️-interests

‼️-DNI

currently skipping class and got bored so I’m gonna make one of these 🤷🏻

🤷🏻hi, my names mattea. I go by q bunch of different nicknames and stuff (Mattie,Matteo,Matthew) so js use whatever (if ur alex yu can call me matpat😽)

🏳️‍🌈I’m bi+demisexual and genderfluid (i think?)

🏳️‍🌈I mainly use any pronouns but obviously since I am genderfluid my main preferred pronouns changes pretty often

🏳️‍🌈today I am using: all/any pronouns!

🦋I have adhd and anxiety (possibly something else as well but I don’t like self diagnosing myself with things so I’ll js keep with what I’m professionally diagnosed with)

🤷🏻I like to draw and make kandi so sumtimes I’ll post pictures or little things about that

❤️INTEREST LIST(also specifying what each thing is cuz I’m awesome)

❤️bungo stray dogs (anime), omori (video game), ddlc (video game), Jackson’s diary (webtoon), the walten files (analog horror series), the Mandela catalog (analog horror series), be more chill (musical), camp camp (series), dear evan hansen (musical), five nights at freddy's (video game), hamilton (musical), heart stopper (show), heathers (musical), helluva boss (series), lemon demon (band/singer), my chemical romance (band/singer), newsies (musical), project sekai (video game), ride the cyclone (musical), sanders sides (series),the arcana (video game), the guy who didn't like musicals (musical), the last of us (video game/show), the smiths (band/singer), the walking dead (video game/show)

❤️(Whoever acc reads all of that I’ll marry u)

‼️DNI LIST

‼️homophobes+transphobes (why r u guys even here??), ablists, racists, basic DNI criteria obvs, proshippers, furry haters, dsmp ppl (if ur on here..), and Alex (/j Ofc)

that’s pretty much it, bye bye ❤️❤️

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autrizztic · 2 years

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Pretty angsty ninjago au idea

Okay so, in the au, it doesn’t actually take place in ninjago like in it takes place in america or japan (i don’t fully know yet.) Lloyd is the only one out of the ninja that actually is a real person in the au, the ninja and every actually canon ninjago character are Lloyd little characters he made for his own little story.

His imagination about it gets out of control to the point where he’s failing school,distancing himself from his real friends and family. He while walking home he stopped while having a very bad feeling in his stomach and suddenly all of it becomes real, the “characters” he made, the “story” it all became real.

Some info about this Lloyd !!

Lloyd has his self-insert character as the protagonist obviously

Lloyd is genderfluid,lesbian [his pronouns are he/it]

I made Lloyd have ADHD and Autism

Lloyd is half-mexican and half-white

I may or may not have heavily based Lloyd in this au on myself because he’s literally me fr.

His special interest is minecraft and his hyper fixation’s are dnd and his storyline/characters.

I’ll make another post about the au once i get home from school and thought about things more! I need a name for it, but rn I’m working on the characters designs in the au. Oc’s will be in this au!

#lloyd garmadon #ninjago cole #ninjago jay #ninjago kai #ninjago oc #sseabuniezrambles #ninjago au #ninjago zane #ninjago nya #ninjago morro #kai smith #jay walker #zane julien #nya smith #cole brookstone #my au ideas

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systemexploration · 2 years

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my friend who is a system thinks i might also be a system because i’ve been showing some symptoms. i don’t experience amnesia, nor do i forget important details about myself. i only forget small stuff, like day-to-day chores, meals i ate, and conversations i’ve had

my friend said they think i have it because i’ve mentioned dissociating a lot and i seem to have a blurred sense of identity (i’ve been struggling with my gender and sexuality for years. i’ve thought that i might be genderfluid or abrosexual but neither of those labels feel right to me)

i brought it up to my therapist, and my mom had me do a check up with a psychiatrist. both of them said i probably don’t have it, and my therapist said i’m young so obviously i’m going to be questioning my identity

but i feel like i might have it. i think i’ve had alters front before, and i think i have a few? i don’t know. i don’t if i’m making all of this up for attention or if i’m just crazy

first of all (/lh) if those are experiences you have had, you arent making it up! your experiences are valid whether or not they connect to being plural or being a singlet

long post below!

(for some reason i didnt write this in order of the topics you brought up) (also all this is /nm and /npa! i apologize if the way i word things comes across a little aggressive, i struggle with sounding serious but not mad sometimes)

but onto the main topic, i do agree that it is very common for teens (ik you just said you are young, im assuming, but also talking generally /nm /lh) to question their identity a lot! its part of growing up, figuring yourself out. our core, Mouse, went through many, many sexuality/orientation labels before settling on aroace. those werent a part of our systemhood btw, those were just part of Mouse's self discovery. a struggle with labels can definitely be a sign of being plural but also it can be part of the identity stuggle that a majority of teens face.

about the amnesia and forgetting things. amnesia isnt a need for being plural. having trouble remembering things is a part of being plural but it also is a part of being a singlet. there is a normal amount of short term memory loss for people but it can get to a point where there is a reason for it or something that is causing it. we have a friend with autism and adhd who experiences more short term memory loss that is considered normal. with plurals, there are many different ways memory is handled. it can go from headmates having their own individual memory all the way to memory being a thing all headmates can access. most of our memory is accessible but there are a couple things that only a few of us remember (we dont know what it is due to those remembering it purposely not telling us). we also can experience forgetfulness when we switch but it is usually only small things. so to sum that all up, amnesia isnt a plural requirement and forgetting smaller things may or may not be a sign of being plural.

dissociating is definitely a bigger thing than the last two topics. if you dissociate a lot then that is something that i would recommend looking into and bringing up with your therapist if you havent. people can dissociate a few times in their life without it being a result of something but it happening a lot is a sign of a reason being behind it. dissociation is a part of plurality (not required) but there are also dissociative disorders that arent DID or OSDD (though non disordered plurals can still dissociate.). i am not at all trying to say you have a dissociative disorder, i have no place to say that, but i do recommend talking to your therapist more about it and looking into stuff about it yourself!

and finally, if you think you have had alters front before then definitely keep researching stuff about plurality! try to pay more attention to when you remember things vs when you dont, your mindsets/personalities, and try to see if you can call out to anyone in your head to see if they will straight up respond! if you do feel like anyone is there but they are still vague, try to give them a name and refer to them as a separate person than you. that can help with clarity and communication. (all /nf)

overall, with the experiences you have talked about, there are definitely other things that can be the cause but that is the case with most mental divergencies. the fact that there can be other reasons doesnt mean that it is definitely not plurality. if you are more confident that it might be plurality i do think you should continue to learn about it! unfortunately i cant give you a yes or no about being plural, that is something you are going to have to figure out yourself /lh

absolutely feel free to continue to ask questions if you continue looking into plurality though!

Some helpful resources from @/the-plural-archive

#asks #experiences #plural #multiplicity #mod tubbo #tips #endo safe

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taehane · 1 year

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ABOUT ME 🍰

ok so my name is tae or scott. either one works and I don’t have a preference !!

my main prns are it/she. I don’t mind they/them but it’s not preferred. I use neos but you’ll have to ask as my hoard is quite big. I also like he/him but like it/she are preferred

(☆^O^☆) || interests || : project sekai, stranger things, obey me, genshin, writing, art and character creation.

(☆^O^☆) || extras || : I am an irl of phone guy and kohane azusawa. There are more but I do not wish to share them.

I’m pansexual, aro-spec, ace-spec, polyamorous and genderfluid(?) not rlly sure as of rn.. I’m taken and yeah idk

I rlly like pink. I’m on of those ppl who hated pink as a kid and then grew up and now likes it..oops. I also rlly like red, blue, green and well basically every colour ..including all the pastels, they’re rlly cute :3

I’m an english and art nerd. I have a pet dog and also two cats!!

I’m a therian, furry, artist, writer and cosplayer!

I’m an autistic adhd’er. I use tone-tags and need them used around me. If you refuse to use them I will probably block you. I suspect I have other disorders but I prefer not to list them here. I am pro self diagnosis as I am self diagnosed autism and adhd. Self diagnosis with enough research IS valid and anyone who says it isn’t, DNI.

i am 13, so, obviously a minor. I do not engage in any sexual content here on tumblr and I kindly ask for nsft blogs to dni as this is for my safety. I also do not feel comfortable with anyone above the age of 18 interacting with me, again, this is for my safety. (Exceptions can be made about the age thing)

❌ dni : ableist, homophobic, racist, assholes, anti neos / xenos, furry haters, pedos,, idk man I’ll probably just block u if I feel uncomfortable.

#genshin impact #stranger things #the owl house #project sekai #an x kohane #vbs kohane #kohane asuzawa #project sekai kohane #an shiraishi #emu project sekai #tsukasa tenma #rui kamishiro #nene kusanagi #haruka kiritani #kanade yoisaki #artists on tumblr #lgbtq

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property-of-tojifushiguro · 2 years

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Hello, hello lovelies! <3

Welcome to my bakery!

My name is Mae, nice to meet you! This is my second account for writing any non-genshin fanfiction! my main writing blog is @morbific-or-felicific and my main blog is @cloudy-fishes(but i’m not really active on there).

I am 19, my pronouns are she/they and i am genderfluid, I’m bisexual, I’m canadian, I’m an INTP, I’m a scorpio sun, a sagittarius moon, a taurus rising, and I have ADHD(if you couldn’t tell)

I like to write(obviously) and I may or may not post on here and if i do it likely won’t be often so please respect that!

property-of-tojifushiguro

#staff.announcements<3

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conarcoin · 2 years

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MLP episodes that try to talk about serious real-life topics, which ones succeed, and which ones fail

Note - I haven’t watched season nine.

The Good

Griffon the Brush-Off: I don’t like a lot of bully-centric episodes in cartoons. This one has a good message. If people are being shitty to your friends, tell them to fuck off.

Bridle Gossip: Not perfect, but definitely the best of the series’ attempts at making an episode about racism. Zecora becomes a recurring character, which is nice. Love her.

Lesson Zero: Cartoonish but actually pretty good representation of OCD with Twilight part one. Episode ends with Celestia listening to Twilight’s problems and making accommodations for her which is great.

It’s About Time: Cartoonish but actually pretty good representation of OCD with Twilight part two.

It Ain’t Easy Being Breezies: This episode was the episode that turned Fluttershy into a near-perfect character. Super good message about how sometimes the best thing you can do for someone may not be the easiest or nicest.

Maud Pie: Pinkie’s autistic-coded sister visits Ponyville and Pinkie excitedly introduces her to her friends, who have a bit of trouble becoming friends with her because they don’t have anything in common with her. Episode ends with them realizing what they have in common with Maud is their love for Pinkie and ultimately accept Maud the way she is.

Testing, Testing, 1, 2, 3: Rainbow Dash struggles with studying and her friends try to help her succeed in her own way. Pretty good representation of ADHD.

Tanks for the Memories: Pretty good episode that can be used to teach kids about dealing with loss, although Tank is fine, just hibernating.

All Bottled Up: Don’t like Starlight, but this is a perfectly fine episode about how bottling up your emotions is unhealthy.

The Maud Couple: This is basically the same lesson as Maud Pie except Pinkie does an ableism this time instead. Good lesson for the same reason but I have no idea why they would choose Pinkie for this. Or tell this lesson a second time.

Surf and/or Turf: Wonderful episode that can be seen as a metaphor for many topics, and I’ve seen it interpreted brilliantly in various ways including being about children with divorced parents, children of mixed heritage, and genderfluidity. Just a good episode that can be applied brilliantly to a number of important topics, and I like seeing that it’s so well-beloved by a number of people for very different reasons.

Molt Down: It’s not for me, but I can see this episode being really helpful for kids going through puberty.

The Bad

Over a Barrel: Oh boy, a native american themed episode. It sure would suck if the native stand-ins were portrayed as aggressive and unwilling to compromise and the lesson was “we should all get along guys 🙂”. Buffalo are also never mentioned again lmao.

The Cutie Map: I literally don’t fucking understand what the metaphor is here and half the fandom thinks this episode is about communism for some insane reason so obviously they didn’t get their point across clearly enough.

Do Princesses Dream of Magic Sheep?: Had a lot written but it made me mad so instead I’m just going to say: Why the fuck would you put a magical self-harm allegory in your cartoon for elementary school children, have it “solved” by the end of the episode, and then never again discuss it?

Newbie Dash: How the fuck are you gonna do bullying right in S1 and then write this garbage? Fuck off.

The Times They Are a Changeling: WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU WRITE A RACISM EPISODE WITH YOUR POC STAND-IN BEING A SPECIES WHO’S ONLY OTHER APPEARANCE WAS THEM LITERALLY TRYING TO TAKE OVER EQUESTRIA???? ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR FUCKING MINDS?

Parental Glideance / The Parent Map: PLEASE for the love of GOD stop writing episodes where a grown adult is portrayed as being in the wrong for being mad at their parents being fucking weird. Jesus fucking christ?

A Rockhoof and a Hard Place: Holy fucking shit they did a fucking magical suicide allegory for the love of god please help me. What the actual fucking hell? Oh my fucking god you guys cannot keep doing this shit

#trav post 🐾

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notjacinclay · 2 years

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ok i know you what to do them all so all the Rampion crew + kinney'S for the hc ask :))

AUSIHKSJKE THANKS VI <33

my hyperfixated ass has been ITCHING to do this so let’s go

Cinder

Sexuality Headcannon: Bi with no pref and Demi romantic

Otp: I mean kaider but cressder is okay too

Brotp: Cinder and Thorne or Cinder and Kinney

Notp: anything incest and CinderxThorne/Jacin/Iko

First hc that pops up for this character: she is an abnormally fast eater. Like she and wolf have eating competitions and she’s damn close to winning.

In one way I relate to this character: both pretty damn good at assembling ikea shit and fixing crap.

Thing this character did that gave me 2nd hand embarrassment: when she went to the ball and kissed Kai… yeah I can’t read that I’m sorry.

Cinnamon roll or problematic fave? Ehh neither but she’s not a cinnamon roll so the 2nd one ig?

Kai

Sexuality headcannon: pan and Demi sexual

Otp: Kaider but low key like Kinney x Kai

Brotp: Cress and Kai or Thorne and Kai (winter and Kai is good too)

Notp: Pretty much everyone except Cinder and Kinney

First hc that pops up for this character: he has like 7 fuzzy blankets he got from Kohl’s and he sleeps with all of them. They all have like, cat patterns and lame shit like that on them too. <3

In one way I relate to this character: awkward as hell 😍

Thing this character did that gave me 2nd hand embarrassment: almost everything Kai did in the whole damn series. Seriously everything. He’s so awkward help 😭

Cinnamon roll or problematic fave? Cinnamon roll for sure.

Scarlet<3

Sexuality headcannon: bi as hell and genderfluid/bigender (ik that’s a gender not a sexuality but still)

Otp: wolflet for sure but winlet would be good if I wasn’t obsessed with jacinter and wolflet

Brotp: cinder and scarlet or winter and scarlet.

Notp: Thorne x Scarlet, Jacin x Scarlet, Kai x Scarlet

First hc that pops up for this character: she likes to climb on counters and just perch up there. She can reach the cupboards easily cause she’s like 5’7 but she still climbs up there cause she thinks it’s fun as hell.

In one way I relate to this character: anger issues mainly ✨

Thing the character did that gave me second hand embarsssment: nothing tbh everything she does is girlbossed so

Cinnamon roll or problematic fave? Problematic fave obviously 🙄

Wolf <3

Sexuality headcannon: Scarlet. That’s all. He’s also probably Demi something

Otp: wolflet <3333

Brotp: jacin and wolf, cinder and wolf or winter and wolf

Notp: anything that’s not with scarlet imo 💁

First hc that pops up for this character: he watches 911 shows and gets way too into it. He’ll either be yelling “DIE FUCKING DIE YOU PIECE OF-“ or he’s quietly sobbing on the couch. Also he has bpd.

In one way I relate to this character: low self esteem and will kill you if you hurt my friends

Thing the character did that gave me second hand embarrassment: oh no I can’t do this. Everything wolf does is awkward and embarrassing as hell but yeah I love him <3

Cinnamon roll or problematic fave? Problematic fave for sure. I mean just look at him.

Thorne

Sexuality headcannon: chaotic bi energy with pref for girls

Otp: none rly I don’t rly ship Thorne with anyone

Brotp: cinder and Thorne, Kai and Thorne, Cress/Iko and Thorne

Notp: Cinder x Thorne, Winter x Thorne, Scarlet x Thorne, pretty much anyone x Thorne (I can handle iko or cress but that’s it)

First hc that pops up for this character: turns his socks inside out when he takes them off and doesn’t understand why they’re still inside out when they get out of the dryer. Mans got 1 brain cell at this point. Also he has adhd.

In one way I relate to this character: both complete dumbasses but still somewhat loveable. People hate me but (affectionate)

Thing the character does that gives me second hand embarrassment: he’s an arrogant ass (affectionate) so he’s probably never embarrassed but I cannot read the cresswell scene in winter.. you know the one.

Cinnamon roll or problematic fave? Problematic as hell but we love him

Cress

Sexuality headcannon: aegosexual lesbian with comphet obviously ✨

Otp: iko x cress but cinder x cress isn’t bad

Brotp: Kai and cress, wolf and cress, cinder and cress

Notp: cress with any male pretty much. Or cress x scarlet.

First hc that pops up for this character: an absolute GOD at Minecraft. Like she has worlds and each one is a mf civilization she created. She’s pretty much good at any game, but especially this one.

In one way I relate to this character: both pretend to be people we’re not and sing in the shower.

Thing this character did that gave me 2nd hand embarrassment: whenever it says “cress squeaked”. I’m sorry I can’t deal with that.

Cinnamon roll or problematic fave? Cinnamon roll I mean cmon

Jacin<3

Sexuality headcannon: asexual and Demi romantic

Otp: jacinter <33

Brotp: winter and jacin, wolf and jacin, cress and jacin

Notp: anyone besides winter. Him and wolf are similar in that way

First hc that pops up for this character: eats everything with a fork. Man could be eating ice cream and he’d have a mf fork in his hand. Also he’s autistic sorry I don’t make the rules.

In one way I relate to this character: I mean I kin him so almost everything. Mainly the anti social ness whenever I’m not online 👍

Thing this character did that gave me 2nd hand embarsssment: probably the fact that he’s an ass and thinks he’s better than everyone else (besides winter ofc) but especially when he was talking to the lady whose son k1lled himself in the book cress. Complete ass. (Affectionate)

Cinnamon roll or problematic fave? Problematic fave. That is the only answer.

Winter <3

Sexuality headcannon: Pan or unlabeled asexual. (Jacinter is my comfort ship therefore I get to hc both of them as ace)

Otp: jacinter but winlet and cress x winter isn’t bad

Brotp: wolf and winter, jacin and winter, Kai and winter, scarlet and winter

Notp: Thorne x winter, wolf x winter, kai x winter, Kinney x winter, cinder x winter.

First hc that pops up for this character: she loves antique stores and will spend hours browsing there. She especially loved bringing home old lamps with weirdly shaped bulbs and dead moths in a frame. (She makes sure they weren’t killed ofc) She is also autistic or has adhd.

In one way I relate to this character: mentally unstable and a total softie for animals

Thing this character did that gave me 2nd hand embarrassment: nothing tbh, I can’t think of anything.

Cinnamon roll or problematic fave? Cinnamon roll is inevitable.

Iko

Sexuality headcannon: Lesbian or Omni with preference for girls. Also she’s ace.

Otp: cress x iko

Brotp: cinder and iko, Thorne and iko, Kai and iko, Kinney and iko

Notp: anyone except cress tbh

First hc that pops up for this character: can solve Rubix cubes in under 5 minutes. It could be her android brain, but I’m gonna say she just has a damn good talent for it.

In one way I relate to this character: fanpersons over everything and writes fanfic, draws fan art, ships too many ships.

Thing this character did that gave me 2nd hand embarrassment: whenever she heightened the temperature to show she was blushing when she was a ship. It’s funny but embarrassing.

Cinnamon roll or problematic fave? Neither but if I had to choose, cinnamon roll.

Kinney

Sexuality headcannon: Omni or bi with pref for males. Maybe aromantic as well.

Otp: don’t really have one for Kinney.

Brotp: cinder and Kinney, iko and Kinney, cress and Kinney for some reason.

Notp: I don’t like any Kinney ships but I absolutely hate cinder x Kinney and winter x Kinney

First hc that pops up for this character: has watched glee before. Iko rewatched it with him and he realized how much he hated it the second time. Iko disagrees.

In one way I relate to this character: hm. Probably I’m loyal ig? I’m also annoying a lot of the times ig? Idk 🤷

Thing this character did that gave me 2nd hand embarrassment: when iko and him kissed in wires and nerve. I physically cannot read that part.

Cinnamon roll or problematic fave? Mm probably the 2nd one but not really either.

PLS THIS TOOK ME SO LONG BUT THIS WAS RLY FUN THANKS AGAIN VI

#vi supremacy #lunar chronicles #tlc #carswell thorne #incorrect quotes tlc #jacin clay #linh cinder #prince kai #zeev kesley #cress darnel #winter hayle #scarlet benoit #liam kinney #iko #rampion crew

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thechangeling · 3 years

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But you like her better: Part 1

This fic features Kit's potential new girlfriend hinted at in a letter from Tessa to Magnus in CC's newsletter. A bunch of people in the fandom built her from the ground up @littlx-songbxrd @foxglove-airmid @the-wckd-powers @adoravel-fenomeno and @thomas-gaypanic-lightwood to name a few, and gave her a personality, name and backround. Their name is Marí.

Kit uses he/they pronouns in this fic and Marí uses she/they.

Cw: Disassociation (or at least how I experience it idk it might not be the same for everyone), negative self talk, self injurious stims, and bad coping mechanisms.

Title is from Heather by Conan Gray.

Marìa. Marí as she preferred to be called, was a bubbly kind soul with a wide inviting smile and a melodic voice.

Even Ty could admit that they were quite beautiful, despite not seeing women (or in Marí's case anyone who was particularly alienated with womanhood,) in a romantic or sexual light. It took him awhile to realize he was gay, but when he did it just seemed so obvious. He had gone through a minor phase of experimentation at the scholomance when he was younger but it hadn't lasted long.

Still Marí was stunning. And perhaps what made her even more stunning was her kindness and generosity. Ty had met her on the beach in LA while she and her parents were visiting the LA institute for a downworlder/shadowhunter summit being held by Helen, Aline, Mark and Cristina, similar to the one Julian held in 2012.

Ty noticed that Tessa and Jem were present, but Kit was not. He was not exactly sure how that should make him feel. So Ty elected to push the pain in his chest further down. To shove all if his unresolved feelings and worries and questions about Kit Herondale back into the metaphorical box and move on.

So he had gone outside to walk on the beach to distract himself when he found Marí sitting on the sand and crying.

Apparently according to them, they had come across a few dead moon jellyfish, or Aurelia aurita as was more scientifically accurate, that had washed up on the beach.

Ty remembered being moved by how she had such compassion for another living creature who wasn't even a person. It was rare. Ty had helped her bury them. She seemed wary and a little hostile around him at first, noticing his runes. She was clutching her body tightly. Ty noticed her anxiety and told her how he was also a lover of aquatic life and he found marine biology fascinating. This had prompted her to instantly change demeanor and become very excited and start jumping up and down and waving her hands before she told him that she was studying marine biology at university in Devon.

The mention of Devon should gave promoted Ty to wonder if Marí knew Kit but he was still putting up mental blocks to protect himself from the Kit situation so it hadn't crossed Ty's mind.

They had sat on the beach and talked for hours. Marí told him their name and that they used she/they pronouns. They also told Ty that they were from Devon, but their family was from Loiza, a city on the Northeastern coast of Puerto Rico. And also that they were all werewolves who pretty much hated shadowhunters but he seemed ok because he liked jellyfish. They mentioned that marine biology was one of their special interests and that they were autistic and had ADHD.

It would have been the perfect opportunity to tell Marí about him also being autistic but Ty being guarded and asocial, decided not to and told her as little as possible. He supposed he had some trust issues after everything. He mentioned his name, that he was attending the scholomance, and a few basic facts about his family. He also talked about his friend Alyssa Reyes.

Alyssa or Ali as he called her, was a werewolf with Maia's pack in New York. She was assigned as a liaison to the scholomance to act as a bridge between the werewolves and future centurions. And BOY had she complained about it. Alyssa was basically the president of the fuck shadowhunters club and she was autistic and had ADHD. She and Marí would have gotten along quite well.

Marí overall did most of the talking but she didn't seem to mind. On the contrary.

Ty had no idea that by that point they were already dating Kit.

When Kit returned with apologetic smiles and a new found charisma and confidence, he also brought her. And she was so happy to see Ty again that he felt so guilty for feeling torn up inside.

Ty couldn't hate Marí. Not even if he tried. They hadn't done anything wrong and neither had Kit. So Ty would just have to settle for hating himself for being angry over nothing.

Kit and Ty weren't really talking. Sure they had exchanged some words together when basically forced to, but Kit was being standoffish and Ty was still feeling a little annoyed. But mostly hurt. Ty had heard that Kit was using he/they pronouns and now identified as genderfluid. He had so many questions for Kit but Ty knew he couldn't ask. At least not right now.

Currently Ty was watching Kit and Marí talking. Kit was in the middle of telling her what looked to be a funny story based on the way she was laughing. Kit pushed a lock of dark curly hair back behind her ear and smiled.

Ty felt queasy. He bit his lip and averted his gaze trying to shake off the horrible feeling. Everytime he saw them together his chest felt like it was being squeezed by a juicer. Like he was being crushed and torn up on the inside and it was his fault. Just like it was his fault that Kit left. Or maybe that wasn't true. Maybe it was just inevitable but that didn't make it any easier.

Ty didn't have the right to be jealous or upset. He had no claim over Kit. He was being ridiculous he told himself as he attempted to shove all of these dark feelings into the box.

But this time it wasn't working.

"Alright you look like you're about to snap crackle and pop," Ty heard a voice say beside him. "What gives Sherlock?"

Ty looked up to see Alyssa Reyes standing next to him. When they had all congregated together in the LA institute and Kit had brought Marí and his friend Janessa back with them. Ty had decided to bring his lucky charm and close friend with him.

When Alyssa first came to the scholomance things were quite rough. But they had connected, first on the basis of being autistic and then through other things. Ali also had a love of mysteries and the two of them together were quite the team. The two of them had become incredibly close. Anush called her Irene because she was the only one who could outsmart Ty.

Speaking of Anush..

He was currently still back at the scholomance. They had both decided it was best for him to stay behind so they could spend some time apart. They had recently broken up after Ty finally realized he wasn't in a good place emotionally to date anyone. Ty had been forced to put Livvy's spirit to rest permanently when it started to have an affect on the mortal world negativity. It had been Livvy herself who had begged Ty to save the world at her expense.

That had been about a month ago and Ty was still relatively numb. He had a feeling it would begin to hurt eventually. Just not yet.

"Hey did you hear me?" Alyssa raised her voice. "What's wrong?" Ty refocused on his friend.

She was wearing her costume for the Halloween party they were all attending tonight. Kit, Ty, Dru, Alyssa, Marí, Jaime, Janessa and Thaís. It was Dru herself who had suggested they need a break from essentially preparing themselves for what was probably going to be another war. So they were headed to a vampire hosted party at a club in downtown LA. Alyssa had been sure to grab earplugs for Ty and herself which he was grateful for.

Alyssa was dressed as Aeryn Sun from Farscape, one of the many autistic coded characters from scifi that she was obsessed with. She was wearing a long black leather trench coat with black leather pants and a black tank top. Her dark brown hair was pulled back onto a long braid traveling down to her lower back. She even had leather boots and a fake blaster gun holstered at her thigh to complete the look.

And Ty of course, was dressed as Sherlock.

Ty shook his head at her. "Nothing Ali I'm fine."

Alyssa glowered at him. "Bullshit you're fine. I thought we agreed never to lie to each other?"

Ty sighed, gazing back at Kit and Marí, still smiling at each other. Alyssa followed his gaze.

"Oh you're jealous aren't you!" She declared matter of factly. Ty instantly shushed her.

"Oh relax they can't hear us, she muttered. We're too far away." She twirled her long braid and stimmed with the ends of it. "You know if you plan on taking your anger out on that lovely girl, a member of our COMMUNITY no less, who has done absolutely nothing wrong, then I'm like legally required to throw hands," she said with a smile.

Ty didn't smile back. "I wouldn't," he murmered, looking down. He had been flicking his fingers lazily at his sides, but now Ty found that wasn't good enough. He dug his fingernails into his right palm.

Alyssa looked concerned. "Hey I was just kidding," she said softly. She took his hand that had been creating little half-moon red divots on his skin and carefully threaded his fingers through her own.

Ali squeezed Ty's hand. "You know I'm on your side no matter what." He squeezed back.

Ty looked at the couple again. Emotions swirled all around his heart like little ribbons grazing against the sides. It wasn't just jealousy neccessary and Ty was a little shocked to find that he wasn't angry anymore. He was just...what?

Sad?

Sad didn't even begin to feel like it covered it. He felt so lost. And alone. And.... He felt himself starting to drift away, separating from himself. Ty could hear the fuzzy far away echo of someone trying to speak to him, but he couldn't make out the words. They were getting further and further away.

Everything was blurry and out of focus.

"Ty!" He heard a voice shout. With a jolt he was snapped back into his body. He turned to face Alyssa who was staring at him, looking obviously alarmed.

But the worst part was that everyone else was staring at him too. Including Kit. They looked shocked, but also something else that Ty couldn't quite pinpoint. There was an air of desperation to their voice when they asked,

"Are you ok?"

Was Ty ok?

It was such a funny question coming from Kit who hadn't spoken more than two words to him this whole time.

Kit who had left.

Ty didn't know what else to do except laugh. He burst laughing hysterically, almost falling from his position of where he was leaning against the wall. He desperately tried to gasp for air as he cackled.

Everyone was staring at him looking horrified. Dru pulled out her phone as if she was contemplating calling someone, then decided against it. Tears were starting to roll down Ty's cheeks as he kept laughing.

Alyssa grabbed his arm. "Alright, come with me," she ordered, dragging him to the side. Ty managed to stop laughing as she guided him firmly into the training room.

Ty's eyes were still blurry with tears, so he wiped them away. Alyssa was smiling at him softly, looking sympathetic. "It's gonna be ok Ty,: she cooed, taking his hand again. Alyssa began to rub slow soothing circles onto his palm.

"Ok, you wanna tell me what's going on now?" She asked gently. Ty sniffed and used his other hand to wipe away the rest of his tears.

"I don't know what to say," he admitted. "I don't know how to describe or explain it.

Alyssa nodded. "Well, try. You can use quotes or song lyrics if you want." Ty smiled. He was grateful that Ali understood.

Ty chewed the inside of his cheek for a moment. "It feels like a tear in my heart. Like a part of me is missing and I just can't feel it," he quoted. Alyssa stared at him, pondering. She continued to stroke his hand.

"Do you think what you're missing is Kit?" She asked. "Do you miss him?"

Ty glared at Alyssa and snatched his hand back. "No," he said firmly. "I don't."

Ali rolled her eyes. "Jesus you're almost as bad at love as I am! It's like trying to open a rusted toolbox with a fork getting you to open up!" She snapped.

Ty bared his teeth under closed lips and glowered at her. "Well maybe I never asked for your help!"

"Well maybe you should calm down and recognize that I'm your friend and I'm worried about you!" She shouted back.

Guilt instantly washed over him, pricking his skin. Ty squeezed his eyes shut. "I'm sorry Ali," he whispered.

He wished he could cry. Now more than ever Ty wished he could make himself cry. Over Livvy, over Kit. Over the coming battle. Over everything.

"Do you love them?" He heard her ask. There was no need to ask who she meant.

Ty opened his eyes. This was the thing he never acknowledged. Never said outloud. Never even let himself think it. Because it was terrifying. The acknowledgement of the truth.

The truth was that Ty would probably give his life just to see that adorable smile one more time. That he could tell you how many freckles Kit had because he had spent so many hours staring at Kit and counting them.

The truth was that when Kit held him, he felt closer to anyone then he ever had in his entire life. Ty had sat outside of Kit's door for hours, days even when they had first arrived because he had felt something, even then. Something pulling at him from the other side of that door like a magnet. He told himself it was just curiosity. A scientific curiosity.

It was the only thing that could logically explain Ty's obsession. It wasn't serious. It wasn't-

"I love him," Ty admitted shakily, breaking the silence. Even Alyssa looked a little suprised.

"I'm in love with Kit."

Before Ali could respond, Ty sensed movement by the training room door which they had forgotten to close. Ty instantly whipped around to see who it was, wondering frantically if they had overheard what Ty had said.

Standing in the door frame wearing her Mortica Addams costume for the party, complete with a jet black long wig was Marí.

And the look on their face suggested to Ty that they had heard every word.

I will try and get part 2 up as soon as I can! It will be from Marí's perspective.

The song Ty quotes is Can you hold me by NF.

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#tsc #tda #the dark artifices #kit x ty #ty blackthorn #twp #kit herondale #marí the werewolf #we need to give her a last name #marí tag

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yeeiguess · 3 years

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My favourite bnha headcanons :

• Mina’s genderfluid and uses he/she/they/ve pronouns

• Denki’s some flavour of non-binary and uses they/them (+ maybe other pronouns too)

• They’re both pan and poly but Mina’s also aromantic and Denki’s quoiromantic (= not being able to tell the difference between romantic and platonic feelings)

• They both ! Roller skate ! Jirō does it too, and Denki has those shoes with the little wheels you can pop off anytime. He just slides in UA’s hallways. He can also skateboard (he has one in his room in canon :) )

• Denki can sing and speak English really well but he’s really shy about both things because he feels like he doesn’t have any real talent and everyone thinks he’s dumb/can do the bare minimum. So he keeps these things to himself, and only share it on internet where he has secret accs. He also make music ! Glitchy, pop, electro music etc (I’m thinking of Every Day by Bo En and Life Letters by Bever Get Used To People)

• Aoyama has social anxiety and he doesn’t care about romance or sex at all, but he doesn’t use any label. Also gender is a social construct and therefore it can Changed and Bent at will. They’re very good at makeup, Mina’s jealous

• Sero’s like, really tall. He’s one of the tallest in class, and he likes to stand next to Katsuki and look at him angrily cause it makes Kat wary lol

• Katsuki stress cook, so he makes their meals most nights. He’s careful of everyone’s diets and make sure he never mixes things (like using the same spoon for the vegetarian meal and meat, or putting the cow milk and almond milk in the same glass) but no one really knows how he know about their diet because he doesn’t ask. (He’s a better listener than it seems especially about things like these. His parents taught him not to waste food, so if he’s going to cool it better be eaten afterward)

• Todoroki likes when Izuku mumbles under his breath because it’s background noise and he doesn’t do good in silence. It makes him uncomfortable when there’s no sound. He also just likes Deku’s voice and listening to him. Todo is kinda oblivious but he’s very patient and he’s a good listener.

• Denki and Mina have ADHD, Iida has autism and they all have a good deal of PTSD. Obviously. Leave them alone please

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