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The Hope of Love: Eärendil and Elwing as Symbols of Romance in Popular Culture

KEY WORDS: Earendil, Elwing, Pop culture, Third Kinslaying, Sirion, Theater, Art, War of Wrath

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One of the most famous love stories in the history of Middle-earth, the quasi-mythical tale of Lady Elwing of the Havens at Sirion, last queen of Doriath, and her husband, Lord Eärendil of Gondolin has captivated popular imagination for centuries. Some of these portrayals are strikingly vivid, reaching to the heart of a young queen facing the destruction of her people at the hands of the Elves of the West, while others appeal to a narrower interest in the notion of the seemingly-doomed lovers overcoming insurmountable obstacles. We have seen everything from epic tales to reference in pop songs [See: Radio-favorite I’m Coming with its second stanza lyrics “Baby I’m falling fast/But our love will last/Baby I’m flying out to you/Hold your ship steady for me”] to more physical reminders of their story [See: Durin’s Jewelers’ pendant replica of the fabled “Phial of Galadriel” said to contain the light of the star of Eärendil. Its eye-watering price tag make it a niche item.]

What is it about this story that continues to draw us in year after year? Perhaps through an examination of the various efforts to tell Elwing and Eärendil’s tale, we can see.

The Play of Mirkwood – We know of the existence of this early play only due to the survival of a single document: a letter from a woman to a close friend. In it, she tells of her recent viewing of this sober tale. While hers is the only confirmation we have of the existence of the play, it would also be the earliest documented telling of the tale. Her story is very believable: it fits with the theory that Oropher, king of Greenwood the Great, and possibly also his son Thranduil, king of Mirkwood, were themselves Iathrim refugees who took shelter east with the handful of their surviving kinsmen after the Third Kinslaying. For them, Elwing’s tale would have been deeply personal to their cultural loss.

According to our letter-writer, the Play of Mirkwood has very few actors and focuses almost entirely on Elwing and her capacity as the last queen of Doriath. Her children do not appear in the play, but are frequently referenced, and her last words evoke a mother’s grief. Eärendil is relegated to barely a side character here, with Elwing’s mourning being largely for her people and her children. This tracks for the creation of a people mourning the death of their kingdom and their culture.

The Rivendell Frieze – Sadly, this frieze is all but ruins. However, a few key elements allowed for historians to eventually come to broad agreement that it depicts Elwing. The faded, cracked image—which must have once been a centerpiece of a likely highly visible installation, as even what remains suggest it was once fantastic in detail—shows a dark-haired woman clad in white, facing the viewer, clutching a shining jewel in one hand. Her location is unclear, due to the deterioration of the paint, but could plausibly be a cliffside.

The location in which this frieze was discovered also hints at the location of Imladris—more commonly known as Rivendell. This would also lean us towards assuming the figure in the frieze is Elwing, as Rivendell was formed and ruled over by Eärendil and Elwing’s son, Elrond. The discovery was a blow to the small minority of historians who continue to assert that Elrond preferred his Noldor heritage to the Sindar, or even considered himself Feanorian. They dispute the authenticity of the frieze as well as the details about its location and construction.

The Gondorin Opera (Title: Eärendil and Elwing) – This was the first effort by Men to retell the story of Eärendil and Elwing. Eschewing much of the politics of the day, the opera makes a love story of the tale, focusing almost entirely on the romance of Eärendil and Elwing. Here, they are childhood companions separated when Eärendil departs in early adolescence to spend time with his Edain kin. When he returns as a young man, he and Elwing fall in love at first reunion.

The later part of the opera centers on Elwing’s desperate flight to Vingilot and their impossible journey to Valinor. It concludes with their celebration in Alqualondë after securing the aid of the Valar.

Rumored to be a favorite piece of altos due to the standout solos available, this play captures a high romance angle of the story, digging deep into the personal feelings of Eärendil and Elwing and their quest for happiness and peace, with far less attention paid to the monumental historical significance of their actions.

Allegedly, it was popular in early performances to cast Hobbits as Elrond and Elros, as they took direction better than actual children. This fell out of favor when such casting choices came to be seen as infantilizing, though opinions differ even among Hobbits.

The Glamben Play (Title: Downfall of a Queen) – One of the most controversial depictions of Elwing in popular history. Here, the young queen is a self-centered and politically-inept scion of a dying dynasty, who out of pride refuses to surrender the Silmaril and by her own fumbling leaves Sirion open to the attack by the Feanorians. Downfall of a Queen fits in a few digs at Elwing’s ancestors as well. In a move fairly roundly condemned by historians, even those more inclined to show sympathy to Feanorian forces, Maedhros here bargains with Elwing for the release of her children for the Silmaril, which she entirely rejects, openly stating she would rather retain the jewel than her children.

Several runs of this play have Elwing slipping backwards off the cliff rather than making the decision to jump.

Eärendil himself does not even appear in the play and is perhaps implied to have abandoned Elwing by the end.

Downfall of a Queen has long since run out of whatever favor it had, and is not seen in any reputable theater these days. However, it does represent a viewpoint that at one point, had more traction, and the fight it has been for historians to reclaim the history of Elwing and Eärendil from popular misunderstandings.

The Angwedthor Film (Title: The Tale of Eärendil and Elwing and the Saving of Middle-earth) – This was the first effort to capture the story of Eärendil and Elwing on film, before “talkies” had hit the scene. As such, it is technologically incredibly limited, with a run time of only 40 minutes—and even this strained the finances and capacities of the studio. Some of the artistic license taken here is hard to understand—why, for instance, Elrond is here written as a female child, or why Elwing was given a youthful romantic affair with Gil-galad which motivates his effort to stave the Feanorians off the Havens.

Due to the expenses of the time, the film avoids any large-scale scenes of battle and destruction, and leaps somewhat jarringly from Elwing’s transformation to her and Eärendil’s arrival in Tirion. However, the film made several unique choices heretofore unseen in Middle-earth cinema, such as the crowds which awaited Elwing and Eärendil in Tirion. While historians debate the accuracy of whether or not Tirion would have evacuated on the news that strangers from over the sea had successfully landed in Valinor, it can’t be denied that this was the first time which crowds of this size had been portrayed in media. Furthermore, director Angwedthor went through the laborious effort of liberally showering the set in actual gold dust to give an ethereal, almost divine feel to the scene, and the sparkle of Tirion’s streets enchanted audiences at the time.

Furthermore, the film debuted several new cinematographic techniques which have since become standard in the film industry, although the film itself did not endure in popularity. For several decades, though, it was cherished by a loyal group of fans for the tender charisma between the lead actors, but few copies of it remain.

The Manthor Film (Title: Forever Across the Sea) – Learning from the experience of The Tale of Eärendil and Elwing, here was a stronger effort to capture this famed tale. This film opts to center Eärendil as the protagonist, with Elwing only entering the scene thirty minutes into the film, after Eärendil has already made the decision to begin questing for the Blessed Realm.

It is commonly agreed that the actress portraying Idril steals the first half of the show, despite her relatively few lines. Her powerful presence and guiding hand on Eärendil paint a picture of a remarkable woman and Falcthel’s palpable confidence onscreen bolster the image.

Behind-the-scenes controversy suggests Manthor originally meant to make a more foolish figure of Gil-galad: a dull-witted, self-interested clown who came to the throne only by chance. However, the actor playing him took things firmly in a different direction, presenting Gil-galad as war-weary and wary, though not unsympathetic to the unstable position of the Havens. In the end, director Manthor was so impressed with the gravitas of Goror’s portrayal that he ceded direction on the character to Goror.

Additionally, Tomben’s portrayal of Eärendil is still considered by many to be the best onscreen portrayal of Eärendil of all time. His booming voice and captivating demeanor make it all too believable that his sailors would follow him into the unknown time and time again.

Capping off these mesmerizing performances is Elwing’s final speech to the Teleri of Aman, a moment so fascinating that it has become the basis of many other dramatic confrontations throughout popular media. Almost anyone will recognize the line “I plead my hope,” or even its more extended version “Oh ye of foreign shores, I plead my hope. Let my home not be crushed ‘neath the boot of Bauglir,” even with no familiarity with the film. The passion of Torthoriel’s performance here has brought many a moviegoer to tears and captures a moment few had before bothered with—Elwing’s part in gaining the aid of Aman.

However, despite its artistic merit, this film is loudly criticized for fueling the largely-debunked myth that Eärendil came and went from Sirion multiple times during the course of Elwing’s converse with Maedhros, lord of the Feanorians.

The TV miniseries (Title: Saving Our Shores) – Attempting to reach a younger audience, this 5-episode limited series portrayed Eärendil and Elwing as high schoolers trying to stave off the efforts of Feanorian Oil Refining, Co. to validate some historical claim on the land where the teens’ hometown sits. Due to the characters’ young age, the kidnapping of Elwing and Eärendil’s children was replaced with the poisoning of Elwing’s beloved pet doves. Their backstories as refugees are largely retconned, though Elwing remains an orphan.

The series did not make much of a stir, being largely dismissed as an ineffective effort at “modernization.” The costuming and camerawork, standard at the time, painfully date the series and are contemporarily found laughably lacking in style or finesse. It was also criticized for putting its environmental message ahead of the story of the characters. However, it remains popular with teenagers (possibly in part due to the number of sequences the main characters spend lightly clad at the beach), such that at any given youth costume party, one is likely to observe at least a single young woman wearing Elwing’s signature look from the film: the breezy white sundress and the necklace of cowrie shells (a gift from Eärendil).

A few defenders of the series point to how well it captures the feeling of being up against an impossible enemy and how naturally Elwing and Eärendil’s relationship comes off. It is most remembered for the incredibly catching opening song, as well as a few other effective, limited uses of lyric throughout the series. So much so that it was said to be partial inspiration for the next adaptation in our study.

The Methoril Rock Opera (Title: Blood of the Day) – This is one adaptation people either love or hate (and in some cases, love to hate or hate to love). It makes no claims at being a historical piece and therefore makes no apologies for the broad artistic license it takes.

In this raucous stage performance—which includes, at one point, flamethrowers—Gil-galad sells out the location of Elwing and the Silmaril to the Feanorians in exchange for their recognizing his kingship, a scene which kicks off the story. Other notable stylistic choices include choosing to portray Tuor as a humorous if inept drunkard, the infamous make-out scene with Elwing and one of her female companions which is never raised again in the performance, Idril’s florescent pink mohawk and her somewhat bone-chilling solo “Mother Knows Best,” and the decision to show the Feanorians attacking the Havens with machine guns (one of which serves as Lord Maedhros’ prosthetic hand).

Historians largely disdain the piece, and its merits among the artistic community have been debated since its release, but what one cannot deny is the electrifying discography. Hearing Elwing scream into the microphone about having to choose between her city and her children is hair-raising in the best way, and the electric guitar work in Eärendil and Elwing’s love theme drives home the intensity of their relationship like nothing else. Other standouts include Tuor’s surprisingly touching goodbye to Eärendil before his and Idril’s departure, by far the quietest song of the score, and Eärendil and Elwing’s duet of lament for their lost homes.

What Blood of the Day captures is not the accuracies in detail of Elwing and Eärendil’s story, but the feelings of it. In these blaring odes to electrifying instruments that perhaps should not be electrified, Methoril captures the incredible weight of the feelings that bear on the lovers and their story.

The Helethwen Film (Title: Eärendil and Elwing) – Hopes were not high for this revival piece, with many arguing that we are past the need for further adaptations of this story. However, a number of opinion column writers were forced to eat their words after the debut of this box office-shattering instant classic. Helethwen’s masterpiece blew all expectations out of the water, even those of movie executives who argued that two and a half hours was far too long to engage any audience in a historical piece.

This is the first of any adaptation which begins with Elwing’s flight from Doriath during the Second Kinslaying and which centers her character around this formative trauma. It picks up Eärendil’s story with the trek of the Gondolindrim away from the smoking ruin of their city; they arrive in a Havens at Sirion already established by the Iathrim. The friendship between the child Elwing—initially aloof, but quickly warming up to the amiable Eärendil—and her companion is very believable thanks to stellar performances by the child actors, and the tender romance which blossoms in their late adolescence is sure to soften the heart even of the most cynical viewer.

This film also places the children—Elrond and Elros—firmly in the core of the narrative, with Eärendil and Elwing’s concern for their young family being a significant motivator. During the assault on the Havens, it is Elwing who lures the Feanorians away from the city center in an effort to keep them from discovering her children.

The main criticism of this film comes from the brief confrontation between Lord Amrod of the Feanorians and Elwing, wherein he attempts to rape her. The act never comes close to consummation, but there are voices on both sides, arguing that it accurately captures the violence of war, or that it was a distraction from the core story and unneeded additional victimization of Elwing. At least one DVD release of the film cuts the scene entirely.

There are others who feel Braxton’s performance as Eärendil does not compare with Tomben’s earlier performance, but most still feel that Braxton was a solid choice. Furthermore, Aelil’s electrifying portrayal of Elwing covers over any weaknesses in her co-star’s work. She is undoubtedly the heart of the story, a choice which many critics have cited as key to the film’s success.

Elfie Graphic Novel (Title: Peredhel Tale) – Beginning as a webcomic almost a decade ago, Peredhel Tale kicked off its print run two years back. Wrangling a huge cast of characters, creator Elfwyne (known online as “Elfie”)focuses the core of the story on Eärendil and Elwing, and their developing friendship and romance throughout their time in the Havens at Sirion, but also digs into backstories for supporting characters, featuring prominently Idril and Tuor and their struggles with a mortal/immortal marriage; Evranin’s difficulty in seeing Elwing grow up; and the history of Círdan the Shipwright as well as his relationship with Elwing (he here plays something of a grandfatherly role for her).

Peredhel Tale excels in the details of the story because it has the luxury of lingering on smaller elements that more condensed adaptations cannot. For instance, Elfie dedicates an entire chapter (18 pages) to Eärendil and Elwing’s first meeting on the beach as children. Their unusually adult dialogue in this sequence serves to display how quickly they have been forced to mature, and the difficult and heavy thoughts weighing on them even in the middle of seemingly normal child’s play. Her use of vivid color and bold linework make her style easily identifiable and lend great depth of emotion to her drawings. Her tonal coloring in particular sets the scene before any dialogue has been uttered.

The graphic novel has only issued the first book, which ends while Eärendil and Elwing are still in childhood and dealing with the struggles of their trauma as refugees and future leaders of their people, but the webcomic has gone as far as Elrond and Elros’ fourth birthday. Elfie also plans to include in one of the printed volumes the accompanying short story A Frog for Nana, which focuses entirely on Elrond and Elros, at play in the village and in the surrounding landscape of the Havens.

Much of the content in the story is pure fiction—Elfie goes into detail on things we simply cannot know, such as whether there was anything romantic between Elwing’s nurse Evranin and Gereth, or to what extent Elwing and Eärendil exhibited Elvish traits in spite of their mortal blood—but her author’s notes reveal a copious study of the historical period and frank admissions where things were invented for the sake of the story. Tonally, it remains consistent, and great attention was given to the most accurate depiction possible of life in the Havens, as well as various cultural details of the Gondolindrim and the Iathrim.

Above all, Peredhel Tale is a story of love—between Eärendil and Elwing, between Eärendil and his parents, between Círdan and Elwing, and between the people of the Havens and their city. Elfie never lets the reader stray too far from this core and the result is a deeply humanizing—if not wholly historically accurate—portrait not only of the central couple, but their friends, family, and neighbors. Scholars on this subject may wish to subscribe to future updates of Peredhel Tale to see how Elfie handles the Third Kinslaying and the voyage to Valinor.

Conclusion

What do all these things tell us about the story of Eärendil and Elwing and its place in society? First, it shows us that there is an enduring interest in a good love story—platonic or romantic—and that Middle-earth never loses its thirst for a tale of hope. Seeing characters onscreen, on stage, or on the page who have lost everything pick themselves up and carry on, find new purpose in life, can be comforting for us. There is something reassuring in seeing that, thousands of years ago, people loved and despaired and hoped just as they do now. It is a connection with ages long gone and an affirmation that we are all people—historical figures included.

Second, it illustrates the effectiveness of using a personal story to illustrate a historical event. The horror of the Third Kinslaying remains shocking and potentially overwhelming even today. The wanton loss of life as well as the wholesale cultural destruction from which the Iathrim never recovered is painful even now. Indeed, the tale of Elwing may be seen as the last gasp of the Iathrim, reaching through the years to remind us that they were here. However, it can be difficult to grasp the magnitude of such things. Wrapping it up in the personal story of Eärendil and Elwing’s struggles and tragedy drive it home in a way that facts and figures do not.

Most of all, it tells us that their story remains relevant even in our times and that we still find hope in their struggles and successes. Eärendil and Elwing are still speaking to us, and perhaps in listening, we are reaching back to tell them that their sacrifice matters. We may feel that these stories tell us we are not alone—but perhaps we also seek to tell them that they are not alone, either.

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imakemywings · 8 months

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Fandom: The Silmarillion

Summary: Elwing arrives on Vingilot, bearing news of the Third Kinslaying. Earendil and his sailors must make a choice.

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AN: My contribution for @sindarweek day 3 "Legendary Deeds"!

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Photo credit to Johannes Plenio on Unsplash.

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The bird had been approaching for an hour. It was not unusual for lost or weary seabirds to catch a ride on the ship, and large seabirds—such as this albatross—were the sort they usually saw so far out to sea. Eärendil could see even at a distance it was flagging; he hoped it made it to the ship. It looked too injured or exhausted to continue far the way it was going. He kept an eye on it as he went about his daily chores and directed his men about theirs.

To Eärendil’s relief, within the hour, the bird was descending unsteadily towards the deck, and it was in worse shape than Eärendil had thought. It crash-landed on the main deck, skidding across the slick wood, sailors dodging out of its path, until it finally came to a halt, breast heaving, wings outstretched.

A few sailors shouted and Eärendil hurried from the quarter deck to the panting bird.

“Give it space!” he called to the other sailors, making them back away. He made his approach slowly, so as not to panic it, but it was too exhausted to respond, lying limp and damp with spume on the deck. There was foam about the beak and its eyes darted wildly around, unseeing and panicked. “Poor thing,” he murmured, easing down onto his knees as he drew nearer. “Safe now, you are,” he crooned, reaching out to touch it on the back. When the bird did not flinch away, Eärendil cautiously gathered it up, aware that those powerful wings could give him a nasty knock on the head if the bird objected to being handled. “We’ll see you looked after,” he informed the albatross, which required two arms to carry, as he brought it belowdecks.

He saw the bird given some water and a few of their fish which had started to go off (he decided the albatross might object to slightly odiferous fish less than the sailors) and set it up in his cabin for the time being. It took up most of the bed, and Eärendil was loath to move it from where it had settled, so he resigned himself to a night in his desk chair.

“Fret not,” he said, lighting up his lamp to make notes on the happenings of the day in the captain’s log. Sometimes, the birds stayed with them until they were nearly at shore once again, hunting in the water and returning to roost on the ship. “Here you have safe haven. The hardest part of your journey is over, little friend.”

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Eärendil hadn’t really intended to sleep much—not much good was to be had in the desk chair, and he worried about waking to a panicked albatross in his relatively cramped quarters. Better to be attentive to the bird and make sure he got it above deck as it started coming to again. Yet he must have dozed off after his watch shift, for he awoke abruptly in alarm, realizing, but the cabin was still quiet, the lap of the waves against the hull of the ship the only noise—and the breathing of his companion.

Sensing, perhaps, something amiss, Eärendil turned the lamp up and lifted it from the desk to peer at the bed, where the albatross was gone—and in its place, his own lady wife lay, wan and ill at rest even in her sleep.

“Shock” did not begin to cover it.

For a moment, Eärendil was caught in a loop, rapidly turning back to the desk, then to the bed, and once more to the desk, unable to decide if it was better to let Elwing rest or rouse her immediately and find out what—gently—the devil was going on here.

She was prone and naked across the bed, her normally silky black hair a stiff tangle, fragrant with sea spray, twitching and murmuring in her sleep. That itself was not unusual—Elwing had often slept poorly, bedeviled with insomnia and restless dreams that left her as weary as when she had gone down. He could always tell just on seeing her face in the morning if it had been a bad night.

It was the light that drew his attention to her hand, clutched into a fist—and inside, what could only be the Silmaril, aglow in its delicate silver necklace.

In the end, he decided answers on something of this magnitude could not wait. He set the lamp on the corner shelf beside the bed and shook her bare shoulder.

“Elwing.” He spoke in a hushed whisper, which made no sense when he considered, for he was trying to wake her, so he firmed his voice a little and said again, “Elwing!” It took a few more moments to dredge her from sleep and then she jerked upright with a shuddering gasp that wracked her body and set her weary muscles atremble. Her eyes resumed the frantic darting of the afternoon before and her breast began to rise and fall rapidly.

“Elwing,” Eärendil said firmly, grasping her wrist. “Elwing, beloved, how is it you are here? What ails you?”

Fighting against the panting jag which gripped her, Elwing managed at last to gasp: “The Feanorians! The Feanorians! They came!” A whole-body shiver went through her and her jaw clenched so tightly the muscle was like a knot at the corner of her jaw. Her dark gaze whipped over to pin Eärendil to the floor. “The Havens are lost!” Her voice rose to a hysterical wail. “Sirion is lost!”

And then she swooned, and said no more.

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Trying to explain to his crew that the albatross was his wife was not as difficult as Eärendil had expected, but that was a concern for him to ponder another time. They drew down the sails at once, bringing the boat to near a stop as they could, after he had relayed the news about the Havens at Sirion. Everyone wanted more details—Arnaud threw up over the side of the boat when Eärendil told them the Feanorians had set upon the town—but Eärendil tried to give Elwing more time, telling them he could not wake her, that she was too worn out from the journey to bring her message.

The mood on the ship had shifted jarringly and irreversibly. No one spoke of anything but Sirion and Eärendil caught crew members hovering at the edges of his vision, clearly keen to ask if he would wake Elwing now.

No matter how Eärendil felt the knife’s edge of need to know about their children, he would have allowed Elwing more time to rest and recover before plying her with questions, but the anxiety of the crew was overpowering, and after some hours, he went below to wake her again and have the tale of her coming.

When he roused her, she knew he had come for answers; he could read it in the storm cloud on her face. He passed her the drink and the hardtack biscuits he had brought from the galley; she wolfed down both barely pausing for breath, and then he asked again what had happened.

“For the Silmaril they came,” Elwing rasped. Her oval-shaped face was drawn still, and Eärendil could see she needed more food and drink, but he found himself held there as if under spell.

“Yet you have it,” he said, nodding to where it sat beneath his thin pillow.

“I have it,” said Elwing bitterly. She swallowed hard several times, her hands trembling, her eyes flickering about the cabin. He had given her a tunic and trousers to wear, which fit poorly, tight in some places, loose in others.

Then, without warning, she hurled the wooden cup across the room where it hit the wall with such force Eärendil had no doubt it would have shattered if it had been glass. Elwing’s breathing had not changed at all; there was no expression on her face, but her eyes had gone hard in a way he had not seen for many years.

“For the Silmaril they came,” she repeated. She breathed in deeply, composing herself to speak of things and not of feelings. “Maedhros the Red wrote to me,” she said, venom pulsing through her voice. “He wrote after you had left, so to me so to inform me he knew I had in my possession something which belonged to his family. How exquisite his prose, beloved! How pacifying, how coaxing, how amiable! How he desired friendship with us, how he regretted the infighting among the Elves, how admirably we had grown up the Havens! How well we were doing for our small age.” Her hand curled into a fist on her lap. “And in each, how he reminded me what he had done to my mother and father. How he reminded me that I am mortal, as my father was.” Elwing’s breathing came with forced steadiness, like a sailor holding a line in a storm gale. “He wrote several times since your departure, each letter more insistent and less amiable than the last. I summoned the council.

“I passed around the letters of Maedhros Red, and I told them a decision need be made.” She flexed her fingers, wadded up her borrowed tunic in her hand, then released it. “In the end, the vote was unanimous,” she said. “We would not surrender Lúthien’s Silmaril to the Feanorians under such threats.” Again, she seemed to remind herself to breathe. “I wrote back to him, telling him I could not make such a decision while the Lord of the Havens was at sea, that they would need wait until you had returned to port. I thought…I thought I could buy us time. When you came back, we would gather the council again and discuss a final decision on the matter.”

She was shivering.

“They did not wait.”

Elwing was once more attempting to marshal her thoughts, but Eärendil could see her breathing speeding up, could see how she was trying to keep herself calm. She sensed the question that was coming and did not want to answer, and that knowledge dropped a cold rock into Eärendil’s stomach. There seemed to be a faint greenish tinge to her face.

“Elwing,” he said.

“No!” she cried, pushing past him as she rose from the bed to pace to the other side of the cabin as a trapped animal.

“Elrond and Elros,” Eärendil pleaded.

Elwing gave a cry of pain and sank to her knees, pressing the heel of her hand against her ribs, just below her left breast. More than ever she fought against the feelings roiling in her body which would have rendered her speechless.

“Gone,” she grit out. “Gone, gone, gone.”

Eärendil said nothing; he could say nothing; he sat heavily against the planks of the floor and looked at her.

“Babies, my babies,” she whispered to herself, rubbing that tender place over her ribs. “Eleven months I carried them; I fed them from my own body; I taught them to speak, to walk, to learn…” He thought she would say more then, but she only screamed, falling forward until her forehead touched the floor. “They took them,” she howled, clawing at the floorboards. “They took them! My mother! My father! My brothers! My home! My babies!” She loosed another agonized scream, a sound that must have been heard across the ship, louder than any Man or Elf should’ve been able to be. “My babies,” she sobbed.

The acute awareness of his own helplessness bowled Eärendil over: he had failed again in his quest to reach the far shores of Aman and find his parents, and bring help for Middle-earth; and he had been gone when his sons learned to walk and gone when they were taken by the monsters of Elwing’s childhood, figures that had stalked her nightmares as long as he had known her, since she was not waist high on Lady Idril; and what could he say to her now? What stitches could he put in this wound?

If he could only hold her in his arms and let it all have been another of her miserable dreams!

When she sat up, it was sudden, and she whipped her attention back to Eärendil, her bloodshot eyes aflame with wrath.

“What regrets, Lord Maedhros wrote to me to say, the Feanorians had about what had happened in Doriath,” she said. “What regrets! Never did he mention Eluréd and Elurín by name. He knew the weaknesses of his argument; how keenly he avoided them! Ah, but he did mention his own dead brothers! What regrets, he wrote. What mistakes had been made, he wrote. How he grieved the loss of his kin—such kin as would have twisted my grandmother’s finger into a wedding band regardless of her will!” In that moment, Eärendil could picture Elwing doing as her foremother had done and stripping the skin off her enemy to wear herself. “Now he has left me with the hope only that they gave my sons the mercy of the blade that they denied my brothers,” she said, and the bitterness in her voice could’ve endured for ten thousand years.

But Eärendil had seized upon a single word.

“Hope?” he echoed.

“Aye, hope! Though it is worth little where Feanorians are concerned.” Eärendil, unglued from his place, scrambled over to her, putting his hands on her knees.

“Elwing, Elwing, Elwing, beloved,” he said breathlessly. “Saw you the deaths of our sons?”

“Saw!” she exclaimed. “I need not have seen it! What else you imagine they might do with our children, scions of Elu Thingol and Fingolfin both?”

“But it is not assured,” Eärendil stressed.

“Of course it is!” Elwing snarled, pulling away from him, rising to her feet to pace. “I saw them put a blade to the throats of my children; need I have seen the blood? One may simply know the nature of a thing! They are dead, Eärendil, dead!”

Eärendil would not believe it. He could not believe it until he saw those tiny bodies for himself, or heard from one who had. But he could see that it would do no good to argue now; Elwing was distraught and he would do her no service trying to dissuade her of this certainty now. He would simply hold out hope that somehow, some way, she was mistaken on this. There was a chance.

“How did it happen?” he asked quietly. Breathing deeply, Elwing seated herself on the edge of his berth, her back rigid.

“It was just after nightfall when they came upon us,” she said calmly, reigning herself in to give him the information he craved. “Two of their lords we slew, though not Maedhros, but our forces were overwhelmed. When I saw…when I saw we could not win, I thought to draw them out from the town, give the others more time to flee…” Her throat tight, she swallowed again, then said: “To draw them away from the boys…the Silmaril I used to lure them away; to the cliffs they pursued me, but my guard was slain, and so it was I alone there with the Nauglamir and I am no swordswoman to vie against the sons of Fëanor…I knew not they had the children already.” She lowered her head and Eärendil moved to sit beside her, but he did not touch her; he knew she would not wish it. “In my hand I held it…and Maedhros and Maglor—with what hunger they looked upon that jewel!—when they had cornered me there, displayed our children, that I would know they were captive…

“Said Maedhros: ‘Cut their throats.’” Eärendil went tense despite the knowledge that Elwing had not seen the blood flow; she trembled, but spoke on. “And Maglor put them to the blade, but before he made the cut, Maedhros stayed his hand. So there they stood, six years old, a sword against their necks, and Maedhros asked again for the Silmaril.”

“They were crying,” Elwing whispered. “I could not hear their voices, but I saw that they wept, and reached out for me…I was so afraid they would try to run to me, that the Feanorians would slay them for it.” Eärendil’s stomach was a knot; Elwing’s hands were shaking against her legs. “If I had done differently…There might have been left to me some other option…if I had seen sooner that we would lose…if I had known they already had the children…” Eärendil could only imagine how Elwing had tortured herself with these thoughts on her journey over sea. He touched her shoulder, and while she did not lean into the touch, neither did she pull away.

“One cannot see the end of all paths at the start, nor even in the middle,” said Eärendil. For several long moments they were quiet, before Eärendil drew in his breath to speak, and Elwing interrupted at once:

“No,” she said. “Nothing would have changed were you there. They would have only slain you as well.” Now tears swam in her eyes, but did not fall. “I am glad you were away,” she whispered, her voice thick. “You should not have had to see…to smell…to hear…”

“All the same, I should have been,” said Eärendil wretchedly, whose memories of the sack of Gondolin were distant, but remained black as night in his recollection. Long had he been relieved that the passage of time dimmed their clarity from his childhood, but now he was anguished that Elwing alone should have such sharp memories of a city under siege.

“I have not even a shoe,” said Elwing, turning her palms upwards, her voice cracking as she looked down at her empty hands. “Not a hair clasp. Not one of those little wooden ducks your father—” She broke off, her voice growing too unsteady to speak, and now Eärendil gathered her into his arms, his throat too tight for words, and for a long time, they sat and ached for their children, for Elrond and Elros.

***

The crew wanted for their own news, and Elwing did not forget her duties as a leader of her people. When she had had another drink and rested briefly from her explanation, she permitted the crew to enter a few at a time. Each would describe to her their loved ones or their homes, and Elwing would share what, if anything, she knew of what had become of them. Sometimes, it was nothing. Others, she could report only what she had seen of them at the start of the assault. A few, she could conclusively report dead or destroyed.

But for most, there was a question mark, almost certain to be answered with an end, but while the possibility of life existed, the anguish endured.

“We have to turn back.” This was the general sentiment among the sailors. A handful, however, suggested it might still be dangerous. Was it not possible the Feanorians were waiting for Elwing’s return? Might they not be slain even as they drew near to shore?

Elwing remained below in the cabin, resting, and in the evening, Eärendil stood along the ship’s rail and looked out towards the setting sun. A cluster of sailors was behind him on the deck, still debating their next action.

“Danger!” one of the Men exclaimed. “And so? My sister was there! She may be there still!”

“Aye, and my parents,” said another. “Shall I speak over their graves that I might have saved them had I not been so concerned with my own skin?”

“Had your parents any sense, I doubt they would wish you to run yourself down on a Feanorian blade for their sakes,” someone else said with a poor attempt to control the snappish anxiety in their voice.

“What would we do there anyway!” cried a fourth. “We are sailors, not soldiers! The Feanorians would cut through us like grass!” The sky glowed a delicate, vibrant orange, one of Eärendil’s favorite times of day, but all he could see then was the fires burning in the Havens as Elwing had described them.

“We must try,” argued the first.

“Aye!”

“To what end?” Eärendil interposed. The knot of sailors turned to look at him. He drew his attention from the horizon and looked at them. “To what end?” he repeated.

“For our homes!” said one of them, looking a little unsure about whether this was a trick question.

“For our families,” said another.

“To teach them a lesson!” offered up one.

“And then what?” Eärendil looked at them a long moment, then back at the orange sky. “If we drove the Feanorians off, what then?” He drummed his fingers against the ship rail. “There are no great Elven kingdoms left to stand against Morgoth. We would undoubtedly have to face the Feanorians again, at some point. Indeed, Morgoth made need never fully extend his hand—the peoples of Middle-earth may destroy themselves in his shadow.”

“Then what?” said one of the sailors. “We do nothing? We let them win?”

“They have not won,” Eärendil pointed out.

“And what good is that to us?” cried someone else. “Their loss cannot bring back our home!”

“Our homes shall never be safe so long as Morgoth reigns in Middle-earth!” Eärendil said, coming at last to what he realized was the core of his sentiment. “There can be only pockets of peace, brief interludes between bursts of violence…we are losing this war, do you see? We have been losing all this time! It has come so slowly we saw it not, but the end will come, and likely sooner than we think.”

He stepped away from the railing.

“Does any of you truly believe we can defeat Morgoth?” The sailors shuffled uneasily.

“What was our goal, when we set sail?” he asked instead.

“To reach the Blessed Realm.”

“To what purpose?”

“To obtain help from the powers there.”

“Believe you this is no longer necessary?” he asked. Silence was his answer.

“You want us to walk away from our families,” one Elf said softly. It was not an accusation so much as a statement. “What if they still live?”

“Then they are in danger which we cannot do more than temporarily abate at best,” said Eärendil. He let out a quiet exhale. “We will make a decision soon. Let none feel restrained from sharing their thoughts. This is a position we would hope never to be in, yet here we are. We will make of it what we can.” As he turned and made for the steps below, he wished dearly for the guidance and advice of his mother. She had survived many difficult decisions—surely she would have an idea of what he was meant to do here! Even father’s steadfast optimism would have been welcome.

He had meant to go down and raise this consideration with Elwing, but when he arrived in his cabin, she was asleep again, and he saw no cause to wake her. Rather, himself weary of a night with little sleep, he climbed into the berth with her and pressed tight to one another in the cramped quarters, they took a brief rest.

It wasn’t until hours later that night he was able to catch her alone—as alone as two people could be on a ship of Vingilot’s size—on the main deck. She was leaning against the railing on her forearms, her fine black hair loose in the wind, the light of the half-moon making her face look pale. From her fingers, dangling loosely out over the black water, was the Silmaril.

Eärendil came to lean against the railing beside her. The quiet voices of another conversation floated down from somewhere up on the main mast, far enough to be garbled if Eärendil wasn’t trying to listen in.

“We thought it was protecting us from Morgoth,” said Elwing, an inward-facing bitterness heavy in her voice. “We forgot there was other evil in the world.” Her fingers twisted in the chain, then let it hang loose again.

“All of that, for this,” Eärendil murmured, looking at it. The jewel seemed brighter than ever. In the past, Eärendil would’ve said it seemed to glow—now, out at sea under the open sky, there seemed to be no question it was emitting its own light, and seemed to shine somehow even more beautifully than before.

“I wish I could have destroyed it.” There was a shifting in Elwing’s fingers that made Eärendil’s hand twitch to reach out and close her grip more tightly around the chain.

“Elwing,” he said then, “how did you come to be here?” This was a gap in her story that had never cleared up, and while it perhaps was less important than the overall gist, it still troubled him.

“Lord Ulmo saw fit to intervene on my behalf,” she said, “though I did not ask it of him.”

“He turned you into the albatross?”

“Mhm.” She made a quiet noise of confirmation. “I think he may have broken something,” she said quietly. “Something that was meant to feel. I am only empty, now. Perhaps he left something behind at Sirion.”

Eärendil had known Elwing’s anger and grief and resentment and mourning, but this was different—this was something new, something deeper. Despair, or something near it, and it made him shiver inwardly. He shifted closer to her, so that his shoulder pressed against hers.

“I do not think he could,” said Eärendil. “You are too resilient for that.” Elwing made a noise of disbelief.

“Hardly I am!” said she. “Sorrow has dogged my steps nearly as long as I can recall. How many days of my life has it stolen already? Perhaps this is only the final toll. Finally it has wrung me dry. There is nothing left of me.”

“I think you see it differently than I,” said Eärendil, “for I can think of few others who would tolerate such persistent grief without breaking. Yet here you are. Is this not strength, beloved? I have always admired you for this.”

Elwing turned to look at him; her eyes bloodshot as they roamed over his face as if to pull at the threads of his truth. Elwing had always had such beautiful brown eyes, he thought despite the seriousness of the conversation (he could not help noticing her any more than he could help noticing the stars): almond-shaped and framed in delicate black lashes, observant even as a child.

“You are good,” she murmured at last, turning her attention back to the dark horizon. “You have always been good.” Eärendil tipped his head to lay it against Elwing’s shoulder for a few moments.

“In this as in few other things, I will insist on being right,” he said, but even this small swell of levity died quickly. Was it hope in his mind, that his sons still lived, or mere refusal to accept their deaths, he wondered?

“Does it seem different to you now?” he asked softly, looking at the jewel. “Brighter?”

“It hums constantly now,” said Elwing.

“Might it be…”

“…that it is closer now to the land of its making?” Elwing finished. “The thought had occurred to me.” She sounded unhappy that it occupied her mind at all.

“In Eldamar it was made,” said Eärendil. “Perhaps to Eldamar it wishes to return.” Elwing said nothing. “I had thought as well,” Eärendil went on, softer still, “that it might be…given the power of this jewel, it might…help us achieve our goal.”

“You mean still to make for the Blessed Realm?” she asked, turning to look at him, dislodging his head from her shoulder.

“What else can we do?” Eärendil asked, nearly helpless. “Many of the mariners would return to the Havens. To what? And for what end? Still the Feanorians stalk the land; still Morgoth rules from Angband, encroaching ever westward. Shall we sail home simply to die there instead?” He paused. “Am I mad?” he asked. “Is it only I who sees it this way? Tell me—I trust your assessment.”

Elwing sighed and shook her head.

“You ask me to make logic of a thing,” she said. “I worry there is very little left in me. Yet I see your purpose. If we return now, it is to give up hope of finding help in the West.”

“Elwing,” said Eärendil with low urgency. “Certain I am now that there can be no defeating Morgoth alone. It simply cannot be done; have we not proven that? Neither Elves nor Men alone can do it—and neither can all the peoples of Middle-earth do it, not without the might of Avon. If we return now, it is only to watch the slow defeat of the free peoples continue. Bit by bit Morgoth will conquer the land and turn to wickedness those he may, and smite those who resist. All Beleriand he will make into Anfauglith and if we then cry out for rescue, it will be too late.”

Elwing sighed again.

“And you think the Silmaril may be the key to reaching Dor-Rodyn,” she said.

“Does it seem folly to you?” Elwing was silent, running the chain through her fingers. “You brought it for a reason, did you not?” Eärendil said, his voice nearly a whisper. “You thought it too.”

“I think,” she said slowly, “that if it can be used for good, so it should be used. All the better if it might stymie the cruel efforts of the sons of Fëanor. But you will ask a great deal of your sailors, to turn from home. Even where their minds acknowledge your logic, their hearts will resist. To walk away from one’s home in peril is a terrible difficulty.”

“But this way we might save our home.” Eärendil said, his voice rising in intensity. “Not for ourselves alone, but for—for the future generations of Beleriand.”

“Still,” Elwing said. “You will ask a great deal of them. One may often prefer to die by the side of one’s family than live without them.”

Eärendil thought of Elwing’s long flight from the Havens of Sirion, in it the echo of her flight from Menegroth in the dead of midwinter, and he studied her profile, so familiar he could have drawn it from memory, if he was much for drawing.

“Tell me what happened at the Havens,” he said softly. It felt like a concealment between them, and that sat ill with him—he and Elwing had never kept secrets, not even as children (she’d even complained to him when her monthly blood started, mostly about how irregular it was and how often it spoiled her clothes). Moreover, Elwing’s tendency to keep things inside did not always do her favors, he thought. It was only that she found it so much harder to talk about these things than he did.

Elwing passed the chain of the Silmaril endlessly between her fingers, like she was reciting a prayer.

“As I said,” she said after a lengthy silence. “They had cornered me at the cliffside. They had Elrond and Elros.” Her voice wobbled on their names, but she steadied it. “The Havens were alight. They had everything. Everything but this.” She raised the jewel and lowered it again. Eärendil was silent, allowing her to take her time before continuing. “Nothing had I then that might harm them. I had only one thing.” Her jaw tightened; her eyes flashed; and he caught a glimpse of the rage that must have fueled her during the attack. “They would take from me what mattered most to me in the world,” she said, her voice quivering. “But I could return the favor.

“They were always going to kill the children,” she said. “Once they had them. And should I die on the end of a Feanorian blade in front of them before it? Would that have done them any good? Should I teach them to capitulate in the face of violence? But I thought also…” Her voice trailed off as tears began to spill over her dark lashes, and then she carried on: “I thought also that if I were not there to punish, perhaps they would find mercy for my children they found not for my brothers. I have little faith in it, but surely if I had lived they would have slain them.”

Scions of Dior, of the Greymantle, in the care of their mother? Children of the line of Fingolfin, heirs of both Gondolin and of Doriath? They could not have been suffered to live with either parent alongside them. In the absence of Elwing and Eärendil, Lord Maedhros had a claim to the crown of the Noldor. Flimsy, perhaps, owing to his own earlier abdication, but not gone. At least with their parents and guardians and mentors gone, the twins might be raised not to hate the Feanorians for what they had done—that was the only way Elrond and Elros might be safe from the sons of Fëanor, for it was the only way they might not present a threat. The chance was slim—nothing, really—yet Eärendil would cling to it all the same, for the alternative was pain he could scarcely imagine.

But it was something else about Elwing’s phrasing that caught his attention; his eyes locked onto her with fresh intensity. Up until then, he had imagined she had thrown the Silmaril into the water, and that Ulmo had returned it to her when he transformed her.

Elwing looked away from him.

“Look at me not like that,” she murmured, tears still sliding down her cheeks. Her eyes had been red since she first arrived on the ship. “You break my heart, beloved.” While Eärendil floundered for words, Elwing turned her face towards him once more and cried, her voice steadier: “And what else should I have done! They took from me every other option! Without mercy or remorse they slew my mother and my father and my brothers and my sons...my teachers and my councilmen and my neighbors and my friends, and their children, and they destroyed all that we had built…but at the last, I could ensure they gained nothing from it all.” Her knuckles were white against the Silmaril’s chain. “They will live with the violence they have inflicted, and they will know it was for naught.”

It was true, it was all true—but all Eärendil could see—could feel, almost as if he had been there himself, in her shoes—was his wife, cornered between a cliff and a blade, and certain that death was the only option, that the only choice now left to her was to deny with her dying breath the one thing the Feanorians truly valued.

His throat felt too tight for words.

He reached for her and this time she turned to him and they wrapped around each other, clinging as mussels to rock.

“I’m sorry,” Eärendil gasped. “I’m so sorry …”

“Nothing for which to be sorry,” Elwing insisted in the same low voice, no longer weeping, but she pressed her face into his shoulder and their pain they felt together, mingling as the water of the river into the sea; in the sharing, it might truly be dispersed, with time.

“Do you really think it will make a difference?” she murmured, drawing back from him just enough to look down at the jewel in her hand.

“I think it is our last hope,” Eärendil confessed. “I think we must try. Otherwise…”

“We are giving up,” Elwing finished. “We accept Morgoth’s victory.”

Eärendil nodded.

Elwing stared down into the twinkling face of the Silmaril, crafted with such genius and care by the hand of Fëanor, prince of a place neither of them had ever seen, imbued with light no more than myth to them. Something she had possessed as long as she could remember; something her grandparents had risked their lives to obtain from Morgoth himself; something rumored to possess so many magical properties she couldn’t say which it might and which were mere fairytale.

Elwing clasped it about Eärendil’s neck.

“This I give to you,” she said. “That it may guide us safely to the Blessed Realm, and grant us fortune when we speak to the lords of the West.”

“Elwing, I could not—”

“Please take it,” she insisted softly, lifting her eyes to his. “It has been a burden on me so long, beloved. Please take it. Let me give it to you in love and trust, and let it serve you better than it served my family before. Let it at last fulfill some noble purpose, rather than to act merely as a catalyst of bloodshed. Take it from me, or I will cast it into the sea and be done with it at last, but we may never reach Dor-Rodyn.”

Eärendil held Elwing’s hands between his own, small and warm.

“Then you agree?” he said.

“I do,” she answered. “And in any case—there is naught left for me in Middle-earth. Shall I go and walk the empty streets of another home destroyed? Shall I watch the ghosts of my children on the seashore cavort with the phantoms of my brothers? Shall I kneel in the ash and weep futile, bitter tears into the wind for what is lost?” She shook her head. “There is naught there for me. Where you are—there is my only true home.” He could hear in her voice how desperately she clung to this and her grief twisted about in his gut. There would be more—there would be something better—if they could only succeed at this.

Eärendil kissed her forehead, and for a long time they stood and watched the stars twinkle overhead, and thought of their little house by the sea, which now would exist only in their memories.

***

That night, Eärendil took watch up in the crow’s nest. There was another part of him, the father part, that wished to heed the will of his crew and turn Vingilot for familiar shores. To run back to the scene of his sons’ capture as though he would find something there besides dust and ash. Even if they were alive, he thought with a foul taste in his mouth, they likely lived only as the political prisoners of the Feanorians, which meant they were well out of reach of Eärendil and Elwing, or any of their people. Even without their parents, the twins could be useful hostages against Círdan or Gil-galad, if needed. He never thought he would find himself in a position to hope his sons were mere captives.

With his spyglass he looked to the eastern horizon, wishing he had the far sight of the Elves even knowing it still would not permit him to look all the way home. A little closer; a little nearer to his boys.

How many others lost children? he wondered. And few others with hope their children would be kept alive for future purposes, he thought grimly. While his children were uniquely dangerous to the Feanorians, they might also prove uniquely useful. He just prayed that was enough to preserve them.

He lowered the spyglass and rolled it between his hands, looking up at Elbereth’s twinkling canopy above. Something had to be done—for his children, and all the rest. There could be no real life for anyone in Middle-earth under the oppressive shadow of Morgoth. He had missed the chance to save his children from the sons of Fëanor—but perhaps he could do this. Perhaps he could remove this one threat, which hung over the continent entire as a woodsman’s axe.

And if they lived, perhaps they would find it in their hearts to forgive him.

***

In the morning, they gathered the crew on the main deck and Eärendil stood before them.

“A decision still needs to be made,” he announced, raising his voice to ensure all could hear. “Whether to turn back or sail onwards. Certainly many of you by now know my mind, but I will state it once more: I believe the only hope for all Middle-earth lies in the success of our venture. If we turn back now, we may gain temporary comfort—at the cost of ultimate defeat.”

“I am of a mind with Lord Eärendil,” Elwing added from where she stood among the sailors.

“Some of us may have family still living!” said one of them. “Ought we abandon them?”

“Living they may be,” said Elwing. “But how long do you imagine they will live under the shadow of Morgoth? If the Marrer is left unchecked by the West, he will consume every corner of Beleriand and indeed all of Middle-earth. There will be no place left for us to shelter; no bastion in which we might conceal ourselves; no shade left against his malice.”

It had been the right decision to allow his thoughts to percolate among the crew before he called them to a decision—many had been given the time needed to reluctantly see the logic of it.

“What if we fail?” asked his bosun. “Then we will have surrendered our last years with our family for naught.”

“What if we succeed?” Eärendil countered. “Then we may have many more years with them than we anticipated.”

“It will be a long time still before Morgoth may conquer the free peoples entirely.”

“And we should push this problem onto our children, then?” Eärendil asked. “Someone must make the sacrifice. So we are all of us inclined to say ‘why me?’ Why must this burden fall on my shoulders? What ill fortune have I courted unknowing?” He glanced back eastwards, towards the memory of his newborn sons in his arms. “That I cannot answer. I can only look at the pieces on the board as they stand, and I see there will be no hope for us if we return. You and I, we may live out our lives without further contact from Morgoth,” he said, beginning to pace slowly. This he doubted, but he allowed it for the sake of argument. “Yet peace in Beleriand has been ever-tenuous and temporary since his arrival. Think you it will last? That your children will enjoy the peace you may? That other realms may share in our respite?” He looked out at them. “Someone must take the burden,” he repeated. “That others may live.”

He held up the Silmaril, pried the night before from the Nauglamir.

“Here is our key,” he cried. “Lady Elwing has brought it to us from afar, with great effort, and with this, we may at last pass into the West.” As often when it was displayed, a brief awe came over the assembled at the sight of the Silmaril. “This treasure of Dor-Rodynmay indeed be our guide through the dangers of the sea into the Blessed Realm.”

“How can we be sure?” asked one of the sailors, tugging on the brim of her hat.

“We cannot,” said Eärendil. “I cannot—I have never been able to—guarantee you success. I can only tell you what I believe to be true and offer what guidance I possess. This crew has sailed with me on this quest before.” Once more he began to pace before them, now looking each of them in the eye as he passed. “I could not have asked for a bolder, nobler crew of Elves and Men, willing to take on the risks of an impossible journey, with hearts to believe in the chance of victory where none has tasted it before.”

He hopped up onto a crate.

“So I ask once more for that spirit!” he said, raising his voice to ring out over the ship. “Once more I ask you to put your faith in Vingilot, and in this crew! Once more I ask you to brave the waters against an impossible task! Once more! Once more will you come with me, to seek the power of the Undying Lands? Once more will you have faith in me, as your captain, to see you through these challenges? Once more! Once more will you turn your faces to the west, and sail into the unknown, and carry the flame of the hope of our rescue to waters and shores never yet touched by the Men and Elves of Beleriand? Will you?” he cried. He thrust the Silmaril up into the air again. “Will you bring this light of Telperien and Laurelin, which perished long before at the hands of Morgoth and his ilk, back to whence it came; will you summon the powers of Avon, and sail home in victory to Middle-earth, bringing with you the salvation of the world?”

This brought up a cheer, which grew over time. Elwing did not join them, but she kept her eyes on Eärendil, and her steady gaze assured him this decision was the right one.

“Will you come with me?” he asked, lowering his voice back to a conversational volume, as though entreating a friend in the privacy of his parlor. “One last time, will you sail with me?”

The answer was a resounding Yes!

So the crew dispersed among their tasks, preparing the ship to begin westward again at once. Eärendil stepped down from the crate and held the Silmaril out to Elwing once more, but again she refused it.

“It truly does seem much brighter here, doesn’t it?” he said.

“Aye, it does,” she agreed. “We should set it in something of yours. Perhaps that circlet you have.” Eärendil hesitated. “You need not keep it hidden for my sake,” she said. “Is my lord husband not free to wear anything of mine I give to him? The light of it may help guide us.”

This made sense, and Eärendil tried to put aside any unease he had about wearing something which belonged to Elwing’s family, which had cost her so much.

“You are certain about this?” she asked.

“Yes,” he said, and she saw in him a determination not dissimilar to her own, from when she had leaped into the sea. They were in a corner, weren’t they? What other options did they have? She nodded.

“I am by your side,” she said, reaching a hand out. “Now, as always.” Eärendil took her hand.

“There is no one I would rather have on my way to accomplish something impossible,” he said.

Perhaps there was now no hope for Middle-earth—but they would see that changed. They would bring it themselves, if they had to, and brave the waters as many times as necessary. If they would die, they would do it trying to bring help for the world, to create some future for their sons—if they lived, and if not, then for the sons and daughters of others—where they might have peace, and joy, and live free of the shadow of Morgoth and the Feanorians. The thought did not bring Eärendil happiness so much as fortitude and a determination not to permit failure until the last breath had left his body.

Elwing squeezed his hand tightly and they moved to the quarter deck to look out across the ship, towards the horizon, where somewhere far off was the goal Eärendil had meant to reach most of his adult life.

We can do this, he thought and when he turned to Elwing, she was looking at him, and he knew without words her thought was the same. We can. We must.

It was the only choice left.

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Fandom: Tolkien

Pairing: Earendil/Elwing

AN: De-anon from the kink meme for Earendil and Elwing’s developing relationship. Title is from the poem “In Summer" by Paul Laurence Dunbar.

AO3 | Pillowfort | SWG

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In the fall, Elwing is five, and she builds sandcastles in front of a strange ocean with a boy from a city she never saw, that doesn’t exist any longer, which makes them two of a kind. He grows the same way she does, in odd fits and starts, with no one sure where their milestones are supposed to be, or what their futures will look like. They skip through the wet sand and in the daylight forget the memories of burning trees and clashing blades and running, running, running in the joy of warm sunlight on their cheeks and cups of hot cider pressed into their hands by the adults. If his parents hover slightly, she doesn’t notice, any more than she notices the fretful, haunted eyes always watching her.

In the winter, Elwing is fourteen, and she understands what she has lost. The howl of the inconsolable waves on the shore echoes the raging in her breast for everything that has been stolen from her; the memory of her brothers haunts the corners of her vision and she introduces herself as Dioriel. Eärendil does not begrudge her her wrath or her grief and sits beside her while she trembles as a storm-tossed sail, while she demands answers of ghosts and apparitions who cannot speak. The Silmaril is in a box in her room and there is bitter pleasure in opening it up to stare at the jewel that cost her family everything, and to know the monsters who did this to her will never have it. Eärendil asks her what she remembers of Doriath, and the resentment is so heavy on her tongue she can barely speak when she replies: Nothing.

In the spring, Elwing is twenty-six, and she is tired of being angry. She takes long walks on the beach with Eärendil and his parents, and she does not begrudge him their company. Idril Celebrindal presses egg tarts into her hands and Tuor Ulmondil regales her with stories of his journey to Gondolin, and when Eärendil lays his head on her shoulder, she puts her arm around him and asks him what he remembers about Gondolin. Eärendil tells her of the splendid fountains, and of his grandfather Turgon, who would lift him up on his balcony to let him see the entirety of the city spread out at his feet, and of the sweet mountain air. While he speaks, she feels his joy, and not her own loss, and that is how she knows she loves him.

In the summer, Elwing is thirty, and Eärendil wears a hair clasp emblazoned with the symbol of her house, and she can feel the stirring of life below her ribs. The Silmaril is heavy around her neck, but it shines like a star when it catches the light, and in the mornings when Eärendil is home, he gathers her thick dark hair away from her neck to clasp it on for her. Sometimes when he is away, she sleeps with it on, as if feeling the weight of it against her breast somehow keeps him close. They sit on the edge of the pier in front of a peach sky and discuss what they shall call the baby, and Elwing threatens to push Eärendil into the water when he suggests the name of his father’s favorite goat (who now lives in their own yard). The glorious radiance of the time they have together so outshines the pain of their separation that Elwing forgets what it feels like to say goodbye once Eärendil has come back to port.

In the summer, Elwing is thirty, and she no longer thinks about “going home,” because she has created a new home for herself, and in this, she hopes the phantoms of her past will finally find peace.

#elwing #earendil #earendil x elwing #the silmarillion #tolkien tag #fanfiction #tolkien fanfiction #rocky writes #the silmarillion kink meme #case and point about g-rated requests on the kink meme #starwing

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sillysistersusi · 2 months

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Masterlist

"&" means a platonic relationship

"x" means a romantic/sexual relationship

The Silmarillion:

You are more than that (Curufin & Celegorm)

The Smell of Love (Fingon x Maedhros)

Understandig (Fëanor & Finarfin & Caranthir & Celegorm)

Slipping through my fingers all the time (Fëanor x Nerdanel)

Be Yourself (Mahtan & fem!Fëanor / Nerdanel x fem!Feanor)

Smile Again (Nerdanel x fem!Fëanor)

Warmth and Love (Glorfindel x Erestor)

By Your Side (Elwing x fem!Eärendil)

Everything is to normal to be real (Fëanor & Curufin)

Keeper Of The Lost Cities:

Someone To Feel Safe With (Keefe & Elwin)

The Owl House:

Style It The Way You Want (Darius & Hunter)

Whispers of Uncle's Ghost (Hunter & Eberwolf)

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imakemywings · 2 years

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For @domaystic day 16!

Fandom: The Silmarillion

Characters: Elwing (+ family)

Summary: Elwing watched for the return of Earendil’s ship.

AO3 | Pillowfort

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Elwing had a crook in her neck. She often did, these days. There was a window in the sitting room from which she could see the harbor, and so frequently was her gaze turned towards it—even without thought, anymore!—that the muscles in her neck had begun to protest being so awkwardly craned or snapped abruptly when she thought she saw something from the corner of her eye. It was become a reflex that now occurred whether she thought she saw something or not.

The Silmaril was heavy against her breast and every night she prayed it would keep the Havens safe, and help its people prosper, and bring Eärendil back to her. The feeling of being exposed at the seaside had never left her, and she knew her fellow Wood-elves shared the sentiment. Not, she often reflected at such times as she felt herself yearning for the comforting rustle of leaves overhead, that the trees had done much to keep them safe in the end. The remnants of the Gondolindrim, Eärendil had explained, felt exposed in a different sort of way, far from their walls and their encircling mountains.

And so every day she watched for the return of Eärendil’s ship.

At night, she dreamed of Doriath. She saw things she’d seen and didn’t remember, things she remembered and hadn’t seen, things she’d heard or felt or imagined so long they had become real.

She saw her father stand and call the sons of Fëanor to account; she saw the flash of his blade; she saw him cut down. She heard the pounding of her mother’s feet down the hall as she ran for the twins. She felt her own shivering as she was lifted onto the horse, the Nauglamir burning in her pocket, and the arms around her, urging her mount at an ever-faster pace out of the forest, the branches seeming almost to clear a path as she charged out of the realm of her great-grandfather.

She saw her mother’s throat slit and her brothers dragged out of Menegroth, thrashing and wailing. Elured and Elurin, shivering and crying alone in the woods while the Doriathrim tore the forest apart looking for them, and for the other children who would not be found alive. The corpses across the forest floor like autumn leaf-fall and the reek of blood in the air like mist. The ransacking of Menegroth and the slaughter by those looking for her and what she clutched in her fist. The burning eyes of Maedhros the Red which seared through her mind into her very fae whenever she met them, and it was always after these dreams she woke most discomfited.

She would flee from her bed and pace about the kitchen and rub the Silmaril with frantic fingers and try to displace her memories of the Kinslaying at Doriath with gentler recollections of encountering the Gondolindrim and settling the Havens with them, of meeting Eärendil, of the kindness of Idril and Tuor. There was comfort, she found, in another like her—he who was neither Man nor Elf, and yet both. And Eärendil would have had more in common still with Elwing’s father, being more evenly split between the two than she. She was sorry they would never chance to meet in this life.

She liked to think they would have gotten along (but, said a voice in her mind, Eärendil got along with most everyone!)

Still, these thoughts could not calm the rabbit racing of her heart, and so she would retreat to the bedroom of her children. Elrond and Elros, her twin treasures; the sight of them made her heart ache. When she looked at them she thought of her own mother and father; looking now on these helpless little things which she had created, which depended on her for everything, she pictured herself in the stead of her mother, lifting one of them onto a horse to send on a desperate flight through a war zone. She thought of watching them torn from her too-weak arms, slung into the hall like sacks of grain to be taken out and abandoned to the cold. Her parents, she thought, must have died in suffocating terror, knowing their fates had sealed those of their children.

She would sit on the floor at the foot of Elrond and Elros’ bed and lay her head against the mattress and watch them sleep, listening to the rustle of their sheets as they stirred now and again, and only then the fretting of her heart quieted enough for her to task herself with something simple until morning (there was no returning to sleep on these nights, too many nights, Elbereth she was so weary at times).

And so every day she watched for the return of Eärendil’s ship.

There was plenty to do to keep her hands and mind occupied. The Havens were busy and there had been much building to do in the early days. The settlement was still rudimentary as far as Elves were concerned, and they had great care for beautifying it up to their usual standards. The images of Gondolin and Doriath burned in their faer, and while none yet had gone so far as to say this would match with either of those, it was in the nature of Elves to care for the aesthetic of their living space. Truthfully, she was often grateful to have something to occupy herself with beyond the running of her household—though two young boys did give her quite a bit!

No one argued about with her about the need for minor fortifications, but neither was anyone willing to suggest such ill winds as they needed more than minor ones. The memory of Gondolin’s betrayal and the sacking of the city—the memory of the brutality of the kinslaying—meant Gondolindrim and Doriathrim alike were willing to put in the work to create a few defenses for the city, though everyone hoped they would serve no greater function than making the denizens feel slightly more secure.

The work was never done and as glad as Elwing was for a purpose, exhaustion seemed to bleed into her bones, and she longed at times for the days of her youth when she could allow the adults to fuss over such things and occupy herself with more spiritual matters, such as the collecting of a great many seashells. The adults had been kind; they had not taken her back; whatever they had done with the dead and the remnants of Menegroth, they had done it out of her sight. Elwing had been a child, and this protection was the one of the few left that those around her could offer, and she was grateful for it.

(They whispered of it, when they had been drinking, and there was a shadow in their eyes, on their hearts, a horror and a grief that never abated, and Elwing was not sure what was worse—the half-supported imagination of a child, or the knife-sharp memory of an adult.)

A child should not have to see such things, she thought as she watched Elrond and Elros chase each other through the shallows on the beach. A child should not have to flee their home in the dead of night, pursued by blade and fire and watch adults give their lives to spare more death. She was willing to see purpose, she supposed, if her and Eärendil’s experiences meant Elrond and Elros should never see what their parents had seen.

And so every day she watched for the return of Eärendil’s ship.

Some nights, the twins were restless too. They crept into her room, lingering about the doorway until they could determine from the sound of her breathing that she was still awake, and then—

“Nana?”

They would say it together and she would take a breath and then push herself up to look at them. They did not wait for an invitation to clamber onto the bed and make themselves comfortable and ask for a story. Elwing was not good at telling stories. Her mind lingered in too many dark places, and she had not the imagination for it. Eärendil was better at giving them something fun to listen to, and Tuor had been better still (How they had loved to be regaled with grandfather’s stories of his long journey to Gondolin!) Still, she would do her best, and the actual content seemed to matter less than the effort, for inevitably she ended up snuggled down with a child under either arm, and the pair of them sleeping, or at least resting, and if she herself could not sleep, at least she could cradle her babies a while.

They seemed to grow so quickly. Already they were tall enough to grope around on the counter for anything that might have been left behind, and she had seen Elros lifting Elrond up about the waist for a better look. Perhaps she should have intervened and scolded them, but instead she had only watched and then ducked out of sight, as if she had never seen anything at all. She made sure to keep the knives well out of reach.

Eärendil was home as much as he could be, but it never felt enough. Moments of joy turned to anguish for her thought that You’re missing it! You’re missing them! She knew their options were limited, and Eärendil did what he could and it grieved him too to be away, but still she wept for those moments she shared with her sons that her husband should have been a part of also.

And so every day she watched for the return of Eärendil’s ship.

Some days, her aching neck was lucky. For she would catch sight of a boat on the horizon with her sharp eyes, and need cry only: “Ada—” before both boys were flying past her, out of whatever place they had been hiding and playing then, and racing down the path towards the docks. Elwing would gather her skirt or tighten her cloak around herself and run along with them, and so all of the Havens knew when Eärendil’s ship was due to dock for seeing his family go racing through the town to await his arrival.

It was always many hours, often much of a day, before he closed the distance between where Elwing had first seen him and where he could hop down onto the dock to be swarmed. The twins would grab at his clothes, babbling over each other for his attention, and he would scoop one up in each arm, and then look to Elwing with that gentle look of I’ve missed you that made her at once forget whatever ungenerous thoughts she might have had during his absence.

They would always be waylaid by a friend (or several) inviting them for dinner, and the night would pass with drink and song and Elrond and Elros glued to their father until they both passed out and he carried them to bed. The other mariners would share stories of what they had seen, and those who remained ashore would detail what had transpired in their absence. Theirs in the Havens was a simpler sort of life, but far from unrewarding.

For a while then, Elwing’s neck would be free of kinks and aches, and she looked no more towards the window in the corner, for there was nothing beyond the walls of the house that could have taken her attention off what was inside it.

#the silmarillion #domaystic2022 #elwing #elrond #elros #earendil #rocky writes #fanfiction #tolkien fanfiction #tolkien tag #starwing

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