#sorry to say but i literally cannot stand to even see fics about how he wouldn't want to be with her in pete's world or she'd leave him

[sallysellsseashellssundays]

"If Rose is over there and she's all you want in the universe and you're desperate to get to her..." -David Tennant aka the biggest shipper ever lol

She's not what he most wants in the universe, there's not a list of things he wants and she's at the top but rather all he wants in the universe 😍😍😍

I think losing the TARDIS would definitely be painful and difficult for him, but he's ultimately getting what he wants--to be with Rose

#doctor who #tenrose #tentoorose #tenth doctor #rose tyler #tentoo #timepetals #going through it tonight ya'll lol #he won the freaking lottery years after thinking he'd lost her FOREVER #sorry to say but i literally cannot stand to even see fics about how he wouldn't want to be with her in pete's world or she'd leave him #everyone is entitled to write whatever they want but damn we get an actual canon love story 😍 #my ramblings

[egcdeath]

hello hello how are u!!?

i’ve been rereading a few of ur fics hehe i just wanna say that i love ur writing omfg like yes plz i wanna eat the words

ok ok so i’d love to know ur thoughts on a bully!patrick x reader?? he’s just so cocky and i’d love to see what would happen if he pushed *juuuuuust* a bit further…

maybe it’s their college years and he is practically jeering and ragging at the reader while she’s at her sports practice. i think patrick would like the way her face scrunches up in anger, but she ignores him because she knows better than to go back and forth due to his quick wit. he’d act like a schoolboy. i think he’d also like getting real up close and personal w her, but never touching. and maybe he’d even go as far as to pull at her hair. “accidentally”. hooooooo boy, and the sexual undertones within it all. reasons seemingly unknown, but i believe he just has a crush on the reader, he’s being a hellish brat about it.

and reader enjoys is cuz patrick has a certain charm and he’s just so irresistible xxx but sometimes she wishes he was nicer to her but also where’s the fun in that?? and at certain times maybe he shows that he cares about her…like omg my heart

…ok i am so sorry for rambling i did NOT expect to go into such detail and also sorry if it’s a little corny😭😭😭 anyway, you don’t necessarily have to write headcanons or a fic, i more so would just love to hear ur thoughts on it, the whole bully aspect is really interesting (and hot) to me 🫢 ok again sorry for writing a whole novel in here hope ur having a good day! ur most recent fic was [chefs kiss] and im excited to read what u have cooking up x

omg i absolutely LOVE this concept!! what i immediately thought of was patrick and the reader being in very similar tennis circles (idk how tennis works so lets just assume that they're playing at similar events and reader is obviously playing w women) and like, at first, you cannot stand this man at all. like he always seems to find you before you play, or at your hotel after you've played, or at parties for the players, and he ALWAYS has something to say. a comment on your technique. a snide remark on how you played that day. a taunt about how you're never gonna beat the opponent you're playing against that day.

but the thing is... in a way, his bullying kinda helps you perform better? like he gets you so riled up and feeling so spiteful that you goes out onto the court and demolishes whoever you're playing against. so in a way it's kinda helpful... but also fucking annoying.

and like, at first you try to go back and forth with him but you literally never win the verbal spars so one day you just give up. and also part of you knows that he doesn't genuinely mean it?? maybe he even knows that his pestering is helpful to you and maybe thats why he does it?? but he is being an annoying pest regardless and you can't deal with him buzzing around your ear all the time and getting in your head before you play. so you just stop entertaining it.

but once you stop entertaining it, he gets kinda worried. like you've had this thing going on for a while and now suddenly you just don't care anymore. so now his gibes turn into questioning you CONSTANTLY. are you seeing someone? are you planning something?? what changed?? and when that doesn't work out for him he starts being nice to you. and thats when you start getting worried. i think this would make them have to admit their feelings to each other then BOOM happily ever after!!

i loveee this idea and it was so fun to think about! i'm usually a little iffy about bullying stuff buttt i could totally see it working in this context.

#patrick zweig x reader #patrick zweig x you #patrick zweig #art donaldson x reader #josh o'connor x reader #challengers

[thoughtsofatransboy]

omg how about an angsty story where you and leon get into a heated argument and both say some really hurtful things and leon accidentally hits the reader but he apologizes (some fluff) and then makeup sex

this literally cannot leave my mind and i love ur fics literally

Oh it looks like a cool plot! And thank you very much anon! Mwah mwah <3 here's your request:

Warnings: Gn!reader, Re2!Leon (cuz i think younger Leon would be a little immature), argument, nsfw stuff, fluff apologizing, reader has trauma with face slaps, makeup sex

You and Leon started to date some months ago, he's your soulmate, the only one that can make you feel like you're just a teenager in love again, but it doesn't mean he can't be an asshole sometimes. He's been bitching around all day, complaining and very stressed because of his job. You tried to be as comprehensive as you could, you knew about his cop stuff and his trauma, so you tried to not give attention to his bad mood, but it crossed your limits. "You're the worst partner ever, you never help me with absolutely nothing" this phrase made your blood boil, how dare him say something like that? After all your loving and patience with him?

"Leon you're the bitchy here... why don't you shut the fuck up just a little, huh?" Leon's gaze got a little harder than it was before, he was looking like a stupid toddler earlier, but now he looks real irritated.

"Who do you think you are!? You're lucky i didn't kicked your ass out of my life yet!" The way he said it, could have literally shattered your heart in thousands of pieces, but the rage made you blind for the pain of his sharp words.

"You could NEVER live without me! Aww... look at this boy... He's afraid of working with another people... aww! Why? BECAUSE HE THINKS THEY GONNA D-" Before you could finish your sentence, Leon hit your face with a hard slap, making you drop your knees, not necessarily because of it's strength, but because of your shock.

"D-don't! Please! Please!" Tears roll down by your face without you even noticing, that's when Leon understood what he did. You triggered his trauma and he triggered yours. Sure, what you did was stupid, but he was the one who started it, and he shouldn't have replied your violence with violence.

"Darling..! Oh my God! I-I'm SO sorry..." He tried to get closer to you but you blocked his touches. "Don't fucking touch me!" You said, almost having a breakdown and crying out years of pain, right there on the floor.

Kennedy understood he crossed the line, he really did. So he decided to leave you alone, afraid he would make you more upset by staying. After some minutes, about ten minutes, he came back to the room you were. It agonized him, to see you, his strong darling, so vulnerable. He slowly got closer and closer to you, waiting for you to nod for permission before he touched you. As quick as you nodded, he wrapped you in his arms, rubbing your cheek with his hand. "I'm sorry darling, so sorry... I shouldn't have be so childish, can you forgive me baby?" You nodded.

"Can you forgive me too?" He kissed the cheek he slapped. "Of course darling" he helped you to stand up. "What about we watch a cartoon together and cuddle a little?" You accepted, you both deserved a good time together after this event.

Now you guys had finally forgiven each other, the argument faded away on your minds... it had already some hours and you're both laid down on your little couch, sweetly cuddling and watching you guys's favorite cartoon.

But something didn't felt right, Leon was moving so much, like he was uncomfortable. "Sweetie? Are you okay?" Leon seemed a little nervous about your question. "S-sure sweetie! Now keep watching the cartoon, yes?" Then you finally noticed what it was. Leon was hard, you moved your leg a little, so you could feel his bulge, earning a little groan from him. "Darling!..." You wasted no time in touching it.

"Kennedy, Kennedy... always aching for me, ain't ya?" No answer. "Ain't ya?" You rubbed it this time. "Oh! Hell yeah darling!" You smiled wide. "Good boy"

Leon took the opportunity that you're with your back against his chest, to go over you, pinning you under him. "Naughty one, huh? Really enjoys to tease" Leon begun his attachment to your neck, kissing and sucking all of it.

"Mmmm... Leon! Don't stop!" Leon smiled against your neck, continuing his work, now moving his hand inside your pants to start to tease your genitalia. "Sweet babe... all aroused f'me? Jus' for me?"

You moaned helpless "Yeah! All for you!" You didn't minded saying anything else. "Are you goin' to let me take care of you?" You only nodded, making Leon smile. "Thanks babe..." In a quick move, Leon unbuttoned his pants, helping ypu to unbutton yours too.

He stroked his cock and lined it up with your hole, kissing you while inserting his cock slowly and delicate. He wouldn't handle hurting you again. His thrusts were slow and rhythmic, your moans echoing in the room. "Oh babe... will you forgive me for being so pathetic with you?" You nodded, making him smile. "Thanks sweetheart" he implanted kisses all over your face and your bruised cheek. He was kissing your mouth passionately, interrupting it to let out a long and sensual moan. "Darling, I think i'm close!" He kept his thrusts a little longer, not much before cumming inside you, with you cumming some seconds later, your hole clenching deliciously around him, before creaming his cock.

Leon was catching his breath back. "Oh baby... you did so good for me." He stroked your hair, wrapping you around him once again. "I'm sorry for everything that happened earlier... II'm never doing this again. Can you give me another chance?" You kissed his cheek hardly "Sure Leon, I love you too much to don't forgive you... sorry for being such an asshole with you too." You both smiled to each other, letting the moment speak for itself and falling in each other's arms.

"I love you too much baby." Leon said, hugging you as you were the most precious jewel on Earth. "Love you too Lee..." You kissed his face one last time, before letting yourself slowly melt into a delicious sleep.

#leon kennedy smut #leon kennedy x you #leon kennedy x reader #leon kennedy x y/n #leon kennedy fluff

[cordial-imputresco]

One of the most aggravating things in the chonny jash fandom is the feminization and infantilization of heart. If you're my mutual or if we talk a lot you already know where I stand about this but I just need to talk about this with a wider audience before I go insane. Also thanks for 50 followers I promise I'll draw more when I'm not halfway across the globe.

First off, there's no fucking reason to infantilize heart. Genuinely. I think in the album he's only treated like a child when mind called him a boy and a kid. There's no other "proof" other than when MIND LIES ABOUT HEART, and still people write heart like this insolent little kid who cannot do anything for himself.

And, I don't know if these two things are truly related, but as someone who's physically disabled it grinds a particular gear when people make the canon disabled character (anyone who thinks otherwise literally. Why do u want to take rep away from disabled people SOO BADLY) act like a child. I understand it's probably not that for some people but again, why is it so hard to imagine a disabled person who can stick up for themselves?? Heart might rely on soul or mind for certain things since he's blind but he's also his own person. Blindness effects everyone differently but one thing any physically disabled person is sick of it's infantilization and this is still true for fictional characters as well. It's genuinely never okay no matter the context.

Heart is emotionally mature. I'm sorry he is, Heart isn't a 12 year old and Heart has delt with the brunt of the body's emotions for his entire existence. He thinks logically and genuinely makes good points which are rooted in truth while mind makes outrageous claims, constantly makes heart seem like the lesser one and is genuinely so emotionally immature that it's insane. The moment he's given control over their emotions he kinda loses his shit and cannot handle it (the end line of tha and the two songs between THA and TME prove this) and yet people think heart is worse with emotions. Be so honest and give me proof of this other than when he was CONDEMNED TO APATHY.

And if u want proof for that PLEASE just listen to the bidding. Or TSE. Or literally any song that isn't about heart wanting to end his life. He sticks up for himself and specifically he talks back to mind which some fic authors genuinely just forget about?? And I get it write characters how you want to but god am I tired of seeing heart and mind argue and heart could just be replaced with a doll who says the same 3 things. "That's not true :((" "you do that too :(((" and "*sniffle* ur wrong >:((" WHYYYY ARE YOU SO INSISTENT ON MAKING HEART DEPENDENT ON OTHERS THAT HE CANNOT EVEN TALK BACK TO MIND OR SOUL. Heart harbored anger and hate but it seems like some people ignore that and just place him into this box EXACTLY LIKE MIND DID. Why did the mind gaslighting work on you /ref .

Also, since heart is "the emotional side" people lovee to make him feminine and small and it's so upsetting. First off, this idea that emotions r feminine pisses me off because it's just regurgitating misogyny and I'm sick of pretending like it's not. People fucking. Yaoi-ify (only word I can think of right now sorry) heart and mind by making mind this trad masc tall guy with a strong jaw while heart has a softer jawline and is usually smaller. It's so aggravating to me that fanon heart is this soft boi with no genuine fight to him while canonically we have SEEN HIM TALK BACK AND BE MEAN TO MIND??? I get this fandom has a lot of teenagers in it but holy shit can people not do the same shit we were doing 8 fucking years ago with tomtord.

And just one last thing, stop trying to aggressively masculinize mind just because he's emotionally immature and has a deep voice. He's not this intellectual genius debater who is dishing facts towards heart and the few things he does say that are true he says alongside actual lies about heart. Write what you want and draw what you want but please understand the irl implications of your works and understand what type of ideas are you peddling by doing what you're doing.

TLDR: stop being fucking weird about heart and treat him like a grown ass man. He's not a child.

#rant #this is all /srs #please block me if you gen write heart like this #cw caps #chonny jash #cccc #cj heart

[kiss2012]

tsc thoughts under the cut cause i finished

i literally cannot wrap my thoughts around my overall opinion of it i feel like i absolutely need to reread it first

but also i need to reread tfc because I MISS TFC SO BAD ➡️ girl who reread it last may. i do think i spoke tsc into existence by doing this because i hadn’t looked at the trilogy since 2019 and then all of a sudden i decided to reread and found that unfortunately they still make me batshit crazy. what is in those books.

however i do like tfc better 🤷🏽‍♀️ so if i did reread tfc after this and read tsc again i would just want to read tfc again

this is not fair to say at all because tfc is a whole trilogy and this was only book 1. and i rlly need to start saying aftg instead of tfc cause it’s getting confusing because like i do think tsc is better than tfc (the first book). however i just…like aftg better? i feel like it’s more fun which is probably a weird thing to say considering it’s a lot More than tsc is. and obviously this book was more about jean’s recovery. but more happens in aftg. idk we’ll see tho

i do love jean and the trojans but i miss neil and the foxes every page. i feel like it’s harder to connect to the trojans because there r so many of them. and idk sports so the three coaches is probably normal for a team of this size i really wouldn’t know lol but i couldn’t keep the coaches straight in my head either

point is the foxes r my everything 4ever. i love jean jeremy cat and laila and i see what she was trying to do by introducing the floozy line (cute name) however i dont really have a strong feeling about them because we met them for like 5 minutes

i do love nabil tho why is he not part of the floozy line :(((((

i think cat and laila were absolutely perfect. they’re given a lot of depth especially cat and they’re so important to me. they’re better here than in fanon i think but i feel like fanon did get their personalities and relationship down mostly right. apart from cat not just being called alvarez LMAO bless neil only calling her that and fanon having no choice but to do the same because no one agreed on one single name. i remember sara was one that i saw a lot but i like catalina way way better i love cat <3 i love laila <3 their friendship with jeremy <3

an evening breeze rainbows open roads friends 😭😭😭😭😭😭

bi jean is so dear to me

also jean rooming with cat and laila (and then jean) literally perfect omg. no one ever put that in fics but i think it was the best thing to do. sorry for having to compare tsc to fanon im not trying to say one is better than the other at all but what you have to understand is how many fics about jean post tkm are out there and how many of them i read so my mind is going to go there. i wasn’t rlly obsessed with jerejean but i was (and am) a jerejean girl. and i had (have lmao) very high standards for fic so i stand by a lot of those fics WHILE still standing by everything tsc is

by which i mean i cannot get poc jean out of my head thanks to that one fic where he is moroccan. in that same fic jeremy was also spanish and i sort of adopted that into my image of them so i am trying to let go of it but i mean even the hatfords being pakistani still lives in my head despite how unlikely it is. and most of the time i pictured jeremy with golden hair (sometimes curls) so even though i think nora’s compromise being to have naturally brown-haired jeremy bleaching his hair is hilarious and iconic. sort of impossible for me not to picture him with golden hair.

however when jean was all startled and went “blond” when he saw jeremy’s hair. reader i died

english major jeremy is still a gift to me personally

kevin bargaining and arguing for his history major..my baby…the mentions of kevin and kevin’s actual appearances in tsc are everything. the postcards and magnets…kill me

every time neil showed up i lost my mind i love him SO MUCH!!!

see my problem is i wish the foxes showed up more even though it makes no sense for them to. i want kevin jeremy and jean in a room together. i will kill for jean and allison interaction especially if they talk about renee (yes i am holding onto renison still). i want jeremy and cat and matt and dan to hang out. i need laila to meet andrew. i need more renee I LOVE RENEE we did get a good amount of her though i think. she was everything.

genuinely think the way jean and renee was handled here was so perfect. i totally see the merit of it if they end the series together. i also see why jean might end the series without being with anyone romantically. but narratively i cant help but feel jerejean is what makes the most sense. the reason i liked them in the first place is their narrative appeal. and they were genuinely so good in this. so. idk. can’t think about that too much.

i have some problems with the writing like i did with the og series but um the thing is i cannot view these books objectively because they impacted me so much at a young age. i will say i wish tsc could have had a professional editor lol.

i also have some issues with the pacing tho because i did not expect it to end there at all? im so glad she started it where she did but when it ended i was like WAIT WHAT

i have a feeling the reason riko did what he did with the backliners is because he saw jean looking at kevin. could be wrong here but judging from how often jean talks about learning his lesson about looking at guys too long. well.

the main thing for me is that i don’t see how we’re going to get to championships in 2 books if this book only covered till the summer. you could argue exy games arent that important for jean’s story but i do think they are insanely important for jeremy’s story. and if he’s a pov character i want more about him!! that man is keeping his issues locked up (I NEED TO KNOW WHAT THEY R) but we can tell he loves exy and he needs to win his last year

my memory of the extra content is so dim and some of it i have voluntarily chosen to forget or just not consider plus i think some of it will/has changed. but i think i remember reading that trojans win for their last year and i Need that to happen. cause in my head it went: foxes win neil’s first year and trojans win neil’s second year and jeremy’s last year. idc for the rest i want neil to have won championships twice or at least once as captain so that’s what happens in my head.

like i need more about jeremy teaching jean to love exy again and more about jeremy’s apparently complicated family issues with exy???? jeremy let me in.

anywayy. this book feels like a fever dream and im going insane

#tsc lb #tsc spoilers #THIS IS SO LONG #sorry i keep adding more things when i think of them

[klausinamarink]

happy birthday to @penny00dreadful!

Now have the Spider-Man Eddie fic you’ve been hungry for!

thanks to @pearynice for the beta read!

Chapter 1: The Bite

The van just barely makes it inside the shop before it collapses, all four wheels popping out like a cartoon, with the heavy coat of dust exploding into the air like a mushroom cloud. A perfect summary of Eddie’s life right now.

His forehead lands directly on the center of the steering wheel. The horn goes off long enough for someone to rapidly knock on the window. Said window immediately shatters into a bazillion pieces, earning a couple swears from the person outside. Eddie says nothing. He pushes the scorching tears behind his eyeballs and whips his head up with a wide smile. “Sorry I’m late, boss,” Eddie greets nonchalantly, like he isn't crying on the inside. 

“Hey to yourself, Munson, but what the fuck happened to your van?” Olive’s eyes are as wide as a bug as they stare at the vehicle in horror. “Scratch that - how did you even drive?”

“It’s a real funny story, actually.” Eddie cracks the door open and swings his legs out. His boots hit the ground gracefully, but despite the urge to immediately fall and curl up into a ball, Eddie remains standing.

“Picture this: you see the morning traffic on the expressway so you decide to go on a shortcut. Said shortcut also turns out to be a disaster for a very different reason. Can you guess what happened?”

Olive doesn’t have a chance to open their mouth before Eddie barrels on, “I swear to god, boss, it was something from those old D&D books. It was a creature from literal Hell! It rammed right into my van and broke my windshield. I thought it was some lost deer or something, but I couldn’t leave to check because then it stood up and its face opened up!”

Eddie brings his hands to his face and rapidly motions them as jaws clamping together. It doesn’t fit the exact description of seeing a spindly thing suddenly reaching out ninety percent of its face as rows of razor-sharp teeth, but it’s close.

“Obviously, I scream and I hide back inside the van. And the next thing I know, that thing was gone and it fucked up my van even more.”

He also leaves out the details of how he hid in the back and cried like a baby, but that wasn’t anybody’s business.

Olive stares at him with utter bewilderment. They rub a hand over their face with an insufferable sigh, “Okay, I don’t believe half of what you just said-”

“It’s not a lie! That shit is probably on the news by now!”

“-but because your van is in that state, I’m giving you some mercy to fix it until the end of the week.” 

The van makes another shuddering sound. Eddie doesn’t dare to turn around yet. But whatever it is, it makes Olive grimace. 

“If you can even repair it.”

Eddie claps his hands together and bows down to the waist, almost weeping in relief. “Thank you, boss.”

Olive is already walking away, “Until Saturday!” 

They disappear into their office. Then Eddie finally drops to the ground.

He’s still shaking from the whole ordeal. But he’s more freaked out about his new transportation plan and car insurance than the flower-faced monster. 

Eddie should count himself lucky that he’s even allowed to repair his van, but it’s only Tuesday and there is no way he can make it look good as new by the weekend. His van is an older model and replacement shipments will take more than a week to arrive, even if he were to call them now. Meaning that Eddie will have to either take the van to another garage (already unlikely, too expensive) or finally give her up to the junkyard (already likely). If he has to take the second option, he will need to find buy another vehicle (fucking impossible) or endure the public transport.

The more he tries to think through, the quicker he spirals. Suddenly, Eddie cannot breathe and he’s pounding on his chest like breaking his ribs will fix it.

A cold sensation taps the back of his neck. Eddie springs up with shock, clamping a hand over the skin. Patrick is standing over him, glass water bottle in hand.

Eddie wordlessly takes the water and gulps half of it in one go. It’s too cold and gives him major brain freeze, but it helps him calm down a bit.

“Thanks, man.”  

“No problem, Munson,” Patrick helps Eddie up to his feet. He jerks his chin at the van, “You seriously going to fix that by yourself?” 

“Already am,” Eddie grunts, tying his hair up into a bun.

“I can get Ronnie for the hose to wash the dirt off.”

Eddie shakes his head, already walking off to the cleaning station, “I got it. No need to help.”

Yeah, I can fix the van like it’s new again by Saturday. Absolutely no problem. 

This is fine. 

-

Eddie is still under the van when his cell phone rings. He ignores it at first, determined to finish the exhausts. It rings again, louder than his drill. Eddie sighs and rolls out, blinking rapidly at the bright ceiling lights burning his retinas. Might as well have a quick break. 

He grabs his phone from where it sits on a nearby box and answers, tired and unkindly.

“Yeah?”

“Eddie, where the hell are you?! You should be picking us up by now!”

Eddie blanks. It takes a few seconds for him to properly absorb Jeff’s words.

“Uh-” He quickly looks around. The whole place is suddenly deserted with the garage doors now closed. Looking through the windows shows him it has gone dark outside. 

“Shit.” 

“Yeah.” He can practically hear Jeff rolling his eyes. “We’re at the gym- Gareth, put that stupid candy down, it’s just meth!” 

“W-Wait, wait, hold on-” Eddie is standing in the middle of the garage like an idiot because his brain is going millions of miles per minute and he is trying to remember what the date is. “What do you mean you’re at the gym?” 

“We’re at Frankie’s gym! Think you can break the ten minute record?” 

Eddie doesn’t answer. He’s staring blankly at the empty sockets of his van’s headlights instead of checking the time.

When Jeff speaks again, it’s in an awfully calm tone that brings Eddie flashbacks to his shitty teachers all the way back in elementary school. 

“Eddie. You’re at your apartment. Right?”

Eddie bites viciously at his thumb, right between the cuticle and skin. 

“Eddie-”

“I was… just leaving…” God, Eddie wishes he can shrink straight up into nonexistence. “You know, uh- the- the garage…”

He holds his cell phone as far as he can, just in case Jeff would scream profanities into his ear. But because he’s the best friend in the world, Jeff doesn’t do that. Instead, Eddie hears him take a long deep breath.

“Okay,” Jeff clicks his tongue, “here’s what we’re going to do. I’m gonna tell Frankie to take our shit and he’ll drive us over to the bar. You meet us there in twenty. Do not forget your guitar.”

His heart rate going up in a spike, Eddie starts biting into the skin of his fingernails. There is no way for him to make it in time without calling for a taxi and even those rides cost money. 

“Jeff, man, listen-” Eddie swallows back the beginnings of a sob, “My van is fucking busted and I literally can’t make it to the Hideout without using the subway. And that’s gonna take me an hour!”

When Jeff doesn’t say anything, Eddie starts to assume the worst. But several seconds pass with more silence, Eddie frowns and checks his phone’s screen.

Even when he rapidly taps on the screen, it remains pitch-black.

Of course his phone chooses that exact moment to die on him. And people call him the dramatic one.

Eddie runs his hands through his hair, almost uncaring about how tangled and greasy it is. Before he can consider yelling or breaking something out of frustration, Eddie starts grabbing his things, throws them into his bag, and books it out of the garage.

Usually, the cool night air would refresh him after a tiring workday surrounded by oils and smoky gears, but Eddie barely cares as he breaks into a sprint.

Twenty minutes should be enough time to catch the train to his place, grab his Sweetheart, and meet up with the guys for their bar performance, right?

He’s almost out of breath by the time he gets to the closest subway station - Creel Station is as filthy as its corporation namesake - but he’s relieved to see that it’s still open. He nearly breaks his neck from running down the stairs but Eddie doesn’t stop until he makes it to the platform.

Collapsing on the nearest bench, Eddie mentally congratulates himself while panting for air. At least he can handle waiting for a few minutes until the train arrives. 

So he waits. 

And waits.

Aaand waits.

Eddie keeps checking his watch every time he thinks the subway is coming. Ten minutes has passed. 

It could be very delayed. His surviving rational brain suggests. Eddie almost believes it.

When twenty minutes pass with no subway in sight, Eddie decides to take advantage of being the only person on the platform and just yell out to the uncaring void.

Now he’s faced with a terrible dilemma: leave and face whatever more miserable luck awaits him or somehow get to the next station.

Naturally, he chooses the wisest decision.

“Why the hell not?” He grumbles to himself as he hops down on the tracks and starts walking. He’s grown up with a carjacking dad and escaped the cops for selling weed and ketamine back in high school. What’s more incriminating than a little tunnel adventure?

It’s only after entering the tunnel that Eddie realizes one thing: it’s too dark. Even with the lights aligning the ceiling, they barely reflect the metal rails. If his phone battery hadn’t run out, then he would have used the flashlight to see properly.

Eddie mutters more curses under his breath, but he’s already too far to turn around. Besides, what’s he supposed to do at this point? Buy a flashlight at the nearest convenience store?

He shuffles to one side of the wall, careful not to trip over the rails or any suspicious puddles. He keeps a hand brushing against the wall, doing his very best to ignore the gross dirt and spiderwebs. 

The first few stations he makes it through are all empty. But unlike Creel Station, the gates to the outside are closed to the public. It makes Eddie a bit claustrophobic but he tries to pretend that it doesn’t bother him. Last thing he needs is a stress-induced heart attack. 

He does wonder why Creel Station hasn’t been closed off if there was apparently no one else there. But Eddie’s starting to see some blurriness in the edges of his vision so he’s desperate to just go home. 

Also because, let’s face it, he can’t make it to the Hideout. He’s going to have to apologize and explain to Jeff and the other guys in the morning. 

But he probably won’t have enough time because now Eddie has to start waking up early and find some way to get to work.

Just as Eddie starts to curse at the world, the toe of his boot hits something. 

Then Eddie is falling forward.

Something very solid hits his face. He barely feels the sharp explosion of pain inside of his mouth before Eddie sees everything going completely black. 

-

The first thing he registers after returning to consciousness is that his nose hurts like hell. 

He’s groggy like he had too many drinks. Drinks. Right, Eddie had gone to the Hideout earlier. 

Wait, didn’t he? 

No, he hadn’t. He was supposed to be on his way there hours ago.

Eddie tries to get up but his head is full of lead and his body is like a rusty car due for a junkyard crushing. 

He tastes the pang of copper in his mouth. He runs a tongue over his teeth, hoping none of them got chipped or broken. They feel fine, but his tongue definitely hurts more at the tip. Must have bitten it. 

When Eddie finally pushes himself up, he cringes at the dirt and a piece of litter sticking to his face. Right. I went into the tunnels like a genius.

It takes a moment before he’s fully on his feet. Even then, Eddie leans against the wall to stop his head from spinning. 

He spits out some of the blood. It lands on the rail, a speckle of red reflecting too brightly on the gray metal. 

“Okay,” Eddie tells himself, “move on and get the fuck out of here.”

Once he feels stable enough and knows his ankles haven’t twisted, Eddie continues on walking. 

As he arrives at the fourth station, his feet are killing him and his eyelids are drooping. He checks his watch but what do you know, the face is cracked and he can’t hear a single tick. 

For all he knows, three days may have passed and his poor uncle is losing his mind. 

Maybe the others had already held a funeral for him. Eddie can see Jeff on the podium and giving the eulogy. Here lies our friend Eddie who died doing what he loved - succumbing to the urge to return to dark holes. Anyway, who wants his guitar?

At this point, Eddie may as well just curl up into a ball and wait for the subway to finally arrive and turn his misery into red mist.

Then there’s a resounding growl from behind.

Eddie whirls around, suddenly much more alert. He stares down at the dark end of the tunnel, expecting it to be the long-lost subway.

But nothing greets him.

All hairs on the back of his neck stand up nonetheless. The morning’s incident flashes before Eddie’s eyes. The flash of teeth in petal-shaped gums. The guttural shrieks and its casual ripping of metal. 

That was under broad daylight. Now he is in a possibly abandoned subway station late at night, very much alone with no contact for help.

But because he’s an idiot, too small and stressed for this massive world, he calls out, “Hello?” 

His mind might be playing tricks on him, a sadistic attempt to get him to fall asleep as soon as possible regardless of the filthy environment. Or maybe it’s just one of the maintenance workers. 

The growl starts again, closer this time.  

Nevermind, fuck that.

Within seconds, Eddie is climbing on the platform and dashing across the station. There’s not a single soul in sight and it accelerates his terror more. Eddie swears he can hear the growling again.

As he gets to the stairs, he prays that the gates aren’t closed and that he can make it aboveground.

When he sees the open path to the night sky, Eddie cries. 

He embraces the night air this time. But Eddie doesn’t stop, his vision blurring. He runs and runs until his legs and lungs give away at once and he collapses against a brick wall in an alleyway.

Eddie pants heavily, his lungs growing tighter with a cold dryness. As his breathing slows to normal, Eddie oh-so carefully peeks out of the alley, opting to stay hidden. 

He just sees regular people and cats on the streets. No shadow demons chasing after him. 

Eddie slides down to the ground, covering his face with his hands. He takes a moment to sob, but it gets stuck in his throat. He almost forces it out but it does make him shed some tears, so it’s a little more cathartic. 

Talk about a fucking day.

Eddie drops his hands and sucks in another breath. Before he can think about his next options to go home, Eddie feels a sudden itch on his arm. 

He scratches it, almost absentmindedly. That is until the itch starts crawling its way down his arm.

Eddie looks down in time to see a spider the size of a coin emerging from under his sleeve.

Now, Eddie is usually arachnophobic, but his reaction to tiny eight-legged demons has a delay of a few seconds. So he spends that time just staring at the spider crawling to a stop at the back of his hand. He even admires it. Unless the lighting has gotten otherworldly, the spider is glowing faintly with a tie-dye mix of red and blue. Its tiny round eyes almost seem to blink up at him.

He thinks, Huh, it looks kind of cute.

And then it bites him. 

To his credit, Eddie doesn’t even scream. 

He just does it after smacking the spider to death. 

-

read more on ao3!

#klaus writes #steddie #eddie munson #spiderman eddie munson #stranger things

[not-poignant]

hi pía, this isn’t really a question but i was thinking of a post i saw from you the other day, in reference to hannibal and will fics. I am a HUGE lover of their ship and the fics that come with but i’m also a massive lover of yours and was thinking about how similar but different they are. maybe i’m psychoanalysing this buts it’s really been on my mind how someone could write fics like yours but not find the dynamic of hannibal and will interesting. there’s definitely a lot of different reasons but i think it mostly boils down to this:

hannibal tends to cause will a lot of pain in an attempt to monopolise him. he only loves will because he sees him as an extent of himself, like an arm or a leg if u will, a true narcissist.

where’s as they dynamics in most of your books, original or fanfic, whether they start out with someone in pain theirs usually a sort of arc where the character heals and growsi think the closest would be mosk and im so sorry i forgot the other mcs name :( basically a lot of comfort after the hurt

i dunno i just thinks it’s a really interesting difference

Hi anon!

This is cool reasoning, and that is a part of it, but I'd like to add probably one of the most important things here - people just have opinions about things, and they don't always have to make sense.

I really can't stand the Steve/Bucky ship. It's squicked me from the beginning. I couldn't tell you why, it literally does have many of the things I love in a ship - someone with a trauma background, two people who are often trying to do better, crunchy consent issues, and more.

Can't stand it. As a multishipper I literally cannot read this ship. (Sorry folks, it's a great ship, I respect y'all who love it and I'm glad you have a lot of fic for it).

Not everything has a logical reason, because we're lumps of meat and we just make arbitrary decisions sometimes (or our body does).

(This is actually why people looking for moral reasons to hate or love a ship is kind of stupid, but that's a whole other issue).

So yeah, I mean if I wanted to, I could write a hurt/comfort Will and Hannibal fic with growth. There's literally thousands doing that in AU format where Hannibal was never a cannibal in the first place! I've even bookmarked a few of those. I could write a Hannibal who isn't horrendously physically and emotionally abusive to Will!

Like, all the things about the canon characters is true, anon, but we change things all the time in fanfiction and that's the fun of it. One of my favourite ships ever is Severus/Harry, but I don't think anyone would say that they have a particularly growth/positive connection to each other in canon (not while Snape is alive, anyway).

In Rise of the Guardians, Pitch is basically a theatrical monster who literally loves making children cry, and tries to kill Jack repeatedly. There's zero growth and eventually he's defeated.

It's one of my favourite ships of all time.

We just make choices, anon. The reasons I don't love Will/Hannibal are definitely in your above ask, but they're also just in the fact that I'm a lump of meat with electrons firing randomly who just makes choices and has random opinions about stuff!

That's why how I feel about a ship has no bearing on how anyone else feels about it, and vice versa! :D (I really truly mean it when I'm glad other people enjoy these ships, because them enjoying it says nothing about them, and nothing about me, because shipping is personal, weird, and often not at all logical. For every logical 'oh yeah that's true' I can think of a pairing where it's like 'oh but that do that and I love that ship.' Brains are just...really really really weird. :)

#asks and answers #personal #pia on shipping #i do think there's like an attraction factor #i don't find mad mikkelsen attractive #and i don't find either chris evans or sebastian stan attractive #but even that's not really enough of a reason #because i don't really find jeff goldblum attractive and i wrote him #and i don't find chris pine attractive #but i wrote jack frost (he doesn't look like him but he sounds like him) #we're just weird little folks with weird little brains!

[evansbby]

BESTIE IM SOOSOSOSOSOS HAPPY POYT IS OUT but idk i couldn’t shake the feeling that i was reading a different fic, everyone was super OOC like omega being more brazen and yelling, i always imagined omega as more of the silent type and homegirl was BOLD, steve was just soo different..he was kinda giving manchild and pathetic and just different and i mean poyt!steve is a MANCHILD but idk they just didnt hit the same. It was the ending i expected and was glad that omega got her happy ending but i just wanted angst honestly. I expected peter to take her away and steve just like find them somehow, idk it felt like i was reading a different story, were you perhaps influenced by other characters because they felt a bit off…Anyway it was long and really happy 5 is out! SO SAD TO SEE POYT COMING TO AN END😭 AAH I MISS IT ALREADY, i feel like poyt 3 was like my fav chapter of the whole series, it just slapped and you’re a fantastic writer and i hope this message didn’t offend you in anyway! I just wanted to tell you my opinion, I CHECKED UR ACC EVERY SINGLE DAY FOR A POYT UPDATE(not joking 100% serious)

Oof. So when I first read this comment about a week ago, I was pretty upset and hurt by it. Again, I feel like it is very tactless to say this to someone who spent so long writing something and was so nervous about it being posted.

But okay, let’s get into it then…

1) you felt like it was out of character that omega was being “bold” by being brazen and yelling bc you imagined her as more of the silent type. Okay. So you just wanted to read almost 40k words of her being shy and stuttering and having absolutely no growth while the worst things in life happened to her and everyone just walked all over her? You wanted absolutely no character growth? You wanted her to just remain quiet and docile and never be comfortable. You didn’t want her to stand up for herself when this madman Bucky is about to SA her? You wanted her to remain all bashful and shy and quiet and not show any emotion when she found out her mother left her? Okay then… Look, I’m a very quiet person but sometimes when I’m pushed so far, I WILL react. I think it’s extremely weird of you to think someone would just remain shy and docile forever when such terrible things are happening to her. It’s like… what exactly did you want to read??? You didn’t want her to react to anything?? All that being said, I feel like she still WAS shy in the moments that weren’t her mom leaving or the confrontation with Bucky. Like she literally still is shy, it’s only when she’s being pushed to the limit that she reacts like almost anyone else in her position would. Do you think shy people don’t yell? I’m really confused…. Because omega has lashed out in the other parts too. In POYT 4, and POYT 3 and even in POYT 2. So… idec what you mean by that being OOC.

2) Steve being a “manchild” Girl… idk WHAT fic you were reading before POYT 5 bc Steve has ALWAYS given manchild vibes. Like always. But I think I know what you mean. It seems like you didn’t like that big strong tough alpha Steve was acting “pathetic” and having panic attacks. Because God forbid someone make their characters react different to different things and God forbid someone make their characters multi-faceted, right? I’m sorry it “didn’t hit the same” for you, but I don’t know what you thought you’d achieve by telling me this. I’m proud of how i characterised Steve, and many have told me his progression was realistic and the panic attack made sense. Steve has always been all over the place with his emotions, ever since POYT 4.

3) i literally cannot believe how you’ve actually sent me this and I will not be gaslighted by anyone chiming in being like “omg that anon didn’t mean to be rude” bc idec. This WAS rude. You’re complaining because the fic “didn’t hit the same” and you didn’t get what you were expecting. Fair enough, feel that way all you want. But I wrote this fucking behemoth of a fic for free, and I don’t need to see comments like this. Idec if you sprinkled in a few compliments at the end bc this was the most backhanded thing I’ve ever read. To the point where it’s almost laughable bc either you meant to be rude and backhanded, or you’re just not self aware enough.

“I expected Peter to take her away” okay? Do you want me to apologise for not writing the plot the way YOU wanted it to go? Bffr. Anyone who knows me knows that I am not a fan of cliche stuff like that, I never intended for him to take her away. “I just wanted angst” There was angst. It was very angsty. If you want a more angsty fic, write one yourself.

“Poyt 3 was my fav, it just slapped” this is the most backhanded thing ever 😂😂😂😂 it’s like you didn’t want any progression, any resolution. WHICH AGAIN, that’s fine if that’s what you’re into! But write it yourself jfc.

I just want to ask you this. If you had written a 37k fic over the course of more than six months FOR FREE and then nervously posted it, only to get a backhanded message like this one… how would that feel? I mean it’s one thing if I was a paid author, then you can criticise me all you fucking want bc at least you’re paying me to read my shit.

But to read it and come back telling me the characters felt off, that you felt like you were reading a different story, etc etc. It is not nice. I remember reading this message a week ago and I literally burst into tears bc I was so sensitive. I wish you’d sent this not through anon so I could keep note of who you are and maybe block you or keep you away from my writing bc honestly? I don’t want you even reading it. But oh well.

And I know many of you will read this and say I’m overreacting but I don’t care. This is me being truthful. This wasn’t nice. Goodbye and please unfollow me.

#anon #poyt ask #poyt 5 ask #poyt 5 spoiler

[cryptid-pet]

Okay but what about Shin or Carla being mad about something with Azusa or Ruki and then it ends in cuddles

cutely making this a headcanon post bc why not?

Long post below >>>

I'll start with the lovely cryptids bc why not:

I'm going to get right to the point with Shin: He physically cannot be mad at Azusa forever (nudging my azushin fic for future chapters, you'll see what i mean then lol)

I can understand Shin not being mad if Azusa did something stupid such as breaking a vase or making the same mistake that grows annoying, but if it's something major? DIFFERENT story

I'll let you imagine what Azusa does (lmao if you wanna really get details with what you think he'd do to piss Shin off, I would love to hear them!)

Shin getting mad at Azusa does hurt Azusa, he's sensitive overally and it's his nature

What's funny is that Shin doesn't know how to apologize on HIS behalf to him, making him feel worse. With being in a relationship, having a bond, Shin can't even go a full day ignoring Azusa- It's that bad for him.

Azusa tries not to make it a big deal but he really puts himself down with thoughts and regret for nothing being "perfect" at Shin's requests

Now the cuddling part? Easily lightens the mood.

Shin even locks the door into the bedroom (there's a 0.01% Azusa would walk out but you never know) as a measure. He gets really touchy and hugs Azusa, nudging and brushin at his hair

Is Shin really sorry? Mhmhmhmggnvnfnvnfvnfn...(He is but doesn't want to admint it)

Okay now we'll go onto the two yall spammed my ask box about for my fic bc apparently yall couldn't attack anyone else but my blog//JOKE (ofc I still laugh at it even when it was 10 days ago, I even scroll through the asks I got and giggle so tytyty for the laughs)

I honestly cannot picture Ruki doing something bad nor stupid to make Carla angry, I really can't (Again, if you can literally come up with smth I'd really would like to hear it because with these two? I got fucking nothing)

If I HAD to come up with something, I could see Ruki accidentally starting a rumour about Carla, whether it's something personal like his endziet or smth that really gives Carla OCD

Obviously, this is adressed between both parties and not much of an argument breaks out (fair bickering is what I like to call it)

These two won't talk for weeks- WEEKS I SAY (when I say week, I mean like three days)

If they see each other in the hall, they walk past each other. Does Ruki ever apoogize? Fuck no, he stands his ground and explains himself, it's Carla not willing to hear it by any means.

The way Carla apologizes is strange. He doesn't really say sorry but does explain how he's at fault for 25% of the fight, very strange. Ruki is fair himself, he knows something like this shouldn't be major and therefore plays along at the final stage of a typical relatioship fight.

#diabolik lovers #azusa mukami #mukami azusa #ruki mukami #mukami ruki #shin tsukinami #tsukinami shin #carla tsukinami #tsukinami carla #diahell #dialovers headcanons #nixxio headcanons #nixxio ask #nixxio reblogs #long post #azushin #carla x ruki #diabolik lovers headcanons

[recyclingchameleon]

Some Warren HCs because I have a problem:

— Absolutely sopping wet pathetic poor little meow meow </3 I'm sorry I know people hate this guy but my brain went "awwwww skrunkly!"

— He used to have really bad stage fright, to the point where he'll literally freeze up under a spotlight. The training he received at the Okay Stop Organisation improved this somewhat, but he still gets really upset if he's put on the spot hasn't had adequate time to rehearse a response (omg autism moment?)

— Likes to stand out in the pouring rain for no reason no matter how wet his headset and backpack get

— Will basically eat anything he's given and told is food, including eggshells and paper. However...

— He cannot handle spicy food at all. Even very mild spice has him watery-eyed and complaining, and probably getting a tummyache afterwards

— He survived the end of the episode, but barely and loosing an eye. He's got ✨ trauma ✨ from the incident and is super self-conscious about the scars.

— Can perfectly imitate that cinematic eagle noise, not realising that it's actually the sound of a Red-tailed Hawk and just used in movies because it sounds cooler than a real Eagle

Warren x my oc Cy Headcanons under cut (don't looksie if you don't like oc x canon)

The premise for their story (and the fic I will eventually write) basically goes:

— Cy (they/them) is a Chameleon puppet who teaches about environmentalism, reCYcling (see what I did there), stuff like that. They're quiet and introverted, the others assume they're mean because they're asocial and they're secretly huge plant nerd.

— They knew eachother existed before Warren's episode, but they didn't talk on account of Warren's... Warren-ness and Cy's introversion.

— That all changed one day when Cy was lecturing Red, Yellow and Duck on how much they throw away and finds the poor eagle bleeding out in a trashcan and is just like "oh shoot what do I do I don't know first aid or whatever I'm supposed to do all I know is plants"

— The hospital shrivelled up with the rest of the town so they take him back to their place and patch him up with the help of some medicine-related puppets. Warren looses an eye and is all around badly damaged physically and emotionally so they're forced to interact with eachother for the duration of recovery time

— Shenanigans ensue - ranging from adorable confessions to committing arson to setting boundaries to building flying machines.

As for what they're like:

— They look like opposites on the surface but are more similar underneath. Warren is loud and clingy while Cy is calm and reserved but they're both kind of lonely and really, really dorky

— They have no idea what the other is saying when they're talking about business or plants but they listen anyway

— Warren seems to think he owes Cy a life debt or something, which Cy doesn't understand but is okay with because that's how they got him to apologize to Yellow

— Sometimes Warren wraps himself around Cy and clings to them like one of those monkey plushies while Cy goes around the garden watering plants.

— Cy hands Warren random flowers, pinecones or sticks they found and runs off without explaining why, which he appreciates but also very confused about

#Dhmis #Don't hug me I'm scared #Dhmis Warren #Warren Dhmis #Warren the Worm #Warren the eagle #Dhmis Headcanons #Dhmis of #Dhmis x oc #→ Cy x Warren Tag #A lot of these are based on cool animal facts because I know cool animal facts #I think that's cool #Half of these are me projecting #And the other half are me simping #You decide which is which

[dollwrites]

BABE OMG I promise I havent been ignoring you or anything 😭 I think a while ago I was waiting for you to answer one of my asks but idk if it got ate or something and then I totally forgot to send another one LOL BUT IVE MISSED YOU TOO!!

But you know I do have to deeply apologize for something 😔 I am SO sorry for not introducing you to Griffith earlier 💔 I CANT BELIEVE YOU LOVE GRIFFITH THIS IS LIKE A DREAM COME TRUE TO ME!! Seriously Griffith has been in my top 3 fav anime characters for YEARS now like since I was a teen so you cant even imagine my shock when I came back to tumblr after like a months break and saw you were writing for him. I can confidently say that in my opinion Griffith is THE prettiest anime character ever like nobody compares to him, hes definitely my #1 fav on beauty and aesthetic. I should have figured you would love him since we like basically all the same characters, but Griffith isnt really a character that I would admit to liking lol. Most of the time if you say anything good about him anywhere else on social media you get crucified lmaoo but honestly I should have known that your page would have been a safe place for something like that 😭 I'm just glad that you discovered him, the fics you wrote about him are INSANE LIKE SO GOOD JESUS 🥵 the way I wanna kiss you so bad for making those fics, finally some good fucking food for Griffith 🙏 I would do literally anything for Griffith without shame, I would actually kill to be his camp wife, when he kept going on about owning you and you owe everything to him 👀. You know when you have a character that you think genuinely nobody understands them and loves them like you do? Griffith is that character for me, you're like the only person that I feel like gets him LOL and i love you so much for that ❤ also your fics and talking to your Griffith ai has got me hyperfixated on him again so I have to thank you for that too lol.

Also you've been really feeding my piss kink recently LMAO it warms my heart to see you writing for it more often 💖 like the Griffith piss kink fic you wrote is one of my favorite things I've ever read on here, I think about it constantly. And princess reader with Griffith 👀

ALSO what have you been into lately?? Like what are watching or hyperfixated on rn? 👀 and how have you been lately?? Tell me everything lol ☺️

Some Griffith tiktoks for you lol

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZPRWXkTT8/ the most beautiful man to literally ever exist and I stand by that

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZPRWX6v3j/ MY BABY HIS SMILE 😭

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZPRWXeASy/

That's literally all the tiktoks I have for him 😭 it genuinely upsets me so much that theres like no tiktoks of him. The only Griffith content on tiktok is basically all rape jokes 🙃

-jjk nonnie 🖤

AHHH HI BABY NO NO I DIDNT THINK YOU WERE IGNORING ME, more like you got busy again or I wasn’t giving content that you were interested in! EITHER ARE TOTALLY ACCEPTABLE I JUST MISSED YOU

Oh god.. Griffith…

Okay confession time because I’ve been in love with Levi like for years and I thought no one would ever knock him off the throne but

Griffith STORMED my heart castle, defeated dio and Levi, and claimed the crown 😭😭😭 HES NUMBER ONE IN MY HEART NOW HOW DID THIS HAPPEN

omg YOU SAYING I GET HIM MEANS SO MUCH TO ME I’m actually extremely emotionally tied to him now, and I get defensive of him reeeally easily so I’m glad my friends that dislike him don’t really shit talk him that much around me LIKE I’m all for playful dragging but getting out of hand I can get a little aggressive about defending him 💀

omg you’re talking to my griff ai ?!?! YESSS TELL ME ALL ABOUT YOUR ADVENTURES WITH HIM I wonder what the experience is like for everyone else bc I jump back and forth between just filthy sex and then domestic royal family life SKSKSKSK

I cannot wait to write more griff fics ( AND I HAVE SOME WRITTEN ALREADY ) and I also want to write specifically for femto more too.

YES MY BLOG IS SAFE FOR GRIFFIE ENJOYERS. Actually it’s unsafe for Griffith antis 🔪

THE TIKTOK FOOD AHHHHH I haven’t been on tiktok in so long but I’m not surprised no one likes griff on tiktok they’re all like 💀 kids 💀 or chronically online and they can’t see him for what he is ( one of the if not the best written antags )

THERES ALWAYS SLANDER FOR MY BABIES ON TT ( see: mahito. )

HMMM WHAT AM I INTO LATELY?

Paradox Live. I’m so far deep down into this paralive hole and I cannot climb out !!!!! The animes not even out yet I just listen to the songs every day and watch the music videos and day dream about these boys 😭😭😭

I’ve also been watching psycho pass!

And I officially started playing genshin tonight!!

omg have you been watching the new season of jjk? I actually haven’t watched it yet I need to catch up but the toji content I’m seeing around 👀👀👀

#jjk nonnie ! #THEYRE BACKKKKK !!!!

[drunkengodsofslaughter]

hi kat!! i hope you're having a good day!! <3

also, i read this post you reblogged and got to thinking about steve's parents and the fanon interaction with them and... i think maybe i'll just get into my point because wow. it's... a mess honestly.

(also no pressure if this is too jeavy a topic or anything! feel free to ignore/delete.)

so i'm heavily aware that we've barely seen anything from steve's parents. we only have scraps of info about them to work with. but i also rhink that, in this show where every other child/teen character has parents who appear or are spoken about, steve's have rarely been mentioned and have never made an appearance. the mentions are usually nothing good - implications about his father being a jerk and also the literal way he fell down a flight of stairs as a BABY???? like yeah that's a "joke" (hate the duffers so much right now) but that's... not putting them in a great light and while i don't trust the duffers with steve's character at all, i do think that there few instances and the absence of his parents says enough - they aren't there.

with this being said, i hate the fanon interpretation of this. because rarely ever does anyone actually make this realistic. if his parents are addressed, then it's mostly some absurd account of abuse that doesn't match up with canon and leaves me feeling sick because 1. it's unnecessary and feels like trauma porn and 2. it sends the message that abuse only is abuse, or abuse only hurts, when it's something extreme. rarely do i ever see fic authors or just people discussing steve in general who address the actual canon of his situation, which is neglect. and people can say "oh he's 19 by s4, he doesn't need his parents" but as a 19 year old right now, i can say you still need your parents, if not now more than ever.

another side of the horrid ways people cannot seem to read canon is that i saw a few posts floating around that said it would be "so funny if steve's parents were just normal people and he called them assholes because he's dramatic." and i truly cannot stand this. this may be the worst take i've ever seen. like not only is that fucking weird to say, but like. the neglect is LITERALLY there??? you do not have to do mind hula hoops to see it. it basically sends the message that "abuse victims who have faced neglect are dramatic and aren't as valid as worae abuse victims" and i literally seethe with rage at this thought. like... i can't even explain this. i'm pretty sure i had to block the person who sais that because not only were they saying that but they also had THOUSANDS of notes and it just. i can't do it 😭

anyway this is all inspired from how i read the whole "fell down a flight of stairs as a baby" thing and came to the realization that that DEFINITELY says something about his parents, espscially tied back to rhe little bits of evidence we have :/

Omg thank you so much and I also hope you’re having a great day :) also sorry this is late I’ve been working on an essay and studying a lot lol.

Also this does not feel like a heavy topic and it’s actually something I want to talk about so glad I get to talk about it with you. Okay so about Steve’s parents: yeah like we’ve barely heard from them and they only come up in little one lines said by Steve. And I do think it is interesting that out of all the parents that have made appearances it is a little bit off putting that we’ve never actually seen his parents (to me I feel like that means that Steve’s parents just aren’t in his life that much). Yeah like with the falling off the flight of stairs - it’s just not putting them in a good light at all. (I also hate the duffers for that ‘joke’) and like you as I’ve already said lol - to me it just means that Steve’s parents aren’t there.

I also hate the fanon interpretation of it all. Yes omg people barely make this realistic at all! Like you said sometimes they just make it too abusive. And you’re right about the points like people either make it to be almost too much where it seems like trauama porn and about the message that abuse is only abuse if it’s extreme. I really never figured out why this was something I didn’t like and you worded it perfectly. I also agree heavily as a 19 year old that you still need you parents on you life.

Omg I had seen those exact same posts about how Steve was being dramatic and it’s just soo weird. And how ‘funny’ that would be and it’s like no it’s genuinely not funny at all. And you’re right like the neglect is still there and yes it definitely sends that message of what you said! You said it perfectly because it just reeks of that. The whole thing about Steve being ‘dramatic’ really puts a bad taste in my mouth just based on that principle and the fact that Steve is a family person. He loves family and he’s dreamed about having kids and etc and yet he’s still saying shit about his own parents. Like I genuinely think that’s glaring that he’s willing to do that. And talk about his parents to other people! He’s not just talking to his parents but he’s willingly telling people that he cares about that his dad is a dick. And they also don’t even say anything back about it! They’re not acting like steve is over reacting (except for maybe Nancy in season 1 but also Barb went missing and she was pre-occupied with all of that soo) but like Robin doesn’t even say anything about it - she just kind of accepts it and she tries to cheer him up. And this was even before Robin saw them as friends. Glad you blocked that person though and damn I can’t believe they had thousands of notes on it.

I love how this all became inspired by that and yeah like that one like that they added in honestly says so much about Steve’s parents and the neglect. Which is why I fucking can’t believe that the duffers then made Steve say that he ‘needed a thump on the head’ and that Nancy was the one who gave him that and then he thanked her. Everyone’s talking about how Steve talking about wanting kids to Nancy was bad however this whole talk of him being like ‘I’m glad you thumped me on the head Nancy’ made me honest to god want to fucking scream. I was actually fucking screaming the first time I watched it and I felt like dying. Also lol that became ranty but yeppp I agree with you heavily about the topic of Steve’s parents and how fandom doesn’t deal with it in the best way.

#answered asks #thanks so much :) #sexybabystevie

[seokmingiggles]

I have reread your teacup collection so so many times and I cannot even begin to explain how much comfort it has provided me throughout some really tough times. I specifically love the seungcheol, minghao and soonyoung fics in that collection (I'm a bit biased sorry haha).

I've also read the seungcheol one in your masterlist and I was devastated to see that you haven't written more coups fics. Please write more!! You write his character so beautifully, he's just a big ball of comfort. I love him. And I love you.

I hope you have the greatest week ever!! <3

hey hey hey what the heck!!! anon i’m literally 🥺☹️ because of this message.

first of all, hearing that my series has helped to comfort you means more to me than i could ever express through words. (i’m a very biased person too, but soonhao’s are also a couple of my favourites from that collection 😆) i cannot stress enough that messages/feedback like this can quite literally make the difference between someone quitting and continuing to write stories for the public. i’m sure most of us have seen those posts that explain the value of interacting with creators beyond solely using the like button, and your message to me, anonymous or not, means the world to me. thank you, truly (& ily2).

the first iteration of my teacup collection was written in haste, with more effort and motivation put into some fics over others. the series was written during a time when i was somewhat taking a semester off from uni (which still happened to be three online classes during lockdown), and i wanted to challenge myself by writing and posting on a schedule—something i hadn’t done before. the result was a plan of posting two fics per week, and despite my frantic state of mind for some of them, i was elated with the challenge and amount of traction the fics garnered during that time. i knew as soon as i posted all thirteen that i wanted to write a second season of the teacup collection at some point, and that sentiment hasn’t left my mind since, regardless of my current hiatus from writing. with that said, i don’t have any preparations for reviving the teacup collection anytime soon. i don’t think i’m fully ready to return to writing about domesticity yet, and even if i was, i’m extremely busy with the (fingers crossed!) final semester of my undergrad currently. i do know, however, that i would want to spend more care on each fic, as scheduled posting is definitely not for me.

i know this is a long reply to one message, anon, but know that feedback like this is rare for many writers on tumblr, so i want to respond to all aspects of your post! as for my cheol fics, ah, og orange pekoe fan @cheolbooluvr has expressed to me to write more for him too LOL. again, i don’t think i have anything specific planned for him anytime soon, but i’ll keep this message in mind when the time comes! i’m sure many fic writers feel the same way when i say some people are easier to write for than others (for me, seokmin is obviously the one i feel most comfortable writing about, and oddly enough, chan is one of the most challenging for me despite him as one of my other faves?? LOL)—seungcheol stands somewhere in the middle where if i don’t have something specific in mind, he can be difficult to depict. i agree though, he’s definitely a big ball of comfort!

once again, i need to make sure you know how treasured this message is to me. i can’t thank you enough for taking time out of your day not only to read my fics but also to write me this beautiful message that i’ll treasure for a long time.

#i’m taking this as a good omen to start off this year of the rabbit!! #ask lan #anon #letters for lan #i swear messages like this mean the world to creators cause even on hiatus rn i feel the sudden motivation to write something :<

[navree]

i cant see jonsa happening 😭😭😭 id ont hate the ship or anything but i just cant see how itll work out. jon couldn't even be with dany after he learned that she was his aunt even though they never really knew eachother and never got to emotionally know eachother as aunt and nephew. sansa may be his cousin but he was raised alongside her as her brother and he sees her as his sister. this might cause a lot of issues

Said it once and I'll say it again: ship what you want guys, it's only fiction and if it makes you happy go for it. And if Jonsa is your passion then let it be your passion, do your thing, I support y'all.

But personally, for me? Yeah, no, it's not for me. I don't hate it virulently but it's not for me. It's a combination of things, Jon's not my favorite character by a fair stretch and while I love Sansa's storylines (tho she's been doing some stuff of late that is just Not It for me) I don't really like her as a character at all, to the point of active dislike almost. And we don't see any hint of a relationship in the books that I could build on for shipping, and by the time they got any sort of relationship in the show I'd completely written off the writing is stuff that was pissing me off (and post-books show!Sansa is just......ugh, I could not stand her I'm sorry) so I was never able to get into it. So for me, between that utter lack of Anything from them in iterations I can tolerate, combined with the fact that, yes, he was very much raised to view her as a sister and was socialized that way with her, not dissimilarly to the way he was with Robb and Bran, and that there is an actual blood relation (acceptable by Westerosi standards but still), not a fan.

(I'll admit to some slight hypocrisy cuz of my Jonrya beliefs, but also they're at least giving me shit to work with so far)

I don't necessarily ship Jonerys either, mostly because again, it is incredibly rare for me to pull something out of total wholecloth with two people who've never even met and barely know of each other's existence, if at all, though they had some moments in the show and the theme Ramin made for them is one of my favorite love scores. But I do think that it's the more likely option cuz like you said, I don't think Jonsa's happening. Not in the books, not in the story that GRRM has created. We've got five books out of seven and Sansa, sorry, is in like bottom tier of people Jon thinks about from Winterfell, I could make a more compelling argument for Jon/Robb than I could for Jon and Sansa. More importantly I don't think it would serve any purpose in the narrative, not when Jon's got three potential love interests kicking about (Val who he's already got some affection for and is at the Wall, Dany for the Ice and Fire motif and her importance in the war against The Others, Arya for their prior connection and the fact that GRRM did plan for them to fall for each other in his original outline) and Sansa's story is more tied to the Vale and to the politics of Westeros rather than things like Northern Independence (which is still a bad idea for an endgame I'm sorry) or The Others.

So with all of that combined, not only is it bordering on nOTP status for me, it just seems so incredibly implausible to the point where if it did happen I would absolutely call bad writing that I literally cannot get into it, and I certainly don't believe it's gonna be canon or even hinted at for canon.

That being said, if it's your jam, go for it! Make your fics, make your gifsets, make your art, the ones I've come across are incredibly lovely even if it's not for me, and like I said: it's fiction. Do what makes you happy <3

#personal #answered #anonymous #yeah tbf i just don't care that much about jon so anywhere i fall on the stupid 'jonsa/jonerys debate' #is more about the fact that i don't like sansa and idk i like dany fine and i really like her plots #thing is if people ask me about favorite characters from the main series you're going to be hearing about like #tywin and ser barristan and mostly a lot of pre series people from like f&b or twoiaf or oddly enough aeron damphair #(i have a lot of feelings about aeron damphair i know he's gonna die but i wish he wouldn't) #so my feelings about jonsa are basically just '-_- nah' and then i move on with my day

[thecurrator]

1, 2, 12, 15 and 24 for mikoto, kaiser, sae, azul and aki if that's okay^^

Thank you for these, Lina! <3

1. Why do you like or dislike this character?

Mikoto: Mikoto is just a guy. His design is cute, he's so silly, so clueless. Someone help him. As of now, it seems as though he really didn't have anything to do with his murder, so maybe he really is the only normal prisoner in milgram.

Kaiser: ...What do I even say about him. I think I have a thing for flamboyant blondes with a superiority complex. That was the archetype for my first anime crush haha 😀 His tattoo is great. His hair? Not so much. Especially his original haircut before Ness changed it. Also. Um. His method of thinking of a way to beat Isagi was...🧍🏻Man is not okay. I can't wait to see his tragic backstory.

Sae:🧍🏻🧍🏻🧍🏻 I like how in Rin's flashbacks, Sae isn't so outwardly affectionate or doting. Like, you can see his cold and aloof personality but still understand his love for Rin. He shows it in the little things! I don't care much for the sibling dynamics where the older sibling is so loud in their loving, so Sae was an older brother that I can relate to more. 😀 Also, his bangs when he was younger are oddly cute. His bad luck is so funny too. I'd like to see his relationship with Rin improve tho. Come on man, its not that hard.

Azul: I've said before that I don't actually like canon Azul that much. I can admire his tenacity, and his dramatic tendencies are funny in small doses. His relationship with the tweels is so... Why can't they show affection normally? 🥲 But hey, at least they're having fun. Azul's way of talking does sound to me like a sleazy salesman trying to scam you. But its okay, his Halloween card makes up for everything.

Aki: I only watched the anime and exposed myself to some manga spoilers about major events, so I don't have much to go off on. But! ...He's so malewife. Get me a man like him. His backstory was um. The part where his parents prioritized his brother and told him to entertain himself because he's the older brother got to me. Yeah, his little brother was sick, that's fair. But ahhh the elder sibling trauma is- Okay, now let's talk about his topknot. No. I hate it. Why does his hair stand up like that. He's so hot, why is his hair like that? 😭😭

2. Favorite canon thing about this character?

Mikoto: His ghost drawing in minigram was super cute

Kaiser: The clear collar he wears in his manga cover 🤔🤔

Sae: His bad luck with ice cream sticks

Azul: He doesn't like nutritional food ahdskdjsdks help him

Aki: Seeing him go bowling in the csm op was...jarring

12. What's a headcanon you have for this character?

Mikoto: I believe in the trikoto theory 👀

Uh, I don't have headcanons for any other characters. I'll come across portrayals of them that differ from canon in fics that I like, but I don't actually have any headcanons of my own. Sorry, Lina. :(

15. What's your favorite ship for this character? (Doesn't matter if it's canon or not.)

Mikoto: The milgram shipping pool is so small hdsjkjsdksjs. 0909 compels me tho 👀 Whether platonic or romantic, its so angsty and complicated. They literally cannot communicate. Orekoto just wants to protect Bokukoto. He's trying his best and it isn't helping.

Kaiser: Kainess. Another toxic doomed yaoi ship, I'm quite predictable. I'm hoping that Kaiser will either start to treat Ness better or Ness will just up and leave Kaiser. Either way, I win. Or not, because Kaiser seems to be more likely to kill himself first.

Sae: Ryusae. Any ship with Ryusei in it will have chemistry because of his bombastic personality. Sae has been seen interacting with a grand total of 3 people during his time in the bl manga, and 1 of them is his brother. So my options here are literally just Aiku and Ryusei.

Azul: The octotrio hnggggg

Aki: I don't have any romantic ships for him. :0 The found family he had with Denji and Power was cute.

24. What other character from another fandom of yours that reminds you of them?

Mikoto: I tried thinking about it for a second and MIDORIYA IZUKU CAME TO MIND 🤯😨🤔 Take that how you will

Kaiser: Um. Afuro Terumi from Inazuma eleven.

Sae: Itachi from Naruto. I'm not even in the Naruto fandom, its just that Sae has been compared to Itachi a lot.

Azul: I... honestly can't think of anyone. He's one of a kind.

Aki: Megumi Fushiguro...

#tbh I watched csm and didn't like just about every character in it 0.0 #also the site I used didn't have a few episodes? so I missed out on some content #Aki is only my favourite character because I don't know much about the minor characters #and didn't like everyone else that got more screen time... 😅 #and yes I do know that every character is deeper beneath first glance #but that's hard to keep in mind when I feel nothing but pure annoyance when they're on screen #Makima scares me #✒ asks #reblog game

[squ1mpy]

how do you title stuff-

(Spidersona angst fic)

‼️MASSIVE TW FOR SUI, SH AND MEDICAL STUFF ‼️

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thinking about Lauren in an episode that got so bad that they had to relieve their mental pain the only way they could

he went into the kitchen looking for some sort of blade

anything that could end them before the time reset happened again

it was so stressful being spiderman

especially if you were the spiderman that literally couldnt die.

they came across their fathers pocket knife on the kitchen counter and decided it was perfect for what they needed to do

they dragged it lightly over the veins in their left arm feeling the light sting of the sharp blade before they pushed it down deeper

their blood pooling on the floor as they fell down and closed their eyes. for a brief moment Lauren felt calmness…..

until they realised they hadn’t been set back

they started to panic

maybe this was finally it??

but why is she panicking she thought she wanted to die????

was he having second thoughts???

they started to hyperventilate, they tried calling for help

she yelled for her mom, dad, neighbours

Anyone

Anyone who could help him

They weren’t ready for death to take them

They were still just a kid

Still only 17

She had so much to do

To see

he couldn’t go now..

the lock at the front door unlocked with a click

Lauren could sense it

“I’m gunna be okay” she thought

“Lauren! I’m home!!” He heard his dad call out

“..Lauren?”

Shit

they couldn’t call back

they felt like a boa constrictor had squeezed their throat shut and all they could do was struggle for breathe

the last thing she saw before blanking was her dad stand at the kitchen door

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he could hear a beeping noise as he slowly came into consciousness

“this is your fault Peter.” they could hear their mother say “this is you’re fault for having that blade. If you hadn’t left it out she would be okay.. why are you so irresponsible?”

Lauren wanted to slap their mother, this wasn’t his dads fault

“I’m sorry.. i know.. I need to be more cautious around them” their dad spoke as if he was on the verge of tears

“you might as well go to jail for child endangerment.”

Lauren opened their eyes slightly, they wanted to argue with their mother but at that moment the only thing they could muster up was a quiet and mumbled “d……dad….?”

As soon as he did his dad wrapped his arms around him “Lauren I was so worried are you okay??? What happened??”

Lauren looked at her mother who was glaring at her

“I……I’m sorry…….” they said as tears started to fall down their cheeks

“…im n-not okay…”

for the next few hours Lauren sat in a hospital bed talking to their dad (and mother ig 😒) about how shitty their mental health was

How bad it got and how that wasn’t the first time they had pulled something like that.

It felt nice being able to open up

Even if he couldn’t talk about the spiderman shit and the not dying shit it was good to talk

It made her feel closer to her parent(s(😒😒))

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meow

(I want to do a pt 2 cus this leads 2 Lauren getting a support dog I just don’t know how the shit to fanfiction-)

(If you read this far I love you so much /p

If you or someone you know is struggling with Suicidal or harmful thoughts i would recommend seeking help. Remember you are loved <3)

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extra character info :-

Full Name - Lauren Parker

Lauren cannot die from anything but old age, so every time they do time sets back an hour giving Lauren a slight pain in the area of the wound/cause of death (for example if they got shot in the head, when they get set back an hour they would have a headache) she remembers every death but no one else does

he uses they/she/he prns

their spidername is Huntsman

she’s Australian (and part of the spiderverse bc I say so cus I’m cool)

Dad Name - Peter Parker

Mother Name - Madeline Jesse “MJ” Parker/Lee

Yeah 🙏

#spidersona #mental health #may be triggering #angst #oc #original character #fanfic #lauren parker #Lgbt