MLM: women please don't interact with my post as it is MLM specific and I don't feel comfortable with women interacting as there is a trend of MLM being fetishized by women more specifically straight woman. I do not hate women at all but I don't want them reblogging my posts. please respect my wishes
Tumblr freaks: wow you misogynistic pig go fucking die
also Tumblr freaks: also men don't interact with me uwu
Me, before 8th grade: Nonbinary & Bisexual disaster, Nintendo-obsessed, Fan of Graphic T-shirts, Loves Funky Music and Video Game soundtracks, Animation-loving, Fantasy-adoring, Transgender person who’s very proud and equally excitable. Loves Dinosaurs, Drawing and D&D. Bounces between Interests freely, rambling about them to anyone willing to listen. Silly and having fun with life.
Me, 8th grade through High School: Tired, Struggling to form a consistent identity, Dark Academia, Feels guilty for never being consistent, Questioning everything, Thinks their interests are invalid or childish now, Trying to dress more formally, Constantly Worrying, Isolating, Rarely draws anymore. Less idealistic, Hopeless and more Sensitive to criticism or bullying
Me now, an Adult: Nonbinary & Bisexual disaster, Nintendo-obsessed, Back to wearing Graphic T-Shirts, Has entire playlists of Funky tunes and Video Game music, Animation-loving, Fantasy-adoring, Proud as ever bit a little more chill about it, Excitable again. Still loves Dinosaurs, Drawing and D&D, and has regained a little more hope and liveliness in the world. A little more tired and a lot more mature, but back to having fun again. Sees life as less of a tragedy, and more of a comedy now, like it should be.
One of the best things about Adulthood is reinventing and reawakening who you used to be, but now with more wisdom and a little less energy. Re-experiencing the things you used to love, and finding that you still enjoy them. To those struggling with depression or finding themselves, I promise you’ll get there one day. And, if you’re anything like me, you’ve probably already found it. Just give yourself time. Godspeed 💕
cis str8 men need to understand that the reason their issues might not get as much air time as womens and lgbt issues is because they almost exclusively bring them up when said women and lgbt people are discussing their own issues as a 'gotcha! men are oppressed too' moment like, they only seem to care about their own problems if they can be used to put down others and then they wonder why no one knows/cares about their issues.
While I was studying it did feel like I was ready to get back on the dating scene.
I felt like I was ready for giving my time to someone, and I would have more time now that exams were over for a while, so I joined back up to OLD.
I matched with some people, got overwhelmed, unmatched more people, then stuck with the ones I had.
Anyway, it got boring real quick. And because I’ve been craving like someone to touch me in a non-sexual but kind & caring way I just feel a bit like “5eva alone”.
Then my mind goes back to my most recent ex and thinking about how I feel about her now, how I felt about her then, wondering if she thinks of me, how she feels about me now. There’s a big part of me that still wants her to be my friend. It’s frustrating we can’t make amends. I am unsure how things will go when we inevitably bump into each other “in real life”.
I know I’m thinking about my exes more because I’m a bit in my feels about being single.
I think it’s just the amount of effort that a relationship needs vs how much I am willing to give. It’s like I want to skip to the part where I live with my partner and we mostly lead independent lives but then cuddle and make out after work.. like I will end up as a lesbian stereotype because of this one day.
But also, dating just isn’t exciting anymore. It’s a chore.
I think this is telling me I also don’t want to date and not really ready for it either. I want some physical affection and the romance but none of the rest of it..
I also got really stressed yesterday thinking about all these meet ups with friends i’m planning right now (due to Covid restrictions starting to lift) and how I already don’t feel like I have enough time.
I think I need to move first before trying to date properly. Eh.
This post was originally made to spread awareness for r/orientedaroace. Oriented aroace is an identity where someone who is aroace feels another label, such as pan, is a significant enough part of their identity alongside their aroace identity to use the additional label to describe their sexuality, often because the person experiences some form of tertiary attraction.
[ID: Hello fellow kids meme format. The image is captioned “How I, pan-oriented aroace, feel whenever I go into pan spaces.” An old man with the sunset aroace flag over his eyes holds a skateboard with the pan flag on it. He says “Hello fellow pans.” The joke is that as an aroace person, the pan-oriented aroace person feels like an imposter amoung allosexual alloromantic pan people. End ID]