#somehow we are the toxic ones

[marimeeko]

Lmao comparing Bakudeku as a ship to Tanjiro/Nezuko is pretty unhinged behaviour. Not more unhinged than telling ppl to unalive if they disagree with you though...it's funny, who are the toxic ones here?? Fuck outta here.

#bakudeku #tagging it so it is in our tags is even moreso #then telling shippers of bkdk to unalive #somehow we are the toxic ones #youre out here telling people to unalive themselves over a ship #content warning #antis be like BAKU TOLD IZU TO UNALIVE HIMSELF #antis also be like IF YOU SHIP THEM UNALIVE YOURSELF #get the fuck outta here with your nonsense #this dumbassery

[mandrake-arya]

Do we as a community agree on the fact that Linus Baker and Aziraphale are basically the same person or it's just me

#good omens #the house in the cerulean sea #aziraphale #linus baker #two cinnamon rolls in a toxic relationship with their working environment #that somehow fall in love with an entity their side is supposed to hate #that believe they can still change things while their lover just wants to protect their fragile existence/the one of their family #and that are stuck in their working environment who is slowly killing them #also they both love music #there's also the fact they both raise the Antichrist but that's a funny little extra #plus the scene when Linus says he has to go and Arthur goes “Stay with me” and Linus says he can't bc he has a job #hello good omens s2 finale how are we #this leads to my dream reunion in s3 mirroring the Linus/Arthur one #this is me rambling bc I can't cope #good omens spoilers

[seyaryminamoto]

Fic-to-Art #37: Jin and Tiang

If you're wondering about last month's artwork... it's not out and about because it was kind of unfinished :'D hence why you haven't seen it at all. But once I get the last details in (who told me to do more ensemble pieces, really...?) I'll make sure to post it!

Instead, have a glimpse of two characters I've never drawn before! That was the prompt this time, choosing something either uncommon or that I had never really drawn at all, and Jin and Tiang got the win! Tiang's design is very much something I settled on very recently, so if anyone didn't picture him that way, I totally get it x'D but as an OC, all sorts of interpretations are valid, I'd say. As for Jin, I hoped she'd look properly elegant without fully setting aside her roots. Her hairpiece isn't too big and ornamented, her hairstyle is mostly the one we knew her for in the show, but her clothes are high-end now due to her new status in society.

... Or, uh, you could say that's not reeeeeally her status anymore, let alone his, but let's call this a picture of carelessly happier times for these two, shall we? :'D

Hope you guys liked it! Will make sure to post last month's piece as soon as I can!

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#gladiator #jin #tiang #fic-to-art project #they are a nice couple #the main directive for tiang's design was 'he's gotta be pretty' #so I hope I nailed it #hopefully this way it's easier to tell why so many families wanted him marrying their daughters #the daughters themselves surely were the ones begging their parents for it #but he just wanted his tea-loving girl #the bg's weak as shit because I had a lot of things going on #seems like I usually do lately #but hey I have moved out of a terrible place and to a much more peaceful and less anxiety-inducing one #no more living on a timebomb in fear that a certain toxic relative decides I'm an enemy somehow! #so hopefully that makes things much smoother for me going forward #we shall see! #aaaaaaaanyway enough personal stuff hope you like the pretty couple

[frecklystars]

i know nobody is online rn to read this but ;-; i gotta get it off my chest i love ken so much he means everything to me he's making me so happy and i've needed him so so so bad. he's brought me comfort when my ptsd has been so fucking unbearable and every time i'm having a crying fit over losing my tf f/os or every time i'm having a flashback i ALWAYS immediately IMMEDIATELY think about him rushing to my side, holding me and saying "hey hey it's okay, i'm here, i'm right here" and it's such a relief because i haven't been able to genuinely wholeheartedly believe any character would be willing to do that for me the entire time i've been struggling this year.

i've never gone so long without comfort from f/os, much less being triggered by the ones who used to comfort me the most. so to have barbie and ken right now is like the biggest wave of relief every single day when i wake up and the hyperfixation is still there. sometimes i will literally close my eyes and sigh in relief when i hear a song and my first thought is sebastian or ken or six or... whomever. i love being in love again. i NEED this. i love waking up and my first thought isn't my trauma most of the time now, it's ken. or it's six. or it's barbie. or it's harley. or it's officer k. or it's... yeah you get it. i needed these characters so fucking badly. every time i see a gifset and get excited over it, i feel a rush of gratitude bc self shipping has always been the glue holding me together. it doesn't feel as intense or strong as the SB musical or TF used to make me feel but i am not picky. not at all. i will take anything and i'm praying this lasts for at LEAST another few weeks please

i may not be at a sense of peace right now and i dont know when i ever will be, it could be years, but im so. so. so. so so so thankful to have these characters right now when i've needed someone so badly for so long. i hope ken knows how much i love him ;-; i hope barbie knows how much she has helped me, has saved me from one of my major triggers and has helped me to love and feel safe around the color pink again. i wish they could see me when i'm not so broken but i'm glad they're here even when i'm at my worst, i'm glad they still love me even when they deserve to see me in a much better light

#it feels so fucking terrible not celebrating my bday with my starlight. i used to buy myself cakes and put his figurine next to them #i mean i still have... a little bit over one week... i cant... let it pass by without him being involved somehow #so i might make a quick vent doodle and queue it for the actual day of my bday #i refuse to not draw myself with him at least once for my special day #its not like we 'broke up' or anything but fuck it feels so bad #he's a literal fucking ptsd trigger. how fucking insane is that #im still in shock. im still in shock over what happened to me like i cant fucking believe it #wearing his necklace makes me cry so i just leave it on my dresser #that shouldnt be normal!!!! #but im hoping that shipping with barbie/ken is going to help me feel like i can reclaim control over my ships #bc my abuser made me feel like... i had no control over my TF ships whatsoever for a solid year #so now that i'm finally free of that toxicity i'm still shakily trying to learn how to ship again #i'll have moments where i'll worry ken will try to hurt me on purpose bc im so used to my abuser telling me how abusive any f/o would be #but then i tell myself 'hey what the fuck. this is MY story. NOBODY would abuse me i dont care WHO they are' #but it's so hard to unlearn several months of abuse 😔 #and even harder to look at a character who i invested so much time and energy and money into #my voice clips. my cameos. all of my steve blum autographs. my art for steve. all of it feels sad and numbing #not just stsc but everyone in any TF universe feels like... a threat and i get panic attacks when i see very specific characters sometimes #its awful. it hurts so bad. i love ken so much. but nothing compares to what i had with my TF comfort characters #but it's okay bc... ken is holding my hand and he might not understand ptsd at all but he can still squeeze me tight #and six HAS c-ptsd he GETS it. and he's there to hold me when my nightmares make me fall apart. he's my rock #vent #ptsd #sorry it's 5am i had a bad nightmare and now i refuse to sleep again #i fucking hate ptsd i fucking hate living like this i rly wish i knew how to cure myself #im exercising im eating and drinking often im sleeping as much as i can #theres only so much i can do #when does it get better?? when the fuck does it get better? im serious. not rhetorical. when does this finally heal #i dont even know if im healing or if im just distracted... but fuck ill take anything

[theclearblue]

There's something so beautiful about Pudding's story where you see her get blatantly mocked and insulted by her own mother, and seeing her internalize it so deeply by having this alternate persona of someone who is creepy and mean and also wants to tear other people down because that's all she knows!! But when Sanji shows genuine and true kindness to her for the first time about her third eye she doesn't know how to handle it at all, trying constantly to keep her facade of being "crazy" up but it keeps shattering in the face of Sanji's kindness to her. The way she just goes back to being a normal teenage girl instead of shaping herself around the insecurities her mother gave to her and learning how to receive and give kindness back to others. The way that she grows throughout Whole Cake Island is so amazing I'm so emotional over it.

#god. she deserves the world #i know oda is one of the best writers because he somehow depicted a toxic mother/daughter relationship so perfectly #and we get to see her heal from that?? crying over here #the themes of family in whole cake island are truly eating my brain away #not a ship post for sanji and pudding btw but i do think her crush on him is very realistic and kinda cute lol #one piece #whole cake island #pudding #sanji #op liveblog

[etherealsign282]

"omg you're so negative", omg you use optimism and people pleasing toleration (bc you're afraid of people being mad for any standards to who you're "positive" toward) as an ego boost, to try and act superior to people who still hate their rxpists/abusers. And who don't go "live laugh love 🫶" to cringe their enemies to death with fake niceness

Y'all swear you're positive and love and light but you're way too into how other people cope with literal trauma bc it's not cute uwu fake positive shit, so you gotta trash on them and say the most bitter shit in a backhanded, "pretending to be uwu concerned" way, and literally all it does is show how fake and snobby and pressed you are about shit that is literally none of your business. If you're so fucking busy "healing" and "moving on" that you don't have fucking time for other people being "negative" then WHY do you fucking waste your time shitting on them in the first place? I can't stand people who bitch and whine about how certain shit is a waste of time when it's more of a waste to bitch and whine.

I'm allowed to vent shit about my abuser because it doesn't hurt anybody, it just ANNOYS you. You're not allowed to use your fake love and light shit to condemn people for being bitter bc you're too secretly bitter to keep to yourself and have to make every other victim the problem, because it hurts the VICTIM'S. Got it? Good.

#trauma #coping skills #coping #cope and seethe #fake #toxic positivity #superiority complex #idk where this rant went #rant post #vent account #cptsd #this is for my bitter friends #the ones who don't pretend to be full of love and light to cope with abuser rhetoric #about how if we stay too mad at our abusers then we're somehow as bad as them #yes i'm bitter #toxic #abuse survivor #true words

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#ugh. im feeling chatty today. probably bc i feel kinda weirdly anxious. like when u can Imagine bad things happening in detail #and like it feels like ur wait for it even tho its in ur imagination? whatever. anyway. ive been watching a lotta #stuff on like professional artists and idk maybe im just in too deep on science academia but i dont. i dunno the culture #seems so weird to me? like what does one do in art school? i guess i took a lot of art in high school but my teacher was kinda trash #all we did was paint realisticly using a grid and i hated that. but i image ur supposed to exercise different styles and medias? how tf #does that get graded? i dunno. i haven't taken any uni level art classes. i should tho. id probably like it #its weird tho. anything that tries to give structure to art stuff seems so weird to me. like u go to school for science stuff to build up #ur background knowledge and i guess u can do that with art but it feels different. i guess bc ur training muscle memory. i dunno #i like to imagine an au where i go to art school but i legitimately cannot fathom doing that. cannot fathom a life outside of my toxic #relationship with academia. i dont even kno what i would want to specialize if i went down that path. maybe illustration #bc it makes me happy when ppl say my style looks like something out of a kids book. i dunno #i guess classes would help with things like forcibly learning shadows and anatomy and composition #maybe i just need to make art friends. like what is ur life like? im too much in a science bubble #i guess going to art school also just devotes all ur time to art. not just tiny pockets of time between all the things u have to get done #god. i can only imagine the panic of procrastinating an art project and physically not having enough time to finish it #thats how i felt with my masters thesis. there was just physically not enough time for me to fix my code in all the ways i needed and rew #rewrite things. but i finished it somehow #ugh. god. i have things i need to finish coloring. i will finish them today. i will #i hate coloring. but colors r so pretty ;_; #unrelated

[gumm1defloor]

I think Velvette x Valentino & Alastor x Rosie are gradually becoming the only two relationships I care about in the Hazbin fandom at this point

#Velvette & Valentino because we somehow haven't seen them have one single full conversation with each other #despite them working and living under the exact same building but ok #I like to think Valentino is Velvette's favourite model sometimes #her own shitty bitchy little muse. #(queer-platonic toxic yuri idk). #(they have matching belt buckles and heart shape patterns around their neck they can be cute when they want to!) #and Alastor & Rosie bcuz they are just #them #hazbin hotel shitposts

[lalalaugenbrot]

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#the way horoscope bs is marketed amongst and by young! people today is sickening #and to make it even more disturbing it's now being blended and advertised with tiktok psychology speech #i just got an insta ad promoting some sort of hip ''''service'''' where they would help me (finally) find toxic-free relationships #based on freaking horoscopes #where they were assining 'toxic trait types' to certain starsigns and birthdates #WHAT #people are in all honesty just sick in the head #and they probibly think themselves liberal and modern for not being 'religious' and being woke and open minded or idek #this is so SO SO utterly disturbing #how people are making some sort of prejudicing science out of this complete and utter crap #and knowing HOW MANY people actually believe in this nowadays #like 10 15 years ago hososcopes were like 'you'll fall in love this week' #'watch out for xyz this week' #and some call in shows were very few people would spend very insane amounts of money by calling there #but today it's an entire industry of influencers and idek i probably just know the tip of the iceberg #and the way people treat it as this legitimate and somehow selfcary way of handling relationships and mental health is INSANE #I N S A N E #it actually scares me #i still somehow have this belief we grew up with where every generation will be more reasonsble than the previous one #but... well

[crownedwille]

everytime i go on yrtwt and think it might be fun, i lose ten years of my life

#i guess this is a hate post alskjhdh #honestly just don't vibe with it it's so exhausting and the things people just say there with full confidence... #at least i feel like here on tumblr we have a semi-healthy discourse and you can have different opinions and nunanced discussions #but twitter just feels so loud and privacy invading and intense to a level that just seems toxic #i follow one person on twitter and that is already enough for me i can barely stand it but i have never been a fan of twitter fandoms #somehow in every fandom I've been the twitter fandom is just always toxic af #maybe they say the same about tumblr idk and it's definitely not perfect here but i still enjoy it a lot more #no wonder the guys had to say something like pls be respectful to me and my friends etc. bc twitter really is a hell hole #no wonder edvin isn't as active there bc i wouldn't wanna be a part of that either and be subjected to some of that stuff there #yrtalk #at least here i can write my silly little tags and silly little fanfics and they're not gonna see it and not be affected by it

[potatoesandsunshine]

everybody thinks they have the best tabletop campaign but actually me and my friends are doing it better than it's ever been done.

#we are in a STATE right now. jane is 1) a vampire. 2) in love. 3) possessed. 4) taking warlock levels. #a new character just joined in who is somehow accidentally EXACTLY the culmination of every single one of #the fears jane's mentor made very sure were driven home when she started teaching her necromancy. #AND her mentor is maybe in her eye? maybe opening a door in her eye? maybe going to explode her head? #dr aravis you are so toxic but also really pretty hot. sorry about the eye thing #glance now over the wrong shoulder #what if your sith mentor/grad school advisor was also a gilf... #and she taught you things but never enough to quench your thirst for knowledge or attention. BUT enough to blackmail you with #in case she ever needed a lever on you. yeah. also they really need to audit the wizard university finances. #because jane was truly spending THOUSANDS on components. and for what.

[sarakiz]

Tessa Virtue / Scott Moir (CAN) - CD: Tango Romantica

Vancouver Winter Olympics 2010 - Compulsory Dance

#virtue/moir #tessa virtue #scott moir #vancouver 2010 #ice dance #figure skating #fskateedit #fskatingedit #oh boo my attempt at funky formatting didn’t work #ik everyone has giffed this at this point but i wanted 2 do one on my own #oh and to properly mourn step seqs n close holds in ice dance. rip #my toxic trait is i hate pattern music #which makes me feel responsible somehow for the demise of the cd.....sorry #for what its worth the tango romantica is my favorite pattern btw <3 #can we talk abt how tessa is practically sideways on some of those edges like #unreal

[purplelea]

Twewy native Pre week 2 neku and kh1 Riku would be the most toxic friend group ever

I had to specify neku as twewy native because in dream drop josh straight up said they all died and that's why they got sent to traverse town. But given his lines it's clear he's at least past peak asshole neku.

Thoughts?

OH YEAH VERY TRUE. but actually I don't even think they'd be friends, if that makes sense. Riku needs someone kind who looks up to him (like Sora and Kairi), and Neku pre-twewy... isn't that. Neku on the other hands needs people he can relate to and who share his worldviews (ex: how he got along with Joshua in week 2 and was able to have many interesting discussions with him despite, yknow, thinking Joshua murdered him). So it wouldn't actually work if there was only the two of them: Riku doesn't share Neku's values of shutting himself from people because he's scared of getting hurt & hurting them. And Neku only looks up to CAT.

#léa replies #it's interesting to think about tho. if somehow they were hanging out... it would honestly not be very good. for anyone. #now you got me thinking about how Riku's low self-esteem can be a parallel to Beat and Shiki but each have a different way to deal with it #Riku's low self-esteem becomes jealousy when he sees someone else hang out with Sora (he puts the blame on others) #a reaction that appears to be similar to Beat who's angry at for example kariya when Rhyme dies #but it's actually just a facade. and he's mostly angry at himself for his incompetence #and Shiki on the other hand gets jealous of Eri but turns that against herself to the point that she tries to erase her own self #so she can reach Eri's supposed perfection #so we have a broad range of reactions to low sefl-esteem #and while Riku's is obviously the most harmful for others (increased by the fact that Maleficient and Ansem SOD took advantage of it) #i don't want to call him toxic for that. he's just a lost kid who doesn't know how to handle change. just like Kairi is. #and that's why they drift apart with Sora trying to chase both of them because he's the only one who is able to handle change. #his issues lie elsewhere. #anyway i could swear i was going somewhere with this but i had dinner in between so i forgor... #maybe something about how yeah Neku was toxic pre-twewy but i don't think Riku was before it all went downhill in kh1 #it's really Maleficient and Ansem's manipulation who made him go the extra mile and hurt others when he only wanted to save Kairi #and yeah i guess making the words fall and trying to kill Sora is pretty toxic at this point lmao #thanks for the ask! #twewy spoilers #twewy #kingdom hearts

[xxjeffthekillerxx]

can we please discourage kids from being the heros in internet drama..??? idk pitting kids against each other to try and fix situations involving incredibly serious topics when they themselves cant even fully grasp such concepts just doesnt sound very healthy. i dont think that type of peer pressure, stress, or responsibility is good for a kids development

#txt #very basic concept #the furry and art community in particular seems to have an issue #like hmmm maybe the foxiboxi situation was actually not good at all and its absolutely horrible that someone had their reputation ruined fo #because of incredibly over exaggerated alligations made by a child is not good #and with the croaket or wutever their name was “rendering process” shit was actually really bad and its incredibly lucky that the artist #being targetted (being a minor) is still making art on a different social platform and even so #being absolutely dogpiled by an entire app just because you draw the eyes to high up and they start faking screenshots of you saying the #n word and accusing you of drawing stuff theres no actual evidence of you drawing is bound to be a traumatizing experience #especially since said artist WAS A MINORRRRRRR #we need to raise the minimun age for social media #rants #i told my mom about the croaket drama one time and she was dare i say flabbergasted and horrified for me #tiktok is a genuinely harmful social platform that has somehow managed to be both the most toxic social platform while also being #simultaneously being one of the most moderative and oppressive social apps available. #saying the word ass ❌❌❌❌❌ harrasing a minor off the app for drawing the forehead too small ✅✅✅✅😊 #proof phones ruined the internet #genuinely tiktok needs to be an 18+ app simply for how its used to harrass and bully people #like genuinely its such a trauma filled app #people seem to be way more focussed on the “china spy on u” and “its addictive” side of tiktok like YEA its a addivitive but just take a #mere glance at the community on there. THAT SHOULD BE THE MAIN WORRY #KIDS SHOULD NOT BE ALLOWED TO POST ON AN APP THAT GIVES THEM THE POWER TO BUILD SUCH A BIG AUDIENCE SO EASILY #THIS APP SURE AS HELL AINT SAFE FOR KIDS UNDER 13 AND STILL ISNT SAFE FOR KIDS ABOVE 13 DUDE #14 IS NOT THAT MATURE #14 IS NOT MATURE ENOUGH TO BUILD AN ONLINE AUDIENCE AND LEAD WITCHHUNTS #14 IS NOT MATURE ENOUGH TO POST ON TIKTOK

[dauntingday]

on this episode of freaks on the internet dictate my life choices

#fellas i somehow slept until 1pm woke up for approximately one hour and then napped until 5pm #the day is basically over but i (day) have just begun and i feel like being toxic #and yes both of these things are constantly rotating in my brain at any given time #i ordered groceries from one of those apps on friday bc i been Havin Issues (tm) and i'm absolutely losing my mind #the guy brought me the wrong orange juice it is “low acid” i was like what the fuck is this #it's soooooooooo much better than what i asked for #imagine: oranges but they aren't so mean #some background on both in case that influences anyone's choices: #like two days ago i saw a post that said shallow by daughter was kavinsky coded. this then subsequently inspired an hour long playlist #and adjacent to that playlist we gave kavinsky horrors as a fun little treat #call me the guy at the fair making cotton candy bc i'm here to INSPIRE AWE AND WONDER #context for mha fantasy au is i keep getting soldier/poet/king edits of the main three and they're right #also The Outro you know the one. that one. people keep making aus based on that but touya is evil #and that is not the VIBE he deserves justice (a funky hat and an unreasonably small guitar with which to create mischief)

[thotsfortherapy]

y'all I have finally breached the subject of my terrible housemate with the other ppl we live with (who are also close mutual friends) and they have also noticed the weird vibes and are siding with me... Which is very big for them cause they hate confrontation and admitting that there is any sort of problem so 👀👀 it feels like things are Happening

#cy says stuff #personal #fingers crossed they just keep up the distant act and then move out when school is over cause that would be perfect for me personally #but they literally just like avoid everyone leave whenever ppl come down #dont say hi even when you speak directly to them like #like it is hardcore distance #but apparently when they saw my other housemates in other places they were like omgggg it's been so long how are youuu :)))))))) #like. yeah it's been long cause you run back to your room whenever you hear footsteps??? #like they ran through the living room while everyone was sitting there yesterday and my housemate waved and them #and asked them a question and the only reason they actually stopped to respond was cause they ran into my chair and then the chair next to #next to me LMAO #and then the door on the way out fhfhfhfhfhfhfj #so like. bruh i really do not know what is going in their head or if they're trying to like get back at me for setting hard boundaries #cause tbh i would not be surprised if they somehow twisted this where they are the victim .... #but like they fr have made everyone in the house cry cause of how mean they are and have just straight up insulted ppl to their faces #whenever they feel defensive or are in a bad mood like... nah they're so toxic fr fr #anyways.... that is all 🙏 #also we hung out without them at a friend's today so i feel like it has been mutually decided they have been voted off the island... #one of my housemates was like friends are supposed to make your life easier.... #and i was like 👀👀👀👀👀 #👀👀👀👀👀 #anyways fjgjf