#probably just stress

[mycological-mariner]

encephalopathy really does suck ngl coz it’s like “oh I wanna articulate something but I don’t know what that thing is or why I want to articulate it and haven’t we had this conversation already and sorry I’ve just forgotten your name and what is the name of that thing you use to call people on shotgun?? anyways sorry for being repetitive don’t mean to be annoying what were I saying?”

#it’s like this cycle of your own brain just gaslighting you #memory loss is a pain #spelling is a pain #not being able to communicate is a pain #it’s honestly frustrating and makes you wanna just cry #actively struggling to carry a conversation because you keep getting confused #and when it’s in person you can barely hear them it’s like listening to random noises that kinda sound like human speech #at least online I can scroll back and read previous messages #encephalopathy you mother fucker lol #it feels like it’s worse but probably I’m just imagining things #probably just stress #anyways #rambling #delete later

[asbestieos]

hmm veru wirried aboutwork today i can visibly see and feel myself shaking . the muscle weakness hella bad today

#ill be fine i can still make drinks just wondering fitheres an underlying issue to my muscle weakness #other tahn stress #probably just stress #astaposting

[july-19th-club]

seriously have been thinking about this all night long. call me autistic but the fact that 90% of workplaces the point is not to get your work done and then be done doing it but to instead perform an elaborate social dance in which you find something to do even when you're done doing everything you need to do in order to show your fellow workers that you, too, are Working . because you are at Work . disgusting why cant we all agree that if there is no work immediately to be done. we just dont do anything

#i personally like to not be doing things constantly at all times. it stresses me out #i know there are ppl who thrive on cosntant activity #but me i like to chill out. #and the problem then becomes that i only ACTIVELY remember to do work and Find More Work To Do when im stressed #at the thought that others might want to see me working #if im ever relaxed i just dont look for stuff to do #catch 22 of modern work culture which permeates even ostensibly noncapitalist structures like public libraries #for instance: will it really kill anybody if the books get shelved by me now after a very busy day? #or shelved tomorrow morning by. well probably me since i'll be the one at the desk #not in the slightest #but it was work that wasnt being immediately done by me. therefore it was incorrect behavior #that i failed to identify because my instinct is to relax when not immediately presented with a Situation #this got me labeled as 'having no initiative' by my dad from a very early age #and even as an adult i still feel like im a child with no initiative

[factual-fantasy]

Oh copy/paste and desktop Tumblr, how I've missed you so XDD

I'm still unable to sit at my desk for as long as I'd like to.. but I can sit long enough to draw some comics here and there at least! One of which being a (somewhat) angsty comic with Grim and V! Did you really think they escaped my angst curse?? It was only a matter of time before I cursed them as well! XDD

But for real, I've wanted to draw something angsty with Grim and V for a while now. And I'm glad I was finally able to! Even if its kind'aaa more of a goofy comic with angsty undertones rather than full on angst. XDD

The more I draw these two, the more lore I start to build in the background... I wonder if I should explore Grim's more serious angst sometime.. 😈😈

#do not tag as ship #pokemon scarlet and violet #gengar #sylveon #gardevoir #Gengar is really fun to draw :}} #trying to draw him with different expressions but keeping his eyes and mouth looking “gengar-ish” is a fun challange #sylveon is just WAY off model but that's what made this comic fun and goofy XDD #And what a sweetheart Gloria is #Grim and V sleeping near each other is likely normal and didn't raise any suspicion amongst the group #but Gloria could probably sense the stress and emotion in V with her psychic powers and what not #so she made him a sammich and some tea as a pick-me-up🥺💖

[pangur-and-grim]

it’s hard for me to feed myself right now (just in terms of physical ability), so my mom drove me and the animals to her place. she carried the cats in first, because I had to butt-scoot up the front stairs, and once inside, Pangur got scared and ran. she’s tucked herself away somewhere, and nobody can find her. I probably could, and I could lure her out and make her feel safe again, except that I’m largely immobile. I keep falling on the crutches and fucking my leg up further, and the likeliest hiding spots are up or down a fleet of stairs. it’s been 4 hours, and it’s killing me not to look for her. I’m so tempted to crawl down the basement stairs, broken leg be damned.

#I have bad object permanence and anxiety #so my brain is saying ‘she’s gone forever’ #she’s definitely in the house but I’m getting scared bc worst case scenario is that stress has brought on a medical condition #and that she’s stuck somewhere and needs help but I can’t get to her #I know she’ll probably just come out later in the night once she feels safe. but it’s hard to lie here like a lump waiting

[stuckinapril]

libraries were literally created for lonely little girls who would then go on to become lonely fully grown women btw

#i'll just be studying at the library and then i'm suddenly transfixed by the way humanity rolls off the books in waves #the library was there for me when i was a cripplingly shy teenage girl #now it's there for me as a chronically stressed pre-med/stem student #and it will probably be there for me when i'm 56 divorcing my third husband #we love libraries #text

[wazzappp]

Khaji Da does NOT like how vulnerable Jaime is when he’s sleeping. So they resolve that, once Jaime is asleep, they will position themselves into the optimal sleeping situation. Back to the wall (Khaji protected), attached to the corner ceiling (where they can see everything and have a height advantage), and keeping Jaime as close to his usual sleeping position as possible (stomach sleeper).

You may be wondering ‘how is it this gets found out if Khaji makes sure they do it while Jaime is asleep?’ Welllll….

#blue beetle #blue beetle 2023 #jaime reyes #bianca reyes #khaji da #my art #sketch #my first time trying to draw movie Bianca sorry she’s a little rough I love her I promise #khaji doesn’t tell Jaime cause like #they’re already planning on changing so much. and the stress levels on this poor boy. oof. #probably better for his overall health to just not tell him about this #eepy boy. sleeping scrunched style. eepy lil bug.

[mintjeru]

rough day?

open for better quality | no reposts

#kaveh #alhaitham #kavetham #genshin impact #genshin #fanart #myart #doodle #i'm fine!! probably. i just wanted to draw alhaitham being comforted #while it is funny that he became acting grand sage despite not liking leadership positions- #i do feel bad for him just bc those positions often entail much more stress and work #kaveh gives him hug hugs and patpats and chu chus to help him feel better! and they will talk about whatever's bothering him #while i would love to wish for alhaitham this coming update i think we all know my priorities lie with a certain adeptus #i will have him eventually though #for kvthm reasons and personal reasons #unrelated but i also got k.hadein b.yleth in feh this morning. if anyone plays #snagged two 4 stars early into pity and decided that was a sign to stop #it's good though i have feathers so he's a merged 5 star now #didn't even have to whale 😌 #'whale' meaning i spend the 2k orbs i've been saving since forever

[ironinkpen]

The interpretation of Rise Raph as a 'perfect responsible soft boy uwu' is so BORING I'm sorry, Raph is a rowdy adrenaline junkie with anxiety and I won't take this slander any longer

Raph secretly kept an enemy soldier in their actual literal house as a sparring partner. Raph glued his brothers together and dragged them out to fight crime. Raph once asked Leo to punch him in the face to prove he 'takes damage like a boss.' Raph tried to lift a school bus, twice. Raph offered to help his favorite wrestler beat his little brother up. When Leo suggests evacuating Bullhop, Raph says no bc the best defense is a good offense babey. Raph's idea of a 'friendly chat' with April's upstairs neighbor is to put on a black ski mask and go stand menacingly at their door. It takes Raph 10 episodes to conclude that they should MAYBE start training. Raph's plan to get a potentially priceless (and potentially FRAGILE) museum artifact is to punch a car in the middle of a busy street and also cut it in half with his brother still inside.

Raph's never met a problem he wouldn't try to punch in the face and does not know the meaning of the words 'excessive force.' He roughhouses with his bros and drags them out to fight villains and thinks any plan that doesn't involve an all-out brawl is boring and lame. He'll do anything to protect his family from harm and be a hero, but also he eats wet salami off the floor and once single-handedly destroyed a library.

I just adore how, at his core, Rise Raph is such a classic Raph—impulsive and stubborn and caring and passionate. He is a very sweet, strong, honorable guy who has a very powerful sense of personal responsibility... and he is also the exact kind of jock who throws you in the pool at a party without checking if you have your phone in your pocket first.

#rottmnt #rottmnt raph #raph #don't worry then he'll freak out and buy you a new one #anyway! raph rules!!!!! #and i think the movie has made some people interpret him as like the 'responsible mom' character which is a bummer #bc that's really not him at all #like this is not even NEARLY a complete list of raph's shenanigans #he's a hooligan a fool a dumbass (affectionate) #he loves big flashy exciting fights and does not spare a single thought to stealth 90% of the time #he gets distracted on missions taking selfies with pizza pigeons and wrestlers #and gets annoyed in eps like Bug Busters when leo suggests being more cautious #he would die for his brothers but also he's definitely the type to like. walk into their rooms and sit on them for fun #he values responsibility so much but also makes the most batshit decisions ever #and has probably caused the state of new york thousands of dollars in damages #and he's NOT the boys' dad jesus christ #he grows slightly more serious over the course of the series (out of stress :(() #but at his core he's just a kid who loves fighting and being a hero #and i love him so much ok!!!!!!

[picopubbydawg]

riv-yo and spear-suke…. ponyo be upon ye

#digital art #artblr #rain world fanart #rain world #rain world downpour #rainworld #rw #slugcat #millie’s rw anthro au #rw downpour #probably the last i’m going to draw of these #ik it wasn’t really my fault but the whole situation with the last post really stressed me out #def not the end of rw anthro stuff tho #just these ghibli crossovers #rw rivulet #rw spearmaster #spearvulet #rw shipping #rw fishstick

[tortured-chicken]

Important news for Sonadow enjoyers: you can make the Jakks Pacific Sonic Prime dolls hold hands. :)

#jakks pacific #sonic prime #toys and dolls #sonic the hedgehog #shadow the hedgehog #sonadow #i was saving shadow to open next week #but i just booked 4 flights and i'm so stressed i opened him now to try to trick myself into calming down #probably the 1am coffee was a bad idea #probably the university approving me for exchange was a bad idea #too late to back out now those suckers are not refundable

[concidineart]

"I CHOOSE BLOOD!"

#dsmp #technoblade #mcyt #I pulled up the vod while coloring this and realized he's using his sword during this fight orz #anyway this is a page from my sketchbook #i've got a few more pages i'll probably color #originally had plans on making them really nice #but now i just want to use them as some low stress coloring exercises

[beatcroc]

peppino "never tell the health inspector" spaghetti

hey! it's a series! fake peppino world tour: [noise] [noisette] [peppino] [gustavo]<- u are here [gerome] [noisette again]

#pizza tower #peppino spaghetti #fake peppino #gustavo and brick #protip: if u dont have a real joke u can just drop a buzzword instead and that will still mostly work. #...emphasis on mostly. this one is not my best but i still had to do it bc one of the later ones will reference it 😔✊ #hopefully will b more on the ball for the next one [w/ gerome] bc i have been very looking forward to that one for a Long time #anyways. #ive more or less conceded to fp having a 'dough-like' texture/consistency and while i dont know Exactly what id say hes made of #i cannot stress enough that that material is the LAST thing you'd ever want to be eating #it probably wouldn't kill you and hes not like hazardous to touch or anything but you would get very sick for a bit i think. #also if u saw my poll from a bit ago yes this is why i was thinking about that fjjghhfdjh #that said. the fact he knows fp is a liability and still lets him stay around... speaks volumes i think #pizzaposting

[adamsrcnan]

OKAY OKAY here we goooo an annoyingly long-ish post about all my thoughts on The Sunshine Court

Spoilers Spoilers Spoilersss you've been warned

First things first it is so interesting to see Nora writing from not one but TWO new people's perspective. Jean's perspective is just devastating being inside his head is heartbreaking the constant fear and panic and how much of his energy is used on just pushing down every memory of what was done to him. His coping mechanisms are terrifying and i truly do hope by the end of book 2 he has a healthier way of dealing with it bc baby boy stop hurting yourself :( Every sentence was so painful to read. But also his resilience the entire time to get through it no matter what, god i fucking love him!!! He is a fighter.

Jeremy's perspective is sooooo refreshing. He is such a little sweetheart i could cry. The fact that he sends hand written letters and he's so caring and genuine but he can also be so stern. When he dropped that "i asked you a question" to Lucas fkehdjdfjdh OK SIR. I'M SAT. His relationship with the family butler is so endearing as well i need more background on that for sure! My only one criticism is that he didn't have enough pov chapters and i'm hoping we'll learn more in the second book of course because there's still so much about him and his (dysfunctional? toxic?) family dynamic that we don't know yet but also i'm greedy and i wanna know EVEYTHING about him !!!

Kevin and Jean are so just tragic it actually breaks my fucking heart like "you didn't have to slit my throat on the way out" JEAN??? and "promise me you won't try again. I can't lose you." KEVIN??? And the fact that Jean to this day is still keeping that promise. Also Jean's obvious but secret long term crush on Kevin the way it's subtly dropped every time Jean has to stamp down on his desire's and "temptations" GOD PLEASE I CAN'T STAND IT

SPEAKING OF!!! BISEXUAL JEAN ??? BI JEAN??? BI JEANNNN !!!!

Neil and Jean oh my God like where do i even start?? The guilt Jean feels at what happened to Neil in the Nest and him finally calling him by his name after Riko's death and telling him his game was good. And Neil seriously needs to give himself more credit for how much of a caring person he is because the way he indirectly told Jean that he thinks he is worth saving and didn't even hesitate before asking Stuart to send someone after That Guy after what Jean told him. Neil Josten the man that you are!!!

Jean's little sister Elodie what a beautiful name. Them being so close and him reading to her. The way he found out about her death jolted me differently. It was so awful and i'm so sorry Jean didn't get to see her grow up and meet her again.

Renee and Jean oh my god. Jean thinking she's beautiful (bitch me toooo) And the whole right person wrong time ugh i can't stand it. Him wearing her necklace all the time, enough that Jeremy always notices it. And unabashedly stealing her picture from the foxes lounge. Like he did not give a fuck. He said this one is mine. One good reason to stay alive being rainbows i'm gonna FKSJSKDHDH. Theirs would be such a soft love.

Speaking of soft loves Laila and Cat are EVERYTHINGGGG. God they are so cute with their little domestic life and their rich gay boy son who crashes on their couch with his cardboard cut out dog. That whole friendship dynamic is beautiful. Their fierce protectiveness and care over Jean as well and the patience they have with him even after the little kitchen incident. When Cat took Jean out for a drive on her motorcycle god that was such a heart warming moment and Jean helping them cook as well and becoming the girls' little sous chef it's so cute so endearing !!!

FINALLY FINALLY THE JEREJEAN DYNAMIC

PLEASE I'M GONNA SCREAM

Jeremy being the one who told Jean that Riko was dead i don't even know what to begin with THAT like hhhhhhh. The way they're both stupidly attracted to each other but won't/can't do anything about it. THE WHOLE "say yes Jeremy" SCENE WTF WAS THATTT I WAS GOING INSANEEEE. Both of them having to stop mid sentence when they catch the other looking FINE as hell. Jean being so obvious that even Lucas picks up on the way he looks at Jeremy. Jeremy being there to ground Jean in a Moment and helping him come down from it. Grabbing his face and telling him he's okay. Moving into the room with him to make him feel more comfortable !! The way Jean grabs Jeremy's chin (boiiiii). Jeremy constantly reminding Jean that he is NOT A RAVEN ANYMORE no matter how many times he has to say it. Jeremy saying he'll wait as long as it takes until Jean speaks to him. JEREMY GIVING HIM A HUG AND JEAN CLUTCHING DESPERATELY TO HIS SHIRT FUUCUFHDHSJHSSUHDH and then the "will you help me?" And the "Anything you need" AND THEY'RE GOING TO TAKE A CERAMICS CLASS TOGETHER?!?!?!!!! i can't i can't i can't i caaan'ttt

There's so much more to say but i'm gonna leave it at this for now because i need to go re-read it again and take my time with it this time round but i really could not have asked for anything better Nora truly outdid herself here !!! I'm forever grateful she blessed us with this after so long.

#i will probably be talking about all of this and more when it's safer to do so without spoilers #but yeah i just i cannot stress enough how PERFECT it was #everything i could want and more #god i love nora sm #the sunshine court spoilers #tsc spoilers #the sunshine court #tsc #all for the game #aftg #jean moreau #jeremy knox #renee walker #kevin day #neil josten #laila dermott #catalina alvarez #usc trojans #jerejean #jeanee #kevjean

[ayatheav]

a prime number

#reverse 1999 #r1999 #reverse 1999 37 #fanart #my art #been playing since global launch but first art #i just think she's pretty #ive been stressed and busy. save me gacha game #i did get shamane so yippee #i do really enjoy the game artistically so ill probably be doing more

[doomordestiny]

charlie is like a cryptid to me bc he lives in like the middle of nowhere, nobody ever sees him outside, he never attends cc events, and he acts like That. he is not real. that man is something other than human.

#i mean this lovingly #hes just a funky goopy guy idk #cryptid little slime ball #charlie slimecicle #slimecicle #gloom grumbles #i think ik why he doesnt go to events and i dont blame him they seem stressful #he seems so nice to meet tho but id probably explode bc wdym ur real