#people noticed but not like other cities

[xceanlynx]

Tomorrow will be one of, if not the hottest day of the year. The heatwave has been very severe, some states have been measuring up to 42°C (107,6 °F). Rio de Janeiro had a thermal sensation of 52,7 °C (127°F) at 8:30am.

Seriously... the end of times is very near.

#brazil #the heatwave has been “mild” here where I live #like here it's hot all the time anyway #people noticed but not like other cities #also my city is in the coastline so the winds help just a tiny bit #but anyway #we are all going to die

[elizabethemerald]

I wish you would write a fic where the ultimate portal caused Claire to become a half-ghost like in Danny Phantom

Claire focused, past the pain in her hands, on the staff in her hands. She could feel her body splintering and breaking, cracks spreading up her hands and arms and out from her eyes. This was going to kill her, but as long as she could get the remainder of Trollmarket out, as long as she could save her friends, save Jim, she would be ok with her fate. 

She felt Jim join her with a hand on the staff, she heard him shout as he did so. The unbearable, excruciating pain of the portal ripping through her reduced a little as first Jim, then Toby, then Aaarrrgghh and Blinky and finally her little brother. It wasn’t enough, she knew even with them trying to take on some of the load, that this would still be her death. 

The swirling purple cloud swept out from the staff, encircling all of the trolls in the Gyre Station and for just a moment the dark purple was replaced with glowing green. Then they vanished from the station to reappear hours later. 

“What’s this?” An older, wise sounding male voice said. 

“Another? Just like me?” Said a younger male voice. 

“You are mine, body and soul.” Hissed a woman’s voice that would come to haunt her nightmares in the weeks to come. 

Claire put her hand to her head. Ever since the portal she had been feeling off. She wasn’t sleeping, could barely keep food down, and she was constantly shivering. Her dreams had been strange and terrifying but she never remembered them other than a sense of horror when she awoke. 

She shook her head and reached for one of her textbooks in an attempt to distract herself. She watched in annoyance as the book fell and slammed into her bedroom floor, driving a spike of pain between her eyes. She huffed in annoyance and crouched down to pick it up… and her hand went right through the book like it wasn’t there. 

Claire could feel her hand tingling even as she was able to it through the book and through the floor beneath it. She was panicking, but rather than feeling her breathing pick up and her heart race, she couldn’t feel either. Her feet slipped through the floor and she started sinking as her panic grew even worse. 

“Hey, Big-Eyes! I- whoa!” NotEnrique galloped into the room to grab her shoulders and tried to pull her back into her bedroom. “Come on, Sis! The ‘rents are home! Can’t have you falling into the living room!” 

She took a deep breath, her first in who even knew how long and she pulled herself the rest of the way out of the floor. There was something glowing on her chest, but she ignored it as she forced herself to be solid, and breathe and for her heart to beat like it was supposed to. 

“Don’t tell anyone about this ok?” Claire asked her brother, even as she tried to still her shaking hands. 

There was a new guy in Arcadia Oaks. He didn’t stand out that much from any of the other high school students she had seen, but something about him seemed to pull her focus. She could feel the shadows around her swirling around her ankles as she narrowed her eyes at him. She watched him breathe out a small cloud of fog, look around in confusion, then zero in on her. 

She glared at him and gripped her collapsed staff tightly in one hand and a gaggletack in the other. He hurried over to her, a friendly smile on his face, but she didn’t trust that any more than she trusted his human appearance. 

“Hi! My name’s Danny!” The stranger said. He held out a hand for her to shake. 

“I’m Claire, I’m sure you wouldn’t mind holding this for me would you?” She thrust the gaggletack toward him. 

Danny looked at her in confusion before he took the horseshoe out of her hand. He twirled it on his finger for a moment before it slipped off and hit him in the head. As he scrambled to pick up the fallen horseshoe Claire could see strange, green glowing marks on one of his hands. They didn’t look too different from the black marks she could feel on her own hands. 

“Do you want your horseshoe back?” Danny asked as he rubbed the side of his head and offered her back the gaggletack. Claire took it, but kept her eyes narrowed at him. 

“Claire!” She startled as Jim called out to her. Only a moment later her boyfriend had his arm around her shoulders as he glared at Danny. 

“Well, I’m going to head out, Claire, you and I should talk soon. I might be able to help you out a little. I know what it’s like to go through all this by yourself.” Danny handed over his phone number and waved goodbye, giving Jim a wary look as he left. 

Jim had been suspicious and paranoid about Danny, but Claire finally convinced him to keep his distance while she met with the strange guy. There was just something about him that sang to her, <Same, Same, Same> his presence seemed to say. Whatever was happening to her since the Ultimate Portal, he seemed to know and maybe could help her. 

She had all but ordered him to wait for her signal rather than escort her to the meeting. He and Toby were around the block, if she texted or if they heard anything disturbing they would intervene immediately. She rolled her eyes, as long as she had the shadow staff she would be fine, and for some reason she didn’t think Danny would threaten her. 

Danny had shown her the Litchenberg figures that crawled up his arm and told a very brief version of his accident with a portal to another world. Claire just as hesitantly showed him the black cracks that now marred her arms, she could hide them when she wanted to, but anytime she didn't focus on them they reappeared. 

Apparently they were the same. Halfas. Half alive, half dead. An exclusive club of five now. The information just about knocked the breath out of her chest and she almost fell through the floor, except Danny was able to grab her and turn her solid again. 

“By the way would you like me to get rid of your passenger?” Danny asked, glancing at her eyes, seemingly to look into her soul. Was that something Halfas could do? Claire looked at him in confusion and he explained. “Looks like you might be partially overshadowed. Er, I suppose humans call it possessed.”

“I’m possessed? Yes! If you can get rid of it, do it!”  Claire hissed, terrified of what she might have brought back with her from the portal. 

Danny reached into her chest and pulled out a glowing golden orb before tossing it aside. Claire could feel more than hear the being scream as it left and she felt like a great weight she had been carrying since the portal was suddenly gone. 

“What was that?” Claire all but shrieked, desperately keeping her voice down so Jim and Toby didn’t storm the area.  

“I don’t know, but she was powerful. I don’t think you’ve seen the last of her.” Danny looked wary, his eyes tracking something Claire couldn’t see or sense before his face brightened. “But maybe you got to keep some of her powers, my girlfriend back home was possessed by an angry plant ghost and sense then has been able to influence plants around her. We think with enough practice she might be able to fully control them too.” 

Danny didn’t stay in Arcadia for long. After he showed her how to transform into her half ghost form, and wasn’t that a trip and a half, he left. He had his own responsibilities in a city called Amity Park in Illinois. However he promised to come if she called. 

She added him, Toby and Jim to a group chat where they could all vent and share memes about the supernatural problems they dealt with. Danny added his two best friends and apparent partners, Tucker and Sam. Claire was absolutely not taking notes on what it was like to have a polyamorous triad, even if she did send lots of questions about it to Sam. 

Her and Danny talked a lot about ghostly powers and the other halfas. She knew to be wary of Vlad Masters and that Ellie Phantom was Danny’s clone/daughter and was traveling the world. Apparently Dan Phantom was Danny’s alternate time-line future self who was on parole to see if he could be trusted in this timeline. She decided she didn’t need more information and vowed not to mess with time travel. 

Danny guessed she had a “shadow-core” and that was why shadows seemed to jump to her command when she was upset. They both went back and forth before they decided she was probably a protector spirit like Danny was. Her final thoughts before the portal had taken her life were about protecting her friends and the trolls. She was a little worried about how unhealthily codependent she was with Jim and Toby, but according to Sam that was par for the course, and that Danny would freak out if any of them were hurt while out of his sight. 

Life in Arcadia continued on in a terrifying way. Gruesomes swarmed to the city in anticipation of the battle to come. Claire was able to free Draal from Gunmar’s control with her ghost form. The Defenders of Arcadia raced to Merlin’s tomb, only to find the ancient wizard wasn’t dead. And now Jim was… Jim was… in a way him slipping out of her sight in the black potion Merlin had created felt just like her opening the portal. She didn’t think he was a halfa like she was, but in the same way, Jim’s life ended and would never be the same. 

Now Morgana was free and the Eternal Night was upon them. Morgana, who had possessed her, used her to revive Angor Rot. Morgana who was one of the most powerful sorceresses in history. She desperately hoped that Team Trollhunters would be able to defend the city and the world, but she also knew that sometimes you have to call for help. 

Danny and Team Phantom answered in a big way. Danny flew his team to California and worked to defend the citizens alongside the Trollhunters. Sam worked with the local plant life to restrain and trip the Gumm-Gumm hoard while Tucker focused on coordinating emergency services and the defense. 

Claire and Danny fought side by side while Jim fought Gunmar. The two of them were barely able to defeat Morgana, with Claire wresting full control of her shadow staff from Morgana before the two of them banished her to the Shadow Realm. 

Danny apologized profusely, he had wanted to get some help from the other ghosts but something was making them nervous and behave strangely. She wasn’t sure what that was about, but she told him he could call on her and the Trollhunters would answer. Blinky mentioned possibly creating a Gyre tunnel to Amity so they could travel back and forth easier. Toby and Tucker weren’t thrilled by that announcement.

Love this prompt. I think team Trollhunters and team Phantom would work together really well. They 've both got a self-sacrificial hero, a goth who gets possessed by a powerful enemy, and a best friend who the writers are desperate to pretend is straight. oh also an enemy who literally has two faces and unhealthy obsession with the hero's mom.

Also did you think about the fact that the by becoming a halfa, The Ultimate Portal has to kill Claire at least half way? Devastating. The parents will never forgive themselves.

I forsee team Phantom eventually retreating to Arcadia if the GIW /the Elder Fentons ever go too far. Leave the ghost hunters behind and retreat to magic and fucked up city. Also the number of people in this city who have two halves is extradinarily high. Jim, Claire, Danny, Aja, Krel, Varvatos, and all the remaining changelings.

Power levels: Baseline Danny is stronger than Morgana's possession. Danny and Claire are about even with full power Morgana, making it a tense but winnable fight. Ghost King Danny is about as strong as Merlin and Morgana working together, and about as strong as any of the Arcane Order individually, though I think the full order actually working together would be able to destroy even the Ghost King, just like the Ancients against Pariah Dark.

The events of 3:Below and Wizards would play out very differently with the help of Team Phantom and I doubt that Rise of the Titans would happen at all.

Thanks for the prompt! Feel free to send me more prompts!

#danny phantom #trollhunters #tales of arcadia #crossover #danny fenton #claire nunez #Oh also both of the goths are part of powerful families in their city #i don't know you if you expected the double triads but I feel like at this point thats kind of my brand #Douxie realizes the danny is the ghost king the first time theymeet #he pretends not to notice just like he does with all the other troll/alien/ghost bullshit he's seen in his life #Jim is a jealous of Danny at first but danny gushing about his amazing boy and girlfriend changes his mind #and makes him consider some possibilities #Danny is wary of Jim because he doesn't know if jim knows about claire and he remembers how people in his city reacted to his secret (badly #also he can sense a powerful magical bond in jim ie the amulet and doesn't want to mess with any strange amulets

[bunnihearted]

🫎

#this place drives me crazy.... #i notice it esp bc when im outside and feel a tiny bit better #(unfortunately this city is a nightmare for a hypervigilant like me to live bc theres crazyyy much noise 24/7) #but my home has for the first 23yrs of my life been a noise wise calm place to wind down and be safe and relax #but a couple of years ago there was like a shift and everyone who moves in here are crazy #my neighbors are constantly stomping banging and thumping. constantly....... #people outside are always screaming and yelling and slamming doors and everything u can do #they let their kids run around and scream like demons and throw rocks on cats and piss on the walls #and they go around with metal pipes or sticks and hit everything #like.... im sorry if u wanna call me a childhater for saying thats fucked up then go ahead #that's not sane behavior and the parents dont raise their kids anymore #constant yelling.... anyway #we have a clan of ppl who do lots of illegal things which is above all NOISYYYYYY #they make shit in the apartment above me and then live in another and then large moving trucks come and pick it up #?????? if u wanna call me a stuck up karen for thinking thats not ok to do to your neighbors go ahead!!!!!! im a bitter bitch #i dont think it's ok to cause such disturbance to your neighbors they cant sleep or exist in peace but thats just me ig!!!!! #these ppl living here are batshit insane bc i've been here for 25 and it's never been like this #and i mean it's MY problem for being noise sensitive ofc #but i feel like my brain is CONSTANTLY always being overstimulated and i can barely function anymore #i like legit wanna kms just to escape all this noise #i dont get any quiet moment ever #not even in the middle of the night there is always some human making noise and causing a disturbance #a few years ago it could be dead quiet in the middle of the day #what has happened im losing my miiiiiiind i wanna dieeeeeeeee #what happens when i reach a point where my brain just overcooks and i explode? #what will i do? what will i do when i lose control sksksk that shit scares me i dont wanna see #i cant live like this but im stuck and i dont know how to get out #and my mom was in a smaller city the other day and she said it was a crazy amount of noise yhere to #what do i do? whrre do i go???? i might jusy have to go deaf or smth i cant do this

[moregraceful]

i was gonna watch the vgk-dal game to bandwagon the stars but then i realized that if i have to see hertl in that jersey even once it's literally my last day, and also mike grier's last day, on planet earth, so.

#KELLY MCCRIMMON I HOPE THE CEILING FAN FALLS ON U #pulling a dq and telling people to just throw me off a bridge honestly #i usually try to have a value-neutral position on teams idc abt but the hertl trade made me blacklist every possible variation of the #team's name and lb and every associated tag so. sorry. lol coming out of my cage and i'm not doing fine #i wrote robo/nick s instead #2.3k and nothing happens in it #they literally go drink boba and yearn for manju but the manju shop is closed #also have been given some valuable feedback. there are cities in which people recognize hockey players in the wild?? that happens in #quebec??? god imagine seeing and recognizing nick suzuki in the grocery store i would just leave #imagine seeing a shark in the grocery store i would not even notice i'd just be like get out of my way you're blocking the kombucha #so i have to do some rewriting anyway bc a chunk of the fic is like has nick suzuki ever been recognized in his life. answer: yes!!! #i assume robo is not being recognized by non-hockey fans anyway lol dallas has american football baseball and basketball #the city got other concerns #i always laugh when canadians are like isn't hockey one of your big four sports 🤨 #i'm like. tiers of american sports: 1: college basketball and college football. 2: football basketball and baseball. 2.5: hockey #u could put connor mcdavid in a grocery store and people would be like get this guy's ass out of the fruit section he's killing the vibe #i spent 20 hours at church over the weekend guys and i refused to read or answer a single email from anyone associated with church #all day bc i was like i need a break from you people. but people started texting me instead i was like .... #didn't read or answer those either lol #i was gonna refill a queue tonight but a i just spent 45 minutes on these tags b i saw a picture of trea turner that got me in my 🥺 #c was writing a touching tribute to manju and hot guys of which there are none in san jose (hot guys. there's plenty of manju #in san jose) #and now i am like. am i crazed enough to have an opinion on 150 posts in one hour?? #let's find out lmao #fresno oilers.txt

[twpsyn-who]

Today on "Another JeanMarco Soulmate AU absolutely no one asked for" I present to you -

Soulmate AU in which you stop seeing colors when your soulmate dies, the only exception being your soulmate. Now cue to Jean who just found Marco's, his best friend's, body. And you know, there's the shock of finding out Marco's dead. The pain and confusion and guilt. But there's also the revelation, because despite everything he can still see Marco like nothing took place at all- yes, half of his face is missing and his body is straight up lifeless, but Jean can still make out the color of his eye ; see that light shade of brown perfectly, remember all the times he has found himself looking at them while listening to Marco talk. He can still make out the colors of his uniform, see the same shade of black his hair has always had, practically see. Despite being dead, Marco was the only piece of color left in his life.

And there's denial for a moment because there's no way Marco was his soulmate. But that goes away fast, getting replaced by guilt. By the fact that he hasn't been there to save him, that Marco has to die all alone without anyone being there for him.

And that was worse than the simple fact that he could no longer see colors ; because Marco was there when Jean needed him, but he failed to do the same. And not only he lost his best friend that day, but his other half too.

#Anyway this fucker doesn't tell anyone about the whole soulmate thing. Not of shame of anything but because he's mourning man and also is no #One's business. Anyway the first one to find out is Armin because he notices and ever since he makes sure to mention colors as often as he #can. Like 'These flowers are a nice shade of red' or 'Green suits you well Jean! You should wear this shirt' stuff like that #Jean does appreciates it once he gets over his ego and pain and lets other people get closer to him #Funny enough Jean is the only one in that situation loool. Well I don't know about Reiner and Historia is getting there soon enough but #everyone else??? Colors everywhere man #Is both funny and sad #'Since when..?' Jean expected that question yet he wasn't truly ready to answer it. Deep down he knew he was never going to be ready for it #'Trost' his voice stains sightly while naming the city. His own city. The place he grew up in all his life. The others say nothing else #after that confession. They were all aware many has died during Trost. It wasn't that far fetched for Jean's soulmate to be some civilian #lost during the evacuations or something. But then Connie's eyes widen ever so sightly the realization sitting in. He doesn't even register #when he says 'It was Marco right?' and regrets it immediately. Jean's painful face is all the answer they needed #Also Historia ready the letter and the world losing colors while she's doing that??? Her tearing up a little but not letting herself cry #until she gets alone???? Her going to Jean once that happens and them comforting each other????? #They starts seeing colors again once Eren dies. Poor Jean is trying his best to not have a breakdown because Connie needed him more in that #moment #Reading* wtf my tags make no sens sorry guys I'm lowkey tired #aot #jean kirstein #jeanmarco #aot jean #marco bodt #marco bott #aot marco #jean kirschstein #snk #JeanMarco Soulmate AU #soulmates au #I'm not sad you are

[fuckyou-saidtheraven]

*rattles the bars of my cage*

hey mechs tumblr?

what the FUCK do you mean the angel drank bottles of dionysian wine?

#original post #fandom #the mechanisms #paragraphs in the tags #apologies since im a relatively new mechs fan but i was rereading the story of the toy soldier today #and i noticed one of the bottles the angel had been drinking from had a label #and??? it's dionysian wine??? like from labyrinth??? #and as far as i knew labyrinth never engaged in interstellar trade??? #bc of oedipus' line stating that there was pretty much nothing beyond the city's automated offworld colonies #tho the exact quote is that there's 'nothing beyond the city save the automated colonies that feed it and the empty black' #but WHAT DOES THIS MEAN???? #does this mean the olympians KNOW there's other civilizations out there and regularly engage in trade with them #and they just hush it up and spread the lie that there's no other life out there so people don't try to leave? #bc no one is supposed to escape the labyrinth? #or was the angel just a nymph who did manage to escape the city and brought a hefty supply of alcohol with them? #in which case it makes the fact that ts stole their voice and became a nymph itself morbidly hilarious #imagine youre a regular-ass employee at dionysus' place and some weird whirring automaton shows up with your dead coworker's voice #tbh im pretty sure this is old old news for most of yall #but what the hell #the mechs #ulysses dies at dawn #the angel the mechanisms #quoth the raven

[lunearobservatory]

Wearing your boyfriend's hat vs. putting your boyfriend's name on your shirt 🥰

#i'm watching every single states related episode on youtube for... reasons #and this made me giggle when i noticed it #kansas city by the mowgli's? it's more likely than you think #if this is incoherent i apologize i'm tipsy and scheduled this post for a random date and time #weeeee!!! #i hate gay people. look at them. horrible. awful. disgusting. the worst. can't believe this. #I LIVE IN A PERPETUAL HELL OF BENJAMIN BRAINARD'S MAKING!!!!!!!!! HOLY SHIT #mashing states together at the mouth like barbie dolls #anyone else out here feeling goofy and insane? #ben if you ever see this im so sorry babe look the other way #i haven't used that tag in a while but i feel like my batshit rambling deserves the warning #wttt #wttsh #welcome to the statehouse #welcome to the table #ben brainard #wttt kansas #wttt missouri

[dockaspbrak]

i feel like im not actually connected to the world anymore like i used to be and i lost whatever i had

#and now im just waiting to die orsomething #idk #i feel like norman shouldnt have gone without me #unfair #im not even a person anymore #im uselss and a disappointment to all #i can just drive #i miss having friends and being a part of a group who noticed when i wasnt there yaknow? like #a society #i feel like i slipped out somehow and i dont see people smiling anymore or enjoy sunlight on leaves or feel hopeful #i dont know when i got to be so depressed but #i managed to get a hair cut today #which sounds stupid to even mention but i am sort of agoraphobic and hadnt. managed to get one since september of last year or so #i looked stupid #the other day i went into a store with my sister and a woman was very chatty with me so i bought her a slushie and it was sweet how happy #that made her #so im just being dramatic you know its nice when someone smiles at you like directed at you #and like i did feel the sun on my arm while driving today and it felt nice and i can change as a person whenever i want #i dont like living in the city i think #i dont know what i want but i gotta make changes you know #start smoking and get a tattoo or something #i guess a lot of this is just regan and i arent that friendly right now and its making me sad #shes just busy #kinda a little bit makes me sad it was so nice when we started dating and we flirted a lot now its like im just a fixture that needs mainte #ance #everyso often #and my cats still dead #and his brother is dying #hes got lymphoma #i guess thats why im sad and sayng all this today

[gibbearish]

I've put this in the tags of a previous reblog but feel like it deserves its own post so PSA to tall people: your short friends likely have shorter legs than you and therefore physically can't walk as fast as you without exerting way more effort, they're not going slow on purpose or exaggerating/joking when they say they're more tired than you after an outing. your casual stroll is a speedwalk for them and doing that for extended periods of time is exhausting. also you will lose them in crowds way less if you make a conscious effort to match their pace rather than just assuming theyll keep up

#ive never fully understood how people accidentally leave walking companions behind without noticing #like even when we're not talking i can still hear you Moving Around next to me and like. want to stay near you? so i automatically #am checking every few seconds that youre still nearby and im not leaving you behind #and idk i guess thats such an ingrained part of me that i just. dont get how other people dont #my bf i get bc hes deaf on one side so he has no directional hearing to track me with #but even then I'm like. bro i am 15 feet behind you and it took me a While to get this far back #he be like tunnel visions thinking about playing city skylines when we get home KWNFLJWBFANFKSJ #thats /lh he only did it for a little while and got way better about compensating for my walkspeed since #i think i only had to point it out maaaaybe 5 times before it stopped coming up

[esta-elavaris]

Thinking the suprisingly wholesome thing about tumblr (and when I do a yearly IG anon thing with the NGL app, too) is that so, so few people use it to be absolute shits.

Like, 99% of the time (unless you're burdened with being a really big creator and in that case I pray for you), people use it because they're just a wee bit shy about being nice off-anon? And like same, bestie, I get it, but it makes me think of how many times I've been somewhere and I've noticed that someone has like, a gorgeous jacket or an amazing look or whatever and I'm so tempted to compliment them on it, but I am socially anxious and I don't want to be weird or creepy or I'm worried about their reaction being bad, so I say nothing? And the person never even knows that I was sitting like 😍 for a good thirty seconds debating on complimenting them. And then you realise how many people have probably had that exact same feeling around you, so they just sort of quietly admire and move on because slipping an anonymous note into someone's jacket being like "your vibe is God Tier" is serial killer behaviour.

With the IG thing, for example, I remember a friend who I have a very joke-y banter relationship with used it as a chance to be like 'I never say this because we don't talk like that but I really respect and admire you and I'm glad we're friends" and it just stopped me in my tracks bc it's so easy for us as individuals to just never think others go around thinking that way?

#i remember we did a game like that at a social thing i was at in my old city #where everybody had a sheet of paper with their name at the top #and it got passed around and everybody wrote something they thought about them #[it was a very healthy environment so it wasn't awkward and nobody was an asshole] #and i was so prepared for like just a list of stilted awkward compliments bc people were like 'oh god well i have to write SOMETHING' #but instead i ended up with a big list of really lovely personal things that people had noticed? #and it just stoped me in my tracks #especially bc i'm so quiet in person so i always assume the worst by assuming others are assuming the worst #idk there's some good in this world mr frodo etc etc

[clowngremlin]

it's kind of like amazing what being properly medicated and like leaving ur house and doing things with other people and like being a part of ur community can do for ur mental health.....

#the wretched gremlin strikes again #like i went on the group outing for the mental health centre club house yesterday and i had group therapy today #and i go to events at the cinema and like the guys at the cinema know me by name #and the people at the pharmacy know me and always ask how i'm doing when i'm in there even when i'm not getting my prescriptions #and like i used to have pretty bad social anxiety and i've noticed since i was put on the zoloft my social anxiety is basically like gone #and like i talk to my neighbours and stuff when i'm out with my dad and the dog #it's kind of wild just how much better i'm doing now compared to like last year #also like i'm being given access to like resources #like the mental health centre club house can help me access housing support and like job support and other supports #like learning how to cook and other programs like the social things and the exercise program and music therapy and mindfulness programs!! #and like i actually have a case manager and psychiatrist #and i have regular appointments and i go to group therapy now too!!! #lots of people are like living in a small town sucks so bad #and like yeah there isn't too much to do here but i'm actually doing a lot better in a smaller town than i did in the city #in the city like i was not given any kind of resources or support because there's so many people who also need it #and there's only so many resources available and often times i'm not considered someone who should get resources #because there were people who were worse off than me and considered people who needed it more than i did #idk it's just nice that i'm actually getting help instead of falling through the cracks like i normally would #and it's nice to be doing better

[icewindandboringhorror]

Current temperature inside of my room right now in the middle of the night whilst about to go to sleep... villain origin story...

#You just get SOOOOO tired of being hot all the time for multiple days straight.. with very little relief ever... hhHHHH #I forget that I literally lose my mind and become evil every summer like clockwork #I don't evenknow what I mean by that because I'm just as calm/monotone as ever lol.. but I just feel more evil.. low level pent up rage #or something. nothing changes on the outside but on the inside it's like hmm.. I'm like 5% more hostile than I usually am #not outwardly expressed still of course. but just.. my bones are made of a little more violence recently.. #percentages moving around. My character stats get a temporary modifier all summer where I feel chronically just a LIIIITLE more noticably #unhinged. like I will never do it of course. but I will think about. maybe I'll just throw all the plates at the wall and break every wind #ow with a baseball bat. No. I shant. I would never.. but .. I could. 5% more than I usually could. But I shan't. but let it be known.. I #c o u l d ...i COULD.. if I had to. but I don't.. but still.. keep the notion in the back of the mind.. hmm.. lol #And this is not even during a heat wave at the moment it's just like.. normal summer.. >:') #I think it's also largely the shitty apartment which was not built for coolness. Like older houses will have tall cielings and those window #above the doors and ceiling fans and be built high up from the ground and all these other ways to manage warm weather #naturally. but cheaply constructed dinky city apartments with no ventilation and windows only on one side and blah blah #It retains heat insanely like being trapped in a green house or something #even with all the windows open & fans in the house and stuff it just doesn't really move air well because the space is not made to do that. #Also really testing my anticapitalism/leftism/etc... sitting and thinking 'damn maybe I should play the stock market.. I should sell #some sculptures and overprice them.. howmuch could I charge for these clothes..' < *is desperate to afford a living situation with central #heating and air conditioning* #Haha! Guillotines?? who said anything about those? I LOVE rich people.. haha.. now what's a guy gotta do to instantly get about $50.000 ar #ound here? haha! kidnap someone and sell their organs? okay haha! I love the free market! going to home depot right #now to buy an axe! Don't you just hate taxes? so glad I live in the best country in the world under the best economic system on the planet #USA! USA!! USA!!! *visibly shaking. nose starts bleeding. you notice i am also levitating off the ground slightly* #ANYWAY gfgfgh.... winter......... my sweet child....i miss you so so much.... SUMMER you are my ENEMY #ah well now it's gone down to 80.4 Farenheight. cancel post. thats such an improvemtn surely I'll be able to sleep soundly now /s #what was I ever worried about? it's all good! haha!! *still levitating a little * #In better news - I have finished the Victorian Pharmacy documentary series and am now watching them build a medieval castle! and one of my #goofy joke song snippets suddenly got 6.000 views on youtube which was cool?? though very random? I made kale chips again. and had asparag #us. And saw a duck. carved a lot of things out of avocado pits. Little tidbits to keep me sane.. #See a funny little duck outside and go 'hmm... life is okay actually :) I no longer want to break windows :3' #then it gets like 85F inside again and you're liek NEVERMINDaaaaaaahhh!!!!! then you see a duck next morning and calm down :)

[picory]

i really need to rewatch uwe before the upcoming season finale and properly gather my thoughts on it but i really really like the show! its goofy and cartoony style paired with a serious story about these warriors' souls stuck in an eternal war with the evil, the slight psychological horror of being used as hosts for said souls and almost completely discarded and disregarded (though it doesn't say too much about this, this is more my overthinking), the steampunk elements, the character designs, the voice acting... all of it. despite that i still have some irks with it, like the pacing. this show would've definitely benefited from having more episodes. for such a story heavy show 10 episodes doesn't feel enough. it worked with primal, genndy tartakovsky's previous show, because there was little to no dialogue there. it did an excellent job at making the viewer understand what was happening with mere facial expressions. but uwe characters have a lot to say, a lot to work out between each other. and it's clear tartakovsky wants to tell more. they need more episodes to do that. i hope the show gets renewed for a second season. i need everything that i'm extremely confused about to be addressed and cleared up

#the whole emmalinda thing! she's both of them and neither of them! which woman is taking the centre stage? #it's confusing. everyone calls her melinda. but she's not really herself #everytime she looks at her reflection emma's there instead. so emma is still in the ''backseat'' #this emmalinda has both of the women's memories #she's an enigma to me #dimitri while heavily influencing edred's behavior is just. not there. chilling the background. rolling with whatever (free him 💔) #alfie and seng? i have no fucking idea half the time. they're like emmalinda to me #this whole thing is so confusing.... we need to see the other hosts shining through more. not just emma. just a bit. please. for my sanity #i don't care for the romance. at least now that they are they way they are. emmalinda isn't just one person #so her being pinned with either edred or winston doesn't feel right to me. ''is she into edred? is she into winston?'' #yes and no! no and yes! she's two people!!!!! it's complicated!!!!!!!! forget the romance #it's fair to question their relationships status though considering everything (edred and melinda were lovers for eternity; #emma and winston were about to get married) #but man. whatever #WHY IS THE ELF KINGDOM JUST A FEW KILOMETERS AWAY FROM THE MAIN CITY. why are the elves that edred knew still alive #do they just live that long what the fuck #aelwulf is just going to be stuck pretending to be his brother for the rest of his life huh. that's fucked up. are they not gonna notice #this is a rambling mess isn't it. it's rare for me to go off like this in public i think. i usually keep that all in my head

[infizero]

you guys dont understand how much splatoon means to me. you will never understand

#will ALWAYS preach it has some of the best worldbuilding in anything i've ever fucking seen #especially in a video game. and ESPECIALLY a video game which isnt purely story-focused #splatoon's world feels so PAINFULLY fucking real its hard to even describe. the level of detail when it comes to LITERALLY everything #is insane. and thats only amplified when you're someone who's been playing it for a long time and has seen this world change in real time #i will always adore how time passes the same in splatoon's world as it does in real life. however long it's been since the last game came #out - thats how long its been in splatoon's world! characters are constantly changing and doing new things and taking on new roles #AND of course. the final splatfests making it so player input has a direct and pivotal effect on the setting and plot of the next game. #SO fucking cool and insane. like what other piece of media is like that #because of things like that and the worldbuilding and everything i also think that splatoon has one of the most seamless transitions #between singleplayer and multiplayer modes. a lot of times in games esp with stories those modes feel very disconnected #but in splatoon things that you do in singleplayer modes have an actual EFFECT on the world of multiplayer #i will never forget. how cool it felt when octo expansion came out and suddenly octolings started popping up in multiplayer #because in the irl sense. of course they were! people were beating that singleplayer mode and unlocking the ability to play as octolings #in multiplayer. but in-universe THIS IS ACTUALLY WHATS HAPPENING!!!! after your agent 8 escapes more octolings follow in their footsteps #and it is an actual noticeable cultural shift in the world of splatoon with it being talked about on the news and stuff #and this story of octolings coming to the surface and integrating into inkling society works perfectly because its not just something #you're hearing about. you are actually seeing IN REAL TIME octolings start to populate the city and matches because REAL PLAYERS are #playing as them. fitting perfectly into that narrative being created. its soooooo fucking good #anyways sorry i just love splatoon so much and i love talking about why its incredible #serena.txt

[aro-ortega]

had a dream about pirates but not about my pirate characters.. so i guess i have new pirate characters now

#dream was mostly following the first mate #who was a non op/non transitioned trans man #and the crew was totally fine and respectful of it #but others were Not #i dont remember how but they lost access to their ship and were grtting ready to catch a ride on a train to the next city/port #but the people running the train were like YOU need to sleep down w the rest of the girls #the captain wanted to square up for his first mate but he was like its fine its temporary just let it go #the women were like um this isnt where you sleep ? youre a man ? and hes like dont worry ladies i will be keeping to myself #but i DO need a bunk in the meanwhile so whos sharing #(he is very very handsome so there were eager volunteers) #also he (along w a lot of the lirate crew) had like. all of his things stolen #so hes just got the clothes / first mate garb on his back #also hes bisexual and speaks french #there was a moment in the dream where he noticed a frenchman too nervous to shoot his shot w a girl #and he was like ah well you know. i am not very impressive to women... down there #and the first mate was like dont worry man i assure you plenty of women love a man w a small dick #it was a nice convo and also all in french which is so weird i dont think ive dreamed in french before #i also remember him saying about the sleeping arrangements something like. well. dont blame me for #me for the consequences of putting a cock in the henhouse #he was just extremely cool and blase. he knows who he is and his crew knows who he is and that was enough for him #op #also i think the captain has a crush on his first mate

[oatbugs]

they r soooo. anyway

#lol um anyway . i kissed them for the first time yesterday but it literally feels like a yr ago but it also feels like today #on a bridge at night against a cityscape. river looked like a painting...etc it was nice . and then. yh theres a lot to talk abt #so i dont wanna say it all rn bc im tired but yeah. they r . sooo. pretty cool etc etc. whatever im fine im just . angry that i dont get to #see them that often bc they live in a diff city etc. also took them to a spot which usually is like . relatively busy bc london is busy all #the time but it was cold and it was at night so there were like 0 people there. the view was so good but other things were better #also kissing smn w a vertical labret is actually just >>> #lol en ee way i miss them #im soo overwhelmed w life rn and theyre not rly helping but like. in a good way #i told my friend to lmk if he notices that im becomjng too engaged w romance to the point where im neglecting academics #and he immidiately said it. like according to him im thinking abt her too much when i should be thinkint abt philosophy too much #which is like. idk if that's true bc ik he has a rly skewed perspective bf he kind of swore off datint #etc but at the same time . wbat if hes right. omg. but also let me have this Moment #that was last week when i was forcefully taken to manchester by a university society . like we hadnt even kissed yet #i fell asleep bc ive been so exhausted and when i woke up i realised they briefly appeared in a dream i had #and then i started tearing up out of Fear bc like . whenever ive lost smn i loved the dreams were the worst #like . good dreams. were horrible. and now its like what if this turns out horrible ? but i dont wanna self sabotage bc i rly rly rly like #them . i gave them a rose and on the train home i could stop staring at their hands holding the rose #and i know theyve liked me for months and i know theyve been waiting for months but somehow its still like #what if it just fades. whatever happens happens ig. i took them a leaf compressed in a poetry book from #a book shop we found on our second date tgth. they gave me a necklace w a small vial and a tiny flower inside #its so pretty. thinking abt the way they put it on me + when they wrapped their arms around me when i was cooking for them etc etc #im FINE its FINE its OKAY . whatever !!!!! #[chroma blue]