#pain like its so sad and for what

[rayjayoo]

surprisingly back with more phos doodles wOOOOOO

#ray art #houseki no kuni #land of the lustrous #hnk #hnk phos #phosphophyllite #post winter phos... #i really wish we could've seen more of antarc and phos duo i adored their interactions in what little time they had together #feel like they could've blossomed into a sweet friendship as they worked together more :(( #in another universe antarc was never taken away and the two continued to patrol winters together time to time.... #post winter phos just makes me so sad man #they had to go through the pain of losing a partner for the first time and you can tell just how deeply that affected them throughout the #rest of the story #and i just #hnngghbjkjkkk #even with the loss of their legs phos still maintained their spunkiness and innocence #but after the loss of their arms in that winter... #man #its so quietly heartbreaking to realize that there truly wasnt any going back after that winter for phos #they couldnt go back to being that naive and innocent gem they once were

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

I love Jiang Cheng and I hope you agree. The most tragic thing about yunmeng siblings is that JC and WWX really love each other the whole time… I like to think they can fix it someday

Someday perhaps....in the meantime, I bet he's loving having dogs run around lotus pier. As a WWX deterrent of course. No therapeutic reasons at all.

#Poorly Drawn MDZS #MDZS #Jiang Cheng #As much as I put him on blast #I do like JC quite a bit. #Man....I'm sad you're on anon cause I'd love to talk more about the yunmeng sibiling tragedy #Part of me so badly wishes that they do reconcile after some time #though a good tragedy comes from the pain of what could have been #JC is definitely in my top 5 mdzs characters and its absolutely due to how messy he is #ngl I can kinda relate to where his hurt comes from and it makes it very interesting to analyze. #Favourism and antagonism of parents messes up sibling dynamics so much #The grief and trauma ended up causing a rift not a shared moment of solidarity #JC is a counter-representation and a foil to how LWJ deals with his grief #as heartbroken as LWJ is he...keeps his life going. The grief settles and he doesn't forget but he *moves forwards* #JC doesn't! He can't! He has so much guilt and regret and the grief stagnates him! Love and grief can become so terribly consuming! #He's so human for it! This is a story where no-one is morally black or white! *People* aren't black and white!

[birdricks]

ok heres this. how i interpreted his fears at least

#rnm spoilers #most of them r said pretty plainly but whatever LOL i love lists #interesting how u can see mortys Main fear of relying on rick right from the start #not sure abt the ‘rick putting them in danger one’ #its in tbat little loop of Rick Fears #which im not quite sure what to make of. so thats the closest i can get #its definitely smth hes doen a lot. so theres that #SCARY IMPLICATIONS of morty having overcome his reliance on rick. or at least his fear of it #like in conquering the hole alone hes realised he doesnt really Need rick. #like maybe one day therell be a time he gets in trouble and rick Wont bail him out. or cant. but hes ok w that now? #hmmmm. intersting. very curious to see where that goes #themost painful one for me is being responsible for ricks sadness #liek thsts so fucking rough. #GETTING PERSONAL…. like i know how it feels to be a kid and feel responsible for the emotions of adults. it sucks balls #itd be interesting to see if All of these fesrs have been conquered or just the reliance one

[angelofviscera]

on self sacrifice as love

I will mitski / love and pain (also known as vampire) edvard munch / snow and dirty rain richard siken / the kiss eva claessens / garden song phoebe bridgers / in blackwater woods mary oliver / the prodigal returns karen swenholt / rest energy marina abramović / red door julien baker / poems from an email exchange hanif abdurraqib

#its like. being so conditioned to take on the burdens of the ones u love and the overwhelming vulnerability that comes with love but also #the fear and the pain and sometimes losing yourself a little too much because all of what you see of yourself #is how youre reflected back at yourself through their eyes #so its not like. an inherently negative or toxic thing but its this sense of sadness at always needing to be in pain and have pain because #you view love as giving someone permission to destroy you and just trusting them to make it an easy clean up #mitski #phoebe bridgers #julien baker #web weave #web weaving #poetry #art #edvard munch #love #my web weaves

[moongothic]

We all know how a lot of Luffy's opponents have been in some ways premonitions of the type of person Luffy could end up as if something went wrong in his life. For example Moria is what Luffy could've become had he truly lost his entire crew at Sabaody if Kuma had not saved them

And we know Crocodile is what Luffy maybe could've become had Luffy given up on his dreams and become jaded after losing to him. But like, when you think about it, that's not the only dark reflection of Luffy in Crocodile, is it

'Cause Crocodile, despite employing people for Baroque Works, did not trust anyone around him and did not considder anyone to be anything else but an employee to him. And we know he had been planning on taking over Alabasta for like 14 years (at the very least), BW being a thing for only the past four (pre-timeskip)

So like. Did Crocodile spend the last 14 years alone

Like yes he had his workers at the Casino and Robin etc, so he was like, around people, he wasn't like Brook who was in Total Isolation. But on an emotional level, has he not spent the last 14 years all by himself, completely detached from anyone, unable to trust or rely on anyone else?

That is sad as fucking shit, holy hell

'Cause then you compare him to like Luffy and like

Our sweet baby boy was so afraid of being alone that Luffy literally went through hell just to gain Ace's approval despite Ace trying to signal to him he wasn't interested befriending him

And through out the whole series Luffy reiterates time and time again how he needs and wants his friends around because he literally can't live without them, both on a literal "he can't cook or navigate or have fun by himself" level but also on that emotional level

And Crocodile just. Spent 14 years of his life, if not longer, alone.

Sweet jesus what happened to this man

And that just makes me further wonder, what the absolute fuck were Crocodile's Rookie Pirate days like?? Like did he have a crew or was he just yolo'ing it by himself???

Like. Mihawk's never been on a crew as far as we know. Kuma was a Revolutionary, not a pirate, but he wasn't like alone still. Doflaming, Hancock, Jinbei and Moria however have/had crews of their own. So what was Crocodile's deal? Did he have a crew before? Was he a captain or was he on someone else's ship? (Although surely the Government wouldn't offer the position of a Shichibukai to a cabin boy or the first mate, right)

And if he did have a crew, the hell happened to them??

Like we know Crocodile got his ass kicked by Whitebeard, I just find it unlikely Whitebeard would've pulled a Kaidou on Crocodile's crew and slaughtered them, that's not a very Whitebeard-y thing do, right?? ...Unless Whitebeard was just different 20+ years ago and was willing to annihilate entire crews. We don't know. Or maybe Crocodile and his entire crew were like Turbo Rotten from the beginning and Whitebeard figured they deserved to get wiped out, much like how we saw Shanks wipe out Kid's crew at Elbaf. Or maybe Whitebeard saw no reason to have mercy on someone affiliated with the World Government.

That all said, if we wanted to assume Crocodile had somekind of trauma that lead to him viewing people not only as disposable but also untrustworthy, then maybe losing people dear to him like that wouldn't lead to that mindset. Like Moria witnessed his beloved crew die and that caused him to want to create a crew he couldn't die, so he wouldn't go through that emotional trauma again.

Which leaves me to wonder. If something caused him to lose his ability to (emotionally) trust people, and if Whitebeard broke his dreams... Maybe Crocodile had a crew. And maybe they abandoned him when he lost to Whitebeard. Figuring they didn't need a weak captain who was probably going to bleed to death anyways. Or maybe the crew tried to take his head (after Whitebeard kicked his ass), after all, he was already a Shichibukai, anybody who took Crocodile's head could maybe attempt to take that title for themselves if the Government allowed it, and if not, at least gain more fame for themselves.

Either of these scenarios would certainly result in you losing your ability to rely on others. And leave you willing to spend the rest of your life alone. Who would have in them to go through that again.

Or maybe he came out of the womb unable to trust people and he was just yolo'ing it by himself like Mihawk right from the begining, who knows

Regardless I'm just

#Moon posting #Sir Crocodile #OP Meta #Me @ Crocodile: Who hurt you #No fucking wonder Crocodile was absolutely deranged in Alabasta #Dude just spent like 14 years speaking to a wall by himself. Or maybe not who knows the walls could betray him too #This man has so much unresolved trauma #BTW if true this would also make Crocodile a dark reflection of Robin. Which is a different layer of sad on its own #Like. Both expecting the other to be the one to betray them. And in the end it's Robin who shot first. #Break week in the middle of Kuma Backstory. I am in pain. #When will our husband return from the war #I need to know what his deal is so bad. I must study him under a microscope #My derangement will not know end until then #There could've been a counterargument that Crocodile couldn't trust anyone lest his Utopia Plans got ruined #And to be fair if the Government had found out his plans would've been screwed. Shichibukai Rights REVOKED #But he still seems to carry those trust issues since Mihawk is on relatively thin ice it seems #So me thinks. This smells like trauma. #The real conclusion to this post is that the Crocodile x Daz shippers are RIGHT

[bidisaster-peanut-romano]

also like.

the average kid obsessed with their leader mentions him ten or less times (gord mentions derby eight times, parker six times, kirby mentions ted five times). while the leaders don't usually make names at all

peanut mentions johnny THIRTY TIMES. but johnny still mentions peanut ZERO TIMES

and idk sometimes it hits me in the back like a fucking truck

#like………i know that clique leaders don't really mentions their cliquemates at all normally?? also bc they dont have the conv audios and so #but…thirty against ten and then johnny doesnt say his name back even ONCE…………idk its a remidner of how one sided the thing is #like okay other leader don't mention anyone but against ten or less times. peanut mentions johnny THRICE AS MUCH but. still nothing #THATS PAINFUL. THATS SOOOOO SAD AND FOR WHAT!!!!! SOMEONE HELP HIM!!!!!!!! #canis canem edit #bully scholarship edition #peanut romano #johnny vincent #greasers #odyposts

[druidonity2]

Sketch of Anduin's trauma.

#world of warcraft #anduin wrynn #varian wrynn #Do you ever see pictures of you from your past #when you were young and happier #and wonder where they went? #what happened to you #I need you back with me #I need you to help me #Wish you could reach out of the picture and tell me kind words that would fix everything #But you are me and I am here and sad and broken and I can't talk to you as you once existed because all that is left of you is me #Wondering how you would handle this pain but you arn't a different person and you handled it like i did which was bad #Its weird to look at pictures of me as a kid and I was sooo good at smiling into the camera and showing teeth and i just looked so confiden #And now i just. hate pictures taken of me. My smile doesnt include my teeth #and it is still my true smile #im told its not but it is #anyway #wanted to work on this more but i couldnt figure out how i wanted shalamayne to rest in mawduin's arms #Or if prince anduin's hand rested over mawduin's face or under it

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#i walked into a situation today where my mom was effectively already dead. effectively bc her body was and is still alive. still breathing #painful groaning purrs. but her mind was gone yesterday. my dad said he showed her a picture of the mountains i took that day and told her #i loved her and she smiled. thats what he said. maybe he was just being nice. or maybe thats the last time she thought of me. i dunno. but #the human body is an incredible thing. shes got a heart still powering a broken body. too full of tumors to function anymore. stomach #streched like a pregnant mother. it happed really fast and now its happening very slow #im somehow probably better off than the rest of them. i only got here for the aftermath of a downslide. my daily life will b least effected #i only really saw her twice a year living so far away and she didnt text much. didnt call often. so life wont change much ill just kno shes #not there. which is sad. but theres nothing to b done abt it. life goes on. it hasnt been all bad tho. its nice to talk to my family abt her #how incredible she was. bc she was. wish her mom wasnt here tho. she doesn't deserve to b here. my mom wouldnt want her here. she didnt want #her here. but anyway. i wish her body would just let her go now. so we can sleep. so this can be over. so she can rest #but even like this shes stubborn and resilient. they say it could go on for days but i hope not. may the universe let her rest shes gotta b #so tired after 10 years of this. but i have no regrets. she knew how i felt abt her. and i dont think she had regrets either. she did so #much up to the very end. went out on a high note without the burdon of knowing it was coming #i dunno. its just such a strange experience to watch the empty shell of your mother sleeping like a gurgling baby #unrelated

[doomedclockworkdotmp3]

ahaaa. redraw of this oldass drawing

#art #my art #digital art #digital illustration #fanart #gintama fanart #sakata ginko #sakata gintoki #gintama #this took me longer than it shouldve #what can i say im lazy as fuck #idk if ive said it here before but it always bares repeating: none of my art is finished im just finished with all my art #i dont go into any piece with like a vision of it im goin purely off vibes n i stop when i think theres nothin else i can do other than jus #startin over #so im not like suuuper happy w this but i do like it better than the original #ur allowed to like the og better but dont tell me bc itll make me sad lmao #haaated the hair & face on the og & i am satisfied w both now #also the lil thing of the pattern was sooo fun to draw i almost put way too much fuckin time into that i actually feel like i did anyways #but im srs its so fun #the strawberry was a pain i made a no strawb vers n i kinda like it more but. i gotta post the strawb version #i put too much effort into the strawberry. and yet. not enough. basically i gave up ✌ #its what i do best #um. i might make more gintama art. sorry lol #ik i said it like in the tags on my last post the lil sneak of this piece but like sorry if u followed me for any fandom in particular #i lure u in w 1 good piece for ur fav media & then i disappear for months & come back w a completely different fandom #bait wait and switch #anyways lmfao thats the post

[chainofclovers]

Being a human is literally like this weird combo of being okay and not okay that goes on forever except there is also death

#(i'm fine) #(personally) (mostly) (really) #this has just been an absolutely terrible year for our planet and its people and animals #and it's fucking insane that as an american living in relative safety and comfort and experiencing the pleasures and guilt of that... #...i can experience this horrible yet ENTIRELY SURVIVABLE blend of acute pain over so many things at once #including war and genocide and the utter hopelessness of that #and also things like being really really sad that matthew perry's life was so hard and he died #and also so many bad and weird things have happened to family members this year but we mostly have the resources to come together and deal #which is amazing and bolstering and exhausting #and my brain still has space to be excited about writing and numb to writing and angry/impotent about writing #desperate for feedback yet private and retreat-y and weird #always hoping to hit upon The Perfect Thing :-/ #and i live in a place that basically is not a democracy any more and also the u.s. is so cursed we've never been what we said we were #so a lot of my own perceived safety is incredibly fragile #but still so much more solid than what the people i am mourning for had #and none of the comparisons make a lick of sense and are in and of themselves deeply unfair #to the point that it's humiliating to feel guilt (making it about me) and simultaneously humiliating that i don't feel guilt *constantly* #and i have therapy this week but also this deep sense that while my therapist will be a fine person to talk to it will feel unuseful #i've always been a muddle of optimism and pessimism and i am very adamant that life is super beautiful and this is precisely why... #...all the violence in the world is so brutally devastating #it's just that the casserole of all these thoughts feels increasingly horrible #and feeling that way is 100% sane #and even intersectional frameworks and intentional attempts at gentleness only get you so far in the grapple #for meaning and for ideas of what to do #so i end up contacting my reps about various awful things #and zooming in and out on my fixations and having excellent days and terrible days #often dependent on what feels like a camera setting i only partially control #and i'm sure i'm not alone in feeling embarrassed that deep empathy and grief for people i've not met somehow ends up being... #...at least a sliver about ME and my little world #about me

[w1tchybusiness]

i could write a 100 page essay about what a fucking masterpiece warframe is. i will write many words in the tags. please readem if you want my 'tism.

#ive been playing on and off since 2019 but its only recently when i dumped destiny 2 (probably for good) and picked it up #to fill the grind-shaped hole in my heart #that i have uncovered just how FUCKING INCREDIBLE warframe is #everything about it makes me incredibly autistic #from its masterful utilization of an incredibly styled and individual soundtrack full of absolute bangers #to its seemingly unique understanding of how and why an MMO is special to and because of its players #and its truly special story- a uniquely human take on the “post-ruin scifi” tale #it knows exactly how and when to yank on your heart to make you weep like a baby #and it knows exactly when you're going to get angry and want vengeance #and it knows when to let you let loose and unleash hell #SPOILERS FOR THE NEW WAR AHEAD #IF YOU THINK YOU COULD PLAY THE GAME PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE DO #SPOILER WARNING #i think the narmer corruption of fortuna was genuinely one of the most gutpunchingly horrible moments ive ever experienced in a video game #i started playing when fortuna was already in the game but the story of fortuna and vox solaris was really what made warframe stand out 2 m #i would drop into the orb vallis as gauss and dash around doing bounties and fishing and mining because i really loved everything about #fortuna and wanted to spend as much time there as possible #for me vox solaris was my proudest achievement (in warframe.) to say “i helped that! i did that!” was an incredibly good feeling #the story really spoke to me on a deeper level #and vox solaris has always been my favorite faction as a result #so to do absolutely everything that i could #to lift together with my tenno brothers and sisters and yet STILL fail? #and to have it rubbed in my face by the corruption of the greatest shining pillar of hope in the warframe universe? #felt like i got kicked in the stomach #i felt sad and angry. but most of all i was DRIVEN. #which is GOOD. because RARELY does a video game present you the “you lost” scenario and have it feel not only satisfyingly painful #but MOTIVATING. #my only complaint with the new war is that i didnt get to hack ballas to pieces by myself #i had real flashbacks to running around helping people as gauss while approaching the final boss with erra #and to step onto the ballas arena as gauss prime. i nearly came from the narrative significance

[natjennie]

sorry i havent been very active lately I've been having a real shit couple days idk why

#ive been like right on the verge of a breakdown all day today #and i can feel it coming. the tears are IN my eyes. #it's just. everything is so hard. #it can't be this hard all the time for everyone right? #because if it is and everyone is just being normal and doing fine and coping and being an adult about it #then that makes me a failure. #and i dont know what im supposed to do with that. #its also so fucking hard to see something you might want for yourself #and be inundated with the weight of all the barriers #and all the ways that you'll never get there #all the reasons it wont work. everything just feels so difficult #like EVERYTHING everything everything is minimum 10 steps and it never fucking ends #idk why im feeling so bad like ive been taking my medicine ive been trying really hard to eat and drink and take them #like no matter what i do im always in pain and tired and sad and frustrated #and it never fucking stops #anyway sorry #venting #vent post

[caffeinatedopossum]

I hate that people associate being old with being bigoted, I actually love old people so much

#i know the whole 'old people are wise' thing is a little cliche but its true #not only that but there are some things that can really only be healed by talking to your elders #like. sometimes im so scared for the future and im so sure everything will be like this forever or ill die young #but then you hear about what your elders went through and they survived and its like 'wow maybe its not hopeless' #it makes me really sad when people are mean to elders for no reason #like they dont deserve that. theyve already all got chronic pain and probably a lifetime's worth of grief too #but theyre still hangin in there #it makes me so happy how excited older people can get when someone just talks to them #but its also kind of sad because its clear they dont get that a lot

[godslittlesadge]

Gates: you can't mansplain manipulate manwhore your way out of this one captain

Flint: welp. manslaughter it is then *proceeds to strangle him*

#black sails #we've reached the sad point of the rewatch lads #also the point where you start to be like oh geez flint i dont know if whatever you're hoping to achieve is worth the pain its causing #and then episodes later you get to see what actually happened before the series takes place and you're like ohhhh okay nevermind fuck em! #if there is one motivation i can support its spite so go ahead bestie

[birb--birb]

What kind of love are you?

Violet: Love as a Threshold

Your love does not ask for much. Your love does not take. Your love is free, and unquestioned, and here for wherever needs it. When you fall in love, it is as gentle as a breath in the night. It is quiet, and it is effortless. It is tender. If your love was a house, it would readily welcome all who come through. If your love was a hearth, it would warm the hands of whoever stopped by, whether for a day, a month, a year, or forever. When you fall for someone, it is without strings, without conditions, without need. You love for the sake of loving, for the sake of caring for those who need it. You love with a giver’s heart and a giver’s hands and are made so much stronger for it. Being loved by you is to always feel at home. Your love may not always be well-received by those unprepared to linger, but it is unforgettable all the same

The second I saw this answer for Violet I knew it was perfect. Their entire romance with Astarion was about patience. Waiting for him to realize that he's truly safe with them, that they doesn't expect anything from him, that he is in the lead here and they'll follow only when he's ready and okay. And waiting without judgement, Violet knows these things take time and they were more than willing to wait, to be there, to just sit and exist with him while he figures shit out. And when he truly let Violet in, I like to think it was like with a comforting sigh, the feeling of coming home, that feeling when all pressure is lifted and you can just *exist* without fear, without judgement.

Violet has seen violence and hatred and yet chooses to show up for those they love as a place of calm and stability, without judgement, without expectations. Violet's love is patient, it doesn't expect anything back but will give you everything just because we all deserve to feel warmth and safety. They feel so much warmth in their heart that they were able to help Astarion get to a place where he feels safe. I think even if they didn't fall in love or end up together, Violet would have still shown up for him in the same way. They know what suffering is like, they've gone through enough of it themselves and come out the other end alive. They know how much it hurts, but also how much easier it is with someone to lean on.

tagged by @cleric4vampire ty for enabling so many feelies about my bbys

Tagging: @justabiteofspite and @dragon--sage (I know yall were already tagged but doing so again for funzies cause I'd love to hear about your Tavs/Durges) and anyone who wants to join in, please do!!

#I kinda went off in the tags I'm so sorry (not really) #oc #Violet #Tav #astarion x tav #bg3 #I know this is about my astarion romance but I'm constantly thinking about violet and halsin also #how quiet and strong their love was #violet and halsins love would be like your parent tucking you into bed after you fell asleep on the couch watching late night tv #but they both knew a romantic relationship would be selfish #theres no way in hell violets monogamous dont get me wrong but they wanted and needed very different things #violet's warlock patron isnt like mizoura but they do have orders and a contract still #so i like to think they have this sadness of what could have been #but also joy for what they both have now especially after the epilogue party #the epilogue gave me so many feelies about them yall I cried #I remember going through Cazadors dungeon and just thinking about the absolute pain violet felt seeing how much astarion was suffering #they wanted to just protect him destroy everything burn it all down anything to make him stop hurting #but they knew he had to face this. and they didn't let him walk away from it #sometimes love is facing the hard things #sometimes its calling your sins by name #but the key is that patience again #you can't force someone to get over their trauma- recovery is not linear #and it doesn't make him any less worthy of love #boys got a lot to unlearn but violets not gonna push him away because of it #they're really fucking proud of him #and I know they're out there finding weirdo artifacts and exploring the shit outta faerun together #Astarion

[thedrotter]

sweet sweet re:kinder community... I would like to ask y'all how you came upon the game and your experiences with it because i wanna know. im genuinely so curious to hear about other people's experiences and little opinions about this game because of how wild the game is (/pos) I'd love to hear it. do ramble to me about it

#re:kinder #not art #so in my case i once saw someone talk about it in a video and some scenes with the very vague context really struck with me #i was like wow...that is so sad... i wonder what goes on #but the thing is i watch videos talking about games like that ALLL THE TIME while im multi-tasking so i FORGOT FOR A YEAR?!?!? #until one day i was sick in pain on my bed could not move. and then it came to me. yes. “RE:KINDER. I SHOULD PLAY IT.” LIKE OUT OF NOWHERE #i will never understand how i dying of pain remembered a game i saw once BY NAME AT LEAST A YEAR LATER when jve heard of so many games #and you wanna know why it stuck with me. i saw in the video an image of the “as if id be reborn as a princess” line #i did not know the context but it was devastating #AND WHEN I PLAYED THE GAME when that scene game i was shocked to silence😭😭 BECAUSE I BASICALLY WENT COMPLETELY BLIND?? #I DID NOT KNOW THE LITTLE KID WOULD BE THE ANTAGONIST???? AND THAT HE WOULD HAVE SUCH A SAD STORY?? #like. i saw the sad coming i knew it was bound to happen yet i could have never been prepared for how hard it would hit me #I HAD TONS OF FUN but at first when i finished it i was so confused and so lost i was like welll.....what a game... TOO STUNNED FOR WORDS #then i thoughr of it for 20 minutes and bawled my eyes out and realized it was art #so when i got to my second playthrough i CRIED LIKE CRAZYYY😭😭 I WAS BLOWN AWAY IT REALLY HITS YOU #personally it admittedly hit close to home and while it made me bawl my eyes out it was also very comforting i felt very understood #AND IT WAS CRAZY FUN TOO i was not bored once the first time i played through it i was sleepy but i was so excited to keep playing😭😭 #its funnt becayse i was initially apprehensive about playing cuz im sensitive to stories where sad things happen to kids #but i played it regardless because i was like “but what if its one of those scary media that hit close to home and i enjoy” #AND I WAS RIGHT. BUT NOT ENTIRELY BECAUSE I DID NOT THINK IT WOULD HIT AS INTENSELY AS IT DID😭😭 IT WAS MYCH MORE THAN EXPEVTED #many ways in which it impacted me but if i started listing them i would not shut up . so for now it is enough #IN SUMMARY WOW.. WHAY A GOOD GAME!! PLAY RE:KINDER!!! #i rambled more than i intended to i do apologize