#or tomorrow that is was going to post soemthing.

[gommyworm]

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#its been a preddy rough week overall i think but whats reqlly kinda concerning me is my comolete inability to eat atm #like i know i gotta and i have been trying to force mysekf but i really cant even stomach the thought of eating #this is my second day of this week w no proepr food entering me ig and its pissing me off #bc i want to eat like i know im hungry #but every time i try i just want to vomit lol #managed to get a big iced coffee n a small bubble tea down today but i want to eat real food :^( #im gonna buy myself sushi tomorrow so i can hopefully eat #its like trying to feed a child fml #and at this point im like kinda morbidly curious how long i can go without eating a proper meal before fainting or something #havent fainted in a while idk #im tired and everything feels tingly and my head hurts :^( i hope i eat tomorrow #silly hrs only #im feeling the need to justify posting here bc it feels like seeking pity or soemthing but i just dont really have anyone to say this to #like id feel bad ig #and theyd get mad ofc bc im being silly #but also its been busy and im really emotionally and physically soent this week so like taking care of mysekf is hard #ao im trying to cut myself some slack but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #been a whike since i used tumblr as my diary anyway so im treating myself ig #nice to get the thoughts out n whatever #anyways goodnight #gommywords

[tinyorangepotato]

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#tiny talking #fuck it almsot 12. upset about my dad and been thinking thoughta so im posting #meant to go to bed 2 to 3 hours ago but havent because my throat hurts a fuck ton #ive had a sore throat and throbbing headache all day and around 7 i asked my dad to get me dayquill because god damn #i cant ecen swallow my own spit without it hurting #and thus ita hard to sleep because ow. #but my dad texted me 2 fucking hiurs ago thay hes at his buddys house got nyquil andniwll be heading home soon #2 fucking hours ago #i wanted to slepe early so i would get plenty and rest is greta for you but ive been waiting for him to get back with the fucking medic8ne #like thanks for grtitng me it but fuck man if i knew tou were gonan be home until super late i would went out and got it #broken ankle be damned #fuck #damn this was meant to be about soemthing wlse i got upset about but oops #man i really hope thay i can find some theraflu in the house tomorrow #nevermind im normal now. he came home so i took some and maybe ill actually sleep

[asexualjedi]

Like been having trouble staying awake tehehe since at least like last June maybe may. Idk. I thought it went away in like. August time but then it came back with a fury this past semester. Been like changing medicine around trying to get it so like I’m not just passing out while walking or whatever. But like. I’ll have like a week with like no problem and then just a whole week where it gets me. Like if I chug tea and take a short term pill I’m normally fine. But. Like soemtimes even with that I’m just like struggling to stay awake. And. I just. It’s happening to me the past few days. And I just. Pls. Don’t like me do this during my exams. Bc like I’m able to stay awake for the post part it’s just like u know the jolting urself awake can’t actually process or focus on anything staying awake and that won’t be good for exams either. It’s so cool. Like exams. I had a little of a problem. But I was like ok. But haha. It’s frustrating like is this even real bc like sometimes it’s like everything sleepy. Sometimes though I’ll be wide awake and then if I try to read for school I start to pass out but if I read like fan fiction or Wikipedia or soemthing stupid I’m able to wake up and those are the times where I’m like am I somehow subconsciously doing this to procrastinate is this not real or is just bc like these readings are not like engaging I’m doing them for work right. Idk. Prayer circle/send me awake vibes. Time to go to bed like 2 plus hours early bc I can’t fucking stay awake. Hopefully tomorrow I make my matcha I chug it and no problems. Bc I wanna ask a girl whose graduating that I’ve made friends with for her number in my last class and I gotta be like awake so I can like go run over after class and ask. Bc she sits on the other side of the room

[lightyearssurrogatedaddy]

magine crying and you wanna tell one of your friends why uou're crying because you want a bit of comfort. But you're afraid of coming in at a bad time like that one time and feeling so guilty about it because they're going through something worse and you cant you CANT talk to anyone because youre afraid everyone else wonfmt get it or wont pay you any attention but you wanan talk to SOMEONE about how youre feeling but you CANT cus even if you were allowed to and didnt have any fear youd still say absolutely nothing.

Oooohhhh i dont wanna b a bother to anyone theyre all going through shit absolute garbage and i know they say it doesnt take energy to care about me i STIL dont wanna bothr them because what if i catch them at a rrally really really bad time or what if i text someome and they dont have an answer and ignore me and the next time they text theyre gunna skip over what i told them and theyre gunna talk.about something else else.

I want a hug hug i want aomeone to tell me its okay but thats way too much to ask from them i dont wanna be a bother i dont wanna be a worry but i kust talked to my therapist today after a month of not being able to chat and we had to do it over phone while my mom was nearby cus we live in the small ass bus and i cant ask her to go outside cus its 11 degrees and i feel like i didnt say enough and now i just really really want a someone but no i dont wanna bother them its late and theres scjool tomorrow and school sucks and i dont want them feeling like they need to cater to my stupid ass.

Im sorry im so so sorry theyre gunna read this sometime and say soemthing really nice but im not gunna read the message for five hours and maybe ill try avoiding it alltogether cus i dont know i dont know why cant you be mean like i expect you to why cant you yell and curse at me like i expect you to why are you so NICE to me.???? Nono i know why but why man. Why in a rhetorical sense. Why in the how do you have the fucking energy for me.

Im sorry. Im done crying. Oh god man its fine i got my favorite stuffed animal and everything

I want a hug can you give me a hug please. I feel so selfish and cruel. Im so scared youre gunna turn on me one day because nobody can be that genuine. Aint nobody in the fucking world who can be this sweet and silly. Im so waiting im so worried i dont ever want that to happen but i feel like it really might even though i know it wont. Why have you never let uour anger out on me even when i deserved it. Im sorry i didnt want to text about this im just hoping this post will stay buried, cus maybe it comforts me knowing it exists and could be discovered by you, but theres the happy chance you never ever see this and i get to not talk about it ever again. My wonderful schrodingers cat is such a comfort to me because then i dont have to worry about an outcome that im positive will happen. I love my maybes.

#vent #tw vent

[pinkmoondoll9shihtzu]

hi. can i share something. its pretty personal...its sad but also a message of hope.

so. ive been freaking out rly bad about attending this bladee show tomorrow, august 6th. the real reason for this is not just my ocd and social anxiety but also.. last year on august 6th my really good friend died. they were going by the name saint at the time. i only knew them online but we were extremely close since around 2014. we would talk often, and in-depth, bcus we both had extensive interest in metaphysics, god, angels, etc. and we both had dead parents, specifically dead from illness, so we rly deeply related to each other on those matters. they were like 9 years older than me, so i looked up to them as an older sibling. it absolutely shattered my heart when i found out they died because i know it was an accident. i think they OD’d on fentanyl cus they had been posting about relapsing shortly b4 they died. but i dont know for sure, there’s no obituary for them since they don’t have parents or family. i have cried about it every day for a year.

when i saw what day the bladee show was, i felt a million feelings at once, like, oh my god, is this some kind of orchestrated angel event? saint had the most unwavering faith, they believed in angels more than anyone ive ever met, there was no doubt in their mind. we would talk about our synchronicities constantly. it was our fav thing to discuss. they were so validating of my experiences. so in a way, i rly feel like, their angel is escorting me to this show as some sort of gift for making it thru the past year. ive been going thru my saturn return on top of grieving their death, and idk, its just been one of the worst times in my life, ive never been closer to giving up. the timing of this show rly makes me feel like saint is blessing me. bladee, saint and I are all life path 9s who r obsessed w metaphysics n spirituality, which adds to the meaning of this synchronicity for me.

the reason ive been so terrified to attend the show is because i keep having ocd freakouts that someone is going to die or that, like, this date is evil and tainted or soemthing. like literally to the point that ive spent a few entire days this past week just crying in my bed because im so terrified of losing anyone else in my life. but as the show gets closer, i am realizing i just need to trust god and believe that im allowed to enjoy myself. believe that saint’s angel is protecting me and my loved ones, just like they have every day for the past year. they have sent me so many signs, and ive known a lot of dead people but never have i received so many obvious signs from anyone, even my own father. it makes me wonder if saint graduated the rebirth cycle, since they were a 9, and they brought so much goodness to this world. i think they graduated and are now a very powerful angel forever.

its been so hard to go on without them. they were my grief councellor fr. there were some years of my life where they were one of the only people i talked to because no one else could understand. they loved POSTING, we met on tumblr and they were always so supportive of the way i express myself. after they died was when i started drawing and posting on here again bcus i knew i had to honor them this way. i cant put into words how much their friendship impacted me and i wish i could do more, i wish i cld plaster their face onto every wall and scream from the rooftops “THATS MY FRIEND AND I LOVE THEM!!!!!!!!!!!”. god i am going to cry so much at the bladee show, i know they’ll b rite there on my shoulder the whole time.

if u read all this, thank you. it weighs on me massively n i try not to show it too much online but man. i have been a mess. n sometimes i just wanna spill my guts. i cld say so so much more about my dear friend but i’ll leave it at this for now. im praying that the show goes well tomorrow and everyone makes it there safely. if u guys cld pray for me too id rly appreciate. i rly feel like saint is with me and im allowed to have hope now. i love you saint. thankyou for posting so much so i have plenty to look back on. <3

[guiltypleasurefandomface]

Can I just say, whilst i'm ill-advisedly dipping a toe back into a fandom from yesteryear, whilst I'm meant to be finishing coursework and writing two essays, one of which needs to be in, in 12 days and I have a tutorial tomorrow I need to get about 12 hours worth of coursework done by 11am tomorrow and I need to sleep for about 10....

We worked very well with the system we had at the time, but Livejournal was absolute CHAOS for fics. We were just out there posting fics to BLOGS shared by other poeple; our chapters, our one shots, our metas, or fangirling photo sprees were just thrown into the constant stream of posts and you had to hope the people who were following your fic or your metas, saw the update or would go back and read the whole feed from where they left it, because unless they followed you, they could very easily miss it without even knowing.

In one of my fandoms we had to have dedicated days for certain pairings and limits on how many chapters you could post in that day, because of the pairing wars. (Until a new mod came in and ruined everything and announced a free for all).

We are so spoiled with Ao3. Don't even bring FFNet up, the 2 purges drove people to LJ in the first place, and leter on Ao3.

If a person wrote a multi-chapter fic, unless they wrote a HTML link into the post linking the readers to a previous and next chapter, you are stuck going through the enitr community looking for the whole fic.

It was only in some fandoms that some authors did a whole pages of links taking people to the chapter of their fic.

LJ didn't even have a tagging system until it was on it's downfall. People used the personal bookmarks on their LJs to bookmark fics/chapters, or their browswer bookmarks. And then we found out, after fandoms were already well into using the newfangled tag system over the old bookmarking and HTML "archive" page systems, that tags only showed you the latest 100 posts tagged for that post. Anything older wouldn't show up, rendering the newfangled tagging systems absolutely useless.

Imagine, if you would, every fic under your favourite pairing on ao3, now imagine all the chapters of those fics are individual postings rather than netted into one post like normal on Ao3.... How many of them would show up in 100?

And of course then people used external bookmarking sites, which also got ruined. I remmeber being in the Sherlock fandom and the same bookmarking site got "redesigned" 3 times. I'm not sure anyone bothered learning how it worked after the 3rd time.

LJ, it was good and i'm in awe of the admins and mods who made the fandom spaces soemthing we could work with, but it's hard going back now and trying to make sense of it, especially if you're wanting to read a multi chapter. Like, good luck with that.

[bathroombreaks]

“You’re being too loud, ma” beth x rio for the sentence ask

ty for sending this!

this gave me two different ideas and i couldn’t decide which one to do, so you get both! the second one’s under a cut because it’s not pg-13 (first time for everything, i know)

“You’re being too loud, ma,” Beth parrots back at Rio, forcing her voice to go as low and scratchy as it can in her best approximation of his. “That’s what you sound like,” she tells him, just in case he didn’t get it — not because her impression isn’t excellent, but because Rio just isn’t very good at picking up on that type of thing — jabbing her finger into his chest for emphasis. “Nah, mama, it really ain’t,” he replies, shaking his head, an amused smile on his face. She’s going to protest this, of course — again, her impression of Rio is great, he just can’t appreciate it — but then he moves closer, his chest brushing hers as he leans down to murmur “You know I don’t mind you being loud, Elizabeth” into her ear and she loses her train of thought, her eyes fluttering closed as she lets the closeness of him wash over her. It’s always like this with Rio — too many times, Beth gets lost in his eyes, counting his freckles, watching his hands move, appreciating the way his voice dips. “I just don’t think you’ll be happy with me tomorrow when I tell you that you woke up the entire block,” he adds as he steps away from her, toothy grin in place, spell thoroughly broken. “I am not-” Beth starts, admittedly maybe a smidge — a very small smidge; almost non-existent, really — too loud for the middle of the night in the suburbs, when Rio interrupts her with a shushing motion. Still grinning, he places his hands on her waist and spins her in the direction of her door. “C’mon, drunky, let’s get you into bed before you wake up the neighbours.”

[break between drabbles]

“You’re being too loud, ma,” Rio tuts, his lips just barely brushing the shell of her ear as he speaks, his fingers never losing their rhythm as they pump in and out of her. Beth can hear him speaking, but she’s too far lost — in the citrus-y cologne she can practically taste in the back of her throat with the way the smell of it’s so overwhelming, the bruises she can feel forming as the hand holding up her thigh tightens its grip, the heat pooling low in her belly as his thumb roughly circles her clit; just… in him — to be able to really understand a word he’s saying. It only sinks in when, after a particularly high moan, he chuckles, the sound reverbing in his chest, under her hands, and adds, his voice raspy and low and so, so good, “Getting caught having sex in the middle of your first family barbecue isn’t a cute look, Elizabeth.” She can’t help it, then — the way her hips roll, seeking more friction; the whine that escapes her when he gives it to her, sending every nerve in her body into overdrive. She does manage to sink her teeth into his shoulder, though, muffling the moans she can’t keep in, and she figures that’s as good as he could expect under the circumstances, really.

#misshazelevers20 #txt #ask #gg #beth x rio #mine #goodgirlsfic #fic #so... i did not keep on task #the first one is clearly more than 5 sentences #the second one /is/ actually only five though and that's the one i wrote first so there's that #i've always been sad that writers post things to tumblr but then don't cross post to ao3 #bc i stalk the brio tag on ao3 and so for sure won't miss things there #but i finally get it bc this is def not leaving tumblr it's so bad #also relating to that: this is my first time writing smut (or soemthing adjacent to it) and i do not want any criticism #if you don't have anything nice to say just don't say anything #i'm too nervous and worried for criticism to go over well even if you just wanna help me get better #ok gonna go to bed now bc it's almost 1am and i've got classes early tomorrow

[dnfaltstream]

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#vent post please ignore dont rb blah blah #i’m so stressed i just don’t deal with unknowns very well and i don’t deal with having multiple things that are piling up well i just don’t #feel equipped or organized enough or SOEMTHING i don’t know #i have an interview tomorrow and it scares me so much #and i have to do a second interview on monday for a job i was supposed to be confirmed or denied for TODAY so that’s irritating #and i forgot my interview clothes so i had to go and get some i thought i was going to cry bc i’m already stressed about doing it in the #first place #also drove for three days so i’m Exhausted and don’t feel settled or. normal at all #and my dad is here now but he’s leaving tomorrow during my interview and i just don’t really know this place that well #i realized how lonely i’m going to be. i don’t know anyone here #and i’d be lonely anywhere else but at least it would be more familiar. i feel very out of place here #it’s made worse by the fact that i’m here because they’re selling my home where i feel the most familiar and comfortable and now i’m lost #this all sounds dumb i know that i’m sorry i get overwhelmed by small things #i’m an anxious person

[deadpooly]

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#i have a math test tomorrow #and busses have been cancelled all week because canada decided now is a great time to be -40 degrees celcius #and today was my first day back to school in like a year #and i was so fuckign disoriented i also forgot how much school makes me fucking hate myself- #im feeling a lot of emotions and a lot of them are bad because i ve fallen into bad habits over the past three months again and now #its just i feel it getting worse when i thought i was better #ive been so inactive on here and actually all my social media because i as a human being am both thriving and collapsing at the same time #i really thought id be dead by christmas i had it all planned and shit but stuff doesnt always work out and i found something to keep me #around a bit longer and its wokring a bit but god #the feeling of just *things im not gonna say incase someones reading this and gets triggered* was jsut so familiar and comfortable and #theres a lot of stuff happening #like i failed my entire fuckign course load last semester and god i still hate myself for letting that happen #but now im so unhealthily obsessed with work its hurting me really bad #im getting my top marks again and im planning on regaining my status again but i know im really hurting myself by doing this #im just sick of existing #im so fuckign cold #fuck canada #but i just want to go to my studio and record some music and write soemthing but i have so much other work i need to do #and i will get it done- #idk how many tags tumblr will accept into the post but like yep #just jade

[haikyuu-sins]

here is my Law request dump ^^

Law x narcoleptic! reader (head cannons)

Law x overworked! reader (scenario, Reader has overworked himself and has been neglecting his health)

Law x drunk! reader (but a scenario this time, maybe Reader is a trouble magnet or smth

Law x reader who is afraid of heights/storms or soemthing (scenario or head cannons, they are an ally or crew member)

Law x sad reader (scenario it’s maybe the anniversary of a bad event for reader, Law notices soemthing is wrong perhaps ?)

hope you have fun with any u decide to do! btw i loved ur writing

I’ll keep all of these in mind when I need something to write and I’ll let you know if I ever post them! :) 

*****Law x Overworked! Reader

You never meant to overwork yourself. It was always something that you had done and never noticed. The people around you did though. They noticed the dark circles that were always under your eyes from the lack of sleep.

You don’t remember when the last time you had more than one bite of food. You’d always take a bit and set it down before hurrying back to what you were supposed to be doing. If there wasn’t something to be done, you found something.

But this time you were training your haki to travel down into your blade. Your hands were bloody at this point and all you wanted to do was throw your sword. Sweat dripped down your body and it ached while your breath was ragged and uneven. You wiped the sweat off your forehead with the back of your hand. Your vision blurred for a moment and you stumbled over to the wall near you to try and hold yourself up, or if you fell, you hoped it would be into the wall and not on your face.

But instead of putting your hand on the wall, you grabbed a shelf and because you were practically dead weight, the shelf came up out the wall, as did what was on it. Everything tumbled to the ground, including you while you sat there on your hands and knees. You had tunnel vision and couldn’t see very well.

The crash echoed throughout the sub. Law was one of the first people there. He knew that you were training and had a bad habit of not taking any breaks while you were concentrating on something. When he saw you on the ground he was almost mad. Law always hounded you to take breaks and take care of yourself when you were training. He knew that you probably weren’t eating or drinking any water. Hell, you were probably training instead of sleeping.

“Y/n-ya!” he hurried over to you and put his hands on your shoulders, pushing you up against the wall so you were leaning on it. “Can you hear me?”

All you could do was nod your head, but you still couldn’t see anything. Once you got your vision back, you slowly looked up to see Law scowling at you, a frown very apparent on his face. You hated seeing him look at you like that because he looked disappointed and that was the last thing you wanted.

“Why do you do this?” he said, shaking his head. Law grabbed the water bottle that hadn’t been opened and gave it to you. “Drink. Then you’re going to eat something after this and take a break.”

You opened your mouth to retort back to him but he cut you off. “It wasn’t a question, Y/N-ya. It’s an order from your captain.”

Letting out a defeated sigh, you take the water from him and drink it. You didn’t realize just how dehydrated you were until you felt the water hit your tongue and you chugged the entire bottle. He gave you some time to recover and then helped you up. You wobbled a little bit but Law held onto you to make sure you didn’t fall and took you to the kitchen.

He told their cook to make you something while he spoke to you. “You know that you’re supposed to take breaks and days off when you train?”

“Yeah...But I hate it. Whenever I take a day off it feels like it was wasted and that I was just being lazy.”

“That’s not how it works. Your body needs time to heal when you’re training your muscles and haki isn’t any different. You may think you’re being lazy and that’s how it feels, I know. But you aren’t. Your body is thanking you when you let it rest. And you’re neglecting yourself while you di it which makes it so much worse. You forget to eat and drink and that’s one of the most important parts of training. You need fuel. Trust me, I’m a doctor.”

You roll your eyes at him in response. “I get it. You tell me this every single time.”

“So don’t you think it means something if I do?”

Another eye roll.

“You’re not saying anything because you know I’m right.” Law told you.

The cook placed the plate in front of you and you only stared at it. “Thank you...”

“Can you get them some more water too, please?” the captain asks and they do so, setting that in front of you as well. “If you’re going to act like a child then I’m going to treat you like one. You aren’t leaving the table until you finish your food and water.”

“But I-”

“Doctor’s order. Or do I have to be more direct and say this is an order from your captain?”

“Fine.” you pick at your food, but you end up feeling bad because you know the cook put in work for you to feel better. “I’ll take a break tonight.”

“Thank you.” Law lets out a sigh and watches you eat. “Can you just not stress me out for one day? Is that too much to ask?”

You chuckled and smiled. “You know you should take your own advice. It’s not a bad thing to take a day off and rest. Your body needs it. You make yourself so stressed out. It’s okay to ask us for help sometimes, we’d all be more than happy to. So why don’t we both take a day off tomorrow and rest?”

Law scratched his head, knowing that you were right even though he didn’t want to admit it. “Fine. I’ll rest.”

“Good.” you grin and before you knew it, you had finished your entire plate. “Thank you for taking care of me. I really appreciate it.”

“Mhm. Now don’t let it happen again.”

“Oh, was that enough of you being nice for the week?” you stifle a laugh and cover your mouth.

You could tell he was trying not to smile so he just let out a little huff from his nose. “Yes, and it was wasted on you.”

#one piece #trafalgar law #trafalgar law x reader #law x reader #trafalgar law scenario #trafalgar law headcanons #trafalgar-law-headcanons #law headcanons #trafalgar-law headcanons #one piece trafalgar law #op trafalgar law #law scenario #one piece headcanons #one piece scenarios

[caffeinated-chaos-bean]

Posting this here because I feel...idk... like I'd be more likely to get ask advice sent in here rather than my personal blog???

I just was asked soemthing that... it really tears at my heart.

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For context, a friend of mine recently went through a similar breakup to what I did. Different circumstances leading up to it, mind you, but same end result: BF not wanting to talk out issues with GF, ultimately leading to an arguement, a tantrum on BF's part that ended with him leaving, and their relationship ultimately over.

In a nutshell, BF not wanting to communicate and work through issues similarly to what my fiance did before he moved out and ended our relationship.

Now... this week, she and I are planning to hang out. I want to check up on her and make sure she is okay, because she's been with her now-ex since 2017. She's been with him for 5 years, so obviously she's extremely down and also has her own me that health struggles added added that.

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Tonight...I got a message from her... and she was asking for a huge favor.

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This favor... was asking if she can love in with me and my mom.

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Her ex can afford their apartment on his own, whereas she cannot.

She's offering to pay rent, to do the driving needed when we get grocieres...

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But theres a few issues...

We don't have a very big "house". It's a trailer. It's a 30+ year old trailer. And it's small.

On top of this, we are still getting our house in order after my ex pretty much left it trashed and cramped. I mean... some of his shit is still in my closet because he just up and left it.

I'm still sleeping on the floor. We sont have a space for her to sleep unless unless she is okay with sleeping on a broken, torn, and overall gross couch that we technically have to get rid of whenever we have the funds and can get around to it...

My mom also is trying to get social security (disability). We already don't know how it will go given I still live with her and have an income of my own, paying for everything that's in her name with my money. We don't know if that will be a roadblock for my mom being able to get her own income lest she "leave me out" of things, if you get my meaning.

And the last issue (that pops to the forefront of my mind that is) would be that of my mom's response. I do plan to being the queation to her, but... I'm scared of her reaction. The entirety of my ex living here started well and and slowly delved into emotional and mental abuse from all three of us going at each other and my mom eventually not really eating and constantly saying she's not even at home in her own house house that she may as well sell it or give up and die. It's dramatic, yes, but all of us were at each other's throats essentially. It wasn't pretty, it was chaos. With this experience having ended just... what, not even half a year ago? Maynbe 3 or 4 months?? I don't know how my mom is going to take the idea of someone moving in with us yet again.

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And as for my friend, she does t have family in town anymore. Her parents left for Texas, her grandma with dementia lives way out of town in a place that's way too dangerous and she herself doesnt want to move to, for her own safety and mental health.

She has no where to go. Quite literally. And if she ends up being kicked out without somewhere she can go, she becomes part of our state's growing homeless population and I don't want that for her.

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This is why I ask for advice. I don't know what to do. She isn't isn't ex, she's also not a guy, so it would jsut be me, my mom, and her. Us three girls...

I want to tell her yes, I want my mom to say yes... and as I said, despite the fear of her reaction I do plan to ask my mom tomorrow as it's pretty late tonight.

But I want to know what all of you would do. What you guys would do to ha dle this type of queation in the circumstances that I'm in as is with my mom.

Her paying rent and being a second income with her own vehicle and license would help, after all I have to get orthodontic work done eventually. I've had to take each of my cats to the vet every other week, one by one, since the last week of September and that's a huge cost on one sole income (paid barely minimum wage, $14 per hour). Her paying rent, along with me still giving my mom bill money from my paycheck, would allow her to pay larger portions of our bills and we'd be able to get stuff doen that my mom.and i alone would t be able to do... such as fixing our dryer, fixing our propane heater, etc. Plus, my friend has OCD. She's willing to clean, which is a major difference from my ex who would leave used forks and bowls around the house, left our white stove top black from not waning after cooking, and being the reason we had to throw out our cookware and buy a new set. With her and I paying stuff together we could maybe get our septic looked at and get it fixed so our toilet doesn't whistle every time it gets flushed.

Plus it would get her away from her ex and into somewhere with a better environment.

I just... with what hapoened before with my ex, I have no idea how to do this...to ask my mom...I need advice...

#mun #admin #serious question #advice #tw mental health #tw breakup #potential homelessness #help #advice help #trying to help a friend

[lifesucksheres20bucks]

Last WandaVision predictions before tomorrow finale

- Were going to see a big battle between vision and white vision

- maybe a team up between eveyone in the hex (so the maximoffs ,monica and agatha (later on for her)) to destroy white vision and sword

-maybe a post credit cameo for dr strange since wanda leads into that movie

- I originally thought that vision was going to die (again 🥲) but now i kind of think white vision will be real visions new body and he will somehow live on (maybe it wont be obvious at first but maybe a 2nd post credit scene or soemthing)

- I don’t think the twins will live on but probably be reincarnated like in the comics

- i stull think peter (fiestro) is someone that was taken from another universe by agnes to make a new pietro for wanda (this is me hoping)

- finally going to know who ralph is (im going down with the mephisto ship)

- full on Photon superpowers (heres to hoping)

- hayward dying a painful death (possibly by wanda but ill take anyone killing him)

- i think jimmy’s missing person might be ralph or someone we haven’t seen yet

- more jimmy being a badass pls

- and more darcy being a badass pls i need more content from them both

- The ending will be conclusive (ish) to the westview story but its going to leave us with a bunch of questions and will definitely be a beginning to the multiverse saga and were going to feel empty and wanting more

That’s all!

Hope you all enjoy tomorrow finale! Don’t cry too much 🥲

#hayward better die #wandavision #wandavision spoilers #wandavision predictions #wanda maximoff #vision #billy maximoff #tommy maximoff #agatha harkness #monica rambeau #photon #darcy lewis #jimmy woo #white vision #chaos magic #scarlet witch #pietro maximoff #quicksilver #xmen #marvel #marvel comics #mcu

[malandi]

my littleadhdwins

ate oatmeal and a banana for breakfast

prepared food for dogs

finished my project and started the next lecture :) (hoooraaaayyy! around 9 more to go! )

mopped and scrubbed the floors (theres paint and dust everywhere so i took longer than usual...)

tried to wipe furniture but was shooed away after a few minutes... -_-

ordered a water floss online :)

took pics of me with my nice new earrings

fixed the beds. I folded all the huge blankets on my own

screenshotted nice outfits i have from a game for character insp

downloaded firefox and got like a thousand sexy extensions 😋💋 (per a post i saw)

i sang a lot today😊

refilled the water dispenser with help from my little sister (shes so strong wtf? i saw her muscles bulge when we lifted that huge jug -_- but i used to exercise more than her so what gives?)

To ppl who are doing this too, i really encourage u to put everyyyttthing u did even if other people wont see it as an accomplishment or if U don't see it as an accomplishment well youre wrong because u should celebrate EVERY LITTLE THING THAT U DO so even if its brushing ur teeth u put that there if u dont usually do it.

my breathing js shallow and i feel dizzy and want to vomit all the time... What tf is happening to me and why is this happening at the start of classes? All my profs were absent today so i didnt attend any class.

I am losing my sense of time... Every day feels like a year. Its probably because i am not feeling well. I hope i get it together soon. Ive been drinkimg less water too because i cant move around much.

things i hope to do tomorrow

sooooo i crossed off two of my list from yesterday 🤩 so ill be copy pasting what i didnt do

1. Start studying for my missed prerequisite subject

To do this, i will get my laptop. Prepare yellow pad paper, calculator, pen and stim toy. Charge my phone far away so i cant use it. Log into our school website. Access that course. Play the videos. If i notice im not absorbing anything, i take a break and do soemthing fun.

2. Do the assignment my therapist taught me

To do this, i will find a private space no one csn read over my shoulder. Likely the bed against the corner. Turn off wifi on my phone. Copy instructions for assignment. Open up my writing app. Paste instructions for assignment on writing app. Start assignment.

3. Start working on my lab exercises

To do this, i will get my laptop. Prepare yellow pad paper, calculator, pen and stim toy. Charge my phone far away so i cant use it. Log into our school website. Access that course. OPEN THE FIRST EXERCISE, dont look at anything else. Follow instructions, may include opening mathlab and simulink. Open the piazza for that class so i can look st questions others asked already. If i have trouble with something, i will log into messenger on desktop to ask questions.

4. Make some progess on my passion project

No set instructions here, just follow my heart! But if im stuck: finish researching philippine weapons. Assign weapons to oc's. Work on oc's personalities first. Check my notebook for notes on my oc's.

#littleadhdwins #ᜇᜎ᜔ᜇᜎ᜔

[andragoras-in-vanity]

(1/6)My Dearest Royal, My Moon, My Sun, My Stars, I do hope you may forgive me for my absence. I have been stuck in the space between here and elsewhere for far longer than I would have wished, and by my misfortunes, the echoes took hold of my head and my heart and I fell into a place where the sun's rays do not reach. An ocean of darkness weighed over me, but memories of your light helped me to once again remember how to swim, or at least to tread in the water.

LONG POST

My knight!

my dear knight of the night, ive been so worried for you, i had feared our letters had been intercepted! how it pains me to know you were trapped for so long, yet the joy i feel that youve been able to return. the land in between isnt kind to us of this world and yet you returned to the surface to find me once again. how ive missed your sweet words. should i have been able to pull you from the depths myself id have done so in a heartbeat, the echoes are frightful things when one cannot see.

in my eyes, sweet knight, any willing to even try to change the stars is worthy. and any willing to face the judging eyes of those who feel otherwise is even more so. we wouldn't have our safety or security, or i a companion, without you. fate is a fickle beast and though it make squirm and thrash i believe it leads us where we must be as it had let me to you, and i feel i must keep your letters close to my heart.

i wondered while you were away if your cloak had shielded you from the elements, if it had protected you as youve sworn the same of the crown, but it is only fabric and i fear it would tatter and tear before we may share it together. all the elements in the world couldn't take from me my desire to be explore with you. all the evil and darkness of the people couldn't jade my hope of your return.

we may all be guarded and we may all have seen hard times--some harder than others--but with time perhap our medic may open up again? perhaps a kindred spirit may be found in him. if nothing else he now has my utmost faith in protecting our knights. i admit im often unaware of what lies outside of my chambers and my library, but ive learned a terrible history in the years ive studied. may we both hope it will not repeat itself again, and may we both hope we see a bright tomorrow without fear or echo to haunt us, to slash our hearts and tear our love from us. after all, our love is all we are and we're hardly human without it.

i shall always see you as a being of safety and solidarity, my dearest knight, how could i fear someone so loyal? how could i run from one so devoted and believing? fang and claws both filed down or freshly polished, you are MY knight and i would hope if i call your name just loud enough to cut through the gloom on the dreariest of nights, to silence the echoes that linger in your chest, you would come at my word. you would keep the terror at bay and the weakness that infests me. if only for a night. if only in silence.

you may never let me down, so long as you return. my heart will sing and my cheek will blush like the dew covered rose at dawn so long as i once again hear the distant clink of your armor in the gardens. but you hold my worries with you when you go, my concern is yours and the fallen tears follow the rains you chase. my greatest fear is to lose a companion to soemthing i know not. between your words and gentle structure or the lyrical, i hold this parchment close and await the next.

you know not the comfort you bring me, even when you are away, my silent friend. though id much rather you remain in the walls here when i know where you'll be found, thats not the life youve chosen, and not one id ever ask for. i am the last of us who would keep another in a gilded cage and so you may roam to your hearts content. at least so long as you tell me of the distant woods and strange wildflowers you cross on your journeys, and if you ever need to borrow my light to keep the echoes from returning in the night.

Be safe, my returned howling knight

~ a royal of many worries 💚

#ask #anon #knight #ah!! i genuinely didnt think youd be coming back!!!! #you disappeared on me for so long #im glad you're alright though🥺💚 #glad to have my knight back again #knightcore #btw i only tag this as knightcore from time to time in case anyone browsing the tag wants to hmu with to anon letters too👀 #i always welcome any messages #royaltycore

[ccandystripe]

This is going in my drafts ill probably post it tomorrow or queue it or soemthing but i get way too emotional about the stupid fucking drama and divides in the fandom because queen means so fucking much to me and the people ive met through this are already so important to me and i just fucking Cry thinking about ever losing so many wonderful people and i dont know how to handle it like i feel sad and nearly physically ill because i just want to love my friends and love people and meet new people and spread love and positivity and im doing a shit job and i wish i could do better.

[a-kouka-rat]

WIP meme (part 1)

Woah I got double tagged?!

List all the things you’re currently working on in as much or as little detail as you’d like, then tag some friends to see what they’re working on. This can be writing, art, vids, gifsets, fanwork, or original work! I was tagged by @peachchanvidel and @sorasan000

WIP FANFICS (because sometimes I write, not that I’ll ever post these but still) #1: Suwon gets his arm badly hurt during a battle and it has to be amputated. There are two versions of this, one where judoh volunteers to assist during the procedure and one were Hak does. I like both so I don’t know what to do. #2: AU where Yona and suwon get married. Que very awkward courting because obviously this is what would happen, this is suwon and yona we’re talkign about. THey blush and can’t speak and get frustrated. Then there’s the weddign night and absolutely zero smut happens because suwon is so flustered he’s about to have a stroke and he’s about as clueless as yona is. They just end up cuddling awkwardly to sleep. (I’ve written many versions of this but none really reflect the awkwardness and innosence I want to give to it.)

#3 Yona and co are part of the army in the war against Kai. When an unexpected wave of bad weather hits the land, suwon’s informants are delayed and a large portion of the kai army is starting to attack villages for resources, killing innocent people. Yona and Suwon argue on what should be done. The story is just a comment on war-induced lack of morality and the responsibilities of commanding. (written, needs some fixing up, I like the most part of it but I can’t find the right ending) #4 modern AU (Jusu). Judoh regrets his choice of allowing Suwon, a graduate  student to stay at his place for a little while. But he owed a big favor to yuhon, and the youth’s apartment mysteriously caught fire and burned to the ground, so until he can find a new place, judoh has to deal with this. But Suwon is infuriatingly and effortlessly finding his place in judoh’s life and that’s scary. (written but I’m not happy with it yet)

#5 Yona and hak walk around a random town when an archery contest sidetracks them. Yona is very ready to compete for the prize (a large, smoked piece of meat that yun will love) against a bunch of useless drunken townsfolk, when a mysterious stranger steals the victory righ tout of ther hands. (this is more or less finsihed and just needs some touch ups. I might actually upload this)

#6 Hak goes to the dentist. This is all I have. I don’t remember where I wanted to go with it.

#7. Suwon witnessed his first execution when he was six (aka Yuhon’s questionable methods of education) (written the basics for it, need to turn it into soemthing readable) #8 Suwon pays his mother a visit after his coronation. (half-written) #9 Judoh slowly dies of an infected wound. ( I’ve written like the first three paragraphs of it then it just became so dark and I kinda stopped. Might revisit it sometime)

#10 In the AU where Judoh and Suwon go undercover in xing during the war preparations (alterign the canon storyline), they get captured and somehow Kouren mistakes Judoh as Yuhon’s son, and Suwon as his advisor. Que a bunch of prison-related angst, sufering and chaos. Judoh almost gets executed. (written but I think I went too far with the violence and I’m really lost with how canon went and how I should treat the xing characters so Idk if I’ll ever do anything with this.

I probably have more because when it comes to fanfics I start many of them but I never finish anything. I did not include my SooHak wips because they’re just mostly smut or hate/love-filled hak POVS so yeah. I also have unfinished Jusu stuff (like, tons of little unrelated scenes) and a whole lot of suwon-related whump. (suwon getting an arrow on his back, suwon getting trapped under a collapsed building, suwon getting a spear removed from his leg etc etc.) Art WIPS will come tomorrow because now I’m very tired and I can’t

#akatsuki no yona #wip meme #mentions of violence #i guess