#or maybe I'm just desperate

[erinartemis]

GUYS I HAVE A THEORY !!

All the Murder Drones merch (except the limited edition Animatez) is back in stock on the redesigned website! And I have a guess as to why this has happened now of all times-

A while ago, I saw someone point this out: the "Beginning of the End" announcement said only that season 1 as a whole is ending in spring, not that both episodes were coming out then. This means that we could get the teaser (and actual ep!) for episode 7 sometime before spring!!

It's just speculation, but to me, all the merch coming back seems like a sign that GLITCH is gearing up for an announcement >:)

#or maybe I'm just desperate #murder drones #liam vickers animation #glitch productions #glitch murder drones #murder drones theory #does this count as a MD theory?? #idk #mdtumblr #md fandom

[royalarchivist]

Pac: Oh, Nenê... How cute... 🥺💕

After dying to an atomic creeper in a cave and stressing over potentially losing all his items, Pac returns home to set his spawn and receives a sweet surprise:

His cat falls asleep on top of him and purrs when he goes to bed :')

#QSMP #Pactw #Pac #March 28 2024 #I had the exact same reaction as Pac my heart frickin melted THIS IS SO CUTE.... AND THE PURRING.... MY HEART #I desperately wish Pac got to hang out with Madagio (in his cat-form) #because cats clearly adore Pac just as much as he loves them #Maybe in an alternate universe Madagio spent a day with Pac #And in that time he learned why Fit came to care for this man so much #I don't need more WIPs on my plate but I am Pondering the idea #If the cat-hybrid Cellbit thing was canon I could crack a joke about the ''cats clearly adore Pac just as much as he loves them'' thing #but alas #For real though lock Madagio in a room with Pac for 12 hours and he'll leave being grudgingly charmed by him #aghhhh #Anyways this is so cute #but also really sad #because how many times do you think Pac's been in his room depressed over his missing son / friends / roommate #only to have his cats burrow under his arm and nudge their way onto his lap? #Don't get me started I'm feeling Emotional about cubito Pac lately

[tin-can-iron-man]

I'm just gonna say it again real quick:

Yes!! Iron Man is a tragedy! It has and always has been since the very first appearance in 1963 which describes itself, Tony's life, and legacy, as such.

Tony causes most of his issues himself, he is his biggest villain, a majority of his rogues gallery are caricatures of the worst versions of himself brought to life (when they're not just being racist cuz...60s...). The worst thing about being Tony Stark is that he can't stop being Tony Stark (he tried!!) That is the point.

The majority of pain Tony goes through, is pain he inflicts on himself, whether intentionally or inadvertently. That is the point.

He is not A villain (at least. Not usually. There are...some rough moments and arcs that are. Not great. As there is with any character as old as he is). But he is his own main antagonist.

#I—just—*slams fists on floor*—I WANNA PUT HIM IN A PIETRI DISH AND VIOLENTLY SHAKE HIM #tony stark #iron man #616 tony stark #marvel #marvel comics #*screams cries throws up* IT'S NOT HIS FAULT HIS CHARACTER WAS ASSASSINATED IN 2005 IN A WAY THAT HASN'T BEEN RECOVERED FROM YET #***starts openly weeping*** if the next main IM series is bad it'll have been 20 years of this shit make it STOOOOOP #being his own antagonist! his actions and mental state and poor judgement calls reaonates with people!! #I'm wildly under qualified to talk about this stuff but #I feel like that's *why* people with mental health issues. self esteem issues. addiction issues. flock to him. #he is not a BAD person. he is a person. who makes mistakes. and devastates himself. and even leaves himself half dead sometimes. #who doubts himself. is simultaneously oversensitive and alarmingly oblivious. he is a mess. that is a fundamental requirement of being him #that. resonates with people. it's *relatable*. Tony Stark is a lightning rod of interest for people...like him. hurting. sad. desperate. #and he brings *enjoyment*. he brings jokes. comfort. #he brings hope #because if a guy like *that* can be *iron man*...maybe we'll all be ok too #it's solidarity but also it's a kick in the right direction. it's saying ''it's ok that this is how you feel. I'm right there with you.'' #''but you can't stay here forever. we always need to try'' #Iron Man is and always has been about the future. after all.

[crossdressingdeath]

Y'know, thinking about it it seems strange that Bhaal declares Durge Faithless (technically it should be False according to the lore but whatever) in the redemption ending. I mean I assume it's a lazy justification for why Withers can make any claim on their soul, but still. I mean, their soul belongs to Bhaal! They're bound to his afterlife no matter what! He could do anything to them, punish them however he wanted forever. And if there's one thing we can say about Bhaal, it's that he's pretty possessive of his children. So why's he just... letting his favourite, the child made from his own gore, get free of him? The fates for those declared Faithless or False aren't great, but why would Bhaal decide not to punish this particular child himself?

...Unless... Okay, Massive Overthinking time, is there any precedent for gods claiming/reclaiming a soul after it's been judged Faithless/False? Because if so that could be quite the punishment and manipulation rolled into one: get Durge judged Faithless, let them suffer for a few decades, and then when they're truly miserable and desperate to escape offer them "forgiveness". Let them "come home". If Bhaal left them to suffer for long enough odds are a lot of Durges would be willing to do whatever he wanted if it meant escaping that. Which also makes sense with Durge being declared Faithless instead of False, since if I'm understanding the lore right the False get judged by Kelemvor while the Faithless just get sent to the wall? Would Bhaal be able to decide that they're Faithless rather than False...? Is there a precedent for a bit of a god saying "Nope, not gonna do what you want anymore" to said god?

#bg3 #durge #listen. i know this is a massive reach. but the redemption ending makes no sense and i hate that durge is just magically free of bhaal #hence: maybe they're not! maybe that's a lie! #besides i can't help it. i'm a sucker for someone ''rescuing'' a character just to take advantage of their desperation

[vampirepunks]

Wondering if Higgs appears less assertive and more apprehensive in the trailer because he's no longer suffering from chiral contamination... considering chiral sickness causes aggressive tendencies and poor impulse control

#me desperately optimistic: maybe that's how he actually is. just a tiny bit shy! just a little! just a bit cautious! #haha he's better... right kojima? RIGHT? 👀 #i'm nervous :) #higgs monaghan #death stranding #logan.txt

[yraa]

the divorce is going well

(edit: added subs) (original)

#or maybe it is just... going #genshin impact #haikaveh #bad animatic #i'm sorry #was imagining this for a while and then procreate released their animation app and i had to #today yra desperately tries to figure out procreate dreams. tomorrow?? who knows #crawls back into cave

[inblackwoods]

I know it's incredibly late, but at last! My piece for the Yeehawgust prompt "Yee-caw."

Additionally, I have no justification for making Jack Seward cool and capable of befriending corvids. I just thought that in a high fantasy western au, purely for the aesthetics, he could be a suspicious surgeon type.

Close up because I'm trying new brushes

#Yeehawgust #Dracula #Jack Seward #John Seward #nabiscart #I usually make Jack very pathetic baby but I'm sick of that what if he were cool now #Meaning I've been thinking he might be desperate for authority #I like to think he was born a nobody and was picked on for most of his life #So he compensated for his weaker stature and lower social status by climbing the social ladder tooth and nail #To own an entire asylum at an incredibly young age #Just to feel as though he has some amount of control- authority- maybe even respect if he's lucky #He has a complex now and it's constantly battling with his emotionality and compassion #Do I be ruthless and cruel to get authority or do I be kind and risk looking like a softie #He just breaks down and looks sad and insane instead

[overleftdown]

deranged post-canon farleigh speculation

so. archie madekwe said something that makes me question a lot of the other post-canon speculation (often quickstart dynamic post-canon fics, speculation, etc.). Basically, he was talking about how tired Farleigh was getting, in the point in time that the movie is set. This is depicted through his confrontation with Felix, which Archie confirmed was the first conversation Farleigh has had with the cattons about the issue of bias.

a review by hilton als briefly touched on farleigh's possible future, as well. it was a very negative and... honestly understandable idea of what farleigh would grow up to become. aka, someone who exploited and tokenized their race for "brownie points," pun not intended. i see a lot of people crafting stories of farleigh finding different ways to rejoin the ultra-rich class. and i kinda wanna say that i... don't like that. here's an anecdote: my cousin and i had a conversation about his experience moving from a white-dominated, suburban environment. he argues that although racism is still prevalent where he now lives, the racism he experienced in his hometown was so painfully, covertly delivered. it's this sort of "could you just call me a slur or something" mentality.

although farleigh is terrified of change, although farleigh is terrified of losing what he believes is an accommodation for his marginalization (it isn't; you can't buy your way out of racism), although farleigh learned to be materialistic through the ways in which he was raised, although farleigh is constantly running away from something--i think he was reaching a point of genuine hatred for the ways in which racism is delivered to him in this environment. i would also go insane. so freakishly insane. i think his conversation with felix made him understand that maybe the cattons will never even try to change. that the cattons couldn't even acknowledge the problem in the first place. that you can't really win, with people like the cattons. it's always a game of when, and never if. when will they finally, politely discard me?

this leaves a couple options. the first, farleigh learns to be financially independent and very much successful. he would never rely on other people again, especially not white people. this leaves room for hilton als' interpretation, but the fact that farleigh was cognizant of and willing to mention racial bias to felix is evidence for me to assume that farleigh is beyond belittling himself like that. farleigh already experienced so much shame from catering towards the cattons and their whiteness... i don't think he'd keep going with that. not with the way it ended. not after he had the horrible wake-up call that was both his cousins dying. so, maybe farleigh does find his way back to wealth. maybe through fashion, through modeling like his mother, through another form of art, through business, whatever.

the other option is that farleigh just... doesn't acquire that level or even close to that level of wealth again. i kinda like this idea. i kinda like imagining farleigh in a city flat or smaller suburban house, finding a significant other and probably never ever having kids. that, of course, still leaves room for farleigh to go and brutalize oliver out of saltburn. but i'd like to think he wouldn't take saltburn back. as i've said before, farleigh was never greedy. he never wanted to replace or succeed the cattons, nor did he want any form of dominance over them. to be their equal, yes. to be seen and heard and given attention, yes. but never did he play his games to knock felix or venetia down. i feel like farleigh would be the "eat the rich" that saltburn didn't have. not in the corny way, because farleigh is no robin hood, nor is he an innocent and selfless person.

my ideal "sequel" type situation would be farleigh returning to saltburn after living comfortably and humbly for the last 20 years. he's not here out of moral obligation. he's not here to steal back the catton wealth. he's here selfishly, and out of burning hatred. he's here because oliver stole any sense of closure farleigh could've ever had. he's here because oliver never gave farleigh the opportunity to forgive his family, nor to mourn them, nor to visit those memories, nor to make new ones. farleigh is here to wreck oliver's shit. it's not healthy, it's not pretty, it's not clean. i'd imagine 40-year-old farleigh, having matured, returning to saltburn and regressing to the same games he always used to play. lying, people pleasing, pretending, sex, drugs, sass, etc. ahhh. my ideal sequel. a man who found peace without closure and finds closure through a significant lack of peace. and, also, oliver dead as hell.

#farleigh start #i have class in 6 hours and i need sleep #saltburn #i threw this down in 15 minutes #it's not good and is in fact deranged #do u guys get me tho #i'm sure if emerald fennell were to write this sequel then maybe the quickstarters would b right #but i kinda hope she would maybe like #she does talk about quickstart as like a #idek #i love emerald #but i have Thoughts on this movie #and this character. #and these fans. #and arghgdjflds #i just want oliver to be CRUSHED #LIKE A WORM #i wouldn't care if emerald added in the hate sex that you freaks so DESPERATELY crave #like I KNOW I KNOW THEY'RE HOT?? #whateverrrr i care more about angst #guys angst mmmmmmmmmm #being asexual is so funny sometimes #i feel like i'm watching penguins in their little enclosure #deprived of freedom #sliding around and feral and slapping each other because they're in an enclosure #i'm so tired help me #i just mean that #you guys are funny like i cannot imagine living life with this craving that u guys r being crushed by #“cmon guys where is the farleigh x reader fanfiction cmon guys” like hello? hello hi? #i'm flipping the script actually

[broken-clover]

It's eternally a little funny whenever I see someone say something along the lines of 'everyone in Strive is so happy now! Everyone's stories are getting resolved! It'll be hard to make a new game when everyone's retired and living peacefully and resolved their problems' and then there's a haunted semi-sentient mecha corpse in the corner constantly screaming from being trapped in limbo

#nothing against the character reworking it's just funny in a fucked up way #everyone get a happy ending!* #*(except for you Romeo) #when I go back and rewatch Xrd vs Strive it's kinda jarring since you have a whole fleshed out character and now he's just kinda conceptual #like sure obviously he's dead but he himself is just sorta mentioned in passing by a couple of people #they didn't even go with the interpretation of 'oh his spirit passed on in AS/story mode' #and based on the character theme it really just reads as 'I'm trapped in neverending hell and my sister's presence is the only distraction' #half the cast is retiring and Romeo is reenacting I Have No Mouth and I Must Scream #idk I could be overthinking it but that whole segment of plotline bugs me in the weirdest way #wish it was more conclusive. wish it had more continuity from xrd. wish more than like two people in universe acknowledged it #how it's presented and how it's treated feels like it has a schism where things don't quite match up #bleh. at the very least there could have been a special intro with Axl #the ending of arcade mode is so abrupt it's almost a little silly #'ahh okay your brother's ghost/a lingering fragment of his soul is desperate to kill himself let's not touch on that much further' #maybe it'd be better if everyone had outtro dialogue like in xrd...? #guilty gear #bedman #delilah #op back on her bullshit

[kayvsworld]

sorry to be doing mcu throwback complaints again and EXTRA sorry for it to be about cacw and aou, sorry, i just am thinking again that if marvel had. in aou. committed to letting steve rogers see that captain america graffiti calling him a fascist with his own two eyes i would have forgiven many of their subsequent deeds and crimes

#like hey. hey shh. cacw but they engage with the politics of it and also have in a previous movie made him look at that graffiti. chefs kiss #WHAT IF THEY LET HIM MAKE A SPEECH. CACW BUT IF THEY LET STEVE TALK. UTOPIAN #i know asking that of mcu is like asking a toddler to build you a house but its just SO INTERESTING. TO ME #THAT IT WAS MADE AND FILMED AND THEN SCRAPPED #that they had steve's reaction be to just remove the helmet identifying him with that symbol and Continuing On #it's just interesting is all i am saying it's Interesting #note: i am obviously not saying steve's a fascist i just think it would be INTERESTING for Little Guy Of WW2 Fame to see it with his eyes #maybe i'm just still mad that my captain america press conference was stolen and turned into a peggy funeral idk. sigh #i'm done i'm done i promise. i don't have fatws open in another tab letting it microwave my brain. dont worry #kayvswords #mcu desperately trying to tell stories without telling an actual story is so genuinely fascinating to me #they want the themes and aesthetics without the substance but like. it's a story. it'll say something whether you want it to or not #idk idk idk. fatws is also i think peak mcu politics it's very funny. fascinating company. theyre so bad at movie #WHY DID CACW HAPPEN LIKE THAT. WHO THOUGHT IT WAS SMART. christ god #i feel like i should tag this as something so i don't get jumped but idk if that's still the vibe here kfdjglkjdfh

[jade-len]

first time sketching bingbing (+ random person) with a sad attempt at the arcane style

can you tell i can't draw baby faces. or anything below the torso.

#if you guys have any art tips please give i have almost zero clue what i'm doing #i was actually trying to make bunhe happy but then it was kinda going terribly so i decided to make it a little sad #something feels off about the bunhe sketch but i dont know what it is. maybe its just my inability to draw children #desperately tried to use powder as a reference and failed miserably #ill look back on this and cringe most likely #i might regret posting this #is it just me or does tumblr make every picture blurry #this was an attempt #svsss #mxtx svsss #luo binghe #bunhe #the scum villain's self saving system

[thefrogdalorian]

Putting my clown makeup on as we speak but I just finished this week's episode of The Bad Batch and saw that The Mandalorian was recommended at the end of it?!

I swear it's usually one of the animated shows...

WHAT IF WE SEE GROGU NEXT WEEK??!

I'm not desperate at all I swear... 🤡

#the bad batch #tbb #star wars #grogu #the mandalorian #not desperate at all ok i just really miss the little green guy #and i'm desperate to see more of where he came from 🤡 #okay maybe i am desperate

[hajihiko]

every time I come across Content that isnt my own I get the thoughts and thinks. Too tired to do anything about it except this ig

#Coming to terms with the fact that I can share shitty dumb doodles and tag them even and it's not a crime #I'm not quite Ants In My Brain levels but the brains are scattered rn. #Anyway I love a relationship that is unlabeled and unknowable but gosh damn it is sincere and devoted #I was thinking of that 19 days bit. 'you're the strongest most badass little mo' or sth #ANYWAY! Not confident enough to tag this w my art tag so #Fuyuhiko kuzuryu #Hajime hinata #Kuzuhina #Attempting to go full ramble in the tags after the actual posting bc I just got shit to say I guess #Not valuable shit but shit nonetheless #They're good for each other they build each other up. Fuyuhiko was putting so much faith in Hajime from the get-go #Hajime is like dont give me too much credit no I dont wanna think about my talents. And Hiko is like nah man you're great (in his own way) #And Hajime encourages so much growth in Hiko which is WHY I think Hiko is so passionate in his loyalty #Hajime makes Fuyuhiko smile and laugh and reflect on his behaviour and talk about his experiences #They laugh TOGETHER in the middle of the killing game which is v sweet #Fuyuhiko is DESPERATE to prove that he's changed and that he wants to do good now and Hajime is just like 'okay you got it' #Like thassit. And then when they find out Hajime wasnt a talent student Fuyuhiko is like 'oh ok' #They accept each other very readily and they trust each other so much and idk maybe my brain is broken but #I FEEL like I feel a sincerity in their friendship #Like it's for life man they're already making plans for the future when they're friends (hiko especially) #Yeah I guess I'll save these tags. Idk I'm a little Ill of the Brain rn

[ef-1]

girlhood

#i have to fly out to capetown to see mother and im literally debating if i could land in the morning and leave at night on the same day #like. anything longer than that is going to ruin my year. #when she called and did her “katherine. you have to be here on the 10th” i literally sobbed in my bed for the rest of the day 😍😍😍 #not dyeing my hair black for a year and its getting lighter and lighter everyday and i look like her again #and my therapist telling me “you need to do things for yourself.” but like can i? sorry that woman traumatised me and i actually cant :) #like everything i do is informed by her #I'm going to go and just like everytime the only way to keep my sanity is to mirror her. talk and sit and speak and read and eat like her #and its such a terrifying experience bc i remember that im capable of emulating her viciousness and maybe i am my mother's daugher 🤢🤢🤢 #and im going to come back and its going to take fucking months for me to feel like myself again #“oh you look so beautiful just like your mother” i hope you DIE lol !!! the fact that my conception of beauty was shaped by her #growing up with this cruel beautiful detached woman and realising that at the intersection of beauty and wickness is a lifetime of pain #and still being so desperate for her approval- for any metaphysical proximity to her that i felt elated when #people would tell me i look like her. that it meant i was also beautiful like her and maybe she'll love me a little for it #but now i know for a fact that i do look like her and it makes saliva swell under my tongue - that moment right before you throw up- #when people mention it 😍 #last time i was in capetown my optic neuritis flared up (and i know for a fact it was that it was ms-stress related from having to see her) #and i thought i hid it so well even though i had near constant headaches & lethargy until she said “katherine give me the red notebook” #and i knew that she knew all along. it was so acutely humiliating standing there and knowing she knows i cant see which one is the red one #and she tilted her head and said “whats the matter? do you not know what red looks like?” #im never going to have kids. my mother and i read eachother so well it can only mean im never too far removed from becoming her #lol!!!!!!!!!

[lesbianphan]

Does anyone know any sneaky secret society to get dnp merch to countries they don't ship to??? kinda wanted the holding hands shirt, but idk how I could possibly get it to Brazil since they hate us and all

#like do I need a phannie friend to ship it to and send to me? #it's a lot of money so I'm just scared of trying it and the person doesn't actually send it #spoopy #I was gonna ask Katie but I mentioned it multiple times and I don't think she's on board cause she never replied to it askdjas #and since I'm already so annoying idkkk #kinda desperate cause they'll stop making it and then I won't be able to have it #sigh #maybe it's a blessing in disguise tho idk how much it's gonna cost in shipping #talking myself out of it #dnp #Dan and Phil #phan #it would be so much easier if these bastards didn't deliberately stop shipping here

[problemnyatic]

man, I hate how difficult it is to find consistently good hypno stuff out there. Hypno isn't hard to find, but finding blogs or whatever that share our taste consistently enough to be worth following is a huge fuckin pain. Where's the hypno that focuses on the comfort of the subject before busting out "You belong to me, the hypnotist, now"? Where's the hypno that's not about being sexual, even if there's a focus on pleasure? Where's the hypno that bothers to earn its power over you?? That takes your hand and leads you gently into trusting, safe trance? That doesn't ask you to perform desperation or submission out the gate, or maybe even ever? I want to be brought into trance, inspired to submit, I want to want to obey, not just to be told to.

#hypnosis #we are not desperate for subs we are not desperate for doms we just want a break where we don't have to think or perform #and maybe we're just picky and ace #but when we go fishing for good hypno content it feels like we're one of maybe 3 motherfuckers online with taste and standards #Knowing how to pull a collar isn't good enough. You have to give me a reason to want it from *you.* #Prove that you DESERVE my submission. Treat it like a privilege， not a commodity you deserve just because you can post spirals online. #I'm not a cheap toy. I'm a delicacy and deserve to be treated as such♡ #and yeah yeah I'm sure bitching about how the hypno scattered about on tumblr is insufficiently queer and intimate is clownshoes behavior #but seriously some of y'all need to raise your standards. whoof. #mumblr #problemnyatic thoughts #check th notes for the better version of this post