#on account of the fact im not in a talkative mood

[eccentricwearsgoggles]

to be vague. i am so so so close to crying out of sheer frustration. and it honestly is not even something major in the bigger scheme of things. but in this moment and on top of whatever else has got me here, i'm just... throwing in the towel mentally. hate this feeling

#tbf in a way it's my fault for putting this on myself #but uh yeah... i cant even articulate what im fully feeling #on account of the fact im not in a talkative mood #because then talking just gives me enough issues. #it's just so bizarre when you want to communicate to prevent mishaps but then it backfires and explodes in your face #like cool. ok. yeah. #ugh im angry but i know i need to chill out so i can sleep #personal

[junglemindless]

okay, so. i have loved pjo since i was 12 and this can definitely be explained also by the fact percy is so freaking hot. this days i was thinking about our boy and just have to share some of the stuff i thought about him in all this years. here we go with some headcanons of bf percy and percy in general;;

• i have a thing for silver chain necklaces. you know, one of this things every hot guy has? yeah. percy does wears one. his mother give it to him probably. and he never takes it off. it reflects the sun when he's surfing, stands out on his tanned skin, touches your face when he's on top of you kissing you or whatever else

• percy IS an nba obsessed. he will invite you to watch the games with him and will give you his personal opinion about the players, the moves, even the uniforms if you want to know.

• he secretly is zodiac guy. like, in front of his friends or any public conversation he will deny it. but if you're into it, and just says something like "our zodiact signs are compatible!" he'll be happy about it and feel like he's part of something magical, you know? like he's known all along that you're supposed to be together.

• talking about interests: he definitely will listen with heart eyes whatever you talk about. books? shows? basketball or another sport? celebrities drama? taylor swift folklore's love triangle? he's here for it. laying on his bed with you sitting by his side telling him about it, and he's just staring at your beautiful eyes and playing with your hair

• he also love movies. he has an letterboxd account which he is religiously active on. also, he give extra stars to the movies you watch togheter just because he is on a good mood.

• btw, when he's calling you to watch a movie, it is to watch a movie. boy take the movies thing really serious.

• he will be watching barbie AND oppenheimer. and he will take you to both.

• percy can't sleep without being tangled with you. he's an huge touchy guy, bear hugs, forehead kisses, hands on your waist, head laying down on your chest. he just loves the feeling of your body with him

• bro is an biology princess. is the only thing he really found interesting. he loves nature, the sea, the animals.... everybody knows he's going to do marine biology. he's not an working-on-office-all-day type of person so 99% of chance of him working saving marine animals on an research group.

• his instagram profile would totally be about animals he saved. him just doing ✌️🤘👉👍with some type of turtle or an aquarium of clown fishes

• you gave him different marine stuffed animals and he keeps it on his shelf, right on the side of a picture of you and him on a beach day.

• as soon as he gets money, he will take you to a summer on greece.

• he is so fucking loyal. he CAN'T like anyone else. he just thinks about you. in a way that is almoust obsessive.

• also, kind jealous. okay, im trying to be nice with him, he's very very jealousy guy. not because he doesn't trust you or your love for him, but because he doesn't trust other people. at least, thats what he says everytime he sees this one friend of yours

• percy is a tattoo guy. he will have symbols, greek words, abstract stuff, strong animals.... and your initials on his chest once he knows for sure you're here to stay.

• i saw that jeremy allen white keeps a letter of his wife with him to read when he's missing home and i just can't get it out of my mind. percy will totaly take a small peace of paper with something you wrote to him when he's traveling to research or smth and read it before going to sleep 😫😫😫

humm alright. i think that's it for today. i love percy he's so fucking sweet. also, english is not my first language and i had never write for tumblr before soooooo sorry for anything.

hope you enjoyed and stuff 💪

HEY! we have a part. 2 :)

#percy jackon and the olympians #percy jackson #percy jackson x reader #percy jackson x y/n #percy jackson smut #percy jackson headcanon #percy jackson imagine #percy jackson au #percy jackson fluff #percy jackson boyfriend

[imaniwriting]

Could you maybe do drew starkey and reader in an interview talking about things they like about each other on set and off (they’re together)

𝐀𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮 (requests are open and are being answered in 1-2 days for the next 2 weeks)

Warnings: none

Summary : y/n and drew are together on an interview called About you.

Genre : fluff

“So y/n, drew!” Exclaimed the interviewer once the Cameras had started rolling again. “Hi!” Exclaimed Drew while bumping you making you laugh and smile at the interviewer and then turn to the camera to wave.

“Hi!” You said looking back to the interviewer who was beaming at you and drew. “ so today you’re completely free to talk about anything really set or off set related,” she started making you nod patiently. “But it has to be about things you like about each other” she finished making drew smile at her. “Sure we can do this.”

Y/n said while Turing to drew she smiled and broke into a laugh and he did too. “God this is so weird. I mean we know what we like about each other but saying it to each other’s face is different.” You exclaimed rubbing your arms against your thighs

“ okay if that’s the way it is lets start different, so Drew tell me one thing that y/n does on set that you like but you haven’t seen a lot of people do or you think is super cool and weird at the same time” said the interviewer making drew nod and think for a moment.

“Boy you better not embarrass me.” You warned before slapping his face playfully. He just smirked at the camera before turning back to the interviewer.

“So one thing i love, find weird and cool at the same time is the fact that y/n does not only memorize her own script she memorizes everybody else’s and so when ever we say one wrong she’s the first to know.”

The interviewer turned to y/n who was already staring at her. “Is that so?” Asked the interviewer while raising her eyebrows surprised. Y/n nodded her head. “It’s just that it’s easier for me to memorize the whole script i don’t really know why.” You tried to explain before turning to drew who was already looking at you smiling.

“Yeah but if we’re talking about off set I really really love her mood swings i can’t even explain it it’s just so funny to see her go from happy to angry” he said making your jaw drop.

“Dude, what?” You asked making him shrug his shoulders before grabbing your face and kissing your cheek. The interviewer had left from the cameras view leaving them alone to just naturally continue the interview.

“Okay im going to reveal a thing drew does in his free time when we have breaks during filming” you started staring knowingly at one of the cameras pointing at you guys “drew reads thirst tweets about himself in his free Time!” you exclaimed when he tried to grab your face to shut you up.

“See! It’s out and he enjoys them, you do not know how many times I’ve seen him smile at his phone thinking he was cheating only to see him like thirst tweets with his fake account. He be biting his nail and shit like that!” You said when drew finally managed to put his hand over your mouth

“Okay well at least i don’t watch edits all day about myself like you do!” He shot back you shrugged “well i just admire editors work you just read things horny people write when they’re bored.”

“Okay that’s its let’s wrap this up guys I’ll have to have a word with Mrs. Y/l here” he said as he got up and walked awfully close to the camera staring into its lens. “She will regret ever revealing that”

“See he doesn’t deny it!” You yelled from the back laughing. But that quickly died down when he ran up to you and picked you up by the waist. “Good bye guys!” He yelled and ran with you over his shoulder around making several crew members laugh out loud.

#fluff #rafe cameron #rafe imagine #rafe obx #rafe fanfiction #outer banks fanfiction #actors #outer banks #Drew starkey #rafe x reader #drew starkey imagine #jj mayback x reader #drew starkey x reader #drew starkey smut #drew starkey fanfiction #drew starkey x y/n #dark rafe cameron #obx fanfiction #obx x reader #jj maybank

[akgaereporter]

꩜ briizes: seunghan/wonbin/taro main dancer discourse 🤕

tldr: an ot7 account made a big thread on why seunghan is vital to riize's lineup, talents and visuals wise. they explain why his dancing is needed to balance the team but some taro/wonbin stans took it as shade towards their biases dance skills and ended up seeming lowkey ot6..

so everything started with this ot7 user posting a thread in korean about how seunghan is vital and unreplaceable within riize. they mentioned things like how his visuals and proportions blend the group properly, how he’s the mood maker and has good sense in variety and comedy contents, etc. very well written thread btw, here’s the link to read it if u havent already !

anyways, the issue started bc of the part where nomad talked about seunghan’s dance position within riize. they praised him for his flexible movements in contrast to shotaro and wonbin’s “rough street dancing and standard styles.” they also said that after watching the member’s fancams, seunghan is the member best at “using his upper body” and “highlighting the details of the choreography.”

here is the whole translated paragraph transcribed from the ss:

“Additionally, in order to widen the range of performance types that a group can handle, it is best if the specialized styles of each dance member do not overlap too much. While Shotaro and Wonbin's characteristics are rough street dancing and standard styles, respectively, Seunghan's style, in contrast, is very flexible and allows him to control the strength and weakness well. Also, by analyzing the members' fancams, we can conclude that the member in Rise who uses his upper body the best is Seunghan, and more importantly, Seunghan is the member who is the best at highlighting the details of the choreography among the members. In this way, the three dance line members are already the best combination, complementing each other's shortcomings, so if even one of them is missing, the quality of the performance will inevitably decline.”

this thread sparked a lot of seunghan praise:

now idk abt yall but after reading all these, the first thing on my mind isnt “ok but what about x member..”. this is clearly about seunghan, how he affects the performance/stage/vocal dynamic of the group, and what they lose without him. this is for seunghan and about seunghan, RELATIVE to the other members, not comparative. but some people clearly have other things in mind..

things got kinda messy from here🤕

and some people just straight up revealed they dgaf about him fr☠️

and youll never guess whats in shawty's bio..??

like hmm?? if 2+2 is 4.. how can you support an ot7 riize if you think he doesn't bring anything to the group? that hes not vital in anything? that they're doing fine w/o him? like im genuinely curious but anyways..

some people clocked how weird these reactions were but the damage has lwk already been done bc this is such a strange discourse to have at all🤕

☆ my opinion

again i just think its crazy how u can call urself ot7 when u dont believe he’s indispensable to the group? the whole point of nomad’s thread was to showcase what seunghan brought to riize, and why this ot6 body isn’t bringing out their full potential as vocal&performance artists. there are so many things to take into account here:

because one member is good at a certain aspect of a skill doesn’t make another members’ any less than..

the thread was to show seunghan’s unique differences from any other member, and highlight what the group loses by not having him. not to say “hes better at x than y member,” but to say “this is how seungan’s skill contrasts any other member and creates a better result.”

riize is a team, teams have members, members are going to have distinct styles that they execute best. shotaro is obviously the main dancer as he's very versatile and can cover a wide range of movement, but that doesn't change the fact there are details & aspects of seunghan’s dancing that he makes most noticeable, & that differ and contrast shotaro’s in a good way. those differences make them look better as a group. like yes taro is a pro dancer, but he has a more "x" style while seunghan accentuates more "y" movements, and "x" and "y" work together perfectly with the rest of the members on stage. its not about who is better, it’s about how they look together as one.

i feel like some taro/wonbin stans are referring to individual skills, which explains why they're bringing up taro's past as a dancer. individual skill is a whole different story, and again, that wasn't the purpose of the thread, it was to show what riize loses as a group by not having seunghan.

the “better at moving his upper body” part is one of those details seunghan highlights, but that comment is an opinion on nomad’s part, so ofc u can disagree with it. however the undeniable fact is that seunghan is very talented at dancing with his upper body, and whether x member is better than him or not isnt the point - it was included to show how he and only he executes it differently than others to create an enhanced look on stage. i think its funny how theres literally a part of the thread where wonbin is agreeing that seunghan has the most flexible upper body in an interview but some milkteas were still acting like nomad saying that is a snub to taro??😭

getting mad at a seunghan praise tweet for praising seunghan is odd behavior. u can of course have preferences, but to call it “discrediting” shotaro is a huge stretch. no one is downplaying shotaro’s skills as a dancer, in fact nomad’s thread is one of the only threads ive seen actually articulating and placing focus on seunghan’s dancing, so to say it was “objectively untrue” is crazy and i think we should just let hongjjangus have nice things. if u disagree, and think taro is better at something, gone ahead and make ur own thread like this user did (maybe with a less shady caption🤕) instead of creating a space for people to feel comfortable demeaning seunghan's skills comparatively to other members.

like who was speaking on him??😭😭 some people have definitely lost the plot but at least its a minority.. unrelated to these screenshots but theres srsly an epidemic of briizes who are lowkey moving ot6 but claiming its in the name of supporting riize's active members so be careful who u call oomf & stay strapped in these streets😕🙏🏽 seunghan WILL be home soon trust me ladies.. im psychic

[c l o s e t a b ?] ◀ ⇨ akgaepop.com

#briizes #riize #shotaro #wonbin #seunghan #kpoptwt

[itsaspectrumcomic]

man ok idk if youll be able to advise on this or something but like. do you know anything regarding dealing with like internalised ableism?

i live in a rural part of ireland, right? and idk what it is about rural ireland but some of the people are heinous. my school is in a small miserable-ass town and like. God, man. not everyone sucks, of course but like. jesus lol additionally i have a ~mildly ableist~ mother (a "we're all a little bit autistic" and "erm. youre not disabled because youre not in a wheelchair or blind/deaf" etc etc type stuff. + "npd = bad person" which isnt particularly good for me specifically because i have npd (that i both Cant get an official diagnosis for, for various reasons, and im not really Looking for one either because i know what i am and its not like you get support for it because ~ooh scary narcissist~.)

and like. idk if this is Obvious but that can kinda cause a weird-ass relationship with You (being Me in this case, yk how it is with the second person perspective when. ranting) and The Concept Of Being Disabled. like, objectively. im disabled. im autistic, ive definitely got adhd (that im hopefully going to get examined for at some point cause college stuff requires it for the disability forums and stuff. gotta love that. fuckin 80% comorbidity right?), ive got a laughable number of repetative strain injuries, i have a sensory processing disorder, an endocrine disease that effects my Entire cardiovascular system, a spine that felt a lil quirky and bent in too much. so on a so forth

but also like. it feels wrong to call myself disabled. yk, like im doing a disservice to all the other ~actually~ disabled people (being Anyone but me lol) (none of this is At All helped by the fact that my mother refuses to listen to me regarding Jack Shit about my health in Any way. "oh you nearly passed out on top of a hill because of your cardiovascular condition? erm youre just not exercising enough actually" "you dont have depression [said while i was filling out an assigned mood diary after being forcefully brought to camhs for Reasons" like. shut the fuck up and Listen to me please. at least Entertain the idea that i could be right about something for fucking once lmao. cause ive been right about EVERYTHING regarding my mental health so fucking far so. fuck off /nay ofc) (also man. like, even if you ignored the physical issues ive got im still disabled on account of being autistic. like, motor function is fine, despite being a lil clumsy and/or unsteady sometimes but like. my emotional needs are Fucked. think of the response youd get if you asked a. fuckin. 8 year old or something to do algebra. but with a very emotionally stunted and traumatised 17 year old lol. lmao, even /lh)

so like. if youve got. any advice or whatever on any of this thatd be Super cool + no pressure obvs. sorry this is a whole. like. fucking essay's worth of Random Guy Complaining To You On The Internet lol

-🐢 <- just so i can find this again if you respond. i Like Turtles. i am Normal about the tmnt and also turtles The Creatures. i wont talk at length about turtle mutant anatomy (i am deceiving you)

Internalised ableism is a really hard thing to deal with, especially when you're surrounded by people who constantly re-enforce it. I've also spent a lot of time worrying that I'm not disabled 'enough' to deserve certain accommodations, that I'm making an unnecessary fuss. But the truth is, autism IS a disability and if there are accommodations that can help support you, you deserve access to them. You're not taking away from others with disabilities by advocating for yourself.

It's taken me a long time to understand this and I still worry sometimes. What has helped is talking about my experiences with people I know understand, like my therapist or best friend, and learning about the experiences of other autistic people through books, social media, YouTube and even real life.

I'm sorry your mother and others aren't being understanding - remember that's a them problem, not you, and try to spend your time with people who do understand.

🐢🐢🐢 <- the turtles wish you luck

#🐢 #ask #anon ask #autism #actually autistic #advice #autistic #autism is a disability #its a spectrum #long post

[itsallyscorner]

࿔*:･ﾟCo-Stars | H.S

↝ pairing: Actress!reader x Harry Styles

↝ faceclaim: Daisy Edgar Jones

↝ summary: You and Harry are co-stars—that’s it.

↝ warnings: spelling errors? Some mistakes, cursing.

↝ a/n: There’s a high chance that this will be a series made up of social media aus, blurbs, etc :) probably a little boring since it’s the first post but you guys can decide, my asks are always open if you want more of this :)

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enews Tastes like strawberries🍓! Harry Styles and Y/n L/n were spotted sharing a smooch on the set of “Sunshine” in London. Link in bio for a sneak peak of their new film together✨

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harryfan1 how do you manifest being Y/n???

harryfan2 she’s so lucky ugh😩😩

ynfan1 I too would be gripping onto Y/n like that if I were in her presence

critic1 How do you have a talented actress like Y/n work on the same film as a wannabe actor like Harry???

harryfan3 if he was a “wannabe” actor, he wouldn’t have been in a Christopher Nolan movie🙄

ynfan2 don’t know who I wanna be, Y/n or Harry 😭😭

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harryflorals HARRY ON THE SET OF SUNSHINE TODAY

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harryfan4 HE’S SO??????😭😭😭

harrysgrapejuice THE PANTS THE HAIR AHHHHHHHHHHH

harryfan5 IM SCREAMING AT WORK

harryfan6 I WASNT EXPECTING THIS TODAY LORD HAVE MERCY

harryfan7 bless whoever did his hair today😮‍💨

harryfan8 on my knees rn🧎‍♀️🧎‍♀️

harrysh0use what a colorful pretty boy🥺

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ynscamera Iubi on set today!💕

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ynfan3 someone tell her to stop running, she’s clumsy😭

ynfan4 tag yourself, I’m the bag of crisps

ynfan5 Genuinely excited about the movie, but I have no clue what it’s about💀

ynscamera Everyone’s very hush hush about it, I’ve literally tried figuring out the plot through the clothes but I’m still confused🙃

harryfan9 what does iubi mean?

ynscamera it means sweetheart, baby, or darling in Romanian:) Sebastian Stan gave her the nickname after they worked on Fresh together!

harryfan9 @ynscamera oh, that’s actually so cute🥺

ynfan6 They’ve been filming for like months I need the trailer😩😩

ynfan7 her side profile is just perfect I’m jealous

ynfan8 The fact that Harry gets to work and talk with her everyday

ynfan9 I wanna be Harry Styles

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harryflorals HARRY AND Y/N BEING COMFY ON SET

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ynfan10 a couple of babies❤️

harryfan10 cuties literal cuties

ynscamera I wanna know what they talk about

harryfan11 I bet they talk about their favorite types of wine😌

ynfan11 @ynscamera do you think she’s shown him pictures of her dog yet??

ynscamera @/harryfan11 I’d be surprised if she hasn’t done it yet

ynfan12 I CANT WAIT FOR THIS MOVIE AHHHHHH

harryfan12 Can she pls release pictures from set, I know she has them on her camera👀

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ynscamera Y/n and Harry out for dinner in London!! 🍽 #sunshine

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harryflorals LOOK AT MY FAVES

harryflorals I LOVE THEM SO MUCH

harryfan11 I TOLD YALL THEY DRINK WINE TOGETHER😤😤😤

ynfan13 I know we said we weren’t gonna ship them—but guys😩😩

ynfan14 PLEASE TELL ME YOU SAW THEM TAKING PICTURES OUTSIDE?????

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harryflorals HARRY AND Y/N TAKING PICTURES AFTER DINNER

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ynfan15 YOUR HONOR I LOVE THEM

ynscamera not them being in a silly goofy mood together😩

ynscamera @/yourinstagram miss ma’am I can’t be shipping you with another white male PLEASE

harryfan13 UM HELLO?? FLORENCE PUGH LIKED THE POST

harryfan14 HIS HAND ON HER BACK SO SHE DOESNT FALL BYEEE😩😩

harryfan15 sleeping on the highway tonight🤪

ynfan16 I love how the major Harry and y/n fan accounts are just merging and becoming one

ynfan17 FLORENCE LIKED

harryfan16 FLORENCE FREAKING LIKED

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ynscamera Y/n and Harry spotted on set today✨ (submitted by @/ilovemitchrowland)

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ilovemitchrowland Guys I saw them with my own eyeballs

harryfan17 YOURE SO LUCKY

harryfan18 I’m so jealous😭

ilovemitchrowland they were literally so adorable, you can hear the two of them laughing from across the street🥺

ynfan18 hear me out maybe it’s not a bad idea to ship them👀

harryfan19 God, I’ve seen what you do for others—

ilovemitchrowland and Harry’s so sweet, Y/n was practically jogging to catch up with him so he slowed down so they can walk together🥲

ynfan19 bless them🥺🥺🥺

harryfan20 I’m crying that’s so fucking sweet

ynfan20 I forgot how tall Harry is and seeing him next to Y/n’s short ass reminded me of how much he resembles the height of a bloody tree

#Harry Styles #harry styles x reader #harry styles fanfiction #harry styles imagine #harry styles headcannon #harry styles social media #harry styles drabble #harry styles oneshot #Harry styles social media au #harry edward styles

[tooweirdforyou]

Will u not come back? :((((

hello, anon! hope you’re doing well and apologies for the late response. I hope you see this! ❤️

so, I guess this will be my answer and also my first post in about a year or so.. Im not gonna make any excuses or whatever, and cut straight to the point.

Bit of a long post but it will explain most things without being too personal just because it’s been a long time and part of me feels as though I lost that respect and privilege of being comfortable and being myself around you guys. Anyone and everyone who stayed or is a newcomer to my account.

It’s the new year. Here’s how I’ll answer you.

Do I wish to come back? Yes.

Have I been actively attempting to come back? Yes and no. I have been attempting to work on chapters for my Quotev books, but lots of writers block and just pure unmotivated to continue with where I am. Knowing it can be better if I were to redo it, continue with force or if I simply make a new book, (( which due to my imagination and inspiration by things I’ve come across, I keep wanting to start new books. ))

Have things drastically changed for me as I’ve been away? Yeah, kinda. I mean, things are getting a little more difficult for me, I won’t go into too much detail but it’s been really difficult for me personally the last several months. I’ve never been consistent in my feelings and almost always ended up more numb, empty and sad. And some days it would be so bad that I couldn’t be alone and had to be in a room with another person I knew. I’m really working on it but it really isn’t something that just goes away, as most of may or may not understand.

Am I still dating? Yes! I’m still very happy with the guy I’ve known and started dating last year and in fact, we’ll be hitting our two years very soon. I know this may be personal but I kinda just wanted an excuse to talk about him, haha.

Now, am I still writing? / interested in writing? Definitely. I just have huge motivation problems but I definitely still love that creative form of expressing your imagination into words and making a story. The problem is that I have all these ideas and it just sucks to have to do all this beginning stuff instead of making the reader or OC in love with the person already!! 😂 but yes. I honestly do love to write still and my boyfriend tries to encourage and supports me but it’s really my own fault.

do I still Roleplay? I remember mentioning this and then making an separate acc for this but never really interacted with it often because at the time I was busy. And now, I don’t anymore because it makes my boyfriend jealous, haha. I do miss it though :)

Do I still go on tumblr? Every once in a while, which is like every two weeks or so? Or just under two weeks or sometimes longer. It depends. But yes, I do check and I do love to read every new comment and message I get, I just don’t respond to it because I’m honestly a little scared.

Will I come back? I want to. I really do. But there’s a few factors that come into play-

- so much time has passed that I worry I no longer have like a mutual bond with you all and that it’s too late for me to come back and just pretend like everything is fine. It’s not. I’m worried it’s too late to just start writing again, I guess I’m nervous? I missed being able to be comfortable and be myself on here but I don’t know. I think my time has passed.

- not only that, I don’t quite know how to use tumblr anymore.

- I can’t stick to one fandom, just like my mood swings, my current obsession changes so often that I’m worried I won’t be able to keep up with certain works or keep everyone happy with my work.

- I don’t know if I should continue mt old works ( ones on Quotev )?

Start new ones?

Go back to scenarios and oneshots like I used to?

Refresh on tumblr and continue here again?

Move to AO3?

It’s the new year and I do want to better myself and change and I really hope that that means I can start over with myself and my writings once again.

I missed all my comments and messages and having mutuals and interacting with everyone. It makes me feel connected and honestly little less lonely when my boyfriend has his long busy hours..

But to finally answer properly. Yes, I want to come back but I honestly don’t know where to start or if I can.

I’ll be checking tumblr so if anyone has any questions, comments or suggestions or whatever you wish to tell me, I will be here. Maybe by next month I’ll have an answer of what I’ll be doing in regards to writing. Whether I take any advice from you guys or make my own decision.

im very deeply sorry for my absence. I hope this answers everyone’s thoughts.

sending lots of love. ❤️ thank you to everyone.

#tooweirdforyou

[thehighladywrites]

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Is there a song you know all the lyrics to?

What color is your hair?

Do you talk to yourself?

Do you wear makeup?

Best compliment you ever received?

@ your favorite blog.

ohhh anon ngl this was super fun to answer, thanks for sending it to me 💜

I have a light pink basic wallpaper, nothing fancy

Chocolate, always

My friends and siblings call me Ama, amara or mara, i’m also called aisha, which is my middle name💗

Teacher’s pet bc i’m trying to get into the mood when writing professor Eris pt 3💀🤤

Yess, this is the blog I write fanfics on!!

Nope!!

I have my nips pierced, I have three piercings in each ear and a nose stud. Bro when I tell you I almost passed tf out?? I hate needles but like i love to look cunty🤷🏽‍♀️

I honestly don’t know, maybe my kindness? I’m empathetic and very emotional. The thought of making someone sad or making them feel bad makes me feel physically ill.

An oreo, basic but delicious

Cat person for sureeee, i think dogs are cute but i prefer kitties

Headphones for sure, I never leave my house without them. I really recommend them too, they’re called skullcandy hesh evo and have amazing noise cancellation

I said fuck out loud

Did you know that goats have accents? Yeah, a goat from europe won’t understand a goat from asia. My grandmother owns goats and she let me know. At first I thought she was fucking with me but it’s true.

A night owl through and through, I sleep during the days and im awake during the nights

My bed for sure, it’s so comfortable bc i have the softest blankets and a massive comforter. My mattress is super plushy and it feels like sleeping on a cloud.

I think i’m bi with a preference for women

funny as fuck, introverted, anxious

Sweatpants at home, jeans outside

I don’t drink starbucks

obnoxiously bright and strong colors

Neither, I like super sweet drinks, but gun to my head the probs coffee.

Dinosaurs, love those lil fuckers

I’ve had this blog for almost 3 months but I had my old account for about 1 year.

If i could bring one item to a deserted island, i’d bring a sharp knife.

I think hyperfeminine and dark academia. My room is super cute in my opinion and it’s a mix between pink and dark colors. My outfit inspos are rachel green, monica geller and jasmine tookes.

My dream job is being a housewife and i’m so serious. I’m not made to sit in an office or work long hours. I just wanna stay at home, bake, look cute, make a house into a home and just exist. Is it really that hard 😩

I’m happily married to my hot wife @rowaelinsdaughter i love her SO MUCH🫶🏽

My fav outfit that I repeat is this one huge white sweater paired with my black pants, I pair it with black boots and a black long coat with a scarf from acne studios

anything chase atlantic, the nbhd, ldr, melanie martinez, burna boy ik the lyrics to hella songs but by fav is probably show me how by men i trust or art deco by ldr

My hair is black, jet black

yes, I talk to myself all the time…

Yes, I wear make up all the time I love it!!

That I have a nice vibe and energy. And I was once told by my sister that i’m the one she calls first for everything bc i’m the one she wants hearing good news first. She said she trusts me the most and i nearly cried😭😭😭

Here are my fav blogs -> !!!!

#talkswithamara #anon ask #anon💕 #get to know me #ask game

[ofyourmightyharmxnies]

PINNED POST.

★ ���＼WILBUR SOOT｜LMANBUR ERA.／。★

☆ ⋅ ⋆ — roleplay account for c!wilbur; canon-compliant, operates in the same timeline as everything regarding the character in the l'manburg era, albeit it's expanded and contextualized to fit my interpretation of him! +

☆ ⋅ ⋆ — l'manbur will be running the blog like how political figures tend to run their own social media accounts, and is sort of a celebrity because of his status as l'manburg's president. he will behave quite seriously, and be quite selective in replies (and they will fail miserably at both these parts honestly; although she tries, they tend to be silly at times!) +

☆ ⋅ ⋆ — any words that are akin to threats won't be taken too lightly around him, as although she favors the rebellious types, she would hate the prospect of you threatening l'manburg in any way. they do split quite easily, more than they let on. their responses might range from stoic to outright emotional. +

☆ ⋅ ⋆ — l'manbur uses he/she/they pronouns, and any kind of pronouns they come across. the egg has long since been cracked, but they're still the young phase of c!wilbur's life after all, so they're still curiously exploring things regarding their sexuality as well as their gender identity. they're still questioning their sexuality, debating on bisexual or lesbian. or maybe something else? +

☆ ⋅ ⋆ — they will respond to flirting depending on his mood really. sometimes, he will look at you unfazed and remind you that you two are in a public place. sometimes he gives you a little wink, and tease about the fact that you both are in public. again, really just depends on how confident she's feeling that day. +

☆ ⋅ ⋆ — will not respond well to anything suggestive or NSFW-related content however. they will try and act like the bigger person, but if one persists, it's outright silent treatment coming from him. +

☆ ⋅ ⋆ — suffers from immense war trauma, and very anxious when it comes to any form of intimacy or closeness whatsoever. cautious when it comes to trust, but when he does trust you, she's a very gentle person. i promise you! character shipping will be selective, and done with much careful planning as well as consent between both parties. +

☆ ⋅ ⋆ — undiagnosed silent BPD and unbeknownst to him, l'manbur's also beginning to develop a psychotic disorder. written by someone with BPD and with schizophrenia! +

☆ ⋅ ⋆ — almost everything in this blog will be drawn by me personally! especially on portraits and selfies of l'manbur. +

☆ ⋅ ⋆ — again, themes of mental illness is prevalent within this blog, but this is all still made in light-hearted fun! nevertheless, l'manbur's repressive when it comes to approaching or expressing his trauma, and very fragile at the same time. hints of paranoia will be dropped there and then, so whenever necessary, i will drop trigger warnings for things such as s/h. +

☆ ⋅ ⋆ — all of her posts will be tagged accordingly to certain subjects; any open, political statements will be made with the tag #the president's speaking, for instance; announcements regarding the state of l'manburg will be accompanied by the tag #l'man announcements, responses to anything would be #l'man responds?! reblogs, although rare since she tries to keep her blog not so personal, will be tagged with #l'man's reblogs <3 any other mundane post will be tagged with #the president's thoughts or another rare one, #the president's daily life. +

☆ ⋅ ⋆ — out of character (like where i talk specifically) are messages marked by symbols; '//' !! like for ex: // HAJAJSJS im dying so hard +

☆ ⋅ ⋆ — you can send writing prompts, starters, and one shots! i will be more than happy to provide! +

☆ ⋅ ⋆ — everything regarding her is within my personal headcanons; don't like? then just scroll away, easier done and said! +

☆ ⋅ ⋆ — blog monitored by @parfaitxparlour ; this pinned post can and might be updated as time goes on! +

#bursona #bursonas #l'manbur #lmanbur #cwilbur #dsmp #bursonaverse

[antagonisticoctopii]

Im in a Himemayo mood and everyone is going to deal with it. Here's some headcanons/ideas!! (Btw I use she/her for Mayoi so if it makes you uncomfy beware, she's my fave transfem)

-HiMERU fell in love with Mayoi first, he originally began to observe her because of the fact Tatsumi was so close to her, but quickly found out how interesting she was. He convinced himself that it was only to find ways to hurt Tatsumi by getting closer to her, but truly he found her charming. He observed small habits of hers, her favorite things, things she didn't like, even patterns in her speech. The nail in the coffin was watching her perform her center song with Alkaloid (believe 4 leaves) and being spellbound with how talented she was.

-Mayoi fell in love with HiMERU after him repeatedly being kind and considerate to her. He had gotten close to her and she even somewhat let down her walls around him. The confirming moment was when she was having a panic attack because of how crowded a place was, and HiMERU took action to bring her to a secluded area. HiMERU comforted her and gave her reassuring words, and once she was in his embrace, Mayoi realized she never wanted HiMERU to let go.

-Everyone knew they were in love with each other before they even said anything. Rinne had no shame teasing HiMERU in front of Mayoi about his crush, while Alkaloid more respectfully poked fun at Mayoi during practice when she'd receive a message or call from HiMERU.

-Tatsumi definitely was/is in love with Mayoi, and it hurt to see her in love with someone else, but he wanted to see her happiness more than anything and was thankful that she had HiMERU, who treated her correctly. He even prays quite frequently for the couples happiness and that neither of them receive any harm. He is their #1 supporter (besides OGmeru and Tatsumi can be canon this way 😈)

-They're both absolutely obsessed with each other. HiMERU sees cute things/clothing that reminds him of his girlfriend and if he thinks she'll like it he buys it immediately. He texts her and calls her whenever possible. Not only that but he picks her up from practice to simply walk her to the dorms just to spend some time with her. Mayoi knows exactly how to get to his dorm from any given point in ES through the passageways she uses, and visits him frequently (even from her own dorm, god forbid she uses the hallway). She memorized what he smells like and what shampoo/body wash he uses, she knows his schedule exactly and even reminds him of things if it's needed.

-They bake together frequently. Sometimes they make so many sweets together that they end up having extras to hand out to their units/circles. Alkakurei appreciates it so much that sometimes they request specific things to be baked, Mayoi happily complies and HiMERU complies because he loves his girlfriend.

-Mayoi loves styling HiMERU's hair and playing with it. She frequently uses her cute hair clips and bows on him and takes photos of him afterwards. She also does his makeup sometimes just to top it all off. HiMERU loves seeing her happy and honestly thinks she does great afterwards. He was never one to wear much makeup but he honestly thinks he looks good afterwards.

-Mayoi loves fashion and styling her outfits, with this she'll choose outfits for HiMERU too. They wear matching outfits sometimes and Mayoi takes lots of photos to post on her private social media accounts.

-Mayoi finds it quite fun to post on her socials, especially her private instagram (that only other ES idols are allowed to follow). She frequently posts photos of her and HIMERU on dates/together to show everyone how much she loves him, but in the safest way possible.

-They both love physical affection. Mayoi is very cuddly and whenever it's just the two of them they're barely separated. Sometimes they just sit on one of their beds cuddling and watching something on one of their phones. Or just cuddling and talking together, ignoring everything else in the world (like they frequently do together).

-HiMERU is always there to support his girlfriend at Alkaloid lives. More often than not, he's back stage comforting her and helping her in her dressing room. After she walks onstage he either stays in the wings to watch her perform and to be there when she walks off, or exits to the audience to watch it himself. Either way he always has tickets to every live he can get that she performs in (and vice versa)

Okay!! Thats enough from me, hope you enjoyed!!

#himemayo #mayohime #himeru #mayoi ayase #ensemble stars #enstars #they're my favorite queer straight couple

[ticklyteddybear]

Rant post, kinda a call out but I'm not naming the people rn.

Tw:cursing, grooming/s/a, use of slurs, s/h, suicide attempt mention, alcohol mention

Okay, I'm just gonna start off with the fact that this person's partner, after most of the stuff kinda went down,told me they would relapse s/h cause of me. Relapsing is obviously terrible, and s/h is as well, but the fact their tactic to guilt trip me or somehow get me to stay or feel bad was telling me they would relapse is insane. There's also the fact they (no longer talking about their partner) called people slurs in a derogatory way, saying they wanted to be someone's 13th reason, admitted to wanting to tell someone to kill himself.

There's also the fact they guilt tripped me into staying in contact with their partner after their partners friend told someone to kill himself, and said a whole bunch of other vile shit but I'm not gonna go into extreme detail since it's very triggering. But then when i mentioned not being comfortable around them (thinking they said that) they guilt tripped me and told me I'd make them spiral. Then they have the fucking audacity to say I never communicated with them even though each time I fucking did I was guilt tripped or manipulated.

I would also love to point out the fact they put triggered in quotes each time they talked about how I said I was triggered by stuff they said/did. I was!! They told someone to off themself, called people slurs, pressured me into rps I didn't want to do, usually Nsfw, said some of the most vile things I've heard. I was triggered and I was unable to communicate because well, each time I did they guilt tripped me!!!

And then there's the time they asked me if the way I attempted suicide worked with no warning on vc with other people on

And then there's the fact they have made many, many sexual comments about me, which given our age gap, is pretty weird, they're a senior, im a freshman (in high school)

They also invalidated me any time I mentioned I was triggered by s/a, and even once said "You're a guy, you wouldn't understand" when talking about being groomed and s/a, while doing both of those to me

Talking to me about fetishes and kinks and pressuring me to answer if I had any

Many times they had texted me they were gonna kill themself , if I didn't answer immediately they'd say I hated them, constantly vented about triggering stuff without warning or permission

They would constantly make me feel bad for being teased or tickled, always talked about how jealous they were of me for being teased and complaining about how they never got attention but then talk about how much they were teased by multiple different people and if I said I couldn't hear that since I wasn't feeling good cause I had a bad lee mood they would say "well weren't you teased by *name*" and if I said yeah but mentioned it was months ago they'd get upset with me

They also guilted me for having sensitive ears and getting overwhelmed easily and not knowing them squealing loudly was a stim, I had my headphones on full volume and it hurt so I asked them to stop, then for ten minutes they guilted me and said "sorry for having a stim" I didnt know!!

They also hid behind their autism but then got mad when someone said they had autism and said "that's not an excuse" or say "I don't do that" but then they do the same thing?? I have autism and bpd, I don't use autism to hide being a shitty person. Everyone's autism is different as well!!

They also said they agreed with harassing Nsfw accounts (who don't harrass sfw accounts and mind their business) and when I felt iffy about that they got mad.

They also dragged me into so much drama, made me send people some of the most vile things ever and made me relapse drinking and s/h then when I said I needed some space from everyone and put up a Dni they said I put it up cause of them!! I mean they were part of the reason, but not the main reason. I was drunk, my arms hurt and I was having a mental breakdown, and then someone called me a bad friend for it. (though I don't hold it against them, they didn't know everything)

Then they outed me as trans to people and told me the transphobic shit they said, always said "I don't really like men, except Bear, but he's trans" and told me I shouldn't get top surgery.

They also claimed I lied to some people about the situation. I showed proof of everything. And again, can't stress this enough, I did communicate many times, but each time I was guilt tripped and invalidated.

That's all, I'm not gonna say who these people are for now.

#Rant #Vent

[aquilathefighter]

Trope Game

Hiii i finally have spoons for this!! thanks for the tags @seiya-starsniper @immacaria @altair214 <3

Rules: How much do these tropes affect your decision to click on a fic?

-10 -> very dissuaded

0 - don't care either way

+10 -> very enticed

nope -> if it's a hard no and you'd never click on a fic with that tag or or you even have the tag blocked or you'd insta click out of the fic if it wasn't tagged

Bonus points for explaining the rating and whether it's conditional.

Age gap: +3

its a sometimes food for me, i just have to be in the mood for it or it has to be well done, whether it's clear we're playing in the space of sexy fantasy or something a bit more unethical

Codependency: -5

brings up some yucky feelings for me. if it's done by an author i trust i might still click though!

Obsession/Possessiveness, jealousy: +4

it can be sexy and i like when characters talk through it

Opposites (grumpy/sunshine etc): +8

*gestures at most of my favorite ships*

Enemies to lovers, Enemies with benefits: 0

eh just not really my thing!

Friends with benefits: +4

its a fun thing and i love a pwp where they're just buds. but i do really prefer more romantic pairings personally

Sex to feelings: +7

love the exploration of what happens when it becomes not 'just sex'. also smut yummy

Fake dating/relationship: +10

oh my god this is my favorite trope e v e r. the number of spirk fics where they have to pretend to be bfs/husbands bc of the aliens i've read..

Friends to lovers: +9

CLASSIC. i love a beautiful foundation of two people who really know each other well realizing their affection for each other have evolved into something different!! only knocked off a point bc sometimes its really amatonormative in that the romantic relationship is seen as more/better than the platonic relationship and i do not vibe with that.

Found Family: +1

i could take it or leave it for the most part but if it's done well its certainly appreciated!

Hurt/Comfort: +10

afjdskaf;jsda i dont even have an explanation other than i like to hit characters with hammers and then nurse them back to health

Love Triangle: -8

i just think its kind of played out and very rarely do the dynamics catch my interest

Poly, open relationships: 0

i tend to get really fixated on one pairing so its kinda hard for me to get really excited about them?? all the power to poly ships but i just have very few of them (e.g. mcspirk)

Mistaken/hidden identity: +3

it can be fun! love some drama but if its simply misunderstanding i get a bit frustrated. more phantom type hidden identity pls

Pregnancy: -1

kidfic is generally a squick for me on account of me never wanting to get pregnant in my entire life ever and some personal stuff, but if its more about the relationship between the pregnant person and their partner(s) i'm down! and breeding kink ofc, thats a whole other thing

Second Chance: +7

people who have history between them giving it another try? trying to move past the ways they hurt each other??? yesssss

Slowburn: -2

this is more about the fact that i simply do not have the brain power to read 100K+ fics a lot of the time!! when i do have the capacity i love reading a slowburn but unfortunately i expend a lot of reading spoons on work on account of being an academic at all

Soulmates: -4

man im such a pessimist but i personally find the idea of predestined people you're gonna fall in love with kind of depressing? much more a fan of love being a thing you create between people

i am probably the last one to do this XD take this as an open invitation if you would like to do this game and haven't been tagged!

#tag game #i am a pretty amiable guy when it comes to most things

[laundrybiscuits]

tagged by @trensu! this is literally zero fandom content so I'm putting it under a cut

Nickname: I picked this username because my laundry basket and a packet of biscuits were in my eyeline when I created the account. I am a Professional Creative.

Height: short lmao

Last thing I googled: vegetarian mentaiko

Song stuck in head: look…I wish it were some cool indie thing but if I am being one hundred percent honest, it is the theme song from a Japanese supermarket I went to last week. since then, I have woken up every morning thinking maybe today I will be free, and every morning I am wrong.

# of followers: a little over 700 but I'm pretty bad at cleaning out bots so who knows, I may mostly be talking to myself out here.

Amount of sleep: I am so so protective of my 8 hours. I can get by on less, but my willingness to do so wanes with every passing year.

Dream job: I don't believe in dream jobs as a concept! IME in the arts/culture sector, ostensibly desirable industries tend to attract wild egos and self-perpetuating systemic access inequities. I've also worked extensively in/with academia, and suffice to say that academia as an aesthetic is freaking hilarious to me. try making a moodboard about a perpetually broken in-house CMS and a byzantine procurement system.

Wearing: the most comfortable clothes I own i.e. an oversized t-shirt from a live orchestral performance of Undertale music I went to in Chicago a few years back, and dhoti salwar I picked up in Hyderabad for a friend's wedding.

Movie/book that summarizes me: I dunno about 'summarizes' but when I watched EEAAO I was like…jfc I knew this would be my shit but I did not know it would be, like, My Shit.

Fave song: I like a lot of music and my faves shift around depending on my mood! but if I absolutely had to pick an all-timer...Frank Ocean's Sweet Life, maybe? channel ORANGE was a game-changer for me.

Aesthetic: generally I dress like a bizarre mix of "beleaguered sea witch" and "teenage DM in 1996." (I was not a teenager in 1996, I've just never dressed in an appropriately contemporary way)

Fave authors: Pterry has been my go-to comfort read for 20 years; I'll also read literally anything by Ocean Vuong, Carmen Maria Machado, Anthony Oliveira, and Zen Cho. Some slightly less contemporary authors whose prose was very formative for me: James Baldwin, Octavia Butler, Witi Ihimaera, Vladimir Nabokov. I could keep going tbh, I read a lot and my last two apartments were less than a block away from their respective local libraries. (not my current apartment tho, which I am being a giant spoiled baby about.)

Random fact: it's actually really tough to pick something fun that doesn't immediately doxx me lol. how about this—I once spent 6 weeks on an archaeological dig in Roswell, NM.

#tag game #this is the most I've talked about myself on this account by FAR haha

[anx1oustig3r]

why do you draw dark willow like that

tbh i could give a snarky answer but i’ve had my lunch and a painkiller so im in a good mood rn

for me a big thing with character design that i love is trying to reflect the characters personality and attitude in the design and … i think i gotta take a moment to talk about valve’s issues with character writing in dota, specifically with poor little mireska sunbreeze

an addendum i also believe that anyone’s read of the character is perfectly fine and valid, this is just mine and i get that it’s extremely different to the Oversight one that’s more popular

tl;dr: i see her as a dangerous, evil character and draw her more sharp to reflect that

mireska in particular really suffers from her canon design. i dont think it’s bad mind you, i actually like it a lot, but i will say the first time i saw the character my response was “ugh of course, waifu porn bait, not surprised.” then i read her lore and i was SHOCKED because the character presented in the lore just didn’t line up with the visuals. now granted, the character in game is very “haha mischievous little fairy” but thats where i want to bring up the inconsistencies.

im firm in my stance that snapfire is the most interesting and well written character in dota, but i seriously believe that spot could have been mireska if they just commit to what was set up with her.

this is her lore piece in game and there’s key words here: spiteful, contempt, manipulation, cutthroat. along with the note that she was GOOD at dealing with this stuff. she fit in with it and even says herself if it wasn’t for her father she’d have stayed in revtel

it’s pretty evident here. mireska is an absolute piece of shit made worse by the fact that this is very clearly an active choice she’s making and has zero intention to change if these lines are anything to go by.

(tumblr is glitching so im praying it chose the right photos)

it doesn’t really come across when you load her into the game. it’s just, cheeky waifu at best. she doesn’t seem all too effected by what she’s supposedly been through. granted that’s the standard of dota writing, but thats what i’m getting at. the lore sets up one character but then the game presents you with another very watered down one note version of them.

so the mireska i draw comes from the character presented in the lore. a rebellious asshole who was fucked up enough to burn her families estate down to the ground AS A CHILD and steal a family heirloom purely to rub salt in the wound of her father, clearly there was some messed up dynamic there but the game wont really elaborate further outside of “overbearing”. i often find myself thinking it would have been great if they let her acknowledge this in game, especially since it’s evident some years have passed since the fire, you don’t become wanted in 6 nations with a nasty reputation and armies worth of assassins and bounty hunters after you in just a couple of weeks.

does she feel any guilt for what she did? has she realised that she’s set herself down a spiral of self destruction but she could stop it at any point as dontè implies? does she know this but trying to change and be better is basically admitting that she’s in the wrong which she would rather tear her own wings off than admit that?

i don’t know if im crazy for having this read of her, or looking too hard into a game that regularly gets memed on for not having any lore, but personally these themes of holding yourself accountable that hang on the back of her character are fascinating and resonate a lot with me. and i guess that’s why i draw her the way i do. i see her as this rough, conflicted character who’ll shank you first, rob you blind and not bother to ask questions. someone with a bitter past that she’d rather leave behind and be the worst version of herself purely to spite whatever expectations were put on her in childhood (given her father was a merchant king and the way she talks about him, there was clearly SOMETHING)

so i use a lot of sharp shapes, hard edges typical of a roguish dangerous character. dark outlines, fangs and claws to exaggerate that she’s a monster and a clear threat. she’s thin and gangly like a bramble stick you’d find walking in the woods in the dead of night, with cat eyes that gleam in the darkness like a predator watching.

i could talk about why i read a very queer interpretation of her too but i think i rambled enough as it is and this is gonna get posted to reddit where gamers will laugh at me and send anon hate to this blog but what can you do, such is life im afraid.

#dota 2 #dark willow #mireska sunbreeze #dota2

[aroace-cat-lady]

Okay wait

Idk if I’m alone in this but I’ve never seen people say this

But like

I really really don’t like when people say things like “men/guys who like Taylor Swift>>>”

Like seriously they make it seem like such a massive feat and act as if it shows a great display of character (actually it does, don’t get me wrong, but why exclusively men in that case 😭😭😭)

Like hello- other genders do in fact also listen to Taylor Swift but hey I haven’t heard you say a word about them

And in my short time having TikTok (I truly hate that app and find myself to be much happier after deleting it) I see the most irritating guys always making videos about how they’re ~ different ~ because they listen to Taylor Swift

EXCEPT

EXCEPT

The only song

That I have EVER seen them singing or playing in one of those silly videos

is, you belong with me, (just the bridge that too) and it’s just like- sir do you like know any of her… idk… other songs amongst the abundance of them that she has released?? Fun fact her discography amounts to over 200…

Also a real swiftie guy wouldn’t make that big a deal of it- he’d just casually run his my tears ricochet account and whatever lol

And it gives the same energy as that one guy who posted vids of him reading a book shirtless thinking he was atlas corrigan (the guy from it ends with us I believe ALSO PLS don’t misunderstand me- I HATE it ends with us I don’t like the author or any of her other books- they are disgusting- and I hate that genre trope in general!! I am a COLLEEN HOOVER ANTI) anyway yes, this one guy literally just reading or something and 2000 people going crazy over him in the comments??? Like hello??? I guarantee you that I read 1000x more books than he has in his lifetime in like a week??

Anyway it’s just the whole praising men for doing the bare-minimum that’s so off-putting as always and it allows these weirdos to feed right off that

And of course I seldom see posts which say something like ‘[insert gender] who listen to Taylor Swift>>>>

So yeah that’s all

So, i wanna make clear smth first: im both, the worst and the best person you couldve send this.

Okay so im just gonna go full queer mood from here.

First, the gender binary there bothers me. So. Much. Like. Okay. They're just cishet girls expressing their sexuality, its fine. But i just cant help to notice it everytime.

AND then you realize that no one goes and say Woman who listen taylor swift>>>>>> and its just. Like. Wtf. I really never ever have seen someone celebrate any kind of girl that way, its always the woman that feels lucky of finding a guy interested on their fandoms.

And añmdpwnspdnap id say queer rights cuz sapphics and nd pals and unlabeled ppl?? So many cool ways to express gender and you pick the guy that only plays ybwm okay-

Tbh ive never been interested on reading Colleen Hover. But yes, for some reason ppm always seems to celebrate cishet guys doing like normal stuffs?? Like, TS even talks about it on TheMan mv.

Idkidk, on one hand i know most of the things behind tha treanding bother me cuz im aroace and demigirl, but also pandoqkwoqnaoqlqpamwpw violence

[moltenfeathers]

alright guys it’s time for a silly little ramble

i hope everyone realizes that the only reasons why i use the data-sucking app we call instagram is to interact with my loved ones and to spread my love and humor on the internet.

my depression and anxiety rates have skyrocketed. my body image issues have akyrocketed. i’ve had to slowly transition into a cishet girl in order not to have my address and personal information leaked.

the world is fucking dangerous.

i made my account public and did a subconscious social experiment of sorts. i’ve taken up the “bug2sick” copy (apple papyrus font, rio de janerio instagram filter, slanted images, etc) and i would mix in personal videos and funny moments in my life.

the results are genuinely jarring.

the “bug2sick” copy photos have up to 30 likes at the most. i have around 230 followers

my personal videos with me being silly have really fucking disgusting comments of “it isn’t good to show signs of autism on the internet”

let’s also mention a cute little fact about the person i’m dating, and currently about to dump because holy fucking shit.

i’ve censored the slurs, and this person will be blocked soon.

his identity has been censored because this might breach my audience and i don’t want any harassment against him. just because most people don’t send harassment here doesn’t mean all people don’t.

this person, over the course of TWO FUCKING WEEKS, has consistently sexualized and messaged me knowing i’m often busy. knowing im not in the mood to talk to anyone most days. ive had to turn my message notifications off for half the day because it was too overwhelming.

i don’t really have many other words. if people want to add to this, they can. but all i beg is to not send harassment or search the depths of the web for my social media or anyone else’s.

#tw suicide #tw abelism #tw homophobia