#now i go to bed and rest lol

[baekslight]

2024 MLB World Tour Seoul Series Behind

#baekhyun #baekhyunedit #exoedit #exosnet #exogif #exo #ultkpopnetwork #ksoloists #kpopccc #kpopedit #kpop #my gifs #mlb #userbexrex #skyehi #sunflowerchen #yeonzzen #melontrack #now i go to bed and rest lol

[ef-1]

girlhood

#i have to fly out to capetown to see mother and im literally debating if i could land in the morning and leave at night on the same day #like. anything longer than that is going to ruin my year. #when she called and did her “katherine. you have to be here on the 10th” i literally sobbed in my bed for the rest of the day 😍😍😍 #not dyeing my hair black for a year and its getting lighter and lighter everyday and i look like her again #and my therapist telling me “you need to do things for yourself.” but like can i? sorry that woman traumatised me and i actually cant :) #like everything i do is informed by her #I'm going to go and just like everytime the only way to keep my sanity is to mirror her. talk and sit and speak and read and eat like her #and its such a terrifying experience bc i remember that im capable of emulating her viciousness and maybe i am my mother's daugher 🤢🤢🤢 #and im going to come back and its going to take fucking months for me to feel like myself again #“oh you look so beautiful just like your mother” i hope you DIE lol !!! the fact that my conception of beauty was shaped by her #growing up with this cruel beautiful detached woman and realising that at the intersection of beauty and wickness is a lifetime of pain #and still being so desperate for her approval- for any metaphysical proximity to her that i felt elated when #people would tell me i look like her. that it meant i was also beautiful like her and maybe she'll love me a little for it #but now i know for a fact that i do look like her and it makes saliva swell under my tongue - that moment right before you throw up- #when people mention it 😍 #last time i was in capetown my optic neuritis flared up (and i know for a fact it was that it was ms-stress related from having to see her) #and i thought i hid it so well even though i had near constant headaches & lethargy until she said “katherine give me the red notebook” #and i knew that she knew all along. it was so acutely humiliating standing there and knowing she knows i cant see which one is the red one #and she tilted her head and said “whats the matter? do you not know what red looks like?” #im never going to have kids. my mother and i read eachother so well it can only mean im never too far removed from becoming her #lol!!!!!!!!!

[b4kuch1n]

tdov was like a week ago already but I just wanna say when I came over to vacation slash help my sworn brother move flat he told me, "ever since you said you wanted to get top surgery I've been thinking about it. it's straight up number two on my bucket list"

#bakuspeech #number one is a house bc obviously. if u can own a house wouldnt u #he was very drunk at that time of the evening. I was not bc I have the constitution of a hot air balloon and any stimulant will blow me up #(relatively new development. france fucked me up big time turns out) #we held hand on his bed for like the whole evening. it was honestly very funny in hindsight but we were extremely earnest in the moment #and Im like. working on this thing as well. I dont got meds or therapy lmao Im bootstrappin here #but yeah early last year his bf offered to get me meds and I... turned it down... I think I was worried abt like. idk. something #but one year past looking back Im fully like that was a stupid move you shouldve gotten meds. youve once again fucked urself baku #but yeah with that kinda realization Ive also come to realized I've somewhat? accepted. that I'm just gonna be. like this #this in light of a number of likely chronic stuff too (hence my balloon-like constitution lmao) and #that's kinda bled into the rest of me without me really noticing #but him bringing that up fully unprompted... kinda jolted me out of it #its just. really incredibly sweet. that someone doesn't want me to settle for what I make do with #and like. preps for that work. just kinda held my hand and told me it's possible to do this actually #I didn't really express how I felt very well in that moment I think my brain is very bad and I process emotions with like a day of delay #but. well. Im thinking abt it Right Now. so yknow thats the kind of impact that had on me lol #not super sure why I wrote all this down here really. I think I just want a good n nice reminder that object permanence is real #and I exist in my friends' life even when Im going insane in a hole by myself #and with the power of friendship we can alter the universe's plan for ourselves and also kill god #that's that. anyways I eat lunch now and then pass out probably. last night was... eventful lmao #but!! very good things on the horizon hopefully. well manifestly we hold hammers and we use them #have a good day lads. let's go out and slay monsters under a highway

[ilovedthestars]

👀 give us another number 18

okay i need to know if you saw bardic's shenanigans and decided to jump on the bandwagon or if you guys just have hilarious timing XD

seriously tho i'm running out of material, this is the LAST ONE

(Fic writer asks)

18. if you keep them, share a deleted sentence or paragraph from a published fic

This is another one from the rest is still unwritten. I had a bit where ART interjected, but decided to cut it to focus on Mensah and MB. This is right after the question of whether MB is staying with ART's crew comes up:

“I wasn’t sure if the offer was still on the table.” ART butted into my feed, and had the courtesy to loop Dr. Mensah in too. You just saved several members of the crew from a potentially fatal situation for the second time, you little idiot. The offer is still on the table. Dr. Mensah raised her eyebrows in my general direction. Okay, maybe I was a little bit of an idiot.

#ask game answers #stars fic #the rest is still unwritten fic #i am enjoying the shenanigans XD even if i should be going to bed now lol #i only have so many published fics and there's only so much interesting material that i cut from them #i don't think there's much else that would be actually interesting to share

[meownotgood]

apologies for not being active... I might not be for a bit longer ... I am..... sick

#I'm so upset I was doing perfectly fine and then my boss came in sick #and guess what now I am sick #I shouldn't be going to work today because I need to rest #buuuut I must... continue on.... #I hope I'll feel better tomorrow or the next day because I have a package filled with akis coming soon.... lol #aki tuck me into bed and take care of me pleaaase #feed me some soup...

[zerodaryls]

@desertthorn wanted to hear me sing and i was home alone for most of the day so i decided to destroy my vocal chords lmaooo. here's some unlisted youtube videos that i just uploaded for anyone interested in hearing my voice:

smoke gets in your eyes (the platters cover - featuring actual video of me singing so you can see all the embarrassing faces i make whilst wailing)

young & beautiful (lana del rey cover - partial bc my voice got tired after the first chorus lmao)

home (michael buble cover - full song)

jealous (nick jonas partial cover - #fail on the high note lmao i can never do the chorus well,, but i also put a pitch-shifted 'chipmunk version' after the regular version so if you want to cringe/laugh at me, have at it)

#and now i shall go to bed and hope that i can still talk when i wake up tomorrow #i had 2 cups of tea with honey lol #i actually sang the nick jonas shit first which is always a mistake because it WRECKS my throat for the rest of the day lmao #i'm keeping these videos as unlisted for now because i don't wanna mess up the organization of my fanvideo channel #but it's not like these are Super Secret Videos lmao i have no shame #i have massive stage fright but i don't mind sharing recordings of myself. i just have to be alone when i actually do the singing. lol #and that is why i will never be a performing artist <3 #my posts

[delta-piscium]

Meddling and forced proximity!!

thank you so so much!!! <3 (also I simply do not understand the concept of 3 sentences, we're ignoring that today)

The dinner isn’t awkward exactly, Steve is just very aware of Eddie and the way he keeps sending him sad looks. Like he has any right to do that when he’s the one who- Steve cuts off that thought, he’s not going there. Not right now. He bounces his leg restlessly and wishes he could go for a run, or go down to the lake and swim to clear his thoughts. But he can’t and he also can't keep ignoring everyone. So, he turns to Joyce, opens his mouth to speak but she beats him to it. “How are things? You seem tense,” her eyebrows furrow as she looks him up and down. Steve should have talked to Hopper instead. This woman is way too perceptive and unlike Hopper completely unwilling to leave things alone.  “I’m good,” he says, managing to sound mostly normal, “just peachy.” He takes a sip of his beer to focus on something else than the way her eyes bore into his soul. How does she look so kind and terrifying at the same time? “Uh-huh,” she says not missing a beat and clearly not buying it, “so what’s happening with you and Eddie?” Steve inhales in surprise and almost chokes on his beer. Coughing and spluttering as it goes down the wrong pipe. “Sorry, what?” He croaks out. “Neither of you are subtle,” she tells him smacking his back so hard he thinks it might do more harm than good. Steve doesn’t know what to say to that. Especially not after his and Eddies last conversation, so he shrugs noncommittally and hopes it's enough of a response.  She doesn't say anything back but keeps looking at him, eyes skeptical. After a while, she seems to come to some conclusion. “Well, you’re in his room while we’re here and kicking you out of yours so you can figure it out then.”  Steve did not know that. No one, not even Eddie, bothered to tell him they’d be sharing a bed for two nights, which is just fantastic.  A day ago he would have been happy about this. Now though? He’s wondering if he can convince Robin to share her twin bed with him, or just let him sleep on her floor.

wip weekend/make me write

#yeah this fic has the one bed trope (eventually) #i actually started this in november and then just have not touched it until this month and im changing a lot but it's better this way and #so!! the problem with wips is if i work on them i just wanna talk about them but like no write only explain the plot #but i am writing so #ill go to bed now and do the rest of the wip asks tomorrow (or maybe next week we'll see) #steves-strapcollection #<- that made me so happy to write lol #ask #steddie #my writing #wip game #tag game #dels steddie thoughts #steve harrington #eddie munson #joyce byers #stranger things

[phoenixiancrystallist]

Month 4, day 7

Just a super quick tutorial tonight, some nice tye-dye as a palette cleanser from the ice cream lol

#the great artscapade of 2024 #art #my art #render #blender render #blender 3d #procedural texture #tye dye #I have spelled that four different ways tonight lol #tye dye; tie dye; tie die; tye die #one of those things where there is no right or wrong way you just spell it with your heart #well #there is a wrong way #it's ti-di #that's the wrongest way to spell it #but now to round everything out I feel the need to spell it the rest of the wrong ways I can think of so I'm sorry for this next tag #ty-dy; ty-di; ti-dy #...look that last one is just tidy with some emphasis it's actually even more incorrect than ti-di #I'm going to bed before I lose more braincells to this XD good night!

[surreal-duck]

hi!! i just wanted to say that ive liked midoyuzu since i was like 14 and its been a few years since then (obviously) but seeing your midoyuzu art now is so!!! its so fulfilling to my past self who had like NO art to go off of, i guess? anyway! your art is super good and i love it so much <3

im glad omg? extremely late to the party but by god i am bringing snacks in here or die trying o7 was pretty baffled the first time finding out more abt their dynamic and looking them up on here to find maybe like two more recent posts and the rest from no sooner than 2017 or so askjdghsjkgdhjks but really THANK YOU!!!!!!!! happy to be of service to your inner 14yo somewhat ;v;

yknow what though the really funny thing is that i wasnt even that into them initially. just remembered that cute interaction at the end of xmas live and thought "huh these two r kinda sweet actually" and that curiosity is always a slippery slope into genuine investment and by god is tripping into it a favorite pastime of mine

#if i had to say tho honestly these two were both the last ones of their units i managed to get attached to properly #yuzuru has definitely become my fav of fine though but my actual rst fav is kanata LOL #also finding out yuzuru likes to draw in general is everything to me you go you funky master artist #cute critter line took me out back w a metal chair why r they so. auhhg #actually my good friend who got me in here Knows i was actually on track to becoming an ibyz liker but then. anvil fell comically on my hea #before i knew it theyve taken over almost every corner of my brain get them out!!!!! get them out!!!!!!!! #and i was already a ryuseitai fan and enjoyed fine casually but oh. oh god im a yuzurup too now arent i goddammit #SORRY THIS BECAME A RAMBLE UM. THANK YOU VERY MUCH! #asks #anonymous #sometimes i forget that their actual interactions probably amount to no more than 6 or 7 times in canon and the rest is just in my head #that and i just think its rather nice for both of their characters to get along!! romantic or platonic #really sweet to see midori so pumped up and passionate about the things he loves and yuzuru getting thrown off his rhythm of the always #perfect butler who resigns himself into the background most of the time. theyre just having fun!!! silly guys #and yuzuru rly does enjoy art and nonsensical doodles even if people generally find it horrifying midori loves them wholeheartedly its. yea #okay im still rambling. ill shut up now i havent slept properly in a bed in nearly 48 hours i should go do that

[crybaby-bkg]

writing a slow burn enemies to lovers fic is. a lot harder. than I had expected.

#it’s why it took me so long to start akdhfkfjf #I’m just not used to writing slow burn!!!! #or enemies to lovers!!! lol #especially since enemies to lovers toes a very thin line #of this being too fast and all at once after a brief makeup #OR they’re too mean in the beginning and it’s like why do u have any attraction to that person at all. #so I’m trying to find the line of hesitant friendship somewhere along the line of that!!!! #even tho I’m only on chap three right now AKDHDKFJFJF #IM SO USED TO RUSHING THIS FEELS SO WEIRD!!!!!! #I’m ready for them to fugg #bc fugg is all I know I fear #but it’s coming along very well and I’m enjoying the writing process so much!!! #only downside is my wrist and back hurting #but trust and believe I’ll be back writing tomorrow ☝🏼 #I’m enjoying this so much it’s so cathartic #I think I’m gonna write about five chapters first before I publish it and then write the rest as I go #I just know I can fall behind bc of school and depression but I’m really liking this so far!!! #also think I might upload on Monday’s or Thursdays??? idk #bc I do school tues/wed and I don’t typically get on my computer on sundays #and I usually go to bed either really late or really early Fridays LOL idk #I’m rambling soooo much I’m just so excited about this!!! OH and j made a banner and I love that too!!!! #—in store chit chat! 🍫

[imwritesometimes]

the last time I was this sick was over a decade ago and my grandma took me to the urgent care and nearly went Lucille Bluth on the dr

#when the dr was like she has the flu go home rest lots of fluids #my grandma was like she has the FLU? GO HOME? LOOK AT HER! IF I HAVE TO BRING HER BACK HERE I'LL FIND YOU! #she almost slapped my mom cause she didn't wanna take me to urgent care #it was a wild fckn day #I had the super flu from hell ×100000 and it took 2 weeks to recover and my grandma was like #ready to kill that dr if I didn't get better #I now once again have the super flu from hell ×10000 and I wish my grandma were here lol she was the best when I was sick #I really hope I'm better this weekend man this has been awful #going from someone who does 10.5 miles on a stationary bike 4-5 times a week #to not being able to get out of bed for more than 10 minutes has been... rough. #and santino is LOSING HIS MIND cause he feels neglected cause I'm not up playing with him and shit like normal #so he is being AWFUL 👿 #god I just wanna get better holy shit #erin explains it all

[skenpiel]

its actuallly supposed to be their right eye but for the sake of the bit.i changed it temporarily

#doodle #zairku edjera #HI i wanted to try out the grub eye thing 2 see how it looked lol #also. im still sick and in complete agony imade this hours ago so im honna try and go back 2 bed #or something. i dunno Everything is shit right now #and 4 some reason whenever i try to lay down to rest my body is like OK THEIR GUARD IS DOWN SEND 10000 SYMPTOMS RIGTH NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #i feel super feverish. but i dont have a fever....? but im sweaty and shivering and weak and frail. but my temperature is normal #WHAT ever. im gonna try n rest naow Wish me luck.............

[seokmashu]

제로즈~~~ 오늘 너무 재밌었어요! 하지만 오늘 너무 덥고 당이 떠러질 수 있으니 이런 달콤한 컵케크 처럼 드세용! 한빙형 처럼 내 컵케이크 귀먹었어요 ㅋㅋㅋ. 이제 푹 쉬고 엄청 많이 사랑해~~ (근데 그건 벌써 알고 있었지?🤭)

Zerose~~~ Today was so much fun! But it was really hot today and your sugar levels could have fallen, so eat something like this sweet cupcake! Like Han Bing hyung who made my cupcake deaf kekeke. Rest well now and I love you so much~~ (But you already knew that, right?🤭)

Seok Matthew Twitter Update 230703 ✧ ZB1_official

#zb1 #zerobaseone #seok matthew #nina creates #nina translates #of course he posted this a minute after i was gonna go to bed 😭 #had to double check that he really said his cupcake went deaf LOL #also not sure if it was a spelling mistake or him doing aegyo but he called him hanbinG hyung which is so cute fjsjdjs #OK NOW I REST FR #if mobile formatting is messed up i fix in the morning

[orcelito]

Made some progress on ITNL 15 editing during some downtime in my shift today. I think the writing juices are through for now, but I made progress, and now I am Even Closer to done...

Gonna try my best to finish writing first thing tomorrow so I can maybe be done with editing about midday. Best case scenario, I could have an update out within... 16 hours? Within 24 hours tho almost definitely.

Soon...

#speculation nation #itnl shit #for now i eat and then i sleep #if im posting after 2 hours from now feel free to yell at me to go to bed lol #gonna try to go to bed earlier than that. but we'll see. #need the rest for the Brain Juices 💪💪💪 #im Determined to get this done tomorrow. Determined!!!!! #really the only reason i wouldnt manage it is if i get called in again :p #gonna hope. crossing fingers that i wont be. #for now. i need to shower 😮‍💨 #ugh hygiene. lmao

[wowshiny]

if i had a nickel for every time a hair stylist recently

1. thought i was a high schooler

2. after realizing i am in fact older, asked what i study(/studied) in college, AND then

3. fell completely silent after i said materials science & engineering

i would have two nickels :,(

(maybe three if i count the last yr or so but definitely two in the past couple weeks sigh)

#plz i am begging ppl to ask me about materialsi love mse so much its so cool and interesting to me #i am dying to talk about it at all times #lemme tell you about what matsci means bc i know its not a very recognized major and i only really learned abt it after coming to college #materials are so cool and i am always thinking abt them now #also i feel like im doing something wrong when i go to hair places then bc i feel like its expected to be holding a conversation?? #but i am unable to and then we just sit/stand there in total silence while the rest of the ppl are chatting away and i am a ball of tension #(tension HAH snuck some materials sciencey stuff in there lolol) #materials in tension hmmmm get it??? tensile testing is so much of basic materials characterization lol #ok ill stop now i should go to bed anyway i just keep thinking abt this #random #personal

[esaari]

happy pride my lovelies 🏳️‍🌈 might draw an oc for the occasion ... maybe

#ramblings #if you have a suggestion feel freeeee tooooo let me know #last year i drew gabe .. i could always do a redraw of sorts to see if i've improved hmmmmmmmmmmmmm #that sounds kinda nice tbh #also life update retail keeps killing me with these 8 hour days #my body is falling apart... pains everywhere. i had to go to bed super early because it was too much lol #but anyway well rested i even cleaned today depression WHO???? #also im planning to make a new oc #a demon to be exact..... #because i talked about creeds bastards now i want to make one #and once again if anyone ever wants to create a character that is creeds bastard feel free #i think that would be hilarious #yehhhee well anyway hope everyone is having a pleasant weekend #im sorry i am so absent but yknow. work and exhaustion and all that