#not really a vent

[itspixthecrazybitch]

I’m not in the mood right now, ask again in 5 minutes when my entire personality does a 360 again

#bpd #actually bpd #funny #bpd joke #bpd meme #bpd feels #bpd stuff #bpd splitting #bpd mood #tw vent #vent #bpd vent #kinda? #not really a vent #borderline personality disorder #actually borderline personality disorder

[leafwateraddict]

Small vent (not really i was just getting a bit existential about the nature of self shipping)

A bit inspired by this post by @robanilla-arts i was thinking about it alot

#i love him #not really a vent #but its close enough #self shipping #sans #sans x self insert #sans x reader #sans x you #sansnomaly #leafs art #yes my character is nakey I didn’t feel like drawing clothes ok- #besides y/n is always nakey lol

[a-small-writer-in-a-big-world]

Sometimes you need to take a shower drink water curl up with a blanket and your emotional support item and tell yourself that it’s all going to be okay

#one of those nights #not really a vent #just stuff catching up with me

[fandomsoda]

The urge to go up to a certain friend and get their attention like a cat brushing against a human’s leg but being too afraid to do so in fear of annoying them

#not really a vent

[stupidscav]

IM GAY AND ANXIOUS:((((

#PLSSSS #MAN:(((( WHY AM I FEELING #let the gay thoughts be not worried....pls.... #let me be gay in peace.anxiety... #ahshshdjdmfmfmf......... #scavs silly misc #not really a vent

[bluegekk0]

I pretty much never use my own art as backgrounds and such. I guess I always felt like it'd come off as a little... I don't know, self absorbed? Besides, I usually end up finding enough mistakes in my art where I know I wouldn't be able to unsee it and it'd bother me. Guess I'm just never fully satisfied with my art.

But I'm so proud of the family game night piece and the recent drawing of Vyrm and Grimm chatting that I decided to break that rule. Both of those drawings bring me a lot of comfort whenever I look at them, and with how much I've been struggling lately I think I need it.

I'm probably overthinking it. I mean, there's nothing wrong with being proud of your work, right? So then why do I always feel shame about that, and think that it makes me seem like a self-absorbed person? I know I love a lot of my own pieces and I think being more open about it could help with my self-esteem issues, but at the same time I feel like it would also make things worse. Cause what's the point of feeling better about your craft if you're constantly battling the fear that people hate you and think you're a terrible and selfish person? Feels like a lose-lose situation sometimes.

#not really a vent #just some thoughts before i head out to bed #guess im treating this place like a personal diary #gekko.txt

[snvffsoda]

i hate how much brain power it takes for me to write headcanons ughhsgahs i wish i could just churn them out but i always overthink them

#not really a vent #just my brain going smooth #expect more soon though! i’ve just been a bit busy as of recent #but seriously #thank you all for enjoying them!! #love you guys #<3 #snvffsoda

[serial-designation-jey]

Tw semi-jealous rant lmao

Okay so yeah i tried out for a solo in choir and am not getting it, i would usually be fine with it and all because its just a solo who cares, but its the fact that my choir teacher is out to get me. She always targets me and yells at me even when im not doing anything wrong. Im among the only like four girls in my class who auditioned and shes giving it ti a girl who is completely tone deaf, i like to think im a decent enough singer to get at least one solo in my life, well two years of auditions for solos, not one. Obviously its no big deal and i normally would give a single shit in the world but with whats been going on in my life lately im teaching a point of insanity 😵‍💫

#sd jey mod speaks #little rant #not a big deal #not really a vent

[darnellthefirestarter]

I just realized I have wasted the entire day doing absolutely nothing but sleeping and watching YouTube.

Honestly now idk what to do, I have nothing else to do with my life

#friday night funkin #pico newgrounds #pico fnf #doodle #random thoughts #not really a vent #just #really confused rn #i have no idea what to do now #ive been laying in my bed all day #i feel horrible rn

[hellscape-halogens]

were y'all normal as children or did you form unhealthy attachments to Creepypasta characters and fantasize about them kidnapping and/or marrying you in a fucked up "I can fix them" Beauty & The Beast scenario

#trauma #childhood trauma #not really a vent #jeff the killer #slenderman #creepypasta #dunking on myself #also dunking on you if you were like this #what was wrong with us

[currently-getting-a-diagnosis]

Love constantly being reminded (by myself) about how I probably will never be able to live on my own completely unsupervised because I can't do simple everyday tasks.

#im just going through it #not really a vent #just tired #and sad #actually autism #autistic problems #autistic black girl #actually autistic #autism #autizzy #autism things #being autistic #jay's tism thoughts

[dorkygurl-89]

i'm trying, i'm trying to give the benefit of the doubt and say that most hazbin hotel criticals disown that one user for leaking shit

it's just........at what point does your 'criticism' turn into actively trying to kill the whole show for everyone?

like genuinely, tell me. how does ANYONE think that's acceptable?

out of all the controversies, this makes me the most pissed cuz now you're just trying to actively bring down the show, jackass. hope you're proud of yourself

and to any criticals that supports this, you can take that critical tag and shove it up your ass cuz now you're just maliciously trying to ruin it for the actual fans

i'm just so tired, y'all

#hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel “criticals” #thanks for trying to ruin this for everyone jackass #not really a vent #i'm just so tired

[lemonbronze]

I feel like art is so hard right now bc

-engagement is down and notes numbers are low

-I lost contact with someone who was really inspiring to me in terms of creativity

-lost my job and have been scrambling to find a new one for the last month

-fe fandom as a whole is kinda quiet rn

All these things SHOULDNT stop me from creating but they still kinda do :(

#not really a vent #just complaining

[fandomsoda]

This is gonna sound wild but I’m tired of growing.

I don’t mean that I don’t want to improve myself or get better as a person but I just wish.. I wasn’t having to change and do that constantly. I wish I could move at a pace that hurts less. I’m tired of climbing the ladder of self-improvement without taking breaks, I need a chance to stop and just… be. Allow myself to live with who I am at the present moment, not who I want to be or who I could be.

I need to be ok with who I am now not because “I’ll get better and I’m getting better!” but simply because.. this is who I am. And I don’t deserve to hate myself and I shouldn’t have to place my own worth on a hypothetical future. I’m tired, my emotional bones and muscles are weary and have been stretched too far and too much in a short period of time.

I want to be loved for who I am now, not in spite of it or in the expectation of change.

I want to have my flaws accepted not because they’ll go away but because flaws are ok to have.

I shouldn’t have to be repaired to be worthy, I’d like to be ok with being broken too.

#text post #not really a vent #just thinking… #I don’t know if this is profound or if I’m just wrong. #Either way I’m tired of caring about which one it is.

[wr-n]

Important Reminder

Okay, some of yall do be getting a bit too comfortable in my inbox so please remember:

Don't beg me to draw your OCs, I don't like it and it makes me very upset (Not to mention how desperate some of these asks come off)

Don't ask me to draw non-undertale related art (this is an undertale blog, not a 'draw my character from another fandom' blog)

If you don't like a ship or pairing I make content for, I'm not begging you to stay (block the ship tag and move on or skedaddle)

If I don't reply to an ask, I either don't intend on answering it or are saving it for later (do not spam my inbox with the same requests)

That is all! This isn't what happens too often but I thought I might as well address it because I do get them and it bothers me a little. I don't usually make posts like these so I hope you all take it seriously!

#its okay to be excited about my blog and interacting with me but mind your manners #not really a vent #just something a few people need to keep in mind before sending me asks #by all means ask about my characters like you have been #its only to those who dont read my pinned post and such #wraith notes #breaking news

[spec-squared]

adderall withdrawal my beloathed

#personal #ignore me #vent #not really a vent #more like a teeny tiny vent