I find it funny how April is my birth month
And everytime april fools comes along, I think
was I the joke all along?
Am I the clown?
The answer is yes >:) I was the clown all along
When you can’t play Spotify Wrapped games with everyone because you used to work at Apple and could only use Apple Music there and now you keep using it because all your precious, precious playlists are permanently imprisoned on there.
having a crush on somebody that you don’t want to have a crush on is so stupid and exhausting because like you’ll just be sitting there staring at them thinking they’re pretty and then you’re like “sTOP IT! NO THEYRE NOT, NOPE” and you start trying to find flaws like “THEY DO THAT— THE THING WITH THE— WHEN THEY— UGH!” because you can barely fucking find anything and you’re just looking at them with both heart eyes and steam coming out of your ears because you’re enamored but also pissed and just thinking like “you better not be a fucking mind reader you beautiful fuck because if you can hear this shit i’m gonna kill you,” ya know? just me? ok.
So I finally got to sit down (virtually since I had to up and leave the state basically overnight almost two months ago) and went over my test results and turns out I’m actually correct when I said that something is off with my brain. I’m definitely ADD borderline ADHD. And I need new antidepressants because the ones I got ain’t cutting it.
But now I either have to get my PCP to go along with this or I have to find and pay a psychiatrist. Ha! 🤦🏽♀️