#no one remembers

[astrid-nomically-steddie]

Just being silly 🤭😋

(If you don't like angst maybe scroll away this is gonna hurt)

Another exhausting day. Another day pretending it never happened.

He sighs and rubs his face viciously, his wire framed glasses moving to his forehead. Steve takes them off and sets them down, feeling suddenly tired of staring at a screen. He slowly blinks to try and form some sort of vision. Without his glasses or contacts it's not much help, all he can see is the blurry shapes and colors of his office.

His leg has been extra persistent in making his life hell (again) today. And his headache is worsening by the minute. He leans back in his chair and starts to spin around, looking up. The lights look and feel like nothing but white and a burning sensation in his retinas. He stops spinning. Steve feels his headache comeback full force since this morning as a way to say how stupid he is for staring at lights.

He takes a moment once he's sure he's facing the office door again. His hands are holding onto his desk for dear life while he waits for the throbbing to tone down. He takes a few breaths and puts his glasses back on. Steve just stares at his door waiting for his vision to fully come back. Once it does he listens for sounds of anything, just in case.

When he hears nothing he sighs again and checks his watch.

11:43 p.m.

Another late night at the school. Steve feels like his brain is about to explode with how much more work he still has. He hates re-emailing people. Don't get him wrong, he loves his job, loves the kids and gets along with the teachers. Except for Eddie of course. But who can blame him. He doesn't remember.

That breaks it for Steve. Tears start trailing down his cheeks and he feels his face getting hot.

He doesn't remember... none of them do...

He holds his head in his hands as he full on sobs into them. Feeling everything he's been wanting- needing to forget coming back full force. The pain, the horror, the trauma that they promised they'd never had to remember again. It started two months ago, when he woke up from a nightmare of a demogorgon chasing him. That's when he remembered.

All of it.

The demodogs (he still can't believe he's calling them that now), the tunnels, the Russians, the forth of July, Billy dying, Vecna, the four chimes, the bats, Nancy, Robin, Eddie... how he fell in love with all of them. How his love for Eddie was the only thing that kept him going. He didn't know it then but now that he's accepted himself, he realizes that he was in love with Eddie Munson. He loved him so much he went back even when Dustin himself said it was ok. That he was dead. Steve chose not to believe it. And he was right because he saved him. Because he's alive. Right now. Eddie is alive.

Because of Steve. Because he chose to go back.

But he also chose to forget.

To forget everything. The good and the bad. Mostly the bad. They all knew what they were commiting to when they signed the contract. To forget all of this ever happened. To pretend and live life like normal.

But how could he? When Eddie is still here. When he's walking the halls of his school and smiling at the kids. Caring for them like he did the party. How can Steve choose to forget Eddie's smile. His laugh. His gorgeous face. The way he loved him so deeply it almost hurt. Almost.

Because it didn't hurt. Because he didn't remember. He didn't want to. Past Steve didn't want to remember. He wanted all of it gone. Even Robin...

Poor sweet Robin. His soulmate. The one he was bound to by the cosmos. He chose to leave her. To let her live alone. By herself. How can he pretend when Robin is by herself? When she needs him? Except she doesn't...

Because she doesn't remember. She didn't want to remember. She wanted to forget. Forget Steve. Forget the upside down. Forget everything. But how can he blame her for leaving him? How can he blame anyone?

He doesn't. He doesn't blame them. Can't blame them. He wanted to forget too. But the nightmares and the scars and the hearing aids and the glasses and his fucking metal leg won't forget. His body won't forget. It won't let him.

So he's stuck. Stuck wanting to reach out. Wanting to find them. Wanting Eddie. Wanting Robin. But he just can't put them back in this mess. Not when they chose this. Not when they want to live in peace. And who is he to disturb that? Because his body wanted him to remember so everyone else has to too? No. No way is he forcing them again.

So he doesn't.

He watches. Watches Eddie. Walk past him with a polite smile. An indifferent smile. The smile you give to random people on the street. The smile that makes his heart break into a million pieces.

He doesn't remember. None of them do.

He misses Robin. Misses the way she'd hit him whenever he said a bad joke. Misses the small amused smile everytime he did. Misses the way she'd make fun of him and his lack of charm. Misses the way she used to cling to him. Misses the way she used to love him. She used to know him.

Used to.

He wishes she was here. Wishes she remembered. Wishes everything went back to normal. Wishes they never signed anything.

But she's not. And she doesn't remember. And nothing is normal. And they did sign it. Signed away their lives. Signed away memories. Signed away everything that made him happy. Signed away Dustin. Signed away Lucas. Signed away Max. Signed away El. Signed away Will. Signed away Mike. Signed away Erica. Signed away Joyce. Signed away Hopper. Signed away Johnathan . Signed away Nancy. Signed away Robin.

Signed away eddie... signed away any hope in ever being more than what they were. Signed away love. And family. And support.

He signed away everything.

He wished away his life.

And he'll never take it back. Never be able to. He'll never get Dustin back. Or the party. Or Joyce. Or Hopper. Or Robin. Or Eddie.

All he'll have is faded memories and a strangers smile. A strangers smile that breaks his heart. That tears his torn heart into even more pathetic shreds.

They won't remember.

Thank you so much for reading!!!! Just an idea I got. If you have any more ideas or things I can add that'd be great! <333

#stranger things #steddie #steve harrington #stobin #platonic stobin #angst no comfort #steve x eddie #eddie munson #steve harrington is broken #hurt steve harrington #disabled steve harrington #dedicated to my platonic soulmate fern i love you and also your very welcom for the angst #astrid nomically steddie #no one remembers #and steve is hurting

[lemonmatronics]

Be furious.

Be absolutely enraged.

Images put together by wearthepeace on Instagram, found them here

#speak for the ones that weren’t allowed to breathe #free gaza #free palestine #current events #palestine information #support palestine #remember their names #from the river to the sea palestine will be free #pro palestine

[toskarin]

oh I didn't realize you used to be a huge piece of shit

[bixels]

There's no such thing as overpreparing for love.

Happy (late) Rarijack Valentine's.

#mlp #rarity #applejack #rarijack #my art #fanart #comic #the grand galloping 20s #bonbon #rose #my little pony #aj is 100% the type to overthink/overdo things especially for people she cares about #panics because she starts second guessing her valentines plans for rarity so she buys out the entire flower boutique cuz she can't remember #her favorite flower. “ten boxes of chocolates is better than one right???” meanwhile rarity gives extremely thoughtful handmade gifts

[cursedgamerchild]

"internet historian's alt-right anyways" "great day to have never liked james somerton" "never even heard of illuminaughtii before this lol"

that's great buddy but don't go around thinking you're immune to this. if you're not looking for plagiarism, you likely won't notice it unless its egregiously obvious. hell, you've probably consumed plagiarized content without even realizing it. even hbomb pointed out that these people disguised what they presented pretty well as long as you didn't try and dig deeper. don't come away just thinking of this as a callout piece, take this as an important lesson about vetting your sources. if googling scripts in quotes was enough to expose the original, we should all start doing that shit!!

edit: it got a little too doomer-y a little too fast so one quick addition

this is hbomb's curated playlist of queer creators, many of whom were victims of plagiarism

this is producer kat on reddit calling for any more plagiarism discoveries and for queer content creators to be uplifted

please take some time to uplift these creators and recommend any you know! if you can help uncover more of the original creators whose work was lifted that would be great too :)

UPDATE- From Hbomb's twitter: "We're in the process of cataloguing everyone James Somerton plagiarised and finding their contact information. Which is quite a task, so to help us out: If you see this and happen to be one of the people Somerton stole from, please email us at [email protected]"

edit 2:

#hbomberguy #james somerton #illuminaughtii #internet historian #vice #ign etc have had issues with plaigarism before #this isnt just some youtuber scandal remember #even books can fall victim to this #kaz rowe's history vids exemplify this pretty well #i'd recommend the triboulet ass slapping myth one if you want a good breakdown #and somerton absolutely had problems with the way he discussed foreign media and anyone that wasnt a cis gay man #but considering most of his ideas werent his own that doesnt dismiss the original authors' work keep in mind

[aesrot]

shout out to people who's family isnt entirely bad or entirely good, but something in between and you dont know how to feel about them. you feel angry but you also feel guilty, because you know they genuinely love and care about you, but sometimes they show it in a way you know its not okay. your feelings are valid, your anger and sadness and grief are valid, and you dont have to prove this to no one. bigger shout out to those with memory issues who know something isnt right but can't recall all of the bad events, only the feelings, which only increases the guilt.

#lua talks #this is actually for myself #its easy to feel like i've been overreacting. specially when i cant remember why im upset with them #is this a vent post? it doesnt feel like one but maybe?

[jooqlz]

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#kabumisu #sketch #my art #kabru #mithrun #dungeon meshi #He doesn't remember Kabru's name and they're the ones who told him to call him babygirl

[o0kawaii0o]

raiding the fridge AGAIN

#last one of the OP shenanigans for now #I remember sanji asking nami multiple times for a lock for the fridge (and then finally getting it when they got the sunny) #btw every time I look up sanji's pre timeskip's model sheet for ref I SWOON #the design is just so charming #one piece #monkey d luffy #luffy #sanji #op #o0kawaii0o

[payasita]

being a manager sucks balls half the time but the cashier kids im in charge of trust me enough to dick around in front of me so ive been keeping a running list of the shit they say that makes me laugh randomly: -"guys, is it cheating if you play fortnite with your ex" [4 seperate others, immediately]: "YES" -"there must be like… infinite sentences" -"bro what bro what the fuck bro what's that mean bro why'd you say that bro what" <distraught response to a girl randomly greeting him with 'hey there big boy' in an old timey transatlantic news reporter accent

#personal #text #gonna miss these kids lol #theres more i cant remember rn but i swear to god some of them do it just to make me crack up when im the only one in charge #infinite sentences kid and bro what the fuck kid are the same kid #he could not give less of a shit about this job it's so fucking funny

[whateveriscatchy]

x

#what the fuck #WHAT THE FUCK?? #how come no one in my family remembers #? #i have such a distinct memory of my dad having this thing and yet #AND YET #no one remembers #they keep asking me #are you sure its not this or that #NO IM SURR

[skeleton-squid-boy]

you have GOT to remember when watching the new doctor who that the question is not is this good. doctor who is only ever actually 'good' once a season at most. THE ONLY QUESTION IS is it fun, camp, and has aliens. also remember the worst doctor who showrunner is always the current doctor who showrunner. now go watch the new episodes as god intended like you're ten years old and still remember how to experience joy and whimsy.

#i am saying this to myself because i havent been able to watch them yet #and i need to remember the core values of dr who before i watch it #i REFUSE to be one of those people that cant enjoy it because its changed #or because its too rubbish #as if thats stopped me loving 90% of the rest of dw #doctor who #fifteenth doctor #ncuti gatwa #space babies #dr who #dw #🌌 #squids bullshit

[july-19th-club]

seriously have been thinking about this all night long. call me autistic but the fact that 90% of workplaces the point is not to get your work done and then be done doing it but to instead perform an elaborate social dance in which you find something to do even when you're done doing everything you need to do in order to show your fellow workers that you, too, are Working . because you are at Work . disgusting why cant we all agree that if there is no work immediately to be done. we just dont do anything

#i personally like to not be doing things constantly at all times. it stresses me out #i know there are ppl who thrive on cosntant activity #but me i like to chill out. #and the problem then becomes that i only ACTIVELY remember to do work and Find More Work To Do when im stressed #at the thought that others might want to see me working #if im ever relaxed i just dont look for stuff to do #catch 22 of modern work culture which permeates even ostensibly noncapitalist structures like public libraries #for instance: will it really kill anybody if the books get shelved by me now after a very busy day? #or shelved tomorrow morning by. well probably me since i'll be the one at the desk #not in the slightest #but it was work that wasnt being immediately done by me. therefore it was incorrect behavior #that i failed to identify because my instinct is to relax when not immediately presented with a Situation #this got me labeled as 'having no initiative' by my dad from a very early age #and even as an adult i still feel like im a child with no initiative

[ra3kiv]

#my art #art #digital art #digital drawing #oc #original character #original character art #art tag #just remember i havent posted this drawing here yet...im kinda proud of this one so ill share haha #teeth #scopophobia

[lotus-pear]

soukoku as one of my dearest renaissance paintings

#instead of paying attention to the lectures in ap art history i just look at the paintings my teacher puts on the slides #and decide which ones fit my fictional pairings #i wish i remembered this one i think it was by bernini but i'm not 100% :(((((( #sighhh i'll go check again if anybody wants the og #i listened to luminary by joel sunny while painting this and the vibes were ethereal i felt like i was ascending #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd #dazai osamu #osamu dazai #nakahara chuuya #chuuya nakahara #soukoku #skk #lotus draws

[ultravioletness]

I’ve been making gay knights (and ladies) collages on my phone at work

(Part two)

#gay knights #knight x knight #knightcore #medievalcore #pre raphaelite #john william waterhouse #haz asked me to post them #these are in the order that I made them and it’s not even all of them…. #I’ve been having feelings.. about knights and all of that #i can’t tag all the painters I don’t remember them all #the app I used is the one in the watermark #for all your phone background needs #that was my initial goal and then it spiraled out of control #hold on let me add some more silly tags

[ink-the-artist]

Video game I saw in a dream. It was in this low poly style like an older video game. You play as this character I think was meant to be a lamb, or maybe a weird mix of a lamb a mouse and a rabbit, (while not really looking like any of those things) and you’re running away from a wolf. Your objective is to last as long as possible before the wolf catches and eats you.

The house you’re running in is endless and bizarrely put together like most building interiors in dreams are (like the infinite toilet dream dimension on Reddit lol) the layout of the house is pretty detailed, you can stop and hide in places like closets or bins while the wolf looks for you, you can go up and down stairs and into rooms etc.

You never actually know where the wolf is or how close it is to you until it appears in your line of sight, it makes no noise and the game gives you no way of knowing where it is, and it’s pretty unpredictable it doesnt move at a consistent pace. When the wolf catches you there’s an animation showing it eating your character

#the actual animation of the wolf eating your character wasnt scary he kind of just cartoonishly swallows the character whole lol #the scary part is being pursued by him and never knowing how close he is #i remember being surprised when i first saw the game bc it was presented to me as #a fun addictive sort of game kinda like a mobile app game #and then i see it and its a horror game and the creators are just completely oblivious to it lmao #dream art #<- thats my tag for all my dream-inspired art #art #gif #photomanipulation #digital art #liminal #weirdcore #used a mix of ai photos and regular photos for this one #the ai stuff is sooooo good for recreating what a dream looks and feels like #but i didnt use it too much bc i wasnt able to get the specific photos i wanted :/ #hmmmm this is vore isn’t it