#my word choice is deliberate

[skillfulway]

It's night, and you've finally made it back home

#dimension 20 #neverafter #d20edit #dimension20edit #neverafteredit #I just loved Emily's deliberate word choice #she's the spooky one here and i love her for it #d20 spoilers #neverafter spoilers #d20 #my edit

[montanabohemian]

since i'm back in my stucky feels, i just need to know why they chose "it's been a long long time" to reintroduce bucky to steve. i mean what in the actual fuck were they thinking if they didn't want us to be absolutely unhinged about them?

#HAVE YOU EVEN LISTENED TO THE LYRICS???? #THEY MAKE ME INSANE #'NEVER THOUGHT THAT YOU WOULD BE / STANDING HERE SO CLOSE TO ME' #'THERE'S SO MUCH I FEEL THAT I SHOULD SAY / BUT WORDS CAN WAIT UNTIL SOME OTHER DAY' #'HAVEN'T FELT LIKE THIS MY DEAR / SINCE I CAN'T REMEMBER WHEN' #'YOU'LL NEVER KNOW HOW MANY DREAMS / I'VE DREAMED ABOUT YOU / OR JUST HOW EMPTY THEY ALL SEEMED WITHOUT YOU' #anyway #ANYWAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY #i mean it's been what? ten years? whenever that fucking movie came out #AND I STILL THINK ABOUT WHAT A DELIBERATE CHOICE THAT SONG WAS #fuck meeeeeeeeeeeeeeee #anYWAYyyyy #stucky #captain america #marvel #steve x bucky #bucky barnes #steve rogers #catws

[fucklestat]

#'fuckable' is a deliberate word choice btw bc for me 'sexiest moments' would be a different list #albeit with some overlap but #i'm not talking 'oh he's hot' i'm talking 'i need to bend this motherfucker over and shove my fingers in his mouth to shut him up and #oh i ran out of characters. thank god

[pookiebearsnookumsalicent]

If there's one thing that many people are split on it's Blood and Cheese(and just about everything else bc herd-mentality is a plague nowadays🙄)

Some people say it's fair because "an eye for an eye, a son for a son". Some people think it was a political move. Some people think it was an attack on Helaena in specific and some people are just confused abt it.

First off, Blood and Cheese was not actually personal for the Blacks in the way Lucerys' murder was for Aemond. Aemond killed Lucerys because he was psychotic and wanted revenge for his eye. If Blood and Cheese were personal, it would attack Aemond, not Aegon and Helaena.

Now, with this established you may think it was a political move, but it wasn't. If it was, it was incredibly stupid. Some people think Daemon had Aegon's son killed to get rid of his heir, but Daemon likely didn't specify which son he wanted dead. Not to mention that Aegon had more than one son and therefore more than one heir. Daemon didn't ask for the murder of both of Aegon's heirs.

Then, people say that it's revenge for the feast/banquet thingy Aegon held for his brother after he killed Lucerys, but there is nothing that implies this in the books.

I think that Blood and Cheese simply happened to push Aegon and Helaena's characters in the direction GRRM wanted.

The murder of Jaehaerys incapacitated Helaena and one of the Green dragons. Helaena was one of the least developed characters from either faction. For her character, that was the only purpose of B&C. To essentially sideline her.

As for Aegon, B&C was the first personal blow he received from the Blacks. Before the murder of his son, the war and the succession wasn't anything he had any real interest in. To him, he was crowned by his family for x, y, & z reasons. Rhaenyra was dangerous, she was gonna kill them all, etc. He didn't have any actual conviction. Then, his oldest son is dead at the hands of Rhaenyra's faction. He won't let the war end with an agreement. He needs to win and it'll have to end with blood.

Luke's death was similar to this with the exception that his murder was personal and since Rhaenyra was afraid of kinslaying, it served mostly to break her and push her into a full war that she needed to win one way or another. Another difference is that the war was personal for Rhaenyra from the very beginning since she was Viserys' lawful heir and had therefore been usurped by the Greens.

TLDR: B&C was a plot device to push the characters in the direction GRRM wanted.

#i also always see ppl say that all b&c did to aegon was wound his ego #but word choice is very deliberate in writing and to quote f&b “in his grief and fury” #anyways yeah it was a plot device #this is my interpretation from a WRITING perspective #team green #jaehaerys targaryen #aegon ii targaryen #blood and cheese #hotd #fire & blood #on another hand killing the rat catchers like that was vile #grieving doesnt excuse shitty ruling on either side #that was not okay pooks🙅‍♀️

[melancholic-pigeon]

Civilian casualties are bad, regardless of the ethnicity of the civilians.

#this is a thought experiment #I want to see if people are capable of saying this without trying to find an exception #and I am being extremely deliberate in my word choices here on purpose #if you follow me you know why

[huayno]

the most problematic thing about lolita is that it glorifies the contiguous united states road trip

#deliberate cheekiness in my word choice here

[spiribia]

😀

#talks #disco elysium spoilers #in my play through I didn’t get klaasje to inculpate ruby and the other dialogue choice here was worded specifically like ‘your girlfriend’ #ratted you out. but when I saw someone else’s where klaasje #did spin her elaborate Ruby Scary Woman Liker yarn you actually only get dialogue options that are like #’your friend’ ratted you out. #like deliberately. huh. I need to re investigate.

[iron-sides]

been thinking lately about what kind of parent i think bruce is. and i think the thing is. i dont necessarily interpret him as deliberately going out of his way to hurt his kids, right? i think its just a matter of priorities and that they arent that high on his list. gotham will always come first, then the mission, then his morals, then the kids' wellbeing. and i think part of that is that-- because of robin-- he never really sees or treats them like kids.

they are his partners, and that makes them soldiers to him first, people second. he is their field commander before he is their father and thats why its okay to him to lie to them and to hit dick and to fuck them up psychologically. because it is for the good of the mission. because they arent his kids theyre his men. he'll take care of them but in the way a captain takes care of his soldiers. he doesnt want them to be injured not because he hates to see them hurt but because it takes them off the field. he sees gotham as a warzone and in batmans eyes (because bruce wayne hasn't been more than a vehicle for batman since that fateful night) nothing can take priority.

i think thats in large part why he struggles so much as they grow up. if they're growing into adults that means at one point they weren't adults. which means they were children. which means he should never have allowed them on the field. i do find it fascinating that the only child who he was present for their growing out of robin was dick. jason was with the league, and when tim gave up the mantle he was presumed dead. steph never got along as well with him as robin because she was no child and therefore did not take orders like one: she had already reached the point where things begin to go wrong.

i dunno this is all conjecture but i do find this to be his problem. it's not that he doesn't care because he does! he does! but because alfred was never truly a father to him he doesnt know how to be a father, only an army general.

#my thots #bruce wayne neg #idk how to tag this so im not going to #anti-batman #idk i think a lot of his actions and choices make more sense if he sees gotham as a warzone himself as the general and the kids as his #soldiers #and i use the word men deliberately and gender-neutrally btw! #its a whole other post but i think theres a lot to be said for his characterization wrt batgirl and this 'army' thing #i definitely think duke cass and babs dodged a massive bullet tho by not being robin formally #i mean duke was robin in the sense of like we are robin but. you know #bc i think this is very amplified by how closely batman and robin work together #and this is SO interrelated to my opinion that cass or helena would both be better at being batman. bc they dont do this shit #i also think this is tied to his trend of being far more violent when he doesnt have a robin? #like i think that since to him its a warzone. he feels justified in using whatever means necessary to 'ensure he gets home' #nevermind his armor superior weapons and superior skill #i do think it's impossible to read batman as anything other than a metaphor for police violence. well i mean you could but i don't #there's def a conversation to be had regarding hood v batman and similarity to cops but i think batman resembles one far more than hood #even if hood does kill people he doesn't do it the way cops do #but batmans violence without an emotional support child to hold him back.... well. #anyway that's a whole other post lol

[dinitride-art]

My artistic rendition (I literally just traced over it lol) of the whiteboard.

It’s definitely colour coded. All the episode titles/markers/organizers at the top are written in black, same as the dividing lines. The other colours, which are in the marker tray on the whiteboard are: red, purple, green, black and red(but different). I can’t tell at the moment it that’s black or blue, but it doesn’t matter because both are on the board.

Looking over at colour theory, blue is mike, green in byler, red or purple might be El. Also, different red could also be Max. Hard to say what’s happening though, but it does seem relatively well separated and blocked out, so I don’t think it’s just everyone in the e room having a different colour to write with.

Anyways, eight episodes, four plot lines and a lot of weird choices in relation to colour.

Line 1: the most put together and organized. Red (different), red (different), red, red, black and red split, purple, red and black split, purple and blue split.

Line 2: red (different), red (different), blue, blue and red split, black + purple + red mess, red and indiscernible, purple, red.

Line 3: black, red (different), black/ or blue and red and black, purple, red and purple split, purple, purple and green, black and green.

Line 4: red (different), black, red and green split, blue, red, purple, green, purple.

It looks like Episodes 1 and 2 might be very general and all around focused. And then it gets into specifics.

But idk, it’s a funky white board.

#stranger things #byler #my art #lol #but it does seem like it might be colour coded #it’s just very deliberate in its choices #so #idk #it’s just neat #I don’t need words #I only need colour and lighting and I’m set #gridgate #should have guessed this was the tag

[vermillioncrown]

Not very familiar with knb but it seemed to be a lot of self loathing for me? Like if you asked Kuroko if Kagami would do something so cruel to Miho and just drop her for maximum psychological damage he'd be all WTF NO HOW DARE. He knows Kagami is a kind person who cares for his team, but he's seen his old teammates change too. And specifically with him, he believes Kagami will help any of their teammates regardless of talent and will help them mentally, iirc Kagami has also been training up the other first years and helping them keep their heads cool, but their mental weaknesses are things like nerves and insecurity. If the other first members struggle Kagami will help but Kuroko will obviously be swept out with the trash if he can't keep up.

Kuroko loves basketball, and a large part of that love is about team play and being with his friends, and then the Teiko disaster happened. So it seems to me(based on the wiki and bil) he made like a detailed plan for things to Go Right this time, how to be a better shadow, but he couldn't be sure how long it would take to find and train a proper light. He was determined of course, the darker the shadow the brighter the light but he must have been aware that it might take a bit to create the right dynamic. And then Kagami showed up and was obviously perfect for the role. But Kagami rejects the whole thing but doesn't reject him, Kuroko's worth is not based on how useful he is, he's more than just a shadow or phantom. So right off the bat Kuroko gets not only the exact kind of player he needed to be paired with to defeat the Miracles and make Seirin number one, but also that kind of closeness and acknowledgment and teamwork that he craves without having to prove himself first. If Kuroko doesn't know what he did to be worthy of this, then how can he know what missteps will make him unworthy? Boy seems like he has a desperate need to be useful at all times, and he is scrambling to try to be as useful to Kagami as possible, both as a player and as a person, but if he can't fully embrace Ball Is Life, will that outweigh his usefulness, make him more troubme than he's worth? He's miserable at the thought of losing Kagami and being distant from the rest of Seirin, but he can't let go of his former teammates either.

From a cold logic standpoint, even though Kagami obviously doesn't care for the Miracle bullshit, he still treats Kise and Midorima kindly despite not as nearly a close of a relationship as he does with Kuroko. Kagami bitches and moans but he genuinely helps Kise and Midorima and is willing to banter, and eventually the whole circus will be in his living room. But you can't just outlogic trauma.

A+, full marks

notes of appreciation:

you went into the wiki and looked things up

references to in-fic events and behaviors

understanding of tendency to allow injustice onto self vs others

you can't outlogic trauma

the need to feel useful as a metric of self-worth

low self-esteem and feeling unworthy of kindness, plus being comfortable in discomfort

#inquiry #Anonymous #on bil #we're done here i think #kuroko pov discussion has exceeded the chapter word count #and that's not including my responses #also thanks for recognizing that si!kagami is very conscientious in how he outwardly treats the clowns #you get to see in his head. he's safe in there thus he can bitch and moan all he wants #but it's about what he chooses to do outwardly #he thinks they are rude and annoying but it's a deliberate choice to not be mean to them #petty? sure. but not mean. #^you know what? it's the same way everyone went on about zhou le for his pov #the same grace extended to other characters wasn't so in his case #just because he thinks how he thinks? are we catholic here? #thoughts are thoughts actions are actions

[ace-with--a-mace]

on another note im so fuckin miserable

#my bday js coming up and i was so excited to actually be able to do shit with mt friends #i never liked big parties or attentjon so i wanted to watch the fnaf movie w some friends and cut cake then go home #my aunt has been askin me forever wht i wanna do for my bday and my mom kept saying we're not celebrating- #-and that im lucky if i even get ppl saying the words 'happy bday' the day of. so. #and THEN she tells me we're goin out of state to do shit SHE wants to do on MY day and doesnr give me a choice #and deliberately picks shit that nobody wants to do and j know wjll make others miserable. so. #and THEN the only silver lining was i get to do my hair how i wanna and shes saying no im getting my hair straightened #which i hate because the heat and the smell and havinf a rando touch my hair is too much for me i literally cry in the chair #plus my hair has heat damage so i wanna avoid heat and she knows that but she doesnt care #she thinks just cuz she had a kid that she doesn't even ljke she can live through me. cancelinf my bday #im mentally preparing for the worse but i was so excited im like mourning the loss of whay could've been a half decenr day. but oh well #l speaks #shut up l #ranting in the tags because i can #hell is being a teenage girl born to black immigrant parents and being the eldest daughter of an eldest daughter

[fuckingwhateverdude]

haikus, part 1

#currently reading a book of haikus and vibing w it #it makes me slow down and be v deliberate w word choice which is good practice n shit #my writing #my writing tag #poetry #haiku poem #haiku #spilled ink #original poem #micropoetry #haiku form

[nimblermortal]

Fine we can talk about the English

So. King Knut (Canute) was ruling in England, at least the York area. He conquered him some Denmark. He conquered him some Norway too, and drove Olaf and son Magnus to outlawry. Olaf made a bid to reclaim his kingdom, failed. Knut installed his sons as kings in England, Denmark, and Norway, and, being an old man, promptly died. (Charles take note.)

So in England, Knut's son Harald takes over, but then he dies and Knut's next son Hortha-Knut comes back from Scandinavia to rule, and he sticks around for a few years. Long enough for Magnus Olafsson to come back from Kiev and retake his country, and make a deal with Hortha-Knut that they are such good buddies that if one of them dies without a male heir, the other will inherit.

Ynglings are. Very accustomed to sharing crowns, I have discovered.

So Hortha-Knut dies. Magnus is a bit busy with this dude Svein who keeps trying to conquer Denmark on the grounds that Magnus gave it to him as jarl and who cares if Svein declares himself king and independent, it's his now, don't you know who his father is?? Anyway Edward (Eadward) takes over in England.

Magnus gets shut of Svein, finally, largely by inspiring his army with stories of how Svein's daddy might be a king but Magnus's daddy is a saint, and God is on their side, the daddy of all daddies. So once he's feeling confident in his hold over Norway and Denmark, he sends a message back to England all, "Hey, remember this deal I had with Hortha-Knut?"

And Eadward, that badass pushover, sends a message back, saying, "Look. My dad was king of England, and I was well. When he died my eldest brother Eadmund was king, and I was well. After him my stepfather Knut ruled England, and I was well. And when he died my brother Harald ruled, and I was well. And when he died my brother Hortha-Knut ruled, and I stood by, and all was well, but let me remind you that I yet of the brothers had no kingdom to govern.

"So now you want to come over here and declare yourself king? Let me just say, over my dead body.

"And I will make it easy for you. If you come, I will not raise an army, you can march right in. But you will very much have to kill me with your own hands."

Which Magnus abstains to do.

#it's a very Much Adooooo sort of a message #one woman is fair yet I am well #that she raised me I likewise give her most humble praise #but that I WILL RAISE MY BUGLE --- #Norsebinge #icy sagas #while I'm at it: my word choice in that last line is a deliberate reference to Donne's “Woman's Constancy”

[hazuneji]

every other week or so im struck with the powerful urge to become an editor on the limbus wiki. its been an uphill battle every time i see smth that i know and isnt on there or that could be fixed. but holy shit would i never do anything else

#i cant imagine how much context i could glean if i knew korean btw #in japanese they tend to have a lot more distinct dialogue quirks so its easier to tell who writes the flavor texts #(i am in camp 'every single description comes from a character') #and also the amount of Theory you can get from comparing what lines stay the same in each language. or comparing nuances in word choice #so many of my thoughts are wondering which parts of each translation were truest to the original text #like. in english theyre 'sinners' but in japanese they're 'prisoners' #in korean is it a word that means both? or maybe there's a specific connotation they're going for? #japanese has a regular ol' word for 'sinner' too it's very much deliberate methinks. were i a stronger man id be picking up the duolingo #anyways can you tell its my first day back on the adderall #tumblrs lucky i usually dump this on the discord friends the blog would be flooded #nightmare nightmare nightmare #post edit just something interesting but did you know in the bull observation logs one of the lines is pretty clearly rodya in japanese #but the english version of the line is almost certainly heath #weird innit #edit 2: theres a couple more instances of this (albeit less apparent) which is leading me to think that in the original texts #rodya and heath have similar dialects and the translators went with one or the other. interesting to consider the distinction between #a deliberate translation choice and simply separate people making their own interpretations. much to consider

[shcherbatskya]

Brutus, having lost Portia as well as Caesar by terrible and violent death, has feared the loss of Cassius, too. If Cassius be indeed a "hot friend cooling" then Brutus stands loveless and alone on the brink of his abyss. Brutus, the killer of love, now begins to understand that like Cassius he cannot live without it. Stretching out his hand for reassurance and succour, he finds that Cassius grasps it eagerly as ever. Saved from the abyss, he buries himself in that bowl which represents their need for each other. So their story moves to its tragic resolution. The love that now ennobles them is also their doom. In Plutarch it is Cassius's advisers who overcome his resistance to the fatal march to Philippi (Brutus, p. 139), in Shakespeare it is Cassius's own deliberate surrender to Brutus. the Defeat and death are, to Cassius, preferable to any further chance of estrangement. They must be either 'lovers in peace' or die together: thus Cassius obtains from Brutus an assurance that he will choose a Roman death, rather than 'go bound to Rome'.

#i’m literally going to be sick. the love that ennobles them is also their doom…… #ALSO i know you’d think me crazy for this but the word choice of deliberate surrender and bow his head and sacrifice himself to #are all. like i don’t know you really could apply them to ancient roman views of gay sex. i thjnk it’s partially my own reading of it but. #you know what i think it’s there. maybe not deliberately but it’s ithere. #samael speaks #rome posting #lit tag

[hms-no-fun]

Have you listened to any of the podcast “Homestuck Made This World”?

i have not! i've got friends who like it and recommend it, but as the former cohost of a now-defunct homestuck podcast (rip pgenpod) that was essentially destroyed by the fandom, i have a bit of a hard time engaging with other people's deep dives. especially when they're, you know, not trans women. which isn't a dig at the hosts of HMTW, but it's tough not to look at their project and feel at least a hint of bitterness.

if nothing else, i'm glad someone is out there talking about homestuck the web comic. not enough people doing that these days

#homestuck #yes i know there are other homestuck podcasts and projects #i am being very deliberate in my choice of words here #tavros is still a chaser #sarahposts